Hello, guys!
What are you doing here?
We're having a picnic here!
What do you have here?
一次又一次对我残忍地施加压力 over and over by the cruel cervix of my mother, Leslie.
我顽强地抵抗了 却终敌不过大自然 I put up a good fight, but I lost,
这是我人生第一次败仗 之后更是节节败退 for the first time, but not the last.
我出生于911事件发生的第三天 I was born three days after 9/11.
我听到了 我理解大家 I can hear you... I can hear you,
世人都听到你们的心声了 the rest of the world hears you,
而本次恐怖袭击的幕后黑手 and the people who knocked these buildings down
也很快会被绳之于法 will hear all of us soon.
美帝万岁 美帝万岁 USA! USA! USA!
我父母在医院里待了两天 My mother and father spent two days in the hospital,
抱着我收看电视新闻 holding me under the soft glow of the television,
反复看着双子塔倒塌的画面 watching those towers fall over and over again,
直到悲愤渐渐被麻木取代 until the feelings of grief gave way to numbness.
然后 一点准备也没有 And then, without warning,
我就过上美国中产阶级的郊区生活了 a middle-class childhood in an American suburb.
十三 十四 Thirteen... fourteen...
十五 十六 fifteen... sixteen...
-你看什么呢 小茹 -十七 - What are you looking at, Rue? - Seventeen...
小茹 看着我 Rue, look at me.
-一二三 -你干什么呢 小茹 - One, two, three... - What are you doing, Rue?
初步诊断是 她有强迫症 I'd say she's suffering from obsessive compulsive disorder...
我倒是没被家暴过 It's not like I was physically abused...
多动症 Attention deficit disorder...
也不是没有净水饮用 Or had a shortage of clean water...
焦虑症 General anxiety disorder...
也没被家人性侵过 Or was molested by a family member.
也许还有躁郁症 And possibly bipolar disorder.
但她还小 不好断定 But she's a little young to tell.
来给我解释一下吧 So, explain this shit to me.
宝贝 你的大脑天生就这样 Honey, it's just the way your brain was hardwired.
很多卓越 智慧超群之人 Plenty of great, intelligent,
风趣 创意非凡之人 funny, interesting, and creative people
都有你这种病 have struggled with the same things you struggle with.
比如谁啊 Like who?
梵高[开枪自杀]Vincent Van Gogh.
西尔维娅·普拉斯[女诗人 煤气自杀]Sylvia Plath.
还有你超爱的小甜甜布兰妮 And your favorite: Britney Spears.
-她剃光头了 -天呐 - She's bald! - My God!
她完全剃光了 She is completely bald!
8岁到12岁之间的事 我不太记得了 I don't remember much between the ages of eight and 12.
只记得世界瞬息万变 而我的大脑却跟不上节奏 Just that the world moved fast and my brain moved slow.
有人知道什么是介词吗 Okay, does anybody have any idea of what a preposition might be?
而时不时 And every now and then,
如果我太关注自己的呼吸方式 if I focused too closely on the way I breathed...
我就会昏死 I'd die.
慢点 慢慢呼吸 Slow down, just breathe.
直到你看清 Until every second of every day,
你时时刻刻都要对抗自己的焦虑 you find yourself trying to outrun your anxiety.
我要强奸你 贱婊
你怎么了 小茹 What's wrong, Rue?
老实说 And quite frankly...
我就是心力交瘁了 I'm just fucking exhausted.
你之前说我们可以托关系找这个医生 You said the doctor was in our network.
怎么突然就又不熟了 How could he suddenly be out of network?
我负担不起 I can't afford it.
有个选美冠军被人泼硫酸了 Did you see that video of the beauty queen
你看到那个视频了吗 who got acid thrown on her face?
-什么 没有 -真没人性 - What? No. - It's pretty fucked up.
-是啊 -妈 你有卫生棉棒吗 - Yeah. - Mom, you got any tampons?
在卫生间水槽下面 In my bathroom, under the sink.
到某一个时刻 And at some point,
你总要决定自己的为人 you make a choice about who you are
明晰渴求何物 and what you want.
莱丝丽·班纳特 阿普唑仑[治疗失眠 抗抑郁药]
吉雅 我们走吧 All right, Gia, let's roll.
为什么补偿金是三百 Why is the co-payment $300?
小茹 你吃早饭了吗 Rue, did you eat breakfast?
你怎么戴起墨镜了 What's with the sunglasses?
什么墨镜 What sunglasses?
没有地图 没有指南针 我就这样到来了 I just showed up one day, without a map or a compass...
全体学生注意 我们要封锁学校 Attention, students, we need to lockdown.
老实说 也没有谁能够提供一点有用的建议 Or to be honest, anyone capable of giving on iota of good fucking advice.
这样的生活 很压抑吧 但是呢 And I know it all may seem sad, but guess what?
世道不好 怪我何用 I didn't build this system, nor did I fuck it up.
然后新世界开启了 And then it happens.
那一刻 呼吸放慢了 That moment when your breath starts to slow.
每一次呼吸 And every time you breathe,
体内氧气全部排空 you breathe out all the oxygen you have.
全世界都静止了 And everything stops:
心脏 肺部 your heart, your lungs,
最终 大脑也停止运转 then finally, your brain.
一切感受 希冀 想遗忘之事 And everything you feel, and wish, and want to forget,
都被抛到九霄云外 it all just sinks.
然后突然之间 And then suddenly...
空气再次流入 重新注入生机 You give it air again, give it life again.
我记得第一次嗑嗨的感觉 I remember the first time it happened to me,
我慌了神 想打911求救电话 I got so scared I wanted to call 911.
到医院去 靠呼吸机和苹果汁维持生命 Go to the hospital and be kept alive by machines and apple juice.
但我当时不想出糗 But I didn't want to look like an idiot,
我不想大晚上搅得大家不安宁 and I didn't want to fuck up everyone's night.
久而久之 这成为了我唯一的渴求 And then over time, it's all I wanted--
两秒钟的飘然若仙 those two seconds of nothingness.
迷醉 第一季 第一集
高二开学之前的那个暑假 我去戒毒了 I spent a good portion of the summer before junior year in rehab.
上帝赐予我力量 从容接受不能改变之事 God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
勇敢改变能够改变之事 the courage to change the things I can,
以及明辨两者区别的智慧 and the wisdom to know the difference.
小茹 Rue!
快抱一下 Come here!
-你还好吗 -很好 - How are you? - Good.
-我想死你了 -我也是 - I missed you. - I missed you, too.
-瞧瞧你 又长高了吗 -没有 - Look at you. Are you growing? - No.
我真替你高兴 小茹 I'm very happy for you, Rue.
你即将开始新生活了 You're about to start a brand-new chapter.
夏末 开学前一周 It was the end of summer, the week before school started.
我当时根本没打算继续戒毒 I had no intention of staying clean.
而茱尔丝刚搬到这里 And Jules had just moved to town.
镇上新来了一个姑娘 There's some new girl in town that
你俩肯定能成为好友 I think you gonna be friends with.
-谁啊 -我也不清楚 - Who? - Shit, I don't know.
她昨天过来 打扮得像个"美少女战士" She came in yesterday lookin' all Sailor Moon and shit.
我当时就想 I'm thinking to myself, like,
她跟小茹肯定投缘 look like somebody Rue would get along with.
这件事 菲兹克看得还挺准 Which was sort of like a dead-on observation for Fezco,
而他平时的思维方式 总是异于常人 who's not normally revolving in the same direction as planet Earth.
你出来几天了 So, how long you been back?
五天 Five days.
感觉如何啊 And like, how you feelin'?
这么说吧 I mean,
自从我皈依上帝 救世主耶稣 ever since I gave my life over to my lord and savior Jesus Christ,
生活就特别美好 things have been, like, really good.
-是吗 这么正经 -嗯 - Word? That's what's up. - Yeah.
-我逗你呢 小菲 逗你呢 -我靠 - I'm fucking with you, Fez. It was a joke. - Shit.
我不会吐槽你啦 Hey, I don't judge.
但我得低调 "烟缸弟"在里面吗 But low-key, is Ashtray in the back?
你认真的吗 Are you serious?
你觉得我去了戒毒所 就不会再吸毒了吗 What, you think 'cause I went to rehab, I stayed clean?
戒毒所不就是帮人戒毒吗 I mean, ain't that the point?
话倒不假 但世道没落 Yeah, well, the world's coming to an end,
而我还没高中毕业 and I haven't even graduated high school yet.
还以为你死了呢 I thought your ass was dead.
还以为你有自闭症 而原来只是本性混蛋 I thought you had Asperger's till I realized you're just a prick.
流水的瘾君子 铁打的毒贩子 This is a fickle industry. Y'all come and go.
我也是混口饭吃 赚点小钱还房贷 I'm just trying to stack my cash, pay off our mortgage.
你想来点什么啊 So what the fuck you want?
-你确定不想尝些新货吗 -都有什么 - You sure you don't want to try nothin' new? - Like what?
2CT2 2CT7 2c-t-2, 2c-t-7,
还有5MeODIPT and 5-MeO-DIPT.
啥玩意儿 你能不能讲人话 I'm sorry, I have zero fucking idea what you just said.
听不懂没关系 It doesn't matter.
但这玩意儿能让你爽爆 But this shit is fucking lit.
这是什么 What is it?
N-二烯丙基-5-甲氧基色胺 N-diisopropyl-5-methoxytryptamine.
药效超快的迷幻剂 It's a fast-acting psychedelic.
跟"邮票"[迷幻剂]类似 Got some similarities to LSD,
但有一个重要区别 but with, like, key differences.
不是产生幻象 Not as visual and shit,
而是感官上的迷幻体验 but definitely a sense distorter.
你怎么了 What's wrong?
我太开心了 I'm just so happy.
这么说吧 这东西在坦帕市销量超好 I don't know. The shit's been blowing up in Tampa,
疯玩的人都爱嗑这玩意儿 and mad people like to fuck on it.
行 好 Okay. Yeah.
一共120美金 That'll be 120.
-小菲会替我垫上 -菲兹克不给人垫钱 - Fez said he'd spot me. - Fezco don't spot nobody.
这是戒毒后复吸的折扣价 Yeah, well, it's a post-rehab discount,
你该去问他 so you should ask him.
我肯定会问 因为我知道你睁眼说瞎话 I will go ask him, 'cause I know you're full of shit.
讲真 我那时对内特没什么意见 In truth, I didn't have much of an issue with Nate
直到后来茱尔丝牵扯进来了 until all the bullshit with Jules.
我一直不喜欢他 有一次在高一舞会上 I mean, I never liked him, and once, during freshman formal,
他未经我允许就想在舞池里给我指交 he tried to finger me on the dance floor without my permission.
但这里毕竟是美国 But like... it's America.
如果当时是开夏末派对 And if they were throwing an end-of-summer party...
我愿意给小茹指交 Yo, I'd do it for Rue!
酒水超市
我也就同意了 Of course I'd fucking go.
到时大家肯定会热议 The whole world's gonna be talking about
麦凯这个暑假搞了一个史上最淫乱的派对 how McKay threw the grimiest fucking banger of the summer.
不妥吧 你知道我妈有强迫症 I don't know, bro. You know my mom is real OCD.
任何一个小细节都逃不过她的眼睛 哪怕墙上划了一下 She notices the smallest shit: a little scratch on the wall,
盘子顺序不对 the dishes are out of order.
行 我们提前拍好照 Fine. We'll just take a picture of everything,
派对之后 再按照片摆好 and we'll put it back the way we found it, done.
这么有技术含量 你演《碟中谍》呢 What the fuck is this, Mission Impossible?
你就别瞎担心你妈会不会发现了 Would you stop worrying about your mom,
你还是考虑一下 and start worrying about
我们今晚怎么操到爽吧 all the fucking pussy that we're gonna smash tonight, bro.
不不不 打住 麦迪今晚会来吧 No, no, no, no, no. Wait. Isn't Maddy coming tonight?
不清楚 I don't know.
小爷不在乎 她甩了我 她可以去死了 I don't give a fuck. She broke up with me. Fuck her.
是这样 她是个疯婆子 See, no, bro. 'Cause she's crazy.
我可不想让她过来烧了我家房子 I don't want her to come and try to burn my house down.
-烧了你... -对 - Burn your-- - Yeah.
你闭嘴吧 Shut the fuck up.
终于看见妞儿了 This is exactly what I'm talking about.
瞧见了吧 我告诉你 Right here. I'm gonna tell you something--
-内特 别犯浑 别这样 -就要这样 - Nate, don't do anything stupid. Come on. - Yeah, yeah.
小妞儿 你好啊 Hey, yo, what up, B?
你来骑这个屌怎么样 Yo, how 'bout you come and ride on this dick?
内特 别这么贱 别这样 No, Nate, chill, bro! Come on man.
你太混蛋了 Fuck, bro.
一个不小心呀 Whoops.
父母离婚后 茱尔丝就从市内搬到郊区了 Jules moved from the city to the suburbs after her mom and dad got divorced.
她不愿谈这件事 She doesn't really like to talk about it,
但父亲一般很难获得全部监护权 but dads almost never get full custody,
所以她跟爸过 这里面肯定有事儿 so you know some shit definitely went down.
暑假时 她跟凯特一起上了三周补习班 She went to, like, three weeks of summer school with Kat,
凯特的视觉艺术入门课挂科了 who failed Intro to Visual Arts.
凯特:你周五要去麦凯家的派对吗
麦凯是谁
一个橄榄球队员
看情况吧 哈哈
我想干死你
屏蔽
你屌多大
屏蔽
"阳刚攻" 距离11.6英里 只攻不受 温柔体贴 喜欢小鲜肉和娘炮
天 你颜值爆表 太完美了 我们见面喝一杯吧
今晚约一下
凯特 我不去今晚的派对了 爱你
-你觉得我的乳晕有毛病吗 -没有 - Do you think my areolas look weird? - No.
但边缘有点奇怪吧 But, like, the edges, though.
茱尔丝:凯特 我不去今晚的派对了 爱你
麦迪 你的乳晕很正常 Maddy, they're fine.
你是说 有毛病 但正常 Fine like they're kind of weird,
还是说没人会像我一样注意到这一点 or fine like nobody but me would ever notice what I notice?
就是没毛病 闭嘴吧 麦迪 Fine like shut the fuck up, Maddy.
我真令人厌恶 我好嫌弃自己 I'm disgusting. I literally look disgusting.
麦迪 别自我否定了 你很撩人啊 Maddy, you just snap the fuck out of this. You're hot as fuck.
内特就是个废物 谁管他怎么想啊 Nate's a loser. Who cares?
他不是废物 他是傻逼 He's not a loser. He's a dick.
傻逼都是废物 这还用说吗 All dicks are losers. Duh.
总之是这样 Look, bottom line:
大家今晚都要打扮成辣妹去派对[价值百万的逼]y'all need to walk into this party like your pussy costs a million dollars.
讲真 给我五万 我就干 For real, I'd settle for like fifty grand.
五万就相当于一百万了 Fifty grand is a million dollars.
四瓶科罗娜清啤 别玩强奸那一套 我就肯干 I'd settle for, like, four Corona Lights and some non-rapey affection.
这也太没追求了 That's kind of depressing.
内特击碎了我的自信 Nate's just, like, totally ruined my confidence.
你懂有个人总是各种打击你的感觉吗 You know when somebody just constantly criticizes, like, everything about you?
懂 男生都这样 Yep. That's, like, every guy.
你就该再找个"新屌" 一夜春宵 忘却烦恼 You just need to catch a dick and forget about your troubles.
妹子 你才需要找个"新屌" Girl, you just need to catch a dick.
说真的 麦迪 忘记前任最好的办法就是 Seriously, Maddy, the best thing to do after a breakup
找个新欢干一炮 然后潇洒放手 is to fuck someone new, and then move on.
拜托 凯特 你干过几个男生啊 Please, Kat, remind me again how many guys you've fucked?
对了 网恋骗子可不算 And... yeah, cat-fishing, that don't count.
你能别这么贱吗 Can you not be a cunt for like, 15 seconds?
-晚上吃什么 -老爸 别这么变态 - What are we doing for dinner? - Dad, stop being a pervert!
我们都穿得这么暴露 We're literally, like, all naked!
坏了 Fuck.
好吧 Okay.
-你去哪儿了 -我出去吃东西了 - Where were you? - I went to eat.
-什么叫你出去吃东西了 -怎么了 - What do you mean, you went to eat? - What?
怎么了 别走 我还没问完呢 What? Don't walk away from me.
小茹 我不信你说的话 You know what, Rue? I don't trust you.
你想让我怎么说 I don't know what you want me to say.
我想让你告诉我 你去哪儿了 I want you to tell me where you were.
我说了 我特么出去吃东西了 I just said I went to fucking eat!
不准对我爆粗口 Don't you talk to me like that!
我要你做药检 You know what? I'm gonna drug test you.
-不准在家摔门 -我不是故意的 - Don't be slamming no doors around here. - It was an accident.
我不管 I don't care.
你不做药检 就别想出家门 You're not leaving this house until you take a drug test.
我刚尿过了 I just peed!
你再给我摔门试试 Slam another door.
我早晚被她气死 That girl's gonna be the death of me.
该死 Shit.
想通过药检 有几个办法 Now, there's a few ways to beat a drug test.
第一个办法很简单 别嗑药 The first is simple. Stop doing drugs.
但如果你已经嗑药了 无路可走了 But if you're in a bind and totally fucked,
方法一 烟酸 option one: niacin.
B类维生素 It's a B vitamin that, like,
能够分解脂肪和药品之类 breaks down fat and chemicals or whatever,
摄取足够多 两千毫克吧 and if you take a lot of it, like 2,000 milligrams,
然后一口气喝完几加仑水 then chug a few gallons of water,
可以在两三天内将毒品排出体内 you can flush your system in two to three days.
唯一的问题是 这种方法有副作用 The only problem is, it has a few side effects.
皮肤潮红 天旋地转 呕吐症状 Skin flushing, extreme dizziness, vomiting,
心跳加速 有时会致死 rapid heartbeat, and sometimes death.
我不推荐 I don't recommend it.
也不推荐使用网上卖的各种药品 Nor does any legit drug site on the Internet.
方法二 人工合成尿液 Option two: synthetic urine.
总价 89美金 不含税费以及运费
鬼才花这种钱 Yeah, fucking right.
方法三 找个不嗑药的小伙伴 用其尿液检测 Option three: get a non-drug addict friend to piss for you.
唯一的问题是... The only problem is...
大部分药店里的尿检试剂盒都带有温度条 Most over-the-counter home drug testing kits come with a heat-sensor strip
能够检测尿液温度 that detects the temperature of your urine.
如果父母看着你尿 And if your parents watch you pee,
你就不能用热水将其升温了 you can't really do the sink trick.
所以必须要新鲜尿液 So you gotta get it fresh.
小茹 Hey, Rue.
-我想请你帮个忙 -什么忙 - Hey, I, I need a favor. - What?
-你真得帮我 莱克茜 -什么忙 - I... like for real, Lexi. - What?
-这个方法的副作用 -你不是吧 - Side effects of this option? - Are you serious?
求你了 Please.
谢谢 Thanks.
小茹 Hey, Rue.
戒毒所体验如何 How was rehab?
真倒霉 Shit.
-很好 特别好 -这就好 - It was good. It was really, really good. - Well, that's good.
-你从戒毒所出来几天了 -五天了 - How long have you been back? - Five days.
-新生活 -妈 - New chapter. - Mom.
我和莱克茜从幼儿园起就认识了 Lexi and I have known each other since pre-school.
她算是我闺蜜吧 And like, in some ways she's my best friend,
尽管我们渐渐疏远了 even though I think we've grown apart.
兴趣不同 各走各路了 We don't really have much in common anymore.
你在戒毒所里有认识小帅哥吗 Did you m--meet any cute guys there?
-眼线液 -谢了 - Here's that eyeliner. - Thanks.
妈 我要尿尿 Mom, I have to pee!
要是能给我点隐私 让我自己尿就好了 I wish we could do this in a way that wasn't a complete invasion of my privacy.
谁让你之前嗑药过量了 如今还谈何隐私 Well, you lost your right to privacy after your overdose.
-那次是失误 -别狡辩了 小茹 - That was a mistake. - Don't be flip, Rue.
你能转过去吗 Could you...
谢谢 Thank you.
你不懂 You don't understand.
当时那种情况 当妈的最揪心了 This was the most frightening moment a mother could witness.
吉雅 And Gia...
-吉雅那么崇拜你... -我知道 妈 - Gia, who absolutely idolizes you-- - I know, Mom.
结果让她见你倒地不起 To have her find you unconscious...
我们能先别说这事吗 妈 Can we just-- Can we not do this right now, Mom?
小茹 Rue?
小茹 Rue.
你们看到这里 肯定很讨厌我 I know a lot of you probably hate me right now,
这也无可厚非 and I get it.
如果有得选 我也想做个乖乖女 If I could be a different person, I promise you, I would.
这并非我本意 而是父母期望如此 Not because I want it, but because they do.
问题就出在这里 And therein lies the catch.
我很抱歉 我之前摔门了 I'm sorry... for slamming the door earlier.
没事 我原谅你了 抱一下 It's okay. I forgive you. Come here.
液体不要超过标线
结果阴性[没吸毒]
妈 Hey, Mom?
-什么事 -我今晚能去莱克茜家过夜吗 - Yeah? - Can I spend the night at Lexi's tonight?
-可以 -谢谢 - Yeah, that's fine. - Thanks.
没事 Yeah.
你去哪儿 Where you going?
说不好 参加派对吧 到处转转 I don't know. Some party, or something.
到处转转 Or something?
爸 Dad.
好吧 毕竟刚搬来不熟悉 注意安全 I know. You know, just, new town. Be safe.
-别担心啦 -好 - Yeah. I'm fine. - Good.
-爱你哟 -我也爱你 - Love you. - I love you, too.
-走啦 -玩得开心 - Okay. - Have fun.
茱尔丝后来把那晚的事告诉了我 Jules told me later what had happened.
我好紧张
阳刚攻: 别紧张
你保证不是连环杀人犯 哈哈
阳刚攻: 哈哈 我保证
事后回想 Looking back on it,
她当晚还不如去麦凯家参加派对 she probably would have just been better off going to McKay's.
但世事难料啊 But...
请进 Come in.
凯茜就是个骚货 Yo, so, Cassie's a whore. Fact.
不 她不是放荡的女孩 No, she's not. Fact. She's not even that type of girl.
你看过她的黄网裸照吗 Have you seen her slut pages, though?
-没有 -可狂野了 - No. - They're wild, yo.
-她可骚了 -凯茜还有黄网裸照吗 - She's like a fuckin' freak! - Cassie's on the slut pages?
那可得视奸一下 Yo, we gotta see this shit.
你们俩怎么出来了 What are y'all even doing out the room, man?
-回楼上去 -别呀 - Go back upstairs, bro. - What?
你俩双胞胎快回楼上待着 Thing one and thing two. Take it up, man.
-快走 -别激动 大家十点才来呢 - Take it up. - Relax. No one gets here till ten.
-你好啊 内特 -你好啊 气色不错 - What's up, Nate? - What's good, what's good, good lookin'.
我就是说 你是因为和她上床了 Look, all I'm saying is, I think you did Cassie.
-所以才这么说 -麦凯 我喜不喜欢她是另一回事 - That's it. - McKay, whether I like her or not is irrelevant.
但她绝对是个骚货 The fact is, she's a fucking whore through and through, bro.
行吧 虽然我不知道她的行事作风 All right, look, I don't know what she's done, guys,
但我觉得她挺好 but I'm just saying, I think she's cool.
她聪明幽默 She's smart. She's funny.
她还喜欢车呢 Bro, she likes cars, man.
她喜欢车呀 谢谢分享啊 She loves cars. Shit, thank you for telling me.
-坏了 -这小子被勾魂了 - What the fuck? - Dude's got mad feelings.
讲真 麦凯都要变身迷弟追星了 For real, yo. McKay's about to start a Pinterest, guys.
等着瞧吧 分分钟的事 Just wait. Give it a minute.
你不了解她的行事作风 Yo, did you say you don't know what she's done?
对 不了解 No, I don't know.
过来坐 Take a seat.
我们俩可得去"羞耻之地"观赏一下风光 You and I are gonna take a little trip to the land of shame, bro.
我很看不惯社会上这种风气 Here's the fucking thing that pisses me off about the world.
每逢有人裸照泄露 Like, every time someone's shit gets leaked,
无论是珍妮弗·劳伦斯还是莱斯利·琼斯[女演员]whether it's J. Law or Leslie Jones,
大家的反应都是 the whole world's like,
"早知如此 别拍裸照呀" "Well if you don't want it out there, don't take the nudes in the first place."
不好意思 I'm sorry.
虽然老一辈讲究父母之命 媒妁之言 I know your generation relied on flowers and fathers' permission,
但这都2019年了 并非人人都像阿米什人一样 but it's 2019, and unless you're Amish,
北美洲戒律严谨的宗教团体 过简朴的农耕生活 拒绝使用某些现代技术
真爱需要赤裸 别再对我们指指点点 nudes are the currency of love, so stop shaming us.
声讨那些发明线上加密网站的混蛋吧 Shame the assholes who create password-protected online
专门收集未成年少女的裸照 directories of naked, underage girls.
凯茜其实是个好女孩 Cassie's actually super sweet.
她之前出过镜 You remember, like, from earlier.
-小茹 -你好吗 - Yo, Rue. - How you been?
她就是装淑女呢 She's just being coy.
她新交了男友 被迷得神魂颠倒了 'Cause she has a new boyfriend she's head over heels for.
妈 别胡说 他不是我男友 Mom, stop being retarded. He's not my boyfriend.
得了吧 Okay!
那昨晚来家里做客的帅小伙跟你啥关系 Who's that handsome young man who came over for dinner last night?
-天呐 妈 别说了 -克里斯托弗·麦凯 - My God, Mom! Stop! - Christopher McKay.
你在和麦凯交往啊 So, you're dating McKay.
妈 小心我趁你睡觉毒死你 Okay, Mom, I'm literally going to poison you in your sleep.
小茹 戒毒所体验如何 So, Rue, how was rehab?
你在戒毒所里有认识小帅哥吗 Did you m-meet any cute guys there?
-眼线液 -谢了 - Here's that eyeliner. - Thanks.
说回那帮直男癌 But anyway, back to this bullshit.
奥斯卡奖得主是... And the Oscar goes to...
我去 Shit!
两男一女肯定爽 I'm talkin' 'bout, like, tag team.
-我就这个意思 前后开弓 -三人行 - That's what I'm saying. Double team. - Like, triple.
罗伊在前 With Roy in the front.
不一定是她啊 You can even tell that that's her, man.
-就是她 -绝对是她 瞧这对"凶器" - It's her, bro. - This is definitely her. Look at her titties.
听我句劝 You want my advice?
你俩上床时 不用怜惜她 You fuck her like the whore she is,
爽完了就拔屌走人 you kick her ass to the curb.
你不上 我们可上了 If you don't, we will.
你俩小处男别瞎嚷嚷 Shut your all little virgin asses up, man.
你们又没经验 Y'all wouldn't even know what to do with that.
别逗了 我可刚看了详细的"教学视频" Are you crazy? I just got a tutorial, step-by-step.
麦凯显然受了内特的影响 It's obvious that Nate got in McKay's head,
因为凯茜告诉了莱克茜 莱克茜又告诉了我 because Cassie told Lexi, and Lexi told me,
派对当晚... that the night of the party...
怎么了 What?
没事 Nothing.
你怎么一直盯着我看 Why do you keep staring at me?
抱歉 我刚走神了 I'm sorry. Kind of spaced out for a second.
没吓到你吧 I wasn't being weird, was I?
没有 你很贴心 No. You're being cute.
我无意尬夸你 但是... Listen, I don't want to sound corny or whatever, but...
你真是我见过最美的女孩 you are literally the most beautiful girl I've ever seen.
他们勾搭上了 They hooked up.
我去 Fuck.
你总这么湿吗 You always this wet?
算是吧 好丢人啊 Kind of. It's super embarrassing.
-你没兴致了吗 -不会 - Does it turn you off? - Not at all.
没事 It's cool.
在这儿等我 Stay right here.
麦凯 麦凯 停下 McKay. McKay, stop! Stop--
虽然画面确实很黄很暴力 Now, I know this looks disturbing,
但我保证 她最后没被霸王硬上弓 but for real, I promise you, this does not end in a rape.
然而 问题来了 But here's the thing.
人人都看黄片 这是不争的事实 Everyone on the planet watches porn. Fact.
黄网上排名前二十的色情片 And if you were to click on the 20 most popular videos on Porn Hub right now,
基本上都是这种画风 this is basically what you'd see:
真乖 就是这样 Good girl, yes, yes.
你会做个听话的小淫娃吗 Are you gonna be an obedient little slut?
-再说声谢谢 -谢谢 - Say thank you, again. - Thank you.
我不是反对性爱 I'm not trying to be sex negative or anything.
-我的意思是... -停下 - I'm just saying... - Stop!
性虐恋并不稀奇 this shit isn't out of left fucking field.
-你该死 麦凯 -我怎么了 - Fuck, McKay! - What did I do?
为什么掐我脖子 我都要窒息了 Why would you grab me like that? I couldn't breathe.
我还以为你喜欢被掐 I don't know. I thought you liked that.
我怎么会喜欢被虐啊 Why the fuck would I like that?
凯茜 对不起 是我大意了 Cassie, I'm sorry. I didn't know.
你吓了我一跳 I just didn't expect it.
凯茜 抱歉 真对不起 Cassie, I'm really sorry, okay? I'm sorry.
我绝对不会伤害你 You know I would never do anything to hurt you.
别再这样了 Just don't do it again.
除非你先征求我同意 Unless you ask me first.
或者我求虐 Or I ask you.
总之 我没去找莱克茜 我撒谎了 Anyway, I didn't go to Lexi's. That was a lie.
我打算步行去麦凯家的派对 So, I was walking to McKay's party,
我的原则是 喝酒不骑车 because I have this rule that I don't drink and bike,
因为... 'cause like...
-那是... -见鬼 慢点 - Is that...? - Shit. Slow down.
是小茹 天呐 Dude, that's Rue. My God.
-等下 小茹不是死了吗 -天呐 我神烦诈尸 - Wait. Didn't Rue, like, die? - My God, I hate ghosts.
卡斯珀 搭车吗 Yo, Casper! You want a ride?
谢谢 Why, thank you.
-你多大了 -22 - How old are you? - 22.
谢谢 Thanks.
你住这儿吗 Do you live in town?
不 我只是来探望祖父母 No. I'm just, visiting my grandparents.
你呢 What about you?
你一直这样吗 Do you walk around like this?
我没懂 What do you mean?
你平时就这副打扮吗 Well, this is how you look generally?
是啊 I mean... yeah.
你真美 You're beautiful.
谢谢夸奖 Thank you.
我真羡慕你们这些年轻人 I'm envious of your generation, you know.
你们不拘泥于陈规 You guys don't care as much about the rules.
其实 这是好事 You know, I think that's a good thing.
虽然我不想给你当人生导师 And I don't want to be that old guy that gives you advice,
但在我看来 but I look at you
你面前现在摆着两条路 and I think there are... two versions of how your life can go.
你可以选择离开 You can either go someplace,
去做真实的自己 where you're wanted for who you are.
也可以继续在此堕落 落得和我一样的下场 Or you can stay in a town like this. End up like me.
在小旅馆度日 Living your life out in motel rooms.
私心里... Selfishly...
我希望你留下 I hope you stay.
张大点 Wider.
张大点 很好 Wider. There you go.
很好 真乖 That's it. Good girl.
茱尔丝曾告诉我 她小时候 Jules once told me that every night when she was a kid,
大概五岁左右吧... like, five or something...
吐出来 Spit.
她每晚会把自己关在洗手间 she'd lock herself in the bathroom,
跪趴在地上... get down on her hands and knees, and...
向上帝祈祷 pray to God.
她祈祷一觉醒来 She'd pray that when she woke up in the morning,
就25岁了 she'd be 25 years old.
她会和她最好的女性朋友住在一起 She'd live with her best friend, a girl.
虽然她们现在还未相遇 但是... Someone she hadn't met yet, but...
她心知会全心信赖那个朋友 someone she knew she'd trust forever.
不知为何 她告诉我时 I don't know why, but when she told me that story,
我哭得上气不接下气 I started to cry so hard I hyperventilated.
你真干净 You're so clean.
你不知道这有多珍贵 And you don't know how rare that is.
茱尔丝当时狂笑不止 问我怎么了 但是... Jules just kept laughing and saying, "What's wrong?" But...
我也说不上来 I didn't know.
之后 那一晚的画风就走向诡异了 And then, the night got weird.
当晚之事 众说纷纭 Now, there's a couple versions of what happened that night.
每个人的版本都不一样 It all depends on who you ask,
说实话 我的版本向来不太靠谱 and to be honest, I'm not always the most reliable narrator.
但内特当时绝对上了别的女人 But Nate was fucking on one.
于是麦迪也不甘示弱 And in turn, Maddy was fucking on one.
脱衣服 我要去游泳 Get undressed. I want to go swimming.
-你真性感 -那可不 - You're so hot. - I know.
你真是放荡 You're fucking crazy.
我没有 No, I'm not.
我就是想报复渣男前任 I'm just trying to get back at my really shitty ex-boyfriend.
什么 What?
你愿意在泳池跟我做爱吗 What if I told you that I wanted you to fuck me, right here, right now?
你是认真的吗 Are you serious?
正值此刻 And that's right about the time
茱尔丝决定撇下炮友 骑车去麦凯家 that Jules decided to ghost her hookup and bike over to McKay's.
茱尔丝给凯特发了短信 但凯特没回 因为... Now, Jules texted Kat, but Kat didn't answer, because...
你朋友怎么样 So what's the deal with your friend, BB?
她怎么了 What about her?
她是"假正经"还是"风骚货" Well, is she like a prude, or is she like a slut?
绝对是个风骚货 Definitely a slut.
-你呢 -我怎么了 - What about you? - What about me?
你风骚吗 Are you a slut?
骚断腿 Yeah, I'm a fucking savage.
是吗 给个电话号码呗 Yeah? What's your number?
你俩就算了吧 Higher than you two can count.
少卖弄风骚了 你就是个"假正经" Stop playing. You're a fucking prude.
凯特不算纯良 但她当时确实还是处女 Now, Kat wasn't a prude, but she was a virgin.
她上暑期学校时 告诉了茱尔丝 She'd told Jules that a week into summer school,
茱尔丝当时的反应是 and when Kat saw her reaction:
姐们 这都什么年代了 快找个汉子吧 Bitch, this isn't the '80s. You need to catch a dick.
她暗下决心 高二开学时 要做个放荡女子 She was on a mission to enter junior year as a woman of questionable morals.
我问你 Let me ask you a question.
要是我掏出"小弟弟" 你给我口吗 If I were to pull my dick out right now, would you suck it?
不好说 先掏出来再说 I don't know. Let me see it.
还没硬起来呢 It's not hard yet.
你大概从没给人口交过吧 You've probably never sucked a dick in your life.
-口过 -多数女孩都不会口 - Yeah, I have. - No, most girls don't know how to suck dick.
-是啊 -什么意思 - Yeah. - What do you mean?
她们含得小心翼翼 Well, they're too gentle.
似乎很害怕一样 It's like, they're fucking scared of it or something.
-黄片里可不这样 -没错 - Not in porn. - Exactly.
-你看黄片啊 -大家不都看吗 - You watch porn? - Doesn't everyone?
不 男人都看 No. Every guy does. Yeah.
但"假正经"不看 "风骚货"才看 Not prudes. Only sluts.
好吧... Yeah, well...
什么程度啊 Yeah, but like, how much?
-什么 -你有多骚 - What? - How much of a slut are you?
你一试便知 Why don't you come find out?
你先把上衣脱了吧 Why don't you take your top off?
当着他俩面脱吗 Like, right now, in front of-- in front of these two?
对 Yeah.
你敢不敢吧 I dare you.
听说过吧 Yo, you know what they say, right?
胖姑娘最会口了 Fat girls give the best head.
茱尔丝赶到时 我在外面跟菲兹克聊天 I was out back talking to Fezco when Jules arrived.
怎么回事 小茹 What the fuck, Rue?
我又怎么了 What? What, what, what, what?
别闹 姐们 你还欠我120块呢 Come on now, bruh. You owe me 120 bucks.
我忘了 抱歉 My bad, man, I forgot.
亲兄弟也得明算账啊 Shit, you know I ain't trippin'.
说实话 Well, to be honest with you,
你吸毒过量的事吓到我了 your whole drug shit got me feeling kind of uneasy.
别跟我来"爱的教育" 小菲 Come on, don't go soft on me, Fez.
我没有 就是... No, I'm not. It's just that...
我喜欢你 也很想你 姐们 I like you. And I missed you, bruh. Like...
你入夏吸毒过量昏迷真是吓死我了 That shit at the beginning of summer had me scared as fuck.
-大家都吓到了 -我很认真 小茹 - Yeah, you and everybody else. - I'm serious, Rue.
我见过很多人吸毒致死 I've seen a lot of people die.
但你不同 None like you.
我不知道你有什么烦心事 I don't know what type of fucked up shit you got going inside your head.
我也帮不上忙 但我清楚一件事 I don't know how to help, but I could tell you one thing:
毒品不能解决问题 this drug shit, it's not the answer.
我记得 十一岁时... You know, I remember when I was eleven years old...
我爸确诊后几个月 It was a couple months after my dad got diagnosed,
我们得知了预后疗效 and we got the results back from the prognosis.
恢复得很好 血压差不多正常了 And it was really good. It was like, 80/20.
于是我们就想庆祝一下... And we decided to celebrate, so...
于是吃了中餐 we like ordered a bunch of Chinese food.
那晚 我睡在爸妈中间 I remember that night, I was laying between my parents in bed,
结果 and,
我突然喘不上气了 all of a sudden I couldn't breathe.
仿佛世上的空气都被抽空了 It was like there was no more air left in the world.
我当时气喘不止 慌了神 And I was gasping, and I was panicking.
爸妈叫了救护车 And they called the ambulance
他们本以为我是食物过敏 and they thought it was like... an allergic reaction or some shit.
等到了医院 And then when I got to the hospital,
医生给我注射了液体安定 they gave me liquid Valium.
好让我平复下来 Yeah. To calm me down.
接触到安定的那一刻 我心想... And when it hit me, I thought...
找到了 This is it.
这就是我一生都在找寻的那种感觉 This is the feeling I have been searching for my entire life,
自有记忆以来 我就在寻觅 for as long as I could remember.
因为突然之间 Because suddenly,
世界安静下来了 the world went quiet.
我在自己的小天地寻得了安宁 And I felt safe, in my own head.
我父亲两年后去世了 Two years later, he was gone.
我的恐慌症却没好 Panic attacks stayed.
我找到了另一种生活方式... And I found a way to live, so...
我可能会因吸毒而死 Will it eventually kill me? Maybe.
但也不一定 谁也说不准 Fuck, maybe not. I don't know.
你还会卖给我毒品吧 小菲 You still gonna be my dealer, Fez?
你真是无可救药了 姐们 You a fucking trip, bruh.
我嗨到没法好好跟你聊 I'm too high to be having this conversation right now.
我也是 Yeah, man. Me, too.
我也是啊 Me fucking too.
你够狠 骚货 Yeah, that's real classy, you fucking whore.
舔鸡巴去吧 Suck my dick.
滚开 滚出厨房 该死 Get the fuck out of here! Get the fuck out of the kitchen! Fuck!
快滚 滚出去 Get out of here. Get the fuck out of here.
你瞅啥 What the fuck are you looking at?
你是谁 Who are you?
我是茱尔丝 我朋友... I'm Jules. I'm a friend of--
你是谁的朋友 You're a friend of-- a friend of whose?
反正我不认识你 'Cause you're not my fucking friend.
你是谁的朋友 茱尔丝 Who the fuck are you friends with, Jules?
你们认识这人吗 Do you guys know who the fuck this is?
有人认识她吗 Does anybody know who this is?
有人认识茱尔丝吗 Does anybody know who the fuck Jules is?
没人吗 你认识茱尔丝吗 Anyone at all. You, do you know who the fuck Jules is?
你谁啊 So, who are you?
我很安分 I'm just minding my own business.
我不想惹事 I'm not trying to start anything.
胡说 Well, no, you're not.
你这种人向来爱多管闲事 Nobody that looks like you is minding their own fuckin' business.
我了解你这种人 I know what you are.
我看透你了 Yeah. Yeah, I see you.
你想怎样 So what do you want, huh?
你想博取关注吗 You want some, some fucking attention?
那我就如你的愿 'Cause I'll give you some fucking attention.
有人是茱尔丝的朋友吗 Yo, is anybody here friends with Jules?
没有吗 有人认识这个贱人吗 Anyone? Does anybody know who the fuck this bitch is?
赶紧吱声 不然要她好看 Somebody better speak up, or this bitch is gonna get fucked up!
我去 Shit!
-你想打我 -没有 我跟你开玩笑呢 - You wanna fucking hurt me? - No, I was fucking kidding!
退后 你特么啥毛病 Back the fuck up! What the fuck is your problem?
你先放下刀 Put the fucking knife down, okay.
-我开玩笑呢 -你想打我 - It was a joke. - You wanna fucking hurt me?
-没有... -蠢货 - No, no, no-- - You have no fucking idea!
-瞧见了吗 -你真是神经病 - See? - You're psycho!
-谁也伤不了我 -神经病 - I'm fucking invincible! - You're a fucking freak.
你发什么神经 What the fuck?
对了 我是茱尔丝 By the way, I'm Jules.
我刚搬来 I just moved here.
开眼了 I mean... right?
你去哪儿了 错过好戏了 Where the fuck have you been? You missed the craziest shit ever!
我刚破处了 I just lost my virginity.
真的吗 和谁啊 Bitch, are you fucking serious? With who?
圣玛丽一小子 This guy from St. Mary's.
-感觉如何 -很棒 - How did you like it? - It was nice. Yeah.
天呐 小色女 我好为你骄傲呀 My God. My little slut. I'm so proud of you!
该死 Shit.
-你没事吧 -我没事 - Are you okay? - Yeah. It's fine.
其实我早知会有肢体冲突 Guess I knew that was gonna get violent,
但我又不想挨打 于是就先下手为强了 and I didn't want a fucking broken cheekbone or some shit.
不用解释 我都懂 Yeah, no, no, I totally, like, I get the logic behind it.
你好生猛啊 But it's still, like, fucking insane.
-我是小茹 -我是茱尔丝 - I'm Rue. - I'm Jules.
你要去哪儿 Where are you headed to?
回家吧 Home. Probably.
我能跟你回家吗 Can I come with you?
我看看 Let me see.
该死 真抱歉 Shit. Sorry. Sorry.
记得我说过画风走向诡异了吗 Remember when I said things got weird?
看到了吧 So... yeah.
我有个主意 I've got an idea.
说说看 What?
想"嗨"起来吗 Wanna get high?
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