情感教育 Sentimental Education
你叫什么名字？ What is your name?
reo羥. 羥reo.
是的。 Yes.
你的呢？ And yours?
羥雷亚。 羥rea.
只有一个字母的差异。 There is just one letter of difference.
很好. Good.
非常好. Very good.
我看见你了. I saw you.
我看到你看着我。 I saw that you looked at me.
月亮看着恩德米翁。 As the Moon looked at Endymion.
谁？ Who?
恩德米翁. Endymion.
罕见美女的年轻谢泼德... The young shepard of a rare beauty...
一天打猎后， that, one day after a hunting,
去了一个山洞休息。 went to a cave to rest.
他睡在那里。 He slept there.
月亮， The Moon,
雌雄同体的观察者和沉思女神， observer and contemplative goddess of androgynous nature,
爱上了他... fell in love with him...
利用他的睡眠吻了他。 and took advantage of his sleep to kiss him.
女神和凡人之间的爱是被禁止的。 The love between a goddess and a mortal is forbidden.
美丽的恩迪米翁是宙斯造的， The beautiful Endymion was made imortal by Zeus,
但他被囚禁在无尽的睡眠。 but he was imprisoned in an endless sleep.
永恒的睡眠 Eternal sleep.
因为他敢于渴望女神的爱。 Because he dared to desire the love of a goddess.
然而，每天晚上， Every night, however,
月亮， the Moon,
凡人与神仙之间的解释者， interpreter between mortals and immortals,
从天而降... went down from the sky...
去考虑她的情人恩迪米翁。 to contemplate her lover Endymion.
你花了很长时间才离开游泳池。 You took long to leave the pool.
水不冷吗？ Wasn't the water cold?
很冷. Very cold.
你喜欢冷水吗？ Do you like cold water?
不总是这样. Not always.
那你为什么要花这么长时间离开水？ So why did you take so long to leave the water?
我的老二很难。 My dick was hard.
在我们面前有无限。 In front of us there is the infinity.
生命就在那里。 The life is there.
这是一个长期的发作... Here is a long paroxysm...
短暂的一天。 and a short day.
一份爱用另一份爱来支付。 A love is paid with another love.
不，不是那样的。 No. It is not that way.
爱... A love...
另一种爱…… by another love...
消失了. vanishes.
瓷器.法语. Porcelain. French.
18世纪。 18th century.
瓷器. Porcelain.
法语。 French.
我用左手写字。 I write with the left hand.
对我来说... For me...
左手优先于右手。 the left hand has primacy over the right hand.
我母亲死后... After my mother death...
我不再写了。 I haven't written anymore.
我不知道. I don't know.
我不知道那是什么。 I don't know what it was.
遗嘱消失了。 The will disappeared.
我失去了我的愤怒。 I lost my anger.
首先是愤怒... First comes the anger...
在仇恨中展开... that unfolds in hatred...
在谵妄中展开。 that unfolds in delirium.
最后一击... And in a final blow...
它变成了疯狂。 it overflows into madness.
疯狂。 Madness.
愤怒。 Anger.
你生你妈妈的气了吗？ Did you have anger of your mother?
很多。 A lot.
这就是我以前写作的原因。 That's why I used to write.
我想早死，很年轻。 I would like to die early, very young.
这是我写的第二部小说。 This is the second novel I have written.
最后一个。 The last one.
你写了两本书吗？ Have you written two books?
两部小说。 Two novels.
我写了一些文章， I have written some essays,
研究。 studies.
我写了一首诗。 I have made a poem.
我从来没有发表过任何东西... I've never published anything...
我不会。 and I will not.
我不想要. I don't want it.
已经过去了。 It is past.
这本书... This book...
是一部小说... is a novel...
我还没说完。 that I haven't finished.
是命运不想让我完成它。 It was the destiny who didn't want me to finish it.
这是对19世纪一些巴西诗人和艺术家的诠释。 It is a interpretation of some Brazilian poets and artists from 19th century.
英年早逝的诗人 Poets that died very young.
25岁之前。 Before 25 years old.
仿佛诗歌和才华是一种诅咒。 As if poetry and talent were a curse.
我想知道... I would like to know...
其中一些诗人。 some of these poets.
法索姆诗人。 Phanthom poets.
神秘的幽灵。 Mystic spectres.
其中一些是樟脑的幻影。 Some of them, phantoms of camphor.
幻影， The phantom,
幻影图案， the phantom motif,
经历了所有的色情历史... goes through all history of erotism...
自古以来。 since Antiquity.
劳林多·拉贝洛， Laurindo Rabelo,
Junqueira Freire，vares de Azevedo羖，Casemiro de Abreu， Junqueira Freire, 羖vares de Azevedo, Casemiro de Abreu,
佛朗哥？ Franco S?
其中最不幸的是: 卡斯特罗·阿尔维斯。 And the most unfortunately famous of them all: Castro Alves.
案件如... Cases such as...
诺埃尔·罗莎. Noel Rosa.
还有其他人。 There are others.
更年轻，更模糊。 Even younger and obscurer.
我没有研究他们。 I didn't study them.
我没时间. I didn't have time.
他们早死了。 They died early.
他们没有时间。 They didn't have time.
不， No,
他们没有时间。 they didn't have time.
政治经济学的暴政铺平了人类的心。 The tyranny of political economy paved the human heart.
没有更多的地方的敏感性。 There is no more place for sensibility.
如今... Nowadays...
淫秽是感性。 the obscene is the sensibility.
有些人非常不了解人类的心脏。 There are people very bad informed about the human heart.
这是一个特殊的文本... It's a special text...
用1740写的。 written in 1740.
它的独特性在于由作者匿名出版... Its singularity consists in having been published anonymously by the author...
为了引起人们对原... in order to draw attention to the importance of the original...
同一个作者。 by the same author.
他总结了课文... He summarized the text...
为了使它更容易被... in order to make it more accessible to...
他的少数读者。 his few readers.
对他来说... For him...
人性， the human nature,
男人... Man...
是... is...
习惯， habit,
相似之处， resemblance,
毗连性， contiguity,
原因。 cause.
习惯: Habit:
引导生命的不是理性， It is not reason that conducts life,
但是习惯。 but habit.
为什么身体的行为的原因是未知的。 The reasons by why the body acts are unknown.
相似性: Resemblance:
当我们看到肖像时... When we see the portrait...
我们考虑所描绘的。 we think about the portrayed.
毗连性: Contiguity:
说到圣丹尼斯... Speaking about Saint Denis...
自然发生在巴黎。 happens naturally in Paris.
原因: Cause:
当我们想到儿子的时候... When we think about the son...
我们可以转移我们的想法... we can transfer our thoughts...
给父亲。 to the father.
内部的多样性… The interior diversity...
是浓缩的源泉。 is the source of enrichment.
语言学并不是只有博学的成员。 Philology doesn't have only erudites among its members.
在这个领域也有富有想象力的人。 There are in this field imaginative men too.
有时候男人有很多想象力。 Sometimes men with a lot of imagination.
对我来说是一种美德。 What to me is a virtue.
其中一个建议五个元音... One of them proposes that the five vowels...
是笑的语言。 are the language of laugh.
男人在A中笑。 Man laughs in A.
女人在E中笑。 Woman laughs in E.
虔诚的笑在我。 The devout laughs in I.
农民在O中笑了。 The peasant laughs in O.
最后，老太太们在美国笑了。 And finally the old ladies laughs in U.
扩展方法，在1662中， Expanding the method, in 1662,
意大利占星家雅培大马士革... the Italian astrologer Abbott Damascene...
说医生能分辨病人的气质... said that the doctor could distinguish the temperament of his patients...
触摸他们的身体。 by touching their bodies.
如果他们在一笑... If they laughed in A...
他们很冷淡。 they were phlegmatic.
如果他们在E笑... If they laughed in E...
他们很胆小。 they were bilious.
如果他们嘲笑我... If they laughed in I...
他们是忧郁的。 they were melancholic.
如果他们笑了O... If they laughed in O...
他们很乐观。 they were sanguine.
如果他们在U笑... And if they laughed in U...
这是他没有定义的东西。 they were something that he didn't define.
他留白了。 He left blank.
以便每个医生以自己的方式理解它。 In order to each doctor to understand it in his own way.
非常好. Very good.
古代世界与众不同。 The ancient world is out of the ordinary.
这是我的年龄。 It is my age.
它生来就是为了长寿... It was born to live long...
就像它的曾祖父母一样， as its great-grandparents did,
前稀释的chelonians。 the prediluvian chelonians.
现在男人工作认真... Nowadays men work seriously...
活得像... to live as much as...
或者更多... or more...
比一只乌龟。 than a turtle.
生活二... Living two...
三... three...
四... four...
五次... five times...
不仅仅是一只乌龟。 more than a turtle.
然后... And then...
终于... finally...
去死吧. die.
好奇的镜子 Curious mirror.
讽刺的生活，不是吗？ Ironic life, isn't it?
那些了解动物的人... Those who know the animals...
坚持认为他们有... insist that they have...
智力和语言。 intelligence and language.
它是旧的。 It is old.
柏拉图， Plato,
弗拉维斯·约瑟夫斯， Flavius Josephus,
圣巴兹尔... Saint Basil...
相信它。 believed in it.
圣巴西尔甚至写道... Saint Basil even wrote...
在天堂里，动物彼此说话... that in Paradise the animals speak among themselves...
互相理解... and understand each other...
以合理的方式。 in a reasonable way.
一位意大利圣人，耶稣会的马里奥·贝丁努斯， An Italian sage, the jesuit Mario Bettinus,
一本叫鲁本纳斯的田园书的作者， author of a pastoral book called Rubenus,
是第一个翻译成人类语言的作者... was the first author who translated to human language...
夜莺的歌。 the song of the nightingale.
他说它应该发音为... He said that it should be pronounciated in...
意大利语。 the Italian language.
一部电影. A film.
摄影胶片. A photographic film.
这在今天具有考古价值。 This has an archaeological value today.
它将很快出现在失落的情感博物馆中。 It will be soon in the museum of lost sensibilities.
你喜欢电影吗？ Do you like cinema?
我喜欢. I like it.
非常喜欢. Very much.
我一生都在看电影。 I have gone to the cinema all my life.
当我年轻的时候，我参加了当时被称为Cineclub的活动。 When I was young I have attended what in that time was called Cineclub.
它通过了。 It passed.
电影通过了。 The film passed.
电影院关门了。 The Cineclub closed.
我一直带着这段录像， I have kept with me this footage,
这部电影， this piece of film,
作为一种预感。 as a presentiment.
亲爱的记忆。 A dear memory.
透明。 Transparent.
穿过光... Crossed by the light...
它的项目。 that projects it.
在那一长串英年早逝的诗人中... In that long list of poets who died young...
有一个歌手… there is a singer...
叫Vassourinha. called Vassourinha.
你认识他吗？ Do you know him?
没有。 No.
他19岁时去世... He died when he was 19 years old...
从一种可怕的疾病... from a terrible disease...
在骨头里。 in the bones.
听听它。 Listen to it.
它是现代的。 It is modern.
它预期。 It anticipates.
他的声音是由许多声音组成的。 His voice is made of many voices.
他画... He painted...
用声音。 with the voice.
我患有肾脏炎症。 I have suffered from a kidney inflammation.
我已经昏迷两天了。 I have been two days in a coma.
我有Kekul之类的东西？的梦想。 I had something like a Kekul? S dream.
我看见一条蛇在咬自己的尾巴。 I saw a snake biting its own tail.
我从来没有感觉这么好... I never felt so good...
比我以为我会死的时候还多。 than when I thought I was going to die.
我的生活总是很悲伤。 My life has always been sad.
一张照片折磨着我。 One image tortures me.
它迫害我。 It persecutes me.
在我的一生中，总是。 During all my life, always.
没有形成痂的伤口。 A wound that didn't create a scab.
它没有愈合。 It didn't healed.
我父亲是个自由思考者， My father was a free thinker,
一个有条理的人， a methodic man,
自由主义者。 a liberal.
他想导致其最终后果... He wanted to lead to its ultimate consequences...
调查自己的任务， the task of investigating himself,
切断人类的根... cutting the human roots...
从矿物中， from the mineral,
蔬菜， vegetable,
动物王国。 and animal kingdom.
崇高的任务。 Noble task.
而且很难。 And difficult.
他把自己和那些， He distanciated himself from people who,
因为懒惰和对他人的恐惧， for laziness and fear of the others,
按照惯例行事... behave according to the conventions...
追随牛群的时尚。 and follow the herd's fashion.
一个假期， One holiday,
一个雨天， a rainy day,
下午， in afternoon,
一个安静的下午， a quiet afternoon,
太安静了， too quiet,
他... he...
他用毒气窒息了自己... he asphyxiated himself with gas...
在厨房的烤箱里。 in the kitchen oven.
在他关系的深处... In the deep of his relationship...
有一个错误， there was a mistake,
没有说的东西。 something not said.
它刚刚被发现， It just came into light,
他的关系破裂了。 his relationship broke.
光中出现的是阴影的一部分... What came into light was part of that shadow...
统治着我们每个人的中心。 that reigns in the center of each one of us.
一种不可思议的感觉， An uncanny feeling,
心脏干燥。 a dryness in the heart.
当我们害怕害怕时， When we are afraid of being afraid,
我们做可怕的事情。 we do scary things.
他离开了我和我妈妈。 He left me and my mother.
我从来没有理解过。 I have never understood that.
即使在今天... Even today...
我不明白. I don't understand.
但是剥夺... But depriving...
是占有的一种形式。 is a form of possessing.
几年后，我母亲去世了。 Some years later my mother died.
我面对世界。 I faced the world.
你妈妈是个作家。 Your mother was a writer.
不，她不是作家。 No, she wasn't a writer.
但她过去常常写作。 But she used to write.
她是哲学博士。 She was a PhD in philosophy.
她从不上课。 She never taught classes.
她不想! She didn't want to!
她不喜欢它，她不喜欢它! She didn't feel attracted to it, she didn't like it!
她认为受欢迎是一种侮辱。 She thought that popularity was an insult.
她只喜欢阅读。 She only liked to read.
她喜欢阅读。 She loved to read.
她一直在读书。 She read all the time.
她用手记笔记... She took notes by hand...
通常在书中。 usually in the book itself.
她用它呼吸。 And she breathed with it.
她不停地阅读。 She read unceasingly.
她存放书和笔记的地方... The place she kept her books and notes...
对她来说是神圣的。 was sacred for her.
她更关心它... She took more care of it...
比世界上任何东西都多。 than of anything else in the world.
她不止一次对我说: She said to me more than one time:
没有哲学的生活 Living without philosophy...
闭着眼睛生活。 is living with the eyes shut.
她过去几个月都在审问一些纸。 She used to interrogate some pieces of paper over months.
她不是一个冷漠的女人， She was not a cold woman,
恰恰相反。 on the contrary.
有时候， Sometimes,
她表现出了巨大的能量... she showed great energy...
和温暖。 and warmth.
她觉得自己太含蓄了， She thought she was too subtle,
太聪明，太变态... too smart, too perverse...
被接受。 to be accepted.
她死于阅读。 She died reading.
我父亲去世三年后。 Three years after my father's death.
古老的力量 Ancient forces.
另一个世界。 Another world.
沉思... Contemplation...
就是参与。 is participation.
明智的灵魂是... The sensible soul is...
就像雅各布的梯子. like Jacob's ladder.
它想要... It wants...
知识。 knowledge.
阅读只是为了热爱阅读... Reading just for the love of reading...
是一件不可理解的事情， is an incomprehensible thing,
不可接受的事情... an unacceptable thing...
这个世界的主要特征是 to the world whose main features are
的实际利益。 the practical interests.
我父母死后， After my parent's death,
我发现自己一个人。 I found myself alone.
我需要很多幻想... I needed a lot of illusions...
忍受生命的黑暗时光， to bear life's dark times,
当一切都困扰着我们的日子， the days when everything haunts us,
阴郁和悲伤。 gloomy and sad.
几年来我写了一首诗。 I have written a poem during some years.
我不会称之为精神史诗， I would not call it an epic of the spirit,
但几乎。 but almost.
灵魂的冒险， The adventures of the soul,
恒星空间， the stellar spaces,
在亲密的深渊中。 and in the intimate abyss.
有点像Primero Sue駉， It was something like Primero Sue駉,
但比墨西哥和尚更谦虚。 but more modest than the Mexican monk's one.
更多。 Much more.
但是，尽管如此， But, nonetheless,
这是一项微不足道的工作... it's a minucious work...
声音和节奏。 of sounds and rhythms.
没有人这样写。 No one writes like that.
没人. No one.
尤其是那些男人诗人... Especially those men poets...
如今谁统治。 who rule nowadays.
我想从残骸中拯救一些自由... I wanted to save from wreck some freedom...
女性精神。 of the feminine spirit.
我的呼吸是我的地震仪， My breathing was my seismograph,
我无意识的地震仪。 seismograph of my unconscious.
我按照我的方式做... I did it my way...
金字塔形的影子. a pyramidal shadow.
我把自由强加于我的灵魂。 I impose the freedom on my soul.
这是一个梦想的梦想。 It's a dream of a dream.
这首诗在秋天结束， The poem finishes in the fall,
在与深渊的相遇中， in the encounter with the abyss,
虚空... the void...
以及一无所有的意识。 and the consciousness of nothing.
这个有组织的问题被称为我... This piece of organized matter that is called I...
恶化， deteriorating,
腐烂... decaying...
直到坠落…… until falling...
迷失在宇宙的无限中。 and getting lost in the infinity of the universe.
我们的文化暮光手册。 A manual of our cultural twilight.
我爱你. I love you.
“月亮” 的意思是... "Moon" means...
发光的， the luminous,
把它的光扩展到每个人， the one which expands its light to everyone,
用它的光线照亮。 which illuminates with its rays.
月亮， The Moon,
另一个天体， the other celestial Earth,
接收阳光... receives the sunlight...
并反映在地球上。 and reflects on Earth.
月亮的性本质是可疑的， The moon's sexual nature is dubious,
雌雄同体. androgynous.
男性和女性在同一时间。 Masculine and feminine at the same time.
女性与太阳的关系， Feminine in relation to the Sun,
与地球有关的男性， Masculine in relation to the Earth,
尤其是女性。 but especially feminine.
其次是男性。 It is just secondarily masculine.
它代表了口译员之间... It represents the interpreter between...
不朽 immortal
和凡人。 and mortal.
我可以进来吗？ May I come in?
进来吧. Come in.
我不想你否认。 I don't want you denying it.
我只想告诉你谁是我儿子... I just want to tell you who is my son...
我们是谁. and who we are.
我们是一个不寻常的家庭。 We are an uncommon family.
-我们的友谊没有什么不道德的. - There is nothing immoral in our friendship.
友谊？ Friendship?
是的。 Yes.
一段友谊. A friendship.
朋友的手知道振动多少心弦？ How many heart strings does a hand of a friend know to vibrate?
抛开这位老师的谨慎。 Let aside this teacher's prudence.
你是愤世嫉俗的。 You are cynical.
你什么都不知道. You don't know anything.
我会告诉你谁是我的儿子... I will tell you who is my son...
我们是谁. and who we are.
你对我儿子说的一切， Everything you could say to my son,
你能对他做的一切， everything you could do to him,
我已经说过了... I already said...
并做到了。 and did.
我们有一段快乐的时光... We had a period of pleasures...
从他还是个婴儿的时候。 since he was a baby.
我准备了他。 I prepared him.
吻， Kiss,
拥抱， cuddle,
渗透。 penetration.
我教了他一切。 I taught him everything.
他以前和我一起来. He used to come with me.
如果你愿意，我可以告诉你细节。可耻的秘密。 If you like I could give you the details. Scandalous secret.
他谈过他的妹妹吗？ Has he ever spoken about his sister?
没有。 No.
他有一个妹妹。 He had one sister.
她死了. She died.
他从来没有谈过这件事。 He never spoke about it.
她是怎么死的？ How did she die?
她自杀了. She killed herself.
她犯了自杀。 She committed suicide.
她从一座摩天大楼的露台上跳下来。 She jumped from the terrace of a skyscraper.
她比他大一岁。 She was one year older than him.
她爱上了他。 She was in love with him.
她因为对哥哥的爱而自杀。 She killed herself because of the love with her brother.
肉欲之爱. Carnal love.
但是他们... But they...
他们从小就是恋人。 they were lovers since childhood.
他们喝酒， They drank,
抽烟，说脏话。 smoked, spoke obscenities.
他们脱下衣服睡在一起... They took their clothes off to sleep together...
当他们醉酒时，他们沉迷于各种事物。 and when, inebriated, they indulged in all manner of things.
喝醉了，一丝不挂， Drunk, naked,
他们把房子都尿了。 they pissed all the house.
他们和70岁的女佣狂欢。 And they had orgies with the 70 years old maid.
他们喜欢它。他们说老年性生活很好。 They liked it. They said that the senile sex was good.
一天晚上，他们出去了。 One night, they went out.
他打扮成女人，她打扮成男人... He was dressed as a woman and she was dressed as a man...
妓女自己。 to prostitute themselves.
当他们的父亲死于车祸时... When their father died in a car accident...
他们在一个朋友家举行聚会。 they gave a party in a friend's house.
这不仅仅是一个派对... It was more than a party...
因为，当火山呕吐时， because, when the volcano vomits,
落下的熔岩吞噬了它发现的一切。 the falling lava devours everything it finds.
酒神持续超过一周...-别再说了! The bacchanal lasts more than one week... - Don't say anything more!
闭嘴! Shut up!
当有东西发臭时，保持鼻子干净。 When something stinks, keep your nose clean.
你是个骗子。 You are an imposter.
我是一场闹剧的目击者! I'm the witness of a farce!
甚至戴着面具， Even masked,
甚至隐藏起来， even hidden,
你没有说的似乎完全。 what you didn't say appears entirely.
嘴唇说， The lips say,
心没有说。 the heart unsays.
狂欢， Orgy,
乱伦， incest,
fellation, fellation,
troilism, troilism,
一切都经过色情， everything goes through the pornographic,
堕落， depraved,
幼稚， puerile,
无知的头脑! ignorant mind!
我去叫救护车! I'm going to call an ambulance!
你必须住院! You have to be hospitalized!
诱惑者!变态! Seducer! Pervert!
美洲狮!色情! Cougar! Pornographic!
马戏团 Circuscene
照相机! Camera!
两个! Two!
切! Cut!
疼吗？不，不. Has it hurt? - No, no.
它是弯曲的。-它不工作，因为在这里... It is crooked. - It isn't working because here...
不，不。太棒了。真的很好。这就够了. No, no. It was great. It was really well. This is enough.
加速... Accelerate...
现在它着火了: 手! Now it sets fire: the hand!
切! Cut!
疼吗？ Did it hurt?
相机胶卷是13，15，1: 第一! The camera roll is the 13, 15, 1: first!
伙计们，和清道夫保持沉默!我们正在拍摄! Make silence with the sweeper, people! We are filming!
照相机! Camera!
扫地机的噪音!Vassourinha! The sweeper's noise! Vassourinha!
所以，注意!声音! So, pay attention! Sound!
声音好吗？-14，1，第一! Is the sound OK? - 14, 1, first!
照相机! Camera!
我说行动。 I say action.
切! Cut!
没事的. It's fine.
有什么问题吗，保罗？ Is there any problem, Paulo?
切。 Cut.
操!我疯了! Fuck! I was mad!
我已经开始了。快走! I've started. - Go!
回去吧.卷20，11，B，5，第二。 Go back. Roll 20, 11, B, 5, second.
照相机! Camera!
和... 点击! And... click!
停，谢谢。 Cut, thank you.
完美! Perfect!
克拉珀! Clapper!
快，快! Go, go fast!
走，你可以来! Go, you can come!
切!太好了，谢谢! Cut! Great, thanks!
让我们去另一个电影序列。 Let's go to another film sequence.
电池将在拍摄过程中耗尽。会有一个问题。 The battery will run out in the middle of the shot. There will be a problem.
好极了! Great!
快走! Go!
好极了! Great!
这是记录! It is recording!
现场入口与回声是壮观的! The scene entrance with echo was spectacular!
漫长的白天和黑夜，我们在桨紧张 Long days and nights we strained at the oars
当白鲸自由游动时，扩大了水... while the white whale swam freely on, widening the water...
现在它着火了!手! Now it sets fire! The hand!
切! Cut!
不，不，不。太棒了! No, no, no. It was great!
这已经够好了! This is good enough!
很好! Good!
切!-克拉珀! Cut! - Clapper!
很好! Good!