Louis, Louis, please wake up, oh God
I think something horrible is wrong with me, I can't breathe
- I'm calling the ambulance - No, wait, I...
War! Are you fucking crazy? Oh God you're on fire, your head is on fire
- It hurts, it hurts - I'm calling the ambulance
I don't want to go to the hospital
- Please let me lie here, just... - No, no, God, Prior, stand up
- Don't touch my leg! - We have to... Oh God this is so crazy
I'll be OK if I just lie here Lou, really, if I can only sleep a little
Louis?
No! No! Don't call
You'll send me there and I won't come back, please, please, I'm begging, baby, please
- Louis! - Will you shut the fuck up
I have to go to the bathroom. Wait. Wait, just... Oh. Oh God
Prior? They'll be here in... Oh my God
- I'm sorry, I'm sorry - What did...? What?
- I had an accident - This is blood
Maybe you shouldn't touch it... Me... I...
Oh help. Oh help. Oh God help me. I can't...
Why are you siting in the dark'? Tum on the light
No. I heard the sounds in the bedroom again
- I know someone was in there - No one was
Maybe actually in the bed, under the covers with a knife
Oh, boy. Joe. I'm thinking of going away. By which I mean, I think I'm going off again
- You know what I mean? - Please don't. Stay. We can fix 't. I pray for that
This is my fault, but I can correct it. You have to try. too
Oh. Please. Don't pray for that
I had a book of Bible stories when I was a kid
There was a picture I'd look at twenty times every day, Jacob wrestles with the angel
I don't really remember the story, or why the wrestling. Just the picture
Jacob is young and very strong. The angel is a beautiful man, with golden hair and wings, of course
I still dream about it. Many nights. I'm... It's me in that snuggle. Fierce, and unfair
The angel is not human, and it holds nothing back, so how could anyone human win?
What kind of a fight is that? It's not just
Losing means your soul thrown down in the dust, your heart tom out from God's. But you can't not lose
In the whole entire world, you are the only person I love or have ever loved
And I love you terribly. Terribly
That's what's so awfully, irreducibly real. I can make up anything but I can't dream that away
Are you really going to have a baby?
It's my time, and there's no blood. I don't really know
I suppose 'wouldn't be sum a great thing
Maybe I'm just not bleeding because I take too many pills
Maybe I'll give birth to a pill. That would give a new meaning to pill-popping, huh?
I think you should go to Washington. Alone. Change, like you said
- I'm not going to leave you, Harper - Well maybe not
But I'm going to leave you
- He'll be all right now - No he won't
No. I guess not. I gave him something that makes him sleep
- Deep asleep? - Orbiting the moons of Jupiter
- A good place to be - Anyplace better than here
- You his... uh...? - Yes. I'm his uh
- This must be hell for you - call is. Hell. The afterlife
Which is not at all like a rainy afternoon in March, by the way, Prior
A lot more vivid than I'd expected. Dead leaves, but the crunchy kind. Sharp, dry air
The kind of long, luxurious dying feeling that breaks your heart
Yeah, well. We all get to break our hearts on this one
- He seems like a nice guy. Cute - Not like this
Yes, he is. Was. Whatever
Weird name. Prior Walter. Like The Walter before this one'
Lots of Walters before this one. Prior is an old old family name in an old old family
The Walters go back to the Mayflower and beyond. Back to the Norman Conquests
He says there's a Prior Walter stitched into the Bayeux tapestry
- Is that impressive? - Well, it's old. Very old
- Which in some circles equals impressive - Not in my circle. What's the name of the tapestry?
The Bayeux tapestry. Embroidered by La Reine thathilde
I'll tell my mother. She embroiders
- It drives me nuts - Manual therapy for anxious hands
Maybe you should try it
Mathilde stitched while 'William the Conqueror went off to war
She was capable of more than loyalty. Devotion. She waited for him, she stitched for years
And if he had come back broken and defeated from war, she would have loved him even more
And if he had returned mutilated, ugly, full of infection and honor, she would still have loved him
Fed by pity, by a sharing of pain, she would love him even more, and even more
And she would never, never have prayed to God...
Please let him die if he can't return to me whole and healthy and able to live a normal life'
If he had died, she would have buried her heart with him
So what the fuck is the matter with me?
- Will he sleep through the night? - At least
- I'm going - It's one a.m. Where do you have to go at...
I know what time it is. A walk. Night air, good for the...
- The park - Be careful
Yeah. Danger
Tell him, if he wakes up and you're still on, tell him good-bye, tell him I had to go
The pills were something she started when she miscarried or... no, she took some before that
She had a really bad time at home, when she was a kid, her home was really bad
I think a lot of drinking and physical stuff. She doesn't talk about that
Instead she talks about the sky falling down, people with knives hiding under sofas. Monsters. Mormons
Everyone thinks Mormons don't come from homes like that, we aren't supposed to behave that way, but we do
It's not lying, or being two-faced. Everyone tries very hard to live up to God's strictures...
- ...which are very... - Strict
I shouldn't be bothering you with this
No, please. Heart to heart. Want another... what is that, seltzer?
The failure to measure up his people very hard
From such a strong desire to be good they feel very far from goodness when they fail
What scares me is that maybe what I really love in her...
...is the part of her that's farthest from the light, from God's love
Maybe I was drawn to that in the first place. And I'm keeping it alive because I need it
- Why would you need it? - There are things...
I don't know how well we know ourselves. I mean, what if?
I know I married her because... because I loved 'mat she was always wrong
Always doing something wrong, like one step out of step. In Salt Lake City that stands out
I never stood out, on the outside. But inside, it was hard for me. To pass
- Pass? - Yeah
- Pass as what? - Oh well... As someone cheerful and strong
Those who love God with an open heart unclouded by secrets and struggles are cheerful
God's easy simple love for them shows in how strong and happy they are. The saints
But you had secrets? Secret struggles?
I wanted to be one of the elem, one of the Blessed
You feel you ought to be, that the blemishes are yours by choice, which of course they aren't
Harper's sorrow, that really deep sorrow, she didn't choose that. But it's there
- You didn't put it there - No
- You sound like you think you did - I am responsible for her
- Because she's your wife - That. And I do love her
Whatever. She's your wife. And so there are obligations. To her. But also to yourself
- She'd fall apart in Washington - Then let her stay here
- She'll fall apart if I leave her - Then bring her to Washington
- I just can't, Roy. She needs me - Listen, Joe. I'm the best divorce lawyer in the business
Can't Washington wait?
You do what you need to do, Joe. What you need. You
Let her life go where it wants to go. You'll both be better for that
Somebody should get what they want
- What do you want? - I want you to fuck me, hurt me, make me bleed
- I want to - Yeah?
- I want to hurt you - Fuck me
- Yeah? - Hard
- Yeah? You been a bad boy? - Very bad. Very bad
- You need to be punished, boy? - Yes. I do
- Yes what? - Um, I...
- Yes what, boy? - Oh. Yes sir
- I want you to take me to your place, boy - No, I can't do that
- No what? - No sir, I can't, I don't live alone, sir
Your lover know you're out with a man tonight, boy?
- No sir, he... My lover doesn't know - Your lover know you...
Let's mange the subject, OK? Can we go to your place?
- I live with my parents - Oh
Everyone who makes it in this world...
...makes it because somebody older and more powerful takes an interest
The most precious asset in life, I think, is the ability to be a good son
You have that, Joe. Somebody who can be a good son...
...to a father who pushes them farther than they would otherwise go
I've had many fathers, I owe my life to them, powerful, powerful men
Walter Winchell, Edgar Hoover. Joe McCarthy most of all
He valued me because I am a good lawyer, but he loved me because I was and am a good son
He was a very difficult man, very guarded and cagey
I brought out something tender in him. He would have died for me. And me for him
- Does this embarrass you? - I had a hard time with my father
Well sometimes that's the way. Then you have to find other fathers, substitutes, I don't know
The father-son relationship is central to life. Women are for birth, beginning, but the father is continuance
The son offers the father his life as a vessel for carrying forth his father's dream
- Your father's living? - Um, dead
- He was what? A difficult man? - He was in the military
- He could be very unfair. And cold - But he loved you
- I don't know - No, no, Joe, he did, I know this
Sometimes a father's love has to be very, very hard, unfair even
Cold, to make his son grow strong in a world like this. This isn't a good world
- Here, then - I... Do you have a rubber?
- I don't use rubbers - You should. Here
- I don't use them - Forget it, then
No, wait. Put it on me. Boy
Forget it, I have to get back. Home
- I must be going crazy - Oh come on please, he won't find out
- It's cold. Too cold - It's never too cold, let me warm you up. Please?
- Relax - Not a chance
- It... - What?
I think it must've... It broke, or slipped off, you didn't put it on right
You want me to keep going? Pullout? Should I...
Keep going. Infect me. I don't care. I don't care
I... um, look, I'm sorry, but I think I want to go
Yeah. Give my best to Mom and Dad
It was a joke
- How long have we known each other? - Since 1980
Right. A long time. I feel dose to you, Joe
- Do I advise you well? - You've been an incredible friend, Roy
I want to be family. Famiglia, as my Italian friends call it. La famiglia. A lovely word
- It's important for me to help you. like I was helped - I owe practically everything to you. Roy
I'm dying, Joe. Cancer
- Oh my God - Please. Let me finish
Few people know this and I'm telling you this only because I'm not afraid of death
What can death bring that I haven't faced? I've lived. Life is the worst
Listen to me, I'm a philosopher
Joe. You must do this. You must must must. Love, that's a trap. Responsibility, that's a trap, too
Like a father to a son I tell you this
Life is full of honor. Nobody escapes, nobody. Save yourself
Whatever pulls on you, whatever needs from you, threatens you
Don't be afraid. People are so afraid. Don't be afraid to live in the raw wind, naked, alone
Learn at least this. What you are capable of. Let nothing stand in your way
- Miss Thing - Ma cherie bichette
- Stella - Stella for star. Let me see
You look like shit, why yes indeed you do, comme la merde!
- Merci - Not to despair, Belle Reeve
Lookie! Magic goop!
Pooh! What kinda clap is that?
Beats me. Let's rub it on your poor blistered body and see what it does
This is not Western medicine, this bottle...
- Voodoo cream. From the botanica round the block - And you a registered nurse
Beeswax and cheap perfume. Cut with Jergen's lotion
Full of good vibes and love from some little black Cubana WM in Miami
Get that trash away from me, I am immune-suppressed
I am a health professional. I know what I'm doing
It stinks
Any word from Louis?
- Gone - He'll be back
- I know the type. Likes to keep a girl on edge - It's been...
- How long? - I don't remember
- How long have you been here? - I don't remember, I don't give a fuck
I want Louis. I want my fucking boyfriend, where the fuck is he?
I'm dying, I'm dying, where's Louis?
This is a very strange drug, this drug
- Emotional lability, for starters - Save a tab or two for me
Oh no, not this drug, ce n'est pas pour la joyeux noël et la bonne année
This drug she is serious poisonous chemistry, ma pouvre bichette
And not just disorienting. I hear things. Voices
- Voices - A voice
- Saying what? - I'm not supposed to tell
- You better tell the doctor. Or I will - No no don't. Please. I want the voice, it's wonderful
It's the only thing that's keeping me alive. I don't want to talk to some intern about it
You know what happens? When I hear it, I get hard
- Oh my! - Comma ça
- And you know I am slow to rise - My jaw aches at the memory
So would you deny me this little solace? Betsy my conoupiscence to Florence Nightingale's storm troopers?
- Perish the thought, ma bébé - They'd change the drug just to spoil the fun
- You and your boner can depend on me - Je t'adore, ma belle nègre
All this girl-talk is politically incorrect, you know. We should have dropped it back when we gave up drag
I'm sick, I get to be politically incorrect if it makes me feel better, You sound like Lou
Well, at least I have the satisfaction of knowing he's in anguish somewhere. I loved his anguish
Watching him stick his head up his asshole and eat his guts out over some relatively minor moral conundrum
It was the best show in town
But Mother warned me. If they get overwhelmed by the little things...
...they'll be belly-up bustville when something big comes along
- Mother warned me - And they do come along
- But I didn't listen - No
- Men are beasts - The absolute lowest
I have to go. If I want to spend my whole lonely life looking after white people I can get underpaid to do it
You're just a Christian martyr
- Whatever happens, baby, I will be here for you - Je t'aime
Je t'aime. Don't go crazy on me, girlfriend, I already got enough crazy queens for one lifetime
- For two. I can't be bothering with dementia - I promise
- Ouch - Ouch. Indeed
Why'd they have to pick on you? And eat more, girlfriend, you really do look like shit
- He's gone - I can't stay. I will return
Are you one of those 'Follow me to the other side' voices?
No. I am no nightbird. I am a Messenger
You have a beautiful voice
It sounds like a viola, like a perfectly tuned, fight string, balanced, the truth
- Stay with me - Not now
Soon I will return, I will reveal myself to you
I am glorious, glorious. My heart, my countenance and my message
- You must prepare - For what? I don't want to...
No death, no
A marvelous work and a wonder we undertake, an edifice awry we sink plumb and straighten
A great lie we abolish, a great error correct, with the rule. sword and broom of truth
- What are you talking about, I... - I am on my way. When I am manifest, our work begins
Prepare for the parting of the air, the breath, the ascent, glory to...
It's a revolution in Washington, Joe. We have a new agenda and finally a real leader
They got back the Senate but we have the courts
By the nineties the Supreme Court will be block-solid Republican appointees
And the federal bench... Republican judges like land mines, everywhere, everywhere they turn
Affirmative action? Take it to court. Boom! Land mine
And we'll get our way on just about everything
Abortion, defense, Central America, family values, a live investment climate
We have the White House locked till the year 2000. And beyond
A permanent fix on the Oval Office? It's possible
By '92 we'll get the Senate back, and in ten years the South is going to give us the House
It really is the end of Liberalism. The end of New Deal Socialism
The end of ipso facto secular humanism
The dawning of a genuinely American political personality. Modeled on Ronald 'Wilson Reagan
- It sounds great, Mr Heller - Martin
And Justice is the hub. Especially since Ed Meese took over
He doesn't specialize in fine points of the law. He's a flatfoot, a cop. He reminds me of Teddy Roosevelt
- I can't wait to meet him - Too bad, Joe. he's been dead for sixty years
Teddy Roosevelt. You said you wanted to... Little joke
- It reminds me of the story about the... - Aw shut the fuck up, Martin
You see that? Mr Heller here is one of the mighty, Joseph, in D.C.
He sitteth on the right hand of the man who sitteth on the right hand of The Man
And yet I can say 'shut the fuck up' and he will take no offense. Loyalty
- This man, Joe, is a Saint of the Right - I know, Mr Heller, I...
- And you see what I mean, Martin? He's special, fight? - Don't embarrass him, Roy
Gravity, decency, smarts! His strength is as the strength often because his heart is pure
And he's a Royboy, one hundred percent
- We're on the move, Joe. On the move - Mr Heller, I...
- We can't wait any longer for an answer - Oh. Um, I...
- Joe's a married man, Martin - Aha
With a wife. She doesn't care to go to D.C. and so Joe cannot go. And keeps us dangling
We've seen that kind of thing before, haven't we? These men and their wives
- Oh yes. Beware - I really can't discuss this under
- Then don't discuss. Say yes, Joe - Now
- Say yes I will - Now
Now. I'll hold my breath till you do
I'm turning blue waking. Now, goddamnit!
- Roy, calm down, it's not... - Aw, fuck it
Read. Came today
- Roy. This is... Roy, this is terrible - You're telling me
A letter from the New York State Bar Association. Martin. They're gonna try and disbar me
- Oh my - Why?
- Why, Martin? - Revenge
The whole Establishment. Their little rules. Because I know no rules
Beucase I don't see the Law as a dead and arbitrary collection of antiquated dictums
Thou shall, thou shalt not, because, because I know the Law's a pliable, breathing, sweating organ
Because, because...
Because he borrowed half a million from one of his clients
- Yeah, well, there's that - And he forgot to return it
- Roy, that's... You borrowed money from a client? - I'm deeply ashamed
Roy, you know how much I admire you. Well I mean I know you have unorthodox ways...
But I'm sure you only did what you thought at the time you needed to do. And I have faith that...
Not so damp, please. I'll deny it was a loan. She's got no paperwork. Can't prove a fucking thing
Roy, I really appreciate your telling me this, and I'll do whatever I can to help
I'll tell you what you can do
I'm about to be tried, Joe. by a jury that is not a jury of my peers
The disbarment committee. Genteel gentlemen Brahmin lawyers, country-club men
I offend them, to these men I'm what, Martin? Some sort of filthy little Jewish troll?
- Oh well, I wouldn't go so far as... - Oh well I would
Very fancy lawyers, these disbarment committee lawyers
Fancy lawyers with fancy corporate clients and complicated cases
Antitrust suns. Deregulation. Environmental control
Complex cases like these need Justice Department cooperation like flowers need the sun
Wouldn't you say that's an accurate assessment, Martin?
- I'm not here, Roy. I'm not hearing any of this - No. Of course not
Without the light of the sun, Joe. these cases, and the fancy lawyers who represent them, will wither and die
A well-placed friend, someone in the Justice Department, say, can turn off the sun
Cast a deep shadow on my behalf. Make them shiver in the cold. If they overstep. They would fear that
- I don't understand - You do
- You're not asking me to... - Sssshhhh. Careful
Even if I said yes to the job, it would be illegal to interfere with the healings. It's unethical. Ne, I can't
Unethical. Would you excuse us, Martin?
- Excuse you? - Take a walk, Martin. For real
Unethical. Are you trying to embarrass me in front of my friend?
- Well it is unethical, I can't... - Boy, you are really something
- What the fuck do you think this is, Sunday school? - No, but Roy this is...
This is gastric juices churning, this is enzymes and acids, this is intestinal is what this is
Bowel movement and blood-red meat. This stinks, this is politics, Joe. the game of being alive
And you think you're... What? Above that? Above alive is what? Dead. In the clouds
You're on earth, goddamn! Plant a foot, stay a while
I'm sick. They smell I'm weak. They want blood this time
I must have eyes in Justice. In Justice you will protect me
- Why can't Mr Heller... - Grow up, Joe. The administration can't get involved
- But I'd be part of the administration. The same as him - Not the same
Martin's Ed's man. And Ed's Reagan's man. So Martin's Reagan's man. And you're mine
This will never be. Understand me?
I'm gonna be a lawyer, Joe, I'm gonna be a lawyer, Joe...
...I'm gonna be a goddamn motherfucking legally licensed member of the bar lawyer, just like my daddy was
Till my last bitter day on earth, Joseph, until the day I die
Ah, Martin's back
- So are we agreed? - Joe?
I will think about it
- I will - Huh
It's the fear of what comes after the doing that makes the doing hard to do
- Amen - But you can almost always live with the consequences
- Can I? - Oh sure. Sure
- Crazy cold sun - Have to make the best of it
- How's your friend? - My...? Oh. Ho's worse. My friend is worse
- I'm sorry - Yeah, well
Thanks for asking. It's nice. You're nice. I can't believe you voted for Reagan
- I hope he gets better - Reagan?
- Your friend - He won't. Neither will Reagan
- Let's not talk politics, OK? - You're eating three of those?
- Well I'm hungry - They're really terrible for you
Full of rat poo and beetle legs and wood shavings 'n' shit
- Huh - And... irridium, I think. Something toxic
- You're eating one - Yeah, well, the shape, I can't help myself
- Plus I'm trying to commit suicide, what's your excuse? - I don't have an excuse. I just have Pepto-Bismol
Yeah I know, but then I wash it down with Coke
- Are you always like this? - I've been worrying a lot about his kids
- Whose? - Reagan's
Maureen and Mike and little orphan Patti...
...and Miss Ron Reagan, Jr., the you-should-pardon-me-expression heterosexual
Ron Reagan, Jr. is not... You shouldn't just make these assumptions about people
How do you know about him? What he is? You don't know
- Well darling, he never sucked my cock but... - Look, if you're going to get vulgar...
No no really, I mean, what's it like to be the mild of the Zeitgeist?
To have the American Animus as your dad?
It's not really a family, the Reagans, I read People, there aren't any connections there, no love
They don't ever even speak to each other except through their agents
So what's it like to be Reagan's kid? Enquiring minds want to know
- You can't believe everything you read - But I think we all know what that's like. Nowadays
No connections. No responsibilities
All of us are falling through the cracks that separate what we owe to our selves and...
And what we owe to love
You just... Whatever you feel like saying or doing, you don't (rare, you just do it
- Do what? - It. Whatever. Whatever it is you want to do
Are you trying to tell me something?
No, I'm just observing
- Impulsive - Yes, I mean it must be scary, you...
Land of the free, home of the brave, call me irresponsible
- It's kind of terrifying - Yeah, well, freedom is
- Heartless, too - Oh, you're not heartless
You don't know
Finish your weenie
Yesterday was Sunday but I've been a little unfocused recently and I thought it was Monday
So I came here like I was going to work. And the whole place was empty
And at first I couldn't figure out why, and I had this moment of incredible fear
And also it just flashed through my mind, the whole Hall of Justice, it's empty, it's deserted
It's gone out of business. Forever. The people that make it run have up and abandoned it
- Creepy - Well yes but...
I felt that I was going to scream. Not because it was creepy, but because the emptiness felt so fast
And well, good. A happy scream. I just wondered what a thing it would be...
...if overnight everything you owed anything to, justice, or love, had really gone away. Free
It would be heartless tenor. Yes. Terrible, and very great
To shed your skin, every old skin, one by one, and then walk away, unencumbered, into the morning
- I can't go in there today - Then don't
I can't go in
I can't be this anymore. I need a mange, I should just...
Want some company? For whatever?
Sometimes, even if it scares you to death, you have to be willing to break the law
- Know what I mean? - Yes
I moved out. I moved out on my...
- I haven't been sleeping well - Me neither
Antacid moustache
Maybe the court won't convene. Ever again. Maybe we are free. To do whatever
Children of the new morning, criminal minds. Selfish and greedy and loveless and blind
Reagan's children
You're scared. So am I. Everybody is in the land of the free
God help us all
Mom?
- Joe? - Hi
You're trailing from the street. It's... it must be four in the morning
- What's happened? - Nothing, nothing, I...
It's Harper. ls Harper... Joe? Joe?
Yeah, hi. No, Harper's fine. Well, no, she's not fine
- How are you. Mom? - What's happened?
I just wanted to talk to you. I wanted to try something out on you
- Joe, you haven't... Have you been drinking, Joe? - Yes, ma'am. I'm drunk
- That isn't like you - No. I mean... Who's to say?
Why are you out on the street at four a.m.? In that crazy city. It's dangerous
Actually, Mom. I'm not on the street. I'm near the boathouse in the park
- What park'? - Central Park
Central Park! Oh my Lord. What on earth are you doing in Central Park at this time of night? Are you...
Joe, I think you ought to go home right now. Call me from home. Joe?
- I come here to watch, Mom. Sometimes. Just to watch - Watch what? What's there to watch at...
Mom, did Dad love me?
- What? - Did he?
- You ought to go home and call from there - Answer
Oh now really. This is maudlin. I don't like this conversation
Yeah, well, it gets worse from here on
- Joe? - Mom. Momma
I'm a homosexual, Momma
Boy, did that come out awkward
Hello? Hello? I'm a homosexual
Please, Momma. Say something
You're old enough to understand that your father didn't love you without being ridiculous about it
- What? - You're ridiculous. You're being ridiculous
- I'm what? - You really ought to go home now to your wife
I need to go to bed. This phone call... We will just forget this phone call
- Mom - No more talk. Tonight. This...
Drinking is a sin! A sin! I raised you better than that
- Oh God. Home. The moment of truth has arrived - Harper
- I'm going to move out - The fuck you are
Harper. Please listen. I still love you very much. You're still my best buddy, I'm not going to leave you
No, I don't like the sound of this. I'm leaving
I'm leaving. I already have
Please listen. Stay. This is really hard. We have to talk
We are talking. Aren't we. Now please shut up. OK?
Bastard. Sneaking off while I'm flat out here, that's low
If I could get up now I'd beat the holy shit out of you
- Did you take pills? How many? - No pills. Bad for the...
- You aren't pregnant. I called your gynecologist - I'm seeing a new gynecologist
You have no right to do this
- Oh, that's ridiculous - No fight. It's criminal
Forget about that. Just listen. You want the truth. This is the truth
I knew this when I married you. I've known this I guess for as long as I've known anything, but...
I don't know, I thought maybe that with enough effort and will I could change myself... but I can't
- Criminal - There oughta be a law
There is a law. You'll see
I'm losing ground here, I go walking, you want to know where I walk
I go to the park, or up and down 53rd Street, or places where...
And I keep swearing I won't go walking again, but I just can't
- I need some privacy - That's new
Everything's new, Prior
I try to tighten my heart into a knot, a snarl, I try to learn to live dead, just numb,
But then I see someone I want, and it's like a nail
Like a hot spike fight through my mast, and I know I'm losing
Apartment too small for three? Louis and Prior comfy but not Louis and Prior and Prior's disease?
Something like that. I won't be judged by you
This isn't a crime, just the inevitable consequence of people who run out of... whose limitations...
Bang bang bang. The court will come to order
I mean let's talk practicalities, schedules. I'll come over if you want
- Spend nights with you when I can - Has the jury reached a verdict?
- I'm doing the best I can - Pathetic. Who cares?
My whole life has conspired to bring me to this place, and I can't despise my whole life
I think I believed when I met you I could save you. you at least if not myself. but...
I don't have any sexual feelings for you, Harper. And I don't think I ever did
- I think you should go - Where?
- Washington. Doesn't matter - What are you talking about?
Without me. Without me, Joe
- Isn't that what you want to hear? - Yes
You can love someone and fail them. You can love someone and not be able...
You can, theoretically, yes. A person can, maybe an editorial 'you' can love, Louis
But not you, specifically you. I don't know, I think you are excluded from that general category
You were going to save me, but the whole time you were spinning a lie. I just don't understand that
A person could theoretically love and maybe many do but we both know now you can't
- I do - You can't even say it
- I love you, Prior - I repeat. Who cares?
This is so scary, I want this to stop, to go back
We have reached a verdict, Your Honor. This man's heart is deficient
He loves, but his love is worth nothing
- Harper... - Mr Lies, I want to get away from here
Far away. Before he starts talking again. Please, please
As long as I've known you Harper...
...you've been afraid of men hiding under the bed, men hiding under the sofa, men with knives
I'm dying! You stupid flack! Do you know what that is?
Love! Do you know what love means?
We lived together four and a half years, you animal, you idiot
I have to find some way to save myself
- Who are these men? I never understood it. Now I know - What?
- It's me - It is?
Get out of my room
- I'm the man with the knives - You are?
If I could get up now I'd kill you. I would. Go away. Go away or I'll scream
Oh God
- I'm sorry - It is you
- Please don't scream - Go
I recognize you now
Please...
Oh. Wait. I... Oh! I'm bleeding
- Mr Lies - Right here
- I want to go away. I can't see him anymore - Where?
- Anywhere. Far away - Absolutamento
When I open my eyes you'll be gone
Harper?
Huh. It worked
Harper?
I hurt all over. I wish I was dead
Look at that view! A view of Heaven
Like the living city of Heaven, isn't it, it just fairly glimmers in the sun
Glimmers
Even the stone and brick, it just glimmers and glitters like Heaven in the sunshine
Sum a nice view you get, perched up on a canyon rim. Some kind of beautiful place
It's just Salt Lake, and you're selling the house for me, not to me
- I like to work up an enthusiasm for my properties - Just get me a good price
- Well, the market's off - At least filly
- Forty'd be more like it - Fifty
- Wish you'd wait a bit - Well I can't
Wish you would. You're about the only friend I got
- Oh well now - Know why I decided to like you?
I decided to like you 'use you're the only unfriendly Mormon I ever met
- Your wig is cooked - Fix it
New York City. All they got there is tiny rooms. I always thought people ought to stay put
That's why I got my license to sell real estate. It's a way of saying have a house
Stay put. It's a way of saying traveling's no good. Plus I needed the cash
Not out here, anyone could come by
There's been days I've stood at this ledge and thought about stepping over
It's a hard place, Salt Lake. Baked dry
Abundant energy, not much intelligence. That's a combination that can wear a body out
No harm looking someplace else. I don't need much room
My sister-in-law Libby thinks there's radon gas in the basement
- ls there gas in the...? - Of course not. Libby's a fool
- 'Cause I'd have to include that in the description - There's no gas, Ella
Oh give a puff
Put it away now
So I guess it's good-bye
You'll be all right, Ella, I wasn't ever much of a friend
I'll say something but don't laugh, OK?
This is the home of saints, the godliest place on earth, they say, and I think they're right
That mean there's no evil here? No. Evil's everywhere. Sin's everywhere
But this is the spring of sweet water in the desert, the desert flower
Every step a Believer takes away from here is a step fraught with peril
I fear for you, Hannah PM, because you are my friend. Stay put. This is the right home of saints
- Latter-day saints - Only kind left
But still. Late in the day for saints and everyone. That's all. That's all
Filly thousand dollars for the house, Sister Ella Chapter. Don't undersell. It's an impressive view