第壹部分：千喜年來臨 Part One：Millennium Approaches
第壹幕：噩耗 ACT ONE : Bad News
制作人：王浩成 校訂人：王浩成 后期：在往事中呐喊
大家早上好 Hello and good morning
我是拉比 伊西多·切梅爾維茨 來自希伯來敬老院布朗克斯之家 I am Rabbi Isidor Chemelwitz of the Bronx Home for Aged Hebrews
我們今早齊聚壹堂 為已故的薩拉·艾隆森送行 We are here this morning to pay respects at the passing of Sarah Ironson
她既是壹位顧家的妻子 她的丈夫本傑明·艾隆森已經故去 Devoted wife of Benjamin Ironson, also deceased
也是壹位關愛的母親 她有兒子莫裏斯 亞伯拉罕 薩繆爾 女兒愛思特 瑞秋 Loving and caring mother of her sons Morris, Abraham,and Samuel, and her daughters Esther and Rachel
她又是這些孩子心愛的祖母 馬克斯 路易斯 麗莎 馬麗亞 Beloved grandmother of Max, Mark, Louis, Lisa, Maria...
萊斯利 安吉拉 朵麗絲 盧克 還有埃裏克 Lesley, Angela, Doris, Luke and Eric
埃裏克 這是個猶太名字吧 埃裏克 Eric? This is a Jewish name? Eric
壹個充滿愛心的大家庭 我們齊聚壹堂 共同悼念這位善良正直的女人 A large and loving family. We assemble that we may mourn collectively this good and righteous woman
這個女人 我並不認識她 This woman. I did not know this woman
我不能具體描述她的壹生 公正地對她進行評價 I cannot accurately describe her attributes, nor do justice to her dimensions
她是 希伯來敬老院布朗克斯之家中 有許多像她這樣的人 She was... well, in the Bronx Home for Aged Hebrews are many like this, the old
坦白講 我的發言是針對許多人 而不是單獨這壹位 她寧願沈默 And to many I speak but not, to be frank, with this one. She preferred silence
我不認識她 然而我認識她 So I do not know her and yet I know her
她不是壹個人 而是壹整代人 She was not a person but a whole kind of person
他們漂洋過海 把俄羅斯和立陶宛的村莊也帶給我們 The ones who crossed the ocean, who brought with us to America the villages of Russia and Lithuania
我們為了家庭 為了猶太人的家園 掙紮 奮鬥 And how we struggled, and how we fought, for the family, for the Jewish home
妳們並不是在這裏長大 這是個陌生之地 在這個什麽都不能融化的熔爐 So that you would not grow up here, in this strange place, in the melting pot where nothing melted
這個遷徒的女人的後裔們 妳們並不在美國長大 Descendants of this immigrant woman, you do not grow up in America...
妳和妳的孩子 和妳的孩子的帶著異族名字的孩子 ...you and your children and their children with the goyische names
妳們並不是長在美國 這樣的地方不存在 You do not live in America, no such place exists
妳的肉體是利特瓦克沙特的肉體 妳呼吸的是大草原的空氣 Your clay is the clay of some Litvak shtetl, your air the air of the steppes
她把那個舊世界背在肩上 乘風破浪 漂洋過海 Because she carried the old world on her back across the ocean, in a boat
置於大會堂大道 弗拉特布什 她將這塊土地耕耘到妳們骨子裏 And she put it down on Grand Concourse Avenue, or in Flatbush, and she worked that earth into your bones
妳再傳承給妳的後代 這個古老而又古老的文化和家園 And you pass it to your children, this ancient, ancient culture and home
妳們無法完成她當年的穿越 世界上最壯大的遷徒 已經過去了 You can never make that crossing that she made, for such great voyages in this world do not any more exist
可是每壹天妳們都在做著從彼地到此地的遷徒 But every day of your lives the miles that voyage between that place and this one you cross
每壹天 懂我的話嗎 那次旅程就在妳們身上 因此 Every day. You understand me? In you that journey is. So...
她是最後的莫西幹人 這個人 很快老壹代都是逝去 She was the last of the Mohicans, this one was. Pretty soon all the old will be dead
別掛 Hold...
我希望我是壹個八爪魚 八只可愛的爪 還有吸盤 I wish I was an octopus, a fucking octopus. Eight loving arms and all those suckers
懂我的意思嗎 - 不懂 我 - Know what I mean? - No, I...
來點午餐 - 不用了 真的我不餓 - You want lunch? - No, that's OK really...
艾琳 羅伊·科恩 這是怎麽個話說的 Ailene? Roy Cohn. Now what kind of a greeting is...
我以為咱們是朋友 聽著 索夫爾夫人 妳沒必要 I thought we were friends, Ailene. Look Mrs Suffer you don't have to get...
妳難過了 妳在嚷嚷 只會讓形勢惡化 You're upset. You're yelling. You'll aggravate your condition
咱們別嚷 叫喊會讓臉部肌膚變形 You shouldn't yell, you'll pop little blood vessels in your face if you yell
我說笑話呢 索夫爾夫人 開個玩笑 No that was a joke, Mrs Suffer, I was joking
我已經道歉了16次了 索夫爾夫人 妳 I already apologized sixteen times for that, Mrs Soffer, you...
這得且壹會呢 先吃點東西 這是什麽口味的三明治 This'll take a minute, eat already. What is this tasty sandwich here?
肝臟還是 給 Liver or some... Here
我說過了 不是去休假 I already told you 'wasn't a vacation
是業務 索夫爾夫人 我在海地有客戶 索夫爾夫人 It was business, Mrs Suffer, I have clients in Haiti, Mrs Suffer
聽著 艾琳 妳覺得我是有史以來第壹個錯過開庭日的律師嗎 I... Listen, Ailene, you think I'm the only goddam lawyer in history ever missed a court date?
別這麽 別掛 妳個老巫婆！ Don't make sum a big fucking... Hold. You hag!
如果不是時候 不是時候 時候正好 - If this is a bad time... - Bad time? This is a good time
好寶貝 給我 媽的 等等 Baby doll, get me... Oh fuck, wait
妳好 哪位 抱歉讓妳久等 霍林斯法官 我 Hello? Yah. Sorry to keep you holding, Judge Hollins, I...
霍林斯太太 抱歉親 妳的嗓音好低沈 旅行愉快嗎 Oh Mrs Hollins, sorry dear, deep voice you got. Enjoying your visit?
她的嗓音像個大貨司機 她老公的嗓音像凱特.史密斯 讓人困惑 She sounds like a truck driver and he sounds like Kate Smith, very confusing
他是尼克松任命的 所有的蠢貨來是尼克松任命的 Nixon appointed him, all the geeks are Nixon appointees
好的 完全沒問題 要幾張票 親 Yeah, yeah right good, so how many tickets, dear?
七張 劇目呢 貓 還是42街 還是 不 妳不會喜歡《鳥籠》 Seven? For what, Cats, 42nd Street,what?No, you wouldn't like La Cage
信我 我懂 噢看在上帝的份上 別掛 Trust me, I know. Oh for god sake. Hold
好寶貝 七張《貓》的票 或是搶手票 不管什麽票 他們也不在乎 Baby doll, seven for Cats or something, anything hard to get, I don't give a fuck what and neither will they
妳看《鳥籠》了嗎 沒有 我 - You see La Cage? - No, I...
太棒了！百老匯的最好演出 沒準再不會有更好的 Fabulous. Best thing on Broadway. Maybe ever
誰 耶穌基督 哈利 不是 約翰·佛朗西斯·格裏姆斯法官 曼哈頓家事法院 Who? Aw, Jesus H. Christ, Harry, no, Harry, Judge John Francis Grimes, Manhattan Family Court
所有的事 都要我親力親為嗎 Do I have to do every goddamn thing myself?
聯系那個王八蛋 別再打我這個電話 我告訴妳不要 Touch the bastard, Harry, and don't call me on this line again, I told you not to
羅伊 我需要在外面等嗎 --噢 噓 - Roy, should I wait outside? - Oh sh
妳別掛 我讓妳別掛 妳個小王八羔子 You hold. I pay you to hold, fuck you Harry you jerk. Half-wk dink-brain
我見到了宇宙 喬 像外太空的沙塵暴 有著狂飆突進的速度 I see the universe, Joe. as a kind of sandstorm in outer space with winds of mega-hurricane velocity
只是沙塵暴刮的不是沙塵 是碎玻璃渣 But instead of grains of sand it's shards and splinters of glass
妳能感覺出來嗎 有過壹天這樣的日子嗎 - 沒有 - You ever feel that way? Ever have one of those days? - I'm not sure
上訴法院的日子怎麽樣 法官對妳如何 - 他問妳好 - So how's life in Appeals? How's the judge? - He sends his best
那個人不錯 忠誠 不是歷任法官裏最聰明的 但很懂規矩 He's a good man. Loyal. Not the brightest man on the bench, but he has manners
滿頭的銀絲 - 讓我挑起了很多的擔子 - And a nice head of silver hair - He gives me a lot of responsibility
是 給他寫判決書 簽他的名字 - 唉 - Yeah, like writing his decisions and signing his name - Well...
他是個好人 妳掩護得很體面 - 啊 過獎了 羅伊 我 - He's a nice guy. And you cover admirably - Well, thanks, Roy, I...
好 哪位 妳他媽是誰 別掛 Yeh? Who is this? Well who the fuck are you? Hold
哈利 八萬七千 差不多那個數 去他媽的 吃了我吧！ Harry? Eighty-seven grand, something like that. Fuck him. Eat me
新澤西 威霍肯的成人片連鎖店 New Jersey, chain of porno film stores in Weehawken
這才是 哈利 這是法律的動人之處 That's... Harry, that's the beauty of the law
哪 好寶貝 怎麽樣 貓 唉！ So, baby doll, what? Cats? Ugh
貓！演的是貓 會唱歌的貓 妳肯定喜歡 八點 劇場通常八點開演 Cats! It's about cats. Singing cats, you'll love it. Eight o'clock, the theater's always at eight
該死的遊客！ Fucking tourists
享受壹下 喬 吃點東西 看在上帝的份上 - 羅伊 妳能不能 - Oh live a little, Joe, eat something for Christ sake - Um, Roy, could you...
什麽 請等壹下 索夫爾夫人 What? Hold a minute. Mrs Suffer? Mrs...
該死的下地獄的上帝 哪去 - 羅伊 我希望妳 - God-fucking-damnit to hell, where is... - Roy, I'd really appreciate it if...
她剛才還在線 好寶貝 看壹下 Well she was here a minute ago, baby doll, see if...
耶穌啊 操妳媽！ - 我的確希望妳別 - Jesus fuck this goddamn thing! - I really wish you wouldn't...
好寶貝 打給華盛頓郵報 接通蘇珊的電話 Baby doll? Ring The Post, get me Suzy see if...
基督啊！- 羅伊！ - Christ! - Roy!
別掛 怎麽了 - 妳不要動不動就喊上帝 好嗎 - Hold. What? - Could you please not take the Lord's name in vain?
對不起 請不要那樣 至少我在的時候不要 I'm sorry. But please. At least while I'm...
好的 抱歉 操 美國獨壹份 Right. Sorry. Fuck. Only in America
好寶貝 讓他們去死吧 就說我不在 Baby doll, tell 'em all to fuck off. Tell 'em I died
妳應付索夫爾夫人 告訴她正在辦 告訴她我在跟法官上床 You handle Mrs Suffer. Tell her it's on the way. Tell her I'm schtupping the judge
我打給她 我會打給她 我知道我借了多少 I'll call her back. I will call her. I know how much I borrowed
她得到了四百倍 塞滿了 好的 就跟她這麽說 She's got four hundred times that stuffed up her... Yeah, tell her I said that
好了 喬 - 抱歉 羅伊 我剛才 - So Joe - I'm sorry Roy, I just...
不用不用 原則重要 我尊重原則 我不虔誠 但是我愛上帝 上帝愛我 No no no no, principles count, I respect principles, I'm not religious but I like God and God likes me
浸禮會還是天主教 - 摩門教 - Baptist, Catholic? - Mormon
摩門教 太有趣了 絕對是 美國獨壹份 Mormon. Delectable. Absolutely. Only in America
好了 喬 妳覺得怎麽樣 - 還行 - So, Joe. Whattya think? - It's... well...
很瘋狂 - 混亂 - Crazy life - Chaotic
不錯 但是上帝保佑混亂 對不對 Well, but God bless chaos. Right?
摩門教 我知道內華達州有摩門教 - 主要在猶他州 - Mormons. I know Mormons, in Nevada - Utah, mostly
不 我知道的那些摩門教徒在拉斯維加斯 No, these Mormons were in Vegas
言歸正傳 妳想不想去華盛頓 就職司法部 So. So, how'd you like to go to Washington and work for the Justice Department?
再說壹遍 Sorry?
妳想不想去華盛頓 就職司法部 How'd you like to go to Washington and work for the Justice Department?
我只要拿起電話 跟艾德通個信 妳就進去了 All I gotta do is pick up the phone, talk to Ed, and you're in
進到哪 具體點說 In what, exactly?
高層的副助理 內務部 關鍵職位 有影響力的肥缺 Associate Assistant Something Big. Internal Affairs, heart of the woods, something nice with clout
艾德? - 密斯 司法部長 - Ed...? - Meese. The Attorney General
噢 - 我拿起電話就能辦到 - Oh - I just have to pick up the phone
我要考慮壹下 - 當然了 - I have to think - Of course
去華盛頓的關鍵時刻 喬 - 羅伊 太讓人興奮了 - It's a great time to be in Washington, Joe - Roy, it's incredibly exciting
對我也很重要 妳懂吧 And it would mean something to me. You understand?
我很感激 都無以言表了 我有點 暈 我是說 I can't say how much I appreciate this Roy, I'm sort of... well, stunned, I mean...
謝謝 羅伊 我需要時間想壹想 我跟我妻子商量壹下 Thanks, Roy. But I have to give it some thought. I have to ask my wife
妳妻子 當然 Your wife. Of course
可我真的非常感激 - 當然 跟妳妻子商量壹下 - But I really appreciate... - Of course. Talk to your wife
孤獨的人 獨處的人 自言自語地瞎扯 想象著 People who are lonely, people left alone, sit talking nonsense to the air. imagining...
美麗的體系在死去 古老的既定秩序在分崩離析 ...beautiful systems dying, old fixed orders spiraling apart
從外表看 從太空飛船上看 臭氧層像壹層淡藍光暈 When you look at the ozone layer, from outside, from a spaceship, it looks like a pale blue halo
輕柔的、發光的光暈 包圍著大氣層 包圍著地球 A gentle, shimmering aureole encircling the atmosphere, encircling the earth
我們上空的三十英裏 薄薄的壹層三原子氧分子層 Thirty miles above our heads, a thin layer of three-atom oxygen molecules...
光合作用的結果 這就解釋了挑剔的蔬菜為什麽偏愛可見光 Product of photosynthesis, which explains the fussy vegetable preference for visible light...
它抵制暗射線和發射物 來自外部的危險 ...its rejection of darker rays and emanations. Danger from without
上帝賜予的某種天分 對世界造物的滑稽接觸 It's a kind of gift, from God, the clowning touch to the creation of the world
保護天使 手牽著手 圍成球形的網 Guardian angels, hands linked, make a spherical net
壹張藍綠色的築巢 對生命的保護殼 A blue-green nesting orb, a shell of safety for life itself
無論什麽地方 壹切都在崩潰 假象在浮出水面 保護系統在垮掉 But everywhere, things are collapsing, lies surfacing, systems of defense giving way
這就是為什麽 喬 我不能壹個人獨處的原因 This is why, Joe, this is why I shouldn't be left alone
我想去旅行 把妳留在家裏擔心 I'd like to go traveling. Leave you behind to worry
我會寄明信片 上面貼著奇奇怪怪的郵票 後面寫上壹些逗弄的話 I'll send postcards with strange stamps and tantalizing messages on the back
或許會的 永不會了 'Later maybe.' 'Nevermore'
噢 妳嚇我壹跳 - 現金 支票還是信用卡 - Oh! You startled me - Cash, check or credit card?
我記得妳 妳從鹽湖城來 我們飛往紐約的時候 妳賣給我們的飛機票 I remember you. You're from Salt Lake. You sold us the plane tickets when we flew here
妳在布魯克林做什麽 - 妳說妳想旅行 - What are you doing in Brooklyn? - You said you wanted to travel
妳就來了 好貼心 - 我叫謊言 國際秩序旅行代理人 - And here you are. How thoughtful - Mr Lies. Of the International Order of Travel Agents
我們全球行動 助人們漂流 我們攪動人流 叫流浪的人滿世界流動 We mobilize the globe, we set people adrift, we stir the populace and send nomads eddying across the planet
我們是運動的適應版 變動的仆人 現金 支票還是信用卡 選好目的地 We are adapts of motion, acolytes of the flux. Cash, check or credit card. Name your destination
南極洲 還不錯 我想看看臭氧層空洞 Antarctica, maybe. I want to see the hole in the ozone
我從收音機上聽到的 我可以安排導遊 - I heard on the radio... - I can arrange a guided tour
現在 - 過幾天 或許過幾天 - Now? - Soon. Maybe soon
妳知道我在這沒有安全感 壹切都不對 怪異的事情發生 I'm not safe here you see. Things aren't right with me. Weird stuff happens
比方說 - 唉 比方說妳 突然冒出來了 - Like? - Well, like you, for instance. Just appearing
或是上周 噢 沒關系了 Or last week... well never mind
人們就像行星 妳需要壹層厚厚的皮膚 People are like planets, you need a thick skin
很多事情找上我 喬又不在家 瞧 我的夢境找我對話了 Things get to me, Joe stays away and now... Well look. My dreams are talking back to me
這是不安分的代價 運動病 唯壹的治愈藥就是保持運動 It's the price of restlessness. Motion sickness. The only cure, to keep moving
我尚未決定 我感覺有事要發生 1985了 再15年就是第三個千喜年 I'm undecided. I feel that something's going to give. It's 1985. Fifteen years till the third millennium
沒準基督會再次降臨 沒準種子會再次播下 Maybe Christ will come again. Maybe seeds will be planted
然後結出果子 有最初的智慧果可以吃 或許就有了新生 新的血液 Maybe there'll be harvests then, maybe early figs to eat, maybe new life, maybe fresh blood
或許會有了陪伴 愛和保護 安全不受外部侵擾 或許門會關緊 Maybe companionship and love and protection, safety from what's outside, maybe the door will hold
也可能 有大麻煩了 末日就要來臨 Or maybe...Maybe the troubles will come, and the end will come
天塌地陷 暴雨傾盆 毒光四射 And the sky will collapse and there will be terrible rains and showers of poison light
沒準我的人生完好 沒準喬是愛我的 我只是想入非非 Or maybe my life is really fine, maybe Joe loves me and I'm only crazy thinking otherwise
也許不是 也許比我想得更糟糕 Or maybe not, maybe it's even worse than I know, maybe...
我想知道 也許我不想知道 I want to know, maybe I don't
謊言先生 這種疑慮 在折磨我 - 我建議休假 - The suspense, Mr Lies, it's killing me - I suggest a vacation
電梯響了 噢上帝 我應該梳洗壹下 That was the elevator. Oh God, I should fix myself up
妳快走吧 妳不該來這 妳是虛構的 You have to go, you shouldn't be here, you aren't even real
決定好了叫我 - 快走！ - Call me when you decide - Go!
寶貝 寶貝 抱歉我晚了 剛出去了壹下 走了走 Buddy? Buddy? Sorry I'm late. I was just out. Walking
等急了吧 - 有點不放心 - Are you mad? - I got a little anxious
寶貝親親 Buddy kiss
沒什麽好擔心的 好了 Nothing to get anxious about. So...
妳覺得搬到華盛頓住 怎麽樣 So how would you like to move to Washington?
我奶奶實際上見過愛瑪·古德曼發言 用依地語 My grandmother actually saw Emma Goldman speak. In Yiddish
但她所能記得的 就只是她講得很好 並戴了壹頂帽子 But all Grandma could remember was that she spoke well and wore a hat
葬禮好怪異 那個拉比 What a weird service. That rabbi
壹個準確的發現 妳去墓地 要他的電話 我要他在我的葬禮上發言 A definite find. Get his number when you go to the graveyard. I want him to bury me
我要去了 落棺後 人們要在棺材上灑土 Better head out there. Everyone gets to put dirt on the coffin once it's lowered in
噢 墓園的樂趣 千萬不能省 Oooh. Cemetery fun. Don't want to miss that
猶太人表達愛的古老習俗 拿著 奶奶 給妳壹鏟子 It's an old Jewish custom to express love. Here, Grandma, have a shovelful
遲到的人總會擔心墓穴被填滿了土 Latecomers run the risk of finding the grave completely filled
她真的很瘋狂 在那個敬老院住了十年 自言自語 She was pretty crazy. She was up there in that home for ten years, talking to herself
我從未看過她 她看上去很像我的母親 I never visited. She looked too much like my mother
可憐的路易斯 很難過妳奶奶去世了 - 微小的棺材 哈 - Poor Louis. I'm sorry your grandma is dead - Tiny little coffin, huh?
抱歉我沒有介紹妳 我在家族事務上壹直都很隱蔽 Sorry I didn't introduce you to... I always get so closety at these family things
爺們！妳會變爺們 Butch. You get butch
嘿 朵麗絲表妹 妳還記得我嗎 我是路 瑞秋的兒子 'Hi, Cousin Doris, you don't remember me, I'm Lou, Rachel's boy'
路 不是路易斯 妳怕發出S的嘶嘶聲 Lou, not Louis, because if you say Louis they'll hear the sibilant S
我沒有 我不怪妳 隱藏 - I don't have a... - I don't blame you, hiding
血脈 猶太人的詛咒是最糟糕的 Bloodlines. Jewish curses are the worst
如果猶太人看著我的眼對我說“Feh” 我就會被溶解 I personally would dissolve if anyone ever looked me in the eye and said 'Feh'
很幸運盎格魯薩克遜新教白人不說Feh 對了寶貝 順便提醒妳 表妹朵麗絲是拉拉 Fortunately WASPs don't say 'Feh.' Oh and by the way, darling, Cousin Doris is a dyke
不 是嗎 - 妳甚至都沒註意到 - No. Really? - You don't notice anything
四年來不是我給妳口交 我敢說妳就是直的 If I hadn't spent the last four years fellating you I'd swear you were straight
妳情緒很臭 貓還沒找到 You're in a pissy mood. Cat still missing?
毛都找不到 都怪妳 - 怪我嗎 - Not a furball in sight. It's your fault - It is?
我警告過妳 名字很重要 I warned you, Louis. Names are important
給動物起名叫小希巴 妳還指望它不跑掉 Call an animal Little Sheba and you can't expect it to stick around
還有 那是個狗名 - 我起初就想養只狗 不是貓 - Besides, it's a dog's name - I wanted a dog in the first place, not a cat
他在我書上尿尿 - 他是壹只母貓 - He sprayed my books - He was a female cat
貓是愚蠢的、容易激怒的食肉動物 巴比倫人把它們封在磚裏 Cats are stupid, high-stung predators. Babylonians sealed them up in bricks
狗很聰明 - 貓有直覺 - Dogs have brains - Cats have intuition
聰明的狗 跟遲鈍的兩歲孩子壹樣的智商 A sharp dog is as smart as a really dull two-year-old child
貓能預知災難 - 除非妳不餵它 - Cats know when something's wrong - Only if you stop feeding them
他們知道 這就是為什麽希巴跑了 她知道 - 知道什麽 - They know. That's why Sheba left, because she knew - Knew what?
今早我像雪莉·布思 盡了最大努力 軟拖鞋 家常服 卷發夾 壹罐糧 I did my best Shirley Booth this morning, floppy slippers, housecoat, curlers, can of Little Friskies
回來吧 小希巴 回來吧！都是徒勞 那只貓 永遠永遠都不會回來了 'Come back, Little Sheba, come back, ' To no avail. Le chat, elle ne reviendra jamais, jamais
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只是血管破裂 - 最好的醫學權威可不這麽說 - That's just a burst blood vessel - Not according to the best medical authorities
是什麽 告訴我 What? Tell me
卡波濟肉瘤 寶貝 病變壹號 瞧瞧 K.S. baby. Lesion number one. Lookit
死亡天使的深紅色之吻 - 得了 - The wine-dark kiss of the angel of death - Oh please
我是病變患者 國外病變 美國病變 病變患者之病 I'm a lesionnaire. The Foreign Lesion. The American Lesion. Lesionnaire's disease
打住 - 我的麻煩是病變 - Stop - My troubles are lesion
能打住嗎? - 妳不覺得我應付得很好嗎 - Will you stop - Don't you think I'm handling this well?
我要死了 - 放屁 - I'm going to die - Bullshit
放開我的胳膊 - 不要 - Let go of my arm - No
放開 - 不要 - Let go - No
我不知道該如何叫妳省心 寶貝 I can't find a way to spare you, baby
再沒有比科學之墻更加堅固的了 壹頭碰上 頭破血流 No wall like the wall of hard scientific fact. K.S. Wham. Bang your head on that
操妳 操妳 操妳 操妳 Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you
哪 這才是我想聽的 反應成熟了 Now that's what I like to hear. A mature reaction
我們回去 看看貓回來了沒有 Let's go see if the cat's come home
路易斯? - 妳什麽時候發現的 - Louis? - When did you find this?
我不能告訴妳 - 為什麽 - I couldn't tell you - Why?
我害怕 路 - 怕什麽 - I was scared, Lou - Of what?
怕妳離開我 - 噢 - That you'll leave me - Oh
時機不對 又是葬禮又是什麽的 但是我想既然我們提到了死 Bad timing, funeral and all, but I figured as long as we're on the subject of death...
我要去祖母的墓地了 - 路 - I have to go bury my grandma - Lou?
然後就回家 - 然後就回家 - Then you'll come home? - Then I'll come home
華盛頓 - 給我的壹項莫大的榮譽 寶貝 - Washington? - It's an incredible honor, buddy
我要考慮壹下 - 當然 - I have to think - Of course
拒絕 - 妳說妳要考慮壹下 - Say no - You said you were going to think about it
我不想住華盛頓 - 唉 我想 - I don't want to live in Washington - Well I do
那是個巨大墳場 到處都是巨大白色的墳墓和陵園 It's a giant cemetery, huge white graves and mausoleums everywhere
我們住在馬裏蘭 或喬治城 We could live in Maryland. Or Georgetown
我們在這很幸福 - 不是這樣的 寶貝 - We're happy here - That's not really true, buddy
已經夠幸福了 假裝幸福 聊勝於無 Well happy enough. Pretend-happy. That's better than nothing
是時候做壹些改變了 哈珀 - 為什麽要改變 - It's time to make some changes, Harper - No changes. Why?
我做了四年的書記員 壹年掙上兩萬九千美元 很荒唐 I've been chief clerk for four years. I make twenty-nine thousand dollars a year. That's ridiculous
我班級第四名畢業 混得比我認識的任何人都差 I graduated fourth in my class and I make less than anyone I know
我厭倦了做壹名書記員 我想換個情形在好轉的地方 And I am tired of being a clerk, I want to go where something good is happening
華盛頓情形也沒有好轉 Nothing good happens in Washington
我們會忘了教會教義 上康蘭買家具 變成雅皮士 We'll forget church teachings, we'll buy furniture at Conran's and become yuppies
這裏我還有很多事情要做 - 做什麽 - I have too much to do here - Like what?
我有很多事 - 什麽事 - I do have things - What things?
我要把臥室粉刷完 - 妳粉刷了壹年多了 - I have to finish painting the bedroom - You've been painting in there for over a year
我知道 還沒幹完 我沒有時間把它幹完 I know. It just isn't done because I never get time to finish it
妳這麽說沒道理 妳有的就是時間 妳可以趁我上班的時候幹 That doesn't make sense. You have all the time in the world. You could finish it when I'm at work
我害怕壹個人在臥室 - 害怕什麽 - I'm afraid to go in there alone - Afraid of what?
我聽到那裏有人 在墻上磨金屬 也許是個男人 拿著刀 I heard someone in there. Metal scraping on the wall. A man with a knife, maybe
臥室裏沒人 哈珀- 現在沒人 - There's no one in the bedroom, Harper - Not now
早上也沒人 - 妳怎麽知道 妳早上在上班 - Not this morning either - How do you know? You were at work this morning
這個地方叫人毛骨悚然 妳記得《羅斯瑪麗的嬰兒》嗎 There's something creepy about this place. Remember Rosemary's Baby?
《羅斯瑪麗的嬰兒》 我們的公寓就像那個 - Rosemary's Baby? - Our apartment looks like that one
那個公寓不就在布魯克林嗎 -沒有 在 - Wasn't that apartment in Brooklyn? - No, it was...
唉 看上去像 的確 -那我們搬家 - Well. It looked like this. It did - Then let's move
喬治城更糟 《驅魔人》在喬治城 Georgetown's worse. The Exorcist was in Georgetown
到哪都有惡魔 寶貝 -是的 到哪都有 - The devil everywhere you turn, huh, buddy - Yeah. Everywhere
今天吃了幾片藥 寶貝 - 壹片沒吃 - How many pills today, buddy? - None
壹片 三片 就三片 One. Three. Only three
為什麽只有兩個木樁固定棺蓋 Why are there just two little wooden pegs holding the lid down?
她想出來的話 就容易些 So she can get out easier if she wants to
我希望她不要出來 這些年我假裝她已經不在人世 I hope she stays put. I pretended for years that she was already dead
得知她去世的消息 我吃了壹驚 我拋棄了她 When they called to say she had died it was a surprise. I abandoned her
子女的忘恩負義 比蛇的牙齒還鋒利 - 我不會依地語 Sharfer vi di tson fun a shlang iz an umdankbar kind - I don't speak Yiddish
子女的忘恩負義 比蛇的牙齒還鋒利 莎士比亞的《李爾王》 'Sharper than the serpent's tooth is the ingratitude of children.' Shakespeare. King Lear
《聖經》是如何評判人們在危難關頭拋棄所愛之人的這種行為的 Rabbi, what does the Holy Writ say about someone who abandons someone he loves at a time of great need?
人為什麽會這麽做 - 因為必須 - Why would a person do such a thing? - Because he has to
也許因為這個人知道世界會因奮鬥而更好 Maybe because this person's sense of the world, that it will change for the better with struggle...
也許這位新黑格爾主義的實證主義者知道歷史在不斷進步 Maybe a person who has this neo-Hegelian positivist sense of constant historical progress...
人必須朝著幸福和完美邁進 ...towards happiness or perfection or something
他感知了強大力量 因為他感到和這些力量進行連接 不斷攀登 Who feels very powerful because he feels connected to these forces, moving uphill all the time...
也許這個人不能把疾病納入到他感知事物前進的範疇 Maybe that person can't incorporate sickness into his sense of how things are supposed to go
也許 嘔吐 疼痛 疾病嚇壞了他 也許他應付不了死亡 Maybe vomit and sores and disease really frighten him, maybe he isn't so good with death
《聖經》沒有描述過這樣的人物 The Holy Scriptures have nothing to say about such a person
拉比 我對即將犯下的罪行 感到害怕 Rabbi, I'm afraid of the crimes I may commit
行行好 先生 我又病又老 還要走上漫長的路 回布朗克斯之家 Please, mister. I'm a sick old rabbi facing a long drive home to the Bronx
妳想懺悔 最好找個牧師 - 可我不是天主教徒 我是猶太人 - You want to confess, better you should find a priest - But I'm not a Catholic, I'm a Jew
太不幸了 bubbulah Worse luck for you, bubbulah
天主教相信救贖 猶太教相信原罪 Catholics believe in forgiveness. Jews believe in guilt
妳能保證那些木樁子穩固就好 You just make sure those pegs are in good and tight
別擔心 先生 她的壹生 會叫她安息 她會好起來的 Don't worry, mister. The life she had, she'll stay put. She's better off
聽著 我知道這對妳來說不容易 但妳要理解 這對我很重要 Look, I know this is scary for you. But try to understand what it means to me
盡力好嗎 - 好 - Will you try? - Yes
很好 很盡力 我覺得世界就要發生改變了 Good. Really try. I think things are starting to change in the world
但是我並不想 等壹下 變好 越變越好 - But I don't want... - Wait. For the good. Change for the good
美國重新找回了自己 找回了它在世界中的神聖地位 America has rediscovered itself. Its sacred position among nations
人民不再像之前那樣深感愧疚 這是好事 And people aren't ashamed of that like they used to be. This is a great thing
真理得以留存 秩序得以穩固 這是裏根總統的功勞 哈珀 The truth restored. Law restored. That's what President Reagan's done, Harper
他說：真理存在 可以驕自豪地說出來 人民已經回應了 He says: 'Truth exists and can be spoken proudly.' And the country responds to him
我們好起來了 好處會更多 我想參與 我需要重大變化的鼓舞 We become better. More good. I need to be a part of that, I need something big to lift me up
我是說 六年前 世界在崩潰 變得醜陋無望 I mean, six years ago the world seemed in decline, horrible, hopeless...
充滿了障礙 犯罪 困惑 饑餓 和 Full of unsolvable problems and crime and confusion and hunger and...
現在仍舊如此 還不如以前 他們說臭氧層 But it still seems that way. More now than before. They say the ozone layer is...
哈珀 - 今天窗外亞特蘭大大街 - Harper - And today out the window on Atlantic Avenue...
有壹個精神分裂的交警 就在做這些 ...there was a schizophrenic traffic cop who was making these...
打住！我在表達論點 - 我也在表達 - Stop it！ I'm trying to make a point - So am I
妳在胡說八道！ - 我的觀點是世界看上去 - You aren't even making sense - My point is the world seems just as...
妳之所以這麽看 是因為妳從來都不出門 哈珀 妳情緒不穩 It only seems that way to you because you never go out in the world, Harper, and you have emotional problems
我出門-妳不出門 - I do so get out in the world - You don't
妳整天待在家裏 焦慮不安 胡思亂想 - 我出門 妳不知道我幹什麽了 - You stay in all day, fretting about imaginary... - I get out. I do. You don't know what I do
妳沒有整天在家 - 沒有 - You don't stay in all day - No
好了 妳當然整天在家 - 那是妳的看法 - Well... Yes you do - That's what you think
妳去哪了 - 妳去哪了 妳出去走走的時候 - Where do you go? - Where do you go? When you walk
而且 我沒有情緒不穩 - 抱歉 - And I do not have emotional problems - I'm sorry
如果我真的情緒不穩 也是跟妳壹起生活的結果 And if I do have emotional problems it's from living with you
要不 - 對不起 寶貝 我不是有意 - Or... - I'm sorry, buddy, I didn't mean to...
如果妳覺得我情緒不穩 妳真不該娶我 妳藏著那麽多秘密和謊話 Or if you do think I do then you should never have married me. You have all these secrets and lies
哈珀 我想娶妳 - 妳不該娶我 這是個錯誤 - I want to be married to you, Harper - You shouldn't. You never should
嘿寶貝 嘿寶貝 Hey, buddy. Hey. buddy
寶貝親親 Buddy kiss
我聽收音機 講如何口交 - 什麽 - I heard on the radio how to give a blowjob - What?
想要試試嗎 - 妳不應該聽那些亂七八糟的 - You want to try? - You really shouldn't listen to stuff like that
摩門教允許口交 Mormons can give blowjobs
哈珀 - 喬 - Harper - Joe
是個帶德國口音的猶太女士 It was a little Jewish lady with a German accent
現在正是時候 我想懷個孩子了 This is a good time. For me to make a baby
然後他們可以去參與臭氧層空洞的項目 在南極洲 Then they went on to a program about holes in the ozone layer. Over Antarctica
皮膚在燃燒 鳥變瞎了 冰山融化 世界走向了末日 Skin burns, birds go blind, icebergs melt. The world's coming to an end
唉 早上好 Oh, um... Morning
早上好 顧問 - 抱歉 我 我不知道妳的名字 - Good morning, Counselor - Sorry, I... I don't know your name
別費心 文字處理員 底層中的底層 Don't bother. Word processor. The lowest of the low
喬·皮特 我跟威爾遜法官的 - 噢 我知道 皮特顧問 首席書記員 - Joe Pitt. I'm with Justice 'Wilson - Oh, I know that. Counselor Pitt. Chief Clerk
妳 妳還好吧? - 很好 謝謝 - Were you... Are you OK? - Oh, yeah. Thanks
妳好貼心 - 沒那麽貼心 - What a nice man - Not so nice
什麽 - 沒那麽貼心 沒事 妳確定妳 - What? - Not so nice. Nothing. You sure you're...
人生糟透了 人生真的糟透了！ Life sucks shit. Life just sucks shit
出什麽事了 - 尼龍絲襪老是跑 - What's wrong? - Run in my nylons
什麽 - 沒事 聽著 謝謝關心 - Sorry? - Forget it. Look, thanks for asking
啊 - 我是說妳真的太貼心了 - Well... - I mean it really is nice of you
抱歉 抱歉 朋友生病了 Sorry, sorry. Sick friend
我很難過 - 是的 是的 妳好可愛 - Oh, I'm sorry - Yeah, yeah, well, that's sweet
妳的三個同事先妳看到這不幸的場面 妳是頭個開口問的 Three of your colleagues preceded you to this baleful sight and you're the first one to ask
其他人開了門 看到我 就跑掉了 我希望憋死他們 The others just opened the door, saw me, and fled. I hope they had to pee real bad
他們只是不想打擾- 哈！壹群裏根主義的無情的大男子主義混蛋律師 - They just didn't want to intrude - Hah. Reaganite heartless macho asshole lawyers
這麽說不厚道 - 怎麽說 無情 大男子主義 裏根主義 律師 - That's unfair - What is? Heartless? Macho? Reaganite? Lawyer?
我投裏根的票 - 真的嗎 - I voted for Reagan - You did?
兩次 - 兩次 噢乖乖 壹個同性戀共和黨 - Twice - Twice? Well, oh boy. A Gay Republican
妳說什麽 - 沒說什麽 - Excuse me? - Nothing
我不是 算了 I'm not... Forget it
共和黨 不是共和黨 還是 Republican? Not Republican? Or...
什麽 - 什麽 - What? - What?
不是同性戀 我不是同性戀 - 噢 抱歉 - Not gay. I'm not gay - Oh. Sorry
只是 - 什麽 - It's just... - Yes?
噢 有時候我們從壹個人的聲音可以判斷 Well, sometimes you can tell from the way a person sounds, that...
我是說妳聽上去像 - 我沒有 - I mean you sound like a... - No I don't
像什麽 - 像共和黨 - Like what? - Like a Republican
我聽上去像 - 什麽 像什麽 共和黨 還是 我像嗎 - Do I sound like a...? - What? Like a...? Republican, or...? Do I?
妳像什麽 - 聽上去像不像 - Do you what? - Sound like a...?
像什麽 我困惑了 - 那就對了 - Like a...? I'm confused - Yes
我叫路易斯 我的朋友都叫我路易絲 My name is Louis. But all my friends call me Louise
我是文字處理員 謝謝妳的廁紙 I work in Word Processing. Thanks for the toilet paper
德米爾先生 我準備好拍攝特寫鏡頭了 I'm ready for my closeup, Mr DeMille
人想優雅從容地度過壹生 One wants to move through life with elegance and grace
珍稀綻放 品味高雅 年華正好 Blossoming infrequently but with exquisite taste and perfect timing
像稀有的花朵 Like a rare bloom
像斑馬蘭 A zebra orchid
人之所欲 但是人之所欲 幾乎不會滿足 是不是 One wants... But one so seldom gets what one wants, does one?
不 不會滿足 No. One does not
人會完蛋 人死於三十 奪去盛年的光華 One gets fucked. Over. One dies at thirty, robbed of decades of majesty
真他媽衰！真他媽衰！ Fuck this shit. Fuck this shit
我像壹具死屍 I look like a corpse
壹具女屍 A corpsette
哦我的女皇 妳即使全副盛裝 妳也已經跌入谷底 Oh my queen, you know you've hit rock-bottom when even drag is a drag
妳是 妳是誰 Are you... Who are you?
妳是誰 - 妳在我的幻想世界中做什麽 - Who are you? - What are you doing in my hallucination?
我不在妳的幻想世界 妳在我的夢裏 I'm not in your hallucination. You're in my dream
妳化妝了 - 妳也化妝了 - You're wearing makeup - So are you
可妳是男人 But you're a man
手腳出賣了我 The hands and feet give it away
肯定哪不對勁 我不認識妳 妳不是 There must be some mistake here. I don't recognize you. You're not...
妳是不是 我的假想朋友 - 不是 妳這麽大了 還有假想朋友 - Are you my... some sort of imaginary friend? - Ne. Aren't you too old to have imaginary friends?
我情緒不穩 我吃了藥 I have emotional problems. I took too many pills
妳為什麽扮女裝 Why are you wearing makeup?
我正在化臉 試著哄自己開心 I was in the process of applying the face, trying to make myself feel better
我在梅西百貨的倩碧櫃臺偷了新的秋妝粉底 I swiped the new fall colors at the Clinique counter at Macy's
妳偷來的這些 - 我超支了 這是情緒危機 - You stole them? - I was out of cash. It was an emotional emergency
喬肯定特別生氣 我答應他不再吃藥 - 妳壹直說的藥是什麽 - Joe will be so angry. I promised him no more pills - These pills you keep alluding to?
安定 我吃安定 大量的安定 - 然後妳就跳海了 - Valium. I take Valium. Lots of Valium - And you're dancing as fast as you can
我不上癮 我不相信上癮有什麽幫助 是這樣 我不喝酒 也不吸毒 I'm not addicted. I don't believe in addiction, and I never... Well, I never drink. And I never take drugs
瞧妳光鮮亮麗的 偵探南茜！ Well, smell you, Nancy Drew
除了安定 - 除了安定 就壹小撮 - Except Valium - Except Valium, in wee fistfuls
挺可怕的 摩門教徒不對任何東西上癮 It's terrible. Mormons are not supposed to be addicted to anything
我是摩門教徒 - 我是同性戀 - I'm a Mormon - I'm a homosexual
我們的宗教不相信同性戀 - 我們的宗教不相信摩門教徒 - Oh. In my church we don't believe in homosexuals - In my church we don't believe in Mormons
妳是什麽宗教 噢 我懂了 What church do you... Oh. I get it
我還是沒明白 我以前沒有見過妳 我不覺得 I don't understand this. If I didn't ever see you before and I don't think I did...
我不覺得妳應該出現在我的幻想世界 ...then I don't think you should be here, in this hallucination
因為以我的經驗 頭腦才是幻想的源頭 Because in my experience the mind, which is where hallucinations come from...
不能虛構出壹開始就不存在的東西 ...shouldn't be able to make up anything that wasn't there to start with
因為幻想通過經驗和真實世界 進入頭腦 想象不能創造新東西 是吧 That didn't enter it from experience, from the real world. Imagination can't create anything new, can it?
想象 只把世界的碎片重新利用 集合成幻象 It only recycles bits and pieces from the world and reassembles them into visions
我剛才說的有道理嗎 - 基於目前形勢 有道理 - Am I making sense right now? - Given the circumstances. yes
那麽 我們以為逃避了難忍的平庸和生活的虛偽 So when we think we've escaped the unbearable ordinariness and, well, untruthfulness of our lives...
其實還是同樣的平庸和虛偽 只不過是重新組織成了新奇和真實的表象 ...it's really only the same old ordinariness and falsenes rearranged into the appearance of novelty and truth
未知的東西毫無可知性 妳不覺得這很郁悶嗎 Nothing unknown is knowable. Don't you think it's depressing?
想象的界限 -是的 - The limitations of the imagination? - Yes
這就像是妳總在同壹個主題派對上看到的 壹切都不新鮮 It's something you learn after your second theme party. It's All Been Done Before
這個有限的世界 非常非常的 The world. Finite. Terribly, terribly...
這是我有過的最郁悶的壹次幻想 Well, this is the most depressing hallucination I've ever had
萬分抱歉 我真的盡力要逗妳開心了 Apologies. I do try to be amusing
不要道歉 妳 我沒有指望像妳這種病體沈重的人來娛樂我 Oh, well, don't apologize, you... I can't expect someone who's really sick to entertain me
妳是怎麽看出來的 - 有時候能看出來 - How on earth did you know? - Oh that happens
有時候 果真有天啟的界限 妳能看出來 妳病得很沈重 This is the very threshold of revelation sometimes. You can see things... how sick you are
妳能看出我什麽嗎 - 是的 - Do you see anything about me? - Yes
什麽 - 妳驚人的不開心 - What? - You are amazingly unhappy
這還用說！妳見壹個對沈溺安定藥物的人 推斷她不開心 Oh big deal. You meet a Valium addict and you figure out she's unhappy
這不算 當然我 別的呢 說點出人意料的 That doesn't count. Of course I... Something else. Something surprising
說點出人意料的 - 是 - Something surprising - Yes
妳老公是同性戀 Your husband's a homo
哦 瞎說！ Oh, ridiculous
真的嗎 Really?
天啟的界限 Threshold of revelation
唉 我不喜歡妳的天啟 我覺得妳完全不擅長直覺推斷 Well I don't like your revelations. I don't think you intuit well at all
喬是非常正常的人 他 噢上帝 噢上帝 他 Joe's a very normal man, he... Oh God. Oh God. He...
同性戀喜歡 比方說 長途散步嗎 Do homos take, like, lots of long walks?
是的 我們喜歡 穿著松緊褲 戴著薰衣草頭巾 Yes. We do. In stretch pants with lavender coifs
來往於索多瑪大道 命裏註定 難逃壹死 Up and down the avenues of Sodom we walk. Doomed, doomed
我剛才看到妳 有種 - 有種壹閃即逝的似曾相識 - I just looked at you, and there was... - A sort of blue streak of recognition
是的 - 就像妳我相識已久 - Yes - Like you knew me incredibly well
是的 - 是的 - Yes - Yes
我要走了 我得回去 有什麽東西崩潰了 I have to go now, get back, something just fell apart
噢上帝 我感覺好難過 Oh God, I feel so sad
抱歉 我常說 別在乎他媽的真相 可往往真相不在乎妳 I'm sorry. I usually say, 'Fuck the truth, ' but mostly. the truth fucks you
對於妳 我還看到了別的 - 噢 - I see something else about you - Oh?
妳身體的深處 有壹部分 最隱秘的地方 完全不受疾病感染 Deep inside you, there's a part of you, the most inner part, entirely free of disease
我看的出來 - 是不是 - I can see that - Is that...
妳騙我呢 - 天啟的界限 - That isn't true - Threshold of revelation
家 Home
這裏的人們來無影去無蹤 People come and go so quickly here
我不覺得我身上有任何地方免於疾病的感染 I don't think here's any uninfected part of me
我的心臟輸送的是被汙染的血液 我感覺骯臟 My heart is pumping polluted blood. I feel dirty
擡頭 Look up
哈嘍 Hello?
擡頭 Look up
妳是誰 Who is that?
做好準備 - 我看不到任何 - Prepare the way - I don't see any...
擡頭 擡頭 做好準備 Look up, look up, prepare the way
無限的降臨 空中的呼吸 漂浮下去 The infinite descent. A breath in air. floating down
榮譽歸於 Glory to...
哈嘍 就這些嗎 Hello? Is that it?
哈嘍 搞什麽鬼 Hello! What the fuck?
我好可憐 我好好可憐 Poor me. Poor poor me
為什麽是我 為什麽偏偏是我 Why me? Why poor poor me?
我現在感覺很糟 我真的感覺很糟 Oh I don't feel good right now. I really don't
妳去哪了 - 出去了 - Where were you? - Out
哪 - 就出去了 想事情 - Where? - Just out. Thinking
很晚了 - 有很多事情要想 - It's late - I had a lotto think about
我把晚飯燒糊了 - 對不起 - I burned dinner - Sorry
我的沒有 我的晚飯很好 妳的晚飯 Not my dinner. My dinner was fine. Your dinner
我把妳的放回烤箱 溫度調到最高 然後 I put it back in the oven and turned everything up as high as it could go...
我看著它燒糊的 ...and I watched till it burned black
還熱著呢 非常熱 妳要吃嗎 - 妳沒必要這麽做 - It's still hot. Very hot. Want it? - You didn't have to do that
我知道 好像這才是壹個精神錯亂、性欲饑渴、藥物依賴的家庭主婦該做的 I know. It just seemed like the kind of thing a mentally deranged sex-starved pill-popping housewife would do
於是我就做了 誰知道我還能做出別的什麽事來 So I did it. Who knows anymore what I have to do?
多少片藥 - 大量 別轉移話題 - How many pills? - A bunch. Don't change the subject
我不想跟妳談話 除非妳 - 別別 妳別這樣 我 我很好 - I won't talk to you when you... - No. No. Don't do that! I'm... I'm fine
藥不是問題 不是我們之間的問題 Pills are not the problem, not our problem
我想知道妳去哪了 我想知道是怎麽回事 I want to know where you've been. I want to know what's going on
什麽怎麽回事 工作嗎 - 不是工作 - Going on with what? The job? - Not the job
我說過還需要考慮 - 不是工作 - I said I need more time - Not the job
我跟科恩先生通過電話了 他說我要盡快 Mr Cohn, I talked to him on the phone, he said I had to hurry
但是我無法跟妳理性地討論任何事情 因此 But I can't get you to talk sensibly about anything so...
閉嘴！ - 然後呢 - Shut up! - Then what?
別跑題 - 我不知道妳的主題是什麽 - Stick to the subject - I don't know what that is
妳有什麽話要問我嗎 那就問 問吧！ You have something you want to ask me? Ask me. Go
我問不出來 妳讓我害怕 - 我累了 我去睡了 - I can't. I'm scared of you - I'm tired, I'm going to bed
直接告訴我 別逼我問 - 妳瘋了 我不知道 - Tell me without making me ask - This is crazy, I'm not...
晚上妳回到家來 妳的臉完全不是我記憶中的樣子 When you come through the door at night your face is never exactly the way I remembered it
我很吃驚 妳臉上有種殘忍和沈重的東西 I get surprised by something mean and hard about the way you look
甚至晚上妳在床上的體重 妳沈睡中的呼吸 都不再熟悉 Even the weight of you in the bed at night, the way you breathe in your sleep seems unfamiliar
妳讓我心驚 You terrify me
妳知道妳是誰 - 是的 我是妳的敵人 顯而易見 壹直如此 - I know who you are - Yes. I'm the enemy. That's easy. That doesn't change
妳以為就妳討厭做愛 我也討厭跟妳做愛 我討厭 You think you're the only one who hates sex. I do. I hate it with you, I do
我希望妳對我大打出手 打得骨架分離 像蠟壹樣 把我打成碎片 I dream that you batter away at me till all my joints come apart, like wax, and I fall into pieces
就像壹種懲罰 嫁給妳 就是個錯誤 It's like a punishment. It was wrong of me to marry you
我知道妳 這是罪惡 快把我們折磨死 I knew you... It's a sin, and it's killing us both
妳吃了藥 我能看出來 妳臉紅流汗 I can always tell when you've taken pills because it makes you red-faced and sweaty
坦白講 這就是為什麽經常我不想 And frankly that's very often why I don't want to...
因為 - 因為妳不漂亮 像今天這樣 - Because... - Well you aren't pretty. Not like this
我有話想問妳 - 那就問 問啊！妳到底想 - I have something to ask you - Then ask. Ask! What in hell are you...
妳是同性戀嗎 是嗎 Are you a homo? Are you?
妳現在敢出去的話 我把妳的晚飯放回烤箱 調到最高溫度 If you try to walk out right now I'll put your dinner back in the oven and turn it up so high...
整棟樓就會煙霧彌漫 所有人都窒息而死 上帝保佑我會的 ...the whole building will fill with smoke and everyone in it will asphyxiate. So help me God I will
現在 回答我 - 如果我 - Now answer the question - What if I...
求求妳 告訴我 我們想辦法 - 不是 我不是 - Then tell me, please. And we'll see - No. I am not
我看不出這又有什麽區別 I don't see what difference it makes
猶太人沒有任何關於來生的明確的文字指導 甚至都不存在 Jews don't have any clear textual guide to the afterlife, even that it exists
我思考得不多 對我來說 來生是三月永恒有雨的周四午後 落葉滿地 I don't think much about it. I see it as a perpetual rainy Thursday afternoon in March. Dead leaves
喲唉 非常希臘羅馬式 Eeeugh. Very Greco-Roman
對我們來說 判決結果不重要 重要的是如何判決 Well for us it's not the verdict that counts, it's the act of judgment
這就是我永遠成不了律師的原因 在法院 壹切取決於判決結果 That's why I could never be a lawyer. In court all that matters is the verdict
妳永遠成不了律師 是因為妳性欲過剩 妳總是分心 You could never be a lawyer because you are oversexed. You're too distracted
不是分心 是心不在蔫 我正在試著表達論點 - 即 - Not distracted, abstracted. I'm trying to make a point - Namely?
是議事廳的法官 在權衡 在記錄 在分析證據 It's the judge in his or her chambers, weighing, books open, pondering the evidence
在自由地對分類進行探討 善 惡 無罪 有罪 Ranging freely over categories. Good, evil, innocent, guilty
這是規避室的法官 不是法官席上拿著槌的法官 The judge in the chamber of circumspection, not the judge on the bench with the gavel
法律的形成 不是法律的執行 - 論點 親 論點 - The shaping of the law, not its execution - The point, dear, the point
論點就是法律是人生的問題和模型 That it should be the questions and shape of a life
對總體的復雜性進行匯集 整理 思考 這才是最終重要的東西 Its total complexity gathered, arranged and considered, which matters in the end
不是蓋個救贖或詛咒的章 驅散所有的復雜性 Not some stamp of salvation or damnation which disperses all the complexity...
這些小小的判決絲毫不令人滿意 比例要權衡 ...in some unsatisfying little decision. The balancing of the scales
我喜歡這個 非常禪宗 有著安慰般的費解和無用 I like this. It's very Zen. It's reassuringly incomprehensible and useless
我們是將死的人 謝謝 - 妳不會死的 - We who are about to die thank you - You are not about to die
病情沒有好轉 真的 It's not going well, really
兩處新的病變 我的腿疼 Two new lesions. My leg hurts
小便裏有蛋白質 大夫說 不知道這個到底預示著什麽 There's protein in my urine. the doctor says, but who knows what the fuck that portends
反正蛋白質不該出現在小便裏 我的屁股因腹瀉而皸裂 昨天我便血了 Anyway it shouldn't be there, the protein. My butt is chapped from diarrhea and yesterday I shat blood
我真的憎恨這個 妳沒有告訴我 - 妳會特別難過 我反而要安慰妳 - I really hate this. You don't tell me... - You get too upset, I wind up comforting you
反而更容易 - 噢 謝謝 - It's easier - Oh thanks
情況不好 我會告訴妳 - 便血聽上去就很糟糕 - If it's bad I'll tell you - Shitting blood sounds bad to me
所以我告訴妳了 - 我承受得住 - And I'm telling you - And I'm handling it
再給我講講正義 - 我承受得住 - Tell me some more about justice - I am handling it
路易斯 妳贏了《月度騎兵》 Well Louis. you win Trooper of the Month
我收回 妳沒贏《月度騎兵》 I take it back. You aren't Trooper of the Month
還是沒用 This isn't working
再跟我講講正義 Tell me some more about justice
妳不會死的 - 正義 - You are not about to die - Justice
是無限 是令人困惑的洪荒 正義是上帝 Is an immensity, a confusing vastness. Justice is God
普萊爾 - 嗯 - Prior? - Hmmm?
妳愛我嗎 - 愛 - You love me? - Yes
如果妳我此離開妳了 妳怎麽辦 妳會永遠恨我嗎 What if I walked out on this? Would you hate me forever?
會 Yes
我們應該祈禱 向上帝請求幫助 壹起請求 I think we ought to pray. Ask God for help. Ask him together
上帝不跟我對話 跟我對話的人是我虛構的 God won't talk to me. I have to make up people to talk to me
妳要持續問 - 我忘了問題了 - You have to keep asking - I forgot the question
哦對了 上帝 我老公是 - 打住 打住 我警告妳了 - Oh yeah. God, is my husband a... - Stop it. Stop it. I'm warning you
有什麽區別嗎 Does it make any difference?
我骨子裏的那個東西 不管它多錯誤 多醜陋 That I might be one thing deep within, no matter how wrong or ugly that thing is...
只要我壹直在抗爭 用盡我的壹切 去扼殺它 ...so long as I have fought, with everything I have, to kill it
妳還想讓我怎麽樣 妳還想讓我怎麽樣 哈珀 這還不夠嗎 What do you want from me? What do you want from me, Harper? More than that?
上帝啊 什麽都不剩了 我是個軀殼 沒有要扼殺的東西了 For God's sake, there's nothing left, I'm a shell. There's nothing left to kill
只要我認為我的行為沒有錯 體面 正確 上帝唯獨把這個看在眼裏 As long as my behavior is what I know it has to be. Decent. Correct. That alone in the eyes of God
不 不是這個 這是猶他口吻 摩門口吻 我恨這個 喬 告訴我 快講 No, no, not that, that's Utah talk, Mormon talk, I hate it. Joe. tell me, say it
我要說的是 我是個好人 我非常努力做壹個好人 All I will say is that I am a very good man who has worked very hard to become good
妳想毀掉這些 我想毀掉我！但是我不允許妳這麽做 And you want to destroy that. You want to destroy me, but I am not going to let you do that
我懷上了孩子 - 撒謊 - I'm going to have a baby - Liar
妳撒謊 壹個依賴藥物生出來的嬰兒 壹個不會做夢 只能幻想的嬰兒 You liar. A baby born addicted to pills. A baby who does not dream but who hallucinates
用空洞的大眼睛瞪著我們 卻不知道我們是誰 Who stares up at us with big mirror eyes and who does not know who we are
妳真的 - 沒有 - Are you really...? No
是的 Yes
沒有 No
是的 Yes
離我遠點 Get away from me
現在我們兩人都有秘密了 Now we both have a secret
我的壹個先人是船長 One of my ancestors was a ship's captain...
他靠把鯨魚油賣到歐洲掙錢 再把移民帶回來 ...who made money bringing whale oil to Europe and returning with immigrants
多數是愛爾蘭人 輕裝上陣 每壹人頭值好多美金 Irish mostly, packed in light, so many dollars per head
他指揮的最後壹趟船在新斯科舍沿岸的冬季暴風雨中沈沒 沈入海底 The last ship he captained foundered off the coast of Nova Scotia in a winter tempest and sank to the bottom
他跟著船壹起沈沒了 La Grande Geste（偉大的姿態） He went down with the ship... La Grande Geste
但他的員工帶了70名婦女兒童上了船所附的唯壹大艇裏 壹個大敞篷的劃艇 But his crew took seventy women and kids in the ship's only longboat, this big, open rowboat
當天氣狂暴 他們擔心劃艇不堪重負 And when the weather got too rough, and they thought the boat was overcrowded...
船員就開始輕快搖晃人們 將他們擲入大海 直到壓艙物平穩 ...the crew started lilting people up and hurling them into the sea. Until they got the ballast right
他們來回在大艇裏走動 眼睛盯著吃水線 They walked up and down the longboat, eyes to the waterline
船壹旦低於吃水線 他們就近抓起行客 扔進大海 And when the boat rode low in the water they'd grab the nearest passenger and throw them into the sea
船出現裂縫 妳知道嗎 70人 當船行駛到哈利法克斯港 還剩9個人 The boat was leaky, see. Seventy people. They arrived in Halifax with nine people on board
耶穌啊！ - 我現在總在想這個故事 - Jesus - I think about that story a lot now
船上的人 在恐懼中等待著 另壹部分人 執拗而生冷 無法抗拒的強大 People in a boat, waiting, terrified, while implacable, unsmiling men, irresistibly strong,
壹把抓住的 沒準就是妳旁邊的人 沒準就是妳 seize maybe the person next to you, maybe you
毫無預警 也就快速吸入壹口空氣的當兒 And with no warning at all, with time only for a quick intake of air...
妳就被擲入寒冷洶湧的海水和鹽裏 吞沒於黑暗中 ...you are pitched into freezing, turbulent water and salt and darkness to drown
我喜歡妳的宇宙學 寶貝 I like your cosmology, baby
時間到了盡頭 我發現自己溺死於不管是什麽東西的時候 缺乏壹個結局 While time is running out I find myself drawn to anything that's suspended, that lacks an ending
但是對我來說 看上去能讓妳安然逃脫 - 妳什麽意思 - But it seems to me that it lets you off scot-free - What do you mean?
沒有判決 沒有原罪 沒有責任 - 為了我 - No judgment, no guilt or responsibility - For me
不管為了誰 只是壹個字面上的“妳” For anyone. It was an editorial 'you'
求妳壹定要變好 求妳 求妳壹定不要病情加重 Please get better. Please. Please don't get any sicker
沒人知道什麽引起的 也沒人知道該如何治愈 Nobody knows what causes it. And nobody knows how to cure it
最好的理論是逆轉錄酶病毒惹的禍 人類免疫缺陷病毒 The best theory is that we blame a retrovirus, the Human Immunodeficiency Virus
病毒為我們所知 是因為抗體的無用 Its presence is made known to us by the useless antibodies...
病毒通過劃傷或註射進入血流 抗體開始發生反應 ...which appear in reaction to its entrance into the bloodstream through a cut, or an orifice
抗體對保護身體抗擊病毒完全無用 我們不知道原因 The antibodies are powerless to protect the body against it. Why, we don't know
身體的免疫系統停止作用 有時候 身體甚至自我攻擊 The body's immune system ceases to function. Sometimes the body even attacks itself
無論如何 細菌打開了感染的恐怖屋之門 這些細菌本該保護身體 At any rate it's left open to a whole horror house of infections from microbes which it usually defends against
像卡波濟肉瘤 這些病變 或妳的喉嚨 或腺體 Like Kaposi's sarcomas. These lesions. Or your throat problem. Or the glands
我們認為 病毒能夠通過腦血管屏障 進入大腦 We think it may also be able to slip past the blood-brain barrier into the brain
當然這是非常嚴重的事情 Which is of course very bad news
致命的是 我們並不知道有多少人有抑制免疫應答 And it's fatal in we don't know what percent of people with suppressed immune responses
非常新鮮 魔法師先生 妳幹嗎要對我說這個? This is very interesting, Mr Wizard, but why the fuck are you telling me this?
是這樣 我剛移除了妳三處病變中的壹處 Well, I have just removed one of three lesions...
活檢的結果告訴我們 是卡波濟肉瘤病變 ...which biopsy results will probably tell us is a Kaposi's sarcoma lesion
妳的頸部、腹股溝和腋下的腺體有明顯的腫脹 And you have a pronounced swelling of glands in your neck, groin. and armpits
淋巴結病又是壹個信號 妳有口腔念珠菌感染 Lymphadenopathy is another sign. And you have oral candidiasis...
妳右手的兩個手指的指甲下面感染了更多的細菌 所以 ...and maybe a little more fungus under the fingernails of two digits on your right hand. So that's why...
這個病 - 綜合癥狀 - This disease - Syndrome
隨便了 基本是同性戀和癮君子們得的 Whatever. It afflicts mostly homosexuals and drug addicts
基本上 血友病患者也有風險 - 同性戀和癮君子 - Mostly. Homophiliacs are also at risk - Homosexuals and drug addicts
那麽 妳到暗示我 妳在暗示什麽 亨利 So why are you implying that I... What are you implying, Henry?
我沒 - 我並不是癮君子 - I don't... - I'm not a drug addict
不要這樣 羅伊 - 幹嗎 幹嗎 什麽叫不要這樣 - Oh come on, Roy - What, what, come on Roy what?
妳以為我吸毒嗎 亨利 妳見過針眼嗎 - 這太荒唐了 - Do you think I'm a junkie, Henry, do you see tacks? - This is absurd
說吧 - 說什麽 - Say it - Say what?
說 羅伊·科恩 妳是壹個 - 羅伊 我沒有 - Say 'Roy Cohn, you are a...' - Roy? I don't...
妳是壹個 說呀！ 'You are a...' Go on
不是‘羅伊·科恩妳是壹個癮君子’ 而是‘羅伊·馬庫斯·科恩 妳是壹個’ Not 'Roy Cohn you are a drug fiend'. 'Roy Marcus Cohn, you are a...'
說呀 亨利 以H開頭的詞 - 噢 我並不會 - Go on, Henry. It starts with an H - Oh I'm not going to...
以H開頭的詞 還不是血友病 With an H, Henry, and it isn't 'hemophiliac'
說呀！- 妳為什麽要這麽做 羅伊 - Come on - What are you doing, Roy?
說吧 說吧！我是認真的 ‘羅伊·科恩 妳是同性戀 ’ No, say it. I mean it. Say 'Roy Cohn, you are a homosexual'
我會有條不紊地開始 And I will proceed, systematically...
壹步步 摧毀妳在紐約州的名聲 業務和事業 ...to destroy your reputation and your practice and your career in New York State, Henry
妳知道 我能做到 Which you know I can do
羅伊 從1958年妳就找我看病 Roy, you have been seeing me since 1958
除了面部拉皮 我用盡壹切辦法治好了妳梅毒 Apart from the facelifts I have treated you for everything from syphilis...
來自達拉斯的壹個賣淫者 - 從梅毒到花柳病 病毒在直腸裏面 - From a whore in Dallas - From syphilis to venereal warts. In your rectum
妳可能從達拉斯的賣淫者身上得的 但絕不是壹個女妓 Which you may have gotten from a whore in Dallas, but it wasn't a female whore
那就說吧 - 羅伊·科恩 妳是 - So say it - Roy Cohn, you are...
妳跟男人 有過很多次 很多次性關系 羅伊 You have had sex with men, many many times, Roy
他們有的人 或很多人 叫妳病體嚴重 妳有艾滋 And one of them, or any number of them, has made you very sick. You have AIDS
艾滋 AIDS
妳的毛病 亨利 在於妳過於迷戀文字和標簽 Your problem, Henry, is that you are hung up on words, on labels
妳相信這些文字表面看上去當什麽講 艾滋 同性戀 同誌 拉拉 That you believe they mean what they seem to mean. AIDS. Homosexual. Gay. Lesbian
妳認為這些名字可以告訴妳 誰跟誰睡覺 但是這些名字什麽都不是 You think these are names that tell you who someone sleeps with, but they don't tell you that
不是 - 不是 - No? - No
就像所有的標簽 它們代表壹件事 就壹件事 Like all labels they tell you one thing and one thing only
這個人被明確置於食物鏈啄食順序的哪壹環 Where does an individual so identified fit in the food main, in the pecking order?
不是意識形態 不是性口味 更簡單 是影響力 Not ideology, or sexual taste, but something much simpler. Clout
不是我操誰 也不是誰操我 是我拿起電話誰來接 誰欠我的情 Not who I fuck or who fucks me, but who will pick up the phone when I call, who owes me favors
這是標簽代表的意思 不理解這個意思的人們會以為 This is what a label refers to. Now to someone who does not understand this...
我之所以是同性戀 因為我和男人有性關系 這大錯特錯 ...homosexual is what I am because I have sex with men. But really this is wrong
同性戀並不是男人跟男人睡覺 同性戀是壹群掙紮了15年 Homosexuals are not men who sleep with other men. Homosexuals are men who in fifteen years of trying...
都不能在市議政廳通過壹項無足輕重的反歧視法案的人 ...cannot pass a pissant antidiscrimination bill through City Council
同性戀既毫無人脈 也不為人所知 他們是零影響力 Homosexuals are men who know nobody and who nobody knows. Who have zero clout
聽上去我像是這種人嗎 - 不像 - Does this sound like me, Henry? - No
不 我有影響力 很大的影響力 我拿起電話 撥十五個數字 No. I have clout. A lot. I can pick up this phone, punch fifteen numbers...
妳知道五分鐘後 誰會在電話那頭嗎 亨利 ...and you know who will be on the other end in under five minutes, Henry?
總統 - 更勝壹籌 亨利 他老婆 - The president - Even better, Henry. His wife
我很佩服 - 我不想讓妳佩服 - I'm impressed - I don't want you to be impressed
我想讓妳懂事 這不是詭辯 這也不是偽善 這是現實 I want you to understand. This is not sophistry. And this is not hypocrisy. This is reality
我跟男人上床 但我跟這些男人不同的是 這是真的 I have sex with men. But unlike nearly every other man of whom this is true...
我把我操的男人帶到白宮 裏根總統要笑臉相迎 還得跟他握手 ...I bring the guy I'm screwing to the White House and President Reagan smiles at us and shakes his hand
因為 我是誰定義了我是什麽人 Because what I am is defined entirely by who I am
羅伊·科恩不是同性戀 Roy Cohn is not a homosexual
羅伊·科恩是異性戀 亨利 只不過跟男人上床 Roy Cohn is a heterosexual man, Henry, who fucks around with guys
好吧 羅伊 - 我的診斷是什麽 亨利 - OK, Roy - And what is my diagnosis, Henry?
妳得了艾滋 羅伊 - 不是 亨利 不是 - You have AIDS, Roy - No, Henry, no
艾滋是同性戀的疾病 我得了肝癌 AIDS is what homosexuals have. I have liver cancer
好吧 不管妳得了該死的什麽病 羅伊 這很嚴重 我束手無策 Well, whatever the fuck you have, Roy, it's very serious, and I haven't got a damn thing for you
貝塞斯達的美國國立衛生研究院有新藥物 叫AZT 要等上兩年才能獲得 甚至我都無法幫妳拿到這種藥物 The NIH in Bethesda has a new drug called AZT with a two-year waiting list that not even I can get you onto
打個電話吧 羅伊 撥通那十五個數字 So get on the phone, Roy, and dial the fifteen numbers
告訴第壹夫人 妳需要這種藥為肝癌做實驗處理 And tell the First Lady you need in on an experimental treatment for liver cancer
妳隨便怎麽稱呼妳的病 羅伊 但是說到歸齊 這是噩耗 Because you can call it any damn thing you want, Roy, but what it boils down to is very bad news