have you ever felt like you were locked
into a small cage that's how I felt all
my life growing up my parents controlled
everything I did they told me how to
dress and who to be friends with in
school and of course I was going to a
girls-only school which meant I had
never talked to a single guy other than
my dad and my cousin Ralph one night me
and my dad got into a fight because he
didn't allow me to have a sleepover at
my classmates home my dad was worried
about my classmates brother who was the
same age as me he thought we would make
out and have a baby or something but I
was 17 and so desperate for freedom that
that night I ran away from home and
moved in with my cousin Tara my parents
had no idea where I was and a crazy
period in my life started I made a
complete 180-degree turnaround and
started partying every night then I got
a big tattoo over my belly just so I
could send a photo of it to my dad to
shock him when he responded back he
called me a disgrace and told me to come
back as long as I was a virgin but I
just replied oh you are so naive dad and
then I sent him a photo of me kissing
some random guy at a club I can't
describe how much I enjoyed making my
dad angry and I thought very hard about
what could be the most extreme thing I
could do to shock him but then I had the
perfect idea I would get two holes in my
face one on my left cheek and one on my
right cheek it wasn't easy to find a
body piercer who was willing to put
holes into my face most thought I had
some psychological issue but where there
is a will there is a way and when it was
finally done it was the craziest thing
I've ever seen I ran home went to the
bathroom and brushed my teeth through
one of the two holes while taking a
selfie of course I immediately sent it
to my dad and said this is all your
fault
it took him a whole day to respond but
all he said was you are a disgrace don't
ever contact us again it felt so good to
make my dad angry but it came at a great
cost I started to become more and more
self-destruct
and for Christmas I sent all my parents
neighbors a postcard with my face on it
I knew my dad cared a lot about his
reputation he wanted everyone to think
we were the perfect family but now
everyone would see the truth this time
my dad responded by contacting the
authorities and telling them I was
mentally ill and needed to be locked
away but when they found me and did a
psychiatric assessment it only said I
was depressed so they couldn't lock me
away into a psychiatric ward they also
did a blood test on me and found out I
was hepatitis B positive I'm sure my
boyfriend gave it to me he slept with a
new girl almost every night and when we
met we never used protection
I had always looked up to pop stars who
did whatever they wanted and partied
like crazy but that life didn't make me
happy I'm still trying to get out of it
but my life is such a big mess I don't
even know where to start and by the way
why didn't I just Photoshop the two
holes into my face on a photo it would
have been easier faster and a less
painful I could have still sent a
photoshopped image to my dad to make him
angry but now my face is ruined forever
gosh my life is a nightmare