请做好准备下船 Please prepare to exit the ferry.
各位乘客请注意 Attention on deck.
我们已经抵达火岛派恩斯 We are now arriving at Fire Island Pines.
各位 欢迎来到火岛 Welcome to Fire Island, everybody.
上岸请注意安全 Please take care exiting the boat.
小心台阶湿滑 Those steps can be wet.
请您再次检查一遍是否带好了所有随身物品... Also double-check you have all your luggage...
祝您愉快 Have a good day.
- 嘿 Weeks - 嘿 亲爱的 - Hey, Weeks. - Hey, honey.
最近怎么样? How you doing?
我们都挺好 We're doing great.
我们到了 Here we are.
你们在干嘛? What are you guys doing?
胸毛长出来了 该你了 泰迪熊 Hairy is out. Your turn, teddy bear.
不 我爱我的泰迪 Oh, no, I love my teddy.
卡尔文·克莱因可不会赞同这说法 Calvin Klein would not approve.
棒球比赛开始了 Baseball game is on
我的夏天也正式开始了 and my summer has officially begun.
重点是 他没在开玩笑 The thing is, he actually means it.
- 宝贝 - 你好吗? - Hey, baby. - How are you?
- 冻啤酒? - 不 我刚喝了一些 - Cold beer? - No, I've already had a couple.
好一身制服 中尉 太热辣啦 Nice stripes, Lieutenant. Hot.
别调戏我了... 上尉 Oh, please... Captain.
刚从后备队退役 Just got back from the Reserves.
你知道他们怎么说 每月一次 我得做回真男人 You know what they say, once a month I get to play a real man.
看起来你最近没健身啊 Oh, haven't seen you at the gym lately.
嘿 Bruce? Bruce?
- 该你了 Bruce - 什么? 什么? - Your turn, Bruce. - What? What?
Brucey 拜托 不要让我们家族在海滩上丢脸 亲 Brucey, please, don't embarrass our house at the beach, hon.
不得不去了 Uh-oh. Gotta do it.
Ned 你知道他们怎么说 You know what they say, Ned.
如果你不能打败他们... If you can't beat 'em...
那就加入他们 join 'em.
他是我的 That's my guy.
你不感兴趣的时候 Craig很痛苦 Craig was miserable when you weren't interested.
看看现在 他勾搭上Robert Redford了 Now look. He's got Robert Redford.
向你证明上帝真的存在 Shows you there is a God.
- John怎么样? - John? - How's John? - John?
- John - John? 哦 你说他呀 - John. - John? Oh, John.
我现在跟Gregory在一起 No, I'm with Gregory now.
我们在庆祝十五个月纪念日 We're celebrating our 15-month anniversary.
十五个月? 那对你来说是很长时间了 Mickey 15? That's a long time for you, Mickey.
得了吧 我们是情人 而且还同居了 Oh, please, we're lovers and we live together.
但不代表我们也对互相忠诚 It's not like we're faithful to each other, too.
他甚至不是犹太人 不要告诉我的拉比 He's not even Jewish. Don't tell my rabbi.
天啊 My God.
犹太佬 你好差劲 Hey Jewish, you suck.
你怎么还有脸来这儿? Why do you even come here anymore?
我们不想看到你 We don't want you.
你的小说把我们写得好惨 You made us look terrible in your novel.
看看你周围 性彻底解放了 Look around you. Sex is liberating.
我只是说执迷于性爱 就很难找到真爱 All I said was having so much sex makes finding love impossible.
不要把你找不到另一半的失败 Do not put your failure to find someone
- 强加到我们身上 - Neddy! - on the rest of us. - Neddy!
- 痛! - 老天 - Ow! - Oh, jeez.
天啊 Oh, God.
大家快过来! Guys!
怎么了? Hey, what happened?
- 你还好吗? - 我没事 - You okay? - I'm okay.
只是有点头晕 Just got a little lightheaded.
我能自己站起来 我没事 I got myself up. I'm fine.
我只是有点晕 I just got a little dizzy.
他看起来没事 He seemed okay.
吹! Blow!
他很擅长喔 He's good at that.
我太他妈的爱这里了! I fucking love this place!
Ned! 嘿 Ned! Ned! Hey, Ned!
来嘛 求你了 Come on. Please?
41例同性恋患者确诊感染罕见癌症
片名: 平常心
我曾经在巴勒克街的法国之家 I sold you a ceramic pig once
卖给你一个瓷猪 at Maison France on Bleecker Street.
我叫Sanford I'm Sanford.
我记得你 Yes, I remember.
当时我有个朋友很喜欢收集猪 Somebody I was friends with then collected pigs
而你那个瓷猪是我除了真猪之外 见过最大的 and you had the biggest pig I'd ever seen outside a real pig.
它们一直在变大 They just keep getting bigger
而且不会消失 and won't go away.
我是她的第二十个病例 I'm her 20th case.
已经有六例死了 And six of them are dead.
Ned 不用等很久了 Hey, Ned. Won't be a minute.
Buzzy 我都不知道你在这工作 Hey, Buzzy. I didn't know you worked here.
你是谁? Who are you?
我是Ned Weeks 我看到"纽约时报"的文章后跟你聊过 Uh, Ned Weeks. I spoke to you after the "Times" article.
进来 把你的衣服脱掉 Come in. Take your clothes off.
我只是来问一些问题的 I only came to ask some questions.
你是同性恋 对吧? You are gay, aren't you?
是的 Yes.
把衣服脱了 不用紧张 Take your clothes off. Don't be nervous.
我见过的男人比你见过的还多 I've seen more men than you have.
我不知道怎么回答你问的问题 To answer all of your questions, I don't know.
我从未见过或听说过这种病症 I've never seen or heard of anything like this.
你有什么症状吗? Have you had any of the symptoms?
"纽约时报"说的最多的... Most of the shit the "Times" said...
变形虫 淋病 肝炎 amoebas, gonorrhea, hepatitis.
同性革命之后你并不知道那是什么样的 You don't know what it's been like since the sexual revolution.
你凭什么认为我不知道? What makes you think I don't?
有发热 盗汗 体重减轻的症状吗? Any fever, night sweats, weight loss?
你以为我不想 都没有 Don't I wish. No.
紫色病变呢? 张嘴 And purple lesions? Open your mouth.
那是一种癌症 It's a cancer.
免疫系统的反应非常奇怪 There's a strange reaction in the immune system.
它会让免疫系统崩溃 而不反击 It's collapsed. Won't fight.
所以让我手上大多数病人倒下的病菌 So the diseases most of my patients are coming down with
本来是连婴儿都能抵抗的 are brought on by germs that wouldn't hurt a baby.
有点痒 Ticklish.
至少纽约市的婴儿能抵抗 At least not a baby in New York City anyway.
免疫系统是我们知之最少的系统 The immune system is the system we know the least about.
我听说你有的大嘴巴在哪? So where's this big mouth I hear you've got?
- 大嘴巴是病症吗? - 不是 - Is big mouth a symptom? - No.
是种治疗手段 It's a cure.
似乎只有同性恋会染上这种病 This seems to only be happening to gay men.
Buzzy说你在同性恋圈里很有名 Buzzy says you are well-known in the gay community
而且不惧怕说出自己的想法 and not afraid to say what you think.
我找不到一个同性恋领导者 I can't find any gay leaders
我联系了同性恋组织 但是没人给我回电话 and I call gay organizations, no one ever calls me back.
Brookner医生 有点脑子的人都不想卷进同志维权这事 Dr. Brookner, no one with half a brain gets involved with gay politics.
- 那里没有批判的余地 - 你的批判是什么? - There's no room for criticism. - What's your criticism?
我讨厌我们扮演受害者 I hate that we play victim
而我们中的大多数不必这么做 when many of us, most of us, don't have to.
那么你就是时之所需的人 Then you're exactly what's needed now.
也许他们只是在等一个人来领导他们 Maybe they're just waiting for someone to lead them.
我不想领导他们 I don't want to lead them.
你到底想让我做什么? What exactly are you trying to get me to do?
让同性恋们都不要再做爱了 Tell gay men to stop having sex.
你认为这种癌症是靠性行为传播的? Do you think that this cancer is sexually transmitted?
我是这么认为的 没错 I think it is, yes.
我现在能证明吗? 不行 Can I prove it yet? No.
你明白现在你在说的是 Do you realize that you're talking about
成百上千的 millions of men
将乱交作为自己主要维权手段的男人们? who have singled out promiscuity as their principal political agenda?
- 你打算怎么处理这个? - 告诉他们 他们也许会死 - How do you deal with that? - Tell them they may die.
- 哪里? - 走廊尽头 走廊尽头 - Where? - Down the hall. Down the hall!
不是那么简单的 比那复杂多了 It's not that simple. It's more complicated than that.
他们认为性爱是他们所拥有的一切 They think sex is all they have.
Weeks先生 如果性爱会杀了你 Mr. Weeks, if having sex can kill you,
有点脑子的人不都该停下吗? doesn't anyone with half a brain stop fucking?
你可以走了 我没找到我想要的东西 You can go. I'm not finding what I'm looking for here.
- 哪里? - 打开! - Where? - Open up!
- 哪里? 哪里? - 就在那间房间 - Where? Where? - Right in that room.
把他抬上桌子 Just put him up on the table.
抬上来 我来测下脉搏 Up here. Let's find a pulse.
宝贝 放轻松 Baby, easy.
- 按住他 - 能告诉我是怎么回事吗? - Be still. - Can you tell me what happened?
我们约他在外面见面 We were meeting him outside.
转了个弯 他就倒下了 We turned the corner and he just collapsed.
天啊! Jesus!
嘿 别在路中间转悠! Hey, get the fuck out of the street!
宝贝! Baby!
- 天啊! - 救命! - Oh, my God! - Help!
- 谁是他的爱人? - 女士 我是 - Who's the lover? - I am, ma'am.
- 你叫什么名字? - Bruce Niles - What's your name? - Bruce Niles.
Brookner 我现在就要一间房间 Brookner. I need a room immediately.
Niles 你曾经是Reinhardt的男朋友 Niles, you were Reinhardt's boyfriend.
是的 女士 你怎么知道的? Yes, ma'am. How do you know that?
他三周前死了 He died three weeks ago.
他们不让我道别 Wouldn't even let me say goodbye.
也不让我跟他吻别 Not even let me kiss him goodbye.
他死了? He's dead?
很遗憾 So sorry.
能恶化得这么快? It can happen this fast?
就是这样 It just did.
我们必须得做点什么 We have to do something.
没有别人会这样 No one else will.
我们该做些什么? What are we supposed to do?
你基于46例病例作出了这些假设 You make these assumptions on the basis of 46 cases.
你想知道我怎么想的 我就是这么想的 You wanted to know what I think. This is what I think.
你们会互相传染 You are all going to infect each other.
现在你们中的一小部分患了病 Now only a few of you have.
不幸的是 我们不知道谁患病了 Unfortunately, we can't tell yet which ones.
我们隔离肝炎病毒之前的很长一段时间 Long before we isolated the hepatitis viruses,
我们知道这种病毒会引起哪些疾病 we knew about the diseases they caused
还有传染途径 and how they got around.
医学期刊在哪? "纽约时报"呢 Where are the medical journals? The "Times"?
一年多前我把第一份报告寄给医学期刊 I sent my first reports to the medical journals over a year ago.
打扰一下 你怎么知道你在寻找什么 Excuse me, how do you know what you're looking for,
如果你不知道你在寻找什么呢? real quick, if you don't know what you're looking for?
抱歉 我知道这个问题很蠢 I'm sorry, I guess that's a dumb question.
不 这是最聪明的问题 No, it isn't. It's the smartest question of all
也是最难回答的问题 and the hardest one to answer.
你们的常识就没让你们停止做爱一段时间吗? Doesn't common sense tell you you should cool it for a while?
为什么? Why not?
那样的生活就没什么好期待的了 That doesn't leave much to look forward to.
如果结果证明你错了呢? What if it turns out that you're wrong?
让她说! Let her speak!
最坏的结果也只不过是你们有段时间没有做爱 The worst that could happen would be that you cooled it for a while.
不 打扰下 打扰一下 No, excuse me. Excuse me.
打扰一下 那不是最坏的结果 Excuse me. That is not the worst that will have happened.
同志们会恐惧性爱 Guys will become frightened of sex.
我们会失去 We will lose our self-respect
异常艰难才赢得的自尊 that we fought very, very hard for.
他们会将更多的罪孽推到我们身上 We will be scapegoated worse than ever.
世界会认为我们就是携带者 The world will think we're carriers
大众道德观会比今天占更多的领地 and the Moral Majority will have even more of a field day.
这个坐着轮椅的婊子走之前 我不会回来了 I am not coming back until this bitch on wheels is gone.
等等! 我看到病例的增长速度在加快 Wait! I see more cases each week than the week before.
我病人中的一半死了 Half of all my patients die.
我希望她是胡诌的 Okay, I hope she winds this up,
我在新罗谢尔还有个小狂欢呢 'cause I've got a tiny little orgy in New Rochelle.
卫生处呢? 市长在哪? Where's the health department? Where's the mayor?
- 闭嘴吧 John - 你才闭嘴呢 亲 - Shut the fuck up, John. - Oh, you shut the fuck up, hon.
数据在哪里? What are the numbers?
所有的同性恋集会都像这样? Is every gay meeting like this?
这些人中有一半出席会议都是为了能滚床单 Half these people just showed up to get laid.
安静! 安静! Quiet! Quiet!
我们开始组建健康危机小组 We're starting a group. We're starting a health crisis group.
我们会再在这里集会的 We're gonna meet here again.
下次带点吃的来 Next time, bring some fucking food.
这么做可不好 Hey, hey, hey. That's not nice.
欢迎同志维权运动 Welcome to gay politics.
同性恋癌症 同志们 可怕的事情正在发生! 这就是它的症状
我和Craig Claiborne有个非常重要的会 但我迟到了很久 Yeah, I'm very late for an important meeting with Craig Claiborne.
他在等我 He's expecting me.
- 你好 Felix Turner - 你是? - Hi, Felix Turner. - And you are?
我叫Ned Weeks My name's Ned Weeks.
你很可爱 You're very cute.
我现在不是很方便 懂吗? You caught me at a rough moment, all right?
我有个稿要交 第一夫人要来访问 I have a deadline. The First Lady is coming to town.
有人告诉我你是同志 I've been told you're gay and you might be able
而且能帮我搞到"纽约时报"的一些重要信息 to help me get some vital information in the "Times."
"有人"告诉你? 谁告诉你的? You've "been told"? And who was it that told you?
亲爱的 所有人都在讨论这个 Oh, honey, everybody's talking about it.
为什么所有同志 Why does everyone gay
都认为"纽约时报"是我开的? think that I run "The New York Times"?
我帮不上你这个忙 I can't help you with this.
很遗憾听到这个消息 你建议我怎么做? Sorry to hear that. What would you suggest I do?
随便你啊 我有23个合伙人 Take your pick. I got 23 parties,
37间新餐馆 12间新迪斯科 37 new restaurants, 12 new discos.
听着 我不能让这里的任何人写别的文章 Listen, I can't get anyone here to write another article.
我跟半打记者聊过了 I've talked to half a dozen reporters
还跟这里的头聊过了 and the guy who worked on the first piece.
"Leather先生"? 好吧 不行 "Mr. Leather"? Yeah, no.
这里没人能写那文章 我也不行 No one here will write about it and I can't.
听着 我们都是各司其职的 Look, we're very compartmentalized.
你也不希望让科学家来写时尚毛衣吧? You wouldn't want science to write about sweaters, would you?
为了同志的问题向直男的世界寻求帮助 It's a very peculiar feeling having to go out
这种感觉实在太诡异了 and seek support from a straight world for something gay.
这我倒不清楚 I wouldn't know about that.
我专写同志设计师 同志舞厅 I just write about gay designers and gay discos
同志厨师 同志模特 同志巨星 and gay chefs and gay models and gay rock stars
同志名人 各种各样的同志 and gay celebrities and gay everything.
但我不会写出他们是同性恋 I just don't call them gay.
那为何不从现在开始? Isn't it time you start?
- 听着 我真的快截稿了 - 嗯 - Look, I really do have a deadline, - Hmm.
你也不希望我被炒鱿鱼吧 And you wouldn't want me to get fired.
对吧? Would you?
你这种人真是让我蛋疼 Guys like you give me a pain in the ass.
- 你是写书的? - 是 - You in the book? - Yes.
嗨 伙计们 为同性恋癌症捐款吗? Hi, guys. Give to gay cancer?
嗨 为同性恋癌症捐款吗? 不捐? Hi, give to gay cancer? No?
嗨 为同性恋癌症捐款吗? Hi. Give to gay cancer?
嗨 先生... Hi, sir...
嗨 为同性恋癌症捐款吗? 同性恋群体中出现了一种癌症 Hi, give to gay cancer? There's a cancer in the gay community.
能为同性恋癌症捐些款吗? Can you give to gay cancer?
同性恋... 我们的群体正面临一场危机 There's a... there's a crisis in our community right now.
我们真的需要... We could really use...
我们需要一点帮助 捐款吗? 不吗? We could use a little help. Anything? No?
我觉得你应该态度更和缓些 I think you could be a little less aggressive.
更和缓? 我们早就试过了 Less aggressive? We've tried that.
能为我们面临的癌症捐款吗? Can you give to cancer in our community?
嗨 为同性恋癌症捐款吗? Hi, give to gay cancer?
真好笑 我妈妈居然送了花 It's funny. My mother sent flowers.
我从没和她说过我是同性恋 And I had never told her I was gay.
我只告诉她Craig死了 I just told her that Craig had died.
我觉得她知道 I think she knew.
不知怎么 母亲总是知道的 I think somehow mothers always know.
在房子上花费五百万美元 你不觉得吓人? Doesn't spending $5 million on a house frighten you?
我都快吓死了 居然会找你帮我理财 Scared the shit out of me even having you handling my finances.
你想要房子 随时都可以 You can have a house anytime you want.
说到这个 你的账户需要更多资金 Which reminds me, your account needs more money.
目前状况还不算太糟 You're not doing too badly.
我真想念你混迹电影业的时光 I miss you being in the movie business.
- 我喜欢电影 - 那个喊我"小柠檬"的大哥哥 - I like movies. - Do I detect a note of approval
不会是真的在对我表示认可吧? from the big brother that called me "Lemon"?
我不想要房子 I don't want a house.
那你在郊区搜寻这么久 Then why have you been searching
又是为了什么? in the country for so long for?
- 一个人住没意思 - 这个Bruce... - No fun living in it alone. - This Bruce...
你是在和他交往吗? is he someone you're seeing?
我想约他 他可不想见我 I see him, he doesn't see me.
Ben啊... Ben...
你的律师事务所能免费接这个案子吗? could your law firm take this on for free?
你们怎么叫的来着? 无偿服务? What's it called? Pro bono?
我们成立了一个组织 我和你说过这种新的疾病 We started an organization, I told you there's this new disease.
听起来像个逃避写作的借口 Now this sounds like just another excuse to keep from writing.
为什么你就不能答应呢? Why can't you just say "yes"?
我说过了 因为这些事 I told you, because we have a committee
需要委员会共同决定 that decides that kind of thing.
但你是高级合伙人 But you're the senior partner
而我是你弟弟 and I'm your brother.
嘿 Mario Homer怎么样了? Hey, Mario. How's Homer?
如果你不肯帮忙 我就只能去找别人了 If you're not gonna help, I'm gonna have to find somebody else.
- 你尽管去找呀 - 但我不希望这样 - Well, you're more than free to do that. - I don't want to do that.
我希望自己哥哥高端 著名 I want my big brother's fancy, famous,
一流的大型律师事务所 big-time, major law firm
能成为纽约第一家 to be the first straight New York law firm
为同性恋无偿服务的直男事务所 to do pro bono work for a gay cause.
我会为此 为你 感到非常骄傲 I'd be real proud of that and you.
我会在下次开会时征求合伙人的同意 I'll ask my partners' approval at the next meeting.
我去游说他们 你听着可不怎么确定 I'll lobby them. You don't sound like a very sure vote.
好了 Okay.
你适应得越来越好了 You're getting better at it.
我现在每周都有三到四个新病人 I'm seeing three to four new patients a week.
七人进了重症监护室 可整家医院只能负担三十人 I've got seven in ICU. The whole hospital only has room for 30.
我只能将部分病人 I've had to admit some of them under
以其它疾病名义收治 这可是大忌 other illnesses. That's a no-no.
还有二十位病人进了负担不起的私人病房 I've got 20 in private rooms they can't afford.
好吧 那没有医疗保险的人呢... Okay, what about the guys who don't have health insurance...
- 画家 演员? - 我违规将八个人 - artists, actors? - I've got eight of them in another ward
收入了其它病房 where I shouldn't put them.
注意 所有访客及员工 您正进入传染病区域： (同性恋相关免疫缺陷病) 进出请做好防护工作 避免传播疾病 GRID
你为什么不戴手套和口罩? Why don't you wear gloves and a face mask?
我既不需要 也永远不会戴 Never have and I never will.
但我还活着 And I'm still here.
为什么把食物摆在他们房间外面? Why is all the food sitting outside their rooms like this?
- 都冷掉了 - 食物一直是冷的 - It's getting cold. - It's always cold
因为负责的护工不愿意把它们拿进去 because the appropriate staff won't bring it into the rooms,
在我手下的护工过来之前 它们只能等着发霉 so it sits and rots until one of my staff can.
就在那儿 没错 在水边 Right there. Yeah, by the water.
没错 穿过隧道 Yeah, right through the tunnel.
穿过隧道 我们把书找回来 Take the tunnel. We'll take the book back.
我认识他 我能和你一起进去吗? I know him. Can I go inside with you?
除非你把防护的玩意儿都穿上 Only if you wear all the protective shit.
你不穿 我也不穿 If you don't, I don't.
在那儿 换一条路 Over there. Go the other way.
不对 你听到我说的了吗? No, are you listening to me?
听到了吗? 退回来 Are you listening to me? Go back.
- 嗨 Sanford - 看到了吗? 走隧道 - Hi, Sanford. - You see that? Take the tunnel.
进去 笔直穿过它 Go ahead, drive straight through.
你觉得怎么样 士兵? How we doing, soldier?
我想要我的狗 你能把我的狗带来吗? I want my dog. Can you please bring me my dog?
他没我活不了 He won't be able to live without me.
我想要我的狗 我想要我的狗 I want my dog. I want my dog.
进去 这就对了 Go ahead. That's right.
真棒 太棒了 不对 把书叼回来 Oh, good. Good. No. Take the book back.
就在那儿 用力 Right there. Pull hard.
对了 Right there.
请你把我的狗带来好吗? Can you please bring me my dog?
没有我他不会照顾自己 He won't know how to live without me.
别管它了 Don't bother.
谁去把我的狗带来? Who's going to bring me my dog?
他叫Skip 你喊他他就会过来 His name is Skip. He'll come when you call him.
拜托了 Please.
我很想他 I miss him.
你能想象19岁时发生这些吗? Can you imagine this at 19?
第一个打算共度余生的男朋友 让你染上重病 Your first boyfriend you were gonna spend your whole life with.
- 对不起 - 怎么 - Excuse me. - Yeah.
你是电视维修工吗? You're the TV guy?
请修理407房间的电视 Please go to room 407 and fix it.
- 不 我不会去的 - 修好电视 那是你该死的工作 - No I'm not gonna do that. - Fix the TV. It's your fucking job.
我工会说了 我不用为得了传染病的小仙子 My union says I don't gotta risk my life
冒生命危险 for some contagious fairy.
如果非要我进去 我他妈的就辞职 If I have to go in there, then I fucking quit.
所以你们那边到底做了些什么? So what exactly has your side been doing?
- 嗨 - 嘿 - Hi. - Hey.
谢了 Thanks.
喝这瓶吗? 还是啤酒? Want some of this? A beer?
啤酒就行了 多谢 Oh, beer's fine. Thanks.
嘿 狗狗 Oh, hey, pooch.
- 她叫Sam - 你好 Sam - Her name's Sam. - Hi, Sam.
我过去真的挺喜欢高科技 You know, I really used to like high-tech,
不过现在有些厌倦了 but I'm tired of it now.
更喜欢复古的东西 I think I want chintz back again.
别生气哟 Don't be insulted.
我没有 I'm not.
我也更喜欢复古的东西 I want chintz back again, too.
所以 这就是了 So, here we are.
我和你 两个喜欢复古的人 Two fellows who want chintz back again.
这可真的是场约会 I guess this really is a date.
我饿死了 I'm starving.
- 我过来你开心吗? - 哦... - You glad I'm here? - Oh...
别提多开心了 I'm pleased as punch you're here.
你长得很好看 你在干嘛? You're very good-looking. What are you doing here?
难道你觉得自己很难看? You think you're bad-looking or something?
你是哪里人? Where you from?
俄克拉何马州 I'm from Oklahoma.
我18岁离开老家 自己赚钱... I left home at 18, put myself through...
怎么 想跳支舞? what, you wanna dance?
自己赚钱读完了大学 Put myself through college.
我爸爸在西塔尔萨的冶炼厂工作 My dad worked at the refinery in West Tulsa
我妈妈是个女招待 and my mom was a waitress.
在一家Walgreens开小餐馆 Had a luncheonette in Walgreens.
真了不起 不是吗? 一个出身平凡的孩子 It's amazing, isn't it? How a kid comes out of all that
最终敲开纽约时报的大门 and wind up on the "Times,"
支配整个世界的品味与潮流 dictating taste and style to the entire world.
我们总算开始好好说话了 And we were just starting to talk so nicely.
说话不是问题 Talking's not my problem.
闭嘴才是 Shutting up's my problem.
为什么要写那些花哨的舞会礼服? Why do you write all that fancy ball gown bullshit?
我敢说你每天都不错眼地看 I bet you gobble it up every day.
我知道的已经有十个人死了 I know 10 people who have died.
我第一次找你时 还只有一个人 When I came to you, it was only one.
很抱歉 I'm sorry.
所以你才答应这场约会? Is that why you agreed to this date?
左手握叉 Fork on the left.
右手握刀 Knife on the right.
你知道希特勒灭绝犹太人的 Did you know that Hitler's Final Solution
"最终解决"公文 to eliminate the Polish Jews
最早是刊登在"纽约时报"上吗? 第28版 was first mentioned in the "Times"? It was on page 28.
"华盛顿邮报"随后刊登在第6版 On page 6 of the "Washington Post."
两家报社都掌握在犹太人 他们自己人手里 They are both owned by Jews. Their very own people.
当学者们终于开始记叙真相后 每个人都如堕深渊 Scholars are finally writing honestly about it and it's damning to everyone.
基督教会在哪儿? 教皇在哪儿? 丘吉尔呢? 罗斯福呢? Where is the Christian churches? The Pope? Churchill? Roosevelt?
他们当中随便谁说些什么 都是对希特勒的警告 A few words from any of them would have put Hitler on notice.
达豪集中营1933年建立时 所有人都他妈去哪儿了? Dachau was open in 1933. Where the fuck was everybody?
今晚变得越来越浪漫了呢 This is turning out to be a very romantic evening.
你从来没有过爱人 对吧? You've never had a lover, have you?
而我猜你大概有不少 I suppose you've had quite a few.
我曾经有过一个很好的 I had a very good one.
我们在一起很多年 For a number of years, thank you.
他比我大许多 后来找了个更年轻的 He was older than I was and he found someone younger.
- 你恋父? - 不 我才不恋父 天啊 - You looking for a father? - No, I'm not looking for a father. God.
你真是太狠心了 You're relentless.
好吧 Okay.
这是你的 That's yours.
每个人都有无数理由不愿意牵扯进来 Everybody had a million reasons for not getting involved.
在美国的犹太人对时局心知肚明 The American Jews knew exactly what was going on.
你能想象要是每个犹太人都骄傲地去华盛顿游行 又会怎样吗? Could you imagine if every Jew had marched on Washington proudly, huh?
Ned啊 Ned.
你不记得我了 对吧? You don't remember me, do you?
几年前 在浴室里 It was at the baths a few years ago.
欢迎来到男人国度 看看我们在做什么 Come to Man's Country, see what we're all about
我们会提供什么 and what we have to offer.
男人国度设施齐全 多层嵌套 Man's Country is a full facility, multileveled complex
让每位顾客各取所需 that was designed to feature something for everyone.
来男人国度 锻炼身体... Come to Man's Country to develop your body...
或是开启一段美妙的友谊 or a friendship with somebody else's.
尝试一次 你一定还想再来 Visit us once and you'll come again and again.
你看我的样子 就好像 You would've thought I was applying for the CIA
我在应聘中情局 the way you looked at me.
后来呢? And then what happened?
我跟着你进了房间 I followed you into your room.
你甚至不愿睁开眼 You couldn't even open your eyes.
你告诉我自己的真名叫Alexander You told me your real name was Alexander.
我问你是做什么的 你回答 I asked what you did and you said something like
"做过很多不同的事"... you "tried a number of things" and...
我问你 其中是否包括爱情 I asked if that had included love.
当时你说 "我还得早起呢" That's when you said, "I have to get up early in the morning."
没错 Yeah.
男人不是天生就抗拒爱情的 Men do not naturally not love.
他们只是学着去抗拒 They learn not to.
我觉得你一直在伪装 I think you're a bluffer.
我怎么会不记得你? How could I not remember you?
不知道 I don't know.
当时房间很黑 It was very dark.
你觉得我们能重新开始吗? Do you think we could start over?
行啊 Yeah.
在耶鲁读书时 我以为自己是那儿唯一的同性恋 When I was going to Yale, I thought I was the only gay guy there.
对天发誓 Swear to God.
我去看精神病医生 他却试图改造我 Went to the shrink who tried to change me.
现在他们都有"同志周"了 Now they have "Gay Weeks" there
那里有一群最会跳舞的人 and they throw the best dances of anyone.
想象一下 在大学最光辉灿烂的时光里 Imagine being able to dance cheek to cheek
能够与男朋友一起跳贴面舞 with your boyfriend during your bright college days.
你和女人睡过吗? Did you ever sleep with a woman?
怎么? What?
她名字叫... Delilah Her name was... Delilah.
叫Delilah? Delilah?
她是... She was...
我写的一部电影中的替身演员 a stand-in on this movie I wrote.
她人很好 长得也美 She was very nice and pretty.
经常对我笑 Always smiling at me.
所以我... 我请教了一个直男朋友 So I... I asked a straight friend to explain it to me.
我以为我知道做法 但我就想确认下 I thought I knew, but I just wanted to make sure.
我请她吃饭... And I had her to dinner and...
然后 在一个我觉得合适的时候 afterwards, what I deemed to be a suitable moment
因为我一直跟下面的家伙交流... because I had been communicating with it down there...
"准备好了吗? 你真的确定你准备好了?" "Are you ready? Are you absolutely certain you're ready?"
当"阿伯克龙比"准备好了 And when it appeared "Abercrombie" was ready.
我就抱起她 就像白瑞德那样 I picked her up, very Rhett Butler,
抱着她去床上 and carried her to my bed.
- 然后我发现我立不起来了 - 哦! - Where I couldn't get it up. - Oh!
- 不过... - 我可以想象 - But... - I can certainly relate to that.
就在半夜 我醒来发现它 In the middle of the night, I woke up with this
斗志昂扬 天啊... 天知道怎么回事 gigantic erection, God... God knows how.
然后我摇醒她 大喊着"帮我插进去 Delilah" So I shake her, shouting, "Please stick it in for me, Delilah."
我怕我在找合适位置的时候... I was afraid of it going away before I could...
它就又不行了 while I was hunting for the right place to put it.
她听了 我做了 阿伯克龙比爽了 She did and I did, and Abercrombie did.
哎... Ugh...
第二天早上 我醒来 The next morning I woke up
我这个一直被决心改变我的 and I, who had been under the spell of this shrink
心理医生欺负的人 who was determined to change me,
冲进了他的办公室 rushed into his office.
我这个从七年级就开始 And I, who had been fucking with fellows
跟男人鬼混的人 since the 7th grade,
歇斯底里地 在32岁的时候宣布 hysterically, at the age of 32 proclaimed,
"Gillespie医生 我破处了!" "Dr. Gillespie, I'm no longer a virgin!"
哦 哦 Oh, aw.
他在里面 我想我们能堵到他 He's in here. I think we'll catch him.
好 All right.
然后我就走过去 问个好? So, I just go over and say hello?
我告诉过他我请了你 我们是耶鲁同学 I told him I invited you and we went to Yale together.
这是我的告别派对 他还能怎样? It's my farewell party. What's he gonna do?
走吧 Let's go.
嗯哼 Ahem.
市长阁下希望你离开 His Honor would like you to get lost.
- 这是我的朋友Ned Weeks - 是 我们知道他是谁 - This is my friend, Ned Weeks. - Yeah, we know who he is.
市长先生! 我们需要你的帮助! Mr. Mayor! We need your help!
这是一种新的疾病 你肯定听过 There's this new disease. You must have heard about it.
我们真的非常需要你的帮助! 放开我 你们这群蠢猪! We need your help badly! Get off me, you pigs!
这是美国! This is America!
市长先生! 我们都快死了! Mr. Mayor! We're dying!
好 这是Ned给我们写的宣传单 Okay, this is what Ned wrote for us to send out.
"我讨厌一些人悲叹说 在疫情过去之前..." "I am sick of guys moaning that giving up careless sex..."
"放弃性爱 这比死还惨 "Until this blows over is worse than death.
我讨厌一些人只用下半身思考 I am sick of guys that can only think with their cocks.
我讨厌不出柜的同志 各位 现在是1982年 I am sick of closeted gays. It's 1982 now, guys,
你难道还不出柜吗? 到1983年你可能已经死了 when are you gonna come out? By 1983 you could be dead."
你疯了 You're crazy.
是吗 Bruce? 你真的这么想? Am I, Bruce? Do you really think so?
我们今晚不该选个主席吗? Aren't we supposed to elect a president tonight?
我们不能指挥人们该怎么生活 Ned We can't tell people how to live their lives, Ned.
整个同志维权运动就是要做爱 The entire gay political movement is fucking.
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Hi. - Hi.
要知道 我对为病人开设一些服务很感兴趣 You know, I'm very interested in starting up some sort of services for the patients.
我们要开始把他们带入公众的视野 We've gotta start talking about them.
而且 还有很多人被吓到了 Also, there are a lot of very scared people out there
他们急需信息 and they're desperate for information.
我想开一个热线电话 I'd like to start a hotline.
这人是谁? Who's he?
唔 他还不知道我是谁呢 Ooh, he does not know who I am yet.
这人的名字是Tommy Boatwright His name is Tommy Boatwright.
现实生活里 这人是医院管理者 In real life, he is a hospital administrator.
呃... 这人是来帮忙的 这人还是个南部的婊子 Uh... he's here to help and he's a Southern bitch.
Boatwright先生 我是Bruce Niles Mr. Boatwright, Bruce Niles.
- 很高兴见到你 - 我也很荣幸 - Nice to meet you. - My pleasure.
你很帅 You're very handsome.
他早就知道 He knows.
这是怎么回事? The fuck is this?
这是你的主意吗 Ned? Was this your idea, Ned?
我在看 怎么没看出问题? I'm looking. What am I not seeing?
- 继续看 - 是我们的回信地址 - Keep looking. - What we put for our return address.
你是说因为"同性恋"这个词出现在了信封上? Do you mean because the word "gay" is on the envelope?
去他妈的 就是的 你为什么不放我们的简称 Fucking A, yes. Instead of just our initials.
- 我们不能寄这些 - 什么 - We can't send these out. - Excuse me.
如果我们想让人来舞会 If we want anybody to show up for this dance,
我们今晚就得寄出去 we have to get these out tonight.
我们需要过一遍 用记号笔把"同性恋"这个词划掉 We need to go through and scratch out the word "gay" with a Magic Marker.
亲爱的 要涂一万遍? Oh, honey, 10,000 times?
Bruce 我很同情在长岛和父母 Bruce, I have sympathy for kids living at home
住在一起的孩子 但... on Long Island with their parents, but...
收到这些信的人... 看看你 but the guys who are getting these... look at you.
你的家... 你一个人住 有自己的房子 You live at home... you live alone, you own your own apartment,
你妈妈住在另一个州 your mother lives in another state.
好吧 那我的邮差看到了呢? Okay, what about my mailman?
你不会希望我以为你是认真的吧 You don't expect me to take you seriously.
- 是啊 我是这么想的 Ned - 好了 姑娘们 好好说话 - Yes, I do, Ned. - Okay, ladies, behave.
听着 已经挺晚了 我们还没选主席出来 Look, it's getting late and we still haven't elected a president.
Neddy 听着... Neddy...
我想应该由Bruce担任 I think that it should be Bruce.
大家都认识他 大家都喜欢他 大家... Everybody knows him everybody likes him and everybody...
因为他很出名 而大家都怕我? 'Cause he's popular and everybody's afraid of me?
对! Yes!
我是说 看看他 他... 他很帅气 I mean, look at him. He's... he's gorgeous
在克里斯托弗街和火岛的同志们 and all the kids in Christopher Street and Fire Island,
他们... 如果跟着他的号召 他们会觉得更舒服些 they'll just... they'll feel a little bit more comfortable following him.
- 就跟高中一样 - 对! - Just like high school. - Yes!
好了 所有同意Bruce Niles All right, all those in favor of Bruce Niles
当选首任主席的 请举手 as our first president, raise their hands.
我觉得我不想当 I don't think I want this.
得了吧 你这么帅 我们肯定会听你的 Oh, come on. You're gorgeous and we're all gonna follow you.
- 去你妹的 我接受了 - 好吧 去你妹的 恭喜啊 - Fuck you, I accept. - Well, fuck you, congratulations.
Felix... 我们搬去一个很远的地方吧 Felix... let's move somewhere far away,
就我们俩 去一个荒无人烟的小岛上 just the two of us, together on a desert island.
你可千万别停下现在正做的事情 Don't you dare stop for one single second what you're doing.
"纽约时报"的事毫无进展 I appreciate you not yelling at me
我也没加入维权运动 about what the "Times" isn't doing
谢谢你没对我发脾气 为什么没发脾气呢? and my not being more political. Why don't you?
不用跟人运动来运动去的 It's a relief not having to have to talk politics
其实很舒服 但这不是原因 with someone, but that's not the reason.
不是? No?
是因为你美好到不真实 It's because you're too good to be true,
因为我一辈子都在等你这样的爱人 because I've been waiting for a lover like you my whole life,
你到现在才出现 you haven't showed up until now,
我很担心我会做些蠢事把一切都毁了 and I'm scared shitless that I'm gonna do something to fuck it up.
- 我是不是有毛病? - 当然 - Am I crazy? - Of course.
这也是我在这里的原因 That's why I'm here.
现在我们暖场得差不多了 Now we gettin' warm.
# 别忘了我 # # Forget-me-nots #
我走秀时还行吗? Did I look okay?
你能看出来我化妆了吗? Could you tell I was wearing all this makeup?
你看着棒极了 You looked great.
你必须得去Emma那里检查 You have got to go see Emma.
我们能不能不要说这个了? Can we just forget about this?
我没事 I'm all right.
即使我病了 我也不想知道 不然没人会雇我了 And if I'm not, I don't wanna know because no one will hire me,
如果我没工作了 我差不多马上就会死了 If I can't work, I will just soon be dead.
我体重还没下降 I haven't lost any weight.
我还能掩盖住 I can still cover it up.
- 我告诉过你别告诉他 - 对不起 - I told you not to tell him. - Sorry.
已经不敢吻我了? Already afraid to kiss me?
不是这样的 That's not true.
没关系 我还怕让你感染了 It's okay. I'm afraid to let you.
我爱你 I love you.
我去送他 I'll walk him down.
好了 他是我的第三任男友 Okay, he's the third guy I've been with.
加上Reinhardt和Craig 如果Albert真的得病了 Reinhardt, Craig, and I don't know what I'll do
我不知道我会做什么 if Albert has this.
你会为此奋斗的 You're gonna fight.
我们都会一起奋斗 We'll fight together.
你是我最好的朋友 Ned Weeks You're my best friend, Ned Weeks.
你是我最好的朋友 我之前从没碰到过像你这样的人 You're my best friend and I've never met anyone like you before.
你说我是什么样的人? What do you mean, like me?
你这样的就是... Like you, meaning...
在我的家乡 我... 我是说 where I'm from, I... I mean...
直到我参军了才看到第一个犹太人 I didn't even see a Jew until I was in the Army,
更别提一个 let alone a man that was
聪明 smart,
有趣... funny...
长得还挺周正的犹太人 decently good-looking.
我朋友不再跟我往来 My friends stopped hanging out with me
因为他们说我太压抑 because they say I depress them.
那就这样吧 So be it.
而你... And you...
你看着不那么像犹太人 you don't look that Jewish.
好吧 你看着也不像同志 Well, you don't look gay,
所以我想能骗过那些白人 so I guess we can both pass for white people.
我爱Albert I love Albert.
Bruce 看着我 Bruce, look at me.
我爱他 I love him.
Albert会没事的 Albert's gonna make it.
如果他出事了呢? What if he doesn't?
我送你回家 Let's get you home.
- 我真是一团糟 - 是啊 - I'm a mess. - Yeah.
- 经典时刻 - 是啊 - Classy moment. - Yeah.
- 我没事 - 好 - I'm all right. - Okay.
当我们终于到了能在一起的时候 When I finally get you where I want you,
我却已经不再想要你了 I don't want you anymore.
嘿 Bruce 我也恋爱了 Hey, Bruce, I'm in love too.
嘿 Hey.
我的神啊! Holy shit!
变装皇后 Queen control.
如果他想 他真的就可以 Really works when it wants to.
哦 嘿 Felix 这是Dick Lombardo Oh, hey, Felix. This is Dick Lombardo.
- 嗨 - 终于找到一个不是迪厅疯的人 - Hi. - Finally got us someone on our board
加入我们 who isn't a disco dummy.
好吧... 可能今晚我也是哦 Well... maybe tonight.
- 回聊 - 很高兴见到你 - I'll see ya. - Nice to meet ya.
走吧 Come on.
你们今晚能来 我们都很高兴! We are all so happy you joined us tonight!
我们在证明 我们不仅仅是 We are proving that we are more than just
长得好看 有头脑 有天赋 还有信念 looks, brains, talent and heart.
我们一起 比这座城市的任何同志群体都筹集了更多钱 Together we raised more than any gay group ever in this city.
我想有请 And I wanna call over
Ned Weeks先生 Mr. Ned Weeks.
别害羞了 Don't be shy.
我们成功了! We did it!
现在 我们就宣读我们一共筹集了多少款项 We will now reveal just how much we raised together.
倒数三 二 一 In three, two, one...
五万三千美元! $53,000!
同志健康危机小组的各位都请上台 Gay Men's Health Crisis, come on up.
Felix 亲爱的 快上来 快点 Felix, honey, come on up, please. Come up.
我爱你 I love you.
我们跳舞吧! Let's dance!
想想在我们小时候 如果我们有这样的机会 Imagine if we had this when we were young.
不害怕 不羞耻 No fear, no shame.
那些年我一直在想的都是你 All I was imagining all those years was you.
Felix Turner 你愿意和我住在一起吗? Felix Turner, would you like to move in with me?
我愿意 Yes.
- 真的? - 昨天就想了 - Yes? - Yesterday.
真的? 真的! Yes? Yes!
好棒! 好棒! Yes! Yes!
"我们都在等待时间炸弹 "We are all walking time bombs
等待一件能让我们都动起来的事" waiting for whatever it is to set us off."
加油 我们马上就到了 C'mon, we're almost there.
"如果这篇文章没吓到你 "If this article doesn't scare the shit out of you,
未来 同志在地球上可能真的没有立足之地 gay men may have no future here on Earth.
因为你们的愤怒 我们才得以存活" Our continued existence depends on just how angry you can get."
四个急救中心都不收我们 They turned us away from four emergency rooms.
快进来! Come in!
我想他已经失去神智了 I think he's lost his mind.
Ned 我能带他去哪里? Ned, where can I take him?
把他放在沙发上 我给Emma打电话 Put him on the couch there. I'll call Emma.
- 该死的! - 我去接点水 - God damn it! - I'll get some water.
他这样多久了? How long has he been like this?
几个小时 A couple hours.
我很高兴你问了这个问题 Well, I'm glad you asked me that question.
我怎么看? 我知道政府 What do I think? I know that the government
在故意忽略这个传染病 is intentionally ignoring this epidemic.
你在指责合众国政府 You're accusing the government of the United States
企图谋杀所有同性恋? of a conspiracy to murder all gay men?
NED WEEKS 同志健康危机小组共同创始人
对 没错 你可以这么说 Yes. Yes, you can say that.
没错 Serabeth 我在指控他们 Yes, Sarabeth, I am. Yes.
这是一个很严重的指控 That is a powerful accusation.
这是一种传染病 但美国政府 This is an epidemic and it's being ignored
却将之忽视 by the United States government.
- 故意地? - 故意忽视 - Intentionally? - Intentionally being ignored.
这是国民危机 This is a national emergency.
这是传染病 这是一场瘟疫 This is an epidemic. It's a plague.
你不能在电视上指责政府谋杀 Ned You can't go on national TV and accuse the government of murder, Ned.
- 为什么不行? - 因为有一天我们会需要钱 - Why not? - Because one day we're gonna get money,
研究资金 research grants.
议会至今未拨款一分一毫 Congress still hasn't appropriated a dime.
市长还是... 一直那样! The mayor's still... on and on!
Ned 你没有资格在公众场合代表我们这个组织发表任何言论 Ned, when you go public, you have no right to speak for this organization
除非我们已经同意了你要说的内容 unless we have approved what you have to say in advance.
你得明白 事实上你根本就不是我们这个组织的领导层 You know, in point of fact, you aren't even an officer of this organization
也就不应该代表我们说话 and you shouldn't be speaking for us at all.
混蛋 真是多谢你的提醒了 Well, thank you for sharing that with me, Dick.
你认为政府为什么迟迟不愿意 Why do you think the city has been so slow
承认并且着手处理这次突发的流行病事件? to acknowledge and deal with this emergency?
唔 如果你是指政府意识到 Well, you're implying that the city has recognized
并承认现在的紧迫现状 Malcolm 他们仍未承认 and acknowledged this emergency, Malcolm. It has not.
那么你认为是为什么呢? Why not, do you think?
因为市长自己就是个同志 而且他极度害怕 Because the mayor's gay and he's scared shitless
自己被揭穿这个残忍的事实 out of his panties it'll blow his cover.
什么? What?
- 关掉它 把这个节目切掉 - 我们还在正常拍摄吗? - Take it off, get it off. - Are we still rolling?
技术故障 处理中 请稍后
在我为我自己说话的时候 你无权干涉我要说的内容 You can't tell me what to say when I'm speaking for myself.
胡扯 他们都知道你是我们中的一员 Bullshit. They all know you're one of us.
把一个未出柜的人称为同志 It is totally and politically incorrect
是一种不道德且违法的行为 to call someone gay who does not self-identify as being gay.
我知道这么做不合适 I know it's been that way forever,
但是现在情况不一样 我们快死了 but something different is going on here now. We're dying.
那个市长是你的一个好朋友 The mayor, he's a personal friend of yours.
你希望他能够帮你安排一次评判 You want him to appoint you a judge.
你对这儿正在发生的悲剧有没有一丝一毫的同情心? Do you have a little conflict of interest going on here?
- 我说了 我给他留言了 - 什么时候处理? - I told you I sent him a memo. - When?
- 通过某种方式 - 什么时候? - Through channels. - When?
- 他会回答我的 - 什么时候?! - He'll answer me. - When?!
这个月又有110例新增病例! There's 110 new cases this month!
但和那个同志市长一次都没见过面 Still no meeting with our gay mayor.
连他那个同志助理都没见过 No meeting with his gay assistant.
怎么? 我让你难堪了吗 Bruce? What? Do I embarrass you, Bruce?
确实如此 Yes. You do.
宝贝 如果你说几句好话 效果应该比这么尖酸刻薄好得多 You get more with honey than with vinegar, babe.
上帝啊 没人这么跟我说过 Tommy God, no one's told me that one, Tommy.
没有 当然没人说过 No, obviously, they haven't.
不过我也不太相信那种说法 I never believed that bullshit, anyway.
我们想帮助的病人太多了 我们根本没那个能力 We are in over our heads with the patients we're trying to help.
Tommy 你能不能帮忙给Ned念一下这个报告? Tommy, will you please read this report out loud for Ned?
我们训练了二十五名危机顾问 We have trained 25 crisis counselors
来帮助新感染者们解决他们的一切需求 to help the newly diagnosed in whatever needs that they might have.
有十二个组织的领导者每周至少约见这些顾问一次 We have 12 group leaders who meet with these counselors
了解他们那些病人的情况 at least once a week to go over their clients.
我们现有十七名义工 There are now 17 volunteer social workers,
主要是心理学家和精神病学家 psychologists and/or psychiatrists.
我们帮助起草了七十五份遗嘱... We helped draw up 75 wills last...
七十五份 Bruce! 75, Bruce!
你曾是名军人 You used to be a fighter once.
- 你喜欢军队吗? - 是 我喜欢 - Did you like being in the Green Berets? - Yes. I loved it.
你已经完全忘了怎么去战斗吧? Have you completely forgotten how to fight?
别教我怎么去战斗 我就是和你战斗的方式不同而已 Don't tell me how to fight. I just fight differently than you.
- 我还没有看到你选择的方式 - 没有? - I haven't seen your way yet. - No?
Bruce... Albert可能快死了 Bruce... Albert may be dying.
你个狗娘养的! 你再说他一句试试看! You son of a bitch! You say another word about him!
别激动 Relax.
至于你 And you.
除非在这件事上对市长施压 You have no right being on this board
否则你根本无权站在这里 unless you put pressure on your friend the mayor.
你明知道这就是我让你加入管理层的原因 That's why I asked you to join us in the first place and you know it.
- 不 我不会那么做 - 为什么不呢? - No, no, I'm not gonna do that. - Why not?
不 我们公司已经免费接案子了 No, you got your free legal work from my firm.
我才不愿意当什么管理层 I'm not gonna be on your board of directors.
就是撑个场面 你什么都不用做 It's only for the stationery. You don't have to do a thing.
别找理由了 如果这是个直男的病... That is just an evasion. If you thought this was a straight disease...
这和你是个同性恋根本没关系 It's got nothing to do with you being gay.
那和什么有关系? What else does it have to do with?
总有一天 我一定会让你承认 One of these days, I'm gonna get you to agree
这个国家超过二亿的同志 他们也是正常人 that over 20 million men and women in this country
并不需要看什么精神病医生 don't require the services of a psychiatrist.
听着 试着理解一下 Look, try to understand.
我也读过一些相关的材料 我也看电视 You know, I read stuff, I see TV.
他们穿皮衣 戴链条 Guys in leather and chains.
穿着裙子 踩着高跟鞋 Dresses, high heels.
我每次都对自己说 "Ned不是这样子的" I say to myself, "This isn't Ned."
你也知道媒体总是把极端情况无限放大 You know the media always dramatizes the most extreme.
你们这些家伙的形象太差了 You guys have a dreadful image problem.
正因为如此 我们才需要 That's why it's so important
像你这样的人来支持我们 to have people like you supporting us.
你有你的人格魅力 You already have your dignity.
我们还是去吃午饭吧 我下午有个很重要的聚会 We better get to lunch. I've got an important meeting.
真的吗? 有多重要? Do you? How important?
我在寻求你的支持 I'm asking for your support.
无论任何你需要的方面 我都会给予支持 In every area I consider important, you have my support.
但我认为最重要的方面 The only area that I consider important
你始终不帮我 I don't have your support at all.
在你内心深处 In some place deep down inside you,
你还是认为我有病 对吧? you still think I'm sick, don't you?
我觉得你现在过得不错 I think you've adjusted to life pretty well.
- 所有事情都很好 - 我知道你以前有多不快乐 - All things considered. - I saw how unhappy you were.
你也是! So were you!
你也去看过心理医生 咱俩可是一起长大的 You wound up going to shrinks, too. We grew up side by side.
对于爸爸和妈妈 我们的感觉是一样的 We both felt the same about Mom and Pop.
我承认我有一些性格上的缺点 I'll agree to the fact that I have any number of awful character traits,
但这跟他们做了那些糟糕事后 你是个健康的直男 but not to the fact that whatever awful things they did to us
我变成了病态的同性恋 一点关系都没有 made me sick and gay while you stayed straight and healthy.
我们俩对事情的反应并不一致 We don't all react the same way to the thing.
所以你成为了律师 而我成为了作家 So you became a lawyer and I became a writer.
我们对于同一理论有着不同的见解 Well, we have a difference of opinion over theory.
但你的理论把我当成了外星生物 But your theory turns me into a man from Mars.
我的理论可没这功能 My theory doesn't do that to you.
你是说 我在你很年轻的时候 Are you suggesting I did something wrong
送你去看心理医生 这事错了? in sending you into therapy so young?
我又不知道他们会让你一直待下去 I didn't know you were gonna stay there forever.
在你送我去看心理医生之前 I didn't think that I'd had done anything wrong
我从来都不认为我是错的 until you sent me there.
Ben... 你比世上的任何一个人对我而言都要重要 Ben... you mean more to me than anyone in the whole world.
- 你总是最重要 Ben 你得说出来 - 说什么? - You always have. Ben, you gotta say it. - Say what?
说我们是一样的 说出来 说啊! I'm the same as you. Just say it. Say it!
不 No.
你不是 You're not.
我不会这么说的 I'm not gonna say it.
每次我在这样的争执中败下阵来 我都加倍地难过 Every time I lose this fight, it hurts more.
- 我要回家了 - 得了 小柠檬 - I'm going home. - Oh, come on, Lemon.
我还爱着你 I still love you.
Sarah也还爱着你 Sarah still loves you.
- 猫也还爱着你 - 这不是开玩笑 - The cat still loves you. - This is not a joke.
你有我的爱护 有我的法律咨询做支持 对我的财产有支配权 You have my love, my legal advice, my financial supervision.
我不能给你与我对抗的力量 I can't give you the courage to stand up to me
让你觉得我的想法都是可以弃之不顾的 and say you don't give a flying fuck about what I think.
每个人都不得不受制于人 Everybody's oppressed by somebody else
以这样或那样的形式 in some form or another.
我们中的大多数人都学会了与之反抗 不顾别人的眼光 Most of us learn to fight against it despite people's opinions
也没有别人的帮助 without the help of others.
还有 别再试图从我这儿用愧疚来换点什么好处了 And stop trying to wring some kind of admission of guilt out of me.
承认你我生而平等 对你那些快死的朋友来说 Agreeing that you were born just the same as I was born
并没有什么帮助 isn't gonna save your dying friends.
那正是可以拯救我濒死朋友的关键 That is exactly what is going to save my dying friends.
- 你说的我好像是你们的敌人一样 - 我开始认为 - You make it sound like I'm the enemy. - I am beginning to think
整个直男世界都是我们的敌人 that you and your straight world are our enemy.
你气死我了! I am furious with you!
我还气所有让我觉得爱上同性 And every goddamn doctor who made me feel
是件羞耻事的可恶医生! it was sick to love a man.
我试着理解 I am trying to understand
为什么没有人正视到我们快死了这个事实! why nobody gives a shit that we're dying!
五百万买幢房子吗? 政府连二十七美分都不给 $5 million for a house? We can't even get 27 cents from the city.
已经死了四十三个人 而你们竟然说这与你们无关? I know 43 guys who have died and you say it's my cause not yours?
你还是觉得我有病! You still think I'm sick!
我只是再也忍不下去了 I simply cannot allow it for one single second longer.
除非你承认我们是平等的 否则我跟你再没什么好说的了! I will not speak to you again until you accept me as your equal!
承认我没病! Your healthy equal!
把我当成兄弟! Your brother!
小心点啊 小伙子们 Yeah, be careful with that, boys.
- 这可是个珍贵的古董呢 - 放轻松 - That is a precious antique. - Easy.
我在想我们是不是应该把它放在那个大客厅里 I'm thinking we should put that in the grand salon.
你们有地下室吗? 把它放在那儿最好 Do we have a basement? That's where it should go.
Bella 是时候好好收拾下你这张破嘴了 Bella, I think it's time we moved your filthy mouth above ground.
我明天会布置它的 I'll decorate tomorrow.
你们现在就把它找个合适的位置放起来就行了 Just shove it all in there the best you can.
哦 Oh.
闭嘴吧 你们俩 Okay, knock it off, both of you.
打扰一下 Excuse me.
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Yes, hi. - Hi.
我是Estelle My name is Estelle
我最好的朋友Harvey昨晚过世了 and my best friend Harvey died last night.
我们总是形影不离 We went everywhere together, you know?
一起去百老汇 看火箭的比赛 Like Broadway and the Rockettes
还一起去滑冰 and ice skating.
他滑得特别好 He was a beautiful skater.
我就很糟糕了 I'm a klutz.
但他一点儿都不介意 But he didn't care.
我们在一起特别高兴 We had so much fun.
该死的 我想为你们做点什么! Damn it, I wanna do something!
尽管我所有的女同性恋朋友都说 Even though all my lesbian friends say,
"他们有为我们做过什么吗?" "What have you guys ever done for us?"
但我不在意这些 But I don't care.
我做这些是为了Harvey This is for Harvey.
拜托... 请告诉我 我能帮上忙 Please... tell me you can use me for something.
哦 Oh.
我需要一个电话接线员 你做得来吗? I need a hotline director. You think you can do that?
- 我不知道要怎么做 - 我也不知道 - I don't know how. - I don't either.
嘿 Hey.
让我去给你买杯咖啡 Let me buy you a cup of coffee
- 然后我们来研究一下该怎么做 - 好 - and we'll figure this out, okay? - Okay.
- 你是说架在这儿? - 恩 这个角度不错 开始吧 - So, you want to set up here? - Yeah, this is good. Let's do it.
- 你们在干吗? - 我们是NBC的记者 - What are you doing? - We're from the NBC affiliate.
- 所以? - 这里是新的同志健康危机小组办公室吗? - So? - This is the new Gay Men's Health Crisis office?
- 你是谁? - 我是主席Bruce Niles - Who are you? - I'm Bruce Niles. I'm the president.
我从来没有签署过任何形式的文件 允许你们对我或者这地方进行拍摄 I didn't sign any consent form for you to film me or this establishment.
- 关掉摄影机 马上离开 - 嘿 别碰我的相机 - Please turn it off and leave. - Hey, now, don't touch my camera.
- 谁让你们来的? - 一个叫Ned的人 - Who sent you here? - Somebody named Ned.
- Weeks - 太好了 你们在这儿 - Weeks. - Oh, great. You're here.
你俩是同性恋吗? Anybody homo?
该死 Son of a bitch.
你好 在录像吗? Hello, is this thing rolling?
看这里! 我们在一周内同时登上了这两家主流杂志的封面 Look at this! We're in both of them the same week.
每个主要的社交网站 Every major network
现在终于轮到我们的第一间办公室了 and now finally our very first office.
请允许我隆重介绍我们还没出柜的主席同志 I wanna introduce you to our gay president who's in the closet.
他真帅 对吧? And he's so handsome. Don't ya think?
这么帅的一个封面男孩可不能就这么浪费了 Such a very handsome cover boy going to waste.
很好 你终于开始反抗了 好! 来啊 Bruce Oh, great. Now you fight. Great! Fight, Bruce.
你把我描述的像个懦夫一样 而我不是 You made me sound like a coward and I'm not a coward.
知道吗? 你没什么可失去的 You know what? You have nothing to lose.
你兄弟资助你的生活来源 Your brother invests for you so you have income.
所以你可以每时每刻都做同性恋 但我不行! You can be gay 24/7, Ned, but I can't!
我不行! 所以你去死吧! I can't! So fuck you!
你才去死 Bruce! No, fuck you, Bruce!
天啊 Oh, oh, oh. Jesus.
一看到你 我就充满绝望 When I look at you, I am filled with despair.
一看到你 我就开始担心我们是否能够获胜 When I look at you, I worry we're not gonna win.
你以为这国家是怎么建立起来的? How do you think this country was founded?
我还以为我和Paul Revere一起共事 I thought I was getting started with Paul Revere,
而不是个懦夫 not some coward.
Ned 你看着我! 看着我! Ned, look at me. Look at me!
看着我! Look at me!
照你这样下去 我们就毁了! We are doomed if we do it your way.
- 毁了! - 如果他们都不了解我们 - Doomed! - How are they going to help us
他们要如何帮助我们? if they don't know who we are?
即使他们了解了 也不会帮助我们的 Ned They won't help us, Ned, if they do.
嘿 嘿! 别这样 Hey, hey, hey! Hey! Come on.
- 要命! - 该死! - Holy shit. - Shit!
好吧 我来接 Okay, I'll get it, sure.
你好? 恩 你是我们第一个来电 Hello? Yeah, you are our very first call.
需要什么帮助? How can I help you?
不好意思 你打错了 I'm sorry, you have the wrong number.
你们俩都稍微理智一点 行吗? You each gotta pull your shit together now, okay?
至于你 把你那些闹剧都收起来 真该死 And you need to stop being such a fucking drama queen. God damn.
这是Estelle This is Estelle.
嘿 你们怎么样? Hey. How's it going?
欢迎 Welcome.
我们现在两个人有两份收入 Well, we have four hands and two incomes.
你也老大不小了 You're not getting any younger, you know.
得了 别拿我的年龄说事儿 All right, let's leave my age out of this.
- 这地方真漂亮 - 而且挺恬静 - Very beautiful, the country. - Very quiet, the country.
不许去 你敢! No, no. Don't you dare!
我得接电话 I have to.
你又没在答录机上留这个电话 You didn't leave this number on your machine.
- 你答应过我的 - 你好? - You promised. - Hello?
我确实认为我们应当对市长提出抗议 I do think we should picket the Mayor.
是的 我认同并且支持抗议 多谢 Yes, I said that and I stand by that. Thank you.
你明明说过的 You promised.
不 不行 等等 No, no, no, no, no. Wait.
恩... "而且每一个不愿意走到台前 Ahem... "And every gay man who is unable to come forward
为自己的生命作斗争的同志 and fight to save his own life
事实上是在杀害我们其他的人" is truly helping to kill the rest of us."
在你还吓得要死 不敢采取行动的时候 How many of us have to die before you get scared off your ass
我们还要死多少人? 谢谢 and into action? Thank you.
是谁啊? Who was that?
我听说是叫"Ned Weeks义愤学校" I hear it's being called the "Ned Weeks School of Outrage."
我跟一个科技专栏的记者谈过了 I did speak to one of our science reporters.
他说什么? What did he say?
他是同性恋 所以他不想... It turns out he's gay and he won't...
别冲我吼 Don't yell at me.
那些心理医生做得很好嘛 All those shrinks, they must have done something right.
Ritvo医生 Dr. Ritvo,
- Malev医生 - Malev - Dr. Malev, - Malev.
Gillespie医生 Dr. Gillespie,
Patty医生 Dr. Patty,
Maxen医生 LaVerne医生 Dr. Maxene, Dr. LaVerne.
为什么要等这么久? Why does that have to take so long?
你永远只吃甜品 All you ever eat is desserts.
糖是人生最重要的东西 Sugar's the most important thing in life.
其它吃的都只是为了活下去 All the rest is just to stay alive.
嗯 Mm.
啊! Agh!
该死 Shit.
- 怎么了? - 混蛋董事会 - What? - The fucking board.
他们说我在制造恐慌 在使我自己成名 They say I'm causing a panic, that I'm making myself a celebrity.
没有一个人想要接受采访或者是上电视 Not one of them will be interviewed or appear on TV,
所以只能我来做 so I do it all by default.
你在慢慢成为领导者 And you're becoming a leader.
- 你也喜欢斗争 - 我喜欢斗争? 我? - And you love to fight. - I like to fight? Moi?
你吗? 当然 Who, you? Yeah.
你还享受其中呢 And you're havin' a great time.
确实 I am.
可笑的是 我从来不想当领导者 It's funny, I never wanted to be a leader.
我不是很擅长 I'm not doing very well.
我们浪费了那么长时间 真可惜 It's sad how much time we lost.
我们当时还没准备好 We just weren't ready then.
如果我得了这个病... If I had it...
你会离开我吗? would you leave me?
我不知道 I don't know.
如果我得了 你会吗? Would you if I did?
不会 No.
你怎么知道? How do you know?
因为我妈是红十字会分会的负责人 Because my mother ran the local chapter of the Red Cross.
我八岁的时候 她就让我去采血车工作 She put me to work in the Bloodmobile when I was eight.
我只有这个做得好 I'm not programmed for anything else.
Ned 我要告诉你一件事 Ned, I have something to tell you.
你怀孕了 You're finally pregnant.
我结过一次婚 I was married once.
这你可从来没说过 You never told me that.
对 我... Yeah, I...
她说我对她不公平 she said I had been unfair to her,
也确实是 which I had been.
- 我有个儿子 - 你有个儿子 - I have a son. - You have a son.
- 她不让我见 - 你不能见你的亲生儿子? - She won't let me see him. - You can't see your own son?
你难道没去争取吗? But didn't you fight?
这说明你感到羞耻 That means you're ashamed.
你儿子也会这样觉得 So he will be, too.
所以我才没告诉你 谁说我没争取? This is why I didn't tell you. Who says I didn't fight?
Ned啊? Ned?
如果人们不能像你期望的那么坚强 你要怎么样? What happens to people who can't be as strong as you want them to be?
我害怕软弱! Weakness scares the shit out of me!
我爸很软弱 我害怕我会和他一样 My father was weak, and I'm afraid I'll be like him.
他的生命一点意义也没有 就结束了 His life didn't stand for anything and then it was over.
所以我不断在斗争争取 So I fight, constantly.
如果我能做到 我不明白 And if I can do it, I can't understand
为什么其他人做不到? why everybody else can't do it, too, okay?
等会儿 你去哪? Wait, where are you going?
Felix! 你去哪? Felix! Where you going?
Felix 我不是有意的 Felix. I didn't mean anything by that, Felix.
我... 我很害怕... 怕很多事 I... I... I'm scared of... lots of things.
真的 怕极了 我从没告诉过你我很怕.. Really. Heights. I never told you I'm terrified of...
怎么了? what?
它越来越大了 It keeps getting bigger and bigger.
不会消失 It doesn't go away.
你说Felix? Felix?
我能问谁是Felix吗? Who, may I ask, is Felix?
我从来没有这么爱过一个人 I've never been so in love in my life.
根本就没爱过 Never been in love in my life.
让他明天一早七点半来见我 Tell him to come to see me first thing tomorrow 7:30.
Ned 你真行啊 Ned, God damn it.
那我们该做什么? 再也不跟任何人在一起了? What are we supposed to do? Not be with anybody ever?
没你想的那么简单 It's not as easy as you might think.
对不起 Oh, em, I'm sorry.
不必了 Don't be.
你怎么成这样的? How'd you get it?
我五岁的时候 I was five years old.
有一个从巴哈马群岛搬来的女人 A woman from the Bahamas came to our town
是小儿麻痹症病毒的携带者 carrying the polio virus.
她... 跟朋友住在一起 She... stayed with friends.
他们的孩子跟我在幼儿园同班 Their kid was in my kindergarten class.
我们班上有四个人得了小儿麻痹症 Four of us in that class got polio.
我正要穿着万圣节的服装 I was all dressed up in my Halloween costume
去挨家挨户要糖吃 to go trick-or-treating
我妈妈觉得我额头很烫 就让我上床休息了 and my mother felt my forehead, put me to bed.
半夜 我发现 除了胳膊和手 In the middle of the night, I realized my whole body
我全身都麻痹了 except my arms and my hands were paralyzed.
我就大声叫我妈妈 I was crying out for my mother.
"我不能动了 我不能动了" "I can't move, I can't move."
他们赶紧把我送到医院 They rushed me to the hospital,
医生说我活不过二十四小时 were told I'd be dead in 24 hours.
我跟病毒斗争 活了下来 I fought. I lived.
你用了呼吸机吗? Were you in an iron lung?
用了 I was.
然后我就回家躺着了 Then I was in bed at home.
我跟班里联系都是用一个... I was connected to my class with this little...
小喇叭 little loudspeaker.
他们要求所有的孩子都来看望我 All the children were required to visit me.
我们见面说"你好" We would say, "Hello,"
然后就不知道说什么了 and then not know what to say next.
他们当时都很怕我 They were all terrified of me.
现在也怕 Still are.
我能把人吓死 I scare the shit out of people.
坐轮椅的"女魔头" The "holy terror" in a wheelchair.
人们也怕我 I'm scaring people, too.
学会利用这一点 Learn how to use it.
我们不需要每个人的爱和认同 Don't need everybody's love and approval.
Ned 你那个组织... 没有一点用 Ned, your organization is... worthless.
我不能请到重要人物来加入我们 I can't get anyone important on the board.
我看了三百多个病人 就我一个医生 I've seen over 300 patients. Me. One doctor.
各行各业的一百万同性恋... All these guys who made millions off of us...
时尚 摇滚 电影 房地产 没人出头 fashion, rock, movies, real estate, forget it.
而且只要我跟Bruce意见不合 And any time Bruce doesn't agree with me,
- 他就举行董事会投票 - 你总是输 - he puts it to a board vote. - And you lose.
我不能宣传不是百分百确定的 I can't pass along sex recommendations
性知识或其它任何信息 or any information that isn't 100% certain.
科学领域里没有百分百确定的东西 Nothing is 100% certain in science.
不管你说什么都是不确定的 It wouldn't matter what you say anyway.
别因为我没做的事情冲我吼 Don't yell at me for what I'm not doing.
- 你们那边都他妈的做了什么? - 我不知道! - What the fuck is your side doing? - I don't know!
你那个医学协会呢? Where's your A.M.A.?
难道犹太人一直觉得饿吗? Does being Jewish always make you hungry?
我哪知道 我不是犹太人 I don't know. I'm not Jewish.
我是德裔 I'm German.
- 所有人都以为你是犹太人 - 我知道 - Everybody thinks you're Jewish. - I know.
在医学界这很有优势 In medicine it helps.
你在床上躺着完成了学业? You stayed in bed the whole way through school?
上大学的时候我有了第一副支架 By college I had my first braces
我才能走... 一点 and I could walk... a little.
我不能好好地走路了 I don't walk so good anymore.
可能因为我太忙了 没时间练习 Probably because I'm too busy to practice.
你必须练习 You must practice.
现在 我是认真的 Right now. I mean it.
快点 来吧 Right now. C'mon.
别把我的Johnny Mathis唱片划坏 Don't scratch my Mathis.
能请你跳支舞吗? May I have this dance?
好吧 你自找的 Okay. You asked for it.
我的拐杖 My crutches.
没事 我行的 Mm-mm. I got it.
- 哦...! - 还好吗? - Oh...! - Okay?
嗯 很好 Okay. Mm-hmm.
我现在很怕留下他一个人 I'm afraid to leave him alone now.
我害怕治愈的疗法不能及时出现 I'm afraid a cure won't come in time.
我害怕自己的脾气 I'm afraid of my anger.
- 我是个很糟糕的领导者... - 舞跳得也不怎么样 把我扶回去 - I'm a terrible leader and... - A lousy dancer. Put me back.
小儿麻痹症也是一种病毒 Polio is a virus, too.
现在没有人得这个病了 Nobody gets polio anymore.
他去哪了? 我们已经来一个半小时了 Where is he? We've been here for an hour and a half.
这都是些什么人? 我们在一个他妈的地牢里 Who are these people? We're in a fucking dungeon here.
他不能这样对我们 不能就这么算了 He can't do this to us. He cannot do this to us and get away with it.
- 你们开始了吗? - 还没 - Did you start? - No.
- 好吧 天啊 大家好 - 嘿 - Okay, God, hi. - Hi.
老天啊 什么鬼地方 Jesus Christ, what a tomb.
他们是不想让我们被大家看到吗? Do they not want us to be seen above ground?
他在哪里? 我都晚了一个小时 And where is he? I'm an hour late.
- 一个半小时 - 别挑我刺啊 小东西 - Hour and a half. - Don't start on me, lamb chop.
- Tommy 你去哪了? - 我在贝尔维尤市 - Tommy, where were you? - I was up at Bellevue.
要让一个可爱的孩子临终前去见他妈妈 Had to put a sweet dying child together with his mama.
他们已经十五年没见面了 They hadn't seen each other for 15 years.
他从没告诉她 他是同性恋 He never told her he was gay.
他不想见她 他几周以来都拒绝见她 He didn't want to see her. He refused to see her for weeks.
我跟他妈妈走进来的时候 他生气极了 Oh, he was angry when I waltzed in with her.
看着妈妈抱着儿子 真是太催泪了 It was a real weeper. Mama holding her son.
他已经死了 He's dead now.
真的很抱歉我来晚了 我是Hiram Keebler I'm truly sorry I'm late. I'm Hiram Keebler.
你好 你是那些做饼干的人的亲戚吗? Hello. Are you related to the folks who make the crackers?
开玩笑 我是Tommy Boatwright I'm kidding. I'm Tommy Boatwright.
我是Ned Weeks Ned Weeks.
我是主席Bruce Niles Bruce Niles. I'm the president.
市长想告诉你们他很关心这件事 The mayor wants you to know how much he cares
对你们所肩负的重任 and how impressed he is with how you've been shouldering
他也非常感动 your own responsibilities.
- 谢谢你们 - 谢谢? - Thank you. - Thank you?
重任? 你们那些人应该 Responsibilities? Everything we're doing
做我们正在做的事 我们需要帮助 is the stuff you guys should be doing and we need help.
Weeks先生只是想说 Uh, what Mr. Weeks is trying to say, sir,
我们做不下去了 is that... we're swamped.
我们的紧急热线一天要接五百个电话 We're fielding over 500 calls a day on our emergency hotline.
实话说 我们在提供政府应该提供 And we're providing information that, quite frankly,
却没有提供的信息 the city should be providing, and isn't.
先生 我们需要办公场所 我们现在只有一间小屋子 Sir, we need office space. We have one small room.
每天要接待一百人 We have over 100 people calling or walking in and out every day,
更糟的是 人们不想租给我们房子 and plus it's real hard when people don't want to rent to us
- 因为我们是... - 喔 这是非法歧视 - because we're... - Whoa. That's illegal discrimination.
是啊 我们知道 先生 Yeah, we know that to be true, sir.
Keebler先生 歧视同性恋不是非法的 Mr. Keebler, it is not illegal to discriminate against homosexuals.
我们等了十四个月都没见到市长 We've been waiting for 14 months to see the Mayor.
为了见你等了一年 It's taken us a year to get this meeting with you.
你还迟到了一个半小时 You're an hour and a half late.
你有没有告诉市长有传染病疫情? Have you told the mayor there's an epidemic going on?
- 是吗 谁说的? - 政府 - Uh, says who? - The government.
哪个政府? 哪个? 我们的政府? Which government? What? Our government?
- 还传染病? - 疾病控制中心十七个月前... - An epidemic? - The Centers for Disease Control declared it...
- 就宣布了 - 你不可能不知道这些! - 17 months ago. - You can't not know this!
你能别这么歇斯底里吗? Could you please reduce your level of hysteria?
当然 Certainly.
纽约 旧金山 洛杉矶 New York City, San Francisco, Los Angeles,
芝加哥 波士顿 丹佛 美国各大城市 Chicago, Boston, Denver. Every single major American city
以及至少二十五个国家 is now showing cases.
都出现了病例 而纽约 At least 25 foreign countries. But New York City,
我们的家 你宣誓保护的城市 our home, the city that you have pledged to protect
占了所有数字的一半多 has more than half of everything.
一半病例 一半死亡人数 Half the cases, half the dead.
我知道五十七个人死了 不想知道更多 I know 57 of the dead ones. I don't wanna know any more.
现在 我们什么时候能见到市长? Now, when do we get to see the mayor?
为吃个午饭 等十四个月真是太长了 14 months is a long time to be out to lunch.
- 你等一下 - 不 你等着吧 我们不能等了 - You wait a minute. - No, you wait a minute. We can't.
我们没时间 Time is not on our side.
如果你不给市长传话 我们要干什么? Now, if you won't take word to the mayor, what are we gonna do?
雇个帅气的男妓 在屌上刻个请愿 Hire a hunky hustler and send him up to Gracie Mansion
然后把他送到市长家门口? with a plea tattooed to his cock?
- Koch市长不是同性恋! - 姑娘 别开玩笑了 - Mayor Koch is not gay! - Oh, come on, "Blanche."
听着 Listen.
难道你们觉得我不想帮你们? Don't you think I want to help you?
因为这个狗屁病毒 我有个朋友 I have a friend who is dying of this shit,
在退伍军人医院都要死了 right now in the V.A. hospital.
但这事情很棘手 你们能看出来 非常棘手 But it's very tricky. You can see that. It is very tricky.
去你妈的棘手! 纽约有一百万同性恋 Tricky, shit! There are a million gay people in New York.
算上你有一百万零一个! A million and one counting you!
你们知道吗? 曼哈顿西区一个学校的 You know what? A fire goes out in a school furnace
锅炉房着了火 我一天就要接三千个电话 on the West Side. I get 3,000 calls in one day.
你懂我的意思了吗? You know what I mean?
如果你们中的许多人都很绝望 为什么我只听见这一个人在说? If so many of you are so upset, why do I only hear from this loudmouth?
- 这个问题问得好 - 我们这里有五十万男同性恋 - That's a very good question. - Okay, so there are half a million
考虑到我们... 你们庞大的基数 gay men in our area. 315 cases doesn't seem too high,
315例病例也不算太多 considering how many of us... of you there are.
- 这都是胡扯! - Ned 冷静点 - This is bullshit! - Ned, please.
先生 我知道这很难办 Look, I understand this is tricky, sir.
- 但我们需要你们的帮助... - 我想是这样的 市长认为你们 - But we need your help... - I think, that is, that the mayor thinks
反应过度了 you guys are overreacting.
那你去告诉他 他就是个自私无情的混蛋 You tell that cocksucker he is a selfish, heartless son of a bitch!
你是Michael R. Marcus You are Michael R. Marcus. You hold
你在城市卫生署的保密工作做得可不太好 an unsecure job with the city's Department of Health.
我要是你的话 就会注意点身边的朋友 I'd watch out for your friends if I were you.
真不敢相信刚发生的事 I don't believe that just happened.
Mickey 我明天要上"今日秀" Mickey, I am going on "The Today Show" tomorrow
我要告诉他们 and I am telling them
市长为了让我们闭嘴 竟然用你的工作威胁你 that the mayor just threatened your job to shut us up.
"今日秀"? 你要干什么? "The Today Show"? You're gonna what?
他们对我们不屑一顾 我们还得忍下去 They are treating us like shit and we're allowing them.
不 只有对政客施压他们才会有反应 No, politicians, the only thing they really respond to is pressure.
你也听见他说的"西边的三千个电话"了 You heard him with his "3,000 West Side calls."
是我们的呼声不够大! We're not yelling loud enough!
拿上你的东西 Get your stuff.
拿好东西 Get your stuff.
- 喂 我是Tommy - Tommy 我是Ned - This is Tommy. - Tommy, it's Ned.
- 嗨 - Nick死了 - Hey. - Nick died.
天啊 Shit.
该死 God damn.
追悼会的细节出来之后我再打给你 I'll call later when I know more about the memorial.
我自己有个习惯 I have this tradition.
现在每当有朋友去世我都会这么做 It's something I do now when a friend dies.
留下他的名片 I save his Rolodex card.
不然还能怎样? What am I supposed to do?
把名片扔进垃圾桶吗? Throw it away in the trash can?
我不会那么做的 I won't do that.
绝对不会 No, I won't.
那太绝情了 That's too final.
去年我只拿下来了五张卡片 Last year I had five cards.
现在有五十张了 Now I have 50.
这是由名片组成的墓碑 A collection of cardboard tombstones,
用皮筋绑起来 bound together with a rubber band.
我讨厌葬礼 I hate these fuckin' funerals.
真的 I really do.
你们知道我还讨厌什么吗? And you know what else I hate?
追悼会 I hate the memorials.
可我们现在所谓的社交 That's our social life now.
就是参加这些活动 Going to these things.
Nick是一名舞蹈指导 Nick was a choreographer.
我不知道你们知不知道这件事 I don't know if any of you knew that.
他才刚刚起步 没有告诉很多人 He was just starting out. He didn't tell a lot of people.
他还打算邀请你们去参加 He was waiting to invite you to his
他在卡内基音乐厅之类的地方的首演 big debut at Carnegie Hall or some shit
想让我们为他感到骄傲 so we could all be proud of him.
他太优秀了 But he was so good.
这么有信心 He had such promise.
我们失去了整整一代人 We're losing an entire generation.
这些刚刚起步的年轻人 Young men at the beginning.
就这样走了 Just gone.
舞蹈指导 编剧 Choreographers, playwrights,
舞者 演员 dancers, actors.
那些原本应该付诸笔端的剧本现在都不会有人写出来了 All those plays that won't get written now.
而那些舞也不会有人再去跳了 All those dances never to be danced.
最后 我只想说我已经疯了 In closing, I'm just gonna say I'm mad.
我真的疯了 I'm fuckin' mad.
我的内心一直在呼喊 "他们为什么就这样看着我们去死"? I keep screaming inside, "Why are they letting us die?"
"为什么没人帮帮我们"? "Why is no one helping us?"
真相 And here's the truth.
和答案就是 Here's the answer.
他们就是不喜欢我们而已 They just don't like us.
我要战胜这种病 I'm going to beat this.
我一直都很幸运 I've always been lucky.
真棒 就应该有这种态度 Good. That's the right attitude.
我想在"纽约时报"上班 就做到了 I wanted a job on the "Times," I got it.
我也想要Ned I wanted Ned.
我传染给Ned了吗? Have I given it to Ned?
不知道 I don't know.
一个人得了感冒 One person has a cold,
有时也会传染给伴侣 有时不会 sometimes the partner catches it, sometimes not.
有的医生说如果用了安全套就不会传染 Some doctors are saying it's okay if we use condoms.
我知道有人这么说 I know they are.
- 我们可以接吻吗? - Felix - Can we kiss? - Felix.
你身体内毫无抵御机制 You have nothing to fight back with.
免疫系统几乎不起作用 You have no immune system to speak of.
你的身体现在对所有可能的感染源都毫无还手之力 Your body is now open to every conceivable type of infection.
你一定要小心 You must be careful.
我会尽我所能 你也一样 I'm going to do my damnedest, so must you.
我猜你和所有男孩都这么说 I bet you say that to all the boys.
你说得对 As a matter of fact,
确实如此 I do.
天啊 Oh, God.
啊 Oh.
很久之前 有个小男孩 Once upon a time there was a little boy
他一直想爱上另一个男孩 who always wanted to love another little boy.
有一天 他找到了真爱 One day he finally found that love
一切都很美好 and it was wonderful.
我应该戴上手套 I'm supposed to use gloves.
我应该这样 应该那样 I'm supposed to do this. I'm supposed to do that.
我不应该亲他 I'm supposed to not kiss him.
- 对不起 - 我不应该在只有45岁的时候 - I'm so sorry. - I'm not supposed to be only 45 years old
就要开始照顾一个35岁的年轻人 and taking care of a 35-year-old young man
而他虚弱得仿佛已经100岁 who's 100 years old and dying.
Emma说这叫做摇摆 Emma calls it a seesaw.
他没事 他病了 He's fine, he gets sick,
他好些了... he gets better...
他病情加重了 he gets sicker.
谁能帮帮我啊 God help me.
他害怕我会离开他 He's afraid I'll leave him.
我告诉他我不会 I told him I wouldn't leave him.
我一秒都没有想过要离开他 That I never for one second would think of leaving him.
但是他不相信我 But he doesn't believe me.
这样的日子过久了 也难免不相信 It's hard to believe in much these days.
但是我们要永远信任彼此 But we must never stop believing in each other.
我的生活一团混乱 真的 I'm a mess. That's what I am.
整日以泪洗面直到好像眼泪都干了 You cry and you cry until you think can't cry anymore
可是却仍然能流出眼泪 and then you cry some more.
不只是为了自己或者是Felix 而是为了所有 Not only for yourself or Felix, but for all the little boys
终于找到此生挚爱的男孩 who finally found their other little boys
他们历经考验 变成男人 they've wanted all their lives now that they're men.
同志健康危机小组 G.M.H.C.
我是Estelle 有什么能帮助您的吗? Estelle speaking. How may I assist you?
有人要写遗嘱! Someone needs a will!
- Ned在哪? 我要和他谈谈 - 他在后面 - Where's Ned? I want to speak to him. - He's in the back.
- 把这个号码给他 - 谢了 - Here, give him this number. - Thank you.
- 同志健康危机小组 - 同志健康危机小组 - G.M.H.C. - G.M.H.C.
Tommy 我想我给我们找到了四名合格的 Tommy, I think I got us maybe four qualified
社会工作志愿者 social workers to volunteer.
- 他们都是女同 - 感谢上帝创造女同 - They're all lesbians. - Thank God for the lesbians.
你的肛门? Your anus?
哦 你说的是天王星(发音相近) Oh, Planet Uranus.
谢谢您的意见 Thank you for sharing.
Mickey 你怎么没在里约? Mickey, why aren't you in Rio?
我把电话转留言了 你们也该休息休息了 I put the phones on service. You guys should get some rest.
别再有人倒下了 We don't want any burnouts.
晚安 Phil 谢谢了 Good night, Phil. Thank you.
晚安 亲爱的 Night, honey.
- 拜拜 宝贝 - 晚安 宝贝 - Bye, baby. - Good night, sweetheart.
今天还不错 Good work today.
再见 All right.
Phil今天确诊了 Phil got diagnosed today.
Mickey 你怎么没在里约度假? Mickey, why aren't you on vacation in Rio?
我去里约了 Gregory... I was in Rio. Gregory...
和我一起去的 and I were in Rio.
我接到了Hiram办公室打来的电话 I get a call from Hiram's office
他说要我今天一早去他办公室见他 saying I should be in his office right away first thing this morning.
从里约把你叫回来? 什么事啊? From Rio? What kind of meeting?
我去了市政厅 Hiram让我等了好久 I get to City Hall, Hiram keeps me waiting forever.
最后终于有个人出来告诉我 And finally the commissioner comes out and he says
Hiram不想见我了 that Hiram doesn't want to see me anymore.
我当时就想大喊 "我两天没睡了 你们这群混蛋" I wanted to scream, "I haven't slept in two days, you dumb fuck."
但是我没有 而是说 But I didn't. Instead I said,
"先生 请问... "Please, sir, then...
他为什么让我从里约回来?" why did he make me come all the way back from Rio?"
他说 "他也没告诉我" And he says, "Oh, I'm afraid he didn't take me into his confidence."
然后就走了 And he walks off.
Ned攻击Hiram的那篇文章刚刚发表了 Ned's article attacking Hiram just came out.
我不想因为Ned乱来而丢掉工作 I'm not going to lose my job because Ned doesn't like himself.
你说什么 Mick? What's that, Mick?
你一直想让我们说不想说的话 You keep trying to get us to say things that we don't wanna say
而我不觉得我们应该 and I don't think we can afford
在有足够多的朋友之前树立这么多敌人 to make so many enemies before we have enough friends.
Terry Spaulding请他所有的朋友 Terry Spaulding is calling all of his friends
来氧气仓边告别 from under his oxygen tank to say goodbye.
Tibby Maurer吸毒过度 Tibby Maurer took an overdose.
Hal Schechter装了假肢 Hal Schechter has got stumps for feet.
- Frannie Santuzza疯了! - 能闭嘴吗? 别说了! - Frannie Santuzza's lost his mind! - Will you stop it? Just stop!
- Mickey 你还好吗? - 不太好 - Mickey, you all right? - I don't think so.
他们为什么找不到这种病毒? Why can't they find the virus?
这需要时间啊 Baby, it takes time.
我每天都在写文章告诉这座城市的人们... I work all day for the city writing stuff on...
是母乳喂养好还是配方奶粉好 breast-feeding versus formula
得了疱疹要保持冷静之类的文章 and how to stay calm when you have herpes.
晚上还要在"Native"上写我们的健康专栏和时事分析 And at night I work on our newsletter and our health column for the "Native."
我... 我受不了了 I just... I can't take it anymore.
我写过每一种理论 I have written about every single theory.
病毒的重复感染 Repeated infection by a virus.
休眠病毒的重现 New appearance by a dormant virus.
单体病毒 新病毒 旧病毒 多病毒 部分病毒 Single virus, new virus, old virus, multi-virus, partial virus,
- 潜在病毒 变异病毒... - 冷静点 亲爱的 - latent virus, mutant virus... - Take it easy, honey.
我冷静不下来 还有性交和口交 No, we mustn't forget about fucking and sucking
亲吻和巫术 and kissing and blood and voodoo
毒品 春药 和针头 and drugs and poppers and needles
还要写非洲 海地 古巴 黑人 and Africa, Haiti, Cuba, blacks,
变形虫 猪 还有该死的天王星! amoebas, pigs, fucking Uranus!
- 要是这些理论都不对怎么办? - 我也不知道 - What if it isn't any of them? - I don't know.
伦敦鼠疫是由一个水泵里的水引起的 The great plague of London was caused by drinking water from a pump
没人... 根本没人会注意到 that just nobody... nobody noticed it.
可能就是我们容易患病 就是我们这种群体容易感染... Maybe it's predisposition or the theory of the herd...
等我们都死了 这种病毒也就灭绝了 only so many of us are going to get it, then the pool's used up.
如果是一对一的传染呢? Bruce 那你和我 What if it's monogamy? Bruce, you and I
会更容易感染 could actually be worse off
因为我们长期只和一个人做爱... because of constant bombardment from a single source...
我们的爱人 our lovers.
所以没准那些天天去洗浴中心的人 So maybe the guys who go to the baths,
反而建立了最强大的免疫系统 maybe they've built up the best immunity.
我也不知道还能告诉别人什么 可是大家都在问我 I don't know what to tell anybody anymore and everybody asks me.
谁说得对? 我也不知道 Who's right? I don't know.
谁错了? 我感觉... Who's wrong? I feel...
我感觉真他妈的无力 I feel so fucking inadequate.
我们要怎么让他们"停下来"? How can we tell people, "Stop"?
就是... 我也不... 有可能是由... It's just... I don't... it might be caused by...
我不知道 真的不知道 I don't know. I don't know.
这就是我的感觉 That's exactly how I feel.
没准他说得对 And maybe he's right.
这让我感到害怕 And that scares me.
Neddy 你吓到我了 Neddy, you scare me.
你真的觉得总统他... You really think the President...
他愿意看到这一切的发生? 你真的觉得中情局 that he wants this to happen? You really think the CIA
发动了细菌战 has unleashed germ warfare
要杀死所有Jerry Falwell(教会保守人士)不喜欢的同性恋? to kill off all the queers that Jerry Falwell doesn't want?
- Mick 控制下 - 控制什么? - Mick. Try to hold on. - To what?
我以前也很热爱我的国家 I used to love my country.
"Native"收到过一封匿名信 信上写了 The "Native" received an anonymous letter describing
在马里兰州德利特克港 有国防部的高级机密实验室... top-secret Defense Department experiments at Fort Detrick, Maryland...
那里研制出了一种病毒 可以破坏人的免疫系统 that have produced a virus that can destroy the immune system.
代号是"强硬之手" Its codename was "Firm Hand."
他们从1978年开始在一组男同身上做实验 They started testing it in 1978 on a group of gays.
我从没相信过这种鬼话... I never used to believe shit like that...
他们想要屠杀我们! they're gonna persecute us!
他们要取消我们的医疗保险 They're gonna cancel our health insurance,
要把我们关进集中营 要隔离我们 they're gonna put us into camps, they're gonna quarantine us.
你觉得我是凶手? And you think that I'm killing people?
- 我可没这么说 - 可你就是这么想的 - That is not what I said. - It is, you know you said it.
我花了十五年 I've spent 15 years of my life
为我们争取自由 fighting for our right to be free
让我们可以随时随地做爱 and to make love wherever, whenever.
你却告诉我 And you're telling me all those years
为同志争取权利是错的! of what being gay stood for is wrong!
而且我还是凶手 And that I'm a murderer.
我们被压抑得太厉害了 你都忘了吗? We have been so oppressed. Don't you remember?
你难道不知道我们能公开地恋爱有多么重要? Can't you see how important it is for us to love openly,
不用隐藏 不用自责 without hiding, without guilt?
你为什么就不明白呢? Why can't you see that?
我登上帝国大厦顶楼 I went to the top of the Empire State Building.
好了 我送你回家 Okay, I'm taking you home.
你可以趁没人看到的时候跳下来 You can jump off from there when nobody's looking.
好了 Mickey 我们现在就回家 All right, Mickey, let's go home. Right now.
Ned 我不是凶手 我不是 Ned, I'm not a murderer. I'm not.
我这一辈子都因为是同性恋而被讨厌 All my life I've been hated for being gay,
还因为矮... for being short...
还是犹太人 Jewish.
所以去吧 告诉大家 So go ahead, you tell everybody.
告诉大家我们错了 我很抱歉 Tell everybody that we were wrong and I'm sorry.
总有一天 有人会站出来 Someday, somebody's gonna come along
然后他们会用刀捅向你 and they're gonna stick the knife in you
告诉你 你这一辈子为之奋斗的事都是瞎扯淡! and tell you everything you fought for your whole life is shit!
Mickey 住手! Mickey!
Mickey! 站起来! Mickey! Get up!
- 起来 过来 - 我没事 - Get up. Come here. - It's okay.
来吧 Come on.
我现在送你回家 好吗? I'm gonna take you home now, okay?
我不想回家 带我去圣文森特医院 I don't wanna go home. Take me to St. Vincent's.
好 没事的 来吧 我们走 Okay. That's fine. Come. Let's go.
听着 我们都很累了 听到了吗? Look, we're all real tired, you hear me?
我们都失去了很多朋友 承受太多了 We got ourselves here a lot of bereavement overload.
我们是斗士 不是吗? We're the fighters. Aren't we?
- 我们是斗... - 没错 亲爱的 - We're the fi... - You bet, sweetness.
而且你是个英雄 And you're a hero.
听到了吗? You hear me?
不管你知不知道 你都是英雄 You're a hero whether you know that or not.
你是我们的第一个英雄 You're our first hero.
走吧 Let's go.
你想做主席? You wanna be president?
我只想让Felix活下来 I just want Felix to live.
同志健康危机小组 Gay Men's Health Crisis.
Hiram 老朋友 最近怎样? Hiram, old buddy. How's it hanging?
嗯 Mm.
- 准备好了吗? - 好了 - You ready? - Yeah.
市长找到了一个秘密的小型基金 The mayor's found a secret little fund
他们可以秘密捐钱给我们 for giving away money secretly.
我们不能告诉任何人钱是从哪儿来的 We are not allowed to tell anyone where we got it,
告诉别人的话 我们就再也拿不到钱了 and if we do, we'll never get any more.
- 多少钱? - 九千美元 - How much? - $9,000.
Ned 听着 Ned.
Albert去世了 Albert's dead.
在他死前 他妈妈想在凤凰城见他一面 His mother wanted to see him in Phoenix before he died.
这是上周的事情 那时候已经很明显了 And this was the last week, when it was obvious.
所以我从Emma那里获得允许后就带他去机场 So I got permission from Emma and took him to the airport.
我们到机场的时候 And when we got to the airport,
飞行员拒绝起飞 the pilot refused to fly the plane.
我也拒绝下飞机 So I refused to get off of it.
你一定为我感到骄傲的 Ned You would have been very proud of me, Ned.
最后我们换了另一个飞行员 So finally we get another pilot
我们起飞的时候 and when we take off,
Albert失去理智了 Albert just loses his mind.
我不想在这鬼东西上面 I don't wanna be in this thing.
- 没事的 - 我不想在这... - It's okay. - I don't wanna be in this...
- 我要离开这里 - 不行 Albert - I'm just gonna go. - No, Albert.
我不想... I don't wanna...
- Albert - 让他坐下 - Albert. - Tell him to sit down.
- 对不起 - 先生 先生 你得坐在座位上 - I'm sorry. - Sir, sir, you have to keep seated.
- 到前面坐下来 - 先生 坐下 你必须... - Sit down up there. - Sir, have a seat. You have to...
不! No!
- 先生... - 住手! - Sir... - Stop!
先生! Sir!
我们得坐下来 好吗? We gotta sit down, okay?
他都认不出我了 He doesn't recognize me.
是我 是我 It's me. It's me.
也不知道我们要去哪里 Doesn't know where we're going.
- 我们快到家了 - 也不知道我们要去凤凰城 - We're almost home. - That we're going to see his mother
见他妈妈... 什么都不知道 in Phoenix... nothing.
他只是变得... He just becomes...
见鬼 我能要一块该死的毛巾吗 拜托? Oh, shit. Can I get a goddamn towel, please?
我们降落在凤凰城 赶到医院 When we land in Phoenix and when we get to the hospital
他妈妈布置了个非常漂亮的病房... where his mother had fixed up the room real nice...
Albert去世了 Albert is dead.
医院的医生拒绝为他做检查 The hospital doctors refused to examine him
并拒绝在他的死亡证明上写死因 and give him a cause of death on his death certificate.
没有死亡证明 殡仪馆不能带走他 Without the death certificate, the undertakers will not take him.
- 警察也不行 - 伙计 放下 - And neither would the police. - Come on, man. Pull it down.
最终一个护理员进来 把我的Albert Finally some orderly comes in and stuffs my Albert
装进一个超大号的垃圾袋 in an oversized Glad garbage bag
然后把他和其它垃圾一起扔在一条巷子里 and puts him in the alley with the rest of the garbage.
我帮你忙了 伙计 我把他弄出来了 I did you a favor, man. I got him out.
我要五十块钱 I want 50 bucks.
- 这是他所有骨灰了? - 对 - Is that all of him? - Yep.
你想要? 三千块钱 You want him? $3,000.
他死了 已经死了 He's gone. He's gone.
死了 Gone.
天啊 Oh, God.
"我告诉你们 他们在谋杀我们 "I am telling you they are murdering us
我们也放任他们如此 and we are letting them.
我们会死的 We're gonna die.
我们很快就会死 We're gonna die very soon,
除非你们奋起反抗" unless you get off your fucking asses and fight back."
Emma就在里面等着 Emma's in there waiting.
来 吃两口 来吧 吃点 Come on, two bites. Come on, now.
- 不要 - 不要让我倒了这杯酸奶 - No. - Don't make me break out the yogurt.
- 就一口 - 你和你哥哥谈过了吗? - One more. - Have you talked to your brother yet?
我就知道你是这个样子的 I remember that about you.
你不肯和你最爱的人谈话 You don't talk to the people you love most in the world.
你希望我好起来 可是我并没有好起来 You want me to get better and I'm not getting better
我觉得真他妈内疚 and I feel so fucking guilty.
你在周五和Bill Blass约了吃午餐 You have a lunch meeting with Bill Blass on Friday.
- 不错嘛 - 嗯... - Fancy. - Mm...
我会打电话道歉的 I'm call with my regrets.
你在干什么? What are you doing?
在约你两个月后和我约会 Making a date with you two months from now.
我受邀去耶鲁大学的同志周活动里讲话 I've been invited to speak at Yale's Gay Week.
我们一起去 记得我和你说过他们那里的舞会吗? And we're going. Remember how I told you they have those dances there now?
你是我的舞伴 You're my date.
我太想要你活下去了 I want you to live so much.
我不应该说这个的 I'm not supposed to say that.
求你了 上帝 再给我们一年吧 Oh, please, God. Give us one more year.
我答应你 我一定会好好吃菠菜的 I promise I'll eat my spinach.
我治疗过 I am taking care
比这个世界上任何人 of more victims of this disease
都多的这种病的患者 than anyone in the world.
我们有更多的冰冻血液样本 We have more frozen blood samples,
更多各种各样的数据 more data of every kind,
以及更多的经验 and much more experience.
Brookner医生 政府的立场是这样的 Dr. Brookner, the government's position is this.
我们只能出五百万美元给这些病人 但是我们收到了 There are $5 million in the pipeline for which we have received
超过五千五百万的申请 over $55 million worth of requests.
五百万似乎还不够两千个病人吧 5 million doesn't seem quite right for some 2,000 cases.
政府花了三百万调查泰勒诺引起的七场死亡 The government spent 3 million investigating seven deaths from Tylenol.
- 我们已经做了第三年了 - 我们投票拒绝了 - We're entering the third year. - We voted to reject
你申请资金的请求 your application for funding.
哦? Oh?
我想听听理由 I'd like to hear your reasons.
你所提出的研究方向 The direction of the research you're suggesting
不精确且没有重心 is imprecise and unfocused.
是这样的 不是吗? Oh, it is, is it?
你不可能比我更清楚我在做什么 You don't know what's going on any more than I do.
你能精确地告诉我 为什么你要阻止我的付出呢? Could you tell me precisely why you're blocking my efforts?
Brookner医生 现在有别的研究员 Dr. Brookner. There are now other investigators.
这不再是你一个人研究的疾病了 虽然你这么觉得的 This is no longer only your disease, though you seem to think it is.
我是这么觉得的 不是吗? Oh, I do, do I?
你是来把我的研究抢走的 是这样吗? And you're here to take it away from me, is that it?
那么 医生 我来告诉你一个小秘密 Well, I'll let you in on a little secret, Doctor.
你可以拿走 我一开始就不想要它 You can have it. I didn't want it in the first place.
你觉得看到年轻人死去是好事? You think it's a privilege to watch young men die?
我到底在跟你争论什么? What am I arguing with you for?
你甚至连研究开水都不会 You do not know enough to study boiled water.
你怎么敢过来评论我?! How dare you come down here and judge me?!
我们只是应Murray医生请求任职于内部审核专家组的 We only serve on this peer review panel at the behest of Dr. Murray.
又一个白痴... 而且还是个没出柜的男同性恋 Another idiot... and, by the way, a closeted homosexual
用他的一切力量去隐瞒这件事 doing everything in his power to sweep this under the rug.
我发誓我从来没有在公共场合说过这种事情 And I vowed I'd never say anything like that in public.
怎么站在你那边的人 How does it always happen
总是那么白痴呢? that all of the idiots are always on your team?
你怎么能拒绝给我的研究注资 How can you refuse to fund my research
或者让我加入你的研究呢? or not invite me to participate in yours?
国家卫生研究院 Your National Institutes of Health
两年前就收到我的第一份申请资金的请求了 received my first request for money two years ago.
你们花了整整一年才把申请表打印出来 It took you one year just to print up application forms.
从我第一次报告案例到现在已经三年了 It's taken you three years from my first reported case
你们只过来看了一眼 而我们苦苦求来的资助 just to show up here for a look, and the paltry amount of money
和你们每年得到的用于 you are forcing us to beg for out of the $4 billion
保护美国人民健康的四十亿资金相比 you now receive each and every year
是那么微不足道 to protect the health of American people
而那些资金都不知道啥时候才能给需要帮助的人 won't come to anyone before only God knows when.
法国已经发现一种很有可能的病毒了 A promising virus has been discovered in France.
你们为什么拒绝与法国合作? Why do you refuse to cooperate with the French?
为什么我们被告知不能与法国合作? Why are we told not to cooperate with the French?
就这样你们就可以在 Just so you can steal a Nobel Prize
疾病广泛传播 人们逐渐死去的时候偷拿个诺贝尔奖吗! while something is being passed around that causes death!
在非洲也有妇女得了这种病 Women have been discovered to have it in Africa
而且很显然是通过异性性行为传播的 where it is clearly transmitted heterosexually.
这只是时间问题 It is only a question of time.
在你们有所行动之前 我们可能都会死 We could all be dead before you do anything.
你想要我的数据? 你想要我的点子? You want my data? You want my ideas?
你想要我的病例? 通通拿走! You want my patients? Take them!
只要能用他们做些实事! Just do something with them!
你他妈说得对! 我是... You're fucking right! I am...
不精确且没有重心 而你们都是白痴! imprecise and unfocused and you are all idiots!
是你组织了那场对市长的抗议吗? Did you organize that picketing of the mayor?
是的 Yes.
- 还有那些标语? - 是 - And the signs? - Yes.
而且你的下一出戏是第一夫人 And your next play is about a First Lady
- 她是好莱坞最出色的吹箫者 - 对 - who gave the best blow jobs in Hollywood. - Yes.
- 这地方当我们的新办公室真是再好不过了 - 没错 - This place is perfect for our new office. - Yes.
真干净 So tidy.
这儿 Here.
我来就好 I got him.
来 我们扶你去床上 Come on. Let's get you back to bed.
好 Okay.
走吧 Here you go.
Estelle给你做了些肉馅卷心菜 Estelle made you some stuffed cabbage for later.
巴黎有一种新药 There's this new drug in Paris.
Kessler的爱人正飞过去买 Kessler's lover is flying out to get it.
就是这个 HPA-23 Here it is. HPA-23.
嘿 Ned Ned.
- 他看上去很糟糕 - 这种药有效吗 - He looks awful. - You this is anything
还是只是和其它药一样没效果? or is it just another shit drug like all the rest?
我觉得你应该做好放手的心理准备了 I think you need to prepare yourself for letting go.
你得坚持为你爱的人奋斗抗争 You can't stop fighting for the ones you love.
你有为你爱的某个人奋斗的时候吗? Haven't you ever had to fight for somebody you love?
Tommy 你得站出来 Tommy. You gotta start putting yourself out there
让大家都看到我看到的 in a way that everyone else could see what I see.
哪有这样的爱情戏啊? What kind of a fucked-up love scene is this?
你好? Yes?
对 女士? Yes, ma'am?
明天下午四点半? 4:30 tomorrow?
好的 女士 Yes, ma'am.
他妈的是白宫 The fucking White House.
去你的市长 我刚被邀请去白宫 Fuck the Mayor. I've just been invited to the White House.
他们终于要做些什么了! They're gonna do something!
我想问问 Oh, just so I understand,
(John Bruno 总统顾问) 你的职位对我们这场 what exactly does your title mean
瘟疫来说能做什么? in terms of our plague?
我们倾向于不用负面的词汇 这只会引起人们害怕 We prefer not to use negative terms. It only scares people.
迄今为止有3339个案例了 Well, there's 3,339 cases so far.
其中1122个死了 1,122 dead.
这听上去就是一场瘟疫 我很害怕 Sounds like a plague to me. I'm scared.
你不怕吗? Aren't you?
再问一次 你这个职位能做些什么? What does your title mean again?
我给总统出主意 I come up with ideas for the President
看他能做什么 不能做什么 about what he ought to be doing and not doing.
很好 了解 Okay, good. Got it.
那么钱一直在 对不对? 只是还没有花出去 So, the money's there, right? It just hasn't been spent.
现在在法国有一种新药 So there's this new drug in France.
为什么国家卫生研究所不研究它呢? Why doesn't the N.I.H. study it?
我是说我想要的 我们想要的 也是我们极需的 I mean, what I want, what we want, what we desperately need
是有人帮我们省去这些繁文缛节 is for somebody to help us cut through all this red tape.
我可以很确定地跟你说 一周之内 I can assure you that not a week goes by
我是不会向总统汇报任何新信息的 that I don't bring new information and reports to the President.
在这疾病上取得的进步 The progress that's been made on this disease
- 是史无前例的 - 但这病会传染啊 - is unprecedented. - But it's contagious.
你难道看不出来因为它会传染 Can't you see that because it's contagious,
你... 你得加快动作吗? you... you have to work faster?
你真的相信处理公共政策的人 Do you really believe that anybody
在他们内心深处 in a serious public policy position in their heart of hearts
或者甚至在他们最私密的聚会里 or even in their most closeted meetings
能说出这样的话 "嘿 各位 says to each other, "Hey, guys,
不要为这事太难过了好吗?" let's not get too upset about this"?
没错 你的老大还没公开说过"艾滋病"这个词 Yes, your boss hasn't said the word "AIDS" out loud.
回答我一个问题 Answer me this one question.
这个病毒... 妓女会染上吗? This shit, can... can hookers get it?
或者那些一夜情的人? Or, you know, someone who had a one-night stand?
- 当然 - 你没法证明 - Of course. - You can't prove that.
我是说 就我的理解和读到的资料 I mean, from what I understand, what I've read,
异性之间通过普通性交的 female-to-male transmissions through normal
传播似乎不是很有效 vaginal intercourse does not seem to be very efficient.
这明显不正确 That simply isn't true.
这是种病毒 病毒可不会歧视 It's a virus, it doesn't discriminate.
没错 但是... Yes, but...
那很困难 对吧? it's very difficult. Isn't it?
一个直男 也就是一个普通异性恋男人 It's almost impossible for a straight, you know,
几乎不可能被传染到 没错吧? regular heterosexual guy to get it, am I right?
- 你说什么? - 没有记录在案的病例 对吧? - I'm sorry? - There's no documented cases, am I right?
没有异性恋男人 There's not a single documented case
传染到病毒的案例? of a heterosexual man getting it?
性交和口交都没有? Not from fucking or a blow job?
我没有这种资料 I don't have that information.
很好 我也猜到了 Great, that's what I thought.
Susan 召集会议 Susan, call my meeting.
我大概会迟到十五分钟 谢谢 I'll be about 15 minutes late. Thanks.
- 非常感谢 - 请等等 - Thank you so much. - Wait, please.
- 随时打给我电话 - 先生 请等等 - Call me anytime. - Sir. Wait.
预计有一亿人受感染 100 million predicted
却没人愿意重视! and nobody is paying any attention!
你好 请派安保到二楼来 Hi, I need security on the second floor.
你怎么坐在地上? Why you sitting on the floor?
我走动的时候摔倒了 I fell down trying to get from there to here.
别碰我! 天啊 Oh, don't touch me! God.
我讨厌你看着我 I hate it when you look at me.
你饿吗? 我饿了 你呢? You hungry? I'm hungry, how about you?
我查了所有约过会的人 I looked in all my datebooks.
和我睡过的人都没病 No one else I slept with is sick.
也许你就是病毒携带者 Maybe you're the carrier.
我们不必对彼此这样 We don't have to do this to each other.
你会好起来的 Felix 一定会的 You're gonna get better, Felix. You are.
Emma说国家卫生研究所终于开始研究了 Emma says the N.I.H. is finally starting research.
- 我们得抱有希望 - 是吗? - We have to hope. - Oh, do we?
- 就是这样 - 是吗? 我要怎么抱有希望? - Yes, we do. - Do we? And how am I supposed to do that?
你说呀 Huh?
别再吃垃圾食品了! Stop eating that shit!
- 把它给我 - 不! - Give it to me. - No!
你知道保持你的营养平衡很重要 You know how important it is to watch your nutrition.
也许这样我也只能多活十分钟 I have a life expectancy of 10 more minutes.
我想吃什么 就吃什么 I'll eat what I wanna eat.
Ned 听着 Ned.
我的情况越来越糟了 懂吗? It's getting messier. Okay?
我不想让你看到 I don't wanna make you see it.
没人能逼我做任何事 Nobody can make me do anything.
你应该比任何人都了解 You should know that better than anybody.
你打算就一直在地上坐到死吗? Now you gonna sit there on the floor for the rest of your life?
- 你听到我说的了吗? - 你听到了吗? - Do you hear me? - Do you hear me?
- 没有! - 没有? - No! - No?
我已经做了超过四十次治疗了 对吧? I've had over 40 treatments. No?
我已经接受了三... 四种不同的化疗了 没有吗! I've had three... no, four different kinds of chemo. No!
还接受了三种不同的实验性治疗 I've had three different experimentals.
Emma在我身上花的时间最多 Emma has spent more time on me than anyone else.
但一点用都没有! And it hasn't done a thing!
你不能逼着我乐观! You cannot force the goddamn sun to come out!
我已经厌倦了争吵 I am so sick of fighting
所有人的愚蠢 and everybody's stupidity
无知和负罪感 and blindness and guilt trips.
你不能吃是吗? 那就别吃了 You can't eat the food? Don't eat the food.
我不在乎 吃你的毒药吧 随便你 I don't care. Take your poison, I don't care.
来点鱼是对你有益 Fish is good for you.
不想吃是吗? Don't want any of that, do we?
那别吃沙拉了! No green salad!
还有花椰菜! 蔬菜! No broccoli! No vegetables!
杂粮面包也别吃了! No bread with seven grain!
干嘛有人想喝牛奶? Why would anyone ever want any milk?
它能替你的骨头多吸收点钙! You might get some calcium in your bones!
你不想活了是吧 Felix? Do you wanna die, Felix?
那就去死! Die!
求你别抛下我 Felix Please don't leave me, Felix.
关门! 关门! Keep out! Keep out!
关门! Keep out!
一群混蛋 Assholes.
同志健康危机小组 Gay Men's Health Crisis.
鹅口疮是真菌 没错 Thrush is a fungus, yes.
你能跟他说我们会去纠察吗 Can you tell him that we'll be picketing there
不要害怕逮捕或者暴力执法 and not afraid of arrest or police brutality.
- 同志健康危机小组 - 没错 - Gay Men's Health Crisis. - That's right.
还有四个多小时 如果市长不会见我们 The mayor has four more hours before we carry out
那我们就实施抗议计划 our threats of civil disobedience if he doesn't meet with us.
Tommy昨天接到电话了 Ned Tommy got the call yesterday, Ned.
那怎么不告诉我?! Why didn't you tell me?!
看吧 有效果了! You see, it works!
- 什么时候? - 只有两个人能去会面 Ned - When? When? - Only two can go to the meeting, Ned.
- 什么时候? - Tommy是执行官 - When? - Tommy's executive director.
我去 I'm going.
- 委员会投过票了 Ned - 我写的信 - I polled the fucking board, Ned. - I wrote that letter
给市长的 那是我的会面 to the mayor. That meeting is mine.
我一定要去代表这个组织 I am going to go and represent this organization
这个从我的客厅开始 让我花费生命里的 that I have spent every minute of my life fighting for
每一分钟去斗争的组织 and that was started in my living room
否则我不干了 or I quit.
你要我退出吗? You'd let me quit?
委员会让我把这个朗读给你听 The board asked me to read this out loud to you.
- 读什么? - 一封信 - Read what? - A letter.
咳咳 Ahem.
读吧 读吧 Go on, read it.
"我们挑选了判断力强的人 "We are circulating this letter widely among people
循环交流了这封信的内容 of judgment and good sense.
鉴于你的极端自傲 我们必须清除你 You are on a colossal ego trip we must curtail.
你曾多次操控我们的恐惧 To manipulate fear as you have done repeatedly
行为纯属野蛮 is to us, sheer barbarism.
你也曾在全美的电视和出版物上 To exploit the deaths of gay men as you have done
曝光同志群体的死亡 on television and in publications all over America
这是在故意损害我们的形象 is to us, an act of vandalism.
在性解放多年后 And after years of liberation,
你让我们的性变得肮脏... you helped make sex dirty again for us...
可怕和禁忌 terrible and forbidden.
我们从来没有对别人 We are more angry at you
比对你感到更加愤怒 than ever in our lives toward anyone.
我们认为你想要领导我们 We think you want to lead us all.
但是... Well...
我们不想让你来领导 we do not want you to lead us.
根据我们由Weeks和Frankel以及Levinstein In accordance with our bylaws as drawn up by Weeks, Frankel,
起草的章程 Levinstein,
现撤除Ned Weeks先生 Mr. Ned Weeks is hereby removed
同志健康危机小组主任一职 as a director of Gay Men's Health Crisis.
我们希望你安静地离开 We beg that you leave us quietly
不要毁了我们 以及我们不顾及你反对 and not destroy us and what good work we manage
所做出的努力 despite your disapproval.
立即执行 Effective immediately."
嘿 Ned Ned.
执行主任不属于委员会 你知道的 The executive director isn't on the board, you know that.
我没有投票权 I don't have a vote.
我还能... 我还能做什么? What could... what could I have done?
- 你没有支持我 - 这话可不对 - You didn't support me. - That's not true.
你只是个送葬的人 You're all nothing but undertakers.
这整个组织就是个殡仪馆 This whole organization is a funeral parlor.
- Ned... - 你做的就是照顾病人 - Ned... - All you do is take care of the dying.
是谁在为活着的人斗争 所以他们能活下去? Who's fighting so the living can go on living?
谁在为我的Felix斗争? Who's fighting for my Felix?
Tommy 你上楼吧 Tommy. We need you upstairs.
我信仰和马塞尔·普鲁斯特 I belong to a culture that includes Marcel Proust,
沃尔特·惠特曼 田纳西·威廉姆斯 亚历山大大帝 Walt Whitman, Tennessee Williams, Alexander the Great,
很多教皇和红衣主教相同的文化 so many popes and cardinals you wouldn't believe.
士兵先生 你知道打赢了第二次世界大战的功臣 Mr. Green Beret, did you know that it was an openly gay Englishman
就是个出柜的英国同志吗? who's responsible for winning World War II?
他叫Alan Turing 破解了德国的恩尼格玛密码 His name's Alan Turing and he cracked the Germans' Enigma code.
战争结束后他自杀了 After the war was over, he committed suicide
就因为同志身份被四处追捕 because he was so hounded for being gay.
他们怎么不在学校里教些这个? Why didn't they teach any of that in schools?
一个同志赢了二战! A gay man is responsible for winning World War II!
如果他们那样做了 也许他就不会自杀 If they did, maybe he wouldn't have killed himself
你也不会这么害怕真正的你了 and you wouldn't be so terrified of who you are.
我也想那样被铭记 That's how I want to be remembered.
一个赢得了战争的男人 As one of the men who won the war.
Bruce 我知道我很混蛋 Bruce, I know that I am an asshole.
但请不要赶我走 But please don't shut me out.
去吧 Go.
我是你弟弟的恋人 Your brother and I are lovers.
我快死了 想立个遗嘱 I'm dying and I need to make a will.
- 请坐 - 谢谢 - Please. - Thank you.
我想把所有东西都留给Ned I want to leave everything to Ned.
- 我弟弟怎么样了? - 他为一切感到自责 - How's my brother? - Well, he blames himself for everything
从我的死到全世界的情况 from my dying to the state of the entire world.
还加上你们俩的冷战 All that plus you two still not talking.
你肯定和他一样顽固 You must be as stubborn as he is.
我马上打电话给他 I'll call him right away.
打吧 他正在家里打包 Do. He's at home packing.
过几天我们要去耶鲁 We're going to Yale in a few days.
参加同志周 For Gay Week.
他说他不敢相信竟然有同志周了 He says he can't believe it.
他大一的时候自杀过 He tried to kill himself there when he was a freshman.
我的东西不多... I haven't much...
就有一块挺漂亮的土地 except for a beautiful piece of land
在韦尔弗利特海角 on the Cape in Wellfleet.
Ned不知道 Ned doesn't know about it.
本打算作为一个惊喜 It was to have been a surprise
等我们住在一起 for when we lived there together
过上幸福生活后再告诉他 or riding away happily ever after.
我还有一份保险 I also have an insurance policy,
呃... 和"纽约时报"签的 我是... uh... with the "Times." I'm a reporter...
"纽约时报"的记着 for "The New York Times."
保险金只能给和我有血缘关系的亲人 It's meant to come to my next of kin.
我怕他们不会给他 I'm afraid they might not give it to him.
如果他被列为受款人 他们就必须给 Well, if he's listed as a beneficiary, they must.
你是聪明人 说聪明话 You're smarter than that. Don't be so naive.
我向你保证 我会力争让他们把钱给他 I assure you, I will fight to make sure that they do.
我就希望你这么说 I was hoping you'd say that.
嘿 Felix... Felix...
我真希望我们早点见面 I wish we'd met sooner.
我应该穿件白色的衣服 I should be wearing something white.
你穿着呢 宝贝 You are, honey.
应该是... 特殊的那种 It should... it should be something
派瑞·艾力斯亲手为我打造 Perry Ellis ran up for me personally.
嘿 Ned? Ned?
重新找个方式战斗下去 You find a way to fight again.
我会的 I will.
嘿 嘿 嘿 Hey, hey, hey.
嘿 Hey.
Emma 好了吗...? Emma. Emma...?
我们... 我们现在开始 好吗? Could we... could we start now, please?
咳咳 Ahem.
"我们在上帝的注视下 "We are gathered here in the sight of God
聚集在这里 看到这两位新郎 to join together these two men.
他们对对方的爱 They love each other
深邃而又深沉... very much and...
他们想在家人和朋友的见证下 want to be married in the presence of their family
结为伴侣 and friends.
没有人反对 I see no objection.
Felix Turner 你愿意 Do you, Felix Turner,
- 将Ned Weeks..." - Alexander 我愿意 - take Ned Weeks..." - Alexander. Yeah.
- "作为你的..." - 我伟大的真爱 - "To be your..." - My great true love.
我愿意 I do.
我愿意 我愿意 I do. I do.
我愿意 I do.
我愿意 我愿意 I do. I do.
你好 我是Tommy This is Tommy.
谢谢你通知我 Thanks for letting me know.
罗纳德·里根总统于1985年9月17日首次公开提及艾滋病 并在新闻发布会上发誓会将艾滋病研究作为第一要务
事实上 里根提出的1986年联邦预算对艾滋病的支出下降了11个百分点 截止至1986年年底 共有24559个死亡病例
自从1981年疾病开始传播 全世界共有超过三千六百万人死于HIV/艾滋病毒
每天有超过六千人被感染上HIV病毒