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我们制造了残酷的世界 We made a cruel world.
我这一代 My generation.
我父母那一代 My parents' generation.
我们释出太少善意 There's too little kindness,
付出太少关怀 too little caring,
让世上充斥着仇恨、愤怒、伤害 too much hate, anger, and hurt.
我们口里净说保护孩子的漂亮话 We talk a good game about protecting our children,
却没有付诸行动 切实地保障他们的性命 but we leave too much on the table that might surely save their lives.
（六个月前）
“回想你曾经 面对挑战、挫折或失败的一个时刻 "Recount a time when you faced a challenge, setback, or failure.
它如何影响你 How did it affect you,
而你从中学到了什么？” and what did you learn from the experience?"
我是说 操你妈 I mean, fuck you.
（姓名：詹森）
（大学春或秋季一年级入学申请 ）
说什么通过大学申请表 They claim the college application
了解你的为人 简直胡说八道 is so they can get to know you as a person. It's bullshit.
这份表格只是强迫你以书写形式 The whole point is to force you to face, in writing,
面对你人生里惹过的操蛋麻烦 the complete fucking mess you've made of your life.
（蒙蒂视频通话 接受 拒绝）
我一份申请还没提交 大部分截止日期都错过了 I haven't turned in a single app. I missed most of the deadlines.
我…基本上已经完蛋了 I'm... I'm basically totally screwed.
（屏蔽此呼叫者）
为什么会发生这些事？ And why'd this happen?
因为最近总是发生怪事 Because shit's been weird.
对 怪事只是…绵绵不绝 Yeah, shit's just... weird.
老兄 Dude.
你… 你还好吗？ You... OK?
是的 Yeah.
又没睡？ No sleep again?
不是 我睡了 老哥 我已经回来一个半星期了 - No, I... slept. - Dude, I've been home a week and a half,
可是你每一晚都只睡一两个小时 and I don't think you've slept more than an hour or two every night.
我睡的时候 你也在睡而已 You're asleep when I'm sleeping.
我可不可以… Can I, um...
我早上要拉屎 I need to take my morning shit.
♪ Pain, we take more pills... ♪
最近我的时间好像一直流失掉 I think maybe I've been losing time,
但这大概就是高中生活吧？ but I guess that's high school, right?
你早上7点50分上学 下午2点40分放学 You show up at 7:50 a.m., leave at 2:40,
然后想：“刚刚发生了什么鬼事？” and you're like, "What the hell just happened?"
我自从初三起就一直疲惫不堪 I've been exhausted since ninth grade.
（自由高中图书馆） 我觉得你不应该翘掉参观 必须参加 I just don't think you should skip the tour. It's mandatory.
你什么时候开始在意 “必须”这两个字？ Since when does the word "mandatory" mean anything to you?
从我八岁起 我爸就一直 在桑德森大学教书 我对校园很熟 My dad's been teaching at Sanderson since I was eight. I know the campus.
可是这关乎你要不要去那里念书 But this is about going to school there.
- 你有可能会去那里 - 不会 那么我爸不就乐透了吗？ - Maybe you might do that. - No, that would make my dad too happy.
而且那里离家太近 我得离开这座城镇 And it's too close to home. I need to get out of this town.
你不是决定要去西方学院吗？ 干嘛还想着桑德森？ Why would you look at Sanderson when you have Occidental?
我还没成功入学呢 I'm not in yet.
而且 我就是喜欢桑德森离家近 Plus, I like the idea of Sanderson being so close to home.
是谁说过 This is the guy who once said
大学是给找不到工作的人念的？ college is for people who couldn't get a job?
我以前觉得自己不够好 I didn't think I was good enough.
觉得自己不值得美好的将来 I didn't think I deserved a future before.
等一下 你一直觉得自己不够好？ Wait, you never thought you were good enough?
你总是那么自大 那么混账 You were always such an arrogant asshole.
是的 Yeah.
那些大概是有关联的 Those are probably related.
“回想你曾经 面对挑战、挫折或失败的一个时刻” "Recount a time when you faced a challenge, setback, or failure"?
我的整个人生充满挑战、挫折和失败 My whole life is challenges, setbacks, and failures.
我认为读大学也不会改变我的人生 I don't expect it'll be any different at "insert college here."
借过一下 Excuse me.
别抓狂 Don't freak out.
（蒙蒂是冤枉的）
为何不是呢？ Why not?
我操 What the fuck?
谁做的？ Who did this?
没他妈的头绪 No fucking idea.
他妈的 写在办公室门上 Holy shit, the admin doors.
谈何尊重？ Respect.
你知道是谁做的？ Do you know who did this?
不知道 但肇事者真有胆子 Nah, but they got balls.
你怎么可以… How can you...
噢 我们死定了 Oh, we're so fucked!
是啊 Yeah.
不会是他吧？尽管他最近很操蛋？ He wouldn't have, right? No matter how fucked up he's been?
- 不会是他 - 那是谁？ - No. - Then who?
她呢？ What about her?
不会吧 I don't think so.
她是“婊”的一份子 她清楚蒙蒂的真面目 She's in HO. She knows who Monty really was.
是 不过他还是她的哥哥啊 Yeah, but he was still her brother.
好了 大伙们 回去上课吧 OK, folks, let's get going to class now.
好了 我知道你们对此都很有兴趣 All right, I know you're all concerned about this.
这种行为违反校规 我们会找出肇事者 Uh, it's a real violation. We're gonna find out who did it.
交给我办 Trust me on this.
唐先生 Mr. Down.
- 对不起 - 好 没问题 - Sorry. - Well, that's all right.
你可能可以帮我们一把 It could probably be very helpful
把照片提供给警长 if you just, uh, shared the photographs with the sheriff here.
是吗？ Yeah?
我是说 当然可以 I mean, of course.
好了 所有人回去上课好不好？谢谢 All right, everybody, go back to class. OK? Thank you.
鉴证人员需要一小时 来采集指纹和喷漆样本 Crime scene needs an hour to lift prints and grab a paint sample.
好 全交给您 Yeah, anything you need.
学校并不安全 And it's not a safe place, school.
这里危机四伏 There's, like, danger everywhere.
嘿 Hey.
你干嘛…来这节课？ What are you doing...
in this class?
只是来看看你 Just came to check on you.
我没事 I'm fine.
你肯定？ You... sure?
你凭什么认为你可以来这里问我？ Why do you think you can come in here and ask me that?
因为我仍然在乎你 杰西 Because I still care about you, Jess.
听着 我知道发生这些事情 可能会引起过往的创伤回忆 Look, when something like that happens, I know it can bring back past trauma.
创伤？ Trauma?
你想装他妈的医生来聊创伤？ You wanna talk about trauma like some fucking doctor or something?
好了 两位 All right, guys.
来说说我一开始是怎么受创伤的 Let's talk about how I got traumatized in the first place.
杰西… Jess...
来谈谈你和你的朋友布莱斯 Let's talk about you and your friend Bryce.
好了 不如别在这里聊这个话题 好不好？ OK, let's not talk about that here. OK?
贾斯汀 走吧 Justin, go.
有人想设局陷害我 Someone's trying to set me up.
设局陷害我们 但先从我开始下手 To set us all up, but it starts with me.
温斯顿 Winston.
一定是温斯顿… It has to be Winston.
他刚转校过来 怎么可能知道我的储物柜密码？ He's brand-new. How would he get my locker combo?
他怎么知道哪个柜子是我的？ 他可能只是监视你 - How would he know which locker is mine? - He probably watched you.
我从没见过他 也没有课是一起上的 I never see him. We have zero classes together.
就只有这个可能啊 It's the only answer.
万一是我们的人呢？ 谁？谁会这么做？ - What if it was one of us? - Who? Who would do that?
根本不合理 It makes no sense.
真的吗？ Really?
所有人你都相信？ 例如我们根本不熟的查理？ And you, do you trust everyone? Like Charlie, who we hardly know?
或扎克？他最近表现得超不济的 Or Zach, who's been super fucked-up lately?
托尼很他妈的不爽 而杰西卡在生贾斯汀的气 And Tony's fucking pissed off, and Jessica's mad at Justin.
甜心 冷静下来 Sweetheart, stop spinning.
深呼吸 Take a breath.
- 我们会没事的 - 怎么可能？ - We'll be OK. - How?
怎么可能会没事？ How will everything be OK?
你首先要做到不失控 Well, it starts with you not losing your shit.
努力让自己冷静 好吗？ Work on that, OK?
是实实在在的危机四伏 I mean, actual danger everywhere.
他们不明白在校园增加警力 并不会让人感觉更安全 And they don't realize adding more police doesn't make anyone feel safer.
而是相反 Like, the opposite.
我操 Fuck me.
穿黑色外套的 停下来 Black jacket, stop.
- 过来这里 - 说真的吗？ - Over here. - Really?
背包放地下 双手靠在储物柜 张开双腿 Bag on the ground. Hands on the locker. Spread your legs.
长官 您要有合理原因 才可以这样做的吧？ I'm pretty sure you need probable cause for that, don't you, Officer?
我只需要合理怀疑 All I need is reasonable suspicion,
而你刚才想转身离开让我觉得可疑 which you gave me when you tried to hightail it out of here.
马上转过去 Turn around, now.
谢谢 Thank you.
你想去哪里？ Where were you headed?
我的储物柜那里 Just my locker.
我忘了东西 I forgot something.
Uh-huh.
有可能是喷漆罐吗？ Can of spray paint, maybe?
是课堂上要用的书本 A book... for class.
这里还是学校 对吧？ This is still a school, isn't it?
当然是 Oh, it sure is.
安东尼奥帕迪拉 Antonio Padilla.
我的职责是竭尽全力确保这里的安全 It's my job to do everything I can to make sure it stays safe.
是吗？那你也会 对那边的白人小孩搜身吗？ Oh, yeah? You're gonna pat down those white kids over there too, right?
不会 No.
因为那些小孩… 'Cause those kids...
手上没有沾上红色喷漆 don't have red paint on their hands.
It's, uh...
这是我在店里沾上的 我昨晚一直在修理车身 It's from my shop. I was doing bodywork late last night.
你是拳击手 You're a fighter.
必要时才是 Only when I need to be.
去上课吧 屁孩 Get to class, kiddo.
你拍到很多好东西 You got good stuff.
是吗？ Yeah?
数码相机里还有一堆呢 Yeah, I got a bunch on digital too.
看来你比其他人都要早拍到 Seems like you got to it before anyone else did.
我很早以前就开始拍年刊照片 You know, I was here for... yearbook stuff pretty early.
I...
我听说蒙蒂就是伤害过你的那个人 是不是？ I heard around that Monty was the one that hurt you, right?
所以你才会在那场集会上站起来？ That's why you stood up at that assembly?
是的 Um... Yes.
是蒙蒂 It was Monty.
- 对不起 我无意… - 不 没关系 - I'm sorry, I didn't... - No, it's cool.
你肯定恨透他了 You must hate him so much.
不 我没有 No, I don't.
我… It's, um...
我不知道 这样子很怪 不过… - I don't know, it's weird. - But I...
我替他感到难过 I feel bad for him.
他因我而死 I mean, I'm the reason he's gone.
听说杀他的人叫他儿童强奸犯 They said that the guy who killed him called him a child rapist.
我…我不是小孩子 我… I'm...
I'm not a child. I...
我原本很气他 但现在只感到伤心 I was so angry at him, but now I just feel sad.
高四同学们 早安 Good morning, seniors.
是时候坐公车去参观大学了 It's time to make your way to the buses for the college tour.
我们该走了 对 - I guess we should go. - Mm-hmm. Right.
谢谢你那么坦率 泰勒 Thank you for being so honest, Tyler.
克雷 早安 Clay, good morning.
你好吗？ How you doing?
很好 Um... Fine.
要去参观校园？ On your way to the campus tour?
是的 先生 Yes, sir.
不错 大学是很重要的 Well, good for you. College is so important.
我只想告诉你 I just wanted you to know
我知道这段时间对你来说很难捱 that I get that these are challenging times for you.
我支持你 And I'm here for you.
我可以帮助你 I can be a resource.
知道吗？ OK?
知道 Sure.
好的 谢谢 Yes, thank you.
很好 参观愉快 OK, good. Have a great tour.
好 计划如下：点完名后 OK, so then the plan is they do the head count.
我们翘掉导览 去船库偷偷放走一条小船 We ditch the tour, we go to the boathouse, steal a shell, and then float it out.
河流的那部分刚好在瀑布前 一定很好玩 That part of the river is right before the falls. It's gonna be great.
现在干任何事都是最坏的时机 This is, like, the worst possible time to do something.
也可能… Or...
最好的时机？ is it the best time?
不 考虑到所有因素 肯定是最坏时机 No, I'm correct that it's the worst time, given everything.
- 一切安然无恙 - 一切都搞砸了 - Everything's fine. - Everything's fucked.
都一样 Same thing.
至少有人在整我们 Someone's messing with us, at the very least.
如果他们知情 要整我们 那肯定知道很多 If they know enough to mess with us, they know too much.
他们不知道 也可能知道 我可不清楚 They don't know. Or maybe they do, I don't know.
反正顺其自然的人生不是更棒吗？ Either way, wouldn't life be better if it just came out?
怎么可能？ How?
两位男士 要排队呢！ 对不起 - Gentlemen, there is a line! - Sorry.
扎克里邓普斯 埃里克斯司丹铎！ Zachary Dempsey and Alex Standall!
等一下 你看到… Wait, did you see...
你看到吗？ Did you see that?
他们一起弄年刊 They're in yearbook together.
应该没什么事的 It's probably nothing.
他就是这样知道的 就是这样打开我的储物柜的 That's how he knows. That's how he got into my locker.
他还知道什么？ What else does he know?
我们至少得告诉大家温斯顿的事 We have to tell everyone about Winston, at least.
不行 We don't.
这样只会害大家都慌乱 All that will accomplish is mass panic.
我们可以在参观时聚在一起 再找机会开溜 We can huddle with everyone during the tour, slip away at some point.
现在是完美时机 It's the perfect time.
干什么的完美时机？ Perfect timing for what?
- 干什么？ - 没事 - What? - Nothing.
早安 高四同学 Ah-ah-ah, good morning, seniors.
该死的 是波兰 Shit. Bolan.
- 这是激动人心的一天 - 他来这里干什么？ - Really exciting day. - What the fuck is he doing here?
我知道很多人不会考虑桑德森大学 Now, I know that many of you tend to overlook Sanderson
因为它离家太近 但它其实 because it's so close to home, but the reality is
是国内顶尖的小型私立大学之一 it's one of the foremost small, private universities in the country,
冷知识 他们的文学系得过奖 with, fun fact, an award-winning literature department
而系主任正是 我们同学克雷詹森的父亲 headed by the father of our very own Clay Jensen.
我很高兴今天能和你们一起参观 I'm very thrilled to be among you for this tour.
因此 我期望大家… So I expect each of you to be on...
表现良好 your best behavior.
- 搞什么？ - 你们有没有看到… - What the fuck? - Did either of you see...
- 他妈的把它扔掉 - 哪里？抛出窗外吗？ - Fucking get rid of it. - What, out the window?
还有位子吗？ Room for one more?
Huh?
我小时候经常坐在公车后座 Yeah, I used to sit in the back of the bus when I was a kid.
比较容易摆脱麻烦 It was easier to get away with stuff. Yeah.
那时候是有点麻烦 It was a bit of trouble.
帕迪拉先生 我们好久没谈过了 Mr. Padilla, can't remember the last time you and I had a chat.
你的高四学年过得还好吗？ How's your senior year going?
- 还…过得去 - 过得去 It's... going.
你找到工作和学业之间的平衡了吗？ So you're finding a good work-school balance?
很明显 这次参观校园又是一个 The campus tour was clearly just another opportunity
让事情彻彻底底搞砸的机会 for things to get royally fucked up.
而事实的确如此 And they did.
- 我们得找垃圾桶 - 没错 但不能在波兰面前扔掉啊 操 - We've gotta find a trash can. - Yeah, but not in front of Bolan. Fuck.
我得去看着杰西 不然她再向贾斯汀发飙的话… I gotta watch Jess. If she loses her shit on Justin again, then...
等一下 那温斯顿和泰勒呢？ Wait. What about Winston and Tyler?
在那边 Over there.
分头行动 要低调 Split up. Stay low.
（谢谢你协助保持校园美观）
克雷 Clay.
阿妮 你好 Ani. Hi.
嘿 爸爸 Hey, Dad.
我今天被派来向大家打招呼 I'm your official tour greeter.
就当我们正式打过招呼了 Consider us officially greeted.
詹森先生 你好 不好意思… Hi, Mr. Jensen. Excuse me...
这地方多美丽啊 How beautiful is this place?
真不敢相信我在常青郡住了这么久 I can't believe I've lived in Evergreen this entire time,
竟然从没来过这里 听着 希望你们别介意 - and I've never been here. - I hope you guys don't mind,
我安排了在参观之后 你们和招生办主任见面 I arranged a meeting with the Dean of Admissions after the tour.
谢谢 真是太棒了 好不好？ - Thank you. That's awesome. - Does that sound good?
克雷？ Clay?
- 是 好啊 - 詹森教授 - Yeah, that sounds great. - Professor Jensen.
- 你好 谢谢你来主持参观 - 嘉里 这是我的荣幸 - Hi, thank you so much for hosting. - My pleasure, Gary.
我会和你们一起走几个地点 先生 I thought I might join you on the first few stops, sir.
我想稍微和你继续讨论一下 I just wanted to continue our discussion for a minute.
- 没问题 - 好 - Sure. - OK, yeah.
What...
刚才那算什么？ 为什么爸爸会叫他嘉里？什么讨论？ what was that? Why'd he call him Gary? What discussion?
他们肯定只是互相认识 对吧？ I'm sure they just know each other, right?
我不这么觉得 I didn't think so.
请分成两组！两组！ Two groups, please! Two groups!
该死的 Shit!
第一组请走这边！ 嘿 埃里克斯 你还好吗？ - Group one, this way, please! - Hey, Alex, you OK?
我们可不可以定条规矩 不要再问这个问题？ Can we make a rule that we stop asking each other that?
我想和你一起走 我只是… Um... I'm gonna walk with you, I just gotta...
克雷詹森 请回你那一组去 Clay Jensen, back to your group, please.
操 好吧 你可以盯着泰勒吗？ Fuck, shit, OK. Can you keep an eye on Tyler?
等等 干什么？发生什么事？ Wait. What? Did something happen?
没事 可能没什么事 只要盯着他就行了 好不好？ Nothing. It may be nothing. Just watch him, all right?
好吧 等等 你能也替我盯着扎克吗？ OK. Wait. Will you do the same with Zach?
你觉得他不会干什么傻事吧？ You don't think he would do anything, do you?
我已经他妈的搞不清楚了 I don't fucking know anymore.
克雷詹森！ Clay Jensen!
詹森先生 Mr. Jensen.
Uh...
- 嘿 - 你爸爸的校园挺不错的 - Hey. - Your dad's campus is quite nice.
这里不是他的 Well, he doesn't own it.
当然 Well, of course.
你是不是知道今早的涂鸦是谁弄的？ Um, I thought you might have some thoughts about the graffiti this morning.
不 我是说…不 No. I mean, uh... no.
我就直说吧 有人匿名告发说 Well, I should just tell you that we received a tip anonymously
那有可能是你干的 from someone saying you might have done it.
那… 那根本不合理 我不可能这么做 That's... That doesn't make sense for me to do that.
我同意 I agree.
只是好奇会是谁告状的 Just wonder who said you did.
- 我不知道 - 好吧 - I don't know. - All right.
要是你听说了什么… Well, if you hear anything…
他想干什么？ What'd he want?
没事 Nothing.
你不会真觉得可以追踪喷漆来源吧？ You don't really think you can trace the paint?
常青郡里获授权贩售喷漆的商店 寥寥可数 There's only a few stores in Evergreen that are authorized to sell spray paint.
店家需要记录交易和买家身份 They're required to take identification and log purchases.
我们找到喷漆品牌 就能去店家搜证 We find the brand. We check the stores.
好吧 All right.
有什么线索再告诉我 Let me know.
希腊生活在桑德森大学占据重要地位 Greek life is a huge part of our campus here at SU.
身为希腊社群的一份子 我深感自豪 I'm proud to call myself a part of the Greek community.
那的确是大学里获益良多的体验之一 It's truly one of the most rewarding experiences of college.
我最喜欢的姐妹会活动是服务计划… One of my favorite parts of sorority life is the service projects
we support every semester. Last year...
什么事？ What?
什么？不就一起走而已 What? We're walking together.
不 我要走这边 No, I'm walking this way.
嘿 不要 老兄 不要这样 Hey, no. Dude, no.
有什么比实际体验 更加能够认识大学生活呢？ What better way to learn about college life
than actually experiencing it?
扎克 不行 Zach, no.
你在干… What are you...
好好享受参观 Enjoy the tour.
扎克！ Zach!
我翘掉了参观 因为… I ditched the tour because, well…
操！ Fuck!
…我不希望扎克惹上麻烦 …I didn't want Zach getting into trouble.
桑德森大学以其前沿设施而闻名 Sanderson University is known for its state-of-the-art facilities.
事实的确如此… And that's true…
- 我待会再找你们 - 等一下 你要去哪里？ - I'll catch up with you guys in a bit. - Wait, where are you going?
这座建筑的柱顶很宏伟 我想拍下来 The entablature on this building, it's really impressive. I want to get it.
他真迷建筑 He loves his architecture.
可不是 Yeah.
你们认识很久了吗？ You guys been friends for a while?
算是去年才开始熟吧 Uh... kind of since last year.
他是个好人 He's a good guy.
偶尔会有点奇怪 有时候会比较难相处 - He's strange sometimes. - Can be a little awkward.
是啊 但没有导游杰瑞米那么难相处 Yeah, though not as awkward as Jeremy the tour guide.
大家的右边是生命科学大楼 So, this is the Life Sciences building on your right.
桑大鼓励学生追求所有梦想 Students here are encouraged to pursue all their passions.
所以我既主修生物工程学 也主修现代舞 That's why I'm a bioengineering/modern dance major.
这里几乎所有人都是“双主修” Pretty much everyone you'll see here is a "slasher" too.
他竟然做引号手势 He actually did the air quotes.
或许那是现代舞来的 Maybe it was modern dance.
是啊 Yeah.
建筑学院位于 The School of Architecture is housed
校园里最重要的一个建筑群中 in one of the most significant buildings on campus.
杰西 你知不知道克雷去哪里了？ Jess, do you know where Clay went?
看看贾斯汀 Look at Justin.
完全迷上那个阿曼达 Totally crushing on that Amanda.
天啊 谢谢 Oh, God. Thank you.
不好意思 Excuse me?
- 阿曼达？ - 是 - Amanda? - Yes?
你们的网站声称 桑德森大学的性侵犯比率 Yeah, your website claims that Sanderson has a rate of sexual assault
远低于全国水平 that's way below the national average.
但大部分个案是私下裁决的 完全没有透明度 But isn't it true that most claims are adjudicated in private sessions
也不用负法律责任 是这样吗？ with no transparency or legal responsibility?
Uh...
我不清楚 I don't know.
作为女大学生的一份子 你应该去查清楚吧 Well, as a woman on campus, you should find out.
她是我们的学生会主席 Our student body president.
好 OK...
很好 Nice.
来！ Go! Don't suck!
我只是想说 如果被人发现我们只是高中生… If anyone finds out we're still in high school...
这里大概一半人都还没成年 Dude, half the kids here are probably underage.
- 别担心 - 好 - Don't worry. - Right,
但我们真的有必要玩喝酒游戏吗？ but should we really be playing a drinking game?
你那么担心 干嘛要来第三轮？ If you're worried, why's this your third round?
我留下来是为了你 I'm here because of you.
行了 那只是借口罢了 If that's what you need to tell yourself,
但如果你留下来是为了我 我要留下来 but if you're here because of me, I'm staying.
喝！ Go!
喝！ - Go! - Shit!
快！翻过去！ Come on! Flip!
- Yeah! - Come on!
克瑞！ Corey!
感觉真好 是不是？ Feels good, doesn't it?
克瑞！ Corey!
对克瑞来说是不错 It does for Corey.
为什么大家总叫我“克瑞”？ Why am I always Corey?
克瑞！ Corey!
- 再来一次！ - 好！ - Let's run it back. - All right!
- 来吧！ - 击掌！ - Let's go! - High five!
该死的 Oh, shit.
天啊 白天喝酒 Oh, my God, the day drinking.
- 对吧？ - 你还好吗？ - Right? - Are you OK?
嘿 宝贝？ Hey. Babe?
布雷迪？你灌醉我了！ Brady? You got me drunk!
你不适合喝龙舌兰 You and tequila are bad news.
来吧 我送你上楼 Come on, let's get you upstairs.
睡一觉就好 Sleep it off.
喂！ Hey!
她都是你的了 詹森 She's all yours, Jensen.
别因为我没了性致 Don't let me stop you.
来嘛 你明知道自己想上她的 你也知道她想让你上 所以嘛… Oh, come on, you know you wanna fuck her. And you know she wants you to, so...
动手吧 do it.
老兄 去吧 去操她 Do it, go ahead. Go on, come on. Fuck her.
我不能…我不能那么做 I can't... I can't do that.
为什么不能？ What? Why? Why not?
那个男人说他就在隔壁房间 I mean, that guy said he'd be in the next room.
那就是你的理由？ That's your response?
不是因为“我不可能做那种事”？ Not, "I would never do that"?
真是操蛋 That's fucked up.
或许你开始明白了 Or maybe you're starting to get it.
明白什么？ Get what?
你能够做出什么事 What you're capable of.
你真正的为人 Who you really are.
你他妈是谁？ Who the fuck are you?
I...
不 我不是…我只是… No, I wasn't... I was just...
你只是什么？给我他妈滚开她身边！ You were just what? Get the fuck away from her!
我要展现给你们看 你们如何一瞬间就输得一败涂地 I'm about to show you guys how you're gonna get dominated real quick.
- 抛几颗球… - 扎克！ - Throw some balls... - Zach!
- 该死的！ - 对不起！ - Oh, shit! - Sorry!
- What? - Sorry!
等一下 我的背包 Wait, my backpack.
等等 我的背包到哪里去？ 他妈的在哪… Wait, where the fuck is my backpack? Where the fuck...
就在这里 老兄 怎么回事？ Right here, man. What the fuck is going on?
- 喂 堵住那个狗娘养的！ - 什么鬼？ - Stop that little fucker! - What the fuck?
等一下 不要 你他妈干了什么事？ - Wait. No. - Clay, what the fuck did you do?
我发誓什么都没干 走错房间而已 Nothing, I swear,
好了 冷静 我认识他的 - I walked into the wrong room. - All right, calm down. I know this guy.
喂！抓住他！ Hey! Hold him!
- 不！ - 布雷迪 他干嘛了？ - No! - What'd he do, Brady?
求求你让我走 Please, let me go.
这样吧 抓住他们俩 You know what? Grab both of them.
嘿 大家一场朋友 Hey, whoa. We're all friends here.
我们真的算朋友吗？ Are we friends?
因为在今天之前 我从没在学校见过你们 Because I have never seen either of you on campus before today.
你到底是什么人？“朋友”？ So who are you, "friend"?
求求你 我… Please, I…
听着 我们只是想来享受一下 喝几杯啤酒 就这样而已 We were just trying to have a good time, have a few beers, that's about it.
你这人渣 想这样对我女朋友吗？ That what you were trying to have with my girlfriend, you shit?
- 逍遥快活？ - 不 事情不是看起来那样的 - A fucking good time? - No, it's not what it looks like.
请放开我 Please just let me go.
事情看起来就是 你看到床上躺着醉倒的女生 What it looked like is you saw a drunk girl passed out in a bed.
看起来你要去上她 And it looked like you were gonna try and fuck her.
克雷 搞什么鬼？ Clay, what the fuck?
放开我！ Let me go!
放开我！ Let me go! Let me go! Let me go! Let me go! Let me go! Let me go!
你不是真的打算来这里念书的吧？ So, you're not actually thinking of going here, are you?
万一有这个打算呢？ What if I am?
怎么了？你担心我会打扰你 和那个导游阿曼达？ What? What, you're worried I'll get in between you and Amanda the tour guide?
不是 No.
为什么你没有那么惊慌失措？ Why are you not more freaked out?
上大学的事？ About college?
不 我说的是涂鸦 No, the graffiti.
泰勒 还有这一切 Tyler. I mean, everything.
一切肯定都会没事的 I'm sure it's... going to be fine.
真的吗？ Really?
分享一下你的秘诀 你为什么这么肯定？ Well, share your secret sauce. I mean, how are you so sure?
因为我没得选 Because I have to be.
因为你没有参与其中 Oh, because you didn't actually do anything.
没有撒谎什么的 Or lie or anything,
所以你知道 就算我们全都被抓 你也不会出事 so you know that you'll just skate if the rest of us get caught.
什么？那… What? That's...
你怎么可以这样说？ How can you say that to me?
这个人 This.
我不认识面前这个人 I don't recognize this.
我不知道你是谁 I don't know who this is.
这就是我 It's me.
这是我尝试着… It's me trying...
尝试着变得更好 trying to get better.
我希望你能坚持 Well, I hope it lasts.
不过 另一方面 But on the other hand,
去没人了解你过去的学校上学 肯定不错吧 it must be kind of nice coming to a school where nobody knows your history.
是啊 Um... yeah.
说得没错 Well, that's true.
有时候我希望… Yeah, sometimes I wish that...
我不知道 I mean, I don't know.
什么？ What?
你希望什么？ What do you wish?
我只是希望那些烦心事从没发生过 There's just a lot of shit that I wish never happened.
例如呢？ Like what?
例如啊… Oh, like, um...
我企图自杀 I tried to kill myself.
天啊 Oh, Jesus. I...
- 我很遗憾 - 我也很后悔 - I'm sorry. - Yeah, me too.
非常后悔 Hugely.
抱歉 我不是有意让你尴尬的 我平常不怎么会谈到这个话题 Sorry, I didn't mean to make it awkward. I just don't talk about it very often.
不 我没有尴尬 No, it's not awkward.
你应该谈谈的 You should talk about it.
抱歉我说不出话 我只是… Sorry I got quiet. I just...
这不怪你 你能说些什么呢？ Well, I mean, what can you say to that?
我很庆幸你还活着？ I'm glad you're alive?
谢谢你 嗯 Thanks. Yeah.
是 我也很庆幸 Yeah, me too.
对不起 去年夏天的时候 我没有留在派对 And I'm sorry that I didn't stay at that party last summer,
我应该在蒙蒂打你之后好好照顾你的 just to make sure that you were OK after Monty, you know?
我只是…不得不离开 I just... needed to get out of there.
不 我明白 No, I get it.
蒙蒂曾经把我揍个半死 You know, Monty beat the shit out of me once.
为什么？ Why?
一言难尽 It's complicated.
Um...
对不起 我不是同性恋 Sorry, I'm not... I'm not gay.
Oh.
妈的 Shit.
我还以为或许… I thought maybe, uh…
不 No.
别感到抱歉 Don't feel bad.
没事的 It's OK.
好吧 OK.
好吧 谢谢 Cool, thank you.
嗯 there's no need to thank me, but… 没必要道谢 不过… Yeah. I mean,
我们或许应该… We should probably…
♪ What's luck got to say To questions of fate, my love? ♪
（桑德森大学警察） “回想你曾经 面对挑战、挫折或失败的一个时刻 "Recount a time when you faced a challenge, setback, or failure."
它如何影响你 How did it affect you,
而你从中学到了什么？” "and what did you learn from the experience?"
为什么兄弟会的名字 要叫“妨碍线”？ Don't know why a frat house called a seclearity line.
防卫线 Security line.
你还醉着？ Are you still drunk?
我已经醉了很长时间 - I stay drunk a really long time. - Oh.
你他妈到底是怎么了？ Man, what the fuck is up with you?
那你他妈到底是怎么了？ What the fuck is up with you?
回得好 Fair point.
我们不可以闹出这种鸟事的 Shit like this cannot happen.
扎克 你得注意小心 You gotta be fucking careful, Zach.
小心？ Careful?
克雷 我整个人生都过得小心翼翼 Yeah, I've been careful my whole damn life, Clay.
扎克 Zach,
不是你干的吧？ you didn't do it, did you?
涂鸦？ The graffiti?
操 不是我 Fuck, no. Wha...
你怎么可以问我这个问题？ How the fuck could you even ask me that?
天啊 克雷 Jesus, Clay.
什么鬼？ What the hell?
詹森先生 他们完全不肯放我们走 Mr. Jensen, they totally held us hostage.
你们很幸运 他们没进一步行动 他们对你们提出相当严重的指控 You're lucky they didn't do a lot worse. They made some pretty wild accusations.
要不是防卫线在校园保安里毫无诚信 If it weren't for the fact the Sigs have zero credibility
你们就麻烦大了 with campus security, we might have a real problem.
你们俩在想什么？ 克雷 What were you boys thinking? Clay?
我告诉嘉里你们俩被“留住了” 所以公车已经开回自由高中了 Well, I told Gary you two were "detained," so the bus has left to go back to Liberty.
还有 克雷 你错过了和主任的会面 And, Clay, you missed the meeting with the dean.
至少我爸妈还有一个有前途的儿子 At least my parents have one son with a future.
这场对话回家继续 This discussion will continue at home.
而扎克 And, Zach,
我可能需要和你妈妈谈谈 要这么做真对不起您 - I might have to speak with your mother. - Oof! Well, I am sorry about that.
老兄 你还好吗？ Dude, are you OK?
操你 Fuck you.
不 说真的 你脸色不太好 No, I mean, you really don't look that great.
Oh!
天啊 克雷！ God, Clay!
Oh!
哇 Wow!
这里真漂亮 Looks good in here.
只是放了些摆设 Yeah, it's just a few things.
Um...
听说扎克和克雷今天被抓到 他们混进了兄弟会？ I heard about Zach and Clay. They got busted at the frat house today?
克雷当时在看着扎克 Clay was minding Zach at the time.
扎克最近有点…不正常 He's been... off.
克雷也是啊 So has Clay.
你也一样 不是吗？ So have you, no?
我知道 I know.
听着 贾斯汀的事 我真的很遗憾 Look, I'm... really sorry about all that Justin stuff.
听着 我会没事的 不用担心 Look, I'll be fine. Don't worry.
我们得撑过去 直到毕业 We have to hold it together until graduation.
或者你去哥伦比亚大学 你我天涯永别 Or you get into Columbia or some shit, and I'll never see you again.
不 No.
不对 你会再见我的 Not true. You will see me.
我们俩的感情是永远的 This is forever, you and me.
我们会撑过接下来几个月的 We will get through these next few months.
然后我们便自由了 And then we're free.
永远 Forever.
对 自由 Right. Free.
真久啊 That was a long one.
你还行吗？ You OK?
一如既往 已经不是什么大事了 The usual. It's not even a thing anymore.
“我们对你很失望 我们很担心 "We're disappointed. We're worried.
艾尔曼医生的心理咨询疗程 有用吗？” Are the sessions with Dr. Ellman working?"
有用吗？ Are they?
看起来有用吗？ What the fuck does it look like?
老爸主要是气我搞砸了主任的会面 Dad's mostly just pissed I blew off the meeting with the dean.
因为你肯定表现得很好吧 Because you aced it, I'm sure.
不 我搞砸了 No, I blew it.
我再次搞砸所有事 变回瘾君子 Yeah, it's only a matter of time before I fuck everything up
只是迟早的问题 and just become a junkie again.
- 不会的 - 真的吗？ - That's not true. - Really?
因为你最近就是这么做的 'Cause it's kind of how you've been acting.
我没有 I have not.
随便你 Yeah, whatever.
没问题 那你去西方学院就行了 So, no sweat. You'll just go to Occidental.
就算我考得上 胜算也不高 Even if I do get in, which, who the hell knows,
学费太他妈的贵了 it's fucking expensive.
如果我念桑德森大学 就不用交学费 If I go to Sanderson, it's free.
你不用因为免费就念桑德森大学啊 我们又不穷 Well, you don't have to go just because it's free. We're not poor.
我不想再花你父母一分一毫 I don't want to cost your parents any more money.
我不想夺走原本属于你的东西 And I don't want to take away from something that... should be yours.
Oh...
我只希望他们存的钱 OK, I just want there to be enough college money
够你去想去的大学 for you to go wherever you want.
我是说 I mean,
我现在也别无选择了 所以… it's not like I have fucking options right now, so...
好吧 听着 需要我帮忙吗？ OK, well, look, can I help? With...
什么都可以 With anything?
不用 No.
不用了 谢谢 No, thanks.
克雷 Clay.
你究竟在那女生的房间里做了什么？ What exactly were you doing in the room with that girl?
我究竟做了什么？ What exactly was I doing?
我在做什么？ What am I doing?
亲爱的招生委员会 Dear admissions committee,
我他妈的毫无头绪 I am fucking lost.
早上7点就那么拼 Working hard for 7:00 a.m.
你来干嘛？ What are you doing here?
早上喝杯咖啡而已 Morning coffee.
你呢？ You?
写作业 你为什么要那么勤奋？ - Homework. - Why do you work so hard?
高四下学期… Second semester, senior year…
不是所有人都有信托基金 或者有亲属是普林斯顿大学校友 Well, not all of us have a trust fund or a family legacy at Princeton.
我已经没有这些后台了 I don't have any of those things anymore.
那么你也应该再拼一点 So maybe you should be working harder.
不要 Nah.
我笨死了 是啊 喜欢便坐下吧 - I'm dumb. - Um, yeah, have a seat, I guess.
我不聪明 I'm not smart.
白人上流社会的二百年同系繁殖 结果培育了这样的我 Two centuries of WASP inbreeding, and this is what I got.
绩点只有2.8 I got a 2.8.
努力的话可能会有2.9吧 And if I work hard,
it could be a 2.9.
一生只拿C的学生 - Lifelong C student. - Hmm.
我可以接受 I'm OK with it.
至少你没有学业压力 对吧？ That's good for your stress levels, at least, isn't it?
你呢？4.0吗？ What are you, a 4.0?
4.4 4.4.
我操 Holy shit.
原来这个数字是存在的啊 I guess I knew that was mathematically possible.
好 你想干嘛？ 你干嘛跟我搭话？ OK, what do you want? Why are you talking to me?
- 我只是想友善待人 - 才怪 - I'm just trying to be friendly. - Hardly.
你非得喷漆啊 You have spray paint for that.
不是我干的 It wasn't me.
是真的 Honest.
告诉我真相 Tell me what really happened,
我发誓我不会再提起这件事 不会告诉任何人 and I swear to you I'll never mention it again. To anyone.
告诉我真相便是了 Just tell me what really happened.
我不知道 I don't know.
为什么撒谎？ Why lie to me?
撒谎有什么好处？ What good does that do?
喂 你为什么叫我看着泰勒？ Hey, why'd you ask me to watch Tyler?
你昨晚干嘛不给我发短信？ Why didn't you text me last night?
因为参观风平浪静 你以为会发生什么事吗？ Because nothing happened on the tour. Did you think something would?
你仍然相信他吧？ You still believe him, right?
当然 Of course.
真的吗？ Really?
真的 我只是不希望 你做什么惹人注目的事 Yeah, I just didn't want you to do anything that might draw attention.
例如在兄弟会派对中被逮捕？ Oh, you mean like getting arrested at a frat party?
嗯 今天早上扎克告诉我了 Yeah, I got the report from Zach this morning.
发生什么事了？你还好吗？ Um... What the hell happened? Are you OK?
泰勒在参观时看起来怎么样？ How did Tyler seem on the tour?
有发生什么事吗？ Did anything happen?
- 有没有什么怪异行为？ - 没有 他超级正常的 - Was he acting weird? - No, he's, like, super normal.
他参观得很高兴 也很期待念大学 He was all happy to be on the tour and excited about college.
- 他有没有和谁一起玩？ - 没有 怎么了？ - Was he hanging out with anyone? - Not really, why?
他会和谁玩？ Who would he hang out with?
嘿 埃里克斯 Hey, Alex.
你要上西班牙语课？ 是的 - You going to Spanish? - Um... yeah.
我要上课了 I gotta get to class.
嘿 克雷 Hey, Clay.
詹森先生？能请你到我办公室吗？ Mr. Jensen? Care to meet me in my office?
我不知道他们干嘛要问 I don't know why they bother asking.
你根本没有选择不去的余地 别无选择 It's not like you have a choice. There are no choices.
坏事绵绵不绝 你只能一一应对 Shit just keeps happening, and all you can do is react.
我和你的慈父详谈许久 I've spoken at length with your very gracious father.
既然桑德森大学无意追究 And since Sanderson is not interested in pursuing the matter further,
我也决定不予追究 I've decided to leave it alone.
所以 我没有惹上麻烦？ So, I'm not in trouble?
对 但我想知道你为何做出这些选择 No, but I am interested in your reasons why you made the choices you made.
理解你行为背后的原因是很重要的 See, it's important for me to understand
这样我才能协助你 度过剩下几个月在自由高中的生活 so I can help you navigate these next few months at Liberty.
（蒙蒂是冤枉的） 我知道过去两年来 你经历过很多痛苦 I know you've been through an awful lot
these last two years.
我难以想象你的感受… I can't imagine what you're feeling...
…破坏行为 The vandalism.
什么？ What?
你还会有破坏的冲动吗？ Is it still on your mind?
我希望你知道 要是有人故意为难你 'Cause I hope you know that if anyone ever gives you a hard time,
要是你和你的朋友有什么问题 if any problems arise with you and your friends,
你们可以直接来找我 you can come to me directly.
我想帮助你们 I want to help you,
但如果我什么都不知道 就不能提供帮助 but I can't do that if I don't know what's going on.
你明白吗？ You understand?
当然 谢谢您 Sure. Thank you.
抱歉 Oh, sorry.
只是忘了我的书 Just forgot my books.
不 没关系 No, you're fine. It's...
我只是喜欢在这里学习 I just like to study down here.
比较有安全感 Feels a little more safe.
是的 Yeah.
我是说 有安全感很好 I mean, that's good that it feels safe.
（喷漆）
嘿 你想不想喝杯咖啡？ Hey, um... would you like to get some coffee?
- 现在吗？ - 是的 - Right now? - Yeah.
我本来就打算去喝 I mean, I was just gonna get some.
- 好啊 - 好 - Yeah, sure. - Cool.
你不担心泰勒吗？ 他不会无缘无故失踪的 So you're not worried about Tyler? I mean, it's not like him not to show up.
我不担心 I'm not worried.
好吧 我是挺相信你的 不过你今天锻炼得快疯掉了 OK, I mostly believe you, but you're training like a madman,
- 所以我不知道… - 我在为比赛锻炼 - so I don't know... - I'm training for a fight.
你是指真正的比赛？ Like a real fight?
- 卡莱布知道吗？ - 他当然知道 - Does Caleb know? - Of course he knows.
- 因为他经常说… - 我知道他经常说些什么 - 'Cause he always says... - I know what he always says.
但我还是要去 I'm gonna do it anyway.
但你可能会伤得很严重的 But you could get seriously hurt, right?
万一他们发现你是同志呢？ And what if they find out you're gay?
万一？ 那不就成了众矢之的吗？ - What if? - That's like a target on your back.
这是拳击 目标只会在我面前 It's boxing. There's a target on my front.
我知道 但这个世界好像…我不知道 Yeah, it just seems like that world... I don't know.
你干嘛那么担心？ 我能打的 你知道我能打 Why are you so worried about this, man? I can fight. You know I can fight.
你是什么时候知道自己是同志的？ When did you know that you were gay?
Uh...
我一直都知道 Well, I always knew.
我挺小的时候便知道自己与众不同 I always knew I was different, from a pretty young age.
只是不懂哪里不同 I just didn't know how.
在我长大的地方 成长的方式中 不容易发现这一点 It was hard to find out, growing up how I did, where I did.
因为做男人只有一种方式 Being a man is a particular way.
所以 没有人会提出疑问 So no one to ask about it.
我很早便和女生试着在一起 无论做什么 都没有任何反应 I tried things with girls pretty early on. Nothing really ever came of anything.
- 什么都没有？ - 对 - Never? - No.
我总是觉得自己在扮演什么角色 I always felt like I was, uh... like I was playing a role or something.
因为我感受不到理应有的感受 'Cause I wasn't feeling what I was supposed to be feeling.
然后我开始对男性有感觉 Then I started feeling shit for boys.
那时候我就知道了 And that's how I knew.
好了 你能陪我练打沙袋吗？ All right, you wanna spot me on the heavy bag?
行 Yeah.
所有人都想将你塞进盒子里 Everyone keeps trying to put you in one box.
可能合身 可能不合身 或者你会假装合身 And you fit, or you don't, or you pretend to.
但不管怎么样 那只是个该死的盒子 But any way you look at it, it's a fucking box.
是个他妈的盒子 正如埋葬你的棺材 It's a fucking box, like the box they'll bury you in.
那是你在参观时搞砸的原因吗？ Is that why you tanked the college tour?
为了逃离你的盒子？ To get out of your box?
我不是故意的 事情就这么发生了 I didn't do it on purpose. Shit happened.
坏事突然降临？ Just happened to you?
还是你自己决定的？ Or did you make choices?
你为什么会作出那些选择？ Why'd you make those choices?
参观很沉闷 拜托 - Tour was boring. - Come on.
找个更好的借口吧 Tell me a better story.
你为什么上楼？ Why'd you go upstairs?
我想帮那个女生 为什么是你？ - I wanted to help that girl. - Why you?
为什么一定要是你来救她？ Why did you have to be the one to save her?
因为我又看见一个混球和美女 Because there was another douchey fucking guy with another beautiful girl,
所以我…我不想再发生那种事 and I didn't... I didn't want it to happen again.
那么 你为什么走进那个房间… So why'd you go in the room...
明知道里面只有那位女生？ if she was alone in there?
你接下来想做什么？ What were you gonna do next?
- 我不知道 - 你不知道？ - I don't know. - You don't?
那岂不是很可怕？ Isn't that fucking scary that you don't?
是 Yes.
我… I was, uh...
我想到性爱 I was thinking about having sex.
和那女生做爱？ With the girl?
不是 No.
不是 我… Well, I... No, I mean... No, I don't...
我没有想… I wasn't thinking...
没想得那么具体 about the specifics.
我只是看到这个性感女生 然后… I just saw this hot girl, and...
然后怎样？ And what?
我硬了 I was hard.
我完全没察觉到 把我吓坏了 And I didn't even realize it, and it was fucking freaking me out.
为什么？ Why?
- 为什么把你吓坏了？ - 我他妈不知道 - Why did it freak you out? - I don't fucking know why.
你不该告诉我原因吗？ 这不是你的职责吗？ Aren't you supposed to tell me? Isn't that your job?
你是这么想的吗？ Is that what you think my job is?
操 你就不能直接告诉我吗？ Jesus fucking Christ, can you just tell me?
我来这里是为了解决恐慌症发作 还有各种烦扰思绪的 I'm here because of the panic attacks and the intrusive thoughts and everything.
你不是应该协助我 解决这些问题的吗？ And aren't you supposed to help me get rid of those?
没错 Yes.
这就是我的职责 This is the work.
这些问题是必须问的 These are the questions we ask.
我只是想有好转 I just want it to get better.
你可以的 It can.
会有好转的 It will.
只是我们需要时间 无法直接解决 But it's not instant, and it's not a straight line.
情况也可能… And it may well...
先恶化才会好转 get worse before it gets better.
我觉得你加入“婊”是非常勇敢的行为 I think it's brave that you joined HO.
虽然我不得不承认我有点意外 Although, I admit I was a bit surprised.
我不怪你 I don't blame you.
很多人以为我加入“婊” 是要捍卫我哥哥 Most people think that I'm here to defend who my brother is...
或是他做过的事 was, or... what he did.
但是 那不是我 But that's not me.
- 我不是他 - 当然 - I'm not him. - No, of course not.
为他离世感到伤心一定不容易 Must be tough trying to grieve for him,
你知道他的作为 knowing what he did.
我一直知道蒙蒂脾气暴躁 I've always known that Monty had a temper.
我只是不明白布莱斯 The only thing that I don't understand is Bryce.
什么意思？ What do you mean?
布莱斯对蒙蒂来说亲如手足 Bryce was like a brother to Monty.
布莱斯对我也很温柔 I mean, he was even nice to me.
抱歉 我知道布莱斯做过很可怕… I'm sorry, I know that Bryce has done some really terrible...
不 没关系 No, it's OK.
我觉得他是个复杂的人 He was a complicated person, I think.
你曾经住在他家 对吧？ You used to live at his house, didn't you?
是 住在客房 In the guest house, yeah.
你这几个月有见过蒙蒂出现附近吗？ Did you see Monty hanging around these last few months?
Um...
不 我记得没有 No, not that I can remember.
那么 你有没有见过他们发生什么事 Well, did you see anything that would make you think
会让蒙蒂想动手伤害布莱斯？ that Monty would actually want to hurt Bryce?
我没见过那种事 没有 I never saw anything like that, no.
这段时间对我和我朋友来说相当难熬 It's just a really challenging time for me and my friends.
嘿 Hey.
谢谢你和我见面 Thanks for meeting me.
你竟然真的来了 I'm surprised you actually made it.
我还以为你要放我第三次鸽子呢 I thought you were gonna stand me up for the third time.
对不起 Yeah, I'm sorry about that.
我只是…有很多事…烦恼 I just... I had a lot of things... going on.
很多什么事？ A lot of what?
到处醉驾？ Driving around and drinking?
只是学业和其他事 Just school and shit.
扎克 你怎么了？ Zach, what's going on?
这样不像你 This is not the way you are.
怎么不像我？ What's not the way I am?
例如放鸽子 Like, not showing up.
不打电话 Not calling.
不看着我 Not looking at me.
Um...
哎呀 小扎 Oh, Zachy.
扎克 发生什么事？ Zach, what is it?
他妈的… Shit's just...
他妈的全都搞砸了 Shit's fucked up.
什么意思？ What do you mean?
告诉我发生什么事 我们一起来找解决方法吧 Tell me what happened, and we'll figure out a way to fix it.
不 没有办法… No, there's no...
没有办法解决的 There's no fixing this.
我们都只是渴望得到更好的东西 We're all just desperate for something better.
更加真实的东西 More true.
你那时候痛吗？ Did it hurt when you did it?
对不起 你不用理我 这不关我的… I'm sorry, you don't have to answer that. That's none of my...
不 没关系 No, it's OK.
Um...
我以为… I thought…
我甚至不知道自己在想什么 I don't even know what I thought.
我没想过之后会有什么感受 And I never really thought about how it'd feel, like, after.
就是 下场会有多惨 You know, how fucked up I'd be.
我没想过我还会有“下场” 'Cause I didn't think there was gonna be any after.
我真希望当时有好好考虑这个可能性 I really wish I would've considered that possibility.
我不觉得你很惨 埃里克斯 I don't think you fucked up, Alex.
其实 我觉得你现在这么坚强 真是叫人佩服 I think it's kind of amazing, actually, where you are now.
是啊 Yeah.
我很努力接受物理治疗那些东西 I mean, I've worked really hard with the physical therapy and stuff.
我终于可以扔掉那根蛋疼的拐杖 I finally got rid of that fucking cane.
不过 我永远不可能变回正常人了 But... I don't know, I'm never gonna be, like, normal again.
嘿 去他的正常 Hey. Well, fuck normal.
这到底是什么意思？ What does that even mean?
从来没有人觉得正常过 Nobody ever actually feels normal.
是 我猜你说得对 Yeah, I guess that's true.
你有一群好朋友 一定有所帮助的 I'm sure it helps, you know, having such a good group of friends.
泰勒总是告诉我 你们的关系很亲密 Tyler's always telling me you guys are so, you know, close and everything.
是啊 但我们没以前那么亲近了 Yeah, we're not as close as we used to be, but…
是吗？为什么？ Well, why not?
我是说 他们很好 我们都很好 I mean, you know, they're great, and we're all great.
只是最近不怎么一起玩 It's just we don't hang out as much lately.
这对我来说是好消息吧 我是说 That's good news for me, I guess. I mean...
我在自由高中没什么朋友 所以… I don't really have a lot of friends at Liberty, so...
我很高兴你叫我出来 I'm really glad you called.
我也是 Yeah, me too.
走吧？ Shall we?
- 比尔提起过摄影机？ - 我不太喜欢这个主意 Bill mentioned cameras?
I'm not sure how I feel about cameras.
嘿 克雷 Oh, hey, Clay. Uh...
我们正谈起你 We were just talking about you.
怎么了？发生什么事？ What's going on? Did something happen?
没有 我只是来跟你的父母汇报 No, I was just, uh, checking in with your folks.
- 汇报什么？ - 迪亚兹警长正向我们解释 - About what? - Sheriff Diaz is walking us through
学校新推行的保安措施 some of the new security measures for the school.
鉴于最近情势紧张 Given all the tension lately,
我只是希望你的家长知悉 I wanted to make sure your parents were aware
我们正在尽己所能 that we're doing everything we can to keep you and everyone else at Liberty
尽量让你和自由高中的其他学生 保持安全 as safe as possible.
真是… That's...
真是太好了 That's excellent.
那么我… Well, I, uh...
我应该去动工了 I should probably get to work.
写大学论文什么的 College essays and everything.
你见到迪亚兹了吗？ Did you see Diaz?
见到了 Yeah.
这样子并不好 是不是？ This isn't good, is it?
是的 No.
这样子并不好 This isn't good.
克雷 你他妈的怎么了？ Clay, what the fuck is wrong with you?
恐慌症发作 I'm having a panic attack.
“我们在遭遇障碍后懂得的教训 "The lessons we take from obstacles we encounter"
或许会对日后的成功很重要 can be fundamental to later success.
回想你曾经 面对挑战、挫折或失败的一个时刻 Recount a time when you faced a challenge, setback, or failure.
它如何影响你 How did it affect you,
而你从中学到了什么？” "and what did you learn from the experience?"
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没错 坏事只会绵绵不绝 每况愈下 Yeah, things are gonna get worse.
Much, much worse...
直到出现好转为止 until something makes them better.
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♪ I try to behave ♪
♪ I try harder every day ♪
♪ I try to behave, yeah ♪
♪ And it gets harder every day ♪
♪ What if I don't say The things that I'm thinking? ♪
♪ Will it make them go away? ♪
♪ What if I don't say The things that I'm feeling? ♪
♪ Will it make them go away? ♪
♪ Behave ♪
♪ What if I can't? ♪
♪ Change ♪
♪ What if I can't? ♪
♪ Behave ♪
♪ For you ♪
♪ Behave ♪
♪ Stop telling me to ♪
♪ Change ♪
♪ What if I can't? ♪
♪ Behave ♪
♪ For you ♪
♪ Behave ♪
♪ Stop telling me to ♪
♪ Change ♪
♪ Stop telling me to ♪
♪ Behave ♪
♪ For you ♪
♪ Behave ♪
字幕翻译：梁凯铃
Well done, Ed. Well done.