本集含有頻閃鏡頭 或影響光敏觀眾
一個月 半年 一年后 會怎樣 What happens in a month, six months, a year?
萬一她只想跟你做朋友 怎么辦 When she tells you she just wants to be friends?
《迷醉》前情提要
內特 我憑什么幫你 Nate, why would I do a single thing for you?
因為我能讓你坐牢 'Cause I'll put you in jail.
你開上車 I need you to get in your car
去東高警局 and drive down to the East Island police station.
你得去找接警員 You're going to walk up to the receptionist,
告訴她 你想自首 and you're gonna tell her you'd like to confess to a crime.
你認識這個人嗎 Do you recognize that man?
他就是嘉年華襲擊我的人 He's the guy who assaulted me the night of the carnival.
你能先上來嗎 Can you please get out of the pool?
這里太無趣了 This whole town is so fucking boring.
我就是個累贅 我好丟人 I'm a burden, and it is what it is and it's embarrassing
抱歉 so I'm sorry.
不準胡鬧 克里斯托弗 No funny business, Christopher!
壞了 Fuck.
凱西的父親很帥 Cassie's dad was really handsome.
帥到能靠臉吃飯 女人紛紛往身上撲 The kind of handsome that made people treat him differently.
她媽之前總抱怨他招蜂引蝶 Her mom used to get really upset at him for flirting.
♪祝你生日快樂♪ ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
可長得帥又不是他的錯 Which wasn't fair. It wasn't his fault.
他真的很愛她 He really loved her.
他真的很愛她們母女 He really loved them all.
她父親一直希望她成為專業滑冰運動員 Her dad always wanted her to become a professional ice skater.
謝謝爸爸 Thank you!
生日快樂 寶貝 Happy birthday, kiddo.
她本也以為自己能行 And for a while, she thought she might.
她天生是個滑冰的苗子 She was a natural.
但她爸支付不起高昂的滑冰課費用 But her dad couldn't afford lessons,
于是他便不再鼓勵她滑冰 so he stopped encouraging her.
青春期后 她和母親越發親近 When she hit puberty, her mother and her became best friends.
你真是個天使 You're an angel.
我像個奶娃娃 I feel like a big baby.
凱茜 我們母女說句貼心話 Cassie, woman to woman, hmm?
你完美無瑕 You're perfect.
-我的天吶 瞧瞧你 -怎么了 - Holy moly, look at you. - What?
你將來絕對令男人魂牽夢縈 You're gonna be a real heart breaker.
信我吧 Trust me.
除了她的身材變得前凸后翹之外 And it wasn't just her body that changed.
旁人對她的態度也天翻地覆 But the rest of the world, too.
這是泰德叔叔 You remember Uncle Ted?
天吶 女大十八變啊 Boy, look at you. All grown up.
來 抱一個 Come on, give me a hug.
真是"長大"了啊 You really filled out.
凱茜美妞 抱一個 Sassy Cassie. Come here.
你勾勾手指 男生就乖乖讓你差遣了 I bet you got all the boys wrapped around your finger.
他們家并不完美 Their family wasn't perfect.
她媽有點狂野 Her mom had, you know, some issues.
天吶 My God.
她爸的收入難以為繼 And her dad struggled to keep a steady income.
怎么了 What?
-去你的 -那可是我家人... - Fuck you. - This is my family--
他們時有爭吵 And they fought.
就像普通家庭的父母一樣爭吵 In the way all parents kind of fight.
可她九年級開學前夜 爭吵升級了 Except for the night before she started ninth grade.
她媽說 她爸很不理智 Her mom told her that her dad was just being irrational.
你爸真是個醋壇子 Your father had some serious jealousy issues.
聽我的準沒錯 Let me tell you.
而且他連個養家糊口的正經工作都沒有 Plus, he couldn't hold a steady job to save his life.
依我看 他就是不想承擔身為人父的責任 I just think he didn't want the responsibility of being a father.
責任太重了 It's too much work.
但凱茜從別人口中聽到了不同的版本 But Cassie had heard differently.
我媽說你媽給你爸帶了綠帽子 My mom said your mom cheated on your dad.
所以他才會離開 And that's why he left.
怎么會 What?
起初 她很氣憤她媽的做派 At first, she was really angry at her mom.
她恨她的虛偽 She resented her for being such a hypocrite.
但后來她意識到 她爸也不完美 But then she realized that her dad wasn't perfect.
我可不想染上皰疹 但是... I don't know if I want to be associated with herpes but, you know...
她媽也并非完人 And her mom wasn't either,
也許他們倆本就不般配 and maybe they just weren't right for each other.
他過去每周末都去探望女兒們 He used to visit them on weekends.
再見 爸 Bye, Dad.
-再見 爸 -但后來 - Bye, Dad. - But, eventually,
他幾周才來一次 it became once every couple of weeks.
他說過會來 He said he was coming.
有時 一個多月也不見人影 And then sometimes, more than a month would go by.
直到某天晚上... Then one night...
他下班開車回家 he was driving home from work...
他在重癥病房躺了23天 and was in the ICU for 23 days.
醫生當時診斷他再也無法下地行走了 The doctors were afraid he'd never walk again.
但凱茜認定爸爸很堅強 一定會好起來 But Cassie knew he was strong, and that he'd get better.
醫生給他開了芬太尼止痛 He was prescribed fentanyl for pain.
給他注射鹽酸異丙嗪防止干嘔 Promethazine to offset the nausea.
注射勞拉西泮助眠 Liquid Lorazepam to sleep,
注射舒馬曲坦治療偏頭痛 and Imitrex injections for migraines.
凱茜常給他發短信 陪他聊天 Cassie would text him and talk to him.
但時間長了 他很少再回復短信 But as more time went by, the less responsive he became.
幾個月過去了 And eventually, months went by,
他音信全無 and she didn't hear from him at all.
直到她15歲生日一周后的某晚 Until one night, a week after her 15th birthday,
陌生號碼 凱茜 我是爸爸
她凌晨1點收到了一條陌生號碼發來的短信 she got a text from a random number at about 1:00 in the morning.
別聲張 我在門外
你能打開車庫門嗎
別驚醒你媽
雖然她見到他很高興 And even though she was excited to see him
很想沖上去擁抱他 and wanted to hug him,
但她莫名感到恐慌 there was something about the whole thing that scared her.
我想告訴你 我每天都在想你 I want you to know there's never a day goes by i don't think about you.
你給我發短信的號碼 The number you texted me from.
我能用那個號碼聯系你嗎 Can I call you?
我用了朋友的手機 That's my friend's phone.
但我保證 有了新號碼 就打給你 But I promise I'll reach out to you with my new number, I...
別哭 寶貝女兒 Don't cry, baby.
我很好 別哭 I'm okay. I'm fine. Don't...
我好想你 爸 I just miss you, Dad.
我也想你 我愛你 I miss you, okay. I love you.
他說得拿點東西 He said he needed a few things,
還讓她保證不會告訴任何人 and made her promise that she wouldn't tell a soul.
凱茜遵守了承諾 Cassie kept her promise,
從未把那晚的事告訴任何人 and never told anyone about that night.
她也再也沒見過父親 She also never saw her dad again.
她愛每個曾和她約會的男孩 She fell in love with every guy she ever dated.
聰明也好 愚蠢也罷 Whether they were smart or stupid
是否貼心也無所謂 or sweet or cruel, it didn't matter.
她就是不愿獨自一人 She didn't like to be alone.
-你干什么 -拍你啊 - What are you doing? - I'm just filming you.
為什么 Why?
她好過的每個男生都提出了一個相同的請求 And every guy she ever dated asked for the same things.
-我能拍你給我口交嗎 -不要 - Can I film you sucking my dick? - What? No!
-干什么 別拍了 -我門拍性愛視頻吧 - What? Stop. - Let's make a sex tape.
-不要 -來嘛 - What? - Come on.
-出去 -我不會告訴任何人 - Get out of here.- I won't tell anyone.
-又不是大事 -這事很嚴重 - It's not that big of a deal. - Yes, it is.
我不想拍 I don't wanna do this.
她幾乎每次都會心軟答應 And she almost always said yes.
盡管她很不情愿 也會照做 Even though it didn't always make her feel good.
她知道 多數男生跟她分手后 And she knew that most guys, after she broke up with them,
都會散播她的性愛視頻和裸照 would always share those photos or videos.
她第一次發現時 恐慌發作了 The first time she found out, she had a panic attack,
她甚至想吞撲熱息痛自殺 and wanted to swallow a whole bottle of Tylenol.
但最終放棄了 But she didn't.
因為最糟糕的情況也不會很慘 Because, I mean, what's the worst thing anybody could say to her?
無非就是說她給渣男口交而已 That she gave a blowjob to a guy who didn't deserve it?
而且她覺得 等她大學畢業 開始找工作 And she figured by the time she was out of college and looking for a job,
到時絕大多數人都有過裸照的黑歷史了 99 percent of the population would have leaked nudes, anyway.
結果 今年年初 她遇到了麥凱 And then, at the beginning of the year, she met McKay.
并且愛上了他 And fell in love with him.
他也愛上了她 And he fell in love with her.
-我愛你 -雖然有過矛盾爭吵 - I love you. - And even though things weren't perfect,
但他依然愛著不完美的她 he loved her for who she was.
雖然她走錯了幾步 And even though she had made a couple of mistakes,
但都不是大錯 I mean, they weren't big ones.
亡羊補牢 為時未晚 They weren't the kind of things you couldn't come back from.
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迷醉 第一季 第七集
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后期 漁夫
《愛情島》前情提要 Previously on Love Island...
把握住你和喬希的美好瞬間 Grab the amazing-ness that you have with Josh by the balls.
總監 Elena777
大家總給我推薦神劇 People are always telling me about great TV shows.
強烈安利我去看 How I just have to watch this show.
但說實話 我不想看好劇 But the truth is, I don't want good TV.
我不想看小說 I don't want a novel,
不喜歡慢熱的劇情 or some slow burn,
不喜歡為了看而看 or anything that feels like work.
正因如此 我才會熱愛真人秀 That's why I love reality TV.
真人秀有趣 充滿反轉 能吸引我的注意 It's funny, it's dramatic, and I can focus on it.
真人秀就是可以無腦觀看的娛樂節目 It's pure, effortless entertainment.
愛情觸礁了 Romance hits the rocks.
她不肯理我 不給我名分 She doesn't talk to me, she doesn't acknowledge me.
-她就是玩玩 -說實話... - She's playing a game. - Honestly...
我只記得自己躺在床上看劇 I want to lay down one moment
等回過神來 and then look around the next
我已經在兩天內狂刷了22小時的《愛情島》 and realize I have watched 22 straight hours of Love Island over a two-day period...
根本停不下來 and yearn for more.
有人會覺得這很壓抑 Some people may find that depressing.
但我不這么想 I don't.
但這確實是判斷抑郁程度的好方法 It is, however, a good way to measure depression.
因為當看真人秀感覺像是完成任務時 Because when reality TV begins to feel like work,
就像《廣告狂人》那樣 like, final season of Mad Men work,
那你絕對抑郁了 you know you're depressed.
一天沒下床尿尿的那種抑郁 Like, haven't got out of bed to pee in 24 hours depressed.
你覺得我有變化嗎 Do I look different to you?
我覺得沒問題 You look fine to me.
可我覺得不一樣了 'Cause I feel different.
反正看不出來 Okay, well, you don't look it.
我今天不去學校了 I don't think I'm gonna go to school today.
-因為丹尼爾嗎 -不是因為丹尼爾 萊克茜 - 'Cause of Daniel? - No, not 'cause of Daniel, Lexi!
我現在根本不在乎丹尼爾 Daniel's the last fucking thing I care about right now.
可你只提到了他啊 Okay, well, it's all you ever fucking talk about.
才沒有 我是問你 我狀態如何 我可沒提丹尼爾 That's not true! I asked you how I look. Not about Daniel!
你很美 凱茜 Yeah, well, you look beautiful, Cassie.
你太他媽美了 You look fucking amazing.
大家不是一直都夸贊你嗎 It's literally all anyone's ever told you your entire life.
你問來問去有意思嗎 Like, listen to yourself. It's fucking exhausting.
一想到要站起來 The thought of having to stand up,
移動35英尺 每走一步要調動172塊肌肉 exert 172 muscles each step for 35 feet,
就為了坐在冰涼的坐便器上 just so I can sit on cold porcelain
余生中日復一日地派出體內毒素 and piss out toxins over and over again for the rest of my life
我就覺得人生就是一個漫長且磨人的玩笑 makes the whole concept of living feel like one long, sadistic joke.
但抑郁最磨人的一點 But the absolute worst part of depression
是你明知自己抑郁了 is that even though you know you're depressed,
卻依然無可救藥地越陷越深 you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse.
但抑郁的不止我一人 But I wasn't the only one feeling down.
茱爾絲 你怎么了 Jules? What's wrong?
-我病了 -好吧 有什么需要就告訴我 - I'm sick. - Okay. Let me know if you need anything.
萬圣節之后 After Halloween,
茱爾絲整周都沒去上學 Jules didn't go to school for a full week.
即使我給她發了五十多條短信 她也沒回 And even though I sent her about 50 texts, she didn't respond.
萬圣節快樂 Happy Halloween.
我肯定是出什么事了 I could tell something bad had happened.
而此事肯定和內特有關 And that it had something to do with Nate.
東高警察局 10月31日 周六 上午8點41分
泰勒·克拉克森因傷人被捕 Tyler Clarkson was booked for assault.
但這根本說不通 But this shit wasn't adding up.
我當時正在慢慢理清真相 And I was putting together the pieces of the puzzle.
霍華德 我們走 Howard, let's roll.
不查出真相 我誓不罷手 I wasn't gonna stop until I got the truth.
當今社會 誣陷可以造成長久性嚴重傷害 False accusations in today's world can cause serious long-term damage
能毀掉一個人的事業 清譽 心理健康 to one's career, reputation, and emotional well-being.
我們都應由衷地向內特·雅各布斯表達歉意 We all owe Nate Jacobs a heartfelt apology,
東高熱烈歡迎他歸校 and are excited and thrilled to have him back at East Highland.
為什么茱爾絲會替內特作偽證 Why would Jules lie to help Nate?
不知道 I don't know.
-你問過她這件事嗎 -沒有 - Well, have you asked her about it? - No.
-你還沒問過她嗎 -沒有 - You haven't asked her? - No.
繼續看吧 大混蛋 Keep looking, you mook.
我就是"摩根·弗里曼"斗士本尊 I'm Morgan fuckin' Freeman
第三場開始 好戲還在后頭 and this is the beginning of the third act.
按常理 你不該先問一下她嗎 Well, doesn't that seem like the first logical step?
老實說 霍華德 整件事都沒法用常理解釋 Honestly, Howard, this whole thing is beyond logic.
除非 Unless...
茱爾絲愛上內特了 Jules is in love with Nate.
-茱爾絲怎么會愛上內特 -你聽我說 - Why would Jules be in love with Nate? - You should listen to me.
-班尼特 吸煙會害死你 -聽我說完 - Bennett, the cigarettes are killing me. - Hear me out.
聽著 聽著 Listen. Listen.
嘉年華那晚 Listen, the night of the carnival,
她說她要網戀奔現去面基 she said she wanted to go meet up with this guy she met online, okay?
對方是個體育系男生 來自保守派之家 He's some fuckin' jock, he's from a conservative family,
一直通過網絡聯系 and they were talking and texting.
一直發信息 持續了幾周 They've been texting for weeks.
我說發信息 And when I say texting,
不是指那種普通信息 I don't just mean regular fuckin' texting.
而是色情短信 They were sexting.
-裸照嗎 -對 順便說句 屌不錯 屋子整潔 - Like nudes? - Yeah. Side note, very nice dick. Very clean room.
她從沒見過對方的臉 She never fucking saw his face.
這么說茱爾絲網戀被騙了 Yeah, so Jules is catfished.
聽我說 嘉年華那晚 Now hear me out. So the night of the carnival,
她跟他約好在湖邊見面 she made plans with this guy to meet up with him at the lake, okay?
老娘回家了 I fucking go home.
結果后來 她跑到我家敲窗來找我了 Next thing I know... she's fucking knocking at my window.
她當時情緒很不好 She's all emotional,
眼中噙著淚水 she's got fucking tears in her eyes.
我問她 茱爾絲 出什么事了 I say, Jules, what the fuck happened?
她看著我說 She looks at me. She goes...
"他本人跟照片不一樣" "He didn't look like his pictures."
這就是標準的網戀被騙啊 Yeah, that's like, the definition of catfishing.
不 你知道他叫什么嗎 No, but do you know what his name was?
-內特·雅各布斯 -泰勒 - Nate Jacobs? - Tyler.
泰勒·克拉克森嗎 Like, Tyler Clarkson?
你說對了 You're goddamned right.
麥迪17歲 泰勒22歲 他們上床了 Maddy is 17, Tyler's 22, and they fornicated.
-強奸未成年 -你和我看到了 大家都看到了 - Statutory. - Yeah. You saw it, I saw it. We all fucking saw it.
-內特也看到了 -什么罪名比強奸未成年更輕 - Including Nate. - And what is a lighter offense than statutory?
傷人罪 Assault.
對了 Bingo!
小茹 你把咖啡倒進濾水器了嗎 Rue, are you pouring coffee in the water filter?
-正是 -而不是倒水嗎 - Yes, I am. - Instead of water?
-沒錯 -你別再這么做了 - Yes, I am. - Well, please, don't do that.
時候不早了 你不該喝咖啡 And it's late. You shouldn't be drinking caffeine.
媽 別絮叨了 我要寫作業 Mom, please. I have homework.
真沒想到我有一天能聽到你說這種話 Well, there's a sentence I never thought I'd hear.
咖啡好了 叫我一聲 Will you let me know when this is ready?
喂 Hello?
霍華德 我是班尼特 Howard, it's Bennett.
現在是凌晨2點45分 你不睡覺嗎 It's 2:45 in the morning. Don't you ever sleep?
聽著 內特向茱爾絲找茬兒的初衷是什么 Listen, why would Nate single out Jules in the first place?
他顯然是看上她了 It's obvious he was sexually attracted to her.
因為茱爾絲是個異性戀 And because Jules is predominantly het, okay,
他展現好身材 向她求愛 he wooed her with his fucking creepy jock magic shit.
她善解人意 又寬容大度 She's super fuckin' sensitive, she's very forgiving,
她還是全世界最美好的人 and she's basically the most wonderful fucking person on the planet...
她愛上他了 she fell for him.
所以她才作偽證了 That's why she fucking testified.
我就是個天才 老娘太有才了 I'm a genius. I'm a fucking genius.
媽 我他媽就是個天才 Hey, Mom! I'm a fucking genius.
我都不累 不可思議 I'm not even tired. It's crazy.
我他媽都不覺得困 I'm not even fucking tired.
我感覺好極了 I feel amazing.
我就是實話實說了 班尼特 I'll be honest with you, Bennett.
你是當局者迷啊 You're too close to this case.
-誰打來的電話 -小茹 - Who was that? - Rue.
-她好像處在狂燥期 -她沒事吧 - Think she's in, like, a manic state. - Is she okay?
好像有事 I don't think so.
躁郁癥患者能發現自己患病了嗎
匿名3203 不能
媽蛋 Fuck.
我不知道你要說什么 但這感覺... I don't know what you're gonna say, but this feels like...
很狗血啊 really dramatic.
感覺很瘆人 Yeah, this is spooky.
不瘆人 BB It is not spooky, BB.
我就是想咨詢你們兩件事 I just, I need your advice on, like, two things.
你們得保證不能說出去 And I need you guys to promise me not to say a single fucking word.
丹尼爾家萬圣節派對那晚 So, the night of Daniel's Halloween party,
發生了一些事 something happened.
我一般不會這么早射 I don't usually come that fast.
真是太爽了 That was amazing.
真有意思 我一直以為你會給我破處 It's funny. I always thought I was gonna lose my virginity to you.
-你是處女嗎 -不是 我是說小時候 - You're a virgin? - No, I mean, when we were younger.
-我們交往那會兒 -我們交往過嗎 - When we dated. - We dated?
是啊 六年級 Yeah, in sixth grade.
你和我交往過嗎 You and me?
交往了五個月吧 Yeah, for like five months.
我完全想不起來了 I literally have no recollection of that.
慢著 我沒聽錯吧 Wait. Am I hearing this correctly?
你想告訴麥凱 You want to tell McKay
你在嘉年華和萬圣節派對上 都跟丹尼爾親熱了嗎 that you made out with Daniel at the carnival and on Halloween?
是 但我不用說是丹尼爾 Yeah, but, I don't-- I don't have to say it's Daniel.
小婊砸 你這想法也太沒腦回路了 Bitch, that's the craziest idea I've ever heard. Right?
沒錯 For sure.
但我想跟他坦白 Yeah, but I want to be honest with him.
-你不能告訴麥凱 -但我又沒真做 不算"偷腥" - You cannot tell McKay. - But it's not like I cheated-cheated.
接吻更過分 因為投入感情了 Kissing is worse. It's so much more intimate.
如果有人說起 你就全盤否認 And if anybody brings it up, you deny, deny, deny.
好吧 但是 Okay, but, I just--
我不想我們之間存在這種秘密 I don't want there to be something this bad between us forever.
你就別擔心這事了 凱茜 I wouldn't worry about it, Cassie.
你們倆又不會永遠在一起 It's not like you guys are gonna be together forever.
凱特 你哪根筋搭錯線了 Kat, what the fuck is your problem?
你這個閨蜜很不稱職 You're being a bad friend now.
你之前對我就不貼心 You were a bad friend to me,
你現在這個人設超級不討喜 and this whole new personality is seriously unlikable.
牛掰了 World Star!
就因為我不再老實聽你絮叨 Why, because I won't sit and listen to you
你家那個心理變態的家暴男友 bitch and moan about your psychotic, abusive boyfriend
你都跟他分了千百次了 who you've literally broken up with a thousand times?
我當時處在人生低谷 所以沒錯 It was literally the lowest point in my life, so, yeah.
這讓我很生氣 還有你很毒舌 That and the fact that you're just fuckin' mean.
麥迪 我們從相識起 你就以自我為中心 Maddy, ever since I've met you, all you talk about is yourself.
話題永遠圍著你的衣服 男友轉 Your clothes, your boyfriends,
還有那些你認為重要的無腦八卦 whatever superficial shit you think is so fucking important.
抱歉 姐沒興趣再做跟班了 Sorry I'm no longer interested.
我不知道其他人怎么想 我想念以前的凱特 I don't know about everyone else, but I miss the old Kat.
以前的她幽默風趣 而不是一個賤貨 You know, the one who had a sense of humor and wasn't a fuckin' cunt?
真狠 Damn.
另一件事是什么 What was the other thing?
什么另一件事 What other thing?
你說想咨詢兩件事 You said you needed advice on two things.
我不記得了 I don't remember.
你會怎么做 What would you do?
說不好 I don't know.
我從來遇到過 I've never really been in a situation
兩個男人都喜歡我的情況 where two guys have been interested in me.
因為你太放不開了 That's 'cause you're shy.
也許是吧 但我也沒遇到過 I guess so, but I've also never been in a situation
我同時喜歡兩個男生的情況 where I've been interested in two guys.
那也是因為你太放不開了 That's also 'cause you're shy.
也許吧 Maybe.
但如果你處在我的位置 你會怎么做 But if you were in my situation, what would you do?
老實說 我什么都不會說 Honestly, I don't think I would say anything.
如果什么都不說 你感覺內心有愧呢 What if not saying something makes you feel really bad?
比說出來還糟嗎 Worse than saying it?
對 Yeah.
那你就只能說了 Well, then, I don't think you have any other option.
你感覺怎么樣了 How are you feeling?
我好像感冒了 I think I have the flu or something.
你有什么需要嗎 You want me to get you something?
-喝的 吃... -不用 - Something to drink, or something-- - No, I'm good.
你確定你感冒了嗎 小茹 You sure you got the flu, Rue?
吉雅 現在別來煩我 Gia, right now I just need you to leave me the fuck alone, all right?
前情提要 Previously...
內特 我們這輩子都會犯錯 Look, Nate, we all make mistakes in life.
傷害所愛之人 We hurt the ones we love.
辜負至親好友 We let down our friends, our family.
有時出于無知 Sometimes we do it out of ignorance.
有時出于自私 Sometimes it's selfishness.
我非完人 I am not perfect.
你知道這點 You know that.
但我這一生都在努力做個好人 But I've spent my life trying to do better.
你不是 You have not.
但我希望你能做個好人 But it is my wish for you.
我不知道你怎么脫身了 I don't know how you got out of this situation.
我知道你該受罰 但你確實脫罪了 I know you didn't deserve to, but you did.
我欣賞你不擇手段 And I admire whatever it took.
我就是希望你別因此走上歪路 I just hope it didn't teach you the wrong lesson.
這話聽起來有些變態 Okay, this is gonna sound sick,
因為我現在處于疼痛之中 because I'm actually in a lot of pain right now,
因為來自膀胱的壓力 承受不了床單的重量 due to the sheer weight and strain on my bladder,
這讓我想念嗑鴉片劑了 but, man, does this make me miss opiates.
因為你的膀胱很早就受過訓練 Because your bladder is trained from a very early age
不能想尿就尿 not to pee whenever it wants to,
需要經過你的大腦同意才能尿 it needs permission from your brain.
而你嗑嗨時 And when you're really high,
大腦就不怎么思考了 your brain gets a little... lazy.
不再下達指令了 Too lazy to say something.
呼吸 Come on. Breathe.
尿吧 Come on, please.
所以才有這么多嗑藥的人死在馬桶上吧 It's probably why so many drug addicts die on toilets.
朱迪
蘭尼
貓王
說實話 我上次走出房間 The truth is, the last time I left this room,
經歷可并不美好 I didn't have the best experience.
睡了一整天啊 Sleeping all day?
小日子過得真滋潤 It's quite the life.
這是瑞克 我媽的新男友 Meet Rick. My mom's new boyfriend.
若是讓瑞克形容一下自己 If you were to ask Rick to describe himself,
他會這樣描述... he'd say he was...
"骨子里的浪漫主義者 "A romantic at heart.
"我熱愛冒險和旅游 "I'm adventurous. I love to travel.
"我熱愛戶外運動 "I love the outdoors...
熱愛高雅藝術 良心電影 美酒 永遠年輕" great art, great movies, great wine. Forever young."
抱歉 真是太搞笑了 Sorry, I'm sorry.
-我想你爸 -我也是 - I miss your dad. - Me, too.
于是瑞克閃亮登場 So, enter Rick.
小茹啊 So...
聽你媽說 你新交了一個"閨蜜" Your mom tells me that you have a new, "Best friend."
為什么這種語氣 What is that supposed to mean?
你懂的 That, you know.
你新交了一個閨蜜啊 You got a new best friend.
這么說吧 瑞克 You know what, Rick?
你趕緊去死吧 Why don't you go fuck yourself?
怎么能這樣跟人說話 How dare you speak to someone like that?
跟誰啊 瑞克嗎 Who? Rick.
-別耍心眼 -我冒犯到你了嗎 - Don't be a smart-ass. - Did I offend you?
趕緊道歉 Apologize right now.
現在回想起來 我當時確實有點混 In retrospect, I was a little cunt-y.
但瑞克確實是個煩人精 而我正在氣頭上 But Rick does suck, and I was angry.
原因有很多 For a lot of reasons.
瑞克 很抱歉 我不該讓你去死 Rick, I sincerely apologize for telling you to go fuck yourself.
我的本意是 你配不上我媽 What I really meant to say is that my mom can do better
我不喜歡你坐在我爸曾經的位置上 and I hate seeing you sit in the chair my dad sat at.
茱爾絲 在嗎
茱爾絲 抱歉我消失了一整周
茱爾絲 我感冒了
我也是
沒事 我就是有點擔心你
茱爾絲 抱歉
茱爾絲 我這周末要去探望老朋友
要是我患了躁郁癥 If I am bipolar...
我寧愿狂躁 也不想抑郁 I sure as shit prefer mania over depression.
小菲 你看過90年代的驚悚片吧 Yo, Fez. So you know how in every '90s thriller, right,
摩根·弗里曼都會在其中扮演一個神神叨叨的黑人警察 Morgan Freeman plays, like, the same semi-psychic black cop.
-沒錯 -雖然這么說有點種族歧視 - Yeah. - So, I know that's kind of racist,
但關鍵是 在每部電影中 but the point is, in every movie,
他總能冷靜地將蛛絲馬跡串聯起來 he's always calmly putting the fucking pieces of the case together,
周圍人都會被他嚇到 while everybody else around him is fucking freaking out,
跟不上他的思路 問他"你胡說啥呢 摩根 saying, "You don't know what the fuck you're talking about, Morgan.
"你這個丈夫真不稱職 "You're--You're a fucking bad husband.
趁早退休吧" You should fucking retire."
但摩根不為所動 一心撲在案子上 But no. Morgan is fucking hyper-focused.
因為他能注意到小細節背后的深意 Because he can see beyond the little details.
他在探究幕后的真實用意 He's looking for the big fuckin' picture.
因為每件事都相互串聯 小菲 Because all of this shit? It's connected, Fez.
真意太過深奧 我們都看不清 And it is way bigger than any of us can even fucking see.
關鍵是 我摩根附體了 The point is, that's me.
我體內的神探之血解封了 Right now, that is fucking me.
我已經看透了真相 I can see everything so fucking clearly.
我知道事情的經過和起因 I know what happened, I know why it happened,
我也知道該怎么做 and I know what the fuck I'm gonna do about it.
厲害 Word.
那可不 Word.
-她聽不到吧 -都睜不開眼 - She can't hear me, right? - She can't see you, either.
那就好 這可是最高機密 Okay, good, 'cause this is, like, some real top-secret shit.
信我 小茹 她不會亂嚼舌根 Trust me, Rue, she not gonna gossip.
好 Okay.
-你那把槍還在嗎 -哪吧槍 - Do you still have that gun? - What gun?
藏在沙發坐墊里的那把槍 The one from the couch.
我有好幾把槍呢 I mean, I got a couple guns.
你要這么多槍干什么 Why do you have so many guns?
我祖母留下的 My grandma.
好吧 That's cool.
你問我的槍干什么 What you worried about my guns for?
我在想... Okay, well, I was thinking...
也許你可以拿槍嚇唬一下內特·雅各布斯 that maybe you could use one to scare Nate Jacobs.
你認真的嗎 Are you serious?
反正我沒開玩笑 I mean, I'm not not serious.
小茹 這是你今天說過最糊涂的話 Rue, that must be the dumbest shit you've said all fucking day.
不用拿槍指著他啊 就... You don't have to fucking point it at him. You could just- -
你亮出來嚇唬一下他就行 You could, like--You could flash it.
你真是失心瘋了 小茹 You really have lost your fuckin' mind, Rue.
靠 確實是個餿主意 Fuck, it's a bad fucking idea, okay?
我就是頭腦風暴一下啦 I just was fucking spit balling, here.
他惹了我和茱爾絲 I mean, he fucked with me, he fucked with Jules.
我就是想報復回去 And I want fucking revenge. Okay?
抱歉 Sorry.
該死 "老鼠"來了 Fuck. Mouse is here.
-一臉兇相那個... -你待在這兒別出聲 - The guy with the- - - All right, so, stay in here. Be quiet- -
小菲 我真待不住... Fez, I can't- - I can't stay in here. Like, I'm really...
-你可以 -我受不了尷尬的沉默啊 - Yes, the fuck you can. Shh! - I'm not good with awkward silences.
別出聲 我現在很認真 Be quiet. Listen, I'm really serious right now.
你這個小瘋子就乖乖坐在這兒 You just need to sit your manic ass down,
安靜五分鐘就行 小茹 and be quiet for five fuckin' minutes, Rue.
我沒跟你開玩笑 I'm not fuckin' playin' with you.
坐下 別出聲 Sit down and shut the fuck up.
好吧 Okay.
太奇怪了 So fuckin' weird.
小茹 Yo, Rue.
小茹 Rue.
小茹 我好孤單喔 Rue, I'm so lonely.
我也是 還有我呢 Me, too. Don't forget about me.
床上的老太婆根本意識不到我們的存在 That old lady? She doesn't even know we exist.
小茹 Rue!
吃掉我們 Eat us all.
-吃 -掉 - Eat... - Us...
我們 All!
-吃掉 -我們 - Eat... us... - All!
吃掉我們 吃掉我們 Eat us all! Eat us all!
你得多買點啊 Yo, I'm gonna need you to start moving some weight.
我就是想低調一點 Yo, I'm just trying to keep it low-key over here, man.
老子還得賺錢呢 And I'm trying to make fuckin' money.
就算我想買 Even if I wanted all this shit, bruh,
我也沒錢啊 I don't got the money for all this, man.
算你小子走遠 我賒賬給你 That's why you in luck. I'm gonna front it to you.
10%的利息 一個月還清 Ten percent on the vig, and I'll collect in a month.
我可不想碰高利貸 I'm not tryin' to do all that shit, man.
我可不是在跟你商量 I ain't asking, bruh.
你必須加大進貨量 Step yo shit up.
一二三四五六七 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven.
一... One...
抑郁的另一大壞處就是 The other thing about depression is
讓人喪失時間概念 it kind of collapses time.
小茹 你在聽嗎 Rue, are you listening?
突然之間 全部記憶混雜交織 Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together
無窮無盡 令人窒息 to create one endless and suffocating loop.
抑郁后 人會試圖回想愉悅的瞬間 So you find yourself trying to remember the things that made you happy.
-再近一點嗎 -好 - Do you want to get closer? - Yeah.
但大腦會一點點蠶食欣快的回憶 But slowly, your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy.
最終 And eventually,
腦中僅剩人生沉悶與壓抑的記憶 all you can think about is how life has always been this way.
人就會日漸消沉 And will only continue to be this way.
《愛情島》前情提要 Previously, on Love Island...
把握住你和喬希的美好瞬間 Grab the amazing-ness that you have with Josh by the balls.
不知道茱爾絲玩得開不開心 I wonder if Jules is having fun.
請勿靠近鐵軌 Stay clear of the tracks...
我好想你 I missed you!
郊區生活如何啊 So how are the suburbs treating you?
他們太保守了 They're claustrophobic.
你過得怎么樣 Yeah, how do you like it? How you doing?
怎么說呢 這一年過得很詭異 I don't know. It's been a weird, weird-ass year.
怎么詭異了 Weird in what way?
處處透著詭異的氣息 Weird in every way.
我去 那你交到朋友了吧 Shit. You make some good friends, at least?
-交到一個 -是嗎 - Yeah, I got one. - Yeah?
但關系也很復雜 But it's, like, complicated.
單純的朋友 還是友達以上 Well, are you friends, or are you a little bit more,
-戀人未滿啊 -都有吧 - like a special kind of friend? - Both, I guess?
對 Yeah.
你愛上他了嗎 Okay. What, are you in love with him or something?
是個女孩 Her, not him.
-反轉啊 不錯 -對 - A little plot twist. Okay! - Yeah.
-我的情況特殊呀 -純屬失誤 - No room for hetero-normativity in here. - My bad.
怎么樣 So... what?
-我也不說清楚 -這樣啊 - I don't know. I don't know what it is. - Yeah.
我們倆最近不太和諧 It's not, like, great right now.
我狀態不好 I'm not exactly, like, in the best place.
為什么 怎么了 Why? What's going on?
我就是為了逃避才來這里 I came here so I wouldn't have to think about it.
懂了 Understood.
♪混沌 迷茫♪ ♪ What the fuck, what the fuck ♪
♪晨光照耀臉龐♪ ♪ Feel the morning on my face ♪
♪嘗盡迷醉之藥♪ ♪ Ain't a pill that I didn't take ♪
♪一日迷醉 仿若一生♪ ♪ Just a lifetime, it's been a long day ♪
♪飄然中沉睡...♪ ♪ 'Cause I'm asleep when... ♪
♪偽裝♪ ♪ Camouflage ♪
♪人設別倒♪ ♪ Don't forget your hashtag ♪
-這里嗎 -不是 樓上 - This one? - No, I'm one more up.
♪形同死尸♪ ♪ You're a dead man ♪
♪奮力追逐 無人理會♪ ♪ You gonna run them They don't ever run you ♪
安娜 Yo, Anna.
安娜 給你介紹一個朋友 Anna, someone I want you to meet.
你好 我叫茱爾絲 Hi. I'm Jules.
我知道 I know.
-你喜歡嗎 -你們自己做的嗎 - Like it? - Did y'all make these?
-出自朋友之手 -你們不打算出去玩嗎 - Our friend did. - I mean, are you guys gonna go out?
安娜總想給我化妝 Anna's always trying to put makeup on me.
太尷尬了 So awkward.
♪晨光照耀臉龐♪ ♪ Feel the morning on my face ♪
我當時走出百貨商場 I remember walking out of Sears
-背包里裝著我的第一雙高跟鞋 -有意思 - with my first pair of heels in my backpack. - Cute.
我當時心臟狂跳 And my heart was fucking racing.
等回到家 我徑直走進了我的房間 And I got home, and went straight to my room,
鎖上門 試穿高跟鞋... locked the door, put 'em on...
我當時感覺... And, I just... felt like...
我像是在采草藥 I was collecting...herbs,
又像是在制作藥水 令自己飄升 or making potions in order to up my manna, you know?
始于高跟鞋 Like, it started with that,
然后我開始穿女裝 化妝 and then it was clothes, and then it was...makeup,
最后決定注射女性激素 and eventually hormones.
我就是在不斷升級 I just kind of kept leveling up.
那你現在升到哪一級了 So, what level are you at now?
我不知道 I don't know.
但我肯定沒滿級 還有提升空間 But I definitely haven't reached my full power.
你和男人約會吧 But you date guys, right?
"約會"這詞不太準確 Date isn't really the right word.
真正含義是 她很風騷 What she means to say is that she's a slut.
-去你的 -不是在罵你 - Fuck you! - What, it's not an insult!
-怎么說呢 -但你通常勾搭的都是男人 - I mean... - But you normally hook up with guys.
對 但是... Yeah, but...
我和男人們的關系很別扭 my relationship to men is weird.
-怎么講 -我覺得... - Like, how? - In my head, it's like--
如果我能征服男人 If I can conquer men,
我就是個徹底的女人了[征服女性化] then I can conquer femininity.
為什么要利用男人來證明你的女性化呢 Why do you need a guy to make you feel more feminine?
等會兒再聊這個問題 We'll circle back to that one.
-那你成功了嗎 -什么 - So have you? - Have I what?
成為徹底的女人[征服女性化] Conquered femininity?
說不好 I don't know.
其實我也不是想征服女性化 But, it's not like I even want to conquer it.
而是想要將其消除泯滅 It's like I want to fuckin' obliterate it.
然后升級到下一步 And then move on to the next level.
不斷升級 And the next, and the next.
升級 升級 Level up. Level up!
雖然我不知道達成目標后會是怎樣 但是... Yeah. I don't really know what the means, or looks like, but...
-我想要試試看 -酷兒無極限 - I want it. - Queerness is infinite.
看著我 Okay, look at me.
很好 很美 Yeah. You look adorable.
別鬧 Stop.
我懷孕了 I'm pregnant.
什么 What?
你確定懷孕了嗎 Are you for real that you're 100 percent pregnant?
確定 Yeah.
我... I...
抱歉我疏忽了 I'm sorry,
你沒事吧 Are you all right?
沒事 我就是有點緊張 Yeah, I'm--I'm just a little bit nervous.
緊張什么 Nervous about what?
緊張你的反應 About what you're gonna say.
你不會想把孩子生下來吧 You're not really thinking about having this kid, are you?
我真的很愛你 麥凱 I really love you, McKay.
我也愛你 Yeah, I love you, too,
但我現在瑣事纏身 but I'm doing a lot of shit right now.
我還在上大學呢 I'm in the middle of school right now.
生養孩子是件大事 凱茜 It's a big fuckin' responsibility, Cassie.
萬一我的人生注定如此呢 What if this is what I'm supposed to do with my life?
搞什么 What the fuck?
我父親肯定會殺了我 My parents are gonna kill me.
我教練肯定不饒我 My coach is gonna kill me.
我父母會剝了我的皮 My parents are gonna fucking kill me.
該死 Fuck.
凱茜 你肯定不是真心想生下來 Cass, I don't even think you wanna have this baby, okay?
現實不是童話故事 It's not a--It's not a fuckin' fairy tale. Like--
也許你現在覺得很美好 但可不是鬧著玩 It may seem all cute and cuddly to you, but this is real shit.
我都沒做好當爸的準備 I'm not even ready to be a dad.
這樣說可能很自私 但是... I don't know if that's selfish to say or whatever, but--
養育孩子讓我腿軟 children are fuckin' scary.
既然你想談 You wanted to talk about it,
那我就開誠布公地談談 so here we are, we're talking about it.
我不支持生這個孩子 But I say we don't do it.
我沒說要生下來 I'm not saying I'm gonna have a baby.
我就是想憧憬一下 I just wanted to dream about it for a minute.
你一定會成為最偉大的母親 You'll make the best mother on the planet one day.
這點我敢肯定 I say that without a doubt.
你好 Hello?
你黑屏了 我等下再聯系你嗎 For some reason your screen is black. Should I call you back?
不用 我喜歡保持神秘 No, I prefer to keep it that way.
好吧 Okay.
-你可真會討價還價 -我總得養活自己吧 - You drive a hard bargain. - Yeah, well, a girl's gotta eat.
半小時300美金 300 for thirty minutes.
-你該多要點 -是嗎 - You should have asked for more. - Really?
我想看你全身 站起來 Let me see your whole body. Stand up.
很好 Yes.
往后退 Keep going.
很好 Yes.
棒極了 Fantastic.
你緊張嗎 Are you nervous?
我視頻時一般不脫衣服 I-I-I... I mean, I don't usually, undress.
但我很特別吧 But I am special. Right?
對 Yes.
說出來 Then say it.
你很特別 You're special.
脫衣服吧 So, get undressed.
你真美 You're beautiful.
幫我買罐芒果飲料吧 Can you get me a mango La Croix?
-還要櫻桃味的卷煙 -還有嗎 - And those cherry rolling papers? - Anything else?
-小菲 -你好啊 - What up, Fez? - What's up, man?
我想要兩根卷煙 Yo, can I get, two of the rolling papers, too, bruh?
小弟 Yo, man.
我不知道你和小茹 茱爾絲是怎么回事 I don't know what's been going on with you, Rue, and Jules and shit.
但你得知道 我很關心她 But you should know, I really do care about her.
你不是她的毒販嗎 Aren't you, like, her drug dealer?
不是了 Nah, man.
你們戀愛了 What, are you in a relationship?
不是 我們親如兄妹 Nah, bruh, that's like, my family.
柏拉圖式戀愛啊 So it's platonic.
聽著 Look, man,
我就是想說 別惹她和她朋友 all I'm saying is, leave her and her friends alone.
你這是在威脅我嗎 Is that a threat?
不是 通知你一聲 Nah, I'm just telling you.
不然怎樣 Or what?
忤逆的后果很嚴重 We're not gonna be having this conversation.
菲茲克 我就不繞彎了 Fezco, let's get this straight.
你幾乎相當于是個智障 You're, like, half a retard.
你20歲時就輟學了 You dropped out of school at 20,
現在就是個混混 and now... you're a gangster.
還想裝成古巴大毒梟啊 有啥打算啊 What are you, like, fucking Tony Montana? What's the plan? Hmm?
住豪宅 操老虎 花天酒地嗎 You gonna be living in a mansion, fuckin' pet tigers and shit?
去死吧你 Go fuck yourself.
聽著 Listen, bruh.
我把話撂在這兒 你再敢招惹小茹和她朋友 All I'm sayin', you keep fuckin' with Rue and her friends,
我就弄死你 and I'mma kill you.
一共5.75美元 "花花公子" It's gonna be $5.75, playboy.
成人的膀胱能容納兩杯尿液 An adult bladder can hold two cups of urine.
但如果你刻意憋尿 But if you're telling your bladder to hold off because, say,
因為你深深地抑郁了 you're in the worst depression of your fucking life,
那膀胱最終就會脹滿尿液 your bladder will eventually fill.
一旦膀胱容納的尿液超過極限... And what begins to happen is...
腎臟排出到膀胱的毒素 all of the toxins that your kidneys have pushed into your bladder
就會回流到腎臟中 begin to travel back into your kidneys.
該死 Fuck.
我知道你怎么想 小茹 太荒唐了 I know what you're thinking. Rue, this is insane.
活人還能讓尿憋死嗎 去趟洗手間不就好了 Don't get a kidney infection. Walk to the bathroom.
信我 我也想啊 Trust me, I'm thinking the same fuckin' thing.
來點大麻嗎 Like a little pot?
-看到你 我想起了她 -誰 - You remind me of her. - Who?
我的好閨蜜 My best friend.
她是個什么樣的人 So what's she like?
講真 她總把自己搞得很狼狽 Honestly? Kind of a mess.
我很狼狽嗎 So I'm a mess?
-對啊 -我怎么狼狽了 - Yeah. - How am I a mess?
暫時說不上來 I don't know yet.
我好想嗑高了 I think I'm really high.
-我該聯系她嗎 -不要 - Should I text her? - No.
做人不能太貪心 You only get one more.
該死 Fuck.
茱爾絲 Jules.
你怎么來了 What are you doing here?
-你給我發短信了 -是嗎 - You texted me. - I did?
你不希望我來嗎 Did you not want me to come?
你一個人嗎 You here alone?
別走 別走 別走 No, no, no, no, no.
我很怕你 內特 I'm scared of you, Nate.
我為做的所有錯事道歉 I'm sorry. For everything.
抱歉傷害了你 I'm sorry for hurting you.
你... You...
你是我見過最美的人 you were the most beautiful person that I've ever known.
我是泰勒 I'm Tyler.
你愛的人是我 I'm the person that you fell in love with.
我要殺了你 I wanna kill you.
我屬于你 任你差遣 I'm yours. I'm all yours.
你是個膽小鬼 You're a pussy.
你真賤 You're a bitch.
真希望讓全世界知道你的真面目 And I wish the whole fucking world could know.
此事不會有好下場 I know this isn't gonna end well.
你好 Hello?
我想舉報一起案件 Yeah, I'd like to report a crime.
媽 Mom.
幫幫我吧 I think I need your help.
過來 Come here.
抱抱 沒事了 我好愛你 Come here. It's okay. It's okay. I love you so much.
我愛你 你最美了 I love you so much. You're so beautiful.
該死 Fuck!
東高警局 East Highland PD!
-開門 -快點 - Open the door! - Come on, bro.
動作快點 Hurry the fuck up out there!
-我們知道屋里有人 開門 -該死 - We know you're in there. Open up! - Fuck!
該死 Goddamn it!
-該死 -搞什么啊 - Fuck, bro. - What the fuck, man?
快點 老弟 趕緊沖走 Come on, bruh. Hurry up, for real, man.
開門 立刻開門 Unlock the door! Open up, now!
該死 Goddamn it!
小茹 怎么了 Rue, what's wrong?
寶貝女兒 媽媽來了 Okay, baby. Come on.
起來 來吧 Come on. Come on.
曾經有個心理醫生說壓抑的狀態會起起落落 I had a therapist once who said that these states will wax and wane.
我媽因此松了一口氣 Which gave my mother relief,
因為就算我犯病了 because it meant that in the bad times,
總也會好起來 there would be good times.
但她也因此焦灼難安 But it also gave her anxiety
因為就算我一時沒事 because it meant that in the good times,
總也有發作的一天 there would be bad times.
我一直很不解 It always confused me,
因為我不懂"起落"的意思 because I didn't really know what it meant.
沒事了 寶貝 It's okay, baby.
沒事了 It's okay.
但聽起來比我自己的形容更讓人安心 But it did sound a lot calmer than the way I would describe it.
我得繼續服藥 I think I need to go back on medication.
好了 感覺如何 還好吧 There you go. How you feel? Okay?
我知道你現在很低落 寶貝 I know you're feeling low right now, baby.
但你沒有故態復萌 說明你在慢慢痊愈 But the fact that you didn't turn back means you're gettin' better.
真的 It does.
一定是這樣 It does.
當然了 我之后才意識到 Granted, I didn't realize until later
"起起落落"的真正含義 what waxing and waning implied.
抑郁無法根除 會反反復復 That these feelings were fixed and constant
將伴隨我的余生 and would never end for the rest of my life.
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昨晚 我忍不住回想你出生時的場景 Last night, I couldn't stop thinking about the day you were born.
要是我當時能聽到提醒... What if I heard a voice...
有人在我耳邊低語... Some narrator who said...
"生活將發生翻天覆地的變化" "Here's what's going to happen."
《迷醉》季終預告
她明顯精神不正常 Obviously, there's something wrong with her!
我任性離開 才會發生這種事 But all this happened because I left.
《迷醉》下周完結
《迷醉》幕后采訪
我超愛凱茜這個角色 因為我能從她身上找到共鳴 I love Cassie because how relatable she was.
她努力追尋人生的意義 She's trying to find her purpose in life.
我覺得這真實地展示了 I felt like that's a very realistic representation
女孩的生存現狀 of what it's like to be a girl.
開拍之前 Before we went into filming,
我特地花時間研究了凱茜的性格養成 I actually got to sit down and build Cassie's character book.
性格是她全部人生經歷的動態呈現 That is an interactive timeline diary of her entire life,
她兩歲時與父親的相處模式 and so, something that happened when she was two with her dad
造就了她十歲生日時 will create how she reacts
收到滑冰鞋時的反應 when she opens her ice-skating present on her tenth birthday.
凱茜的父親一直希望她成為專業滑冰運動員 Cassie's dad always wanted her to become a professional ice skater.
但他支付不起高昂的滑冰課費用 But her dad couldn't afford lessons
于是他便不再鼓勵她滑冰 so he stopped encouraging her.
凱茜的父親在她未成年前離開了 Cassie's father left when she was growing up,
她失去了心中仰望崇拜的英雄 and she lost this man that she looked at as a superhero,
所以她一直在找尋父愛的替代品 and so, she's always looked for that kind of love to replace,
凱茜渴望男人夸贊她的美貌 and Cassie feels like she needs these men to tell her she's beautiful,
他們能令她產生自我認同 or make her feel like she has to accept herself.
雖然她流連于很多男生 Even though she's had... these little things here and there,
但麥凱是她的初戀 McKay is her first real relationship.
看多了電影 電視劇 You watch all these movies and TV shows,
大家會對青少年的愛戀有個大體的認識 and your idea of what teenage love is supposed to be,
但對她而言 并非如此 and that's not what it is in her life.
她在找尋自己理想中的愛戀 And she's searching for what she's expecting it to be.
我真的很愛你 麥凱 I really love you, McKay.
萬一我的人生注定如此呢 What if this is what I'm supposed to do with my life?
在第七集中 凱茜苦惱地掙扎 Throughout episode seven, you see Cassie asking herself,
"該不該告訴麥凱我懷孕了" "Should I tell McKay that I'm pregnant?"
她不好向朋友坦白 她說不出口 She couldn't go to her friends. She didn't feel like--
只有她母親陪伴在她身邊 And the one person she had there for her was her mom.
-幫幫我吧 -沒事 - I think I need your help. - It's okay.
凱茜意識到 也許她媽真有解決辦法 Cassie realizes that maybe her mom does know what to do,
也許她該聽媽媽的話 and maybe she should listen.
她母親很偉大 幫助她 陪伴她 Her mom was... amazing and helpful and there for her,
我覺得這對很多青少年而言非常重要 and I think that's really important for a lot of teenagers
因為他們覺得不需要父母幫助 because they don't think they need their parents.
我當年也是如此 I mean, I went through so many things myself
我總覺得 "我心里有數 不用我媽插手" where I'm like, "I know what's right. I don't need my mom."
我真希望當年我直接向她求助 And I wish I would have gone to her first
而不是自己擅自做決定 without making different decisions that I did.
我很榮幸能出演《迷醉》 I'm so proud to be a part of this show
因為演員都渴望能夠演繹真實有質感的角色 because as an actor, you dream of these very gritty, realistic roles,
而《迷醉》中的角色正是如此 and I feel that Euphoria has that.
本劇展現了不同角色的多樣人生 Being on a show that represents so many different people,
我希望大家能在這些角色身上看到自己的影子 I hope that people find themselves in these different characters
你并不是孤身一人 and know that they're not alone.