恋爱关系应该给双方带来最好的一面
relationships should bring the best in both people involved
当你找到一个真正让你满意的人时
when you find a person that truly completes you
你觉得一切皆有可能
you feel like anything is possible
这就是我与吉姆建立新关系的第一个月的感受
and that's what i felt during the first month of my new relationship with jim
让我告诉你我们是怎么认识的
let me tell you how we met
其实很简单
it was quite simple actually
有些人说我们相遇的地点就在街上
our place as some people call it was on the street
我下班回家时 吉姆碰巧和我在一起
i was going home from work and jim happened to cross paths with me
我们两眼对视 我还没反应过来
we both locked eyes and before i knew it
他就走了过来 让我大吃一惊
he surprised me by coming right up
介绍他自己
introducing himself
我们并没有经历过一次可爱的相遇 但还是擦出了火花
we didn't experience a meet cute or anything like that but sparks flew nonetheless
我们就在那条繁忙的街道中间开始聊天
we started talking right there in the middle of that busy street
不知不觉就聊了两个钟
and before we knew it about two hours passed
我们交换了电话号码
we exchanged phone numbers
当我回到家时 我真的觉得自己在漂浮
and when i got home i actually felt like i was floating
我以前对任何人都没有这种感觉
i didn't have that feeling before about anybody
毫无疑问 这是一见钟情
it was love at first sight there was no doubt about it
第二天 我们进行了第一次正式约会
the next day we went on our first official date
吃饭、看电影 吉姆给我买了一大束花
dinner a movie jim bought me a giant bouquet of flowers
一切都像是童话故事
and everything seemed like it was taken out of a fairy tale
吉姆当时正处于失业状态
jim was between jobs
他之前在当地一家超市工作 被解雇了
being laid off from his previous position at a local supermarket
但这并没有影响到我
but that didn't bother me
那是我最后想的一件事
It was the last thing on my mind
经过几次约会后 我们决定是时候搬到一起住了
after a couple more dates we decided it was time to move in together
确实发展很快 但我们对彼此的爱是如此强烈
sure it was soon but the love we felt for each other was so strong
我们都没在意过了有多久
that we didn't care about how much time passed
吉姆搬进了我的公寓 一切都很好
jim moved in with me in my apartment and everything was great
即使他整天呆在家里 没有工作
even though he would stay inside all day not having a job
他总是面带灿烂的笑容等我下班回家
he would always wait for me to come home from work with a huge smile on his face
又一个月过去了 新鲜感过了
another month passed and things...well...they got a little stale
我们蜜月时的表情很快就消失了 吉姆开始露出真面目
our honeymoon face quickly disappeared and jim started to show his true colors
他变得更加舒适和懒惰
he became even more comfortable and lazy
每天我从办公室回到家 都会在洗碗池里发现一堆脏碗碟
every day when i got home from the office i'd stumble upon a pile of dirty dishes in the sink
地上到处都是扔得衣服 客厅桌子上还有各种各样的快餐包装纸
along with clothes thrown everywhere on the ground and all kind of fast food wrappers on the living room table
我真的试着跟他谈过 但尽管他保证会把它们收拾好
i really did try to talk to him but even though he promised that he would get it together
第二天 故事又重演了
the next day the story would repeat itself
时间一天天过去
time went on and with each day that passed
吉姆越来越懒了 开始把我当作理所当然的事
jim was getting even more lazy and started to take me for granted
你可以说每个故事都有两面性 但请听我把话说完
you could say that every story has two sides but hear me out
而且是唯一一个给家里带来钱的人、
besides being the only one that brought money into the household
我还得打理家里的一切
i also had to do everything around the house
失望开始增加 我们几乎每天都在吵架
the frustration started to build up and we started fighting almost every day
当我们神奇地不吵架的时候 就是我们根本不想跟对方说话了
and when we magically didn't fight we would just not talk to each other at all
吉姆会无忧无虑地玩电子游戏
jim would play video games without a care in the world
而我会想办法让这段关系维持下去
while i would think of solutions to make the relationship work
但最糟糕的要来了
but here comes one of the worst parts
我们做爱的时候 吉姆一点也不用心
when we were making love jim would not put any effort into it
他只会想着自己尽快完成任务 然后就睡着了
he would just think about himself get the job done quickly and then fall asleep
他背对着我 这是我的最后一根稻草
turning his back to me that was the last straw
我一直在想 如果现在的情况是这样的话
i kept thinking that if this is the situation right now
我能想象几年后会发生什么吗
could i even imagine what would happen in a couple of years
四个月过去了 像往常一样 我疲惫地下班回到家
four months passed and as usual i came home from work tired
我特意让吉姆把衣服送去洗衣店 因为我那天特别忙
i knew that i specifically asked jim to take the laundry to the cleaners as i was super busy that day
我甚至给他写了张便条 以免他忘记
I even wrote a note for him so he wouldn't forget
但是当我走进门的时候 那袋脏衣服还在我放它的地方
but when i walked through the door the bag of dirty laundry was still sitting in the exact place where i left it
就这样我受够了
that was it i had enough
吉姆像往常一样在玩使命召唤
jim was playing call of duty as usual
所以我拔掉了游戏机的插头 和他严肃地谈
so i unplugged the console and had a serious talk with him
我解释说 我对这个情况想了很多
i explained that i gave a lot of thought upon the situation
无论从哪个角度看 我都找不到解决办法
and from every angle which i looked at things i couldn't find a solution
我告诉他我们需要分手
i told him that we needed to break up
我受够了 不能再那样生活了 我想退出
i just had enough and couldn't live like that and i wanted out
吉姆一听到这个消息就对我大吼大叫 几乎气得哭了起来
upon hearing the news jim threw a fit screaming at me and almost crying out of rage
我很震惊 因为我从未见过他有那样的反应
i was shocked as i never saw him react that way
在大吵了一架后
after the huge fight
吉姆抓起剩下的几样东西 走出去时砰的一声关上门
jim grabbed the few stuff that he had left and slammed the door on his way out
当然 我哭了一整晚 但我知道这样做是正确的
of course i cried all night but i knew that this was the right thing to do
他一直给我发短信 让我觉得很内疚
he kept texting me making me feel guilty
还说我永远也找不到像他这样的人
and saying that i never would find someone like him
但最终我受够了 鼓起勇气拉黑了他
but eventually having enough of it i gathered the courage to block him
在接下来的几天里 他一直试图通过邮件、脸书、instagram联系我 但
he kept trying to reach out to me through email facebook instagram over the next couple of days but
看到我不会回复他的任何信息
seeing that i wouldn't reply to any of his messages
他决定不再给我发短信了
he decided to quit texting me
老实说 我很难过
to be honest i was very sad
但我知道我是一个坚强而独立的女人
but i knew that i was a strong and independent woman
我很快振作起来 试着继续前进
I quickly got myself together and tried to move on
每天通过专注于工作和锻炼 我感觉好多了
each day through focusing on work and working out i felt a little better
直到我最终忘记了吉姆
until I eventually got over Jim
一天晚上
one evening
分手两个月后 我坐在客厅的沙发上
after about two months from the breakup i was sitting on the couch in the living room
一边吃着爆米花 一边寻找我可能会喜欢的可爱节目
eating some popcorn and searching for a cute show that i might enjoy
当我这么做的时候 我的电话响了
while doing so my phone rang
这是一个未知的号码 但我还是决定回答
it was an unknown number but i still decided to answer
接电话时 我听不到另一边的任何声音
upon answering i could not hear anything on the other line
我一直在跟他打招呼 但是很安静
i kept saying hello but it was so silent
所以最后我挂断了电话
so finally i ended the call
在接下来的三天里 同样的事情又发生在我身上
the same thing happened to me for the next three days
甚至凌晨3点还打我电话
receiving calls even at three a.m in the morning
我还无法屏蔽掉这些号码 所以我快要疯了
i couldn't block the numbers so it drove me crazy
但在第四天时 它终于停止了 我感到了如释重负
but on the fourth day it finally stopped i felt relief
有点我不知道 演出才刚刚开始
little did i know the show was just starting
第二天上班的时候 我收到了一封电子邮件
the next day at work i received an email
我拿起手机想看看是什么 结果发现是一张照片
i grabbed my phone to see what it was and i saw that it was a picture
当我点击它的时候 我看到了一张吉姆的照片
upon clicking on it i saw a picture from jim
他拍了一张胸脯的照片 胸脯上面刻有我的名字梅根
he took a photo of his chest that was cut in such a way that it spelled my name megan
看到这张照片后 我差点吐了 然后马上把它删除了
after seeing the photo i almost threw up and immediately deleted it
那张奇怪的照片让我一整天都很不舒服
that weird picture threw me off for the entirety of the day
我甚至不得不休息一天 因为我需要一些时间放松
i even had to take the rest of the day off as i needed some time to relax
那天剩下的时间里 我开始接到陌生的电话 但我没有接
i began receiving unknown phone calls for the rest of the day but i didn't answer
相反 我关掉了手机
instead i turned off my phone
那天晚上晚些时候 我喝了几杯红酒就睡着了
later that night i managed to fall asleep after a couple of glasses of red wine
凌晨2点左右 我突然醒来了 我想我听到了前门被打开的声音
at around 2 am i suddenly got up i thought i heard the front door open
我待在床上 仔细听声音 但只有一片寂静
i stood there in my bed waiting to hear something else but it was silent
所以我通常认为我是在做梦
so i normally assume that i was dreaming
我把头靠在枕头上 试着入睡
upon putting my head on the pillow and trying to fall asleep
一个声音吓到了我
a voice startled me
“亲爱的 我无法离开你” 那声音说道
hello my love i couldn't stay away,the voice said
我吓坏了 从床上跳下来 他就是吉姆
i got frightened and jumped out of bed there he was jim
他站在房间的角落里 没有穿衬衫
he stood in the corner of the room without a shirt
胸前有伤疤 血滴得满地都是
with scars on his chest and blood dripping all over the floor
他还拿着一把刀 他说他想把他的名字刻在我身上
he was also holding a knife and he said that he wanted to carve his name on my body
我尖叫着 设法跑出屋里 从他身旁跑了过去
i screamed and i managed to get out of the house running past him
我在我家前门大声呼救
it was in my front yard and i yelled for help
一些邻居一听到骚动就来帮助我
some neighbors upon hearing the commotion came to my aid
他们报了警 在检查了房子之后
they called the cops and after inspecting the house
他们所能找到的只有从他胸口滴下的血
all they could find was the blood that dripped from his chest
没有吉姆的踪迹 即使他们发出了逮捕令
no sign of jim and even though they put out a warrant for his arrest
他们再也没有找到他
they never found him again
以下是迄今为止我生命中最黑暗的一章
the following is one of the darkest chapters in my life so far
我第一个真正的男朋友在我和他分手后跟踪了我大约五年
as the story of how my first real boyfriend stalked me for about five years after i broke up with him
我和他分手后我之所以和他分手是因为我注意到了他
the reason i broke up with him is because i noticed
他的占有欲和控制欲越来越强
him becoming increasingly possessive and controlling
这让我很担心，我当时比他小几岁，所以
this worried me a lot and i was a few years younger than he was so
我男朋友跟踪了我五年
boyfriend stalked me for about five years
我决定走出分手的阴影
i decided to get out the breakup itself was
如此揪心，他哭着，尖叫着，乞求我不要离开
so heart-wrenching he cried and screamed and begged for me not to leave
但这正好给了我这么做的理由
but that just gave me all the reason to do so
他大发脾气，这只会巩固我是正确的
he threw a full-on tantrum and it only cemented that i'd made the right
最初决定分手后他的行为
decision initially after the breakup his behavior
就像是痛苦的前任带来的无害的忧郁
seemed like the harmless melancholy of a bitter ex
不停地发短信和打电话给我的工作单位送礼物
constant texting and phone calls sending gifts to my workplace
让我的朋友们说服我和他复合
asking my friends to try to convince me to get back with him
通常情况下，大约六个月后，这种情况根本没有消失
the usual sort of thing after about six months this hadn't died down at all
正是这个充满戏剧和苦难的传奇故事让我
it was this ongoing saga of drama and misery that i
我在回家的路上碰到了他，我真的很沮丧
really started to get depressed about i started bumping into him on my way home
下班或外出购物时，我就得搬回去和父母住
from work or if i was out shopping i had to move back in with my parents
这样他就不会再在我公寓外面晃悠了我不能离开我的
just so he'd stopped hanging around outside my apartment i couldn't leave my
我立即找到了工作，但搬回去和父母住并没有什么不同
job immediately but moving back in with my parents didn't make a difference
不管怎样，这种行为持续了几年
anyways this behavior continued for a few years
情况越来越糟，警察也不愿意这么做
becoming increasingly worse and the police were very reluctant to do
他们显然把这归类为家庭纠纷
anything since they obviously classed it as some kind of domestic dispute
几个月后，我就搬出了父母的家，搬到了一个新地方
i ended up moving out of my parents and into a new place after a few months
我甚至换了两次工作，他总能找到我
i even changed jobs twice and somehow he always managed to track me down
不管我看起来有多小心，我都不使用社交媒体
no matter how careful i seem to be i didn't use social media and even
我的朋友们坚持不给我拍照以防他们把照片发到网上
insisted friends of mine not take any pictures of me in case they posted them
在他们自己的社交媒体账户上
on their own social media accounts i kept
我的电话号码在我的朋友圈里但他总能找到我
my phone number within my circle of friends but somehow he always managed to
拿到我的新号码，我就开始妄想了
get my new number i ended up a paranoid wreck thinking
我的一个朋友背叛了我我们大吵了一架
that one of my friends had betrayed me we had a serious falling out with me
指责他展示了更多的东西，延长了整个噩梦般的局面
accusing him of prolonging the whole nightmarish situation by showing more
对虐待我的前男友的忠诚比他对我的忠诚还多我叫他
loyalty to my abusive ex than he had me i called him things that
朋友不该打电话给别人——他连珠炮似地咒骂了一声，然后挂断了我的电话
no friend should call another he hung up on me after a medley of curse
话从我嘴里说出来，我哭着睡着了
words spilled from my lips i ended up crying myself to sleep that
晚上纯粹因为压力而不能吃任何东西
night unable to eat a single thing out of pure stress
在这个阶段，我几乎睡不着觉，也没有胃口
at this stage i could barely sleep i had no appetite
我无法集中精力工作，大部分晚上都在喝酒
i couldn't concentrate at work and spent most evenings drinking myself into a
那时我还是我以前的影子
stupor i was a shadow of my former self then
又过了一年，随着我们的遭遇越来越糟糕，我决定报道一下
another year passed and as our encounters got worse i decided to report
他又向警察求助了，只是这次我有了全面的了解
him to the police again only this time i had comprehensive
文本信息等的跟踪代词的文件
documentation of the stalking pronouns of text messages etc at long
他们的大部分工作都是我一个人完成的
last having already done the bulk of their jobs all on my own
警察终于代表我采取了行动
the police finally took action on my behalf
几个月前我向警方告发了他
a couple of months go by after i reported him to the police
有天早上我醒来看到世界上有个故事
i wake up one morning to a story in the globe about
州税务局的工作人员滥用资源
staff in the state tax office were using resources improperly
我的前任跟踪狂是主要的罪犯利用他的工作访问我所有的
my stalker ex was the main perpetrator using his job to access all of my
他在工作中可以接触到我的税收
information in his job he had access to my tax
记录意味着我每次换工作地址
records which meant every time i changed job address
或者他能查到的最新的电话号码
or phone number he had access to the most up-to-date
信息，而且他一直在利用他的职位
information what's more he been using his position
将数千美元的税收收入骗进自己的私人银行
to swindle thousands of dollars in tax revenue into his own personal bank
在案件开始前，他结束了他的
account before the court case began he ended his
自己的生活，我不羞于说我哭了
own life and i'm not ashamed to say i cried with
那是我成年后最痛苦的岁月
relief they were the worst years of my adult
生活和我都很高兴他们终于来了
life and i was just so so glad that they were finally
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