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我相信您是真誠的 心地是善良的 I believe you are sincere and good at heart
片名：生存慾望
即使您達不到幸福的境界 請永遠記住您是走在正道上 If you do not attain happiness always remember that you are on the right road
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要努力不偏離這條路 主要的是力戒作假 try not to leave it. Above all, avoid falsehood
力戒一切弄虛作假 尤其要力戒向自己作假 every kind of falsehood, especially falseness to yourself
教點有用的吧 teach us something useful
您得提防這一點 每時每刻加以警惕 Watch over your own deceitfulness and look into it every hour, every minute
此外 既不要嫌棄別人 也不要嫌棄自己 avoid being scornful, both to others and to yourself
凡是您覺得自己內心存在什麼要不得的想法 What seems bad to you within yourself will grow
那麼 您自己發現這一點本身已經在一定程度上把它淨化了 pure by the very fact of you observing it
-真是荒唐 -浪費學費 -this is ridiculous -we're paying for this
可恥 you're a disgrace
您還要力戒恐懼 雖然恐懼 Avoid fear, though fear is only the
只是一切作假的後果 consequence of every sort of falsehood
在愛的征途上永遠不要害怕您自己的怯懦心理 Never be frightened at your own faint-heartedness in attaining love
甚至對您在這過程中的不良行為也不必怕得要命 Don't be frightened overmuch even at your evil actions
很抱歉 我不能對您說什麼動聽的話 因為 I am sorry I can say nothing more consoling to you, for love in
與夢想中的愛比較起來 切實的愛是一件嚴酷和令人生畏的事情 action is a harsh and dreadful thing compared with love in dreams.
夢想中的愛圖的是急功近利 立竿見影 Love in dreams is greedy for immediate action,
渴望做出人人注目的壯舉 rapidly performed and so everyone can see
懷著這樣的夢想確實連命都捨得 只要這過程不持續很久 Men will even give their lives if only the ordeal does not last too long but
而是像在舞台上那樣快快結束 只要人人都瞧著他表示讚許 is soon over with all looking on and applauding as if on a stage
切實的愛 則需要工作 But active love, active love is labour
和毅力 and fortitude
陀思妥耶夫斯基 Dostoyevsky
這都什麼意思 so what was that all about?
我們就是來討論這個的 that's what we're here to discuss
但是你從來不討論 你只是提問 but you never discuss anything, you just ask questions
我們已經在這一段上卡了一個半月了 we've been stuck on the same paragraph for a month and a half
這一段很關鍵 it's an important paragraph
你來讀 read it
我相信您是真誠的 心地是善良的 i believe you are sincere and good at heart
即使您達不到幸福的境界 if you do not attain happiness
請永遠記住您是走在正道上 always remember you are on the righ road
要努力不偏離這條路 try not to leave it
主要的是力戒作假 力戒一切 above all, avoid falsehood, every kind of
弄虛作假 尤其要力戒向自己作假 falsehood, especially falseness to yourself
您得提防這一點 watch over your own deceitfulness and
每時每刻加以警惕 look into it every hour, every minute
-你讀出了什麼 -不錯的建議 -what do you make of that? -it's good advice man
-是嗎 -你說呢 -is it? -you tell me
我不知道 i don't know
你才是老師 but you're the teacher
我教文學 不提建議 i teach literature, i dont give advice
你是在浪費大家的時間 you're wasting our time
我是在提問 i'm asking you questions
該提問的是我們 we're supposed to ask the questions
你應該給出答案 you're supposed to give us the answers
或許 提出好問題 perhaps its not as important to know
比知道答案更重要 the answers as it is to ask the questions better
你看他還是告訴了我們些什麼 there you see he told us something
他沒有 他只是又提出了一個問題 no he didn't he just asked us another question
在愛的征途上永遠不要害怕您自己的怯懦心理 Never be frightened at your own faint-heartedness in attaining love
拉倒吧 Stop that!
佐西馬長老是想告訴這個女人什麼 what is father Zossima trying to tell this woman?
我警告你 I'm warning you man
沒有信仰的人能夠領會這個建議嗎 is it possible to appreciate this advice if we aren't faithful?
你說 你說 說點能幫我通過期末考試的東西 tell me something! tell me something thats gonna help me pass the final exam
使用信仰一詞時 我們是想說什麼 what do we mean when we use the word faith?
兩杯咖啡 謝謝 two coffees please
你不能因為學生不喜歡陀思妥耶夫斯基就揍他們 you can't beat up students because they don't like Dostoyevsky
或許吧 perhaps
-你今天能捎我進城一趟嗎 -當然可以 -can you give me a ride to town today? -sure
你還好嗎 are you okay?
空氣太冷 陽光太烈 這杯我一口沒喝的咖啡 Air's too cold, sun's too bright. this coffee although i haven't had
也無疑太濃了 我想躺著 就此揮發掉 any yet is undoubtedly too strong. I wanna lie down and evaporate
你在經歷信仰危機 you're having a crisis of faith
-不 我沒有 -你有 -No i'm not -Yes you are
亨利 我是無神論者 Henry i'm an atheist
也許這只是你自認為 maybe you only think you're an atheist
-我很痛苦 -一切痛苦皆是慾望 -i'm in pain -all pain is desire
這算批評還是建議？ Is that criticism or advice?
這是佛理 i think its Buddhism
-亨利？-嗯？ -Henry? -yes?
-我墜入愛河了 -不是吧 真的？ -i'm in love -no really?
-我想是的 -你怎麼知道 -yes i think so -how can you tell?
專注不足 情緒多變 lack of concentration erratic mood swings
推理出錯 舉止執迷 faulty reasoning obsessive behavior
跟在年輕女人屁股後面跑 這不像你 its not like you to go running off after young women
我沒跟著誰屁股後面跑 我是在墜向她 i'm not running off after anyone i'm falling towards her
-無法自拔？-對 差不多吧 -as if you cant help yourself? -yeah something like that
明白了 我讀到過這種事 i see, i've read about this type of thing
這裏講到 and then there's this
與夢想中的愛比較起來 切實的愛是一件嚴酷和令人生畏的事情 love in action is a harsh and dreadful thing compared with love in dreams
你的愛是切實的 還是夢想？ is this an active love or a dream?
是將要變成現實的夢想 it's a dream about to become reality
舉出這個現實的例證 name the proofs of this reality
沉思的姿態 微妙的笑容 a thoughtful gesture, delicate smile
潔白修長的脖頸 white slender neck
懇切 好奇 誘人的嗓音 an earnest inquisitive and alluring voice
優雅的身姿 靈動而愉悅的雙眼 graceful figure, intelligent sensuous eyes
-描述這個夢想的本質 -親密 -describe the nature of the dream -intimacy
舉出親密的構成要素 name the constituent elements of intimacy
親吻 愛撫 摟抱 kissing, caressing, holding
拍打 喊叫 對話 slapping, shouting, talking
等待 沉眠 哭泣 waiting, sleeping, crying
傾聽 熱望 鼓勵 listening, hoping, encouraging
原諒 歡笑 飛昇 forgiving, laughing, volanting
一言蔽之：動詞 in a word: verbs
所以才切實 and therefore active
噢 我現在感覺好多了 oh i feel much better now
服務員比我剛進來時更周到了 waitress are settling much prettier than i first came in
四周的暗影沒那麼煩人了 ambient shadows less irritating
陽光不再對我造成威脅 它只是在那 daylight is not threatening me anymore it's just there
無緣無故地鋪滿街道 filling the street for no apparent reason
或許這是個錯誤 但無論如何我都不會畏懼 a mistake perhaps but in any event i'm not afraid
-我為你感到高興 -勞煩 結賬 -glad to hear it -check please
你接下來打算怎麼做呢 how do you proceed?
去生活 朝著所愛之人前進 to live just move forward towards those you love
-引人入勝的理論 -不 是無可辯駁的事實 -intriguing theory -no an impeccable truth
但你所前往的地方 那裏知識並沒有助益 but knowledge wont help where you're going
那什麼有 what will?
-信仰 -你是說愛情 -faith -you mean love
不 信仰 no faith
信仰和愛情有什麼分別？ whats the distinction between faith and love?
沒有信仰的愛情只是一時癡迷 love without faith is merely a infatuation
一時癡迷 infatutaion
好動人的詞彙 such a beautiful word
朋友 你完了 my friend you're doomed
或許吧 你進城去幹嘛 perhaps, so why do you need to go into town?
-我被學校開除了 -不是吧 -i've been thrown out of school -No
那你怎麼辦 well what are you going to do?
不知道 也許去找個工作吧 i dont know maybe i'll get a job
-有任何需要都可以找我 -謝了 -well if there's anything you need just ask -thanks
-四點停車場見吧 -好 -so i'll see in the parking lot at 4 -okay
好了 走了 well here goes
他感到絕望 沮喪涌出... desperate, his frustration spills
不 迸發出 no bursts forth
這個更好 thats better
沮喪中迸發出無畏 his frustration bursts forth into audacity
一切感想 he says as fast as he can
脫口而出 whatever he feels
一切感想 脫口而出 he says as fast as he can whatever he feels
一覺受傷 就言及痛苦 he feels hurt and speaks pain
我喜歡這句 直接 熱烈 i like that very direct, passionate
他感受 he feels
並斷言 he concludes
他喜歡你 he likes you
-誰？-你的文學老師 -who? -your literature professor
噢 是的 我知道 oh yes i know
別和他攪合在一起 you shouldn't get mixed up with him people will
人們會覺得你跟他上床是為了成績 think you sleep with him to get a better grade
人們很差勁 people are disappointing
我把馬克介紹給你吧 let me introduce you to Mark
我現在不想跟任何人扯上關係 i don't want to get involved with anyone right now
-為什麼 -因為我很忙 -why not? -because i'm busy
有很多要學的 我很享受勤學的狀態 i have a lot to study and i'm enjoying it, working hard
但是馬克多帥呀 而且他喜歡你 but Mark is so good looking and he likes you
-我對他有點著迷 -馬克？ -he fascinates me a little -Mark?
不 我的老師 No my teacher
真的？ Really?
你不覺得他身上有種悲劇感嗎 there's something sort of tragic about him don't you think?
他叫裘德 就像《無名的裘德》 he's name is Jude like in Jude The Obscure
-他看上去瘋瘋癲癲的 -他是墜入愛河了 -he looks half mad -he's in love
男人真可悲 Men are pathetic
我覺得他挺有魅力 i think he's kind of charming
某種程度上 in a way
我在寫他 i write about him
你寫什麼了 what do you write about?
各種事 我在揣度 研究他 different things, speculate, study him
我要圍繞他 或類似他的人 寫一個短篇故事 i'm going to write a short story with him at the center or some one like him
《他》 《他》就是這個故事的名字 Him that's what i call it Him
-我今晚要洗衣服 -我也要洗 -i'm doing laundry tonight -me too
共用一瓶洗衣液？ do you want to split a bottle of detergent?
行 okay
謝謝你載我一程 thanks for the ride
你住哪 where you gonna stay?
哦 我有些朋友願意收留我 oh i have some friends who will put me up
-再見了 -再見 -i'll see you later -see you around
娶我嗎 拜託 marry me? come on
抱歉 先生 你願意與我牽手步入婚姻殿堂嗎 excuse me sir but will you take my hand in marriage?
-得了 閃開 -娶我吧 -come on get outta here -marry me please
愛慕我 珍視我 to love and to cherish
到路邊來好嗎 would you get out of the street?
你看什麼看 老古董 滾開 what are you looking at? square.. bug off
抱歉 先生 你能讓我成為你的妻子嗎 excuse me sir but will you allow me to be your wife?
-拜託 -給 -please! -here
誰要你的臭錢！ don't want your money
愛慕我 珍視我 to love and to cherish
嘿 娶我吧 來吧 hey you marry me come on
有人需要幫忙嗎 somebody need any help?
有人需要幫助嗎 somebody need any assistance?
需要我幫忙嗎 can i help some one?
有人需要幫忙嗎 somebody need any help?
需要我幫忙嗎 can i help some one?
經理說你要是不買書就出去 my manager says you either gotta buy a book or leave
聽這個 listen to this
無知是人類幸福的必要條件 ignorance is the necessary condition of human happiness
我們幾乎完全不瞭解自己 we're almost entirely ignorant of ourselves
不瞭解他人 在無知中 我們找到了極樂 absolutely of others in ignorance we find our bliss
在幻覺中 我們找到了幸福 in illusions our happiness
我把你課上提過的問題都記了下來 i write down all those questions you ask in class
是嗎 you do?
我把它們帶回了家 並重讀了你佈置的章節 很有用 i take them home and re-read the chapters you've assigned, it helps
-什麼很有用？-提問題 - what does? - asking the questions
怎麼說 how?
我按照問題清單比對所有讀的內容 submitting all i read in the book to that ongoing list of questions
某種程度上 somehow it shows
他的關切顯得如此連貫 it shows how consistent his concerns were
陀思妥耶夫斯基 Dostoevsky
是嗎 it does huh?
在沒有就著文本一次次提問之前 before i began asking those questions over
我讀得很艱難 and over again of the text i was having a hard time
我不明白他想表達什麼 我總是希望他回到故事上來 i couldn't see what he was getting at i kept hoping he get back to the story
然後怎麼了 and then what happened?
這些問題讓我不再分心 現在我從中能體會出更多東西 the questions focused my concentration i'm getting more out of my reading now
有工作人員嗎 does anybody work here?
我不是有意要教你什麼 但很高興這對你有所幫助 i can't say i intended to teach you anything but i'm glad it helps
可那是你的問題 是你先提出來的 but they're your questions you asked them first
我是出於種種原因才提的 i asked them for different reasons
什麼原因 what reasons?
書本似乎是鮮活的 the book seems alive
你看上去是鮮活的 you seem alive
那本書似乎也是鮮活的 that book there seems alive too
你所讀到的東西正影響著你 things you're reading are having an effect on you
而我 我讀書 me? i read
理解 賞析 i understand, i appreciate
但我毫無改變 but still i'm left unchanged
我沒辦法將理解的東西付諸行動 i can't put into actions what it is i understand
知識不該提供慰藉嗎 shouldn't knowledge provide solace?
我不知道 i don't know
或許我什麼都不明白 perhaps i don't understand anything
你有地方去嗎 do you have anywhere to go?
你在這呆了好幾個小時了 you've been in here for hours
你什麼時候下班 when do you get off work?
八點 8 o'clock
我載你回學校？ can i drive you back to campus?
謝謝 不用 我坐公交 no thanks i take the bus
在此之前 要跟我喝一杯嗎 will you have a drink with me before you take the bus?
只要你現在出去就行 否則經理要吼我了 okay but only if you leave now my manager will yell at me if you don't
好 街角酒吧見？ okay the bar on the corner?
你要買這本書嗎 do you wanna buy the book?
不 書沒有用 nah books don't help
愛慕我 珍視我 to love and to cherish
這是什麼 what's that?
咖啡和瑪芬 it's coffee and a muffin
這是什麼意思 what's this suppose to mean?
沒什麼意思 it's not suppose to mean anything
天下沒有免費的午餐 不是嗎 先生 you can't get something for nothing you know mister
也不盡然吧 no not usually i suppose
男人給女人買了一杯咖啡 just because a guy buys a girl a cup of coffee
不代表她就得跟他上床 doesn't mean she has to jump into the sack with him
這樣吧 我放這兒 look i'm putting it over here
能夠坐享其成 何必多此一舉呢 why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?
什麼 what?
所有事都是這麼回事兒 先生 that's the truth about things mister
放在那兒了 看到了嗎 look it's right here see?
咖啡 瑪芬 行了嗎 coffee and a muffin okay?
愛慕我 珍視我 to love and to cherish
娶我 marry me
什麼 excuse me?
讓我成為你的妻子 let me be you wife
抱歉 i'm sorry
愛慕我 珍視我 to love and to cherish
嘿 老師 你在等人？ hey professor you waiting for somebody?
對 一個女生 yeah a girl
美女？ pretty girl?
是的 美女 yes. a pretty girl
應該也很年輕吧 and young too i imagine
跟你有什麼關係 what's it to you?
你欣賞她的才智 you admire her intelligence
客觀上講 確實 as a matter of fact yes i do
她集低調審慎與少女天真於一體 and you're impressed with her charming combination
令你難以忘懷 of unassuming conscientiousness and girlish naivete
如果的確如此呢 so what if i am?
我們美國人的毛病 就是總嚮往著一場喜劇收尾的悲劇 trouble with us Americans is we always want a tragedy with a happy ending
嘿 來瓶啤酒 hey i need a beer
-嗨 -嗨 - Hi - Hi
喝點什麼嗎 you want a drink?
一杯啤酒 我得去打個電話 a beer please i have to make a call
一杯啤酒 a beer
喬 我是蘇菲 Joe it's me Sophie
我一個小時後才會回家 抱歉 臨時有事 i won't be home for an hour so sorry something came up
我明晚再洗衣服 i'll do my laundry tomorrow night
我和朋友們在酒吧 i'm at a bar with some friends
女性朋友 girlfriends
拜 bye
你喜歡你的工作嗎 do you like your job?
還行 買書有折扣 挺有用的 it's okay i get a discount on my books it helps
你喜歡你的嗎 do you like yours?
不怎麼喜歡 我不擅長 not really i'm bad at it
是因為不喜歡才不擅長 are you bad at it because you don't like it or
還是因為不擅長才不喜歡？ do you not like it because you're bad at it?
你覺得我是個糟糕的老師嗎 do you think i'm a bad teacher?
我在你的課上學到了些東西 i have learn things in your class
你作為學生比我作為老師要好 you're a better student than i am a teacher
因為你對我投入了更多關注 that's because you give me more attention than the others
的確 that's true
這會困擾到你嗎 does that bother you?
不會 no
老實說 to tell you the truth
在某些時刻 我覺得自己教得還不錯 when i feel i'm teaching well
覺得自己清楚地表達了內心的想法 when i'm making myself clear
覺得自己確實鼓勵了學生去更具體地思考 when i'm actually encouraging a student to think specifically
更妥帖地表達 and articulate more appropriately
當我有這些感受時 when i feel this
通常是想到了你 i'm usually thinking of you
你會覺得難堪嗎 does that embarrass you?
有點 a little
比如在讀書讀得很興奮時 when i'm reading that really excites me for instance
我極度渴望與人分享 i want desperately to share it with some one
而那個人是你 it's you i wanna share it with
為什麼是我 why me?
原因很複雜 it's complicated
不複雜 no it's not
不複雜？ it's not?
那是因為你覺得我長得漂亮 it's because you think i'm pretty
或許吧 perhaps
抱歉 但這並不會改變我在乎你這個事實 i'm sorry it doesn't change the fact that i care for you
你不怎麼瞭解我 you hardly know me
的確 我對誰都算不上瞭解 但我知道我的感受 哪怕不知道原因 that's true i hardly know anyone but i know how i feel even if i don't know why
想聽我講講我自己嗎 would you like me to tell you something about myself?
如果你願意的話 if you want to
能被認真對待 我很感激 但我始終擔心 i appreciate being taken seriously but i'm always concerned
我自己不夠認真 that i'm not sufficiently serious
我知道 男人們覺得我長得還可以 但我覺得 i know men look at me and think i'm alright but i think it's
借此去圖謀些什麼 很卑鄙 contemptuous to utilize that fact in order to achieve something
但迫不得已的話 恐怕我也會這麼做 but if had to i'm afraid i might
這讓我很困擾 and that bothers me
我好奇心很重 我擔心這會讓我顯得很好騙 i'm very curious and i'm afraid of seeming gullible
所以我超乎尋常地好辯 so i'm argumentative more than i think i should be
你為什麼跟室友撒謊說你跟其他人出來玩了 what did you lie to your roommate you were out with some one else?
如果大家知道我們一塊出來了 他們會說 if people knew we were out together they would say
我為了成績和你上床 i was sleeping with you in order to get a better grade
-可是我們沒有 -沒有什麼 - but we're not - not what
上床 sleeping together
是還沒有吧 not yet anyway
一 二 三 四 五 六 七 八 one..two..three..four five..six..seven..eight
-我不喜歡這首歌 -我超愛這段錄像 - i don't like this song - i love the video
能關小聲點嗎 我得學習了 can you turn it down i have to study?
-那個男的又打電話來了 -哪個男的 - that guy called again - what guy?
-那個 你知道的 -你喜歡的那個？ - you know the one - the one you like?
長髮那個 with the long hair
-他約你出去？-對 - did he ask you out? - yes
-但我說我很忙 -你覺得他會再打來嗎 - but i said i was busy - do you think he'll call back?
絕對會 definitely
真希望我能有她那樣的一雙腿 i wish i had legs like hers
真希望我的胸能小點 i wish my breasts were smaller
你喜歡這條裙子嗎 do you like this dress?
我更喜歡那條 i like that one better
我要寫本小說 i'm going to write a novel
-現在？-不 有朝一日 - now? - no someday
需要我幫忙嗎 有人需要幫忙嗎 can i help someone? somebody need any help?
有人需要幫助嗎 somebody need any assistance?
需要我幫忙嗎 有人需要幫忙嗎 can i help someone? somebody need any help?
需要我幫忙嗎 can i help someone?
-你今天沒來上課 -我想你了 - you weren't in class today - i've missed you
我也想你了 i've missed you too
真是糟透了 我失魂落魄的 it was terrible i didn't know what to do
我睡過頭了 i overslept
我是下午兩點的課 my class is a 2 o'clock in the afternoon
別爭了 let's not argue
我沒爭 我是擔心 i'm not arguing i'm concerned
吃得好嗎 are you eating alright?
別這樣 我是成年人了 look i'm a grownup person
-今晚能見面嗎 -或許吧 - can i see you tonight? - perhaps
或許是什麼意思 what's that suppose to mean?
是你經常這樣說 it's what you always say
-是嗎 -是的 或許吧 - is it? - yes perhaps
我什麼時候會這麼說 when do i say that?
比如 當你不想承認自己錯了的時候 well for instance whenever you don't want to admit that you're wrong
你總會望向別處 說「或許吧」 you always look away and say perhaps
- 不 我不會 -你會 - no i don't - yes you do
我一直都會承認自己的錯 i always admit when i'm wrong
才不是 that's not true
怎麼不是 我珍視自己的缺陷 yes it is i cherish my flaws
瞧 這又是件你總是會做的事 ah you see that's another thing you always do
什麼 what is?
每次你爭不過 whenever you're losing an argument
你總會把自己描繪為一個徹頭徹尾的無能之輩 you always depict yourself as hopelessly incompetent
就好像是謙虛地承認自己的缺點 as if humbly admiting your shortcomings
會使你在爭論中佔據上風 somehow places you above the argumentative hand
因此可以全然否定其他人的觀點 there for negating the other person's point of view entirely
你真是明察秋毫啊 you're pretty thorough
善於觀察罷了 honestly observant
-我受寵若驚 -記下來了 - i'm pretty flattered - i'll make a note of that
你還沒有回答我的問題 you haven't answer my question
什麼問題來著 what question is that?
-今晚能和你見面嗎 -或許吧 - can i see you tonight? - perhaps
我得走了 電話聯繫 i've gotta go call me
-亨利 -嘿 裘德 - Henry - oh hi Jude
你在這幹嘛 what are you doing here?
我現在在這工作 i work here now
-真的假的 -真的 - no kidding - yea
這工作不錯 這麼多書 great job, all these books
老闆不是很喜歡我 不過 boss doesn't like me too much but
我一向和權威過不去 i always had a problem with authority
你在這幹嘛呢 what are you doing here?
我來見蘇菲 oh i came to see Sophie
啊 蘇菲 ahh Sophie
來自希臘語中的索菲婭 意思是「求知」 Sophia that's greek you know it's means to know
我會記住的 i'll keep that in mind
但是她有男朋友了 but she's got a boyfriend
-她沒有 -她真的有 - no she doesn't - sure she does
有好多呢 天天都來這兒 她老跟他們調情 lots of 'em, they're in here everyday she flirts with them constantly
不 如果她和別人在一起 她會告訴我的 no she would've told me if she were involved with some one
-為什麼 -什麼為什麼 - why? - why what?
她為什麼要告訴你 why would she have told you?
因為她想讓我知道 我們很親密 because she would have wanted me to know we are close you know
-多親密？-就是親密 - how close? - close
-上床了？-沒 還沒 - do you sleep together? - no not yet
那就只是朋友囉 so you're just friends
比朋友更親密一點 we're a little bit more than friends
裘德 你這是自欺欺人 Jude you're deluding yourself
你什麼也不知道 you don't know anything about it
一個男人 拋棄滿心的智慧 扔掉經年累積的知識 a man'll throw all his heart won wisdom toss away years of acquired knowledge
為了什麼？就為了一張漂亮臉蛋 all for what? a pretty face
呵 那你孜孜不倦地憤世嫉俗 well what is all your diligent cynicism and
經年累月地智性探索 又給你帶來了什麼 years of intellectual inquiry gotten you huh?
一份書店的工作 a job in a bookstore
-心靈的祥和 -什麼 - peace of mind - what?
至少是與之相近的某種東西 or at least something approximating peace of mind
亨利 你不是活在現實世界 你活在書籍和觀念裏 you don't live in the real world henry you live in books and ideas
你是理論抽像的受害者 you're a victim of theoretical abstraction
嘿 我跟你一樣 也在和魔鬼作鬥爭 hey i struggle with my demons as much as you
可它們真的是魔鬼嗎 but are they really demons?
一切消遣都是魔鬼 all distractions are demons
你知道嗎 我最大的恐懼就是 you know my biggest fear is this
我所有的辛勤工作 所有的好心好意 that all my hard work all my good intentions
所有的學習研究 都不過是在我與生活之間 all my studying have been nothing more than
築起了壁壘 building of a wall between me and life
-正是如此 -什麼 - exactly - what?
你必須脫離生活 you must withdraw from life
別犯蠢 我想要擁抱生活 don't be stupid i wanna embrace life
要理解生活 有時需要抽身而出 to know about life sometimes you have step away from it
是嗎？聽這個 oh yeah? listen to this
「不過時不時的 人們可以看見一個美麗的年輕姑娘走過 'yet, every now and then, there would pass a young girl,
高高的個子 一路上引起了年輕人的大膽希望 slender, fair and desirable, arousing in young men a not ignoble desire to possess her,
引起了老年人對溫柔生活的惋惜」 and stirring in old men regrets for ecstasy not seized and now forever past''
他沉默寡言而又固執己見 he is quiet yet opinionated
剛毅而又羞澀 powerful but shy
我得買新衣服了 i need new clothes
體貼而又莽撞 thoughtful and impetuous
-我討厭這段錄像 -我喜歡這首歌 - i hate this video - i like this song
主唱很帥 the lead singer is hot
他看起來又刻薄又麻木 he looks mean and insensitive
你覺得我應該去把頭髮染成金色嗎 do you think i should make my hair blonde?
夏天再說吧 not until summer
我想減肥 i wanna lose weight
瑪格麗特·杜拉斯是女同性戀嗎 is Marguerite Duras a lesbian?
老天保佑馬克回我電話 god i hope Mark calls me back
他很嚴肅 儘管不是出於本意 he is solemn despite himself
不顧一切 一往無前 reckless and hell bent
草率到自己都害怕 frightened of his own carelessness
真是個悖論 that's a paradox
-嗨 -出去 - hello? - get outta here
是我媽媽 it's my mother
你還好嗎 how are you?
裘德？ Jude?
我廢了 i'm a wreck
什麼 excuse me?
我太興奮了 興奮到睡不著 i'm excited too excited to sleep
-你在哪兒 -大街上 - where are you? - on a street
在城裏？ in town?
我轉悠幾個小時了 i've been walking for hours
我只能這樣 估計得轉悠整個晚上 i had to walk, think i'm gonna walk all night
出來跟我一塊走走吧 why don't you come out and walk with me?
你怎麼了 what's come over you?
我滿腦子都是你 i can't get you out of my head
我開車到學校接你吧 我們一起在外面過夜 i'll drive up to campus and pick you up we stay out all night
-我不行 -為什麼不行 - i can't - why not?
我明天還有課 得學習 i've got classes tomorrow i've gotta study
那又怎麼樣！我為你寫了首詩 so what! i wrote a poem for you
詩？ a poem?
-對 -真的嗎？ - yeah - really?
嗯 在酒吧的時候 yeah i was at a bar
我像著了魔一樣 靈感迸發 扯了張紙巾來寫 i was possessed, inspired beyond belief i grabbed a napkin
文思泉涌 scrolled it out in one huge burst of creativity
很美的一首詩 真的很美 beautiful poem really beautiful
後來我把啤酒灑在上面了 現在想不起來怎麼寫的了 and then i spilled my bear on it and now i don't remember how it went
一個小時後咖啡館見 meet me at the cafe in an hour
-亨利 -裘德 - Henry - Jude
我決定去做教士 I've decided i'm joing the priesthood
你每次喝多了都這麼說 you always say that when you've had too much to drink
這次我是認真的 yeah this time i mean it
那書店的工作怎麼辦 what about your job at the bookstore?
我被開除了 i got fired
老天 亨利 沒準修道院真的適合你 jesus Henry monastery is probably just the place for you
你也這麼覺得？ think so?
你是個社交白癡 you are socially retarded
我只是不走尋常路 i march to the beat of a different drum
還有錢嗎 you got any money?
我用不著錢 我有信念 i don't need money i got conviction
給 這會幫你保持你的信念 well here this will help sustain your conviction
知道嗎 裘德 你就有這個毛病 你什麼都不信奉 you know Jude that's your problem you don't believe in anything
這算毛病？ that's a problem?
當然算了 of course it is
我看有毛病的是那些有所信奉的人 it seems to me the people who believe in things are the problem
什麼意思？ how do you mean?
炸大使館的人常會強調自己有所信奉 people who bomb embassies usually insist that they believe in things
恐怖主義組織將機槍對準超市裏的婦孺 rival terrorist organizations machine gun women and children in the supermarkets
因為他們有所信奉 because they believe in things
民選官員關停醫院 投票支持 elected officials shut down hospitals and then vote for
增加國防預算 通常是因為他們有所信奉 increases in the defence budget usually because believe in things
算了吧 我寧願什麼也不信奉 no i rather not believe in things
可還有其他選擇嗎 but what's the alternative?
人活著不能沒有信仰 man can't live without faith
人活著可以沒有信仰 但不能沒有理解 he can live without faith he can't live without understanding
先有理解 才有信仰 faith comes after understanding
那你認為人怎樣才能獲得理解呢 and how do you suppose one gains understanding?
通過經驗 through experience
啊 你想要通過物質手段達到精神目的 ah you wanna achieve spiritual end through materialist means
這就是你的毛病 that's your problem
亨利 別煩我了 你喝醉了 Henry leave me alone you're drunk
你不聽信理性 you won't listen to reason
我是不聽信 尤其是今晚 no i won't listen to reason not tonight
-可你得聽 -別想攔著我了 亨利 - but you must - don't try and stop me Henry
你不會如願的 you'll never survive this
你怎麼知道？ how do you know?
而且 我都不知道我是否想要如願 besides i don't know if i want to
你還好嗎 are you okay?
我不知道 也許我再也不會是從前那個我了 i don't know maybe i'll never be the same again
但是誰在乎呢 but who cares?
吻我 kiss me
你為什麼跟室友說電話那頭是你媽 why did you tell your roommate it was your mother on the phone?
-我告訴過你為什麼 -但今非昔比 - i told you why - but it's different now
怎麼今非昔比了？ how is it different?
我們都知道你不是為了成績而來 it's understood that you're not here in order to get a better grade
不是嗎 isn't?
嗯 well yes it is
但只有你知我知 between us
其他人都不重要 no one else matters
我覺得很難堪 i'm embarrassed
因為我？ of me?
我不希望自己看上去像變了個人 i don't want to seem like somebody i'm not
對誰來說 to who?
對我來說 to myself
你該走了 you should go
我不想走 i don't want to
你連自己為什麼來這兒都不知道 you don't know why you're here
人們常做出些自己都不理解的事情 people often do things they don't understand
這並不影響他們是真誠的 it doesn't make them less genuine
也許吧 maybe
你希望我走嗎 do you want me to go?
不 no
真的嗎 are you sure?
真的 yes
我把外衣脫掉 i'm going to undress
好 okay
你覺得我美嗎 do you think i'm very beautiful?
嗯 yes
如果今晚之後你再也見不到我 if you never see me again after tonight
你會難過嗎 will you be sad?
不用擔心這個 don't worry about it
是 可是聽我說 yes but you know
你會為昔日同我一起的時光 為曾有的愛撫 will you be tortured by the memory of having been with me?
而備受煎熬嗎 of having caressed me
會好奇我是不是另有新歡嗎 will you wonder if i'm with other men?
會嫉妒嗎 will you be jealous?
會執迷嗎 will you become obsessed?
會一直心懷沮喪嗎 will you carry your disappointment around with you forever?
會變得多愁善感 厭惡社交嗎 will you be maudlin and anti-social?
會變得好鬥嗎 will you get into fights?
會希望其他女人更像我嗎 will you expect other women to be somehow more like me?
我的嘴 我的眼睛 my mouth my eyes
我的髮型 the way i wear my hair
你會嗎 你覺得你會變成那樣嗎 will you? will you be like that you think?
或許吧 perhaps
你知道 萬物的本質 it's the nature of things you know
就是追悔 regret
我甘願冒險 i'll risk it
嘿 娶我嗎 hey will you marry me?
拜託了 please
你為什麼會想嫁給我 why do you wanna marry me?
為什麼不呢 why not?
我要不是醉成這樣 能列許多原因出來 i can think a lot of reasons if i weren't so drunk
你怎麼會醉成這樣 why are you so drunk?
我不知道 夜太長了 i don't know, nights are too long
無人共度 夜才會長 the nights are too long because you have no one to share them with
好悲憫的說法 that's a very compassion way of putting it
-娶我吧 -可我又不瞭解你 - marry me - but i don't know you
那又如何 有誰真的瞭解他人嗎 what does that matter? does anyone really know anyone else?
說得不錯 ah that's a good point
我會進一步追問 有誰真的瞭解自己嗎 i'd go a step further and ask does anybody really know themselves?
正是如此 exactly
你叫什麼 what's your name?
凱蒂 Katy
-很高興認識你 凱蒂 -你怎麼樣 亨利 - glad to meet you Katy, Henry - how are you Henry?
爛醉 wasted
怎麼說 娶我嗎 so what do you say will you marry me?
我不覺得我們可以大半夜的就在這兒結婚 well i doubt we can get married right here in the middle of the night
-如果是在裏諾就可以 -是啊 - we could if we were in Reno - yea
天啊 真希望我們住在裏諾 god i wish we lived in Reno
先睡一覺 明天再說 let's sleep on it
沒門兒 先生 那你何必多此一舉？ no way mister why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?
-什麼 -你懂我意思 - what? - you know what i mean
我們不是一定要上床 we don't have to sleep on it together
為什麼 你覺得我不好看嗎 why? don't you think i'm beautiful?
凱蒂 你是女神般的人物 Katy you're a goddess
聽著 朋友 別浪費我時間 外面還有大把男人 listen pal don't waste my time there are plenty of men out there
排著隊想娶我 who died trying to marry me
我不懷疑這點 i don't doubt it
你看 我們為什麼不暫且訂個婚呢 listen why don't we just get engaged for the time being?
-訂婚？ -對啊 - engaged huh? - yea
那樣的話 我可以找個小窩 我們安居樂業 that way i can find us a place to live get set up right and proper
為什麼 你現在沒有地方住嗎 why don't you have a place to live now?
沒有吧 no not exactly
-那戒指呢 -戒指？ -what about a ring? -a ring?
戒指 如果我們要訂婚 你得給我個戒指 a ring if we're gonna get engaged you gotta give me a ring
哦戒指 給你 這是我的大學紀念戒指 oh ring here, it's my college ring
哦天哪 oh god
-好漂亮 -對你來說有點大了 - it's beautiful - it's a little big on you
不 剛剛好 亨利謝謝你 oh no it's just perfect henry thank you
看到凱蒂你笑得這麼開心就值得了 aw it's worth just to see you smile like that Katy
所以你有工作嗎 so do you have a job?
工作？沒 現在沒有 a job? ahh no not at the moment
我在攻讀博士學位 i'm working on my PhD
你是博士？ you're a doctor?
神學博士 差一點 of theology. almost
你離開學校之後準備做什麼 what are you gonna do when you get out of school?
哦我不知道 我一輩子都待在學校裏 什麼事都不會做 ooh i don't know i've been in school all my life i don't know how to do anything
好啊 希望你不是指望我 well i hope you don't expect me to go
後半輩子都養你吧 and support you for the rest of your life?
這就開始嘮叨了 already with the nagging
我這是給自己選了條什麼折磨人的路啊 what a torturous path i've made for myself
自我設限 就為了你 shackling myself to you
凱蒂 別難過 oh Katy now don't get so upset
所有新婚夫婦都會小打小鬧的 我們會走下去的 all newlyweds have these little battles we'll survive
-你這麼想？ -那當然 - you think so? - absolutely
你是個好人 亨利 you're a good man Henry
凱蒂來吧 我們回家睡會兒覺 Ah Kate come on let's go home and get some sleep
-好吧 我知道個地方 -好的 - okay i know a place - good
他的弱點 his weaknesses
持存 are enduring
他的優點 his strengths
幾乎要蠶食 threaten to eclipse
我的自信 my own self confidence
他常常 he eats out
出去吃 a lot
-嘿 你是那個... -不是 - hey aren't you? - no
-你是 -我不是 - yes you are - no i'm not
-但昨晚 -昨晚怎麼了 - but last night - what about last night?
你和他在一起 you were with him
我沒有 no i wasn't
抱歉 或許是我搞錯了 i'm sorry perhaps i'm mistaking
或許吧 perhaps
我剛看到你女朋友了 i just saw your girlfriend
蘇菲 Sophia
她聲稱不認識你 she claims not to know you
-不 -真的 - no - yes
不 NO
恐怕如此 afraid so
我不明白 i don't understand
沒什麼可明白的 我們都是動物 there's nothing to understand we're animals
「愛慾這個小神實在是反覆無常且極其惡劣」 "Eros is a bad and fickle little godhead"
這東西還能用麼 does this thing still work?
我討厭她這麼做 i hate when she does that
今天立春了 today's the first day of spring
這算什麼安慰 that's no consolation
老哥 我昨晚一定是喝斷片了 我醒來發現自己在一間陌生的公寓 boy i must've been hammered last night i woke up in a strange apartment
不知怎麼的把大學紀念戒指弄丟了 somehow i managed to lose my college ring
吃完烤麵包就滾 eat your toast and get out
-沒有無代價的愛情 -什麼 - no love is free - what?
弗洛伊德說的 freud said that
別煩我 亨利 don't start with me Henry
昨晚我在電影裏聽到了一句很有趣的宣言 heard a fascinating statement in a movie last night
你似乎沒意識到我正經歷怎樣的痛苦 you don't seem to be aware of the pain i'm expriencing
-什麼 -算了 - excuse me? - forget it
-是有關《聖經》的 -講的什麼 - it's biblical - what is?
那句宣言 「愛無差等」 the statement, "love does not discriminate"
我不明白 i don't follow
然後人們問他說 and the people asked him saying:
「那我們當做什麼呢？」 "what shall we do then"
-《路加福音》 -3章10節 - that's Luke - chapter 3 verse 10
-然後呢 -然後使徒回答說 - so? - "so the apostle replies
「愛慕與珍視任何出現在你面前的人 不要猶疑 love and cherish unquestioningly whoever happens to be before you
愛無差等」 Love does not discriminate"
我不是使徒 亨利 I'm no apostle, Henry
別發火啊 只是電影裏聽來的 Take it easy, it was just something I heard in a movie
聽好了 朋友 別在這兒大搖大擺的 一邊用著我的烤麵包機 Listen pal, you can't waltz in here, use my toaster
一邊散播著空泛泛的宇宙真理 and start spouting universal truths without qualification!
那是什麼 what's that?
什麼 what?
你聞到了麼 you smell that?
嗯 oh yeah
她把香氣留在這了 she's left her fragrance here
夠了 滾吧！ that's it. Get out!
-那我的烤麵包呢 -滾！ - what about my toast? - Get out!
-滾開 -嗯？ - Scram - what?
你為什麼要這麼做 why did you do that?
我大概是很煩躁 i'm upset i guess
蠢貨 idiot
你為什麼不承認我 why do you deny me?
我現在不想和任何人扯上關係 i don't wanna get involved with anyone right now
我很忙 i'm busy
努力學習 studying working hard
我也喜歡這樣 and i like it
你為什麼想要別人知道我們的關係 why do you need what's between us to be seen?
我沒有 i don't
我只是需要被承認 i need it to be acknowledged
這很令人難堪 this is embarrassing
你在寫什麼 what are you writing?
故事的一個片段 it's part of a story
我能聽聽麼 can i hear it?
不能 no
念出來 read it
念啊 read it
他絕望了 挫敗感漫溢開來 he is desperate and his frustration mounts to overflowing
將他引向了那最終的 魯莽的錯誤 before giving way to his final and audacious mistake
他屈服了 放棄了 finally he caves in gives up
接受了現成的安排 因為他知道他可以這麼做 也想這麼做 and takes what is offered because he knows he can because he knows he wants
他缺乏信仰 因而缺乏耐心 he lacks faith and therefore patience
他的放棄讓他在時間面前顯得空乏又衰老 the giving of himself has left him empty and old before his time
很有趣 that's very interesting
但我想應該是「她」 but i think it should be a woman
你覺得呢 what do you think?
念成「她」看看 go on read it as a woman
她絕望了 挫敗感漫溢開來 she is desperate and her frustration mounts to overflowing
將她引向了那最終的 魯莽的錯誤 before giving way to her final and audacious mistake
她屈服了 放棄了 接受了現成的安排 finally she caves in, gives up and takes what is offered
因為她知道她可以這麼做 也想這麼做 because she knows she can because she knows she wants
她缺乏信仰 因而缺乏耐心 she lacks faith and therefore patience
她的放棄讓她在時間面前顯得空乏又衰老 the giving of herself has left her empty and old before her time
請不要這樣 just don't
該死 damn
抱歉 女士 excuse me miss
你想幹什麼 what do you want?
我想娶你做我的妻子 i want you to be my wife
什麼 what?
我說真的 嫁給我 拜託了 i mean it. marry me. please
我為什麼要嫁給你 why should i marry you?
為什麼不能是我呢 well why not me?
是這樣 先生 我已經訂婚了 listen mister i'm already engaged
看到沒？這是訂婚戒指 see? this is an engagement ring
這不是訂婚戒指 that's not an engagement ring
這是大學紀念戒指 而且是我朋友亨利的 that's a college ring and it belongs to my friend Henry
退後 夥計 Back off pal
我不認識什麼叫亨利的人 這是訂婚戒指 i don't know anyone named Henry this is an engagement ring
一份重要的象徵 一件無價的珠寶 a significant emblem a potent piece of jewelry
而且是我的 and it's mine
但我以為你想結婚來著 but i thought you wanted to get married
我只是想隨便找人問問 i just wanted somebody to ask
費奧多爾·米哈伊洛維奇·陀思妥耶夫斯基 Fyodor Mikhailovich Dostoyevsky
出生於莫斯科 1821年 born in moscow 1821
他的父親是 his father was a
一個醉醺醺的軍隊醫生 對他的農奴非常殘暴 drunken brute of an army Surgeon who treated his sowers horribly
所以他們謀殺了他 把伏特加灌到了他喉嚨裏 直到他窒息身亡 so he... they murdered him by pouring vodka down his throat till he gagged
費奧多爾的第一部小說小有成就 Fyodor had some success with his first novel but
但隨後 他因顛覆沙皇被捕 then he was arrested for subversion against Tsar
在8個月的單獨監禁後 after 8 months in solitary confinement
他被帶到了行刑隊面前 he was led before a firing squad
他站在那裏 披著裹屍布 he stood there in a death shroud
面對著敞開的 匆匆挖好的墓坑 等待著處決 facing an open and hastily dug grave awaiting his execution
然後有人下令用不著槍決他了 then some one decided he didn't need to be shot
所以之後的四五年裏 他在寒冷的西伯利亞的某處監獄做苦工 so for the next 4 or 5 years he did hard labour in some cold siberian prison
正是在西伯利亞 他的癲癇開始發作 it was there in siberia that he began to suffer from epilepsy
終於在被囚禁10年之後 finally 10 years after being dragged away in chains
他回到了聖彼得堡 he returned to Saint Petersburg
改信保守而深奧的宗教哲學 he converted to a conservative and profoundly religious philosophy
儘管如此 他還是一貧如洗 nevertheless he was utterly destitute
是個酒鬼 也是個衝動的賭徒 an alcoholic and a compulsive gambler
他娶了安娜·陀思妥耶夫斯基 he married Anna Dostoyevskaya
寫下至少四部名垂青史的小說 and wrote at least 4 of the greatest novels in history
我沒什麼要說的了 i have nothing else to say
我沒法教你們任何東西 i can't teach you anything
散了吧 class dismissed
知道還並不足夠 Knowing is not enough
夥計你還好嗎 pal you alright?
嗯 我還好 yeah i'll be okay
就想讓腦袋倚在下水道這兒休息5或10分鐘的 just let me rest my head here in the gutter for 5 or 10 minutes
我沒事兒的 i'll be alright
很抱歉打擾你 i'm sorry to bother you
什麼事 what is it?
你能告訴我從這怎麼下到河邊嗎 can you tell me how to get down to the river from here?
有人需要幫助嗎 does anyone need any assistance?
有人需要幫助嗎 anyone need any assistance?
需要我幫忙嗎 can i help someone?
有人需要幫忙嗎 somebody need any help?
需要我幫忙嗎 can i help someone?
有人需要幫助嗎 someone need any assistance?
需要我幫忙嗎 can i help someone?
有人需要幫忙嗎 somebody need any help?
有人需要幫助嗎 someone need any assistance?
需要我幫忙嗎 can i help someone?
有人需要幫忙嗎 someone need any help?
有人需要幫助嗎 does anyone need any assistance?
需要我幫忙嗎 can i help someone?
參考 《卡拉馬佐夫兄弟》榮如德譯本 《諸神渴了》蕭甘 郝運譯本 《佔有》於冬梅 宋瑛堂譯本