妈妈是……可伸缩的。 Mommy is... stretchable.
你说的可拉伸是什么意思？ What do you mean by stretchable?
爸爸的努力。你动不了他。 Daddy's hard. You can't move him.
他生气了，就这样。 He gets mad, and that's it.
妈妈也生气了， Mommy gets mad too,
但她更像油灰。 but she's more like putty.
毫米。 Mm.
她也很伤心。 And she gets sad too.
这是最舒展的时候。 That's when it's the most stretch.
腻子,嗯…我想知道你是怎么伸展她的？ Putty, um... I wonder how is it that you stretch her?
你只是—— You just--
我可以……我现在可以说话了吗？好吗? Can I... Can I talk now? Please?
嗯… Um...
-妈妈说话可以吗？——是的。 - Is it okay if Mommy talks? - Yep.
好吧。 Okay.
我是不可拉伸的。我不是腻子。 I'm not stretchable. I'm not putty.
这就是她对你的印象。 Well, that's her experience of you.
这不是真的。 That isn't true.
我很努力地想控制她的一切， I try very hard to be in control of her and everything,
但是，也许根本就不存在。 but, um, may as well not even be there at all.
感觉就是现实，所以 Well, perception is reality, so--
而且，我也不会难过。 Also, I don't get sad.
你现在看起来很伤心。 You seem sad right now.
你现在看起来确实很伤心。 You do seem sad right now.
我们是来讨论如何让你好起来的。 We're here to talk about how to get you better.
我们一直在谈论我。 All we do is talk about me.
我可以难过。我是说，我可以伤心，对吧？ I can be sad. I mean, I'm allowed to be sad, right?
当然了。 Well, of course.
但是，你必须知道这一切都是错综复杂的 But, um, you must know that this is all tangled up together
所有人中你最应该知道 and you of all people should know--
我知道。我知道，但是… I know. I know, but, um...
这个…事情不是这样的…… this... this isn't how things...
…会好起来的。嗯… ...are gonna get better. Um...
妈妈，请不要哭…… GIRL Mommy, please don't cry...
不,不。我—— No, no. I--
-…因为那样我会哭。亲爱的。 - ...because then I'll cry. -Sweetie.
——她……-亲爱的，没事的。没关系。 - She... - Sweetie, it's okay. It's okay.
我们要拔掉管子。现在。 We want the tube removed. Now.
-不，你不能杀我！-要做到这一点，我们需要… -No, you can't kill me! - And to do that, we need...
不，她不会做她该做的事 No, she won't do what she has to do
因为她知道她有这个安全网。 because she knows that she has this safety net.
现在情况还不够稳定 Things are not stable enough right now to--
很明显，我们有不同的目标。 It's clear that we have different goals.
你想让她在拔管前好起来。 You want her to get better before the tube can be removed.
我觉得管子该拔出来了 I think the tube needs to come out,
然后她就会好起来。 and then she can get better.
我们都有一个共同的目标。 We all have the same goal here.
但我们在一起谈话时，我学到的是 But what I'm learning as we're talking all together
你和我需要花点时间，就我们俩， is that you and I need to spend some time, just the two of us,
她不在这里…… without her here...
…谈论一些严肃的问题。 ...to talk about some serious issues.
我需要你 I'm gonna need you to
晚上重新开始管饲 restart the tube feedings at night
我需要你开始做… and I need you to start doing...
你买了没有奶酪的那种吗？ Did you get the kind with no cheese?
我不能每次都跟你解释，亲爱的。 I can't explain this to you every time, sweetie.
他们只会嘲笑我说这是面包，好吗？ They would just laugh at me and say it's bread, okay?
当然，回家后我会把奶酪取下来的。 I'll take the cheese off when we get home, of course.
是那种小的吗 Is it the kind with the little
酱汁里有绿色和黑色的东西吗？ green and black things in the sauce?
这是我们经常遇到的那种。 It's the same kind we always get.
那种酱汁里有东西。 That kind has the things in the sauce.
我不能……我不能吃。 I can't... I can't eat it.
你能把它刮掉吗 Like, can you scrape it off--
你到底是想把管子拔出来还是只有我想把它拔出来？ Do you even want the tube out or is it just me who wants it out?
你必须…… You have to be...
耶稣。 Jesus.
哦,粪便。 Oh, poo.
哦…… Oh...
你的愿望实现了。没有奶酪。 You got your wish. No cheese.
-你希望发生这种事吗？-是的。 - Did you will that to happen? - Yeah.
你是女巫还是什么？ Are you some kind of witch or something?
嘿，直接去吃饭。事实上,没有。 Hey, straight to the table. Actually, no.
先洗手，然后直接进餐。 Wash hands first, and then straight to the table.
不过我不需要上厕所。 I don't have to go to the bathroom though.
没人逼你去洗手间。 No one's making you go to the bathroom.
我只是想让你洗手，求你了， I'm just asking you to wash your hands, please,
就像我们一直做的那样。 like we always do.
爸爸来了吗？爸爸在哪儿? Is Daddy coming? Where's Daddy?
他说也许该睡觉了。 Uh, he said maybe bedtime.
他什么时候再去？ When does he go again?
他刚回来，所以…一个月后？ He just got back, so... in a month?
妈妈吗? Mommy?
是的。 Yeah.
我是去了趟洗手间。 I did have to go to the bathroom.
好吧。 Okay.
这可能需要一段时间。 This might take a while.
好吧。 Okay.
妈妈吗? Mommy?
是吗? Yeah?
浴室里有水。 The bathroom has water in it.
好吧，那很好。 Okay, well, that's good.
不，我是说在地板上。 No, I mean on the floor.
快来! Come quickly!
你要来吗？ Are you coming?
妈妈! Mommy!
我的天啊。怎么啦？ Oh, my God. What?
你为什么不一进来就告诉我？ Why didn't you tell me as soon as you came in here?
我刚注意到… I just noticed...
因为我太想上厕所了。 because I had to go to the bathroom so bad.
我不喜欢它在我袜子上的感觉。 I don't like how it feels on my socks.
它是从哪里来的？它有多深？ Where's it coming from? How deep is it?
我们会死吗？ Are we gonna die?
房子会不会倒在我们头上？ Is the house gonna fall on top of us?
妈妈吗? Mommy?
你能把我抱起来带我出去吗？ Can you lift me up and carry me out?
待在那别动，好吗？等一等。 Yep, just stay there, okay? Hold on.
妈妈，你为什么要离开我？你要去哪里？ Mom, why are you leaving me? Where are you going?
就待在马桶上，好吗？ Just please stay on the toilet, okay?
否。 No.
你能来… Can you please come...
你现在能来吗？ Can you come now?
哦,我的…… Oh, my...
哦…… Oh...
…我的天啊。 ...my fucking God.
妈妈! Mommy!
妈妈，你不能告诉我这是什么！ Mommy, you're not telling me what it is!
妈妈! Mommy!
-怎么回事？——什么? - What's going on? - What?
发生什么事了，妈妈？ What's happening, Mom?
我们会死吗？ Are we gonna die?
——<我>嘿。 -嘿，是的。 -Hey. - Hey, yeah.
我们刚到家，你肯定不会相信 We just got home, and you would not believe--
我的天啊！我的天啊！ Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
不，不，不！别来这儿。 No, no, no! Do not come here.
别进来！ Do not come in here!
现在，快，快，快！现在!现在! Right now, go, go, go! Right now! Right now!
快，快，快，快！ Go, go, go, go!
走吧!我的天啊！ Go! Oh, my God!
没有什么是熟悉的或真实的。 Nothing is familiar or real.
<我>。 Ever.
每当我有这种感觉，我就离你越来越远 Every time I feel this way I get further and further away
从我自己，就像，我再也回不去了。 from being in myself, and, like, I can never get back.
当你想到时间， When you think about time,
你怎么看？ how do you see it?
我怎么看时间？ How do I see time?
<我>嗯… Um...
时间是一连串的事情，需要我们去克服 Time is a series of things to get through.
>每个目标都是悬崖 Each goal is a cliff.
在它的末尾什么也没有， There's nothing at the end of it,
>但是当它来了，那里只是另一个悬崖 but then it comes, and there's just another cliff.
我很生你的气！ I'm so mad at you!
哦,狗屎。 Oh, shit.
你知道全息呼吸法吗？ Yo, you know about holotropic breathing?
毫米毫米。 Mm-mm.
嘿，这东西点着了。 Yo, this shit is lit.
基本上，你欺骗你的大脑，让它认为自己已经死了， Basically, you trick your brain into thinking it's dead,
然后你看到了他妈的宇宙。 and you see the fucking universe.
你知道我在说什么吗？ You know what I'm saying?
这样，如果出了问题，你就不会感到偏执和内疚。 So you won't feel paranoia and guilt if something's wrong.
我有个朋友会灵气之类的。 I've got a friend who does Reiki and shit like that.
不，明白我的意思吗？这就像过度呼吸。 Nah, see what I'm saying? This is like hyperventilating.
人死后，会释放这种化学物质。 When you die, they say you let off this chemical.
当你做梦的时候，你也会释放同样的化学物质。 And when you're dreaming, you let off the same chemical.
就像那样，你知道吗？ It's sort of like that, you know?
你让你的大脑以为它已经死了， You make your brain think it's dead,
但是脑死亡仍然是活着的。 but being brain-dead is still alive.
全息呼吸法?——Holotropic。 -Holographic breathwork? - Holotropic.
热带。Holotropic。 Tropic. Holotropic.
-这是真的吗？——什么? - Is that real? - What?
- - -…大脑死亡的事？-是啊。 - The... the dead brain thing? - Oh, yeah.
我是说，该死。我想任何事都可能是真的。 I mean, shit. I guess anything could be real.
我是说，任何事都可能是扯淡。 I mean, anything could be bullshit too.
你知道我在说什么吗？ You know what I'm saying?
但你知道那种感觉，当你不是… But you know that feeling like when you're not...
是的。 Yeah.
哦，你在取笑我。 Oh, you're making fun of me.
-小姐，我都不认识你。——正确的。 - Miss, I don't even know you. - Right.
好吧。这些可以，但酒不行。 Okay. Um, yes on these, but no on the wine.
为什么? Why?
法律禁止我现在把这酒卖给你。 The law prohibits me from selling you this wine right now.
但现在还不到两点。 But it isn't even 2:00.
1:58。 It's 1:58.
正确的,但是, Right, but--
等我结帐的时候，已经两点多了。 By the time I ring these up, it will be past two.
嗯。嗯… Huh. Um...
我去拿花生酱杯。 I'll just get the peanut butter cups.
你可以把它们放在我的房间里。 You can put them on my room.
会做的事情。 Will do.
我不能再说这个了。 I can't talk about this anymore.
我告诉你。请。 I'm telling you. Please.
<我>嘿,嘿。听着，如果斯普林博士认为这是最好的办法，我同意 Hey, hey. Look, if that's what Dr. Spring thinks is best,
那我们就得听斯普林博士的了 then we have to listen to Dr. Spring.
但是没有“我们”。 There is no "we" though.
只有我。我…我… It's just me. I... I'm...
-这不公平。我告诉你。<我>——哇! - It's not fair. I'm telling you. - Whoa!
<我>公平吗?听着，我在工作，好吗？ Fair? Listen, I'm working, all right?
我在和一大堆混蛋打交道。你不知道。 I'm dealing with a lot of assholes. You have no idea.
我对无能为力 And I cannot do anything about
这里发生了什么。 what's going on there from here.
我们需要成为一个团队。你今天必须去那里 We need to be a team. You have to go there today
，签到，让他们知道 and check in and let them know
-这整个不是- -我知道。我知道。 - that this whole thing is not-- - I know. I know.
然而，这种逻辑的问题在于， The problem with that logic, though,
我不是一个家庭主妇 is that I'm not a housewife.
-我也工作。-哇，哇，哇。 - I work too. - Whoa, whoa, whoa.
妈妈，这旅馆的食物太恶心了。 Mommy, this hotel food is gross.
-早上好。-太恶心了。 -Good morning. - This is disgusting.
哇。 Wow.
你们俩看起来就像双胞胎。有人告诉过你吗？ You guys look just like twins. Anybody ever tell you that?
哦,不。你是第一个 Uh, no. You're the first person
注意到和/或说 to notice and/or say that.
每个人都这么说。 Everyone says that.
-嘿，小可爱。想看魔术吗？-是的。 - Hey, cutie. Wanna see a trick? -Yeah.
哇。你是怎么做到的？ Whoa. How'd you do that?
妈妈吗? Mommy?
你应该接受它。她不会吃的。 You should take it. She's never gonna eat it.
好吧。 Okay.
我现在要吐了吗？ Am I gonna throw up now?
——是吗?- i>你挂了我的电话 - Yeah? -You hung up on me.
听着，我知道你有很多事要做 Look, I know you have a lot on your plate,
但她正在好转， but she's getting better,
，其余部分完全是临时的 and the rest of it is totally temporary.
天花板会修好的，我保证 The ceiling will get fixed, I promise.
天没有塌下来。这一切都不是你的错。 The sky is not falling. None of this is your fault.
我爱你。 -对不起。我也爱你。 - I love you. - I'm sorry. I love you too.
酒店到底有什么不好呢？ What's so bad about a hotel anyway?
当你在那里的时候，好好利用游泳池 And while you're there, take advantage of the pool.
他们有游泳池，对吗？ They got a pool, right?
你总是说你希望你有一个游泳池 You always said you wish you had a pool,
，现在你有一个 so now you have one.
你为什么不去呢？你可以转几圈，休息一下。 Why don't you go? You can do some laps, lounge a little.
买个漂浮物。放松一下，喝几杯玛格丽塔酒 Get a floatie. Kick back, get a couple of margarita...
好吧。 Okay.
你知道你可以训练仓鼠来爱你吗？ Did you know that you can train hamsters to love you?
否。 No.
你可以训练他们爱你。 You can train them to love you.
我希望你能吃完你的培根。 Well, I would love if you would finish your bacon.
这样我就能告诉大家你百分百买好早餐了。 That way I can tell everybody you got 100% on breakfast.
一旦他们爱上你，你可以让他们做任何事情 And once they love you, you can get them to do everything
包括技巧。 including tricks.
让我们从一口开始。 Let's start with one bite.
♪ Ring, ding Ring-a-ring-a-ling-dang ♪
♬ring -a-ling-a-ding-当-do♬ ♪ Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang-do ♪
♬Ring, ling Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang…♪我> < / ♪ Ring, ling Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang... ♪
>让他不再爱你 ♪ Keeps him from lovin' you ♪
那个停车的人又要生气了吗？ Is the parking guy gonna get mad again?
就算!就算!就算! Double-park! Double-park! Double-park!
好吧。 Okay.
得快点。你知道上次发生了什么。 Gotta be fast. You know what happened last time.
你错过了前几周的家庭会议。 You've missed the last few weeks of family sessions.
是的。 Yeah.
我告诉过你发生了什么。 I told you what happened.
整个天花板都塌了，混乱不堪， Our entire ceiling fell down, and with all that chaos,
我们住在酒店外面 and we're living out of the hotel--
所以我们需要尽快安排一些事情 So we need to schedule something as soon as possible
谈谈她的目标和治疗过程。 to talk about her goals and the treatment process.
是的。是的,好的。是的。 Yeah. Yeah, okay. Yeah.
咄。 Duh.
是的。 Yeah.
-嗯嗯。-嗯嗯。 - Mm-hm. - Mm-hm.
哦，你是说现在？好吧。好吧。 Oh, you meant now? Okay. All right.
嗯… Um...
让我看看我的日程安排。 Well, uh, let me look at my schedule.
我应该这么做…… I should probably do that...
我知道你已经知道了， I know that you already know this,
但你不能让罪恶感和控制欲 but you can't start letting feelings of guilt and control
关于这种疾病和治疗对你的影响。 about this illness and treatment affect you.
这不是任何人的错。 It's no one's fault.
这是正确的。这是我一直听到的。 That's right. That's what I keep hearing.
还有，我真的需要你开始照顾好自己。 Also, I really need you to start taking care of yourself.
正确的。是。 Right. Yes.
否。先戴上我的氧气面罩。 No. Put my oxygen mask on first.
嗯嗯,嗯嗯。 Mm-hm, mm-hm.
我就直说了吧。 I'm just gonna have to get blunt here.
所以她需要在下周达到她的体重目标。 So she needs to reach her weight goal in the next week.
如果她那样做了，我们就可以切除输卵管了 If she does that, then we can put tube removal
还有出院日期 and discharge dates on the books
但如果她不这么做 but if she doesn't do that,
我得重新评估你的护理水平 I'm gonna have to reassess the level of care
因为很明显这里有什么不对劲， because obviously something is not working here,
这就是我要跟你说的 and this is what I need to talk to you about.
我们什么时候可以坐下来？ When can we sit down properly?
是的,很好。9月7日。 Yeah, fine. Uh, September 7th.
今天是九月十五日。 It's September 15th.
9月20日。我是说，九月…… September 20. I mean, September...
9月20日。 September 20.
嘿! Hey!
嘿!我告诉过你别这么做，下次 Hey! I told you not to do that, and the next time
我会向大楼举报你。 I will report you to the building.
你没有权力举报我。 You have no authority to report me.
你不能进入停车场。我叫人把你拖走！ You won't be allowed in the lot. I'll have you towed!
哦,当然!叫他们! Oh, sure! Call them!
我在里面待的时间不够长 I'm not in there long enough
他们竟然来了！ for them to even come!
随你的便! Whatever!
混蛋。 Asshole.
这间公寓步行30分钟， The apartment is a 30-minute walk,
但也可能是在火星上。 but it might as well be on Mars.
我只是，我不能… And I just, I can't...
每次我去检查，情况都更糟， Every time I go check, it looks worse,
和我…我无法控制。 and I... I have no control.
你们试过讨论妥协方案吗 Have you tried discussing a compromise
和你的房东？ with your landlord?
也许他们可以用这个洞把房间隔开， Perhaps they could section off the room with the hole,
然后你就可以自由地住在公寓的其他地方了。 then you could live freely in the rest of the apartment.
与石棉自由相处 Live freely with asbestos
还有100年的灰尘和黑霉孢子？ and 100-year-old dust and black mold spores?
这就是你的建议？ That's your advice?
这不是建议。这是一个需要考虑的问题。 It's not advice. It's a question to consider.
我真该带你看看这个洞。 I should really show you this hole.
这简直是我天花板上的噩梦。 It's an entire nightmare on my ceiling.
查尔斯什么时候回来？ When does Charles return?
这是第八周的第三周。 This is week three of eight.
我是说，你应该知道。你不记下来吗？ I mean, you should know that. Don't you write things down?
记住是你的工作 It's your job to remember
我生活中无聊的细节。 the boring details of my fucking life.
我们现在必须停下来。我们没时间了。 We do have to stop now. We are out of time.
我还有一个病人要来，所以… I have another patient coming, so...
等一下,现在? Wait, now?
那十分钟警告呢？ What about the ten-minute warning?
是啊，我只是没注意。 Yeah, I just wasn't paying attention.
你没有回复我发给你的关于我梦想的邮件。 You didn't respond to the email that I sent you about my dream.
我不会回复我客户的梦幻邮件。 I don't respond to my client's dream emails.
好吧。所以，如果你不提出来， Okay. So, if you don't bring it up,
那有什么意义呢？ then what is the point?
好吧。你说对了。 Okay. Uh, you got me.
我有一个梦想，我今天需要谈谈它， I had a dream, and I need to talk about it today,
而我却没有时间 and I didn't get any time
因为你没有给我警告。 because you didn't give me a warning.
我们可以下节课讨论你发邮件发来的梦。 We can discuss the dream you emailed next session.
嗯，这实际上是一个不同的梦。 Well, it's actually a different dream.
-我真的不-关于你的事 - Well, I don't really-- - About you.
-好吧，快点。——好的。 - Okay, quickly. - Okay.
我在医院的休息室里 I was in a hospital day room
或者娱乐室什么的， or a recreation room or something,
我知道我女儿也在医院 and I knew my daughter was also in the hospital
但是…但在遥远的地方， but... but far away, another part,
而且看起来也不像医院 and it didn't look like the hospital
不过她去年来过 she was in last year, though,
当一切发生的时候。这是不同的。这很奇怪。 when everything happened. It was different. It was weird.
我在等查尔斯来接我 And I was waiting for Charles to come get me,
这样我们就可以去接她了 so we could pick her up
但是，你却在那里 but instead, you were there,
你想坐得离我很近。 and you wanted to sit really close to me.
我坐在长凳上，离你越来越远 And I was, like, inching away from you on the bench
而你一直在慢慢靠近。 and you kept inching closer.
我拿出手机给查尔斯发短信 And I got my phone out to text Charles
因为我很紧张他会进来看到 'cause I was nervous he'd come in and he'd see
然后你想抢手机 and then you tried to grab the phone
然后你开始挠我痒痒… and then you started to tickle me...
…想让我放下它， ...to try to get me to drop it,
然后我就… and I was, like...
我真的很享受， I was really enjoying it,
但我很害怕查尔斯会进来，他会看到。 but I was so scared that Charles would come in and he would see.
好吧。 All right.
好吧? Okay?
好吧。你得告诉我。 All right. You got to tell me.
我们下次再谈。 We'll talk about it next time.
好吧? Okay?
我们下次就不谈这个了。 We won't talk about it next time.
你知道的。 You know that.
没有线。根本就没有线。 There's no thread. There's no thread at all.
是吗?现在该做什么? Yes? What now?
男：你好，是的。抱歉。 MAN Hi, yes. So sorry.
我得走了。停止工作。 Have to leave. Stop work.
哦,什么? Uh, what?
<我>的母亲去世了。我得走了。 Mother died. I have to leave. Work is going to take longer.
好吧，我只是 Uh, okay, uh, just--
我马上就来。 I'll be one second.
好吧，那问题是什么？你能告诉我吗？ Okay, what is the issue then? Can you tell me?
这事已经持续很久了。 This has been going on for so long.
我需要找一个新的承包商吗？ Do I need to get a new contractor?
<我>它传播。 It spread.
嗯，满了。已经很满了，你明白吗？很满的。 Uh, it's full. It's very full, you understand? Very full.
它传播吗? It spread?
不容易解释。不是我的语言。 Not easy to explain. Not my language.
'你的hablo español！Explícame en tu idioma，“我很高兴！” ¡Yo hablo español! Explícame en tu idioma, ¡lo entenderé!
对不起，我听不懂那些字 Sorry, but I don't understand those words.
你要为你母亲伤心多久？ How long will you be grieving for your mother?
我不知道。我不知道。我不能说。 I don't say. I don't know. I can't say.
听着，我需要一个约会，好吗？它需要修理。 Look, I need a date, okay? It needs to be fixed.
给我一个日期。我丈夫和我要回到 Just give me a date. My husband and I will be returning to--
我会回来的，一个星期后 I'll be back, one week.
好吧，好吧。我要去那里 Okay, well, fine. I'm going to be going there
看看你到目前为止都做了什么， and checking on what you have done so far,
我要拍照，我—— and I'm going to be taking pictures, and I--
Vete a la mierda, el cabrón. Vete a la mierda, el cabrón.
我现在能看见你了。 I can see you now.
我真的很高兴为你保留这个沉默的空间，但是…… I'm really happy to hold this silent space for you but...
…像往常一样，我对……很好奇 ...as usual, I am curious as to
你可能在想什么。 what you might be thinking about.
莱利。 Riley.
我满脑子都是这个。 That's all I can think about.
告诉我发生什么事了。 Tell me what's going on.
好吧,我…… Well, I...
我一直跟你说，这是 I keep telling you, it's--
就像我一直跟他的医生说的，他 It's like I keep saying to his doctor, he--
他没有笑。他—— He doesn't smile. He--
他奇怪地看着我， He looks at me weirdly,
他一直都很不舒服， and he's just very uncomfortable all of the time,
和…没人会对此做任何事。 and... and no one will do anything about it.
你知道我喜欢什么吗 You know what I would love
我认为这将非常有帮助 and what I think would be extremely helpful
你能不能在莱丽不在的情况下参加治疗 is if you could come to a session without Riley.
我觉得会是…… I think it would be...
-我知道你觉得你不能-不，我不能 - I know you think you can't-- - No, I can't.
但我觉得如果你有一个你信任的保姆，你可以 But I think if you got a sitter who you trusted, who you could--
你听说纽约那个保姆的事了吗？ Did you hear about that nanny in New York?
妈妈下班回家， The mom came home from work,
保姆刺伤了她 and the nanny had stabbed
她的两个孩子都死在浴缸里了。 both of her kids to death in the bathtub.
这是真的。这发生了。 That is real. That happened.
这种情况是非常非常不寻常的，好吗？ A situation like that is very, very, very unusual, okay?
大多数人都有看护人 Most people have caregivers
-谁能相信……-不行。 - who can trust that... - I can't.
好吧,我……我相信你可以。 Well, I... I believe you can.
我只是觉得你不想，或者你害怕 I just think you don't want to or you're afraid
让我们坚持一些实际的—— so let's stick to some practical--
我得保护他。 I need to protect him.
有什么特别的吗？ From something specific?
因为一些非常糟糕的事情正在发生。 Because something very bad is happening.
我很……我能不能稍等一下。我只需要…… I'm so... Can I just-- One second. I just have to...
可能是我女儿的事。我…我很抱歉。 This could be about my daughter. I'm... I'm so sorry.
嗯… Um...
是的。听着，我不是莱丽的医生 Yeah. Look, look, I-- I'm not Riley's doctor
所以我不能说他到底发生了什么。 so I can't speak to what may or may not be going on with him.
我们只能谈谈你的感受 We can only talk about your feelings
关于你对莱丽的看法 about what you perceive is going on with Riley,
这就是为什么我相信药物可以。 which is why I do believe medication can be--
我没有察觉到它。 I'm not perceiving it.
这正在发生。 It is happening.
我感觉很糟糕。 And I feel awful about it.
好的,听着。 Okay, listen.
当你感到深深的恐慌时 When you're having these feelings of deep panic
在家和莱利在一起 at home with Riley,
把他放在婴儿床或婴儿车或安全的地方… just put him in his crib or carrier or somewhere safe...
…然后洗个澡。 ...and draw a bath.
深呼吸，直到你的心脏停止跳动， Just breathe until your heart isn't racing anymore,
出来穿好衣服， come out and get dressed,
重新开始新的一天…… start the day over again...
…穿上一些真正的衣服。 ...put on some real clothes.
你正在经历的这些感觉 These feelings that you're experiencing
他们是……它们非常、非常、非常可怕。 they are... they're very, very, very scary.
好吧?而且很黑。 Okay? And very dark.
这就是为什么你要继续前进。 And that's why you need to keep moving.
你需要继续前进。 You need to keep going.
你需要忙起来。 You need to be busy.
你不能沉浸在恐惧中 You can't sit inside the fear
和怀疑 and doubt
和阴暗面。 and scariness.
呼吸是一种神经系统的深层愈合， Breathwork is a deep healing in the nervous system,
. . . where we hold trauma and trapped emotions.
我们不能用言语来摆脱创伤 We can't talk our way out of trauma.
身体需要处理 The body needs to process
. 0身体内未处理的情绪。 . 1 unprocessed emotions within the body.
这就是呼吸如此强大的原因 And this is why breathwork is so powerful.
如果你在寻找更深层次的治疗方法 If you're looking for deeper ways of healing
，你正在寻找替代品， and you're searching for alternatives,
. . . don't wait any longer.
让我们连接并安排你的第一次呼吸练习 Let's connect and schedule your first breathwork session.
就在法官宣读奥尔特加的判决之前 Directly before the judge read Ortega her sentence,
她为她无法形容的罪行请求原谅 she begged for forgiveness for her unspeakable crime.
她说她很抱歉 She stated she was sorry
因为法官所说的“纯粹的邪恶” for what the judge had called, "Pure evil."
然后，她谈到了未经治疗的精神疾病是如何 She then spoke about how untreated mental illness...
他妈的。 Fuck.
法官没有被说服。 -妈的。 - The judge was not convinced. - Shit.
她将被判终身监禁 She will be serving life in prison
，没有假释的可能性，表示—— with no possibility of parole, saying that--
你不会相信我今天经历了什么。 You would not believe what I have been through today.
好吧，不知道你还记不记得 Okay, so, I don't know if you recall
但有一对绝对的达沃-伊万卡， but there was this pair of absolutely davoon-ianca,
戴沃恩，快拿皮手套 davoon, gorge leather gloves
我在真人秀上看到的 that I saw on The RealReal.
我早上醒来，被禁了。 I wake up this morning, banned.
被禁止的。是的。我知道。 Banned. Yeah. I know.
嘿，我的爱人！ CHARLES Hey, my love!
所以你一直在保持 So you been keeping up
吃东西，做所有正确的事情？ and eating, and doing all the right things?
是的，我今天吃了一些奶酪！ Yeah, I ate some cheese today!
-嗯。——<我>奶酪! -Mmm. -Cheese!
<我>,太棒了。我喜欢奶酪！ That's fantastic. I love cheese!
-爸爸，我能养只仓鼠吗？——没有。 - Daddy, can I get a hamster? - No.
我已经告诉过你了，你不能养仓鼠。 I already told you, you're not getting a hamster.
<我>不,不。这样吧，让我想想，好吗？ No, no. You know what, let's see, okay?
也许当我们回到公寓的时候 Maybe when we get back to the apartment...
不不不不不不。她不会养仓鼠的。 No, no, no, no, no. She's not getting a hamster.
爸爸，你什么时候回家？ Daddy, when are you coming home?
她不会养仓鼠的。 She's not getting a hamster.
什么，你在哪儿？我能听到奇怪的声音。 What, where are you? I can hear something weird.
<我>哦。是的,,。我在看比赛。 Oh. Yeah, that. I'm catching a game.
-游戏？<我> -是的。 - A game? - Yeah.
是啊，我们今天早上到的 Yeah, we got here this morning,
，这里有一支小联盟球队 and there's a minor league team here
我在我们去的那个岛上。它有点吵，所以… on the island where we go. It's a little loud, so...
为自己做事一定很不错吧。 Oh, it must be nice, huh, doing things for yourself.
-那是什么感觉？-嘿，嘿，嘿。 - What's that like? - Hey, hey, hey.
你想换个位置吗？ You wanna switch places?
你不知道我在跟什么打交道 You don't know what I'm dealing with here.
好吧，我要去坐着了 All right, I'll go sit on my ass...
爸爸!<我> -…一整天都在治疗… -Daddy! - ...all day in therapy...
<我>我很抱歉。哈哈。 I'm sorry. Ha-ha.
我的意思是，“坐在我屁股上”听别人发牢骚， I mean, "sit on my butt" listening to people whine,
，你可以控制这个fu—— and you can captain this fu--
<我>呃…这艘破船，好吗？ Uh... this stupid boat, okay?
听着，我可以在休息时间做一些事情 Listen, I'm allowed to do things on my time off.
我的天啊！ -休假？哦，好吧，嗯… - Jesus Christ! - Time off? Oh, okay, um...
爸爸得走了，我们得开车， Daddy has to go now, and, uh, we have to drive,
-跟爸爸说再见，好吗？<我>——没有。我没必要去！ - so say goodbye to Daddy, okay? - No. I don't have to go!
-看，他们在中间… -天哪。 - Look, they're in the middle... - Jesus.
我告诉过你，这是只啮齿动物， I told you, it's a rodent,
而且是我要照顾的东西。 and just something to look after for no reason.
求你别再问了 Please, please don't ask again,
别再问爸爸我已经拒绝的事了。 and don't ask Daddy things I already say no to.
但是妈妈，这不公平！ But Mommy, it's not fair!
斯普林医生说这周很重要。 Dr. Spring said this is a big week.
-她告诉你了吗？-是的。 - Did she tell you that? -Yeah.
我认为你能做到。 I think you can do it.
但我已经尽力了。 But I'm already doing it my best.
我知道，但你得做得更好一点 I know, but you have to do a little better
然后我们就可以摆脱这个东西了， then we can get rid of this thing,
一切都会好起来的。 and everything will be okay.
我会好起来的。 I'll be better.
好吧。嗯… Okay. Well...
…这不是我说了算的。 ...it's not up to me.
这取决于你。 It's up to you.
今晚我可以给你读什么书？ What book can I read you tonight?
我太累了。只是一首歌。 I'm too tired. Just a song.
好吧，哪首歌？ Okay, what song?
-那头死鲸。——好的。 - The dead whale one. - Okay.
>坐在早餐桌旁♬ ♪ Sit beside The breakfast table ♪
>想想你的烦恼 ♪ Think about your troubles ♪
>给自己倒杯茶 ♪ Pour yourselves A cup of tea ♪
♪ Think about the bubbles ♪
>你可以带走你的眼泪 ♪ You can take your teardrops ♪
>然后把它们放到茶杯里 ♪ And drop 'em in a teacup ♪
♬带他们去河边♬ ♪ Take 'em down To the riverside ♪
♬把它们扔到一边♬ ♪ And throw them Over the side ♪
♬被电流扫过♬ ♪ To be swept up by a current ♪
>然后被带到大海 ♪ Then taken to the ocean ♪
>被一些鱼吞下♬ ♪ To be swallowed by Some fishes ♪
>谁被一些鱼吃掉了 ♪ Who were eaten by Some fishes ♪
>被鲸鱼吞下了 ♪ And swallowed by a whale ♪
>谁已经这么老了 ♪ Who grew so old ♪
♬他分解了 ♪ He decomposed ♪
我并不是说我们都是机器人 I don't mean to say we're all robots,
但我想知道你是否已经长大了 but I wonder if you had been raised
我喜欢你母亲的教养方式 the way your mother had been raised.
我的意思是，她有一个刚刚离开的父亲 I mean, she had a father who just took off,
没有回家。 didn't come home.
然后，另一个男人进入了她母亲的生活 Then another man entered her mother's life,
她爱上了他，而他却离开了 and she became attached to him, and he bailed out.
我知道你在说什么 I know what you're saying.
我也有一样的。非常相似。 I did have that same one. Very similar.
<我>但是…好的，我的问题是 But... Okay, well, my question is
如果你像你母亲那样被抚养长大，你就会变得很好 if you had been raised as your mother had been raised
你认为你可能会 do you think you probably would've
b>是不是也打你的孩子？ knocked your kids around too?
看看你能抓到多少。 See how many you catch in your mouth.
好吧。 Okay.
好吧,打开。 Okay, open.
等待。嘘。 Wait. Shh.
他妈的。这个醉醺醺的婊子… Fuck. This fucking drunk bitch...
请把这个放在我的房间里。肯定在两点之前。 Put this on my room, please. It's definitely before 2:00.
我需要看一下你的身份证，女士。 I'm gonna need to see your ID, ma'am.
你从来没问过我这个问题。 You've never asked me that before.
女士，我需要看一下您的身份证。 Ma'am, I'm gonna need to see your ID.
你真的想让我走 You really want me to go
一路回到我的房间， all the way back up to my room,
拿我的身份证，然后大老远跑回来？ get my ID, and come all the way back down here?
这是规则。你不是只住在二楼吗？ It's the rule. Aren't you only on the second floor anyway?
这他妈什么时候成了规定？ When is this the fucking rule?
我每天晚上都在这里… I have been in here every single night...
也许我打开了规则手册 Maybe I cracked open the rulebook
然后发现了一些东西。 and found some shit out.
好吧，也许你应该找到我的身份证，就在… Well, maybe you should find my ID that's behind...
女士们，女士们，女士们…… Ladies, ladies, ladies...
-这是规定，女士！女士们! - It's the rule, ma'am! -Ladies!
——女士们!-我不回去！ - Ladies! - I'm not going back!
女士们，哇，哇！ Ladies, whoa, whoa!
-女士们，冷静点，兄弟-我他妈的很冷静。 - Ladies, calm it down, bro. -I'm fuckin' chill.
没那么深。 It's not that deep.
她对我狂叫。 She fucking barking at me.
用我的身份证就行了。 Just use my ID for it.
-我不能这么做。-为什么不呢? - I can't do that. -Why not?
我不能用你的身份证买她的酒。 I can't use your ID for her wine.
那这是我的酒，她只是付了钱。 Well then it's my wine, she's just paying for it.
她他妈的拿走了。 She fucking took it.
嘿! Hey!
怎么啦？ What?
顺便说一下，我叫杰米。 The name's Jamie, by the way.
有火吗？ Got a light?
我不感兴趣。 I'm not interested.
-用什么？-我需要一个人静一静。 - In what? - I need to be alone.
非常粗鲁。 Rude as hell.
你他妈说声谢谢就好了，小姐。 A motherfucking thank you would've been nice, miss.
我，呃，在酒店。 I'm, uh, at the hotel.
我在外面呼吸点新鲜空气。 I'm outside just getting some fresh air.
我不喜欢你把她一个人留在那里 I don't like it when you leave her there by herself,
甚至一秒钟。这是不安全的。 even for a second. It isn't safe.
我只是出去透透气。 I'm just outside for a minute getting some air.
那里的窗户打不开。 The windows don't open in there.
显然是为了阻止大家自杀。 To stop everyone from killing themselves, obviously.
<我>。是的，是的，是的， All right. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
但是如果她醒来，她很害怕，或者 but what if she wakes up and she's scared or--
她从来没醒过 Well, she never wakes up,
不管怎样，我现在有人在酒店。 and anyway, I have someone at the hotel now.
-保姆。<我>——真的吗? - A babysitter. - Really?
你从哪找的保姆？是谁？ Where'd you find a babysitter? Who is it?
他的名字叫詹姆斯。 His name's James.
他的名字是詹姆斯？他是个男保姆？ His name is James? He's a male babysitter?
你打电话就是为了说我是个坏妈妈吗？ Did you call just to call me a bad mother, or what?
你根本不知道不能出去是什么感觉 You have no idea what it's like not to be able to go outside
哪怕只有一分钟，独自一人。 even for a minute, by yourself.
你想什么时候出去就什么时候出去。 You can go outside whenever you want to.
你想去哪儿就去哪儿。 You can go wherever you want to.
机器根本停不下来… The machine doesn't fucking stop...
没有什么事可做 and there's nothing to do in--
嘿，我在这里拼命工作呢！ Hey, I am over here working my ass off!
我的天啊！今天去看棒球比赛的那个人是谁 Oh, my God! Who is the one who went to a baseball game today
是谁把她的包装满了500次， and who is the one who filled her bag with gloop 500 times,
看病人，接她， saw patients, picked her up,
不得不做晚餐，而她只得到20%的报酬， had to do dinner where she only got 20 percent,
然后我不得不试着去说服 and then had to try to convince--
我们能不要这样做吗？ Can we please not do this?
我得走了。 Look, I gotta go.
这里的信号很差。一切都很好。 The reception's really bad here. Everything's fine.
不，不，不。等等，等等，等等。你去参加聚会了吗 No, no, no. Wait, wait, wait. Did you go to the apart--
是。是。 Yes. Yes.
是的，是的，是的，是的，是的。 Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
这是洞的照片。 Here are pics of hole.
今天忘了寄了。 Forgot to send today.
我午饭的时候去的。 I went during lunch.
什么是电影…… What is movie...
…婴儿，僵尸，80年代，妈妈吃婴儿？ ...babies, zombies, '80s, mothers eating babies?
这是我发现的。 Here's what I found.
法庭重新开庭了 A court has reopened...
<我>…九周大的婴儿真的被一只澳洲野狗带走并杀死了 ...nine-week-old baby really was taken and killed by a dingo
24年前，梅丽尔·斯特里普扮演了这位澳大利亚母亲 24 years after Meryl Streep portrayed the Australian mother
. . . wrongly jailed for killing her child.
张伯伦一直坚持…… Chamberlain has always insisted...
怎么啦？ What?
妈妈? Mom?
喂? Hello?
醒醒，妈妈。叫醒......。好的。 Wake up, Mom. Wake up. Okay.
<我>妈妈。妈妈。听到了吗？ Mom. Mom. You hear us?
来吧，妈妈。振作起来。 Come on, Mom. Snap out of it.
如果你想知道这个如果你想知道那个♬ ♪ If you wanna know this If you wanna know that ♪
♬来我的糖屋吧♬ ♪ Come to my sugar shack ♪
嘿。你知道什么会超级好玩吗 Hey. Hey, you know what would be super fun
就像一个非常非常大的孩子会做的事情？ and like a really, really big kid type of thing to do?
我听不见你说什么。 I can't hear you.
我说，你知道什么会超级有趣吗 I said, you know what would be super fun
一个大孩子会做的事？ and a big kid type of thing to do?
怎么啦？ What?
如果我把你丢在门口 If I drop you in front of the door
你自己进去就行了。我的天啊。 and you just go in by yourself. Oh, my God.
-你真是太好了。——没有。 - That would be so cool of you. - No.
-为什么？-所有的妈妈都带你进去。 - Why not? - All the moms walk you in.
你是一位母亲。你得送我进去。你得帮我签到。 You're a mom. You have to walk me in. You have to sign me in.
伊娃!伊娃! Eva! Eva!
你今天能送她进去吗？求你了，求你了？ Can you walk her in today? Please, please, please?
我无法处理停车的问题。 I cannot deal with the parking.
当然可以。没有问题。 Of course. No problem.
-没问题。-谢谢。 - No problem. - Thank you.
好吧。令人兴奋的消息。你猜怎么着?你猜怎么着? Okay. Exciting news. Guess what? Guess what?
伊娃会送你进去的！走，走，走。 Eva will walk you in! Go, go, go.
我们走吧! Let's go!
-妈妈，艾迪吓到我了。-别这样。 - Mommy, Addie scares me. - Come on.
她只吃巧克力酱。我需要你！ She only eats Nutella. I need you!
-和你在一起！-亲爱的，拜托。给妈妈，好吗？ - To be with you! - Honey, please. For Mama, okay?
——好吗?好吗?-你是我妈妈。 - Please? Please? - You are my mom.
如果你愿意，我们今天就去看仓鼠。 We'll go look at hamsters today if you do it.
“看”他们？ "Look" at them?
我给你拿一个，好吗？那就去吧。走吧! I'll get you one, okay? Just go. Go!
好了,看到了吗?我爱你！我爱你，好吗？ Okay, see? I love you! I love you, okay?
一切都会…大便。 Everything's gonna be... Shit.
-嗨。-你好。 - Hi. -Hi.
狗屎!狗屎!狗屎! Shit! Shit! Shit!
我是最差的。我他妈是最烂的！ I'm the worst. I'm the fucking worst!
然后你告诉我，如果你碰一只雏鸟， And then you told me that if you touch a baby bird,
如果鸟妈妈知道你碰了它们，它们就不会回来了。 the mama bird will not come back if they know you touched them.
嗯。那一定是个梦。 Hm. That must have been some dream.
-你-我还没说完 - Do you-- - I'm not done.
你吻了我。 You kissed me.
我说，你吻了我。 I said, you kissed me.
是。我听到了。在你的梦里，我吻了你。 Yes. I heard you. In your dream, I kissed you.
是啊，然后第二天，我觉得… Yeah, and then the next day, I felt...
…破碎内疚。 ...crushing guilt.
我知道你丈夫 And I knew somehow that your husband
叫我混蛋。 had called me an asshole.
斯蒂芬，我们可以谈谈这些感觉 You know, Stephen, we can talk about these feelings
除了你的梦想。 apart from your dreams.
但是… But...
如果在我的梦里你总想吻我，我也没办法。 I can't help it if in my dreams you always want to kiss me.
有什么区别？ What's the difference
在她睡觉的时候跑到酒店外面 between going outside on hotel property when she's sleeping...
…一路回家？ ...and going all the way home?
在第一种情况下，我想我只是一个普通的妈妈 In one, I guess I'm just a regular mom
做了一个糟糕的选择， making a shitty choice,
另一方面，我是…我是一个… and in the other, I'm a... I'm a...
一个彻头彻尾的混蛋妈妈。 a straight up shitty mom.
这不是我的角色 Well, it's not my role
决定你是否应该…… to decide whether you should or whether you should not...
-那不是-不不不我不应该。 - That's not-- - No, no, no. I shouldn't.
我知道我不应该。 I know I shouldn't.
我一秒钟都不该离开她。 I shouldn't even leave her for a second.
我是说，这是你的职责。 I mean, it is your job to say.
告诉我不要这么做。 Just tell me not to do it.
告诉我该怎么做。 Just tell me what to do.
我觉得你不需要我告诉你该怎么做。 I don't think you want me to tell you what to do.
你知道该怎么做。 You know what to do.
没人会告诉我该怎么做。 No one will tell me what to do.
我应该知道怎么解决这个问题。 I'm supposed to know how to fix this.
我应该知道怎么治好她。 I'm supposed to know how to fix her.
你觉得你的工作是解决什么？ What is it you think it's your job to fix?
斯普林医生说，到下周，她的体重必须达到50磅。 She has to weigh 50 pounds by next week, Dr. Spring said.
也就是增加了2.5磅，对吧？ That's a gain of 2.5 pounds, right?
每天应该摄入2500卡路里 Each day's supposed to be 2,500 calories in
消耗了1800卡路里来补偿她的静息率。 compensating for her resting rate at 1,800 calories burned.
这是连续七天每餐至少80%的食物 That's gotta be at least 80% of each meal for seven days
再加上插管，这还是她整天躺着不动的情况。 plus the tube, and that's if she just lays still all day.
如果没有， And if it doesn't,
然后说不能把管子拔出来 then something about not getting the tube out
重新评估护理水平。 and reassessing the level of care.
-我该怎么办？——今晚…… - What do I do? - Tonight...
我希望你晚上睡个好觉。 I would like you to get a good night sleep.
我也想，但我在问你一件事。 So would I, but I'm asking you a thing.
一件实实在在的事，一个需要解决的问题，我需要你的帮助。 An actual thing, a problem to fix, and I need help with this.
难道我就应该干坐着看着她失败吗 Am I supposed to just sit around and watch her fail
这样就会一直持续下去吗？我该怎么办？ and this is just gonna go on forever? What do I do?
好吧。也就是说不能喝酒。 Okay. That means there's no drinking.
没有毒品。没有…… There's no drugs. There's no...
你在听我说话吗？！你能听到我吗？！ Are you listening to me?! Can you hear me?!
我在问你我该怎么做！ I'm asking you what I'm supposed to do!
你为什么不喜欢我？ Why don't you like me?
我为什么不喜欢你？ Why don't I like you?
我知道你不会回答我。算了吧。 I know you won't answer me. Just forget it.
这是非常不公平的。 That is incredibly unfair.
为什么现在这对你这么重要？ Why is this so important to you right now?
我只想有人告诉我该怎么做。 I just want someone to tell me what to do.
没人会告诉我。 No one will tell me.
我爱他，爱他，爱他。 I love him, I love him, I love him.
当我们回到家， When we get home,
他可以在那里过着幸福的生活。 he can live a happy life there.
我们会永远拥有他，永远，永远， And we're gonna have him forever, and ever, and ever,
永远，永远。 and ever, and ever.
我爱他。我要吻他，我要拥抱他。 I love him. I'm gonna kiss him, and I'm gonna hug him.
我的天啊。也许他应该叫S'mores。 Oh, my God. Maybe his name should be S'mores.
那真是太好了。 That's really nice.
我说了，别打开盒子。 I said, don't open the box.
我只是想见见他。他一直在抓挠。 I just wanna see him. He's been scratching.
他不喜欢被关在盒子里。 He doesn't like being in the box.
他想逃出去。 He's trying to get out.
你能把它闭上吗？保持关闭。 Can you hold it closed, please? And keep it closed.
他在抓我！他应该是爱我的。 He's scratching me! He's supposed to love me.
把盒子关上。 Close the box.
我不能。 I can't.
妈妈，他要出去了。 Mommy, he's getting out.
把它给我。把它递给我。 Just hand it to me. Hand it to me.
他会跳出来的。 He's gonna jump out.
-他恨我们。-给我。我看不见。 - He hates us. - Give it to me. I can't see.
把它给我。 Give it to me.
我想我们抓错仓鼠了。 I think we got the wrong hamster.
大便。 Shit.
噢!大便。 Ow! Shit.
-我们会死的。-不，我们不会死 - We're gonna die. - No, we're not gonna die,
但我得靠边停车。 but I have to pull over.
噢!狗屎! Ow! Shit!
-也许这不是S'mores。-我的天啊。 - Maybe this isn't S'mores. - Oh, my God.
-出去了。这是出去!大便。大便。-天啊… - It's out. It's out! Shit. Shit. - Oh, my...
妈妈。我的天啊。结果出来了。 Mommy. Oh, my God. It's out.
你为什么不把它放回去？ Why aren't you putting that back in?
把它放回去。 Just put it back in.
我的天啊。我的天啊。我的天啊。我的天啊！ Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God!
拜托!把他放回去！ Please! Put him back in!
我不想要。我不要他了。 I don't want it. I don't want him anymore.
他的坏。 He's bad.
好吧。好了，嘿嘿。 Okay. Okay, hey, hey, hey.
你很好。 You're fine.
你没事，我也没事，好吗？没有人受伤。 You're fine, and I'm fine, okay? Nobody is hurt.
让我们…… Let's...
把它带走！把它带走！ Take it with you! Take it with you!
-我马上回来。-会伤到我的！ - I'll be right back. - It's gonna hurt me!
我讨厌我的仓鼠！ I hate my hamster!
-嘿，伙计。你在干什么？-嘿，嘿，嘿 - Hey, man. What are you doing? - Hey, hey, hey.
哦。没受伤算你走运。 Oh. You're lucky there's no damage.
我们不需要交换信息。 We don't have to exchange information.
怎么啦？我孩子在那辆车里。你听到她在哭吗？ What? My kid is in that car. Do you hear her crying, huh?
你把她吓死了，你个混蛋。 You scared her to death, you dick.
嘿,妈妈。那只不过是轻轻一拍。 Hey, Mom. It was barely just a tap.
别他妈叫我妈咪。她以为我们会死。 Don't fucking call me Mommy. She thought we were gonna die.
别拿我孩子的安全开玩笑。嗯? Don't fuck with me about my child's safety. Huh?
-把你所有的信息都告诉我。-那是什么鬼东西？ - Give me all your information. - What the fuck is that?
- - - - - -什么? !- - - - - - !那! - What?! - That! That!
妈妈! Mommy!
哦。 Oh.
妈妈，发生什么事了？！妈妈! Mommy, what happened?! Mommy!
我爱你。我想你了。回来。 I love you. I miss you. Come back here.
一切都在掌控之中。 Everything is under control.
停止。 Stop.
你知道我爱你吗 Do you know that I love you
我觉得你是最棒的 and I think you're the best
为你所做的一切感到骄傲， and so proud of you for everything,
你可以做到，而且你几乎都好了。 and you can do it, and you're almost all better.
-你太棒了。-妈妈，别说了。 - You're so good. - Mommy, stop.
怎么啦？我停不下来。我只是太爱你了。 What? I can't stop. I just love you too much.
你闻起来像酒。 You smell like wine.
喂? Hello?
<我>你好,这是……卡洛琳。 Hi, it's... it's Caroline.
卡洛琳·普里姆，你的病人 Caroline Primm, your patient.
对不起，这么晚了 I'm sorry it's so late.
嗯…哦。这是紧急情况吗？ Um... Oh. Is this an emergency?
因为如果是紧急情况 Because, um, if this is an emergency,
你得挂电话，然后 you need to hang up and--
这不是紧急情况。我只是—— It's not an emergency. I just--
我昨天忘记给你打电话了 I forgot to call you yesterday.
怎么啦？ What?
好吧，你让我带莱利去散步 Well, you told me to take Riley for a walk
我洗了个澡，平静了下来 after I took a bath and calmed down
我做到了，我忘记给你打电话了 and I did it, and I forgot to call you--
哦。好吧,是的。嗯… Oh. Okay, yes. Um...
嗯，那很好，而且… Well, uh, that's good, and, um...
我，我觉得我应该告诉你这个号码 Uh, I-- I do feel though that I should tell you that this number
只有在紧急情况下才用，好吗？ is really for emergencies only, okay?
<我>哦。我很抱歉。我只是… Oh. I'm sorry. I just...
我只是睡不着觉，以为你在担心 I just couldn't sleep thinking that you were worried.
我并不担心。 I wasn't worried.
<我>你…你不是吗?你不是在想我吗？ You... You weren't? You weren't thinking about me?
我说你可以打电话给我，如果你… I said that you could call me if you...
我说过如果你不能冷静下来可以打电话给我 I said you could call me if you couldn't calm down
你不用打电话给我。 not that you had to call me.
但是,嗯…但你安全吗，卡罗琳 But, um... but are you safe, Caroline?
你是……? Are you...?
<我>…我很抱歉。我…我误解。 I'm... I'm sorry. I... I misunderstood.
是啊，我太笨了。嗯…是的，我很安全 Yeah, I'm so dumb. Um... Yes, I'm safe.
好吧。我们在治疗时再谈，好吗？ Okay. Well, let's talk about this in session, okay?
<我>我很抱歉。我显然打扰到你了 I'm sorry. I'm obviously bothering you.
这不是你的错… It is not your fault, uh...
我们下周见。 and I will-- I'll see you next week.
嗯，我明天可以来吗？ Well, can I come in tomorrow?
只是等到下周似乎时间太长了 It's just waiting until next week seems too long.
让我看看我的日程安排， Uh, well, let me check my schedule,
我会给你发短信的，好吗？ and I will text you a time, okay?
<我>好吧。嗯，我很抱歉—— Okay. Um, I'm sor--
你他妈的在跟我开玩笑吧！狗屎! You've gotta be fucking kidding me! Shit!
喂? Hello?
你好! Hello!
你好!有人在工作吗？ Hello! Is anyone here doing their job?
大便。 Shit.
需要帮忙吗？ Want some help with that?
我知道一个诀窍。有把刀。 I know a trick. Got a knife.
亲爱的? Sweetie?
小熊，开门。这是妈妈。 Little Bear, open up. It's Mommy.
小熊，开门。 Little Bear, open up.
她在做什么？ JAMIE What is she doing?
哇。哇,哇。 Whoa. Whoa, whoa.
-你他妈的有什么毛病？——什么?哇。 - What the fuck's your problem? - What? Whoa.
怎么，你对我着迷了还是怎么的？ What, you're obsessed with me or something?
你在说什么？别自作多情了。 What are you talking about? Don't flatter yourself.
那你为什么看着我？怎么啦？你想要什么？ Well, why are you looking at me? What? What do you want?
我不想让你一个人坐在外面。 I don't want you just sitting outside and by yourself.
可能会有个变态路过。 Some creep might walk past or something.
蠕变什么? What creep?
我他妈怎么知道，女士？ How the fuck do I know, lady?
这地方到处都是爬虫。 There's creeps all over this place.
-别叫我女士。-我的错，小姐。 - Don't call me lady. - My bad, miss.
别叫我小姐，别。只是不喜欢。 Don't call me miss. Don't. Just don't.
女士。 Ma'am.
<我>——夫人? -是的。 - Frau? - Yeah.
——渣。-我的天啊。 - Slag. - Oh, my God.
你的thottiness吗? Your thottiness?
家庭主妇? Housewife?
现在，我都不知道该怎么称呼你了。 At this point, I don't even know what to refer to you as.
我就叫你女性吧。 I'm gonna just call you female.
哟，疯裤子。 Yo, crazy pants.
我本来要上网的 I was gonna partake in surfing the web
一些我喜欢的事情 for some things that I'm into,
如果你明白我的意思，我只是说说而已， if you catch my drift, and I'm just putting it out there,
非常欢迎你加入。 you more than welcome to join.
没有压力。只是说。 No pressure. Just saying.
什么样的东西？ What kind of stuff?
这和暗网一样吗？ Is that like the dark web?
比如在哪里可以买到人和东西？ Like where you can buy people and stuff?
我不知道。从来没有买过一个人，所以… I don't know. Never bought a person, so...
但是你可以吗？还是卖一个？ But you could? Or sell one?
我是说，我想是的，但我不上暗网 I mean, I guess so, but I don't come on the dark web
找那种东西，所以… searching for that kind of shit, so...
上面不是有地方吗 Aren't there places on there
在那里人们会互相播放谋杀视频 where people, like, show each other videos of murders
他们关押的人呢？ and people they're holding captive?
我们能换个话题吗？我们去买药吧。 Can we change the subject? Let's buy drugs.
我们去买一些…… Let's get some...
…一些狗屎，对吧？来吧。你想要什么？ ...some shit, right? Come on. What do you want?
你喜欢什么？ What are you into?
我不知道。他们有没有…… I don't know. Do they have, like...
可卡因还是什么？ cocaine or something?
你上次吸可卡因是什么时候？ When was the last time you tried cocaine?
你是什么意思？这是一种很流行的药。 What do you mean? It's a very popular drug.
我喜欢它。 I like it.
好吧。我要去买莫莉，所以我们两个都要。 All right. Well, I'm getting molly, so we'll get both.
你看，问题是， See, the thing is,
我下周才发工资，所以我需要你替我。 I don't get paid till next week, so I need you to cover me.
哦。哦，我——不。 Oh. Oh, I'm-- No.
不,不。我知道是怎么回事了。 No, no. I see what this is about.
-你要去哪里？-我要回房间了。 - Where you going? - I'm going back to my room.
为了什么?你连钥匙都没有。 For what? You don't even have a key.
而且，你女儿昏倒了。 Besides, your daughter's passed out.
前台小姐现在肯定已经昏迷了。 Front desk lady's definitely in a coma by now.
冷静下来。过来坐下。我们订单。呀。 Calm down. Come sit down. Let's order. Jeez.
我想我可以用信用卡支付。 I could put it on my credit card, I guess.
怎么啦？否。 What? No.
400元，我可以用信用卡付。 The 400, I could put it on my credit card.
不,不。你看，这事不能追查到你身上。 No, no. See, man, it can't be traced back to you.
必须是匿名的。 It has to be anonymous.
那你怎么付这些钱呢？ Well, then how do you pay for the stuff?
好吧，我们能做的是 All right, what we could do is
我们可以马上去药房什么的 we could go to a pharmacy or something real quick
然后放在礼品卡上 and put it on one of those gift cards
或者你有比特币，或者加密货币，或者类似的东西？ or maybe you got bitcoin, or crypto, or some shit like that?
不，这些东西我都没有， No, I don't have any of that stuff,
而我却不能上车 and I can't get in a car
大半夜把我女儿一个人留在家里。 and leave my daughter alone in the middle of the night.
你总是把你女儿一个人留在家里。 You leave your daughter alone all the time.
不，我不。那只是我出外勤的时候。 No, I don't. That's just if I go in the field.
哈!我亲眼看到你把你女儿一个人留在家里 Ha! I literally seen you leave your daughter alone myself
我亲眼所见。 with my own two eyes.
-这次有什么问题？-你是什么？ - What's the problem this time? - What are you?
你在跟踪我吗？ You stalking me or something?
我是一个关心社会的公民。我是说，这需要一个村庄，对吧？ I'm a concerned citizen. I mean, takes a village, right?
怎么啦？ What?
亲爱的!亲爱的!这是妈妈! Sweetie! Sweetie! It's Mommy!
你把我锁在外面了。亲爱的! You locked me out. Sweetie!
亲爱的!开门！ Sweetie! Open the door!
小熊，开门！ Little Bear, open the door!
<我>妈妈… Mommy...
把机器转过来，把门打开！ Just wheel the machine over and open the door!
小熊! Little Bear!
开门！ Open the door!
我把自己锁在外面了！ I locked myself out!
这是妈妈!这是妈妈! It's Mom! It's Mommy!
<我>妈妈吗? Mommy?
你在吗？ Are you there?
我不知道我们怎么才能谈得上有用的东西 I'm not sure how we can talk about anything helpful
如果你连看都不看我的眼睛。 if you won't even look me in the eye.
是你让我额外治疗的。 You asked me for this extra session.
我不能。 I can't.
你一定很生我的气。 You must be so mad at me.
疯了吗?因为你打电话给我？ Mad? Oh, because you called me?
不，不，不。我没有生你的气。 No, no, no. I'm not mad at you.
让我们继续。好吗? Let's move on. Please?
你有个女儿。 You have a daughter.
你为什么不告诉我？ Why didn't you ever tell me?
这跟我无关。 Well, this isn't about me.
但现在我知道你知道了。 But now I know that you know.
你知道的。 You know.
我不知道。你得告诉我。 I don't know. You need to tell me.
这不是你的错。 It's not your fault.
但它是我的。 But it is mine.
好吧，你知道吗，卡洛琳我想也许是时候我们… Okay, you know, Caroline I think that it may be time that we...
嗯… um...
…我们和别人商量一下 ...that we consult with someone
给你开点药。 about some medication for you.
嗯，我不能吃药。我是母乳喂养。 Well, I can't take medication. I'm breastfeeding.
-你想让我杀了我的孩子吗？-当然不是。 - Do you want me to kill my baby? - Of course not.
我只是觉得如果医生认为这是有益的， I just think if a doctor thinks it could be beneficial,
那也许我们需要… then maybe we need to...
优先考虑你的…你的…健康优于母乳喂养。 prioritize your... your... health over breastfeeding.
就现在。 Just right now.
你知道，你得照顾好自己 You know, you need to take care of yourself
这样你就能照顾莱利了 so you can take care of Riley.
我得去趟洗手间。 I have to go to the bathroom.
我们只剩下15分钟了。 Um, well, we only have 15 minutes left.
我现在得走了。 I have to go now.
好吧，你能等到治疗结束吗？ Okay, well, can you wait till after the session?
没有? No?
哦……哦。 Oh... Oh.
大便。 Shit.
哦。好吧,好吧。好吧。 Oh. Okay, okay. Okay.
好吧。 Okay.
卡洛琳?打扰一下。 Caroline? Excuse me.
卡洛琳? Caroline?
没关系。 It's okay.
卡洛琳?打扰一下。卡洛琳? Caroline? Excuse me. Caroline?
我需要你帮我一下。我… I need you to help me out here. I...
好吧。我知道。我知道。 Okay. I know. I know.
卡洛琳? Caroline?
好吧。好吧。 Okay. Okay.
卡洛琳! Caroline!
是的。我知道。 Yeah. I know.
这是怎么回事？我在开会。 What is going on here? I'm in a session.
我的病人生了个孩子 So, my patient, she has this baby
她说她要去洗手间 and she said she was going to the bathroom
然后她把孩子留给我，我… and then she left the baby with me and I...
-她走了。现在我不能-我在照顾病人。 - She's gone. And now I can't-- - I'm with a patient.
拜托，我需要你的帮助。我真的需要你的帮助。 Please, I need your help. I really need your help.
我在照顾一个病人。 I'm with a patient.
另外，我不是你的上司。 Plus, also, I'm not your supervisor.
这是一个专业问题。这不是治疗的问题。 This is a professional issue. This is not a treatment issue.
你在开玩笑吗？这是紧急情况！ Are you joking? This is an emergency!
不管这里发生了什么 Whatever's happening in here
都没有我现在所经历的重要 is not as important as what I'm going through here!
-好吧，不。-我需要你的帮助！ - Okay, no. - I need your help!
——再见。-我需要你的帮助！ - Goodbye. - I need your help!
这是紧急情况 This is an emergency.
-你可以过会儿再来。-绝对不行。 - You can come back later. - Absolutely not.
不! No!
好吧。 Okay.
——<我>你好? -喂？ -Hello? - Hello?
你好。你好。是。 Hello. Hello. Yes.
你好，我是你妻子的心理医生… Hello, I am your wife's psychotherapist...
停，我不能… Stop, I can't...
她今天在预约中途离开了。 and she left today in the middle of her appointment.
我听不见你说什么。我听不见你说什么。你是谁？ I cannot hear you. I cannot hear you. Who is this?
好吧。是。我是你妻子的心理医生。 Okay. Yes. This is your wife's therapist.
她今天约了一半就走了。 She left in the middle of her appointment today...
-好的。你得停下来。 - And… - All right. You gotta stop. - And...
你得停下来了。我根本不知道你在说什么 You gotta stop. I have no idea what you're even talking about.
你是谁？ Who is this?
你妻子叫卡罗琳·普里姆吗？ Is your wife named Caroline Primm?
你是… And you are, um...
你孩子的名字叫莱利？你是尼克·普里姆？ Your baby's name is Riley? And you are Nick Primm?
<我>——是的。 -好的，是的，对的。嗯—— - Yes. - Okay, yes, right. Well--
我妻子没有心理医生 My wife doesn't have a therapist.
好吧，她一直是我的病人 Okay, well, she has been my patient
在蒙托克的心理艺术中心 at The Center for Psychological Arts in Montauk
因为她怀孕六个月了 since she was about six months pregnant
和莱丽在一起，今天… with Riley, and today...
嗯，这对我来说还是个新闻 Well, this is news to me.
嗯，不管…… Mm. Well, whether...
…你知道她是不是我的病人， ...you knew that she was my patient or not,
我想对你说的话 what I'm trying to say to you
事情很紧急，我真的… is that this is an emergency, and I really...
她把你的孩子留给了我， She left your baby here with me,
我需要你来接他 and I need you to come and pick him up.
你是什么意思？你是什么意思？ What do you mean? What do you mean?
你什么意思，我什么意思？ What do you mean, what do I mean?
她把孩子留下了？ She left the baby?
她不接电话… She's not answering her phone...
她可能在浴室里 She's probably in the bathroom
或他妈的自动售货机。 or by a fucking vending machine.
好吧。 Okay.
我建议你打电话给她。 I suggest that you call her.
如果是你，也许她会接电话。 Maybe she would pick up if it was you.
我把地址发给你，让你来接孩子。 I'm gonna text you my address to come and get the baby.
哦，上帝啊！ Oh, Jesus Christ!
我肯定她没事。我肯定她没事。 I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure she's okay.
我简直不敢相信这是真的 I cannot even believe this.
我肯定她没事。我相信—— I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure--
你知道吗？这是她的典型作风 You know what? This is so fucking typical of her.
好吧。她可能只是需要点空间。 Okay. Well, she probably just needed some space.
我会把我的地址发给你 I'm gonna text you my address where...
-这样你就可以来接她了。-好吧，听着。听我说。 - so you can come and get her. - Okay, look. Listen to me.
——他。-听我说。 - Him. - Listen to me.
我现在在工作。我现在在工作 I'm at work right now. I am at work right now.
这就是为什么她应该是 That's why she's supposed to be
照顾这个该死的孩子， taking care of the fucking baby,
，这样我就可以工作了？ so I can work, okay?
这是我要做的。我把我的地址发短信给你 Here's what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna text you my address.
我在amaganset . I'm in Amagansett.
你可以把孩子送到这个地址，好吗？ You can drop the baby off at this address, okay?
好吧，我不能那么做 Okay, well, I can't do that,
我很担心你的妻子 and I am actually very concerned about your wife.
这是紧急情况她 This is an emergency, and she--
你知道，这个词你已经用了两次了 You know, you've used that term twice now.
这不是我的紧急情况 This isn't my emergency.
我又不是那个失去我老婆的人！ I'm not the one who lost my fucking wife!
我需要你马上下来把你的孩子接过来 I need you to come down here and get your baby immediately,
如果你半小时内没来， and if you're not here within a half an hour,
我要叫警察了。我会把地址发短信给你。 I'm going to call the police. I will text you the address.
-非常感谢。-哦，上帝—— - Thank you very much. - Oh, Jesus--
——是吗?i bbb -嗨，我是Stephen - Yes? - Hi, it's Stephen.
我可以进来吗？ May I come in?
我在等一个病人。他刚嗡嗡地进来。 I'm expecting a patient. He just buzzed in.
你介意在我办公室等我吗 Would you mind waiting in my office
大厅那头等一下？ down the hall just a few moments?
你们的办公室在哪?你是谁，老板吗？ Your office? Who are you, the boss?
否。只是另一个心理医生。 No. Just another therapist.
我有一间办公室。就在大厅那头。 I have an office. It's down the hall.
门开着。你会看到的。 Door is open. You'll see it.
这是我的时间。她现在是我的了。 This is my time. She's mine right now.
你不能让我等，好吗？ You can't make me wait, okay?
这是紧急情况 This is an emergency situation.
你可以在我办公室等我 You can either wait in my office
不然你就得彻底离开这栋楼。 or you need to leave the building entirely.
那是个婴儿吗？ Is that a baby?
那是你的孩子吗？你有孩子了？ Is that your baby? You have a baby?
我是说，你们俩有孩子了吗？ I mean, do you guys have a baby together?
好了，这种情况与你无关，好吗？ Okay, this situation does not concern you, okay?
做一个选择。 Make a choice.
好的，我在你办公室等你。 Okay, I'll be in your office.
但我不会等那么久的。 But I won't wait that long.
好吧。 Okay.
哇。 Wow.
你能相信我是被说服的吗 Can you believe that I got talked into getting
这只该死的仓鼠？天啊，我… this fucking hamster after all of that? My God, I...
她是对的。我真的很有弹性。 She's right. I really am so stretchable.
-太恶心了。-你知道… - It's disgusting. - You know...
当我在医学院的时候 when I was in medical school,
我不得不在医学实验实验室做一段时间。 I had to do a stint in a medical experiments lab.
我们在老鼠身上测试一种药物的功效。 And we were testing the efficacy of a drug on rats.
哦,我……太酷了。 Oh, I... So cool.
它的工作方式是，我们把老鼠， And the way it worked is we'd take the rats,
然后把他们扔到断头台上， and we'd drop them in this guillotine thingy,
把他们的头一个个砍下来， chop their heads off individually,
把皮剥掉 peel the skin back
然后在显微镜下观察他们的大脑。 and then look at their brains under a microscope.
我只是很好奇 I'm just so curious
关于这个过程。我想知道, about the process with that. I wonder--
老鼠会抓你咬你…… The rats would claw and bite you...
…当你把手伸进笼子把它们捡起来的时候。 ...when you put your hand in the cage to pick them up.
所以他们给了我们这些钢锁子甲手套。 So they gave us these steel chain mail gloves.
他们是德国人。他们是美丽的。 They're German. They're beautiful.
所以你戴上手套，把手放进笼子里， So you put on the glove and you put your hand in the cage,
老鼠会把自己粘在手套上， and the rats would just attach themselves to the glove,
你知道吗？ clinging for dear life, you know?
当你走到断头台的时候， And then when you got to the guillotine box,
你必须摆脱它们。 you had to shake them off.
真正摇动它们。 Really shake them.
我总是担心老鼠会受伤 I was always worried that the rat would get hurt
当它的头撞到断头台上的时候，你知道吗？ when it hit its head on the guillotine, you know?
但他们的大脑一直都很好 But their brains were always fine
当我们在显微镜下观察时。 when we looked under the microscope.
哦。 Oh.
啮齿动物是适应力强的动物。 Rodents are resilient creatures.
嗯嗯。是的。 Mm-hm. Yeah.
我会告诉斯蒂芬你的治疗取消了。 I'll tell Stephen your session's cancelled.
你得处理好这件事，好吗？ You have to take care of this, okay?
我爱你。 I love you.
告诉我，她有自杀倾向吗？杀人的吗? Just tell me, was she suicidal? Homicidal?
否。毫米毫米。否。 No. Mm-mm. No.
不，她一心只想保护孩子 No, she was obsessed with protecting the baby...
嗯，是的。 And, uh, yeah.
她不会伤害孩子的。 She wouldn't hurt the baby.
她也没有谈论自杀。 And she didn't talk about suicide.
她不会抛弃莱利。 She wouldn't abandon Riley.
她真的抛弃了他。 She just did abandon him.
好吧，你知道，我是说… Right, well, you know, I mean, um...
你知道，永远。直到永远。 you know, permanently. Forever.
就是这样吗？我还有一个病人在等 Is that it? I have another patient waiting
谁真的需要我的帮助。 who really needs my help.
它很好。它比你想象的更普遍。 It's fine. It's more common than you think.
女人试图逃避所有的责任。 A woman tries to run away from all the responsibilities.
-是的。-每个人都很沮丧 - Yeah. - Everybody gets all upset,
然后它们夹着尾巴回来了。 then they come back with their tails between their legs.
好吧。好吧。 Okay. Okay.
谢谢你，警官。 Thank you, Officer.
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嗨。你好, Hi. Hi,
这是,呃…还是我， it's, uh... it's me again,
你在阿尔冈昆22号的房客，1单元。 your tenant from 22 Algonquin, unit one.
就是天花板上有个大洞的那个！ You know, the one with the giant fucking hole in the ceiling!
修理你的人跑了，情况越来越糟 Your repairs guy ran off, and it's getting worse
我想知道你为什么什么都不做 and I want to know why you're doing nothing,
为什么你很高兴我和我女儿能留下来 and why you're happy for my daughter and I to be staying
在一个满是怪胎的廉价旅馆里 at a flophouse full of freaks
而我还要继续付你房租！ while I continue to pay you rent!
我有一个非常非常非常重要的病人 And I have a very, very, very important patient
他是一位杰出的律师，我不怕 that is a prominent lawyer, and I am not afraid to--
他妈的! Fuck!
我想买几张Visa礼品卡。 I was after some Visa gift cards.
你们有什么面值的？ Uh, what denominations do you have?
在孩子们出来之前，你有时间谈谈吗？ Do you have a minute to talk before the children come out?
-嗯嗯。确定。-好吧，来吧。 - Mm-hm. Sure. - Okay, come.
我注意到你还没有预约 So, I've noticed that you still haven't made the appointment
就像我们那天早上讨论的那样。 for family therapy like we discussed the other morning.
我知道。只是工作太忙了。 I know. It's just been so crazy at work.
正确的。所以我再怎么强调也不为过这有多重要。 Right. So I can't stress to you enough how important this is.
我站在你这边。 I'm on your side here.
是。是。是的，我明白。 Yes. Yes. Yes, I understand.
我们得把她从机器上拿下来。 We need her off the machine.
是啊，我也是。 Yeah, so do I.
好吧。我要坦率地说。 Okay. I'm gonna be frank.
我们得让她尽快离开好让她留在这里。 We need her off of it as soon as possible for her to remain here.
要做到这一点，她需要长得更快。 And to do that, she needs to gain faster.
好吧。但我们下周才结束，对吧？ Okay. Well, but we have until next week, right?
- 50磅的目标。——没有。 - The 50 pound goal. - No.
照目前的情况来看，她不可能实现那个目标。 The way things are going, uh, she's not gonna make that goal.
你在说什么？ What are you saying?
我们每天早上都称体重。她进不了球门。 We do weigh-ins every morning. She's not gonna make the goal.
因为你设定的目标是不可能实现的。 Because the goal you set was impossible.
我们注定要失败。 We were set up to fail.
-这不现实。——没有。 - It's unrealistic. - No.
我们得重新评估护理水平了。 We're gonna have to reassess the level of care.
这是什么意思？ What does that mean?
好吧，我们可以在会议上讨论。 Well, we can discuss it in our meeting.
你知道我喜欢什么，觉得什么很好吗， You know what I would love, and think would be so good,
我们能否在日程表上找到手术的日期。 is if we could get a date on the calendar for the surgery.
一个我们都可以为之努力的具体目标。 A concrete goal that we can all work towards.
这不是……这不是手术。 It's not... it's not a surgery.
拔管？嗯,嗯…程序，随便你怎么叫它。 The tube removal? Well, uh... procedure, whatever you call it.
这也不是一个程序。 It's not a procedure either.
该拔的时候，医生就会把它拔出来。 Uh, when it's time to remove it, the doctor just pulls it out.
把它拔出来？ Pull it out?
是的，它会滑出来。 Yeah, it just slides out.
他们可以……真的只是把它拔出来吗？ They could just... really just pull it out?
是的，就是这么简单。 Yeah, it's that simple.
哦。但是这个洞发生了什么呢？ Oh. But what happens to the hole?
它会自动关闭。 It closes up on its own.
哦。 Oh.
这有点像你舌头上的伤口。 It's kinda like when you get a cut on your tongue.
它想要关闭。 It wants to close up.
哦。 Oh.
是吗? Yeah?
噢,嗨。詹姆斯在吗？ Oh, hi. Uh, is James here?
你是谁？ Who are you?
我是他的邻居。我在那里，在那个房间里。 I'm his neighbor. I'm there, in that room there.
他不在这儿。 He is not here.
你知道他什么时候回来吗？ Oh, uh, do you know when he'll be back?
我只是有东西要给他。 I just have something to give him.
把它给我。 Give it to me.
-我会让他得到的。-不，不。 - I'll see he gets it. - No, no.
我得亲自给他。这是,呃… I have to give it to him myself. It's, uh...
它是有价值的。 It's of value.
有价值的吗? Of value?
嗯,是的。的价值。 Uh, yeah. Of value.
放松你的身体。 Relax your body.
. . . Center in with yourself.
现在，你唯一要做的就是呼吸 Right now, your only job is to breathe.
我们在这个的工作阶段… We're in the work phase of this...
你现在越放松你的身体 The more you relax your body right now...
<我>…这对你来说越容易。 ...the easier it gets for you.
认识到我们正在进入身体的智慧区 Recognize we're accessing the body's wisdom zone.
放开你的思绪 Let your mind go.
看看你是否能找到你的注意力 See if you can find your attention
在你的呼吸运动中 within the movement of your breath.
<我>开始注意到 Start noticing
你身体的任何感觉… any sensation in your body...
<我>…看看什么吸引了你的兴趣 ...and see what catches your interest
或你的好奇心， or your curiosity,
. . . and hold the space in a way you want to be held.
你可能会注意到 You'll probably notice
。 any intensity builds up in your body.
<我>没关系。 That's okay.
而不是试图控制任何东西， Rather than trying to control anything,
看看你能不能允许… see if you can just allow...
the intensity to...
你在帮倒忙！ You're not helping!
那样抱着她的腿。按住她的腿。 Hold her legs that way. Hold her legs down.
我们可能得约束一下她 We might have to restrain her.
——<我>妈妈! -按住她！ -Mom! -Hold her down!
你是来帮我们的，加油！ You're here to help us, come on!
这一点用都没有。 That's not helping at all.
<我>妈妈! Mommy!
试着帮帮我。 Try to help. Try to help.
<我>妈妈! Mommy!
让你自己有安全感 Make yourself feel safe.
如果事情变得激烈， If things are getting intense,
. . . recognize you can hold the space.
你现在就可以爱你自己 You can love yourself right now.
不要避免任何东西在里面。不要自暴自弃 Don't avoid anything within. Don't abandon yourself.
与自己保持联系。 Stay connected to yourself.
看看你是否能尊重自己 See if you can honor yourself
在这一刻重新连接你自己。 in this moment of reconnecting to yourself.
用你的声音，想象你的情绪 Use your voice and imagine your emotion.
Allow it to be...
也许你今晚就能做到。 Maybe you can even do it tonight.
下来。这种方式。 Down here. This way.
它在这里。在这里。 It's in here. Here.
好吧，我们得快点，因为我得回去，但是… Okay, we gotta be quick because I have to get back, but...
我只是…我只是想让别人看看这里发生了什么。 I just... I just had to show someone what's going on in here.
好吧。 Okay.
所以，房间里到处都是塑料布。 So, a room filled with plastic tarp everywhere.
好了。 Nice.
这是你的杀人室吗？ So, is this your kill room?
否。来吧，我告诉过你。 No. Come on, I told you.
该死的天花板掉下来了。 The fucking ceiling fell down.
那是什么鬼东西？ What the fuck is that?
就是这样。就是这个洞。 That's it. That's the hole.
所以我才在酒店。 That's why I'm at the hotel.
所以你才住在酒店里？ That's why you're staying at the fucking hotel?
我的天啊。来吧。 Oh, my God. Come on.
你可以在沙发上睡上几个星期。 You could've slept on your couch for a couple of weeks.
怎么啦？看看它。 What? Look at it.
已经两个月了，他们还拒绝修理。 It's been two months, and they refuse to fix it.
有灰尘，还有……到处都是霉菌。 There's dust and... and mold everywhere.
毫米。 Mm.
嘿，那上面是什么？ Yo, what is up there?
他们一直在翻新。 They've been renovating forever.
-他们说水管破裂了。-该死。 - They said a pipe burst. - Oh, shit.
就在那儿。好了。 It's right there. There you go.
我做了…那。你知道的，呼吸的事。 I did the... that... you know, the thing, the breath thing.
怎么啦？ What?
我想它把我带到了这里。 And I think it took me here.
-我想也许我…-天啊… - I think maybe I... - Oh, man...
这就是我想来看它的原因。 That's why I wanted to come to see it.
伙计，你需要指导才行。 Man, you need guidance with that shit.
你不能这么做。 You can't just be doing that.
-你在干什么？-他们骗了你，老姐 - What are you doing? - Man, they lied to you, sis.
这里连管道都没有。 It ain't even no pipes in here.
也许你不该太靠近它。 Maybe you shouldn't get so close to it.
嘘。看。来看看。 Shh. Look. Come see.
这是一次彻底的决裂。我告诉你。 It's a clean break. I'm telling you.
我的天啊。 Oh, my God.
我的天啊。搞什么鬼？ Oh, my God. What the fuck?
伙计，我表哥克雷格是个总承包商。 Man, my cousin Craig is a general contractor.
他认识的人认识的人可以 He knows somebody that knows somebody that can
-快点把这东西修好，你。-我的天啊。 - fix this shit in a jiffy, yo. - Oh, my God.
看起来你有一些 It look like you got some
你家具上的垃圾。 motherfucking debris on your furniture.
你知道，我可以给它重新上色。 You know, I can reupholster it.
这会让你付出代价的。 It's gonna cost you.
让我走！ Let me go!
别碰我！ Don't touch me!
妈妈!妈妈!我不想要！ Mommy! Mommy! I don't want it!
-你做得很好。-不! - You are doing such a good job. -No!
不!妈妈! No! Mommy!
你得把她抱得更紧些。 You gotta hold her a lot harder than that.
不!不! No! No!
搞什么鬼？！哦,狗屎! What the fuck?! Oh, shit!
哦,他妈的!他妈的!他妈的! Oh, fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
他妈的!哦,他妈的! Fuck! Oh, fuck!
詹姆斯? James?
啊!他妈的!他妈的! Ah! Fuck! Fuck!
他妈的! Fuck!
哦,他妈的! Oh, fuck!
每个人都解决。好吧? Everybody settle. All right?
开始。请把这些发一下。 Get started. Hand out these, please.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
好吧。 All right.
所以今天的话题是非常基本的 So the topic today is something that's so fundamental
说这个其实有点傻。 that it's actually a little silly to talk about.
但这对孩子的康复非常重要， But it is so important to your child's recovery,
更重要的是， and more than that,
为你帮助孩子康复的能力干杯。 to your ability to help your child recover.
有人能猜到是什么吗？ Can anybody guess what it is?
怪…… Blame...
-…,有人知道吗?羞愧。 - ...and, anybody? -Shame.
好的，谢谢。 Yeah, thank you.
所以，作为父母，很多时候 So, as parents, a lot of times
我们太关注自己了，对吧？ we look too closely at ourselves, right?
我们开始问自己，这是我的错吗？ And we start to ask ourselves, is this my fault?
我还能做些什么不同的事吗？ Could I have done anything differently?
如果这样呢？如果那样呢？ What if this? What if that?
但它所做的只是制造了一个思维陷阱。 But all it does is create a thinking trap.
这对你的孩子没有帮助。 And that does not help your child.
所以我想做的是，如果我们看… So what I'd like to do, if we look...
媚兰…… Melanie...
你想用语言来表达你的感受吗？ do you want to put some words to your feelings?
是的。 Yeah.
我… I...
有时候，我只是觉得这都是我的错。 Sometimes, I just think that it is all my fault.
你有什么话要对梅兰妮说吗？ Do you have something to say to Melanie?
否。哇,没有。 No. Whoa, no.
不要紧。别介意我。 Never mind. Don't mind me.
不，不，不。我想听听你要说什么。 No, no, no. I want to hear what you have to say.
嗯… Uh...
我只是，你一直说这不是我们的错。 I just-- You keep telling us that it isn't our fault.
-是的。-嗯，但是…但事实的确如此。 -Yeah. - Mm. But... but it is.
原谅我吗? Excuse me?
如果不是我们的错，那我们就完蛋了。 I mean, if it isn't our fault, then we're really super fucked.
我们只是在假装 We're just walking around pretending
我们有能力改变一些事情 we have power to change something
我们甚至不明白，因为这不是我们的错， that we don't even understand because it's not our fault,
但我们知道如何改变它，尽管这不是我们的错。 but we know how to change it, even though it's not our fault.
不，这其实很好。 No, this is actually good.
这其实很好，因为现在我们有很多东西要打开。 This is actually good because now we have a lot to unpack.
不，不，不。我知道。 No, no, no. I know.
我做不到。我得走了。 I can't do this. I have to go.
-请坐。-不不不是我们的错。 - Please sit down. - No, no, no. It's our fault.
这不公平，但这是我们的错。 It isn't fair, but it is our fault.
这就是我的看法。就是这样。 That's how I see it. That's it.
整件事就是这样，是我们的错。 That's what this whole thing is, is our faults.
-停下来坐下。-不不不 - Stop and sit down. - No, no, no.
不，我不想谈这个。 No, I don't want to talk about it.
我已经知道了，我不需要见你 I already know it, and I don't have to meet you
因为我知道你要说什么 because I know what you're going to say,
-那就是她失败了…-我要你坐下！ - which is that she's failed... - I need you to sit down!
…我失败是因为你让我们失败 ...and that I failed because you set us up to fail.
如果他们有安全网，就不会努力工作。 No one tries hard if they have a safety net.
-坐下。-没人，好吗？ - Sit down. - Nobody, okay?
你应该知道，斯普林医生。 And you should know that, Dr. Spring.
我的下半辈子都要在这里度过了 I'm gonna be here for the rest of my life
往管子里倒屎。 pouring shit down that tube.
-每天晚上直到我死。-别离开那扇门！ - Every night until I die. - Do not leave that door!
这对我们俩都没好处。都没有。 And none of this is helping any of us. None of it.
回来! Come back!
<我>嘿!嘿，你打电话来干什么？ Hey! Hey, why are you calling?
现在不是有一个父组在进行吗？ Isn't a parent group going on right now?
我不能坐在那里。我在车里。 I couldn't sit there. I'm in the car.
我一会儿去接她，但我不能呆在那儿 I'll pick her up later, but I can't stay there.
你说你不能坐在那儿是什么意思？ What do you mean you couldn't sit there?
我不能这么做。我做不到。 I can't do it. I can't do it.
她会好起来的，但她不可能达到目标 She's gotta get better, but she's not gonna make the goal,
我不知道接下来会发生什么。 and I-- I don't know what's gonna happen now.
你需要回到那里。 You need to get back in there.
这个洞越来越大了。 The hole is getting bigger.
<我>是什么洞?她的管孔？ What hole? Her tube hole?
——不!不，是公寓洞！-你告诉过我—— - No! No, the apartment hole! - You told me--
那个该死的洞！ The goddamn hole!
你为什么就不能盯紧那些家伙呢？ Why can't you just keep tabs on those guys?
因为他已经离开一周了。 Because the guy's gone for a week.
没有人在做这件事。 There's no one working on it.
<我>什么? !一个星期?你打算什么时候说？ What?! A week?! When were you gonna mention that?
我现在告诉你。 I'm telling you now.
在电话里解释很复杂。 It's very complicated to explain over the phone.
看，看，看。不，不，不。 Look, look, look. No, no, no.
<我>, Just-- just
-给我发照片… -不！ - send me pictures... - No!
<我>…我会派人来处理的。 ...and I'll have somebody take care of it.
不，不，不。不要再拍照了。我不会再回去了。 No, no, no. No more pictures. I'm not going back there.
我再也不回去了。我跟罗斯科谈过了 I'm never going back there. And I talked to Roscoe...
你在说什么？ -…他满口胡言。 - What are you talking about? - ...and he's so full of shit.
他什么都没做。顺便说一下， He's not doing anything. And by the way,
我觉得他和汽车旅馆有协议因为还有另一个 I think he has a deal with the motel because there's another--
<我>好吧。停，停，停，好吗？让我把事情搞清楚。 Okay. Stop, stop, stop, okay? Let me just get this straight.
你不再进入程序了， You aren't going into the program anymore,
我明白了，你再也不进我们的公寓了？ and you aren't going into our apartment anymore?
-没错。<我>——为什么? - That's right. - Why?
你怎么能指望一切恢复正常呢？ How do you expect anything to get back to normal then?
它不会。 It won't.
你在说什么呀？ What are you talking about?!
它不会! It won't!
<我>。你… All right. Are you...
你现在脑子正常吗？你说完了吗？ are you in your right mind now? Are you done?
还有，有个女人失踪了。 Also, there's a woman missing.
<我> ?谁?你在…缺少了谁吗? What? Who? What are you... Who's missing?
我的病人。她的失踪。 My patient. She's missing.
她走了，也不接电话，她 She left and she's not picking up her phone, and she's--
<我>哦,好的。好吧。是的，让我们深呼吸。 Oh, okay. Okay. Yeah, let's take a deep breath.
-从头开始。 -不，不，不。 - Start from the beginning. - No, no, no.
我不能跟你说这个。 I can't talk to you about this.
你为什么不回到小组里去？ Why aren't you going back into the group?
我回头再跟我的心理医生谈谈。我——这 I'll just talk to my therapist later. I-- This--
这很好。一切都很好。 This is fine. Everything's fine.
<我>嘿,嘿。慢下来。慢下来。 Hey, hey. Slow down. Slow down.
一切都很好。 Everything's fine.
你一周见那家伙几次？ How many times a week do you see that guy?
我刚查了一下银行账户。多长时间—— I just looked in the bank accounts. How often--
-每天都是。每一天。每天？！来吧! - Every day. Every day. - Every day?! Come on!
-等等。等一等。等一等。那要花我们一大笔钱！ - Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. - That's costing us a fortune!
不要闲坐在车里。请把车或你自己挪开。 No sitting idle in vehicles. Please move the car or yourself.
我有权利坐在我的车里不被你骚扰！ I have a right to sit in my car without you harassing me!
-什么 -是的。 - What - Yeah.
你在和谁说话吗？ Are you talking to somebody?
是的，有个令人毛骨悚然的混蛋 Yeah, there's this creepy asshole
他每天都在骚扰我！ who's harassing me every fucking day!
他骚扰我。他迷上了我。 He harasses me. He's obsessed with me.
他回到我窗前想要什么！ He's back at my window wanting something!
你在说什么？ What are you talking about?
你要离开停车场吗 Are you going to leave the parking lot
不然就给我滚下车！ or get out of your car!
我的天啊！你是认真的吗？ Oh, my God! Are you serious?
-我要叫警察！-我的天啊！对，对，对。 - I will call the police! - Oh, my God! Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-报警。——移动! - Call the police. - Move!
报警。我要叫警察来抓你！ Call the police. Yeah, I'm gonna call the police on you!
我再也不想在这里见到你！ I never want to see you here again!
我的天啊！ Oh, my God!
你在骚扰——这是骚扰！ You're harass-- This is harassment!
现在有什么特别的事让你保持沉默吗？ Anything in particular keeping you silent right now?
我想保持沉默的事实让我保持沉默。 The fact that I want to be silent is keeping me silent.
-我觉得-这不关你的事 - I think-- - This isn't about you.
我的意思是我—— What I mean is I--
我是说，我付你时间的钱。 I mean, I pay for your time.
对吧?所以我可以用这段时间做任何我想做的事， Right? So I can do anything I want with that time,
而现在…… and right now...
我只想躺在这里，不听你说话。 I just want to lay here without you talking.
好吧，你没必要为了这个而来。 Well, you did not have to come here for that.
去你自己的沙发上躺着吧。 Go lie on your own couch.
你希望我躺在自己的沙发上，而不是来这里吗？ Do you wish I lied on my own couch instead of coming here?
我想说的是你选择了不孤单。 All I'm saying is you chose not to be alone.
哦，我一个人。 Oh, I'm alone.
不，你不是一个人。我在这里。 No, you're not alone. I'm here.
但不，你不是。不是真的。 But no, you aren't. Not really.
-我们能做什么-我们能别这样吗 - What we can do-- - Can we just not?
认真对待。 Seriously.
好吧。 Okay.
你知道吗？ Do you know what?
我以前告诉过你我怀孕了吗？ Did I ever tell you that I was pregnant before?
比如，我怀过两次孕。 Like, I've been pregnant twice.
我从没告诉过任何人。 I never tell anyone this.
那是我和查尔斯第一次约会的时候，嗯…… It was when Charles and I were first dating and, um...
我马上就堕胎了，就像… I got an abortion right away, like...
我做了验孕棒 I took a pregnancy test
然后第二天就随便去了一家诊所。 and then just went to a random clinic the next day.
我买了外科手术用的那种吸尘器。 I got the surgical kind with the vacuum thing.
和它…… And it...
疼得很厉害，就像…… hurt really badly, like...
一位护士握着我的手。 A nurse held my hand.
出于某种原因， And for some reason,
我没有意识到会这么疼，但是…… I didn't realize how badly it would hurt but...
…确实如此。 ...it really did.
是啊，差不多20年前的事了。 Yeah, it was almost 20 years ago.
要不是我做了那件事，我现在已经有个孩子上大学了。 I'd have a kid in college by now if I hadn't done that.
也许我处理错了。 Maybe I got rid of the wrong one.
你为什么什么都不说？ Why won't you say anything?
我不能呼吸了。 I can't breathe.
你不明白。你看不出来。 You don't get it. You don't see.
你……你总是说我不懂。 You... you love to tell me I don't get it.
你觉得我不明白什么？ What is it you think I don't get?
你怎么这么肯定… What is it you're so sure...
有什么需要我帮忙的吗？ I can't help you with?
我是那种不应该做妈妈的人。 I'm one of those people that's not supposed to be a mom.
我不是妈妈。我不是。 I'm not a mom. I'm not.
这不应该是这样的。 This isn't supposed to be what it's like.
不是这样的。不可能是这个。 This isn't it. This can't be it.
你能说点什么吗？！ Will you say something?!
不是每个人都能做到的。我不能…… Not everyone can do it. I can't...
你有孩子吗？ Do you have any kids?
你有孩子吗？ Do you have a kid!?
你好! Hello!
你为什么不跟我说话？！你为什么不帮我？！ Why won't you talk to me?! Why won't you help me?!
我知道你在做什么… I know what you're doing...
…我不能接受 ...and I can't have it.
我在做什么？ What am I doing?
这行不通。 This isn't working.
你是什么意思？ What do you mean?
我们不能再见面了。 We can't see each other anymore.
我来的很早。 I got here early.
你得在外面等着。 You'll have to wait outside.
<我>哦,看, Uh, look,
我不知道你为什么不接电话 I don't know why you aren't answering your cell,
但是斯普林博士打电话来了—— but Dr. Spring called and--
我是春大夫。我是春大夫 It's Dr. Spring.
你不能带你女儿来这里接受进一步治疗 You cannot bring your daughter here for further treatment
，直到—— until we have--
你太过分了，你知道吗？ You are too much, you know?
<我>你是…我要—— You are... I'm gonna--
嘿，谢谢你来报到 Hey, thanks for checking in.
如果你忘了， In case you forgot,
我的妻子碰巧还是失踪了。</i bbb my wife still happens to be fucking missing.
你知道，我不知道什么样的数—— You know, I don't know what kind of number--
搞什么鬼？ What the fuck?
<我>你… You...
你提到了《圣经》中的一句格言 You mentioned an aphorism from the Bible
我想要一个磨石。你能说说那是什么吗？ about a millstone. Would you say what that is?
你最好在脖子上系一块石头 That it's better to tie a stone around your neck
，然后把自己扔进海里 and throw yourself into the sea
. . . than to cause anyone to stumble-- stumble.
好，让我确保我得到了， All right, let me make sure I'm getting that.
你最好在脖子上系个大磨石 It's better to tie a millstone around your neck
我把自己扔进海里而不是去做什么？ and throw yourself in the sea rather than to do what?
使某人跌倒。跌倒。 Cause someone to stumble. Stumble.
使某人跌倒？好的。 To cause someone to stumble? Okay.
你在那里想要完成什么 What were you trying to accomplish there
你是什么时候杀了你的孩子的？ when you did take your children's lives?
…所有女性，所有Z世代的人都这么想。 ...all women, all Gen Z group think.
你是怎么想的？ Like, what are your thoughts?
然后呢? And?
喂? Hello?
是的。嗯嗯。嗯嗯。 Yeah. Mm-hm. Mm-hm.
嗯嗯。 Mm-hm.
这简直不可思议，对吧？ That is totally unbelievable, right?
这完全令人难以置信。所有的一切。 That's completely unbelievable. All of it.
但斯普林医生说-我不管她说什么 -But Dr. Spring said-- - I don't care what she said.
我告诉你， I'm telling you,
我工作上有急事，不能待在这里。 I had a work emergency and I couldn't stay.
我不得不离开。这不是我的错。 I had to leave. It isn't my fault.
我本该回来接你的，却直接回来了 I came right back to pick you up when I was supposed to
就像我一直做的那样。我只是，我只是 like I always do. I just-- I just--
我只是不能留在小组里，但是，你知道的… I just couldn't stay for the group, but, you know...
我治疗过很多病重的人， I work with a lot of very sick people,
-亲爱的，有时他们比我还恶心？ - honey, and sometimes they are-- -Sicker than me?
病得跟你不一样。 Sick in a different way than you.
-但斯普林医生说-我告诉过你 - But Dr. Spring said-- - I told you,
我不在乎她说什么。 I don't care what she said.
我是你妈妈。 I'm your mother.
不过她爱我。她是这么说的。 She loves me though. She said so.
她这么说的？ She said that?
她爱我们所有人。孩子们。 She loves all of us. The kids.
她没有权利告诉你这些。她是个医生。 She has no right to tell you that. She's a doctor.
-她没有权利-但这是真的 - She doesn't have a right-- - It's true, though!
我觉得我们不再需要这个项目了。 You know, I don't think we need the program anymore.
-我好点了？-是的。我想可能吧。 - I'm better? - Yeah. I think maybe, yeah.
也许我们… Maybe we...
我们就这么做，你和我。 we just do it, you and me.
会发生什么？ What would happen?
嗯…这么多美妙的事情。你会…… Uh... So many wonderful things. You would...
你可以把管子拔出来， You'd be able to get the tube out,
你可以回学校去 and you could go back to school
你会吃遍世界上所有好吃的东西。 and you'd be eating everything delicious in the whole word.
那不是很好吗？ Wouldn't that be great?
你能做到吗？ You can do that?
做什么? Do what?
让我好起来？我不需要这台机器了？ Make me better? I won't need the machine?
嗯… Well...
我好吗?他们这么说的？ I'm better? They said that?
我想，也许吧。 I think, maybe.
你知道，然后… You know, and...
如果不行，那我们就照做，明白吗？ And if not, then we'll just do it, you know?
你比以前更好了 You're better than you were,
斯普林医生又不是我们的老板 and Dr. Spring's not the boss of us.
妈妈吗? Mommy?
是吗? Yeah?
我真的很抱歉，但我并没有好转。 I'm really sorry, but I'm not better.
请不要因为我说了那些话而生气或伤心。 Please don't be mad or sad that I said that.
喂? Hello?
这里有人 There's someone here
谁要在大厅见你 who wants to see you in the lobby.
怎么啦？谁? What? Who?
<我>不会说。要么下来，要么不下来。 Won't say. Come down or don't.
谢谢你来看我。 Thanks for checking on me.
说实话，你不会相信我今天过得有多好。 Oh, you would not believe the day I had, honestly.
在你丢下我一个人之后， After you just left me all alone,
被遗弃在你的鬼屋里 abandoned in your spooky-ass apartment,
我的骨头从腿上伸出来。 with my bone sticking out my leg.
我给你叫了救护车。 I called you an ambulance.
没什么大不了的。 No big deal.
你还想让我怎么做？ What else did you expect me to do?
真的很痛。 It's really painful.
我得回到我孩子身边，好吗？ I had to get back here to my kid, okay?
他妈的年度最佳母亲。我差点忘了。 Mother of the fucking year. I almost forgot.
我也不在乎。 I don't care.
我到底该怎么做 And what exactly am I supposed to do
用你那块可卡因？ with your brick of cocaine?
-冲吧——好的。 - Flush it. - Okay.
那一定很不错。 It must be nice.
他们为什么不给你拐杖？ Why didn't they give you any crutches?
去他的拐杖。 Fuck them crutches.
这是……是你！ It's... It is you!
你，你在这里。 You-- you're here.
希望你不介意。 I hope that's okay.
有一次我不小心跟踪了你，然后… I accidentally followed you this one time, and...
你住在这里？ You live here?
是……你还好吗？ Are... are you okay?
-我没事。——好的。好吧。 - I'm okay. - Okay. Okay.
你去哪儿了？ Where did you go?
我只是…我，我必须离开那里。 I just... I-- I had to get out of there.
-好吧，我明白了。那我们。-是吗？ - Okay, I understand. So, let's-- - Do you?
你真的，真的明白吗？ Do you really, really understand?
我想是的。 I think so.
哦,狗屎。否。这是…… Oh, shit. No. This is...
这是一个错误。 This is a mistake.
这是个错误，因为我以为… This is a mistake because I thought...
我以为你能理解 I thought that you understood,
我甚至不需要说—— and that I wouldn't even have to say--
让我们冷静下来。 Let's calm down.
我觉得我们现在应该做的是上车 I think what we should do is get in a car right now
然后直接去急诊室 and go straight to the emergency room.
一个医院吗? A hospital?
——是的。——为什么?为什么? - Yes. - Why? Why?
因为那是一个安全的地方…… Because it's just a safe place to go...
为什么?为什么?不，我很好。 Why? Why? No, I'm fine.
…如果你还没准备好回家。 ...if you don't feel ready to go home.
那你女儿呢？ Well, what about your daughter?
-我女儿？-你女儿在哪儿？ - My daughter? - Where is your daughter?
她在楼上。她在睡觉。 She's upstairs. She's sleeping.
我不想去医院。 I don't want to go to a hospital.
好吧。 Okay.
我要你帮我。 I want you to help me.
我正在努力。 I'm trying to.
-我是想帮你。-请帮帮我。 - I am trying to help you. - Please help me.
不，不，因为你不明白。 No, no, because you don't understand.
你看不见。所有人的脸。 You don't see it. All of their faces.
他们的小脸。他们看着我们， Their little faces. They look at us,
——那里什么也没有。-好了，你得冷静下来。 - and there is nothing there. - Okay, you need to calm down.
——不!不!-你需要冷静。 - No! No! - You need to calm down.
不，我很好！好吧? No, I am fine! Okay?
-但我需要你…-我们深呼吸。 - But I just need you... - Let's just breathe.
-不，但你不知道…-深呼吸。 - No, but you don't know... - Just breathe.
进进出出，卡罗琳。 In and out, Caroline.
深呼吸。 Just take a breath.
-跟我一起呼吸。——停止。 - Just breathe with me. - Stop.
从呼吸开始。 Just start with a breath.
卡洛琳,等等! Caroline, wait!
停! Stop!
卡洛琳! Caroline!
治疗师如果是紧急情况， THERAPIST If this is an emergency,
. . hang up and call 911.
. . . Otherwise, call back during normal business hours.
好吧，给我回电话。 Okay, call me back.
今晚给我回电话好吗？ Call me back tonight, okay?
好吗?求你了，你说过你能帮我的。 Please? Please, you said that you could help me.
请。求你了，回我电话，好吗？ Please. Please, just call me back, okay?
我需要你。再见。 I need you. Bye.
妈妈吗? Mommy?
回去睡觉吧。一切都好吧。 Go back to sleep. Everything's okay.
我的肚子湿了。 My tummy is wet.
Sh-sh-sh。没关系。我让它变好了，好吗？ Sh-sh-sh. It's okay. I made it better, okay?
回去睡觉吧。 Go back to sleep.
喂? Hello?
哦! Oh!
你为什么在这里？ Why are you here?
你还好吗？ Are you okay?
哪里…… Where...
你什么时候来的？你为什么在这里？ When did you get here? Why are you here?
她在哪里？ Where is she?
她是睡着了。 She's asleep.
-和保姆一起？——是的。 - With the babysitter? - Yes.
我只是… Look, I just...
我无法思考。我不能正常工作。 I couldn't think. I couldn't function.
我什么也做不了。 I couldn't do anything.
我一直在想你， All I was doing was thinking about you,
还有她，还有公寓 and her, and the apartment
所以我不得不回来。我很害怕。 so I had to come back. I was scared.
-我想帮忙。-等等，等等，等等。等等,我—— - I wanted to help. - Wait, wait, wait. Wait, I--
怎么啦？你只需要知道怎么跟这些人说话。 What? You just gotta know how to talk to these guys.
这是所有。 That's all.
你看到那个洞了吗？你看到了吗？ Did you look at it, the hole? Did you see it?
你看到什么了吗？ Did you see anything?
哦,是的。不，它…它不是固定的。 Oh, yeah. No, it, uh... It was not fixed.
现在它是固定的。 Now it's fixed.
好吧。好吧，我觉得我们应该…我们现在就走吧。 Okay. Okay, I think we should just... Let's just go now.
我只是不明白事情怎么会变得这么糟。 I just don't see how it got so bad.
怎么会变得这么糟？ How did it get so bad?
你是想怪我吗？ Are you trying to blame me?
不，我不是在责怪你。我只是… No, I'm not blaming you. I just...
我只想离开这里。 I just want to get out of here.
-那是个大洞。-我想离开这里。 - It was a huge hole. - I want to get out of here.
你爱我吗？ Do you love me?
是的。 Yeah.
-嘿，嘿。等等，等等，等等。——什么? - Hey, hey. Wait, wait, wait. - What?
急什么呢？ What's the rush?
是你急着赶回来的。 You were the one who was in a rush to get back here.
我不想再待在这里了。 I don't want to be here anymore.
我们在这里，好吗？ We are here, all right?
让我们代替保姆吧。我累坏了。 Let's relieve the babysitter. I'm exhausted.
我想睡觉， I want to get to sleep,
我很高兴见到她，即使她在睡觉。 and I'm excited to see her even if she's sleeping.
我知道，但你还是下楼吧 I know, but why don't you go downstairs
给我们拿点酒什么的 and get us some wine or something
我可以代替保姆 and I can relieve the sitter
然后你可以回来，然后我们可以… and then you can come back up and then we can...
这是怎么呢？这是怎么呢？ What's going on? What's going on?
什么也没发生。 There's nothing going on.
打开门。 Open the door.
——我吗?-我没有钥匙。 - Me? - I don't have a key.
对,是的。好吧。 Right, yeah. Okay.
哦,上帝。别告诉我你把她留在这里了 Oh, God. Don't tell me you left her here
-没有钥匙。来吧。-不不不否。 - without having a key. Come on. - No, no, no. No.
当然，我有钥匙。你以为我是什么？ Of course, I have a key. What do you think I am?
嘿。我是她爸爸。我是查尔斯。 Hey. I'm her dad. I'm Charles.
见到你很高兴。你一定是保姆。 Nice to meet you. You must be the babysitter.
——保姆?-是啊，詹姆斯，对吧？ - Babysitter? - Yeah, James, right?
-杰米，没错。-哦，谢谢你… - Jamie, right. - Oh, thank you for...
哦，不。 Oh, hell no.
我才不要跟你干这事。 I'm not doing this shit with you, yo.
不做什么？你在说什么？ Not doing what? What are you talking about?
我他妈不是保姆，伙计。 I'm not a fucking babysitter, dude.
原谅我吗? Excuse me?
你女儿醒了，哭了起来，吓得要命。 Your daughter woke up and was crying, scared shitless.
所以我不停地敲门直到她终于开门。 So I pounded on the fucking door till she finally opened it.
我不得不告诉她我是你妻子的朋友。 I had to tell her I was a friend of your wife.
兄弟，我花了好长时间才哄她睡觉。 Bro, it took me forever to get her to go to sleep.
顺便说一句，我还得给她贴个创可贴。 And by the way, I had to give her a Band-Aid.
她胃里有什么东西在渗出。 She has some shit oozing from her stomach or something.
嘿。好吧，好吧，等等。等一等。 Hey. Okay, okay, hold on. Hold on.
-听着，你他妈是谁…-小心腿，伙计。 - Listen, who the fuck are you... - Watch the leg, man.
…你在我房间里做什么？ ...and what the hell are you doing in my room?
-你的房间？-是的。这是我妻子。 - Your room? - Yeah. This is my wife.
那是我的孩子。 That's my child.
妈妈吗?-我的房间。 -Mommy? - My room.
我他妈刚告诉你我是谁， I just fucking told you who I was,
你得问问你妻子为什么我腿上打了石膏。 and you need to ask your wife why I got this cast on my leg.
-我不…-这家伙是谁？ -It's-- I don't... - Who is this guy?
-他是保姆。-他不是保姆！ - He's the babysitter. - He's not the babysitter!
他刚告诉我他不是保姆。 He just told me he's not the babysitter.
我不知道他在说什么。 I don't know what he's talking about.
-他他妈是谁？-她醒了。 - Who the fuck is he? - She's awake.
我们能进去吗？ Can we just go inside?
她能听到你说的一切。 She can hear everything you're saying.
你能解释一下为什么她的机器关机了吗 Can you even explain to me why her machine is off
管子在她身体外吗？ and the tube is outside of her body?
爸爸!你在吗？ Daddy! Are you out there?
-我跟这事没关系，伙计。-来看我！ - I ain't in this shit, man. -Come see me!
-我们进去吧。——爸爸!爸爸! -Let's go inside. - Daddy! Daddy!
嘿。嘿。看。是的,你好。 Hey. Hey. Lookit. Yes, hi.
爸爸回来了! Daddy's home!
妈妈说我们不再需要这个项目了。 Mom said we didn't need the program anymore.
哦，我的天啊。看看你！你是美丽的。 Oh, my gosh. Look at you! You're beautiful.
但我不相信她，因为斯普林医生说我相信她。 But I didn't believe her because Dr. Spring said I do.
-但她是对的！——什么?你在说什么？ - But look, she was right! - What? What are you saying?
——看!没有管!——什么? - Look! No tube! - What?
管子现在是垃圾。 The tube is garbage now.
我可以回学校了！ I can go back to school!
我的天啊。 Oh, my God.
-我的天啊。-但是爸爸… - Oh, my God. - But Daddy...
我还是不想吃东西…… I still don't want to eat food...
什么…… What...
-…因为它太软了。发生什么事了？ - ...because it's too squishy. -What's going on?
明天你带我去操场好吗？ Will you take me to the playground tomorrow?
你做了什么？ What did you do?
你做了什么？！ What did you do?!
妈妈! Mommy!
别碰我！ Don't touch me!
<我>妈妈! Mommy!
妈妈，我在这里 Mommy, I'm here.
<我>妈妈,谢谢! Mommy, please!
<我>妈妈! Mommy!
<我>请! Please!
>坐在早餐桌旁♬ ♪ Sit beside The breakfast table ♪
>想想你的烦恼 ♪ Think about your troubles ♪
>给自己倒杯茶 ♪ Pour yourself a cup of tea ♪
♬然后想想泡泡♬ ♪ Then think about The bubbles ♪
妈妈吗? Mommy?
我会好起来的。我保证。 I'll be better. I promise.
我会好起来的。 I'll be better.
>坐在早餐桌旁♬ ♪ Sit beside The breakfast table ♪
>想想你的烦恼 ♪ Think about your troubles ♪
>给自己倒杯茶 ♪ Pour yourself a cup of tea ♪
♪ Then think About the bubbles ♪
>你可以带走你的眼泪 ♪ You can take your teardrops ♪
♬把它们放在茶杯里 ♪ Drop them in a teacup ♪
♬带他们去河边♬ ♪ Take them down To the riverside ♪
♬把它们扔到一边♬ ♪ And throw them Over the side ♪
♬被电流扫过♬ ♪ To be swept up by a current ♪
>然后被带到大海 ♪ Then taken to the ocean ♪
>被一些鱼吃了 ♪ To be eaten by some fishes ♪
>谁被一些鱼吃掉了 ♪ Who were eaten by Some fishes ♪
>被鲸鱼吞了 ♪ Swallowed by a whale ♪
>谁已经这么老了 ♪ Who grew so old ♪
♬他分解了 ♪ He decomposed ♪
♬嘟-嘟♬ ♪ Doo-doo ♪
♬他死了，离开了他的身体♬ ♪ He died and left his body ♪
♪ To the bottom of the ocean ♪
♬现在大家都知道了 ♪ Now everybody knows ♪
♪ That when a body decomposes ♪
♬基本元素 ♪ The basic elements ♪
♪ Are given back to the ocean ♪
♬大海做了它该做的事 ♪ And the sea does What it oughta ♪
♬很快就会有咸水♬ ♪ And soon There's salty water ♪
不太适合喝酒 ♪ Not too good for drinking ♪
>因为它尝起来就像一滴眼泪 ♪ 'Cause it tastes Just like a teardrop ♪
♬所以他们运行它通过一个过滤器 ♪ So they run it Through a filter ♪
从水龙头出来 ♪ It comes out from a faucet ♪
>然后倒进茶壶 ♪ And it pours into a teapot ♪
♪ Which is just about To bubble ♪
♬现在♬ ♪ Now ♪
>想想你的烦恼 ♪ Think about your troubles ♪