第五幕：天堂 我在天堂 ACT FIVE : Heaven, I'm in Heaven
制作人：王浩成 校订人：王浩成 后期：在往事中呐喊
她在靠近 - 你在說 她是 - She's approaching - What are you...? She is?
謙遜讓我羞於解釋 可我確實知道 Modesty forbids me explaining exactly how I know
我有一個絕對正確的晴雨表 測量她的遠近 現在 它在升起 I have an infallible barometer of Her proximity. And it's rising
哦 瞎說 - 她上路了 - Oh, nonsense, mafs... - She's on her way
打開燈 打開燈 Turn the lights back on. turn the lights...
我 我 我 我回來了 先知 沒遵照計劃 I I I I have returned. Prophet. and not according to plan
收回去 你的書 不管你傳給我什麼 我不是它的倉庫 我拒絕！ Take it back. Your Book. whatever you left in me. I won't be its repository. I reject it
幫我離開這 幫我！ Help me out here. Help me!I
我不 我不 這是夢 這是夢 I don't, I don't... This is a dream！it's a dream
都這時候了 說這些有什麼用... - 我不知道該 - I don't think that's really the point right at this particular moment... - I don't know what to...
你出的主意 拒絕幻象 你說 - 是的 可我以為是個比喻... - Well it was your idea. reject the vision. you said - Yes but I thought it was more a metaphorical...
你說聖經有過先例 你說...我該怎麼辦 You said scriptural precedent. you said... What am I supposed to do?
跟她摔跤 - 幹嗎 - You wrestle her - Say what'!
這是一個天使 你抓住她 說 容我想想 等一下 It's an angel. you just grab hold and say... Oh what was it. wait. wait
抓住她 說 '你要是不祝福我 我就不讓你走！' Grab her, say, 'l will not let thee go except thou bless me'
然後呢 - 然後跟她摔跤 直到她屈服 - And then what? - Then wrestle with her till she gives in
你跟她摔跤 我可不會摔跤…… You wrestle her, i dont know how to wrestle……
你要是不祝福我 我就不讓你走 I will not let thee go except thou bless me
收回你的書 Take back your Book
拒絕遷移 太弱智了 我不相信 就沒有更好的出路 Anti-migration. that's so feeble. I can't believe... you couldn't do better than that
釋放我！解救我！祝福我 然後我會讓你走 Free me! Unfetter me! Bless me or whatever, but I will be let go
我 我 我 我是美國天使 我 我 我 我是猛禽 我不妥協！ I I I I am the continental principality of America. I I I I am the bird of prey. I will not be compelled
入口已經打開 請將聖典歸還天堂 Entrance has been gained. Return the text to Heaven
我能回來嗎 除非我能回來 不然 你佔了上風 先知 你來選擇！ - Can I come back? I don't want to go unless... - You have prevailed. Prophet. You choose
現在放開我 我大腿的肌肉折了一塊 Now release me. I have torn a muscle in my thigh
有什麼大不了 我的腿疼了幾個月了 Big deal. my leg's been hurting for months
幹嗎！幹嗎！你跟我沒關係！ What! What'! You've got no business with me
我沒有召喚你 你是他的熱夜之夢 不是我的 他走了 你也該走了！ I didn't call you, you're his fever dream not mine, and he's gone now and you should go, too
我馬上就醒過來了 I am waking up right now
身體是靈魂的花園 The body is the garden of the soul
哦 是你 我的假想朋友 Oh, it's you. My imaginary friend
你死了嗎 - 我們在哪 - Are you dead? - Where are we?
天堂 - 天堂 我在天堂 但我並沒死 - Heaven - Heaven? I'm in Heaven? But I'm not dead
我們剛做完愛 然後他就走了 我喝了一大杯水和兩片安定 We just had sex, and then he had to leave. I drank an enormous glass of water and two Valiums
六片 也許我服用過量 像瑪麗蓮·夢露那樣 Or six. Maybe, I'm overdosed, like Marilyn Monroe
你死了嗎 - 沒有 我有公事 - Did you die? - No, I'm here on business
我可以重回人間 如果我想 - 你想嗎 - I can return to the world. If I want to - Do you?
我不知道 - 是吧 - I don't know - I know
天堂令人沮喪 到處都是死人什麼的 但生活... Heaven is depressing, full of dead people and all, but life...
要優雅面對失去 這是關鍵 儘管這不可能 你能做的 就只能是撒手 To face loss with grace is key, I think, but it's impossible. All you ever do is lose and lose
但是抓著不放手 人就毀了 - 世事艱難哪 留下來陪我 - But not letting go deforms you so - The world's too hard. Stay here with me
我不能 我感覺很糟 卻充滿了前所未有的活力 I can't. I feel like shit but I've never felt more alive
我終於發現了摩門教能量的秘密 I've finally found the secret of all that Mormon energy
絕望 這就是人們遷移和建設的原因 Devastation. That's what makes people migrate, build things
絕望的人 失去愛的人 才這麼做 Devastated people do it, people who have lost love
我覺得上帝並不愛他的子民 就像喬不愛我那樣 Because I don't think God loves His people any more than Joe loved me
牽繫已經切斷 他們走了 蹂躪 斷腸 自由 The string was cut. and off they went. Ravaged. heartbroken. and free
現在我要回家了 我希望你能回來 I have to go home now. I hope you come back
看這個地方 你能想像在這永恆下去嗎 Look at the place. Can you imagine spending eternity here?
這裏本就該像舊金山 It's supposed to look like San Francisco
但是人間的舊金山 美麗到無以言表 Oh but the real San Francisco on earth Is unspeakably beautiful
無以言表的美麗 這我倒想看看呢 Unspeakable beauty. that's something I would like to see
再見 Good-bye
致敬 先知 我們一直在等你 Greetings. Prophet. We have been waiting for you
趕緊！ Hurry
哦 我的天啊 我的天啊 太不可思議了！羅伊·科恩！ Oh my God, oh my God. This is too weird for words, it's Roy Cohn
叫人毛骨悚然 我討厭醫院 - 別抱怨了 我們行動要快 - It's so creepy here. I hate hospitals - Stop whining. We have to move fast
如果情況有變 我得叫值班護士 情況已經有變 I'm supposed to call the duty nurse if his condition changes. And it's changed
摘掉眼鏡 你看上去很滑稽 Take off those glasses. you look ridiculous
你怎麼了 What happened to you?
贖罪 為我的罪過 Expiation. For my sins
我幹嗎來了 - 為你的罪過贖罪 - What am I doing here? - Expiation for your sins
我自己帶不走這些東西 我必須告訴他們他已經死了 還要填寫表格 I can't take the stuff out myself. I have to tell them he's dead and fill out all the forms
我不想他們沒收藥品 And I don't want them confiscating the medicine
我需要有人幫我搬運 所以我叫你來- 為什麼是我 你恨我 - I needed a packmule, so I called you - Why me? You hate me
我需要一個猶太人 第一個想到你- 你什麼意思 需要一個猶太人 - I needed a Jew. You were the first to come to mind - What do you mean you needed a Jew?
我們要感謝他 給我們藥 - 感謝他 - We're going to thank him. For the pills. - Thank him?
你們猶太人給死人的悼詞叫什麼 What do you call the Jewish prayer for the dead?
卡迪什 - 就是這個 說對了！ - The Kaddish - That's the one. Hit it
哇哦 等一等 Whoah. hold on
趕緊 他們很快就來查房 他... - 我不幹 不行！ - Do it. do it. they'll be in here to check and he... - I'm not. Fuck no
為他 沒門！藥物 可以 當然 沒問題！ For him? No fucking way! The drugs OK, sure, fine
為他臨終祈禱 門都沒有 我住斯克內克塔迪的新政左翼父母 But no fucking way am I praying for him. My New Deal Pinko parents in Schenectady...
永遠不會原諒我 他們已經非常失望了 ...would never forgive me. they're already so disappointed
'他是個基佬 他是個臨時工 現在 還為羅伊·科恩念臨終祈禱' 'He's a fag, he's an office temp, and now look, he's saying Kaddish for Roy Cohn'
我不敢相信你竟給他做祈禱 - 路易斯 我甚至會為你祈禱 - I can't believe you'd actually pray for... - Louis. I'd even pray for you
他是一個混賬東西 死得很慘 也許女王可以原諒被她擊敗的敵人 He was a terrible person. He died a hard death. So maybe a queen can forgive her vanquished foe
這並不容易 容易的話 就不算回事了 寬恕 是最難的事情 It isn't easy. it doesn't count if it's easy. It's the hardest thing. Forgiveness
寬恕 愛和正義沒準最終在這交集 Which is maybe where love and justice finally meet
至少是和解 這不是臨終祈禱的目的嗎 Peace. at least. Isn't that what the Kaddish asks for?
哦 這要希伯來語或亞拉姆語 誰知道祈禱的是什麼 Oh it's Hebrew or Aramaic or something, who knows what it's asking
我32歲了 從未見過死屍 I'm thirty-two years old and I've never seen a dead body before
它好沉重 好小 It's so heavy, and small
臨終祈禱 我知道的不比你多 伯利茲 我是一個非常世俗的猶太人 I know probably less of the Kaddish than you do. Belize. I'm an intensely secular Jew
我甚至都沒有施行受誡禮 - 盡你所能吧 - I didn't even Bar Mitzvah - Do the best you can
願 他的聖名 高貴而神聖 'Yisgadal ve`yiskadash sh'mey rabo sh`mey de kidshoh,
Boray pre hagoffen 不 這是祈福式 不是臨終祈禱 Boray pre hagoffen. No. that's the Kiddush. not the Kaddish
Shema YIsroel adonai 好愚啊 伯利茲 我說不出來 Um... Shema YIsroel adonai..." This is silly, Belize, I can't
憑 他的意志 創造世界! - 願 他建立自己的王國 B`olmo deevro vhitoodry ve`yamlich malchusey
憑 他的意志 創造世界! - 願 他建立自己的王國 B`olmo deevro chiroosey ve`yamlich malchusey
生生世世 日日夜夜, 生生世世 我們的家園 以色列！ Bechayeychon uv`yomechechon uvchayey d`chol beys Yisroel
速矣！迅矣！齊念「阿門」！願 他的聖名 得主保佑！ Ba'agolo uvizman koriv... Ve'imroo omain. Yehey sh`mey rabo m'vorach
永遠 已至永恆！得主保佑 得主讚美！ L`olam ulolmey olmayoh. Yisborach ve`yishtabach...
受以榮耀 受以高貴 受以讚美 受以尊敬 受以崇拜 受以頌揚, 榮耀歸於聖主 ve`yispoar ve`yismman ve`iysnasey ve`yis`hadar ve`YissalIeh ve`YishalIol sh'mey dekudsho
保佑 即我主 超越一切保佑, Berich hoo le`eylo min kol birchoso veshiroso...
受以讚美 受以寬慰 訴之天下 齊念「阿門」！ Tushb`choso venechemoso, daameeron b`olmo ve`imroo omain
願 天降和平, 至你 至我 至以色列 齊念阿門！ Y`he sh`lonm rabbo min st`mayo V`chayim olenu V`al kol Yisroel, V`imru omain
願 聖居和平 降和平至人民 至以色列！ Oseh shalom bimromov hu ya-aseh shalom olenu V`al col Yisroel
齊念「阿門」！ - 齊念「阿門」！ V'imru omain - V'imru omain
你個婊子養的！ - 你個婊子養的！ - You sonofabitch - You sonofabitch
謝謝你 路易斯 你做得很好 Thank you. Louis. You did fine
很好 你在說什麼很好 這簡直他媽的就是奇跡 Fine? What are you talking about. fine? That was fucking miraculous
我回來了 哈珀 I'm back. Harper?
- 你在這裏做什麼 - 我死了 沒關係 - What are you doing here? - Dead Joe. Doesn't matter
不 不 你騙了我 你說是癌癥 你說... No, no. You lied to me. You said cancer, you said...
你可以看報紙 艾滋病 我不想讓你誤會 You could have read it in the papers. AIDS. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression
你打了人 心情很糟 - 我希望你 - You feel bad that you beat somebody - I want you to...
他罪有應得 - 不 他不是 - He deserved it - No he didn't
每個人都罪有應得 每個人都該好好暴打一次 Everybody does. Everybody could use a good beating
不不 那是...羅伊 你趕緊走吧 你真的嚇到我了 出去 你不屬於這 No. no. that's... I want you leave go Roy. you're really frightening me. Get out. You don't belong here
我不該那麼對他 我傷害了他 我把他打流血了 他不願意再見我 He didn't deserve what I did to him. I hurt him, Roy. I made him bleed. He won't ever see me again
哦不 哦不 我為什麼這麼做 我幹了什麼 我為什麼這麼做 Oh no. oh no. What did I do that for? What did I do? What did I do that for ?
我現在該怎麼辦 Tell me what should i do now?
我以為 我做了我該做的事 我以為我做對了 像你那樣... I thought I was doing what I was supposed to do, I thought I'd find my way, the way you did...
認識到事情的本質 認識到世界的本質 ...to the heart of the things, to the heart of the world
我以為我自己很安全 躲藏在…… I imagined myself safe there, in the hollow of...
但我無著無落的 擁有了這個世界 又能怎麼樣呢 But I'm above nothing. I'm of the world. Whatever that means
不管上帝怎麼看這個世界 他肯定以相同的方式看我 Whatever God thinks of the world, I think He must think the same of me
告訴我現在該怎麼辦 Tell me what`d I do now
我是個騙子 我撒了謊 我從沒有告訴過你 你叫我害怕 I'm a liar. I lied. I never told you how much you frighten me, Roy
我不瞎 但我裝作看不見 我什麼都知道 知道你是什麼樣的人 I'm not blind, not blind as I tried to be. I've always seen, known what you are
我不是那樣的人 我不像你 但我撒謊了！我撒謊了！ And I am not like that. I am not like you. But I've lied and I lied and I lied
學著懂點事吧 寶貝喬 不要融入這個世界 Show me a little of what you've learned, baby Joe. Out in the world
該死的 我必須要擺脫塵世的喧囂 Damn. I gotta shuffle off this mortal coil
我希望 在偉大的來世 我有事情可做 我容易厭倦 I hope they have something for me to do in the Great Hereafter, I get bored easy
你會發現 我的朋友 你所愛的 指引你所到之處 你做夢都沒料到 You'll find, my friend, that what you love will take you places you never dreamed you'd go
希望你不用擔心 - 哈珀 你去哪了 - Hope you didn't worry - Harper? Where were you?
游絲般輕軟的翅膀 帶我去了月宮 - 什麼 - A trip to the moon on gossamer wings - What?
你應該聽檢測一下你的聽力 你老問「什麼」 You ought to get your hearing checked. you say that a lot
我出去了 跟朋友在一起 去了天堂 I was out. With a friend. In Paradise
在美國天使的大廳 天堂 很像舊金山的一個城市 In the Hall of the Continental Principalities. Heaven. a city much like San Francisco
七個「極限聚合天使實體」中的六個 列席 Six of seven myriad infinite aggregate angelic entities in attendance
願 他們神聖的名字 永獲讚美 哈利路亞！ May their glorious names be praised for ever and ever, Hallelujah
永久緊急會議 現在開始 Permanent Emergency Council is now in session
四號反應堆爆炸後一周 大火仍在燃燒 估計... ...one week following the explosion at the number four reactor. the fires are still burning and an estimated...
向大氣釋放五千萬放射性碘 ...releasing into the atmosphere fifty million curies of radioactive iodine...
...像有毒的雪 落入第聶伯河 這條河為三千五百萬人提供飲用水 ...falling like toxic snow into the Dnieper River. which provides drinking water for thirty-five million...
冷戰隔離導致安全感文化缺失的嚴重後果 ...consequence of the lack of safety culture caused by Cold War isolation
什麼時候 - 4月26日 從今天起三個月 - When? - April 26. Three months from today
這個地方在哪 這個反應堆 - 切爾諾貝利 白俄羅斯 - Where is this place? This reactor? - Chernoby. In Belarus
信號又沒了 We are losing the signal
成百上千的人將死去 - 太可怕了 成千上萬 - Hundreds, thousands will die - Horribly. Hundreds of thousands
讓他們死吧 不可計數 太可怕了 - Let them. Uncountable multitudes. Horrible
他們自找的 我 我 我樂於看到 - 我們被禁錮 在天堂沉默 - It is by their own hands. I I I will rejoice to see it - That is forbidden us. Silence in heaven
信號接收太弱了 The reception is too weakl
能修嗎 - 修不了 - Can it be fixed? - It is beyond us
我我我不會為他們哭泣 我我我化石燃料不可彌補的浪費而哭泣 I I I do not weep for them. I I I weep for the irremediable wastage of fossil fuels
地球的陳血 大肆灑落 焚燒 丟棄在水晶般的空氣裏 Old blood of the globe spilled wantonly or burned and jettisoned into the crystal air
但願 他能回來 解釋給我們聽 If only he would return and explain to us
威嚴的天使同胞們 上帝的天使們 抱歉我的缺席 我延誤了 Most august fellow principalities. angels most high. I regret my absence. I was detained
啊 這是... - 先知 是的 - Ah, this is...? - The Prophet. Yes
我想歸還這個 I want to return thisI
有什麼問題嗎 - 只是... - What is the matter with it? - lt just...
我們停不下來 我們不是石頭 We can't just stop. We're not rocks
進步 遷徙 運動 是現代性 它有生命 生命在於運動 Progress. migration. motion is modernity. It's animate. it's what living things do
我們有慾望 即使我們慾望的只是靜止 它仍是慾望 We desire. Even if all we desire is stillness, it's still desire for
即使我們過於迅速 我們也停不下來 等什麼呢 Even if we go faster than we should. We can't wait. And wait for what?
上帝 上帝 God God
他不會回來 即使他會 He isn't coming back. And even if He did...
如果他回來了 If He ever did come back...
如果他有臉再現身 現形 在花園裏 If He ever dared to show His face, or his glyph or whatever in the garden again...
經歷了這一切毀滅 經歷了這個恐怖世紀的這一切恐怖歲月 If after all this destrution, if after all the terrible days of this terrible century...
他回來看到創造的遺棄物 在遭受苦難 He returned to see how much suffering His abandonment had created...
如果他給我們的 只有死亡 你們應該起訴那個王八蛋 if all He has to offer is death You should sue the bastard
起訴那個不負責任的王八蛋 他好大膽！他得償還！ Sue the bastard for walking out. How dare He. He oughta pay
先知如是說！ Thus spake the Prophet
謝謝你們分享給我這個 可我不想保留 So thank you for sharing this with me. but I don't want to keep it
他想活下去 - 是的 - He wants to live - Yes
看在上帝的份上 我才三十歲 I'm thirty years old. for God sake
我一事無成 我想健康活著 I haven't done anything yet. I want to be healthy again
這場瘟疫 應該停止了 於我 於所有人 讓我們治癒 And this plague, it should stop. In me and everywhere. Make it go away
我們嘗試過 我們和你一起受苦 但我們沒辦法 我們沒辦法 We have tried. We suffer with you but we do not know. We do not know how
這是靜止的巨著 關於緩期 關於休止 This is the tome of immobility. of respite. of cessation
將聖典的苦水一次飲完 先知 你永遠不會再渴 Drink of its bitter water once. Prophet. and you will never thirst again
我不能 I can't
我仍然希望獲得祝福 即使不能治癒 我想活著 I still want my blessing. Even sick. I want to be alive
你覺得你想活著 活著只是一個慣性 You only think you do. Life is a habit with you
你沒有見到未來 我們見過 You have not seen what is to come. We have
後世的嚴峻演變帶來了什麼 你們希望去承受它們嗎 What will the grim unfolding of these latter days bring That you or any being should wish to endure them?
死亡比一切都豐饒 天堂有眼淚來將它哀悼 Death more plenteous than all heaven has tears to mourn it
偉大計劃在緩慢消融 永恆之作在螺旋分離 The slow dissolving of the great design. the spiraling apart of the work of eternity
世界及它美麗的邏輯粒子 在分崩離析 The world and its beautiful particle logic all collapsed
無星的 孤月的瑪瑙之夜中 只剩死亡 永恆的死亡 All dead, forever, in starless, moon-Iorn onyx night
我們在潰敗 潰敗 地球和天使 向上看 向上看 We are failing, failing, the earth and the angels. Look up, look up
毀滅的時刻 到了 It is not-to-be time
哦 末世降臨 誰還尋求祝福 Oh, who asks of the orders blessing with apocalypse descending?
誰還尋求生命 - 當死亡像一位使者... Who demands more life When death like a protector...
盲了我們的雙眼 保護我們脆弱的神經 免受不可承受的恐懼侵擾！ ...blinds our eyes shielding from tender nerve more horror than can be borne?
享受命運召喚的人啊 正悄然走向死亡 Let any being on whom fortune smiles creep away to death
在最後的、可怕的黎明之前夜 當所有的毀滅向你回歸 Before that last dreadful daybreak When all your ravaging returns to you".
炙烤的、無情的太陽冉冉升起： With the rising. scorching. unrelenting sun：
清晨染成了血紅 將生命帶走 When morning blisters crimson and bears all life away
潮汐般的變幻的火焰 席捲了地球 A tidal wave of protean fire that curls around the planet
把地球燒得像白骨一樣乾淨 And bares the earth clean as bone
我還是 還是...想獲得祝福 But still. Still... Bless me anyway
我還想活著 我無法自制 無法自制 I want more life. I can't help myself. I do
我受盡了苦難 還有比我遭受更大苦難的人們 I've lived through such terrible times. and there are people who live through much much worse
你看 他們仍在求生！ But you see them living anyway
他們的精神強於肉體 疼痛強於肌膚 When they're more spirit than body. more sores than skin...
他們燃燒 他們受苦 蒼蠅在他們孩子的眼角產下了卵 他們仍在求生！ ...when they're burned and in agony. when flies lay eggs in the corners of the eyes of their children, they live.
死亡是要帶走生命 我不知道這是否只是自然規則 Death usually has to take life away. I don't know if that`s just the animal
我不知道死亡是否是更勇敢 可我認同這種慣性 I don't know if it's not braver to die. but I recognize the habit
對活著 上了癮 我們無可救藥地活著 The addiction to being alive. We live past hope
如果我能找到希望 可以 那最好不過 可單有希望還不行 lf l can find hope anywhere. that's it. that's the best I can do. That's so much not enough.
遠遠不足 so inadequate
還是祝福我吧 我想活下去 But bless me anyway. I want more Iife
你沒有看到未來 你只看到了你害怕到來的 You haven't seen what's to come. You've only seen what you're afraid is coming
該來的會來的 請不要感到冒犯 你能看到的 只是恐懼 Until it arrives please don't be offended. but all you can see is fear
現在 我把天堂留給你們 我把疾病帶走 I'm leaving heaven to you now. I'll take my illness with me
連同死亡 我也一起帶走 And I'll take my death with me. too
地球是我的家 我想回家！ The earth's my home, and I want to go home
我筋疲力盡 - 你輾轉反側了一宿 - I'm exhausted - You've been working hard
感覺好難受 - 歡迎回家！ - I feel terrible - Welcome back to the world
從哪回家 From where.
你看看 這是人類的黎明 - 金星從海上升起！ - Well look at this. It's the dawn of man - Venus rising from the sea
我渾身都濕了 - 燒退了 這是個好兆頭 - I'm wet- Fever broke. That's a good sign
他們一會給你換 - 皮特太太 她是... - They'll be in to change you in... - Mrs Pitt? Did she...
她要梳洗一下 她太了不起了 你是怎麼認識她的 Elle fait sa toilette. Elle est tres formidable, ca. where did you find her?
這都是緣分 她 我做了個奇妙的夢 We found each other. she... I've had a remarkable dream
有你在 還有你 And you were there. And you
還有你 - 我什麼 - And you - I what
有些情節好可怕 有些情節好精彩！ And some of it was terrible. and some of it was wonderful
我不斷請求 我想要回家 他們就送我回家了 But all the same I kept saying I want to go home and they sent me home
你在說什麼！ - 謝謝你 - What are you talking about! - Thank you
我只是睡在椅子上 - 她救了我的命 - I just slept in the chair - She saved my life
我可沒有 我睡在椅子上 醫院讓我感覺很難受 讓我記起一些事情 I did no such thing. I slept in the chair. Being in hospital upsets me. it reminds me of things
我要回家了 我做了個十分怪異的夢 I have to go home now. I had the most peculiar dream
我能進來嗎 Can I come in?
我要查房了 I have to start rounds
你是幸運的一個 該獎你一朵玫瑰 你好好休息 You're one of the lucky ones. I could give you a rose. You rest your weary bones
你是 你怎麼了 What are you... What happened to you?
見血了 你說過... Visible scars. You said...
哦 路易斯 你太咬文嚼字了！ Oh, Louis, you're so goddamned literal about everything
我現在要走了 - 你要回來看我！ - I'm going now - You'll come back
有空的話 我還要忙呢 if I can. I have things to take care of.
一定要來 我總是依賴陌生人的善意 Please do. I have always depended on the kindness of strangers
那你就太傻了 Well, that's a stupid thing to do!
她是誰 - 你還是不要知道 - Who's she? - You really don't want to know
在我離開之前 給你個歡迎禮 - 什麼 - Before I depart. A homecoming gift - What?
我看不清標籤 我的眼睛還沒見好 I can't read the label. My eyes aren't any better
AZT 你究竟是怎麼 這可是搶手藥 我嚇到了 AZT? How on earth did you...? These are hot pills. I am shocked
來自早日康復基金的捐贈 一個壞女巫給的 A contribution to the get-well fund. From a bad fairy
這些藥 它們 它們會讓你好的 These pills, they... They make you better
這是毒藥 讓你貧血 從今以後這是我的人生 路易斯 我不會好的 They're poison. they make you anemic. This is my life. from now on. Louis. I'm not getting better
我還沒準備這麼糟蹋我的骨髓 l'm not sure I'm ready to do that to my bone marrow
我們明天談 我要回家 舒展我的筋骨了 We can talk about it tomorrow. I'm going home to nurse my grudges
回見 寶貝 睡個大覺！ Ta, baby, sleep all day
再見路易斯 一個房間 相信你能應付得了 Ta, Louis, you sure know how to clear a room
普萊爾 我想回到你身邊 Prior, I want to come back to you
我想要信用卡 就這些 I want the credit card. that's all
你可以根據消費地點 跟我取得聯繫 如果你想聯繫 我不在乎 You can keep track of me from where the charges come from. if you want to keep track. I don't care
我要告訴你點事 I have some things to tell you
我不想談 我們沒必要再談了 信用卡 I don't want to talk, we shouldn't do that anymore. Credit card
我不知道 沒有你我該怎麼辦 I don't know what will happen to me without you
只有你 只有你愛我 再沒有人了 Only you. Only you love me. Out of everyone in the world
我慚愧我做的事 可我改了 我不知道怎麼改的！求你別離開我 I have done things, I'm ashamed. But I have changed. I don't know how. Please, please, don't leave me now, Harper
哈珀 你對我很好 Harper You are my good heart.
疼嗎 Did you hurt?
疼吧 長點記性 快點 Yes. Remember that. PIease.
我找到工作了 就會把卡剪掉 if I can get a job or something. I'll cut the card to pieces...
我就不再刷卡了 信用卡 ...and there won't be charges anymore.Credit Card.
常聯繫 一定要 Call or... Call. You have to
不了 別再聯繫了 太糟糕了 No. Probably never again. That's how bad
有時候 迷失是最好的出路 Sometimes, maybe lost is best
迷失掉 喬 去摸索！ Get lost. Joe. Go exploring
喝上一大杯水 With a big glass of water
我想回到你身邊 你可以回應 說什麼都行 I want to come back to you. You could respond. you could say something
叫我滾蛋 說答應 或者說不答應 或者說可以 管它呢 Throw me out or say it's fine, or it's not fine, but sure what the hell or...
我真的辜負了你 但是 很艱難 I really failed you. But... This is hard
辜負了愛 不等於不愛 並沒有讓你擺脫困境 Failing in love isn't the same as not loving. It doesn't let you off the hook
並不是說 你想不愛就不愛了 It doesn't mean you're free to not love
我愛你 路易斯 - 很好 我愛你 - I love you Louis - Good. I love you
我真的愛你 但你回不來了 I really do. But you can't come back
永遠 對不起 但你回不來了 Not ever. I'm sorry. But you can't
夜晚飛往舊金山 穿越美國 追逐月亮 Night flight to San Francisco. Chase the moon across America
上帝！我多少年沒坐過飛機了 God! It's been years since I was on a plane
當我們上升到三萬五千英尺時 我們到了對流層 When we hit thirty-five thousand feet. we'll have reached the tropopause
巨大的安全層區域 離臭氧層最接近的地方 The great belt of calm air. As close as I'll ever get to the ozone
我夢見我在那裏 飛機躍過對流層 到達安全層... I dreamed we were there. The plane leap the tropopause, the safe air...
到達外層空間 臭氧層 破破爛爛的 ...and attained the outer rim, the ozone, which was ragged and torn
一塊塊的 陳舊的 像老棉布 很可怕 Patches of it threadbare as old cheesecloth. and that was frightening
我看到了只有我能看到的東西 因為我有非凡的能力看到這樣的東西 But I saw something only I could see because of my astonishing ability to see such things
靈魂在升起 從遙遠的地面 死者的靈魂 Souls were rising, from the earth far below, souls of the dead
那些死於饑荒 戰爭和瘟疫的死者 Of people who had perished from famine, from war, from the plague
他們漂浮起來 像跳傘運動員 兩手叉腰 翻騰旋轉 And they floated up, like skydivers in reverse, limbs all akimbo, wheeling and spinning
這些離去的靈魂 手牽手 腳並腳 織成一張大網 And these departed souls joined hands. clasped ankles. and formed a web
一張偉大的靈魂之網 靈魂是三原子的氧分子 屬於臭氧層 A great net of souls. and the souls were three-atom oxygen molecules. of the stuff of ozone
外層空間將它們吸收 修復 And the outer rim absorbed them. and was repaired
在這世界上 沒有永遠的失去 有一種痛苦的進步 Nothing is lost forever.In this world, there is a kind of painful progress
渴望著我們丟失的東西 夢想著未來 Longing for what we've left behind, and dreaming ahead
至少我認為是這樣 At least I think that's so.
尾聲：畢士大天使 EPILOGUE : Bethesda
柏林牆倒塌了 齊奧塞斯庫出局了 他正在建設民主社會主義 The Berlin Wall has fallen. The Ceausescus are out. He's building democratic socialism
新的國際主義 戈爾巴喬夫是列寧以來最偉大的政治思想家 The New internationalism. Gorbachev is the greatest political thinker since Lenin
我認為我們還不足以對他封聖 俄羅斯人恨他那一套 I don't think we know enough yet to start canonizing him. The Russians hate his guts
是的 但是想想四年前 我們一直都感覺 Yeah but remember back four years ago? The whole time we were feeling...
一切 一切都停滯了 而俄羅斯 看！重組改革 解凍 ...everything everywhere was stuck. while in Russia... look! Perestroika. The Thaw
冷戰結束了 整個世界一夜之間 天翻地覆 It's the end of the Cold War. The whole world is changing overnight
我懷疑南斯拉夫現在怎樣 - 南斯拉夫 - I wonder what'll happen now in places like Yugoslavia - Yugoslavia? 冷戰結束了 整個世界一夜之間 天翻地覆 It's the end of the Cold War. The whole world is changing overnight
我懷疑南斯拉夫現在怎樣 - 南斯拉夫 - I wonder what'll happen now in places like Yugoslavia - Yugoslavia?
讓我們盡量把音量調小 好吧 他們會討論幾個鐘頭 Let's just turn the volume down on this. OK? They'll be at it for hours
這並不是說他們討論的不重要 It's not that what they're saying isn't important,
這是整個紐約我最喜歡的地方 不 是整個宇宙中 我見到的所有地方裏 This is my favorite place in New York City. No. in the whole universe. The parts of it I have seen
像今天這樣的天 一個陽光明媚的冬日 又溫暖 又寒冷 On a day like today. A sunny winter's day. warm and cold all at once
天空有點朦朧 陽光有它的形式 像一個人物形象 The sky's a little hazy. so the sunlight has a physical presence. a character
秋天 湖邊的樹林呈金黃色 陽光灑在上面 金碧輝煌 In autumn. those trees across the lake are yellow. and the sun strikes those most brilliantly
趁著藍色天空 悲傷的秋天的藍 這些樹比草木還要亮 Against the blue of the sky, that sad fall blue, those trees are more light than vegetation
他們是楊基樹 新英格蘭移植樹 現在光禿禿的 They are Yankee trees, New England transplants. They're barren now
現在是1990年1月 我帶著艾滋 生活了五年了 It's January 1990. I have been living with AIDS for five years
比我和路易斯在一起的時間 還長了半年 That's six whole months longer than i lived with Louis.
無論發生什麼事 你必須佩服戈爾巴喬夫的是 俄羅斯人 Whatever comes. what you have to admire in Gorbachev. in the Russians...
他們正在邁向未知 ...is that they're making a leap into the unknown
你不能空等著一個理論 生活的進行雜亂無章 又不可思議... You can't wait around for a theory. The sprawl of life. the weird...
互聯 - 是的 - interconnectedness - Yes
沒準地面的整體面積 Maybe the sheer size of the terrain
太大了 不能被一個單一理論所涵蓋 It's all too much to be encompassed by a single theory now
世界比思想跑得更快 The world is faster than the mind
這就是政治 世界在前進 只在政治領域 才會出現奇跡 That's what politics is. The world moving ahead. And only in politics does the miraculous occur
這也是個理論 But that's a theory
你活在世界上 總要對世界有個概念 但是 生活創造了概念 You can't live in the world without an idea of the world. but it's living that makes the ideas
你不能空等一個理論 但你必須要有一個理論 You can't wait for a theory. but you have to have a theory
去瞭解 我奶奶總這麼說 Go know. As my grandma would say
這位天使 她是我的至愛 我最喜歡天使 當然必須是雕塑 This angel. She's my favorite angel. I like them best when they're statuary
他們紀念死亡 他們也啟示著一個沒有死亡的世界 They commemorate death but they suggest a world without dying
它們是由地球上最重的東西 石頭和鐵製成的 They are made of the heaviest things on earth, stone and iron
它們重達數噸 但它們可以飛翔 他們是飛行的引擎和工具 They weigh tons but they're winged. they are engines and instruments of flight
這是天使畢士大 路易斯會告訴你她的故事 This is the angel Bethesda. Louis will tell you her story
好 這個天使 她降落在耶路撒冷的聖殿廣場 第二聖殿時代 Oh. Well, she was this angel, she landed in the Temple Square in Jerusalem, in the days of the Second Temple
在勞作日的正中 她降臨了 腳觸及了大地 Right in the middle of a working day she descended and just her foot touched earth
所觸及之處 一股噴泉破地而出 And where it did, a fountain shot up from the ground
羅馬人搗毀了聖殿 畢士大噴泉也就枯竭了 When the Romans destroyed the Temple, the fountain of Bethesda ran dry
伯利茲會告訴你泉水停流之前 這個噴泉的情形 And Belize will tell you about the nature of the fountain, before the flowing is stopped.
如果有誰遭受苦難 身體的或精神的 趟過畢士大噴泉的水 if anyone who was suffering in the body or the spirit walked through the waters of the fountain of Bethesda...
就會被治癒 苦痛就被洗去 ...they would be healed, washed clean of pain
他們之所以知道這些 是因為我多次跟他們講 漢娜這樣告訴我 They know this because I've told them, many times. Hannah here told me this
她還告訴我 - 千禧年來臨時 - She also told me this - When the Millennium comes...
不是指2000年 是千禧年 Not the year two thousand. but the capital M Millennium
是的 畢士大噴泉的泉水會再次涌流 Right. The fountain of Bethesda will flow again
我跟他說 我會親自帶他到那裏淨身 我們全都洗淨自己 And I told him I would personally take him there to bathe. We will all bathe ourselves clean
不一定非去耶路撒冷 我是說我們不想讓這個也捲入猶太復國主義 Not literally in Jerusalem. I mean we don't want this to have sort of Zionist implications
對極了 - 但另一方面... - Right on - But on the other hand...
我們確實認識到了以色列國有生存權利 ...we do recognize the right of the State of Israel to exist
但約旦河西岸應該是巴勒斯坦人的家園 戈蘭高地應該 But the West Bank should be a homeland for the Palestinians. and the Golan Heights should...
噢 不能約旦河西岸和戈蘭高地都是 Well not both the West Bank and the Golan Heightsl
我是說 沒人比我更支持巴勒斯坦 但是 I mean no one supports Palestinian rights more than I do but...
沒錯 路易斯 好像巴勒斯坦人不比你更支持巴勒斯坦一樣 Oh yeah right, Louis, like not even the Palestinians are more devoted than you.
我快講完了 I'm almost done
噴泉現在沒有水流 他們冬天關掉了水閥 怕管道結冰 The fountain's not flowing now, they turn it off in the winter, ice in the pipes
夏天 這是個景觀 我想在此流連 我計劃如此 我希望如此 But in the summer it's a sight to see. I want to be around to see it. I plan to be. I hope to be
疾病帶走了我們很多人 但不是全部 This disease will be the end of many of us, but not nearly all
死者將會安息 生者會繼續勇敢前行 我們不會離開 And the dead will be commemorated and will struggle on with the living. and we are not going away
我們不再默默無聞地死去 We won't die secret deaths anymore
世界只向前發展 我們將成為公民 The world only spins forward. We will be citizens.
時代已經來了 The time has come
再見 你們是奇妙的一群人 每一個人 我祝福你們 Bye now. You are fabulous creatures. each and every one. And I bless you
活下去！ More Life!
偉大的工程開始了！ The Great Work Begins!