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To be continued?
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Is Finn at home?
He's gone to Leeds, Rae.
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Fag? You're sitting there
with your thumb up your arse
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while they take the piss out of me.
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I kind of owe you 16 birthday
presents.
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So Izzy told him about the kiss? No.
She just broke up with him.
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You shut your mouth please.
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You're supposed to be my best mate
and you don't give a shit!
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I'm not your mum! Stay away from me.
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How long has she been gone?
Two days.
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'Dear Diary. people have in their
heads a vision
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'of what the first
time would be like.
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'And mine nearly came true.
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'It nearly came true twice.
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'But I've said it before.
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'It's not like it is in the movies.
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'Movies aren't real.
They're just stories.'
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Mia?
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Mia!
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Morning. Hiya.
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Liam, wake up,
you lazy little shit. Jesus.
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Don't Jesus me. Listen, Remember
to ring the sparky. OK.
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For your Nana.
Whatever. Lazy bugger.
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Can I use your bathroom before
I leave? Yeah, go for it.
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Did you sleep with your clothes on?
Yes. Me too.
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It's pretty cool we're as fucked up
as each other.
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Did you enjoy last night?
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I know it was your, er, first time.
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Totally loved it. Perfect.
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'Do you ever wish you could look
back
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'and see the exact moment your life
started to fall to pieces?
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'The beginning of the end.
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'Oh, you have to be kidding!'
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What do you think you're doing?
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I've got one place on Earth
that I can go and chill out.
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One place that is not filled
with your staff or Karim's stuff
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or the baby's stuff.
And you've taken that away from me.
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I am not sharing my room
with your baby.
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We are redecorating so I had to move
your stuff. Yeah, I can see that.
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I found this.
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So? It's from your dad.
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Isn't it?
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You gave me his address,
what did you expect?
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I just don't know what you could
possibly want from him,
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what he could bring to your life.
He's interested in me.
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He buys me amazing presents.
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But best of all, he doesn't
talk about babies all the time.
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Do you know what? I wish that...
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Don't say it. Don't you dare say it.
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Why did you have to get pregnant?
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You've already messed up one kid's
life. Why do it to another?
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Just tell me one thing.
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Do you care at all about this baby?
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No.
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What?
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What, are you going to slap me
again?
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'All I'd wanted for months
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'was to fit into college, to have a
normal life.
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'I was no longer just a big
girl in first year.
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'I was the girl who had the panic
attack on stage.
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'I was the crazy girl.'
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So? I thought you was mental
when you set the alarm off.
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Freaking out on stage takes it
to a different level.
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Everyone thinks you're a psycho,
you know?
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You are not the only one
everyone's talking about, though,
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Where is that slag you call a best
mate?
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You can say whatever you
want about me,
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but do you ever say anything about
Chloe. Ever.
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You better get off her. Little
bitch. Are we clear? Rachel!
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Do you want to tell me what's going
on? I give you a warning.
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I give you a final warning. There is
no final final morning, Rae.
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Well, you don't have to kick me out.
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I can't do it. I'm leaving.
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I'm not going to let you do that.
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Why? You just said you were going
to kick me out.
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Rae, you are one of the cleverest
students in this entire college.
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Don't throw that all away because of
a bunch of bullies and knobheads.
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We'll fix it.
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Haven't you heard? I'm crazy.
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And no-one can fix that.
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Thanks
for all the chances you've given me.
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And I'm so sorry if I let you down.
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'That's the thing about Rae Earl,
she will let you down.
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'Everything she comes into contact
with will fall apart.
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'Touched by the darkness of her
disease.
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Her bright future. Her gang of
friends. Her family.
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'Even her best friend.
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'Maybe I keep finding myself on my
own because no-one wants me around.
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'Maybe it's
because they know I'm mental.'
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All right, everyone?
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I just wanted to start by saying that
Danny is about to go home.
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Thanks, everyone.
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I thought I'd be
a bit more excited about today.
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I-I can't remember what it's like,
as such, outside.
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I'm just a bit afraid of fitting in.
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Of people thinking that I'm weird.
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I can be myself in here
and that's fine.
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Because there's people
who like the weird bits of me.
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And there's people who can hold
me together when...
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..when everything else falls apart.
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What's the matter with you? You're
normally the first one out the door.
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I've decided to come back.
into hospital.
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Please let me come back. You can't
just decide to come back to hospital.
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Danny is leaving.
So there's a room free.
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That's not how it works, it's not a
hotel, it's a hospital. But I'm sick.
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But not by the standards of this
hospital, you're not.
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The people who come and stay here
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are either a danger to themselves
or to others.
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You're neither of those things.
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You've stopped hurting yourself.
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You haven't hurt yourself for
months.
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What's happened? No, I don't want to
talk about it with you.
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Therapy, it doesn't work.
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I've been coming to you for six
months and nothing's changed.
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In my professional opinion,
I think you're wrong.
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If nothing had changed,
you'd still be hurting yourself.
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People who are broken, they don't
want you to be professional.
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They just want you to be real.
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'Dear Diary. Is this how it works?
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'Aren't you allowed back into
hospital
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'unless you do something extreme?
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'Do you have to show you're broken
on the inside
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'by breaking yourself on the
outside?'
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'How's it going? I wanted to write
you a letter to say hi.
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'And also to say sorry about leaving
like I did. I miss you already.
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'You are world-class. I mean that.
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'Our group of friends was nothing
until you sprayed Rae all over it.
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'Look after them all. You're the one
they always look to.
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'You're the glue.
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'So no pressure. Laters. Finn.
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'Don't let Chop do his running
elephant joke any more.
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'It's not as funny as he thinks it
is.'
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'What was the point in ringing
Finn? He was gone now.
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'What would I even say?
What if he was right, though?
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'What if I was the glue?
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'What if, because I'm the one
that broke at all,
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'I'm the one that can fix it?
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'The problem is that when everything
is in a million little pieces,
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'it's hard to know what to try
and fix first.
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'I guess I had to begin with the
hardest thing of all.'
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Hi, Mr Gemell.
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Is it all right if I speak to Chloe?
I need to apologise to her.
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Chloe's not here,
she's still missing. She's not back?
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We don't know what to do.
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We've talked to the police.
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She's never been
missing for this long,
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so they've finally taken seriously.
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They're going to want to talk to
you and your friends at some point.
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We've talked to this Ian person.
Yeah.
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But he said he doesn't know where
she is. Nobody knows where she is.
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This is Chloe's diary.
I don't know if it will help.
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I took it the other day.
Why did you take it?
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I don't know.
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I wanted to find out why she'd been
behaving the way she had.
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I wasn't thinking.
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I'm too wrapped up in my own stuff.
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I haven't been a very
good friend to her.
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Neither have I.
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'There was no way that Ian didn't
know where Chloe was.
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'No way!
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'There was also no way
I was going to his house on my own.
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'I needed backup.
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'I needed to take one of the other
fixes off my list first.
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'But the problem was,
Archie was mad at Chop
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for not standing up for him in front
of Simmy and Macca.
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Izzy was mad at Archie for telling
Chop she'd kissed Peter.
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And Chop was mad at Izzy
because she dumped him
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and now they all refused to
be in the same room together.
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It's the perfect storm.
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Well, the perfect shit storm.
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Hi, muggins.
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Is it true? What?
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That you've left college? Yes.
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You can't, I won't let you.
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I've put up with too much
whingeing from you to let it happen.
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Listen, that's not why I asked you
here. Well, why did you?
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Rae!
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Look, just listen to me for a
second, please. What's going on?
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What's he doing here? Er...
What's he doing here?
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What's she doing here?
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Oh, bollocks!
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It would be easier gluing
dog shit to the wind.
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Well, at least I got them in one
place. Maybe it wasn't a lost cause.
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And if I can fix the gang,
maybe I can fix everything else.
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This is your fault, Iz. What is?
Clo going missing.
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How is it my fault? Don't take
a genius to work it out, does it?
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You cheating on me,
that made things awkward.
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If you hadn't have done that, me
and you would still be together,
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the gang would still be together
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and we would have seen
that Chloe was in the shit.
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But I didn't even want to kiss him!
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I didn't fancy him.
It was a mistake.
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Well, why did you kiss him then?
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See. You still can't tell me.
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Yeah, but it isn't my fault.
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If Archie hadn't told you
about me and Peter...
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Whoa, whoa, whoa!
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I didn't make you kiss the guy,
did I?
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If it's anyone's fault it's Chop's.
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What? Because I tell you for free
whose fault it isn't. Uncle Archie's.
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Archie, I told you to stop calling
yourself that. How can it be mine?
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You're all making it seem like me,
the one who's done... Guys, guys!
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Stop it. Please, just stop it.
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It's everyone's fault.
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Mainly Izzy's. I beg your pardon?
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You know what, Chop,
I'll tell you why I kissed Peter.
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Because I was upset and disappointed
with you for what you did to Archie.
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You let them boys kick him
off the football team and call him
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horrible names and be mean to him.
Yeah? What those boys done.
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I didn't do it.
Yeah, you didn't DO anything.
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Bad shit happens
when good people do nothing.
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This is some fresh bullshit.
Let me out of the car. What?
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Let me out the car!
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Stop it! Guys, stop it!
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Maybe I couldn't fix the gang.
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Maybe they were broken forever.
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But so long as there was a shot
at helping Chloe, I had to take it.
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Even if it was on my own.
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What do you want? Is Chloe here?
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No.
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Can I use your toilet?
No, you can't.
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Don't be a dickhead,
I know where it is.
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I was always surprised why Chloe
was friends with you.
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She's beautiful, you're minging.
OK...
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I just want to see my best mate,
please.
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We only let you hang out with us
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because Chloe told us
you were funny and clever.
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That's what they always
say about fat girls, isn't it?
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Got great personality. You haven't.
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Chloe?
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Have you ever stopped to think
why Chloe hasn't been in touch?
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Because she doesn't want you around
her. No-one wants you around...
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No-one wants you around...
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No-one wants you around.
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Go on, then. Fuck off.
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Ian was right.
238
00:17:04,857 --> 00:17:08,216
No one wants me around here
because I don't fix things,
239
00:17:08,217 --> 00:17:12,216
I only break them.
But I know a place where they do.
240
00:17:12,217 --> 00:17:16,217
Where people understand me.
Like Tix understood me.
241
00:17:16,577 --> 00:17:19,776
And I know how to make them
take me back.
242
00:17:19,777 --> 00:17:21,776
Just a little cut.
243
00:17:21,777 --> 00:17:23,616
Not like last time.
244
00:17:23,617 --> 00:17:27,617
Just a few little cuts.
245
00:17:35,257 --> 00:17:37,617
Mum?
246
00:17:47,617 --> 00:17:51,617
Mum?
247
00:17:56,497 --> 00:17:59,176
Mum?
248
00:17:59,177 --> 00:18:03,177
Mum!
249
00:18:10,737 --> 00:18:13,696
Mum? Oh, no!
250
00:18:13,697 --> 00:18:15,656
Rae, it's the baby.
251
00:18:15,657 --> 00:18:19,056
I need you to help me, darling. No.
252
00:18:19,057 --> 00:18:22,936
No, mum, I'm not strong enough,
I can't. You can, darling.
253
00:18:22,937 --> 00:18:25,376
Everything is going to be fine.
254
00:18:25,377 --> 00:18:26,976
I promise.
255
00:18:26,977 --> 00:18:30,977
Now go and get me some towels.
OK, OK.
256
00:18:37,697 --> 00:18:41,536
Good girl. Ring me an ambulance.
257
00:18:41,537 --> 00:18:44,016
OK, please.
258
00:18:44,017 --> 00:18:47,296
OK, OK!
259
00:18:47,297 --> 00:18:51,297
Doctor, I've
got the notes you needed before...
260
00:18:55,377 --> 00:18:57,337
I'm sorry, you can't
come any further.
261
00:19:18,017 --> 00:19:22,017
They haven't said anything.
262
00:19:34,617 --> 00:19:38,576
You go for sleep, yes?
263
00:19:38,577 --> 00:19:42,577
I ring. If they say, I ring. Cool.
264
00:20:15,097 --> 00:20:17,176
'Look after them all.
265
00:20:17,177 --> 00:20:21,177
'You're the one they always look to,
you're the glue, so no pressure.
266
00:20:22,417 --> 00:20:26,417
'Laters, Finn.'
267
00:20:37,937 --> 00:20:41,536
There are times when I can't stop
speaking, when a million words
268
00:20:41,537 --> 00:20:43,856
leave my mouth in a
matter of seconds,
269
00:20:43,857 --> 00:20:45,457
a million words that mean nothing.
270
00:20:49,137 --> 00:20:52,216
Hello?
271
00:20:52,217 --> 00:20:56,217
Hello?
272
00:20:57,217 --> 00:20:59,816
But when I want to find some words
that mean everything,
273
00:20:59,817 --> 00:21:02,656
I just can't speak.
274
00:21:02,657 --> 00:21:06,496
Like "I miss you," like "I love you,"
275
00:21:06,497 --> 00:21:09,857
like, "My world is falling apart
and I need you by my side."
276
00:21:13,217 --> 00:21:14,816
Hello?
277
00:21:14,817 --> 00:21:18,817
'Good morning, Rae. It's Kester.
I just wanted to ring
278
00:21:19,017 --> 00:21:23,017
'to say I would love you
to come in today for a session.'
279
00:21:23,817 --> 00:21:27,817
Yeah.
280
00:21:33,577 --> 00:21:36,896
You must be tired.
281
00:21:36,897 --> 00:21:40,897
Yeah. Well, I didn't want to go to
sleep in case the hospital rang.
282
00:21:43,297 --> 00:21:47,297
I wanted to apologise for losing
my temper with Liam the other day
283
00:21:47,577 --> 00:21:51,577
and for not setting a good example,
boundaries-wise.
284
00:21:51,817 --> 00:21:55,736
I shouldn't have come
round to your house.
285
00:21:55,737 --> 00:21:59,696
I was angry because
I was embarrassed about it.
286
00:21:59,697 --> 00:22:03,496
Yeah, well, I shouldn't
have lost my temper.
287
00:22:03,497 --> 00:22:07,497
I only did it because I care
about you, about all of you.
288
00:22:09,617 --> 00:22:13,617
I guess from now on we'll just
establish the boundaries as we go.
289
00:22:18,977 --> 00:22:21,216
I'm a horrible person, Kester.
290
00:22:21,217 --> 00:22:25,217
Why would you say that?
291
00:22:26,097 --> 00:22:30,097
My mum asked me if I
cared about the new baby.
292
00:22:31,777 --> 00:22:35,136
And I said no.
293
00:22:35,137 --> 00:22:37,816
And the frightening thing is...
294
00:22:37,817 --> 00:22:41,456
is that I meant it.
295
00:22:41,457 --> 00:22:45,457
I don't care.
296
00:22:45,577 --> 00:22:48,216
Everywhere I go I seem to
break things.
297
00:22:48,217 --> 00:22:52,217
And the more I try to fix them,
the more I make it worse.
298
00:22:53,737 --> 00:22:57,576
It's not just my mum,
it's my friends, it's Chloe.
299
00:22:57,577 --> 00:23:01,296
Because you can't fix other people
until you've fixed yourself.
300
00:23:01,297 --> 00:23:05,297
But I can't be fixed.
Because I'm crazy.
301
00:23:06,417 --> 00:23:10,416
You're not crazy.
302
00:23:10,417 --> 00:23:13,976
If you want to be a nicer
person to other people,
303
00:23:13,977 --> 00:23:16,616
that's where it starts.
304
00:23:16,617 --> 00:23:18,696
I've tried being nice to myself.
305
00:23:18,697 --> 00:23:20,696
Have you?
306
00:23:20,697 --> 00:23:24,136
Because you've just been telling me
what a horrible person you are.
307
00:23:24,137 --> 00:23:27,536
You're just using whatever's
happening with Chloe
308
00:23:27,537 --> 00:23:31,416
or your mum as another
reason to hate yourself.
309
00:23:31,417 --> 00:23:34,896
Every session, you say
that I need to love myself,
310
00:23:34,897 --> 00:23:38,416
I need to start liking
myself more. For months now.
311
00:23:38,417 --> 00:23:40,816
You're like a broken record.
312
00:23:40,817 --> 00:23:44,817
But you never tell me how to start
or when to start or where to start.
313
00:23:45,217 --> 00:23:48,976
All right, we'll start now then.
314
00:23:48,977 --> 00:23:51,256
Not tonight, not tomorrow,
not after this cup of tea,
315
00:23:51,257 --> 00:23:55,257
we'll start right now.
316
00:23:57,177 --> 00:23:59,336
Close your eyes.
317
00:23:59,337 --> 00:24:03,337
Close your eyes.
318
00:24:03,657 --> 00:24:07,296
Now I want you to tell me
what you don't like about yourself
319
00:24:07,297 --> 00:24:09,656
but be honest with me.
Don't be clever,
320
00:24:09,657 --> 00:24:13,657
don't be angry. Be honest.
321
00:24:14,737 --> 00:24:18,456
I'm fat.
322
00:24:18,457 --> 00:24:21,616
And I'm ugly.
323
00:24:21,617 --> 00:24:23,456
And I ruin things.
324
00:24:23,457 --> 00:24:27,457
Try and find some sense
of how long you've felt that way.
325
00:24:28,777 --> 00:24:32,777
I don't know.
Since I was about nine or ten.
326
00:24:33,257 --> 00:24:37,257
So this is an opinion you formed
a long time ago about yourself.
327
00:24:38,417 --> 00:24:42,096
Open your eyes.
328
00:24:42,097 --> 00:24:46,097
I want you to imagine a
ten-year-old version of yourself
329
00:24:46,817 --> 00:24:49,736
sitting right there on this coach.
330
00:24:49,737 --> 00:24:52,976
Now this is the little girl who
first believed that she was fat
331
00:24:52,977 --> 00:24:55,536
and ugly and an embarrassment.
332
00:24:55,537 --> 00:24:59,537
I want you to imagine her
sitting there right now.
333
00:25:02,737 --> 00:25:06,737
Now tell that little girl she's
fat. I'm not going to do that.
334
00:25:07,257 --> 00:25:09,936
Tell that little girl she's ugly.
I don't want to.
335
00:25:09,937 --> 00:25:13,816
Tell that little girl she's
an embarrassment and worthless
336
00:25:13,817 --> 00:25:15,816
and useless.
337
00:25:15,817 --> 00:25:17,816
Because that's what you
do every single day
338
00:25:17,817 --> 00:25:19,736
when you say that to yourself.
339
00:25:19,737 --> 00:25:22,416
When you convince yourself
that you're an embarrassment
340
00:25:22,417 --> 00:25:25,616
and a burden. Well,
don't you think she's ugly?
341
00:25:25,617 --> 00:25:28,176
No. No? Or fat? No.
342
00:25:28,177 --> 00:25:32,056
No? Or an embarrassment?
Or horrible or worthless?
343
00:25:32,057 --> 00:25:36,057
Just stop it! No!
344
00:25:38,377 --> 00:25:42,377
Right? No.
345
00:25:49,497 --> 00:25:53,497
Want do you want to say
to that little girl?
346
00:25:54,057 --> 00:25:57,856
If she said to you that's
how she felt about herself,
347
00:25:57,857 --> 00:26:01,656
what would you tell her?
348
00:26:01,657 --> 00:26:05,657
That she's fine.
349
00:26:05,897 --> 00:26:08,376
That she's perfect.
350
00:26:08,377 --> 00:26:11,736
Then that's what you
need to tell yourself.
351
00:26:11,737 --> 00:26:15,737
Every time you feel that
panic, that anxiety...
352
00:26:17,817 --> 00:26:21,817
..you need to soothe yourself like
you would soothe the little girl.
353
00:26:23,657 --> 00:26:25,976
Yeah?
354
00:26:25,977 --> 00:26:27,816
Yeah.
355
00:26:27,817 --> 00:26:31,817
You need to tell yourself that
everything's going to be OK.
356
00:26:32,657 --> 00:26:36,657
If you commit to that,
357
00:26:37,497 --> 00:26:41,497
then I promise you you'll
be able to face anything.
358
00:26:43,897 --> 00:26:47,897
And it starts right now.
359
00:26:49,777 --> 00:26:53,777
Everything starts right now.
360
00:26:57,537 --> 00:26:59,616
Do you ever wish you could look back
361
00:26:59,617 --> 00:27:02,696
and see the exact moment your life
started to come together?
362
00:27:02,697 --> 00:27:04,856
The end of the beginning,
363
00:27:04,857 --> 00:27:08,857
the moment you knew everything
was about to change?
364
00:27:12,217 --> 00:27:16,016
Is there any news?
She's out of danger.
365
00:27:16,017 --> 00:27:17,976
Has she said anything?
366
00:27:17,977 --> 00:27:20,536
No, I mean your sister. My sister?
367
00:27:20,537 --> 00:27:24,537
Yeah. She's in intensive care.
368
00:27:24,817 --> 00:27:27,136
Is she going to be OK?
369
00:27:27,137 --> 00:27:31,137
We just need to wait and see what
happens in the next few hours.
370
00:27:31,697 --> 00:27:34,856
What about my mum?
It's too early to say.
371
00:27:34,857 --> 00:27:38,857
We're doing everything
we can for her.
372
00:28:15,257 --> 00:28:16,656
Thanks.
373
00:28:16,657 --> 00:28:19,937
That's all right.
374
00:28:22,017 --> 00:28:25,096
I'm a sister.
375
00:28:25,097 --> 00:28:28,856
I'm actually someone's
big sister.
376
00:28:28,857 --> 00:28:32,857
Nice. I think you'll make
a pretty good big sister.
377
00:28:33,697 --> 00:28:34,736
Yeah?
378
00:28:34,737 --> 00:28:36,016
Yeah.
379
00:28:36,017 --> 00:28:37,896
You don't think I'll be annoying?
380
00:28:37,897 --> 00:28:39,976
I didn't say that.
381
00:28:39,977 --> 00:28:43,977
Right.
382
00:28:47,617 --> 00:28:51,617
If you need a lift here after
college, then I can take you.
383
00:28:52,577 --> 00:28:56,577
I've got a lot of free
time on my hands.
384
00:28:58,337 --> 00:29:02,337
I've decided that being
a scaffolder in Leeds
385
00:29:02,897 --> 00:29:06,897
wasn't exactly the dream
I thought it'd be.
386
00:29:08,777 --> 00:29:11,376
Thanks, but...
387
00:29:11,377 --> 00:29:15,377
It's all right.
I'm not going to college any more.
388
00:29:16,897 --> 00:29:20,256
Why would you leave?
389
00:29:20,257 --> 00:29:24,257
Everyone there knows that I'm crazy.
You guys know me. You understand me.
390
00:29:27,337 --> 00:29:30,336
Not everyone's like that, Finn.
391
00:29:30,337 --> 00:29:34,176
Yet, but everyone's crazy.
392
00:29:34,177 --> 00:29:38,177
Everyone has to struggle and fight,
they just haven't realised it yet.
393
00:29:40,017 --> 00:29:44,017
At least you have.
394
00:29:45,657 --> 00:29:49,657
Once upon a time, in a disabled
toilet far, far away...
395
00:29:52,297 --> 00:29:56,297
..you asked me why I liked you.
Remember?
396
00:29:56,377 --> 00:29:59,736
Yeah, I remember.
397
00:29:59,737 --> 00:30:02,856
It's because you're strong.
398
00:30:02,857 --> 00:30:06,857
You just haven't realised it yet.
399
00:30:07,417 --> 00:30:11,417
Rachel, you can see your
sister now, if you like.
400
00:30:17,337 --> 00:30:19,296
I'm your big sister.
401
00:30:19,297 --> 00:30:23,297
I'm going to look after you and love
you and make sure you're all right.
402
00:30:28,537 --> 00:30:31,896
You're perfect.
403
00:30:31,897 --> 00:30:35,897
You are perfect.
404
00:30:35,977 --> 00:30:39,977
You can be strong.
You can be strong.
405
00:30:40,017 --> 00:30:44,017
You CAN be strong.
406
00:30:44,617 --> 00:30:48,617
What do you want?
407
00:30:48,817 --> 00:30:50,736
I want you to tell me where Chloe is.
408
00:30:50,737 --> 00:30:52,416
Why should I?
409
00:30:52,417 --> 00:30:53,976
Because I want to know she's OK.
410
00:30:53,977 --> 00:30:56,656
Why don't you just go away
and stop bothering people?
411
00:30:56,657 --> 00:30:58,216
Who's that?
412
00:30:58,217 --> 00:31:02,217
Visitor for you, mate.
413
00:31:03,737 --> 00:31:05,736
What the fuck are you doing here?
414
00:31:05,737 --> 00:31:08,896
She says she's looking for Chloe
but I think she's come for you, lad.
415
00:31:08,897 --> 00:31:11,816
Yeah, Chloe told me
why you won't sleep with me.
416
00:31:11,817 --> 00:31:15,817
She said that you've got a problem
with taking your clothes off and
that. It doesn't surprise me.
417
00:31:16,417 --> 00:31:19,856
If I looked like you,
I'd probably feel exactly the same.
418
00:31:19,857 --> 00:31:23,336
Weird, Chloe can't keep her clothes
on but you can't take them off.
419
00:31:23,337 --> 00:31:26,216
It'd have been a pity fuck
as well, you know?
420
00:31:26,217 --> 00:31:29,176
Like any fuck
she'll ever have. Right?
421
00:31:29,177 --> 00:31:30,456
I was pissed.
422
00:31:30,457 --> 00:31:34,457
'If I looked like you,
I'd probably feel exactly the same.'
423
00:31:45,457 --> 00:31:49,457
You're perfect. You are perfect.
424
00:31:49,937 --> 00:31:52,496
Everything is going to be OK.
425
00:31:52,497 --> 00:31:55,536
Listen, Rae...
426
00:31:55,537 --> 00:31:58,696
It's time you do one.
427
00:31:58,697 --> 00:32:00,616
No.
428
00:32:00,617 --> 00:32:04,617
I'm looking for Chloe.
Are you going to move or what?
429
00:32:07,777 --> 00:32:11,777
Chloe?
430
00:32:15,577 --> 00:32:19,577
Oh, Chloe. Thank God.
431
00:32:22,417 --> 00:32:26,417
What are you doing here, Rae?
I've come to take you home.
432
00:32:26,577 --> 00:32:29,256
Everyone's really worried
about you. I'm fine.
433
00:32:29,257 --> 00:32:33,257
No-one's hurt me.
434
00:32:34,297 --> 00:32:38,297
You shouldn't be going out with
Ian, Clo. He's not a nice person.
435
00:32:39,657 --> 00:32:43,416
Going out?
436
00:32:43,417 --> 00:32:47,176
We're not going out. We're fucking,
437
00:32:47,177 --> 00:32:51,177
having fun, getting wasted.
438
00:32:51,897 --> 00:32:54,896
And we can do that and
still sleep with whoever we want
439
00:32:54,897 --> 00:32:58,416
because we're adults.
440
00:32:58,417 --> 00:33:02,417
I fooled around with Ben
the other night, so what?
441
00:33:03,377 --> 00:33:07,377
You wouldn't get it
because you're not a part of it.
442
00:33:09,217 --> 00:33:13,217
And I know what you're thinking.
443
00:33:13,817 --> 00:33:16,936
You think they're taking
advantage of me.
444
00:33:16,937 --> 00:33:19,256
But they aren't.
445
00:33:19,257 --> 00:33:22,296
They like me.
446
00:33:22,297 --> 00:33:24,976
You know, and I'm the one
taking advantage.
447
00:33:24,977 --> 00:33:27,776
I'm the one with the power, me.
448
00:33:27,777 --> 00:33:31,777
So what is it that you think
they like about you, then, Clo?
449
00:33:32,697 --> 00:33:35,776
I didn't say like, I said want.
You said like.
450
00:33:35,777 --> 00:33:39,777
Well, what's the difference?
451
00:33:40,777 --> 00:33:44,777
Do you have any idea how
good it feels when someone,
452
00:33:45,457 --> 00:33:49,216
someone literally can't
keep their hands off you
453
00:33:49,217 --> 00:33:53,217
and they grab you
like they're crazy?
454
00:33:53,337 --> 00:33:55,696
You think I'm a bad person,
I can see that.
455
00:33:55,697 --> 00:33:57,056
No, I don't think that.
456
00:33:57,057 --> 00:33:59,696
No, you think I'm a stupid slag!
457
00:33:59,697 --> 00:34:01,856
Well, so what?!
458
00:34:01,857 --> 00:34:05,576
It's my body and I can
do what I want with it.
459
00:34:05,577 --> 00:34:09,176
Do you understand that?
I do understand.
460
00:34:09,177 --> 00:34:13,177
Clo, I do, I do understand. I do.
461
00:34:16,777 --> 00:34:20,777
Chloe, please let me
get you out of here.
462
00:34:21,657 --> 00:34:25,657
I'm scared. I know.
But it'll be all right.
463
00:34:28,817 --> 00:34:32,360
OK, everything will be all right.
I promise.
464
00:34:48,177 --> 00:34:51,377
Here you go. It's
your favourite mug.
465
00:34:54,617 --> 00:34:57,177
Is your mum going to be all right?
466
00:34:57,281 --> 00:35:01,281
I don't know.
467
00:35:01,801 --> 00:35:05,801
Can I get you anything else? No.
468
00:35:06,601 --> 00:35:10,601
Rae... I'm scared about
telling my parents everything.
469
00:35:13,721 --> 00:35:17,721
I'm scared about Ian coming
to find me. Hey, don't be.
470
00:35:18,001 --> 00:35:21,280
OK, we'll sort it out.
471
00:35:21,281 --> 00:35:25,281
We'll sort everything out.
472
00:35:28,081 --> 00:35:31,800
Chloe...
473
00:35:31,801 --> 00:35:34,840
I found your diary in your room.
474
00:35:34,841 --> 00:35:37,640
I read it.
475
00:35:37,641 --> 00:35:41,641
I let you down.
476
00:35:41,881 --> 00:35:45,881
I'm so sorry that I let you down.
477
00:35:47,161 --> 00:35:49,160
So, you know about Finn?
478
00:35:49,161 --> 00:35:51,840
Yeah.
479
00:35:51,841 --> 00:35:54,640
I didn't fall in love
with him on purpose.
480
00:35:54,641 --> 00:35:56,400
I know...
481
00:35:56,401 --> 00:36:00,401
I'm not meant for a Finn.
482
00:36:00,521 --> 00:36:04,521
I'm meant for a Ian. Oh,
Chloe, of course you're not.
483
00:36:05,201 --> 00:36:09,201
You need to start being
kinder to yourself.
484
00:36:09,521 --> 00:36:13,521
You need to... you need
to soothe yourself.
485
00:36:15,881 --> 00:36:17,920
Say, "OK, Rae."
486
00:36:17,921 --> 00:36:19,360
OK, Rae.
487
00:36:19,361 --> 00:36:20,680
"OK, Rae!"
488
00:36:20,681 --> 00:36:24,680
OK, Rae!
489
00:36:24,681 --> 00:36:28,400
God!
490
00:36:28,401 --> 00:36:31,520
Oh, what's everyone
in college saying?
491
00:36:31,521 --> 00:36:34,760
They are saying that you're a slut.
492
00:36:34,761 --> 00:36:38,761
Nice. And I'm mental... oh.
493
00:36:41,241 --> 00:36:45,241
Do you know, I don't even
care what they think of me.
494
00:36:46,121 --> 00:36:49,760
I just care what you think of me.
495
00:36:49,761 --> 00:36:53,761
Well, I think... that
you're my best mate...
496
00:36:57,481 --> 00:37:00,320
..and I think you're amazing!
497
00:37:00,321 --> 00:37:01,641
Stop it.
498
00:37:12,881 --> 00:37:16,881
Oh, baby! Oh, baby, you
know it's OK, it's OK.
499
00:37:18,241 --> 00:37:20,080
Are you all right?
500
00:37:20,081 --> 00:37:23,480
Mmmm, yeah, I'm stable... apparently.
501
00:37:23,481 --> 00:37:27,481
First time in my life anyone's
ever said that about me.
502
00:37:28,441 --> 00:37:31,600
Hey, I'm sorry we fell out.
503
00:37:31,601 --> 00:37:34,560
When I was lying there on the
bathroom floor, I remember
504
00:37:34,561 --> 00:37:38,240
thinking how bad it would be if...
505
00:37:38,241 --> 00:37:42,241
Well, you know, if... the last
thing we did was have an argument
506
00:37:42,601 --> 00:37:44,560
and that was how you remembered us.
507
00:37:44,561 --> 00:37:46,720
No, don't be stupid.
508
00:37:46,721 --> 00:37:50,721
I was just angry about
you seeing your dad.
509
00:37:51,281 --> 00:37:55,281
I was selfish, it's just because
I don't think he's a nice person.
510
00:37:56,121 --> 00:38:00,121
You should have the opportunity
to form your own opinions.
511
00:38:00,441 --> 00:38:04,441
Mum, how did you know it was him
512
00:38:04,841 --> 00:38:06,840
that gave me that record player?
513
00:38:06,841 --> 00:38:10,000
Oh, I don't know.
514
00:38:10,001 --> 00:38:13,440
Mum?
515
00:38:13,441 --> 00:38:16,440
It's the same record
player he gave me,
516
00:38:16,441 --> 00:38:19,960
for our anniversary, 20 years ago.
517
00:38:19,961 --> 00:38:23,320
I didn't want to tell you.
518
00:38:23,321 --> 00:38:25,680
Why would he do that?
519
00:38:25,681 --> 00:38:28,080
I honestly don't know.
520
00:38:28,081 --> 00:38:32,081
Maybe he just forgot.
521
00:38:32,401 --> 00:38:35,840
Anyway, I've got a
favour to ask you.
522
00:38:35,841 --> 00:38:38,600
I've not seen the baby yet.
523
00:38:38,601 --> 00:38:41,000
Will you describe her to me.
524
00:38:41,001 --> 00:38:45,001
Mum, she's so cute... her fingers and
toes are like little Rice Krispies.
525
00:38:45,841 --> 00:38:48,240
She's the most beautiful
baby in the whole world
526
00:38:48,241 --> 00:38:52,241
and she yawns like
a little lion cub...
527
00:39:00,081 --> 00:39:03,200
There's a part in all of us
that's scared and not sure.
528
00:39:03,201 --> 00:39:06,200
And when you get the ability
to see that in yourself,
529
00:39:06,201 --> 00:39:10,201
you start to see that everyone
is fighting, every day and just
530
00:39:10,361 --> 00:39:14,360
like Finn said, so,
instead of saying,
531
00:39:14,361 --> 00:39:16,840
"You're fat and
you're ugly..."
532
00:39:16,841 --> 00:39:20,240
I'm going to say, "You are the
person who helped your mum out,
533
00:39:20,241 --> 00:39:24,241
"Who saved your best mate who lives
with an illness but keeps on going."
534
00:39:25,881 --> 00:39:29,520
Me... I did all that all that.
535
00:39:29,521 --> 00:39:31,240
That's not to say me
536
00:39:31,241 --> 00:39:34,920
and Chloe weren't scared of going
back to college, we were terrified.
537
00:39:34,921 --> 00:39:38,921
But we had to do it for each other.
538
00:39:40,161 --> 00:39:41,800
Jesus!
539
00:39:41,801 --> 00:39:45,801
Because there's nothing we couldn't
face when we're together.
540
00:39:46,361 --> 00:39:49,040
I thought you were off getting
your brains shagged out by every
541
00:39:49,041 --> 00:39:51,760
man in Stamford.
542
00:39:51,761 --> 00:39:55,761
Don't Rae.
543
00:39:56,881 --> 00:40:00,881
Oh...
544
00:40:03,361 --> 00:40:07,321
See you later Vicky.
545
00:40:12,881 --> 00:40:16,640
Listen, there something I've got
to go an do, are you all right?
546
00:40:16,641 --> 00:40:20,641
Yes, I'll be fine. Are
you going? Yes... go!
547
00:40:25,241 --> 00:40:28,480
So, you've come out of hiding.
548
00:40:28,481 --> 00:40:32,280
So, how about tonight, then?
549
00:40:32,281 --> 00:40:36,281
Listen, Liam, I think we
should just be friends.
550
00:40:38,881 --> 00:40:41,640
I just don't think that
we're good for each other.
551
00:40:41,641 --> 00:40:43,440
Why?
552
00:40:43,441 --> 00:40:45,600
I don't want to be
fucked up any more.
553
00:40:45,601 --> 00:40:49,080
I don't think that there's anything
wrong with being fucked up.
554
00:40:49,081 --> 00:40:53,081
Yeah, you say that... so, you don't
think that people can change?
555
00:40:58,401 --> 00:41:02,401
But I know that they can.
556
00:41:03,641 --> 00:41:07,560
Liam could stay the same and
that's OK but I was changing now
557
00:41:07,561 --> 00:41:10,240
and that meant not turning
up on my dad's doorstep.
558
00:41:10,241 --> 00:41:12,840
It meant, finally, writing
him a letter that said,
559
00:41:12,841 --> 00:41:15,560
"It was nice to meet you
and see you around."
560
00:41:15,561 --> 00:41:19,561
Because the truth was
that I already had a dad.
561
00:41:20,481 --> 00:41:23,680
Hang on, Mum, why are
we going into your room?
562
00:41:23,681 --> 00:41:27,680
Well, that's the thing,
it's not our any more.
563
00:41:27,681 --> 00:41:29,241
It's your room.
564
00:41:30,761 --> 00:41:32,520
What?
565
00:41:32,521 --> 00:41:36,521
No! Oh, my God!
566
00:41:37,481 --> 00:41:38,800
Do you like it?
567
00:41:38,801 --> 00:41:41,480
Yeah! Wait, where are
you going to sleep?
568
00:41:41,481 --> 00:41:42,920
Oh, we'll go in with the baby and
569
00:41:42,921 --> 00:41:44,760
when mini Boushtat
needs her own space,
570
00:41:44,761 --> 00:41:47,760
we'll sort something out. Anyway,
you'll be at uni then, won't you?
571
00:41:47,761 --> 00:41:49,160
Eh, eh, won't you?
572
00:41:49,161 --> 00:41:52,080
Yeah! Yeah!
573
00:41:52,081 --> 00:41:56,040
Hang on... how did you
two afford all this?
574
00:41:56,041 --> 00:41:58,880
Well, why do you think
Karim took a second job?
575
00:41:58,881 --> 00:42:01,840
He's been working nights to
make this whole house look nice,
576
00:42:01,841 --> 00:42:04,040
haven't you Mr Lollypop.
577
00:42:04,041 --> 00:42:06,000
Stop! Cross.
578
00:42:06,001 --> 00:42:07,560
Really?
579
00:42:07,561 --> 00:42:09,560
I like, it's not bad.
580
00:42:09,561 --> 00:42:11,600
No.
581
00:42:11,601 --> 00:42:15,601
Mum, thank you. Karim, thank you.
582
00:42:15,881 --> 00:42:18,000
Oh, baby. I don't know what to say.
583
00:42:18,001 --> 00:42:20,320
You didn't have to
do all this for me.
584
00:42:20,321 --> 00:42:24,321
It's my job number
three, job number three,
585
00:42:24,881 --> 00:42:28,240
taking care of my three ladies.
586
00:42:28,241 --> 00:42:29,640
Yes?
587
00:42:29,641 --> 00:42:33,240
I say wrong? Love, you said perfect!
588
00:42:33,241 --> 00:42:36,640
Anyway, little Boushtat gets
to come home next week,
589
00:42:36,641 --> 00:42:38,800
so, say goodbye to sleep.
590
00:42:38,801 --> 00:42:40,600
You all right with that?
591
00:42:40,601 --> 00:42:43,000
Mum, you joking?
592
00:42:43,001 --> 00:42:45,200
I can't wait!
593
00:42:45,201 --> 00:42:48,440
Everything was slowly
coming back together.
594
00:42:48,441 --> 00:42:52,441
There was just one
thing left to be fixed.
595
00:42:53,161 --> 00:42:54,960
So, what time's Finn getting here?
596
00:42:54,961 --> 00:42:58,880
How should I know?
597
00:42:58,881 --> 00:43:02,320
Archie, I'm so sorry
that I was mad at you.
598
00:43:02,321 --> 00:43:05,480
Look, I know that you were angry at
Chop and that's why you told him.
599
00:43:05,481 --> 00:43:09,481
I'm sorry too.
600
00:43:09,561 --> 00:43:12,520
Awww!
601
00:43:12,521 --> 00:43:14,240
Oh, for...
602
00:43:14,241 --> 00:43:16,080
You all right, dudes?
603
00:43:16,081 --> 00:43:19,920
How's it hanging... Archie,
still a bummer?
604
00:43:19,921 --> 00:43:21,880
Just go away!
605
00:43:21,881 --> 00:43:24,760
What, that was a
legitimate question.
606
00:43:24,761 --> 00:43:26,440
Are you still a bummer?
607
00:43:26,441 --> 00:43:30,441
Stop! Everyone, stop
what they're doing!
608
00:43:30,601 --> 00:43:34,601
Why don't you tell the full pub
what you've just asked Archie?
609
00:43:36,281 --> 00:43:37,720
What you on about, Chop, man?
610
00:43:37,721 --> 00:43:41,080
I'm being serious, pal! Tell
the whole pub! Piss off!
611
00:43:41,081 --> 00:43:45,081
This motherfucker here is
a top fella and I sat there
612
00:43:45,241 --> 00:43:49,241
and watched you two mugs
take the piss out of him.
613
00:43:50,161 --> 00:43:54,161
I'm sorry, lad. Jesus, are you
two going out or something?
614
00:43:57,441 --> 00:44:00,280
If I see you in this pub again,
615
00:44:00,281 --> 00:44:03,040
I'll fucking debrief you!
616
00:44:03,041 --> 00:44:07,041
Off you pop, lads.
617
00:44:07,321 --> 00:44:09,681
Bye! Bye!
618
00:44:11,881 --> 00:44:15,881
Chop, you didn't have to...
619
00:44:17,921 --> 00:44:19,560
I love you, lad.
620
00:44:19,561 --> 00:44:20,921
I mean that.
621
00:44:32,961 --> 00:44:34,920
There he is.
622
00:44:34,921 --> 00:44:36,760
Hiya, Rae, all right?
623
00:44:36,761 --> 00:44:38,240
Are you all right, Danny?
624
00:44:38,241 --> 00:44:40,240
Yeah, thanks for inviting me.
625
00:44:40,241 --> 00:44:41,680
I'm so excited and nervous.
626
00:44:41,681 --> 00:44:45,120
I only wore one hat cos I
don't want everybody to think
627
00:44:45,121 --> 00:44:49,121
I'm too mad or anything.
628
00:44:49,161 --> 00:44:52,680
And that was that, everything
was back together again... well,
629
00:44:52,681 --> 00:44:54,200
almost everything.
630
00:44:54,201 --> 00:44:56,760
Taking a bite out of a
piece of bread was one thing
631
00:44:56,761 --> 00:44:59,000
but getting naked was another.
632
00:44:59,001 --> 00:45:00,840
And if I couldn't do it,
633
00:45:00,841 --> 00:45:04,720
then it wasn't fair to Finn
to get involved with him again.
634
00:45:04,721 --> 00:45:07,120
Or to be around him.
635
00:45:07,121 --> 00:45:09,040
How's it going?
636
00:45:09,041 --> 00:45:11,160
Ups and downs, you know.
637
00:45:11,161 --> 00:45:15,161
I just wondered if we could talk.
638
00:45:15,601 --> 00:45:19,601
You know, about you and me. No, no,
I don't think that's a good idea.
639
00:45:22,681 --> 00:45:24,921
I don't think talking's a good idea.
640
00:45:30,999 --> 00:45:34,999
Dear Diary, that's the thing with
diaries, they're like movies,
641
00:45:35,679 --> 00:45:39,238
they're just stories,
filled with the things I saw
642
00:45:39,239 --> 00:45:40,878
and the things I felt.
643
00:45:40,879 --> 00:45:42,678
But when I look around,
644
00:45:42,679 --> 00:45:46,679
I see that everyone's the
protagonist of their own story.
645
00:45:46,999 --> 00:45:50,999
And the thing about stories is that
not all of them have a happy ending.
646
00:45:54,199 --> 00:45:58,199
But some do.
647
00:46:01,759 --> 00:46:05,759
This is much better than talking.
648
00:46:06,080 --> 00:46:09,940
Yeah, well, when I say,
"To be continued,"
649
00:46:10,031 --> 00:46:14,031
I mean, "To be continued!"