第五幕：天堂 我在天堂 ACT FIVE : Heaven, I'm in Heaven
制作人：王浩成 校订人：王浩成 后期：在往事中呐喊
她在靠近 - 你在说 她是 - She's approaching - What are you...? She is?
谦逊让我羞于解释 可我确实知道 Modesty forbids me explaining exactly how I know
我有一个绝对正确的晴雨表 测量她的远近 现在 它在升起 I have an infallible barometer of Her proximity. And it's rising
哦 瞎说 - 她上路了 - Oh, nonsense, mafs... - She's on her way
打开灯 打开灯 Turn the lights back on. turn the lights...
我 我 我 我回来了 先知 没遵照计划 I I I I have returned. Prophet. and not according to plan
收回去 你的书 不管你传给我什么 我不是它的仓库 我拒绝！ Take it back. Your Book. whatever you left in me. I won't be its repository. I reject it
帮我离开这 帮我！ Help me out here. Help me!I
我不 我不 这是梦 这是梦 I don't, I don't... This is a dream！it's a dream
都这时候了 说这些有什么用... - 我不知道该 - I don't think that's really the point right at this particular moment... - I don't know what to...
你出的主意 拒绝幻象 你说 - 是的 可我以为是个比喻... - Well it was your idea. reject the vision. you said - Yes but I thought it was more a metaphorical...
你说圣经有过先例 你说...我该怎么办 You said scriptural precedent. you said... What am I supposed to do?
跟她摔跤 - 干吗 - You wrestle her - Say what'!
这是一个天使 你抓住她 说 容我想想 等一下 It's an angel. you just grab hold and say... Oh what was it. wait. wait
抓住她 说 '你要是不祝福我 我就不让你走！' Grab her, say, 'l will not let thee go except thou bless me'
然后呢 - 然后跟她摔跤 直到她屈服 - And then what? - Then wrestle with her till she gives in
你跟她摔跤 我可不会摔跤…… You wrestle her, i dont know how to wrestle……
你要是不祝福我 我就不让你走 I will not let thee go except thou bless me
收回你的书 Take back your Book
拒绝迁移 太弱智了 我不相信 就没有更好的出路 Anti-migration. that's so feeble. I can't believe... you couldn't do better than that
释放我！解救我！祝福我 然后我会让你走 Free me! Unfetter me! Bless me or whatever, but I will be let go
我 我 我 我是美国天使 我 我 我 我是猛禽 我不妥协！ I I I I am the continental principality of America. I I I I am the bird of prey. I will not be compelled
入口已经打开 请将圣典归还天堂 Entrance has been gained. Return the text to Heaven
我能回来吗 除非我能回来 不然 你占了上风 先知 你来选择！ - Can I come back? I don't want to go unless... - You have prevailed. Prophet. You choose
现在放开我 我大腿的肌肉折了一块 Now release me. I have torn a muscle in my thigh
有什么大不了 我的腿疼了几个月了 Big deal. my leg's been hurting for months
干吗！干吗！你跟我没关系！ What! What'! You've got no business with me
我没有召唤你 你是他的热夜之梦 不是我的 他走了 你也该走了！ I didn't call you, you're his fever dream not mine, and he's gone now and you should go, too
我马上就醒过来了 I am waking up right now
身体是灵魂的花园 The body is the garden of the soul
哦 是你 我的假想朋友 Oh, it's you. My imaginary friend
你死了吗 - 我们在哪 - Are you dead? - Where are we?
天堂 - 天堂 我在天堂 但我并没死 - Heaven - Heaven? I'm in Heaven? But I'm not dead
我们刚做完爱 然后他就走了 我喝了一大杯水和两片安定 We just had sex, and then he had to leave. I drank an enormous glass of water and two Valiums
六片 也许我服用过量 像玛丽莲·梦露那样 Or six. Maybe, I'm overdosed, like Marilyn Monroe
你死了吗 - 没有 我有公事 - Did you die? - No, I'm here on business
我可以重回人间 如果我想 - 你想吗 - I can return to the world. If I want to - Do you?
我不知道 - 是吧 - I don't know - I know
天堂令人沮丧 到处都是死人什么的 但生活... Heaven is depressing, full of dead people and all, but life...
要优雅面对失去 这是关键 尽管这不可能 你能做的 就只能是撒手 To face loss with grace is key, I think, but it's impossible. All you ever do is lose and lose
但是抓着不放手 人就毁了 - 世事艰难哪 留下来陪我 - But not letting go deforms you so - The world's too hard. Stay here with me
我不能 我感觉很糟 却充满了前所未有的活力 I can't. I feel like shit but I've never felt more alive
我终于发现了摩门教能量的秘密 I've finally found the secret of all that Mormon energy
绝望 这就是人们迁移和建设的原因 Devastation. That's what makes people migrate, build things
绝望的人 失去爱的人 才这么做 Devastated people do it, people who have lost love
我觉得上帝并不爱他的子民 就像乔不爱我那样 Because I don't think God loves His people any more than Joe loved me
牵系已经切断 他们走了 蹂躏 断肠 自由 The string was cut. and off they went. Ravaged. heartbroken. and free
现在我要回家了 我希望你能回来 I have to go home now. I hope you come back
看这个地方 你能想象在这永恒下去吗 Look at the place. Can you imagine spending eternity here?
这里本就该像旧金山 It's supposed to look like San Francisco
但是人间的旧金山 美丽到无以言表 Oh but the real San Francisco on earth Is unspeakably beautiful
无以言表的美丽 这我倒想看看呢 Unspeakable beauty. that's something I would like to see
再见 Good-bye
致敬 先知 我们一直在等你 Greetings. Prophet. We have been waiting for you
赶紧！ Hurry
哦 我的天啊 我的天啊 太不可思议了！罗伊·科恩！ Oh my God, oh my God. This is too weird for words, it's Roy Cohn
叫人毛骨悚然 我讨厌医院 - 别抱怨了 我们行动要快 - It's so creepy here. I hate hospitals - Stop whining. We have to move fast
如果情况有变 我得叫值班护士 情况已经有变 I'm supposed to call the duty nurse if his condition changes. And it's changed
摘掉眼镜 你看上去很滑稽 Take off those glasses. you look ridiculous
你怎么了 What happened to you?
赎罪 为我的罪过 Expiation. For my sins
我干吗来了 - 为你的罪过赎罪 - What am I doing here? - Expiation for your sins
我自己带不走这些东西 我必须告诉他们他已经死了 还要填写表格 I can't take the stuff out myself. I have to tell them he's dead and fill out all the forms
我不想他们没收药品 And I don't want them confiscating the medicine
我需要有人帮我搬运 所以我叫你来- 为什么是我 你恨我 - I needed a packmule, so I called you - Why me? You hate me
我需要一个犹太人 第一个想到你- 你什么意思 需要一个犹太人 - I needed a Jew. You were the first to come to mind - What do you mean you needed a Jew?
我们要感谢他 给我们药 - 感谢他 - We're going to thank him. For the pills. - Thank him?
你们犹太人给死人的悼词叫什么 What do you call the Jewish prayer for the dead?
卡迪什 - 就是这个 说对了！ - The Kaddish - That's the one. Hit it
哇哦 等一等 Whoah. hold on
赶紧 他们很快就来查房 他... - 我不干 不行！ - Do it. do it. they'll be in here to check and he... - I'm not. Fuck no
为他 没门！药物 可以 当然 没问题！ For him? No fucking way! The drugs OK, sure, fine
为他临终祈祷 门都没有 我住斯克内克塔迪的新政左翼父母 But no fucking way am I praying for him. My New Deal Pinko parents in Schenectady...
永远不会原谅我 他们已经非常失望了 ...would never forgive me. they're already so disappointed
'他是个基佬 他是个临时工 现在 还为罗伊·科恩念临终祈祷' 'He's a fag, he's an office temp, and now look, he's saying Kaddish for Roy Cohn'
我不敢相信你竟给他做祈祷 - 路易斯 我甚至会为你祈祷 - I can't believe you'd actually pray for... - Louis. I'd even pray for you
他是一个混账东西 死得很惨 也许女王可以原谅被她击败的敌人 He was a terrible person. He died a hard death. So maybe a queen can forgive her vanquished foe
这并不容易 容易的话 就不算回事了 宽恕 是最难的事情 It isn't easy. it doesn't count if it's easy. It's the hardest thing. Forgiveness
宽恕 爱和正义没准最终在这交集 Which is maybe where love and justice finally meet
至少是和解 这不是临终祈祷的目的吗 Peace. at least. Isn't that what the Kaddish asks for?
哦 这要希伯来语或亚拉姆语 谁知道祈祷的是什么 Oh it's Hebrew or Aramaic or something, who knows what it's asking
我32岁了 从未见过死尸 I'm thirty-two years old and I've never seen a dead body before
它好沉重 好小 It's so heavy, and small
临终祈祷 我知道的不比你多 伯利兹 我是一个非常世俗的犹太人 I know probably less of the Kaddish than you do. Belize. I'm an intensely secular Jew
我甚至都没有施行受诫礼 - 尽你所能吧 - I didn't even Bar Mitzvah - Do the best you can
愿 他的圣名 高贵而神圣 'Yisgadal ve`yiskadash sh'mey rabo sh`mey de kidshoh,
Boray pre hagoffen 不 这是祈福式 不是临终祈祷 Boray pre hagoffen. No. that's the Kiddush. not the Kaddish
Shema YIsroel adonai 好愚啊 伯利兹 我说不出来 Um... Shema YIsroel adonai..." This is silly, Belize, I can't
凭 他的意志 创造世界! - 愿 他建立自己的王国 B`olmo deevro vhitoodry ve`yamlich malchusey
凭 他的意志 创造世界! - 愿 他建立自己的王国 B`olmo deevro chiroosey ve`yamlich malchusey
生生世世 日日夜夜, 生生世世 我们的家园 以色列！ Bechayeychon uv`yomechechon uvchayey d`chol beys Yisroel
速矣！迅矣！齐念“阿门”！愿 他的圣名 得主保佑！ Ba'agolo uvizman koriv... Ve'imroo omain. Yehey sh`mey rabo m'vorach
永远 已至永恒！得主保佑 得主赞美！ L`olam ulolmey olmayoh. Yisborach ve`yishtabach...
受以荣耀 受以高贵 受以赞美 受以尊敬 受以崇拜 受以颂扬, 荣耀归于圣主 ve`yispoar ve`yismman ve`iysnasey ve`yis`hadar ve`YissalIeh ve`YishalIol sh'mey dekudsho
保佑 即我主 超越一切保佑, Berich hoo le`eylo min kol birchoso veshiroso...
受以赞美 受以宽慰 诉之天下 齐念“阿门”！ Tushb`choso venechemoso, daameeron b`olmo ve`imroo omain
愿 天降和平, 至你 至我 至以色列 齐念阿门！ Y`he sh`lonm rabbo min st`mayo V`chayim olenu V`al kol Yisroel, V`imru omain
愿 圣居和平 降和平至人民 至以色列！ Oseh shalom bimromov hu ya-aseh shalom olenu V`al col Yisroel
齐念“阿门”！ - 齐念“阿门”！ V'imru omain - V'imru omain
你个婊子养的！ - 你个婊子养的！ - You sonofabitch - You sonofabitch
谢谢你 路易斯 你做得很好 Thank you. Louis. You did fine
很好 你在说什么很好 这简直他妈的就是奇迹 Fine? What are you talking about. fine? That was fucking miraculous
我回来了 哈珀 I'm back. Harper?
- 你在这里做什么 - 我死了 没关系 - What are you doing here? - Dead Joe. Doesn't matter
不 不 你骗了我 你说是癌症 你说... No, no. You lied to me. You said cancer, you said...
你可以看报纸 艾滋病 我不想让你误会 You could have read it in the papers. AIDS. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression
你打了人 心情很糟 - 我希望你 - You feel bad that you beat somebody - I want you to...
他罪有应得 - 不 他不是 - He deserved it - No he didn't
每个人都罪有应得 每个人都该好好暴打一次 Everybody does. Everybody could use a good beating
不不 那是...罗伊 你赶紧走吧 你真的吓到我了 出去 你不属于这 No. no. that's... I want you leave go Roy. you're really frightening me. Get out. You don't belong here
我不该那么对他 我伤害了他 我把他打流血了 他不愿意再见我 He didn't deserve what I did to him. I hurt him, Roy. I made him bleed. He won't ever see me again
哦不 哦不 我为什么这么做 我干了什么 我为什么这么做 Oh no. oh no. What did I do that for? What did I do? What did I do that for ?
我现在该怎么办 Tell me what should i do now?
我以为 我做了我该做的事 我以为我做对了 像你那样... I thought I was doing what I was supposed to do, I thought I'd find my way, the way you did...
认识到事情的本质 认识到世界的本质 ...to the heart of the things, to the heart of the world
我以为我自己很安全 躲藏在…… I imagined myself safe there, in the hollow of...
但我无着无落的 拥有了这个世界 又能怎么样呢 But I'm above nothing. I'm of the world. Whatever that means
不管上帝怎么看这个世界 他肯定以相同的方式看我 Whatever God thinks of the world, I think He must think the same of me
告诉我现在该怎么办 Tell me what`d I do now
我是个骗子 我撒了谎 我从没有告诉过你 你叫我害怕 I'm a liar. I lied. I never told you how much you frighten me, Roy
我不瞎 但我装作看不见 我什么都知道 知道你是什么样的人 I'm not blind, not blind as I tried to be. I've always seen, known what you are
我不是那样的人 我不像你 但我撒谎了！我撒谎了！ And I am not like that. I am not like you. But I've lied and I lied and I lied
学着懂点事吧 宝贝乔 不要融入这个世界 Show me a little of what you've learned, baby Joe. Out in the world
该死的 我必须要摆脱尘世的喧嚣 Damn. I gotta shuffle off this mortal coil
我希望 在伟大的来世 我有事情可做 我容易厌倦 I hope they have something for me to do in the Great Hereafter, I get bored easy
你会发现 我的朋友 你所爱的 指引你所到之处 你做梦都没料到 You'll find, my friend, that what you love will take you places you never dreamed you'd go
希望你不用担心 - 哈珀 你去哪了 - Hope you didn't worry - Harper? Where were you?
游丝般轻软的翅膀 带我去了月宫 - 什么 - A trip to the moon on gossamer wings - What?
你应该听检测一下你的听力 你老问“什么” You ought to get your hearing checked. you say that a lot
我出去了 跟朋友在一起 去了天堂 I was out. With a friend. In Paradise
在美国天使的大厅 天堂 很像旧金山的一个城市 In the Hall of the Continental Principalities. Heaven. a city much like San Francisco
七个“极限聚合天使实体”中的六个 列席 Six of seven myriad infinite aggregate angelic entities in attendance
愿 他们神圣的名字 永获赞美 哈利路亚！ May their glorious names be praised for ever and ever, Hallelujah
永久紧急会议 现在开始 Permanent Emergency Council is now in session
四号反应堆爆炸后一周 大火仍在燃烧 估计... ...one week following the explosion at the number four reactor. the fires are still burning and an estimated...
向大气释放五千万放射性碘 ...releasing into the atmosphere fifty million curies of radioactive iodine...
...像有毒的雪 落入第聂伯河 这条河为三千五百万人提供饮用水 ...falling like toxic snow into the Dnieper River. which provides drinking water for thirty-five million...
冷战隔离导致安全感文化缺失的严重后果 ...consequence of the lack of safety culture caused by Cold War isolation
什么时候 - 4月26日 从今天起三个月 - When? - April 26. Three months from today
这个地方在哪 这个反应堆 - 切尔诺贝利 白俄罗斯 - Where is this place? This reactor? - Chernoby. In Belarus
信号又没了 We are losing the signal
成百上千的人将死去 - 太可怕了 成千上万 - Hundreds, thousands will die - Horribly. Hundreds of thousands
让他们死吧 不可计数 太可怕了 - Let them. Uncountable multitudes. Horrible
他们自找的 我 我 我乐于看到 - 我们被禁锢 在天堂沉默 - It is by their own hands. I I I will rejoice to see it - That is forbidden us. Silence in heaven
信号接收太弱了 The reception is too weakl
能修吗 - 修不了 - Can it be fixed? - It is beyond us
我我我不会为他们哭泣 我我我化石燃料不可弥补的浪费而哭泣 I I I do not weep for them. I I I weep for the irremediable wastage of fossil fuels
地球的陈血 大肆洒落 焚烧 丢弃在水晶般的空气里 Old blood of the globe spilled wantonly or burned and jettisoned into the crystal air
但愿 他能回来 解释给我们听 If only he would return and explain to us
威严的天使同胞们 上帝的天使们 抱歉我的缺席 我延误了 Most august fellow principalities. angels most high. I regret my absence. I was detained
啊 这是... - 先知 是的 - Ah, this is...? - The Prophet. Yes
我想归还这个 I want to return thisI
有什么问题吗 - 只是... - What is the matter with it? - lt just...
我们停不下来 我们不是石头 We can't just stop. We're not rocks
进步 迁徙 运动 是现代性 它有生命 生命在于运动 Progress. migration. motion is modernity. It's animate. it's what living things do
我们有欲望 即使我们欲望的只是静止 它仍是欲望 We desire. Even if all we desire is stillness, it's still desire for
即使我们过于迅速 我们也停不下来 等什么呢 Even if we go faster than we should. We can't wait. And wait for what?
上帝 上帝 God God
他不会回来 即使他会 He isn't coming back. And even if He did...
如果他回来了 If He ever did come back...
如果他有脸再现身 现形 在花园里 If He ever dared to show His face, or his glyph or whatever in the garden again...
经历了这一切毁灭 经历了这个恐怖世纪的这一切恐怖岁月 If after all this destrution, if after all the terrible days of this terrible century...
他回来看到创造的遗弃物 在遭受苦难 He returned to see how much suffering His abandonment had created...
如果他给我们的 只有死亡 你们应该起诉那个王八蛋 if all He has to offer is death You should sue the bastard
起诉那个不负责任的王八蛋 他好大胆！他得偿还！ Sue the bastard for walking out. How dare He. He oughta pay
先知如是说！ Thus spake the Prophet
谢谢你们分享给我这个 可我不想保留 So thank you for sharing this with me. but I don't want to keep it
他想活下去 - 是的 - He wants to live - Yes
看在上帝的份上 我才三十岁 I'm thirty years old. for God sake
我一事无成 我想健康活着 I haven't done anything yet. I want to be healthy again
这场瘟疫 应该停止了 于我 于所有人 让我们治愈 And this plague, it should stop. In me and everywhere. Make it go away
我们尝试过 我们和你一起受苦 但我们没办法 我们没办法 We have tried. We suffer with you but we do not know. We do not know how
这是静止的巨著 关于缓期 关于休止 This is the tome of immobility. of respite. of cessation
将圣典的苦水一次饮完 先知 你永远不会再渴 Drink of its bitter water once. Prophet. and you will never thirst again
我不能 I can't
我仍然希望获得祝福 即使不能治愈 我想活着 I still want my blessing. Even sick. I want to be alive
你觉得你想活着 活着只是一个惯性 You only think you do. Life is a habit with you
你没有见到未来 我们见过 You have not seen what is to come. We have
后世的严峻演变带来了什么 你们希望去承受它们吗 What will the grim unfolding of these latter days bring That you or any being should wish to endure them?
死亡比一切都丰饶 天堂有眼泪来将它哀悼 Death more plenteous than all heaven has tears to mourn it
伟大计划在缓慢消融 永恒之作在螺旋分离 The slow dissolving of the great design. the spiraling apart of the work of eternity
世界及它美丽的逻辑粒子 在分崩离析 The world and its beautiful particle logic all collapsed
无星的 孤月的玛瑙之夜中 只剩死亡 永恒的死亡 All dead, forever, in starless, moon-Iorn onyx night
我们在溃败 溃败 地球和天使 向上看 向上看 We are failing, failing, the earth and the angels. Look up, look up
毁灭的时刻 到了 It is not-to-be time
哦 末世降临 谁还寻求祝福 Oh, who asks of the orders blessing with apocalypse descending?
谁还寻求生命 - 当死亡像一位使者... Who demands more life When death like a protector...
盲了我们的双眼 保护我们脆弱的神经 免受不可承受的恐惧侵扰！ ...blinds our eyes shielding from tender nerve more horror than can be borne?
享受命运召唤的人啊 正悄然走向死亡 Let any being on whom fortune smiles creep away to death
在最后的、可怕的黎明之前夜 当所有的毁灭向你回归 Before that last dreadful daybreak When all your ravaging returns to you".
炙烤的、无情的太阳冉冉升起： With the rising. scorching. unrelenting sun：
清晨染成了血红 将生命带走 When morning blisters crimson and bears all life away
潮汐般的变幻的火焰 席卷了地球 A tidal wave of protean fire that curls around the planet
把地球烧得像白骨一样干净 And bares the earth clean as bone
我还是 还是...想获得祝福 But still. Still... Bless me anyway
我还想活着 我无法自制 无法自制 I want more life. I can't help myself. I do
我受尽了苦难 还有比我遭受更大苦难的人们 I've lived through such terrible times. and there are people who live through much much worse
你看 他们仍在求生！ But you see them living anyway
他们的精神强于肉体 疼痛强于肌肤 When they're more spirit than body. more sores than skin...
他们燃烧 他们受苦 苍蝇在他们孩子的眼角产下了卵 他们仍在求生！ ...when they're burned and in agony. when flies lay eggs in the corners of the eyes of their children, they live.
死亡是要带走生命 我不知道这是否只是自然规则 Death usually has to take life away. I don't know if that`s just the animal
我不知道死亡是否是更勇敢 可我认同这种惯性 I don't know if it's not braver to die. but I recognize the habit
对活着 上了瘾 我们无可救药地活着 The addiction to being alive. We live past hope
如果我能找到希望 可以 那最好不过 可单有希望还不行 lf l can find hope anywhere. that's it. that's the best I can do. That's so much not enough.
远远不足 so inadequate
还是祝福我吧 我想活下去 But bless me anyway. I want more Iife
你没有看到未来 你只看到了你害怕到来的 You haven't seen what's to come. You've only seen what you're afraid is coming
该来的会来的 请不要感到冒犯 你能看到的 只是恐惧 Until it arrives please don't be offended. but all you can see is fear
现在 我把天堂留给你们 我把疾病带走 I'm leaving heaven to you now. I'll take my illness with me
连同死亡 我也一起带走 And I'll take my death with me. too
地球是我的家 我想回家！ The earth's my home, and I want to go home
我筋疲力尽 - 你辗转反侧了一宿 - I'm exhausted - You've been working hard
感觉好难受 - 欢迎回家！ - I feel terrible - Welcome back to the world
从哪回家 From where.
你看看 这是人类的黎明 - 金星从海上升起！ - Well look at this. It's the dawn of man - Venus rising from the sea
我浑身都湿了 - 烧退了 这是个好兆头 - I'm wet- Fever broke. That's a good sign
他们一会给你换 - 皮特太太 她是... - They'll be in to change you in... - Mrs Pitt? Did she...
她要梳洗一下 她太了不起了 你是怎么认识她的 Elle fait sa toilette. Elle est tres formidable, ca. where did you find her?
这都是缘分 她 我做了个奇妙的梦 We found each other. she... I've had a remarkable dream
有你在 还有你 And you were there. And you
还有你 - 我什么 - And you - I what
有些情节好可怕 有些情节好精彩！ And some of it was terrible. and some of it was wonderful
我不断请求 我想要回家 他们就送我回家了 But all the same I kept saying I want to go home and they sent me home
你在说什么！ - 谢谢你 - What are you talking about! - Thank you
我只是睡在椅子上 - 她救了我的命 - I just slept in the chair - She saved my life
我可没有 我睡在椅子上 医院让我感觉很难受 让我记起一些事情 I did no such thing. I slept in the chair. Being in hospital upsets me. it reminds me of things
我要回家了 我做了个十分怪异的梦 I have to go home now. I had the most peculiar dream
我能进来吗 Can I come in?
我要查房了 I have to start rounds
你是幸运的一个 该奖你一朵玫瑰 你好好休息 You're one of the lucky ones. I could give you a rose. You rest your weary bones
你是 你怎么了 What are you... What happened to you?
见血了 你说过... Visible scars. You said...
哦 路易斯 你太咬文嚼字了！ Oh, Louis, you're so goddamned literal about everything
我现在要走了 - 你要回来看我！ - I'm going now - You'll come back
有空的话 我还要忙呢 if I can. I have things to take care of.
一定要来 我总是依赖陌生人的善意 Please do. I have always depended on the kindness of strangers
那你就太傻了 Well, that's a stupid thing to do!
她是谁 - 你还是不要知道 - Who's she? - You really don't want to know
在我离开之前 给你个欢迎礼 - 什么 - Before I depart. A homecoming gift - What?
我看不清标签 我的眼睛还没见好 I can't read the label. My eyes aren't any better
AZT 你究竟是怎么 这可是抢手药 我吓到了 AZT? How on earth did you...? These are hot pills. I am shocked
来自早日康复基金的捐赠 一个坏女巫给的 A contribution to the get-well fund. From a bad fairy
这些药 它们 它们会让你好的 These pills, they... They make you better
这是毒药 让你贫血 从今以后这是我的人生 路易斯 我不会好的 They're poison. they make you anemic. This is my life. from now on. Louis. I'm not getting better
我还没准备这么糟蹋我的骨髓 l'm not sure I'm ready to do that to my bone marrow
我们明天谈 我要回家 舒展我的筋骨了 We can talk about it tomorrow. I'm going home to nurse my grudges
回见 宝贝 睡个大觉！ Ta, baby, sleep all day
再见路易斯 一个房间 相信你能应付得了 Ta, Louis, you sure know how to clear a room
普莱尔 我想回到你身边 Prior, I want to come back to you
我想要信用卡 就这些 I want the credit card. that's all
你可以根据消费地点 跟我取得联系 如果你想联系 我不在乎 You can keep track of me from where the charges come from. if you want to keep track. I don't care
我要告诉你点事 I have some things to tell you
我不想谈 我们没必要再谈了 信用卡 I don't want to talk, we shouldn't do that anymore. Credit card
我不知道 没有你我该怎么办 I don't know what will happen to me without you
只有你 只有你爱我 再没有人了 Only you. Only you love me. Out of everyone in the world
我惭愧我做的事 可我改了 我不知道怎么改的！求你别离开我 I have done things, I'm ashamed. But I have changed. I don't know how. Please, please, don't leave me now, Harper
哈珀 你对我很好 Harper You are my good heart.
疼吗 Did you hurt?
疼吧 长点记性 快点 Yes. Remember that. PIease.
我找到工作了 就会把卡剪掉 if I can get a job or something. I'll cut the card to pieces...
我就不再刷卡了 信用卡 ...and there won't be charges anymore.Credit Card.
常联系 一定要 Call or... Call. You have to
不了 别再联系了 太糟糕了 No. Probably never again. That's how bad
有时候 迷失是最好的出路 Sometimes, maybe lost is best
迷失掉 乔 去摸索！ Get lost. Joe. Go exploring
喝上一大杯水 With a big glass of water
我想回到你身边 你可以回应 说什么都行 I want to come back to you. You could respond. you could say something
叫我滚蛋 说答应 或者说不答应 或者说可以 管它呢 Throw me out or say it's fine, or it's not fine, but sure what the hell or...
我真的辜负了你 但是 很艰难 I really failed you. But... This is hard
辜负了爱 不等于不爱 并没有让你摆脱困境 Failing in love isn't the same as not loving. It doesn't let you off the hook
并不是说 你想不爱就不爱了 It doesn't mean you're free to not love
我爱你 路易斯 - 很好 我爱你 - I love you Louis - Good. I love you
我真的爱你 但你回不来了 I really do. But you can't come back
永远 对不起 但你回不来了 Not ever. I'm sorry. But you can't
夜晚飞往旧金山 穿越美国 追逐月亮 Night flight to San Francisco. Chase the moon across America
上帝！我多少年没坐过飞机了 God! It's been years since I was on a plane
当我们上升到三万五千英尺时 我们到了对流层 When we hit thirty-five thousand feet. we'll have reached the tropopause
巨大的安全层区域 离臭氧层最接近的地方 The great belt of calm air. As close as I'll ever get to the ozone
我梦见我在那里 飞机跃过对流层 到达安全层... I dreamed we were there. The plane leap the tropopause, the safe air...
到达外层空间 臭氧层 破破烂烂的 ...and attained the outer rim, the ozone, which was ragged and torn
一块块的 陈旧的 像老棉布 很可怕 Patches of it threadbare as old cheesecloth. and that was frightening
我看到了只有我能看到的东西 因为我有非凡的能力看到这样的东西 But I saw something only I could see because of my astonishing ability to see such things
灵魂在升起 从遥远的地面 死者的灵魂 Souls were rising, from the earth far below, souls of the dead
那些死于饥荒 战争和瘟疫的死者 Of people who had perished from famine, from war, from the plague
他们漂浮起来 像跳伞运动员 两手叉腰 翻腾旋转 And they floated up, like skydivers in reverse, limbs all akimbo, wheeling and spinning
这些离去的灵魂 手牵手 脚并脚 织成一张大网 And these departed souls joined hands. clasped ankles. and formed a web
一张伟大的灵魂之网 灵魂是三原子的氧分子 属于臭氧层 A great net of souls. and the souls were three-atom oxygen molecules. of the stuff of ozone
外层空间将它们吸收 修复 And the outer rim absorbed them. and was repaired
在这世界上 没有永远的失去 有一种痛苦的进步 Nothing is lost forever.In this world, there is a kind of painful progress
渴望着我们丢失的东西 梦想着未来 Longing for what we've left behind, and dreaming ahead
至少我认为是这样 At least I think that's so.
尾声：毕士大天使 EPILOGUE : Bethesda
柏林墙倒塌了 齐奥塞斯库出局了 他正在建设民主社会主义 The Berlin Wall has fallen. The Ceausescus are out. He's building democratic socialism
新的国际主义 戈尔巴乔夫是列宁以来最伟大的政治思想家 The New internationalism. Gorbachev is the greatest political thinker since Lenin
我认为我们还不足以对他封圣 俄罗斯人恨他那一套 I don't think we know enough yet to start canonizing him. The Russians hate his guts
是的 但是想想四年前 我们一直都感觉 Yeah but remember back four years ago? The whole time we were feeling...
一切 一切都停滞了 而俄罗斯 看！重组改革 解冻 ...everything everywhere was stuck. while in Russia... look! Perestroika. The Thaw
冷战结束了 整个世界一夜之间 天翻地覆 It's the end of the Cold War. The whole world is changing overnight
我怀疑南斯拉夫现在怎样 - 南斯拉夫 - I wonder what'll happen now in places like Yugoslavia - Yugoslavia? 冷战结束了 整个世界一夜之间 天翻地覆 It's the end of the Cold War. The whole world is changing overnight
我怀疑南斯拉夫现在怎样 - 南斯拉夫 - I wonder what'll happen now in places like Yugoslavia - Yugoslavia?
让我们尽量把音量调小 好吧 他们会讨论几个钟头 Let's just turn the volume down on this. OK? They'll be at it for hours
这并不是说他们讨论的不重要 It's not that what they're saying isn't important,
这是整个纽约我最喜欢的地方 不 是整个宇宙中 我见到的所有地方里 This is my favorite place in New York City. No. in the whole universe. The parts of it I have seen
像今天这样的天 一个阳光明媚的冬日 又温暖 又寒冷 On a day like today. A sunny winter's day. warm and cold all at once
天空有点朦胧 阳光有它的形式 像一个人物形象 The sky's a little hazy. so the sunlight has a physical presence. a character
秋天 湖边的树林呈金黄色 阳光洒在上面 金碧辉煌 In autumn. those trees across the lake are yellow. and the sun strikes those most brilliantly
趁着蓝色天空 悲伤的秋天的蓝 这些树比草木还要亮 Against the blue of the sky, that sad fall blue, those trees are more light than vegetation
他们是杨基树 新英格兰移植树 现在光秃秃的 They are Yankee trees, New England transplants. They're barren now
现在是1990年1月 我带着艾滋 生活了五年了 It's January 1990. I have been living with AIDS for five years
比我和路易斯在一起的时间 还长了半年 That's six whole months longer than i lived with Louis.
无论发生什么事 你必须佩服戈尔巴乔夫的是 俄罗斯人 Whatever comes. what you have to admire in Gorbachev. in the Russians...
他们正在迈向未知 ...is that they're making a leap into the unknown
你不能空等着一个理论 生活的进行杂乱无章 又不可思议... You can't wait around for a theory. The sprawl of life. the weird...
互联 - 是的 - interconnectedness - Yes
没准地面的整体面积 Maybe the sheer size of the terrain
太大了 不能被一个单一理论所涵盖 It's all too much to be encompassed by a single theory now
世界比思想跑得更快 The world is faster than the mind
这就是政治 世界在前进 只在政治领域 才会出现奇迹 That's what politics is. The world moving ahead. And only in politics does the miraculous occur
这也是个理论 But that's a theory
你活在世界上 总要对世界有个概念 但是 生活创造了概念 You can't live in the world without an idea of the world. but it's living that makes the ideas
你不能空等一个理论 但你必须要有一个理论 You can't wait for a theory. but you have to have a theory
去了解 我奶奶总这么说 Go know. As my grandma would say
这位天使 她是我的至爱 我最喜欢天使 当然必须是雕塑 This angel. She's my favorite angel. I like them best when they're statuary
他们纪念死亡 他们也启示着一个没有死亡的世界 They commemorate death but they suggest a world without dying
它们是由地球上最重的东西 石头和铁制成的 They are made of the heaviest things on earth, stone and iron
它们重达数吨 但它们可以飞翔 他们是飞行的引擎和工具 They weigh tons but they're winged. they are engines and instruments of flight
这是天使毕士大 路易斯会告诉你她的故事 This is the angel Bethesda. Louis will tell you her story
好 这个天使 她降落在耶路撒冷的圣殿广场 第二圣殿时代 Oh. Well, she was this angel, she landed in the Temple Square in Jerusalem, in the days of the Second Temple
在劳作日的正中 她降临了 脚触及了大地 Right in the middle of a working day she descended and just her foot touched earth
所触及之处 一股喷泉破地而出 And where it did, a fountain shot up from the ground
罗马人捣毁了圣殿 毕士大喷泉也就枯竭了 When the Romans destroyed the Temple, the fountain of Bethesda ran dry
伯利兹会告诉你泉水停流之前 这个喷泉的情形 And Belize will tell you about the nature of the fountain, before the flowing is stopped.
如果有谁遭受苦难 身体的或精神的 趟过毕士大喷泉的水 if anyone who was suffering in the body or the spirit walked through the waters of the fountain of Bethesda...
就会被治愈 苦痛就被洗去 ...they would be healed, washed clean of pain
他们之所以知道这些 是因为我多次跟他们讲 汉娜这样告诉我 They know this because I've told them, many times. Hannah here told me this
她还告诉我 - 千禧年来临时 - She also told me this - When the Millennium comes...
不是指2000年 是千禧年 Not the year two thousand. but the capital M Millennium
是的 毕士大喷泉的泉水会再次涌流 Right. The fountain of Bethesda will flow again
我跟他说 我会亲自带他到那里净身 我们全都洗净自己 And I told him I would personally take him there to bathe. We will all bathe ourselves clean
不一定非去耶路撒冷 我是说我们不想让这个也卷入犹太复国主义 Not literally in Jerusalem. I mean we don't want this to have sort of Zionist implications
对极了 - 但另一方面... - Right on - But on the other hand...
我们确实认识到了以色列国有生存权利 ...we do recognize the right of the State of Israel to exist
但约旦河西岸应该是巴勒斯坦人的家园 戈兰高地应该 But the West Bank should be a homeland for the Palestinians. and the Golan Heights should...
噢 不能约旦河西岸和戈兰高地都是 Well not both the West Bank and the Golan Heightsl
我是说 没人比我更支持巴勒斯坦 但是 I mean no one supports Palestinian rights more than I do but...
没错 路易斯 好像巴勒斯坦人不比你更支持巴勒斯坦一样 Oh yeah right, Louis, like not even the Palestinians are more devoted than you.
我快讲完了 I'm almost done
喷泉现在没有水流 他们冬天关掉了水阀 怕管道结冰 The fountain's not flowing now, they turn it off in the winter, ice in the pipes
夏天 这是个景观 我想在此流连 我计划如此 我希望如此 But in the summer it's a sight to see. I want to be around to see it. I plan to be. I hope to be
疾病带走了我们很多人 但不是全部 This disease will be the end of many of us, but not nearly all
死者将会安息 生者会继续勇敢前行 我们不会离开 And the dead will be commemorated and will struggle on with the living. and we are not going away
我们不再默默无闻地死去 We won't die secret deaths anymore
世界只向前发展 我们将成为公民 The world only spins forward. We will be citizens.
时代已经来了 The time has come
再见 你们是奇妙的一群人 每一个人 我祝福你们 Bye now. You are fabulous creatures. each and every one. And I bless you
活下去！ More Life!
伟大的工程开始了！ The Great Work Begins!