《找寻自我》前情提要 Previously on "Finding Carter"...
亲爱的 你看起来可不好啊 Baby, you do not look at all well.
一切都在我控制之下 I've got it under control.
你知道结局会是如此 You knew eventually it would come to this.
必须说出真相 The truth has to come out.
这是麦迪逊 This is Madison.
她是我之前的...朋友 She's my friend from back there.
记得你和洛莉一起的时候吗 Remember back with Lori?
你可以去任何你想去的地方 You could come and go whenever you wanted.
没人能对你指手画脚 Nobody was telling you what to do.
-你不怀念那样吗 -想 - Don't you miss that? - Yeah.
看来我是尽量不去想吧 I guess I just try not to think about it.
可她却无时无刻不在想你啊 Well, she thinks about you all the time.
-你怎么知道 -我一直和她有联络 - How do you know that? - I've been talking to her.
我不想分开 I don't want to be apart.
我们之间很愉快 We had a really great thing going.
我们现在该和好 We should have it again.
你爱她 你俩是天生一对 You love her. You two are so good together.
我在想一些事 I've been thinking about something.
想你为什么感觉没变好 About why you're not feeling any better.
我觉得是因为洛莉 I think it's about Lori.
因为她是我们的生母 About her being our biological mother.
我没法生育 I couldn't get pregnant.
我们开始寻找卵子捐赠者 And we decided to look for an egg donor.
他们选择了我 They chose me.
洛莉告诉我们了真相 Lori told us the truth,
然后一切都开始分崩离析 and then things just started to fall apart.
比如麦克斯 爸爸和妈妈 Like with Max and Mom and Dad.
我讨厌她是我的妈妈 I hate that she's my mother.
求求你 别对我们关上心门 Please don't shut us out.
没事了 It's okay.
是洛莉的事 It's about Lori.
她想要自杀 She tried to kill herself.
早上好 Morning.
-早上好 -要咖啡吗 - Good morning. - Coffee?
谢谢 Thank you.
卡特下楼了吗 Carter come down yet?
没有 No.
她没睡 She didn't sleep.
她的灯一晚都开着 Her light was on all night.
每次我以为我们终于摆脱了洛莉时 Every time I think we're finally done with Lori,
她总有办法钻回我们的生活 she manages to find a way to worm her way back into our lives.
是的 Yes, she does.
但我很担心卡特 But I'm worried about Carter
还有她昨晚为什么不想说 and why she didn't want to talk last night.
她可能很震惊 She's probably in shock.
不行 对不起 No, I can't, I'm sorry.
不 我已经决定了 No, look, I've made up my mind.
好 拜拜 Okay. Bye.
是谁啊 Who was that?
洛莉的医生 Lori's doctor.
他想要我去跟他见面 He wants me to come and meet him.
-为什么 -因为这种事发生后 - Why? - Because they always try
他们总是想跟家人谈谈 and talk to the family after something like this happens.
她其实不算你的家人 Well, she's not really our family.
我知道 泰勒 Yeah, I know, Taylor.
他说的不是这个 That's not what he was saying.
那他说了什么 Well, then what was he saying?
我觉得很简单 卡特 I think it's pretty simple, Carter.
她疯了 一直都是 She's insane. She always has been.
好吧 Okay, yeah, well.
我觉得不只是这样 I think there's a little more to it than that.
你不会去吧 You're not going, are you?
不 我约了麦克斯 No, I made plans with Max.
一切都不正常时 跟他聊天总是好的 He was always good to talk to when nothing made sense.
是啊 他最好了 Yeah. Yeah, he's the best.
回头见 All right. I'll see you later.
卡特 Hey, Carter.
妈妈外婆和我今晚要去乡村俱乐部 Mom and Grandma and I are doing that charity thing
参加慈善晚宴 at the country club tonight.
你会去吗 Will you be there?
嗯 Oh, um... yeah.
那里见 See you there.
瞧瞧谁来了 Look who's here.
怎么了 你的表情像是有人死了 What's the matter? You look like someone died.
还没死 Not quite.
那是什么意思 What does that mean?
洛莉企图自杀 Lori tried to kill herself.
-什么 -他们及时找到了她 - What? - They found her in time.
我不明白 I don't understand.
她之前没事 我还以为她好转了 She was fine, I thought she was doing better.
-你跟她聊过了吗 -没有 我也不打算 - Have you talked to her? - No, and I'm not going to.
-为什么 -因为我不要 - Why not? - Because I'm not getting
又卷入她的闹剧 sucked into her drama again.
她就想这样 That is exactly what she wants.
她显然是生病了 She's obviously sick.
说真的 如果她得了癌症 你会抛弃她吗 Seriously, if she had cancer, would you abandon her?
这不一样 你知道的 That is not the same thing, and you know it.
这根本不能相提并论 You can't even compare those two.
显然这是精神疾病 It's obviously mental illness.
你们表现得好像她可以控制一样 You guys act like she has control over this.
我知道她做过糟糕的事情 Look, I know she's done awful things,
我明白 但是... I get that, but...
她可能死掉 I mean, she could have died,
而你表现得像是根本不在乎 and you're acting like you wouldn't have even cared.
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这不是个好主意 It's not a good idea.
-什么 -你去见洛莉 - What? - You going up there to see Lori.
麦迪逊不知道这么多年来 Madison doesn't know what it's like
被欺骗是什么感觉 to be lied to for all those years.
不止是因为麦迪逊说的话 It's not just about what Madison said.
卡特 我知道洛莉对你的意义 Carter, I know how much Lori meant to you.
你不欠她什么 You don't owe her anything.
她不是你的责任 She's not your responsibility.
医生只是想问我一些问题 好吗 Look, the doctor just wants to ask me some questions, okay?
也许我可以告诉他有所帮助的事情 Maybe I could tell him something that would help her.
我懂 I get that.
你会带我去吗 Would you take me?
如果你真想去的话 If that's what you want.
我真想去 Yeah, that's what I want.
我家里怎么搞的跟要办选美比赛一样 Why does it look like a beauty pageant blew up in my house?
募捐啊 今天下午乡村俱乐部 Um, fundraiser? Charity fundraiser at the country club
有慈善募捐 还记得吗 this afternoon, you remember?
我真给忘了 I completely forgot.
最近我有点忙 Well, it's been a little nuts around here.
泰勒说那个疯子又兴风作浪了 Taylor told me that crazy has reared her head yet again?
那个女人到底在想什么 I mean, what was that woman thinking?
你能想象做出那种事吗 Can you imagine doing something like that?
-幸好不能 -你们绝不会相信的 - Thankfully, no. - You guys are never gonna believe this.
-什么 -麦克斯刚给我打电话了 - What? - Max just called me.
他和卡特正在去 He and Carter are on their way
精神病院的路上 想去跟洛莉的医生谈谈 to the mental hospital to talk to Lori's doctor.
不会吧 今早我跟卡特谈过 What? No, I talked to Carter this morning.
她根本没想过要去 She wasn't even thinking about doing that.
她这不去了吗 Well, now she is.
语音信箱 Voicemail.
卡特 是我 Carter, it's me.
听到留言后给我打电话好吗 Please, when you get this, will you call me?
我很担心 I'm worried.
-你爸爸呢 -去办公室了 - Where's your dad? - He went to the office.
亲爱的 很抱歉 我今天 Honey, I am so sorry, but I don't think that
-不能参加募捐了 -什么 - I can do this today. - What?
-我可是协会会长 -我明白 - I'm chair of the committee. - I understand that,
但我觉得我们该去找卡特 but I think that we need to go up there and be with Carter.
-很抱歉 -不 - I'm sorry. - No.
不 洛莉无权这样 No, Lori doesn't get to do this.
不能她每次做什么疯狂的事 She doesn't get to stop our lives
我们的生活就被她打乱 every time she does something crazy.
她说的对 否则我们就中她的计了 She's right-- otherwise, we're just playing right into her hands.
但我们关心的不是洛莉 But this isn't about Lori.
而是卡特 This is about Carter.
卡特没喊你一起去啊 Carter didn't ask you to come.
甚至都没告诉你她要去 She didn't even tell you she was going.
妈 对不起 我... Mom, I'm sorry, I just...
我许下了承诺 我不会 I made a commitment, and I'm not gonna
因为那个疯女人让大家失望 disappoint people because of something this crazy woman did.
说得对 You're right.
说得很对 You're absolutely right.
对不起 I'm sorry.
你今天很美 You look beautiful.
谢谢 Thanks.
卡特 Carter.
卡特 Carter...
没事 妈妈在 It's okay, Mommy's here.
那是什么 What are those?
她的信 Her letters.
她差不多一周给我写两次信 She's been writing me, like, twice a week.
信上都写些什么 What do they say?
不知道 我没看过 I don't know, I never open them.
我不知道 大卫 或许你该去找她 I don't know, David. Maybe you should go after her.
丽兹 我觉得这样处理不行 Liz, I don't think that's the way to handle it.
我们都了解卡特 如果她没有 We both know Carter, and if she didn't
找我们一起去 肯定是因为 ask one of us to go, it's because she...
她想自己处理 wants to handle it on her own.
我就是不懂那个医生以为 I just don't get what that doctor thinks
她能告诉他什么 that she can tell him.
我跟他谈过 他觉得卡特去会有好处 I spoke to him, and he thinks it will help.
他关心的是洛莉 又不是卡特 Well, his priority is Lori, not Carter.
不是 他好像谁都关心 No. He seemed concerned for everyone.
如果他关心卡特 If he was concerned about Carter,
就不会让她过去了 he would never have asked her to go up there.
我去过那种地方 大卫 I've been to those places, David.
-太可怕了 -有麦克斯陪她 - They're horrible. - She's with Max.
不会有事的 She'll be all right.
洛莉不配拥有她 Lori doesn't deserve her.
丽兹 我知道你担心 但她会回来的 Liz, I know you're afraid, but she's coming back.
她是我们的女儿 She's ours.
你我两个人的 Yours and mine.
如果我哪怕给她回一次信 If I'd have written back even once,
她或许就不会自杀了 she might not have done this.
卡特 她本来就有精神问题 No, Carter, she's in an institution.
洛莉自杀不是你的责任 You can't hold yourself responsible for Lori hurting herself.
但我该给她回信的 Yeah, but I should have answered her.
你跟她之间发生了那么大的事 Well, you went through a huge ordeal with her.
应该给你时间好好消化的 And you're allowed time to figure that out.
是 但我根本没花时间去消化 Yeah. Except I didn't take any time to figure it out.
而是直接塞进抽屉里 想不了了之 I shoved it all the way in a drawer to cope with later.
你跟她一起生活了十三年 13 years you've lived with her,
期间却一直被蒙在鼓里 and you had no idea what was really going on.
自杀是她自己的选择 Hurting herself was her choice.
跟你没任何关系 Nothing you did made her do it.
卡特 Carter.
卡特 Carter...
卡特 宝贝 醒醒 Carter, baby. Wake up.
妈咪 怎么了 Mommy, what's wrong?
我刚才做了个噩梦 I just had a really bad dream.
梦到我们俩在一大群人当中 I dreamed that we were in a huge crowd of people,
我很担心把你弄丢 and I was afraid I lost you.
不会的 我在这里呢 No. I'm right here.
对 你在 Yeah. Yes, you are.
好端端的在我面前 You're right here. Good as gold.
抱歉把你叫醒 Oh, I'm sorry I woke you up.
没事 妈咪 抱歉你做噩梦了 It's okay, Mommy. I'm sorry you had a bad dream.
大厅对面有位女士 It's just that there's this lady across the hall,
就是那天给你糖吃的那位 you know, the one that gave you candy the other day?
我觉得她不对劲 There's something about her.
她看我们的样子让我... The way she watches us just makes me...
让我有点害怕 makes me a little scared.
我觉得我们是时候离开这里了 So I think it's time to leave this place.
又要搬家吗 We're gonna move again?
是呀 我们... Yeah. Yeah, we're gonna--
我们要离开这个只有一家星巴克的小镇 We're gonna blow this one-Starbucks town.
这样吧 在我告诉你我们要去哪之前 And you know what? Before I tell you where we're headed,
我们先玩个小游戏 we're gonna play a little game.
-什么游戏 -这个游戏中 - What game? - We're gonna play a game
我们要只花二十分钟 in which we only have 20 minutes
收拾好所有要带的东西 to pack everything we're gonna take with us.
-马上吗 -记住规则 - Right now? - And know this.
装不进这个手提箱的东西 Anything that can't fit in the suitcase
都得通通丢掉 has to stay behind for good.
快点 准备 开始 Come on, set, go!
快 快 Go, go, go!
你没事吧 Are you okay?
我只是希望这时候去参加选美不算太糟 I just wish the timing of this pageant wasn't so bad.
我觉得我妈妈真的气疯了 I think Mom's really freaking out.
那你觉得怎么样 Yeah, how are you doing, hmm?
我没事啊 Oh, I'm fine.
除了洛莉的精神问题之外 I have more important things to worry about
我还有更重要的事要操心呢 than Lori's mental problems.
这是在开玩笑吧 This is a joke, right?
妈妈 那也太... Mom, that is so...
如果你想说的是"淫荡" 我表示同意 If the word you're looking for is "Slutty," I agree.
我不要穿这个 I'm not wearing this.
开玩笑吧 你看上去美极了 Oh, you're kidding. You look fantastic.
请一定...让我去开门 By all means, let me get it.
-进来吧 -谢谢 - Come on in. - Thank you.
问问他觉得怎么样 Ask him what he thinks.
怎么了 What's up?
我家边上最近新开了 There's this great new Thai restaurant
一家不错的泰国餐馆 that just opened up in my neighborhood,
所以我想着我们过会能一起去吃晚餐 so I was thinking we could have dinner later.
我想对你说点事 There's something I want to talk to you about.
凯尔 对不起 今天晚上不行 Oh, Kyle, I'm sorry, but this isn't a good night.
我有很多事 卡特也... I have a lot going on, and Carter...
说来话长 well, it's a long story,
而且我现在有点忙 and I'm a little bit wrapped up at the moment.
丽兹 你来吗 Liz, are you coming?
不管我多想去做点其它事 No matter how much I'd rather be doing anything else.
没关系 You know what? It's okay.
咱们可以下次去吃 We could just do it another time.
来把衣服换了吧 Alterations now, please?
那咱们以后再说 So, we'll talk soon?
行 没问题 Yes. Definitely.
还有... And, yeah,
我想看到你穿着这裙子光芒四射的样子 someday I would love to see that dress in all of its glory.
没有回你吗 No answer?
感觉糟透了 我只想去道歉 I feel bad, I just want to apologize.
你会的 You will.
卡特不是那种记仇的人 Carter's not the type to hold a grudge.
我就是讨厌听到他们说洛莉坏话 I just hated hearing them badmouth Lori.
我也不知道 小麦 I don't know, Mad.
两起绑架案 加上自杀 Double kidnapping, suicide?
我有点觉得她活该变成这样 I'm kind of thinking it's well-deserved.
-我也不知道了 -什么意思 - I don't know anymore. - What do you mean?
她派我过来的 She sent me here.
洛莉 我是说 Lori-- I mean,
她要我来见卡特 she asked me to come to see Carter,
所以我才会突然出现 and that's why I showed up out of nowhere.
我以为你来是因为父母把你赶出来了 I thought you came because your parents kicked you out.
没错 They did.
我告诉洛莉的时候 是她... And when I told Lori, she's the one who...
叫我过来的 她说... told me to come, she said that...
卡特和我能一起找到住处 Carter and I could find a place together,
我觉得她只是想让我 and I think she was just trying to get me
引诱卡特离开威尔逊一家 to lure Carter away from the Wilsons.
那真是太狠了 That is diabolical.
然后她问我 Then she asked if I could
能不能让卡特原谅她 convince Carter to forgive her.
我只是觉得可能被她利用了 I just feel like I might have been used.
我觉得说不定该把这件事告诉卡特 I think that's maybe something that Carter should know.
我知道 我会告诉她的 I know, I'm gonna tell her.
我没想到洛莉会做到这种程度 I didn't think that Lori would go this far.
我真的以为是在帮她 I honestly thought that I was helping her.
我有个主意 Well, I have an idea.
今晚我爸妈的乡村俱乐部有场晚宴 There's an event tonight at my parents' country club.
然后呢 Yeah?
泰勒好像是什么 And Taylor's on a committee
慈善时装秀委员会的一员 for some charity fashion show or something,
卡特也会去 and Carter's gonna be there.
我们也该去 We should go.
这是要干什么 What's that for?
这个会吸走 This is gonna suck
胳膊上让你 all that mean little bee poison
疼痛无比的小蜜蜂毒液 that hurts so much right out of your arm.
怎么会呢 How?
我也不知道怎么会 I don't know how it works.
反正就是有效果 It just does.
瞧 现在感觉不是好多了吗 See? Doesn't that feel better already?
好点了 但要是还有别的蜜蜂呢 A little, but what if there's another bee?
我就会把它们赶走 Well, that's where I come in.
不管有多少蜜蜂 I will always take care of you
我都会保护你的 我保证 no matter how many bees there are, I promise.
我也是 Me too.
你也是什么 You too what?
我也会一直保护你的 妈妈 I'll always take care of you, Mommy.
你没事吧 You okay?
没事 Yeah.
我老是想起以前的事 I keep remembering things.
我觉得她一直都有问题 麦克斯 I think she was sick all along, Max.
她这一辈子 Like, her whole life.
我们要告诉医生 这很重要 It's important to tell the doctor that.
可能会有帮助 It might help.
卡特吗 Carter?
我是福克斯医生 I'm Dr. Fox.
我觉得我想见见她 I think I'd like to see her.
能告诉她我来了吗 Could you let her know I'm here?
你确定想这样吗 Are you sure this is what you want?
我必须见她 麦克斯 I have to, Max.
别再让她影响你了 Don't let her mess with you anymore.
不会的 我保证 No, I won't, I promise.
见到她之后呢 Do you know what you want out of this?
不知道 No.
可麦克斯 是她把我养大的 But Max, that woman raised me.
她是我人生很大的一部分 She's such a huge part of who I am.
如果她真的自杀 Look. If she had actually killed herself
而我再也见不到她 and I had never seen her again,
我只知道我后半辈子都会在想 I just know I would spend the rest of my life wondering
当初为什么不至少试着帮她 why on Earth I didn't at least try and help her.
你能明白吗 Please, can you understand that?
我明白 Yeah, I can.
真的 And I do.
你不清楚她现在的情况 You don't know what condition she's in,
所以自己一定要当心 好吗 so you gotta look out for yourself, okay?
好的 Okay, look.
不如我们先和医生聊几句 Let's just talk to the doctor.
如果他认为我不该去 我就不去 我保证 If he doesn't think I should go in, then I won't, I promise.
好 Okay.
好盛大啊 This is a big deal.
太夸张了吗 Too much?
不不 很好 No, no, it's great.
我们该去发型和化妆师那排个队 We should get on the list for hair and make-up.
我喜欢做事有条不紊 You know, I do not want a rush job.
我得再打一次电话给卡特 还有大卫 Well, I have to call Carter again and David,
而且有杯酒喝就更好了 and a drink would not be the worst idea.
这里肯定有香槟 I'm sure there's some champagne around here somewhere.
香槟可不够 Yeah, that's not gonna cut it.
亲爱的 我去去就回 Honey? I'll be right back.
-好的 -好的 - Okay, great. - Great, okay.
她才来了三秒钟 She was here for three seconds.
不错啊 Nice digs.
欢迎来到西橡树俱乐部 Welcome to West Oak.
富人和事逼的游乐场 Playground to the rich and judgmental.
你俩真是让人耳目一新 You two are a refreshing sight.
我不知道你们今天在这工作 Oh, I didn't know you were working today.
你们好像双胞胎 太可爱了 You guys look like twins, that's cute.
你这话说得真是言不由衷啊 You say that like you don't really mean it.
错 其实我很喜欢穿制服的男生 Wrong. I actually love men in uniform.
就算是涤纶制服吗 Even a polyester one?
我叫麦迪逊 和她一起来的 I'm Madison. I'm with her.
-他叫达蒙 -你们看到卡特了吗 - This is Damon. - Have you guys seen Carter?
没看到 不过她应该会来的 No, no. She'll probably show up, though.
这募捐是泰勒办的 Taylor put this whole thing together.
好 那来点炸鱿鱼和两杯含羞草鸡尾酒吧 All right. How about, uh, calamari and two Mimosas?
炸鱿鱼没问题 I got you on the calamari,
但新来的经理把酒锁得非常严 but the new manager has the alcohol on high security lockdown.
-什么 -显然 - What? - Apparently...
下班后有人一直 someone's been pilfering
从吧台里顺手牵羊 the liquor from behind the bar after hours.
那就是我 Yeah, that'd be me.
好样的 Damn.
达蒙真是深藏不露啊 Damon shows some hidden depth, okay.
那我们就来点炸鱿鱼和两杯果汁吧 We'll have a calamari and two mixers, then.
年轻人 年轻人 Young man? Young man.
我们还在等菜单呢 We're waiting on our menus.
-救救我 -救救我们吧 - Save me. - Save us.
佩服吧 So, are you impressed?
现在周围都是老奶奶和熊孩子 We're surrounded by grandmas and screaming children.
没错 Oh, yeah.
看来乡村俱乐部里聊我爸妈八卦 Looks like the country club gossip about my parents
聊得正欢呢 is in full swing.
什么 在哪 What? Where?
-不重要了 -当然重要 - Doesn't matter. - Yeah, it does.
你们有事吗 Can we help you?
我也觉得没有 Yeah, I thought so.
谢谢你 Thank you for that.
很遗憾你爸妈让你遭人闲话 I'm sorry your parents left you in the line of fire.
谢谢 我已经习惯了 Thanks, but I'm used to it.
我明白那种突如其来的孤儿感受 Yeah, I get the whole unexpected orphan gig.
当我爸妈发现我是拉拉时 他们明确表示 When my parents found out I was gay and made it clear
不会支持我 that they didn't support me,
没人理我 I had no one.
除了洛莉 Well, I mean, except Lori.
她对你很好吧 She was nice to you, huh?
是的 所以很难 Yeah, that's why it's hard.
现在我不知道该想什么 I don't know what to think now.
老实说 我碰到的大人都让我失望 To be honest, I've never met an adult who hasn't let me down.
个个皆是 Not one.
也许所以命运让我们俩相遇吧 Maybe that's why fate brought us together.
为了舒缓这些打击 To soften the blow.
我好奇卡特在哪 I wonder where Carter is.
她说了很多你的事 She talks about you a great deal.
我想能见到你 对她会有帮助的 I think it would be helpful for her to see you.
-她怎么样了 -我们一直密切关注她 - How's she doing? - We're keeping a close eye on her.
她的情况稳定 情绪平静 She's stable. Resting.
把她送来精神病院不就是为了 I thought the whole point of putting her in a mental facility
让她好转吗 怎么会这样呢 was to help her get better-- how does this happen?
我们让她接受了一种新的药物疗法 We put her on a new regimen of meds,
当药物发挥效用时 and as those drugs do their work,
会慢慢地平衡她大脑里的化学物质 smoothing out the chemical imbalance in her brain,
她开始明白自己生活的新现实 she's come to understand a new reality of her life.
有时会让她难以应对 That sometimes can be overwhelming.
我要提醒你 I want to warn you.
她的脖子上有些瘀伤 There's some bruising on her neck,
我们给她注射了轻度镇定剂 and she's on a mild sedative,
所以看起来可能有些忧郁 so she may seem a bit cloudy.
好 Okay.
我在这等你 I'll be right here.
你不该来的 You shouldn't have come.
我想来 Well, I wanted to.
你能看着我吗 Would you please look at me?
我说真的 I mean it.
我不想你来 I don't want you here.
可能你不想我来 Well, you might not want me here,
但我想来 but I wanted to be here.
你从没给我回过信 You never answered any of my letters.
为什么现在出现 Why show up now?
因为我担心你 Because I am worried about you.
你为什么要伤害自己 Why did you try and hurt yourself?
我早该这么做了 I should have done it a long time ago.
别这么说 Don't say that.
为什么 现在他们对我进行药物治疗 Why? Now they've got me on meds.
一切都开始变得清晰 It's all becoming very clear.
事实上 这么久以来我第一次 In fact, for the first time in a very, very long time,
看清了所有事情 I am seeing everything...
就像刚从噩梦中醒来 like I just woke up from a bad dream.
好吧 这或许是好事 Okay. Well, maybe that's a good thing.
好事吗 我环顾四周 Good thing? I look around,
看到的全是对那么多人造成的伤害 and all I see is the hurt I have caused to so many people.
最重要的是 对你的伤害 Most importantly, you.
人都会犯错 Everybody makes mistakes.
这不意味着你不值得再活下去 That doesn't mean your life isn't worth living.
你说得好像我只是不小心 You make it sound like I accidentally
忘了关洗澡水一样 left the bathtub running.
我知道我做了什么 I know what I did,
我现在只想你离开 and now all I want is for you to go
继续过好自己的生活 and move on with your life
然后尽力忘记我因为自私 and try to forget that I stole 13 years of it
而偷走了你十三年的光阴 from you for my own selfish reasons.
大卫 帮帮忙 Listen, David, do me a favor,
你要是接到她电话了就告诉我好吗 and will you let me know if you hear from her?
好 拜 Okay, bye.
-要续杯吗 威尔逊夫人 -加布 - Need a refill, Mrs. Wilson? - Oh, hey, Gabe.
不用了 Uh, no.
有这杯酒 再加上一肚子火 This one and a good pout,
我已经饱了 and I should be fine.
我爸说以前我妈要我吃蔬菜的时候 My dad tells me that I was an Olympic level pouter
我的火气能冲上天 when my mom would try to get me to eat my veggies.
有用吗 And did that work?
估计没用 My guess is no,
但我真记不得了 but I don't really remember.
是不是很想你妈妈 Think about your mom a lot?
是 很想 Yeah. I do.
我喜欢时不时提起她 I like to talk about her sometimes.
是啊 Yeah.
所以你等下要和我爸出去吗 So you're going out with my dad later?
不 我得回家见卡特 No, I have to be home and see Carter.
他有说自己为什么想出去吗 Oh, did he tell you why he wanted to go out?
没有 为什么 No. Why?
他打算把房子卖了 He's selling our house.
我觉得他想试探一下你 I think he wants to put out a few feelers, you know,
看你会不会想和他一起找地方住 see if you'd think about getting a place with him.
那你怎么想的 Um, how do you feel about that, then?
把你们房子卖掉 Selling your house?
我无所谓 I don't mind it.
我妈去世很久了 My mom's been gone a long time.
关键是我觉得他主要是为了你 Problem is that I think he's mostly doing it for you.
希望你准备好了考虑进一步计划 I think that he wants you to be ready for something more serious.
在我看来 From where I'm standing,
你可能准备好了 也可能没有 maybe you are, and maybe you aren't.
情况非常复杂 Things are very complicated.
是啊 生活哪里不复杂呢 Yeah, well, most everything in life is,
但如果两个人想在一起 but the people who want to be together
他们会排除万难的 tend to make it work,
所以我觉得 so I'm just saying,
所谓的复杂情况 maybe the whole complicated thing is...
或许只是借口 just an excuse.
你们好啊 我不知道你们要来 Hey. I didn't know you guys were coming.
我们决定来捧场 We decided to support the cause.
而且 这也是我的逃犯父母 Plus, it's one of the few places
为数不多的还有信用的地方 my outlaw parents still have credit.
不错 Nice 'do.
要参加选美走秀吗 Joining the pageant circuit?
有意思 你们有卡特的消息吗 Funny. Have you guys heard from Carter?
没有 你呢 我还以为她会来 Uh, no. Have you? I thought she was coming.
她本来是要来的 Well, she was supposed to be here.
结果却去了精神病院 Yeah, but instead, she went to the mental hospital.
她去了 去见洛莉吗 She did? To see Lori?
不 是去和医生谈 No. To talk to the doctor.
无所谓了 Whatever.
我得去找我妈 I have to find my mom.
她快崩溃了 She's next to get shellacked.
卡斯特罗小姐 今天过得好吗 Miss Castro. How are you today?
挺好的 你怎么样 查德 I am wonderful. How are you, Chad?
很抱歉我要告诉你一个不好的消息 Actually, I'm afraid I have some unfortunate news.
你下午来这后我查了一下 I take it from your presence here this afternoon,
你不知道你父母的会员证 you weren't aware that your parents'
已被暂时吊销了吧 membership has been suspended.
什么 怎么回事 What? Why?
你在开玩笑吧 You're kidding, right?
不好意思 你哪位 I'm sorry, who are you?
她是我外孙女 That's my granddaughter.
查德 有什么问题吗 What seems to be the problem, Chad?
马歇尔夫人 我在跟这几位姑娘 Mrs. Marshall, I was just discussing
讨论会员资格的问题 membership guidelines with these young ladies.
她父母没有支付费用 Her parents haven't paid the piper.
对 我听说了 Oh, right, I heard about that.
没关系 我们本来就不该来 这就走 That's fine, we shouldn't've come, we'll just leave.
-别走 -我受令 - No, no. - I was instructed
要求她们离开 to ask them to move along.
那就让她们去我那桌 Well, they will, to my table.
她们是我的客人了 They'll be my guests.
姑娘们 你们在这好好玩 Um, you girls make yourself comfortable over there
有问题找我 and let me know if you have any more problems,
当然我不希望再有问题 是不是 查德 which I really don't anticipate them having, do you, Chad?
当然 Of course not.
阿嬷 Gammy.
我... Look, I...
无法想象你一个人在这里有多孤单 I can't imagine how alone you must feel in here.
很抱歉没来看你 没给你回信 I'm so sorry I didn't visit or write you back.
我该回的 I should've.
我很高兴你没回 I'm glad you didn't.
我需要在没有你的时间里 I needed time away from you
来认清事实 to be able to see the truth.
好吧 洛莉 Okay-- Lori?
没错 Yes.
这一系列错误我们每个人都脱不了干系 Mistakes have been made by everybody involved,
但并不代表你的整个人生是个错误 but your whole life hasn't been a mistake.
我的整个童年都是与你度过的 We had a life together, my whole childhood.
那不是错误 That wasn't a mistake.
不 是错误 Yes, it was.
因为我没有权利那么做 Because I had no right to it.
我不是你妈妈 I was not your mom.
不 你是 Yes, you were.
你那时候就是我妈妈 Back then, you were my mom.
知道吗 你有些地方做得很好 And you know what? You did some things right.
你对我那么好 那么爱我 You are so kind and so loving.
确实 现在一切都不同了 And yes, everything is really different now.
但以前的事我都记得 But I still remember all that stuff.
你该走了 卡特 You need to leave, Carter.
不 我不走 No, I'm not gonna leave.
我要一个人静一静 你走 I need to be alone, go away.
-别说这种话好吗 -让我静静 - Would you please stop saying that? - Leave me alone--
-求你了 -卡特 - I am begging you. - Carter,
我想洛莉需要休息 I think Lori needs to rest.
我爱你 I love you.
你更爱我 And you love me more.
告诉我你更爱我 Tell me you love me more.
卡特 走吧 Carter, please.
你听到了吗 Did you hear that?
她刚刚说她爱我 She said she loved me.
说我是她妈妈 She said I was her mom.
医生也听见了 The doctor heard her say it.
我就知道她会来 I knew she would come.
我就知道她爱我 I knew she loved me.
我只想问她一些事 Look, I just need to ask her something.
你总让我跟她沟通 这很重要 You always let me talk to her, and it's important.
我不明白她为什么不回我电话 I don't understand why she's not calling me back.
我跟你说过了 麦迪逊 I told you, Madison,
她正在72小时观察中 she's on a 72-hour watch.
不过她让我告诉你 她一切都好 But she told me to tell you she's all right.
会联系你的 She'll be in touch.
好吧 Okay.
对了 我很医生谈过了 Oh, so I spoke to the doctor,
卡特见过洛莉了 现在正赶回来 and Carter saw Lori, she's on her way back.
太好了 Good.
多谢你告诉我 Thank you for telling me.
她们见面了吗 Wait, she saw her?
我以为她只是去和医生谈谈 I thought that she was just going to talk to the doctor.
真不敢相信 她应该由我们陪着一起去 This is unbelievable. She should have been here with us.
宝贝 这不是她的错 Honey, it's not her fault.
不 我没责怪她 No, I'm not blaming her.
都怪那个女人 It's that woman.
每次我们想要 Every time we try and have
回归正常生活 some kind of normal life,
她就会把卡特拉走 and she has to pull Carter away.
我讨厌她 I hate her.
我真希望... I wish that...
希望什么 What?
我希望她自杀能成功 I wish she'd done a better job.
我才不在乎跟她有没有血缘关系 I don't care if I do have her blood.
我希望她死 I wish she was dead.
真的 I do.
走秀要开始了 Okay, the show's about ready to start.
准备好了吗 Are we ready?
不 妈妈 我们还没准备好 No, Mom, actually, we're not.
不 我们准备好了 No, we are.
她休想把这个也搞砸 She's not gonna mess this up, too.
妈妈 Mom?
我们好了 We're ready.
真帅 Whoa, nice.
是你自己打的吗 Did you tie that yourself?
直接别上去的 Yeah, it's a clip-on.
我怎么不知道你还对时装秀感兴趣 Didn't know fashion shows were your thing.
伊丽莎白貌似对这个很为难 Yeah, well, Elizabeth seemed pretty bummed about doing it
所以我来给她点精神支持 so I figured she could use some moral support.
她貌似已经有支持了 Looks like she already has some.
我肯定他是为了泰勒来的 I'm sure he's here for Taylor.
话别说这么满 她请你来的吗 Don't be so sure. Did she ask you to come?
小子 我教你一招吧 Let me give you a little advice, son.
别等着女人告诉你她想要什么 Don't wait for a woman to tell you what she wants.
要猜她们的心思 Anticipate their needs.
这点你一定得信我 Trust me on this one.
好了 酒保小哥 来瓶啤酒吧 Now, bartender, how about a beer?
没问题 You got it.
来两瓶吧 Actually, make it two.
晚上好 西橡树俱乐部 Good evening, West Oak.
我要去找个桌子 I'm gonna go find a table.
我们很高兴 We are so pleased.
-来一瓶吧哥们 -谢谢 - Here you go, man. - Oh, thanks.
坐吧 Uh, pull up a chair.
下面请欣赏 三代风华 So I present to you, Generations.
第6届"三代风华"时装秀
我们聊聊吧 Can we talk?
没事的 It's okay.
别这样 卡特 会没事的 Come on, Carter, it's gonna be okay.
好啦 You're okay.
来 Come here.
过来 抱抱 Come here, come here.
没事了 It's okay.
没事了 Come on.
你还好吗 Are you okay?
不好 你呢 Not really, are you?
不好 No.
我怎么能让这种事发生 How the hell could I have let this happen?
你也不想的 You didn't let it happen.
就这么发生了 It just happened.
天啊 我真恨自己 God, I hate myself.
别这么说 Don't go there.
怎么说 麦克斯 How, Max?
我怎么能不这么说 How can I not go there?
这不是明智决定 It was a bad move.
但这不是你自己干的 But you're not alone in this.
还有我 I was there, too.
你爱泰勒 麦克斯 You love Taylor, Max.
我知道你爱 I know you do.
不管她现在愿不愿意承认 And whether or not she's willing to admit it right now,
我都知道她也爱你 I know she loves you, too.
最糟的就是这里 And that's the worst part.
我明知道她也爱你 却又只想到了自己 I know she loves you, too, and I put myself first, again.
你在经历的这些事真的不容易 You were going through something that was really difficult.
不 麦克斯 行了 别帮我找借口 No, Max. Stop. Don't make excuses for me.
这是我的决定 This was my decision.
我果然还是和我爸妈一个德行 I guess the apple really doesn't fall far from the tree.
听着 小泰 你出去之前 Um, listen, Tay, before you go out there,
我想跟你聊聊你之前说的那些话 I wanted to talk to you about what you said earlier.
我真的搞不懂 Listen, I can't make any sense
卡特和洛莉之间到底怎么回事 of what's happening with Carter and Lori.
我只知道 All I know is that,
不论好坏 卡特都和她有感情 for better or worse, Carter has an attachment to her,
如果我想做卡特的好妈妈 and if I'm gonna be a good mother to Carter,
比洛莉好得多的妈妈 better than Lori could ever be,
我就得学会接受 I have to learn to accept it.
我们就得学会接受 We have to learn to accept it.
不管我们有多想那女人消失 No matter how much we want that woman to disappear,
她都不可能的 she's not going to.
她是卡特生活的一部分 She's part of Carter's life.
在她的心里 She's in her heart.
我们没办法阻止 And there's nothing we can do to stop it.
我不知道该怎么帮她 I don't know how to help her.
不知道她要什么 I don't know what she needs.
亲爱的 Oh, baby.
我也不知道该怎么帮她 I don't know how to help her, either.
大明星 Hey, superstar.
有时间见见粉丝吗 You got a minute for a fan?
我以为会给你惊喜的 惊喜吗 I thought I'd surprise you, so surprise.
你真贴心 That's sweet.
我在想我们今晚可以 So I was thinking maybe we could high-tail it
溜回我家去 知道吗 back to my place tonight, you know,
除非你还有什么超赞的续摊派对要去 unless you got some sort of A-list after-party to go to.
我还是有些事想跟你说 I'd still like to talk to you about something.
凯尔 Kyle.
我很想去 但是不行 I'd love to, but I can't.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
天啊 真难以置信 My god, that was unbelievable...
天啊 你看到艾弗莉太太了吗 Oh, my God, did you see Mrs. Everly?
我还以为她要在 I thought she was gonna have a stroke
舞台上中风了 right there on the runway.
你干嘛还要去那里 What is with you still hanging out there, anyway?
不知道 我爸妈总去 I don't know, it was my parents' place,
我以前还小 and I was a kid there.
是啊 那些东西很难放弃 Yeah, it's hard to let go of that stuff.
就算我爸妈对我那么烂 I mean, as lousy as they've been to me,
我有时还是会想他们 I do miss my parents sometimes.
真遗憾卡特没来 I'm sorry Carter didn't show.
是啊 但愿她没事 Yeah, I hope she's okay.
明早一醒我就打她电话 I'll call her first thing tomorrow morning.
不过你得承认 今天挺有趣的 You have to admit, today was fun, though.
史上最精彩的贵妇午餐会 Best "ladies who lunch" date ever.
我还有点希望这不是玩笑 I kind of wish it wasn't a joke.
真的 For real.
我是说 我... Well, I mean, I just..
这是每个女生都想去的约会 It's the kind of date that every girl wants to go on.
有时髦衣服 有闹剧 还有查德 We had fashion, drama, Chad.
如果这真是一场约会 Well, if it was a real date,
我们最后可能还会接吻 we would probably kiss in the end.
卡特 Carter.
我们要谈谈这事 We should talk about this.
我们能就忘了它吗 Can we please just forget about it?
你还没睡 You're still up.
是的 我在等你 Yeah, I waited for you.
真的吗 Really?
这是干什么 What was that for?
为了今天 That was for today.
我该更支持你的 I should have supported you more.
不该光攻击洛莉 Not just attacked Lori.
小泰 没事的 Oh, Tay, it's fine.
我知道 I get it.
你不喜欢她 You're not exactly a fan.
那无所谓 Doesn't really matter.
有所谓的是你需要我 What matters is that you needed me,
而我不在 and I wasn't there.
泰勒 没事的 Taylor, it's fine.
说实话 我... Honestly, I...
直到到了那里 才知道自己是 I didn't even know how I was gonna feel myself
什么感觉 until I got there.
真的没事 It's really okay.
不 It's not.
这是女生守则 It's girl code.
是姐妹间的守则 It's that sister code.
而我没遵守 And I broke it.
你知道我爱你的 对吗 You know I love you, right?
我也是 Feeling's kind of mutual.
你要喝杯茶吗 Do you want some tea?
不了 谢谢 我很累 No, thanks. I'm wiped.
-还是上楼睡觉去吧 -好 - Think I'm just go upstairs and go to bed. - Okay.
如果你想聊聊 If you ever need to talk,
你知道我在这的 you know I'm here.
谢谢 Thanks.
晚安 Good night.