ANN: This is you, eyes closed, out in the rain?
You never thought you'd be doing something like this.
You never saw yourself as...
I... I don't know how you'd describe it.
It's like one of those people who like looking up at the moon,
or who spend hours gazing at the waves or the sunset, or...
I guess you know what kind of people I'm talking about.
Maybe you don't.
Anyway, you kind of like it being like this,
fighting the cold
and feeling the water seep through your shirt
and getting through to your skin,
and the feel of the ground growing soft beneath your feet...
(BREATHING HEAVILY) ...and the smell,
and the sound of the rain hitting the leaves.
All the things they talk about in the books that you haven't read.
This is you.
Who would've guessed it?
You.
(CRYSTAL SINGING)
(OVER HEADPHONES) San... San.
San... San.
San.
Nier.
Lesson three, dialog.
Ooh. (CHUCKLING)
Catch this.
You give me the big one.
(CHUCKLING) Okay.
Don't you even... (LAUGHING)
So how come you always get... (LAUGHING)
How come...
Why do you always get the big one?
Because... I deserve the big one.
Maybe you should just try and, you know,
get some chalk off the blackboard.
(BOTH LAUGHING)
Laurie...
Oh, I'm trying to blow it away from you.
I thought you were quitting. I am quitting.
I'm quitting quitting.
That's great.
I can't quit smoking
and quit eating at the same time.
You don't have to quit eating.
Why would you have to quit eating?
You just don't understand.
You lose weight just by thinking about it.
I swear, you're slimmer now than you were a month ago.
No, you're imagining it.
I am not.
When you're fat like I am,
the only thing you see is other women's bodies.
It's the only thing you see.
(CHUCKLING) Laurie, you're crazy.
You're not fat at all, okay?
I know fat people. You're not one of them.
Look at this tummy. It's not the tummy of a fat person.
As for me, I'm eating the same as always.
Yesterday, I had a whole liter of ice cream.
Oh, I haven't had ice cream in so long.
Hey, uh, you're not following one of those ice-cream diets, are you?
Yeah, Ben and Jerry's miracle diet.
Really? No.
You know what I'm thinking of right now?
What?
Corn on the cob.
With lots of salt, lots of butter.
Oh, just thinking about diets makes me hungry.
See you tomorrow. All right, see you tomorrow.
Tomorrow.
Bye. Bye.
(CHINESE RECORDING)
MOM: Is Don looking for another job?
Don's always looking for another job.
I could try and get him something at the hotel.
That's okay.
Last thing I need is for you two to fight there as well.
(RECORDING CONTINUES)
Why do you have to listen to this stuff?
Why can't you listen to music like normal people?
(TURNS TAPE OFF)
No one's normal, Mom.
No such thing as normal people.
Some muffins for the girls for breakfast.
They're a little, uh, squashed, but they're fine.
Who rented Nathan's house?
I don't know. Someone's moving in on Sunday.
Barry Manilow.
What?
Barry Manilow. He's normal.
Good night, Mom.
(SNORING)
Come on, move over. Move over.
Move over, buddy.
(SIGHS) Bed hog.
(DON GROANS)
Are those your feet, or are you rubbing ice cubes down my legs?
(CHUCKLING) Yes, they are ice cubes.
Okay, warm them up. That's my only choice.
(BREATHING ONTO FEET)
I'm cold up here too. I'm cold everywhere.
Did you put the laundry in the basket?
Yes. Thank you.
Are you tired?
Mmm-hmm. Okay.
No no no no no no!
I think you're too little.
I'll tell you when you're older.
You guys want some more milk?
Please, please, tell me now.
Drink up your milk, okay?
We've got to go in, like, five minutes, all right?
(SIGHS)
PENNY: You spilled your milk.
I told you you're too little.
Patsy, can you not drink a glass of milk for once without spilling it, huh?
Hey, hey, hey, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
What are you doing?
Daddy, why don't the Flintstones ever go to the beach?
I don't know. Don't change the subject.
Where does Mommy keep your sweaters?
Hey. Hey.
Mommy, I ate all my cereals, and Patsy didn't. ANN: Oh, no.
Oh, it's okay, we have accidents.
Okay, under the girls' bed, in the green box,
there's another sweater under there.
Okay, put up your arms.
Come on, we've got to take this off, okay, girlie?
Got a little bit of milk on you. Oh, are you stuck?
Where's Patsy? I don't know. There's Patsy.
DON: There you go. (ANN GROWLING)
Here you go. Put that on.
ANN: Okay, come on. Arm out.
Lance's brother rang me last night.
He said he might have something for me.
No way? Yes.
Where are the keys? I can't find the keys.
They're still in the ignition, I think. They are?
ANN: Come on, okay, girls, you've got to put on your jackets.
DON: They've opened a swimming pool business on Wilmington Drive.
Mommy, do I have to tell Patsy where babies come from? I think she's too little.
ANN: She is too little.
Honey, can you put on your jacket first?
They opened a swimming pool business on Wilmington Drive.
Oh, no way. Yeah. Yeah, I know.
Good luck. Yeah, thank you.
Hey, can you pick up the girls from school,
because I might not be back till later?
Yeah, sure. No problem. Okay. Guys...
ANN: You've got to put on your hats and gloves, okay?
I'm going to warm up the car, and we're going to be gone in two minutes, okay?
Two minutes.
ANN: I want you to help Patsy with hers as well, okay? So get yours on and help.
Bye, guys, have a good day. Bye, Mom.
I got you, got you, got you, got you.
Mmm.
(RETCHING)
(CRASH)
Ann?
Ann, I'm hanging out some wash.
You got anything you want me to hang out?
Ann, are you in there?
Put your clothes in the bag, and put on the robe.
Okay, do you know if this is going to take long?
I'm supposed to pick up my kids.
I really have no idea.
Well, can I just go tell my mom to pick them up for me?
We can't make any exceptions.
Is your mother outside?
Yeah, she came in with me, Ann Matland.
I forgot to tell her. I wasn't thinking when I came in.
I'll see what I can do. Okay.
Now, if you could get undressed,
or you really will be here all day.
Thank you.
MAN: And now I'm here because of my knee.
It wasn't me that should have had...
NURSE: John, Charlie, Bob, Seymour, Jack, and Bill.
Follow me, please.
Do you know if the other nurse told my mom
she had to go pick up my kids? I was supposed to go pick them up...
Who'd you tell it to?
The other nurse, I don't know her name.
(SIGHS) Do you know how many nurses we have working in this hospital?
Do you know what it's like to be waiting at the school gate
all on your own with your nose freezing to death
while all the other kids get picked up by their moms?
Yeah, I do.
I'll go see if I can find your mother.
Hi, Ann. I'm Dr. Thompson.
I'll be looking at the results of your ultrasound.
Why are we doing this again?
How are your kids?
I'm kind of worried, actually, because no one told my mom,
and I was supposed to pick them up today, so...
Let's not worry about that just now.
This will be over in a few minutes.
Okay.
Ann, would you excuse me for a moment?
Yeah, sure. It's your hospital.
Ann, this is Dr. Stuart and Dr. Lance.
Hi. Do you know if someone told my mom
about picking up my daughters?
We're only going to take a few minutes, okay?
(CHILD SINGING)
Does your husband live with you?
Yeah, he... He builds swimming pools.
He was out all day today.
And you work at the university?
Yeah. I clean the university. Nights.
And you're 23.
I'll be 24 in December. I'm an Aquarius.
How about you? What star sign are you?
What the hell is happening to me?
We've done the scan three times, and...
Are you sure you wouldn't prefer to call your husband?
No, I would prefer not to call him.
We've done the scan three times,
and I've ordered a pre-biopsy...
So, what?
You have a tumor...
...in both ovaries.
It's reached your stomach,
and it's beginning to spread to your liver.
Whoa.
That's pretty far gone, eh?
Ann, if you were 20 years older, the whole thing would
be spreading more slowly, and we could operate on it,
but...Your cells are very young,
too young, in fact,
and I'm afraid there's...
There's nothing we can do.
Well, how...
How long?
Two months, maybe three.
Here's me thinking I was pregnant.
No, I'm afraid not.
I knew it was something pretty serious
when you sat down here beside me.
They're renovating my office,
changing the air-conditioning, and...
No, that's not true.
I can't sit down in front of someone
and tell them that they're going to die.
I never have been able to.
The nurses are beginning to mention it.
Your family might want to see another doctor.
They might want a second opinion.
Someone who tells me the exact same thing as you, but looks me right in the eye?
Can I get you a coffee?
No.
Bourbon?
Let me guess, you going to offer me a cigarette?
No.
(VOICE BREAKING) Do you have a piece of candy?
A piece of...
Yeah.
It's pretty good.
What flavor is it?
Ginger.
Yeah, it's pretty good.
It's a bit hot, but it's okay.
I've prepared some leaflets
which more or less explain everything,
and some recipes for easing the nausea,
and I'd like to see you next week.
I've given you an appointment, and my direct line
in case you need to call me.
Yeah, okay. Do you have another piece of candy? One for the road?
I'm sorry, that was my last one.
(CHUCKLING)
Next week I'll have more candy.
ANN: Your dad used to drink a bottle of bourbon and call it breakfast.
You get wired if you drink so much as a beer.
You didn't even take drugs during high school,
just the odd drag off Don's joint
without inhaling, like that guy who used to be
President of the United States,
that guy, Bill Clinton.
So, were they waiting long?
Oh, good. Good, thanks a lot, Mom. I owe you one.
No, now they're doing blood analysis.
Apparently, I've got anemia. That's why I've been fainting.
Yeah. No, no, you know, you know what they're like,
once they've got you, they don't want to let you go.
Trying out some new machine. They're like little kids.
You know, I should go, Mom, because the nurse is coming to get me, so...
Okay, bye. Thanks a lot.
Now you feel like you want to take all the drugs in the world,
but all the drugs in the world aren't going to change the feeling
that your whole life's been a dream,
and it's only now that you're waking up.
DON: "'But I like to eat cake in a tub,' laughed the cat.
"'You should try it sometime,' laughed the cat as he sat,
"and then I got mad, there was just no time for fun.
"I said, 'Can't you get out?'" ANN: Hi.
Hey. ANN: Hello.
Hi, Mommy.
Hi.
Have you been good? PATSY: Mom, can you tell us a story?
Daddy does it too fast.
Hey, thanks a lot, you little monster.
(ANN CHUCKLING)
I don't read 'em too fast.
How are you? Good.
I've got anemia. That's why I've been fainting,
so they gave me some iron and some vitamins. I should be...
You have anemia? How did it go with Lance?
I, uh, I start on Monday.
Hey, no way! That's so good.
Yeah. I know. I know.
I know, and there's enough work for a year at least.
Aw, that's so great! I know, it's great, it really is.
Did you give the girls something to eat?
Well... PENNY: Daddy gave us milkshakes and fries.
He said we mustn't tell you.
It was so nice. (CHUCKLES)
PATSY: Mommy, Mommy, I ate all my fries and all my milkshake.
Fries are vegetables, right?
They're potatoes, which is a very good food, it's one of the food groups.
No. No...
I'm sorry, okay? It was a little treat. I just got a job.
What is wrong with you?
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
Okay, the raft first, the moon second.
Can I stay, or should I go?
You can stay.
All right, that's okay. Good night, you two.
PENNY: Bye.
All right, we have to close our eyes.
We have to close our eyes and we're setting off.
Okay?
Oh, no. Oh, no!
It's getting wavier and wavier and then we... Whoosh!
And then we splash down into the water.
(WHISPERS) Oh, no, what's that?
Is that a shark?
It is a shark.
They're really, really mad at us.
They thought that this river was the ocean. They're really mad!
(SCREAMS)
MAN: (ON TV) Because a lot of times,
you never get the opportunity to use it.
The skip's tried the corner a couple of times.
Actually, can you leave me those?
Just wanted a taste. All right.
Are you going to go to work?
Yeah, I ought to go in.
'Cause your mother said she could get a lift back if you want a rest.
No, I should go in.
I thought you were pregnant.
Yeah. Me too.
You sure you're all right?
Yeah, I'm good. I'm just a little bit tired, that's all.
...And, of course, McAulay right now seems to be dominating
what I call, I don't know, the game in hand...
You know, next month when I get my paycheck,
we could go to Whalebay Beach.
Would you like that?
Yeah, that'd be nice.
Patsy hasn't even been to the beach before.
It'd be nice.
Yeah.
I've got a good feeling about things.
With the swimming pools, I mean.
I really do.
...at the Royal City Curling Club, for the best in prime rib...
ANN: Thinking...
You're not used to thinking.
When you have your first kid at 17
with the only man you ever kissed in your life,
and then another kid when you're 19 with the same man,
and you live in a trailer in your mom's backyard,
and your dad's been in jail for 10 years,
you never have time to think.
Maybe you're so out of practice, you've forgotten how.
(CLEARS THROAT)
What is this?
It's coffee. Yeah, I asked for an espresso.
Yeah, but the machine ain't working.
Then why didn't you just say that to me? Well, I can't...
"The espresso machine wasn't working." Why didn't you just tell me that?
Well, I figured you wanted a coffee. Coffee's coffee.
MAN: You brought me a coffee. I asked for an espresso.
WAITRESS: Okay, well, just relax.
Come back next week, we'll have espresso.
MAN: Okay, thank you very much, yeah.
Hey, could you please lend me a pen?
Sure, honey, just tell me what you want first,
so as I can write it down,
and then I can lend it to you,
and that way, we'll all be happy.
Okay, I'll have, um...
Don't say espresso, 'cause the espresso machine ain't working,
and don't say cappuccino, 'cause it's the same machine.
Okay, I'll have a... A Danish.
Got no more till tomorrow.
Could I get, then, a coffee
and just something sweet,
like, anything you have that's sweet.
Uh, pineapple cheesecake?
It's the sweetest thing we got.
Actually, it's the only thing we've got.
That's fine, that's great. Pineapple cheesecake.
Okay. Thank you.
Here you go, the world's sweetest cheesecake.
You can keep the pen for as long as you need it.
I already filled in the lottery ticket earlier.
What are you going to do if you win? Have you decided?
Have I ever, honey.
I want to be like her.
I want her nose, her mouth,
her eyes, her hair, her waist...
I'm going to be so much like Cher
that folks are gonna stop me in the supermarket
and say "Wasn't it terrible what happened to dear old Sonny?"
What do you think?
I think that's a really fucking stupid idea.
I'm just kidding. I think Cher's great.
Penny, Patsy, I'm making a big heap of pancakes.
If you don't come right this second,
I'm gonna eat all of them all by myself.
PENNY: I'm coming, Mommy. Nom, nom, nom...
Morning, buddy.
PENNY: Hi, Mommy. Hello there. Good morning.
I guess Patsy doesn't want any pancakes, eh?
No pancakes for Patsy.
Nom, nom, nom! Good morning, girl!
Who wants pancakes?
Is it Sunday yet? Is it my birthday?
No, but you know what?
Last night I dreamt that you both woke up like hungry lions,
and you ate lots of food.
Roar! Roar!
(ROARING NOISES)
Hi, hi, hi. Hi.
PENNY: Could you please...
Yeah, I'll cut it up for you. There you go.
Are you going to take the kids to school?
Roar!
ANN: Oh, no!
Oh, no!
The biggest lion of them all. Go get him, Patsy.
Bye.
I love you, my little lions. I love you so much.
(ALL ROARING)
Bye.
ANN: I kind of want, um, something different.
HAIRDRESSER: Different...
ANN: To what I've got at the moment, I mean.
I could do you braids, but it would take all day,
and I'm on my own here on Wednesdays, so...
Not braids, no way.
Well, you've got good hair for braids,
and you asked for something different, so...
Braids are fine.
They look great on you, but...
I was thinking of something more...
How about blonde?
Blonde?
Something to kind of...
Brighten up my face a bit.
Something bright.
Like this?
I was also wondering about false nails,
because I don't have any nails, and...
Well, the girl who does the nails
doesn't come in Wednesday.
Know you what, then? Why I don't just come back tomorrow?
Then we can do it all at the same time, can't we?
Braids as well?
Uh, I'll think about it.
Okay, I'll see you tomorrow.
Bye.
MOM: I had two conventions today,
and I had to bake a cake for 300 people in the shape of a tire.
(CHINESE RECORDING)
I'm beat.
Even my hips ache.
I think I'm going to make an appointment to see the doctor tomorrow.
My knee's acting up as well.
That damn cake must have weighed 30 pounds.
How about you? You feeling any better?
Yeah, I'm feeling fine.
MOM: They say it's going to snow this weekend, but I don't think so.
ANN: I hate the snow.
MOM: I like the snow even less than I like the rain.
WOMAN: (ON TV) Because you'll never be anything but a common frump
whose father lived over a grocery store,
and whose mother took in washing.
With this money, I can get away from every rotten stinking thing
that makes me think of this place or you.
No, you must think I'm on a string.
"Go away, Veda, come back, Veda."
It isn't that easy.
ANN: Alone.
You're alone.
You've never been so alone in your life.
Lies are your only company.
BARTENDER: Can I get you something?
Yeah, can I get a Molson Canadian?
Hi.
I haven't seen you here before.
No.
I'm sorry about the thing with the braids this morning.
I shouldn't really have suggested it,
but I was having a kind of weird morning...
You ever get those?
You know, when you just can't face the world?
It's very stressful being a hairdresser.
People expect a lot from you,
and sometimes, you can't stand the pressure.
People want you to make them beautiful,
but sometimes, it's just not possible.
You know what? Don't worry about it.
I wasn't having a great morning either, so...
Now, can I ask you a personal question?
Do you like Milli Vanilli?
You mean those guys in shorts who didn't sing?
Oh, you're wrong there.
They did sing, but their producer wouldn't let them.
He practically blackmailed them,
and said he would tell everyone their secret,
and he got all the royalties.
It was so unfair,
and later they showed that they could sing,
but, you know, no one listened to them.
You know, they were too fragile for the music industry.
What kind of music do you like?
Music? Um...
God, I haven't listened to any music in so long.
Uh, I used to like Nirvana.
I went to one of their concerts.
Actually, it was their last concert.
That's actually where I met Don, my husband. He was...
(MUSIC PLAYING) Oh, hold that thought.
I've just got to get up and dance.
The DJ's a friend of mine. I'll be back.
Uh, I'm going to go get a cup of coffee next door.
I was wondering if maybe you wanted me to go and get you one too?
Uh, no thanks.
Okay.
Yeah, actually, please, yeah.
Sure. Milk and sugar, please.
Thanks.
♪ Touch my hand
♪ It's only me, listen
♪ I'm here
♪ Come to stand
♪ In sultry fields
♪ With you ♪
(COINS CLINKING)
Your coffee's cold.
I was kind of tired.
I, uh, washed and folded your laundry.
Thanks.
I didn't forget the softener, did I?
No, you forgot the soap.
Were you watching me while I was asleep?
Uh, yeah, for a little while. I'm sorry.
Why?
I was snoring, or...
No, you were drooling. You drool in your sleep.
Are you that girl?
That girl at the coffee shop
that was writing in the journal the other day?
Thanks for the jacket.
It's yours, isn't it?
Yeah, I mean, you can keep it if you want.
It's mighty cold out there, and I'm used to it.
I was in Alaska for three years.
I lived there, I mean, two and a half.
It's all right.
I really like the cold. It makes me feel really alive.
I've got to run. I've got two young kids. You know how it is.
Sure.
Uh...
Thanks.
I'll see you around. My name's Lee.
Ann.
Hey. Are you sure that you don't need the jacket?
Oh, no, no. Go ahead, take it.
Okay. I've never been to Alaska.
I always really liked the sound of it.
I'll bring the jacket back.
No. I want you to have it.
I... I like the idea of you wearing it.
That's nice.
I'll bring it back, don't worry.
ANN: You see things clearly now.
You see all these borrowed lives,
borrowed voices.
Milli Vanilli everywhere.
You look at all the things you can't buy...
Now you don't even want to buy.
All the things that'll still be here after you're gone,
when you're dead,
and then you realize that all the things in the bright window displays,
all the models in the catalogs,
all the colors, all the special offers,
all the Martha Stewart recipes,
all the piles of greasy food,
it's just all there to try to keep us away from death,
and it doesn't work.
So it turns out that she loved her daughter so much
that she didn't tell her that she was her mother, because she didn't...
You know, she thought that that would be better, you know,
that the boy's parents would accept her better,
and that the boy would ask her to marry him,
which was what she wanted most in the whole world.
(SIGHS) But it was a huge sacrifice,
and she suffered a whole lot...
Hey.
She, uh... Mommy, Grandma told us a beautiful story about a mom
who had a lot of bad things happen to her. It's really sad.
Oh, goodness, how unusual.
Hello, Patsy.
I bathed them, and Penny ate three slices of banana bread, and Patsy drank some milk.
Lately, she's been kind of off it.
ANN: Thanks.
PENNY: Grandma's story's a movie, Mommy,
and she says she likes it a lot.
ANN: Really? Yeah, Joan Crawford.
Oh, Joan Crawford, that's great.
Okay, let's go, guys. Patsy, come on, let's go.
Patsy, put that down. Let's go.
Patsy, we're going. I just want to keep them entertained, you know,
so they don't watch so much TV.
Next time, I'll keep my mouth shut.
Mommy, I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
I don't want to. I don't want to. I don't want to.
I know, I know, I know.
I said thanks, okay, so just drop it.
I don't need your thanks.
Okay, so I'll take them back, then.
All I did was watch your kids while you did your shopping.
You asked me to. Yeah, I asked you to.
I didn't ask you to fill their heads with stupid stories
about mothers making dumb-ass sacrifices.
Well, what kind of stories do you want me to tell them?
Cinderella? About murderous stepmothers? Is that what you want?
Yes!
Let's go, girls.
There's times that you're just like your father,
and let me tell you, it's not something I like.
You're wrong. There's times I'm just like you.
It's not something I like either.
Come on.
Let's go. Put on your socks. Thank you, Penny.
Ow! Ow!
I know, Patsy. I'm sorry, it's just really tangled, okay?
Patsy's always whining.
Oh, come on, Penny, please don't pick on her.
You always complain when I brush your hair too.
Why do you have to do that? I wasn't picking on her.
Oh, and telling me that she's always complaining,
that's not picking on her? I think so.
I wasn't picking on her.
I'm not always complaining.
Okay, that's enough, guys.
Let's go to bed, okay?
(SIGHS) Okay, Mama.
Okay, good night, monkey girl. You got kitty?
PATSY: Yeah. ANN: There you go.
You've got some covers. Night, buddy.
You don't want me to kiss you?
I wasn't picking on her.
Penny, that is enough, I said, okay?
Good night. PATSY: Good night.
PENNY: It's true, you're just like Grandma.
Hey, there's some chicken left over. Hey.
Aren't you going to say hello?
Hello. Hello.
(SNIFFS) How many beers have you had?
Uh... One or two or...
Four. I don't know.
You want some chicken or don't you?
Nah, I want a kiss.
I want a big, juicy kiss.
(DING)
Here's some chicken.
(BOTH GROAN)
Great. Chicken.
Mmm, it's good.
Have the girls been in bed long?
Yeah, a little while.
Penny was picking on Patsy again.
I told her not to and she got kind of mad at me.
She did? Yeah, a little bit.
Hey, we started a pool out at Rushmore today.
Oh, yeah? Yeah.
It's crescent-shaped. It's going to look wild.
These people, they got...
They got a three-story house,
they got a porch out of Gone With The Wind and everything.
It's beautiful.
Are you happy?
I mean, with the swimming pool thing, I mean.
Yeah, it's good.
I mean, you know, it's not like the factory,
but it's better than nothing.
I'm going to get to work.
You're not just going to leave me here alone
gnawing on a cold chicken bone, are you?
If you like, you can always heat it up,
but I thought you really loved cold food.
I do. Why don't you just eat it cold?
(ANN GIGGLING)
Will you sing to me?
No, I have to go to work.
Come on, you know how much I love it when you sing to me.
Please, just sing to me.
♪ I may not always love you
♪ But long as there are stars above you
♪ You'll never need to doubt it
♪ I'll make you so sure about it
♪ God only knows what I'd be without you
♪ God only knows what I'd be ♪
Hi.
Bye.
(CHUCKLES) Bye.
Hey, my buddy, Penny.
I'm not going to be at your birthday party,
but there's nothing I'd like more in the whole wide world.
I'll bet Grandma's made a special birthday cake just for you
with your name on it in big chocolate letters.
Penny,
I want you to know that the day that you were born,
I held you in my arms,
and that was the happiest day of my whole life.
I was so happy, I couldn't even speak.
I just stroked your tiny little feet,
and I cried with happiness.
Without you, I could have never found out that lions eat pancakes,
or that the bed could be a raft.
Try and look after Patsy, okay?
I know it's hard 'cause sometimes she makes you mad and everything.
I know it's not easy being a big sister, buddy,
but I know that you can do it, okay?
Mommy sends you millions and millions of kisses.
(SNIFFLES)
Happy birthday, my darling little Patsy.
Now you're five!
I'll bet that Penny looks after you now.
I bet she doesn't pick on you anymore.
Honey, I don't want you to be sad
that I'm not at your birthday, okay? Promise?
I remember your first birthday really well, you know?
I remember how
you started to cry and you wouldn't stop
because you didn't like how we were singing Happy Birthday.
Every time we started to sing, you'd just scream and yell
because you didn't like how we were singing. (CHUCKLING)
Happy birthday, my little buddy.
Mommy loves you to bits.
Buddy, I want you to be happy.
I know sometimes that's not easy,
'cause sometimes things happen,
and people aren't always like you want them to be.
Talk to your dad if there's things bothering you, okay?
He knows more than you'd think.
Seriously, if there's... If there's something bothering you,
and you're not sure about something, ask him, he'll tell you.
Grandma knows lots of things too.
I really hope she'll explain them to you.
Try and be patient with her, okay?
She... She is a good person, even if it doesn't always seem that way.
She's...
(EXHALES)
None of the things she always dreamed about ever came true, you know?
Try and understand her.
Don't let her make you mad.
If you get a new mom, try and love her, okay?
Don't make life impossible for her
just out of some loyalty to me or something like that, you know. Just...
I know.
I know it's not the same.
And whatever happens, you finish school.
Even if you think it sucks and you don't know if you can take it anymore,
you just finish school.
I'd like to be able to tell you stuff about boys
and boyfriends and relationships and that kind of stuff.
I think I wouldn't be much help.
I was 17 when you were born, Penny,
exactly how old you are right now.
You have to have faith in yourself.
You have to have faith in your ability to do things,
to just make a go of it.
And lots of kisses and cuddles,
even though I know you're not a small little thing anymore.
(ANN GROANS)
Ann, is something wrong?
What is it?
Is it that diet you're on?
(COUGHING)
Ann?
How come you're throwing up?
You're not taking those slimming pills, are you?
You want to know why I'm throwing up?
You really want to know? Mmm-hmm.
I'm throwing up because when I was eight years old,
the girl who was supposed to be my best friend
told everyone I was a slut.
I'm throwing up because when I was 15 years old,
I didn't get invited to the only party
I ever wanted to go to in my entire life.
I'm throwing up because when I was 17, I had my first kid,
and I had to grow up overnight,
and I've got no more dreams.
Without dreams, you can't fucking live.
I'm throwing up because since they put my dad in jail, I haven't seen him.
I don't have anything from him.
I don't even have a single fucking postcard.
And then in all the commercials,
everybody's so fucking happy,
and all day long, my two little daughters
sing those stupid fucking songs
from those stupid fucking commercials.
Mmm.
If I beg you,
if I get down on my knees to beg you,
please,
don't give me the name of that diet you're on.
Hi. I didn't wake you up, did I?
It's Ann.
Can I bring you back your book now?
Yeah, right now.
Yeah, okay, I know where that is.
It's got a bit wet.
Don't worry about it.
What happened?
You didn't keep up the payments on your furniture,
and they took it all away?
No.
Well, actually, I was...
I was planning on getting some furniture one day.
I just haven't really had the time.
Sorry, I'd offer you something,
but, uh, I don't have anything.
I don't even have any glasses.
Not even, like, a cookie or something?
Nothing.
I would have bought you something if I knew you were coming.
I would have bought something.
I can live without cookies.
Who took all your furniture?
Someone...
Took it, yeah.
You don't want to get any more
'cause you think she might come back?
You want to sit down?
Um...
Are they okay?
What did you do in Alaska?
I'm a surveyor.
I survey land for building highways,
and bridges and things like that.
Before that, I was in, um, Chile.
Before that, I was in North Carolina,
and before that, Halifax.
What are your daughters called?
Penny and Patsy.
Would you like to see a photograph?
Okay.
They look happy.
They look like you.
Do I look happy?
Not happy.
You look beautiful.
You look like your girls.
Have you been thinking about me?
Yeah.
I've been thinking about you a lot.
Too much.
(SIGHS)
Um, I got a sister, you know, who...
She works for this radio company up north,
and she makes these tapes for me that she sends to me,
music that she likes,
and, uh, I've got the latest one
out in my car right now.
If, uh...
We could go listen to it, if you want.
(SENZA FINE PLAYING IN ITALIAN)
If you don't kiss me right now, I'm going to scream.
(SCREAMING)
Shut up.
If you don't kiss me right now,
I'm going to fucking scream.
Hello, Ann.
This some kind of therapy to get over your shyness?
Something like that.
So you didn't come last week.
There didn't seem to be a lot of point.
I have to give you a further scan and a fuller biopsy.
Okay, no, I'm sorry.
I don't want any of those things, okay?
I'm sorry... I need to feel like I've got some control.
So I don't want any more tests if they're not gonna save me.
I don't wanna be here, I don't want to die here.
I will not have the only thing my kids remember about me be a hospital ward.
So why are you here then?
It's this package.
I want you to look after it for me.
I don't know. What is it?
I've recorded birthday messages for both of my daughters,
for every birthday till they're 18.
And you want me to give these to them?
(SIGHS) Why don't you ask your husband?
'Cause...
'Cause Don, you know, he'd lose them
or maybe he'd give them to them next year, and maybe the year after that,
or maybe he'd give them to them all at once.
They wouldn't understand a thing if he did that,
so... Can you just tell me you'll do it, please?
I'll only do it if you promise to come here every week
and I have to give you medication.
I would imagine that the nausea's got worse, you're not eating.
Dying's not as easy as it looks, you know?
But there's no need for you to have to feel terrible all the time.
It's just...
It's just I'm kind of afraid
I'm going to come in here one day and then I'm never gonna leave...
I've got to so much I have to do before I die,
I have so many things I have to do. Like,
I have to do them, or...
It'll only be just some painkillers.
Promise we won't do any more tests,
just something to ease the pain.
And anyway...
I brought you some candies.
So you'll look after it for me? Of course.
Let's just say it's, um, part of your therapy.
God...
These candies are so good.
Oh, I don't get it.
I've been counting my calories today,
and I can't have eaten more than 1500,
and in theory I need 2000,
so in theory I should have lost weight.
And I just weighed myself before I left the house
and I weigh nearly a pound more than I did yesterday.
Must be my metabolism.
They should give us compensation for slow metabolisms.
Give us some kind of allowance.
Laurie, you want to come over for dinner tomorrow night?
Yeah, I'd love to.
Great.
Diet food, I hope.
Don't want to ruin my diet.
ANN: It's cold in the supermarket, and you like it like that.
People always read the labels of their favorite brands really really carefully
just to see how many chemicals they have,
and then they just sigh and they put them in their cart anyway,
like they're saying, "Sure, it's bad for me,
"it's bad for my family, but we like it."
No one ever thinks about death in a supermarket
(SENZA FINE PLAYING)
60 dollars and 48 cents.
ANN: Girls, you finish those mashed potatoes, okay?
Oh, God.
These ribs are so great.
How did you get them this tender?
I can never get mine this tender.
I leave them soaking in milk in the fridge for a couple of hours.
You leave them soaking in milk
in the fridge for a couple of hours.
Yeah. Thank you.
I'm trying to remember that.
Patsy, hey, stop playing with your food.
Patsy?
Ann, tell Patsy to stop playing with her food.
Stop playing with your food. Eat a little more.
It's more fun playing with it than eating it.
You know that eating food can be fun too?
Why?
Well, because...
Because, well, you're doing new things,
you're trying new things and that's fun.
Mashed potatoes isn't new.
It's more fun doing things with it.
Laurie, why don't you have some more sauce?
Here, Don made it himself.
Goodness me.
I didn't know your husband cooked.
I didn't know there were husbands that cooked.
It wasn't really cooking.
I just added honey to a bottle of barbecue sauce.
Well that's better than nothing.
You could have lied,
say you made the whole thing.
ANN: No, Don would never lie. He wouldn't even know how.
How did you two guys meet?
We met at a Nirvana concert.
Actually it was the last Nirvana concert
before Kurt Cobain... Yeah. Oh, my God.
Did you save the tickets?
They must be worth a fortune by now.
No, no we didn't save them.
No, we were sort of too excited to keep them.
I mean, it was so...
Ann spent the whole concert crying. (CHUCKLES)
I didn't really like Nirvana back then,
so I was this kind of bored and I was looking around,
and that's when I saw Ann.
She was this beautiful girl just crying her eyes out.
So I went up to her
and I offered her a handkerchief,
but I didn't have a handkerchief,
I didn't even have a paper one,
so I just...
I took off my T-shirt and I gave it to her.
That's how we met.
That's really romantic.
Oh, do you have any more mashed potatoes?
Yeah, sure. Clean your hands, please.
You're a pig.
(GASPS)
(GIGGLES)
She's basically a nice person, you know?
Oh Christ, Ann.
No, come on, don't talk so loud.
Penny's right.
I mean, the woman ate eight ribs.
And they were fucking huge ribs.
Did you see those things? (LAUGHS)
I know, but her...
They were fucking huge.
Her fiancé dumped her the day before her wedding, you know?
What happened? He invited her to an all-you-can-eat,
and they wanted to charge her triple?
That's not funny, Don. That's not funny.
(IMITATES LAURIE) Food can be fun. (LAUGHS)
Food can be fun.
She's a really nice person.
She really is. She's just...
Lately she's got this obsession.
Yeah, lately you seem to have the opposite.
It's the anemia.
Gonna go get more vitamins this week, go to the hospital.
Do you want me to come with you?
No, don't worry, I can manage.
Okay.
You know, tonight, I realized
how lucky we were to meet that night.
I mean, in spite of everything, (CHUCKLES)
in spite of living in this shithole,
in spite of never having anything new,
in spite of never going on vacation...
You never complained once.
Not once.
I would...
I would like to be better for you.
I love you, you know that?
Don't you ever forget that.
I love you.
What are you doing?
I'm sweeping up.
What are you doing?
I'm the queen witch,
and I'm teaching this little witch how to make spells.
I'm the little witch.
Really? What kind of spells are you doing?
Oh, just normal spells, turning frogs into cars
and turning lizards into airplanes.
I'd love... You know how to do that?
Are you gonna teach me?
Sure. I have no strings to...
Hi, there. I'm Ann.
Hi. I see you've already met Penny and Patsy.
Yeah. I'm also Ann.
Oh, yeah? There you go. Nice to meet you. (CHUCKLES)
So, you just moved in, or...
Yeah, a few days ago.
I was just trying to do some gardening or something.
Looks great. They're so sweet.
(CHUCKLES)
Their little get-ups on...
Listen, this is kind of a weird question
since we just met and everything, but I was wondering,
I'm heading out for about half an hour...
Because both my husband and my mom aren't back yet,
I was wondering if there's any chance you could just keep an eye on them
for half an hour if you're around.
Of course, no problem. Are you sure?
Yeah, I'm gonna be here all day, and
they were gonna show me how to do some spells...
Oh, there you go. They're very good at spells.
Okay, don't worry. Thanks a lot.
Bye, guys. You behave yourselves, okay?
Ann's gonna watch you for a little bit.
A lizard. Thank you so much.
It's okay.
Um, so help me here.
Who's Patsy and who's Penny?
Hey. Hi.
My body hurt thinking you weren't gonna come.
I wasn't gonna come.
I'm glad you did.
Well...
Is this one of your sister's tapes?
Yeah.
Would you like to dance?
(SONG PLAYING)
(SPANISH SONG PLAYING)
And then the little mermaid said to the taxi driver,
(IN A HIGH-PITCHED VOICE) "I want to see New York. Please, show me New York."
He said, "It's so big.
"You can't, you can't just walk around New York."
So the taxi driver took her to the Empire State Building,
and, you know, it's so high, it has two elevators,
because they couldn't find just one cable to build one, you know?
They had to build two.
So he got on the first elevator,
and then on the second elevator
that's as fast as a space rocket,
and they got to the top of the Empire State Building,
and the little mermaid was looking down,
and she said "Oh, my God.
"People look like ants, they're so small."
ANN: Hey, guys. Hello there.
We played witches and princesses.
And Ann did our braids.
They look beautiful. Thank you, Ann.
I'm sorry I took so long.
No, that was fine. We had a great time.
Are you sure? They're great kids.
Were you guys good?
Yeah. Good.
(CHUCKLES)
Want your witches' hats?
Tomorrow, can we finish the story
about the mermaid and the taxi driver?
Of course. My pleasure.
(WHISPERS) Give Ann a kiss goodbye.
We have to go have bath and suppertime now,
but maybe we can come back
and hear the end of that story, okay?
Thank you so much, Ann.
Let's go.
Hey, Ann? Yeah?
I was just gonna make some coffee.
You wanna come over?
Great.
Just let me finish doing this.
Okay.
Do you take sugar?
No, no, it's all right.
Why? You're not on a diet, are you?
No. Why, should I? (LAUGHS)
No. I just have this friend
who's obsessed with diets and calories,
and she goes on and on and on.
Boring.
No, I've seen too many people sick with anorexia and bulimia.
I'm a nurse...
So I'm not really bothered.
You know, you've got really cute kids.
Yeah, they're great, aren't they? Yeah.
What about you? What?
You want to have kids? No. No, I don't think so.
Why not?
You think it's stupid to bring them into the world,
or... (CHUCKLES)
Just haven't found the right guy, or...
Uh, no, I haven't. (LAUGHS)
No, but it's not that either, no.
Do you think you can't, or...
Uh, no. Well, I don't know, actually.
But, um...
Okay, um...
I was in my last year of nursing college.
We were doing some work experience
in a pediatric hospital.
I'd decided to specialize in kids,
because I've always liked them.
Maybe because I was an only child.
I don't know. Anyway... Um,
one night, I was on duty,
and they called me in to help with a birth.
This woman was overdue,
she was expecting twins, and the babies were in danger.
So they decided to do a cesarean,
and the mother was put under a general anesthetic,
and...
It turned out they were Siamese twins.
You know, Siamese?
They were born with one torso,
one set of lungs...
They hardly cried.
They weren't horrible to look at.
No, no, they were just like any other baby.
But...
You know, there was no way they were gonna survive.
It's impossible.
So...
We put them in an incubator
while the doctors talked to the father
about what they should do.
The father didn't even want to see them.
So they decided to take them out of the incubator,
and, um...
Wait for them to die,
and I offered to be with them
until they...
I just couldn't bear the thought of them dying alone
in a cold hospital room.
They lived 30 hours.
I held them in my arms 30 hours.
I sang every song I knew,
songs of the world they would never see.
Anyway, they...
Just grew smaller and smaller in my arms.
First, the boy died, and...
Six hours later, the girl died, so...
Since then, I've specialized in geriatric nursing.
(SCOFFS) Yeah.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry.
I don't know why I told you this story.
Thanks for the coffee.
You know what? I'd better be going.
Really, I'm sorry.
Do you wanna come over for dinner next week?
Are you sure?
Yeah, no, I would really love you to.
I know the girls would really love it too,
because you have to tell them
the end of that mermaid story.
They love that story.
I'd love to, Ann,
and you know, that story is happy.
That's... (CHUCKLES)
Thank you so much. I'd love to.
Okay.
Read me something.
Read me something that you're reading right now.
I'm reading a very sad book at the moment.
Beautiful, but sad.
It can't be as sad as the story I heard today.
Tell it to me.
I can't. It'll make me too sad.
Yeah, you don't wanna tell it to me,
because it's part of your life,
and you don't want me to know anything
about your life.
I like it that you don't ask me anything about my life.
I don't ask you anything
because I've learned not to.
When you look at somebody...
Really look at them,
you might see 50%
of who they are,
and wanting to know the rest,
that's what destroys everything.
That's what I learned.
Whoever took away your furniture
really taught you a lesson, eh?
Yeah, that's all she left me.
Do you really want me to read you something?
Mmm-hmm, please. Read me something.
Okay.
Pick something.
To The Wedding by John Berger.
(KISSING)
"Her capacities go out one by one,
"and there's no night, no stars,
"only a cellar from which she can never walk,
"and in which nobody else can stay.
"She's given medicines which make her ill,
"but which stop her dying for a little while.
"They're scared.
"I'm scared..."
You know, I didn't think it was that bad.
No, I like it. I just...
I don't want to read right now.
I lied...
When I said that when you look at somebody,
you know 50%...
Because when I look at you,
I see...
I don't know, maybe 10%...
And that 10% is...
(KISSING)
ANN: It's not so bad.
Is it?
It's my birthday. Wish me happy birthday.
Happy birthday, mom.
Aren't you gonna start the car?
I've got something to tell you, mom.
Oh, it must be serious,
otherwise you'd tell me while we were driving.
I need to know where my dad is.
Are you gonna go and see him?
I guess that bugs you.
(SIGHS)
No.
Not even that can make me mad anymore.
This time last year, this
very same day, my birthday,
I thought I should do something,
I don't know why.
So I put on some makeup
and the least old clothes I could find,
and I, I went to a bar,
and I ordered a whisky and
started talking to the bartender.
He was just a kid.
He'd just started at the hotel.
It was his first job.
And we chatted about this and that,
and I told him it was my birthday.
About five minutes later, he
presented me with a bowl of peanuts
with a candle in,
and, uh...
I started to cry.
I cried so hard the kid got scared, and he
blew out the candle and hid the bowl of peanuts,
and I said, "No, don't blow out the candle,
"don't hide the peanuts."
And all this year, all I could think about was
that bowl of peanuts, and how I started to cry.
So this year, I baked myself a cake.
Because I knew if I went back to that bar,
I'd give the kid a heart attack.
Start the car.
Five minutes.
You're almost done too.
Am I hurting you?
No, not at all.
She's great with nails.
Now, don't you ask her to give you a perm
or braids or anything,
but with nails, she's the best.
I've got a manicure diploma and everything.
I'm not interested in hair or heads.
Give me hands every time.
So do you like Milli Vanilli as well?
I'm from Segovia.
We don't have any Milli Vanilli in Segovia.
Milli Vanilli is universal.
Thank you very much. Thanks.
So, see you soon.
No.
No?
You know, braids really suit you.
They look really great on you.
You think so?
Yeah.
Bye. Bye.
♪ I may not always love you
♪ But long as there are stars above you
♪ You'll never need to doubt it
♪ I'll make you so sure about it
♪ God only knows what I'd be without you... ♪
Hi.
How are you, Ann?
This is Penny and this is Patsy.
Penny's six, and Patsy's four.
They're very pretty young girls.
You haven't been wasting your time.
You could say that.
What about your husband?
Don?
Uh, he builds swimming pools.
Swimming pools, no less?
Yeah, he's doing pretty good.
I got work here, you know.
Sewing sports shoes together.
Yeah, a sports shoe can take up to 86 different pieces.
Did you know that? No.
We sew the side pieces on here,
and then in another jail, they finish them off.
It's good work.
Sure.
People are always gonna want to need shoes, huh?
Ann, I suppose your mother still hates me.
Dad, mom hates everyone.
Yeah, I bet she hates me the most.
Sometimes, yeah.
Some of us...
Just can't live the kind of life
that other people want us to live.
You know?
No matter how hard you try...
You just can't do it.
Yeah, I guess.
You believe me, don't you?
Yeah.
I believe you.
It's hard.
Like, you know, you...
You love someone, and you can't make them happy.
It's kind of like you love them, but...
You can't love them the way they want to be loved,
you know what I mean?
If you send me the kids' shoe sizes,
I can make some shoes for them.
Okay.
I want to touch your face.
I remember how it used to feel.
I've forgotten a lot of things. I remember that.
I remember, um,
you used to, before you'd leave the house,
you'd put on this record of ringing bells,
and then you'd just leave, like, right away.
I used to like to hear the music from the house
as I was walking down the street.
It was really pretty.
It was.
It was always the same record.
It was The Mule Serenade.
That's really pretty.
Take care of yourself, dad, okay?
Yeah, you too,
and remember to send me the girls' shoe size, okay?
Yeah, I will.
Hey, Penny.
Going to have a good day at school? Mmm-hmm.
Give me a kiss. Yeah?
Okay, have a good day.
I hope you feel better, mommy.
I want you to feel better again.
Okay. You have a good day, all right?
Bye.
Hey, Patsy.
Give me a cuddle, mommy.
Okay, I'll give you a cuddle.
How's that for a cuddle?
I need to go now.
You have to go to school now? Okay.
I know, you're in a bit of a hurry.
Mmm-mmm. (LAUGHS)
Hey. Hey.
Are you sure this is anemia?
Maybe we should go see another doctor.
No, I know it's anemia. They did, like, a million tests,
and I've been taking all the vitamins.
They just told me I need to rest, so, you know,
I took care of all of you guys when you were sick.
It's your turn to take care of me.
Okay. Okay.
I think I'm gonna like taking care of you.
Yeah? Let's see if you're any good at it.
Okay. Bye. (GIGGLES) Bye.
Bye.
Don...
I want you to understand
why I didn't tell you I was gonna die.
It was like...
It was like the only present I could give you and the girls, you know,
to save you all the trips to the hospital
and all the stress
and the waiting around in waiting rooms,
and I know if you think about it, you'll know that I'm right.
Now you have to be happy...
And you have to look after the girls.
You have to make them happy too.
Dream up a heaven for me.
Don't let them be sad when they remember me.
You just remind them
all the great things we did together.
I love you, Don.
You'll always be the guy who took off his t-shirt
to wipe away my tears.
♪ If you should ever leave me
♪ My life would still go on believe me
♪ The world would show nothing to me
♪ So what good would living do me?
♪ God only knows what I'd be without you ♪
Sorry it's so off key.
It always kind of was, though.
Hi, mom.
Well, I guess you're never gonna forgive me
for not telling you I was gonna die,
so it's just one more thing to blame the world for, I guess.
I love you.
I know that you love me.
I know you adore the girls, so...
Please, uh, tell them that.
Try and show them that you love them just a little bit every day,
and try to enjoy life, you know, a little...
Just a little bit.
I mean, maybe at some point,
you could go on a date.
That would be fun,
or you could put an ad in the paper or anything...
You know, I just think you could have a little fun.
You're really beautiful, and you've got a great heart, and
just try and enjoy stuff more.
Please help Don.
You can tell the girls any stories you like,
even Joan Crawford movies.
(SONG PLAYING ON CAR RADIO)
♪ If you've never been in love
♪ And you're longing for the happiness it brings
♪ Try your wings ♪
Your sister really knows how to pick a song.
You like it?
Yeah, it's great.
It's Blossom Dearie. You ever heard of her?
No, what's that?
Blossom Dearie? Oh, she's amazing.
She's still singing, and she's 83 years old.
83?
And she plays in this little club
behind a Chinese lounge,
and, uh, she has this tiny little voice
and this tiny little body
and such personality, and...
83.
Yeah, she's 83.
I'd love to take you there.
Ann, there's so many places I'd like to take you.
Tell me about the places you'd like to take me.
Okay.
In the south of Chile, there is a desert.
It's stunning,
pure white and flat as far as the eye can see,
and the only thing that breaks the line of the horizon
are these robin-egg blue little houses.
And in the morning,
the sky goes completely green.
It's unworldly.
And in, um, in Argentina...
A glacier lake,
and in the spring, when the thaw comes on,
these huge blocks of ice, I mean huge,
the size of apartment buildings,
come sliding off the glacier into the lake,
and your heart is pounding out of your chest.
It's terrifying.
And Mexico and Alaska...
You okay?
What's the matter?
Just... I'm not gonna see these places.
Ann, what is it?
What's the matter?
You don't want to tell me.
I'm so sorry, Lee.
I really need to get out of here.
Okay.
Waiter, can I get the check?
(GROANS) Thank you.
I always wanted to come here. It's...
Could you get them to put this in a doggy bag for me?
Sure.
Thanks.
Okay, I'll meet you outside, okay?
(SHIP HORN HOOTING)
You have to go.
He's gonna be here any minute.
He works nearby.
It's better if he comes and picks me up.
This happens occasionally, so...
Ann, there's something that I have to tell you,
and I have to tell you now.
Lee... I love you.
I'm in love with you...
And the world seems less terrible
because you exist.
I feel like I want to be with you
for the rest of my life,
and all that, the palpitations
and the nerves and the pain and the happiness
and the fear...
I wanna,
I wanna touch you all the time,
I wanna take care of you and your girls,
and even find your husband a decent job
and get you a house that doesn't have wheels.
Careful.
That sounds like a classic case of falling in love.
I am in love.
I'm classically in love.
The classic husband
who's gonna be here any minute,
and the classic depression that sets in
every time you go off with him,
and the crying, and the tears,
and everything.
I'll go...
But I don't want to see you driving off with some guy, you know?
Someone you don't know,
so I'll be watching...
Unless, of course, it's your husband.
(CRIES)
Ann, I feel terrible
that I invited you over to dinner,
and now you have to do all the work.
That's okay. I just have to heat up this.
DON: I still don't understand why you had to go
to that restaurant in your condition.
I told you. I thought I was feeling better.
NURSE ANN: A bad case of anemia isn't something
you should take lightly. You should rest.
DON: Yes, listen to nurse Ann, Ann.
(CHILDREN SHOUT) Ann, Ann, Ann, Ann!
DON: Yeah, wasn't that fun?
(NURSE ANN LAUGHS)
I think you could go wash your hands,
because this is ready.
DON: Go wash up, girls. Come on.
NURSE ANN: Don? You too. Yeah?
All right. Yes, ma'am.
ANN: You pray that this will be your life without you...
You pray that the girls will love this woman
who has the same name as you,
and that your husband will end up loving her too,
and that they can live in the house next door,
and the girls can play doll houses in the trailer
and barely remember their mother
who used to sleep during the day
and take them on raft rides in bed.
You pray that they will have moments of happiness so intense
that all of their problems will seem insignificant
in comparison.
You don't know who or what you're praying to,
but you pray.
You don't even regret the life that you're not gonna have,
because by then you'll be dead,
and the dead don't feel anything,
not even regret.
My darling Lee,
I guess by the time you get this tape,
you'll know that I'm dead,
and, well, all that.
Maybe you're angry with me or hurt, or sad, or upset,
or maybe you're all of it together.
I just want you to know that I fell in love with you.
I didn't dare tell you, because
I thought you kind of knew,
and I didn't realize I had so little time.
Actually, time is the one thing
I haven't had enough of recently.
Life is so much better than you think, my love.
I know because
you managed to fall in love with me
even though you saw, what was it, you saw 10% or
five, maybe?
Maybe if you'd seen it all, you wouldn't have liked me...
Or you would have liked me in spite of everything.
I guess we'll never know.
Oh, and one last thing...
Lee, for god's sake,
just paint your walls and buy some furniture.
All right?
I don't want the next woman you take home
to get the wrong idea about you
and run off before she gets a chance to know you.
Not everyone's as crazy as I am.
I loved dancing with you.
♪ Touch my hand
♪ It's only me, listen
♪ I'm here
♪ Come to stand
♪ In sultry field
♪ With you
♪ And now
♪ Old dummy day
♪ I know
♪ Is over this way
♪ I'm laughing
♪ Saw you gonna kiss me
♪ You see
♪ Yeah, as I said
♪ One day
♪ She won't
♪ A lonely bird
♪ Alone ♪