我小时候玩过一个记忆游戏 I had this memory game when I was a kid...
一堆卡片向下摆开 A bunch of cards facedown in rows.
每张卡片有一张图画 Each card has a picture.
翻开一张 看一看 You turn one over,look at it...
然后翻回去 Then you turn it back over.
要试图记住 Then you have to try and remember
和它相同的卡片在哪里 where its matching card was.
我得上飞机 我得上飞机 I have to get on a plane. I have to get on a plane.
格蕾医生 格蕾医生 你当时就在飞机上 Dr. Grey,Dr. Grey,you were on a plane.
你坠机了 能告诉我... You were in a plane crash. Can you tell me what you...
德里克 Derek!
梅雷迪斯 起来 Meredith,get up!
有时毫无头绪 Sometimes you have no idea.
我妹妹在哪里 Where... where's my sister?
我妹妹 莱西在哪里 My sister... Where is Lexie?
不不 No,no,no,no.
我的丈夫...还有克里斯蒂娜在哪里 Where... where... where's my husband and... and... and Cristina?
-躺下放松 -我得... -Lay back and relax. -I have to get...
-好了 -我得去找我妹妹和丈夫 -All right. -I have to get to my sister and my husband.
好了 等等 All right. Hold on. Hold on.
-我妹妹 -你不能进去 -I... my sister. -Hey,you can't go in there.
别告诉我能去哪 Don't tell me where I can go.
-有感染 我得见他 -让开 -...there's an infection and I need to see him. -Move.
有时 能显示出我们确切需要知道的 And other times,it shows us exactly what we need to see.
医生 我们在处理了 Doctor,we've got them. We're taking care of them.
那是你妈妈 That's your mama.
宝贝 Hey,honey.
好了 Okay,okay.
-坐在这 -妈妈在这 -You sit here. -Mama's here,baby.
好了 There we go.
-妈妈在这 -不 -Mama's here. -No.
卡片看起来完全混乱 随机 The cards seem completely out of order and random,
但继续翻下去 but you keep turning them over.
看的卡片越多 And the more cards you see...
越能了解事物的顺序 You get a sense of how everything fits together.
他们明天会用飞机带我们回家 They're taking us home tomorrow on a plane.
我说不要飞机 但没得选择 And I said no planes,but we don't have a choice,
因为马克还有亚利桑那的情况 所以... because of Mark and Arizona,so...
我告诉贝利给我们打镇静剂 So I told Bailey to just sedate us...
给我们所有人打镇静剂 Sedate all of us.
这样我们就不会知道在坐飞机了 And we'll never know it happened.
对吗 Right?
克里斯蒂娜 Cristina?
我希望他们也把我弄晕的 I wish they had put me out,too.
我知道你的意思 Yeah,I know what you mean.
我一直在想 All I keep thinking is,
我们会坠落到热带岛屿上 we're gonna crash on some tropical island
然后被北极熊攻击 and get attacked by a polar bear.
现在...我现在不明白你的意思了 Now... I don't know what you mean.
你该多看看电视的 You should watch more TV.
我都不知道你怎么能考虑要离开 I don't even know how you can think of leaving.
那可是哈佛啊 Because it's Harvard.
梅雷迪斯 没人拒绝哈佛大学的邀请的 Meredith,because you don't turn down an offer from Harvard.
你手上有两个 You have two,
也许三个之前留下的手术 maybe three surgeries left on your hand before...
知道吗 也许那里有医生 You know what? Maybe they have doctors there.
也许有人能帮我 Maybe one can help me.
在马克现在的情况之下走 还有克里斯蒂娜 With Mark in the condition he's in,and Cristina?
我又没说明天走 I'm not saying we leave tomorrow.
他们只是确定一个时间范围 They're just looking for a time frame.
抱歉 德里克 Well,I'm sorry,Derek.
我知道你很想去 但我甚至无法考虑这件事 I know you really want to go. But I can't even think about it.
这不是我的事 是你的 This is not about me. This is about you.
你正处于事业的开始 You're at the beginning of your career.
他们想要的是你 It's you they want.
我不确定 我已经和他们想雇的那个人不同了 I don't know. I'm not the same man that they hired.
-别那么说 -八成 梅雷迪斯 -Don't say that. -80%,Meredith.
别那么说 Don't say that!
我们就待在这 在这工作 We stay here,we work here,
搬进你为我们建的漂亮的房子 we move into that beautiful house that you built us.
那才是我们的计划 That was our plan.
那是在你得到波士顿的工作之前 That was before you got a job in Boston.
那还是我们飞机坠毁之前呢 And that was before our plane crashed.
拒绝哈佛大学附院 Mm. Blowing off Harvard. Wow.
你还拒绝霍普金斯大学附院呢 You're blowing off Hopkins. Wow.
不 我是推迟去霍普金斯 等罗伯森好起来 No,I'm postponing Hopkins till Robbins is better.
艾弗里为斯隆做了同样的事 Avery did the same thing for Sloan.
我留了下来 And I stayed.
你无处可去才留了下来 And you stayed because you have no place else to go.
十点钟叫我去... Oh. Wake me up in ten for chunky st...
你才吃过 You just ate.
斯图亚特 患短肠综合征的孩子 Stuart. Short-bowel syndrome kid.
我接手了一个小肠移植手术 I'm doing an intestinal transplant.
我们第一次见面他吐在了我身上 He puked on me the first time we met,
所以我叫他"胖仔斯图" so I call him "chunky stu."
亚利桑那讨厌这名字 但斯图亚特觉得很搞笑 Arizona hated it,but Stuart thinks it's hilarious.
亚利桑那的感染怎么样了 好些了吗 How is Arizona's infection? Is it getting any better?
不知道 我还没见到她 Don't know. I haven't seen her.
什么意思 你不是跟她吗 What do you mean? You're running her service.
你觉得她会想跟我说话吗 You really think she wants to talk to me?
我能跟她说什么 I mean,what am I supposed to say to her...
"还记得吗 我辞职了 "Hey,remember the time that I quit
你火大了 "and you got pissed
抢了我坠毁的飞机上的座位 "and took my seat on a plane that crashed,
现在装了假肢滑不了轮滑了吗 "and now you're trading in your wheelie sneaks for a peg leg?
抱歉 是我的错" Sorry. My bad"?
情况怎么样 How are we doing here?
杰克逊 你有和斯隆说话的 对吗 Hey,Jackson,you're talking to Sloan,right?
跟他说最新的进展 Keeping him updated.
是的 但没说工作的事 Yeah. Not about work stuff,though.
他现在不需要那种压力 He doesn't need that kind of pressure right now.
你们怎么回事 What is wrong with you two?
我刚说... I just said that...
不 我是说 他们没事 都会没事的 No,I'm just saying,they're fine. They're gonna be fine.
亚利桑那能保住腿 Arizona's not gonna lose her leg,
斯隆也会醒来的 and Sloan is coming back.
他们都会回来的 They're coming back.
咱们就这样表现 So let's act like it.
他们会没事的 They're gonna be fine.
我们都会没事的 We're all going to be fine.
我们要说多久这没事 How long are we saying that this is okay?
只要她需要 那就说 As long as she needs.
我个人觉得这挺振奋的 I,for one,find it refreshing.
俗话说 要是你没什么好话说... They say,if you don't have something nice to say...
她从来没有好话说 She never has anything nice to say.
来吧 杨 我准备好了 来打我呀 Come on,Yang. I'm wide open. Just hit me.
我说了不要绑着她 I said no more damn restraints!
她显然是个危险人物 Look,she is clearly a danger.
她都不属于这个楼层 She doesn't even belong on this floor.
她暴力 沉默 我担心... She is violent,uncommunicative,and I'm worried...
她会交流的 只是还没有开口 Oh,she communicated. She just hasn't talked yet.
她身体上没有问题 Look,there is nothing physically wrong with her.
她应该去精神科 She belongs up in psych.
我是外科主任和她丈夫 I am the chief of surgery and her husband.
别告诉我她该去哪 Don't tell me where she belongs.
恕我直言 主任 这就是为什么 Well,with all due respect,sir,that is exactly why
你不能做这个决定 you shouldn't be making this decision.
好了 Okay.
好吧 时候到了 Okay. It's time.
该起床了 It's time to get up.
他们要带你去楼上 They are gonna take you upstairs
给你打各种抗精神病药 and they're gonna pump you full of antipsychotics.
然后你会发呆变疯子 And you're gonna go slack-jawed and cuckoo's nest
再也不是自己了 and you'll never be you again.
克里斯蒂娜 求你了 Cristina,please,I am begging you. Please.
说点什么啊 You have to say something.
克里斯蒂娜 求你了 Cristina,please.
听到没 Do you hear me?
说点什么吧 求你了 Say something,please.
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好了 他什么名字 All right. What's his name?
-德里克 -德里克 你会没事的 -Uh,Derek. -Derek,you're gonna be just fine.
护士 过来这边 Nurse,could you move that in here,please?
这只手有救吗 How salvageable is that hand?
我是个外科医生 I'm a surgeon.
什么 你听到了吗 What was that? Did you get that?
-不 -没事的 -No. -It's all right.
我们会照顾好你的 We're gonna take good care of you.
第二掌骨有损伤 There was damage to the second metacarpal,
但第一个联接处完全粉碎了 but the first M.C.P. Joint was completely crushed,
所以在博伊西做了个X型修复 so Boise did an x-fix.
我把它改成了内部的固定器 I revised it to an internal fixator.
然后去除了很多结痂组织 And then I removed a lot of scar tissue
这样就不会有挛缩 so there wouldn't be contractures.
聪明 Smart.
谢谢 谢谢 Oh,thank you. Thanks.
你看到我怎么... Did you see how I,uh...
没 没有 你的工作...很好 No,no,your work is... is great.
德里克 我考虑的是 Um,Derek,it's the,um,nerve damage
神经损伤 that I'll concern myself with.
看起来像是很容易修复 And it looks like a pretty easy fix.
能让你恢复抓握的力量 You know,that'll get you your prehensile strength back.
可以再这样 That'll get you this back.
也能让我重新回到手术室 Which will get me back into the O.R.
但愿吧 That's... the hope.
这才是关键啊 Well,that's the point.
不是吗 I-isn't it?
当然了 Of course.
但你的手伤得很重 But your hand was badly damaged.
保守估计 And I think conservatively,
可以恢复八成功能 I can get you back to 80% function.
梅雷迪斯 我可以教书 Meredith,I can teach,
做顾问 consult.
但可能永远没办法做手术了 I just may never do another surgery.
别这么说 Oh,don't talk like that.
梅雷迪斯 Meredith...
我还活着 I'm alive.
我们活下来了 We survived.
卓拉双亲都还在 Zola has both her parents.
我知道 I know.
这就够了 That's enough.
脑膜瘤 Meningioma.
病人是女性 44岁 Patient is female,44 years old.
情况很棘手 It's a tricky spot.
正好压迫着矢状窦 It's right up against the sagittal sinus.
所以我建议 Which is why I suggested
你来给拉姆齐医生一些意见 Dr. Ramsey see what you might do.
不用放射疗法 我觉得应该切除 No radiosurgery. I'd cut it out.
好吧 但两处导血管都这样 Right,but with two draining veins in the way,
先看她的反应怎样会更好 it might be safer to see how she responds...
这女人还会再活个40年 This woman's gonna live for another 40 years.
肿瘤很容易复发 The tumor can recur too easily.
你得把这两根导血管剖清 You need to dissect the two draining veins clear
然后从这个方向入手 and approach it from this direction.
全部切除 她就能康复 You get it all,she's cured.
这样厉害多了 不是吗 Well,that's much sexier,isn't it?
所以才得让他来啊 That's why we keep him around.
谢谢 谢菲尔德 我会很高兴你来和我一同操刀 Thanks,Shepherd. I'd be happy to have you join me...
或者是观摩 Or if you'd like to observe.
我...应该还有节课要上 I,um... probably have a class to teach.
祝你好运 Good luck.
她说得对 She's right.
你是无价的 You're invaluable.
很好 Great.
谢菲尔德医生 Oh,hey,Dr. Shepherd.
这太酷了 This is pretty cool.
拉姆齐医生那有个矢状窦被脑瘤入侵的病人 Dr. Ramsey's got a meningioma invading the sagittal sinus.
她本打算放疗 She was gonna do it radiosurgically
但后来决定做清除 but decided to go after the whole thing.
是吗 Oh,is that so?
对 她刚打开了第一根导血管 Yeah. She just freed the first draining vein.
是的 我看得到 罗斯 谢谢 Yeah,I got it,Ross. Thanks.
静脉窦在出血 There's bleeding on the sinus.
抽吸 Suction.
棉球 Cottonoids.
好 把头摆在桌子上 Okay,let's put the head of the table up.
不 头要低下去 No,no,no,no. Get the head down.
血压90/50 B.P. Is 90 over 50.
血液CO2含量低于22 C.O.2 is down to 22.
好 把头低下去 往下移 All right,get the head down. Move it down.
她会吸入空气 会导致气栓 She's sucking in air. You have an air embolus.
博基 用球状清洗那片区域 Boki,bulb irrigate the field.
确保空气进不去 密闭好 Make sure no more air gets in there. Seal it off.
谢谢 谢菲尔德医生 这真是... Thank you,Dr. Shepherd. That was,uh...
好了 静脉窦上有个洞 All right,you have a hole in the sinus
要注意 you need to take care of.
好了 Yes,yes.
你得重新小心伸向 You have to carefully reapproximate
修补移植物的边缘 the edges of the patch graft.
我会用夹子密封住 I'll just seal it with a clip.
不 不用 这样会使窦闭塞 No,don't. That could occlude the sinus.
好了 看到没 出血止住了 There. See? Bleeding stopped.
血压升至210/130 Oh,b.P.'S 210 over 130.
静脉梗死 拿脑室造口术的管子来 Venous infarction. Ventriculostomy tube now.
她休克了 She's coding.
这不是你的错 It's not your fault.
你又没强迫她用你的办法 You didn't force her to try your approach.
如果她不能成功 那么... If she couldn't pull it off,well,then...
要是我在 我能搞定的 I could've pulled it off had I been in there.
你会回去的 Well,you'll be back in there.
不 不会了 No,I won't.
我成为前神经外科医生 德里克 谢菲尔德 I will be the former neurosurgeon Derek Shepherd,
研究馆员 research librarian.
-闭嘴 -马克 那家伙只说我能恢复八成 -Shut up. -Mark,the guy gave me 80%.
-那就恢复十成 -不可能的 -Well,get back to 100%. -It's not gonna happen.
少乱说了 你就喜欢这种无可救药的状况 Don't give me that crap. You love a hopeless case.
这是事实 这也是我们仍是朋友的唯一原因 It's true. It's the only reason we're still friends.
很高兴你情况好些了 I'm glad you're doing better.
我也是 Me,too.
你也会的 You will be,too.
十成 等着瞧吧 100%,you'll see.
是啊 来吧 Yeah,coming along.
X光片显示排得很准确 X-Ray shows excellent alignment.
我听说斯坎特提前了你的手术 I hear schachter moved your surgery up.
是啊 提前了几天 Yeah,couple days.
祝你好运 Well,fingers crossed.
对不起 Ohh,sorry.
这真是... That was...
不 没事 我很好 我明白 No,it's okay. It's fine. I get it.
所以 我看了下斯坎特的方案 So I had a look at,uh,schachter's plan.
他选择做端到端的修复手术 He's opted for an end-to-end repair.
你怎么认为的 What'd you think?
很好啊 It's good.
太好了 他很棒 Oh,it's great. He's amazing.
他是最棒的 对吧 He's the best,right?
-但是什么 -没有但是 -But? -But nothing.
我只是...我遇到过这状况 It's just that I've... I've been in there.
神经裂口很多 I've seen the amount of gap in the nerve,
这很乱 and I know it's messier,
但我觉得神经移植可能会更好 but I thought a nerve graft might be better.
就这样 That's all.
我确定他...他已经想到了 I'm sure he's... he's thought of it already.
他是最好的 Uh,he's the best.
那将会... Well,that would be...
更加冒险 你说得对 正是如此 Be much riskier. You're right,it is.
但这可能会完全康复 But it could mean a full recovery.
你可以用自己的神经做移植 You could use your own a.I.N. For the graft.
我之前就用过了 I've used it before.
算是为中枢神经做移植而量身订做的 It's practically gift-wrapped for a median nerve graft.
是 但如果移植不成功 Yeah,but if the graft doesn't take,
反而会缩短神经 we shorten the nerve more.
我可能连八成都恢复不到了 I could lose more function than I have now.
你说得对 这太蠢了 You're right. It's stupid.
所以斯坎特不这么做 That's why schachter's not doing it.
他不这么做很明智 He's smart not to...
所以你该这么做 Which is why you should.
什么 What?
我希望你来做这台手术 I want you to do the surgery.
不 No.
好吧 移植神经 来吧 Okay,graft,please.
这儿 医生 Here you go,doctor.
太好了 Perfect.
这看起来... This looks...
真是完美 Perfect.
是亚利桑那 出问题了 It's Arizona. There's a problem.
-小心输液管 -抓住她 把她固定住 -Watch that line. -Hold her. Get some restraints.
-是 -该死 -Yeah,yeah,yeah. -Send... ow! Damn it!
-好了 抓住她了 -抓住了 -All right,I got it. -I've got it.
-2单位氯羟安定 快 -固定带来了 -2 of lorazepam now! Now! -There's the restraints.
-镇静 -冷静 -Calm down. -Easy.
-镇静 -好的 -Calm down. -Okay. Okay.
极度衰竭综合征 The combination of extreme exhaustion,
脱水 表示 dehydration,and exposure
她好像处于混乱的状态 seems to have put her in a state.
什么意思 What do you mean?
我们觉得是反应性精神病 We think it's reactive psychosis.
她没有反应 She's unresponsive,
然后我们给她检查时 and then when we go to examine her,
她变得 很暴力 she becomes... violent.
我在这呢 I'm here,okay?
若是我就不会那么做了 I wouldn't do that.
没事的 It's all right.
好了 好了 All right. All right. All right.
克里斯蒂娜 我会帮你 Cristina. I'm gonna help you.
克里斯蒂娜 我会帮你 我会帮你 Cristina,I am gonna help you. I'm gonna help you.
我在这 克里斯蒂娜 我在这 I'm here. Cristina,I'm here. I'm here.
克里斯蒂娜 我在这 Cristina,I'm here now.
没事的 我会帮你 It's okay. I'm gonna help you.
一切都会好起来的 We're all going to be fine.
我们要说这事多久 How long are we saying that this is okay?
只要她需要 就要说 As long as she needs.
我个人觉得这话很振奋人心 I,for one,find it refreshing.
所以她根本不说话 So she doesn't speak at all?
还没说 She hasn't yet.
她只是睁着眼睛 She just stares...
喘着气 And breathes.
够诡异的 It's kind of weird,
但是这里的人谈起她时 but the way that they talk about her around here,
都说得她如传奇人物一般 it's like she's a legend, you know?
而她现在却像是木头一样 Mm. And now she's like an end table.
谢恩 那也太过了 住嘴吧 Shane,that's horrible. Stop it.
抱歉 Sorry.
我要休假 I'm gonna take a leave of absence.
3年前 我就说要找出 I think three years ago, I said I was gonna figure out
做好吃的烤鸡的方法 how to make a great roast chicken.
到现在还没施行呢 Still haven't done it.
我只是喜欢屋子里弥漫着 I just like how a house smells
烤箱里烤鸡的味道 when there's a chicken in the oven.
几天或几周之后 你就会变得 You're gonna feel stronger in a couple of days
越来越坚强 or weeks.
顺其自然 It takes as long as it takes.
我们有的是时间 And we have all the time in the world.
等你好了 就回来 无论你 When you're back on your feet, you'll go back to work
想做什么都行 at whatever pace you want.
你可以回手术室 变你的魔术 You'll go back into the O.R., and you can do your magic.
不用应付病人或是家属 You won't have to deal with patients or families.
我会处理那些的 I'll take care of all of that.
准备好出去了吗 You ready to get out now?
不行 I can't.
什么 What?
我做不到 I can't get out.
你... Are you...
你能 我会帮你的 You can. I'll... I'll help you.
我四天没合眼 I stayed awake for four days.
我记得... I remember...
这四天里的每一分钟 Every single minute of those four days.
火灭了 The fire went out.
周围一片漆黑 It was really,really dark.
天上有很多的星星 There were so many stars.
我记得赶走亚利桑那腿上的虫子 I remember getting the bugs out of Arizona's leg.
把叶子盖在上面 不让它们飞过来 I put leaves on it, trying to keep them out.
马克 And mark...
马克在死亡线上挣扎 Mark just kept dying.
很烦人 It was so annoying.
我想帮助他 I kept trying to help him,
但他却很不争气 but he just kept trying to die on me.
我只想躺下来 I just wanted to lie down...
躺在他身上 因为他很温暖 And sleep on him because he was warm.
我想睡觉 And I wanted to sleep.
梅雷迪斯睡着了 Meredith was asleep.
大家都睡着了 Everyone was asleep.
亚利桑那拿到了最后一瓶水 Arizona got the last of the water,
我记得喝了很恶心的东西 and I remember drinking something bad.
可能是飞机的燃料 It might have been the fuel from the plane?
我喝了 I drank...
我的尿 My pee.
那声音 The noises...
动物们 The animal noises...
相互撕咬 咆哮的声音 好像就在... Fighting and growling right...
我们身边 就在那 Next to us,right there.
我等着它们来杀了我 I kept waiting for them to come and kill me,
但它们没有 but they didn't.
然后我意识到... And then I realized...
它们在争抢莱西的肉 They were fighting over Lexie.
我试着让它们远离她 I tried to keep them off of her.
我试过了 I tried.
但我逃不出去 But I couldn't get out.
逃不出去 I can't get out.
你现在出来了 You're out now.
我在这呢 I've got you.
听见了吗 You hear me?
我出不来了 I can't get out.
你不懂吗 Don't you see?
我永远回不来了 I'll never get out.
你没事吧 You okay?
是 Yep.
你确定知道自己在做什么 You sure you know what you're doing?
是 这是直通明尼苏达州的高速 Yes. It's one highway all the way to Minnesota...
路过蒙大纳州 穿过其中一个达科他州 Through Montana, cross one of the dakotas,
记不住是哪个了 I can't remember which.
不 我说的是离开 No,I meant by leaving.
你确定你行吗 Are you sure you're okay with it?
确定这么做是正确的吗 Are you sure it's the right thing to do?
梅雷迪斯 你也来这套 欧文刚试过了 Meredith,not you,too. Owen just tried to...
是 因为我担心你这么做只是为了逃避 Well,yeah,because I'm worried that you're just running away.
是 我就是逃跑 就像小鹿斑比逃离火灾一样 Well,yeah,I am. I'm fleeing, like Bambi from a forest fire,
你也应该这么做 因为这里总发生可怕的事 and so should you,'cause horrible things happen here.
不 发生了一些可怕的事 No, something horrible happened,
我们更应该呆在一起 and we should stick together.
知道吗 我们已经那么做了 You know what? We have stuck together.
我们一起成长 就像两棵多节的树 And we've grown together, like two gnarled trees
互相缠绕在一起 试着生存下来 twining around each other, trying to survive.
生存什么 克里斯蒂娜 这就是生活 Survive what? Cristina,this is life.
世事难料 是很艰难的 Bad things happen. It's hard.
你找到你的朋友 You find your people,
找到你的另一半 然后依赖他们 you find your person, and you lean on them.
上帝爱你 梅 Oh,God love you,Mer.
在你身上发生了那么多可怕的事 You know,so many horrible things have happened to you,
也许你能接受 and maybe you're okay with it,
但那才不正常 but you shouldn't be.
去哈佛 Go to Harvard,
无论哪里 只要不是这个 anywhere except here,
到处都能看见你死去的妹妹的身影的地方 seeing your dead sister around every corner.
你妈妈死在这 你丈夫在这中枪 Hey,your mother died here. Your husband was shot here.
乔治死在这 George died here.
这就是我的生活 你也是其中的一部分 It's my life,and you were here for it,too.
我是说 你就跟5年前骑着摩托车 I mean,now you sound like the same scary loner bitch
来到这里的那个孤僻嚣张的你一个样 who rode in here on a motorcycle five years ago.
难道过去的5年都不存在吗 Like the past five years has never happened?
我倒还真希望我从没来过这里 Well,you know,a part of me wishes it hadn't.
好吧 那你该走了 Oh,okay. Well,then you should just go then.
也不要回头看 走吧 And you should not look back. Go.
梅雷迪斯 Meredith...
不 克里斯蒂娜 你说得对 我不是你的另一半 No,you know,Cristina,you're right. I'm not your person.
欧文也不是 And Owen isn't your person.
你自己才是 一直都是 Your person is you, and it always has been.
他们在那荒郊野外的对那个男人做了什么 What the hell did they do to this guy out there?
抓住我的手 Hold my hand.
他晕过去了 He's bradying down.
充电 准备 Charge. Clear.
有脉搏了 Yeah,I got a pulse.
准备 Clear.
我飞去了博伊西 I flew to Boise.
我到那了 但他们不让我进去 I-I was there, but they wouldn't let me in.
他们说我不是亲属 They said I wasn't family.
这对你不公平 It's not fair.
你不值得... You don't deserve...
你值得更好的 You deserve better.
别说了 Stop it.
我在这里 I'm here.
我哪都不去 马克 I'm not going anywhere,Mark.
我爱你 I love you.
我爱莱西 I love Lexie.
曾爱过 Loved.
对不起 I'm sorry.
凯丽 Callie.
回家吧 Go home.
我没事 No,I'm all right.
不 你有事 No,you're not.
你已经连续两晚 You've been up for the past two nights
在亚利桑那的病房和这里间奔波了 bouncing between Arizona's room and here.
我喝点咖啡就好 你能... I just need some coffee. Can you,um...
你可以陪他一会吗 我去下餐厅 Can you stay with him while I run to the cafeteria?
我整晚都陪着他 I'll stay with him all night.
我觉得咱们在慢慢失去他 德里克 I just feel like we're losing him,Derek.
通常我跟他说话时 都能感觉得到 Usually when I talk to him, I sense that he's there,
他在那听着 但是我觉得他要放弃了 that he's listening, but I think he's giving up.
我很害怕 I'm so scared,
怕一走开 the second I leave this hospital,
我就会接到通知他死讯的电话 I'm gonna get a phone call that he's dead.
今晚绝对不会发生这样的事 That's not gonna happen tonight.
你保证 Promise?
如果他情况开始变化 我会鼓励他坚持的 If he starts going south, I'll tell him to cut it out.
他很崇拜我的 He idolizes me.
他会听我的话的 He'll do whatever I say.
谢谢你 Thank you.
你听到我对她说的话了吧 You heard what I told her.
别让我丢脸 Don't make me look like an ass.
坚持下去 Pull it together.
很多人都盼着你呢 A lot of people counting on you.
该死 我就知道我不该回家 Damn it. I knew I shouldn't have gone home.
他没事吧 他没体征了吗 Is he okay? Did he code?
过来看看就知道了 Just come see.
天呐 谢菲尔德呢 Oh,God. Where the hell is Shepherd?
艾弗里 告诉我这是怎么回事 Avery,tell me what's going on.
托丽斯 Torres.
你去哪了 Where you been?
很不可思议 是吧 Pretty amazing recovery,right?
是的 他的身体状况还好吧 Yeah,his sats are good?
他血压没升高了吧 He's being weaned off pressors?
是的 血压是110/60 Yeah,b.P. Is 110 over 60.
他还顺便调戏了一下布鲁克斯 And he's making inappropriate sexual comments to Brooks.
没关系的 It's fine.
不 有关系 No,it's... it's not.
但是 现在 我真的心情很好 所以... But,uh,right now I'm really, really enjoying it,so...
你觉得是回光返照 You think it's the surge.
这 有可能 It... it might be.
我不 我不觉得是 I don't. I don't think it is.
回光返照是什么 What's the surge?
许多晚期病患 In many terminally ill patients,
会有一个最终的能量激增 they have a final surge of energy.
他们的身体情况会在恶化前突然好起来 They get better before they get worse.
但这不是那种情况 But this is not that.
但过不久 他就会和那些病人一样了 But in a little while, he'll do what all patients do.
他会突然顿悟 He'll have epiphanies,
然后告诉你生命中最重要的是什么 he'll tell you what really matters in life,
询问他的家人 ask for his family.
他还在讲黄段子 这 绝对不是回光返照 The man is telling dirty jokes. It's not a... not a surge.
对 我也这么想 No,I don't think so either.
我有面部修复 Uh,I have a facial lac.
今早做了咨询... Uh,oh,I had a consult this morning...
关于隆胸手术 从"B"罩升到"D"罩的 Breast augmentation, "b" to "d."
你有跟她说过 Did you tell her
她的胸部本身就很漂亮吗 her breasts were beautiful the way they are?
没有 我还是觉得很怪异 No,I still think that's weird.
我知道你会这么想 但是你错了 Well,I know you do, but you're wrong.
你告诉她 她这个样子就很漂亮 You tell her she's beautiful just the way she is,
如果她相信你 and if she believes you,
你就拯救了 you've saved someone
某人免做一个不必要的手术 an unnecessary surgical procedure.
我是绝不可能跟病人这么说的 And that is definitely not how I talk to patient.
是 但是你差不多就是这个意思 艾弗里 No,but it's how you talk to a woman,Avery.
我们干这行的 We're in the business
就是要让病人自我感觉良好 of making people feel better about themselves.
再说一遍 你有时候跟我说话 Again,sometimes when you talk,
让我觉得你像个男妓 I feel like a male prostitute.
艾弗里 她极度渴望改变 She's a person on the precipice of change,Avery.
她很担心很害怕 She's scared and she's worried.
天 要顾及的事情还真多 God,the things we worry about.
废话 So pointless.
咱们得消除这种担忧 And we get to help take that worry away.
这才是当医生的意义 It's why we're doctors.
才是作为一个人的意义 It's actually why we're people,
但 我们都忘了人才是最重要的 but somehow we forget that all that matters is people.
当他们出院的时候 是变得更好 And whether we walk away leaving them better or worse
还是更糟 for having met us.
由我们来决定 艾弗里 We control that,Avery.
我要你保证 I want you to promise me something.
如果你爱谁 If you love someone,
就告诉他们 you tell 'em.
即便你担心这么做不对 Even if you're scared that it's not the right thing,
即便你担心会惹出麻烦 even if you're scared that it'll cause problems,
即便你担心 even if you're scared
那会让你的生活天翻地覆 that it will burn your life to the ground,
你一定要大声说出来 you say it, and you say it loud.
然后就开始行动 And then you go from there.
我的孩子呢 我想看看苏菲娅 Hey,where's my kid? I want to see Sofia.
艾弗里 你去日托 Avery,why don't you run up to day care
把她带到这来吧 and bring her down here?
我不能把孩子带到重症监护室 I can't bring a baby in the I.C.U.
是不行 但你可以偷偷的啊 No,but you can sneak one in.
拜托 艾弗里 快去啦 Come on,Avery. Grow a pair.
你知道什么 算了 我去 You know what? Forget it. I'll do it.
不 不 不 好了 我去带她来 Whoa,no,no,no. All right. I'll get her.
-我去带她来 -好耶 - I'll get her. - Yes!
这才是我的哥们 My man!
是我所想的那样吗 Is this what I think it is?
不知道 There's no way to know.
我们还是 顺其自然吧 We'll just... Take it as it comes.
好吗 Okay?
我们能谈会吗 我要走了 Um,can we talk? I'm leaving.
不行 实际上 我要去带苏菲娅给斯隆 No. Actually,I've gotta grab Sofia for Sloan.
他要见她 He needs to see her.
但我可以等会给你电话 But I can,uh,call you later.
不了 杰克逊 我要走了 Uh,no,Jackson. I'm... I'm leaving...
回老家 回莫林 For home... moline.
飞机几小时内就要起飞了 My flight's in a few hours.
你... What do you...
我丢了工作了 I... I don't have a job here anymore.
我的合约其实几天前就到期了 My contract actually ended a few days ago,
但我没走 我在等斯隆好起来 but I stuck around, waiting for Sloan to get better,
他现在好点了 所以... and he's better,so...
好吧 我得赶去带苏菲娅了 Um,all right,I've gotta get Sofia right now.
好吗 但你可以等等 Okay? But can you just wait?
在乔那里等我 Just wait for me at Joe's.
咱们到时喝一杯 谈谈 We can have a drink. We can talk.
可以吗 在乔那里等我 Just... okay? Just wait for me at Joe's.
好 Okay.
好的 All right.
别告诉凯丽 Don't tell Callie.
她马上要给德里克做手术了 She's about to operate on Derek.
好的 Okay.
德里克要做手术了 没必要让他担心 Derek doesn't need to go in this surgery worried,
所以什么都别跟他说 so don't say anything to him.
马克 他们可以重新安排手术日期的 They can reschedule the surgery,Mark.
-他们肯定也想这样的 -不了 -I'm sure they'd want to. -No.
这个手术可以帮德里克 That surgery's gonna get Derek
重回到属于他的手术台 back into the O.R. where he belongs.
没人比他更在行了 Nobody's got better hands than him,
也许 除了凯丽 except maybe Callie.
你有看到过她的手吗 很漂亮 Have you looked at her hands? They're beautiful.
苏菲娅也有她那样的手 Sofia has her hands.
凯丽 Callie...
她真的没意识到她是多么的优秀 Really doesn't even know how good she is.
有时候你希望人们... Sometimes you wish people...
能从你的角度看到他们自己 Would just see themselves the way you do.
听我说 Listen to me.
这是回光返照吗 This the surge talking?
不 你只是有所感悟 No,this is you.
想通了一些事 This is all you.
继续吧 So keep going...
我哪也不去 'Cause I'm not going anywhere.
大面积的骨损伤 The extensive bone injury
以及软组织感染的程度 along with the degree of soft-tissue infection
很棘手 is... troubling.
无论我们怎么做 都... No matter what we do,it's...
如果感染蔓延到腿骨 If the infection goes to the bone,
将很难治愈 it'll be hard to treat.
最后 面临的还是截肢 And eventually,you're looking at bone loss.
我不得不说 I'm gonna have to say...
我建议截肢 Officially,I'm recommending amputation.
给我看看 Show me those.
让我看看 Show them to me.
我不同意 I withhold consent.
在你们给我打镇定剂之前 Before you drug me or sedate me,
我得说 我不同意任何人锯掉我的腿 I give n-nobody permission to cut off my leg.
更不会让爱达荷垃圾医院里的蠢货碰我的腿 And certainly not some yahoo in dump truck,Idaho.
我要回家找凯丽 I want to go home to Callie.
她知道该怎么办的 She'll know what to do.
带我回家 Just take me home.
怎么样 How's that?
感觉怎么样 痛吗 Does that feel all right? Does that hurt?
不痛 It doesn't hurt.
只要不痛 感觉还不错 And anything that doesn't hurt feels good.
谢谢 Thanks.
感染情况是好转了还是蔓延了 Is the infection better or worse?
现在别担心这个 好吗 Don't worry about that right now,okay?
只要 Just...
让自己心情好些 Try to feel good.
抱歉没能陪在你身边 Uh,sorry I haven't been around.
我只想告诉你 I,uh,just wanted to let you know
我给那个矮胖的... that I gave,uh,chunky stu...
抱歉 是斯图亚特 他今天的肠移植手术 Uh,sorry,Stuart,his intestinal transplant today.
很成功 他反应良好 It went great. He's... He's responding well. Oh.
我知道你喜欢 Uh,and I know that you like to do that thing
在几个月之后 他能进食固体时 where you bring him his favorite food
带他喜欢的食物去看他 in a couple of months when he can handle solids,
他喜欢夏威夷披萨 so it's,uh,it's hawaiian pizza.
我就是想告诉你一声 I just thought I should tell you.
谢谢 Thank you.
我内心备受煎熬 I feel like crap.
本该我上那飞机的 It should've been me on that plane.
若让我跟你交换位置 我会... If I could trade places with you,I would...
我会让你那么做的 I would let you.
我也想了很多 I had that thought a lot,too.
我不喜欢自己这样 And I didn't like myself for it,
但是这么做了 but I did.
我一直在想我的妻子 孩子 I kept thinking about my wife and baby
而你没有妻子 孩子 and how you had no wife and no baby.
你孑然一身 You had no one.
我上那班飞机 I only went on that plane
只是因为我生你的气 because I was pissed at you.
所以我一直想 So I kept wondering...
我搞成这样是因为他如此自私 不为人着想 I'm only here because he's so selfish and thoughtless.
不管我多么努力去改变他 And no matter how hard I tried to make him better,
他还是那么糟糕的人 he's still a horrible person.
所以 So now...
我一直在想 I keep wondering...
为什么这会发生在我这样的人 Why this would happen to someone like me
而不是你那样的人身上 instead of someone like you.
所以我想我还是在生气吧 So I guess I'm still pretty pissed off.
你能从我房间出去吗 Would you get out of my room?
求你 Please.
瞧谁来了 Hey. Look who's here.
我们刚吃过午饭 Hey. We just had lunch.
-现在她要回去画画了 -宝贝儿 -And now it's back to the crayon mines for her. -Hi,baby.
再见 宝贝儿 再见 Good-bye,sweetie. Bye.
再见 晚上见 Bye,baby. I'll see you tonight. Mwah.
-好的 -蜡笔 蜡笔 -Okay. -Crayons. Crayons.
你该多带她去公园 You need to take her to the park more.
从公寓到日托中心 She goes from that apartment to the day care.
她每天都被关在屋里 She's indoors all day.
好的 Okay.
我们应该 应该买个房子 Yeah. We should... We should get a house.
慢点儿 Whoa. Slow down.
然后她就有院子 就无需... Then she could have a yard and she doesn't...
无时无刻 Have to be inside...
呆在屋子里了 All the time.
怎么了 Hey. What's wrong?
我们有计划没 Do we have a plan yet?
有吗 Do we?
我们等着感染进一步发展 We are waiting for the infection to improve,
然后再看该如何选择 and then we will know what options we have.
若万古霉素没起效 Well,if the vancomycin isn't working,
那就用粘菌素 这个药效更强 then put me on colistin. It'll be stronger.
-我明白这很难... -不 你不懂 -I understand that it's hard to just... -No,you don't.
你不懂 因为你知道自己的人生将要走向哪里 You don't,because you know what your life is going to be.
你知道自己是否要带她去公园 You know if you're going to... Take her to the park
或者是否再度回归手术台 or if you're gonna stand at an O.R. table again.
你会的 显然你会的 You will. Of course you will.
我知道 我知道我的选择是什么 I know. I know what my options are!
等得越久 And the longer we wait,
血液流通速度越慢 the more that my vascularity diminishes,
神经细胞死亡数量越多 肌肉萎缩得更厉害 the more the nerves die,the more the muscle atrophies,
然后就只剩下唯一的选择 and then there's only one option left!
我们现在还远远没有那么糟糕 Okay,we are so far from that happening.
做点什么 凯丽 Do something,Callie!
你得做点什么 You need to do something.
求你 求你不要放弃我 Please. Please don't give up on... on me.
亚利桑那 我没有 Arizona,I'm not.
-答应我 答应我 -我... -Promise... promise me... - I-I...
你不会让他们锯掉我的腿 You won't let them take my leg.
我答应你 I promise.
我保证 我答应你 好吗 I do. I promise,okay? I promise you.
没事的 亲爱的 It's all right,sweetheart.
这个方案很好 This is a good plan.
你不是她的主治医生 You're not her doctor.
我又没说我来主刀 Oh,I'm not saying I'll do the surgery.
卡尔森可以做 Carlson can do it.
很有可能她会被截肢 There is a real possibility she may lose her leg.
你得帮助她做好准备 You need to help her prepare for that.
不 不要 No,no! No.
骨髓内钉固定可以保住她的腿 An intramedullary nailing can save the leg.
定义一下"保住" Define "save"?
她的腿再不会像以前一样了 Her leg will never be the same.
假肢可以让亚利桑那享有更好的生活品质 A prosthetic can give Arizona a better quality of life
而不是数年的复健和慢性痛 than years of rehab and chronic pain.
我不需要让你告诉我这些 I don't need to tell you this.
不 事实上 这还是好的 No,in fact,it's pretty condescending.
或者手术会造成感染蔓延 Or the surgery will make her infection worse
增大深静脉血栓形成的可能性 and increase her risk of d.V.T.
抱歉 抱歉 那是她的腿 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. It's her leg.
我要冒险 我要做这个手术 I'm risking it. I am doing it.
你什么都不许做 You are not doing anything.
她是你妻子 不是你的病人 She is your wife,not your patient.
她不是 她不是我妻子 She's not,though. She's not my wife!
我... I...
我不知道她是谁 I don't know who she is.
克里斯蒂娜也这样吗 Did this happen with Cristina?
你看着她 但只能看到茫然一片 It's like you're looking at her,but there's nothing inside?
我感觉她像是包着壳 I feel like she's just this shell.
亚利桑那的灵魂已不在 All the Arizona's been scooped out...
她现在只剩空壳 我想要她回来 And she's just this shell now,and I want her back.
若锯了这条腿 And I don't think I'll ever get her back
她就再回不来了 if we cut off that leg,
所以我要保住它 so I'm going to save it.
我已经制定了计划来保住它 你去登机 I've made a plan to save it,and you're gonna get on board.
然后我们想出救回克里斯蒂娜的办法 And then we'll work out a plan to get Cristina back,
但现在你先得帮我 but you need to help me now.
我不知道能不能将克里斯蒂娜带回来 I don't think I'm ever gonna get Cristina back.
你打算用游离皮瓣来修复开放性骨折吗 You gonna use a free flap to cover the open fracture site?
你打算从哪开始 Where are you thinking about pulling it from?
好了 There we go.
这是马克的 他状况还不错 Mwah. That's from mark. He's still doing great.
他祝你明天一切顺利 He said to tell you good luck tomorrow.
继续有所下降 Hey,it's still way down.
-看来不错 -早餐到现在还没吃 - Looks good. - And I haven't eaten since breakfast.
你的手术是明天中午的 Okay,your surgery's not till noon tomorrow.
若你现在吃 卡尔森不会在意的 Carlson doesn't care if you eat now.
我只是 做一个听话的好病人 Well,I'm just... I'm gonna be an unbelievably good patient.
好吧 Oh. Okay.
我得走了 I have to go.
因为你是无可否认的好医生 'Cause you're an unbelievably good doctor.
再说一次啊 Say more.
我的妻子就是那个负责 My wife is the doctor that's going to fix
德里克 谢菲尔德值百万美元的主治医生 Derek Shepherd's million-dollar hand.
她很棒 She's that good.
够了 你说得我毛骨悚然 Okay,stop. You're freaking me out now.
你 You...
很杰出 Are outstanding.
我爱你 And I love you.
我也爱你 I love you,too.
我给你带了一片披萨 给小胖子斯图的 I,uh,brought you a piece of chunky stu's pizza.
他 他今晚可以进食了 多亏了你... He's,uh,he's eating tonight,thanks to you...
多亏了我们 Us.
他已脱离危险期 所以 He's out of the woods,so...
我该离开了 I'm out of here.
我要去霍普金斯了 Um,I'm going to Hopkins.
我已经很努力 I've really,uh,been busting my ass to make sure
让一切顺利 everything's run smoothly,
现在 我完成了 and,uh,now I'm... I'm done.
那么... So just...
再见了 Good-bye.
这件事发生在你身上 我很抱歉 I'm sorry this happened to you
若这导致你讨厌我 我也只能抱歉 and I'm sorry that it made you hate me.
是亚利桑那 出问题 It's Arizona. There's a problem.
-什么 -她的情况恶化了 -What? -She's crashing.
恶化 她... Crashing? She's...
体温 38.9度 血清中乳酸值是6 Temp's 104,serum lactate is 6.
现在陷入了感染性休克 She's in septic shock.
闭嘴 闭嘴 闭嘴 Shut up. Shut up. Shut up.
给她增压剂了吗 Uh,do you have her on pressors?
已经给了 3倍的抗生素 I've got her on pressors,triple antibiotics.
还加快了输液速度 I've got her on aggressive I.V. Fluids.
给她供氧了吗 Did you give her supplemental oxygen?
插了管子 她持续恶化中 I intubated her. She's crashing.
你... Do you...
开始用氢化可的松了吗 Uh,did you start her on hy-hydrocortisone?
用了 Yeah.
增压剂呢 Um... do you have her on pressors?
给了 告诉你了 Yes,I told you. Yes.
她还在恶化 Look,she's still deteriorating.
她要死了 She's dying.
是脚 It's the leg.
是脚的原因 It's the leg.
切除吧 Cut it off.
去 好好做吧 尽力做 Go. Just do a good job,please. Do your best.
凯丽 Callie,
你要什么 要我帮你吗 what do you need? What can I do?
不 没事 Nothing. I'm fine.
我真的没事 I'm fine,really.
我知道 I know.
好的 Okay.
在我心跳停止时 "In the event that my heart stops beating
呼吸也静止了 我愿意接受复苏抢救 and I stop breathing,I want to be resuscitated."
别抓狂 Well,don't go crazy,but...
若你能救我 就尽力救我吧 If you can get me back,yeah,get me back.
在这签字 Initial here.
"当我濒临死亡 "In the event that I am close to death
"维生设备只是延迟 "and life support would only postpone
"我的死亡时间时 "that moment of my death,
"我选择 A 需用胃管喂食" "I,'a'... want to receive tube feeding,
"B 遵医生建议是否使用胃管喂食" "'b'... I want tube feeding only as my physician recommends,
"C" "and 'c'...
"不使用胃管喂食" I do not want tube feeding."
选一个 Initial one.
撤走仪器的特定时间 This section specifies a time of withdrawal of care.
"若规定时间内" "Life-sustaining care shall be withdrawn
"仍没好转 维生仪器将会撤除 时间为..." if signs of recovery are not seen after a period of..."
30天 30 days.
克里斯蒂娜 杨 请留言 You've reached Cristina Yang. Leave a message.
我没打电话给你 是因为 Hey,so I haven't called because...
好吧 Well...
你也没打来... Neither have you,so...
这一件事 You were right...
你说得对 About all of it.
你是对的 You were right.
急救车 Crash cart!
这里曾发生过恐怖事件 This is a place where horrible things happen.
你选择离开是正确的 You were right to go.
你逃过了一劫 You're probably escaping disaster.
准备 Clear!
麻烦把她带走 Uh,will you take her,please?
带走她 Take her.
看着我 Look at me.
我是在这长大的 I practically grew up here.
-10号刀 -医生 你要的 -10-blade. -Here you go,doctor.
你说对了 And you're right.
这里让我伤痕累累 It's hurt me...
我可能永远无法复原 In ways I'll probably never get over.
我的记忆里 有很多人的足迹 I have a lot of memories of people...
有那些永远离开我的人 People I've lost forever.
但我也有别的记忆 But I have a lot of other memories,too.
我在这陷入爱河 This is the place where I fell in love...
我在这组建了家庭 The place where I found my family.
在这学会当一名医生 This is where I learned to be a doctor...
在这学会为他人生命 Where I learned how to take responsibility
负责 for someone else's life.
这也是我遇见你的地方 And it's the place I met you.
这个地方伤害了我 So I figure this place has given me
也给了我很多 as much as it's taken from me.
这里让我成长 让我找到生存意义 I've lived here as much as I've survived here.
这取决于用什么角度看待它 It just depends on how I look at it.
我选择用这样的方式看待 I'm gonna choose to look at it that way
以及记住你 and remember you that way.
希望你一切安好 Hope you're good.
再见 Bye.
喂 Hello?
你是我的另一半 You are my person.
永远都是我的另一半 You will always be my person.