美 好 的 四 天
我要倒杯酒，你要吗 I'm pouring a glass. Do you want some?
我不用了 No, I'm good!
是谁 -Who's there?
你好 Hello?
妈妈，是我 Mom, it's me.
妈妈 Mom!
1号门 Door one.
我的钥匙打不开 Uh, my key doesn't work.
是啊，我们... No, we, uh...
去年你和艾瑞克... We changed the locks last year
偷了吉他后我们就换了锁 after you and Eric stole the guitars.
我们说好，你戒干净了 The deal was you wouldn't come back
才可以回来 until you were clean.
等等，等等 Wait, wait, wait.
我就是为这个来的。我... That is why I'm here. I am...
我好了 I'm done.
我想回家 I wanna come home.
你好了？还是你没毒品了 Are you done? Are you out of drugs?
我和艾瑞克散了 I ended it with Eric.
他走了，我一个人住在马路上 He's gone. I've been living on my own on the streets
大概有一礼拜或者更久 for maybe like a week or maybe even more.
知道吗，我一直在想... You know, I've been thinking about all the things
小时候你跟我说过的话 that you said to me since I was like a little girl
我突然就...醒悟了 and I've had these, like, realizations like,
我恍然大悟，我想回去念书 these big, big realizations that I wanna go back to school
想找工作 and I wanna get a job
想接回我的孩子们 and I just wanna get my kids back...
莫莉，别说了。打住 Molly, stop. Just stop.
这番话我听了十年 I've heard this speech for 10 years.
妈妈，我需要回家 Mom, I need to be home.
你知道我一个人是不可能好的 You know, I do not do well when I'm left on my own
我想要戒毒 and I wanna detox
我可以在这儿戒 and I can do that here.
不行。等你戒了再回来 No. Come back when you're clean.
别啊，妈妈，求你了 No, Mom, please.
等你戒毒了，我们再见 I'll see you when you're clean.
妈妈！求你了！妈妈 -Mom! Please! Mom!
是我啊 -It's me!
过来，过来 -Come here, come here.
噢 Oh!
你这么做是对的 -You're doing the right thing.
她进来，你的生活就全毁了 If you let her in, she's gonna blow up your life.
你别这么说她 Oh, you know, don't talk about her like that.
她又不是炸弹 She's not a bomb.
我只是说你必须这么做 I'm just saying this is what you have to do.
你要是收留她，她就赖着不走了 She won't walk if you carry her.
滚蛋 Oh, fuck off.
好 Okay.
别逼我报警 Don't make me call the police.
天啊，你什么人啊 Oh, my God. Who are you?
每次你来这儿，都会有东西不见 Every time you come into this house, something disappears.
我去酒店住 I'll stay at a hotel.
我只是需要一个安全的地方让我戒毒 I just need some place safe that I can get clean.
最需要住酒店的钱 Just money for a hotel then.
你要我给你钱 You want me to give you money?
你疯了吗 Are you crazy?
就像你要钱买鞋、买眼镜 Like the money you needed for shoes or for glasses?
还是...上化妆网课 Or for, uh, oh, online cosmetology classes?
又或是上减肥课 Or Zumba lessons to get back in shape?
我花钱买了多少海洛因啊 How much heroin have I paid for?
你说得对 You're right.
我就去高速公路下面戒毒 I'll just detox under a highway
跟妓女、老鼠在一起 with prostitutes and rats,
因为这方法更好，妈妈 'cause that's a much better plan, Mom.
为什么挡着你的嘴 Why are you covering your mouth?
给我看看 Let me see.
让我看看 Show me.
天啊 Oh, my God.
起码给我个枕头和毯子，行吗 Can I please just have a pillow and a blanket?
晚上真的很冷 It gets really cold at night.
保重，莫莉 Get well, Molly.
我开了警报 I set the alarm.
你之前为什么说她会毁了我的生活 Why did you say before that she blows up my life?
难道不是我们的生活吗 I mean what you really meant was our life?
-是 -那你为什么不这么说... -Yes. -So why didn't you just say that...
需要吗 Do I need to?
我受够了我们受的罪 I'm tired of what we've been through.
每次她来，我都为你提心吊胆 I'm scared for you whenever she's around.
不要让她吞噬你 Just don't let her suck you in.
她没有吞噬我 She doesn't suck me in.
每次我决定重新接纳她 Whenever I've decided to reengage with her,
我都是睁大双眼 I've always done it with my eyes wide open.
1号门 -Door one.
你要是求可怜，还是死心吧 If you're hoping for pity, there's none coming.
-去收容所 -我要回家 -Go to a shelter. -I need to be home.
走吧，拜托了 Go, please.
他妈的，你真够倔的 Oh, God damn it, you are stubborn.
你真是头倔驴 You're like a mule.
如果有什么 If there's anyone or anything
比海洛因更他妈难戒的就是你了 more fucking relentless than heroin, it's you.
这是我仅剩的一点希望了 That's my one glimmer of hope in all this here.
如果你是认真的 If you're serious,
我现在就送你去戒毒 I'll drive you to detox right now.
好，但能先让我在这儿住两天吗 Okay, but first can I stay here a couple of days.
-不行 -去戒毒不是那么简单的 -No. -Getting into detox is not that simple...
莫莉，我们肯定可以试试 Molly, we can definitely try.
每天都有空床位 Beds open up every day.
-不是每天都有的 - 要么现在去 -They do not open up everyday. -Either we leave right now,
要么你就习惯睡门口 or you can get used to sleeping on the porch.
操！你总是这么冷血吗 Fuck! Were you always this heartless bitch? Huh?
看来我肯定是忘了 I guess I must have forgotten.
起码能让我进来洗个澡吧 Can I at least come inside and shower?
我好几个礼拜没洗澡了 I haven't showered in weeks.
我...我来例假了 I'm... I'm on my period.
不行。我去拿东西 No. I'll go get my things.
莫莉，在这儿等着 Molly, wait here.
-我跟你去 -等着 -I'll go with you. -Wait here.
安全带 Seat belt.
我们顺路买卫生巾。好吗 We'll pick up tampons on the way. Okay?
不用，我不需要 No. I don't need any.
你没来... You're not on...
好吧 Okay.
-你好 -你好 -Hello. -Hello.
-姓名? -莫莉... -Name? -Molly...
莫莉·威乐·玛格丽特 Molly Wheeler Margaret.
有带医保卡吗 Do you have your Medicaid card?
有 Yeah.
服用的是什么毒品 What drugs are you using?
海洛因，美沙酮还有快克 Heroin, methadone and some crack.
要算的话，还有阿德拉 Uh, if I get any, then maybe Adderall.
最后一次吸是什么时候 Last time you used?
昨天早上，我太难受了 Yesterday morning so I'm hurting.
有多长时间吸毒史 How long have you been addicted?
十年以上 -Hmm. -Ten years or more.
戒过毒吗？戒了多少次 Have you ever been through detox?
多少次? -Uh-huh. -How many times?
额... Um...
14次 Fourteen.
-什么? -14次 -Excuse me? -Fourteen times.
好，那你清楚流程的 Okay, so you know the drill.
医保卡可以免费住三晚 Medicaid pays for three nights.
之后就要自费 -After that, you're on your own. -Mm-hmm.
给你一张床位，两条毛巾，一日三餐 You get a cot, two towels, three meals a day, if you can tolerate them.
尽量忍住：痉挛，冷汗 Muscle spasms, cold sweats,
发热，呕吐，妄想，失眠。这都是正常反应 fever, vomiting, paranoia, insomnia. All that's normal.
但如果出现呼吸困难，一定要说 But if you start to have trouble breathing, speak up.
现在唯一的空床是合住间 The only open bed is in a shared woman's room.
这里签字 Sign here.
好 Okay.
我们走吧 Let's go.
好。你的意思我都懂了。我能回家了吗 Okay. You've made your point. Can I please come home now?
不行。我三天后来接你 No. I'll pick you up in three days.
真的吗？你不帮我 Really? You're not gonna help?
你就这么走了 You're gonna walk away?
你就会这一套，是吧 It's your thing, huh?
就他妈一走了之 Fucking walk away!
走吧 Come on.
操，操，操，操 Oh, fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
你个王八蛋 You motherfucker.
她现在在地狱 She's in hell right now.
什么 What?
她从头到脚都很痛 She's in pain from head to toe
而我却把她踢到路边 and I kicked her to the curb.
你应该打给你们的妈妈小组 You should call your mothers' group.
我他妈才不要他们可怜 Don't want their goddamn pity.
那是有帮助的，你知道的。有用 It helps, you know. It helps.
-你们都是相同处境 -是啊 -You're all in the same boat. -Yeah.
24小时都在下沉 Sinking 24/7.
有时我会觉得... Sometimes I get the feeling that...
我不想再爱她了 I don't want to love her anymore.
这让我很害怕 Scares the shit out of me.
我要继续爱她，对吗 I'm gonna keep loving her, right?
当然 Of course.
欧 Oh.
你真是娶回来了个大麻烦 This is the mess you married into.
我不介意 I'm okay with it.
是啊，那你就是真傻 Yeah, then you really are an idiot.
每次她来 You always talk to me like that
你对我都是这种态度。你有注意到吗 whenever she's around. Have you noticed that?
别这样了 Stop doing it.
好吗 Okay?
抱歉，亲爱的 I'm sorry, honey.
好舒服 Oh, that feels so good.
你最好了，黛比 You're the best, Deb.
我有跟你说，我们刚去纳帕旅行回来吗 Oh, did I tell you we just got back from a trip to Napa?
是吗 Oh, really?
-怎么样？ -棒极了 -How was it? -It was incredible.
沃特的客户让我们住在他的房子里 Walter's client let us say in his house.
都不能说是房子 House was not really a word for it.
太荒唐了 It's ridiculous.
我就跟你实话实说了，莫莉 I'm gonna level with you, Molly,
因为你没时间再胡扯了 because you don't have time for more bull.
你已经尝试过15次了 You have gone through this 15 times.
从统计上看，你很有可能会再来 Statistically, you are likely to be back again.
海洛因有97%的复吸率 Heroin has a 97 percent relapse rate.
你已经扎遍了手臂和脚踝上的所有血管 You've already blown through the veins in your arms, your ankles,
还有双手和双脚 hands, feet.
是啊，目前你是避开了脖子 Yeah, you stayed away from your neck so far,
但大多数人早晚都会扎到那里 but most people go there sooner or later.
你让自己陷入了很难的处境 You have put yourself in quite a situation.
-不，其实是你们 -天啊，妈妈。拜托 -No, actually, you all put her in this situation. -Oh, my God, Mom. Please.
她的问题就是从这样的医生办公室开始的 Her problem started in a doctor's office just like this.
那是她17岁 When she was 17,
滑水的时候扭伤了脚踝 she sprained her knee water skiing
走的时候医生开了75的氢考酮 and walked out with a prescription for 75 Oxy
从没拒绝过续药 and never a refill denied.
这真是太严重了 Now that's, that's terrible.
-很遗憾 -彼此彼此 -I'm sorry. -You and me both.
你想吸的点都是什么 What are your triggers?
无聊，焦虑，羞愧，寂寞 Boredom, anxiety, shame, loneliness.
我的人生。我的人生是主要刺激 My life. Basically my life's a trigger.
你不是一个人 You're not alone.
我31岁了 I'm 31 years old,
我的人生除了堕落一事无成 and I've done nothing but go down in life.
所以我可以坐着感受这一切 So I can sit around and feel all of that,
或者做点什么让自己开心 or I can do something about it and feel good
和麻木 and numb.
她对这类事情一向都很敏感 She's always been really sensitive to things like that.
对于感受 To feelings.
她从青春期就总是这么说 It's always what she said since she was a teenager.
你怎么知道？你都不在 How would you know? You weren't even there...
莫莉，此刻我在 Molly, I'm here now.
我们聊一下可行计划。嗯？ Let's talk about our options. Hmm?
你们知道鸦片类拮抗剂是什么吗 Do either of you know what an opioid antagonist is?
不知道 No.
是一种每月注射一次的针剂 It's a shot we give you once a month,
可以阻止类鸦片进入你的血液系统 and it blocks opioids from getting into your system.
如海洛因、氢考酮、麻醉品 Heroin, Oxy, narco.
这种针剂能让你基本对兴奋免疫 The shot essentially makes you immune to getting high.
当然这并非灵丹妙药 Now it's not a magic bullet.
你还是要积极做恢复治疗 You still have to do the active work of recovery.
12步治疗法 Twelve-steps therapy, all of it.
安全吗 Is it safe?
你他妈在逗我吗 Are you fucking kidding me?
十年来 You've spent 10 years
你注射海洛因都掺了什么 shooting up heroin laced with what,
耗子药、爽身粉，天知道还有别的什么 rat poison and baby powder and God knows what else.
现在突然你的身体成圣殿了 And now all of a sudden, your body's a temple.
还他妈安不安全？上帝啊 Is it fucking safe? Oh, God.
天啊，莫莉 Jesus, Molly.
是的，安全 Yes, it's safe.
药监局许可 FDA approved.
你至少要戒毒一周 You have to be clean for at least a week.
如果接受注射时 Now if you still have drugs in your system
体内还有毒品 when you get this shot,
会引起急性戒断反应 it puts you into something called rapid withdrawal.
那是很危险的 That's very dangerous.
可能会进急诊室 Emergency room stuff.
之后是每个月一次 And then a shot once a month.
这是个机会 It's a chance.
接受吧，莫莉 Take it, Moll.
我自己决定，妈妈 It's my call, Mom.
行吧 Fine. Yeah, okay.
这是个正确选择 I think that's a good choice.
你已经戒毒四天了 You have been in detox four days already.
安全起见，应该再继续四天 You should do four more to be safe.
我们就在周五上午9点打针 So let's shoot for 9:00 a.m., Friday.
等等，再四天？真的吗？ Wait. Four more days? Seriously?
她等不了那么久，她可能一小时后就又吸了 She can't wait that long. She might be using in an hour.
-感谢你对我的信心 -她不能留在这儿吗？ -Thanks for the vote of confidence. -Can't she stay here?
-不能 -不行。很遗憾，我们暂时没有床位 -No. -No. Unfortunately, we need the bed.
你要到一个有人陪着你的地方 You need to be somewhere not alone
还要远离其他吸毒者 and away from other users.
再四天 Four more days.
我能做的到。对吧 I can do that. All right?
-嗯 -是啊 -Yeah. -Yeah.
-对，你可以的 -好 -Yeah, you can. -Yeah.
真该给这家伙一枪 That guy should be shot.
-好吧 -嗯。很抱歉 -Okay. -Yeah. So sorry.
你的牙龈严重发炎 Your gums are very inflamed.
我给你开一点药膏拿回家 I'm gonna give you some ointment to take home.
无麻醉性，但也要适量 -Non-narcotic, but use it sparingly anyway. -Hmm.
这个是暂时的 Now, these are temps.
试一下尺寸大小 Let's try them for size.
好的 Uh, okay.
奥! Ow!
等真正的牙套到了 I'll give you call in a couple of weeks
我给你打电话 when the real ones come in.
好痛 They hurt.
是，是需要适应的 Yes, they'll take some getting used to.
让我看看 Let me see.
1号门 -Door one.
进来 Get in here.
你确定？我不想给你添麻烦 -You sure? I don't wanna impose.
如果现在不方便 If now's a bad time,
-我可以改天再来 -去你的吧 -I can always come back later. -Oh, screw you.
莫莉的神奇沙龙 Molly's amazing salon.
记得那次我不小心把你的头发染成粉色吗 Remember the time I accidentally dyed your hair pink?
不小心？可不是么 Accidentally? Sure.
你干嘛留着这些破烂啊？跟个博物馆似的 Why do you keep all this crap? It's like a museum.
有很多美好回忆嘛 Oh, you know, a lot of good memories.
是啊，在我完蛋之前 Yeah, from before I was a fuck up.
记得这是什么吗 Remember what this is?
啊 Argh!
全世界最小的小提琴 Smallest violin in the world.
我的香水都哪儿去了？我的...我的首饰 Where the fuck are my perfumes? My... My jewelry.
你把香水卖了，当了你所有的首饰 You sold the perfume and you pawned all the jewelry
还有我的结婚戒指和订婚戒指 along with my wedding ring, my engagement ring,
还有你外婆的 your grandmother's.
天啊 Jesus.
你在这儿打过针？ Did you shoot up in here?
我不知道。我想肯定是在我离开戒毒所之后吧 I don't know. I guess I must have after rehab.
真令人安心 Oh! That's reassuring.
我操 Oh, what the fuck?
噢! Oh!
我今晚要上班 So, um, I'm supposed to work tonight.
赌场都订满了 The casino's booked solid,
但我会带着手机 but I'll have my phone on me,
只需要一两个小时 and it'll only be a couple of hours.
克里斯在家 Chris will be here.
他在后面 He's out back.
但你要是有任何需要，就打给我 But if you need anything, call me...
你有告诉他我要住在这儿吗 Did you tell him that I was staying here?
当然了 Of course, I did.
我有打电话给他 I called him.
他... He's...
他不介意的 He's fine with it.
我很高兴你回来了 I'm happy you're home.
我去抽根烟 I'm gonna go have a cigarette.
天啊。这什么声音啊 Jesus. What is that sound?
是报警器 It's the alarm.
什么？能关掉吗 What? Can you turn it off?
门打开时，我需要它提醒 I need it to beep every time the door opens.
为什么？这条街最安全了 Why? This is like the safest neighborhood in the world.
这拼图一直摆在这儿？ This puzzle been here this whole time?
是啊。我不想动 Oh. Yeah. I didn't want to touch it.
我想或许有天你想来完成它 I thought maybe you'd like to finish it someday.
不，我不喜欢 No, I hate it.
这手机给你 This is a pay as you go.
如果没话费了，你就告诉我 So, uh, let me know if you run out of minutes.
没话费？我要打给谁啊 Ran out of minutes? Who am I gonna call?
我存了我的号码 I entered my number.
还有你妹妹、孩子们、诊所还有你爸爸的 Your sister's, the kids', the clinic and your dad's.
我上一次来这儿是什么时候 When was the last time I was here?
我想大概是一年半前吧 Um, well, I guess it was about a year and a half ago.
第二天早上我醒来，你已经走了 I woke up the next morning and you were gone.
能把车库门打开吗 Can you open the garage door?
嗨 Hi.
那是她吗 Is that her?
关上 Close it.
你没问题吧？ Are you gonna be all right?
嗯嗯 Mmm-hmm.
好，我走了 Okay, I'm leaving.
干嘛啊？ -What?
抱歉 Sorry.
有任何需要就跟我说，嗯？ Let me know if you need anything, huh?
嗯。谢谢 Yeah. Thank you.
好 Okay.
1号门 Door one.
是我 -It's me.
我... I...
我好冷 I'm freezing.
我以为戒断反应过去了 I thought withdrawals were supposed to be over.
不。别走。别走 No. Stay. Stay.
莫莉 Oh, Molly.
我好累 I'm tired.
你真的卖了你的结婚戒指？ Did I really sell your wedding rings?
这个... You know, just...
你不用操心 just don't worry about it.
这是一种病 -Oh. -This is a disease.
这不是你 This isn't you.
-不是的 -不 -It's not. -No.
不，这是另一个你 No, it's another you.
不是真正的你 It's not the real you.
她不是你 She isn't you.
发人深省啊，妈妈 Ah, mind bending, Mom.
你记得... Do you remember...
我离开你爸爸之后 right after I left your dad,
我在商场... I opened that...
很偏的位置开了一家... ...that pottery painting store
彩绘陶器店 way out of the mall.
天啊，真是个坏主意 Oh, God, that was such a bad idea.
那地点太差了 It was a terrible location,
但是我受够了... but I was so tired of...
老是想摆脱你爸爸的控制 trying to get out from under your dad,
想要找到属于我的东西 finding something of my own.
你知道那地方太僻静 You know that place was so quiet,
就像个陵墓似的 just like a mausoleum.
尽是些空荡荡的椅子 All those empty chairs.
可尽管我这么对你 And even after all, I put you through,
离开了你 leaving you,
你还是从学校大老远跑过来 you started coming all the way out there after school,
带着你的朋友一起来 dragging your friends with you.
你甚至还在那儿办了生日派对，天啊 You even hosted a birthday party there for God's sake.
过了两个月 And after a couple of months,
你做了好多咖啡杯 you had so many of those damn coffee mugs.
真的很棒 That was pretty great.
那才是你 That was you.
第一天就快过去了 Almost one day down,
还有三天 three more to go.
爸爸知道我回来了吗？ Does Dad know that I'm home?
我会告诉他的 I'll tell him.
晚安孩子 -Good night, kiddo.
10点了 It's 10:00 am.
他们没来 They're not here.
是10:03 It's, uh, 10:03.
别紧张 Oh, relax.
他们肯定不会来。为什么啊 I bet they don't come. Why?
-为什么要来呢？ -别这么说 -Why would they come? -Oh, stop that.
你有跟你妹妹联系吗？ Have you heard from your sister?
没有。怎么了？ No. Why?
她想见你 Well, she wants to see you.
她什么时候有时间见别人了？ Since when did she have the time to see anyone?
你的牙呢？ Where are your teeth?
好吧 Oh, okay.
太疼了 They hurt.
嗨 Hi!
-外婆 -外婆 -Grandma! -Grandma!
-嗨，外婆 -见到你们太好了 -Hi, Grandma! -It's so good to see you.
-嗨，亲爱的 -我想你 -Oh, hi, sweetie. -I missed you.
你好吗？ Oh, how are you?
去抱抱你妈妈 Ah, go hug your mom.
-嗨，孩子 -嗨，肖恩 -Hi, kiddo. -Hi, Sean.
嗨，黛比 Hi, Deb.
嘿，我们... Hey, we, uh...
我们不能久留，也就两三个小时 we can't stay long, couple hours or so.
好，我们进去吧 Okay, well, let's go inside.
来吧 Come on.
要喝咖啡吗？ You want some coffee?
嗯，好 Yeah, sure.
你状态不错 You look good.
并不好，不过谢了 No, but thanks.
嗒嗒 Ta-da!
好 -All right. -Ah...
-来，吃吧 -就一个 -Here, eat up. -One.
就一个 -Mmm. -One.
工作怎么样？ So how's work?
挺不错的 It's... it's real good.
很忙 There's so much of it.
打算开第二家修车厂 Thinking about opening up a second body shop.
等等，你为什么这么做？ Uh-hmm. Wait, why are you doing that?
你喜欢坚果的 You love nuts.
是。可医生说我不能吃 I do. But the doctor says I can't have any.
我们去年发现有的坚果... Well, we found out last year that some nuts
会让她肚子疼 make her tummy hurt.
我摔断到了脚，打了石膏 Um, I broke my ankle, I was in a cast.
-哇哦 -没有断 -Oh, wow. -It wasn't broken.
-断了 -没有 -Was too. -No.
-闭嘴，白痴 -别吵了，孩子们 -Shut up, moron. -Come on, guys.
我们说过的 We talked about this.
他从秋千上摔下来，轻微骨裂 He got a hairline fracture flying off a swing set.
-嗯 -小笨蛋 -Hmm. -Knucklehead.
不过他们都是好孩子 They're good kids, though.
是啊 Yeah.
是，我知道。我知道他们都是好孩子 Yeah, I know. I know they're good kids.
爸爸怎么样？ How's Dad?
说吧 Go for it.
-他脾气很坏 -什么？ -He's grumpy. -What?
-就是 -不过他还好 -You are. -But he's okay.
他有辅导我们作业 He helps us with homework and stuff.
-我脾气才不坏 -他总是放屁 -I am not grumpy. -He farts a lot.
这就是胡说了 Now that's a lie.
淡定，哥们。我们喜欢你 Chill, bruh. We like you.
我不是你“哥们”，哥们 I'm not your "bruh," bruh.
-你是笨 -笨 -You're a "duh." -Duh.
噢，他有女朋友了 Oh, and he has a girlfriend.
他是个厨师 She's a chef.
她做的饭很好吃 Her food is yummy.
打他，打他 Get him, get him.
冲啊，打他 Come on, get him!
加油！加油 Come on! Come on!
-嘭，你死了 -噢...别 -Uh, boom! You got got. -Oh... no.
丫头 Kiddo.
等一下，宝贝 -Mm. -Hold on, baby.
我能玩吗？ Can I play?
好啊 Sure.
来吧 Phew. Ready.
快点啊 -Come on.
上啊。不不不，不要按那个 Come on. No, no, no, don't press that.
不不不不。你这是作弊 No, no, no, no, no. That's cheating.
你不能这样。不可以 You can't do that. You can't do that.
你不能这样 You can't do that.
分数 你不能这样 You can't do that.
分数
快点。快点。快啊 Come on. 分数
警 告 快点。快点。快啊 Come on. 分数
警 告
快点。快点 Come on. Come on. 分数 警 告
快点。快点 Come on. Come on.
不不不 -Oh, no, no, no.
不是吧 -Oh, no! -Ha.
妈妈，你真差劲。差劲到家了 Mom, you suck. You totally suck.
嘿 Hey.
差劲！差劲 You suck. You suck.
差劲！差劲！你真差劲 You suck. You suck!
差劲！差劲！你真差劲 You suck! You suck.
差劲！差劲！你真差劲 You suck! You suck!
差劲！差劲！你真差劲 You suck.
我... I...
-你差劲。你差劲 -住手。住手 -You suck. You suck. -Stop it. Stop it.
差劲。差劲。你才差劲 You suck. You suck. You suck.
现在谁差劲啊？小骗子 Now who sucks, huh? Cheater?
你才差劲。遥控器给我 You suck. Give me the remote.
-我赢了。不行 -给我 -I won. No. -Give me this.
差劲的人就是这个下场 That's what you get for sucking.
-不。你少来。住手 -不。不行 -No. You stop it. Stop it. -No. No.
妈妈！妈妈，他摸我 Mom! Mom, he's touching me.
这里真美好 It's so beautiful out here.
此时此刻 Right now.
是啊 Yeah.
真希望人生可以有更多这样的时刻 Just wish life could be more like this.
一刻... One moment...
又一刻 then another.
不是吗？ Isn't it?
另一种是怎么样的？ I mean, what's the alternative?
我不知道 Uh, I don't know.
我老是会想起过去 I'm always thinking about the past,
或是担心未来 or worrying about the future.
即便是我吸毒之前 You know, even before I did drugs,
我记得自己总是担心接下来的事 I remember worrying about what was next.
我就是无法忍受不确定 Like, I just couldn't live with the uncertainty.
我只想像当下这样一直不变 I just want now to be now.
当下的孩子 The way it is for kids,
当下的动物和植物 or animals, plants.
是啊，我从没这么想过 Yeah, I never thought of that.
你一向都很聪明，小莫 You've always been so smart, Moll.
是啊。看我聪明成什么样了 Yeah. And look at where that's gotten me.
嘿，我是戴尔 Hey, this is Dale.
留不留言随你 -Leave a message or don't. -[BEEP]
嘿，是我 Hey, it's me.
额... Um...
我想应该告诉你，茉莉回家了 I think you should know that Molly is home.
她在戒毒 She's clean.
很痛苦 As rickety as hell.
我知道你不喜欢聊这种事 And I know you don't like talking about this stuff,
但这次似乎真的不一样了 but it really seems different this time.
我很久... I haven't seen her like this since...
都没见过她这样了 I don't know when.
她真的很努力，戴尔 She's really trying, Dale,
还老是问起你 and she keeps asking about you.
所以我在想你能否给她打个电话 So I was wondering if you could give her a call?
她... Um, you know, she's...
她需要支持 she needs support.
我觉得或许真的有用 And I think it might really help.
好吗，别犯浑 All right, so don't be an asshole.
打个电话 Just call.
好了。拜 Okay. Bye.
你们怎么这么有精力啊 How do you guys still have so much energy?
-不知道 -怎么可能啊 -I don't know. -How's that possible.
我们今天上了体育课 We had PE today.
那你们肯定很喜欢跑 Well, you must love running.
我知道我们商量过... So I know we talked about them
周末让他们跟你呆着 staying with you over the holiday weekend.
或是可以跟着我姐 Or they can also stay with my sister,
看这边情况如何了 depending on how things were going.
不，不，我没问题的 Oh, no, no, I'll be fine.
我完全可以... You know, I could totally...
嗯，我可以的 Yeah, I'm okay.
-回头跟我说 -下周我打给你 -Let me know. -I'll call you next week.
-拜 -谢谢你来 -Bye. -Thanks for coming.
好了。来吧，孩子们。我们走了，走了 All right. Come on, guys. Let's go, Let's go.
噢 Oh.
拜，孩子 Bye, kiddo.
-拜，宝贝 -拜 -Bye, baby. -Bye.
嘿 Hey.
我们什么时候可以再来？ When can we come back?
很快 Soon.
-我们可以留下过夜吗？ -额... -Can we sleep over? -Uh...
-当然 -嗯，没问题 -Sure. -Yeah, that'd be fine.
-拜托，爸爸? -再看吧，伙计 -Please, Dad? -We'll see, buddy.
这俩孩子太棒了 Ah, those kids are golden.
毕竟他们经历过很多 After all, they've been through.
他们真是好孩子 They're wonderful.
是啊 Yeah.
你和肖恩怎么样？ How was it with Sean?
怎么，不好吗？ What, not good?
他的背受伤了 He hurt his back.
要我帮他买止痛药 He wants me to get him pain killers.
你开玩笑吗？ Are you kidding me?
我应该立刻报警抓他 I should call the police on him right now.
你不会那么做的，因为那样孩子们会被送去收容所 You're not gonna do that because the kids will end up in foster care.
不，不会的。他们可以跟着我 No, they won't. They could stay with me.
或许吧。但在法庭判决之前 Maybe. But until the court rules on it,
他们都要待在寄养家庭 they'll be in a foster home.
你心里有数，请不要说了 You know this, please just stop.
这声音要把我逼疯了 That sound is driving me crazy.
那玩意五分钟就叫一次 How am I supposed to get better
我怎么好起来啊 with that thing beeping every five minutes,
一个劲在跟我说差劲，差劲，差劲 reminding me you suck, you suck, you suck.
天啊，我就像是在监狱里 Jesus, it's like I'm in prison.
我也不喜欢，可这是我们的现实 I hate it as well, but it's just our reality.
有什么要帮你买的吗？ You want something from the store?
能给我20块 Can you please just give me 20 bucks
让我自己去买吗？ and I'll go by myself?
我觉得自己像个婴儿 I feel like a toddler.
这是个好主意 Well, that's a pretty good idea,
我直接买好海洛因... but I think it might be easier
岂不是更简单 if I just ordered in some heroin.
好吧 Okay,
香烟、纸杯蛋糕 cigarettes, cupcakes.
还有汽水 Soda.
干嘛？ What?
你还好吗？ You all right?
嗯 Yeah.
你眼睛有点红 Your eyes look a little red.
我累了 I'm tired.
天啊，你想我说什么？ Jesus, what do you want me to say?
说我无聊死了，很想吸？ That I'm bored shitless and craving?
我无聊死了，很想吸 I'm bored shitless and craving.
可以了吗？ Okay.
还有两天 Just two more days.
你只需要... You just have to hang in there,
再坚持两天 two more days.
不。不止 No. It's-- It's more than that.
60个小时不到 Sixty hours. Less.
-你可以的 -是啊，但你可以吗？ -You can do it. -Yeah, but can you?
你神经紧绷 You're so wound up,
你会心脏病发猝死的 you're gonna drop dead of a heart attack.
好了，小莫，跟我一起去 All right, Moll, come with me.
来吧 Come on.
随便选一个，反正都是食用色素和糖 Pick any one, it's just food coloring and sugar.
莫莉 Molly.
哇哦 Wow.
米勒教练 Coach Miller.
-嗨 -你好吗？ -Hi. -How are you?
很好 I'm good.
好 Good.
-嘿，黛比 -嘿 -Hey, Deb. -Hey.
好久不见，我的天啊 Long time, my goodness.
这些年我们都在为你加油 We've all been rooting for you over the years.
谢谢 Thank you.
你状态不错 Well, you look good.
-真的 -是啊 -You do. -Yeah.
你知道吗 Did you know that
我去年搬到林肯去了 I moved over to Lincoln last year.
他们让我教卫生健康 They got me teaching health and wellness.
你有上过这门课吗？ Did you ever take that class?
看那些车祸录像？ The car crash videos?
没错 Exactly.
不过录像会让他们打瞌睡 Except the videos just put them to sleep.
那些孩子觉得自己无敌了 These kids think they're invincible.
-哼 -这一点没变，是吧？ -Hmm. -That doesn't change, right?
我在康复中 I'm in recovery.
-真好 -嗯 -Good for you. -Hm.
我希望有你这样的人来跟孩子们聊一聊 I wish someone like you would come and talk to these kids.
我是说，一个经历过毒瘾... I mean, someone who's gone through...
而又重新振作的人 addiction troubles and come out the other side.
你应该考虑一下 You should think about it.
只是... It's just that, uh...
我不敢公开讲话。所以... I'm not one for public speaking. So...
今年已经有两个孩子嗑药过量了 We've already had two kids overdose this year.
你说的林肯，是... You said Lincoln in, um...
在东南部，对吧？ In southeast, is that right?
对。很乱的街区 Yeah. Tough neighborhood.
你会带来很大影响的 You'll make a big impact.
我会考虑的 I'll think about it.
好 Okay.
很高兴见到你 Good to see you.
我也是 Great to see you.
是谁？ Who was that?
我的毒贩 My dealer.
他说15分钟到 He said he'll be here in 15 minutes.
哈-哈 Ha-ha.
如果不是我吸毒，你会问吗？ If I wasn't a junkie, would you even ask?
应该不会 Probably not.
你爸爸有来电话吗？ Has your dad called?
没 No.
先别出去 Oh, don't go out there yet.
来吧，过来跟我坐 Come on, sit with me.
噢，我忘了 Oh, I forgot.
我有东西给你 I have something for you.
是什么？ What is it?
打开看看 Open it.
你是要卖房子还是要给我买 Are you selling the house or buying me one?
你认得她吗 Do you recognize her?
-不 -仔细看看 -No. -Take a closer look.
妈妈，我不认识这个人 Mom, I don't know who this is.
这是科尔森·科斯波姆 It's Colson Kirsebom.
不可能 No.
嗯哼 Mm-hmm.
天啊 Oh, my God.
我想对他们父母来说，肯定很难接受 I think it was pretty hard for his, her parents.
但你知道吗 But you know what?
我想现在一切都好了 I think everything's okay now.
我靠 Holy shit.
舞会国王现在是王后了 The prom king is now a queen.
怎么这么好笑 Why is that so funny?
我不知道，但我们不该笑 I don't know, but we shouldn't laugh.
-嗯哼 -她很棒 -Uh-huh. -Good for her.
这是重启人生的一种方式，是吧？ That's one way to reboot your life, huh?
是啊，没错。对 Yeah, right. Yeah.
额 Hmph.
你知道我跟他约会过吗 Do you know I used to date him?
-真的吗 -嗯 -You did? -Mm-hmm.
一年级 Freshman year.
就在你走了大概一两个礼拜那时候 Right around the time you left for, like, a couple of weeks.
好吧 Oh, okay.
我很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
真希望我在 Wish I'd been around.
是啊，你应该在的 Yeah, you should have been.
就太突然了 Like, it was just so sudden.
前一天你还在... You know, one day you were...
我的午餐盒里放小纸条 putting notes in my lunch box,
结果转天，你就消失了... and then the next, you disappeared
长达两年之久 on your little two-year hiatus.
我以为你是受不了我们，受不了我了 I thought you couldn't stand to be around us, around me.
不是的 That wasn't it.
你知道不是那样的 You know that's not true.
我知道吗？ Do I?
我们不是说过很多次了吗 Haven't we been over this a lot?
我当时怀了你妹妹 I got pregnant with your sister.
是个意外 Unplanned.
过了两个月 And in a couple of months,
我发现自己多了个婴儿 I found myself with a baby,
辞了工作 and I quit my job,
还嫁给了一个... and I was married to a man
我根本不了解的男人 who I really didn't know very well,
他又... and he was...
很难搞 He was difficult.
或许，我也是吧 Me too, maybe.
在你妹妹8岁时 And when your sister was eight,
我又怀孕了，我们... I got pregnant again and we were,
我们真的很开心 were really happy about that.
我们... We were...
我想我们当时过得很不错 I think we were at a pretty good point.
我和你爸爸，有那么一段时间 Me and your dad, you know, for a moment.
之后15年 Then for 15 years,
我努力维系一切 I held everything together...
尽量不失望 trying not to disappoint,
咽下你爸那些狗屁 swallowing your father's fucking bullshit.
他的坏脾气、坏情绪 His temper tantrums, his moods.
后来有天晚上我回到家 And then one night I came home
听到他又开始大骂 and I heard him started to rev up one of his fits.
跟房子有关系 Something about the house.
我不知道... I don't know...
反正我... and I just...
就忍不住了 That was it.
那晚我走了 I left that night.
我当时是他妈的家长会的会长 You were the head of the fucking PTA.
你是那么体面 You were so put together.
我都是装出来的 I was pretending.
我就是...很抱歉... I just... I am so sorry
带给你这么多痛苦 for causing you so much pain,
但我无法为想要活着而道歉 but I can't apologize for trying to survive.
我做不到 I just can't.
那是撒谎 That would be lying.
你认为你吸毒... You think it's my fault
都怪我 that you're an addict.
嗯 Mm.
很舒服 This is amazing.
深呼吸几次 Take some deep breaths.
嗯 Hm.
那她是太忙不能来吗 So she's too busy to come?
我很好，艾什莉 Oh, I'm fine, Ashley.
你好吗 How are you?
抱歉 Sorry.
你好吗，妈妈 How are you, Mom?
还是老样子 Oh, same old.
-你呢 -很好 -You? -I'm good.
孩子，工作。一天累到晚 Kids, work. I'm tired all the time.
不过在INS(图片分享社交应用)上很风光 But looking really good on Instagram.
孩子就是天赐的礼物 My kids are a gift.
我生机勃勃 I'm thriving. I'm living my best life.
生活幸福美满 Ladies.
我要一杯咖啡，谢谢 Uh, I'll just have coffee, thanks.
我也要一杯 Uh, make that two,
-再来一份薯条 -好 -and have a side of fries. -Okay.
早餐吃薯条？ Fries for breakfast?
有何不可？能让我开心 Why not? That'd make me feel good.
她在哪儿 So where is she?
她想来的 She wanted to come,
但临阵退缩了 but she chickened out at the last minute.
不，她... No, she, um...
她想建立自信 she tried to build up her self-esteem.
而我是个打击吗？ And I'm working against that?
不是 No.
和你没关系 It's not about you.
是啊，从来都没关系 No, it never is.
反正我很高兴就咱俩 Anyway, I'm really glad that it's just us
因为我需要停一会喘口气 because I need a break from all the craziness.
有什么不消停的？你不是说她挺好的 What craziness? I thought you said she's doing good.
不，他是挺好。真的，只是... Well, no, she is. She is. It's just, you know...
现在家里有点乱 it's a little crazy at the house right now.
她成天坐着、抽烟、抽搐 She sits around smoking, twitching,
我就像老鹰一样盯着她 and I am there watching her like a hawk
还要假装我没有 and pretending that I'm not.
你知道克里斯的。他看新闻有瘾 You know Chris. He's addicted to the news.
一天到晚捧着iPad He's on his iPad all the time.
沉迷于这个崩塌的世界无法自拔 He can't get enough of the world falling apart.
我真的觉得不该让男人退休 I really don't think they should allow men to retire.
那她，怎么样？ So how, how is she?
苍白，瘦弱 Pale, thin.
牙都掉了 Toothless.
不过，眼下的情况真的很好了 But, you know, pretty damn good under the circumstances.
我隐约看到了曾经的小莫 I was seeing glimpses of the old Moll.
真的吗？ Really?
那太好了 That's good.
我也不知道，艾什莉 I don't know, Ash.
我想或许这次她能行 I think she might make it this time.
只要她能再坚持几天 If she can only hang on for a couple more days.
然后她就可以打针 Then she could get the shot,
戒瘾一个月，接着是两个月 and one month clean will turn into two months
然后就是半年 and two months into six.
上帝保佑 God willing.
妈妈 Mom.
你什么时候信上帝了 Since when do you believe in God?
发现不信也没用就信了 Since not believing didn't work.
我知道我不该抱太大希望 I know I shouldn't get my hopes up,
但是... but...
目前，我剩下的只有希望 at this point, all I have left is hope.
来了 Here we go.
谢谢 Thank you.
-谢谢 -不客气 -Thank you. -You're welcome.
上礼拜我的官司赢了 So I won my trial last week.
集体诉讼 The class action suit.
-真抱歉，艾什莉。我都没问你 -没关系 -Oh, I am so sorry, Ash. I didn't even ask. -It's fine.
-祝贺你 -谢谢 -Congratulations. -Thank you.
我真是个只顾自己的混蛋 I am such a self-absorbed asshole.
你是只顾莫莉的混蛋 You're Molly-absorbed asshole.
是因为我不需要担心你 It's just that I don't have to worry about you.
不急，等你们准备好 No rush, whenever you're ready.
-谢谢 -谢谢 -Thank you. -Thank you.
上帝啊 Oh, my God.
我好像把钱包落在家里了 I think I left my wallet at home.
-我想我可以买单的，妈妈 -操，你说得对 -I think I can buy us a cup of coffee, Mom. -Fuck! You're right.
-我得走了 -妈妈，肯定没事的 -I-I gotta go. -Mom, I'm sure it's fine.
应该是放在枕头下面了 It's probably under the pillow or something.
不。我怎么能忘记呢 No. How could I possibly forget it?
不。放松。你...你刚才不是说他挺好的 No. Relax. You, you just said she was doing good.
记得吗？ Remember?
拜托别管了 Please let it go. Please.
好 Okay.
那...你... So, um, how...
你男朋友怎么样？ -How's your boyfriend? -Oh.
-走了。解脱了 -噢 -Gone. Good riddance. -Oh.
他太粘人了 He was so clingy.
不过，我交了新男友 But I have a new boyfriend.
我们在雷切尔·尼克松的订婚派对上认识的 I met him up Rachel Nixon's engagement party.
他开了一家管道公司 And he owns his own plumbing company.
人特逗，这是个优点，对吧？ He's funny, you know, which is always great, right?
我们无需说太多却心有灵犀，形影不离 And we're, without giving too much away, very in sync, intimately.
不过如果想长久，还有一个问题 But there is one catch if it's going to last
因为他说我们... because he says that we're...
1号门 Door One.
-嘿 -嘿 -Hey. -Hey.
深邃蓝和珍珠绿... The blue Caribbean and the pearl green...
哪一种都让人着迷... Any one of these would be totally captivating...
没事吧你？ You okay?
没事啊 Yeah.
瞧你个鬼样子。你真需要放松一下 You look like shit. You should really chill.
嗯。好吧，那... Yeah. Okay, so, um...
我想你们有人应该听说过“海洛因泛滥” I guess some of you may have heard about the heroin epidemic.
嗯... Um...
那个...我... So, I, uh...
我曾是一名全A生，但中学却没毕业 I was a straight A student who never graduated high school.
我现在住我妈妈家 I live at home with my mom,
但上周我还在睡大马路 but last week I was sleeping on the streets.
没工作 Don't have a job.
也没有任何工作技能，一毛钱都没有 Or any job skills or a dollar to my name.
就连有的牙齿都不是我的 Some of my teeth aren't even mine.
看到后面那位女士吗？ See that, um, that lady in the back.
我妈妈 It's my mom.
今天她开车送我来的 She drove me here today
因为我...我的驾照因多次酒驾被吊销了 because I, uh... my license was suspended because of so many DUIs.
可就算我的驾照还在 But even if I did have my license,
她也不会放心让我开她的车 she wouldn't trust me with her car.
因为... Because I have...
她都被我洗劫一空了 I have robbed her blind.
钱、首饰、信用卡 Money, jewelry, credit cards.
我还... And I have...
为了毒品... degraded myself
出卖了自己 for drugs, in ways...
你们根本不想知道的 In ways that you don't want to know.
唯一... The only thing...
我唯一在乎的就是吸毒 The only thing I care about is getting high
因为吸毒能让我忘记... because getting high makes me forget
我给自己人生带来的所有麻烦 about the mess that I have made of my life getting high.
那就别吸啊 Then just don't.
你说什么？ Excuse me?
抱歉。只是... Sorry. It's just...
我绝对不会让自己这么堕落的 I would never let myself fall that far.
是。对。当然 Right. Right, of course.
你知道这话我跟自己说过多少遍吗？ Do you know how many times that I have told myself that?
我不会为了吸毒去偷东西 That I'm not going to let myself steal to get high?
我不会为了吸毒失去孩子的监护权 That I'm not gonna let myself lose custody of my children to get high?
我不会让自己往胳膊上扎针 That I'm not gonna let myself stab a needle into my arm?
我不会让自己往胸口扎针 I'm not going to let myself stab it into my chest.
过去这几年，我几乎... I have woken up almost every morning
每天早上醒来都跟自己说 for the past couple of years and told myself
到此为止了，今天... that this is it. That today...
今天我不要碰毒品了 Today I'm not going to get high.
可一小时后，我就去找毒贩... And an hour, an hour later, I am meeting up with my dealer
买毒品了 to get high.
我每天都在失败 I fail every single day.
我很抱歉，妈妈 I'm so sorry, Mom.
天啊 Oh, my God.
我很久没见过你这样了 I haven't seen you like that for so long.
哪样 Like what?
自信、诚恳，负责任 Confident, honest. Taking full responsibility.
就...我也说不清。就是做了你自己 Just... I don't know. Just being yourself.
你真该看看他们看你的眼神 You should have seen the way they were looking at you.
目不转睛 Just riveted.
是啊，我挺开心的 Yeah, I feel good.
坚强 Strong.
如果谁有勇气打破这个困境 If there's anyone who has the strength to break free of this shit,
那一定就是你 it's you.
我真的这样认为 I really believe that.
我为你骄傲 I'm proud of you.
能在这里右转吗 Can you make a right up here?
为什么 What for?
我想带你看点东西 I want to show you something.
这里停 Pull over right here.
-这儿吗？ -对 -Here? -Yeah.
看到那栋楼吗 You see that building over there?
埃里克和我以前住在这儿的 Eric and I used to live there.
多久 For how long?
一年到一年半吧 Year, year and a half.
我吸毒... Were you terrified?
你怕吗 I was high.
这里起码有自来水吧 Did you have running water at least?
有，还有客房服务呢。得了吧 Yeah, and room service. Come on.
知道吗？我一直想问你一个问题 You know, I've been wanting to ask you something,
但我不想你误会 but I do not want you to take it in the wrong way.
-嗯 -我...没有任何偏见的 Yeah. -I just... No judgement.
好。说吧 Okay. Just come out with it.
你有没有... Did you ever...
卖过身 prostitute yourself?
我从没为了钱卖过身 I never had sex for money,
但为了毒品，我有 but I have had sex for drugs.
-那不是卖身 -是啊... -Well, that's not prostitution. -Well...
那是为了生存 No, that's survival.
那是...一个病人想要活下去 That's, uh, a sick person trying to survive.
是啊，但如果我有为了有钱买东西，而出卖自己 Yeah, but if I had had sex for money to buy drugs,
那我算是个妓女吗？ would that make me a prostitute?
裁定结果是什么呢，妈妈 So what's the verdict, Mom?
是还不是？ Whore? Not whore?
等等，等一下，抱歉 Wait, wait, wait, sorry.
既然我们已经来了，我想问一下你 Since we're already here, I meant to ask you,
我们能进去找我一位朋友吗？ can we go and find a friend of mine?
他叫萨米，我们在一起住过一段时间 Her name is Sammy, we used to live together sometimes.
-谁？ -萨米？ -Who? -Sammy?
以前我们彼此关照 We used to look out for each other.
两天前，她用别人手机给我发短信 She texted me two days ago from someone else's phone,
然后就没消息了 and then she just vanished.
我想她遇到麻烦了 I think that she's in trouble.
听我说，我想帮她 Look, I want to go help her.
-不，我不想在这儿 -拜托，妈妈，我只是想帮她 -No, I don't want to stay. -Come on, Mom, I would just like to help her.
反正我们都来了...她15岁，妈妈，她才15岁 We're already here-- She's 15, Mom, she's 15.
这不是你的小阴谋吧 This isn't one of your schemes.
你马上就可以打针了 You are so close to getting that shot.
妈妈，看着我 Mom, look at me.
我现在很好 I'm doing good.
我只想积攒动力 I just want to build momentum.
我想要开始帮助他人 I want to start helping people, to just start making up
想要开始弥补我带给所有人的痛苦 for all the shit that I have put everybody through.
仅此而已 That's all.
拜托了，我求求你。给我15分钟 Please. I am begging you. Just give me 15 minutes.
行，5分钟，我知道她住在哪儿 Fine, five minutes. I know where she lives.
妈妈，或许她看到我现在这么好，也能帮到她呢 Mom, maybe if she sees me doing good, it will help her get help.
求你了 Please.
-五分钟 -好，五分钟 -Five minutes. -Okay, five minutes.
我们走 Let's go.
-就五分钟 -好 -Five minutes. -Okay?
她发短信给你，她怎么有你的号码呢？ She texted you. How did she even get your phone number?
-你是来购物吗？ -什么？ -You're shopping? -Excuse me?
你来买东西？想要补货？ Are you buying? You looking for a fix?
你看我像吗？ Do I look like I'm shopping?
妈的，威尔太太 Oh, shit. Mrs. Wheeler.
是我，埃里克。莫莉的前男友 It's me, Eric. Molly's old boyfriend.
-天啊，埃里克 -你在这里干吗？ -Jesus, Eric. -What are you doing here?
莫莉在里面 Molly's in there.
她来找一位朋友 She's just looking for a friend.
她戒了，所以离她远一点 She's clean, so stay away from her.
哦.. Oh...
恐怕她也不想见我 Oh, I don't think that she wants to see me.
从她怀孕我们就没见过了 I haven't seen her since she was pregnant.
她在诊所警告过我 She warned me at the clinic.
靠 Oh, shit.
她没告诉过你 She didn't tell you.
当然有 Of course she did.
你会不会有零钱刚好可以借给我？ You wouldn't happen to have a couple of dollars that I could borrow.
威乐太太，我肚子饿 Mrs. Wheeler, I'm hungry.
莫莉，快点 Molly, come on!
-嘿 -上车 -Hey. -Get in the car.
他们说她住在街那边 They said that she's staying down the street.
我去看一眼，很快 I'm just gonna go and check real quick.
不行，你疯了吗？ No way. Are you crazy?
到底有没有萨米这个人？ Does Sammy even exist?
去你妈的 Fuck you!
给我上车 Get in the goddamn car!
快上车 Just get in the car!
莫莉，拜托 Molly! Please!
我可不管你了 I'll leave you!
你觉得我她妈在乎吗？ You think I fucking give a shit?
看我敢不敢 Watch me!
你这个不知好歹的贱人 You fucking ungrateful bitch!
莫莉，你她妈的... Moly, what the fuck are you--
莫莉，我受够你她妈的了... Molly, I am so done with your fucking--
-你在这儿干什么？ -这就是萨米 -What are you doing here? -This is Sammy.
我在想办法让她的体温降下来 I'm just trying to get her temperature down.
-你手里拿的什么？ -它现在出现戒断反应了 -What you got in your hand? -She's dope sick with drugs.
-马上跟我走 -你她妈冷静 -Come with me right now. -Calm the fuck down.
-住手 -你她妈的 -Stop it! -What the fuck!
-你在这儿干什么？ -你是谁？ -What are you doing here? -Who are you?
你以为我怕你吗 Do you think I'm scared of you?
不不不 No! No, no!
你惹麻烦了！你惹大麻烦了 You fucked up! You got me fucked up now.
-格雷格，那是我妈妈。住手 -什么 -Greg, that's my mom. Stop! -What? What?
你们都是魔鬼，听到没有？ You people are monsters, you hear me?
-你们就该死，我要亲手杀了你 -你有病啊？ -You deserve to die. I'll kill you myself! -What is wrong with you?
你差点害死咱俩 You almost got both of us killed.
天呐，你真是疯了，你让我感到害怕 Jesus! You are unhinged! You are scaring me!
现在你明白我的心情了 Now know what it's like.
我只想帮萨米 I was just trying to help Sammy.
我今天见到埃里克了 I saw Eric today.
谁 Who?
偷吉他的埃里克，你男朋友 Guitar Eric, your boyfriend.
-在哪儿？ -就在那破房子外面 -Where? -Outside that flop house.
她走过来，想要卖毒品给我 He came over to the car trying to sell me some drugs.
妈妈，我对天发誓，我不知道他在那儿 Mom, I swear to God, I did not know that he was there.
如果你认为我是想骗你，但我没有 If you think that I was trying to scheme you, I wasn't.
他... He...
他说起你怀孕的事 He said something about you being pregnant.
我不是想批判你 I'm not judging you.
埃里克说你...你不想跟他在一起 Eric said you... you didn't want him to be with you.
我很抱歉，你要一个人面对 I'm just sorry that you had to go through that alone.
流产是很痛苦的 An abortion is hard enough as it is.
我没有流产，我生下来了 I didn't have an abortion, I carried it to term.
七个月来 Spent seven months puking every morning
每天早上都因为晨吐和戒断而呕吐 from morning sickness and withdrawals
还一直睡在沙发上 and staying on couches.
那是我做过最艰难的事 That was hardest thing I've ever done.
不过是个漂亮宝宝 Beautiful baby though.
一个男孩 A boy.
他在哪儿 Where is he?
新泽西，一对40几岁的夫妇家 In New Jersey, with a family in their forties.
没孩子，家里有船的有钱人 No kids, rich enough to have a boat.
反正机构是这么跟我说的 That's what the agency told me.
这是...什么时候的事 When-- When did this happen?
为什么不打给我 Why didn't you call me?
因为我不想再多一件让我糟心的事 Because I didn't want another thing to feel shitty about.
他叫什么？ What's his name?
我不知道 I don't know.
我能见见他吗？你可以去看孩子吗？ Can I meet him? Do you get visits?
不行，是我要求的保密收养 No. It's a closed adoption just like I wanted.
那我能给他们写封信吗 Well, can I write them a letter?
不能 No!
莫莉，他是我的外孙 Molly, that's my grandson.
喂，你好 Yeah, hello.
对，我是莫莉 Yeah, this is Molly.
我们定的明天上午9点见奥迪斯先生打针 We already scheduled the shot with Dr. Ortiz for 9:00 a.m. tomorrow.
不不不，我不能等 No, no, no, I can't wait.
不行 No!
麻烦你跟奥迪斯医生说说好吗 Can you, can you please just talk to Dr. Ortiz?
因为他知道这很紧急 Because he knows that this is urgent.
拜托了 Please.
天呐，你认真的吗 Oh, my God! Are you serious?
别动 Stop!
好 Okay.
好，我们周一见 Yeah, we'll see you on Monday.
好吧，这是怎么回事？ Okay. So what was that?
还要等三天 Three more days.
还要三天，他们在等... Three more days that they're waiting
-我的保险文件通过 -狗屁 -for my insurance papers to go through. -That's bullshit.
我恐怕撑不住了 I don't think I can make it.
他们知道我们度过一天 Do you have any fucking idea how hard it is for us
有他妈多么难吗？ to get through one goddamn day?
三天简直是死刑 Three days is a death sentence.
-没有尽头 -天呐，你在火上浇油 -It's an eternity. -Jesus, you're not helping.
保险公司，地球都他妈围着他们转 Insurance companies. They run the fucking world.
我怎么没听到你手机响呢 Why didn't I hear your phone ring?
-什么？ -你的手机呢？ -What? -Your phone?
我怎么听不到响 Why didn't I hear it ring?
因为调成震动了 Because it was on vibrate.
办公室怎么还没下班？ Why is the office still open?
都过6点了 It's after six o'clock.
-我不知道 -我要看看你的手机 -I don't know. -I want to see your phone.
-把你的手机给我 -你他妈疯了吗？ -Give me your phone. -Are you fucking crazy?
-我疯了？ -对 -Am I crazy? -Yes.
你伤了脚踝之后打过多少假电话？ How many fake phone calls have you made since you hurt your knee?
还是你根本就没有伤到脚踝？ Or did you ever even hurt your knee?
-肯定从一开始就是谎言 -你认真的吗？ -Must've been lies from the very beginning. -You serious?
你现在要这么对我？ Are you doing this to me right now?
-天哪 -真是没完了 -Oh, my God. -Just never ends.
你真会刺激我 No! You're such a trigger!
可就是没完没了 But it just goes on and on.
我很抱歉... I am so sorry
我的毒瘾... that my drug addiction
会让你这么痛苦 is so incredibly difficult on you.
听着，我要是留在这，我肯定撑不到周一的 Look, I, I am not going to make it to Monday if I stay here.
我要去肖恩那里，我去跟肖恩住 I'm gonna go to Sean's, I'm gonna go stay with Sean.
他，他说可以来接我 He--he said that he can pick me up.
没事的，我可以见到孩子们 It will be good. I can see the kids.
-我可以和孩子们在一起 -什么肖恩？ I could be with the kids-- -What Sean?
就那个想要你帮他搞药的肖恩？ The same Sean who wanted you to score for him?
听到自己在说什么吗？ Do you hear yourself?
你他妈知道自己在说什么吗？ I mean, do you fucking hear yourself?
我知道吗？ Do you?
如果我说外面出太阳，你会出去看吗？ If I say it's sunny outside, are you gonna go and check?
我可能必须去 I might have to.
那或许等我死了 Well, then, maybe when I'm dead,
你可以告诉自己，“嗯，她是假装的” you can tell yourself, "Hmm, she's just pretending."
好吧 All right.
你想怎么做随你 Do what you're gonna do.
那... So, uh...
我们周一上午8点见 I'll see you Monday at 8:00.
好 Yes.
我爱你 I love you.
你还好吗 You all right?
嗯 Yeah.
你好吗 You okay?
嗯 Yeah.
你不能每次都跟她一起掉进去，黛比 You can't go down the hole with her every time, Deb.
你要先考虑自己 You got to put yourself first.
知道吗？有时... You know, sometimes it just...
有时我觉得你在可怜我 Sometimes, I feel that you're patronizing me.
-真的吗？ -嗯 -Really? -Yeah.
说些安慰的话哄我 Just feeding me pat little phrases.
-这会让你开心吗？ -好吧 -Does that make you happy? -Okay.
别她妈又走开 Oh, don't fucking walk away.
说句话啊 Well, say something.
你真是个废物 You're such a wimp.
怎么了？ What?
什么啊克里斯？说句话啊 What, Chris? Say something.
大圣人克里斯 Saint fucking Chris.
你想吵架是吗？ You wanna have a fight, is that it?
哈? Huh?
你想...你想咱俩撕破脸，大吵一架 You want-- You want us to have a knockdown, drag out fight
让你可以出出气，是吧？ so you can blow off some fucking steam?
我他妈不是你的出气筒，黛比 I'm not your fucking punching bag, Deb!
我他妈不是你的出气筒 I'm not your fucking punching bag!
天啊 Oh, God!
-抱歉 -别 -I'm sorry. -Stop.
-对不起 -别道歉了，真烦人 -I'm sorry. -Just stop apologizing, it's annoying.
我怎么会这样的？ How did I get here?
我做了什么？ What did I do?
没什么 Nothing.
你... You...
你什么都没做 have done nothing.
或许她的大脑就是这样的 You know, maybe it's just the way her brain is wired.
明白吗？ You know?
或许她那年在医院吃的药 Maybe she'd taken the pills the year before,
一年后根本就不会上瘾 or a year after, she wouldn't have gotten hooked.
但她需要嗨，因为她太敏感，但又不够敏感， But she needed to be high because she was too sensitive, but not...
或者你要是继续留在那段失败的婚姻里 sensitive enough or if you'd stayed in your bad marriage,
她的毒瘾会比现在更可怕 she would have been an even bigger addict.
又或者她三岁时，你给她买那双蓝色鞋子 Or if you bought her those blue shoes that time
而不是红色 when she was three, instead of the red.
就都不会发生 It's none of that.
因为或许在她爸爸的精子碰到你的卵子时 Because maybe, the moment her father's sperm reached your egg,
她已经是个瘾君子了，等待着发作 she was already an addict, waiting to happen.
好了 Okay.
谢谢 Thank you.
...无法结束 ...never ends.
听到警报，我还会恐慌发作 I still get panic attacks when there's a siren.
哪怕是电视里的警报 Even one on TV.
每当电话响，我就会心跳骤停 Every time the phone rings, my heart stops.
以前的铃声会让我漏尿，真的 My old ring tone makes me pee, literally.
我去药房，旁边有个女人 I was at the pharmacy and the lady next to me,
就用的这个铃声，我听到差点儿尿裤子 had it on her phone, I nearly wet myself when I heard it.
新的心理医生诊断我患有慢性焦虑 This new shrink diagnosed me with chronic anxiety.
周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗 莫莉 新的心理医生诊断我患有慢性焦虑 This new shrink diagnosed me with chronic anxiety.
莫莉 周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗
莫莉
他想给我开安眠药 He wants to give me something to help me sleep. 周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗 莫莉
他想给我开安眠药 He wants to give me something to help me sleep.
你没事吧 周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗 莫莉 他想给我开安眠药 He wants to give me something to help me sleep.
莫莉 周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗 你没事吧
周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗 莫莉
我说我家里不能有药 I said I can't keep pills at the house. 你没事吧 周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗 莫莉
我说我家里不能有药 I said I can't keep pills at the house.
莫莉 周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗 你没事吧
周二,2019.10.03 嘿，你好吗 能打给我吗 莫莉
所以就放在公司里 So I keep them at work.
每晚带一颗回家 Take one pill home every evening.
放手交给上帝... Let go and let God...
难关会过去的 This too shall pass.
日复一日 Time takes time.
相信这些陈词滥调... It helps me...
对我有益。 to believe in these platitudes.
如果我不对自己重复这些话 I'd be even more resentful and angry
我会更加愤慨和愤怒 if I didn't repeat this stuff to myself.
我会为 I'd be furious...
所有死去的梦想而愤怒 for all, all the dead dreams.
提示音后，请留言 At the tone, please record your message.
嘿，希望你和孩子们住得开心 Hey, I hope you're having fun with the kids.
我打过来是想跟你确定明天的事 I'm just checking in with with you about tomorrow.
我很高兴你这样做 Um, I'm really happy you're doing this.
我知道这个星期很难熬 I know it's not been an easy week,
我也真的很烦人 and I can be a real hard-ass.
只是... It's just that...
有一天，我希望你能活得更轻松，明白吗？ someday, I want things to be easier for you, you know?
你值得过好日子 You deserve good things.
好了。那拜拜，给我回电话 All right. So, um, bye, call me back.
我爱你 I love you.
周二,2019.10.03 叫莫莉回电话给我 莫莉在你那吗 肖恩
戴尔，你他吗接电话啊 Dale, pick up the fucking phone.
嘿，我是戴尔，留不留言随你 Hey, this is Dale. Leave a message... or don't.
他妈的 -[BEEP] -Damn it!
搞什么啊 -What the fuck?
-你知道现在几点吗 -他在吗 -Do you know what time it is? -Is he here?
戴尔 Dale.
操 Fuck.
你有给莫莉打电话吗 Have you heard from Molly?
没有，怎么了 No. Why?
怎么了? Why?
天啊，你都不肯打个电话给她吗 Oh, Jesus Christ. Did you even bother to call her?
为什么不打啊？ Why the hell not?
这是你女儿的命啊 This is your daughter's life.
因为我管不了，黛比 Because I can't control it, Deb.
得了吧，戴尔 Oh, come on, Dale.
还有一天，她就可以去打针，或许真能救她的命 She's one day away from getting a shot that might actually save her life.
天知道她在哪儿，而你毫不关心 And God knows where she is and you don't give a shit.
我关心 I give a shit.
我当然关心，没有一天我不会想起她 I give a shit. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about her.
可我无法去改变 But it's not up to me to change any of that.
天知道过去我一次又一次糊弄自己 And God knows I've fooled myself time and time again before.
你也一样 And so did you.
-我受够了 -天啊。真是巧了 -I'm done. -Oh, God. That's so convenient.
你不是说过，她戒掉之前，你不会让她回家吗 I thought you said that you weren't gonna let her back in until she was clean.
-她戒了一个礼拜了 -噢 -She's been clean a week. -Oh.
天啊。行，等她真的戒了，你再跟我说 Oh, boy. Well, when it's real, you let me know.
所以你是要我们自己扛了？ So you want us to do all the work?
你他妈扛个什么，黛比 You're not doing the fucking work, Deb.
是她自己。如果她真的有这么做 She's doing it. If in fact, she's even doing it.
所以少往自己脸上贴金了 So don't fucking flatter yourself here.
顺便告诉你，你这么做并不会让我内疚 By the way, you're not going to make me feel guilty about this either,
所以不如滚吧 so why don't you kiss my ass?
知道吗？如果当初她受伤你有多关心一下 You know what? We wouldn't even be standing here
我们今天也不用站在这儿废话 if you paid more attention to her when she got that injury.
你想说这都是我的错？ You wanna say this is my fault?
你是要给我来这套吗？ Is that the game you want to play?
来吧，是你想要寻求新自我，先丢下了我们的 Let's. You walked out on us because you wanted to find the new you.
她想要妈妈，她想要妈妈的关心 She wanted her mom back, she wanted her mom's attention,
现在她得到了，不是吗？ and that's exactly what she friggin' got, didn't she?
操你妈，戴尔 Fuck, you, Dale!
这些话留到她葬礼说吧 Save the speeches for her funeral.
噢，你在给她准备后事了？ Oh, you're planning her funeral now, huh?
你可真会找事，黛比 You have a flair for drama there, don't you, Deb?
哇哦，哇哦，哇哦... Whoa, whoa, whoa...
有消息吗？ Any news?
哔，门已开... -[BEEP] -Door...
-你他妈去哪了？ -嘿 -Where the hell have you been? -Hey!
搞什么啊？ What the fuck?
我一直给你打电话 I've been trying to call you.
手机没电了 My phone died.
你怎么还没准备好？ Why aren't you ready?
我们得45分钟内到那儿 We have to be there in, like, 45 minutes.
好 All right.
来吧 Come on.
好，我马上好了 Okay, I'm almost there.
孩子们好吗？ How are the kids?
都很好 They're good.
是啊，他们... Yeah, they, um...
他们问你好 They say hi.
怎么了？ What?
额... Um...
我需要你的尿 I need your pee.
什么？ What?
我说需要你的尿，放在塑料容器里 I said I need your pee, like, in a plastic container.
我需要你的尿 I need your pee, now.
非要我说出来吗？ Do I have to spell it out for you?
我没戒干净 I'm not clean.
那天我们去找萨米时，我... The other day when when we went looking for Sammy, I, um...
我碰到一个毒贩 I met up with a dealer.
你哪来的钱 With what money?
哦 Oh.
你这个小偷 You fucking thief.
那预约呢？ And the appointment?
我造假了 I faked it.
对不起 I'm sorry.
那这个周末，去看孩子呢？ And the weekend, visiting the kids?
我有去看他们 No, I saw them.
真的，我还带他们去看电影了，但之后... I did. I even took them to the movies, but then, um...
肖恩和我叫了保姆过来，我们出去了... Then Sean and I got a sitter and we went out, uh...
我就吸了 I got high.
很抱歉，我太差劲了 I'm sorry I suck.
我是个坏人 I'm a terrible person.
我他妈就是个白痴 I am a fucking moron.
不不，现在我不是来了 No, no, because I'm here now.
你看，我本可以回肖恩那里住 Look, I could have stayed back at Sean's,
也可以回去找艾瑞克，或是干脆消失 or met back up with Eric or just disappeared.
但...但是我... But... But I didn't...
我不想再这样了，好吗？ I don't want to do this anymore, okay?
求你了，我只想打针 Please. I just want to get the shot.
-你不能，茉莉。没戏了 -不，我可以的 -Well, you can't, Molly. It's over. -Yes, I can.
你的血液里有毒品 You have drugs in your system.
或许你可以再等一个礼拜 Maybe you could wait for another week.
我没法再撑一个礼拜了 I am not gonna make it another week,
咱俩都清楚 and you and I both know that.
妈妈，求你了 Mom, please.
拜托，就给我你的尿吧 Please, just give me your pee.
如果你给我尿，我就可以通过尿检 If you give me your pee, I can pass the drug test.
我可以打针了 I can get the shot.
那样我一个月就都不会吸了 And that means that I can't get high for an entire month.
不，你...你体内有毒品 No, you, you have drugs in your system.
-不行 -妈妈，求你了 -No. -Mom, please.
拜托，我在求你帮我戒毒啊 Please, I am begging you for help to get clean.
听我说，或许这就是机会，好吗？ Look, this could be it, okay?
就像你昨晚留言里说的 It's like what you said on the message last night
这是新生活的开始 about this being the start of something new.
就是啊 It is.
你不是手机没电了 I thought your phone was dead.
操 Fuck.
噢 Oh.
谢谢 Thank you.
天啊 Oh, my God.
万一他们检查尿的温度呢？ What if they check the temperature of the pee?
-什么？ -尿都凉了 -What? -The pee was barely lukewarm.
万一他们检查... What if they check...
我怎么这么紧张？ Why am I freaking out?
别这样 -Well, don't.
好 Okay.
情况都很不错 Everything here looks good.
准备好了吗？ Ready to go?
是的 Yeah.
-我出去 -别 -Uh, I'll step out. -No.
嗯嗯 Mm-mm.
好 All right.
好了 All set.
怎么了 What?
你感觉如何？ How are you feeling?
挺好的 Fine. Yeah.
好 All right.
今天下班前你会接到跟进电话，了解你的情况 You'll get a follow up call at the end of the day to see how you're doing.
我们一个月后见。祝贺你 I'll see you in a month. Congratulations.
谢谢 Thank you.
天啊 Oh, my God.
我没事 I'm okay.
真的，我... I am. I, um...
我感觉很好 I feel good.
-是吗 -嗯 -Yeah? -Yeah.
上帝啊 Oh, my God.
是啊 Yeah.
上帝啊，你看起来很好 Oh, my God. You look good.
-嗯 -真不敢相信 -Yeah. -I can't believe it.
接下来30天都不需要再担心这个噩梦了 Thirty days without having to worry about this nightmare.
是啊 Yeah.
不敢相信我真的做到了 Can't believe I went through with it.
真勇敢 Pretty damn brave.
天啊 Oh, my God.
我就知道你的撒谎天赋，会派上用场 I always knew your talent for lying would, you know, come in handy.
我们做到了 We fucking pulled it off.
肚子饿吗？ You hungry?
要不要去吃早餐？ Wanna grab some breakfast?
什么 What?
天啊！上车，上车。快 Oh, my God! Get in the car. Get in the car. Quick.
-上帝啊 -来。快快，快上来。上车 -Oh, my God! -Here. Quick, quick. Get in. Get in.
你能关门吗？快坐好 -Can you close the door? Get in.
-让我... -你他妈别碰我。操 -Let me just get... -Don't fucking touch me. Fuck!
天啊 Oh, my God.
快他妈开车 Oh, just fucking drive.
天啊，快开 God. Just drive!
哦 Oh!
不行了，不行了... I can't. I can't...
上帝啊，不行了，不行了 Oh, my God. I can't. I can't...
我知，我知，我知... I know, I know, I know...
我们为什么要这么做 Why did we do this?
我们他妈的是为什么啊？ Oh, why the fuck did we do this?
来人帮帮我们啊 Can we have some help out here, please?
有人吗？我需要帮助 Anyone? I need some help.
快来人帮帮我们 -Please, somebody help us.
她出现急性戒断反应 She's in acute withdrawal.
-海洛因？ -对，海洛因 -Heroin? -Yes, heroin.
让我们回里面去，我从没见过她这样 Just get us back there. I've never seen her like this.
我们可以绑住她。给她输液 We can restrain her. We can give her fluids.
但她必须要坚持下去 But she's gonna have to go through it.
她刚打了纳曲酮 She just had the Naltrexone shot.
如果她体内还有毒品，就不应该打针 She's not supposed to get that if she has drugs in her system.
可不是嘛，大侦探 No shit, Sherlock.
医生，拜托了，能帮忙吗？她出现急性戒断反应了 Doctor, please, can you help? She's in acute withdrawal.
小姐，麻烦你签字 Miss, can you sign this form?
可是，女士，她必须自己签字 -But, ma'am, she has to sign herself.
-她没法签啊 -好 -She can't sign it. -Fine!
好，等我们叫你 -Okay, we'll call you.
真的吗？ Seriously?
没事的。好。没事的 -It's okay. Okay. It's okay.
妈妈，拜托，快帮帮我 Oh. Oh, Mom, please, make it stop.
能不能来人帮帮我们啊？ Can we have some fucking help here?
-我受不了 -我知道，我知道 -Make it stop. -I know, I know.
-给 -谢谢 -Here. -Thank you.
我求你了 I'm begging you.
-不 -我很抱歉，妈妈 -No. -I'm so sorry, Mom.
拜托，我做不到 Please, I can't do this.
不，你可以的 -Yes, you can.
你看得开心吗？ Are you enjoying this?
你们都他妈什么人啊？ I don't fucking believe you people.
她一直抽搐呕吐，都不知道有多久了， She's been convulsing and puking for, I don't know how long.
要怎样才会有医生来啊？ What does it take to get seen?
这里叫候诊室是有原因的 It is called a waiting room for a reason.
-有时你就得等 -这里都没有别人 -Sometimes you wait. -There's no one else here.
我们是根据病人的病情和需求... We take people based on the complaint
来安排救治的 and some thing's demand more immediate attention.
感谢你的同情 Thank you for your compassion.
你想知道她为什么会吸毒吗？ Do you want to know why she's an addict?
就是因为你们 It's because of you people.
所以你别想坐在这... So don't you sit there
-还他妈的跟我说... -嘿，哇哦... -and fucking tell me... -Hey, whoa! Whoa!
都还好吗？ Is everything okay?
-医生，拜托了 -莫利·威尔. -Doctor, please. -Molly Wheeler.
好...亲爱的 Oh... Okay, sweetie.
-医生来了 -我来吧 -The doctor's here. -I got it.
-他会好好照顾你的，好吗？ -谢谢 -He's gonna take good care of you, all right? -Thank you.
我们会好好照顾你的 We're gonna take real good care of you.
妈 Ma.
-妈 -我在，我在呢，亲爱的 -Ma. -I'm here. I'm here, sweetie.
妈妈，别走 Mom, don't leave.
四 个 月 后
-嘿 -嘿 -Hey. -Hey.
孩子们怎么样？ How are the kids?
很好 They're good.
科瑞感冒还没好 You know, Cory's still got that cold.
特洛伊从来不感冒 Chloe never got it.
我不明白，那孩子成天吃垃圾食品 I don't get it. That kid lives off of junk food.
却从来不生病 And never gets sick.
孩子们都是金刚不坏之身 Kids are indestructible.
嘿，那... Hey, so, um...
肖恩想要我周五过去看孩子们 Sean wants me to come back again on Friday and watch the kids.
我觉得这挺好的，他更信任我了 I think it's good, you know, him trusting me more.
嗯哼 Mm-hm.
可是周五你不是要打针吗？ Say, isn't Friday when you need to get your shot?
是啊，不过没什么大不了的 Yes, but it's no big deal.
他们说可以下周一给我打 They said they can see me first thing next week.
-你确定？ -嗯 -Are you sure? -Mm-hm.
-你给他们打电话了？ -是的 -You called them? -Yes.
是周一3点 Yeah. Monday, three o'clock.
怎么了？ What?
额... Uh...
没事 Nothing.
什么事都没有 Not a thing.
你气色很不错 You look wonderful.
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