[All About My Siblings]
[Episode 4] [Don't Give Up]
Subtitles by DramaFever
[Marriage Registration]
- [Marriage] - [Congratulations]
[Asa-nii and Azusa-san] [Congrats on your marriage]
[Not hired]
[Hiryuden]
[Kikkawa Mizu--]
[One month later]
It needs no reason.
Dreams are the pure energy for people. It's the vital energy you need to live through tomorrow.
It's a ray of hope that everyone can see.
And you are trying to take it away from me?
You won't get anything out of running a theater group. It's an extension of your hobby.
Our family budget is tight.
No one will punish you for doing us a favor.
Just because you can't find a job, it's wrong to make me give up my dream
and get a full-time job.
Exactly. Why can't you congratulate Haru for his theater group's first performance?
Exactly. Something's wrong with you since you've been looking for a job for a month and haven't found one yet.
Exactly. Why don't you cry and beg to the company that fired you?
- You are good at crying, right? - Not 'exactly.'
I would rather die on the street than bow my head to that dumb owner.
Haru.
Are you really prepared for that?
A dream is more cruel than you think.
Indeed everyone can have a dream. But only a few can realize the dream.
No problem. If one doesn't work he can find another one.
But what I'm saying is that by then that would be too late.
When you are charging money, it's all right.
But what if nothing happens after five or ten years?
You will be ashamed to get a job while only being able to cling to your dream.
- It's an empty feeling. - Why can you only think negatively?
Think more positively.
- You don't understand anything, dummy. - That's enough.
It's a youngster's special privilege to have a dream.
Haru, how much are tickets?
2,000 yen.
Then can I get five?
Are you serious? I won't buy even one.
- That's what I expect from you, big sis'. - Who is cheap and stingy?
I haven't said anything.
I'll buy one too.
You... are paying 2,000 yen? You are making me cry.
You are so cute, little Pochi. Thank you.
- Sato-nii. - Too bad.
I had 2,000 yen until yesterday. I wonder where I spent it.
Here.
Are you giving it to me?
No, it's for Mizuki-san.
Who is Mizuki?
Sato-nii's girlfriend.
If he is still seeing her...
We already broke up. Thank you for the food.
Did you really break up with Mizuki-san?
You are a pest. By the way, how did you know?
Do you remember I went to your apartment to get the money that I lent you back?
About three months before you were arrested.
Ah.
She was a stage actress, right?
We got excited talking about acting while I was waiting for you.
Ouch.
She recommended me this story, Hiryuden.
She said she wanted to perform this story and practiced very hard.
But she decided to quit acting, so she wanted me to perform it instead.
I see.
Hey, can you tell me Mizuki-san's e-mail address?
- Sato-nii, I need to talk to you about something. - Sure, come in.
I deleted her e-mail address.
What? You too?
I see. You fell in love with Kasumi, the girl who opened her eyes to acting, huh?
But anyway, not too many people fall for someone who deceived them.
I simply thought that she was amazing.
Like... the way she found what she wants to do and is going straight toward it.
People who have no dreams can only ride on people who have a dream.
Are you putting me down?
No, I'm not. I was the same.
What?
If you want to confess your love you should do it quick.
Now you are in the good position as the brother of Haru who helped her find what she wants to do.
If you stick around her like a shark-sucker, you will be able to win her heart.
I feel like that's taking advantage of her weakness.
It doesn't matter how it starts.
It's easy to start having a dream or a relationship.
The hard part is to continue.
Ouch.
- Where are we? - The field.
- Help me since I gave you advice. - Huh?
Good morning.
My younger brother, Tadashi.
Oh, hi.
Could it be that you are Mizuki-san?
Mizuki?
Dummy, put those vegetables on the back of the truck.
Hey, it's dangerous.
Mizuki-san. Work hard.
Excuse me.
Saito has disappeared?
We found this in Saito's locker this morning.
[I'm sorry, everyone. I promise I will pay you back the money someday. Saito.]
It's 300,000 yen.
How are we going to pay for the rest of the stage rental fee?
I can't reach his cell phone.
He moved out of his apartment.
I called his part-time job but they said he changed his job half a year ago.
He hasn't gone home to Takushima either.
But he is still in college, right? Then--
Actually he quit school in April. [Saito Masanobu]
I didn't even have money to pay the tuition.
Should we cancel the show?
We reserved it a year ago.
And finally... We finally reached this point.
We already paid them 80 percent of it.
Let's find him.
Let's find Saito-san. I'm sure he has a reason.
You are right.
Let's split up and find Saito.
The parents of Nakagawa Madoka-chan, who is being transferred to another hospital this week
requested that you and I refrain from saying good bye to her.
Probably it's because we didn't listen to her father's request.
Are we supposed to stop treating Madoka-chan?
How could we do that?
Some people can only live by bearing a grudge on others.
Thank you for your hard work.
I heard about Nakagawa Madoka-chan's case.
You shouldn't feel bad. I will say good bye to her with the other nurses.
Yes.
By the way, I think Doctor Shinjo is having an affair.
- You shouldn't touch other people's stuff. - It's okay. It's okay.
I found it.
When I looked, he hid it quickly.
I'm pretty positive.
Kikkawa Mizuki.
Mizuki?
All right.
- What are they? - Haru's photos.
He is so stupid. A kid named Saito took the group's money and ran away.
300,000 yen. 300,000 yen.
I need your help too.
We will find a clue from these.
There are hints of his whereabouts in the photos.
You watch too many two-hour suspense TV shows.
I can't help but watching them since I'm not working. The reruns.
Katahira Nagisa's Red Hearse series is the best.
Saito, Saito, Saito is saiko (the best). Just kidding.
Ah!
Did you find anything?
I don't know which one is Saito.
For now, go apologize to Yamamura Momiji first.
I'm home.
What are you doing?
Looking for Saito, though we don't know what he looks like.
Sato-nii.
Hmm?
Who is Kikkawa Mizuki?
I knew it.
I saw the picture at Shinjo-san's desk.
Why are you bringing Shinjo-san's name up?
- Is she the reason you treat him like an enemy? - No comment.
If you want to know, ask him. Although you don't have the courage to.
- What does it mean? - It literally means just that.
You are scared of Shinjo.
You are always secretly worried when he will break up with you.
That's why you can't step into his territory.
Well, to Shinjo, you are just convenient.
What is it?
- What do you know, Sato-nii? - Wait a minute.
What are you talking about?
What does that mean by 'you treat Shinjo-san as an enemy?'
Who is Kikkawa Mizuki?
Mizuki... Mizuki died because of Shinjo.
If you want to marry a rich man you should go for another doctor.
I wrote a composition today. It's about you, papa.
I read it like this in front of everyone. Do you want me to show it to you?
Sure.
Can you wait?
It's okay. Just listen, okay?
Father, thank you for always working very hard.
My dream is to become a doctor at a hospital.
I need to talk to you.
Although I can't see my father often
the time I can see him is my treasure.
- So I'm rooting for you. Suzu. - Thank you.
You did great.
I got work to do, so I have to go.
- See you soon. - Good night.
I'm sorry to come without telling you first.
I want you to tell me about Kikkawa Mizuki.
Please.
Kikkawa Mizuki was Satoshi's lover.
It was before Satoshi was arrested. So it was probably two or three years ago.
At that time Satoshi used to come to my place often.
I went to see her performance too.
He changed since he met her.
He found a job and he was positive about getting married.
But she was suffering from an illness.
This one.
Dilated cardiomyopathy.
When I examined her, she already had a heart failure.
I told Satoshi so.
But there was actually a way to treat her.
What do you mean?
If she wanted to be cured permanently she needed a heart transplant.
If the transplantation is performed in Japan, there are hardly any donors.
But it is possible overseas.
But I didn't tell him that.
You need a lot of money to have an operation overseas. It costs at least 30 million yen.
30 million yen?
I think Satoshi heard that from another doctor.
He defrauded 30 million yen.
But right after that, she passed away.
If I told him about the operation, she could have survived.
That's what he thinks.
Why didn't you tell him?
I wonder.
I forgot.
[Incoming call from Home]
You are always here. Are you doing okay at cram school?
Oh, yeah. I've been studying at home.
- Stop it. Stop it. - Stop messing with me.
All you talk about is 'dream, dream, dream' and we end up with no money.
You became too stoic and turned crazy.
You can't see the reality.
- Are you complaining about my way of doing? - That's right.
We can't keep up with your ideal anymore.
People say they will realize their dreams but most of them end up being ordinary workers.
Not only that, because they start late, they will be pushed around by the people who got the job first.
B-but we kept going because we wanted to express something, right?
I got suffocated by your passion.
Saito too...
Saito ran away because he gave up on you.
Is being blamed a part of our job?
This is the job I wanted... so why do I have to suffer so much?
What? Really?
I see. Yes. Yes. Thank you.
Yes. Yes. Good bye.
- Great. Great. Great. - You found a job?
No.
I guessed something that even the Red Hearse wouldn't be able to figure out.
I will start the Black Hearse series.
- Hey you. Hey you. - Black Hearse is a regular hearse.
Right.
I'm going.
To where?
Be careful going home, okay? You can spend the night here too.
What about finding a job?
Geez.
It's all right.
I will cancel the performance.
Without Sawada and the others we can't have the play.
I never imagined it would end like this.
When I read this book for the first time, I got shivers.
The emotions that were dormant burst out at once.
I'm here.
I'm alive.
Now is the time to stand up.
I wanted to convey a cry of my boiling soul to as many people as possible.
I thought they were all feeling the same.
I was the same.
I had the same feelings that you had.
This isn't our last chance.
Let's try again.
Right.
Welcome home.
We are home.
Huh? Where is Asa-nii?
He hasn't come home since yesterday.
How about the money? Did you find it?
No. I decided to cancel the performance.
You did?
Yeah. Besides the money problem there are some other issues.
I see.
It's unfortunate.
Even when you are doing what you want to do sometimes things don't go the way you want.
But I think it was better than doing a job halfway.
I'm sure Ka... sumi... will be better too.
You just tried really hard to say Kasumi's name, didn't you?
- No, I said it naturally. - You said it naturally, right?
- If you want to say something, just say it. - Huh?
Haru told me.
This is the play that Mizuki-san dreamed of performing.
You wanted it to be successful, didn't you?
Why are you biting my head off?
- You're the one mixing yourself up with Haru. - No, I'm not.
Even when you are doing what you want to do sometimes things don't go the way you want.
Isn't that how you feel right now?
- It isn't. - What is wrong with you two?
Well, it didn't work this time but I will rebuild the group and use this experience for the next.
There is no next time.
Asa-nii. Where have you been?
If it doesn't work this time it doesn't work next time either.
This happened because you aren't prepared.
If you got a problem, say it.
It's not only because the money is gone.
Many actors have issues with what I do and they quit.
The stage set was also destroyed. It can't be helped.
Is that the reason why you cancelled the play?
That's right. Isn't it enough?
Do it.
Huh?
Just do it.
I won't do it. There is no way that I'll do it.
Then get out of this house.
What are you saying?
Ouch. Hey, what is it?
It hurts. It hurts.
What is it? It hurts.
Let go of me.
What are you doing? It's too early in the morning.
If you are frustrated show me how much you are prepared.
Huh?
It's a dream that you want to pursue even though you were held back, right?
Then show me your passion.
Or what?
You can't even beat one person in front of you?
If so, how can you bring a group of people together?
Damn you.
What's wrong? Come on.
Is that all you've got?
Is that how little you are prepared?
I'm not doing it half-heartedly.
If we continue, the quality of the play will be--
It doesn't matter.
You are just running away.
Don't blame the people around you because you can't move forward.
You don't even try hard.
Stop acting like a lead in a tragic play.
Before you make excuses, fight with me even if you have to drink the mud water.
Fight back even though you look pathetic.
Although you struggle and suffer, get laughed at and humiliated...
If you can't say 'this is all I've got' you can never succeed at anything.
Shut up.
Your voice is so small.
Shut up.
If you feel frustrated, then do it all the way.
Make me say 'in the end acting is all you've got.'
Stop it. Hey, stop it.
Listen, there are many people who are forced to give up their dreams.
You can pursue your dream, so you have to live up to those people.
Do you know why?
Because they merge themselves with your dream.
Saito, the one who disappeared, works at this place.
Go see him with your own eyes.
What are you doing? I told you to do it properly.
I'm really sorry. I promise I will pay you back.
Tell me why.
I borrowed money from a black market lender and they charged me an insane amount of interest.
My mom went senile and she needs to be cared for.
It costs quite a lot of money.
Not even I could get money from my parents, so I had to sent them money to support them.
I borrowed money to live off temporarily and it accumulated.
Why didn't you tell me?
You don't have money either.
Your older brother came yesterday.
What?
Work clothes are hanging from the bag, right?
He said that's how he found this place.
Suddenly he yelled at me and said, 'Give the money back.'
Then he started crying in sympathy after I told him about my situation.
He is strange.
How is the theater group?
I cancelled the play.
I see. I should have guessed.
Sawada and Horikawa quit too.
They got tired of me.
They said you disappeared because you gave up on me.
Ouch. That's not true.
I'm proud that you and I started the theater group.
After I pay back the money, I will go back to Tokushima.
Although I don't want to give up.
Practicing 'Hiryuden' was fun.
Acting is my dream.
Hey, Haru.
Hmm?
Can you do me a favor?
Can I entrust my dream to you?
I'm sorry.
I'm truly sorry.
What's this?
It's the money that Dad left for you.
Dad did?
I was supposed to give it to you when you turned 20, but I forgot.
I would love to use it for the family but use it any way you want.
Thank you.
[A week later]
Today is the first day of Haru's play.
I will give you a ticket, so come to the hospital's conference room at one o'clock.
Hikari.
Were you called by Hikari too?
[I'm sorry, but could you give this to the person who is supposed to come? Hikari.]
Since she gave us this opportunity, let's talk for a little bit.
There is nothing to talk about.
I have no intention of forgiving you no matter what you say.
I understand.
You sent me something like this. [Kikkawa Mizuki]
So you won't forget about Mizuki, who you killed.
If you had told me that she could have an operation overseas...
I could have prepared 30 million yen sooner.
Then Mizuki didn't have to die.
- Do you know why I didn't tell you? - How would I know?
Because she asked me.
She knew that if I had told you about it, you would do anything to get the money.
That's why she asked me not to tell you about the operation.
What the hell?
- Don't bullshit me. - It's true.
- She cared about you and-- - Then why didn't you tell me earlier?
I didn't think telling you would make you feel better.
I wasn't going to tell you either, but--
Die.
I don't believe whatever you say.
Stop picking those up and say something.
These are the pictures of my patients who died.
Morisawa Ippei.
Manaka Ryoko.
Nagura Mika.
Marukawa Ren.
Hashimoto Kakeru.
Kikkawa Mizuki...
How can I forget them?
How can I forget the lives that I could not save?
When I found out that you were arrested, I truly regretted it.
Even though you committed a crime...
If her life could have been saved I should have told you about the operation.
But I changed my mind right away.
Because that wasn't what she wanted.
What do you know about her?
When she stayed at the hospital for the exams, she said to me...
'Since I can't pursue my dream to perform on Broadway now'
'Satoshi is my dream.'
'His happiness is my dream.'
She said so. Do you know why?
Do you know why she said that?
Because she knew that she couldn't live much longer.
She wanted to laugh louder. She wanted to talk to someone more.
She wanted to live longer.
She entrusted those small but precious hopes to you.
Don't joke with me.
I don't believe it. I would never admit that.
Otherwise what have I done until now?
What have I done?
If you want to bear a grudge against me then do it as much as you want.
But let me tell you one thing.
She wished for your happiness more than anyone in the world.
She wished you to live fully for her.
Do what she wished... for her.
[Hiryuden] Please try to recall.
The flaming 1960's. The stormy 1970's.
The female leader who lead 400,000 student protesters and
the leader of the riot police... It's their painful and mad love story.
Even in the middle of those seasons that were called hell, youngsters never forget
to live with a dream and hope for the world tomorrow.
To love someone. To believe someone.
It's strange, don't you think?
A beautiful woman like yourself would stay with a riot policeman like me
who only graduated from junior high.
I am not moving out.
It was a dream.
The last three days were a dream.
Don't make me dream anymore.
Please leave. Leave.
If I had died, what would you have done?
If...
I had died, what would you have done?
I would have died too.
I thought I could die.
Please let me stay here a little longer.
What the hell? You said you weren't coming.
Oh, it's you.
- Go inside. It started already. - I know. Stop nagging.
This makes me nervous.
- Hey. - Huh?
What's your dream?
Hikari's marriage. Tadashi passing college entrance exams.
- Haru becomes employed. - Not that. I'm asking about your dream.
You don't understand, do you?
Their happiness is my dream.
What is it?
- Saying it without hesitation pisses me off more. - Huh?
Let's go.
- W-w-wait, I'm not ready. - It's okay. You don't need to be ready.
Look at your timbers. If I give it a little push, it breaks.
But have I asked you to make strong timbers with wire wrapped around?
No.
This is the first time I'll say this.
I am going to say this for the first time.
When you went to join in the demonstration...
I couldn't help but be worried about you.
Seeing you standing alone with your back against the sunset at the bus stop in the late afternoon...
I was really happy.
'She came back alive again today.'
I was really happy.
But have I told you not to join the demonstration even once?
- Have I ever told you to stop the revolution? - No.
Then leave this house.
I said leave.
Not even ten days after Katsutoshi was born
you went to join the demonstration looking pale.
Do you how hard it was not being able to say 'don't go?'
Do you understand how I felt when I covered Katsutoshi's mouth calling your name?
Then why did you steal the operation?
Maybe it is not...
Maybe his happiness isn't getting a job.
- But have I ever told you to stop the revolution? - No.
Do you know how much I wanted to tell you that?
Go to your seat.
Don't tell everyone about me.
I got it. Stop nagging.
Do you know how much I wanted to tell you that I would die if I lost you?
Get out.
It's only until November 26th. Please let me stay here until then.
You tricked me.
Did anything get solved?
No way it would.
Really.
You can't.
I understand.
What I did was more than awful.
That's right. What you did was too awful.
You did something to me that any human being isn't allowed to do.
If you still have a grain of human heart left please disappear from my sight.
That's the only sincerity you could show me after deceiving me all this time.
Hold back the riot police.
On Kagoshima University's honor, give Kanbayashi time to say good bye.
On Hiroshima University's honor, give the leader more time.
For the victory in the World Revolutionary War.
Izunuma-san, I am pleased to receive kindness from you and your comrades.
My wife Akiko was my youth.
I, Izunuma, am going.
Many comrades fell before fulfilling their aspirations for me.
Many comrades died without realizing their dreams for me.
I love you. I love you so much.
I don't know why I love you this much.
I couldn't be happier if I could live with you and Katsutoshi.
I honestly think I don't want to lose this happiness.
But I am Kanbayashi Michiko, someone who leads 400,000 student protesters.
I cannot pull myself out of this.
No, I don't want to say good bye.
Stop it. Ippei-chan, listen.
I don't want to say good bye.
Izunuma-san died so he could give us time.
Many people die to make time for us.
I can't pull myself out of this.
What is it?
What are you doing in the middle of this commotion?
How is it?
Does it feel good?
I was... happy.
I was... happy too.
Hey. Take care of yourself.
I pray for your victory in the World Revolutionary War.
Create a great era.
An era where we, who love each other so much, don't have to be separated.
Please create an era like that.
I will raise our child.
I have to teach him how great of a warrior his mother was...
how lovely she was...
how beautiful she was...
how much his father and mother loved each other.
Now... Go.
Ladies and gentlemen... Sato Haru.
Nagahara Kasumi.
In the misty night, he looks at me and...
Was it hard to understand since you started watching it in the middle?
No, it was a great play.
With wings of a crazy dream I can go as high as I want.
Beyond time...
There is a paradise above the silver clouds.
A merry spell makes the moon laugh.
Stars flows by the cracked wind.
Great job.
You worked so hard. It was amazing, Haru.
Thank you. I feel relieved to finish it.
Asa-nii was here, but I think he left.
It's all right.
I bet he would only say negative comments.
He doesn't know anything, but pushes me to do things.
He makes me so mad.
Ow.
What did you do that for?
How did you get the 300,000 yen?
- There was money that Dad left for me. - There wasn't such money.
What?
It's money that Asa-nii borrowed from the owner of his old company.
Is it true?
Although he got fired like that...
Although he said he would never bow his head even if he would die...
He bowed his head many times and begged him for you.
He beat you up in the rain because he wanted you to accomplish it.
That's why he acted like a character from an old Daiei drama.
You are the one who doesn't know anything, national college.
Stop it.
I think Asa-nii is still on the way to the station.
You understood how Asa-nii felt.
I wouldn't have understood if it was me yesterday.
Asa-nii.
Thank you.
I'm prepared now.
I will definitely make you say 'acting is all you've got' to me.
So...
Thank you.
What are you saying? Dummy.
I can't hear you.
Do your best.
Dummy. Don't make me cry.
Your lover doesn't exist anymore...
What? Hey. Hey.
Azusa! Azusa!
Hey. Hey. Azusa! Hey!
Hey, Somebody!
Hey, Azusa!
Please call an ambulance.
Azusa! [To be continued]
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[Episode 5 / As a Parent] Azusa, you are safe now.
It's highly likely that she will have a premature labor.
- Are you saying she shouldn't deliver the baby? - It's one of the options.
Would you go out with me?
It's not about whether he will be happy or not.
It's a parent's job to make the child happy.