默默无闻
嗨 麦可 Hiya, Michael.
你好吗 You OK?
你好 爸 你好 - Hello, daddy. - Hello.
你有很乖吧 You been a good boy? Huh?
嗨 狄德芮 Hiya, Deirdre.
他一直很安静 He's been very quiet.
真的很乖 但不想把茶喝完 As good as gold really, but didn't want to finish his tea.
怎么不把狄德芮给你的吃完 Why didn't you eat what Deirdre gave you, huh?
我在等你 I was waiting for you.
来 坐下 Here. Sit down here.
哦 Mmm?
我知道 Sure. I'll get that.
希望你喜欢我整理的 I hope I put everything where you like it.
或者下次再跟我说 Anyway, you can let me know next time.
社福人员要我下周再来 Social services said they want me to come again next week.
太好了 这太棒了 Cheers. Er... I'm sure it's grand.
就酱 Well, that's me.
再见 麦可 别让你爸太累 Bye, Michael. And don't tire your dad.
麦可 再见 - Michael? - Bye.
谢谢你 狄德芮 Thank you, Deirdre.
不客气 No problem.
我可以去玩吗 Can we play now?
可以啊 Aye.
先吃点葡萄吧 Shall we have some grapes first? Yeah?
好 OK.
五只 Five.
学校就是有人不洗头 Someone at school is not washing their hair.
五只 Five.
下来 下来他父亲哭喊 "'Come down, come down, ' his father cried.
你在我身边会比较安全 "'You'll be much safer by my side.
翻页 Page.
但随后下面的人群大声呼喊 看到一只乌龟到了云端 "But then the crowd below cheered loud to see a turtle touch a cloud.
他们没见过这么勇敢的男孩 "They'd never seen a boy so brave.
他让他父亲开心不已 "He gave his dad a little wave."
翻页 Page.
当他跑到另一头时 "And when he reached the other side...
他父亲很是骄傲 "his father's heart was full of pride.
来看喔 他向大家喊叫 "'Come look, ' he called to everyone.
那个走钢丝的乌龟 是我儿子 "'That tightrope turtle... That's my son. '"...
再一次 again.
拜托 麦可 很晚了 该睡觉了 Come on, Michael, it's late. It's bedtime.
现在我要躺下睡觉 祈求上主保护我的灵魂 Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep.
保护我陪伴我到天亮唤醒我 May god guard me through the night and wake me with the morning light.
阿门 阿门 - Amen. - Amen.
晚安 麦可 Good night, Michael.
听我说 山姆的妈会接你放学 Listen, Sam's mummy will pick you up from school.
你可以带他的小狗去散步 You can take his puppy for a walk.
我想养小狗 I want a puppy.
拜托别玩食物 Please don't play with the food.
明天吃家乐氏麦片 I'll get you some coco pops tomorrow.
尽量把橘子汁喝完 And just try and finish the orange juice.
太感谢了 你好 欧文 - Thank you so much. - Hello, Owen.
早安 萝丝小姐 Good morning, miss Rose.
去玩吧 麦可 听萝丝小姐的话 Have fun, Michael, and pay attention to miss Rose.
再见 妈咪 再见 孩子 晚点见 - Bye, mummy. - Bye now, boys. See you later.
再见 再见 小鸡 晚点见 - Bye. - Bye, chicken. See you later.
我妈呢 Where's my mummy?
我说过了 麦可 她走掉了 I've told you, Michael, she had to go away.
去很远 很远 Far, far away?
对 Yes.
去很远 很远 Far, far away.
亲一个 Kiss.
嗨 麦可 Hi, Michael.
教室见 See you in there.
她应该会喜欢 放进包包了吗 I'm sure she'll love that. Have you put the books in your bag?
有 妈咪 Yes, mummy.
通勤是比较麻烦 Yeah, the commute can be difficult sometimes,
虽然每晚来回但值得 but it's worth it though when you come back to this every night.
宁静祥和 绿树环绕 Peace and quiet, surrounded by greenery.
他喜欢大自然吗 Does he like nature?
我们非常喜欢户外活动 We're very outdoorsy people.
我们喜欢散步 就像现在 We like to go for long walks, as you can see.
我们考虑养只狗 We were thinking about maybe getting a dog?
我知道麦可想养小狗 负起责任 I know Michael would love a puppy, to be responsible for.
那太棒了 That's great.
我们也希望这男孩能享受和我们一样的童年 We sort of hope the boy would enjoy the same childhood as ourselves,
不要整天玩电脑 not just inside on the computer all day.
可以自由自在到处跑 不要娇生惯养 And here he's free to run around, not be mollycoddled,
自由爬树然后摔下来 free to climb trees and fall out of trees.
我们当然会照顾他 你知道我的意思 I mean, we will look after him obviously, but you know what I mean.
不是 我 确定他喜欢爬树 No, I'm, I'm sure he'll love to climb trees.
他是 很文静 但很听话又很乖 He's a... he's a quiet wee boy, but he listens and he's always well-behaved.
在学校很受欢迎 我常听说他很棒 He's very popular at school. I'm always being told what a great kid he is.
喜欢 关心别人 He's loving... caring.
很 快乐的孩子 He, He's a happy wee boy.
我 觉得 I, er... I want...
他值得有个正常的家庭 有父母和一个可爱温馨的家 He deserves a normal family, two parents, a loving family home...
还有我小时候没有的各种机会 and all the opportunities I never had as a child.
喔 Oh!
敲到头啦 不痛吧 You bang your head? Are you all right?
不痛 真的吗 - I'm all right. - You sure?
希望他能做我永远做不到的所有事情 I want him to be able to do all the things I never could.
或想都没想过 Never even thought of.
这我们了解 We understand that.
我们把一个房间漆成蓝色 We've painted one of the rooms blue,
如果他不喜欢 可以换 but if he didn't like it, we could always change it.
当然 我们给我们儿子最好的教育 And, of course, we can afford the best education for our son.
就是你儿子 I mean, your son.
你知道的 西莉亚是幼教老师 他可以去她的学校就读 As you know, Celia's a nursery teacher. We could get him into her school.
再大点 可以去我念的寄宿学校 And perhaps later on, he could attend my own boarding school.
他们很喜欢收校友的孩子 They're very keen on having children of alumni.
但是 他很喜欢现在的学校 Well, yeah, but, er... He's doing well where he is.
而且 也不远 还有朋友 所以 And, er... you know, it's not far. He's got friends, so...
当然 这都依你 Oh, of course. We, We'd follow your guidance.
他知道你的情况吗 And what does he know of your situation?
不知道 越少越好 Nothing. The less he knows the better.
他的生母呢 And the birth mother?
不用考虑 There is no birth mother.
看到没 有虫 Can you see? Can you see the bugs?
看到里面有虫吗 Can you see the bugs in there?
以后呢 What about in the future,
你打算告诉你儿子什么 what would you like your son to know about you?
去回忆 To remember?
你希望这个新家庭 What would you like your... The new family to?
我是个洗窗工 I'm a window cleaner.
1 2 3 One, two, three,
6 7 12 15 14 six, seven, twelve, fifteen, fourteen.
麦可 想想这些卡车 Just think, Michael, all those lorries,
送好多东西到好多地方 taking so many things to so many places.
这些车戴人去很远地方 And all those cars with people going to work,
去工作或找朋友 or to see their friends, far away.
麦可 以后你想住在别的地方 One day, Michael, would you like to live somewhere else,
像是不同的城市 不同的家吗 in a different town, a different home?
我喜欢我们的家 I like home.
我不想让他 I don't want him to think about it...
去理解死亡 To understand death.
还不到时候 Not now, not yet.
他 还太小 He's, He's just too young.
他会想还会再一次 He'll think it'll happen again,
在他新家 他周围一切 to his new family, all those around him.
然后他会想他也会死 我是说 He'll be left thinking that he will die, too. I mean, you know...
这会是什么样的童年 What kind of childhood is that?
约翰 每个记忆都不同 John, a memory box is different.
现在或许不用 但将来需要 He won't need one now, but he will need it...
他的新父母也需要 and his new parents will too.
他可能有一段时间每天都在想你 You know, John, there might come a time when he thinks about you every day...
他需要一些东西来开始 具体的 真实的 and he'll need something to start with, physical, real,
可以联系并建立起来 to connect with and build on.
建立 Build on?
是手册上写的 还是你刚考过 Is that from a manual? Have you just passed the exam?
约翰 萧娜说的没错 John, please. Shona's right.
现在或许不用但将来要 Maybe not now, but later.
尤其是十八岁时 And certainly when he's eighteen...
到时他就有权利知道他的生父母是谁 and he has the right to find out for himself who his birth parents were.
他非得知道他是被领养的吗 Why does he have to know he was adopted?
我们会为他找到一个家 这将是他的家人 他唯一的家人 We will find him a family that will be his family, his only family.
他甚至不必记得他的父母是多么无能 He won't even have to remember how useless his parents were.
他的妈遗弃他然后他爸死去 His mother leaves him and then his father dies.
我是说 那一定会让他难过死 I mean, that, that would definitely fuck him up.
喔 麦可 还早啊 Oh, Michael, it's early.
跟你说过别在书上乱画 Michael, I told you not to draw in the books.
图书室的多纳莉太太会怎么说 What's Mrs. Donnelly at the library gonna say?
要贴哪 你决定 Here, where do we put it? You choose.
好 教你 用力 That's good. Let me show you. Give it a big push.
我赢了 I'm winning!
难道你不讨厌他们吗 Don't you just hate them?
把狗丢在花园 They leave their dogs in the garden, loose,
他们还要收信件 不是吗 but they still expect their mail, dontthey?
然后抱怨慢收啦 遗失啦 And then they complain if something's late, or god forbid, goes missing.
主人跟可怕的狗 Them and their bloody dogs.
真是恐怖 A menace.
时不时跑向你 咬你 And then, they come at you and they bite you.
就像咬到你是它们一天最快乐的事 It's like you're their bit of fun for the day.
小只的最麻烦 对吧 是的 - The small ones are the worst, aren't they? - Mmm.
看着 麦可 Look at that, Michael.
忽然从我裤管穿过 Right through my trousers.
随时要注意狗 麦可 Always watch out for dogs, Michael.
你从不知再来被咬的是什么感觉 You never know what they feel like biting next.
麦可喜欢狗 Michael loves dogs.
他认识一只非常可爱的小狗 He knows a very nice puppy.
呃 还要蛋糕吗 约翰 Er... would you like some more cake, John?
好吃吧 她自己做的 It's great, isn't it? She made it herself.
不加防腐剂 None of those old preservatives.
谢谢 不了 很好吃 Thank you, no. It was delicious.
呃 萧娜 还要吗 Er... shona, would you?
喔 谢谢 吃不下了 Oh, thank you, Pam, I really couldn't.
麦可 还要来点蛋糕吗 Michael, would you like a wee bit more of Pam's cake?
啊 那 Ah, well...
我最好再来点 免得被兔子吃掉 I'd better have a wee bit more myself then, before the rabbit gets to it.
爸 兔子不吃蛋糕 Dad, rabbits don't eat cake.
麦可知道这只是个玩笑话 对吧 麦可 I'm sure Michael knows I'm onlyjoking, don't you, Michael?
你养三年了 对吧 And you've been fostering for three years now, is that right?
是的 但没更好受 Mm-hmm. Yeah, but it's been tough, you know?
还是想要怀孕 It's... hard letting go of the idea of being pregnant.
会想引起别人注意 You know, you want people to make a fuss over you,
还是会想 布置小孩房 you want to get the, the baby room ready, you know?
心里一直想 感觉很痛苦 And it lingers in your mind and you feel this pain...
看着别的妈妈带着小贝比 watching other mothers with their babies.
让你感觉 你是个失职的妈妈 Every month you feel like you, you've failed as a woman.
不会啦 No.
不好意思 约翰 Sorry, John.
相信你知道生活中并非一切顺遂 I'm sure you know life doesn't always work out the way you mean it to.
所以我想不如来帮别人养小孩 So I thought that maybe I was put on this earth to look after other people's children.
当安 六岁吗 七岁 - And when Anne was... six? - Seven.
七岁时 开始养 Seven, we started fostering.
你觉得呢 安 喜欢吗 How was it for you, Anne? Did you enjoy?
她马上就接受了 对吧 Oh, she took to it straight away, didn't you? Didn't you, pet?
就像鸭子喜欢水 Like a duck to water.
但看着它们死掉很难过 But sometimes it's sad to see them go, you know?
我们不想再这样道别了 Now we don't want to say goodbye to any more.
以前错就错了 要是有特别的小孩 We both made our mistakes, but we found someone special...
就会 永远在一起 and we'll be... we'll be together forever, won't we?
他们上街买东西还是会手挽手 真是尴尬 They're still holding hands when they're together shopping. It's embarrassing.
说的也是 That might be somewhat true.
我们做什么都一起 We do nearly everything together.
如果半夜我起来上厕所 If I get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom,
她就会跟来陪我 she comes with me, keeps me company.
只要我去小号 爸 - So I go for a piss... - Dad!
干嘛说这个 别人会怎么想 Why would you tell them that? What will they think?
怎样 他不上小号吗 爸 - What, he doesn't piss? - Dad!
别理他 Don't mind him.
你的孩子会成为大家庭的一份子 Now... look, your child will be part of a big family.
都是好人 实在的人 All good people, real people.
坚持做自己 别人会尊重你 You wanna stick to your own, people that respect you,
不要人云亦云 知道我说的吧 约翰 not people who talk down to you. You know what I mean, John?
我懂 I know what you mean.
就像邮差 Postman, sure.
很多人不再写信 You know, it's... Nobody writes letters anymore...
这些人很快就会 and I'm sure they're gonna do away with us pretty soon,
被无人机之类的取代 replaced by a flying drone or something.
那狗还能咬什么 麦可 And what will all those dogs bite then, eh, Michael? Eh?
喜欢兔子吗 麦可 Did you like the rabbit, Michael?
不想养只兔子吗 Wouldn't you like a rabbit to look after?
我想养小狗 I want a puppy.
快好了 Almost done.
谢谢你 麦克唐纳太太 实在不用麻烦了 Thank you, Mrs. McDonagh. You really didn't have to go to the trouble.
不麻烦 你要留着力气 No trouble. You need your strength.
我还可以做什么吗 And what else would I be doing with myself?
你的特餐 你应该爱吃 Here's your special, just as you like it.
太感谢了 Thank you very much.
金姆 Kim.
给你吃 乖女孩 Here you go. Good girl.
约翰 有些人可能有点无所不知 但他们是专业人士 You know, John, these people, they may be a bit know-it-all,
但他们是专家 but they are professionals.
如果有人说你该 Er... you know, if they say that you should...
那我该跟他说什么 And what am I meant to tell him?
当我 上了天堂 坐在上帝旁 That I'm... in heaven, sitting next to god?
会是同一位上帝 The same god who did this?
我妈很信 来世 Well... you know, my mother believed in it, an afterlife.
跟她说 "尘归尘" 没用 But none of your "dust to dust" stuff for her.
她会说 "我们是空气不是土" "We are air not earth," she would say.
"我们之后都在那 "And we're always there, after.
"我们的灵魂 精力都在空气中" "Our spirit, our energy, is in the air."
我年轻时曾 笑她的想法 You know, I used to, er... make fun of her, of her ideas, when I was young.
但她说得没错 But you know, she was right.
她现在用各种方式回来找我 And now she comes back to me in all sorts of ways.
她坐在我床边跟我说话 She sits on my bed at night and we talk.
她很安详 And she's very peaceful.
她不是用嘴巴或什么东西说 I mean, she, she doesn't talk with her mouth or anything.
我们就是 在说话 But we... but we talk.
嗨 约翰 请进 嗨 茱蒂 你好 葛丽丝 - Hi, John. Come on in. - Hi, Judy. Hello, grace.
葛丽丝 跟麦可的爸爸问好 Grace, say hello to Michael's daddy.
抱歉 请进 Sorry. Come on in.
乖女儿 Good girl.
很抱歉 今天不适合玩耍 Er... I am sorry. It hasn't been the best of playdates.
麦可 你爸来了 Michael, your daddy's here.
你在桌底下干嘛 麦可 What are you doing under the table, Michael?
今天不想玩 We didn't feel like playing today.
今天心情不好 And we weren't very nice.
今天没跟葛丽丝好好玩 对吧 We didn't say nice things to grace, did we?
麦可 Michael?
你迟到了 You're late.
对不起 I'm sorry.
可以走了吗 Can we go now?
可以跟葛丽丝和茱蒂道歉 说下次不会了吗 And can you say sorry to grace and to Judy for not being nice?
对不起 Sorry.
没关系 麦可 It's OK, Michael.
别担心 总是 有点难 Don't worry about it. It must be... difficult.
再见 茱蒂 Cheers, Judy.
谢谢你 葛丽丝 And thank you, grace.
谢谢你 葛丽丝 Thank you, grace.
好客气 麦可 随时欢迎你来 好吗 You are welcome, Michael. And you come again anytime you want, OK?
走了 再见 学校见 - Come on. See you. - See you at school.
要去认识更多新朋友吗 Are we gonna see any more new friends?
今天不 Not today.
绑上安全带 Put your belt on.
爸 Daddy.
什么 What is it?
看到什么 它不动了 - What did you find? - It doesn't go.
金龟子喔 麦可 It's a beetle, Michael.
死了 It's dead.
走不动了 It can't walk anymore.
让它动 Make it go.
不行 它死了 I can't. It's dead.
金龟子死了 身体就不会动了 When a beetle dies, its body doesn't work anymore.
不会走 不会吃 也不会玩耍 It stops moving. And eating. And playing.
为什么 Why?
因为 Because...
因为跟所有动物植物一样 Because like all the animals and the plants,
所有生物都一样 all the living things,
出生然后快乐过一生 it was born and lived a happy life...
然后 变老然后死掉 and... then it got old and it died.
死掉后 留下身体 And when it died, it left its body behind,
它的脚 它的头 它的肚子 都空了 its wee legs, its head, its tummy, all empty.
但金龟子不在这里了 只 But the beetle really isn't there anymore, it's...
只剩下身体 It's just its body.
它会难过吗 Is it sad?
不会 麦可 它不会难过 它 No, Michael, it's not sad, it's...
它 他就是不在这了 It's, It's just not there.
冰淇淋 冰淇淋 - Ice cream! - Ice cream!
第一名的爹
嘿 Oi!
我不是付钱给你还睡觉的 I'm not paying you to sleep up there.
你忘了擦窗缴 You missed that corner.
老板 这扇窗还没开始擦 Sir, I haven't started on this one yet.
不知还能说什么 Don't know what there was to recommend.
下次不用来了 兄弟 First and last time. Won't have you around again, mate.
省省吧 我也不是你兄弟 No risk of that. And I'm not your mate.
是啊 不过是个窗户擦不干净的傲慢窗户清洁工 Right, just an uppity window cleaner who can't clean fucking windows.
嗨 露 Hi, lu.
待会见 See you later.
你长大了可以自己来 Sure, you're old enough to do this yourself.
不会割到手 And without cutting your fingers.
有时小孩一吵架 就躲进房间 Sometimes the children fight, hide in their rooms.
有时会从学校蹦蹦跳跳回家 Yeah, but then the same child will skip through the door from school,
紧握着刚刚赢得的数学奖 you know, clutching a prize that they've just won for maths...
然后你知道做对了 and you know you've done something right.
我以他们为荣也很感谢有这荣幸 I'm so proud of them and grateful for the privilege...
跟这些年轻人一起生活 of sharing our lives with such incredible young people.
真的 爸 汤姆也是 Really, dad, even Tom?
汤姆也是 尤其是汤姆 Yes. Even Thomas. In fact, especially Thomas.
爸说的没错 还记得他怎样吗 Dad is right. Do you remember what he was like?
妈 可以走了吗 要迟到了 Mum, can we go now? I'm gonna be late.
弗雷迪 麻烦去拿你的东西 放在车上 Freddy, can you get your stuff together, please, and put it in the car?
这次别又忘了带书 我马上来 Make sure you don't forget your boots this time. I'll be there in a minute.
谁把空罐子放冰箱 Who put the empty carton back in the fridge?
弗雷迪 Freddy!
妈 弗雷迪穿我的鞋 Mum, Freddy's taken my boots.
妈 迟到了 来了 - Mum, I'm late. - Coming.
我能说什么呢 约翰 I mean, what can I tell you, John?
对我来说 对他们的感觉没有什么不同 To me there's no difference in the way I feel about them.
不管是亲生的还是领养的 The birth children and the adopted ones.
孩子是我自己的 所以爱他们就像我自己的 My children are me own so I love them as me own.
他 会是最后一个 And he'll, he'll be our last one.
是啊 如果上帝希望这样 Oh, yeah, but if it's god's wish,
他将是我们家最后一份子 可以这么说 then he will be the last one to join our wee family, so to speak.
他也会得到 And he'll be loved...
我们全部的爱 By all of us.
对吧 比利 Right, Billy?
妈 Mum!
我请客 That's on me.
谢谢 Cheers.
可以的话明天再来 或星期五 Come back and do them tomorrow if you can, or Friday.
明天吧 雨应该会停 Tomorrow. It should've settled by then.
又一天泡汤了 早知道躺床上 Another wasted day. I should've stayed in bed.
原本以为有了孩子会改善情况 I hoped a baby would've made everything OK,
但 孩子出生六个月后 but, er... six months after he was born,
他买了回俄罗斯的票走了 she bought a ticket back to Russia and she left.
一去不回 She just left.
没留下地址 Didn't even give us a fonnarding address.
不管她在哪 都不知道她错过了什么 Wherever she is, she has no idea of what she's missed out on...
还有这个可爱的小男生渐渐长大 and the lovely wee man he's grown into.
这也不是她的错 是 Well, it wasn't her fault. She...
是我没法满足她想要的 Here I just couldn't give her what she wanted.
她太想念老家 She missed her country too much.
事实是 我不是她想要的 The truth is, I wasn't what she wanted.
但是 当我知道这个［快死了］ But, er... when I was told about, you know...
或许她可以 I thought maybe she could, you know...
哪天 Maybe one day...
帕克太太解释过了 已经来不及了 约翰 As Mrs. parkes explained, it really is too late, John.
就算能找到她 Even if we were able to trace her,
委员会也不能评估情况 the council would have no way of assessing the situation...
我们不能冒险伤及麦可的权益 and we couldn't risk Michael's wellbeing.
约翰 John...
把握眼前 好吗 One day at a time, yeah?
一定可以的 We'll get there.
早安 约翰 Good morning, John.
抱歉让你久等 I'm sorry for keeping you waiting.
还好吗 约翰 How are you, John?
你说呢 You tell me.
约翰 我们理解你想帮你儿子找到最好的 John, we realise you want the best for your son.
真的 相信我 We all do. Believe me.
你的情况很特殊 And your circumstances are exceptional.
所以我们用特殊的方式来处理 Which is why we're treating this in an exceptional way.
但做决定前能考虑的家庭有限 But there's a limit to the number of families we can consider before taking a decision.
这是我们的责任 知道吗 这些家庭都不错 This is our responsibility, you understand? And these are all good families...
我了解 但你不能要求我 I know. I do understand. But you can't ask me to...
我 I...
我以为第一次见到他们 I thought I would, you know, know when I first saw them.
我就会知道 要或不要 I thought it would be simple. No, yes.
这些不行 他们可以 Not these. That's them.
但要是我错了呢 就是 要是我 But what if I'm wrong? You know, what if I...
我要确定 当然 - I need to be sure. - Of course.
不能登广告吗 或贴在商店橱窗上 Can't we just put an A.D. in the paper? In a frigging shop window?
因为需要经过核可的程序 Because they'd still need to go through the approval process...
时间也快不够了 and we're running out of time.
车应该好了 She should be fine.
或许你想想换组新轮圈 You might want to think about getting a new set of wheels on her.
但是 原来的还很新 But she's, er... she's as good as new.
只 只算碟盘 That's... just for the discs.
工钱免费 Labour's on me.
谢谢你 Thank you.
喜欢车吗 麦可 喜欢货车 - Do you like cars, Michael? - Lorries.
货车啊 我们也修 Lorries? We fix lorries, too.
或许哪天来帮帮忙 Maybe you come around some day and give us a hand, eh?
想吗 麦可 Would you like to, Michael?
帮乔治修货车 Help George fix some lorries?
谢谢 乔治 祝你好运 - Cheers, George. - Good luck.
快 要过午茶了 Come on. We're gonna be late for tea.
巧克力 巧克力 Chocolate, chocolate.
巧克力 Chocolate.
看到没 巧克力 - Can you see it? - Chocolate.
巧克力粉在哪 巧克力 - Where is the chocolate powder? - Chocolate.
在这 Oh, there it is.
咖啡色还是红色 Brown or red?
嗯 红色 Mmm... red.
红色巧克力 Red chocolate.
泡打粉在哪 泡打粉 - Where's the baking powder? - Baking powder.
泡打粉 泡打粉 - Baking powder? - Baking powder.
哦 在这 Ah, there it is.
麦可 或许这位小姐知道最好的泡打粉是哪个 Michael, maybe we can ask this lady which is the best baking powder?
要泡打粉 是的 - You need baking powder? - I do.
你妈要做蛋糕吗 Is your mummy making you a cake?
不是 是我爸 No, my daddy.
幸运的孩子 Lucky boy.
这个 There.
这个 对啦 - This one? - Perfect.
谢谢 再见 - Great. Cheers. - Bye.
麦可 放进去吧 Michael, you want to put that in?
好男人 Good man.
耶 好男人 Yeah. Good man.
葡萄 Grapes.
麦可的葡萄 Aye. Grapes for Michael.
放进去 In they go.
好 OK.
都买齐了吗 Have we got everything?
要检查一下 看看清单 That's the question. Let me check the list.
麦可 鸡蛋 鸡蛋 - Michael, eggs. - Eggs.
鸡蛋 忘了鸡蛋 Eggs. We forgot the eggs.
鸡蛋在哪 去找鸡蛋吧 Where are the eggs? Shall we go find the eggs?
鸡蛋 鸡蛋 - Eggs! - Eggs.
鸡蛋 Eggs!
好 Right!
最后一盒蜡烛 This is the last packet of candles.
再来什么颜色 Which colour next?
红色 红色 - Red. - Red.
还是红色 OK. Red it is.
嗯 来吧 Mmm... we are ready to go.
三十三支蜡烛 Thirty-three candles.
三 三 - Three. - Three.
再来哪种蜡烛 Mmm... nearly there. Which candle next?
红色 你确定是红色吗 - Red. - Red. Red? Are you sure?
红色 红色 好 - Red. - Red. OK.
太奇妙了 还是红色 What a surprise. Red it is.
预备 Ready.
三十四支蜡烛在爸爸的蛋糕上 Thirty-four candles on daddy's cake.
四 四 - Four. - Four.
三十四支蜡烛三十四岁 Thirty-four candles for thirty-four years.
好了 完成了 That's it. We're finished.
怎么样 很好看吧 What do you think? It looks good, huh?
你老了 You're old.
我老了 I'm old?
我没那么老 I'm not that old.
也没错 麦可 爸不再年轻了 But yes, Michael, daddy's not so young anymore.
总有一天 And one day...
给我的吗 Is this for me?
谢谢 Thank you.
实在抱歉我完全忘了你要来 I am so sorry. I completely forgot yous were coming.
我说过了 对吧 I've said that already, haven't I?
我虽然没有洁癖 但平常没那么乱 I mean, I'm not the tidiest of people, but the place isn't usually this messy.
一个星期洗烫一次衣 I do my washing and ironing once a week.
我不喜欢只做一半 你也是吧 I hate doing those half loads, don't you?
麦可的事让我感觉就是只做一半 Well, with Michael's things, it feels like all I do is half-loads.
真的 爸走了以后 Oh, really? You know, since daddy's gone,
我整理了一下就现在酱 I... I just kind of let it build up and then I'm left with this.
谢谢你 萧娜 Thank you, shona.
好 要煮水喝茶吗 All right, shall I put the kettle on and get us a cup of tea?
好啊 Aye. Grand.
要吗 谢谢 - Yeah? - Thank you.
麦可 要喝茶吗 Michael, do you want a cup of tea?
还是 喝果汁 不要 他喜欢果汁吗 Would you... like some juice? No? Would he like some juice?
好吧 OK.
约翰 不知道你对我的情况了解多少 So, John, I don't know how much you know about my situation.
我刚满十六岁 Well, I'd just turned sixteen...
就和在家里工作的一个小伙子在一起 and it was with one of the lads I worked with back home.
我的第一次 就酱 I mean, it was my first time and, you know, there it was.
很典型 我爱上他 十六岁一爱就 Typical. And I loved him. You know, that sixteen-year-old love for your...
有够傻 Just a dope.
被朋友知道了 天啊 一片哗然 And then when my ones found out, well, Jesus, there was uproar.
爸吓坏了 Daddy was horrified.
他就 说隔壁村有个医生 He just... he said that there was a doctor in the next town...
我说 "不可能" and... like, I said, "no way."
然后就那个 And then for me, that...
时间到了就填写表格 When it just came time to, you know, signing those forms...
当时好气 It just... I think that I was just so angry.
气所有的人 I was just so angry with everyone around me...
我真的想留住儿子 cos I just really wanted to keep my son.
我真的以为我可以 And I really thought that I could do it...
我真的想 现在想起还是 and I really, really wanted to do it, like, even back then.
你相信吗 约翰 Do you believe me, John?
我别无选择 And I couldn't choose.
我连收养孩子的父母都没见过 I mean, I didn't even meet the parents that were set to take the baby.
多年以后 So then all those years later,
医生说我可能不能再怀孩子 the doctor said that I probably wouldn't be able to carry a baby again.
似乎我也只能领养了 Like, adoption was the obvious choice for me...
这样也好 因为我会 and that was fine cos I would've just thought that I would love our child...
像爱不得不放弃的孩子来爱孩子 just the way I would have loved the child I had to give up.
但那时我前夫却不这么认为 But my husband, he didn't feel the same.
他无法爱不是自己生的孩子 He just thought that he couldn't love a baby that wasn't his, you know?
完全亲生的 所以 Like, actually his. So...
故事就是酱 来 给你 That was the end of that. Right, come here, you.
来吧 Come here.
看卡车能载多少石头 Let's see how many rocks you can fit into the truck.
应该有三年了 打从 So it's been, what, three years now since I've been...
二 二 - Two. - Two.
打从我申请通过有三年了 It's been three years now since I've been approved and in the system.
有时他们跟我说夫妻比较适合 You know, sometimes they say that they're just looking for couples, which is fine,
我马上去查看这些个人资料 but that's the first thing I do when I go on those profiles.
看我单身行不行 I see if it's OK that I'm single.
我不怪他们 因为 I mean, I don't blame them cos...
换成是我 我也会这么想 I think that if I was looking for a family for my baby, that's what I'd want, you know?
只要是两个人 不管肤色 外型 Two people, doesn't matter the colour or the shape or any of that craic.
只要相爱的两个人 Just two people that loved each other.
这很重要 对吧 I think that's important, don't you?
是吧 Yeah, yeah. I suppose.
这好难 It's hard, you know?
对我来说就像 就像隧道尽头的光 I mean, for me, it's like... it's like the light at the end of the tunnel...
是一个孩子走进这房子 is a child coming into this house.
就像 就像想拿奖杯 I would be like... it would be like winning the cup.
只能更好 Only it would be way better.
载了多少 How many did you get in?
呃 Mmm...
我只想 我只想要个孩子来爱 I mean, I just... I just want a child to love, you know?
给他我的爱 To give my love to.
他小时候是什么样子的 What was he like as a baby?
他让我们 折腾整晚 Er... he kept us, er... Well, me really, up all night.
他的母亲无法给他喂奶 长牙也很困难 His mother couldn't give him milk and teething was difficult.
你在他这个年纪的时候是什么样子的 And what were you like when you were his age?
不知道 I don't know.
只知道四岁前是我爸抚养 Er... they told me my dad brought me up for my first four years.
他是卡车司机 He was a lorry driver.
床就放在座位后 Kept the cot in the back of the cab.
然后就去寄养家庭 And then after that, it was foster homes.
可以问你问题吗 Can I ask you something?
你最爱跟爸爸做什么 What do you like to do with your dad?
嗯 Mmm...
这几天很少运动 对吧 Well, we don't do so much physical stuff these days, do we?
读书和看电视 去公园 So we, we read and watch TV, go to the park.
有时一起洗窗子 对吧 麦可 And sometimes we wash windows, don't we, Michael?
你喜欢洗窗子啊 喜欢被弄湿吗 Do you love washing windows? Do you love getting wet?
不喜欢 No.
你什么时候会死 When are you gonna die?
呃 Er...
天啊 Jesus.
这个嘛 不知道耶 麦可 Well, I don't know, Michael.
应该没人知道吧 I don't think anyone knows.
希望别太久 I hope it's not for ages.
我曾经好忌妒 You know, I used to be so jealous.
我很羡慕所有年事高 I was so envious of all those who lived on,
还活着的人 all those old people,
我先生快死时 还很年轻 and my husband was going to die and he was still young.
躺在他身边彻夜难眠 我好气 I'd lie awake at night next to him and... I just got so angry.
但他也不想 But he wasn't like that at all.
他说他更珍惜我们在一起的每一分钟 He said he enjoyed even more every minute we spent together,
周遭的一切变得更珍贵 更奇妙 that everything around him seemed to be more special, wonderful.
太阳更亮 The sun was brighter...
花的颜色更丰富 The colours of the flowers were richer.
甚至连草都更绿 Even the grass was greener.
我不确定我知道他在说什么 I'm not sure I know what he was on about.
或许他只是想让我感觉好点 Maybe he said it just to make me feel better.
我眼前看到的尽是死亡 到处是 All I see is death, always there. Everywhere.
就像想要什么东西的家伙晃来晃去 Like some bloke hanging around who wants something.
我从小就不甘示弱 Never show weakness is how I grew up.
只要在哪个地方示弱 你就惨了 You showed weakness in one of those places, you were screwed.
我这一生就是酱 That's how I lived my whole life.
但有时 But sometimes...
当我送他上学 When I drop him off at school,
总有一些妈妈带着小孩 there's all those mums there with their kids...
我总会热泪盈眶 The tears well up.
不知所措 And there's nothing I can do,
只能赶快掉头离开 别让人看到 just turn around, walk away and hope that nobody sees,
感觉 好无助 nobody, nobody comes over and tries to help.
那不是示弱 孩子 那是爱 That's not weakness, angel, that's love.
我怎么能这样对他 Yeah, but how can I do this to him?
我给他一个家 如今却要夺走它 I've given him a family and now I'm taking it away.
你正在做的事很勇敢 You are doing something very brave.
你应该骄傲得要死［而瞑目］ You should be dead proud of what you're doing for him.
抱歉 我是说 I'm sorry, I mean...
有趣的是明明里面腐烂 却不知道 It's funny how you can rot inside and not even know it.
是啊 I know.
你还思念他吗 Do you still miss him?
对 不对 Yes. No.
我每天跟他说话 I talk to him every day.
我们一起度过很棒的五十年 We had fifty wonderful years together.
最大的遗憾是膝下无子 Our only sadness was that we never had children.
要不是我太老了 真希望能帮你养 I wish I wasn't so old I could do this for you.
去年圣诞节我才把他的牙刷都扔掉 I finally threw out his toothbrush last Christmas.
来 Come here.
我们不一定要领养 We don't have to adopt.
我确定我先生和我有能力 I'm, I'm sure my husband and I are perfectly capable...
生出可爱的北鼻 of bringing a lovely baby into the world,
但这不是我们的选项 but it's just not our choice.
满怀希望 The idea of waddling around happily expectant...
从医院带回来一个新生儿 and then bringing a little tiny newborn home from the hospital...
关上门 住在小小的窝 and closing the door and... living in a little cocoon,
远离世界 all away from the world...
那对我来说不切实际 It's just not really me.
对我们来说也不切实际 对吧 崔佛 It's just not us, is it, Trevor?
对 No.
我俩都 We, We both feel that...
我们喜欢正视生活 We like to confront life.
我们喜欢正面面对事物 We like to face things head on.
对我们来说 这将是 一个新的旅程 And for us this would be... A new journey.
一个全新的冒险 A whole new adventure.
反正我们心中还有空间 And we have room in our hearts...
当然还有更多的房间 那为何不呢 and we certainly have plenty of room in our home, so why would we not?
如果有人找父母 我们就来当父母 And if someone needs parents, then we can be those parents.
好啊 That's good.
我 为你们高兴 I'm, er... glad for you.
呃 喜欢吗 麦可 Er... do you like him, Michael?
他叫吉米 His name's Jimmy.
跟崔佛说谢谢 Say thank you to Trevor.
谢谢 Thank you.
相片里的是他吗 He doesn't really look like his photo, does he?
我是说你啦 他长得像他妈妈 I mean, or you. Does he look like the mother?
眼睛像妈 Aye, he has his mother's eyes.
怎么有做妈妈的舍得小孩 I mean, how any mother can leave a child?
我是说 离开父亲我完全理解 I mean, leaving the father I can completely understand,
但离开小孩 but leaving a child?
小孩离不开妈妈 A child needs a mother.
你想要一个妈咪吗 麦可 Wouldn't you like a mummy, Michael?
这个会拿走 This will have to go.
我们动作太快了 Wejumped the gun a bit.
洛琳 Lorraine...
我们原本想有个北鼻 但t We were hoping for a baby, but...
但是请 请相信我 我们会好好爱他 But please, please believe me, we will love him,
我们 会用爱抚养他 we will, er... we will bring him up with love.
不只为他 也为我们 Not just for him, but, but for us.
那会很棒 That will be good.
好好度过一生 有点值得骄傲的东西 A life well spent, something to be proud of.
毕竟 还有什么比帮助孩子成长更好的呢 I mean, after all, what could be better than helping a child grow up...
准备好面对生活 Ready to face life...
就像你父母为你所做的那样 Like your parents did for you?
当离开这个世界时 知道你对一些真实的事情有贡献 And to leave this world knowing that you contributed to something real,
你在这个地球上的旅程是有目的的 that your passage on this earth had a purpose...
还有某种意义 And a meaning.
不好意思 有时我会没完没了 Sorry. You have to excuse me. Sometimes I go on.
这是我的房间 And, er... this, this is my room.
其实是间火车室 Well, it's the train's room, really.
洛琳不明白我为什么在这花那么多时间 Lorraine doesn't understand why I spend so much time in here.
但这总有忙不完的事 有的要修改 有的要修理 But there's always something to do, something to improve, something to fix.
得花时间仔细看 You just have to take the time to look at it,
花心思 就像带小孩 carefully, like a child would.
麦可会喜欢吗 Do you think Michael would like it?
他喜欢卡车 He likes lorries...
还有火车 And trains.
可以给他看看 对 对 - Maybe you could show it to him. - Yeah, yeah.
等他大了 会是小小的收藏 When he's older. It's, It's all a little delicate.
嗨 爸 Hello, daddy.
好吗 OK, huh?
感谢你们光临 Well, thank you so much for coming.
麦可 很高兴认识你 还有你 约翰 真是高兴 Michael, it was lovely to meet you. And you too, John. Real pleasure.
谢谢 Yes. Thank you.
崔佛 Trevor.
麦可 吉米住在这 Michael, Jimmy lives here.
还是你下次再来跟他玩 But maybe you could come and play with him another time?
麦可 跟吉米说再见吧 Er... Michael, I want you to say goodbye to Jimmy.
谢谢崔佛让你跟他玩 好吗 And thank Trevor for letting you play with him, OK?
谢谢你让我跟他玩 再见 Thank you for letting me play with him. Bye.
再见 再见 Bye. Bye.
乖 我们走吧 Good. Come on, let's go.
领养是什么 爸 What's adopt, daddy?
领养是 Adopt is...
当小孩不能被妈咪和爹地照顾时 When a child cannot be looked after by his mummy and daddy...
然后就去跟两个很棒的新爸妈住 And so he can go and live with two nice new parents...
他们会给他一个可爱的新家 Who can give him a new loving family home.
我不想被领养 I don't want to adopt.
别摔罗 麦可 Don't fall, Michael.
小心喔 Be careful.
约翰 事情都要按规定做 John, these things are done in a certain way.
也有相关的程序要遵守 There are all sorts of procedures we're supposed to follow.
但不是为你一个案子写的 They're not written for a case like yours.
你哪里找来这些人 你们根据的又是什么程序 Where did you find those people? What fucking procedures did you use?
很抱歉 约翰 I'm sorry, John.
但事实就是这样 But it does happen.
很多配对不能成功 A lot of matches just don't work out.
或许他们想找更小的 I think they were just hoping for someone younger.
我不是要给他们一只狗照顾 也不是兔子 I wouldn't have given them a dog to look after. Not even a fucking rabbit.
这是我人生中最重大的决择 This is the biggest decision of my life.
他们不明白吗 你们不明白吗 Don't they understand? Don't you?
不是我想这样 是 It's not about me wanting to be right. It's...
我明白 所以我在这里 I do understand. That's why I'm here.
我违反了好多规定 甚至连不懂的规定都违反了 I'm breaking loads of rules I know about and I'm sure a few more that I don't.
要是被帕克太太知道 If Mrs. parkes finds out,
在我完成培训之前 我会请你帮我找工作 I'll be asking you for a job before I finish my training.
这不关他们的事 别管他们 It's not even about them, figuring them out.
是麦克 It's Michael.
我一直以为我了解他 I always thought that I knew him.
我真的了解他 I mean, I do. I do.
他是 他是我儿子啊 You know, he's, he's mine. He's my son.
但我了解他吗 真的了解他吗 But do I know him? Really know him, you know?
够了解吗 就这件事 Enough? For this?
天啊 Oh, god. Fuck.
你都到哪喝酒 Where's a drink when you need it?
怎么找我来这种地方 Why did you bring me to this place?
知道吗 我哪知啊 You know what? I don't know.
吃蛋糕吧 For some cake?
好啊 下次找间酒吧 OK, fine. We'll go to a pub next time.
叫两杯大伏特加 然后敲定一切 Have two big vodkas. And then we'll sort it all out.
如果你可以的话 Well... if you're allowed.
可以的话 Allowed?
那害不到我 It's definitely not gonna kill me.
卡车洗得够干净了吧 麦可 Do you think you've cleaned that lorry enough, Michael?
我觉得很干净了 It looks very clean to me.
才不 还很脏 No. It's dirty.
来 头往后仰让我冲肥皂 OK, come on, lean your head back. I don't wanna get soap in your eyes.
就酱 That's it.
没有了 No more.
跟萝丝小姐说都没了 We can tell miss Rose they're all gone.
都死了 All dead.
不要用我的汤匙 No, don't use my spoon.
跟你说过这样很失礼 I told you it's rude.
还要 More.
我会再给你 但别喝我的 好吗 I'll get you more. Just please don't eat mine. OK?
不要 No!
Y老虎的脏了 不能再穿 The tiger ones are dirty. You can't wear them. The tiger ones are dirty. You can't wear them.
明天再洗 现在很晚了 We'll wash them tomorrow. Now it's late. We'll wash them tomorrow. Now it's late.
麦可 拜托穿这个 Michael, put these on, please.
麦可 Michael!
麦可 先穿这新睡衣 Michael, put the new pyjamas on now.
想道歉才准出来 And don't come out of here until you're ready to say sorry.
卡车里放什么 What are you putting in that lorry there?
石头 Rocks.
不好的我都划掉 Yeah, so I've crossed out all the bad ones.
嗯 好的画星星 - Mm-hmm. - Put a star next to the good ones...
画问号的可能下次要修 and a question Mark next to the ones who, you know, do pay...
但只要随时注意一下 but just need a bit of reminding from time to time.
给你 Here.
如果还有问题 你有我的电话 So, if you have any more questions, you got my number.
我应该还会待一阵子 谢谢 太好了 - I should be on it for a little wee while. - Thanks. That's great.
你要出国吗 Are you going abroad?
是啊 Aye.
喔 忘了钥匙 Oh, here are the keys.
好好开 没什么大问题 If you look after her, she shouldn't let you down.
很好我会的 到时就知道 Brilliant. I will. I'll let you know how it goes.
喔 不好意思 差点忘掉 Oh, sorry, I almost forgot.
这给你 下周一以后再兑领 好吗 This is for you. But don't cash it until next Monday, OK?
谢谢 祝你好运 - Cheers. - Wish me luck!
好好开 Keep her lit.
就像金龟子 剩下身体 Like the beetle... left its body,
但现在在树林里到处飞 but is now flying around the forest...
很快有一天 One day soon...
你爸会离开他的身体 Your daddy will leave his body...
但会永远在你身边 But will always be around you...
在空中 in the air.
像汽球在空中 Like the balloon in the sky?
对 Yes.
你看不见我 You won't see me,
但你可以跟我说话 我听得到 but you can talk to me... And I'll listen.
你听不到我像现在说话 但是 And you won't hear me like you hear me now... but...
你心里听得到 You'll hear me inside you.
心里 嗯 - Inside? - Mm-hmm.
因为我永远都在你身边 Cos I will always be with you...
在你周围的空气中 In the air around you...
在阳光下温暖你 And in the sunshine that warms you.
下雨也是吗 And the rain?
没错 下雨也是 让你湿答答 Aye... and the rain that gets you wet.
葡萄也是 And the grapes?
没错 Yes.
我也会在那 I'll be there too.
不再葡萄里面 Not in the grape,
但在味道里 but in the taste of it.
是吗 Mmm?
嗨 约翰 Hi, John.
嗨 麦可 很高兴又见面了 Hi, Michael. It's so lovely to see you again.