嘿，大家都是志愿者， 这已经很久了 hey everybody volunteer it's been a long
很长一段时间我想说这是一年 long time I want to say it's been a year
但实际上它接近一年了 but really it's closer to almost a year
自从我上次制作视频以来已经有一半了 and a half since I've last made a video
我已经差不多一年了 and it's been about a year since I've
也发布了几乎没有的东西 also posted anything pretty much not
只是社交媒体只是在任何地方 just social media but just anywhere on
网络所以我一直在消失 the web so I've I've been disappearing
之前但我真的消失了 before but I really disappeared this
时间和往常一样，我真的很抱歉球员 time and as usual I'm really sorry guys
这绝不是我计划的事情 this is never something I planned but
它只是几乎成为的东西 it's just something that almost becomes
当我发现 某事 时，这是必要的 a necessity when I find out something
之前 我不知道的事情让我感到惊讶 that I didn't know before that makes me
意识到还有多少工作要做 realize just how much more work there is
要做，真的是在短暂的 to be done and really after a short
闷闷期间就像男人一样，我不能 moping period of just like man I can't
相信我没有看到我不能 believe I didn't see that I can't
相信出了什么太明显了，我 believe that something so obvious that I
可以只清楚地看到现在是事 can just clearly see now is the thing
我应该最关注的 that I should have been most focused on
我应该真正开始 that I should have really started with
我希望我在我之前建造 that I wish that I had built before I
开始做什么我想， started doing anything else I wish that
这就是我，只要 我让做事情 that's how I did things as soon as I get
类似的东西之后我完成了 something like that and after I'm done
对没有这样做感到遗憾 feeling sorry about not having done it
并且没有其他答案但是 and there's just no other answer but
或者只是放弃或者只是放弃 either just giving it up or just getting
在它之后，真的在这一点上我 after it and really at this point I
不明白的方式退出，我只是 don't see a way to quit that I just that
不是一个选择，所以真的是如此 is not an option so really that's how
来 come
消失发生的原因是因为 disappearing happens it happens because
我找到的东西，是令人难以置信 I find out something that is incredibly
我没看到的非常重要 incredibly important that I did not see
在此之前，我没有意识到我必须这样做 before that I didn't realize I had to do
我甚至看不出哪个是 that I couldn't even see which is the
关于整体研究的部分内容 part about this whole studying by
你自己的事情让它变得如此棘手 yourself thing that makes it so tricky
在我们进入任何这些东西之前 before we get into any of that stuff
虽然我会尝试制作视频 though I'll try and make the video into
我将通过一些部分与您联系 two parts I'll talk you through some of
我意识到的更重要的事情 the bigger things that I've realized
我真的希望我做完了 that I really wish that I'd done from
一开始 the very start
我会跟你谈谈如何做 I'll talk to you a little bit about how
在你面前的东西 things that are right in front of you
你不能经常看到 因为 you can't really see oftentimes because
如果你还没有准备好它和你 if you're just not ready for it and you
没有 什么是一个足够大的视图 don't have a big enough view of what it
你是不是想要做到你不能真的 is you're trying to do you can't really
判断个人的重要性 judge the importance of individual
碎片，这就是错误发生的原因 pieces and that's why mistakes happen
经常过度学习某事或 very often of over learning something or
学习的东西，所以我会说 under learning something so I'll talk
你通过其中的一些事情 you through some of these things that
一直非常大，我和什么 have been really big for me and what
我去年一直在做 ，为什么 I've been doing in the last year and why
我不得不真的只是拉了回来摆脱 I had to really just pull back get rid
绝对一切， 但最重要的是什么 of absolutely everything but what's most
很重要然后我会告诉你一些 important and then I'll show you some
一起工作，这不会是什么惊人 work it's not gonna be anything amazing
一切都是工作 everything is pretty much a work in
进步但我变得越来越好 progress but I'm getting better and
这是真的那么我与后 that's really all that I'm after with
这整个过程对我而言都是如此 this whole entire process to me that's
最主要的是自己和自己 the main thing is working on myself and
有一种做法的做法 having a practice having something that
让我回来的每一天 keeps me coming back every single day
总是要求我做得更好 that always demands that I do better
它永远不会好，但不是一个 that it's never good enough but not in a
疯狂的绝望， 这是非常好的 crazy desperate it's very good enough
方式，但在我们需要的嘿男人 type of way but in a hey man we need to
我们需要更有组织，我们需要 we need to be more organized we need to
更严重的是我们需要做得更多 be more serious we need to be more
我们需要更好地做这件事 engaged we need to do this thing better
在我看来，这让你更好 which makes you better in my opinion as
一个人也有一些东西 a person as well having something to
每天都在奋斗， 所以给你一个 struggle through every day so give you a
如果你还没有看到其中一个，请快速回顾一下 quick recap if you haven't seen one of
我的视频之前或你不知道谁 my videos before or you don't know who
我到底是同一件事还是 the hell I am which is the same thing or
你忘记了我的一切 you've forgotten everything about me
因为我还没有张贴等长， since I haven't posted and so long and
2013年我决定要尝试 2013 I decided that I'm gonna try and
自学艺术我不知道 teach myself about art I had no idea
这在当时意味着什么 what that means at the time and looking
回到现在我确实看到我 back at it now I definitely see that I
我不知道我在做什么 have no idea what I'm doing actually
以为这会是一个人 thought that was gonna be some guy
在城镇附近搬运一个画架 carrying an easel around town and
画东西或绘画的东西或 painting things or drawing stuff or
无论我当时想象什么 whatever I was imagining at the time
我从来没有像小时候那样做过 I've never done it as a kid I had
绝对没有技能基础 absolutely no skill foundation
我什么都不懂 whatsoever I didn't understand how
东西结合在一起，我不知道如何 things fit together I had no idea how to
拍一张我永远不会拍的照片 make a picture I'd never made any
除了拍照之外的照片 pictures apart from just taking photos
比方说，我没有任何朋友说 let's say I didn't have any friends that
从来没有做过我没有 had ever done that I didn't have any
艺术家朋友，我没有向任何人 artist friends I didn't have anyone to
问我有点遗憾 ask things of I was kind of left to
搞清楚 figure out
由我自己这是怎么做的事情 by myself which is how had done things
几乎是永远真的所以它不是 pretty much forever really so it wasn't
真的是一件新事物而且它是唯一的 really a new thing and it was the only
选择那里我没办法去 option there was just no way I could go
我没有钱去上学 I didn't have any money to go to school
或者上课或任何这些东西 or take lessons or any of that stuff
我刚上大学所以我真的 I've just been to university so I really
如果我愿意，没有任何其他选择 didn't have any other option if I wanted
做到这一点，但只是教自己和 to do this but to just teach myself and
也是我真正的主要原因 also really the major reason why I was
做这件事是因为我真的 doing this thing is because I really
以为是我以为是 thought it was I thought it was
当我第一次开始时我不可能 impossible when I first started I had no
知道我是否可以学习或者没有我 idea whether I could learn or not I
从来没有做过任何事情 didn't I had never done anything before
我从来没有建立任何我没有的技能 I'd never built any skills I didn't
了解这些东西是如何工作的 understand how any of this stuff works
我去学校，我做的还行 I'd gone to school and I'd done okay at
学校然后我去了大学就是这样 school then I'd been to uni that's it
所以我写了论文，然后完成了 so I'd written essays and then done
这样的事我基本上已经完成了 things like that I've basically done
人们要我做的事情 things that people asked me to do they
被问到我，但我不知道如何 were asked of me but I had no idea how
这些东西转化为我永远不会 that stuff translates into I'd never
内置技能我不知道怎么回事 built skills I didn't know how that
东西要么涉及到任何东西，或 stuff is either related to anything or
什么你可以使用它 what you could use it for
没有那些东西，所以我没有 none of that stuff so I had no
体验建筑技能不知道是否 experience building skills no idea if
你需要人才或任何其他人才 you needed talent or any of the other
流言蜚语 popular things that are said about
任何类似的东西都可以采取 anything like can is it possible to take
您在是极坏的 东西 something that you're extremely bad at
并取得不错吧，这是基本 and get good at it that was basically
基本问题，如果是的话 the foundational question and if it's
可能而非不可能的方式 possible and not impossible the way that
我想在那之前还有什么 I thought before then what else is
可能所以它真的质疑了 possible so it's really questioning a
很多这样的事情，我已经长大了 lot of these things that I had grown up
与和思想是真实的，然后 with and thought were true and then
如果我错了， 还能看到其他什么 seeing what else really if I was wrong
我还能做些什么呢？ what else was I wrong about what can we
所以这一切都是如此，所以无论如何2013年 do with all this stuff so anyway 2013
决定自学艺术没有 decided to teach myself about art no
不知道我在做什么 experience no idea what I'm doing
几年以来我一直在努力工作 years in so since then I've worked every
单的日子，所以自2013年以来我一直在努力 single day so since 2013 I've worked on
这件事每天我都能答应你 this thing every day I can promise you
那么多 that much
现在我肯定没有去过 now I've definitely have not been
完美，以及我如何处理它和我 perfect and how I've worked on it and I
有很大的改进空间 have a lot of room for improvement on
组织纪律 organizing on discipline on
了解所有这些东西但是 understanding on all of that stuff but
真的当你不知道什么 really when you don't know what
你在做，你需要犯错误 you're doing you need to expect mistakes
作为这个过程的一部分，我的意思是 as part of the process I mean it's
如果你只是考虑一下常识 common sense if you just think about it
因为如果你没有人告诉你 because if you have no one to tell you
什么是高效和有效的再 what's efficient and effective then
真的， 你剩下的就是测试一个 really all you're left with is testing a
可能有一堆不同的假设 bunch of different hypotheses that may
或者可能不是实际的东西 or may not be the thing that actually
工作，你可能不会发现 works and you may not find out for quite
很长一段时间你都在做事 a long time when you're doing things by
你自己，因为你有没有反馈 yourself because you have no feedback
您唯一的反馈来自 the only feedback you have is from
你自己，但这仅限于多少 yourself but that's limited to how much
你明白你是什​​么 you understand what it is that you're
这样做的东西像美学是 doing so things like aesthetics being
能够看到一个图像并欣赏 able to look at an image and appreciate
什么是好的或什么是坏的我没有 what's good or what's bad I had none of
我正在看专业人士 that I was looking at what the pros were
像顶级职业选手那样做什么 doing like the top tier pros and what
他们分享了，我正在全力以赴 they were sharing and I was taking all
他们的课程和我在做所有的事情 their courses and I was doing all the
教程我以为我在做什么 tutorials I was I thought I was doing
所有正确的事情，但事情是 all the right things but the thing is
当你缺乏全局时，那又一次 that again when you lack the big picture
你真的不知道你是什么 you really have no idea what you're
想念你不断获取 missing you're constantly acquiring
事情， 但你不是真的 things but you're not really
如果你不理解它是什么 understanding what it is if you don't
如果你 和某人一起工作的话 have and if you're working with someone
如果有一位大师监督你的工作 if there's a master overseeing your work
那么它真的很容易为他们只是 then it's really easy for them to just
看到你知道嘿，你这样做但是 see you know hey you're doing this but
真的，你应该进去 really you're you should be going in
这个方向，你也失踪了 this direction and you're also missing
所有这些事情你甚至都知道 all these things and do you even know
关于这件事就像你一样 about this thing over here like even you
当你做的事情时，不要那样做 get none of that when you're doing stuff
在你自己和我看到人们推动 on your own and I've seen people push
回到自我对话和这意味着什么 back on self-talk and what that means
而自我思想就意味着我拥有 and self thought just means that I have
没人提问我不属于你 no one to ask things up I'm not part of
社区我不会去的地方 a community I don't go to a place where
我可以问别人并获得反馈 I can ask someone and get feedback yes
有互联网，但肯定的，如果你已经 there is the internet but yes if you've
也发布在互联网上我敢肯定 also posted on the internet I'm sure
你知道其他人也可以 that you know that anyone else can also
在互联网上发帖，以便变得可靠 post on the Internet so getting reliable
根据您的需求量身定做的反馈 feedback that is tailored to what you
想要，这不仅仅是某人的 want and it's not just either someone's
个人意见或他们的情感 personal opinion or their emotional
发泄或任何这些东西是 venting or any of that stuff is
很难获得反馈，这就是原因 difficult to get feedback that's why
我的意思是，人们为学校付钱 people pay for school obviously I mean
这就是你去找某人的观点 that's that's the view you go to someone
谁受过训练， 可以帮助你接受训练 who's trained to help you get trained so
自我教导并不仅仅意味着 self taught to me doesn't mean to just
在黑暗的房间里一起做的东西 be doing something in a dark room with
在某个地方没有窗户我没有全部拿走 no windows somewhere no I'm taking all
我可能会经历 的课程 the courses I can possibly go through
我正在研究一切 I'm studying everything
我可以从每个人那里得到更多 I can from everyone that's more
经验比我差不多 experienced than me which is almost
任何我正在读书的人我都在做 anyone I'm reading books I'm doing all
那东西，但它仍然不意味着 that stuff but it still doesn't mean
你了解这些是怎么回事 that you're understanding how these
件拼凑在一起，这是真的 pieces fit together and that was really
我去年最大的问题是 my biggest problem in the last year is
只是意识到这已经发生了 just realizing that this has happened
在此之前很多次我真的在做 many times before that I'm really doing
事情不按顺序然后我正在学习 things out of sequence then I'm learning
应该在第17点的东西 something that should be at point 17
让我们说，但我这样做是第一 let's say but I'm doing it as number one
， 我真的很缺乏了很多 and I'm really lacking a lot of the
应该是一两件事 things that should have been one two
三四五但我做1733 26:45 three four five but I do 1733 26:45
三，然后当我得到时我才意识到 three and then I realized when I get
3， 所有的纨绔子弟，我需要一个和两个 three that all dude I need one and two
四，五，然后从那时开始 and four and five and then from then on
我去了十二点九十九岁然后我 I go fourteen twenty nine and then I
回来好吧让我们做十一点十二点 back up okay let's do ten eleven twelve
只是你发现什么是重要的 it's just you discover what's important
以及你需要学习的顺序 and what sequence you need to learn
你有时候去的东西 things in as you go sometimes just
因为我这样做的方式是 because the way that I'm doing this is
没有效率，效率不高 not efficient it's not efficient to be
如果你可以去学校，自学成才 self-taught if you can go to a school if
如果你，你周围有一所好学校 you have a good school around you if you
让人们谁正在做 的工作，是 have people who are doing work that are
提供给你，你想 available to you that you would like to
做类似的工作绝对是 do similar work to there's absolutely
1000％，但如果你没有 1000% go for it but if you don't have a
选择，你被迫做的事情 choice and you're forced to do things in
我正在做的事情，然后以同样的方式 the same way that I'm doing things then
希望渠道至少有一些 hopefully the channel at least the some
如果你看到改进，学位会帮助你 degree helps you if you see improvement
在我的工作当然那是 in my work then of course that's
绝对是你也可以做的事情 definitely something that you can also
进入你的工作，所以我想要善良 get in your work so I'm trying to kind
因为这一切都在匆匆忙忙 of rush through this whole thing because
我不确定我什么时候制作另一个 I'm not sure when I'm making another
视频我不确定是什么以及如何 video I'm not really sure what and how
我要处理社交媒体 I'm gonna handle social media for the
那一刻我会试着找到你 moment I'm gonna just try and get you
通过带你通过你知道一些 through carry you through you know some
这些东西我所学到 of these things that I've learned
希望给你一些虐待和 hopefully give you something abuse and
也不需要两个小时才能完成 also not take two hours to go through
所以我所发现的一切都是2017年 everything so what I discovered so 2017
九月是我做完最后一次的时候 September is when I'm I made my last
视频20月10日是我签名的时候 video 20 17th October is when I signed
为新的硕士学院 up for new masters Academy
我开始看着史蒂夫休斯顿 and I started looking at Steve Houston
和格兰维尔单线格兰维尔泳池 and Glanville pool at singlet Glanville
之前的游泳池，我真的没有 pool before and I really didn't
明白他在教我什么 understand what he was teaching I
无法理解背后的语言 couldn't understand the language behind
他说的一些事情 some of the things that he says for
例如他有这一件事 instance there's this one thing that he
我几乎第一次看到他的演讲 I first saw a lecture from him almost
十年前我之前甚至 ten years ago before I was even
对绘画或其中任何一种感兴趣 interested in drawing or any of that
那里只有一个人画画 stuff there was just a guy drawing
事情和我只是看着他和 things and I was just looking at him and
我记得他会说出像感觉一样的东西 I remember he would say things like feel
你知道的后背就像你会采取的那样 the back you know like you would take
他的铅笔， 只是画出一个人物 his pencil and just draw a figure from
想象力在一张纸和他 imagination on a piece of paper and he
只会说我感觉到了我的背影 would just say I'm feeling the back I'm
感觉胸部我感觉腿部 feeling the chest I'm feeling the leg
这个和那个骨盆的拉力 the pull of the pelvis this and that and
我只是坐在那里看着它 I was just sitting there looking at it
就像我一样，如果我能感受到自己的感觉 like do like I can feel my own back if I
去健身房，也许我会觉得我的背我 go to the gym maybe I'd feel my back I
现在可以感觉到我的背影我不知道 can feel my back right now I don't know
你是如何感受到某种东西的背影 how you're feeling the back of something
在一张纸上不存在我 that doesn't exist on a piece of paper I
不知道你有什么感觉我 don't know what back you're feeling I
不能连我自己都不知道，我不 can't even I don't know I don't
明白所以我没有得到它和四个 understand so I didn't get it and four
多年后，我仍然没有得到它和它 years after I still didn't get it and it
真的，它真的没有点击他 really it really didn't click what he
在做，他是怎么 做的，直到 was doing and how he was doing it until
我想我自己的发展有点 I guess my own development was a bit
更进一步见到史蒂夫休斯顿 further ahead so seeing Steve Houston
看到他画的真的是什么 and seeing him paint was really what
睁开眼睛看什么画 opened my eyes as to what painting
真的是如何绘画和绘画 really is and how drawing and painting
他们本质上是一种融合的技巧 are essentially a fused skill they're
同样的事情或者至少有一个是真的 the same thing or at least one is really
依赖于他们本质上 dependent upon they're essentially
当你画画时，它们会融合在一起 they're fused when you're painting
你也画画，当你的时候 you're also drawing and when you're
画你有点思考 drawing you're kind of thinking through
形式，并且是要去重复 form and which is gonna be repeated
再次当你在以后画画的时候 again when you're painting later on so
他们真的可以分开但是 they really they can be separated but
他们也融合成这样 they also get fused into like this
更大的规模， 我不明白任何 bigger scale I didn't understand any of
我第一次学习 时那些东西 that stuff when I was first learning
关于概念艺术和设计等等 about concept art and designing and all
那东西我在看什么人 that stuff I was looking at what people
正在做的和他们的方法和 were doing and their methods and
技术，我不是真的 techniques and I wasn't really
了解什么是基础 understanding what is the foundation of
所有这些东西，我只是看着 all that stuff and I was just looking at
基本上你从做什么得到 essentially what you get from doing a
某些事情，所以你得到的图纸 certain thing so with a drawing you get
这就是我的想法 line and that was my thinking you get
然后我想好了什么 line and then I thought well what's the
当我可以做3d时获得线的点 point of getting line when I can do 3d
这会让我有一个表面和 and that would get me a surface and
照明和我可以滚动的3D模型 lighting and a 3d model that I can roll
和所有的东西所以我想3d and all the stuff with so I thought 3d
优于我认为，对于一个 was superior I thought that for a
抨击是优越的我认为他们 bashing was superior I thought that they
更快更好，更有效率 were quicker better and more efficient
我真的不懂的方式 ways I didn't really understand the
审美之间的区别 aesthetic between the difference between
绘画和摄影 paintings and photography
我想基本上是因为有 I thought essentially since there are
哑光绘画， 因为存在 matte paintings right since that exists
我认为这是最终目标，如果 I thought that that was the end goal if
如果画家可以画真实照片 if painters could paint photorealistic
清楚，快速的为什么他们不会 clear and quickly why would they not
照片bash为什么他们不仅仅是为什么 photo bash why will they not just why
将哑光绘画作为结束 would a matte painting not be the end
目标几乎所有艺术我没有 goal pretty much of all art I didn't
真正懂得任何事情如何 really understand anything about how to
设计一个如何思考边缘的图像 design an image how to think about edges
如何组织值如何分组 how to organize values how to group
事情我只是想更多的是 things I was just thinking more it's
更好的细节更好，我认为 better detail is better and I think that
这是很多人的陷阱 that's a pitfall that many many
开始的艺术家陷入其中是因为 beginning artists fall into it's because
你拥有所有这一切都是诱人的 it's it's seductive right you have all
这个细节，它是免费的，为什么会这样 this detail and it's for free why would
我不只是抓住建筑物为什么我 I not just grab a building why would I
不只是抓住一些树木或其他什么 not just grab some trees or whatever
让我们说或一个数字为什么我不会 let's say or a figure why would I not
把那东西放在那里真的 just put that thing there and really
它不是直到我看了很多 it's not until I looked at a lot more
艺术和我真的很有意识 art and I was really consciously
质疑我需要做什么 questioning what it is that I need to be
做什么比你知道什么更好 doing what is better you know and what
是什么让我有更好的形象 what makes for a better image and I was
实际上我会随时问人 actually asking people any time I will
能够接触到我要问的人 get access to someone I will be asking
它们是什么使得一个好的形象怎么样 them what makes for a good image how can
你区分这个和这个 you distinguish between this and this
那或他们会告诉我的 and that or they will tell me that
我做过的事情很糟糕，我会的 something I've done is bad and I will
问他们你知道怎么样的 ask them you know how come like what
会让它变得更好而他们却不会 would make it better and they wouldn't
必须能够表达和 necessarily be able to articulate and
回答很多这些事情是因为 answer a lot of these things because
那里有数以百计的微妙之处 there's so many hundreds of subtle
在顶部建造的小东西 little things that are built one on top
另外，让您的良好形象 of the other that make for a good image
它可能有一个主导的假设 that it could have a dominant let's say
形状设计或颜色可能是 shape design or or color might be the
主要的东西，但它仍然有很多 primary thing but it still has many many
许多其他需要工作的事情 many other things that need to work
在图像可以统一和良好之前 before the image can be unified and good
你可以指出一些事情说 and you can point to something and say
它是好的，因为它，但它 that it is good because of this but it
也需要虽然这些都是非常的 also needs although it's these are very
当你尝试时，复杂的问题 complicated questions when you're trying
打破局面，弄明白什么 to break things down and figure out what
这是所有图像的共性吗？ is it that's common about all images
什么是所有的共同点 what is it that's common about all of
这些不同的东西，因为我可以 these different things because if I can
找到潜在的 find the underlying
框架，然后我可以自己做 framework that I then I can make my own
图像更好，但如果一切都是 image is better but if everything is
如果摄影去照片，那就是偶然的 haphazard if photography goes and photo
抨击目标和绘画去和 bashing goals and painting goes and
程式化绘图去和油漆，如果 stylized drawing goes and paint and if
所有这些东西都在那里，如果 all of this stuff is there and if
有抽象的绘画和现实 there's abstract painting and realistic
绘画，并且在某些方面都很好 painting and and it's all good in some
然后， 我应该如何理解 way then how am I supposed to make sense
那又是什么什么是什么是好的 of that then what what is good what is
你知道你需要做的很糟糕 bad you know you need to make to at
至少能够理解这些 least be able to make sense of these
非常非常基本的事情，你可以 very very basic things before you can
从那里开始逻辑地建立起来 start logically building up from there
这样你就可以做出更好的工作，并避免 so you can make better work and avoid
做得更糟， 所以看到史蒂夫·休斯顿 making worse work so seeing Steve Huston
油漆真的睁开眼睛，什么 paint really open my eyes as to what
绘画是我能看到有人创作的 painting is I could see someone create
我认为应该是的东西 something that I thought is supposed to
我需要很长一段时间 take a pretty long period of time I
认为绘画本质上是 thought that drawing is just essentially
你正在寻找一些东西而你却是 you're looking at something and you're
测量，你知道吗？ measuring and you're you know to the
平面绘图，这是我的一种 flat drawing that was kind of my
想一想你的目标是什么 thinking about it that your goal is to
只是得到这个东西，所以你可以 just get this thing and so you can just
用绘画和填充形状 fill in the shapes with painting and
就是这是一种非常复杂的方式 that's it it was a very unrefined way of
思考什么是绘画和绘画 thinking about what drawing and painting
我真的无法欣赏他们 were I just couldn't appreciate them
更好，我不知道任何更好，所以当 better I didn't know any better so when
我看到有人能够做到 I saw someone who was able to do
我不知道的是 something that I didn't know was
可能我不知道可能 possible that I didn't know could be
完成，只是他的做法 done and just his method of doing stuff
真让我欣赏真相 really made me appreciate what the truth
绘画是它的实际用途和 of drawing is what it's actually for and
它是如何更好的方式比它更好 how it's way better it's way better than
我认为这是因为我只是 what I thought it is because when I just
想复制的东西和线 was thinking of copying things and lines
那只是机械无聊的工作 that was just mechanical boring work
那只是忙碌的工作，3d如何 that was just busy work and how is 3d
并不比那更好，但实际上 not better than that but when I actually
了解，绘制在很多的 understood that drawing is in a lot of
研究形成它的方式 ways the study of form it's the
理解 你所 拥有的对象 understanding of the object that you're
绘制它的分析它是真的 drawing it's analysis it's it's really
理解和欣赏生活 understanding and appreciating life in a
方法是你正在寻找的东西 way it's you're looking at something in
你的学习你正在关注它 your study you're paying attention to it
非常密切关注它是怎么回事 very close attention to how it was
形成了它的样子 formed to what it looks like exactly to
它是如何坐在你的某个位置的 how it sits in a certain location you
知道你拥有所有这些东西 know you have all of these things that
你需要把它想象成一个非常 you need to think of it becomes a very
很复杂我的意思是我绝对可以 complicated very I mean I can definitely
理解人们为什么欣赏 understand why people appreciate
图纸现在我以前不能，但现在 drawings now I couldn't before but now
我明白画得更好 that I understand drawing better I
欣赏它的方式更 appreciate it way more
我以前从未习惯过看图纸 I never used to look at drawings I just
我曾经认为他们只是善良 I used to think that they're just kind
未完成的工作或者无论如何我 of unfinished work or just anyway I
没有得到它我现在得到它我喜欢它 didn't get it I get it now I love it and
画也只是看他画画 painting also just seeing him paint
当我在五分钟左右前进 ahead in like five minutes or so when I
认为它应该花费数小时或 thought that it should take hours or
天还是你知道那些老主人 days or you know that old masters were
只是坐在那里几天和几周 just sitting there for days and weeks
几个月只是渲染一小块 and months just rendering a small piece
你知道什么叶子每一个 of something you know foliage every
小叶子和我认为的所有东西 little leaf and all that stuff I thought
这是怎么做的，我错了 that's how it was done and I was wrong
我很高兴自己错了 and I'm very happy that I was wrong
因为它是这样的方式更好的方式， because it's way way better the way that
我现在明白了，因为 I currently understand it because
绘画给了我现在的能力 drawing gives me the ability now to
实际上需要时间和学习的东西 actually take time and study something
仔细了解并欣赏 carefully understand it and appreciate
它，然后采取并能 it and then take that and be able to
后来应用它 ，也看它 apply it later on and also look at it
从美学的角度来看 from an aesthetic point of view and
花时间看它的形状 spend time with it look at the shapes
看看设计外观以及它们如何适合 look at the design look and how they fit
在一起，然后绘画现在是 together and then painting is now the
光学研究材料 study of light the study of materials
我依靠3d为我做的事情 things that I relied on 3d to do for me
它实际上做得不好或没有 that it was actually doing poorly or not
尽可能好，现在就是这样 as good as it could be done and now it's
我有机会坐下来 another opportunity for me to sit to
看看要欣赏它的东西 look at something to appreciate it to
理解为什么它的工作方式如何 understand why it works how it works to
看光看材料和 look at light to look at materials and
属性，只是研究更多的研究 properties and just study more study
更多的生活对我而言艺术总是如此 more of life which to me art has always
一直在欣赏生命 been the appreciation of what life is
喜欢但在技术方面我真的 like but in terms of technique I really
不知道怎么把这些融合在一起我 didn't know how to fuse these together I
不知道它是如何工作和意义 didn't know how it works and that sense
我以为最后的形象了 I thought that the final image the
产品类型只是说你想要的 product kind of just says what you would
想要它，但对我来说甚至更好 want it to say but to me even better
而不是过程本身 than that the process itself is
可以反映我的事情 something that can reflect that I do
意识到这些东西可能听起来有点 realize this stuff may sound a bit
目前抽象，但只是 abstract at the moment but there's just
没有更好的方法让我在20年解释它 no better way for me to explain it in 20
希望视频最多30分钟 hopefully 30 minutes max for the video
因为我们正在进行如此制作的最后一个视频 as we're going along so made last video
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了解更多关于绘制更多 understanding more about drawing more
关于绘画更多图片如何 about painting more about how images are
放在一起让它真的让我受益匪浅 put together it made it really made me
意识到 绘画的能力和 realize that the ability to draw and
涂料 paint
如果你想做概念艺术，如果 if you're wanting to do concept art if
如果你愿意，你想做插图 you wanted to do illustration if you're
使用3d作为基础无论什么技巧或 using 3d as a base whatever tricks or
任何你或你的技术 any of that stuff you or techniques you
可能正在使用任何顶尖人物 may be using from any of the top guys
和你可能见过的女孩 and girls that you may have seen if you
正在做你需要的同样的技术 are doing their same technique you need
在我看来， 有坚实的绘图和 in my opinion to have solid drawing and
因为你的绘画技巧 painting skills under your belt because
否则你就是无法修改 otherwise you just cannot modify
渲染器会给你的任何东西 anything a renderer will just give you
但是，如果你没有 something but if you don't have a
涌了上来一个不够好发展 welling up a well enough developed
美感和欣赏 aesthetic sense to appreciate and that
如果你通常会来自绘画 normally would come from painting if you
没有眼睛欣赏让我们 don't have the eye to appreciate let's
说照明材料是什么 say the lighting the materials what
什么可以被制服可能更好 could be better what could be subdued
在这里我们如何设计图像 over here how can we design the image
那些绘画会更好 better those would so drawing would
允许你说改变某些 allow you let's say to modify certain
也许你想要的东西 things that are that maybe you want to
如果你想要放入东西，请添加 add so if you want to put something in
如果你想要拿出一些东西，如果你 if you want to take something out if you
我只是想直接吸引我 want to just literally drawing to me
现在的问题是基本能力 right now is essentially the ability to
操纵3d 空间 manipulate 3d space
在2d表面上就是这样的 on a 2d surface that's how it is it's
只是导航3d空间它能够 just navigating 3d space it's being able
要了解如何关闭多远它是 to understand how close how far it's
说什么东西在太空中 said where something sits in space
完全不同于所有其他事情 exactly apart from all the other things
我已经谈过它了 I already talked about it's also that
它只是服务于许多不同的 it's it just serves so many different
事物和绘画观察会 things and painting an observation would
真主会允许你看 Allah would allow you to look at
材料看颜色看 materials to look at color to look at
所有这些不同的东西来看待 all of these different things to look at
光明，真的能够批判性地 light and really be able to critically
看一下，看看是不是 look at something and see if it's been
如果它被相同的光源照亮 lit by the same light sources if it
匹配哪种方式面对什么光 matches which way it's facing what light
如果让我们说一个，它会得到吗？ would it be getting if it's let's say an
无论如何室外场景所以我去过 outdoor scene anyway so what I've been
从那时起我就是马上做的 doing since that time is I immediately
意识到我需要开始绘画 realize I need to get started on drawing
我需要画很多东西 that I need to draw a lot so on
Instagram 我开始这件事10,000 Instagram I started this thing 10,000
图纸和这个我开始画我 drawings and this I started drawing I
可以让我告诉你很多这些东西 can let me show you much of this stuff
所以我只保存了一些，所以我有 so I've saved only some so I have about
一千五百到两千 one and a half thousand to two thousand
这个文件夹中的图纸在这里你可以 drawings in this folder here and you can
看到一开始就什么都没有 see the very beginnings are nothing
令人印象深刻的相当差，只是五线谱 impressive pretty poor pretty just stave
不协调的做得不好的图纸和 uncoordinated poorly done drawings and
然后另外4,000在这里我只是 then another 4,000 over here I was just
绘制每天所有的时间 drawing everyday all the time
我可能会更多 as much as I possibly could just more
更多相同 more of the same
再也没有什么令人印象深刻 again nothing impressive just drawing
这个卷然后做了大部分数字 this volume and then did mostly figure
成千上万的图纸 for thousands and thousands of drawings
然后我想在这里也有一点 and then I guess at some point here also
做了一些其他的事情，但只是画画 done some other things but just drawing
和绘图，绘图和绘图 and drawing and drawing and drawing and
因为，我大约六千人停了下来 I stopped at about six thousand because
那时我意识到我需要 I realized at that time that I need to
开始做一些更仔细的图纸 start doing some more careful drawings
花更长的时间而没有任何 to take longer time and not have any
压力或刺激，喜欢尝试和获得 pressure or stimulus to like try and get
通过绘图更快，因为什么时候 through a drawing quicker because when
我在最冷的时候给图画编号 I'm numbering drawings in the coldest
10,000然后我不想要任何 10,000 then I didn't want to have any
有点压力来阻止绘画 sort of pressure to stop a drawing
早些时候我想拍一幅画 earlier I wanted to take one drawing and
这将是一个相同的时间 it would be the same amount of time as a
一百个绘图，否则 hundred drawing which would be otherwise
所以我只是停止计数和我 so I just I discontinued counting and I
转移到刚刚吸引更多的但 moved on to just drawing more but that
这一次我也有更好的分析 this time with better analysis I also
在研究中又做了一次解剖学研究 did another pass on anatomy at study
几年前解剖，但现在我也是 Anatomy years before but now when I also
拉过一点点我可以 had a little bit of drawing I could
明白为什么它是必要的，我 appreciate why it's necessary and that I
如果我，我不能只是拍照 couldn't just photo bash it in if I
不明白如何连接东西 didn't understand how to connect things
适当的，我也需要更好的 properly and I also needed a better
了解事物如何连接每一个 understanding of how things connect each
其他如何一起去，所以我很善良 other how they go together so I'm kind
只是向你展示这些漂亮的东西 of just showing you these in a pretty
现在很糟糕， 但是当我开始的时候 poor way right now but when when I start
向您展示一些您可以看到的图纸 showing you some drawings you get to see
他们更多的细节我只是想要你 them more detail I just wanted you to
看到音量，我记得一个 see the volume and I remember one
从你们一人说，发表评论 comment from one of you guys said that
他们发现了新闻纸，它就像 they discovered newsprint and it like
因图纸而挽救了他们的生命 saved in their life because of drawings
这不一定是珍贵的 didn't have to be precious anymore this
一切只是训练对我来说， 从字面上 is all just training to me it literally
只是训练我不需要保存 is just training I don't need to save
任何我都不需要的东西 anything I don't need to nothing's
珍贵， 因为最高可能 precious because the highest possible
对我来说价值就在于它学习它的 value for me is just its learning it's
做某事并改进它 doing something and improving at it
学习如何建立技能 learning about how to build skills
了解如何改变我的大脑 learning about how to change my brain
如何改变自己怎么做 how to transform myself how to do
我不能做的事情并且正在努力 something I couldn't do and work at it
和工作 and work
按照有组织的纪律方式 in a organized discipline way in order
开发它然后连接它 to develop it and to then connect it to
其他的事情， 并尝试做更多 other things and try and do it more
战略上所以我不得不这样做 strategically so I stopped having to
消失并与其他人不一致 disappear and be inconsistent with other
我正在做的事情，因为有些事情 things that I'm doing because something
只需要优先考虑因为 just needs to be prioritized because
它现在很关键，所以我想让我们展示一下 it's now critical so I guess let's show
你一些工作，我会继续努力去 you some work and I'll keep trying to go
对于视频中的一些内容 for some of these things video is
我很抱歉，我希望如此 getting long I'm sorry I do hope that
它虽然有用但我猜任何人 it's useful though and I guess anyone
那些不感兴趣的人可以停下来 that isn't interested could just stop
看，每当他们想这样 watching whenever they wanted to so
让我们继续前进并告诉你一些 let's move on then and show you some
工作得很好，让我们进入一些 work all right so let's get into some
工作中，我已经准备了一个时间线，你 work I've prepared a time line for you
伙计们，所以我们要从上到下 guys so we're going from top to bottom
罂粟，更糟糕的是我们从哪里开始 poppy and worse where we start from
希望能够让我变得更好 bottom hopefully getting better and I
也只是想滚动你 also just want to scroll you through
一些我一直在做的文件夹 some of the folders that I've been doing
与我以前现在保存的东西 with things that I've saved now before
我们开始了我只是想做一个 we get started I just want to make a
快速区分制作 quick distinction between making a
成品制作图像和 finished piece making an image and
现在练习我已经谈过这个了 practice now I've talked about this
之前，但我认为这对于 before but I think it's crucial for the
我要向你展示的背景 context of what I'm going to show you
因为我将成为 大多数事情 because most of the things that I'll be
向您展示我们的实践基本上90％ showing you our practice essentially 90%
我一直在做的一切 of everything that I've been doing in
过去的一年半已经过去了 the last year and a half has been
练习不同的东西学习 practicing different things studying
不同的东西，其余的10％ different things and 10% the rest of the
时间我一直在服用什么我 time I would have been taking what I'm
学习并试图把它变成一个 learning and trying to put it into a
件基本上对我来说是件好事 piece basically pieces to me are kind of
比如测试他们就是他们的游戏 like testing they're the game they're
你已经把你 先在实践上 after you've put in your practice on the
法院或在举重室然后你 court or in the weight room then you
采取你曾经的技能 take those skills that you've been
发展，你把它们拿出来 developing and you take them out in the
在游戏领域，你看你如何 field in the game and you see how you
玩你试着整合所有这些 play you try and integrate all of these
不同的事情对我来说很重要 different things it's important to me
如果你只练习 ，你会两个都做 that you do both if you practice only
那你真的不知道了 then you really don't get to find out
什么你吮吸你不要去 what you suck at you don't get to
整合所有这些不同的技能 integrate all of these various skills
你不会看到什么是射击 you don't get to see what's firing
正确的，什么不是真的 correctly and what isn't really making
感觉还没有，但如果你只是在做 sense yet but if you're only doing
片那么你永远不会允许 pieces then you're never allowing
你自己那个空间然后我必须赶去 yourself that space then I have to rush
通过一些东西，并想知道 through something and be wondering about
如何设计或思考 how to design something or thinking
关于一个故事 about a story
你需要实际让那些东西去 you need to actually let that stuff go
所以你可以专注于嘿，我实际上 so you can focus on hey am I actually
正确地描绘这个以便 portraying this correctly in order for
它能够讲述我的故事 it to be able to tell the story that I
想告诉很多 次的人谁 want to tell a lot of times people who
卡在细节中我的意思是 get stuck in details I mean that's the
初学者艺术品的一个陷阱 one of the pitfalls of beginner artwork
是我们将正确的细节和 is that we'll get right into detail and
我们不会真正考虑更大的问题 we won't really think about the bigger
形式或如何坐在透视或 forms or how that sits in perspective or
任何实际的东西 any of those things that are actually
更大的问题，我们将直接进入 bigger issues we'll just get right into
细节，因为它是这样 the detail because it's either so
铺天盖地左右激动人心得到 overwhelming or so exciting to get
开始向右上的东西它没有 started right on to that stuff it's no
惊讶于学习的过程 surprise that the process of learning
有类似的倾向 kind of has that same tendency for
人们他们只会看到一大堆 people they will just see a whole bunch
我们不知道 的事情，我们会 of things that we don't know and we'll
跳进他们然后我们就是 jump right into them and then we're
试图得到这个和那个，那就是 trying to get this and that and that's
是我的错误，我想做3D和CAD been my mistake I want to do 3d and CAD
和模型和渲染，并做到这一切 and model and render and do all this
东西，但油漆和照片bash和 stuff but also paint and photo bash and
我想做技术，但我也想做 I want to do tech but I also want to do
环境和其中一个角色 environment and one of the characters
我想以这种风格做到这一点但是 and I want to do it in this style but
这也很酷，所以你在看 also this is cool so you're looking at
所有这些细节，你不是真的 all these details and you're not really
看到嘿男人的大局 我 seeing the bigger picture of hey man I
只需要解决更大的问题 just need to get the bigger issues
正确的我需要绘制完成 correct I need to get the drawing done
需要获得我需要的价值 need to get the values working I need to
设计你需要看到的图像 design the image you need to see what
效果最好，那么你就不用担心 了 works best and then you worry about the
细节真的是我想在 这里做的 detail so really what I want to do here
我想给你一个更大的框架 is I want to give you a bigger framework
然后再介绍给你 and also then introduce to you the
这些大部分不同的细节 detail of the different pieces so mostly
我要向你展示的是练习和 what I'll be showing you is practice and
然后我也有几件我 then I also have a couple pieces that I
会告诉你们老实说 will show you guys that to be honest it
所有人都觉得有点小气但我真的 all feels kind of cringy but I really
没有理由隐藏任何东西，因为 have no reason to hide anything because
这就是我的改进感觉 that's what improvement feels like I'm
在那种 一个中间阶段，现在 in kind of an in-between stage right now
在哪里，我有点得到一些东西 where I'm kind of getting some things
但我真的没有得到很多的 but I'm really not getting a lot of
其他的事情，我还在努力 other things and I'm still trying to
把事情弄清楚了很多东西 figure things out so a lot of the stuff
感觉未完成，我只是不知道 feels unfinished and I just don't know
如何完成它所以我只是 how to finish it any better so I'm just
要把它拿给你，因为它是和我 gonna show it to you as it is and I'm
确定你对某些方式有这种感觉 sure you feel that way about some of
你自己的东西，这就是我的感受 your own stuff that's how I feel about
我的东西所以没有理由隐藏它 my stuff so there's no reason to hide it
因此，让我们开始吧，这是同类产品中 so let's get started this is kind of the
全过程的简要概述 brief overview of the whole process of
过去一年半，如果我去的话 the last year and a half so if I were to
只是给你快速版本 just give you the quick version it would
我们从这里开始 be we start here
一些第一线图纸 with some of the first line drawings
我做了一些第一个数字 that I did some of the first figure
因此我从未真正去过 drawing so I never really before
理解一个数字的原因 understood the reason for a figure
绘画，因为那里有爸爸的3D drawing because well there's dad's 3d
这里面的模型，你可以只 and there's models that you could just
字面上剪切和粘贴这么多 literally cut and paste so a lot of
概念艺术家就是这样做的 concept artists would just do that and
有些人甚至认为它是一个重点 some would even have it as a point of
他们刚刚找到了什么感到自豪 pride that they just found something
这完全适合所以我正在研究如何 that fits perfectly so I'm studying how
他们做的东西，我带他们的 they do stuff and I'm taking their
方法是更好的方法，因为 approach as the better approach because
我不知道什么，但后来当我 I don't know anything but then when I
我学到了更多，我意识到了他 learned a bit more I realized that him
并且实际上需要开发这些 and actually need to develop these
技能因为我要修改 skills because in order for me to modify
什么是我需要了解它如何 anything I need to understand how it
作品让我不得不开始做了很多的 works so I had to start doing a lot of
图画和我使用所以我不能 figure drawing and I used so I couldn't
平局所有我 不仅不知道 draw at all not only did I not know
解剖学和人物画 anatomy and figure drawing
我只是无法画画所以我使用了数字 I just couldn't draw so I used figure
作为一个挑战基本上是 drawing to as a challenge basically to
教我自己画画不仅是我 teach myself to draw so not only am i
了解这个数字我也是 learning about the figure I'm also
学习如何画出来的 learning about how to draw so there's
不同的技能你可以打破的越多 different skills the more you can break
你不知道究竟是什么 down what you don't know exactly the
更容易分开这些东西 easier it is to separate these things
然后单独训练他们 and train them individually and then put
他们像我说的那样回到了一起 them back together like I said you have
练习，然后你有一块 practice and then you have a piece that
你会练习所有这些东西 you would practice all this stuff on so
第一张图很可怕 first figure drawings pretty terrible
比例问题肯定差不多 proportion issues definitely on almost
所有这些但是这仍然是其中之一 all of them but still this is one of the
我第一次真正开始 first times that I was actually starting
考虑这个来自的量 to think about volume this came from
史蒂夫休斯顿和他的新教学 Steve Houston and his teaching at new
硕士学院我开始尝试 masters Academy I started trying to
把这些东西看作是卷而不是 think of these things as volumes and not
只是盲目地复制二维线条 just blindly copy two-dimensional lines
所以很多的体积，试图得到一些 so a lot of volume trying to get some
在这里和那里你可以看到手势 gesture here and there you can see when
它让我变得有点复杂 it gets a bit more complicated I make
你可以看到更多比例错误 more proportional mistakes you can see
这种躯干有点拉长 this torso is kind of elongated and
这是开始阶段 broken so this is the beginning stage
而且我会告诉你更多但我们会移动 and I'll show you more but then we move
就像我说的 那样 是压缩的 on like I said this is the compressed
版本，所以这是开始，这是 version so this is beginning this is
接近现在这样从一无所有到约 closer to now so from nothing to about
在这里，我不仅不能画东西 here and not only could I not draw stuff
我也真的不明白怎么做 I also really didn't understand how to
当我搬到不同的地方时会遮住东西 shade things when I moved to a different
中等， 所以当我想说试试 medium so when I would let's say try and
一切都会用铅笔做的东西 do stuff in pencil everything would
完全崩溃，因为它不是 completely break down because it wasn't
理解我应该是什么 understanding what I was supposed to be
这样做 doing so
听起来很奇怪，但现在只是 sounds weird saying that now but it just
我必须得到很多东西 had so many things that I had to get
通过我的大脑所以你是一年和一年 through my brain so are you a year and a
差不多一年半这么一年 half almost a year and a half so a year
在几个月内主要用于 in a couple months spent primarily on
借鉴绘画这是其中之一 drawing on painting this is one of the
大约一年左右的那些 ones that roughly about a year from this
所以这两个都是粗略的 moment so both of these are roughly
大约一年，这可能是关于耶 about a year this might be about yeah
这是一年多一点 this is about a year this is a little
从这里开始不到一年的时间 bit less than a year so from here to
在这里，当然，因为这是 here to here and of course since this is
这是浓缩版本 the condensed version this is the
所有成人画之间的这是 in-between of all adult drawing this is
如果你还没有看到前一部分 if you haven't seen the previous part of
视频这是另外6000张图纸 the video this is another 6,000 drawings
大致在这里和一大堆 roughly over here and a whole bunch of
在这些之间6000附图和 drawings in between those 6,000 and
这些然后在这里停止了 these and then stopped after here with
绘画和绘画花了一个 the drawing and the painting took a
小小的休息，然后学习一些CAD little break and then learn some CAD so
II想做一些高科技的东西，以及 I I wanted to do some tech stuff as well
所以学习了一些关于建模的知识 so learned a bit more about modeling a
关于与mori的 CAD建模的一点点 little bit about CAD modeling with mori
3d然后辛烷那么一些渲染为 3d and then octane so some rendering as
除此之外，这是一种 well on top of that and this is kind of
把事情放在一起就是这个 putting things together this is this was
就像六个月前一样开始 started like six months before it was
完了，就像我说你知道的那样 finished and like I said you know it
我觉得并没有真正感觉完成 doesn't really feel finished but I think
这只是时间放弃一些旧的 it's just time to drop some of these old
旧事物继续前进并开始 older things and move on and start
使新的东西，但这个决定一切 making new stuff but this is everything
当我说我的时候走到一起 coming together so when I said that I
意识到绘画的好处，如果 realized the benefit of drawing and if
画这些东西我还是我 painting of all that stuff I'm still I'm
不是说 我所做的一切 not saying that everything else that I
确实是浪费我不是说那个 did was a waste I'm not saying that the
3d是浪费或所有这些东西 3d was a waste or that all that stuff
没有价值我说是能够的 was worthless I'm saying that to be able
正确 使用这些工具你 to utilize those tools correctly you
真的需要有基础了 really need to have the base the
绘画和绘画的基础 foundation of drawing and painting
因为他们本质上就是这种能力 because they're essentially the ability
最直接地操纵图像3d to manipulate an image most directly 3d
需要你进去点击 would require you to go in and click on
指向并移动东西并单击检查 points and move things and click check
框和渲染和渲染和做 boxes and render and rerender and do
那些东西， 直到你的大脑被炒，但是 that stuff until your brain is fried but
你可以用绘画或绘画 with painting or drawing you can
字面上只是去那里，如果你 literally just go in there and if you
知道你正在做什么你可以解决 know what you're doing you can just fix
你的问题在十分之一的时间里 your problem in a tenth of the time that
如果你知道，它可能需要在3d中完成 it may take to do it in 3d if you know
你正在做什么， 也推动 what you're doing and also push
渲染3d会让你进入 to render that 3d would give you into
更现实或任何风格 either more realistic or whatever style
你想把它放进去， 所以它是一个 you would like to put it into so it's a
很多都带有美感 lot of it comes with the aesthetic
制定一些所需的开发 development that's required to make some
更好的关键决定可以 more better critical decisions okay so
让我们通过一些这方面的东西， let's go through some of this stuff and
告诉你更多， 所以这更多 show you a bit more so this is more of
那些第一张图纸就像我说的那样 those first drawings so like I said
这些是相隔数月和数月 these are months and months apart
任何时候你看到任何类型的 anytime that you see any type of
改善它真的已经好几个月了 improvement it's really been months so
你可以看到我实际上编号了这些 you can see I've actually numbered these
所以这是第一个出来，这只是 so these are the first ones this is just
在我开始10,000之前画画 drawing before I even started a 10,000
绘制的东西只是一些图纸和 drawing things so just some drawings and
然后可能是前100张图纸 then probably top 100 drawings later and
然后是几千张图纸 then a couple of thousand drawings later
所以仍然是一些比例问题我 so still some proportional issues I
认为这是一个非常关键的点 think this is a pretty crucial point to
让我觉得我也可能 make is that I think I've also probably
之间正在研究一些解剖学 been studying some Anatomy in between
那两个所以它不仅仅是画画 those two so it's not just drawing
绘图它不仅仅是关于 drawing drawing it's not just about
磨它不是做同样的事 grinding it's not about doing the same
你真的需要一遍又一遍 thing over and over you really need to
知道你的目标是什么 know what you're aiming for you need to
停下来， 真正计划和思考很多 stop and really plan and think a lot
关于你正在努力的是什么 about what it is that you're trying to
做，然后开始研磨更多 do and then start grinding more on it
因为如果你只是做同样的事情 because if you're just doing the same
一遍又一遍你不会 thing over and over you will not
你必须改进 necessarily be improving you might
实际上是训练错误所以它是 actually be training mistakes so it's
如果你在教学，这真的很重要 really important if you're teaching
自己给拉了回来，并定期 yourself to pull back periodically and
真的看你是怎么去的地方 really see how you're going and where
你带着2,600张图画进去了 you're headed so 2,600 drawings in and
仍有部分错误，但我猜一些 still portion mistakes but I guess some
事情变得更好但仍然 things are working better but still
所以需要大量工作近3000个 needs a lot of work almost 3,000 in so a
有点结构所以我想这些 bit of structure so I think at these
第一个我不认为我是偶数 first ones I don't think I was even
能够让我想到即便如此 capable of I think even so the thing
关于我去过的所有这些东西 about all this stuff that I've been
做的是我甚至不知道我是什么 doing is I didn't even know what I was
应该这样做，因为我在移动 supposed to do so as I was moving
通过成千上万的这些我也是 through thousands of these I'm also
看课，我正在看书和 watching lectures I'm reading books and
做 我正在看的所有东西 doing all that stuff I'm looking at
艺术品不断，所以我在看 artwork constantly so I'm looking at
其他人的东西我在看我的 other people's stuff I'm looking at my
我想弄清楚它是什么东西 stuff I'm trying to figure out what it
是我没有，你知道我 is that I don't have and you know like I
在绘画和绘画之前说 said before drawing and painting right
现在他们并不是指同样的事情 now they don't mean the same things to
我们在他们之前就已经做了 me anymore as they did before they they
带来更多意义的含义 come with so much more meaning meaning
那有那么多的事情， that there's so many more things that
带有绘制它的概念 come with the concept of drawing that it
现在意味着我需要了解一个 now means that I need to know about a
我需要研究的某些事情 certain thing that I need to study
我需要研究解剖学的结构 structure that I need to study anatomy
我需要改进我的观点 that I need to improve on my perspective
它带有所有这些东西 it comes with all of these things
而如果我说如果我说我画 whereas before if I if I said drawing I
只是意味着有一些东西 would just mean that there's something
那里，我需要翻译我的 there and I need to translate it on my
页面在这里，它完全没有 page over here and it completely did not
意味着它了 mean that anymore
在这个阶段，我也在整合 and by this stage I'm also incorporating
我在寻找结构的东西，所以 I'm looking for structure things that so
如果我从照片中画出来的话 if I'm drawing this from a photograph
每张图中都有 一些东西 there's certain things in each drawing
你可以看看它，看看 that you can kind of look at it and see
这个人在想什么 what the person was thinking so with
这些我并没有真正考虑细节 these I'm not really thinking of detail
我想的更大的群众 I'm thinking of the bigger masses of the
我正在思考音量，但有这些 ball I'm thinking volume but with these
我其实在想结构 I'm actually thinking of structure
因为我可以说我可以省略一个 because let's say I could have omitted a
很多这些东西，它仍然会 lot of these things and it still would
已读作头，但它不会 have read as a head but it wouldn't have
阅读作为一个结构化的头，所以好夫妻 read as a structured head so okay couple
几个月下来介绍一些 months down the line introducing some
价值， 就像我在尝试时说的那样 value and like I said when I was trying
想想让我们说铅笔阴影 to think of let's say a pencil shading
或类似的东西，它完全 or something like that it completely
因为我没有分崩离析 fell apart because I wasn't
了解阴影是什么 understanding what the shading was
应该像那样奇怪地沟通 supposed to communicate as weird as that
可能看起来当我试图做的事情 might seem when I was trying to do stuff
用铅笔像交叉孵化它 in pencil like cross hatching it
不会真正转化为公正 wouldn't really translate into just
想着光，我会思考 thinking about light I would be thinking
抽象地以一种奇怪的方式我 abstractly in in a weird type of way I
不会只是认为它是一个 wouldn't just be thinking that it's a
被光线击中的形式 form that's been hit by light and that's
我所描述的我并不是很确定 what I'm describing I wasn't really sure
我应该描述的是什么 what I was supposed to describe which is
是什么导致了很多倒酒者 what was leading to a lot of the pourer
图纸，所以你可以看到这些 drawings so you can see these are
可能还要几千分之一 probably a few thousand more apart so
这些开始看起来好一点 these are starting to look a bit better
我现在也在联合绘图 and I'm also coupling the drawing now
从我开始以来，有一些画作 with some painting so since I started
我做了一些价值渲染 doing some of the value renderings I've
也开始做一些绘画，因为 also started doing some painting because
就像我在第一部分提到的那样 like I mentioned in the first part of
视频画真的很棒 the video painting really gets really
现在与绘图交织在一起 intertwined with drawing now one thing
如果你正在研究光线，请确认 about if you're studying light make sure
不不，我可以很清楚地看到 to not don't I can pretty clearly see
这是我的意思是，如果我没有足够的 that this is I mean if I didn't have the
在这里我可能会参考 reference here I will probably be able
告诉我这是从一个 to tell that this is painted from a
照片而不是生命因为 photograph rather than life because of
我是如何推动你的亮点的 how I've pushed the highlights you
真的需要确保如果你是 really need to make sure that if you're
学习光，如果你正在学习 studying light and if you're studying to
你不仅要做一个更好的画家 be a better painter you have to not only
从照片中画画，但你真的 paint from photographs but you really
需要到外面去，你需要设置 need to go outside you need to set up
你自己在家里的小材料设置 your own little material setup at home
然后打开它不亮的灯 and just turn on the light it's not
真的非常困难戴夫拉波萨说 really very difficult Dave Raposa said
他几乎学会了 that he pretty much learned
大多数他对光的了解但是 most of what he knows about light but
只是打开一盏台灯，看着 just turning on a desk lamp and looking
在它下面的东西，我已经完成了 at stuff underneath it and I've done
很多次他们需要做的事情 that many many times they need to do as
更多的绘画试图得到一个 many more more painting trying to get a
现在有点复杂 bit more complex now with just more
颜色的颜色我觉得这个 color color variety I think by this
可能是Craig Mullins的课程 point maybe Craig Mullins his course
出现在学校的ISM和那件事上 came out on school ISM and that thing
我所理解的也是关键 was also pivotal in what I understood
关于绘画和绘画和 about drawing and about painting and
这非常有帮助 that was incredibly helpful
所以， 只是了解更多 so yeah just understanding more so
从线开始不是真的 starting just with line not really
知道我在做什么建设 knowing what I'm doing building some
音量和一些阴影 volume and putting some shading on that
然后调整阴影和 volume then refining the shading and the
书本和绘图基本上是这样的 book and the drawing essentially so
能够更好地导航3D空间 being able to navigate 3d space better
我其实我认为这个家伙是打的 I've actually I think punched this guy's
嘴里一点点或者我有一点 mouth in a little bit or I have a bit of
用嘴巴这么好只是学习上遇到困难 trouble with mouths so okay just studies
对于电影和事物，我可以 for movies and things and I can kind of
告诉我这是来自电影和 tell that this is from a movie and and
这是从电影中还有这样你就可以 this is from a movie as well so you can
那种照明告诉那里 kind of tell by the lighting there the
价值观或照明所以当人们 values or the lighting so when people
有时说价值基本上是什么 sometimes say values essentially what
它们意味着很轻， 因为我曾经得到过 they mean is light because I used to get
批评让我们说出我的价值观 the critique let's say that my values
这是为了我的价值观还是我的 are this for my values or that and I'm
就像伙计我正在抄袭的是什么 like dude I'm copying exactly what's in
参考怎么可能我的价值观 the reference how could my values be off
但他们的意思是那个 but what they mean by that is that the
照明结构的图像是一个 lighting structure of the image is a
某种方式让你可以看到这一点 certain way so you can see this is
如果真的这么压缩 pretty compressed if this was actually
现实生活中可能会有更多 real life there will probably be more
光线在那里蹦蹦跳跳 light bouncing around there'll be
更轻的价值， 他们会更多 lighter values they'd be a lot more
点亮它就是这就是你的原因 light it's just that this is why you
需要外出，也只是看看 need to go out and also just look at
事情，你看到我的一件事 things you see one of the things that I
当别人告诉我时， 我不明白 didn't understand when people tell me
我需要学习，我不会 that I need to study from I wouldn't
明白我不会的差异 understand the difference I wouldn't
理解为什么克雷格·穆林斯的研究 understand why study from Craig Mullins
现在这是以前的事情 now this is something that used to
真的很困惑我，现在仍然这样 really confuse me and still does this is
种什么，我在工作中 kind of what I'm working on at the
时刻之间取得了平衡 moment is striking a balance between
抽象和真实的东西 abstract and real and something that
真是搞砸了我的画 really messed me up with painting is
试图了解我是什么 trying to understand what it is that I'm
应该这样做，因为这是一个 supposed to do because this is an
惊人的画，但你也可以找到 amazing painting but you can also find
那里的画很紧 paintings that are really tight there
也是令人惊叹的画作， 所以我真的 are also amazing paintings so I really
我不知道我应该做什么 didn't know what I'm supposed to do am I
应该做所有这些疯狂的书呆子 supposed to do all this crazy brushy
东西，我应该把纹理 stuff and am I supposed to put texture
事情所以我 in things so I
记得我记得做过这项研究我 remember I remember doing this study I
记住这一天，我记得感觉 remember the day and I remember feeling
喜欢没关系，你知道我是那种 让 like okay you know I'm kind of getting
我得到的姿势就像那样 the gesture I'm getting like the the
绘画部分我感到高兴 drawing part I was feeling happy about
怎么样， 但我现在看着它 how it was going but I looking at it now
我可以看到我真的没有 I can kind of see that I really didn't
理解，仍然不画我不 understand and still don't paint I don't
很好地理解边缘，所以我 understand the edges well enough so I
虽然基本不明白 didn't understand just though the basic
图像制作的词汇量足够好 vocabulary of image making well enough
基本上可以玩它 to be able to play with it essentially
当你能够公正的时候，就会来玩 playing comes when you're able to just
基础知识如此根深蒂固等等 have the basics so well ingrained and so
训练有素，这就是为什么练习是如此 well trained which is why practice is so
重要的是你只是你自己 important that you're just you've
训练有素的这些东西到你的大脑如此 trained these things into your brain so
多，你能刚做的事情 much that you're able to just do things
而不是真的要考虑它 and not really have to think about it
并释放你的大脑专注于 and free up your brain to concentrate on
如果我是，那就像风格化一样 things like stylizing on so if I'm
担心绘图和如何 worried about the drawing and how the
透视将是与该 perspective would be and which the
如果我是这样的话，那么这个观点是不对的 perspective is off on this thing if I'm
思考17种不同的东西我 thinking about 17 different things I
也不能想想如何制作一个 can't also think about how to make a
更好的形象，但如果我的观点是 better image but if my perspective is
如果我的形状识别，训练有素 well trained if my shape recognition if
如果我训练有素，我的比例 my proportions if I've trained to look
在形状和区别时 at shapes and differentiate when one
形状越长越短或越小 shape is longer shorter or smaller when
有些东西可以设计出明智的设计 something works design wise and when it
如果我训练自己去做所有事情，那就不行了 doesn't if I've trained myself to do all
这些东西，然后它更容易然后 these things then it's much easier then
进入一幅画而不是 to go into a painting and not have to
想想所有这些事情 think about all of those things
经常但只是想想是什么 constantly but just think about what am
我应该做这个形象的事情 I supposed to do what's this image about
我想要它说什么呢，但更严格 what do I want it to say so but tighter
就像我说到这里我一样 so like I said up to here I just
那时主要做绘画 primarily did drawing and painting then
我花了大约两个月的时间来做一个 I took about two months I think to do a
一点点3d只是为了休息我 little bit of 3d just for a break I
想要做一些的东西，我 wanted to do some of that stuff and I
也想研究一些设计 also wanted to study some design
语言和类似的东西 language and different things like that
这是来自VitalyBulgari的方式 this is by the way from Vitaly Bulgari
他在艺术站做了一个课程 off he made a course on art station
masterclass20是一个20-18的大师班 masterclass 20 was a 20-18 masterclass
20 他们发布的第一个大师班 20 the first masterclass they released
所以这是继他的当然是 so this is following his course was
真的很好非常非常好，不只是为了 really good very very good not just for
软件和东西，但也为 software and things but also for
学习设计他有一个很棒的 learning about design he has a great
设计意义很棒的形状，所以非常 design sense great shapes so it was very
很高兴看到这个基本上这个 good to look at that so basically this
达到了 is up to about
我刚刚开始的一年多 most a year since I've started just with
绘画和绘画然后只是一些 drawing and painting and then just some
更像是在我停止尝试之前说的 more like I said before I stopped trying
快点做事，我开始做 to do things quickly and I started doing
在几天的时间里的事情 things over a period of a couple days
你可以看到我还在努力寻找 and you can see I'm still trying to find
纹理和抽象之间的平衡 a balance between texture and abstract
enos与更精致，我正在努力 enos versus more refined and I'm trying
也要经常思考立场 to also think constantly about position
光和事物的外观和方式 of light and how things would look and
什么颜色会在那里 ， 并 试图 what colors would be there and trying to
使事情不一定是副本 make things not necessarily as a copy so
我不是想直接复制东西 I'm not trying to copy things directly
但试图改变小事 but trying to to change small things
这里和那里 here and there
因此，更多的研究更加精细 so more studies more elaborate so this
我不可能画的人 guy I would not have been able to paint
在这个阶段，当我在这里 at this stage at when I was over here
某处，即使我可以画画 somewhere so even though I could paint
它画到一定程度，而我 and draw it to some degree while I was
在那里我真的不会有 over there I really would not have been
能够做到这个家伙好吧有一个 able to do this guy okay there was an
我知道这里失踪的形象 image that was missing here that I knew
我没有达到，这就是这样 I didn't get to and this is so this is
实践与实践的区别 the difference between practice and
项目所以这基本上是一个项目 project so this is essentially a project
这适合在这里，所以在 and this fits right about here so at the
一开始所以我只是在说话 very beginning so I was just talking to
你们这些 我是如何停止做的 you guys about how I stopped doing
事情很快， 并试图花更多钱 things quickly and tried to spend more
因为大部分时间都是因为时间 time on things so just because most of
这些东西看起来非常可怕 the stuff looked completely horrendous
并且只是在线和体积没有 and just in line and volume that doesn't
意味着这是最喜欢的，我 mean that this is like the best that I
我现在可以做， 我说 could do at the moment and I'm saying
因为如果你的作品看起来 that because if your work looks
像这样或类似的东西 something like this or similar to that
如果你花更多的时间在某事上 then if you spend more time on something
你绝对可以推动那件事 you could definitely push that thing
更像是因为你的练习 more so like just because your practice
看起来很可怕，但这并不意味着 looks horrible that doesn't mean that
你的项目处于同一水平 your projects are at that same level
你可能会在某事上做某事 your practice of something maybe at the
一开始就对我好 very beginning right so like for me
图法是我在很 figure drawing was I was at the very
开始但我有一个不同的基础 beginning but I had a base of different
我多年来一直在建立的技能 skills that I've been building for years
在那之前，我仍然可以拉 before that so I could still pull
一些东西，没有它 something off and not have it be
完全可怕但是 completely completely awful but
显然，我可以做的更多弱点 obviously the more weaknesses that I can
消除我可以提升的更多 eliminate the more that I can boost the
我做的其他一切的质量但是 quality of everything else that I do but
我正在做的一件事 one thing that I just am making a
这里的区别是， 很多次 distinction here is that a lot of times
人们会过早地停止喜欢 people will just stop prematurely like
他们会在大约五个或者一个地方停一块 they'll stop a piece in about five or
百分之十的 发展和一种外观 ten percent development and kind of look
在它，就像那样糟透了 at it and be like well that sucks like
这是我从来没有想这样做， that's I don't ever want to do that
这很糟糕，就像我吮吸我没有 that's terrible like I I suck I don't
知道我已经好几年，我这样做 know I've been doing this for years I'm
只是没有得到任何 just not getting any
看看这件事太可怕了 look at this thing it's horrible and
真的可以解决这个问题 really the solution to that could be as
你刚刚没有花钱，这很容易 easy as dude you just have not spent
你需要在这件事上有足够的时间 enough time on this thing as you need to
它花费自由能 be spending on it free to be able to
完善它所以这是一个常见的事情， refine it so that's a common thing that
可能会发生在同一水平 may happen so at this same level of
恐怖抽奖，如果你花了足够的钱 horror drawing if you do spend enough
时间在你仍然可以改进的东西上 time on something you could still refine
它很可能如果我只发布这个和 it so probably if I only posted this and
说这是我正在为你工作的 said this is what I'm working on you
可能不会认为这是 probably wouldn't think that this is
也可能在同一水平，我 also possible at that same level and I'm
真的说不是因为这是 really saying that not because this is
我说的很好， 因为你就是这样 great I'm saying that because you just
这是我多年来所做的事情 this is something I did for years I just
我没有在图像上花足够的时间 did not spend enough time on images I
真的可以花大约两倍 really could have spent about double
我是时候的三倍 triple quadruple the time that I was
花在我不知道的事情上 spending on things I just didn't know
我应该花那么多时间 that I should spend that much time on
东西，这来自很多 stuff and that comes from a lot of
视频和课程面向 videos and courses are geared towards
快速做事，人们会 doing things quickly and people will
加快速度，你有点喜欢我 speed things up and you kind of in my
观点至少得到了错觉， opinion at least get the illusion that
你应该全力以赴 you're supposed to do everything at full
速度不断，如果没有完成 speed constantly and if it's not done
在一个会话或一天，然后好的时间 within a session or a day then okay time
做下一件事，所以它只是停留 to do the next thing so it just stays
就这样，所以我和我一样 做这项研究 like that so I was doing this study as I
正在做那些其他数字和这个 was doing those other figures and this
差异就在于此 is the difference right this is where
你可以把所有的东西放进去 you get to put all your things in
练习就像我能得到的那样 practice like can I can I get the
手势可以让我获得比例 gestures can I get the proportions can I
得到所有的东西，然后我可以重复 get all the stuff and then can I repeat
它不仅仅是一个人物我能做到的 it so not just for one figure can I do
我可以为另一个人做这件事 it for another can I do it for another
而当我正在看它现在有一个 and when I'm looking at it now there's a
很多东西， 我的意思是边缘就像 lot of things that I mean edges are like
我说这些都是我刚刚做过的事情 I said these are things that I just did
当时没有，所以我会对待 not have at the time so I would treat
边缘不同，肯定是一个 edges differently there's definitely a
很多的颜色问题， 是 价值观 lot of color issues and values that are
不坐在他们应该坐的地方 not sitting where they should be sitting
所以这些是我现在能看到的东西 so these are things that I can see now
我当时看不到，但确实如此 that I just could not see then but does
这意味着它现在失败了 that mean that it's a failure now
因为我学到了很多东西 只是 because I learned a lot of stuff just by
做这件事，我会去 doing this thing and I would just go
现在，并解决一些问题 over it now and fix a few things and
推动一些东西，我可以 nudge some stuff around and I can
改进它所以它并不重要 improve it so it doesn't really matter
如果你的工作时间长了不好 if you're turning out bad work as long
当你继续工作， 因为有 as you keep working because there is
真的没有办法得到更好的 除了 really no way to get better apart from
只是大量的工作，我想我会 just a ton of work and I guess I'll just
真的让你完成文件夹 run you through the folders really
很快 quickly
我 只是试着向你展示 一对 I've just a couple just try and show you
一些卷的工作让你看到了 some of the volume work so you saw the
这六千个图纸 six thousand drawings that are and this
不是一切，所以这不是均匀的 isn't everything so this isn't even
这一切都已经完成它的 everything that that has been done it's
只是一些已经存在的东西 just some of the stuff that has been
保存但它只有数百个 saved but it's just hundreds and
数百种不同的东西 hundreds of different things and
希望你正看着这些 hopefully as you're looking at these
也许你会得到一些自己的想法 maybe you get some ideas for your own
练习或只是了解如何 practice or just get an idea of just how
我做的很多不同的事情 many different things I'm not doing the
你可以看到一遍又一遍 same thing over and over you can see
有一些价值研究， 就像 there's some value studies and just like
两个或三个不同的值和这个 two or three different values and this
来自nathan fox，也来自 comes from nathan fox and also from
Craig Mullins 在ISM学校开设了两门课程 Craig Mullins both courses at school ISM
那里的教师真的很棒 instructors there so really great
资源，帮助我所以这里有很多的 resources that helped me a lot so here's
一些3D渲染之类的东西 some 3d rendering and things like that
所以基本上我们从一开始就要去 so basically we're going from beginning
今年更接近你的一年 of the year to more towards the end you
可以看出我正在做一些解构 can see I was doing some deconstruction
所以这是fangs ooh设计，我愿意 so this is fangs ooh design and I would
只是使这些网格，只是我 just be making these grids and just I
会有不同的东西，我 would have different things that I'm
练，所以这是的事情之一 practicing so this is one of the things
我正在做对象解构 I was doing object deconstruction I was
试图获得一个表格，然后习惯 trying to get a form and just get used
使用更动态的摄像机角度 to more dynamic camera angles get used
为了缩短习惯真的 to for shortening get used to really
相反，建立透视的东西 building stuff in perspective rather
而不只是这样做和3d所以这是 than just doing it and 3d so this is
2018年所以绘画绘画价值研究 2018 so painting drawing value studies
尝试一些尝试不同的颜色 trying some color trying different
推动某些事物绘画的东西 things pushing certain things painting
照片中的东西我以为记得 stuff from photos thinking I remember
这个只是试图建议 this one just trying to suggest
材料而不是姗姗来迟 materials and not do things belatedly
如不花太多时间为 like not spend too much time into
思考小事情我认为这是一个 thinking small things I think that's one
的真正的大事情，帮助我 of the really big things that helps me a
很多只是不要试图做太多 lot is just don't try and do too many
之类的东西真的只是打算去 things like literally just going to go
成为一个图像，只是改变一对夫妇 into an image and just change a couple
像我可以渲染亮点的东西 things like can i render the highlights
但 我可能 不会完全复制它们 but not copy them exactly can i maybe
我可以添加一点点改变相机 change the camera a little bit can i add
我可以做任何建筑物 a building can I do whatever
我可以这么小的东西吗？ can I just small little things so that
你不要压倒或打破你的 you don't overwhelm or break your
练习但仍然有新的东西 practice but still have something new
那你要介绍的 that you're trying to introduce
2018-2019让我们结束吧， 让我们来吧 2018-2019 let's wrap up so let's let's
做几件让我们给你看一些 do a couple pieces let's show you some
工作的，然后那将是它如此 of the work and then that'll be it so
它只是它每天基本上所以它是 it's just it's daily basically so it's
它是不变的， 但这就是那个 it's constant but that's what that's
我所追求的是这些都不是 what I'm after so none of these are
完成它基本上他们只是 finished it essentially they're just
更长的研究所以这是一张照片 longer studies so this is from a photo
由jing jinga zhang不知道怎么说 by jing jinga zhang no idea how to say
但她有一门学习课程 that but she had a course on learning
平方我花了几年前大 squared I took a couple years ago great
摄影所以只是想收紧 photography so just trying to tighten
事情想不呈现像 things up trying to not render like a
照片所以不要试图复制它 photograph so not trying to copy it
正是而是试图刚介绍 exactly but trying to introduce just
像我说的那样微小的变化而不是 small changes like I said and just not
试图做每一件小头发和事 trying to do every little hair and thing
像这里的一切是一个又一个 like that everything here's another one
这个是一个小小的，因为我不是 this one is a cringy one because i'm not
真的很确定如何完成它或什么 really sure how to finish it or what to
这样做是通过电影完成的 do with it this is done from a movie
框架， 我认为你可以告诉 frame and i think you can kind of tell
因为灯光非常平坦但是 because the lighting is pretty flat but
不确定如何完成它 not really sure how to finish it this is
我多年前做过的事情 something that I did years ago and it
非常平坦，我想我其实可以 was pretty flat I think I can actually
在此之前帮助，所以这是 help that before over here so this is
那时的照明是什么，我想 what the lighting was then and I thought
它有很多我想要的光 that it had a lot of light I was wanting
做直接光源的那种 to do a direct light source kind of but
我真的不明白怎么回事 I just really didn't understand how so
最后一部分同样的做法 part of that same practice over the last
一年半一直到刚刚 year and a half has been to just
更了解你这一点 understand light more this one you
已经看到了这一个也开始了 already saw so this one was also started
大约六个月前，然后我有点 about six months ago and then I kind of
推动它，因为我学到了更多的东西 pushed it as I learned a few more things
这个是一个我不是真的 this one is a cringy one I'm not really
确定如何完成它，这一个是 sure how to finish it and this one was
也是几年前开始的，而不是几年前 also started years ago not a years ago
是的，差不多一年半以前 yeah about a year and a half ago so
刚开始，但我还没有 started a while ago but I'm still not
确定如何解决某些事情和我 sure how to resolve certain things and I
我想我可以向你展示它们 think I'm showing them to you so I can
只需放下它们就可以继续前进了 just drop them and move on here's
另一个将于2017年开始 another one this will start at 2017 I
认为并没有真正有 think and didn't really have there was
在那里的月亮，但它真的没有 the moon in there but it really didn't
直接光或任何东西 have direct light or any of that stuff
而且它也是相当单调它 and it was also pretty monotonous it
所以没有太多的东西 didn't have too many things so all of
对我来说 这些都不是很脆弱 these are pretty crunchy for me none of
他们真的以任何方式解决了这个问题 them are really resolved in any way this
这是我想的一对 is something that's I guess a couple
几个月大了也只是想 months old as well just wanted to
练习一些绘图和一些 practice some of the drawing and some of
绘画，也把它种 the painting and also put it in kind of
这是一个关于图像的小故事 a little story of an image this is after
战斗然后就是这样 battle and then this is
我在告诉这个 3D中的CAD that CAD in 3d that I was telling this
同一个机器人只是在一个 that same robot just rendered in a
不同的姿势和更多的一个 different pose and with a bit more of a
故事就 在这里和 那个人一样 story here's that same guy over here and
就像他完全是3D所以它有一个 like as he's completely 3d so it's got a
在不同的夫妇不同的姿势 couple different poses on a different
点亮所有这些东西，我想是的 light all that stuff and I think that's
一切都是真的 everything that is really everything
因为这个视频几乎就像 because this video has been like almost
好吧，不是两个小时，它是关于一个 well not two hours it's been about an
小时和其他一些小时 hour hour and and some so that really is
一切都没有发生 everything nothing else has happened
从这个视频，因为它就是这样 since this video because it's just so
很久，如果有人设法坚持下去 long and if anyone managed to stick it
非常感谢你 ，我很抱歉 out thank you very much I'm sorry again
因为没有在身边但是就是这样 for not being around but it's just so
我做了很多 工作和 很多事情 much work and so many things that I
不断发现我吮吸 constantly discovered that I suck at
我甚至都不知道在哪里 that I didn't even know where things
我需要继续努力而且我会这样做 that I need to work on and I do I do
喜欢做YouTube我喜欢这样想 like doing YouTube I like to think that
我可以以某种方式帮助那些人 I can somehow help people that are
至少从某个时候开始，但我 starting at least at some point but I'm
当我真的时候也试着不说话 also trying not to speak when I really
不应该说我不只是在尝试 shouldn't be talking I'm not just trying
成为另一个正在谈论的人 to be another guy that's talking about
东西，因为YouTube 至少对我来说 stuff because YouTube for me at least
从您可以 去的地方去 went from a place that you could go and
你可以看到你知道你可以看到 you could see you know you could see
有些人他们正在做的事情 some people they were doing things that
令人印象深刻，而且你很酷 were impressive and and cool and you
我想这样做，但现在只是 want to do like that but now it's just
它充满了各种各样的东西 it's filled with all kinds of stuff
有人正在做事 there's people that are doing things
有人试图这样做 there's people that are trying to do
那些人失败了 things there's people that are failing
在事情上，我真的不应该 at things and I really don't to be
在这里谈论所有的人 someone that's on here talking all the
时间因为社交媒体鼓励 time because social media does encourage
你一直在说话但是在 that you talk all the time but at the
同时，无论是不能够 same time either not being able to
生产任何东西或没有任何东西 produce anything or not having anything
有价值的分享和只是做它 of value to share and just doing it for
谈话的缘故我觉得是浪费 the sake of talking I feel is a waste of
你的时间更糟糕，如果 your time which is way worse and also if
我引导某人走向错误的方向 I steer someone in the wrong direction
这可能是我的最后一件事 that's probably the last thing that I
我会想要这样做，这就是原因 would ever want to do so that's why
有时我不喜欢我 sometimes when I don't feel like I
应该说话我真的只是 should be talking I'd literally just
把自己拉开，我只是不说 pull myself away and I just don't say
我刚开始工作的任何事情，如果可以的话 anything I just get to work and if I can
做它，如果有什么，那么 do it and if there's anything then the
我生产的工作会做的 work I produce will kind of do the
如果有什么话，请跟我说 speaking for me if there's anything
值得一谈， 因为事情是 worth talking about because the thing is
很多时候我甚至都看不到 a lot of times I don't even see the
我有这样的缺点， 所以我可能正在谈论 flaws that I have so I might be talking
关于我想的事情 about something thinking that I figured
我得到了它，但事实是 it out that I got it but the truth is
我甚至不能看到我的工作是什么 that I can't even see my work for what
这是因为我没有足够的 it is because I just don't have enough
教育和足够批判的F education and F of a critical eye enough
认识到能判断它， understanding to be able to judge it so
我可能会说错话，但我 I might be saying the wrong things but I
我可能做错了什么 might be doing the wrong thing or I
可能正在这样做 might be doing it's just very
复杂的，当谈到 这样做 complicated when it comes to doing this
我的意思是它正在制作的东西 stuff I mean what it's just it's making
图片就是它只是拍照 pictures right it's just making pictures
这不是什么大不了的事情 it's not a big deal but to make
东西是不是一个非常大的交易 something that's not a very big deal
花了很长时间，至少在我的 takes a long a long time at least in my
经验，这就是我现在理解的原因 experience which is why I understand now
为什么人们欣赏那些东西 why people appreciate the things that
其他人让我真的没有 other people make I really did not have
那个六年前我欣赏的时候 that appreciation six years ago when I
开始我会看一幅画和 started I would look at a drawing and
我真的不在乎 not really care I would look at
什么，我不会真的在乎 something and I wouldn't really care but
现在我知道有多少工作要做 now that I know how much work goes into
我更欣赏的一切 everything I am way more appreciative of
任何人做，因为是 anything that anyone makes because is
如果你告诉我 这很难 difficult it's hard this is if you told
我认为它会带我六年是 me that it will take me six years to be
让我们说更高级别的初学者或者 what let's say higher-level beginner or
你知道中级初学者是否 you know intermediate beginner ish if
你告诉我，我会说话，我会告诉你 you told me that I will talk I will told
你疯了我想我什么时候 you you're crazy I thought when I
大概在两三个之内开始 started that within about two or three
多年来，我会在 最上方 years I would be at the very top of
不管是什么，我甚至都不知道 whatever it is that I didn't even know
当时的顶级是什么，因为我 what the top was at the time because I
甚至都不知道我在爬什么 didn't even know what I was climbing so
那个时候完全误会了 at that time complete misunderstanding
任何事情，这需要 of anything that this entails
关于某事的日常工作 of a consistent daily work on something
并试图推动每一个和 and trying to push it forward each and
每天都是如此 every day so for people that are
起步是真的不知道 starting out that are really not sure
什么东西应该采取或 how long something's supposed to take or
我花了太长时间还是花了我 am i taking too long or am i spending
我会花太多时间在这件作品上 too much time on this piece I would
可能会说无论你估计什么 probably say that whatever your estimate
是为了工作只是两倍或 is for the work just double that or
三倍我认为这几乎是一个 triple it I think that's pretty much a
规则不仅适用于艺术，也适用于艺术 rule not just for art that's for how
一个企业需要长期发展或 long a business would take to develop or
我的工作需要多长时间 just how long a job would take I
记得当我还是个孩子，现在我是 remember when I was a kid now I was
工作建设 working construction
有人会打电话给我，只是说 someone would call me over and just say
你能来30分钟我知道吗 can you come for 30 minutes and I knew
我知道那一天 ， 我的日子已经过去了 that my day was just gone I knew that
那是我可能要做的工作 that was the job I might be doing for
接下来的三天基本上都是这样的 the next three days basically so I'd
记得从我小时候就习惯了 remember ever since I was a kid I used
将其视为施工时间 to think of that as construction time
就像有人打电话给你三十岁 like someone calls you over and thirty
分钟就像一个时间胶囊就像 minutes is like a time capsule it's like
我会在那里为今年余下时间 I'll be there for the rest of the year
现在所以任何项目基本上都是采取行 now so any project essentially takes way
比你想象的还要长 longer than you think it would take
特别是如果你不知道你是什么 especially if you don't know what you're
做不出汗 doing don't sweat it
如果你仍然处于你的水平 if you're still at a level that you
不要以为你应该和你在一起 don't think you should be at and you've
在 你需要的X时间里待着它 been at it for X amount of time you need
你只需要不断寻找你 you just you need to keep looking you
不要只需要磨砺你需要 don't just need to grind you need to be
纪律严明，你需要做到 disciplined and you need to be
你确实需要每天工作 consistent you do need to work every day
但你不一定只是去 but you don't necessarily just go and
坚持你的头在同一个孔是 stick your head in the same hole that
你一直坚持每一个 you've been sticking it into every
一天，期待一些事情 single day and expect something
不同的发生你需要拉 different to happen you need to pull
你的头看看周围，看起来像 your head out look around and see like
好吧，我做了什么 okay what have I done
到目前为止，我没有考虑过什么 so far what have I not looked into have
我试过这个， 我找了一位导师 I tried this have I looked for a mentor
我有没有通过电子邮件发送给我的人 have I emailed someone have I read a
书我有没看过胶路 book have I looked at gum roads have I
看了不同的课程，但也许 looked at different courses but maybe
也看起来像在学校或 have also looked at like at school or a
可能会在这附近的老师 teacher that's around here that might
教我一些我注册的东西 teach me something have I signed up for
你知道的东西尝试不同的东西 something you know try different thing
如果它不工作尝试不同的事情 if it's not working try different things
如果它正在工作，那么继续这样做 if it is working then keep on doing it
而且是开放的，你需要 有 but also be open to you need to have
某种方式获得反馈 some sort of way to get feedback for
你需要记录下你需要的工作 your work you need to journal you need
不断寻找东西和 to constantly be looking for things and
扩展您的框架而不仅仅是我 expanding your framework and not just I
想你们那种把它到目前为止一切 think you guys kind of get it so far so
自从我做了一段时间以来已经很久了 it's been a long time since I've made a
视频这是一段相当长的视频作为 video it's been a pretty long video as
非常感谢你，如果你们 well thank you very much if you guys
坚持下去如果你这样做，请告诉我 stuck it out do let me know if you did
如果有什么东西帮助你让 我知道 let me know if something helped you let
我知道未来有什么可以帮助你 me know what can help you in the future
所以我不确定计划是什么 so I'm not really sure what the plans
适用于社交媒体或任何此类媒体 are for social media or any of that
此刻的东西，因为我真的 stuff at the moment because I really
需要更多的工作，对我在做什么，我 need to work more on what I'm doing I'm
无处接近我不去的地方 nowhere close to where not to where I
需要因为没有这样的地方 need to because there is no such place
不，我想是因为我 not to where I want to be because I
我真的不知道那是 什么 don't really know what that is but I
我需要做更多的工作 just need to get a lot more work done I
需要我更多地练习 need to I need to practice a lot more
东西多了很多 东西，我 things a lot more things that I'm
期待学会成为 looking forward to learning to being
能够做到的 able to do
并希望能够 再取 and hopefully to be able to then take
那并帮助正在开始的人 that and help people who are starting
谁在挣扎谁在想 out who are struggling who are wondering
如何处理这些我希望的东西 how to approach this stuff I'm hoping
在某些时候，我将能够拥有 that at some point I'll be able to have
关于正在开始的人的好建议 good advice on people who are starting
，因为很多人说， out because a lot of people say that
当他们开始时什么也没有 when they started there was nothing and
这就是为什么我真的很难顺利 that's why I was really difficult well
现在有东西一大堆 ，但 now there's a whole bunch of stuff but
这使得它更加困难 that makes it in a way even harder
因为现在你有这些噪音 because now you have all this noise
什么，我应该听你知道 about what should I listen to you know
有这么多不同的事情， there's so many different things that
你可以尝试有不同的 you could try there are different
接近或反对的方法和 approaches or contradicting approach and
每个人都说得对 everyone is saying everything right any
你找到的观点就会有15 viewpoint that you find there'll be 15
与那些有效的绝对相反 absolute contraries to that that do work
和不同的战术以不同的方式 and different tactics in different ways
做事但但至关重要的是什么 of doing things but what are the crucial
那些超越那个的东西会 things that would transcend that would
转化为任何媒介如何做到这一点 translate into any medium how to do that
你知道什么是基本的 you know what are just that the basic
技能基本原理和那些 skills basic fundamentals and those
事情很难提炼，因为 things are very hard to distill because
他们的原则，他们不仅仅是一个 their principles and they're not just a
您可以在图像中演示的技术 technique that you can demo in an image
很快那些是你真正的事情 quickly those are things that you really
需要坐下来深挖并尝试 need to sit down and dig deep and try
找到它们并做了很多研究 and find them and do a lot of research
并且我认为我们应该做很多事情 and do a lot of I think we should
可能在这里停下来 非常感谢你 probably stop here thank you very much
这些年来你的支持 for your support all of these years
非常感谢你的耐心等待 thank you very much for your patience
和我一起感谢你还是送我 with me thank you for still sending me
评论感谢您的留言 comments thank you for your messages
感谢您对我已经回复了邮件 thank you for the emails I've replied to
所有这些，但我想最后的事情是 all of those but I guess final thing is
当我失踪时， 我基本上签了名 when I disappeared I basically signed
出于所有社交媒体，所以我只是 out of all social media so I just
删除了所有我退出的应用程序 removed all the apps I signed out of
一切，我删除了所有电子邮件 everything and I removed all email
通知所以我没有收到 notification so I haven't received a
单一的社交媒体它是什么 single social media anything it was
其实你们的一个喊喊出来 actually one of you guys shout shout out
对我的男人Amil谁告诉我 to my man Amil who told me that
显然有人说我死了 apparently someone that said I was dead
某个地方所以发布的巨魔 somewhere so to the troll that posted
对于一些好的拖钓来说，这是一个公平竞争 that a fair play for some good trolling
但还没有兄弟我很享受这个东西 but not yet bro I'm enjoying this stuff
太多，现在我正忙着给奄奄一息 too much to be dying right now I'm busy
我得到的东西我喜欢我正在做的事情 I got stuff that I like that I'm doing
所以，直到下一次的家伙谢谢你 so until next time guys thank you for
一切 everything
继续努力不断变得更好 keep on working keep on getting better
任何人都可以变得更好 anyone can get better