真是个混蛋。他为什么要这么做？ What a jerk. Why would he do that?
如果他开口求我，我本会答应他的 I would have given him what he wanted if he had asked.
我早该起疑的。他分明就是这类人 I should have been suspicious. He had the right type for this.
混账东西 Bastard.
我怎会一年内沦落至此？ How did I get to this point in a year?
几个月前，我连男人是什么都不懂 A few months ago, I didn't even know what a man was.
米歇尔爱过我。我也爱过米歇尔 Michelle loved me. And I loved Michelle.
一切都始于去年九月 It all started in September of last year.
秋意渐近，但阳光仍有余温 Autumn was approaching, but the sun was still warm.
我当时是销售代表 I was working as a sales representative.
由于上午收获颇丰—— As the morning had been fruitful,
也就是签下了足够多的合同后 that is, when we had secured a number of contracts that we deemed sufficient,
我和同事喜欢去晒太阳 My colleague and I liked to come and lie in the sun.
我们的业务范围在东郊 Since our area is the eastern suburbs,
万塞讷森林离客户拜访点不远 the Bois de Vincennes was not far from the clients we visited.
想起公司时，我总浮现我们工作的画面 When I think of the company, I imagine us at work.
今早的业绩够我们享受这奢侈了，对吧？ Oh, with what we did this morning, we can afford that luxury, right?
我们是业内最棒的销售团队 We're the best sales team in the business.
你觉得这阳光够晒黑吗？ Do you think there's enough sun to get a tan?
可能不够。但至少能放 Oh, maybe not. But at least we can relax.
苏珊娜... Suzanne...
想看看漂亮的阴茎吗？ would you like to see a beautiful penis?
你疯了吗？ Are you crazy?
他不是那种人 He doesn't have that type.
难以置信！ I can't believe it!
这家伙疯了 This guy is crazy.
我的家伙很漂亮，你马上会看到它喷发 My cock is beautiful. You're going to see it spit.
别那样盯着他，这样才能摆脱他 Stop looking at him like that, it's the only way to get rid of him.
这是我第一次看到自己之外的阴茎 This is the first time I've seen a penis other than my own.
既然如此，把你的也掏出来 If that's the case, take yours out.
站他旁边，更好比较 Stand next to him, you'll be able to compare better.
别指望我当裁判 Don't count on me to referee.
你该揍得他屁滚尿流 You should beat the shit out of him.
哦，可他可能比我强壮 Oh, but maybe he's stronger than me.
这不是借口 That's no excuse.
当众手淫很刺激 It's good to jerk off in front of someone.
赶紧射完我们就别再提了 Well, just spit it out so we don't have to talk about it anymore.
你完事没？ Are you done yet?
这人有点恶心 This guy is kind of disgusting.
他只是在清理，你以为呢？ He's just cleaning himself up, what do you think?
表演结束了，我们回办公室吧 Maybe we can go back to the office, now that the show is over.
这种暴露癖可教不会我喜欢男人 I have to say, this kind of exhibitionism isn't going to teach me how to like men.
啊，我们并非都这么平庸 Ah, we're not all ordinary.
幸好如此 Fortunately.
我肯定他想勾引你 I'm sure he wants to hit on you.
谁？ Who?
你那个男同事？ The man you work with?
不，他不是那种人！ No, he's not like that!
我确信他喜欢你 I'm sure he likes you.
你怎么知道？你又不了解他 How do you know that? You don't know him.
我了解男人 I know men.
你无法忍受我整天和别人在一起 You can't stand the thought of me spending my days with anyone but you.
总之他对我没机会 Anyway, he doesn't stand a chance with me.
我现在不会改变，但是... I'm not going to change now, but...
和男人睡一觉也无妨 it wouldn't hurt to sleep with a man.
为什么这么说？ Why do you say that?
因为这是事实 Because it's the truth.
为什么说"和男人睡觉"而不是"和男人做爱"？ Why do you say "sleep with a man" and not "fuck a man"?
我说了吗？ Did I say that?
我没注意 I wasn't paying attention.
几周后，当一切毫无征兆时... A few weeks later, when nothing seemed to predict it...
米歇尔为个男孩离开了我 Michelle left me for a boy.
我彻底孤独了 I found myself completely alone.
我们没什么朋友 We didn't have many friends.
被抛弃很难受 It's hard to be abandoned.
但最痛苦的是想象别人的幸福 But the hardest thing is to imagine other people's happiness.
我对男人一无所知 I didn't know anything about men.
我对阴茎和精液的唯一认知—— My only glimpse of penises and semen
来自那个暴露狂白痴的展示 was revealed to me by this exhibitionist idiot.
而这贱人正享受大餐呢 And meanwhile, this bitch enjoying herself a meal.
这段痛苦经历后不久 Some time after this painful ordeal,
我遇到了颠覆我人生的男人 I met the man who would turn my life upside down.
那天早晨，巴黎大区因公交罢工瘫痪—— That morning, the Paris region was paralyzed
公共交通瘫痪了 by a public transport strike.
不知怎么鬼使神差 I don't know what happened to me.
我停下了车 I stopped.
很高兴你停下了 I'm glad you stopped.
你去巴黎吗？ Are you going to Paris?
特恩广场 Place des Ternes.
能捎我一程吗？ Can you give me a ride?
所以我才停车 That's why I stopped.
罢工日我的起动机坏了 My starter motor failed on the day of the transport strike.
你真是我的曙光 You are the light of day.
别夸张 Don't exaggerate.
谢谢 Thank you.
我当然知道他的意图 Of course I knew what he was getting at.
但我太孤独了 But I was so lonely,
就接受了他的晚餐邀请 so I accepted his dinner invitation.
我们交换了电话号码 We exchanged phone numbers.
次日他来电约我再见面 The next day, he called me and suggested we go out again.
在慢餐厅，我不得不坦白性癖好 When we arrived at the Slow Restaurant, I had to tell him about my sexual tastes.
他并不惊讶 He didn't seem surprised,
依然对我很关注 while remaining attentive to me.
他很礼貌没试图撩我 It was polite of him not to try to flirt with me.
我欣赏这点 I appreciated his behavior.
交往一个月后 After a month of dating,
我们连接吻都没有过 We still hadn't shared a single kiss.
路易提议这次外出时 When Louis suggested this outing,
我完全没料到会发生什么 I had no idea what was going to happen.
如果我注意到有车尾随—— If I had noticed a car following us,
闪着车灯却不超车—— flashing their headlights at us but not trying to pass us.
我肯定会警觉 I certainly would have been concerned.
那晚之前 Until that night,
我们的约会都很传统 our evenings had been very conventional.
家常晚餐或餐厅，看电视或电影 A small dinner at home or going out to a restaurant, television or the movies.
突然的林中漫步改变了一切 Suddenly, this walk in the woods was going to change everything.
在这个诡异世界，我将见识陌生的路易 In this disturbing world, I was about to discover an unknown Louis.
路易 Louis.
不 No.
让他们看看你的身体，这能撩动他们 Let me show them your body, it'll turn them on.
别发疯，路易 Don't be crazy, Louis.
让我取悦他们 Let me please them.
这些人可能很危险 But these people can be dangerous.
不，我熟悉这地方，我发誓 No, I know the area, I swear.
地方或许安全，但人不一定 The area maybe Ok, but not the guys.
天啊！ Oh my god!
太美了 It's so beautiful.
太棒了，太棒了 It's good, it's good, it's good.
很好，很好 It's good, it's good.
继续，继续 Go ahead, go ahead, go ahead.
继续啊 Go ahead, go ahead.
别停 Go ahead, go ahead.
哦对就是这样，继续 Oh yeah, that's good. Go on, go on.
哦是的，哦耶 Oh yes, oh yeah.
哦对 Oh yes.
再快点 Faster, faster.
再快些，我还要 Faster, I want more, I want some more.
快点，快点 Faster, faster.
好了好了 Okay, okay, okay.
继续啊别停 Go ahead, go ahead, go ahead, go ahead.
尚未有过肌肤之亲前 Before we had even exchanged our first caresses,
我和路易就决定同居了 Louis and I decided to live together.
同居一周后 We had been living together for a week,
路易带我去了小树林 when Louis took me for a walk in the woods.
我得回车边拿包 I have to go back down, I forgot my bag in the car.
明天再拿？ Will you pick it up tomorrow?
有些必需品在里面 I have some things I need.
要我去拿吗？ Do you want me to get it?
不必了 I don't think so.
我以为你怕停车场 I thought you were afraid of parking lots.
嗯，但这里不怕 Yeah, but not here.
随你便 As you wish.
一会儿见 See you in a minute.
我像母狗般趴着 On all fours like a bitch,
搜寻车身上那男人遗留的精液痕迹 I was looking for traces of sperm left by the wanker on the car's body.
当我发现可疑痕迹时 When I discovered a suspicious trace,
我无法抑制发情雌性的本能 I couldn't hold back my instincts as a female in heat.
你的包呢？ What about your bag?
我忘了拿 I forgot it.
在哪？ Where?
在车里 In the car.
我给你倒杯酒 I'll pour you a glass of wine.
路易斯做得很好 Louis did that very well.
他长时间爱抚我，就像女人会做的那样 He caressed me for a long time, as a woman might have done.
他试图把他的性器塞进我嘴里 He tried to put his sex into my mouth.
我害怕了，把他推开 I got scared and pushed him away.
他温柔地进入了我 He entered me, gently.
并不疼 It didn't hurt.
我的情人们经常把各种物体插入我的身体 My lovers often inserted various objects into my body.
哦，是的 Oh, yes.
我爱路易斯就像爱米歇尔一样深 I loved Louis as much as I loved Michelle.
我意识到我找到了完美的伴侣 I realized I had found the perfect partner for myself.
路易斯与我分享他所有的冒险 Louis shared all his adventures with me.
像许多资产阶级一样 Like many bourgeois people,
他喜欢混入比自己社会阶层低的圈子 He liked to mingle himself in social circles lower than his own.
你不太谨慎，外面能看到灯光 You're not very discreet, we can see the light outside.
你应该采取预防措施，你必须采取必要的预防措施 You should take precautions. You must take the necessary precautions.
不？ No?
这个时间？街上没人 At this hour? There's no one on the streets.
除了可能有些偷车贼 Except maybe some car thieves.
但他们对我们不感兴趣 But they're not interested in us.
我没忘记你 I haven't forgotten about you.
别忘了把瓶子递过来 Don't forget to pass the bottle.
悠着点。你，我了解你。 And take it easy. You, I know you.
那么，感觉如何？ So, how's it going?
很好。 It's good.
嘿，能递回来吗？ Hey, can you pass it back?
是啊，不错吧？ Yeah, nice, huh?
来吧，再给我一口 Come on, give me another hit.
我不认识你 I don't know you.
她是我妹妹 She's my little sister.
好了，开始吧 Okay, here we go.
嘿，给我一口，会很爽的，不可能 Hey, give me a hit, it'll be good, no way.
哦，好吧，嗯！ Oh, okay, eh!
我已经告诉过你了 I already told you.
太棒了 Excellent.
我不知道 I don't know.
你有烟吗？ Do you have any cigarettes?
啊，太好了，有 Ah, great, yeah.
你们为什么在这里见面？这地方很诡异 Why are you meeting here? It's creepy.
这里有中央供暖。 There's central heating.
不过你知道，这并不理想 However, as you know, it's not ideal.
谢谢 Thank you.
我的身体很冷 My body is cold.
我们在这里就像在家一样 We're at home here.
我早就听说过你 I've heard about you for a long time.
真的？ Really?
我非常钦佩你，知道吗？ I admire you a lot, you know?
但真的，欢迎你 But really, you're welcome.
别谦虚 Don't be modest.
我没有幻想 I have no illusions.
是我的钱吸引了你 It's my money that attracts you.
你知道你要参加甲级联赛了吧？ You know you're going to play in the first division, right?
你可以开始了 You can go ahead.
她有点新手，但是…… She's a bit of a beginner, but...
她是个真正的荡妇 She's a real slut.
他会被宠坏，对吧？ He's going to be spoiled, is he?
这是我的女孩，她很美 This is my girl, she's gorgeous.
你，过来 You, come here.
来吧，靠近点 Come on, come closer.
来吧，你要给我口交，过来 Come on, you're going to suck me. Come here.
来吧 Come on.
吸这个 Suck this.
我会帮你弄硬的 I'll get it up for you.
来吧，吸 Come on, suck.
就这样，继续 Like this, go for it.
进展很快 It's happening fast.
你看，这并不复杂 You see, it's not complicated.
继续 Go on.
你看够他了吗？ Are you done looking at him like that?
你怎么了？我以为你会更开放些 What's your problem? I thought you'd be more open-minded.
算了，现在不是时候 Forget it, this isn't the time.
这太扯了 This is bullshit.
你要甜点吗？ Would you like some dessert?
我想要冰淇淋 I'd like some ice cream.
我去下洗手间 I'm going to the bathroom.
我在这里处理 I'll take care of it here.
你是来洗手间抽烟的吗，像在学校那样？ Do you come to the bathroom to smoke, like at school?
是的，但你在找什么？ Yes, but what are you looking for?
你不相信运气吗？这不是很明显吗？ Don't you believe in luck? Isn't that obvious?
但是是的，但是是的 But yes, but yes.
不！ No!
安静，待在原地 Be quiet. Stay where you are.
痛苦能给你快感吗？ Does pain give you pleasure?
嘴巴一滑，就被烫了 A small slip of the mouth, and a burn.
先生，您还需要什么吗？ Would you like anything else, sir?
两份冰淇淋 Two ice creams.
现在我已经无法拒绝性爱了 Now I had become incapable of turning down a fuck.
现在我生活在男性的奴役之下 Now I lived in slavery to males.
我喜欢感受他们在我体内 I liked feeling them inside me.
我还得学习肛交 I still have to learn about sodomy.
路易斯从未提起过 Louis had never suggested it.
我以一种无法想象的方式发现了它 I discovered it in a way I could not have imagined.
陌生人未经我同意就上了我 Without asking my opinion, the stranger fucked me.
我们会再见面吗？ Will we meet again?
不会了 Not at all.
就这样我失去了路易斯，就像失去米歇尔一样 That's how I lost Louis, just as I had lost Michelle.
注定孤独的我决定不再为他人烦恼 Destined to be alone, I decided to stop worrying about other people.
我过去的爱人在哪里？ Where are my past lovers?
那些取悦我或拒绝我的人 You who pleased me or rejected me,
那些靠近又离开的人！ Who approached and who turned away!
那些取悦我又伤害我的人？ Who pleased me and who hurt me?
我寻找他已经很久了 I had been searching for him for a long time.
我常常以为找到了他 I often thought I had found him.
但我很快意识到事情并不顺利 But I soon realized that things weren't going well.
于是我继续寻找 So I searched again.
我已经无法抗拒男人了 I had become incapable of resisting a man.
我没有任何遗憾 I don't regret anything.
我痛苦过，爱过，活过 I have suffered, I have loved, I have lived.
我不希望一切在这里结束 I wouldn't want it all to end here.
我还有太多想知道的 There's still so much I want to know.
我利用路易斯的抛弃，摆脱了与过去最后的羁绊 I took advantage of Louis's abandonment to free myself from the last ties that bound me to my past.
我的新生活开始了 A new life has begun for me.
我以为我可以毫无限制和条件地拥抱我的激情 I thought I could embrace my passions without any restrictions or conditions.
我怎么会陷入这种境地？ How did I get into this situation?
我为什么要跟着这家伙？ Why did I follow this guy?
我撑不下去了 I'm not going to make it.
我在玩一场危险的游戏 I'm playing a tough game,
但感觉赌注下得很草率 But I feel like the bet is sloppy.
没事的，亲爱的 It's okay, darling.
医护人员说你几天后就能恢复 The paramedics said you'll be recovered in a few days.
路易斯？你在这儿？怎么可能？ Louis? You here? How is that possible?
因为这个 That's why.
如果发生意外，通知我 In case of an accident, notify me.
你记下了我的电话号码 And you wrote down my phone number.
哦，路易斯，别再离开我了 Oh, Louis, don't ever leave me again.