中譯：放晴娘的風鈴
不因盜賊其一被救深感絕望， 更不推定盜賊其二必受懲處
七歲時，我第一次嘗到了精液的味道。 I first tasted semen when I was seven years old.
沒什麼要說的嗎？ Nothing to say?
作為開場白，顯然很嚇人。 It's certainly a startling opening line.
什麼意思？你在諷刺我嗎？ What is that, irony?
不好意思。從頭來過吧。 I'm sorry. Let's start again.
你想和我說什麼？ What do you want to say to me?
我在此聆聽你要傾訴的一切。 I'm here to listen to whatever you have to say.
七歲時，我被一位牧師強暴了。 I was raped by a priest when I was seven years old.
法庭記錄裡寫，我的精神和肉體都受到了姦污。 Orally and anally as they say in the court reports.
持續了五年。五年間的每一天。 This went on for five years; every other day for five years.
我流了很多血，你可以想像的到，流了特別多。 I bled a lot, as you can imagine I bled a terrible amount.
- 你和別人說過這件事嗎？ - 我正在和你說啊！ - Have you spoken to anyone about this? - I'm speaking to you, now!
我是說，你有沒有尋求過專業幫助？ I mean, have you sought professional help?
為什麼？我能學會怎麼處理嗎？ 所以我能學會如何容忍？ Why? So I could learn how to cope? So that I could learn how to live with it?
也許我根本不像處理問題。 也許我根本不想學著去容忍。 Maybe I don't want to cope. Maybe I don't want to learn how to live with it.
你有提出正式控告嗎？ 有沒有作證？ Did you make a formal complaint? Did you testify?
他死了。 The man's dead.
我不知道說些什麼。 I don't know what to say to you.
對不起，我無法回答你。 I have no answer for you, I'm sorry.
就算他還活著又有什麼用呢？ What good would it do anyway if he were still alive?
殺一個混蛋有什麼意義？ What would be the point of killing the bastard?
一點也不新鮮。殺個壞牧師沒有意義。 That would be no news. There's no point in killing a bad priest.
殺個好牧師？會震驚世人的！ Killing a good one? That would be a shock!
他們不會明白是怎麼一回事。 They wouldn't know what to make of that.
我要殺了你，神父。 I'm going to kill you, Father.
因為你沒做錯什麼！ I'm going to kill you 'cause you've done nothing wrong!
因為你是無辜的。 I'm going to kill you because you're innocent.
但不是現在。 Not right now, though.
我會給你時間處理後事的。 I'll give you enough time to put your house in order.
願你與神相和。 Make your peace with God.
定在下週日吧。 Sunday week, let's say.
我會和你在那邊的沙灘見面，水邊處。 I'll meet you down by the beach, down by the water there.
週日殺牧師！挺不錯的。 Killing a priest on a Sunday! That'll be a good one.
沒什麼要說的嗎，神父？ Nothing to say to me, Father?
現在沒有。但是下週日我會想到的。 Not right now, no. But I'm sure I'll think of something by Sunday week.
- 基督之驅。 - 阿門。 - Body of Christ. - Amen.
喝得有點多了，米歇爾？ A little too much wine again，Micheal ?
對不起，神父。 Sorry, Father.
我懷疑這是不是你的某種策略。 I'm wondering is this some kind of ploy on your behalf.
策略，神父？ Ploy, Father?
我發現我的藏酒...最近消失了。 I've noticed my stocks of booze appear to be... somewhat diminished of late.
我懷疑這是不是你的某種策略？ I'm wondering is this some kind of ploy you're working?
來掩飾你在靜思時喝酒的事。 Cover up for the wine you've been imbibing on the Q.T.
我不知道您在說什麼。 利瑞神父沒發現問題。 I've no idea what you're talking about. Father Leary noticed nothing amiss.
利瑞神父沒我這麼瞭解你，米歇爾。 Father Leary does not know you as well as I do, Micheal.
你不太知道你的一肚子壞水。 He may well underestimate the depths of your Machiavellian chicanery.
我能走了嗎，神父？ Can I go now, Father?
著什麼急？黑手黨總部有集會嗎？ What's the hurry? Have they called a meeting at Mafia Headquarters?
走吧！ On your way!
最近在懺悔時聽到的話呀！ Things you hear in confession these days!
- 讓人鬱悶。 - 你不能把自己代入進去。 - It's depressing. - You have to detach yourself from it.
咱們是提供慰藉的。不能代入個人情感。 We're here to provide solace. Your personal feelings don't come into it.
我知道！你把我當成什麼啦？ I know that! What do you take me for?
但是很難啊。人們的生活太亂了。 It's difficult, though. The mess people make of their lives.
怎麼了？當然別說細節。 What's the problem? Without going into details, obviously.
長著大大的黑眼睛的女人，你見著她了嗎？ That woman with the big black eye, have you seen her?
- 維諾妮卡布瑞南。是的。 - 她就很奇怪。 - Veronica Brennan. Yeah. - She's an odd one.
她遇到的事情很怪。感覺想把你拉進溝裡。 Things she comes up with. Think she's trying to drag you down into the muck.
你知道什麼是「吸精」嗎？ Do you know what "felching" is?
我知道什麼是「吸精」。 I do know what "felching" is, yeah.
- 我還得查字典呢。 - 說好的不提細節呢？ - I had to look it up. - This is you not going into details?
不好意思。反正她遇到的問題一發不可收拾了。 Sorry. Anyway, whatever is wrong with her has obviously gotten out of hand.
她被打了。 She's got knocked around now.
如果你和她說這個事，她會暴怒的。 Well if you say it to her she'll raise holy hell.
懺悔的時候，聽聽她說什麼，再說。 Say it on the basis of something she said during confession.
我知道，我知道，不能那樣做。 I know, I know, we can't have that.
那娘們會被逐出教會的。 She could be excommunicated, the cow.
我會和她還有傑克聊聊。作為牧師的職責什麼的。 I'll have a word with her. Jack as well. Pastoral duties and what have you.
不談她懺悔的事。看看會怎樣。 Nothing to do with her confession. See what's going on.
那個有色人種，那個...烏干達人。 我覺得是她的情人之一。 That colored fellow, the... Ugandan. He's one of her lovers, I think.
西蒙是科特迪瓦來的。 Simon's from the Ivory Coast.
對。我知道不是那兒就是圭亞那 要麼就是某個非洲國家來的。 Right. I knew it was that or Guyana or one of those African countries.
圭亞那在南美。 Guyana is in South America.
我可不這麼覺得，神父。 我地理可好了。 Don't think so, Father. I was always pretty good at Geography.
不錯！ Not bad!
沒想到啊。 Surprisingly.
以為你就是瞎畫呢。 I was expecting a daub.
這倆人是誰？ Who are these two lads?
不知道。我讀了些鬼故事。 Don't know. I'm reading these ghost stories.
也許和鬼故事有關吧。 Maybe it's got something to do with that.
恐怖。 Spooky.
你知道是誰嗎？ So, did you know who it was?
我知道是誰。 Yes, I know who it was.
你瞭解他嗎？ Do you know him well?
很瞭解。 Well enough.
根據你的瞭解... 你認為他只是嚇唬你麼？ Knowing this man as you do... Do you think it was an idle threat?
我不知道。我不確定。 I don't know. I'm not sure.
如果你不確定， 那就可能不是鬧著玩。 If you're not sure, it means it's possible.
嗯，也許是吧。 Yes, I suppose.
你沒寬恕他吧？ You didn't grant him absolution, obviously?
他沒要求我寬恕。 He didn't ask for it.
那就明白了。他不是來懺悔的。 根本毫無悔意。 There you have it. The man is not penitent. There's no contrition.
他威脅你要犯罪，而不是請求寬恕。 He's threatening to commit a crime, not asking for forgiveness for one.
懺悔隱私神聖不可侵犯這一點就不成立了。 The inviolability of the sacramental seal does not apply.
你是說讓我報警嗎？ You're saying I should go to the police?
我可沒說，詹姆斯。 I'm not saying anything, James.
你來做決定。 The choice is yours.
別說你犯了個典型的錯誤。 Don't tell me, you made the classic error.
應該豎著割，不應該橫著。 You're supposed to cut down, not across.
這是布魯諾。 This is Bruno.
我總想要一輛紅色跑車。 And I always wanted a fast car, a red one.
我以為你度過中年危機了呢。 I thought you'd already had your midlife crisis?
你是位漂亮的年輕姑娘。 You're a very nice-looking young woman.
謝謝。 Thank you.
我喜歡你的領結。 I like your bow tie.
上頭有圓點。 It's got polka dots.
米羅，這是我女兒菲奧納。她從倫敦來。 This is my daughter Fiona, Milo. She's over from London.
- 你在戲弄我。 - 我沒有。 - You're having me on. - I'm not having you on.
- 但你是牧師啊。 - 我在成為牧師前結婚的。 - But you're a priest. - I was married before I became a priest.
我和我妻子生了孩子-菲奧娜。 我妻子去世了... My wife and I had a child - Fiona. My wife died...
然後我成為了神職人員。 and after that I joined the priesthood.
- 能這樣嗎？ - 看起來可以。 - You can do that, can you? - It would appear so.
別告訴我你犯了個典型的錯誤。 Don't tell me. You made the classic error.
- 我已經指引過她了，弗蘭克。 - 應該豎著割。 - I've already done that guide, Frank - You're supposed to cut down.
- 我說我已經做完了！ - 看看！ - I said I've already done it! - Now, now!
喝點烈酒吧。 Drop of the hard stuff for yourself.
為這位漂亮但是苦惱的小姐上個大杯的生命之泉... A generous serving of the old water of life for this beautiful, yet troubled...
滾開！ Fuck off!
嘴巴夠壞的。配上婊子，正合我意。 An exceedingly dotty mouth. I like that in a whore.
布蘭登，不是說這個的時候。 Brendan, now's not the time.
聽你的，神父。你做主。 Whatever you say, Father. You're the boss.
過得如何？ How's that working out for you?
- 我好久沒出門了。 - 好吧。 - I haven't been out in a good while. - So you say.
不是。我一直規規矩矩的。 別轉移話題。 No, no. I've been a very good lad. And don't change the subject.
什麼話題？ What was the subject?
- 你知道什麼話題。 - 爸爸，是為男人。男人，還能是什麼呢？ - You know what the subject was. - Oh, daddy, a man. A man, what else?
都快成習慣了，寶貝。 It's getting to be a habit, honey.
我知道。多可悲啊，我什麼都做不好。 I know. It's pathetic, I can't do anything right.
墨鏡不錯。 Nice shades.
像不像第一夫人？ Do they make me look like Jackie O?
不太像。 Not really.
你就為這個來的吧？多討厭啊，是吧？ This what you came to go about? Nasty, huh?
顏色不錯。 Interesting color.
人們說，如果你仔細尋找， 在所有事物中都能看到美。 They say you can find beauty in everything, if you look hard enough.
要我說，只能在大部分事物中尋到美。 And I'd say you can find beauty in most things.
不是所有。那是胡說八道。 Not everything. That's nonsense.
我怎麼會明白呢？我只是個老了的洗衣工。 What would I know? I'm just an old washer woman.
聽著，如果你不想和我說話，沒事。 Listen, if you don't want to talk to me, that's fine.
我不是來這逼你的。 I'm not here to compel you to do anything.
你可不知道，神父。也許我喜歡被人強迫呢。 也許我很享受。 You never know, Father. Maybe I'd like to be compelled. Maybe I'd enjoy it.
我會和傑克談談。看看他怎麼說。 I'll have a word with Jack. See what he has to say for himself.
大審判官？去自己聽聽吧。 Grand Inquisitor? Go and hear for yourself.
他肯定很高興有人對著他說教。 I'm sure he'll be only too pleased to have someone else to bore the ears off.
很早以前我就不聽他胡扯了。 I stopped listening to his old shite a long time ago.
是這樣嗎？對不起，我之前沒發現。 That's how it is, is it? I'm sorry, I didn't realize.
你以為我們是格蕾絲王妃和雷尼爾三世呢？ You thought we were another Grace Kelly and Prince Rainier?
我知道你們的婚姻不幸福。 但他們也是，所以這個類比不大好。 I know it wasn't a very happy marriage. So it's not a great analogy.
神父，你知道我一直喜歡你這點的。 You know that's what I've always liked about you, Father.
對這個郊區來說，你有點太犀利了。 You're just a little too sharp for this parish.
他是個好人。砍了兩個人的頭。 血濺得到處都是。 Fine fellow he was. Decapitated the two of them. Blood all over the place.
- 你好啊，神父。 - 傑克。 - Hi, Father. - Jack.
能和你談談嗎？私底下。 Could I have a word? In private.
聽著不妙啊。 Sounds ominous.
我的律師在哪兒呢？ Where's Johnnie Cochran when you need him?
我希望咱倆不是被關在這。 要不然得做愛才能取暖呢。 I hope we don't get locked in here. We'd have to make love to keep warm.
我和維諾妮卡談了談，傑克。 I had a word with Veronica, Jack.
在屋外是嗎？沒事吧？ Out at the house, are you? Is everything all right?
沒事。我是說，有事。 Everything's fine. I mean now, everything's not fine.
星期日彌撒的時候？墨鏡啊什麼的。 Mass on Sunday? With the shades and everything.
- 哦那件事。 - 嗯。 - Oh, that. - Yes, that.
你打的她？還是怎麼回事？ Are you laying into her or what's going on?
我沒對她不好。沒有。 是那個她正交往的黑人幹的。 I wasn't mean to her. No. That's that black fellow that she's been seeing.
我是說她正交往的那個有色人。 I mean that colored fellow she's been seeing.
我可不是種族歧視，只是說漏嘴了。 I didn't mean to be racist, that was a slip of the tongue.
- 你是說他打的她？ - 我就是這個意思。嗯。 - You're saying he beat her up? - That's what I'm assuming. Yeah.
她說話很難懂。我理解不了。 The way she speaks in riddles. I can't make any sense out of her.
我覺得她有狂躁症。要麼就是乳糖不耐。 兩個之一吧。 I think she's bipolar. Or lactose intolerant. One of the two.
神父，我已經不知道我倆怎麼樣。 I don't know where I am with her anymore, Father.
說實話，我挺高興她離開我的。 And if I'm honest with you, I'm kind of glad to have her off my hands.
即使這個人打她？ Even if this fellow is knocking her about?
和我有什麼關係！ What's it to do with me!
什麼？ What?
那是我不能承受之重！ Not everyone can carry the weight of the world!
- 那你的婚姻呢？你的誓言呢？ - 我的誓言！ - What about your marriage? The oaths you took? - The oaths I took!
聽著... Listen...
和那個人在一起，她更快樂了。更穩定。 She's happier, now that she's seeing him. A lot more settled down.
平靜多了。我也不再受監視了。 Like a lot calmer. And I'm not under surveillance anymore.
我想什麼時候回家都行。 I can just reel in at whatever time I like.
大家都很開心！有什麼不好？ So everybody's happy! Where's the harm in that?
要帶塊牛肉回家嗎？ Shall I cut you a side of beef to take home?
剛宰的。 It's freshly slaughtered.
- 西蒙。 - 你好，神父。 - Simon. - Hello, Father.
怎麼今天來了？ Why the visit today?
不是為了車來的。 It's not about my car.
是布瑞南夫人的事。你是她男友。 It's about Mrs. Brennan. You're her boyfriend.
我有時上她。這算她男朋友嗎？ I fuck her from time to time. Does that make me her boyfriend?
- 在這算。- 那我聽說她有很多男友。 - Does around here. - She has a lot of boyfriends, I've heard.
多少個？ How many?
你想讓我承認通姦？所以才來的？ You want me to confess to adultery? Is that why you're here?
有人打她。 Somebody beat her up.
- 她說我打她嗎？ - 她沒有。 - Did she tell you I beat her up? - No, she didn't.
那你來幹嗎？ Then why are you here?
有人打她。 Somebody beat her up.
不是你，就是她丈夫。 It's either you or the husband.
我不覺得傑克會打她。他不是那種人。 I don't think Jack would beat her up. He's not the type.
哪種人？ What is the type?
- 你知道嗎，有人喜歡被打。 - 誰？ - Some of them like to be hit, you know? - Who?
白人，愛爾蘭女人。別問為什麼。 White women, Irish women. Do not ask me why.
- 得是心理醫生才懂。 - 胡說八道。 - You'd have to be a psychiatrist. - That's nonsense.
沒有。 No, no.
他們喜歡被打。 They like to be hit.
特殊情況下，她們求著被打。 In certain situations, they beg for it in fact.
所以她遭報應了，是吧？ So she got what was coming for her, did she?
- 我只是泛泛而談。 - 哦，泛泛而談。 - I was speaking generally. - Oh, you were speaking generally.
我是在說她的事。 Well, I'm speaking specifically.
- 別再那麼干了。 - 你不能告訴我該做什麼！ - Don't do it again. - You cannot tell me what to do!
- 咱們不是在布道。 - 布道！對。 - We're not in the missions now. - Oh, the missions! Right.
違抗你就要被砍手嗎？ Are you going to chop off my hand if I disobey you?
你知道你們的歷史。很偉大。 You know your history. That's grand.
我喜歡讀書。 I like to read.
你也許認為黑人... You probably think that black people...
是啊是啊。黑人，白人。什麼什麼的。 Yeah, yeah. Black people, white people. Blah, blah, blah.
神父，走開。你的布道結束了。 Run along now, Father. Your sermon is finished.
小心點好啊。 Better watch your step there.
為什麼？ Why is that?
如果他是打傷她的人，那你就要小心了。 If he was him who was laying into her, you have to tread very carefully there.
那是非常敏感的事情。 It's a very sensitive area.
你得解釋解釋。我恐怕完全不知道你在說什麼。 You'll have to explain this to me. I'm afraid you've lost me completely.
教會不能參與人種多樣性相關事務。 The Church can't be seen to be getting involved in matters of diversity.
知道嗎？ Do you know?
你是說，打人是某種宗教儀式什麼的嗎？ You mean if he's beating her up as one of those ethnic rituals or something?
好像他們一邊打人一邊握手似的！ Like when they do that thing when they shake hands!
我知道你在笑我！ You're mocking me now, I can tell!
敏感話題要謹慎對待。我就是想說這個。 We have to be very circumspect in those areas. That's all I'm saying.
我會謹慎的，神父。別擔心。 I'll be very circumspect, Father. Don't you worry about that.
最近怎樣？ How's all?
快死了。你呢？ At death's door. You?
一樣。還用那個舊打字機呢？這麼矯情？ Same. Still using the old typewriter, I see. You have an affectation?
我的人生就很矯情。 My whole life has been an affectation.
這就是那種，聽起來很風趣，其實沒什麼意義的話。 One of those lines that sounds witty and doesn't actually make much sense.
被你發現啦。 Caught out again.
最近一本傑作寫得怎樣啦？ How's the latest masterpiece going?
比《西西莉亞赫恩》好，但是比不上《巴菲爾德》。 Better than "Cecilia Hearn" but not as good as "Beffield".
要是能這麼評價每個人就好了。 Wish I could say that about everybody.
給我帶來點什麼？ What have you got for me?
需要別的嗎？ Need anything else?
- 槍。 - 嗯？ - A gun. - Yeah?
PPK自動手槍。 A Walther PPK.
邦德的選擇。希特勒在地下室就用這個自殺的。 Bond's weapon of choice. Old Adolph killed himself with one in the bunker.
這是你的計劃？ That's the plan, is it?
要是時候到了，我不想連續掙扎上幾個小時。 No intention of riding around in agony for hours on end when the time comes.
也不知道我是誰，我在哪。 Not knowing who I am or where I am.
胡說八道。 It's nonsense.
我是實用主義。 Pragmatism.
我從哪買槍？ Where would I get a gun from?
得了吧。 Come on, now. Give me a break.
在這個國家，從來都不會少槍的，對吧？ You've never been short of guns in this country, have you?
我得說，你今天挺讓人難過的。 You're awfully mournful today, I must say.
你屋裡沒有照片。 You don't have any photographs.
沒有。 No.
這點上我和阿帕切人一樣。 I'm in agreement with the Apaches on that score.
阿帕切人？ The Apaches?
阿帕切人。阿拉帕霍人。 The Apaches. The Arapaho.
洪克帕帕蘇族人。 The Hunk papa Sioux.
連一張媽媽的也沒有？ Not even one of Mum?
不需要照片才能記住你母親。 Don't need a photograph to remember your mother.
記憶會消散。這是最可怕的地方。 Memories fade. That's what's so terrible about them.
不會的。 No, they don't.
不太會的。 Not really.
我應該買個枴杖。 I should buy a cane.
很配你。你的心理年齡大。 It'd suit you. You're old beyond your years.
嗯。 Yeah.
能讓我感覺很傲慢。 Give me a feeling of imperiousness.
- 而且你可以靠著它。 - 可以靠著！沉思。 - And you could lean on it. - I could lean on it! Reflectively.
梳理事情。 Point things out.
把某人打死。 Club someone to death with it.
鈍器啊。打誰呢？ A blunt instrument, yeah. Who, though?
那個都柏林來的年輕人。 That young man from Dublin.
是不是所有的器具都不好用？ Are all instruments blunt?
笛子和號角呢？ Flutes and horns?
這是誰呀？ Who's this now?
是我女兒，菲奧娜。 It's my daughter, Fiona.
嗯！像是法國小說裡的人。 這個傢伙叫什麼？叫布蘭納諾。 Right! Like a French novel or something. What was the fellow's name? Bernanos.
我是麥克菲茨傑拉德。在路那頭買了個大房子。 Michael Fitzgerald. I've bought the big house up the road.
- 最近沒在彌撒時見到你。 - 最近很忙。 - Haven't seen you at mass recently. - I've been too busy.
我在考慮建個小教堂。《故園風雨後》的風格。 Thinking of getting a chapel built on the grounds. Like Brideshead Revisited.
然後你可以辭了職來看看，省點我的事。 Then you could pop in freelance and save me the trouble.
- 真可愛。 - 也很貴。高級馬肉啊。 - Lovely creature. - Really expensive too. Prime horsemeat.
- 你爸爸很有趣。 - 是嗎？ - Interesting man, your father. - Is that right?
一個好人，大好人。附近沒人說他一句壞話。 A good man. A fine man. Nobody around here has a bad word to say about him.
- 讓我奇怪他隱藏了什麼。 - 天啊，你這個臭混蛋！ - Makes you wonder what he's hiding. - God, you're a fucking prick!
- 哦，脾氣好大！ - 菲奧娜... - Oh, feisty! - Fiona...
我開玩笑呢。如他們所說，毫無冒犯之意。 I'm kidding. No offence meant, as they say.
幫我個忙吧，神父。找個下午來見我。我有個提議。 Do me a favor, Father. Swing by the house one afternoon. I've a proposition.
- 是嗎？ - 是啊。 - Really? - Yes, really.
融資提議。你感興趣吧？ A financial proposition. That interests you, doesn't it?
要是教會不在乎錢，那就該升黑旗哀悼了。 It would be a black day when the Church is no longer interested in money.
嗯？ Huh?
斯坦頓督查。 Inspector Stanton.
神職人員深夜到訪。也許會有個狂野的開場。 The clergy at this time of the night. We could be getting off to a wild start.
神父！你聽見什麼了？想說什麼？ Well, hey Father! What do you hear? What do you say?
不好意思，我不知道有人在。 I'm sorry, I didn't realize you had company.
沒事。只是小裡歐。 Sure. It's only Little Leo.
你在看我屁股嗎，神父？ Are you checking out my ass, Father?
啊？沒有。 Huh? No.
他在逗你呢，神父。我能為你做點什麼？ He's only messing with you, Father. What can I do for you?
不用躲著裡歐吧。對吧，裡歐？ There's nothing to hide from Leo. Right, Leo?
他喜歡坦坦蕩蕩一目瞭然，傑瑞。 就像你的屁股似的。 He likes an open book, Jerry. Like your ass.
神父，和警方有關嗎？ Is this a police matter, Father?
沒有，是私...私事。 No, it's a personal... a personal thing.
是私...私事。 It's a personal... personal thing.
神父，你看起來很憂愁。 我的建議：撒手別管啦。 You look worried, Father. My advice: take it on the lamster.
你不想為個小人來這... You don't want to drop in for the phonus bolonus...
最後搞個出人意料的結果把。明白嗎？ and wind up with a shock in the kisser. Get me?
- 他沒心情，裡歐。 - 也許我能讓他不繃著臉了呢。 - He's not in the mood, Leo. - Maybe I can cheer up the old sourpuss.
神父，讓我給你帶來段好時光吧。 好時光裡歐，就是我。 I'll show you a good time, Father. Good Time Leo, that's me.
你要是穿著那長袍就要額外計費了。 Although it will be extra if I let you wear that cassock.
我知道你們這些長金髮的教徒什麼樣。 I know what you holy rollers are like when you're getting golden hairs.
我要走了。 I'm out of here.
他挺有個性，是吧？ He's a character, huh?
你有什麼困擾，神父？你看起來很不安。 What's troubling you, Father? You seem agitated.
你需要你幫忙。 I need a favor.
我曾祖父的。 My great grandfather's.
他說那這個幹掉了一個開羅幫的人... Said he took it off one of the Cairo Gang...
就在血色星期天掃射的時候。 when he shot them all on Bloody Sunday.
第一個血色星期天。 The first Bloody Sunday, obviously.
- 有用上的時候嗎？ - 嗯。 - Ever had call to use it? - Yeah.
我有次在威克洛山殺了個人。 I killed a man once in the Wicklow Mountains.
因為什麼？ What case was that?
你要把我惹急了。 Now you're just pissing me off.
有人威脅你嗎，神父？遇見了什麼事兒？ Somebody been threatening you, Father? What have you been up to now?
不是你，誰遇見了？ If not you, who else?
- 你說你想用槍幹嘛？ - 我沒說。 - What did you say you wanted it for? - I didn't say.
要我說，是為了你的狗。 I'd say you wanted it for your dog.
你的狗快死了。很痛苦。 The dog's dying. It's in pain.
你想在這幾天結束它的痛苦。 You're worried you might have to put it out of its misery one of these days.
我的狗快死了。很痛苦。 My dog's dying. It's in pain.
我想在這幾天結束它的痛苦。 I'm worried I might have to put it out of its misery one of these days.
很有同情心啊，是吧？沒法勸你。我自己也是這樣。 Compassionate, huh? Well I can't argue with that. I'm compassionate myself.
早先已經有過那樣的事了。 Already had one of those, you know. Early on.
- 哪樣？ - 戀童癖牧師。 - One of what? - Pedophile priest.
二十年前。在都柏林。 Twenty years ago. This was in Dublin.
一個年輕姑娘控告一起強暴案。 Young girl made a complaint. A rape.
- 發生了什麼？ - 你覺得呢？ - What happened? - What do you think?
我逮捕了那個混蛋， I arrested the bastard,
48小時候，我就收拾包來了西邊。 and 48 hours later I was packing my bags and making my way out West.
- 你搬來出了？ - 重新調配。 - You moved out? - Reassigned, yeah.
那個人呢？ What happened to him?
他被派到海外布道了：非洲。 I was told they were sending him to one of the missions overseas: Africa.
我想在那他想做什麼做什麼了。 He could do whatever he wanted over there, I suppose.
- 不管怎樣，謝謝。 - 記住這句話，神父。 - Thanks, anyway. - Like the man says, Father.
保護自己！ Protect yourself!
你在這破地方多久了？ How long have you been in this crap?
幾年吧。 A couple of years.
應該有療養效果的。 Supposed to be therapeutic.
- 也許我也應該過來。 - 也許吧。 - Maybe I should take it up. - Maybe you should.
在倫敦你有和誰交往嗎？ Are you seeing someone in London?
你是說認真的，還是... Do you mean professionally, rather than...
別再說這些... Let's just stop all this...
如果你不想和我談，那應該找別人談談。 If you can't talk to me you should talk to someone.
應該吧。 I suppose I should.
玩的開心嗎？ Enjoying yourself?
嗯是啊。 Yeah, we are, yeah.
天不錯！ Lovely day!
嗯是啊。 Yes indeed, yeah.
走人啦！ Stamps!
牧師都這德行？ That's the feature of the priesthood?
米羅。 Milo.
我得和你談談，神父。 I need to speak to you, Father.
來，坐。 Take a pew, literally.
人們為什麼自殺呢，神父？ Why do people kill themselves, Father?
人們為什麼自殺？好有深度。 Why do people kill themselves? That's jumping in the deep end.
我想有很多原因吧。你怎麼看？ Lots of reasons, I suppose. Why do you think yourself?
我不知道。喝酒，抑鬱...沒性愛，也許吧。 I don't know. The drink, depression... Lack of sex, maybe.
你是個像樣的男人。我沒想到你有困擾。 You're a presentable man. I wouldn't have thought you'd have trouble there.
我沒法巧舌如簧。從來都不行。 I don't have the gift of the gab. Never had it.
所以你想自殺？ That's making you feel suicidal?
沒什麼比這無聊了。要麼自殺，要麼參軍。 More bored than anything else. It's either suicide or joining the army.
- 都是很極端的選擇。 - 參軍能學門手藝。 - Those are drastic choices. - You can learn a trade if you join.
不參軍也能學門手藝。 You can learn a trade if you don't.
你可以更好地體驗生活。 You can experience more of life.
你覺得打仗能讓你更像個真實的人嗎？ You think you can become a more authentic person by fighting in a war?
通過殺人。 By killing people.
我認為你反對我參軍。 You're against me joining is what I'm sensing.
這麼說吧： Let's put it this way:
我認為那些和平年代參軍的人... I've always felt there's something inherently psychopathic...
都是天生變態。 about someone who joins the army in peacetime.
我認為，人們加入軍隊... As far as I'm concerned people join the army...
是想體驗殺人的感覺。 because they want to find out what it's like to kill someone.
我不認為應該鼓勵人們有這種傾向吧？ I hardly think that's an inclination that should be encouraged, do you?
上帝也會這麼想的。。 Jesus Christ didn't think so either.
十誡裡「不可殺人」這一條... And the Commandment "thou shalt not kill"...
旁邊也沒標著星號， does not have an asterisk beside it,
讓你在此頁下方查找那些可以殺人的情況。 referring you to the bottom of the page, with instances where it's OK to kill.
自衛呢？ What about self-defense?
這就複雜了。 It's a tricky one, all right.
我們不太容易受到侵略，對吧？ We're hardly being invaded, though, are we?
反恐之戰無邊境。 The war on terror has no borders.
我們不太可能被基地組織盯著呢，米羅，對吧？ I don't think we're high on Al Qaeda's agenda, Milo, do you?
誰知道穆斯林在想些什麼？ Who knows what goes on in the Muslim mind?
不過我必須承認，我有點想殺人。 I have had murderous feelings, though, I have to admit.
沒人和我上床，讓我對女人很氣憤。 Not getting laid. It's starting to make me feel really angry towards women.
所以我想，如果我參軍... And so I thought, well, if I join the Army...
你說的那些傾向，是能加分的。 those inclinations, as you call them, would be seen as a plus.
申請的時候，他們不會跳出來說他們就是想要這樣的人。 On the application, they don't come out and say that's what they're looking for.
廣告會說參軍是要見識什麼的鬼話。 In the ads they tell about seeing the world and all that shite.
但我猜想殺人應該和有了學位差不多。 But I would assume wanting to murder someone would be like having a degree.
我不達標的事就不那麼明顯了。 It would outweigh my lack of qualifications.
好。 Right.
你看黃片嗎？ Do you use pornography?
我覺得我把能看的全看了。 I feel I've exhausted all the possibilities of pornography.
全看了？ All of them?
基本是吧。最近我在看變性人黃片。 Nearly all of them. I'm on to transsexual pornography at the moment.
長那玩意的妞兒，懂吧？ Chicks with dicks, you know?
也許有更簡單的解決辦法。 Maybe there's a simpler solution.
離開家。去那些有可能遇見單身女人的地方... Leave home. Go somewhere where your chances of meeting available women...
沒什麼道德感，人數又多。 with loose morals are increased proportionally.
你是說我應該進城嗎？ Should I go to town, you mean?
不，我是說像都柏林，倫敦，紐約？ No, I was thinking more Dublin, London, New York?
紐約？我也許會得艾滋的。 New York? I might end up getting the AIDS.
神父，謝謝你抽時間和我講話。 Thanks for taking the time to talk to me, Father.
雖然沒什麼用。 I can't say it's been much help.
但是我想能把事情說出來總是好的。 But it's good to get these things out in the open, I suppose.
啪！ Puck!
他們都離開我了。所以這裡很空蕩。 They've all left me, you know. That's why the place is so empty.
像個墳墓似的。 Like a tomb.
誰離開你了？ Who's left you?
老婆，孩子。 The wife, the kids.
甚至是康斯薇拉。她是厄瓜多爾人。 Even Consuela. And she's from Ecuador.
她看起來沒什麼選擇去別的地方。但顯然不是的。 So you'd think she wouldn't have that many options. But apparently not.
我很抱歉。 Sorry to hear that.
你說有個融資提議。 You mentioned a financial proposition.
我想做些補償。為過去的罪修行。 I'd like to make amends. Do penance for past sins.
我想所有的罪都是過去時，要麼就不是罪了。 Although, I suppose all sins are past. Otherwise they wouldn't be sins.
只是...邪惡的想法。在腦子裡飄來飄去。 They'd just be... evil thoughts. Floating around in your mind.
對了，你為什麼穿著舊黑袍？ Why do you wear the old soutane, by the way?
你想表達什麼嗎？ Are you trying to make a statement?
我是說，看，這塊表。這就有某種效果。豪雅表。 I mean, look. This watch, here. That's making a statement. A TAG Heuer.
你能說重點嗎，菲茨傑拉德先生？ 還是你就想隨便說點什麼？ Are you going to get to the point, Mr. Fitzgerald? Or are you going to ramble?
我問你個問題：你能從我身上看到什麼？ Let me ask you a question: What do you see when you look at me?
我告訴你吧。 I'll tell you what you see.
你能看到一位英俊、圓滑、 You see a handsome, sophisticated,
傑出的中年男人。 eminent man in the prime of his life.
一位偉人。高踞金融界頂端... A colossus, let's say. Who once bestrode the world of high finance...
在某些範圍內非常有影響力。 and became profoundly influential in certain spheres.
不用極度這個詞。而是有影響力。這是事實。 I'm not saying inordinately. I'm saying significantly. Let's face it.
你確定我不能慫恿你喝酒嗎？ Are you sure I can't tempt you?
喝水就好。 I'll stick to the water.
聽說你愛喝酒。 I heard you like to drink.
愛得過度了。 I like it too much.
根本沒有過度這回事。 There's no such thing as too much.
只有不夠多！ There's only not enough!
說到哪了？ Where was I?
談錢，還有呢？ Talking about money, what else?
看看。 Now, now.
- 及時脫身啊，是吧？ - 在事情垮掉以前。 - Got out in time, did you? - Before it all came crashing down.
跑得好，神父。 It was the perfect getaway, Father.
他們說以各項違規為由起訴我。 They say charges are going to be filed against me, for various irregularities.
但是他們總拿這種話威脅人。 But they're always threatening things like that.
他們得起訴半個愛爾蘭的金融家才行，還有銀行家。 They'd have to charge half the financiers in Ireland. And the bankers.
然後衝進政府，一同起訴那些混蛋。 And then troop into government and charge those cunts as well.
我們都知道這不可能。 And we all know that's not going to happen.
沒有懲罰會降到我這樣的人頭上。 No, there'll be no punishment forthcoming for a man such as myself.
永遠不可能。 There never is.
但是，對此我感覺到...一點點的愧疚。 Still, I feel a... modicum of guilt about the whole thing.
- 一點點？是嗎？ - 嗯... - A modicum? Do you? - Well...
我覺得我應該感到愧疚。 I feel like I ought to feel guilty.
我很肯定這不是同一回事。 I'm sure it's not the same thing.
我愛這幅畫。很貴。 I love this one. Really expensive.
但是不太明白是什麼意思。 Not quite sure what it's supposed to mean, though.
為什麼非要有意思呢？ Why does it have to mean anything?
所有事情都要有意思。要不然意義在哪？ Everything has to mean something. Otherwise, what's the point?
當然，我不非要知道它什麼意思。 我擁有它，這就夠了。 Of course, I don't have to know what it means. I own it. That's enough.
只有這些重要嗎？擁有？佔有？ That's all that matters? Ownership? Possession?
教會有多少土地？多少金子？ How much land does the Church own? How much gold?
那是教會。不是我。 That's the Church. It's not me.
你是教會的代表，不是嗎？ You are a representative of the Church, are you not?
- 如果你非要這麼說的話。 - 我就是這麼說的。 - If you say so. - I do say so, yeah.
我認為你總愛妄下定論，神父。 I think you're a very judgmental man, father.
對我是。但我努力不那樣。 Yes I am. But I try not to be.
你認為我沒有感情嗎？ 你認為我不在乎... You think I don't have feelings? You think I don't care about...
我認為你根本不想修行！ I think you don't want to do penance at all!
我認為你叫我來只是想開我的玩笑。 I think you asked me here to make fun of me.
當你真的想做修行了，隨時給我打電話， When you want to do penance sincerely, you can give me a call, at any time,
我會盡全力幫助你！ and I'll try my best to help you!
我可以衝著它撒尿。 I could piss on this, you know.
我說我愛它，我不愛。這對我來說什麼都不是。 I said I love it, I don't. It doesn't mean anything to me.
我現在就可以把畫拿下來衝著它撒尿。 你想讓我這麼做嗎？ I could take it down right now and piss on it. Do you want me to do that?
- 為什麼我想讓你這樣？ - 我不知道。 - Why would I want you to do that? - I don't know.
我就可以得到某種...精神上的啟示。 So I can have some sort of... spiritual revelation.
得到某種真諦，對吧？ Some sort of fucking epiphany, huh?
好，來吧。 OK, let's go.
給你來個真諦。 I'll give you an epiphany.
我不要。 Well, I don't own it.
我估計像你這樣的人會衝著所有的東西撒尿。 所以為什麼不撒呢？ People like you have pissed on everything else, I suppose. So why not?
你東西都齊了啊。 You have your tools done, I see.
是誰？ Who is it?
法國情侶。來吧。 French couple. Head on.
女的一點事沒有。男的完蛋了。 She was totally unscathed. He got fucked.
開在反道上了？ Wrong side of the road?
酒駕的人撞了他們。 The others hit them drunk, of course.
- 多少人？ - 五個人，加上那個法國人。 - How many? - Five, and I'm including the Frenchman.
天啊！ Dear God!
他是個海洋生物學家。 Marine biologist he was.
我就想呆在那...水底下。 That's where I'd like to be... under the sea.
- 其他人呢？ - 停屍間。他們最好的歸宿。 - Where are the others? - The morgue. Best place for them.
天啊，每條生命都很神聖，弗蘭克。 Every life is sacred, Frank. For God's sake.
我知道。有些不如其他的神聖。 I know. Some are less sacred than others.
借此終敷禮，願上帝用他的愛和仁慈... Through this holy anointing may the Lord in his love and mercy...
幫助你... help you...
帶著聖靈的光輝。 with the grace of the Holy Spirit.
阿門。 Amen.
願上帝將你從罪中解救...鼓舞你。 May the Lord who frees you from sin save you... and raise you up.
阿門。 Amen.
剛才的儀式你舉辦過很多次嗎？ Have you performed the last rites many times?
嗯，通常是為老人舉行的。 Yes. Usually with older people, of course.
他們有時間準備。 They have time to prepare for it.
人人都知道大限將至的時候。 Everybody knows it's coming.
會輕鬆些嗎？ It is easier?
不會。 It's never easy.
我會說，更合理。 More understandable, I'd say.
也少些不公平。 Less unfair.
像是這樣的情況， In situations like this one,
人們會很震驚。 people are shocked.
震驚於世事無常。 The randomness of it.
他們詛咒上帝，詛咒同胞。 They curse God. They curse their fellow man.
有時失去信仰。 They lose their faith in some cases.
失去信仰？ They lose their faith?
那開始的時候，信仰必然不強烈。 It must not have been much of a faith to begin with.
才能輕易地失去。 If it is so easy for them to lose it.
是，但是信仰... Yes, but what is faith...
對大多數人來說，只是對死亡的恐懼。 別無他物。 for most people is the fear of death. It's nothing more than that.
如果是這樣，就會很容易失去了。 If that's all it is, it's very easy to lose.
你丈夫是個好人嗎？ He was a good man, your husband?
對。 Yes.
他是個好人。 He was a good man.
我們生活地很快樂。深愛對方。 We had a very good life together. We loved each other very much.
現在... And now...
他離開了。 he has gone.
沒什麼不公。 And that is not unfair.
只是恰巧發生了。 That is just what happened.
但很多人過得不好。 But many people don't live good lives.
他們感覺不到愛。 They don't feel love.
所以才不公平。 That is why it's unfair.
我為他們感到遺憾。 I feel sorry for them.
特雷莎，你願意和我一起念悼詞嗎？ Will you say a prayer with me, Theresa?
萬福瑪利亞,滿被聖寵者,主與爾偕焉。 Hail Mary, full of Grace, the Lord is with Thee.
女中爾為讚美,爾胎子耶穌,並為讚美。 Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
天主聖母瑪利亞，為我等罪人，今祈天主， Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now,
及我等死候。阿門。 and at the hour of death. Amen.
說完你那些官話了？ Finished with all your gobbledygook?
她怎樣了？ How's she holding up?
- 她很堅強。 - 也很好看！ - She's a strong woman. - Good-looking too!
我也想進去。 I could be in there.
我喜歡寡婦。我和你說過嗎？ I've a thing for widowers. Did I ever tell you?
我覺得你可能完了。你的肉體變陳腐了。 I think you might have done. Your material is getting a little stale.
當然。扮演無神論的醫生，多老套。 Sure. The atheistic doctor. It's a cliche part to play.
沒什麼好台詞。 There aren't that many good lines.
一成的人文主義，九成的黑色幽默。 One part humanism to nine parts gallows humor.
但是扮演你？那就有趣了。 Playing you, though? Now, that might be interesting.
扮演我。我是誰？ Playing me. Who's me?
好牧師。 The good priest.
我走了。 Excuse me, won't you?
我得去殺個人。 I have to go kill somebody.
我睡了多久？ How long was I out?
幾時代。幾世紀。 Ages. Eons.
我和你講過巨人芬恩的故事嗎？ Did I ever tell you the story about Finn McCool?
還有另一個叫奇科薩蒂歐的大傢伙？ And another big strong lad called Kik Satio?
- 他們在山頂。 - 他們在山頂。 - They were at the top of the mountain. - They were at the top of the mountain.
奇科發起了挑戰，把巨石扔進海裡，伊斯奇做不到。 Kik as a challenge throws a boulder into the Sea and Iski couldn't do it.
芬恩接受了挑戰。 Finn accepted the challenge.
他把巨石放在岸邊， His boulder landed on the shore,
波浪如此之大，海再也無法恢復原狀， creating such waves that the sea hasn't been the same since,
所以東海岸是舉世聞名的衝浪地點。 which is why the Eastern Coast is renowned internationally for surfing.
芬恩把巨石放在那，抽出劍來， The boulder Finn had thrown landed here, he drew his sword,
將石頭一分為二，說道： split the rock in two and it said:
如果讓我瞧見有人特別魯莽... If I shoot someone foolhardy enough...
有膽走過這石頭三次，我就要把他們壓碎。 to pass through the rock three times, they'll be squished into tiny lumps.
毫不客氣。 Unceremoniously.
那個景點沒什麼詩意。也不太浪漫。 Not a lot of poetry in that recital. Not a lot of romance.
我討厭死浪漫了。 I'm sick to death of romance.
他是個日本作家。自殺了。 He was a Japanese writer. Committed suicide.
他事先整理了一份歷史上自殺的名人單子。 He wrote out a list beforehand of all the famous suicides throughout history.
包括上帝。 He included Christ.
聽起來自作聰明。 Sounds like a smart-ass.
要是在中世紀，他們會說我體內有惡魔。 In the Middle Ages they'd just say I was possessed by demons.
也許你是呢。 Maybe you were.
也許那時候他們說的才準確。 Maybe they were nearer the mark back then.
你覺得這一切無關緊要。 You think what happened was unimportant.
對大局來說無關緊要，才激發出這樣一種娛樂方式。 Insignificant in the great scheme of things to provoke such a reaction.
但是也許... But what may...
但是對你不重要的事情，也許對我來說很重要。 But what may mean nothing to you may be very important to me.
我從沒說過這無關緊要。 I'd never say it was unimportant.
我只是說，你在三十歲時做的決定... I just say the choices you make when you're thirty...
和你在六十歲的時候做的，不一樣。 are not the same choices you make when you're sixty.
這根本不相關。 That's irrelevant.
所有生活方式都有自己的邏輯，自己的意義。 Every mode of living has its own logic, its own meaning.
也許吧。 Maybe so.
也許你是對的。我要想一想。 Maybe you're right there. I'll have to think about that.
我想這樣的爭論陳舊乏味。 It's a tired old argument, I suppose.
但是那些你丟棄的東西呢？ But what about those you leave behind?
那是我的東西，不是別人的。 They belong to myself, not to anybody else.
對。 True.
不對。 False.
我想你會告訴我，你有不可饒恕的罪？ You'll tell me you would have been in mortal sin, I suppose?
但我永遠會遭天譴，神父。 But I have suffered eternal damnation, Father.
上帝偉大。 God is great.
其仁慈無邊。 The limits of His mercy have not been set.
你想葬在這裡嗎？ Is this where you want to be buried?
我為什麼想葬在這種破地方啊？ Why in hell would I want to be buried in a God-forsaken place like this?
那在哪兒？拉雪茲神父公墓？ 挨著王爾德？ Where, then? Pere-Lachaise? Next to dear old Oscar?
挨著阿波利奈爾和馬克斯·奧菲爾斯。 Next to Apollinaire and Max Ophuls.
想像力很豐富啊。 Very fancy, I must say.
- 對了，我給你找到把槍。 - 嗯好。 - I have your gun for you by the way. - Yeah, right.
真的！韋伯利左輪，大約是1920年的。 但是很好用。 I do so! Webley, circa 1920. Still in good working order, though.
反正那個人是這麼告訴我的。 Or so I've been told by a man who would know.
- 拿給我吧。 - 沒在我身上。 - Hand it over, then. - I don't have it on me.
我就知道。怕我把自己了結了，是吧？ I knew it. Worried I might follow through with it, huh?
據我所知，你也許會對著我一通亂射的。 You might take a pot shot at me, for all I know.
我為什麼要這樣做？除了說廢話以外 你還對我幹什麼壞事了？ Why would I do that? What have you ever done to me except talk garbage?
這不代表什麼。 That doesn't mean anything.
現在，傻子們沒理由就瞎殺人。 Bloody idiots can't even be bothered with a reason for murder these days.
碰上個人，梆梆梆。 Come up to a fellow and it's bang, bang, bang.
我不知道。有些人的理由不錯。 I don't know about that. Some people have very good reasons.
你來這見誰，神父？ Who are you here to see, Father?
弗萊迪喬司。 Freddy Joyce.
- 弗萊迪喬司，殺人... - 我知道他是誰。 - Freddy Joyce, the murd... - I know who he is.
你為什麼想見他？ Why the hell do you want to see him for?
他過去是我的學生，要求見我。 He's an old pupil of mine. He asked to see me.
我要求他們絞死我。 You know I've asked them to hang me.
愛爾蘭沒有死刑的，弗萊迪，你知道的。 There's no capital punishment in Ireland, Freddy, as you well know.
- 你為什麼想被絞死？ - 因為萊斯利瑞恩就是那麼死的。 - Why do you want them to hang you? - That's the way Leslie Ryan died.
你感到懊悔嗎？ You're saying you feel remorse?
我不是怪物。我看起來像怪物嗎？ I'm not a monster. Do I look like a monster?
怪物長什麼樣？ What do monsters look like?
那天警察來了。 I had the cops in here the other day.
三級謀殺。想重溫那些血淋淋的細節。 In third degree. Wanting to go over all the gory details.
你肯定特別樂意提供。 Which I'm sure you were only too happy to provide.
他們總是對吃人的事很著迷。 They're obsessed with cannibalism.
「吃起來什麼味道？」 "What did it taste like?"
我說像野雞肉。味道重一些。 I told them it tasted like pheasant. A bit gamy.
挺好的。還能開個玩笑。 Good for you. Make a joke about it.
- 他們為什麼...？ - 和往常一樣。 - Why were they...? - Same as always.
他們想知道最後一個人是誰。沒找到屍體的那個。 They want to know who the last one is. The one they never found.
被我拼起來的那個。 The one I connected up.
你為什麼不說呢，弗萊迪？ Why can't you tell them, Freddy?
能尋求點平靜。 To find some kind of peace.
我想說... I wanted to...
神父，說真的，我想不起來放在哪... Father, for the life of me, I cannot... remember where I put...
我是說，我知道在林子裡的某個地方。 I mean, I know it was in the woods somewhere.
- 我把鑰匙放哪兒了？ - 不是的！我當時頭腦不清醒。 - Where did I leave my keys? - No! I wasn't in my right mind.
迷幻劑...當時就好像童話一樣。 The LSD... it was like a... fairytale.
你在審判時說過了，弗萊迪。重複很無聊的。 You said all that at the trial, Freddy. It's getting kind of tiresome now.
她是個可愛的... She was a lovely...
她是個可愛的姑娘。 She was a lovely girl.
她和我說過，以前被虐待過。 You know she told me that she'd been abused before?
所以我說：再來一次也沒什麼區別，然後。 So I says: once more won't make any difference, then.
你看見他們的眼神失去光彩... You see the light go out in their eyes...
- 然後你成了神！ - 你沒有！ - And you become God! - No you don't!
你沒有。 No you don't.
為什麼叫我來？ Why am I here?
我想和人說話。 I just wanted someone to talk to.
我不覺得你對所作所為有任何歉疚。 I don't think you feel any guilt whatsoever, about anything you've done.
我有的，我有的，神父。 I do. I do, Father.
我相信聖經所說。 I believe what the Bible teaches.
我相信，如果為我的罪懺悔，我就會被寬恕。 I believe that if I repent my sins, then I'll be forgiven.
我就可以上天堂， And I'll be able to go up to heaven,
看見那些姑娘，告訴她們我有多抱歉。 and I'll see those girls and I'll tell them how sorry I am.
我會擁抱她們，親吻她們，用最真的愛來愛護她們。 I'll hug them and I'll kiss them, and I'll love them with the real, true love.
我一點也不想傷害她們。 I'll have no desire to hurt them in any way.
上帝創造了我，不是嗎？ God made me, didn't he?
不是嗎？ Didn't he?
所以他理解我。 So he understands me.
他肯定理解的。 He must do.
你不這樣想嗎？ Don't you think?
我想，如果上帝都不理解你，弗萊迪... I think if God can't understand you, Freddy...
那沒人能理解你了。 no one can.
你知道嗎，他們不讓我贖回我的東西？ You know they're foreclosing on me?
- 誰？ - 誰？銀行，還能有誰？ - Who? - Who? The banks, who else?
我很遺憾。 Sorry to hear that.
我怎麼沒聽你們那群人布這個道？ How come I never hear your mob preaching about that?
什麼道？ About what?
銀行家們讓這個國家完蛋了？ About all these bankers who have brought this country to its knees?
讓人們不還錢就無家可歸。 Still driving people out of their homes for not making their payments.
你聽過你們那幫人講這個嗎？ Ever hear your mob talk about that?
這些也是重要的事情啊，不是嗎？ Those are things too, aren't they?
是的。 Yes, they are.
那就對了。 That's right.
我想歷史上你們也從猶太人身上勒索錢財， I suppose when you have a history of screwing the Jews out of their money,
和納粹勾結。 and collaborating with the Nazis.
要是說這事，就是五十步笑百步了，是吧？ It's like the pot calling the kettle black, eh?
也許是吧。好好利用你的圖書卡吧，布蘭登。 I suppose it is. Getting full use out of your library card there, Brendan.
圖書館關門了。你不知道嗎？財政消減。 Library's been shut down. Did you not hear? Cutbacks.
你沒在跳舞，米羅。 You're not dancing, Milo.
我不喜歡這首歌。 I don't like this music.
那你喜歡什麼歌？ What music do you like?
多莉帕頓。 Dolly Parton.
多莉帕頓不錯。 Dolly Parton's good, yeah.
可卡因真棒！ Great cocaine!
真是欲罷不能！ Very moreish!
只是為了治病，神父。 Totally medicinal, Father.
喬司怎麼樣？ How was your man, Joyce?
今天挺糟的，先別提了。 It's been a tough day, let's put it that way.
你怎麼能和那樣的人聯繫呢？ How can you hope to connect with someone like that?
說什麼呢？不是弗萊迪喬司吧！ What are you talking about? Not Freddy Joyce!
我今天去探監了。 I visited him in prison today.
為什麼？ Why?
囚犯也和別人一樣需要精神引導。也許更需要。 A prisoner deserves spiritual guidance as much as anyone else. Maybe more so.
這樣好嗎？他們能找到上帝。 Is that right? So they can find God.
然後說上帝已經赦免了他們的罪。 And then say God has absolved them of all their sins.
然後他們的所作所為就不重要了，因為他們被救贖了！ And what they did didn't really matter anyways, 'cause now they're saved!
就像那樣。 Something like that, yeah.
冷靜點。你不知道你在說什麼。 Calm down. You don't know what you're talking about.
能看著點我的酒嗎？天啊！ Do you mind the drinks? For Christ's sake!
早就該挨打了。你知道的。 He had that coming a long time. You know yourself.
他長得挺好看。 Fine-looking man.
和他小心點。 Watch yourself with him.
我早就不吸可卡因了。 I gave up cocaine a long time ago.
你吸過？ You took cocaine?
來吧，跳個舞。 Come on, let's dance.
- 不要。 - 你們那時候叫這個什麼？搖擺舞？ - No, no. - How'd they call it in your day, jive?
- 不要不要。 - 來吧！ - No, no. - Come on!
原諒我，神父，我犯了罪。 Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned.
念一遍我們的天父，十遍萬福瑪利亞。 Say one Our Father and ten Hail Mary's.
我的罪比這要重。 I've sinned more than that.
那就跪著爬上克羅帕特裡克山。 Make an ascent to Croagh Patrick, then. On your knees.
跪著是嗎？為什麼這樣講啊？ On my knees, is it? What made you say that?
- 你的教堂著火了。 - 滾開布蘭登。我沒心情。 - Your church is on fire. - Fuck off Brendan. I'm not in the mood.
你的教堂著火了！ You're church is on fire!
天啊！ Jesus Christ!
我叫消防隊了，神父。 I called the fire brigade, Father.
說得好像有用一樣。 For all the good it'll do.
他們永遠趕不來。 They'll never get here in time.
- 為什麼沒人瞧見？ - 爸爸，離遠點。 - Why didn't anybody see? - Daddy, stay away.
爸爸！過來。 Daddy! Come away.
為什麼沒人瞧見？ Why didn't anybody see?
也許他們要把這個怪在你頭上。 They're probably going to blame you for this.
幹得很專業啊，我得說。 Professional job, I'd say that for them.
誰他媽都能點火。 Any fool can start a fire, for fuck's sake.
誰會這麼做？ Who'd do a thing like this?
顯然是對教會心懷怨恨的人。 Somebody with a grudge against the Church, obviously.
半個國家的人都有嫌疑。 That could be half the country.
除非是私人恩怨。 Unless it's a personal angle.
- 你什麼意思？ - 沒人和你父親有仇吧？ - How'd you mean? - Nobody had a grudge against your father, no?
誰會記恨你？ Who'd have a grudge against you?
也許這就是未來，是吧？ Maybe this is the future, huh?
也許有一天，一切都會化為灰燼。 Maybe it'll all be ruins one day.
也許有一天孩子們會驚訝的說：他們過去就信這個？ Maybe one day kids will say in amazement: They used to believe in what?
還有天上的那些事。 And all that up in the sky.
如果我們是好人，就上天堂。 是壞人就下地獄。 And if we're good we'll go to heaven. And if we're bad we'll go to hell.
作為警察來說，你好像不太能理解人性。 You know, for a policeman you seem to know very little about human nature.
也許你是對的。你懂得比我多。 Maybe you're right. You know more than me.
什麼也別碰。 Don't touch anything now.
先挫挫那些好辯的男孩的銳氣！ 那些高傲的混蛋！ Have to get the forensics boys down. The supercilious pricks!
現在怎麼辦？ What do we do now?
我想，重建一個吧。 We'll have to rebuild it, I suppose.
下次用磚頭吧。也許會好點。 Maybe use bricks next time. Might be a good idea.
天啊，神父。 Oh, God, Father.
是為了可卡因嗎？我可以吸，也可以戒掉。 Is this about the coke? I can take it or leave it.
是嗎？ Really?
是啊。大部分人都能。 Yeah. Most people can.
不能戒掉的就會出現問題。 The only ones who can't have problems to begin with.
不能忽視他們啊。那些有問題的人。 We shouldn't write them off, though. The ones who have problems to begin with.
你想做點什麼，維諾妮卡？ What do you want to do with your life, Veronica?
什麼也不想。 Nothing.
想想野百合怎樣生長： Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow:
它既不勞作，也不紡線。 they toil not, neither do they spin.
引用得很棒。 Very nice quotation.
當然。大家都知道這句。 Sure. Everybody knows that one.
老一套啦。 Hackneyed, yeah.
和「以德報怨」還有「不想被人議論， 就隨便議論別人」一樣。 It's like "turn the other cheek". Or "judge not lest you be judged".
也許我想做演員。 I'd like to be an actress, maybe.
爸爸失蹤，媽媽專橫。 I've an absent father and domineering mother.
好的開始。 That's a start.
你爸爸為什麼離開？ When did your dad leave?
他沒離開，他被殺了。。 He didn't leave, he was killed.
- 謀殺？ - 打獵時出的意外。 - Murdered? - Hunting accident.
完全是偶然事件。 Completely random.
所以別堅持了，神父。我命裡注定完蛋。 So there's no use presevering, Father. I'm a lost cause.
沒人命裡注定完蛋，維諾妮卡。 No one is a lost cause, Veronica.
誰幹的？ Who is it?
我不知道。 I don't know who it is.
你說你知道的。 You said you did.
沒證據說是同一個人。 I've no evidence it's the same man.
是同一個人。燒掉教堂要花很大精力。 It's the same man. Takes a lot of nerve to burn down a church.
如果心中有強烈不滿，也許會好辦一點，如果原諒... Helps if you have a burning sense of grievance, if you'll pardon the...
我們得自問：他想要什麼？ We have to ask ourselves: What does this man want?
他想被愛，當然。我們都想被愛。 He wants to be loved, of course. We all want to be loved.
如果不是，那就是想被...崇拜。 Failing that he wants to be... admired.
如果不是，那就是想被恐懼。 Failing that he wants to be feared.
如果不是，那就是想被憎惡、痛恨。 Failing that, he wants to be hated and despised.
你應當小心那些想被憎惡痛恨的人。 You should beware the man who wants to be hated and despised.
你不這樣想嗎？ Don't you think?
我想這是你從書裡讀來的，閣下。 I think you read that in a book, your Excellency.
我想他確實想攪亂別人的心情。 I think he wants to stir up some sort of feelings in others. That's true.
不想再被人忽視了。 Doesn't want to be ignored any more.
想和世界接觸。 Wants to make contact.
真是正確的接觸方式。 He made contact all right.
是誰？ Who is it?
我得說，業務很糟糕啊。 Dreadful business, I must say.
無疑是幾個小流氓胡鬧來著。 Some little blackguard running riot, I wouldn't wonder.
世風日下，能怎麼辦呢？ What can you do in this day and age?
對。 True that.
神父，我對那天的事情表示抱歉。 Sorry about the other day, Father.
我說的是醉話。 That was the drink talking.
我們能為你做點什麼？ What can we do for you?
我說話沒打草稿。但是看來當時應該打個草稿。 It's off the bat with what I was saying. And it seems more necessary than ever.
我想捐款。 I'd like to make a donation.
你太大方了。 That would be grand.
寬慰你的良心？ To salve your conscience?
慈善活動的本質都是如此。贖清罪惡。 Surely that's in the nature of all philanthropy. The expiation of guilt.
我肯定你沒什麼要愧疚的，菲茨傑拉德先生。 I'm sure you've nothing major to feel guilty about, Mr. Fitzgerald.
你會吃驚的，神父。叫我邁克吧。 You'd be surprised, Father. Call me Michael.
好啊邁克。我們會充滿感激地接受你的善心。 Michael it is. Any charity is always gratefully received.
我知道。 I know.
我相信那是教會的信條。 I believe that's Church doctrine.
能得到的幫助，教會不會放過的。尤其是現在這個時代。 The Church needs all the help it can get. Especially these days.
你為什麼這樣說？ Why would you say that?
根據最近幾年給出的補償金說的？ Well, with all the compensation that's been paid out over the last few years?
那還是美國佬那邊的情況，他們還不是最糟的。 And that's only the Yanks, we all know they weren't worst.
我不太清楚。那樣的事 大部分都是在四五十年前發生的。 I don't know about that. Most of those cases were 40 or 50 years ago.
在我看來是重提舊賬。 Raking up old ground it always seemed to me.
- 該原諒過去，遺忘過去了。 - 同意，我同意。 - Time to forgive and forget. - I agree. I agree.
過去的都過去了。該向前看了。 What's past is past. Time to move on.
什麼，什麼的。 Etcetera, etcetera.
邁克，你想來杯茶，還是更帶勁的東西？ Would you like a cup of tea, Michael, or maybe something stronger?
你有冰毒嗎？不不，我停不下來啊。 Do you have any crystal meth? No, no. I can't stop.
那咱們怎麼定呢？一萬？兩萬？ So what are we talking about? Ten? Twenty?
兩萬？ Twenty thousand?
兩萬歐元，對。 Twenty thousand Euros, yeah.
那真是太大方了。 Well, that would be grand.
夠我們蓋地基的錢了。 That would help us getting the initial building work off the ground.
那就兩萬了。 Twenty it is, then.
這是大衛奧卡森牌鋼筆。 This is a David Oscarson pen.
很貴。 It's really expensive.
很可愛。 It's lovely.
五萬如何？ Why not make it fifty?
神父！ Well, Father!
如果錢不是問題，那就五萬吧。 If money is no object, make it fifty.
那十萬如何？錢對我來說什麼都不是。 Why not make it a hundred? It means nothing to me.
我知道。 I know it doesn't.
為你最愛的項目捐十萬，神父。你怎麼說？ 100,000 Euros for your pet project, Father. What do you say to that?
我說：謝謝，菲茨傑拉德先生。 I say: Thank you, Mr. Fitzgerald.
斯坦頓在幹什麼呢？ What was Stanton getting on?
如果我知道我就告訴你了。 If I could tell you, I would. You know that.
我以為我是有麻煩的那個，不是你。 I thought I was the one that was supposed to be in trouble, not you.
魚怎麼樣？ How's the fish.?
刺太多。 Too many little bones.
不是一直如此嗎？ Isn't that always the way?
永不停歇。 Not stopping.
見見別人。 Meeting a fellow.
你倒是預先提醒了我你通姦的事。 You're informing me of your adultery in advance.
難道不是比懺悔的時候更誠實了嗎？ Isn't that more honest than in the confessional?
塵埃落定，什麼也做不了。 When it's all done and dusted, and there's nothing you can do about it.
你想讓他做些什麼？ What are you expecting him to do?
讓我別再犯罪。 Stop me from committing a mortal sin.
你得自己停下。我幫不了你。 You have to stop yourself. I can't stop you.
那你有什麼好呢？ Then what good are you at all?
一如往常，我的車來了。 There's my ride, as it were.
有時間再聚吧。 Let's do this again, sometime.
你是經常要忍受這種破事嗎？ Do you have to put up with that kind of shit on a regular basis?
這麼說吧，經常會發生類似的事。 There's a lot of it going around, let's put it that way.
咱們應該好好聊聊。把話都說出來。 We really should talk, you know. Let it all out.
就像在教堂裡那樣。 Like in one of those shit plays at the abbey.
但是我不知道會有什麼啟示。 I don't know what the revelation would be, though.
我也不知道。 Neither do I.
你知道，你母親去世讓咱倆心中的某個部分消失了。 Your mother dying killed a little something in both of us, I know that.
那是個漫長的告別，如果算得上告別的話。 It was a long goodbye, if ever there was one.
有時我希望她沒能堅持那麼久。 Sometimes I wish she hadn't hanged on as long as she did.
她特別固執。 She was stubborn all right.
但是也很勇敢。 Brave too, though.
不知道到時候我會不會這樣勇敢。 Wonder if I'll be as brave when the time comes.
不光是她去世的事。 It wasn't just her dying.
很長時間你都不知去向。她死前死後都是。 You were missing in action a long time. Before and after.
在我最需要你的時候。 When I needed you most.
我從來沒疏忽過你。 I was never neglectful, I don't think.
沒打過你什麼的。 Never hit you or anything.
還有其他種類的暴力。 There are other forms of violence.
我知道啊！比如，企圖自殺。 I know there are! Attempting suicide, for one.
天啊！我恨自殺。 Jesus! I walked into that one.
也不光是針對自己的暴力。 It's not only violence against yourself, either.
我不想那樣的。 It wasn't intended that way.
我從沒想傷害你。 I never meant to hurt you.
怎麼會傷害我呢？我愛你！ How could it not hurt me? I love you!
我也愛你。 I love you too.
千萬別懷疑這一點。 Don't ever doubt that.
爸... Dad...
就在我以為你回到我身邊的時候， And just when I thought I had you back,
你整理好一切，準備要走，你真的走了。 and you were ship-shape and rearing to go, go you did.
我以為你要續絃。 I thought it would be another woman.
我受到神召了。不是想逃跑！ I have a vocation. I wasn't trying to escape!
我知道！我知道你是真心的。 I know that! I know you're sincere.
但是，爸，事實不會變的。 But, Dad, the fact remains.
先是媽媽離開了，然後是你。 First Mum went away, and then you went away.
兩位家人，走一送一。 I lost two parents for the price of one.
我哪也沒去。我一直在這。 I never ran anywhere. I stayed here.
神父，我覺得你有點天真。 I think you're being a bit naive there, Father.
我還在這。 I'm still here.
我會一直待下去。 I'll always be here.
會嗎？ Will you?
你保證？ You promise?
我會一直在這。 I'll always be here.
你也會一直在這。 And you'll always be here.
剛才那出三幕啟示劇不錯吧？ How was that for a third act revelation?
老掉牙了。 Corny.
但是我喜歡。 But I like it.
來。 Here.
祝你健康！ Here's mud in your eye!
真棒！ Great stuff!
人真的變老的時候，能看出來。 You know I can tell when you're really getting old.
怎麼看？ How?
你身邊沒人再說「死」的事了。 No one ever says the word "death" around you anymore.
布魯諾！布魯諾！ Bruno! Bruno!
布魯諾！ Oh Bruno!
他對布魯諾做了什麼？ What has he done to Bruno?
我忘和布魯諾告別了！ Oh, I forgot to say goodbye to Bruno!
- 我會代你好好親他一口。 - 那就好！ - I'll give him a big kiss on you. - Oh, do!
- 我會好好的。 - 會嗎？ - I'll be fine from here. - Will you?
就說今天會挺好的吧。 Well let's just say today I'm fine.
希望如此。 So you say.
你好！要去哪兒啊？ Hello! Where are you off to?
沙灘。 The beach.
- 沙灘挺舒服的，是吧？ - 對。 - It's nice at the beach, isn't it? - Yeah.
你衝浪嗎？ You surf?
不，我爸爸不讓。他說太危險了。 No, my dad won't let me. Says it's too dangerous.
他知道什麼啊？小氣鬼！ What does he know? The meany!
你來度假的？ You're here on holidays?
- 你從哪兒來？威克洛！ - 對。 - Where are you from? Wicklow! - Yeah.
別在意。不會在你身上出氣。 Never mind. I won't hold it against you.
珍妮！上車。 Jeanine! Get in the car.
你和她說什麼呢？ What were you saying to her?
- 我沒和她說什麼。 - 是嗎？ - I wasn't saying anything to her. - Oh, really?
我他媽看你們聊天呢。 It looked like a fucking conversation to me.
你去哪兒了寶貝？ Where the hell did you get to, honey?
我四處找你。 I've been looking all over for you.
大杯。 Large one.
確定嗎？ You sure about that?
嗯，威士忌。 Whiskey, I said.
誰燒了你的教堂，神父？如果你不介意我這麼問。 Who burnt down your church, Father? If you don't mind me asking.
那不是我的教堂。是我們的教堂。 It's not my church. It's our church.
我說是羅馬尼亞人幹的。 I'd say it was the Romanians.
那些該死的異教徒。羅馬尼亞人。 They're awful heathens. The Romanians.
咱們這有些什麼羅馬尼亞人啊？ What Romanians do we have around here?
羅馬尼亞人總是四處閒晃。沒好處的。 They're always hanging around. Romanians. Getting up to no good.
肯定是不喜歡你的人，神父。 Must be someone who doesn't like you, Father.
估計是鎮上的某個好人吧。 I think it must be one of the good people in this town.
你應該當警察去，西蒙。你有「推理能力」。 You should join the Garda, Simon. With your "powers of deduction".
這些人簡直是送死啊，神父？ These measures, huh, Father? Like a buttercup in the mouth of a cow.
來一品脫，布蘭登。 Pint there, please, Brendan.
你確信有上帝咯，神父？ So you're sure there's a God then, Father, yeah?
我不是開玩笑 I'm not kidding.
我是認真的。我有困惑。 I'm being serious. I'm asking because I'm having doubts myself.
我有信仰危機。 I'm having a crisis of faith.
別覺得我冒犯你啊。 Don't be getting offended.
神...對不起！真的對不起！ Fa... I'm sorry! Really I am!
板上釘釘似的...別這麼氣著走啊！ As sure as a hole in the ground... Don't be going away mad!
我真是愛搗亂。 I'm an awful messer.
你好啊神父！你聽了什麼？說點什麼？ Hey, Father! What do you hear? What do you say?
你回來了？ You're back, so?
我在鎮上有很多客戶呢。下至普通人，上至民眾。 I've got a lot of clients in this town. From the Hoi polloi to the masses.
我得隨時保持屁股潤滑。 I've got to keep my ass lubricated at all times.
普通人就是民眾的意思。你用錯詞了。 Hoi polloi are the masses of society. You're using the phrase incorrectly.
你懂得多，神父。我沒受什麼教育。 You know that maybe so, Father. I didn't get no education, see?
成天我就是後面上完上前面。 I was getting fucked in the ass and fucked in the face all day.
沒時間讀書。 Wasn't no time for any of that.
我定期和主教上床，知道嗎？ I was sucking the prick of a bishop on a regular basis, you get me?
你喜歡嗎，聰明鬼？ How did you like that play, smart ass?
你需要幫助。 You need help.
你聽著有點扭曲。 You're starting to sound a little screwy.
也許你該看看精神科醫生了。 Maybe you need to see a head-shrinker yourself.
你需要幫助嗎？你還好嗎？ Do you need help? Are you OK?
神父... Hey! Father...
我沒事，神父。行嗎？ There's nothing wrong with me, Father. All right?
我感覺挺好。 I'm feeling fine.
你知道... You know...
我第一次在都柏林工作的時候，有個三歲的小男孩。 when I first started out working up in Dublin, there was this 3-year-old boy.
父母把他帶到醫院。做例行手術。 Parents brought him into the hospital. A routine operation.
但是麻醉師用錯劑量了。 But the anesthetist made a mistake.
小男孩，聾了，傻了，瞎了... Little boy ended up deaf, dumb, blind...
而且癱了。永遠。 and paralyzed. For good.
想想吧！ Think of it!
想想小男孩第一次恢復意識時候的情景吧。 Think when that little boy first regained consciousness.
一片黑暗。你也會害怕的，不是嗎？ In the dark. You'd be frightened, wouldn't you?
你很害怕，但是你也知道恐懼要結束了。 You'd be frightened in the kind of a way that you know the fear is going to end.
肯定要結束了。 Has to.
快了。父母不會離得太遠的。 Must. Your parents couldn't be too far away.
他們會來救你的。 They'll come to your rescue.
他們會打開燈。和你交談。 They'll turn the light on. They'll talk to you.
但是，想想看。 But... think of it.
沒人會來救你。燈也不會亮。 Nobody comes to rescue you. No light is turned on.
你就在黑暗裡。 You are in the dark.
你想說話...但是不能。 You try to speak... but you can't.
你想動彈...但是也不能。 You try to move... but you can't.
你想大叫。但是你聽不見自己的吼聲。 You try to cry out. But you are unable to hear your own screams.
自己埋葬了自己。 You are entombed within your own body.
帶著恐懼嚎叫。 Howling with terror.
什麼？ What the fuck?
你他媽為什麼要告訴我這樣一個故事？ Why the fuck would you tell me a story like that?
沒什麼原因。 No reason.
有些人太愛動氣了。 Some people are awfully touchy.
祝你好運！ Good luck!
該走了。走吧。 Time to go. Come on.
你還在喝呢。再來一杯。 You're still drinking. Same again.
我說，該走了。 Time to go, I said.
你在命令我嗎？ Is that an order?
你不喜歡接受命令嗎，神父？ You don't like taking orders, Father?
倒是不介意發號施令啊。 You do not mind giving them.
這些人都差不多。 These kinds are all alike.
- 我「這種人」。 - 對，你「這種人」。 - My "kind". - Yeah, your "kind".
你大勢已去，自己都沒感覺。 Your time is gone and you don't even fucking realize it.
我的時代永不完結。 My time will never be gone.
聽見了啊？好傲慢啊。 Did you hear that? The arrogance of the man.
你應該更謙卑一些。 You need to be a little more humble.
要滅滅你的氣焰才行。你需要得很。 Needs to be taken down a peg or two. That's what he needs.
那來拿下我啊。 Take me down, then.
來啊。我看你他媽不敢。 Go on, I fucking dare you.
天啊！ Jesus Christ!
- 你怎麼了？ - 布蘭登林奇。 - What happened to you? - Brendan Lynch.
布蘭登林奇？他是佛教徒啊！ Brendan Lynch? He's a Buddhist!
他是佛教徒又怎樣？你他媽以為佛教徒不打人嗎？ So what if he's a fucking Buddhist? You think Buddhists don't beat people up?
你以為佛教徒和別人不一樣，不會搞砸孩子的生活嗎？ You think Buddhists don't fuck their kids like everyone else?
你明顯很心煩！ You're obviously very upset!
藏族人在街上衝人吐痰！在非洲殺白化病人！ Tibetans spit on blind people in the street! Their killing albinos in Africa!
你太他媽天真了。 You're so fucking naive.
別衝我罵髒話，神父。 Please don't curse at me, Father.
我希望早晨你清醒的時候咱們再聊吧。 I think It would be best to continue this conversation in the morning, sober.
你他媽為什麼要當牧師啊？ Why are you a fucking priest at all?
你他媽應該當會計！要麼就去買保險！ You should be a fucking accountant! Or a fucking insurance man!
可怕！ Terrible!
回家吧。 Let's go home.
什麼啊？ What is it?
沒什麼。 Nothing.
你要離開了？ You're leaving?
我覺得這樣最好。 I think it's for the best.
因為昨晚的事情？ Because of last night?
因為很多事情。 Because of a lot of things.
不光是昨天的事情，或是這發生的事情。 Not just last night. Or what's happened here.
如果你必須知道原因的話，我很困惑。 I've been having doubts, if you must know.
聽著，我昨晚不應該那樣說。 Listen, I'm sorry about what I said last night.
你說的話多惡毒啊！我沒想到你那麼討厭我。 You said what you said with such venom! I didn't realize you hated me that much.
我一點也不討厭你。 I don't hate you at all.
那是為什麼？ Then, why?
你就是一點也不正直啊。 It's just you have no integrity!
形容誰最壞也不過如此。 That's the worst thing I can say about anybody.
這... Well, that's...
- 這真是... - 希望你能找到你尋找的。 - That's just... - Hope you find what you're looking for.
祝你好運。 Good luck.
神父？ Father?
你好。 Hello.
你要去都柏林嗎？ You're going to Dublin?
對。 Yeah.
離開一陣？ Just getting away for a while, you know?
我聽說你教堂的事了。真糟糕。 I heard about your church. Terrible thing.
是啊。 Yes.
你肯定很難受。 You must be very upset.
是的。 Yes, I am.
我要帶他回家。回意大利。 I'm bringing him home. To his family in Italy.
都柏林然後...去羅馬。 Dublin and then... Rome.
你最近怎樣？ How have you been?
這裡人對我很好。 People here have been very kind to me.
我是說... I mean...
有時我覺得過不下去了。 You know, sometimes I think I cannot go on.
但是... But...
我會努力的。 I will go on.
神父！ Father!
做彌撒有點早啊。 Little early for mass.
哈特博士破曉時去釣魚。 他很不樂意地載了我一程。 Dr. Hart was out fishing at the crack of dawn. He begrudgingly gave me a ride.
你去哪兒？ Where are you headed?
去那邊的沙灘。 Just down the beach there.
- 我能一起去嗎？ - 別了。下次吧。 - Can I come along? - Not really, no. Maybe later.
好吧。那我不留你了。 That's fine, yeah. I won't keep you.
你寫完書了嗎？ Did you finish your book?
寫完了。我不知道寫的怎麼樣。 Yes, I did. I don't know how good it is.
肯定很棒。你是個很好的作家。 I'm sure it'll be extraordinary. You're a very fine writer.
謝謝，詹姆斯！ Thank you, James!
你知道那天咱們說話的時候你換了話題。 You know you changed the subject the other day when we were talking.
什麼話題？ What was the subject?
你知道的。你的罪是做了不該做的事。 You know what the subject was. I think you committed a sin of omission.
肯定有比這更重的罪。 I'm sure there are worse sins than sins of omission.
你是專家，神父。 I'll let you be the expert in that department, father.
說實話，我覺得咱們聊罪惡聊太多了。 I think there's too much talk about sins, to be honest.
聊道德聊得有點少。 Not enough talk about virtues.
你也許說得對。 You might be right.
你把什麼放在首位？ What would be your number one?
我可能太不重視寬恕了。 I think forgiveness has been highly underrated.
我寬恕你。 I forgive you.
你寬恕我嗎？ Do you forgive me?
永遠。 Always.
想跳下去嗎？他們說這是輕鬆的解決方式。 Thinking of throwing yourself in? They say that's the easy way out.
不太輕鬆。我可不想。 Nothing easy about it, I wouldn't have thought.
我沒有走在正路上，神父。 I'm in a bad way, Father.
我不是要扯你進來。 No, I'm not putting you on.
實際上，我已經走上歪路... The truth is I've been in a bad way for...
很久了。 a long time.
什麼也不想做。 No will to do anything.
覺得一切都沒有價值。 Feeling of nothing being worthwhile...
四分五裂。 A sense of disassociation.
游離冷漠。 Detachment.
我有老婆和孩子， I had a wife and kids,
但他們對我來說什麼都不是。 they meant nothing to me.
我有錢。但也一文不值。 I have money. It means nothing to me.
我有人生... I have life...
毫無意義。 and it means nothing to me.
你認為那種感覺從哪來的？游離感。 Where do you think it comes from? The sense of detachment.
不知道從哪來。 From nowhere.
不知道。 From nowhere.
聽著，我得去見一個人。 Listen, I have to meet someone now.
之後我會去找你。 I'll call on you after.
咱們可以聊聊。 We'll talk.
讓你走上正軌。好嗎？ Get you back on track. OK?
- 好嗎？ - 謝謝。 - OK? - Thank you.
謝謝你，神父。 Thank you, Father.
謝謝。 Thank you.
- 你還好嗎？ - 嗯。 - You all right? - Yeah.
慢慢把手從口袋拿出來。 Take your hands out of your pockets. Slowly.
為什麼？ Why?
聽說你有槍。 I heard you had a gun.
不得不說，我很吃驚。我以為我得去找你呢。 I have to say I'm surprised. Thought I'd have to go looking for you.
我來這不代表你要把事情進行到底。 Just 'cause I'm here doesn't mean you have to go through with it.
必須進行！ Yes it does!
就和打電話賣房一樣。 It's one of those cell phone selling properties.
你能想到事情會這樣嗎？ Did you ever think it would come to this, though, huh?
我期待不會變成這樣。我以為你是我的朋友。 I was hoping it wouldn't. I thought you were a friend of mine.
朋友只是沒變成敵人的人。 Your friend is just an enemy you haven't made yet.
- 廉價的憤世嫉俗。 - 不廉價。 - Cheap cynicism. - Not cheap, now, no.
是好不容易得來的憤世嫉俗！ It's a cynicism that's been hard won!
是通過... It's a cynicism that's been earned...
一大堆身體和精神折磨得來的。 over a hell of a lot of physical and psychological torture.
那我收回。但無論如何，都是憤世嫉俗。 I take it back then. But it's cynicism none the less.
這就是咱們的區別。 Maybe that's the difference between us.
對，但這不是唯一的區別。 Oh, that's not the only difference.
有什麼遺憾嗎？ Any regrets?
有！沒能讀完《白鯨記》。 Oh, yeah! Never got to finish "Moby Dick".
- 鯨魚把亞哈殺了。 - 是嗎？ - The whale kills Ahab. - Is that right?
然後把船毀了，船上的員工也死了。 Then he destroys the rest of the ship and the crew along with it.
除了伊希梅爾。 All except for Ishmael.
只有他逃脫了。都告訴你了。 He alone escapes. To tell thee.
我能理解你燒了教堂。 The burning of the church I can understand.
但不非要殺了我的狗啊。 You didn't have to kill my dog.
我沒殺你的狗。我愛狗。我為什麼要那麼做？ I didn't kill your dog! I love dogs. Why would I do a thing like that?
他脖子被割了。 I found him with his throat cut.
我他媽為什麼要殺一隻狗？我沒... Why would I fucking kill a dog? I didn't...
這事兒和我沒關係。 That had nothing to do with me.
我是無辜的。 I'm wholly innocent of that crime.
但是我那次確實給了維諾妮卡一鏟子。 I did give Veronica a bit of a shove that one time, though.
我承認，並感到抱歉。 I do admit that and I'm sorry for it.
狗的事讓你難過嗎？ Did it upset you, the dog?
是的。 Yes, it did.
你哭了嗎？ Did you cry?
是的。 Yes, I did.
那很好。 That's nice.
那你得知其他的牧師，對可憐的孩子們做了壞事， And when you read what your fellow priests did to all those poor children,
這些年來那麼多壞事，你哭了嗎？ all those years, did you cry then?
我問你問題呢：你哭了嗎？ I asked you a question: Did you cry then?
沒有。 No.
這就對了！ That's right!
- 我想... - 什麼？ - I suppose... - What?
- 我想我感覺到了依戀之情。 - 嗯。 - I suppose I felt attachment. - Yeah.
- 當你讀到... - 對對。 - When you read... - Yeah, yeah.
報紙上的東西時... Something in a newspaper...
別把自己代入進去！ Detach yourself from that!
咱們是幸運的人！ We were the lucky ones!
那邊有屍體在燃燒！燒得好旺！ There's bodies burning back there! Burning like dogs!
別看著我。 Don't look at me.
把臉轉開，別看著我！ Turn your face away, don't look at me!
別過來！米歇爾，跑啊！ No! Run! Michea, run!
我去找斯坦頓，神父！ I'll get Stanton, Father!
他讓我想起了我。 He reminds me of me.
還不太晚，傑克。 It's not too late, Jack.
晚了。 Yes, it is.
晚了。 Yes it is.
念悼詞吧，神父。 Say your prayers, Father.
我已經說過了。 I've already said them.
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