我曾无数次想象 I've imagined it so many times.
在所有问题中 How among all the other questions
你一定会想到的是 certain to have come to you was,
“那条狗怎么办？” "What will happen to the dog?”
他在那里，在山顶上 He's there, at the top of the hill
在两座桥之间 between the two bridges,
映衬着清澈的天空 silhouetted against the limpid sky.
你在胡编乱造。 You're making this up.
我当然没有胡编乱造。 I'm certainly not making it up.
“清澈”是你常用的词。 Limpid is one of your words.
好吧，“清澈”是编造的，没错。 Well, limpid's made up, sure.
但不是我编造的。是别人编造的。 But I didn't make it up. Some other guy did.
-“清澈。” - "Limpid."
这真的发生了。等等。 This really happened. Hang on.
瞧！ Voila!
他好像被施了魔法一样出现在那里。 It was like he was magicked there.
就像安徒生笔下的巨犬。 Like one of Andersen's giant dogs.
-没戴项圈。-没有。 - And no collar. -No.
-没牌子。-什么都没有。 - No tag. -Nothing.
等等。汉斯·克里斯蒂安—— Wait. Hans Christian-
你听过那个故事。一个士兵偷了一个火柴盒。 You know the story. A soldier steals a tinderbox.
他打开它。 He opens it up.
三只巨犬出现 Three giant dogs appear
实现他任何愿望。 to grant any wish that he desires.
沃尔特，那个故事是一个强奸幻想。 Walter, that story is a rape fantasy.
-不不不。拜托。-那个变态士兵痴迷于 -No, no, no. Come on. -The pervy soldier is obsessed
国王的女儿，所以他让狗绑架了她。 with the king's daughter, so he had the dogs kidnap her.
作为报复。 As revenge.
这是丹麦的社会评论。 It's Danish social commentary.
这样他就可以在她睡觉时与她发生关系。 So he can have sex with her while she's sleeping.
嗯，那是丹麦的。 Well, that's Danish.
好吧。你可能有道理。 Okay. You could have a point.
-谢谢。 -Thank you.
-事实是那条狗神奇地出现了。 - The fact is the dog magically appeared.
那么，芭芭拉对这条凭空出现的魔狗 So, how's Barbara feeling about this magical dog
感觉如何？ suddenly appearing out of nowhere?
芭芭拉对我长大的女儿凭空出现 Barbara was a much better sport about my grown daughter
更开明多了。 magically appearing out of nowhere.
你的女儿怎么样了？ How is your daughter?
她很棒。 She's spectacular.
她现在和艾瑞斯一起工作 She's working with Iris now
-写《信件》。-怎么样了？ -on The Letters. - How's it going?
哦，有搭档真好。是的。 Oh, it's good to have a partner. Yeah.
家里又多了一位作家？ Another writer in the family?
谢谢。 Thank you.
你认出这个声音了吗？ Do you recognize this voice?
不认识。 I don't.
呃……是沃尔特。 Uh... It's Walter.
你在哪儿？ Where are you?
我找到了那台旧电脑，但我无法启动它 I found that old computer, but I can't boot it
或者踢它，或者随你怎么弄。 or kick it or whatever you do to it.
而IT部门那个小混蛋完全没用。 And that little prick in IT is completely useless.
请给我打电话。 Please call me.
你认出这个声音了吗？ Do you recognize this voice?
不认识。 I don't.
呃……是沃尔特。 Uh... It's Walter.
你在哪儿？ Where are you?
-我找到了那个 -I found that
你喜欢告诉你的学生， You loved to tell your students,
“提防不可避免的细节。 "Beware the inevitable detail.
警惕预料。 Guard against anticipation.
拥抱无序。” Embrace disorder.”
然而，我在写作坊读过的许多故事 Yet, many of the stories I read in writing workshops
不可避免地以某人早上起床开始。 begin, inevitably, with someone getting up in the morning.
故事很少以某人睡觉开始。 Much less often does a story begin
with someone going to bed.
当然，现实中的人很少像故事中的角色那样 Of course, real people seldom behave
可预测地行事。 as predictably as characters in stories.
这是你作为作家教我的第一件事。 That's one of the first things you taught me as a writer.
而且奇怪的是， And strangely,
我们谈论的最后一件事 one of the last things we talked about
在你还活着的时候。 while you were still alive.
而在这把镰刀上弯腰； And o'er this sickle bending;
我静静地听着，一动不动； I listened, motionless and still;
当我登上山坡时， As I mounted up the hill,
我心中怀揣着那音乐， The music in my heart I bore,
很久之后再也听不见。 Long after it was heard no more.
啊。 Ah.
我很乱，抱歉。 I'm a mess, sorry.
我想读几句沃尔特的话。 I thought I would read a few of Walter's words.
他写于2010年。 He wrote this in 2010.
这也是我选择作为即将出版的新书 It's also the passage I chose to begin my upcoming book
关于我们在一起的时光的开篇段落。 about our time together.
你好？你好？ Hello? Hello?
嗯…… Um...
下午好。 Good afternoon.
我丈夫的学生和同事 My husband's students and colleagues
对他来说意义非凡…… meant as much to him...
-…就像他的写作一样。 -...as his writing.
-嗯，差不多吧。 - Well, almost as much.
你们是朋友、作家和读者的社群， You were the community of friends,
甚至是评论家， writers, and readers, and sometimes even critics,
他们激励和推动着他。 who prodded and pushed him.
并以许多不同的方式爱着他。 And loved him in so many different ways.
不好意思。 Excuse me.
-我不知道你会来。-我本来不打算来。 -I had no idea you were coming. -l wasn't going to.
但后来我想，你知道，结束吧。 But then I thought, you know, closure.
天啊，艾瑞斯，快20年了。 God, Iris, almost 20 years.
怎么会这样？ How did that happen?
我一直想象着回来。 I always imagined coming back.
很高兴见到你。 It's really good to see you.
二婚老婆真是个麻烦，是吧？ Wife number two is a piece of work, huh?
哦，你只知其一不知其二。 Oh, you don't know the half of it.
她真是利用“丧偶”这件事大做文章。 She's really milking the bereaved widow thing.
我是说，对一个二婚来说。 I mean, for a number two.
谷歌说我们是“幸存的离婚妻子”。 Google says we're "surviving divorced wives."
-哦。-寡妇只能有一个。 -Oh. -There can only be one widow.
-感觉被骗了？-松了口气。 -Feeling cheated? -Relieved.
不好意思。 Excuse me.
-哦，谢谢。-谢谢。 -Oh, thank you. -Thank you.
敬…… To...
他。 him.
-他。 -Him.
天啊，真是个混蛋。 God, what an asshole.
但你呢？你的写作怎么样了？ But what about you? How's your writing going?
-哦。-我读了《计数》。太棒了。 -Oh. -I read The Counting. Stunning.
-真的吗？-真的。 -Really? -Really.
-你现在在忙什么？-没忙。 -What are you working on now? -I'm not.
嗯，我曾经在忙。 Well, I was.
我几年前开始写一部小说，但是……是的。 I started a novel a couple of years ago, but... Yeah.
我这辈子最严重的写作障碍。 The worst writer's block of my life.
也许是因为我把它叫做“东方集团”。 Maybe because I called it Eastern Bloc.
-哎哟。-嘿。 - Ouch. - Hey.
嘿。我进来的时候正找你呢。 Hey. I was looking for you
-哦，天啊。是的。 -when I came in. -Oh, God. Yeah.
我迟到了。啊。 I was late. Ah.
我感觉像个不速之客。 I feel like a party crasher.
或者像有什么不好的事要发生。 Or like something bad is about to happen.
难道不好的事还没发生吗？ Hasn't something bad already happened?
-呃…… -Uh...
抱歉。我是……我是伊莱恩。 Sorry. I'm... I'm Elaine.
-一号妻子。-哦，伊莱恩。对。是的。 -Wife number one. -Oh, Elaine. Right. Yes.
艾瑞斯跟我提过你很多。你好。 Iris has told me so much about you. Hi.
-你好。-是的。 -Hi. - Yeah.
-瓦尔。瓦尔，伊莱恩。-嘿。 -Val. Val, Elaine. -Hey.
-这是沃尔特的女儿。-你好。 -This is Walter's daughter. -Hi.
沃尔特的…… Walter's...
女儿。 daughter.
哇。 Wow.
“女儿”女儿？ "Daughter” daughter?
继女？寡妇的女儿？ Step-daughter? Widow's daughter?
-呃，什么？-你好，瓦尔。 -Uh, what? -Hello, Val.
-芭芭拉。-你一定是伊莱恩。 - Barbara. -You must be Elaine.
-追悼会很棒。-谢谢。 -The memorial was beautiful. -Thank you.
我真的很感谢你邀请我。 I really appreciate you including me.
艾瑞斯，我需要跟你谈谈一些事情。 Iris, I need to talk with you about something.
我希望你能来我家。 I was hoping you'd come by the house.
也许这周早些时候？ Maybe early in the week?
-是的。-不好意思，女士们。 -Yeah. - Excuse me, ladies.
你好，艾瑞斯。是的。 Hello, Iris. Yeah.
-你错过了我一半的诗。-哦。 -You missed half my poem. - Oh.
是的。“哦。”没关系。 Yeah. "Oh." It's okay.
桑德森，嗯，想和你谈谈。 Sanderson, um, wants to talk to you.
谢谢，杰瑞。哦。我周三回去工作，所以…… Thank you, Jerry. Oh. And I go back to work
-好的。-我会给你打电话的。是的。 -on Wednesday, so... -Okay.
-我会给你打电话的。是的。-谢谢。 -I'll call you. Yeah. -Thank you.
给我打电话。 Call me.
我应该早点介绍自己的。 I should have introduced myself sooner.
不，那没用。相信我。 No, it wouldn't have helped. Believe me.
你觉得芭芭拉想跟你说什么？ What do you think Barbara wants to talk to you about?
我不知道。 I have no idea.
和塞缪尔·贝克特散步 Walking with Samuel Beckett
一个美好的春天早晨，一个朋友问道： one fine spring morning, a friend asked,
“这样的一天难道不让你庆幸自己还活着吗？” "Doesn't a day like this make you glad to be alive?”
贝克特回答道…… Beckett responded...
我不会走那么远。 I wouldn't go as far as that.
还有一句来自你的英雄贝克特。 And another from your hero, Beckett.
我死去的那天会像其他任何一天一样， The day that I die will be like any other day,
只是更短。 only shorter.
你用那句话把我们逗乐了…… You cracked us up with the line...
“自杀的人越多， "The more suicidal people there are,
自杀的人就越少。” the less suicidal people there are.”
你好，艾瑞斯女士。 Hola, Ms. Iris.
-都这个点了是吗？-哦，是的。 -That time already, is it? -Oh, yeah.
圣诞老人要来了。 Santa Claus is coming to town.
呵呵呵。 Ho, ho, ho.
我读过几乎所有自杀未遂并幸存下来的人 I've read that almost all people
who attempt suicide and survive
都后悔尝试过。 regret having tried.
就像那些跳楼者说他们一跳到空中就 Like jumpers who say that as soon as they hit the air
就知道他们并不真的想死。 they knew they didn't really wanna die.
我为你感到疑惑。 I wonder about you.
关于你可能有什么感受。 About how you might have felt.
这个想法让我夜不能寐。 The thought keeps me up at night.
“曼奇尼开着一辆别克 "Mancini drove a Buick
凭空出现。 that appeared out of nowhere.
没人问问题。 Nobody asked questions.
他们都凑钱加油。 They all just chipped in for gas.
三个小时后， And three hours later,
他们到达蓝地平线 they were at the Blue Horizon
观看乔治·本顿， to watch George Benton,
费城盾牌的大师 master of the Philly Shell
在一次崇高的表演中躲避、格挡和闪避拳击。 slip and block and elude punches
'让他们打空，并让他们付出代价。' in a display of the sublime.
'让他们打空，并让他们付出代价。' 'Make them miss and make them pay.'
也许西德很反常， Maybe Sid was perverse,
但他更喜欢让他们打空， but he loved making them miss
而不是让他们付出代价。 more than making them pay.
那是他的理想，拳击场内外都是。 That was his ideal, inside the ring and out.
在拳击场上更容易。 It was easier in the ring.
在外面，即使是那些无懈可击的人， Outside, even the guys who were untouchable,
那些被赋予千里眼 who were blessed with clairvoyance
或某种不可思议的天才的人， or some uncanny genius,
都被摧毁了。 got destroyed.
在外面，生活混乱而没有艺术性。 Outside, life was chaotic and artless.
你需要挨三拳才能打中一拳。” And you took three punches to land one.”
“背叛的尖锐像刀子一样刺痛。 "The sharpness of the betrayal cut like a knife.
再也没有疑问了。 There was no doubt anymore.
是她的前任。” It was her ex."
很好。比以前好。 It's good. Better than it was.
我喜欢这个结局。 I like the ending.
但简还是不太像 But Jane's still not very much
故事中的人物。 like a character in a story.
她更像一个真实的人。 She's more like a real person.
不像你写的那种男人。 Not like the kind of guys that you write about.
-不像那种故事。-不。我只是说—— -Like that kind of story. -No. I'm just saying-
像没有带翅膀的幻影 Like no winged phantoms
-或仪式性斩首。-我只是觉得 -or ritual beheadings. -I just don’t see
写一个完全普通的人有什么意义。 the point writing about somebody totally regular.
我是说，世界上发生了这么多事。 I mean, with everything going on in the world.
-世界？你在开玩笑吗？-我只是提供 -The world? Are you kidding? -I'm just offering
-一个诚实的评论。-卡特，你说的“普通”是什么意思？ -an honest critique. -Carter, what do you mean
"regular"?
我是说，她的长相什么的。 I mean, the look and everything.
我认识很多简。 I know a lot of Janes.
好吧，我只听说她红头发，绿眼睛。 Well, all I heard was she's got red hair, green eyes.
我驾驶证上的细节都比这多。 There's more detail on my driver's license.
也许你指的是一个普通的女人。 Maybe you meant a regular woman.
另一个女孩高吗？ Is the other girl tall?
我不知道我们为什么让他们互相评论作品。 I don't know why we let them critique each other's work.
盲人领着盲人。 Blind leading the blind.
走进死胡同。 Down a dead-end alley.
我为沃尔特感到抱歉。 I'm so sorry about Walter.
哇，纯粹的同情。 Wow, pure sympathy.
-顺便安慰一下。 - Drive-by condolence.
-嘿。-嘿。 -Hey. -Hey.
-怎么样了？-嗯，很好。你呢？ - How's it going? - Yeah, good. You?
嗯。好的。 Yeah. Okay.
准备好。 Get ready.
-天哪，这简直是古董。-是的。 -Jeez, this is a dinosaur. -Yeah.
但他所有的邮件应该都在上面，直到2007年。 But all his emails should be on there until 2007.
-你的那个人……-里科。 -And your guy... -Rico.
…应该能够破解密码。 ...should be able to crack the code.
是的，他会的。他说今晚就做。 Yeah, he will. Said he'd do it tonight.
好的。那明天呢？ Okay. Tomorrow then?
-是的。我会过来的。-太好了。小心。 -Yeah. I'll come over. -Great. Be careful.
-没有备份。-明白了。 -There's no backup. -Got it.
它很珍贵。 It's precious.
我们会做一个备份，所以…… And we'll make a backup, so...
嘿。你怎么样？ Hey. How are you doing?
嗯。我不知道。你呢？ Hmm. I don't know. You?
你知道的。 You know.
我还没哭过。 I still haven't cried.
嗯，人们感受到的就是感受到的。 Well, people feel the way they feel.
但就是感觉不对。好像我少了点什么。 But it just feels wrong. It's like I'm missing something.
我手机屏幕碎了的时候都哭了。 I cried when my phone screen cracked.
芭芭拉想干什么？ What did Barbara want?
我不知道。我现在正要去那里。 I don't know. I'm headed there now.
你觉得是关于我的吗？ You think it's about me?
为什么会是关于你的？ Why would it be about you?
这是个反问句吗？ Is that a rhetorical question?
再见。 Bye.
我想告诉你，无论我睡多久， / wanna tell you that no matter how much I sleep,
我都很累。 I'm exhausted.
我感觉自己正在失去控制。 That I feel as though I'm losing control.
就像我的人生故事正在被别人书写。 Like my life story is being written by someone else.
非常感谢你能来。 Thanks so much for coming.
伯爵茶？ Earl Grey?
-希望没关系。-是的。 -I hope that's all right. -Yeah.
那么，告诉我。你怎么样？ So, tell me. How are you doing?
书写得怎么样了？ How's it going with the book?
你和瓦尔还合得来吗？ Are you and Val still getting along?
哦，是的。她……她很棒。她，呃…… Oh, yeah. She's... She's great. She, uh...
嗯，我们进展有点慢， Well, we're moving a little slow,
但你知道，我们正在摸索。 but you know, we're figuring it out.
她找到了一些…… And she found some...
她找到一个人 She found some guy that
呃，正在帮助 uh, is helping get these emails
从他那台千年老电脑里弄出来。 off his thousand-year-old computer.
哦，天哪，没错。那台古老的笔记本电脑。 Oh, God, right. That ancient laptop.
你跟杰瑞谈过吗 Have you spoken with Jerry
关于是否再找一位编辑的事？ about perhaps bringing on another editor?
你为什么这么问？他说了什么吗？ Why do you ask? Did he say something?
不。嗯，是的。只是，正如你所说，进展缓慢。 No. Well, yes. Only, as you say, that things are going slowly.
哦。所以，这就是你想和我谈的事？ Huh. So, that's what you wanted to talk to me about?
哦，不。当然不是。 Oh, no. Of course not.
我不懂出版。 I don't know publishing.
那是你和杰瑞之间的事情，如何最好地完成这本书。 That's between you and Jerry, how best to finish the book.
我想你知道 I think you know
沃尔特有多么感激 how much Walter appreciated
你从自己的写作中抽出时间 you taking time out from your own writing
来编辑他的通信。 to edit his correspondence.
嗯。 Hm.
我认为这是一个错误 I think it was a mistake
沃尔特不教书了。 for Walter to stop teaching.
嗯…… Um...
他很喜欢。 He loved it.
但所有那些“不当行为”的废话， But all that "misconduct” nonsense,
太令人沮丧了。 it was demoralizing.
当然，一旦他停下来，他就想念它了。 Of course, once he stopped, he missed it.
哦。让我…… Oh. Just let me...
现在的情况是， Things being what they are now,
我想世界上大多数作家 I suppose most writers in the world
都想知道自己的位置，是吧？ wonder what their place is, huh?
嗯……那么，你可能想知道 Well... So, you are probably wondering
我为什么请你来这里。 why I asked you here.
是为了那条狗。 It's about the dog.
我想问你能不能收养它。 I wanted to ask if you could take him.
-阿波罗？那条狗？-是的。 -Apollo? That dog? -Yes.
不。 No.
不……我……我不能。 No. ... I... I can't.
我的公寓不允许养狗。 They don't allow dogs in my building.
-你确定吗？-是的，我确定。 -Are you sure? -Yes, I'm sure.
是的。 Yeah.
-呃，他不能住在这里吗？-哦，不不不。 -Uh, could he not stay here? -Oh, no, no, no.
这正是我要说的。他需要重新安置。 That's what I'm trying to say. He needs to be re-homed.
-重新安置？-他在这里很痛苦。 -Re-homed? -He's been miserable here.
可怜的小东西不吃东西。 The poor thing wasn't eating.
他会日日夜夜守在那扇门旁。 And he would wait by that door day and night.
每次我设法振作起来， Every time I managed to pull myself together,
我看到他待在那里，然后…… I'd look at him there, and then...
-崩溃了。 -fall apart.
那瓦尔呢？ What about Val?
艾瑞斯。 Iris.
其他家人呢？ Some other family member?
我真是走投无路了。 I'm at my wit's end.
所有的收容所都有很长的等候名单。 All the sanctuaries have such long waiting lists.
他不能在狗舍里度过余生。 He can't spend the rest of his life in the kennel.
-你……你把他放进狗舍了？-我还能怎么办？ -You... You put him in a kennel? -What else could I do?
他不明白爸爸再也回不来了。 He didn't understand that Papa is never coming home again.
怎么…… How...
怎么向一条狗解释死亡？ How can you explain death to a dog?
你能不能暂时收养他？ What if you took him for a little while?
即使那样也会有很大的帮助。 Even that would be a very big help.
你会看到，他非常听话。 You will see, he is very obedient.
他知道所有的指令。他不会叫。 He knows all the commands. He doesn't bark.
他不破坏东西。不会随地大小便。 He doesn't destroy things. Doesn't have accidents.
他知道不能上床。 And he knows to stay off the bed.
嗯，我确定所有这些都是真的。 Yeah, well I'm sure all of that is true.
我知道这要求很多。 I know this is a lot to ask.
但我必须告诉你，事实是 But I have to tell you, the truth is
这是沃尔特想要的。 this is what Walter wanted.
你是他的应急计划。 You were his contingency plan.
他的什么？ His what?
我不喜欢狗。 I don't like dogs.
他知道的。 And he knew that.
我求他不要养，但他很坚决。 I begged him not to keep it, but he was determined.
在我们有史以来最糟糕的一次争吵中， And in the middle of the worst fight
他向我保证 that we have ever had, he assured me that
如果出了问题， should things go wrong,
那条狗就会去和你一起住。 that the dog would go and live with you.
-他为什么要那么说？-你自己住， -Why would he say that? -You live on your own,
你没有孩子或伴侣。 you don't have kids or a partner.
你喜欢动物。 And you love animals.
-呃。我喜欢动物，芭芭拉。-嗯。 -Uh. I love animals, Barbara. -Hm.
我喜欢动物，是的。 I love animals, yes.
我喜欢猫。我不喜欢……我……我…… I love cats. I don't love... I... I...
阿波罗？他…… Apollo? He's...
应急计划？为什么会……他为什么要那么说 Contingency plan? Why would... Why would he say that
而不告诉我？ without mentioning it to me?
我不会编造这个。 I wouldn't make this up.
你是他最好的朋友。 You were his best friend.
哦，天哪。 Oh, God.
嘿。 Hey.
来吧。 Come on.
阿波罗。 Apollo.
现在来。 Come now.
对不起。 I'm sorry.
-这边。来吧。在这里。 -This way. Come on. It's here.
来吧。 Come on.
天哪。 Jesus.
好的。再试一次。 Okay. Let's try again.
我先走。你跟着我。 I'll go first. You follow me.
嘿。 Hey.
来吧。我们走。 Come on. Let's go.
-我们进去吧。来吧。 -Let's go in. Come on.
-来吧。我们走。 -Come on. Let's go.
-阿波罗。 -Apollo.
好的。该死。 Okay. Shit.
呃……不好意思。 Uh... Excuse me.
你要上去吗？ Are you going up?
-你先请。-好的。谢谢。 -After you. -Okay. Thanks.
就是这样。 That's it.
再来一次。 One more.
好的。等等，伙计。 Okay. Hold on, bud.
是的。这是……就是这里。 Yeah. This is... This is it.
这是我住的地方。 This is where I live.
阿波罗。 Apollo.
不。不。下床。下来。 No. No. Get off the bed. Off.
下来。 Get off.
-真是个骗子。 -What a liar.
你在家吗？ You home?
天哪。你的床上有一匹小马。 Zoinks. There's a pony on your bed.
一匹非常悲伤的小马。 A very sad pony.
他是沃尔特的。 He was Walter's.
是的，我记得。我以为你喜欢猫。 Yeah, I remember. I thought you were a cat person.
只是暂时的。 It's just temporary.
呃，阿波罗，马乔里。 Uh, Apollo, Marjorie.
阿波罗。（打喷嚏） Apollo. |sneezes)
有点过敏。 Teensy bit allergic.
祝你好运，亲爱的。 Good luck, hon.
如果你需要什么，我就在家。 I'm home if you need anything.
-嗯，谢谢。给我打电话。 -Yeah, thanks. Call me.
来吧，狗狗。 Come on, doggy.
来吧。你一定饿了，对吧？ Come on. You gotta be hungry, right?
给你。 Here you go.
好的。 Okay.
-嗯，就在那儿。 -Well, it's right there.
您已接通三州大丹犬救援 You've reached the Tri-state Great Dane Rescue
热线。请…… hotline. Please...
你想要什么？ What do you want?
来点音乐？ Some music?
好的。我们看看。 Okay. Let's see.
哦。 Oh.
我爸爸最喜欢的。 My dad's favorite.
你会喜欢这个的。 You're gonna like this.
也许？ Maybe?
也许不。 Maybe not.
来吧。这是我的床。 Come on. This is my bed.
真的吗？ Seriously?
好的。 Okay.
好的。你待在那里。 Okay. You stay there.
是的，我知道。百分之百， Yeah, I know. A hundred percent,
-你晚上必须叫优步。 -you have to Uber at night.
纽约现在很危险。 It's dangerous in New York now.
-嘿。你能……？-是的。抱歉。抱歉。 -Hey. Can you...? -Yeah. Sorry. Sorry.
来吧，罗科。 Come on, Rocco.
是的。 Yeah.
来吧。我们去公园。 Come on. Let's go in the park.
呃。 Ugh.
哦。呃…… Oh. Uh...
你好，艾瑞斯女士。你好。 Hello, Ms. Iris. Hi.
-嘿，赫克托。怎么样？-很好。很好。 -Hey, Hektor. How's it going? -Good. Good.
-我听说有条狗。-是的。 -I heard there was a dog. -Yeah.
呃……这条狗……这个……这个…… Uh... This dog has... The... The...
主人突然去世了。 The owner, he died quite suddenly.
-哇，真伤心。-是的。 -Wow, that's sad. -Yeah.
但不允许养狗。 But there are no dogs allowed.
-只是在我能找到……-不。即使是暂时也不行。 -It's just until I can find a -No. Not even temporary.
但没有别人了。 But there's no one else.
对不起，艾瑞斯女士。不养狗。 I'm sorry, Ms. Iris. No dogs.
好。给你。这样如何？ Okay. Here. How's this?
再见。 Bye.
每个人处理批评的方式都不同。 Everyone's got their own way of processing criticism.
是啊，她的方式肯定是“滚开，混蛋。” Yeah, well, hers must be, "Back off, asshole."
你觉得珍娜说的有什么帮助吗？ Did you find anything helpful in what Jenna was saying?
你是说关于女性角色？ You mean about female characters?
我是说，我喜欢你写投机小说。 I mean, I love that you're writing speculative fiction.
我写了很多女性角色。 I write tons of female characters.
比如说，总是这样。 Like, all the time.
我在课堂上朗读之前必须把那些都删掉。 I have to delete all that before I read in class.
你的研讨会大部分是女生，你可能没注意到。 Your workshop is mostly girls, in case you hadn't noticed.
而且，你知道，有… And there's, like, you know,
性和那些东西。 sex and stuff.
-他们会把我钉上十字架的。-嗯。 -They'd crucify me. -Mm-hmm.
但我会让你读的。 But I'll let you read it.
嗯，我们快期末了，所以… Yeah, well, we are coming to the end of term, so-
那会是我最好的作品。 It will be my best stuff.
很激烈但又超级浪漫。 Pretty intense but super romantic.
没那么色情，不像《权力的游戏》什么的。 Less porny than, like, Game of Thrones,
-什么的。 -or whatever.
-哦，进来。-哦，抱歉。 -Oh, Come in. -Oh, sorry.
不，不。我们刚结束。 No, no. We were just finishing up.
呃，电影前要不要吃点东西？ Uh. How about a bite before the movie?
-那是一只大丹犬吗？-什么？卡特- - Is that a Great Dane? -What? Carter-
你要收养一只大丹犬吗？ Are you adopting a Great Dane?
-不。-它们是狗中之王。 -No. -They're the king of dogs.
每个周日中央公园都有疯狂的大丹犬聚会。 There's this crazy Dane meetup in Central Park every Sunday.
我有时会去看看。 I go just to watch sometimes.
-你要养狗吗？-不，我没有。 -Are you getting a dog? -No, I'm not.
你会爱上大丹犬的。 Well, you'd love a Dane.
谢谢你的建议。 Thanks for the tip.
-那都是怎么回事？-拜托，我们忘了它吧。 -What was that all about? -Please, let's just forget it.
吃点东西？ Bite to eat?
哦。 Oh.
布罗瑟姆，对不起。 Blossom, I'm sorry.
我得回家了。 I have to get home.
我想他想你了。 I think he missed you.
什么… What...
坏狗！ Bad dog!
坏，坏狗！ Bad, bad dog!
你这坏狗！ You bad dog!
该死。 Damn it.
谢谢。 Thanks.
那正是沃尔特 That's exactly what Walter
对“东方集团”的看法。 thought of Eastern Bloc too.
那真是太棒了。 That's just great.
来吧，你总得吃点东西。 Come on, you gotta eat sometime.
也许你把我的枕头都吃光了，所以没胃口了。 Maybe you spoiled your appetite on my pillows.
还有我的写作障碍。 And my writer's block.
-你好？-喂！是我。 -Hello? - Yo! It's me.
糟了。 Shit.
上来吧。 Come on up.
这都是你的错。 This is all your fault.
-嘿。-嘿。 -Hey. -Hey.
-你忘了。-不。 -You forgot. -No.
天哪。这家伙？ Jesus. This guy?
啊，是的。 Ah, yeah.
嘿，大哥。 Hey, big bro.
所以，这就是芭芭拉想和你谈的？ So, this is what Barbara wanted to talk to you about?
是的。 Yeah.
你甚至被允许待在这里吗？ Are you even allowed here?
只是在我找到别人之前。 It's only until I can find someone else.
那又怎样，你会给他找个新家吗？ Then what, you'll re-home him?
-他刚到。-呃… -He just got here. -Uh...
可怜的家伙。 Poor guy.
他霸占了我的床。 He's taken over my bed.
他甚至不看我。看到了吗？ And he won't even look at me. See?
谁说音乐能抚慰野兽… And whoever said that music soothes the savage beast-
-是“野性胸怀”。-什么？ -It's savage breast. -What?
是“音乐抚慰野性胸怀”。 It's "music soothes the savage breast.”
哦。好吧，那怪不得了。 Oh. Well, there you go. No wonder.
你的“胸怀”需要抚慰吗？ Does your breast need soothing?
嗯？ Hm?
我敢打赌是的。 I bet it does.
现在是不方便的时候吗？ Is now a bad time?
-你真的忘了？-不。 -You really forgot? -No.
好吧，是的。 Okay, yes.
我以为我们会在船上活动之后做。 I thought we were gonna do it after the boat thing.
不，我说里科会马上做。 No, I said Rico would do it right away,
然后你说今晚。 and then you said tonight.
此外，我也不去船上。 Besides, I'm not going on the boat.
好吧，我想我没相信你。 Well, I guess I didn't believe you.
嗯，你应该相信的。 Well, you should have.
这可能会有帮助。 It might be helpful.
帮什么？我的感受？ For what? My feelings?
嗯，有时那种仪式可以… Well, sometimes those kind of rituals can be-
不，那不是关于我的感受。那只是， No, it's not about my feelings. It's just, like,
真的不是我的菜。 really not my thing.
那是他们的事。 It's their thing.
沃尔特的人。 Walter's people.
而且，他们不希望我在那里。 And besides, they don't want me there.
不，我想大家都非常希望能见到你。 No, I think everyone is really hoping to see you.
相信我。他们没有。 Trust me. They're not.
我只会让他们想起 I just remind them things about him
他们希望忘记的事情。 that they wish they could forget.
不。你不是一个可以被遗忘的人。 No. You are not something to forget.
你想看驱动器吗？我们不必。 Do you wanna look at the drive? We don't have to.
是啊。做吧。为什么不呢？ Yeah. Let's do it. Why not?
-这里发生了什么？ -What happened in here?
我……他不喜欢独自一人。 I... He doesn't like being left alone.
嗯，里科把所有东西都恢复了。 Um, well, Rico recovered everything.
三万封邮件，我想。 Thirty thousand emails, I think.
三万？ Thirty thousand?
其中三封是写给我妈妈的。 Three of which were to my mother.
这足以说明 Which tells you everything you need to know
-那段关系了。-哦，对不起。 -about that relationship. -Oh, I'm sorry.
不。别难过。 No. Don't be sorry.
他们之间不是那样的。我… It wasn't like that between them. I...
我没指望会有更多。 I didn't expect there to be more.
但不管怎样，有大约300封信。 But anyway, there's, like, 300 letters.
我找到了这封。 And I found this one.
“真是好运， "What a stroke of luck,
我们俩同时在柏林。 the two of us being in Berlin at the same time.
我无法停止思念那些翠绿的浮冰 I can't stop thinking about the green-blue floes
沿着施普雷河漂流。” drifting along the Spree."
哦，天哪。 Oh, jeez.
哦，对不起。 Oh, sorry.
你不想让我… Do you not want me to...
不，不，继续。没关系。 No, no, go on. It's okay.
“不祥的锯齿状， "Jaggedly foreboding,
不知怎的，更半透明，因为那铁灰色的天空。 more translucent somehow, for the steely sky.
令人叹为观止。什么……” Breathtaking. What..."
他在做什么？ What's he doing?
呃。我不知道。 Uh. I don't know.
嗯。 Hm.
好吧。嗯… Okay. Um...
“多么快乐的一天。 "What a happy day together.
爱丽丝，过去几个月我非常想你， I'd been missing you terribly, Iris,
这些日子， these past months,
现在，我再次感到悲伤而孤独。 and now, once again, I find myself sadly bereft.
但你这些新页。我着迷了。 But these new pages of yours. I'm enthralled.
精彩的作品， Fabulous work,
引人入胜，奇妙无比。” riveting and wondrous."
你觉得沃尔特会给他读吗？ Do you think Walter read to him?
是啊，我肯定。他… Yeah, I'm sure. He...
他会读给任何愿意听的人听。 He'd read to anyone who'd listen.
嗯。 Hm.
什么？ What?
只是想象那会是什么样子。 Just imagining what that might have been like.
被沃尔特朗读。 Being read to by Walter.
麻木。就是那样。 Numbing. That's how.
让我读给你听，也读给他听。 Let me read to you, and him.
“探险的目标 "The goal of the expedition
是绘制亚马逊河支流的支流地图。 was to map a tributary, of a tributary of the Amazon.
那条富有诗意的‘疑虑之河’。 The poetically named River of Doubt.
还有…” And..."
太棒了。你喜欢这个吗？ Amazing. Is that what you like?
书面语？ The written word?
这能抚慰你那野性的胸怀吗？ Does that soothe your savage breast?
好了，好了，好了。不想做得太过。 Okay, okay, okay. Wouldn't want to overdo it.
我想读一首诗， I want to read a poem
托马斯·哈代的《我的灵魂不会缠绕坟墓》。 called "My Spirit Will Not Haunt The Mound" by Thomas Hardy.
我的灵魂不会缠绕坟墓 My spirit will not haunt the mound
在我胸上，但会带着记忆游荡， Above my breast, But travel, memory-possessed,
到我那颤抖的生命…… To where my tremulous being...
只是他太大了， It's just he is so big,
你的公寓就像个鞋盒。 and your apartment is like a shoebox.
你从没来过我的公寓。 You've never been to my apartment.
嗯，我听说了。从沃尔特那儿。 Well, I've heard. From Walter.
你们俩会讨论我公寓的大小？ You two would discuss the size of my apartment?
我们谈论了很多事情。 We talked about a lot of things.
爱丽丝，这似乎很残忍。 It just seems cruel, Iris.
芭芭拉，嗯，你是对的。 Barbara, um, you were right.
当地的任何救援站都没有空间了。 There's no space in any of the local rescues.
你不能就这么给沃尔特的狗找新家。 You can't just re-home Walter's dog.
我真希望你能重新考虑。 I really wish you'd reconsider.
我知道这是沃尔特想要的。 I know it's what Walter wanted.
来吧，他真的这么说过吗？ Come on, did he actually say that?
那是他想要的？ That's what he wanted?
爱丽丝。 Iris.
谢谢你。 Thank you.
送我去火车站？ Walk me to the train?
是啊。来吧，大家伙。 Yeah. Come on, big guy.
那只狗，他太像沃尔特了。 That dog, he's so Walter.
你是说，那晃荡的蛋蛋？ You mean, the swinging balls?
沃尔特会讨厌今天的。 Walter would've hated today.
骨灰。鲜花。悲伤的诗。 The ashes. Flowers. Mournful poem.
他会喜欢看到他的三个妻子 He'd have loved seeing his three wives
一起挤在一艘小船上。 stuck on a tiny boat together.
我们应该邀请女朋友们来。 We should've invited the girlfriends.
“你需要更大的船。” "You're gonna need a bigger boat."
-天哪。 - God.
我从没告诉过你我… I never told you that I...
我知道你们俩的事。你们曾经在一起。 I knew about the two of you. That you'd been together.
是沃尔特告诉你的吗？ Did Walter tell you?
我猜的。然后我问他，他，你知道，承认了。 I guessed. Then I asked him, and he, you know, owned it.
他对你们仍然是朋友感到非常自豪。 He was so proud of himself that you'd remained friends.
但他从没真正分享过细节。 But he never really shared details.
那是… It was...
那个夏天， that summer,
我们上他的最后一节课。 that last class we took from him.
我们只是不停地出去玩。 We just kept hanging out.
散步。喝咖啡。 Going for walks. Coffees.
一天晚上，他突然对我说…我们喝了酒。 One night, out of the blue... We'd been drinking.
...他突然对我说， ...he just suddenly said to me,
“我们应该做爱。” "We should fuck."
我没料到我们之间会这样。在一起这么久之后。 And I didn't expect it with us. After so much time together.
我看到他和别的学生那样，但是… I'd seen it with other students, but...
-是啊。-850，我只是盯着他 -Yeah. -850, I just stared at him
说：“为什么？” and said, "Why?"
-“为什么？”-是啊。他也笑了。 - "Why?" -Yeah. He laughed too.
然后他说：“我们应该互相发现这个。” And then he said, "We should find that out about each other."
-他没有。-他有。然后我们做了。 -He didn't. -He did. And then we did.
像沃尔特这样的人和他们所钟爱的语言。 Men like Walter and their beloved language.
令人失望的是， Isn't it disappointing that
当到了诱惑的时候， when it comes time to seduce,
他们听起来都一样？ they all sound the same?
嗯。 Hm.
我是说，在我人生的那个阶段， I mean, at that point in my life,
我对一切都很投入。 I was so intense about everything.
我想要所有的经历。而他… I wanted every experience. And he...
他就是那么他妈的老练。 He was just so fucking sophisticated.
然后呢？ And?
然后就那样了。 And then that was it.
第二天，他宣布我们试图超越朋友关系 The next day, he pronounced it a mistake for us
是个错误。 to try and be more than friends.
-真是个花花公子。-是啊。 -What a cad. -Yeah.
我感到羞愧和愤怒。 I was mortified. And angry.
我一秒钟都没觉得我们还能再做朋友。 And I didn't think for a second we could ever be friends again.
-然后我爸爸病了。-我记得。 -And then my dad got sick. -I remember.
对，他出现在葬礼上， Right, and he shows up at the funeral,
那真的很好。 and it was really nice.
而且出奇地好。 And weirdly okay.
然后你们俩开始了，一切又正常了。 And then you two started up, and it was all normal again.
你为什么从没说过什么？ Why didn't you ever say anything?
我不知道。好像不重要。 I don't know. It didn't seem to matter.
我们都是朋友。 We were all friends.
是啊。我想确实不重要。 Yeah. I guess it didn't.
但后来沃尔特和我分手了。 But then Walter and I split.
我嫉妒了。 And I was jealous.
-嫉妒我？-嫉妒你和他的关系。 -Of me? -Of your relationship with him.
是啊，你的… Yeah, your...
你的友谊。 Your friendship.
你最好的友谊。 Your best friendship.
他找到了和你那样相处的方式。 That he found a way to do that with you.
他想要那样。没有性。 That he wanted it. Without the sex.
天哪，他把他的爱马留给了你。 For God's sake, he left you his trusted steed.
哦，天哪。 Oh, God.
嘿。 Hey.
告诉我。嗯… Tell me. Um...
我们和沃尔特一起上的那堂课。 That class we took with Walter.
是肖娜，对吧？瓦尔的妈妈是肖娜？ It's Shauna, right? Val's mom is Shauna?
-天哪，你真厉害。-是啊。 -God, you're good at this. -Yeah.
我一离开招待会，就明白了。 The second I left the reception, it hit me.
她和瓦尔，她们简直是双胞胎。 She and Val, they could be twins.
不，但是那是在你分手之后。 No, but it was right after you split.
我知道。我知道。我知道。我知道。我算过了。 I know. I know. I know. I know. I did the math.
你知道吗？没关系。 And you know what? It's... It's okay.
不，不是。 No, it's not.
该死。 Fuck.
这次我们能保持联系吗？ Can we stay in touch this time?
哦，艾瑞斯小姐，我以为我告诉过你，那只狗。 Oh, Ms. Iris, I thought I told you, the dog.
-你什么时候才能把他送走？-是啊。 -When will you get rid of him? -Yeah.
还没。 Not yet.
-我正在想办法。-不。 -I'm working on it. -No.
你不能只是“想办法”。你必须让他走。 You can't just work on it. You gotta make him go.
赫克托，他有名字。 Hektor, he has a name.
-阿波罗。-是的，我知道。 -Apollo. -Yes, I know.
阿波罗，对。 Apollo, right.
阿波罗。赫克托。好吗？ Apollo. Hektor. Okay?
阿波罗。赫克…哦。是啊。好的，是的。 Apollo. Hek... Oh. Yeah. Okay, yes.
听着，艾瑞斯小姐，他不能留下来。 Look, he can't stay, Ms. Iris.
物业管理公司，他们非常严格。 Management company, they are very strict.
没问题。我正在想办法。 It's not a problem. I'm working on it.
-就几天。-嗯… -Just a few days. -Um...
-我保证正在想办法。-好的。 -And I am working on it. -Okay.
-我保证。-你已经说过了。 -I promise. -You said that already.
但是这个…他…好吧。 But this... He's... Okay.
你还好吗？ You okay?
哦，伙计。 Oh, bud.
没事的。我知道。 It's okay. I know.
我知道。 I know.
一百五十一。 A hundred and fifty-one.
差不多是他应该有的体重。臀部有点关节炎， About where he should be. Little arthritis in the hips,
但，呃，除此之外，他身体状况很好。对于他的年龄来说。 but, uh, otherwise, he's in good shape. For his age.
你觉得他多大了？ Which is what, do you think?
呃，五岁。也许六岁。 Uh, five. Maybe six.
-对于大丹犬来说已经很老了。-六岁就算老了？ -Getting on for a Dane. -Six is old?
大狗就像蝴蝶一样。但他没事。 Big dogs are like butterflies. But he's okay.
那他昨晚发作是怎么回事？ And what about the fit he had last night?
嗯，他失去了主人。 Well, he lost his master.
他正在哀悼。 He's in mourning.
在那之前，他被抛弃了。你会有什么感觉？ Before that, he was abandoned. How would you feel?
坐下。 Sit.
-好狗。-哇。 -Good dog. -Wow.
我从没见过他那样。 I've never seen him do that before.
嗯，他很聪明。 Well, he's smart.
给你一点建议。 Give you a piece of advice.
对待像这样的大型犬的诀窍 The trick with large breeds like this
就是永远不要让他们知道真相。 is never let them know the truth.
而真相是， And the truth is,
你不能真正让他们做 you can't really make them do
任何他们不想做的事情。 anything they don't wanna do.
站稳脚跟。 Stand your ground.
看在上帝的份上， And for God's sake,
你自己睡到床上去 get yourself back up on the bed
让他睡地板。 and him on the floor.
嗯，在上次发作的时候， Well, during that last fit,
当我上床时， when I was getting on the bed,
-他让我坐下。-让你？ -he let me sit. -Let you?
不，不，不，不，不。把他赶下床。 No, no, no, no, no. Get him off the bed.
给你这个用于关节的。 Give you this for the joints.
他是一只好狗。 He's a good dog.
不要把他变成坏狗。 Don't turn him into a bad one.
嘿。嘿，阿波罗。 Hey. Hey, Apollo.
嘿。坐下。 Hey. Sit.
什么… What...
你喜欢大个的，是吗？ You like them big, don't you?
好的。 Okay.
给，伙计。一张好床给你。 Here you go, bud. A nice bed for you.
真的吗？ Really?
好的。 Okay.
好吧。 Fine.
尽情玩吧。 Knock yourself out.
噢，伙计，来吧。 Aw, dude, come on.
嗨，亲爱的。头脑风暴。 Hi, love. Brainstorm.
我来领养阿波罗。 -I'll adopt Apolio.
获得了业主委员会和芭芭拉的批准， Cleared with co-op board and Barbara,
所以我们百分百没问题。 -so we're 100% good to go.
给我打电话。亲亲抱抱。 Call me. Xo.
她提出这个建议本身就很可疑，不是吗？ Her even offering seems suspicious, no?
也许图斯代真的想帮忙。 Maybe Tuesday's actually trying to help.
帮忙？她恨我。 Help? She hates me.
你听起来很偏执。 You sound paranoid.
你没听说过有人 Tell me you've never heard of people
报复别人的孩子或宠物吗？ taking revenge on someone's child or pet.
好吧。首先，呃， Okay. First of all, uh,
他是沃尔特的孩子或宠物，不是你的。 he is Walter's child or pet, not yours.
所有…我只是说，你没有其他选择， All... All I'm saying is, you have no other options,
而且你不想失去一个租金管制公寓。 and you don't wanna lose a rent-controlled apartment.
所以，也许你应该听听图斯代的意见。 So, maybe you ought to hear Tuesday out.
书写得怎么样了？ How is the book going, anyway?
我们开始查看他的邮件了， We started in on his email,
但没有他在，有点难熬，你知道吗？ but it's kind of a slog without him here, you know?
是啊，我能想象那会改变一切。 Yeah, I can imagine how that would change things.
但是他之前跟你合作了多少？ But how much was he even working
-在你之前？ -with you before?
你知道… You know...
-等一下。-是啊，好吧。 -Hold on a second. - Yeah, okay.
是啊，是啊。我来了。 Yeah, yeah. I'm coming.
-嘿。-嘿。抱歉。 -Hey. -Hey. Sorry.
-我只是…-你还好吗？ -I just... -Are you okay?
是的。你能告诉那些人，你的邻居… Yes. Can you tell those people, your neighbors...
开门就行。 just open the door.
因为我站在外面，大概 Because I was standing out there for, like,
-他妈的永远。-哦。 -fucking ever. -Oh.
嗨。 Hi.
哦，太可爱了。 Aw, that's so cute.
-有其父必有其女。-哦。 -Like father, like daughter. -Oh.
-嗯？-啊… -Hm? -Ah...
-嗨，瓦尔。-哦，嗨。 - Hi, Val. -Oh, hi.
-再见，瓦尔。-是啊。呃… - Bye, Val. -Yeah. Uh...
再见。 Bye.
-嗨。-抱歉。我打扰了。 -Hi. -Sorry. I'm interrupting.
不，没关系。 No, it's fine.
只是L线火车 It's just that the L train
要等20分钟，这给了我 was gonna take 20, which gave me
刚好足够的时间和那个混蛋分手。 just enough time to break up with that douche.
你知道我一直在和那个家伙约会。 You know that guy I've been seeing.
糟了。 Shit.
-火车没来。-哦。 -The train didn't come. -Oh.
你想住这儿吗？ You wanna crash here?
-好吧，来吧。 -Okay, come on.
你真是个好朋友。 You're a pal.
-那么，喝多了吗？ - So, one too many?
也许就一杯。嗯… Maybe just one. Um...
你太错了。图斯代更恨我。 You're so wrong. Tuesday hates me way worse.
小心。是啊，嗯，这不是一场比赛。 Careful. Yeah, well, it's not a competition.
她有足够的仇恨可以散播。 With her, there's plenty of hate to go around.
我只是说那个女人疯了。 I'm just saying that lady is crazy.
所以，是啊，你必须质疑她的屁话。 So, yeah, you have to question her shit.
我是说，你为什么要考虑让她领养阿波罗？ I mean, why would you even think about letting her have Apollo?
-没那么简单。-就是那么简单。 -It's not that simple. -It is that simple.
我不能再让他住在这里了。 I just can't keep having him here.
而且他妨碍了我的工作。我们的工作。 And he's getting in the way of my work. Our work.
我只是觉得没什么不同。 I just don't think it's that different.
哦，我的天。那是什么？ Oh, my God. What is that?
哦。 -Oh.
那个，我的朋友，是昨天的康普茶。 That, my friend, is yesterday's kombucha.
嗯… Um...
你应该把它收起来。 You should put that away.
我想我没觉得有什么不同。 I guess I don't think it's that different.
我们写这本书已经一年多了。 We've been working on the book for over a year now.
那是什么意思？ What does that mean?
这意味着，早在沃尔特自杀之前， It means, way before my dad killed himself,
或者在阿波罗出现之前，我只是… or before Apollo even came along, I just...
我不觉得这和狗有关。 I don't think it's about the dog.
嘿，我…我对这本书投入了同样多的时间，正如我… Hey, I... I put just as much time into the book as I do-
不，我不是在抱怨。 No, I'm not complaining.
沃尔特警告过我。 Walter warned me.
警告你？ Warned you?
关于你的节奏。 About your pace.
我的节奏…你俩谈论我的节奏？ My pa... You two talked about my pace?
-你开玩笑吗？-也许不是你的节奏。 -Are you kidding me? -Maybe it wasn't your pace.
那是什么？你们谈论了什么？ Well, what then? What did you talk about?
是啊，是…是你的节奏。 Yeah, it was... It was your pace.
他担心你进展太慢， He worried about you going too slow,
担心催你完成。 about pushing you to finish.
我关心这本书，你知道。我也想完成它。 I care about the book, you know. I wanna finish it too.
你觉得我不想吗？ And you think I don't?
抱歉，我不该说什么。我… Sorry, I shouldn't have said anything. My...
我头疼。 My head hurts.
不过你得想想办法处理这只狗。 You gotta do something about this dog, though.
你每次出去，我不能老是看着他。 I can't keep watching him every time you go out.
对吧，狗狗？嗯？ Right, doggo? Huh?
嗨，大哥。 Hi, big bro.
你想做什么？ What do you wanna do?
如果我爸爸在这里，他会怎么想？ What'd our dad want if he were here?
你想和疯婆子住在一起吗？ You wanna go live with a crazy lady?
你在看什么？ What are you looking at?
嗯，不是我不喜欢她。 Well, it's not that I don't like her.
-她很可爱，很聪明。-那是什么？ -She's lovely, she's bright. -What, then?
-我喜欢一个人工作。-她非常聪明。 -I like to work by myself. -She's very bright.
-我刚说过，不是吗？-你可能会喜欢 -I just said that, didn't 1? -You might appreciate
另一个视角，你知道。 another perspective, you know.
有人可以互相探讨。 Someone to bounce things off of.
-这不是重点。-她很年轻， -That's not the point. -She's young,
精力充沛，而且是我的女儿。 energetic, and my daughter.
对，但她几乎不认识你。 Right, but she hardly knows you.
她不了解你的作品或人际关系。 She doesn't know your work or relationships.
而这正是我要解决的。 And that's exactly what I'm trying to fix.
那么，我是修补匠？ So, I'm the fixer?
所有人都知道你擅长解决问题。 Everyone knows that you fix things.
-啊。-她已经在这儿了。 -Ah. -She's already here.
我什么时候——什么？ Since when have I ever-- What?
你为什么不告诉我她要来？ Why didn't you tell me she was coming?
搞什么鬼？ What the fuck?
-嗨。-啊。 - Hi. - Ah.
嘿。 Hey.
你觉得这是个坏主意，不是吗？ You think this is a bad idea, don't you?
不。很棒。 No. It's great.
这是一个坏主意，因为 It is a bad idea because
我们还没喝咖啡呢。 we haven't had coffee yet.
很快，一切都会完美的。 -Soon, all will be perfect.
这只是一个尝试。 It's just a trial.
好吗？就一天。就这些。 Okay? One day. That's all.
看看是否合适。 To see if it's a good match.
谁知道呢，也许她对狗来说没那么烦人。去吧。 And who knows, maybe she's not as irritating to a dog. Go on.
嗨。请找图斯代·张。 Hi. Tuesday Chang, please.
干得好。好孩子。是的，就是这样。 Good job. Good boy. Yes, that's it.
看？没那么糟。 See? That wasn't so bad.
你为什么不能和我们的电梯那样？ Why can't you be like that with our elevator?
我的电梯。 My elevator.
也许有一天那会是你的电梯。 Maybe that will be your elevator one day.
好吧。 Okay.
出问题了吗？ Was there a problem?
呃……你是什么意思？ Uh... How do you mean?
平时人们坐电梯 It just normally doesn't take people
没这么久。 so long to get up the elevator.
哦，没有。没问题。 Oh, no. No problem.
我听到有人说话。 I heard talking.
没有。 Nope.
好吧。 Okay.
-那，进来吧。 -好的。 -Well, come on in. -Yeah.
-天啊。他真大。 -是啊。我知道。 -Oh, my God. He's ginormous. -Yeah. I know.
也许只是在室内。 Maybe it's just being inside.
或者这个走廊。 Or this hallway.
不。 No.
看，我带了些食物。 Look, I brought some food
-还有零食和玩具什么的。 -好的。 -and treats and toys and stuff. -Yes.
但他不太喜欢玩那些。 But he doesn't really like to play with them.
有时，这个Kong玩具。 Sometimes, this Kong thing.
-但主要是，他只是很伤心。 -哦。 -But mainly, he's just sad. -Aw.
他喜欢睡觉。他喜欢听人读书。 He likes to sleep. And he loves being read to.
我教子看到他会高兴坏的。 Well, my godson's head is gonna explode when he sees him.
我大概五点回来， I'll be back around five,
所以你可能只需要出去一次， so probably you just need to go out once,
-两点左右。 -两点。 -around two. -Two.
通常，他喜欢出去 Normally, he likes to go out
一天三次。 three times a day.
哦，哇，我没意识到。 Oh, wow, I didn't realize.
他需要出去吗？ That he'd need to go out?
嗯，我是说，一天三次。 Well, three times a day, I mean.
-哦，是啊。 -我朋友用 - Oh, yeah. -My friend uses
-一种叫尿垫的东西。 -哦，相信我。 -something called pee pads. -Oh, trust me.
你不会想尝试那个的。 You don't want to try that.
哦。不，不，不，不，不，不。下去。 Oh. No, no, no, no, no, no. Down.
阿波罗，下去。做... Apollo, off. Do...
你能...？ Can you...?
这是件老式塔基尼。 It's a vintage Tacchini.
我无法想象沃尔特会让他随意 I can't imagine Walter let him just go willy-nilly
-随地大小便。 -啊。 -wherever he wanted. -Ah.
我相当肯定他会。 I'm quite sure he did.
真荒谬。芭芭拉告诉我 That's ridiculous. Barbara told me
那狗非常乖。 that the dog was perfectly behaved.
是啊，她也告诉了我同样的事情， Yeah, well, she told me the same thing,
但你看， but there you have it,
随地大小便在你那件老式西葫芦上。 willy-nilly all over your vintage zucchini.
你在嘲笑我吗？ Are you mocking me?
什么？不。不，当然没有。 What? No. No, of course not.
我...我很抱歉。 I... I'm sorry.
好的。 Okay.
我快迟到了。但是，呃…… I'm running late. But, uh...
我大概五点回来。 I'll be back around five.
但谢谢你。 But thank you.
沃尔特为什么要跟你说这只狗的事？ Why would Walter leave the dog to you?
什么？ What?
我是说，如果他这样。难以管教。 I mean, if he's like this. Unmanageable.
我是说，你的公寓，看在上帝的份上。 I mean, your apartment, for God's sake.
即使是一个人... Even for one person...
我的公寓怎么了？ What is it about my apartment?
我只是觉得芭芭拉可能误解了。 I just think that maybe Barbara misunderstood.
你知道沃尔特又没写下来。 You know it's not as if Walter put it in writing.
你是说，在自杀之前？ You mean, in the run-up to killing himself?
我敢肯定这在他的待办事项清单上。 I'm sure it was on his to-do list.
哦，好吧。天啊。你知道吗？算了... Oh, okay. God. You know what? Just...
就告诉我还需要知道什么。 Just tell me what else I need to know.
关于阿波罗，还是概括来说？ About Apollo, or in general?
好吧，我错了。 Okay, I was wrong.
她对狗也一样恼人。 She's just as irritating to a dog.
我们走这边。 Let's go this way.
不。不是那边。这边。我们走... No. Not that way. Here. Let's go...
-退后。对不起，女士。 -不，不，不！ -Back up. Sorry, ma'am. -No, no, no!
-女士，狗不能进。 -什么？ -No dogs inside, ma'am. -What?
-狗不能进。 -No dogs inside.
我有个预约。我快迟到了。 I have an appointment. I'm running late.
所以，你能帮我一下吗？ So, can you just help me?
-狗不能进。 -我有个预约。 -No dogs inside. -I have an appointment.
你能让我进去吗？ Can you let me in?
-我不能。我很抱歉。 -先生！ -I can't. I'm sorry. -Sir!
-你能给你的老板打电话吗？ -请把狗弄走好吗？ -Can you call your boss, please? -Can you please remove the dog?
不，我不会的。 No, I will not.
请让我进去。 Just let me inside, please.
我不能。这关系到我的工作。 I can't do it. It's my job on the line.
好吧，行。我也坐在这里。 Okay, right. I'll sit here too.
5-3呼叫基地。我这里需要一些帮助。 5-3 to base. I need some assistance up here.
他们这里还有一条大狗。 And they have a big dog here too.
真的很抱歉。 I'm really sorry about all that.
前台真是混蛋。 Reception can be such a-holes.
我是说，毫无理由地叫警察。 I mean, so random to involve the police.
- 这边。 - 哦。 - This way. - Oh.
来吧。 Come on.
-我是艾瑞斯 -I have Iris
-和阿波罗。 -对不起。 -and Apollo. -I'm sorry.
- 进来，进来。 - 嗨。 - Come in, come in. - Hi.
-哇！ -嗯，是啊。 -Wow! -Um, yeah.
我觉得你们的保安团队反应过度了。 I think your security team overreacted.
我听说了。别担心。别担心。 I heard. Not to worry. Not to worry.
-抱歉。我没计划好这个。 -请坐。 -Sorry. I didn't plan on this. -Please, sit.
-好的，谢谢。 -是。 -Okay, thanks. -Yeah.
好了，伙计。坐下。 Okay, bud. Sit.
-好极了。 -干得好。 -Bravo. -Good job.
这是你教的还是沃尔特教的？ Did you teach him that or Walter?
呃，我想他生来就会。 Uh, I think he came with it.
-印象深刻。 -嗯。 -Impressive. -Mm.
他需要什么吗？ Does he need anything?
哦，我想索菲正给他拿些... Oh, I think Sophie was getting him some...
-哦。斐济水。 -来了。 -Oh. Fiji water. -Here we go.
-哇，高级。高级。 -给你。 -Wow, fancy. Fancy. -Here you go.
-他真渴。 -是啊。 -He's so thirsty. -Yeah.
-我在办公桌旁。 -好的。 -I'll be at my desk. -Okay.
很抱歉弄得一团糟。 I'm sorry about the mess.
所以，他看起来比 So, he seems better
-在船上的时候好多了。 -嗯。 -than he was on the boat. -Mmm.
-书写得怎么样了？ -呃... -How's the book going? -Uh...
我知道这就是你想要谈论的。 I know that's what you wanted to talk about.
我一直在工作，瓦尔也是，但是... And I have been working, Val too, but...
我应该找另一个编辑吗？ Should I be looking for another editor?
我知道有悲伤和情绪- I know with the grieving and the feelings-
不，当然不。不。 No, definitely not. No.
好吧，那我就直说了。我需要这本书。 Okay, then I'll be blunt. I need this book.
死去的沃尔特突然比活着的沃尔特更受欢迎。 Dead Walter is suddenly hotter than live Walter.
人们对他的信件兴趣浓厚， There's considerable interest in his correspondence,
我们必须抓住这个机会。现在。 and we've got to capitalize on it. Now.
-我明白。 -如果你需要帮助， -I understand. -If you need help,
-或者你不想... -不。 -or you don't want to... -No.
我说... I said...
我明白。 I understand.
好。 Fine.
你打算怎么处理这只狗？ What are you gonna do about the dog?
好吧。我们走，伙计。 Okay. Let's go, bud.
呃，我上学迟到了。 Uh, I'm late for school.
瓦尔也联系不上了， And Val's AWOL,
所以你又要自己呆着了，好吗？ so you're just gonna have to be by yourself again, okay??
你就呆在那里。 You just stay there.
你得保证不破坏我的公寓。 And you're gonna promise not to destroy my apartment.
好吗？ Okay?
好。好孩子。 Good. Good boy.
你会是个好孩子的。 You're gonna be a good boy.
来点音乐怎么样？ How about some music, huh?
好的，很好。 Okay, good.
好吧。 All right.
好了，乖乖的。求你了。 Okay, be a good boy. Please.
求你了，拜托了。 Please, pretty please.
别把公寓毁了。 Don't wreck the apartment.
好吧。 Okay.
再见。 Goodbye.
月光和情歌 永不过时 I Moonlight and love songs Never out of date
-{阿波罗呜咽) -3 嫉妒和憎恨 { -{Apollo whimpers) -3 Jealousy and hate {
“南方对她来说， "The South to her,
一种性感的口音，邀请她走上磨损的木制楼梯。 a sexy accent inviting her up worn wooden stairs.
南方被去除了毒牙，充满魅力， The South was defanged and charming,
一个历史遗迹。 a relic of history.
就像这个男孩，他用2号铅笔 Like this boy who took notes with a No. 2 pencil
和Moleskine笔记本做笔记。 and a Moleskine notebook.
在Google文档中，她和她最好的朋友 In the Google Doc, where she and her best friend
列出了她们高年级的遗愿清单， kept their senior year bucket lists,
她在第14项下面写道：在《纽约客》上发表。” she wrote under 14: Get published in The New Yorker.”
好孩子。 Good boy.
好孩子，阿波罗。 Good boy, Apollo.
非常好的孩子。 Very good boy.
我一直在给他放我父亲的唱片。 I've been playing my father's records for him.
- 真的吗？ - 是啊。 - Really? - Yeah.
主要是低音咏叹调。我觉得他挺喜欢的。 Bass arias, mostly. I think he's kind of into it.
他不喜欢。 He isn't.
有声书，不怎么喜欢。 Audiobooks, not so much.
电台访谈，电影原声带，不喜欢。 Talk radio, movie soundtracks, no.
老实说，我觉得他什么都不喜欢， To be honest, I don't think he likes anything
除了听人读书。 as much as he likes being read to.
那个他真的很喜欢。非常喜欢。 That he really loves. A lot.
你现在没想过要养他吧？ You're not thinking of keeping him now?
不。当然没有。 No. Of course not.
好了。来吧。 Okay. Come on.
再走一趟。我们正在锻炼身体。 One more. Getting our steps in.
-哦。是平局。 -平局。 -Oh. And it's a tie. -A tie.
嗒哒！差不多。 Ta-da! Almost.
好的。谢谢。 Okay. Thanks for that.
你要进来喝茶吗？ You're gonna come in for some tea?
不。我进去会像个疯子一样喘息。 No. I'll start sheezing
-像个疯子一样。 -是啊。 -like a lunatic in there. -Yeah.
我希望你能再考虑一下圣诞节来伍德斯托克。 I wish you'd think again about coming to Woodstock
-过圣诞节。 -哦，糟糕。 -for Christmas. -Oh, shit.
什么？ What?
“你违反了规定，允许 "You are in violation of allowing
一只狗占据房产 a dog to occupy the premises
尽管公寓管理员赫克托·塞佩达 and despite repeated warnings
一再警告。 from building superintendent Hektor Cepeda.
如果你继续在公寓里养这只狗 If you continue to keep said dog
-在公寓里——” -“这只狗”？ -in the apartment--" -"Said dog"?
应该说是“悲伤的狗”。 It should say sad dog.
-他们要把我赶出去。 -不。 -They're going to evict me. -No.
不，不。你已经在这里住了这么久了。 No, no. You've been here so long now.
在那之前，你爸爸也住在这里。 And before that, your dad.
这是你的家。 This is your home.
艾瑞斯，你不能失去这个公寓。 Iris, you cannot lose this apartment.
你再也找不到负担得起的地方了。 You will never find another place you can afford.
在这个城市里不行。 Not in the city.
和这个室友在一起，哪里都不行。 Not anywhere with this roommate.
密歇根的收容所怎么样？ What about the shelter in Michigan?
哦，我还在等待名单上。 Oh, I'm still on the wait-list.
我需要直接和房东谈谈。 I need to speak directly to the landlord.
谁说那个人是个没心没肺的混蛋？ Who's to say the man's a heartless prick?
我说的。他试图把我赶出去 I am. He tried to evict me
当我装修厨房的时候。 when I renovated my kitchen.
-你需要一个B计划。 -但是... -You need a plan B. -But...
我只是需要更多一点时间。 I just need a little more time.
唯一的选择就是把他送回狗舍。 The only alternative is to put him back in the kennel.
我不能让那种事发生。 I can't let that happen.
喂。嘿，艾瑞斯女士。 Hello. Hey, Ms. Iris.
你知道这事吗？ Did you know about this?
他们要把我赶出去。 They're going to evict me.
哦，艾瑞斯女士，你觉得我当时说什么了 Oh, Ms. Iris, what do you think I was talking about when I said
-“那只狗”？ -你知道我正在努力。 -"the dog"? -You know I'm trying.
-你知道的。 -你没有努力。 -You know that. -You're not trying.
你知道我怎么知道你没努力吗？ And you know how I know that you're not trying?
因为那只狗还在这里。不是吗？ Because the dog is still here. No?
对他们来说，这不是狗的问题。 It's not about the dog for them.
他们想把我赶出去，这样他们就能把租金提高三倍。 They want me out so they can triple the rent.
那不是我的问题。 That's not my problem.
他们让我告诉你，艾瑞斯女士。 They told me to tell you, Ms. Iris.
所以，我告诉你了，好吗？ So, I'm telling you, okay?
不能养狗。 No dog.
是的，我想和霍华德说话。 Yes, I'd like to speak to Howard, please.
不，我不想和主管说话。 No, I don't wanna speak to a supervisor.
是啊。好吧，行。就... Yeah. Okay, fine. Just...
让他给我回电话。拜托。很紧急。 Have him call me back. Please. It's urgent.
圣诞快乐。 Merry Christmas.
狗看到人类哭泣会怎么想？ What do dogs think seeing humans cry?
它们如何看待人类的悲伤？ What do they make of human sadness?
我一直在想着你。 I keep thinking of you.
在所有其他问题中 How among all the other questions
肯定会出现在你脑海中的是... certain to have come to you was...
“这只狗会怎么样？” "What will happen to the dog?”
你带花环了吗？ Did you bring the wreath?
什么花环？ What wreath?
那个“圣诞快乐”花环 The Merry Christmas wreath
-挂在窗户上。 -没有。 -for the window. -No.
你的外套和帽子呢？ Where's your coat and hat?
落在办公室了。 Left them at the office.
怎么了？ What's the matter?
没什么。 Nothing's the matter.
- 进来。进来。 - 嗒哒！ - Come in. Come in. -Ta-da!
哦，你来了真高兴。我知道你不想来。 Oh, I'm so glad you came. I know you didn't want to.
自己去拿杯喝的。 Get yourself a drink.
-你拿着。 -还有一顶帽子。 -You take that. -And a hat.
-一顶帽子。好的。 -是的。 -A hat. Okay. -Yes.
嗨。 Hi.
艾瑞斯。 Iris.
-哦，布洛森。 -哦。 -Oh, Blossom. -Oh.
-新年快乐。 -新年快乐。 -Happy New Year. -Happy New Year.
-你一个人来的。 -真好笑。 -You came alone. -Very funny.
-你室友怎么样？ -他很好。 - How's your roommate? -He's fine.
玛乔丽告诉我那封信的事了。 Marjorie told me about the letter.
是啊，好吧，我不会被赶出去的，好吗？ Yeah, well, I'm not gonna be evicted, okay?
别急。只是问问。 Easy. Just asking.
我刚才正和舍尔文说话呢。你见过舍尔文吗？ I was just talking to Shervin. Have you met Shervin?
-啊。没有。嗨。 -嘿。 -Ah. No. Hi. - Hey.
-怎么样？ -很高兴认识你。 -How's it going? -Nice to meet you.
舍尔文是玛乔丽的朋友。 Shervin's a friend of Marjorie's.
他是个经纪人。舍尔文刚才正告诉我 He's a broker. And Shervin was just telling me
现在在纽约很难找到 how impossible it is to find
宠物友好的公寓。 a pet-friendly apartment in New York these days.
-你在找吗？ -呃，不。我真没有。 - Are you looking? -Uh, no. I'm really not.
你养的是什么宠物？ What kind of pet do you have?
哦，那只大丹犬？ Oh, the Great Dane?
-呃，他不是 -艾瑞斯。艾瑞斯。 -Uh, he's not -Iris. Iris.
好久不见。 Such a long time.
-哈里。哦，天啊。 -嘿。 -Harry. Oh, my goodness. -Hey.
-这么多年了。 -我几乎不进城了。 -So many years. -I hardly get in town anymore.
-哦，天啊。 -这是我丈夫，拉里。 -Oh, my God. -This is my husband, Larry.
-拉里。 -Larry.
你丈夫，拉里。 Your husband, Larry.
哈里，拉里。真可爱。 Harry, Larry. That's adorable.
艾瑞斯就住在隔壁。 Iris lives right next door.
她父亲加里和我一起 Her father Gary sang with me
-在同性恋男声合唱团唱歌。 -哦。 -in the Gay Men's Chorus. -Oh.
你是那个养狗的。 You're the one with the dog.
哦，是啊。我听过很多疯狂的故事。 Oh, yeah. I've heard crazy stories.
你会失去你的公寓吗？ Are you gonna lose your apartment?
-不会。 -我喜欢大狗， -No. -I love big dogs,
但我永远也做不到你正在做的事。 but I could never do what you're doing.
我给了玛乔丽一个救援机构的名字 I gave Marjorie the name of a rescue
在特拉华州。他们太棒了。 in Delaware. They're amazing.
五岁对于一只大丹犬来说有点老了，不是吗？ Five is kind of old for a Dane, isn't it?
他什么时候会， What are you gonna do when he becomes,
你知道的，大小便失禁？ you know, incontinent?
-再见。 -非常感谢。 -Bye. -Thank you so much.
祝你新年快乐。 Happy New Year to you.
新年快乐，亲爱的。 Happy New Year, darling.
-再见。 -再见。 -Bye-bye. -Bye-bye.
保重。 Take care.
哦，亲爱的，很晚了。回家吧。 Oh, honey, it's late. Go home.
不，不。没关系。 No, no. It's okay.
-你生气了。 -没有。 -You're mad. -No.
也许只是一点点？ Maybe just a little?
我真的以为这是一个新年派对， I did think this was a New Year's party,
而不是一次干预。 not an intervention.
人们都很担心。 People are concerned.
我很担心。 I'm concerned.
你是我的朋友。 You're my friend.
你不仅仅是我的朋友。 You're more than my friend.
你爸爸生病的时候， When your father got sick,
没有你，我不知道会发生什么， I don't know what would have happened without you,
如果你没有搬进来帮他。 if you hadn't moved in with him to help.
我很想他。非常想。 I miss him. A lot.
我也不想失去你。 I don't wanna miss you too.
一只迷你腊肠犬。 A miniature Dachshund.
还有一些水仙花。 And some daffodils.
她要去哪里？ Where is she going?
她要去拜访一位老朋友。 She's going to visit an old friend.
喜剧？ Comedy?
你自杀了。 You killed yourself.
你觉得好笑吗？ You think that's funny?
哦，我应该说， Oh, I should have said,
-我的书是小说。 -我知道那是什么意思。 -my book is fiction. -I know what that means.
你会把我的名字改成沃利， You're gonna change my name to Wally,
或者... or...
-威尔伯？ -不。 -Wilber? -Nah.
我根本不会用名字。 I'm not gonna use names at all.
除了那只狗。 Except for the dog.
嗯，吉普在里面。 Well, Jip's in it.
这让我很高兴。 That makes me happy.
哦。 -Oh.
你的角色是英国人。 And your character is English.
是的，我想那可能会有点刺痛。 Yeah, I thought that might sting a bit.
我可能是意大利人。 I could be Italian.
每个人都想成为意大利人。 Everyone wants to be Italian.
你在利用我的生命。这是你至少能做的。 You're exploiting my life. It's the least you could do.
不是你的生命，是你的死亡。 Not your life, your death.
你看？他讨厌那个词。 You see? He hates that word.
你知道，我看着你的脸。 You know, I'm looking at your face.
你觉得卑鄙吗？你应该觉得。 Do you feel sleazy? You should.
什么样的朋友会这样对待朋友？ What kind of friend does this to a friend?
告诉我。 Tell me.
你选择了结束一切。 You made a choice to end things.
这就是这一切的原因。 And that's what this is about.
-那不是这一切的原因。 -That is not what this is about.
去问你的心理医生。 Go ask your shrink.
你为什么认为我在看心理医生？ What makes you think I'm seeing a shrink?
嗯，这不是很明显吗？ Well, isn't that obvious?
我们为什么会进行这场对话？ Why else would we be having this conversation?
好吧。我没有满足你作为老师的需要， Okay. I did not fulfill your needs as a teacher,
作为情人，作为朋友。 as a lover, as a friend.
还是我们还在处理 Or are we still dealing
你他妈的恋父情结？好吧。 with your fucking daddy issues? Okay.
我很抱歉你爸爸离开了家。 I'm sorry that yours left the family.
我很抱歉他生病了。 I'm sorry that he got sick.
我很抱歉他去世了。以及他去世的方式。 I'm sorry that he died. And the way that he died.
我父亲为他的生命而战。他紧紧抓住它。他热爱它。 My father fought for his life. He clung to it. He loved it.
他爱他周围的每一个人。 He loved everyone around him.
而且他... And he...
哦，算了吧。我不应该这样做。 Oh, forget it. I shouldn't be doing this.
我不知道我在想什么。 I don't know what I was thinking.
看到她按门铃。 See her ring the doorbell.
她等待， She waits,
不确定。 uncertain.
你好。 Hello.
嗨。 Hi.
进来吧。 Come on in.
这位朋友是独居吗？ Does the friend live alone?
不。他和他妻子住在一起，但她今天不在家。 No. He lives with his wife, but she isn't home today.
她在上班。 She's at work.
芭芭拉到底告诉了你什么 Exactly what did Barbara tell you
关于发生的事情？ About what happened.
她出差去了。 That she was away on a business trip.
但因为丹佛的暴风雪，航班取消了。 But the flight was canceled because of a storm in Denver.
当她回到这里时， And when she got back here,
她在书房外发现了那只狗， she found the dog outside the study,
门上有一张给你的清洁女工的字条 with a note on the door for your cleaning lady
警告她打911。 warning her to call 911.
清洁女工原定于 The cleaning lady was scheduled to come in
第二天早上来。 the next morning.
但是你说的对。 But you're right.
如果我的学生把这个写进故事里， If one of my students had put that in a story,
我会说：“哎呀，这会不会太容易了点？” I'd have said, "Gee, isn't that just a little bit too easy?"
嗯。 Hm.
那么，你现在感觉如何？ So, how do you feel now?
羞辱，耻辱。 Humiliated, disgraced.
正常人的反应。 Ordinary human reactions.
嗯。我知道。 Hm. I know that.
我一直在读关于自杀的书。 I've been reading up on suicide.
你最好停下来。 You'd better stop that.
自杀是会传染的。 Suicide is contagious.
我别无选择。 What choice did I have?
这很... It's been...
令人困惑。 confusing.
好吧。我明白了。 Okay. I get that.
你打算怎么处理那本书？ What are you gonna do about the book?
那本书。 The book.
我决定不再写那本书了。 I've decided to step away from the book.
你的书。 Your book.
你什么意思，我的书？我给了你完全的控制权。 What do you mean, my book? I gave you complete control.
我自己的写作 I'm feeling conflicted
让我感到矛盾。 about my own writing.
嗯，你在这本书之前并没有写作。 Well, you weren't doing any writing before the book.
我以为这会对你有好处。 I thought this would be good for you.
不。当你让我处理你的信件时， No. When you asked me to work on your correspondence,
你没有考虑我。 you weren't thinking about me.
你在考虑你自己和你的遗产。 You were thinking about you and your legacy.
你的存在危机是我的错吗？ Your existential crisis is my fault?
我没有责怪你。 I'm not blaming you.
但你做出了选择，你把我 But you made a choice, and you put me
置于一个不可能的境地。 in an impossible position.
-我有吗？ -瓦尔也是。 -I have? -And Val too.
但她很好。 But she's fine.
她没有我也可以完成那本书。 She can finish the book without me.
我在考虑写点别的。 I'm thinking about writing something else.
嗯，那太棒了。 Well, that is wonderful.
-关于什么？ -你。 -What about? -You.
关于发生的事情。 -about what happened?
有一天晚上，我突然想到了它 It came to me suddenly one night
我在看《美好人生》。 I was watching It's a Wonderful Life.
我确定你看过。 I'm sure you've seen it.
-很多次。 -是的。 -Many times. -Yeah.
我坐在那里 And I'm sitting there
吉普在我腿上。 with Jip in my lap.
我在想自杀是多么糟糕的一件事。 And I was thinking what a crummy thing suicide is.
他爱他周围的每一个人。 He loved everyone around him.
而且他... I wanted every experience. And he...
你为什么不把那个告诉“显而易见的医生”呢？ Why don't you put that to Dr. Obvious?
你在想什么？ What were you thinking?
我没有想什么。 I'll tell you what I wasn't thinking.
我没有想你是个 I wasn't thinking you're a monster
自私自怜的怪物。 of selfishness and self-pity.
我没有怨恨你 I wasn't resenting you for throwing away
如此宝贵的生命。我也没有想 such a precious life. And I didn't think
你选择自杀只是为了惩罚那些爱你的人。 you chose suicide just to punish those around you that loved you.
很明显， It's clear,
你根本没有考虑过我们。 you weren't considering us at all.
嗯，我为自己辩护一下，我当时想自杀。 Well, in my defense, I was suicidal.
真的是这样。 Literally.
这种不体贴。 That lack of consideration.
对我，对瓦尔，对阿波罗。 For me, for Val, Apollo.
阿波罗是谁？ Who in the hell is Apollo?
吉普就是阿波罗。 Jip is Apollo.
他是一只狗。 He's a dog.
他当时不在场 And he was not present
在我死的时候。 at the moment of my death.
阿波罗对你很忠诚。 Apollo was devoted to you.
你最好的朋友。他世界的中心。 Your best friend. The center of his world.
你把他一个人留在家里 And you left him alone in the house
和你的尸体在一起。 with your body.
他抓挠着门。 He scratched at the door.
你生命流逝的整个过程，他都在外面听着。 He was listening the whole time as your life was draining away.
那些时候你听到他了吗，阿波罗？ Did you hear him, Apolio, in those moments?
你听到了吗？ Did you?
你至少可以... The least you could have done...
先给他找个像样的家。 is find him a decent home first.
他拥有你。 He had you.
他一直拥有你。 He always had you.
你真的是这么想的吗？ Is that really what you thought?
谁在乎我怎么想。我都死了。 Who cares what I thought. I'm dead.
现在你把我带到这儿，还带着只腊肠狗。 And now you got me here with a wiener dog.
你还想要什么？ What else do you want?
什么都不想要了。 Nothing anymore.
我什么都想不出来了。 I can't think of anything else.
那只狗怎么办？ What's gonna happen to the dog?
是的，我知道。 Yes, I know.
我之前和市政府说过， And I spoke with the city before,
他们告诉我只要我有 and they told me as long as I have
医生的正规证明... proper documentation from my doctor...
你为什么要继续进行驱逐程序，当... Why would you continue with the eviction process when...
我给他打过两次电话了，可能三次了， I've tried calling him twice, maybe three times now,
没人给我回电话。 and no one is calling me back.
这不是你能决定的。 Well, this is not your judgment call.
来吧。 Come on.
哦，艾瑞丝女士。我一直在找你。 Oh, Ms. Iris. I was looking for you.
-为什么？-他们刚打来电话。 -Why? -They just called.
-我们有麻烦了。-谁？谁打来的？ -We have a problem. -Who? Who called?
物业管理。他们从佛罗里达打来的。 The building management. They called from Florida.
-他们很不高兴。-什... 我。 -They're not very happy. -Wh... L.
我刚和他们说了。他们- I just talked to them. And they-
他们告诉我你和他们说了， They told me that you talked to them,
然后他们就给律师打电话了。 and then they called the lawyer, see.
-律师...-是啊。 -The law... -Yeah.
什么？他们说了什么？ What? What did they say?
律师，嗯，我不知道。 The lawyer, well, I don't know.
他... 他说... He... He said...
我不能... I can't...
他们说他们别无选择。 They said that they have no choice.
-别无选择？-别无选择。 -No choice? -No choice.
-关于什么？-他们别无选择 -About? -They have no choice
关于阿波罗。 about Apollo.
他们不能驱逐你。 They cannot evict you.
-什么？ What?
所以... So...
-你...-不。 -Are you... -No.
-就这样了？-就这样了。 -So, that's it? -That's it.
-完成了。-完成了。 -It's done. -Done.
就这样了。 That's it.
-哦，我的天。-是啊。 -Oh, my God. -Yeah.
你听到了吗，阿波罗？你不用去任何地方了。 You hear that, Apollo? You don't have to go anywhere.
你留在这里。 You stay here.
永远。好吗，孩子？ Forever. Okay, boy?
你真是个好孩子。就这样。 You're such a good boy. Just like that.
这是件好事。 This is a good thing.
是的。是的，非常好。 Yes. Yes, it's very good.
非常好。谢谢你。 Very good. Thank you.
好的。没关系。 Okay. That's okay.
-好的。-哦，我的天。 -Okay. -Oh, my God.
是啊。听着，我只是... Yeah. Listen, I just...
我向你道歉...因为，你知道。 I apologize to... Because, you know.
我是...那是我的工作，你知道。 I was... That's my job, you know.
-是啊，不，那...-他是一只很好的狗。 -Yeah, no. That -He's a very nice dog.
是啊。 Yeah.
-那很合理。-好的。 -That makes sense. -Okay.
-好的。-好的，再见。 -Okay. -Okay, see you later.
哦。赫克托，我冰箱里有一瓶 Oh. Hektor, I have
非常好的香槟。 a very nice bottle of champagne in the fridge.
-哇，不。不。-只是小庆祝一下。 -Wow, no. No. -Just a little celebration.
-我真的不能。我不能。-你进来吗？ -I cannot really. I can't. -Would you come on in?
-就五分钟。-但是...好的。五分钟。 -Just five minutes of your time. -But... Okay. Five.
五分钟，好的。 Five minutes, okay.
打扰一下。那是阿波罗吗？ Excuse me. Is that Apollo?
-你认识阿波罗？-嗯， -You know Apollo? -Well,
我有一阵子没见到他了， I mean, I haven't seen him for a while,
但他在这里大概一年都是常客。 but he was a regular here for about a year.
阿波罗？ Apollo?
是的，他的主人...很高。 Yeah, his owner's... tall.
他是个...他是个作家，我想。 He's a... He's a writer, I think.
沃尔特。 Walter.
他去年去世了。 He died last year.
听到这个消息我很抱歉。 I'm sorry to hear that.
啊。谢谢。 Ah. Thank you.
他确实为那只狗感到骄傲。 He sure was proud of that dog.
我的意思是，我一定听他 I mean, I must've heard him
讲过找到阿波罗的故事， tell the story of finding Apollo,
我不知道，呃，很多次。 I don't know, uh, a lot.
他是一只美丽的动物。 He's a beautiful animal.
确实是。 Sure is.
嘿... Hey...
大家伙。 big guy.
你好吗？你在看什么？ How are you? What are you looking at?
嗯？谁管你？ Huh? Who's in charge of you?
你是怎么到这里来的？ How did you end up here?
嘿，想去吃早餐吗？ Hey, wanna go get some breakfast?
你在看什么？ What are you looking at?
想知道你所爱的人 It's not uncommon
在你遇到他们之前是什么样子， to wonder what someone you love
这并不少见。 was like before you met them.
让我看看。哦，看看你。 Let me see. Oh, look at you.
你有两种不同的颜色，一只蓝眼睛，一只棕眼睛。 You got two different colors, a blue eye and a brown eye.
不知道那个人 It almost hurts not knowing
小时候是什么样子，几乎让人心痛。 what that person was like as a child.
那很酷。 That's pretty cool.
我对所有我爱过的男人， I've felt this way about the men I've loved,
还有许多亲密的朋友，都有过这种感觉。 and about many close friends.
现在我对你也是这种感觉。 And now it's how I feel about you.
没有在年轻活泼的时候认识你， Not to have known you as a frisky young dog,
错过了你整个幼犬时期， to have missed your entire puppyhood,
我想到几年前你叫醒我的时候， I think of you when you'd wake me years ago,
在半夜， in the middle of the night,
当我躺在地板上时， inhaling every inch of me
你吸着我的每一寸。 as I lay on the floor.
那时我是你的谁， Who was I to you then,
这么长时间后，我又变成了你的谁？ and what have I become to you now
after so much time?
他们给我们这个地方付了钱之后， After what they paid us for this place,
-他们肯定会把它拆掉的。-哦，我的天。 -they'll knock it down for sure. -Oh, my God.
所以，阿波罗可以随心所欲了。 So, Apollo can do whatever.
海滩，它随着潮汐来了又走。 The beach, it comes and goes with the tide.
但你会习惯的。我想。 But you'll get used to it. I think.
你也能写作，对吧？ You'll be able to write, won't you?
-是的。-阿波罗也可以四处游荡。 -Yeah. -And Apollo can wander.
就像他现在能做的那样。 As much as he's able to now.
这...太完美了。谢谢你。 This is... perfect. Thank you.
是啊。 Yeah.
我妈妈几乎是在这里长大的。 My mom practically grew up here.
我想我也是。 I guess I did too.
她现在需要钱，所以... She needs the money now, so...
哦。你好。 Oh. Hello.
是啊。它几天前就来了。 Yeah. It came in a couple of days ago.
我想留一个让你发现。 I wanted to leave one for you to find.
-别这样，瓦尔。 -Come on, Val.
这... This is...
这太棒了。恭喜你。 This is fantastic. Congratulations.
你也是。 You too.
就像我说的，他们要到五月底才接收。 Like I said, they don't take possession until end of May.
所以，尽情享受吧。 So, go nuts.
-留下来过夜。-不。我不能。 -Stay the night. -No. I can't.
-来吧。-我得回去了。 -Come on. -I have to get back.
你们应该安顿下来。 And you guys should settle.
谢谢你。 Thank you.
我 还有一点雨 I And just a little bit Of rain
再一个夏天。 One more summer.
至少你得到了这个。 At least you get that.
我也可以说再见了。 And I get to say goodbye.
我是在和你说话还是在自言自语？ Am I talking to you or to myself?
我承认，界限已经模糊了。 I confess, the line has gotten blurred.
你全盛时期是什么样子？ What were you like in your prime?
你在哪里跑和玩？ Where did you run and play?
你和谁玩？ Who did you play with?
你是不是第一次看到大海？ Are you seeing the ocean for the first time?
现在一个奇迹已经不够了。 One miracle is not enough now.
那场灾难被避免了， That disaster was averted,
我们避免了分离或驱逐。 that we were spared separation or eviction.
这还不够。 It's not enough.
现在我像渔夫的妻子一样。 Now I'm like the fisherman's wife.
我想要更多。 I want more.
而且不只是再一个夏天或两个夏天。 And not just another summer or two.
我希望你活得和我一样长。 I want you to live as long as I do.
任何少于此的都是不公平的。 Anything less is unfair.
阿波罗？ Apollo?
你好，我的朋友。 Hello, my friend.
哦。 Oh.
过来。 Come here.