妈妈是…有弹性的 Mommy is... stretchable.
有弹性是什么意思 What do you mean by stretchable?
爸爸很硬 你没法动摇他 Daddy's hard. You can't move him.
他一生气 事情就僵住了 He gets mad, and that's it.
妈妈也会生气 Mommy gets mad too,
但她更像橡皮泥 but she's more like putty.
嗯 Mm.
她也会伤心 And she gets sad too.
那时候弹性最大 That's when it's the most stretch.
橡皮泥 嗯…你是怎么让她有弹性的呢 Putty, um... I wonder how is it that you stretch her?
你就… You just--
我能… 现在能轮到我说话了吗 求你了 Can I... Can I talk now? Please?
嗯… Um...
妈妈说话可以吗 可以 Is it okay if Mommy talks? Yep.
好的 Okay.
我没有弹性 我不是橡皮泥 I'm not stretchable. I'm not putty.
但这是她对你的感受 Well, that's her experience of you.
那不是真的 That isn't true.
我努力想控制她还有所有事情 I try very hard to be in control of her and everything,
但 嗯 就好像我根本不存在一样 but, um, may as well not even be there at all.
看法嘛 既然看法即现实 那就-- perceptions Well, perception is reality, so--
而且 我不伤心 Also, I don't get sad.
你现在看起来挺伤心的 You seem sad right now.
你确实看起来挺伤心的 You do seem sad right now.
我们在这里是为了讨论如何让你好起来 We're here to talk about how to get you better.
我们谈的全都是关于我 All we do is talk about me.
我可以伤心 我是说 我有权利伤心 对吧 I can be sad. I mean, I'm allowed to be sad, right?
当然有 Well, of course.
但 嗯 你必须知道这一切都纠缠在一起 But, um, you must know that this is all tangled up together
而你应该比任何人都清楚… and you of all people should know--
我知道 我知道 但是 嗯… I know. I know, but, um...
这样… 这样事情… this... this isn't how things...
…是不会好转的 嗯… ...are gonna get better. Um...
女孩 妈妈 别哭了… GIRL Mommy, please don't cry...
不 不 我… No, no. I--
…不然我也要哭了 宝贝 ...because then I'll cry. Sweetie.
她… 宝贝 没事的 没事的 She... Sweetie, it's okay. It's okay.
我们现在就要拔掉饲管 We want the tube removed. Now.
不 你们不能杀我 要拔管 我们需要… No, you can't kill me! And to do that, we need...
不 她不会做她该做的事 No, she won't do what she has to do
因为她知道有这个安全网 because she knows that she has this safety net.
目前情况还不够稳定… Things are not stable enough right now to--
很明显我们的目标不一致 It's clear that we have different goals.
你想让她先好转再拔管 You want her to get better before the tube can be removed.
我认为要先拔管 I think the tube needs to come out,
然后她才能好转 and then she can get better.
我们目标都是一致的 We all have the same goal here.
但通过我们大家一起谈话 我了解到 But what I'm learning as we're talking all together
你和我需要花些时间 就我们两个人 is that you and I need to spend some time, just the two of us,
不带她… without her here...
…来谈一些严肃的问题 ...to talk about some serious issues.
我需要你 I'm gonna need you to
晚上重新开始管饲 restart the tube feedings at night
我需要你开始做… and I need you to start doing...
你买的是不加奶酪的那种吗 Did you get the kind with no cheese?
我不能每次都跟你解释 宝贝 I can't explain this to you every time, sweetie.
他们会笑话我 说这只是面包 好吗 They would just laugh at me and say it's bread, okay?
我们到家后我会把奶酪拿掉的 当然 I'll take the cheese off when we get home, of course.
是那种酱料里有 Is it the kind with the little
绿色和黑色小点点的吗 green and black things in the sauce?
就是我们常买的那种 It's the same kind we always get.
那种酱料里就有那些东西 That kind has the things in the sauce.
我吃不了… 我吃不了 I can't... I can't eat it.
比如 你能把它刮掉… Like, can you scrape it off--
你到底想不想拔管 还是只有我想拔 Do you even want the tube out or is it just me who wants it out?
你必须… You have to be...
天啊 Jesus.
哎呀 Oh, poo.
哦… Oh...
如你所愿 没有奶酪了 You got your wish. No cheese.
是你希望这事发生的吗 是的 Did you will that to happen? Yeah.
你是什么女巫之类的吗 Are you some kind of witch or something?
嘿 直接去餐桌 其实不行 Hey, straight to the table. Actually, no.
先洗手 然后直接去餐桌 Wash hands first, and then straight to the table.
但我不用上厕所 I don't have to go to the bathroom though.
没人让你上厕所 No one's making you go to the bathroom.
我只是请你洗手 I'm just asking you to wash your hands, please,
像我们平时做的那样 like we always do.
爸爸来吗 爸爸在哪 Is Daddy coming? Where's Daddy?
呃 他说可能睡觉时间回来 Uh, he said maybe bedtime.
他什么时候又走 When does he go again?
他才刚回来 所以… 一个月后 He just got back, so... in a month?
妈妈 Mommy?
嗯 Yeah.
我刚才确实要上厕所 I did have to go to the bathroom.
好的 Okay.
可能需要点时间 This might take a while.
好的 Okay.
妈妈 Mommy?
怎么了 Yeah?
卫生间里有水 The bathroom has water in it.
好的 那是好事 Okay, well, that's good.
不 我是说地上有水 No, I mean on the floor.
快来呀 Come quickly!
你来了吗 Are you coming?
妈妈 Mommy!
天啊 怎么了 Oh, my God. What?
你一进来为什么不马上告诉我 Why didn't you tell me as soon as you came in here?
我刚注意到… I just noticed...
因为我刚才急着要上厕所 because I had to go to the bathroom so bad.
我不喜欢它弄到袜子上的感觉 I don't like how it feels on my socks.
水从哪来的 有多深 Where's it coming from? How deep is it?
我们会死吗 Are we gonna die?
房子会塌下来压住我们吗 Is the house gonna fall on top of us?
妈妈 Mommy?
你能抱我起来带我出去吗 Can you lift me up and carry me out?
好的 就待在那儿 好吗 等着 Yep, just stay there, okay? Hold on.
妈 你为什么丢下我 你去哪 Mom, why are you leaving me? Where are you going?
就待在马桶上 好吗 Just please stay on the toilet, okay?
不 No.
你能请你过来… Can you please come...
你能现在过来吗 Can you come now?
我的… Oh, my...
哦… Oh...
…我的天啊 ...my fucking God.
妈妈 Mommy!
妈妈 你还没告诉我是什么 Mommy, you're not telling me what it is!
妈妈 Mommy!
怎么回事 什么 What's going on? What?
发生什么事了 妈 What's happening, Mom?
我们会死吗 Are we gonna die?
嘿 嘿 是的 Hey. Hey, yeah.
我们刚到家 你绝对不敢相信… We just got home, and you would not believe--
天啊 天啊 Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
不 不 不 别过来 No, no, no! Do not come here.
别进来 Do not come in here!
现在 走 走 走 马上 马上 Right now, go, go, go! Right now! Right now!
走 走 走 走 Go, go, go, go!
走 天啊 Go! Oh, my God!
一切都很陌生 不真实 Nothing is familiar or real.
一直都是 Ever.
每次有这种感觉 我就离真实的自己 Every time I feel this way I get further and further away
越来越远 好像再也回不去了 from being in myself, and, like, I can never get back.
当你想到时间 When you think about time,
你如何看待它 how do you see it?
我如何看待时间 How do I see time?
嗯… Um...
时间是一系列需要熬过去的事情 Time is a series of things to get through.
每个目标都是一座悬崖 Each goal is a cliff.
尽头什么都没有 There's nothing at the end of it,
但等到了那里 又会出现另一座悬崖 but then it comes, and there's just another cliff.
我太生你的气了 I'm so mad at you!
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哦 该死 Oh, shit.
哟 你知道全息呼吸法吗 Yo, you know about holotropic breathing?
不 Mm-mm.
哟 这东西可厉害了 Yo, this shit is lit.
基本上 你骗你的大脑以为它死了 Basically, you trick your brain into thinking it's dead,
然后你就能看到宇宙 and you see the fucking universe.
你懂我意思吗 You know what I'm saying?
这样如果有什么不对 你就不会感到偏执和愧疚 So you won't feel paranoia and guilt if something's wrong.
我有个朋友做灵气疗法之类的 I've got a friend who does Reiki and shit like that.
不 懂我意思吗 这更像是过度换气 Nah, see what I'm saying? This is like hyperventilating.
当你死的时候 他们说会释放这种化学物质 When you die, they say you let off this chemical.
当你做梦时 也会释放同样的化学物质 And when you're dreaming, you let off the same chemical.
有点像那样 懂吧 It's sort of like that, you know?
你让你的大脑以为它死了 You make your brain think it's dead,
但脑死亡也还是活着 but being brain-dead is still alive.
全像呼吸法 全息 Holographic breathwork? Holotropic.
全息 全息呼吸法 Tropic. Holotropic.
那是真的吗 什么 Is that real? What?
那个… 脑死亡的事 哦 是的 The... the dead brain thing? Oh, yeah.
我是说 靠 我觉得什么都有可能是真的 I mean, shit. I guess anything could be real.
我的意思是 什么也都可能是胡扯 I mean, anything could be bullshit too.
你懂我意思吗 You know what I'm saying?
但你知道那种感觉 就像当你不… But you know that feeling like when you're not...
是的 Yeah.
哦 你在取笑我 Oh, you're making fun of me.
小姐 我根本不认识你 对 Miss, I don't even know you. Right.
好的 嗯 这些要 但酒不要 Okay. Um, yes on these, but no on the wine.
为什么 Why?
法律禁止我现在卖酒给你 The law prohibits me from selling you this wine right now.
但现在还不到两点 But it isn't even 2:00.
现在是一点五十八分 It's 1:58.
对 但是… Right, but--
等我把这些东西结完账 就过两点了 By the time I ring these up, it will be past two.
嗯 呃… Huh. Um...
我只要花生酱杯好了 I'll just get the peanut butter cups.
记在我房间账上 You can put them on my room.
好的 Will do.
我不能再谈这个了 I can't talk about this anymore.
我告诉你 求你了 I'm telling you. Please.
嘿 嘿 听着 如果斯普林医生认为那样最好 Hey, hey. Look, if that's what Dr. Spring thinks is best,
那我们就得听斯普林医生的 then we have to listen to Dr. Spring.
但这里没有"我们" There is no "we" though.
只有我 我… 我… It's just me. I... I'm...
这不公平 我告诉你 哇哦 It's not fair. I'm telling you. Whoa!
公平 听着 我在工作 好吗 Fair? Listen, I'm working, all right?
我在应付很多混蛋 你根本不知道 I'm dealing with a lot of assholes. You have no idea.
我无法在这里处理 And I cannot do anything about
那边发生的事情 what's going on there from here.
我们需要团队合作 你今天必须去那里 We need to be a team. You have to go there today
报到 让他们知道 and check in and let them know
这整件事不是… 我知道 我知道 that this whole thing is not-I know. I know.
但那个逻辑的问题在于 The problem with that logic, though,
就是我不是家庭主妇 is that I'm not a housewife.
我也工作 哇哦 哇哦 哇哦 I work too. Whoa, whoa, whoa.
妈妈 这酒店的食物太难吃了 Mommy, this hotel food is gross.
早上好 真恶心 Good morning. This is disgusting.
哇 Wow.
你们俩长得真像双胞胎 有人说过吗 You guys look just like twins. Anybody ever tell you that?
呃 没有 你是第一个 Uh, no. You're the first person
注意到并且或说出来的人 to notice and/or say that.
每个人都这么说 Everyone says that.
嘿 小可爱 想看个魔术吗 想 Hey, cutie. Wanna see a trick? Yeah.
哇 你怎么做到的 Whoa. How'd you do that?
妈妈 Mommy?
你该吃掉 她不会吃的 You should take it. She's never gonna eat it.
好吧 Okay.
我现在要吐了吗 Am I gonna throw up now?
嗯 你挂我电话 Yeah? You hung up on me.
听着 我知道你有很多事要处理 Look, I know you have a lot on your plate,
但她正在好转 but she's getting better,
剩下的都是完全暂时的 and the rest of it is totally temporary.
天花板会修好的 我保证 The ceiling will get fixed, I promise.
天不会塌下来 这些都不是你的错 The sky is not falling. None of this is your fault.
我爱你 对不起 我也爱你 I love you. I'm sorry. I love you too.
住酒店有什么不好 What's so bad about a hotel anyway?
既然你在那里 就利用一下游泳池 And while you're there, take advantage of the pool.
他们有游泳池 对吧 They got a pool, right?
你总说你希望有个游泳池 You always said you wish you had a pool,
现在你有了 so now you have one.
你为什么不去呢 你可以游几圈 休息一下 Why don't you go? You can do some laps, lounge a little.
拿个浮圈 放松一下 喝点玛格丽塔… Get a floatie. Kick back, get a couple of margarita...
好的 Okay.
你知道你可以训练仓鼠爱你吗 Did you know that you can train hamsters to love you?
不 No.
你可以训练它们爱你 You can train them to love you.
嗯 我希望你能吃完培根 Well, I would love if you would finish your bacon.
这样我就能告诉大家你早餐得了满分 That way I can tell everybody you got 100% on breakfast.
一旦它们爱你 你就能让它们做任何事 And once they love you, you can get them to do everything
包括耍把戏 including tricks.
我们先吃一口 Let's start with one bite.
铃儿响叮当，串铃叮咚响 Ring, ding Ring-a-ring-a-ling-dang
铃儿响叮当，叮铛响叮咚 Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang-do
铃响，铃儿响叮当... Ring, ling Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang...
这阻隔了他对你的爱意 Keeps him from lovin' you
停车管理员又会生气吗 Is the parking guy gonna get mad again?
并排停车 并排停车 并排停车 Double-park! Double-park! Double-park!
好的 Okay.
要快 你知道上次发生了什么 Gotta be fast. You know what happened last time.
你错过了过去几周的家庭治疗 You've missed the last few weeks of family sessions.
是的 Yeah.
我告诉过你发生了什么 I told you what happened.
我们整个天花板塌了 一片混乱 Our entire ceiling fell down, and with all that chaos,
我们住在酒店里… and we're living out of the hotel--
所以我们需要尽快安排时间 So we need to schedule something as soon as possible
讨论她的目标和治疗过程 to talk about her goals and the treatment process.
好的 好的 嗯 好的 Yeah. Yeah, okay. Yeah.
当然 Duh.
是的 Yeah.
嗯 嗯 Mm-hm. Mm-hm.
哦 你是说现在 好的 好吧 Oh, you meant now? Okay. All right.
呃… Um...
嗯 让我看看我的日程 Well, uh, let me look at my schedule.
我可能得安排… I should probably do that...
我知道你已经知道这一点 I know that you already know this,
但你不能开始让愧疚和控制的感觉 but you can't start letting feelings of guilt and control
影响你对疾病和治疗的态度 about this illness and treatment affect you.
这不是任何人的错 It's no one's fault.
没错 我一直听人这么说 That's right. That's what I keep hearing.
还有 我真的需要你开始照顾好自己 Also, I really need you to start taking care of yourself.
对 是的 Right. Yes.
不 先戴好我的氧气面罩 No. Put my oxygen mask on first.
嗯 嗯 Mm-hm, mm-hm.
我只好直说了 I'm just gonna have to get blunt here.
她需要在下周达到体重目标 So she needs to reach her weight goal in the next week.
如果她做到了 那我们就可以安排拔管 If she does that, then we can put tube removal
和出院日期 and discharge dates on the books
但如果她做不到 but if she doesn't do that,
我将不得不重新评估护理级别 I'm gonna have to reassess the level of care
因为显然有些地方出了问题 because obviously something is not working here,
这就是我需要和你谈的 and this is what I need to talk to you about.
我们什么时候能正式坐下来谈 When can we sit down properly?
好的 嗯 九月七日 Yeah, fine. Uh, September 7th.
现在是九月十五日 It's September 15th.
九月二十日 我是说 九月… September 20. I mean, September...
九月二十日 September 20.
嘿 Hey!
嘿 我告诉过你别那么做 下次 Hey! I told you not to do that, and the next time
我会向大楼管理处投诉你 I will report you to the building.
你无权投诉我 You have no authority to report me.
你不会被允许进入停车场 我会把你车拖走 You won't be allowed in the lot. I'll have you towed!
哦 当然 叫他们来啊 Oh, sure! Call them!
我停的时间不长 I'm not in there long enough
他们根本来不及来 for them to even come!
随便 Whatever!
混蛋 Asshole.
公寓离这步行30分钟 The apartment is a 30-minute walk,
但感觉像在火星一样遥远 but it might as well be on Mars.
我只是 我无法… And I just, I can't...
每次我去查看 情况都更糟 Every time I go check, it looks worse,
我… 我无能为力 and I... I have no control.
你试过和房东 Have you tried discussing a compromise
商量一个折中方案吗 with your landlord?
也许他们可以把有洞的房间隔开 Perhaps they could section off the room with the hole,
这样你就能在公寓其他部分自由生活了 then you could live freely in the rest of the apartment.
自由生活在石棉 Live freely with asbestos
和百年灰尘以及黑霉菌孢子中 and 100-year-old dust and black mold spores?
这就是你的建议 That's your advice?
这不是建议 是个值得考虑的问题 It's not advice. It's a question to consider.
我真该让你看看这个洞 I should really show you this hole.
我天花板上有个噩梦般的大洞 It's an entire nightmare on my ceiling.
查尔斯什么时候回来 When does Charles return?
八周中的第三周 This is week three of eight.
我的意思是 你应该知道 你不记事情的吗 I mean, you should know that. Don't you write things down?
记住我生活中无聊的细节 It's your job to remember
是你的工作 the boring details of my fucking life.
我们现在必须停止了 时间到了 We do have to stop now. We are out of time.
我还有另一个病人要来 所以… I have another patient coming, so...
等等 现在 Wait, now?
十分钟提醒呢 What about the ten-minute warning?
是的 我刚才没注意 Yeah, I just wasn't paying attention.
你没有回复我发给你的关于我梦境的邮件 You didn't respond to the email that I sent you about my dream.
我不回复来访者关于梦境的邮件 I don't respond to my client's dream emails.
好吧 所以 如果你不提起 Okay. So, if you don't bring it up,
那又有什么意义 then what is the point?
好吧 呃 被你抓住了 Okay. Uh, you got me.
我做了个梦 今天需要谈谈 I had a dream, and I need to talk about it today,
但我没时间了 and I didn't get any time
因为你没给我提醒 because you didn't give me a warning.
我们可以在下次治疗时讨论你邮件里说的梦 We can discuss the dream you emailed next session.
嗯 其实是另一个梦 Well, it's actually a different dream.
嗯 我不太… 关于你的 Well, I don't really-About you.
好吧 快点说 好的 Okay, quickly. Okay.
我在医院日间活动室 I was in a hospital day room
或者娱乐室之类的地方 or a recreation room or something,
我知道我女儿也在医院 and I knew my daughter was also in the hospital
但是… 但是在很远的地方 另一部分 but... but far away, another part,
但看起来不像去年她住的那家医院 and it didn't look like the hospital
当时一切都发生了 虽然 she was in last year, though,
当一切发生的时候 那里不一样 很奇怪 when everything happened. It was different. It was weird.
我在等查尔斯来接我 And I was waiting for Charles to come get me,
这样我们就能接她 so we could pick her up
但取而代之的是 你在那里 but instead, you were there,
而且你想坐得离我非常近 and you wanted to sit really close to me.
然后我就在长凳上一点点挪开 And I was, like, inching away from you on the bench
而你一直一点点靠近 and you kept inching closer.
我拿出手机想给查尔斯发短信 And I got my phone out to text Charles
因为我很紧张他会进来看到 'cause I was nervous he'd come in and he'd see
然后你试图抢手机 and then you tried to grab the phone
然后你开始挠我痒痒… and then you started to tickle me...
…想让我把手机掉下来 ...to try to get me to drop it,
我当时就像… and I was, like...
我其实很享受 I was really enjoying it,
但我很害怕查尔斯会进来看到 but I was so scared that Charles would come in and he would see.
好了 All right.
行了吗 Okay?
好了 你得告诉我 All right. You got to tell me.
我们下次再谈 We'll talk about it next time.
好吗 Okay?
我们下次不会谈的 We won't talk about it next time.
你知道的 You know that.
毫无头绪 完全没有头绪 There's no thread. There's no thread at all.
什么事 又怎么了 Yes? What now?
男人 你好 很抱歉 MAN Hi, yes. So sorry.
必须离开 停工了 Have to leave. Stop work.
呃 什么 Uh, what?
母亲去世了 我必须离开 工期要延长了 Mother died. I have to leave. Work is going to take longer.
呃 好吧 呃 就… Uh, okay, uh, just--
我马上回来 I'll be one second.
好吧 那问题是什么 能告诉我吗 Okay, what is the issue then? Can you tell me?
这事已经拖了这么久了 This has been going on for so long.
我需要找新的承包商吗 Do I need to get a new contractor?
蔓延了 It spread.
呃 很满 非常满 你明白吗 非常满 Uh, it's full. It's very full, you understand? Very full.
蔓延了 It spread?
不好解释 不是我的语言 Not easy to explain. Not my language.
我说西班牙语 用你的语言解释 我能听懂 ¡Yo hablo español! Explícame en tu idioma, ¡lo entenderé!
抱歉 但我不懂那些词 Sorry, but I don't understand those words.
你要为你母亲哀悼多久 How long will you be grieving for your mother?
我说不准 不知道 没法说 I don't say. I don't know. I can't say.
听着 我需要一个日期 好吗 必须修好 Look, I need a date, okay? It needs to be fixed.
就给我个日期 我丈夫和我将要回到… Just give me a date. My husband and I will be returning to--
我一周后回来 I'll be back, one week.
好吧 嗯 行 我会去那里 Okay, well, fine. I'm going to be going there
检查你到目前为止的进度 and checking on what you have done so far,
我会拍照 而且我… and I'm going to be taking pictures, and I--
去你妈的 混蛋 Vete a la mierda, el cabrón.
我现在能看到你了 I can see you now.
我很乐意为你保持这个安静的空间 但是… I'm really happy to hold this silent space for you but...
…和往常一样 我很好奇 ...as usual, I am curious as to
你可能会在想什么 what you might be thinking about.
莱利 Riley.
这是我唯一能想到的 That's all I can think about.
告诉我发生了什么 Tell me what's going on.
嗯 我… Well, I...
我一直告诉你 是… I keep telling you, it's--
就像我一直对他的医生说的 他… It's like I keep saying to his doctor, he--
他不笑 他… He doesn't smile. He--
他看我的眼神很奇怪 He looks at me weirdly,
他一直都非常不舒服 and he's just very uncomfortable all of the time,
而且… 而且没人愿意做点什么 and... and no one will do anything about it.
你知道我想要什么 You know what I would love
而且我认为会非常有帮助的 and what I think would be extremely helpful
就是你能在不带莱利的情况下来一次治疗 is if you could come to a session without Riley.
我认为那会… I think it would be...
我知道你认为你不能… 不 我不能 I know you think you can't-No, I can't.
但我觉得如果你找一个你信任的保姆 一个你能… But I think if you got a sitter who you trusted, who you could--
你听说纽约那个保姆的事了吗 Did you hear about that nanny in New York?
那个妈妈下班回家 The mom came home from work,
发现保姆在浴缸里 and the nanny had stabbed
把她的两个孩子都捅死了 both of her kids to death in the bathtub.
那是真事 确实发生了 That is real. That happened.
那种情况非常 非常 非常罕见 好吗 A situation like that is very, very, very unusual, okay?
大多数人都有看护人 Most people have caregivers
可以信任他们… 我不能 who can trust that... I can't.
嗯 我… 我相信你能 Well, I... I believe you can.
我只是觉得你不想或者你害怕 I just think you don't want to or you're afraid
所以我们来坚持一些实际的… so let's stick to some practical--
我需要保护他 I need to protect him.
防范什么具体的东西吗 From something specific?
因为非常糟糕的事情正在发生 Because something very bad is happening.
我太… 我能就… 等一下 我必须… I'm so... Can I just-One second. I just have to...
这可能和我女儿有关 我… 我很抱歉 This could be about my daughter. I'm... I'm so sorry.
呃… Um...
是的 听着 我… 我不是莱利的医生 Yeah. Look, look, I-I'm not Riley's doctor
所以我不能说他可能或不可能发生了什么 so I can't speak to what may or may not be going on with him.
我们只能谈论你的感受 We can only talk about your feelings
关于你认为莱利发生了什么 about what you perceive is going on with Riley,
这就是为什么我确实相信药物可以… which is why I do believe medication can be--
我不是认为 I'm not perceiving it.
是确实发生了 It is happening.
我对此感到非常难受 And I feel awful about it.
好吧 听着 Okay, listen.
当你和莱利在家有这些深度恐慌的感觉时 When you're having these feelings of deep panic at home with Riley,
当你和莱利在家有这些深度恐慌的感觉时 at home with Riley,
就把他放在婴儿床或婴儿车里或其他安全的地方… just put him in his crib or carrier or somewhere safe...
…然后泡个澡 ...and draw a bath.
深呼吸直到心跳不再加速 Just breathe until your heart isn't racing anymore,
然后出来穿好衣服 come out and get dressed,
重新开始这一天… start the day over again...
…穿上真正的衣服 ...put on some real clothes.
你正在经历的这些感觉 These feelings that you're experiencing
它们… 非常 非常 非常可怕 they are... they're very, very, very scary.
好吗 而且非常黑暗 Okay? And very dark.
所以你需要保持行动 And that's why you need to keep moving.
你需要继续前进 You need to keep going.
你需要保持忙碌 You need to be busy.
你不能沉浸在恐惧 You can't sit inside the fear
疑虑 and doubt
和恐惧之中 and scariness.
呼吸工作法是对神经系统的深度疗愈 Breathwork is a deep healing in the nervous system,
我们在这里储存创伤和被压抑的情绪 where we hold trauma and trapped emotions.
我们无法通过谈话摆脱创伤 We can't talk our way out of trauma.
身体需要处理 The body needs to process
体内未处理的情绪 unprocessed emotions within the body.
这就是为什么呼吸工作法如此强大 And this is why breathwork is so powerful.
如果你在寻找更深层的疗愈方式 If you're looking for deeper ways of healing
并且在寻找替代方案 and you're searching for alternatives,
不要再等待了 don't wait any longer.
让我们联系并安排你的第一次呼吸疗法课程 Let's connect and schedule your first breathwork session.
就在法官宣读对奥尔特加的判决之前 Directly before the judge read Ortega her sentence,
她请求宽恕她犯下的骇人罪行 she begged for forgiveness for her unspeakable crime.
她说她很抱歉 She stated she was sorry
为她被法官称为"纯粹邪恶"的行为 for what the judge had called, "Pure evil."
然后她谈到未经治疗的精神疾病… She then spoke about how untreated mental illness...
该死 Fuck.
法官没有被说服 妈的 The judge was not convinced. Shit.
她将在监狱中度过余生 She will be serving life in prison
不得假释 法官说… with no possibility of parole, saying that--
你绝对不敢相信我今天经历了什么 You would not believe what I have been through today.
好吧 所以 我不知道你是否记得 Okay, so, I don't know if you recall
但有一对绝对惊艳 华丽 but there was this pair of absolutely davoon-ianca,
惊艳 华丽的皮手套 davoon, gorge leather gloves
我在The RealReal上看到的 that I saw on The RealReal.
我今天早上醒来 发现被禁了 I wake up this morning, banned.
被禁了 是的 我知道 Banned. Yeah. I know.
查尔斯 嘿 亲爱的 CHARLES Hey, my love!
所以你一直有坚持 So you been keeping up
好好吃饭 做所有该做的事吗 and eating, and doing all the right things?
是的 我今天吃了一些奶酪 Yeah, I ate some cheese today!
嗯 奶酪 Mmm. Cheese!
太棒了 我爱奶酪 That's fantastic. I love cheese!
爸爸 我能养只仓鼠吗 不行 Daddy, can I get a hamster? No.
我已经告诉过你了 你不能养仓鼠 I already told you, you're not getting a hamster.
不 不 你知道吗 我们看看 好吧 No, no. You know what, let's see, okay?
也许等我们回到公寓… Maybe when we get back to the apartment...
不 不 不 不 不 她不能养仓鼠 No, no, no, no, no. She's not getting a hamster.
爸爸 你什么时候回家 Daddy, when are you coming home?
她不能养仓鼠 She's not getting a hamster.
什么 你在哪 我听到奇怪的声音 What, where are you? I can hear something weird.
哦 是的 那个 我在看比赛 Oh. Yeah, that. I'm catching a game.
比赛 是的 A game? Yeah.
是的 我们今天早上到的 Yeah, we got here this morning,
这里有个小联盟球队 and there's a minor league team here
在我们去的岛上 有点吵 所以… on the island where we go. It's a little loud, so...
哦 那一定很棒 huh 为自己做点事 Oh, it must be nice, huh, doing things for yourself.
那是什么感觉 嘿 嘿 嘿 What's that like? Hey, hey, hey.
你想换位置吗 You wanna switch places?
你不知道我在这里应付什么 You don't know what I'm dealing with here.
好吧 那我去坐着… All right, I'll go sit on my ass...
爸爸 …整天接受治疗… Daddy! ...all day in therapy...
对不起 哈哈 I'm sorry. Ha-ha.
我是说 "坐着"听别人抱怨 I mean, "sit on my butt" listening to people whine,
而你可以驾驶这艘该… and you can captain this fu--
呃… 这艘愚蠢的船 好吗 Uh... this stupid boat, okay?
听着 我休假时有权做点自己的事 Listen, I'm allowed to do things on my time off.
天啊 休假 哦 好吧 嗯… Jesus Christ! Time off? Oh, okay, um...
爸爸得走了 呃 我们得开车了 Daddy has to go now, and, uh, we have to drive,
跟爸爸说再见 好吗 不 我不用走 so say goodbye to Daddy, okay? No. I don't have to go!
听着 他们正打到一半… 天啊 Look, they're in the middle... Jesus.
我告诉过你 那是啮齿动物 I told you, it's a rodent,
而且养着毫无意义 and just something to look after for no reason.
拜托 请不要再问了 Please, please don't ask again,
也不要问爸爸我已经拒绝过的事情 and don't ask Daddy things I already say no to.
但是妈妈 这不公平 But Mommy, it's not fair!
斯普林医生说这是关键的一周 Dr. Spring said this is a big week.
她告诉你了吗 是的 Did she tell you that? Yeah.
我认为你能做到 I think you can do it.
但我已经在尽力了 But I'm already doing it my best.
我知道 但你需要做得更好一点 I know, but you have to do a little better
然后我们就能摆脱这个东西 then we can get rid of this thing,
一切都会好起来的 and everything will be okay.
我会好起来的 I'll be better.
好吧 嗯… Okay. Well...
…这不由我决定 ...it's not up to me.
这取决于你 It's up to you.
今晚我给你读什么书 What book can I read you tonight?
我太累了 就唱首歌吧 I'm too tired. Just a song.
好的 什么歌 Okay, what song?
死鲸鱼那首 好的 The dead whale one. Okay.
坐在病床前 Sit beside The breakfast table
想着你的痛苦 Think about your troubles
端起那杯药水 Pour yourselves A cup of tea
看着气泡浮动 Think about the bubbles
你可以收起泪水 You can take your teardrops
把它们全部抛弃 And drop 'em in a teacup
带着它们去河边 Take 'em down To the riverside
将它们抛到一旁 And throw them Over the side
让时光带走 To be swept up by a current
飘向远方 Then taken to the ocean
最终葬身鱼腹 To be swallowed by Some fishes
他们最终葬身于鱼腹之中 Who were eaten by Some fishes
而后被巨鲸吞没 And swallowed by a whale
他已是垂垂老矣 Who grew so old
他化为尘土 He decomposed
我不是说我们都是机器人 I don't mean to say we're all robots,
但我想知道如果你被抚养长大的方式 but I wonder if you had been raised
和你母亲被抚养长大的方式一样 the way your mother had been raised.
我是说 她有个父亲一走了之 I mean, she had a father who just took off,
没有回家 didn't come home.
然后另一个男人进入她母亲的生活 Then another man entered her mother's life,
她对他产生了依恋 然后他也离开了 and she became attached to him, and he bailed out.
我知道你在说什么 I know what you're saying.
我也有过类似的经历 非常相似 I did have that same one. Very similar.
但是… 好吧 我的问题是 But... Okay, well, my question is
如果你像你母亲那样被抚养长大 if you had been raised as your mother had been raised
你认为你很可能也会 do you think you probably would've
打你的孩子吗 knocked your kids around too?
看看你能用嘴接住多少 See how many you catch in your mouth.
好的 Okay.
好的 张嘴 Okay, open.
等等 嘘 Wait. Shh.
该死 这个该死的醉婆娘… Fuck. This fucking drunk bitch...
记在我房间账上 拜托 肯定还没到两点 Put this on my room, please. It's definitely before 2:00.
女士 我需要看你的身份证 I'm gonna need to see your ID, ma'am.
你以前从没问我要过 You've never asked me that before.
女士 我需要看你的身份证 Ma'am, I'm gonna need to see your ID.
你真的想让我 You really want me to go
一路跑回我的房间 all the way back up to my room,
拿我的身份证 再一路跑下来吗 get my ID, and come all the way back down here?
这是规定 你不是只住在二楼吗 It's the rule. Aren't you only on the second floor anyway?
这他妈什么时候成规定了 When is this the fucking rule?
我每天晚上都来这里… I have been in here every single night...
也许我翻开了规则手册 Maybe I cracked open the rulebook
发现了一些东西 and found some shit out.
嗯 也许你应该找到我的身份证 就在… Well, maybe you should find my ID that's behind...
女士们 女士们 女士们… Ladies, ladies, ladies...
这是规定 女士 女士们 It's the rule, ma'am! Ladies!
女士们 我不回去 Ladies! I'm not going back!
女士们 哇哦 哇哦 Ladies, whoa, whoa!
女士们 冷静点 兄弟 我他妈很冷静 Ladies, calm it down, bro. I'm fuckin' chill.
没那么严重 It's not that deep.
她他妈在冲我吠 She fucking barking at me.
用我的身份证买吧 Just use my ID for it.
我不能那么做 为什么不行 I can't do that. Why not?
我不能用你的身份证给她买酒 I can't use your ID for her wine.
那就算我的酒 她付钱 Well then it's my wine, she's just paying for it.
她他妈拿走了 She fucking took it.
嘿 Hey!
什么 What?
顺便说一句 我叫杰米 The name's Jamie, by the way.
有火吗 Got a light?
我没兴趣 I'm not interested.
对什么没兴趣 我需要一个人待着 In what? I need to be alone.
真他妈没礼貌 Rude as hell.
说声他妈谢谢会死啊 小姐 A motherfucking thank you would've been nice, miss.
我 呃 在酒店 I'm, uh, at the hotel.
我在外面透透气 I'm outside just getting some fresh air.
我不喜欢你把她一个人留在那里 I don't like it when you leave her there by herself,
哪怕一秒 不安全 even for a second. It isn't safe.
我只是出来透会儿气 I'm just outside for a minute getting some air.
那里的窗户打不开 The windows don't open in there.
显然是为了防止大家自杀 To stop everyone from killing themselves, obviously.
好吧 是 是 是 All right. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
但如果她醒来害怕或… but what if she wakes up and she's scared or--
她从不醒过来 Well, she never wakes up,
而且不管怎样 我现在酒店有人 and anyway, I have someone at the hotel now.
一个保姆 真的 A babysitter. Really?
你在哪找的保姆 是谁 Where'd you find a babysitter? Who is it?
他叫詹姆斯 His name's James.
他叫詹姆斯 他是男保姆 His name is James? He's a male babysitter?
你打电话就是为了说我是个坏母亲 还是怎样 Did you call just to call me a bad mother, or what?
你根本不知道连一分钟都不能 You have no idea what it's like not to be able to go outside
独自出门是什么感觉 even for a minute, by yourself.
你随时可以出门 You can go outside whenever you want to.
你想去哪就去哪 You can go wherever you want to.
这机器他妈不停… The machine doesn't fucking stop...
在里面无事可做… and there's nothing to do in--
嘿 我在这边拼命工作 Hey, I am over here working my ass off!
天啊 今天谁去看棒球赛了 Oh, my God! Who is the one who went to a baseball game today
谁又装了500次糊糊 and who is the one who filled her bag with gloop 500 times,
看病人 接她 saw patients, picked her up,
做晚饭她只吃了百分之二十 had to do dinner where she only got 20 percent,
然后还得试图说服… and then had to try to convince--
我们能别这样吗 Can we please not do this?
听着 我得挂了 Look, I gotta go.
这里信号真的很差 一切都好 The reception's really bad here. Everything's fine.
不 不 不 等等 等等 你去公寓… No, no, no. Wait, wait, wait. Did you go to the apart--
是的 是的 Yes. Yes.
是的 是的 是的 是的 是的 Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
这是洞的照片 Here are pics of hole.
今天忘了发 Forgot to send today.
我午餐时间去的 I went during lunch.
有什么电影… What is movie...
…婴儿 僵尸 80年代 母亲吃婴儿 ...babies, zombies, '80s, mothers eating babies?
这是我找到的 Here's what I found.
法庭重新审理了… A court has reopened...
…九周大的婴儿确实被野狗叼走并杀死 ...nine-week-old baby really was taken and killed by a dingo
在梅丽尔·斯特里普饰演那位被误判 24 years after Meryl Streep portrayed the Australian mother
杀害自己孩子而入狱的澳大利亚母亲24年后 wrongly jailed for killing her child.
张伯伦一直坚称… Chamberlain has always insisted...
什么 What?
妈 Mom?
喂 Hello?
醒醒 妈 醒醒 好了 Wake up, Mom. Wake up. Okay.
妈 妈 听到我们了吗 Mom. Mom. You hear us?
来吧 妈 快醒醒 Come on, Mom. Snap out of it.
你若想知道真相，你若想了解内情 If you wanna know this If you wanna know that
来我的蜜糖小屋吧 Come to my sugar shack
嘿 嘿 你知道什么会超级好玩 Hey. Hey, you know what would be super fun
而且像真正的大孩子做的事吗 and like a really, really big kid type of thing to do?
我听不见你 I can't hear you.
我说 你知道什么会超级好玩 I said, you know what would be super fun
而且像大孩子做的事吗 and a big kid type of thing to do?
什么 What?
如果我把你放在门口 If I drop you in front of the door
你就自己进去 天啊 and you just go in by yourself. Oh, my God.
那你可就太酷了 不 That would be so cool of you. No.
为什么不行 所有妈妈都会送进去 Why not? All the moms walk you in.
你是妈妈 你必须送我进去 你必须给我签到 You're a mom. You have to walk me in. You have to sign me in.
伊娃 伊娃 Eva! Eva!
你今天能送她进去吗 求你了 求你了 Can you walk her in today? Please, please, please?
我应付不了停车的事 I cannot deal with the parking.
当然 没问题 Of course. No problem.
没问题 谢谢 No problem. Thank you.
好的 好消息 猜猜看 猜猜看 Okay. Exciting news. Guess what? Guess what?
伊娃会送你进去 去吧 去吧 去吧 Eva will walk you in! Go, go, go.
走吧 Let's go!
妈妈 艾迪让我害怕 来吧 Mommy, Addie scares me. Come on.
她只吃能多益 我需要你 She only eats Nutella. I need you!
陪着你 宝贝 求你了 为了妈妈 好吗 To be with you! Honey, please. For Mama, okay?
求你了 求你了 你是我妈妈 Please? Please? You are my mom.
如果你去 我们今天就去看看仓鼠 We'll go look at hamsters today if you do it.
"看看"它们 "Look" at them?
我给你买一只 好吗 去吧 去 I'll get you one, okay? Just go. Go!
好的 看到了吗 我爱你 我爱你 好吗 Okay, see? I love you! I love you, okay?
一切都会… 该死 Everything's gonna be... Shit.
嗨 嗨 Hi. Hi.
该死 该死 该死 Shit! Shit! Shit!
我最差劲了 我他妈最差劲了 I'm the worst. I'm the fucking worst!
然后你告诉我如果碰了小鸟 And then you told me that if you touch a baby bird,
鸟妈妈知道后就不会回来了 the mama bird will not come back if they know you touched them.
嗯 那一定是个很特别的梦 Hm. That must have been some dream.
你… 我还没说完 Do you-I'm not done.
你亲了我 You kissed me.
我说 你亲了我 I said, you kissed me.
是的 我听到了 在你的梦里 我亲了你 Yes. I heard you. In your dream, I kissed you.
是的 然后第二天 我感觉… Yeah, and then the next day, I felt...
…沉重的负罪感 ...crushing guilt.
而且我不知怎么知道你的丈夫 And I knew somehow that your husband
骂我是混蛋 had called me an asshole.
你知道 斯蒂芬 我们可以抛开你的梦 You know, Stephen, we can talk about these feelings
来谈谈这些感受 apart from your dreams.
但是… But...
我控制不了在我的梦里你总是想亲我 I can't help it if in my dreams you always want to kiss me.
在酒店范围内 What's the difference
当她睡觉时走到外面… between going outside on hotel property when she's sleeping...
和一路回家有什么区别 ...and going all the way home?
在一种情况下 我猜我只是个 In one, I guess I'm just a regular mom
做了个糟糕选择的普通妈妈 making a shitty choice,
而在另一种情况下 我是个… 我是个… and in the other, I'm a... I'm a...
一个彻头彻尾的糟糕妈妈 a straight up shitty mom.
嗯 我的职责不是 Well, it's not my role
决定你是否应该或不应该… to decide whether you should or whether you should not...
那不是… 不 不 不 我不应该 That's not-No, no, no. I shouldn't.
我知道我不应该 I know I shouldn't.
我甚至一秒钟都不该离开她 I shouldn't even leave her for a second.
我的意思是 你的工作就是该说 I mean, it is your job to say.
就告诉我不要那么做 Just tell me not to do it.
就告诉我该怎么做 Just tell me what to do.
我不认为你想让我告诉你该怎么做 I don't think you want me to tell you what to do.
你知道该怎么做 You know what to do.
没人会告诉我该怎么做 No one will tell me what to do.
我应该知道怎么解决这个问题 I'm supposed to know how to fix this.
我应该知道怎么治好她 I'm supposed to know how to fix her.
你认为什么是你需要去解决的 What is it you think it's your job to fix?
她必须在下周前体重达到50磅 斯普林医生说的 She has to weigh 50 pounds by next week, Dr. Spring said.
那是增重2.5磅 对吧 That's a gain of 2.5 pounds, right?
每天需要摄入2500卡路里 Each day's supposed to be 2,500 calories in
补偿她静息代谢率消耗的1800卡路里 compensating for her resting rate at 1,800 calories burned.
那至少是每餐的80% 持续七天 That's gotta be at least 80% of each meal for seven days
加上管饲 而且这还是在她整天躺着不动的情况下 plus the tube, and that's if she just lays still all day.
如果做不到 And if it doesn't,
那么关于不能拔管 then something about not getting the tube out
以及重新评估护理级别的事 and reassessing the level of care.
我该怎么办 今晚… What do I do? Tonight...
我希望你好好睡一觉 I would like you to get a good night sleep.
我也想 但我在问你一件事 So would I, but I'm asking you a thing.
一个实际问题 一个需要解决的问题 我需要帮助 An actual thing, a problem to fix, and I need help with this.
难道我就该坐视她失败 Am I supposed to just sit around and watch her fail
然后这一切就永远持续下去吗 我该怎么办 and this is just gonna go on forever? What do I do?
好吧 这意味着不能喝酒 Okay. That means there's no drinking.
不能吸毒 不能… There's no drugs. There's no...
你在听我说话吗 你能听到我吗 Are you listening to me?! Can you hear me?!
我在问你 我该怎么办 I'm asking you what I'm supposed to do!
你为什么不喜欢我 Why don't you like me?
我为什么不喜欢你 Why don't I like you?
我知道你不会回答我 算了 I know you won't answer me. Just forget it.
这非常不公平 That is incredibly unfair.
为什么这对你现在如此重要 Why is this so important to you right now?
我只是想有人告诉我该怎么做 I just want someone to tell me what to do.
没人会告诉我 No one will tell me.
我爱他 我爱他 我爱他 I love him, I love him, I love him.
等我们回家后 When we get home,
他可以在那里快乐地生活 he can live a happy life there.
我们会永远 永远 永远 And we're gonna have him forever, and ever, and ever,
永远 永远拥有他 and ever, and ever.
我爱他 我要亲他 我要抱他 I love him. I'm gonna kiss him, and I'm gonna hug him.
天啊 也许他应该叫s'mores Oh, my God. Maybe his name should be S'mores.
这名字真好 That's really nice.
我说了 别打开盒子 I said, don't open the box.
我只是想看看他 他一直在抓 I just wanna see him. He's been scratching.
他不喜欢待在盒子里 He doesn't like being in the box.
他想出来 He's trying to get out.
你能把它关紧吗 拜托 保持关闭 Can you hold it closed, please? And keep it closed.
他在抓我 他应该爱我的 He's scratching me! He's supposed to love me.
关上盒子 Close the box.
我关不上 I can't.
妈妈 他要跑出来了 Mommy, he's getting out.
递给我 递给我 Just hand it to me. Hand it to me.
他要跳出来了 He's gonna jump out.
他讨厌我们 递给我 我看不见 He hates us. Give it to me. I can't see.
递给我 Give it to me.
我觉得我们买错仓鼠了 I think we got the wrong hamster.
该死 Shit.
啊 该死 Ow! Shit.
我们要死了 不 我们不会死 We're gonna die. No, we're not gonna die,
但我得靠边停车 but I have to pull over.
啊 该死 Ow! Shit!
难道这不是棉花糖夹心饼？ 我的老天！ Maybe this isn't S'mores. Oh, my God.
它出来了 出来了 该死 该死 哦 我的… It's out. It's out! Shit. Shit. Oh, my...
妈妈 天啊 它出来了 Mommy. Oh, my God. It's out.
你为什么不把它放回去 Why aren't you putting that back in?
把它放回去 Just put it back in.
天啊 天啊 天啊 天啊 Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God!
拜托 把它放回去 Please! Put him back in!
我不要了 我不想要他了 I don't want it. I don't want him anymore.
他很坏 He's bad.
好了 好了 嘿 嘿 嘿 Okay. Okay, hey, hey, hey.
你没事 You're fine.
你没事 我也没事 好吗 没人受伤 You're fine, and I'm fine, okay? Nobody is hurt.
我们… Let's...
带上它 带上它 Take it with you! Take it with you!
我马上回来 它会伤害我的 I'll be right back. It's gonna hurt me!
我讨厌我的仓鼠 I hate my hamster!
嘿 老兄 你在干什么 嘿 嘿 嘿 Hey, man. What are you doing? Hey, hey, hey.
哦 你很幸运没有损坏 Oh. You're lucky there's no damage.
我们不需要交换信息 We don't have to exchange information.
什么？我的孩子还在那辆车里！你听到她的哭声了吗？啊？ What? My kid is in that car. Do you hear her crying, huh?
你把她吓个半死 混蛋 You scared her to death, you dick.
嘿 妈妈 就是轻轻碰了一下而已 Hey, Mom. It was barely just a tap.
别再叫我妈妈了 她刚才以为我们都要没命了 Don't fucking call me Mommy. She thought we were gonna die.
少拿我孩子的安全来招惹我，听懂没？ Don't fuck with me about my child's safety. Huh?
把你所有信息给我 那他妈是什么 Give me all your information. What the fuck is that?
什么 那个 那个 What?! That! That!
妈妈 Mommy!
哦 Oh.
妈妈 发生什么事了 妈妈 Mommy, what happened?! Mommy!
我爱你 我想你 回到这儿来 I love you. I miss you. Come back here.
一切都在掌控之中 Everything is under control.
停下 Stop.
你知道我爱你 Do you know that I love you
我认为你是最棒的 and I think you're the best
为你所做的一切感到骄傲 and so proud of you for everything,
你能做到的 你差不多全好了 and you can do it, and you're almost all better.
你太棒了 妈妈 停下 You're so good. Mommy, stop.
什么 我不能停 我太爱你了 What? I can't stop. I just love you too much.
你身上有酒味 You smell like wine.
喂 Hello?
嗨 我是… 我是卡罗琳 Hi, it's... it's Caroline.
卡罗琳·普里姆 你的病人 Caroline Primm, your patient.
抱歉这么晚打给你 I'm sorry it's so late.
呃… 哦 是紧急情况吗 Um... Oh. Is this an emergency?
因为 呃 如果是紧急情况 Because, um, if this is an emergency,
你需要挂断然后… you need to hang up and--
不是紧急情况 我只是… It's not an emergency. I just--
我昨天忘了给你打电话 I forgot to call you yesterday.
什么 What?
嗯 你告诉我让我带莱利去散步 Well, you told me to take Riley for a walk
在我泡完澡平静下来之后 after I took a bath and calmed down
我照做了 但我忘了给你打电话… and I did it, and I forgot to call you--
哦 好的 是的 呃… Oh. Okay, yes. Um...
嗯 那很好 而且 呃… Well, uh, that's good, and, um...
呃 我… 我觉得我应该告诉你 这个号码 Uh, I-I do feel though that I should tell you that this number
真的只用于紧急情况 好吗 is really for emergencies only, okay?
哦 对不起 我只是… Oh. I'm sorry. I just...
我睡不着 想着你在担心 I just couldn't sleep thinking that you were worried.
我没有担心 I wasn't worried.
你… 你没有 你没有在想我 You... You weren't? You weren't thinking about me?
我说过如果你… 你可以给我打电话 I said that you could call me if you...
我说如果你无法平静下来可以给我打电话 I said you could call me if you couldn't calm down
不是说你必须打给我 not that you had to call me.
但是 呃… 你安全吗 卡罗琳 But, um... but are you safe, Caroline?
你…？ Are you...?
我… 我很抱歉 我… 我误会了 I'm... I'm sorry. I... I misunderstood.
是的 我真傻 呃… 是的 我安全 Yeah, I'm so dumb. Um... Yes, I'm safe.
好吧 我们治疗时再谈这个 好吗 Okay. Well, let's talk about this in session, okay?
对不起 我显然打扰你了 I'm sorry. I'm obviously bothering you.
这不是你的错 呃… It is not your fault, uh...
我会… 我下周见你 and I will-I'll see you next week.
嗯 我明天能来吗 Well, can I come in tomorrow?
只是等到下周似乎太长了 It's just waiting until next week seems too long.
呃 让我看看我的日程 Uh, well, let me check my schedule,
我会发短信告诉你时间 好吗 and I will text you a time, okay?
好的 呃 对不起… Okay. Um, I'm sor--
你他妈在开玩笑吧 该死 You've gotta be fucking kidding me! Shit!
喂 Hello?
喂 Hello!
喂 这里有人在工作吗 Hello! Is anyone here doing their job?
该死 Shit.
需要帮忙吗 Want some help with that?
我知道个技巧 有刀 I know a trick. Got a knife.
甜心 Sweetie?
小熊 开门 是妈妈 Little Bear, open up. It's Mommy.
小熊 开门 Little Bear, open up.
杰米 她在干什么 JAMIE What is she doing?
哇哦 哇哦 哇哦 Whoa. Whoa, whoa.
你他妈有什么毛病 什么 哇哦 What the fuck's your problem? What? Whoa.
怎么 你迷恋我还是怎么着 What, you're obsessed with me or something?
你在说什么 别自作多情了 What are you talking about? Don't flatter yourself.
那你为什么看着我 什么 你想要什么 Well, why are you looking at me? What? What do you want?
我不想你一个人坐在外面 I don't want you just sitting outside and by yourself.
可能会有变态经过什么的 Some creep might walk past or something.
什么变态 What creep?
我他妈怎么知道 女士 How the fuck do I know, lady?
这地方到处都是变态 There's creeps all over this place.
别叫我女士 我的错 小姐 Don't call me lady. My bad, miss.
别叫我小姐 别 就是别 Don't call me miss. Don't. Just don't.
夫人 Ma'am.
夫人 是的 Frau? Yeah.
婊子！我靠！ Slag. Oh, my God.
你放荡的本性 Your thottiness?
家庭主妇？ Housewife?
事到如今，我甚至不知道该怎么称呼你了 At this point, I don't even know what to refer to you as.
我就直接叫你“女性”了。 I'm gonna just call you female.
喂 疯婆子 Yo, crazy pants.
我本来打算上网冲浪 I was gonna partake in surfing the web
找点我感兴趣的东西 for some things that I'm into,
你懂我的意思 我只是提一下 if you catch my drift, and I'm just putting it out there,
你非常欢迎加入 you more than welcome to join.
没压力 就是说说 No pressure. Just saying.
什么样的东西 What kind of stuff?
是像暗网那种吗 Is that like the dark web?
就是那种可以买卖人口的地方 Like where you can buy people and stuff?
我不知道 没买过人 所以… I don't know. Never bought a person, so...
但可以买吗 或者卖 But you could? Or sell one?
我猜可以 但我上暗网 I mean, I guess so, but I don't come on the dark web
不是搜那种东西 所以… searching for that kind of shit, so...
上面不是有些地方 Aren't there places on there
人们互相展示谋杀视频 where people, like, show each other videos of murders
和他们关押的人的视频吗 and people they're holding captive?
我们能换个话题吗 我们来买毒品吧 Can we change the subject? Let's buy drugs.
我们来搞点… Let's get some...
…来点货 对吧 来吧 你想要什么 ...some shit, right? Come on. What do you want?
你对什么感兴趣 What are you into?
我不知道 他们有… I don't know. Do they have, like...
可卡因之类的吗 cocaine or something?
你上次试可卡因是什么时候 When was the last time you tried cocaine?
你什么意思 这是很流行的毒品 What do you mean? It's a very popular drug.
我喜欢 I like it.
好吧 嗯 我要买迷幻药 那我们两样都买 All right. Well, I'm getting molly, so we'll get both.
问题是 See, the thing is,
我下周才发工资 所以需要你先垫付 I don't get paid till next week, so I need you to cover me.
哦 哦 我… 不行 Oh. Oh, I'm-No.
不 不 我明白这是怎么回事了 No, no. I see what this is about.
你去哪 我回房间 Where you going? I'm going back to my room.
为什么 你连钥匙都没有 For what? You don't even have a key.
而且 你女儿已经睡着了 Besides, your daughter's passed out.
前台女士肯定已经睡死了 Front desk lady's definitely in a coma by now.
冷静 过来坐下 我们来下单 天啊 Calm down. Come sit down. Let's order. Jeez.
我想我可以用信用卡付 I could put it on my credit card, I guess.
什么 不行 What? No.
那400块 我可以用信用卡付 The 400, I could put it on my credit card.
不 不 听着 老兄 不能追溯到你这 No, no. See, man, it can't be traced back to you.
必须是匿名的 It has to be anonymous.
那怎么付钱买这些东西 Well, then how do you pay for the stuff?
好吧 我们可以做的是 All right, what we could do is
我们可以去趟药店什么的 we could go to a pharmacy or something real quick
用那种礼品卡付 and put it on one of those gift cards
或者你有比特币 加密货币之类的东西吗 or maybe you got bitcoin, or crypto, or some shit like that?
不 我都没有那些东西 No, I don't have any of that stuff,
我不能半夜上车 and I can't get in a car
把我女儿一个人丢下 and leave my daughter alone in the middle of the night.
你经常把你女儿一个人丢下 You leave your daughter alone all the time.
不 我没有 那只是如果我去田野那边 No, I don't. That's just if I go in the field.
哈 我亲眼见过你把你女儿一个人丢下 Ha! I literally seen you leave your daughter alone myself
亲眼所见 with my own two eyes.
这次又是什么问题 你是什么人 What's the problem this time? What are you?
你在跟踪我吗 You stalking me or something?
我是个关心的市民 我是说 需要全村之力 对吧 I'm a concerned citizen. I mean, takes a village, right?
什么 What?
甜心 甜心 是妈妈 Sweetie! Sweetie! It's Mommy!
你把我锁在外面了 甜心 You locked me out. Sweetie!
甜心 开门 Sweetie! Open the door!
小熊 开门 Little Bear, open the door!
妈妈… Mommy...
把机器推过来 开门 Just wheel the machine over and open the door!
小熊 Little Bear!
开门 Open the door!
我把自己锁在外面了 I locked myself out!
是妈妈 是妈妈 It's Mom! It's Mommy!
妈妈 Mommy?
你在吗 Are you there?
我不知道如果你甚至不看我眼睛 I'm not sure how we can talk about anything helpful
我们怎么能进行任何有益的谈话 if you won't even look me in the eye.
是你要求这次额外治疗的 You asked me for this extra session.
我做不到 I can't.
你一定很生我的气 You must be so mad at me.
生气 哦 因为你打电话给我 Mad? Oh, because you called me?
不 不 不 我没有生你的气 No, no, no. I'm not mad at you.
我们继续吧 拜托 Let's move on. Please?
你有个女儿 You have a daughter.
你为什么从来没告诉过我 Why didn't you ever tell me?
嗯 这不关我的事 Well, this isn't about me.
但现在我知道你知道了 But now I know that you know.
你知道 You know.
我不知道 你需要告诉我 I don't know. You need to tell me.
这不是你的错 It's not your fault.
但这是我的错 But it is mine.
好吧 你知道 卡罗琳 我认为可能是时候我们… Okay, you know, Caroline I think that it may be time that we...
呃… um...
…我们咨询一下 ...that we consult with someone
关于给你用药的事 about some medication for you.
嗯 我不能吃药 我在哺乳期 Well, I can't take medication. I'm breastfeeding.
你想让我杀了我的宝宝吗 当然不是 Do you want me to kill my baby? Of course not.
我只是认为如果医生觉得可能有益 I just think if a doctor thinks it could be beneficial,
那么也许我们需要… then maybe we need to...
优先考虑你的… 你的… 健康 而不是哺乳 prioritize your... your... health over breastfeeding.
就现在 Just right now.
你知道 你需要照顾好自己 You know, you need to take care of yourself
这样才能照顾莱利 so you can take care of Riley.
我得去洗手间 I have to go to the bathroom.
呃 我们只剩下15分钟了 Um, well, we only have 15 minutes left.
我现在就得去 I have to go now.
好吧 你能等到治疗结束后吗 Okay, well, can you wait till after the session?
不行 No?
哦… 哦 Oh... Oh.
该死 Shit.
哦 好了 好了 好了 Oh. Okay, okay. Okay.
好的 Okay.
卡罗琳 打扰一下 Caroline? Excuse me.
卡罗琳 Caroline?
没事的 It's okay.
卡罗琳 打扰一下 卡罗琳 Caroline? Excuse me. Caroline?
我需要你帮我一下 我… I need you to help me out here. I...
好的 我知道 我知道 Okay. I know. I know.
卡罗琳 Caroline?
好了 好了 Okay. Okay.
卡罗琳 Caroline!
是的 我知道 Yeah. I know.
这里怎么回事 我正在治疗 What is going on here? I'm in a session.
所以 我的病人 她有个宝宝 So, my patient, she has this baby
她说要去洗手间 and she said she was going to the bathroom
然后她把宝宝留给我 我… and then she left the baby with me and I...
她走了 现在我找不到… 我正在接待病人 She's gone. And now I can't-I'm with a patient.
拜托 我需要你的帮助 我真的需要你的帮助 Please, I need your help. I really need your help.
我正在接待病人 I'm with a patient.
而且 我也不是你的督导 Plus, also, I'm not your supervisor.
这是专业问题 不是治疗问题 This is a professional issue. This is not a treatment issue.
你在开玩笑吗 这是紧急情况 Are you joking? This is an emergency!
这里发生的任何事 Whatever's happening in here
都没有我这边的事重要 is not as important as what I'm going through here!
好吧 不行 我需要你的帮助 Okay, no. I need your help!
再见 我需要你的帮助 Goodbye. I need your help!
这是紧急情况 This is an emergency.
你可以晚点再来 绝对不行 You can come back later. Absolutely not.
不 No!
好的 Okay.
喂 喂 Hello? Hello?
喂 喂 是的 Hello. Hello. Yes.
喂 我是你妻子的心理治疗师… Hello, I am your wife's psychotherapist...
停下 我听不到… Stop, I can't...
她今天在治疗中途离开了 and she left today in the middle of her appointment.
我听不见你 我听不见你 你是谁 I cannot hear you. I cannot hear you. Who is this?
好的 是的 我是你妻子的治疗师 Okay. Yes. This is your wife's therapist.
她今天在治疗中途离开了… She left in the middle of her appointment today...
好了 你得停下 而且… All right. You gotta stop. And...
你得停下 我根本不知道你在说什么 You gotta stop. I have no idea what you're even talking about.
你是谁 Who is this?
你妻子是叫卡罗琳·普里姆吗 Is your wife named Caroline Primm?
你是 呃… And you are, um...
你的宝宝叫莱利 你是尼克·普里姆 Your baby's name is Riley? And you are Nick Primm?
是的 好的 是的 嗯… Yes. Okay, yes, right. Well--
我妻子没有治疗师 My wife doesn't have a therapist.
好吧 她一直是我的病人 Okay, well, she has been my patient
在蒙托克心理艺术中心 at The Center for Psychological Arts in Montauk
从她怀莱利大约六个月开始 since she was about six months pregnant
今天… with Riley, and today...
这对我来说是新闻 Well, this is news to me.
嗯 无论… Mm. Well, whether...
…你是否知道她是我的病人 ...you knew that she was my patient or not,
我想对你说的是 what I'm trying to say to you
这是紧急情况 我真的很… is that this is an emergency, and I really...
她把你的宝宝留在这里给我了 She left your baby here with me,
我需要你来接他 and I need you to come and pick him up.
你什么意思 你什么意思 What do you mean? What do you mean?
你什么意思 我什么意思 What do you mean, what do I mean?
她把宝宝留下了 She left the baby?
她不接电话… She's not answering her phone...
她可能在洗手间 She's probably in the bathroom
或者在他妈的自动售货机旁边 or by a fucking vending machine.
好吧 Okay.
我建议你给她打电话 I suggest that you call her.
也许如果是你打 她会接 Maybe she would pick up if it was you.
我会把地址发给你 你来接宝宝 I'm gonna text you my address to come and get the baby.
哦 天啊 Oh, Jesus Christ!
我肯定她没事 我肯定她没事 I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure she's okay.
我简直不敢相信 I cannot even believe this.
我肯定她没事 我肯定… I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure--
你知道吗 这他妈太像她的作风了 You know what? This is so fucking typical of her.
好吧 嗯 她可能只是需要一些空间 Okay. Well, she probably just needed some space.
我会把地址发给你 在那里… I'm gonna text you my address where...
这样你就能来接她 好吧 听着 so you can come and get her. Okay, look. Listen to me.
他 听我说 Him. Listen to me.
我现在在工作 我现在在工作 I'm at work right now. I am at work right now.
这就是为什么她应该 That's why she's supposed to be
照顾他妈的宝宝 taking care of the fucking baby,
这样我才能工作 好吗 so I can work, okay?
我要做的是 我会把我的地址发给你 Here's what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna text you my address.
我在阿马甘塞特 I'm in Amagansett.
你可以把宝宝送到这个地址 好吗 You can drop the baby off at this address, okay?
好吧 嗯 我做不到 Okay, well, I can't do that,
我实际上非常担心你的妻子 and I am actually very concerned about your wife.
这是紧急情况 而且她… This is an emergency, and she--
你知道 你已经用了两次这个词了 You know, you've used that term twice now.
这不是我的紧急情况 This isn't my emergency.
我不是那个丢了我他妈妻子的人 I'm not the one who lost my fucking wife!
我需要你立刻下来接你的宝宝 I need you to come down here and get your baby immediately,
如果你半小时内不到 and if you're not here within a half an hour,
我会报警 我会把地址发给你 I'm going to call the police. I will text you the address.
非常感谢 哦 天啊… Thank you very much. Oh, Jesus--
什么事 嗨 我是斯蒂芬 Yes? Hi, it's Stephen.
我可以进来吗 May I come in?
我在等一个病人 他刚按了门铃进来 I'm expecting a patient. He just buzzed in.
你介意在我办公室等一会儿吗 Would you mind waiting in my office
就在走廊那头 几分钟就好 down the hall just a few moments?
你的办公室 你是谁 老板吗 Your office? Who are you, the boss?
不 只是另一个治疗师 No. Just another therapist.
我有一间办公室 在走廊那头 I have an office. It's down the hall.
门开着 你会看到的 Door is open. You'll see it.
这是我的时间 她现在属于我 This is my time. She's mine right now.
你不能让我等 好吗 You can't make me wait, okay?
这是紧急情况 This is an emergency situation.
你要么在我办公室等 You can either wait in my office
要么你需要完全离开这栋楼 or you need to leave the building entirely.
那是个宝宝吗 Is that a baby?
那是你的宝宝吗 你有个宝宝 Is that your baby? You have a baby?
我是说 你们俩有个宝宝 I mean, do you guys have a baby together?
好吧 这情况与你无关 好吗 Okay, this situation does not concern you, okay?
做个选择 Make a choice.
好吧 我去你办公室 Okay, I'll be in your office.
但我不会等太久 But I won't wait that long.
好的 Okay.
哇 Wow.
你能相信我被说服买了 Can you believe that I got talked into getting
这他妈仓鼠吗 经历了所有那些事 天啊 我… this fucking hamster after all of that? My God, I...
她说得对 我确实很有弹性 She's right. I really am so stretchable.
真恶心 你知道… It's disgusting. You know...
我上医学院的时候 when I was in medical school,
我必须在医学实验实验室实习一段时间 I had to do a stint in a medical experiments lab.
我们在测试一种药物对老鼠的功效 And we were testing the efficacy of a drug on rats.
哦 我… 真酷 Oh, I... So cool.
操作方式是我们抓住老鼠 And the way it worked is we'd take the rats,
把它们丢进这种断头台一样的东西里 and we'd drop them in this guillotine thingy,
一个个砍掉它们的头 chop their heads off individually,
剥开皮 peel the skin back
然后在显微镜下观察它们的大脑 and then look at their brains under a microscope.
我只是很好奇 I'm just so curious
那个过程 我想知道… about the process with that. I wonder--
老鼠会抓你咬你… The rats would claw and bite you...
…当你把手伸进笼子抓它们的时候 ...when you put your hand in the cage to pick them up.
所以他们给了我们这些钢链邮件手套 So they gave us these steel chain mail gloves.
是德国产的 很漂亮 They're German. They're beautiful.
所以你戴上手套 把手伸进笼子 So you put on the glove and you put your hand in the cage,
老鼠就会直接咬住手套 and the rats would just attach themselves to the glove,
紧紧抓住 你知道 为了活命 clinging for dear life, you know?
然后当你拿到断头台盒子时 And then when you got to the guillotine box,
你得把它们甩掉 you had to shake them off.
真的得用力甩 Really shake them.
我总是担心老鼠会受伤 I was always worried that the rat would get hurt
当它的头撞到断头台时 你知道 when it hit its head on the guillotine, you know?
但它们的大脑总是没事 But their brains were always fine
当我们在显微镜下观察时 when we looked under the microscope.
哦 Oh.
啮齿动物是恢复力很强的生物 Rodents are resilient creatures.
嗯 是的 Mm-hm. Yeah.
我会告诉斯蒂芬你的治疗取消了 I'll tell Stephen your session's cancelled.
你得处理这个 好吗 You have to take care of this, okay?
我爱你 I love you.
告诉我 她有自杀倾向吗 有杀人倾向吗 Just tell me, was she suicidal? Homicidal?
不 没有 不 No. Mm-mm. No.
不 她执着于保护宝宝… No, she was obsessed with protecting the baby...
而且 呃 是的 And, uh, yeah.
她不会伤害宝宝的 She wouldn't hurt the baby.
她也没谈过自杀 And she didn't talk about suicide.
她不会抛弃莱利的 She wouldn't abandon Riley.
她刚刚抛弃了他 She just did abandon him.
对 嗯 你知道 我是说 呃… Right, well, you know, I mean, um...
你知道 永久地 永远地 you know, permanently. Forever.
就这样吗 我还有另一个病人在等 Is that it? I have another patient waiting
真的需要我的帮助 who really needs my help.
没事 这比你想象的要常见 It's fine. It's more common than you think.
一个女人试图逃离所有责任 A woman tries to run away from all the responsibilities.
是的 大家都心烦意乱 Yeah. Everybody gets all upset,
然后她们就夹着尾巴回来了 then they come back with their tails between their legs.
好吧 好吧 Okay. Okay.
谢谢你 警官 Thank you, Officer.
当您完成录音后 When you have finished recording,
您可以挂机或按1获取更多选项 you may hang up or press one for more options.
嗨 嗨 Hi. Hi,
是我 呃… 又是我 it's, uh... it's me again,
你的房客 来自阿尔冈昆22号 1单元 your tenant from 22 Algonquin, unit one.
你知道 就是天花板上有个他妈大洞的那间 You know, the one with the giant fucking hole in the ceiling!
你的维修工跑了 情况越来越糟 Your repairs guy ran off, and it's getting worse
我想知道你为什么什么都不做 and I want to know why you're doing nothing,
为什么你高兴让我女儿和我住在 and why you're happy for my daughter and I to be staying
一个满是怪人的低级旅馆 at a flophouse full of freaks
而我继续付你房租 while I continue to pay you rent!
我有一个非常 非常 非常重要的病人 And I have a very, very, very important patient
是位著名律师 我不怕… that is a prominent lawyer, and I am not afraid to--
该死 Fuck!
我想买些Visa礼品卡 I was after some Visa gift cards.
你们有什么面值的 Uh, what denominations do you have?
孩子们出来前你有时间谈谈吗 Do you have a minute to talk before the children come out?
嗯 当然 好的 过来 Mm-hm. Sure. Okay, come.
我注意到你还没有像那天早上讨论的那样 So, I've noticed that you still haven't made the appointment
预约家庭治疗 for family therapy like we discussed the other morning.
我知道 只是工作太忙了 I know. It's just been so crazy at work.
对 我无法再向你强调这有多重要了 Right. So I can't stress to you enough how important this is.
我站在你这边 I'm on your side here.
是 是 是 我明白 Yes. Yes. Yes, I understand.
我们需要她摆脱机器 We need her off the machine.
是的 我也需要 Yeah, so do I.
好吧 我要直说了 Okay. I'm gonna be frank.
我们需要尽快让她摆脱机器 她才能留在这里 We need her off of it as soon as possible for her to remain here.
要做到这一点 她需要更快地增重 And to do that, she needs to gain faster.
好吧 但我们还有时间直到下周 对吧 Okay. Well, but we have until next week, right?
50磅的目标 不 The 50 pound goal. No.
照这样下去 呃 她达不到那个目标 The way things are going, uh, she's not gonna make that goal.
你在说什么 What are you saying?
我们每天早上都称重 她达不到目标 We do weigh-ins every morning. She's not gonna make the goal.
因为你设定的目标是不可能的 Because the goal you set was impossible.
我们被设定为失败 We were set up to fail.
不切实际 不 It's unrealistic. No.
我们将不得不重新评估护理级别 We're gonna have to reassess the level of care.
那是什么意思 What does that mean?
我们可以在会议上讨论 Well, we can discuss it in our meeting.
你知道我想要什么 并且认为会很好的 You know what I would love, and think would be so good,
就是我们能确定一个手术日期 is if we could get a date on the calendar for the surgery.
一个我们都能努力的具体目标 A concrete goal that we can all work towards.
这不是… 这不是手术 It's not... it's not a surgery.
拔管 嗯… 程序 随你怎么叫 The tube removal? Well, uh... procedure, whatever you call it.
也不是程序 It's not a procedure either.
当需要拔掉的时候 医生直接拉出来就行 Uh, when it's time to remove it, the doctor just pulls it out.
拉出来 Pull it out?
是的 直接就滑出来了 Yeah, it just slides out.
他们真的可以… 直接拉出来 They could just... really just pull it out?
是的 就这么简单 Yeah, it's that simple.
哦 但那个洞怎么办 Oh. But what happens to the hole?
它会自己闭合 It closes up on its own.
哦 Oh.
有点像你舌头上有个伤口 It's kinda like when you get a cut on your tongue.
它想要闭合 It wants to close up.
哦 Oh.
嗯 Yeah?
哦 嗨 呃 詹姆斯在吗 Oh, hi. Uh, is James here?
你是谁 Who are you?
我是他邻居 我住那里 那个房间 I'm his neighbor. I'm there, in that room there.
他不在 He is not here.
哦 呃 你知道他什么时候回来吗 Oh, uh, do you know when he'll be back?
我有点东西要给他 I just have something to give him.
给我吧 Give it to me.
我会转交给他 不 不 I'll see he gets it. No, no.
我必须亲自交给他 这是 呃… I have to give it to him myself. It's, uh...
很贵重 It's of value.
贵重 Of value?
呃 是的 贵重 Uh, yeah. Of value.
放松你的身体 Relax your body.
专注于自己 Center in with yourself.
现在 你唯一的工作就是呼吸 Right now, your only job is to breathe.
我们正处于这个工作的阶段… We're in the work phase of this...
你现在身体越放松… The more you relax your body right now...
…对你来说就越容易 ...the easier it gets for you.
认识到我们正在进入身体的智慧区 Recognize we're accessing the body's wisdom zone.
放空你的思绪 Let your mind go.
看看你是否能找到 See if you can find your attention
你注意力在呼吸流动中的位置 within the movement of your breath.
开始注意 Start noticing
你身体的任何感觉… any sensation in your body...
…看看什么能引起你的兴趣 ...and see what catches your interest
或好奇心 or your curiosity,
并以你想要被拥抱的方式保持这个空间 and hold the space in a way you want to be held.
你可能会注意到 You'll probably notice
任何强度在你体内积聚 any intensity builds up in your body.
没关系 That's okay.
与其试图控制任何事情 Rather than trying to control anything,
看看你是否能允许… see if you can just allow...
强度… the intensity to...
你没帮上忙 You're not helping!
那样按住她的腿 按住她的腿 Hold her legs that way. Hold her legs down.
我们可能得约束她 We might have to restrain her.
妈 按住她 Mom! Hold her down!
你是来帮我们的 来吧 You're here to help us, come on!
那根本没帮上忙 That's not helping at all.
妈妈 Mommy!
试着帮忙 试着帮忙 Try to help. Try to help.
妈妈 Mommy!
让自己感到安全 Make yourself feel safe.
如果情况变得紧张 If things are getting intense,
认识到你可以保持这个空间 recognize you can hold the space.
你现在可以爱自己 You can love yourself right now.
不要回避内心的任何东西 不要抛弃自己 Don't avoid anything within. Don't abandon yourself.
保持与自己的连接 Stay connected to yourself.
看看你是否能尊重自己 See if you can honor yourself
在这个重新连接自己的时刻 in this moment of reconnecting to yourself.
用你的声音 想象你的情绪 Use your voice and imagine your emotion.
允许它… Allow it to be...
也许你甚至今晚就可以做 Maybe you can even do it tonight.
下面这里 这边 Down here. This way.
在这里面 这里 It's in here. Here.
好的 我们得快点儿 因为我得回去 但是… Okay, we gotta be quick because I have to get back, but...
我只是… 我只是得找个人看看这里发生了什么 I just... I just had to show someone what's going on in here.
好的 Okay.
一个房间 到处都盖着塑料布 So, a room filled with plastic tarp everywhere.
不错 Nice.
所以 这是你的杀人房间吗 So, is this your kill room?
不 拜托 我告诉过你了 No. Come on, I told you.
他妈的天花板塌了 The fucking ceiling fell down.
那他妈是什么 What the fuck is that?
就是它 就是那个洞 That's it. That's the hole.
这就是我住酒店的原因 That's why I'm at the hotel.
这就是你住在那个他妈酒店的原因 That's why you're staying at the fucking hotel?
天啊 拜托 Oh, my God. Come on.
你完全可以在沙发上睡几周 You could've slept on your couch for a couple of weeks.
什么 你看看 What? Look at it.
已经两个月了 他们拒绝修理 It's been two months, and they refuse to fix it.
到处都是灰尘和… 和霉菌 There's dust and... and mold everywhere.
嗯 Mm.
哟 那上面是什么 Yo, what is up there?
他们一直在翻修 没完没了 They've been renovating forever.
他们说水管爆了 哦 该死 They said a pipe burst. Oh, shit.
就在那里 给你看 It's right there. There you go.
我做了… 那个… 你知道 那个东西 呼吸那个东西 I did the... that... you know, the thing, the breath thing.
什么 What?
我觉得它把我带到了这里 And I think it took me here.
我觉得也许我… 哦 老兄… I think maybe I... Oh, man...
这就是为什么我想来看看 That's why I wanted to come to see it.
老兄 你做那玩意儿需要指导 Man, you need guidance with that shit.
你不能就那样自己做 You can't just be doing that.
你在干什么 老兄 他们骗了你 姐妹 What are you doing? Man, they lied to you, sis.
这里根本没有水管 It ain't even no pipes in here.
也许你不该靠那么近 Maybe you shouldn't get so close to it.
嘘 看 过来看 Shh. Look. Come see.
是整齐的断裂 我告诉你 It's a clean break. I'm telling you.
天啊 Oh, my God.
天啊 他妈的怎么回事 Oh, my God. What the fuck?
老兄 我表哥克雷格是总承包商 Man, my cousin Craig is a general contractor.
他认识人 可以 He knows somebody that knows somebody that can
马上搞定这玩意儿 哟 天啊 fix this shit in a jiffy, yo. Oh, my God.
看起来你有些 It look like you got some
他妈的家具有碎片 motherfucking debris on your furniture.
你知道 我可以重新装饰 You know, I can reupholster it.
不过要花钱 It's gonna cost you.
放开我 Let me go!
别碰我 Don't touch me!
妈妈 妈妈 我不要 Mommy! Mommy! I don't want it!
你做得非常好 不 You are doing such a good job. No!
不 妈妈 No! Mommy!
你得抱得再用力点 You gotta hold her a lot harder than that.
不 不 No! No!
他妈的怎么回事 哦 该死 What the fuck?! Oh, shit!
哦 该死 该死 该死 Oh, fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
该死 哦 该死 Fuck! Oh, fuck!
詹姆斯 James?
啊 该死 该死 Ah! Fuck! Fuck!
该死 Fuck!
哦 该死 Oh, fuck!
大家安静 好吗 Everybody settle. All right?
开始吧 请把这些发下去 Get started. Hand out these, please.
谢谢 Thank you.
好的 All right.
所以今天的话题是某种非常基本的东西 So the topic today is something that's so fundamental
以至于谈论它其实有点傻 that it's actually a little silly to talk about.
但它对你孩子的康复至关重要 But it is so important to your child's recovery,
更重要的是 and more than that,
对你帮助孩子康复的能力至关重要 to your ability to help your child recover.
有人能猜到是什么吗 Can anybody guess what it is?
责备… Blame...
…还有 有人吗 羞耻 ...and, anybody? Shame.
是的 谢谢你 Yeah, thank you.
所以 作为父母 很多时候 So, as parents, a lot of times
我们过于审视自己 对吧 we look too closely at ourselves, right?
然后我们开始问自己 这是我的错吗 And we start to ask ourselves, is this my fault?
我本可以做得不同吗 Could I have done anything differently?
如果这样 如果那样 What if this? What if that?
但这只会制造一个思维陷阱 But all it does is create a thinking trap.
这对你的孩子没有帮助 And that does not help your child.
所以我想做的 如果我们看看… So what I'd like to do, if we look...
梅兰妮… Melanie...
你想用语言表达你的感受吗 do you want to put some words to your feelings?
是的 Yeah.
我… I...
有时候 我就是觉得这都是我的错 Sometimes, I just think that it is all my fault.
你有什么想对梅兰妮说的吗 Do you have something to say to Melanie?
不 哇哦 不 No. Whoa, no.
算了 别管我 Never mind. Don't mind me.
不 不 不 我想听听你要说什么 No, no, no. I want to hear what you have to say.
呃… Uh...
我只是… 你一直告诉我们这不是我们的错 I just-You keep telling us that it isn't our fault.
是的 嗯 但是… 但是这是 Yeah. Mm. But... but it is.
你说什么 Excuse me?
我的意思是 如果这不是我们的错 那我们就真的超级完蛋了 I mean, if it isn't our fault, then we're really super fucked.
我们只是四处走动 假装 We're just walking around pretending
我们有能力改变一些事情 we have power to change something
我们甚至不理解的事情 因为这不是我们的错 that we don't even understand because it's not our fault,
但我们知道如何改变它 即使这不是我们的错 but we know how to change it, even though it's not our fault.
不 这其实很好 No, this is actually good.
这其实很好 因为现在我们有很多需要梳理 This is actually good because now we have a lot to unpack.
不 不 不 我知道 No, no, no. I know.
我做不到 我得走了 I can't do this. I have to go.
请坐下 不 不 不 这是我们的错 Please sit down. No, no, no. It's our fault.
这不公平 但这是我们的错 It isn't fair, but it is our fault.
我就是这么看的 就这样 That's how I see it. That's it.
这整件事 就是我们的错 That's what this whole thing is, is our faults.
停下 坐下 不 不 不 Stop and sit down. No, no, no.
不 我不想谈这个 No, I don't want to talk about it.
我已经知道了 我不需要见你 I already know it, and I don't have to meet you
因为我知道你要说什么 because I know what you're going to say,
就是说她失败了… 我需要你坐下 which is that she's failed... I need you to sit down!
…我失败了 因为你设定了让我们失败的目标 ...and that I failed because you set us up to fail.
如果有了安全网 没人会努力尝试 No one tries hard if they have a safety net.
坐下 没有人会 好吗 Sit down. Nobody, okay?
你应该知道这一点 斯普林医生 And you should know that, Dr. Spring.
我的余生都会在这里 I'm gonna be here for the rest of my life
往那个管子里灌屎 pouring shit down that tube.
每晚 直到我死 不准离开那扇门 Every night until I die. Do not leave that door!
这些对我们任何人都没有帮助 一点都没有 And none of this is helping any of us. None of it.
回来 Come back!
嘿 嘿 你为什么打电话 Hey! Hey, why are you calling?
现在不是有家长小组在进行吗 Isn't a parent group going on right now?
我坐不住 我在车里 I couldn't sit there. I'm in the car.
我晚点去接她 但我不能待在那里 I'll pick her up later, but I can't stay there.
你什么意思 你坐不住 What do you mean you couldn't sit there?
我做不到 我做不到 I can't do it. I can't do it.
她必须好起来 但她达不到目标 She's gotta get better, but she's not gonna make the goal,
我… 我不知道现在会发生什么 and I-I don't know what's gonna happen now.
你需要回到那里去 You need to get back in there.
洞越来越大了 The hole is getting bigger.
什么洞 她的管口洞吗 What hole? Her tube hole?
不 不 是公寓的洞 你告诉我… No! No, the apartment hole! You told me--
那个该死的洞 The goddamn hole!
你为什么就不能盯着那些工人 Why can't you just keep tabs on those guys?
因为那个人走了一周 Because the guy's gone for a week.
没人在干活 There's no one working on it.
什么 一周 你打算什么时候告诉我 What?! A week?! When were you gonna mention that?
我现在告诉你 I'm telling you now.
电话里解释起来很复杂 It's very complicated to explain over the phone.
听着 听着 不 不 不 Look, look, look. No, no, no.
就… 就 Just-just
发照片给我… 不 send me pictures... No!
…我会找人处理 ...and I'll have somebody take care of it.
不 不 不 不要再发照片了 我不会再回那里了 No, no, no. No more pictures. I'm not going back there.
我永远不会再回那里了 我和罗斯科谈过了… I'm never going back there. And I talked to Roscoe...
你在说什么 …他满嘴胡扯 What are you talking about? ...and he's so full of shit.
他什么都没做 顺便说一句 He's not doing anything. And by the way,
我觉得他和汽车旅馆有协议 因为还有另一个… I think he has a deal with the motel because there's another--
好了 停下 停下 停下 好吗 让我把这事搞清楚 Okay. Stop, stop, stop, okay? Let me just get this straight.
你不再参加项目了 You aren't going into the program anymore,
也不再去我们的公寓了 and you aren't going into our apartment anymore?
对 为什么 That's right. Why?
那你指望一切怎么恢复正常 How do you expect anything to get back to normal then?
不会恢复正常了 It won't.
你在说什么 What are you talking about?!
不会了 It won't!
好吧 你… All right. Are you...
你现在清醒吗 你发完疯了吗 are you in your right mind now? Are you done?
还有 有个女人失踪了 Also, there's a woman missing.
什么 谁 你在… 谁失踪了 What? Who? What are you... Who's missing?
我的病人 她失踪了 My patient. She's missing.
她走了 不接电话 而且她… She left and she's not picking up her phone, and she's--
哦 好吧 好吧 是的 我们深呼吸一下 Oh, okay. Okay. Yeah, let's take a deep breath.
从头开始说 不 不 不 Start from the beginning. No, no, no.
我不能跟你谈这个 I can't talk to you about this.
你为什么不回小组 Why aren't you going back into the group?
我晚点再跟我的治疗师谈 我… 这个… I'll just talk to my therapist later. I-This--
这很好 一切都很好 This is fine. Everything's fine.
嘿 嘿 慢下来 慢下来 Hey, hey. Slow down. Slow down.
一切都很好 Everything's fine.
你一周见那家伙几次 How many times a week do you see that guy?
我刚查了银行账户 多久… I just looked in the bank accounts. How often--
每天 每天 每天 拜托 Every day. Every day. Every day?! Come on!
等等 等等 等等 那要花我们一大笔钱 Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. That's costing us a fortune!
请勿在车内闲置 请移动车辆或您本人 No sitting idle in vehicles. Please move the car or yourself.
我有权坐在我的车里 不用你骚扰我 I have a right to sit in my car without you harassing me!
什么 是的 What Yeah.
你在跟别人说话吗 Are you talking to somebody?
是的 有个讨厌的混蛋 Yeah, there's this creepy asshole
每天他妈骚扰我 who's harassing me every fucking day!
他骚扰我 他迷恋我 He harasses me. He's obsessed with me.
他又到我车窗前想要东西 He's back at my window wanting something!
你在说什么 What are you talking about?
你是要离开停车场 Are you going to leave the parking lot
还是下车 or get out of your car!
天啊 你是认真的吗 Oh, my God! Are you serious?
我会报警 天啊 是的 是的 是的 I will call the police! Oh, my God! Yeah, yeah, yeah.
报警啊 挪开 Call the police. Move!
报警啊 是的 我要报警抓你 Call the police. Yeah, I'm gonna call the police on you!
我再也不想在这里看到你 I never want to see you here again!
天啊 Oh, my God!
你在骚扰… 这是骚扰 You're harass-This is harassment!
有什么特别的原因让你现在保持沉默吗 Anything in particular keeping you silent right now?
我想保持沉默这个事实让我保持沉默 The fact that I want to be silent is keeping me silent.
我认为… 这不关你的事 I think-This isn't about you.
我的意思是我… What I mean is I--
我是说 我付钱买你的时间 I mean, I pay for your time.
对吧 所以我可以随心所欲地利用那段时间 Right? So I can do anything I want with that time,
而现在… and right now...
我只想躺在这里 不想你说话 I just want to lay here without you talking.
你不需要来这里做那个 Well, you did not have to come here for that.
躺在你自己的沙发上 Go lie on your own couch.
你希望我躺在自己的沙发上而不是来这里吗 Do you wish I lied on my own couch instead of coming here?
我只是说 你选择了不独自一人 All I'm saying is you chose not to be alone.
哦 我是独自一人 Oh, I'm alone.
不 你不是独自一人 我在这里 No, you're not alone. I'm here.
但不 你不是 不完全是 But no, you aren't. Not really.
我们可以… 我们能别这样吗 What we can do-Can we just not?
说真的 Seriously.
好吧 Okay.
你知道吗 Do you know what?
我有没有告诉过你我以前怀过孕 Did I ever tell you that I was pregnant before?
就像 我怀过两次孕 Like, I've been pregnant twice.
我从不告诉任何人这个 I never tell anyone this.
那是查尔斯和我刚开始约会的时候 呃… It was when Charles and I were first dating and, um...
我马上做了流产 就像… I got an abortion right away, like...
我做了验孕 I took a pregnancy test
然后第二天就去了一家随机诊所 and then just went to a random clinic the next day.
我做的是那种手术流产 用真空吸的那种 I got the surgical kind with the vacuum thing.
它… And it...
非常疼 就像… hurt really badly, like...
一个护士握着我的手 A nurse held my hand.
出于某种原因 And for some reason,
我没有意识到会有多疼 但是… I didn't realize how badly it would hurt but...
…确实很疼 ...it really did.
是的 那几乎是20年前了 Yeah, it was almost 20 years ago.
如果我没那么做 现在孩子都该上大学了 I'd have a kid in college by now if I hadn't done that.
也许我处理错了那个 Maybe I got rid of the wrong one.
你为什么什么都不说 Why won't you say anything?
我无法呼吸 I can't breathe.
你不明白 你看不到 You don't get it. You don't see.
你… 你爱说我不明白 You... you love to tell me I don't get it.
你认为我不明白什么 What is it you think I don't get?
你如此确信… What is it you're so sure...
我无法帮助你的是什么 I can't help you with?
我是那种不应该当妈妈的人 I'm one of those people that's not supposed to be a mom.
我不是妈妈 我不是 I'm not a mom. I'm not.
这不应该是这样的 This isn't supposed to be what it's like.
不是这样的 不可能是这样的 This isn't it. This can't be it.
你说点什么啊 Will you say something?!
不是每个人都能做到 我做不到… Not everyone can do it. I can't...
你有孩子吗 Do you have any kids?
你有孩子吗 Do you have a kid!?
喂 Hello!
你为什么不跟我说话 你为什么不帮我 Why won't you talk to me?! Why won't you help me?!
我知道你在做什么… I know what you're doing...
…我无法接受 ...and I can't have it.
我在做什么 What am I doing?
这没有效果 This isn't working.
你什么意思 What do you mean?
我们不能再见面了 We can't see each other anymore.
我早到了 I got here early.
你得在外面等 You'll have to wait outside.
呃 听着 Uh, look,
我不知道你为什么不接手机 I don't know why you aren't answering your cell,
但斯普林医生打电话来说… but Dr. Spring called and--
是斯普林医生 It's Dr. Spring.
你不能带你女儿来这里接受进一步治疗 You cannot bring your daughter here for further treatment
直到我们… until we have--
你太过分了 你知道吗 You are too much, you know?
你… 我要… You are... I'm gonna--
嘿 谢谢你来关心 Hey, thanks for checking in.
免得你忘了 In case you forgot,
我妻子他妈还失踪着呢 my wife still happens to be fucking missing.
你知道 我不知道你玩什么把戏… You know, I don't know what kind of number--
他妈的怎么回事 What the fuck?
你… You...
你提到了圣经里 You mentioned an aphorism from the Bible
关于磨石的箴言 你能说说那是什么吗 about a millstone. Would you say what that is?
就是把一块石头绑在脖子上 That it's better to tie a stone around your neck
把自己扔进海里 and throw yourself into the sea
也比让任何人跌倒… 跌倒要好 than to cause anyone to stumble-stumble.
好的 让我确认一下我记对了 All right, let me make sure I'm getting that.
把磨石绑在脖子上 It's better to tie a millstone around your neck
把自己扔进海里 而不是做什么 and throw yourself in the sea rather than to do what?
让人跌倒 跌倒 Cause someone to stumble. Stumble.
让人跌倒 好的 To cause someone to stumble? Okay.
当你夺走你孩子们的性命时 What were you trying to accomplish there
你想达到什么目的 when you did take your children's lives?
…所有女人 所有Z世代的群体思维 ...all women, all Gen Z group think.
你的想法是什么 Like, what are your thoughts?
然后呢 And?
喂 Hello?
是的 嗯 嗯 Yeah. Mm-hm. Mm-hm.
嗯 Mm-hm.
那完全不可信 对吧 That is totally unbelievable, right?
那完全不可信 所有的一切 That's completely unbelievable. All of it.
但斯普林医生说… 我不在乎她说什么 But Dr. Spring said-I don't care what she said.
我告诉你 I'm telling you,
我有个工作紧急情况 不能待在那里 I had a work emergency and I couldn't stay.
我必须离开 不是我的错 I had to leave. It isn't my fault.
我按时回来接你了 I came right back to pick you up when I was supposed to
就像我一直做的那样 我只是… 我只是… like I always do. I just-I just--
我只是不能参加小组活动 但是 你知道… I just couldn't stay for the group, but, you know...
我和很多病得很重的人一起工作 I work with a lot of very sick people,
宝贝 有时候他们… 比我病得更重吗 honey, and sometimes they are-Sick than me?
和你病的方式不同 Sick in a different way than you.
但斯普林医生说… 我告诉过你 But Dr. Spring said-I told you,
我不在乎她说什么 I don't care what she said.
我是你妈妈 I'm your mother.
但她爱我 她这么说的 She loves me though. She said so.
她说了 She said that?
她爱我们所有人 孩子们 She loves all of us. The kids.
她没权利告诉你那个 她是医生 She has no right to tell you that. She's a doctor.
她没权利… 但那是真的 She doesn't have a right-It's true, though!
你知道 我认为我们不再需要这个项目了 You know, I don't think we need the program anymore.
我好了 是的 我想也许 是的 I'm better? Yeah. I think maybe, yeah.
也许我们… Maybe we...
就我们俩来做 你和我 we just do it, you and me.
会发生什么 What would happen?
呃… 很多美好的事情 你会… Uh... So many wonderful things. You would...
你能拔掉管子 You'd be able to get the tube out,
你可以回学校 and you could go back to school
你会吃遍全世界所有美味的东西 and you'd be eating everything delicious in the whole word.
那不是很棒吗 Wouldn't that be great?
你能做到吗 You can do that?
做到什么 Do what?
让我好起来 我不需要机器了 Make me better? I won't need the machine?
嗯… Well...
我好了 他们这么说吗 I'm better? They said that?
我想 也许吧 I think, maybe.
你知道 而且… You know, and...
如果不行 那我们就直接做 你知道 And if not, then we'll just do it, you know?
你比以前好多了 You're better than you were,
而且斯普林医生不是我们的老板 and Dr. Spring's not the boss of us.
妈妈 Mommy?
怎么了 Yeah?
真的很抱歉 但我没有好起来 I'm really sorry, but I'm not better.
请不要因为我说了这个生气或伤心 Please don't be mad or sad that I said that.
喂 Hello?
有人在这里 There's someone here
想在大厅见你 who wants to see you in the lobby.
什么 谁 What? Who?
不肯说 下来或不下来随你 Won't say. Come down or don't.
谢谢你来查看我的情况 Thanks for checking on me.
哦 你绝对不敢相信我今天经历了什么 老实说 Oh, you would not believe the day I had, honestly.
在你把我一个人丢下之后 After you just left me all alone,
抛弃在你那阴森森的公寓里 abandoned in your spooky-ass apartment,
我的腿骨都戳出来了 with my bone sticking out my leg.
我给你叫了救护车 I called you an ambulance.
没什么大不了的 No big deal.
你还指望我怎么做 What else did you expect me to do?
真的很痛 It's really painful.
我必须回到这里 回到我孩子身边 好吗 I had to get back here to my kid, okay?
年度最佳母亲 我差点忘了 Mother of the fucking year. I almost forgot.
我不在乎 I don't care.
那我到底该拿你那块可卡因怎么办 And what exactly am I supposed to do with your brick of cocaine?
冲掉 Flush it.
好的 冲掉 Okay. Flush it.
真好啊 It must be nice.
他们为什么没给你拐杖 Why didn't they give you any crutches?
去他妈的拐杖 Fuck them crutches.
是… 真的是你 It's... It is you!
你… 你在这里 You-you're here.
我希望这没关系 I hope that's okay.
我有一次不小心跟踪了你 然后… I accidentally followed you this one time, and...
你住在这里 You live here?
你… 你还好吗 Are... are you okay?
我很好 好的 好的 I'm okay. Okay. Okay.
你去哪了 Where did you go?
我只是… 我… 我必须离开那里 I just... I-I had to get out of there.
好的 我理解 所以 我们… 你真的理解吗 Okay, I understand. So, let's-Do you?
你真的 真的理解吗 Do you really, really understand?
我想是的 I think so.
哦 该死 不 这是… Oh, shit. No. This is...
这是个错误 This is a mistake.
这是个错误 因为我认为… This is a mistake because I thought...
我认为你理解 I thought that you understood,
那样我甚至不必说… and that I wouldn't even have to say--
我们冷静下来 Let's calm down.
我认为我们现在应该做的是马上上车 I think what we should do is get in a car right now
直接去急诊室 and go straight to the emergency room.
医院 A hospital?
是的 为什么 为什么 Yes. Why? Why?
因为 Because
那只是个安全的地方可以去… 为什么 为什么 不 我很好 it's just a safe place to go... Why? Why? No, I'm fine.
…如果你觉得还没准备好回家 ...if you don't feel ready to go home.
那你女儿呢 Well, what about your daughter?
我女儿 你女儿在哪 My daughter? Where is your daughter?
她在楼上 她在睡觉 She's upstairs. She's sleeping.
我不想去医院 I don't want to go to a hospital.
好的 Okay.
我想要你帮我 I want you to help me.
我正在尝试 I'm trying to.
我正在尝试帮你 请帮帮我 I am trying to help you. Please help me.
不 不 因为你不理解 No, no, because you don't understand.
你看不到 他们所有人的脸 You don't see it. All of their faces.
他们的小脸 他们看着我们 Their little faces. They look at us,
那里什么都没有 好的 你需要冷静下来 and there is nothing there. Okay, you need to calm down.
不 不 你需要冷静下来 No! No! You need to calm down.
不 我很好 好吗 No, I am fine! Okay?
但我只需要你… 我们深呼吸 But I just need you... Let's just breathe.
不 但你不知道… 深呼吸 No, but you don't know... Just breathe.
吸气和呼气 卡罗琳 In and out, Caroline.
深呼吸 Just take a breath.
跟我一起呼吸 停下 Just breathe with me. Stop.
从呼吸开始 Just start with a breath.
卡罗琳 等等 Caroline, wait!
停下 Stop!
卡罗琳 Caroline!
治疗师 如果是紧急情况 THERAPIST If this is an emergency,
请挂断并拨打911 hang up and call 911.
否则 请在正常工作时间回电 Otherwise, call back during normal business hours.
好的 给我回电 Okay, call me back.
今晚给我回电 好吗 Call me back tonight, okay?
求你了 求你了 你说过你能帮我的 Please? Please, you said that you could help me.
求你了 求你了 给我回电 好吗 Please. Please, just call me back, okay?
我需要你 再见 I need you. Bye.
妈妈 Mommy?
回去睡觉 一切都好 Go back to sleep. Everything's okay.
我的肚子湿了 My tummy is wet.
嘘 没事的 我把它弄好了 好吗 Sh-sh-sh. It's okay. I made it better, okay?
回去睡觉 Go back to sleep.
喂 Hello?
哦 Oh!
你为什么在这里 Why are you here?
你还好吗 Are you okay?
哪里… Where...
你什么时候到的 你为什么在这里 When did you get here? Why are you here?
她在哪 Where is she?
她在睡觉 She's asleep.
和保姆在一起 是的 With the babysitter? Yes.
听着 我只是… Look, I just...
我无法思考 我无法运作 I couldn't think. I couldn't function.
我什么都做不了 I couldn't do anything.
我满脑子想的都是你 All I was doing was thinking about you,
她 还有公寓 and her, and the apartment
所以我必须回来 我害怕 so I had to come back. I was scared.
我想帮忙 等等 等等 等等 我… I wanted to help. Wait, wait, wait. Wait, I--
什么 你只需要知道怎么跟这些人打交道 What? You just gotta know how to talk to these guys.
就这样 That's all.
你看过了吗 那个洞 你看到了吗 Did you look at it, the hole? Did you see it?
你看到什么了吗 Did you see anything?
哦 是的 不 它 呃… 没有修好 Oh, yeah. No, it, uh... It was not fixed.
现在修好了 Now it's fixed.
好吧 好吧 我想我们该… 我们现在就走 Okay. Okay, I think we should just... Let's just go now.
我只是不明白怎么会变得这么糟 I just don't see how it got so bad.
怎么会变得这么糟 How did it get so bad?
你想怪我吗 Are you trying to blame me?
不 我不是在怪你 我只是… No, I'm not blaming you. I just...
我只是想离开这里 I just want to get out of here.
那是个大洞 我想离开这里 It was a huge hole. I want to get out of here.
你爱我吗 Do you love me?
爱 Yeah.
嘿 嘿 等等 等等 等等 什么 Hey, hey. Wait, wait, wait. What?
急什么 What's the rush?
是你急着要回来的 You were the one who was in a rush to get back here.
我不想再待在这里了 I don't want to be here anymore.
我们就在这里 好吗 We are here, all right?
让保姆下班吧 我累坏了 Let's relieve the babysitter. I'm exhausted.
我想睡觉了 I want to get to sleep,
即使她睡着了我也很想见她 and I'm excited to see her even if she's sleeping.
我知道 但你为什么不下楼 I know, but why don't you go downstairs
给我们买点酒什么的 and get us some wine or something
我可以让保姆下班 and I can relieve the sitter
然后你可以上来 然后我们可以… and then you can come back up and then we can...
怎么回事 怎么回事 What's going on? What's going on?
没什么事 There's nothing going on.
开门 Open the door.
我 我没有钥匙 Me? I don't have a key.
对 是的 好吧 Right, yeah. Okay.
天啊 别告诉我你把她留在这里 Oh, God. Don't tell me you left her here
自己却没钥匙 拜托 不 不 不 without having a key. Come on. No, no, no. No.
我当然有钥匙 你以为我是什么人 Of course, I have a key. What do you think I am?
嘿 我是她爸爸 我是查尔斯 Hey. I'm her dad. I'm Charles.
很高兴认识你 你一定是保姆吧 Nice to meet you. You must be the babysitter.
保姆 是的 詹姆斯 对吧 Babysitter? Yeah, James, right?
杰米 对 哦 谢谢你… Jamie, right. Oh, thank you for...
哦 才不是 Oh, hell no.
我才不跟你玩这套 哟 I'm not doing this shit with you, yo.
不玩什么 你在说什么 Not doing what? What are you talking about?
我不是他妈保姆 老兄 I'm not a fucking babysitter, dude.
你说什么 Excuse me?
你女儿醒了 在哭 吓得要死 Your daughter woke up and was crying, scared shitless.
所以我他妈一直敲门直到她终于开门 So I pounded on the fucking door till she finally opened it.
我只好告诉她我是你妻子的朋友 I had to tell her I was a friend of your wife.
兄弟我花了半天才把她哄睡 Bro, it took me forever to get her to go to sleep.
对了还得给她贴创可贴 And by the way, I had to give her a Band-Aid.
她肚子上有什么东西在流脓 She has some shit oozing from her stomach or something.
嘿 好了好了 等等 等一下 Hey. Okay, okay, hold on. Hold on.
听着 你他妈是谁 小心我的腿 Listen, who the fuck are you... Watch the leg, man.
你在我房间干什么 and what the hell are you doing in my room?
你的房间 对 这是我妻子 Your room? Yeah. This is my wife.
那是我孩子 That's my child.
妈妈 我的房间 Mommy? My room.
我刚告诉过你我是谁 I just fucking told you who I was,
你该问问你妻子我腿为什么打着石膏 and you need to ask your wife why I got this cast on my leg.
这是 我不 这人是谁 It's-I don't... Who is this guy?
他是保姆 他不是保姆 He's the babysitter. He's not the babysitter!
他刚告诉我他不是保姆 He just told me he's not the babysitter.
我不知道他在说什么 I don't know what he's talking about.
他到底是谁她醒了 Who the fuck is he? She's awake.
我们能不能进去说 Can we just go inside?
她说的话都能听见 She can hear everything you're saying.
你能解释为什么她的机器关了 Can you even explain to me why her machine is off
管子还在她身体外面 and the tube is outside of her body?
爸爸 你在外面吗 Daddy! Are you out there?
我不掺和这事了 来看我 I ain't in this shit, man. Come see me!
我们进去吧 爸爸 爸爸 Let's go inside. Daddy! Daddy!
嘿嘿 看呐 是的 嗨 Hey. Hey. Lookit. Yes, hi.
爸爸回家了 Daddy's home!
妈妈说我们不需要治疗了 Mom said we didn't need the program anymore.
天呐 看看你 你真漂亮 Oh, my gosh. Look at you! You're beautiful.
但我不相信因为斯普林医生说需要 But I didn't believe her because Dr. Spring said I do.
但看她说对了 你说什么 But look, she was right! What? What are you saying?
看没有管子了 什么 Look! No tube! What?
管子现在没用了 The tube is garbage now.
我可以回学校了 I can go back to school!
天呐 Oh, my God.
天呐 但是爸爸 Oh, my God. But Daddy...
我还是不想吃东西 I still don't want to eat food...
什么 What...
因为太软了 怎么回事 ...because it's too squishy. What's going on?
明天带我去游乐场好吗 Will you take me to the playground tomorrow?
你做了什么 What did you do?
你做了什么 What did you do?!
妈妈 Mommy!
别碰我 Don't touch me!
妈妈 Mommy!
妈妈 我在这里 Mommy, I'm here.
妈妈 求你了 Mommy, please!
妈妈 Mommy!
求你了 Please!
坐在病床前 Sit beside The breakfast table
想着你的痛苦 Think about your troubles
端起那杯药水 Pour yourself a cup of tea
看着气泡浮动 Then think about The bubbles
妈妈？ Mommy?
我会好起来的 我保证 I'll be better. I promise.
我会好起来的 I'll be better.
守在病床前 Sit beside The breakfast table
想着你的病痛 Think about your troubles
端起那杯药水 Pour yourself a cup of tea
看着气泡浮动 Then think About the bubbles
你可以收起泪水 You can take your teardrops
滴进药杯里 Drop them in a teacup
带到医院后花园 Take them down To the riverside
把它们全部抛弃 And throw them Over the side
让时光带走 To be swept up by a current
飘向远方 Then taken to the ocean
被微风吹散 To be eaten by some fishes
被阳光蒸发 Who were eaten by Some fishes
被云朵承载 Swallowed by a whale
它渐渐飘远 Who grew so old
最终消散 He decomposed
滴答 Doo-doo
它消失不见 He died and left his body
在遥远天际 To the bottom of the ocean
现在人人都知道 Now everybody knows
当痛苦消散时 That when a body decomposes
希望的元素 The basic elements
回归心间 Are given back to the ocean
心灵做它该做的事 And the sea does What it oughta
很快涌出力量 And soon There's salty water
不再苦涩 Not too good for drinking
因为尝起来就像希望 'Cause it tastes Just like a teardrop
于是经过治愈 So they run it Through a filter
从眼中流出 It comes out from a faucet
汇入生命之河 And it pours into a teapot
即将重新开始 Which is just about To bubble
现在 Now
想想你的新生 Think about your troubles