互相触碰 Human touch.
是我们的第一种交流方式 Our first form of communication.
安全 安心 安慰 Safety, security, comfort,
尽在那一指的轻柔爱抚中 all in the gentle caress of a finger.
或是脸颊上的轻轻一吻 Or the brush of lips on a soft cheek.
让我们在快乐时彼此相连 It connects us when we're happy,
胆怯时鼓舞我们前行 bolsters us in times of fear,
热情之时 还有感受爱意之时 excites us in times of passion
让我们兴奋不已 and love.
我们对所爱之人抚摸的渴求 We need that touch from the one we love
不亚于对空气的需要 almost as much as we need air to breathe.
但我从未理解触摸的重要性 But I never understood the importance of touch.
他的触摸 His touch.
直到我再也无法感受到 Until I couldn't have it.
爱上
触不到
的你
快看 Oh, yeah.
是了 这件最合适 Oh, yeah. This one's perfect.
其实 这样晒痕可能会很惊人 Actually, though, the tan lines might be incredible.
老天 你胸的一半都遮不住 Oh, my gosh. That doesn't even cover half your boob.
不 你得找件 No. You need something...
这件倒挺可爱的 This is actually cute.
那确实挺可爱的 That's actually really cute.
是啊 给我看看 Yeah. Let me see.
我喜欢这件 I like that.
没错 这件很好看 Oh, yeah, that's actually really pretty.
但我也说不准 会不会太挑逗 But I can't tell, is it too trampy
还是还不够挑逗 or not trampy enough?
看一眼 Hello!
你还在听我们说话吗 Are you with us?
好 知道吗 Okay, guess what.
泰勒和梅森早上 Taylor and Mason are meeting us
会在机场跟我们碰头 at the airport in the morning.
你那是什么表情 What's that face?
我的天哪 Oh, my God!
我知道 我知道 I know. I know, I know!
亲爱哒 梅森和布鲁克分手了 Dude, Mason and Brooke broke up.
-不是吧 -真分了 - No, they didn't. - Yes, they did.
我的天 玛雅 Oh, my God! Maya!
你得下手 You're gonna do it!
我真希望能亲眼目睹 I wish I could be there to see that in person.
真扫兴你今年都计划好了 Just sucks that you planned it this year
还是没去成 and you don't even get to go.
你可以用P图软件把我P进去 You can just Photoshop me in with your fancy editing apps.
你说什么呢 What are you talking about?
你知道我在说什么 You know what I'm talking about.
你笑什么 我真不知道 Why are you laughing? No, I don't.
就是那张你去痘痘 The one where you get your pimples
加腮红的照片 and your little fake blush.
你可闭嘴吧 Shut up.
还有睫毛 你可没那么长睫毛 The lashes! Your lashes aren't that long in real life.
你俩还真气人 You guys are so annoying.
行了 谢谢你的汉堡 Okay, come on. Thank you for the burgers.
说真的 你俩要玩得开心点 Honestly, you guys are gonna have so much fun.
-知道吗 -好的 - Okay? - Okay.
再见啦 爱你 Bye. I love you.
我更爱你 I love you more.
爱你哦 I love you.
会想你的 再见啦 Miss you. Bye.
记得戴套 Mwah. Use protection.
谢了 老妈子 Thanks, Mom.
你好呀 世界 Hello, world.
我又住回医院了 So, I am back in the hospital again
做下一轮治疗 for another tune-up.
我还要摄入几轮抗生素 I need a few more rounds of antibiotics
把最近的嗓子痛给解决了 to get over this little sore throat that I've been...
你好呀 芭布 Hi, Barb!
嗓子痛 Sore throat?
说的真对 还发38度的烧呢 Right, with a 102 fever?
我有过更严重的 来打个招呼 I've had worse. Say hi!
斯黛拉 别对着我的脸 Stella, get that thing out of my face.
-你挺上镜呀 -才没有 - You're looking good! - No that.
斯黛拉一会儿准备好了就回来 Stella will be right back after we get her all set up.
你们听见管事婆怎么说的了 You heard the boss lady.
马上回来
我觉得这张是最好的作品 I think this is her best work.
嗨 斯黛拉 Hi, Stella.
过去六个月变化还真大 Wow. A lot's changed in the last six months.
没错 Yep.
预产期在三月 He's due in March.
手臂弯一下 Bend your arm, please.
波在哪间病房 What room's Poe in?
310 310.
嗨 小帅哥
我在307病房
张嘴 And open up.
嗨 小帅哥
在做呼吸疗程
好了 All right.
嘿 得了支气管炎 死不掉
一会过来
嘿 得了支气管炎 死不了
这样就好啦 You are all set.
过会儿再见 I'll see you in a bit.
谢谢 茱莉 Thank you, Julie.
你确定这样没事儿吗 Are you sure this is okay?
我还是会继续盯着你 I will still be monitoring you.
然后 没错 没事儿的 And, yes, it's okay.
没你我该怎么办 What would I do without you?
会死的 You'd die.
这倒是真的 That's true.
所以 芭布这次同意 So, Barb is letting me keep
把药车留在了病房里 my med cart in my room this time.
她给我留了一堆药片 And she left me a bunch of pills,
一些G果汁 some G-Juice.
美味 那些是营养液 Yum! That's the liquid nutrition
直接通过胃导管 that goes straight to my stomach
进入我的胃 through my G-tube.
所以 在外玩耍的妹子们 So, to any of you girls out there
祝你们每天吃五千大卡 wishing you could eat 5,000 calories a day
身上都不长一点肉 and not gain a pound,
我随时乐意跟你换 I'll trade you any day.
今天我大概会重新整理这堆东西 Today I'll probably be reorganizing this thing
正如你们大部分人所知 我有点挑剔 because as many of you know, I'm slightly anal.
有点挑剔 意思是临床强迫症 By slightly anal, I mean clinically OCD.
那么 愿世界和平 So, peace.
再见啦 大伙们 Bye, guys.
√ 整理医疗车
来世？
优化应用通知
呼吸道治疗/背心
点心
锻炼
√ 玛雅和卡米拉来玩
《生命 死亡 永生》
楼上有新生儿了 New baby upstairs.
我15分钟后过来 Meet me in 15.
晚上好 辛西娅 Hi, Cynthia.
晚上好 斯黛拉 Hi, Stella.
你好呀 Hi.
我已经算过了护士的轮班时间 I've already clocked the nurse's schedule,
所以除非你摁呼叫铃 so unless you plant your ass on that call button,
大概一小时内 都不会有人来烦你们 no one's gonna bother you for, like, an hour.
我可要睡在上面的 好吧 Hey. I gotta sleep on that bed, okay?
我们可不是畜牲 Wow. I mean, we're not animals.
别担心 用不了那么久 Don't worry, it's not even gonna take that long.
你说什么呢 小威 Hey! Whatchu talkin' about, Willis?
好了 再见了 Okay, bye.
禁止使用手机
我看见你搬东西进来了 Saw you moving in your stuff.
真的是 It was, uh...
挺多东西的 There was a lot of it.
你要在这儿待上一阵吗 Are you gonna be here for a while?
在听吗 Hello?
你是个聋子 You're deaf.
你不是该帮你的客人 Shouldn't you be procuring your room
准备房间吗 for your guests?
你是按小时出租还是怎么的 You rent by the hour or what?
这么说是你在大厅里瞎转悠 So, that was you lurking in the hall.
我才不转悠 是你跟着我到这儿 Mmm, I don't lurk, and you followed me here.
我想做个自我介绍 I wanted to introduce myself,
但你有点小情绪 but that little attitude of yours...
我来猜猜 你就是那种 Let me guess. You're the kind of guy
因为想自己掌握主导权 that ignores the rules
所以就无视规矩的人 我说对了吗 'cause it makes you feel in control. Am I right?
你没说错 You're not wrong.
你觉得那样很迷人 You think that's cute?
你觉得那样迷人吗 Do you think it's cute?
让你朋友借你的病房上床 Letting your friends borrow your room for sex
真的很恶心 所以 不 is disgusting, so, no.
你不喜欢上床吗 You don't like sex?
不是 我喜欢 No, I like
上床 我喜欢性 sex. I like sex.
性爱挺好的 Sex is fine.
挺好可不算是明确的认同 Fine isn't exactly a ringing endorsement,
不过意见有点相似就行 我见好就收 but I'll take some common ground where I can get it.
我们毫无相似之处 We have nothing in common.
你还真冷酷 Ooh, that's cold.
你 你在这儿做什么 What... What are you doing up here?
随时保持六英尺 你俩都知道规定的 Six feet at all times. You both know the rules.
威尔 回你房间去 Will, get back to your room.
好了 There you go.
给你的心理侧写提供个名字吧 A little name for your psychological profile.
我叫威尔·纽曼 I'm Will Newman.
小姐芳名 And you are?
聋子 Deaf.
斯黛拉 谢谢你还知道要戴口罩 Stella, thank you for putting your mask back on.
斯黛拉 Stella.
你得放松一点 You need to lighten up.
生活嘛 It's just life.
你都意识不到就结束了 It'll be over before you know it.
他是个囊性纤维化患者吗 So, he's a CFer?
一种非感染性遗传疾患 特征是呼吸道反复受感染 呼吸道内产生稠厚的粘痰
伯克霍尔德菌 B. Cepacia.
相对罕见 囊性纤维化患者中却有高传染性
是参加塞瓦弗马林新药临床试验的 Part of a new drug trial for Cevaflomalin.
你要是感染了 就要 You contract that and you can...
你就要和新肺说再见了 You can kiss the possibility of new lungs goodbye.
感染这种病菌是根除不了的 There's no coming back from that bacteria.
保持距离 Stay away.
你们好呀 世界 Hello, world.
胸振背心再用30分钟 Okay, AffloVest for 30 more minutes,
治疗重症呼吸系统疾病的一种便携式高频胸壁振荡背心
然后今天就没了 then you're all set.
我离开之前还有什么需要吗 You need anything else before I hit the road?
两人份的巧克力布丁 Chocolate pudding for two?
什么啊 我是客房服务了不成 Oh, so, what? I'm room service now?
得好好利用一下机会 Gotta take advantage of the perks.
好了 All right.
好孩子 乖孩子 Good girl, good girl.
很好 就这样 All right, good. Right.
好了 亲爱的 Right, sweetie.
明天见 I'll see you tomorrow.
再见了 芭布 Bye, Barb.
好的 Okay.
就和所有患囊性纤维化的孩子一样 Like all kids with cystic fibrosis,
我出生就已经是晚期 I was born terminal,
这也不是说我明天就会挂 which doesn't necessarily mean I'm gonna die tomorrow,
但是这也是一种可能性 but I could die tomorrow.
每个人明天都可能会挂 Anyone could die tomorrow.
我只是比别人的时间 I just have a little bit less time
稍微短那么一点点而已 than everyone else.
我的肺现在大概只有50%的功能 My lungs are at about 50% function right now.
所以按这个速度 So at this rate,
哈米德医生说我一上高中 Dr. Hamid says that I'll need a transplant
就要立刻进行器官移植 by the time I'm a junior in high school.
会很有意思的 That'll be fun.
大家好呀 轻点 Hi, guys! Shh!
我们现在在新生儿重症监护病房 We're at the NICU
因为我太喜欢小婴儿了 because I'm obsessed with babies.
还有芭布 And Barb...
美丽动人的芭布现在同意我 The beautiful Barb is giving me permission
自己到这儿来 to come in here by myself now.
正如你们所知 囊性纤维化是一种 Cystic fibrosis, as you know, is a genetic disease
能让身体产生特别多黏液的基因疾病 that basically makes my body produce a shit ton of mucus.
有趣的是 我得时刻注意 Fun fact, I have to be extremely careful
和其他囊性纤维化患者保持距离 around other people with CF.
规定就是我们之间 The rule is that we're not
至少相隔六英尺 supposed to get within six feet
否则我们可能会 because we could end up
相互感染彼此的病菌 catching each other's bacteria.
很多人不知道 就算移植了新肺 A lot of people don't realize that new lungs
一般来说也只能管五年 generally only last about five years,
其实这也挺好了 毕竟我们中的大多数 which is okay actually because most of us
只想就这么活着 撑到 are just trying to stay alive long enough
有新的治疗方案出来 for a new treatment to come out.
大家好 Hi, guys.
我用着新的胸振背心放松呢 Just chilling here in my new AffloVest,
这真的很酷 which is really cool
因为现在不我用被吊在墙上了 because now I don't have to be hooked up to the wall,
我现在明显没吊着 which obviously I'm not
因为我现在倒着悬在床上 because I'm hanging upside down on my bed.
这其实对排出黏液 This is actually good
是很有帮助的 for getting the mucus up and stuff.
我知道 可爱吧 I know, cute, right?
天啊 姐妹 Dang, girl.
你看起来有点憔悴 You look worn.
他是谁 Who is he?
我认识吗 Is it anyone I know?
你吃什么 What'd you get?
什么 What?
这些是松露吗 你哪来的 Are those truffles? How'd you get truffles?
哦 你带着它们就行了 姐妹 Oh, you gotta bring them with, sister.
看着我的餐车是不是觉得很香 Look at how spicy that food cart is.
我真是印象深刻 I'm impressed.
好了 说说我吧 All right, let's talk about me.
我恢复单身了 I'm single!
你和迈克分手了吗 You broke up with Michael?
大概是他和我提的分手 Maybe he broke up with me.
是吗 Did he?
我和他都达成共识了 It was mutual.
好吧 并不是 No, it wasn't.
为什么啊 你很喜欢他的 Why? You actually really liked him.
我以为他是你的真命天子 And I thought he was gonna be the one.
他显然不是了 He obviously isn't.
无论怎么样 都上过他了 不亏吧 Screw him anyway, right?
至少你还能做那事 At least you got to do that.
波 Poe?
你怎么了 Poe, you okay?
310房病人呛住气管了 Choking, 310.
茱莉 我很抱歉 I'm sorry, Julie.
我腿碰到了呼叫铃 My leg hit the call button.
波 你吓死我们了 You scared us, Poe.
你下回嚼两下再咽吧 Yeah, try chewing next time.
斯黛拉 给你看个好东西 Here, Stella.
混蛋 好好吃你的松露去 Enjoy your truffles, asshole.
求你小心一点 And please be careful.
爱你哦 斯黛拉 I love you, Stella.
第一阶段临床试验 Phase one clinical trials
刚刚才开始18个月 only started 18 months ago,
所以我们得有耐心 so we need to be patient
威尔需要配合我们 and Will needs to help us with that.
目前交叉感染的风险会更高 The risk of cross infection will be even higher now, so...
不能对着其他囊性纤维化患者咳嗽 Don't cough on any other CFers.
不要靠得近到能碰到他们 Well, don't get close enough to touch them
这是为了所有人的安全 for their safety and yours.
我知道 时刻保持六英尺的距离 Six feet at all times. I got it.
威尔 为了能参加临床试验 Will, in order for this to work,
你得坚持你的治疗 you need to keep up with your regimen.
好了 一会再见 Okay, I will see you soon.
天呐 你们穿着泳衣 Oh my God. You're wearing the bathing suit!
嗨 玛雅 Hi! Maya
我真是嫉妒死了 看你们好开心 Oh, I'm officially jealous. That looks so fun!
我们很想你 We miss you so much!
我也很想你们 I miss you, too!
有没有帅小伙来看你啊 You have any cute boy visitors?
没啦 他一点也不迷人 No. No. He's not cute.
什么 What?
真的有男孩 Boy?
干嘛呀 What?
快给我们看看 Show us! Show us!
你在干什么 What are you doing?
你是想找死还是怎样 Do you have a death wish or something?
喂 Hey!
我的肺已经废了 My lungs are toast, okay?
就不能让我好好欣赏一下风景吗 Can you just let me enjoy this view while I can?
你知道能在这有多幸运吗 Do you know how lucky you are to be here?
能参加这个药物临床试验 To be a part of this drug trial?
你怎么知道我在药物临床试验的 How do you know about my drug trial?
你打听过我吗 You been asking about me?
如果你不在乎 If you don't care,
那就离开吧 then leave.
把你占的名额给别人 Give your spot to someone else.
给那些想要参加 想要活下去的人 Someone that wants it, that wants to live.
好的 Okay.
你要做什么 威尔 What are you doing? Will?
求你了 快停下来 Will, stop, please!
快下来 Please get down now!
威尔 不要 我的天啊 Will, stop! Oh, my God!
天呐 God.
放松 Relax!
行吧 Fine.
那你就一直待在这吧 Stay up here then.
不是吧 我就开个玩笑 Come on. It was a joke.
就是个玩笑 Hey, it was a joke.
吃晚餐 吃药
该死的 Damn it!
你的医疗车和药呢 Where's your med cart, and your pills,
为什么你的胸振背心在地上 and why's your AffloVest on the floor?
我能看看你的治疗方案吗 Can... Can I see your regimen?
这些都不关你的事 Uh... Not that it's any of your business...
这是 什么 Is this... What?
为什么 Why would...
动脉瘤吗 Is this what an aneurysm looks like?
为什么 Why? Ugh!
我知道你有点 Look, I get that you have some kind of
拯救世界的英雄情结 save-the-world hero complex going on,
但你能把我剔除吗 but can you leave me out of it?
这些药可不是能选择不吃的 These meds are not optional.
对 这就是为什么 Yeah, that's probably why
他们不断把药塞进我的喉咙 they keep shoving them down my throat.
我真是要疯了 You're making me crazy.
斯黛拉 别这样 Stella, come on!
六英尺了 Six feet!
拜托你 一定要 I need you to follow your regimen
严格遵守你的治疗 strictly and completely, please.
为什么 Why don't...
为什么跟我说说到底发生什么了 Why don't you tell me what's going on, actually?
和我谈谈 我不开玩笑了 Talk to me. I'm not gonna make any jokes or laugh.
我有些控制上问题 I have control issues.
我需要确保所有事情是有序的 And I need to know that things are in order,
我知道你没有做治疗 and I know that you're not doing your treatments
这真的 真的令我心绪紊乱 and it's really, really messing me up.
好吧 我想帮忙 Okay, I wanna help you.
真的 I do.
但我不知道如何做到你要求的事 I don't even know how to do what you're asking me to.
真扯淡 That's bullshit! Bullshit!
所有的囊性纤维化患者都知道 All CFers know
如何执行他们的治疗 how to administer their own treatments.
我们在12岁就几乎是医生了 We're practically doctors by the time we're 12.
你说真的吗 Are you serious?
我真的让你很困扰吗 Am I actually messing you up?
是的 Yes.
行 All right.
我帮你 I'll help you.
但如果我这样做 But if I do,
我能得到什么 what's in it for me?
不不不 不是这样 No, not like...
我想画你 I... I wanna draw you.
不要 No.
为什么 我认真的 Why not? I'm serious.
不行 No.
好吧 Okay.
那就拜拜 Then no deal.
你就真的遵守 哪怕一点点规则 You really can't practice just a little bit of discipline
甚至是为了拯救你自己的生命 even to save your own life?
斯黛拉 没什么可以拯救我们 Stella, nothing is going to save our lives.
我们的每一口气 都是借来的 We're breathing borrowed air.
好好享受 Enjoy it.
好吧 Fine.
但我不是为了故作姿态才最后答应的 But I'm not posing for hours on end.
至于你的疗程 你得按我的方式来 And your regimen, we're doing it my way.
你要做的第一件事是 Okay, the first thing you're gonna do
要一台医疗车到你房间 成吗 is get a med cart in your room. Deal?
成 Deal.
握手而定吗 Shake on it?
有意思 Funny.
该死的 Shit.
你错过了表演 You missed the show.
好吧 你是在做杂耍吗 Yeah. You doing stunts in there?
没有比这更适合弄断腿的地方了 Well, there's no better place to break a leg.
有道理 That's fair.
我是威尔 I'm Will.
我是波 I'm Poe.
伯克霍尔德菌 B. Cepacia.
那真是很难了 Damn, that's rough.
所以 我没法做肺移植 So, no lung transplant for me.
你什么时候染上的 When did you contract it?
大概八个月前 扩散得非常快 About eight months ago now. It colonized so quickly.
之前我还在移植名单上 然后就 I was on the transplant list one minute and then...
我肯定你这态度会让斯黛拉抓狂 I'm sure that attitude is what's giving Stella fits.
是啊 这是怎么回事 Yeah, what's up with that?
她告诉我她有控制问题 She told me that she has control issues or something.
随你怎么说 她确实有点问题 Call it what you want, she's got her shit together.
她把我控制的死死的 She definitely keeps me in line.
所以 So, uh,
你们两个是 have you two...
不是 No.
不是你想的这种关系 No, no, no.
大概在我七岁的时候 我就认识她了 I've known that girl since I was, like, seven.
我说不准 兄弟 I don't know, man.
听起来你爱她 Sounds like you love her.
我当然爱她了 Of course, I love her.
那你为什么不做些什么 So, why haven't you done anything about it?
因为 Because
她不是男孩子 she's not a he.
别担心 我不喜欢白人男孩 Don't worry. I don't like white boys.
哈米德医生说你突然 Dr. Hamid said that you suddenly
想对自己的治疗负责了 wanna be responsible for your own regimen.
别让我后悔给你这些 Don't make me regret this.
你把所有东西都擦干净了吗 Did you wipe everything down?
是的 这不是我的主意 你知道吧 Yes. This wasn't my idea, you know?
还没人发现吗 Are we still clear?
是的 快点 Yes. Hurry up.
我快好了 I'm almost done.
好了 你的医疗车整理好了 Okay. Your med cart's all set up.
我开发了一个适用于慢性病的应用 I built an app for chronic illnesses.
它会提醒你 It'll alert you when to do
治疗的时间和吃药时间 your treatments, and take your pills...
你做了一个应用 Built an app?
意思是你自己做的吗 Like you built it?
惊不惊喜 Surprise.
很简单 It's pretty simple.
你应该能弄明白的 You should be able to figure it out.
好的 斯黛拉 Okay, Stella.
别告诉我你第一个喜欢上的男孩 Don't tell me that the one time you're interested
是个囊性纤维化患者 in some guy, he's a CFer.
我只是帮他整理好医疗车 I just helped him set up his med cart.
就 就这样而已 That... That's it. That's all!
斯黛拉 我懂你 I know you, Stella.
整理一辆医疗车就像是前戏 Organizing a med cart is like foreplay.
懂不懂礼貌啊 They're called manners!
来自威尔·纽曼的新信息
刚刚
恋人间的口角吗？
你有做胸振背心治疗吗 Are you doing your AffloVest?
做了 Yeah.
给我看看 Show me.
不行 我现在半裸着 I can't. I'm half-naked.
你现在应当正在做胸振背心治疗 You're supposed to be doing your AffloVest right now,
你吃得每通了吗 and did you take your Creon?
胰酶替代药物用于成人与儿童囊性纤维化和其它原因所致的胰酶缺乏症
是那个栓剂吗 Are those the suppositories?
好吧 好吧 真是不能信你 Okay, okay, I can't trust you,
我俩要能行得通就必须这样 so this is how it's gonna work.
我们一起做治疗 We're gonna do our treatments together
这样我就知道你到底有没有做 so that way I know you're actually doing them.
可以吗 Okay?
总是寻求各种方法 Always looking for ways
来增加我俩的共处时间 是吧 斯黛拉 to spend more time with me, aren't you, Stella?
再见 Bye.
我很小的时候就这么做了 I've been doing this since I was a little kid.
你只需把它们倒进甜点里并拌匀它们 So you just pour them all in the pudding and stir it around.
4项完成 还剩1项
晚安 Good night.
离婚饮食可不适合你 老妈 The Divorce Diet doesn't look good on you, Mom.
你在说什么啊 What are you talking about?
你太瘦了 老爸需要洗个澡 You're too thin. Dad needs a bath.
你俩在模仿我 You guys are stealing my look.
我有在模仿你吗 I'm stealing your look?
好吧 也许我比你更需要这个 Okay, maybe I need this more than you do.
不要 No!
-哦 天哪 -真恶心 - Oh, my God! - Gross!
怎么回事 How did that happen?
怎么回事吗 How did it happen?
老天啊 Oh, man!
把餐巾纸给我 Give me napkins.
来 给你擦擦 亲爱的 Aw, here, honey.
我太爱你了 I love you so much.
我知道 我也爱你 I know. I love you, too.
没有你我可怎么办 I don't know what I'd do without you.
感觉如何 How does it feel?
不太舒服 Not great.
让我们试试百多邦软膏 Let's try some Bactroban,
学名莫匹罗星 该软膏是一种广谱抗菌药 主要是治疗皮肤感染的疾病
一两天之后看看怎么样 see how it looks in a day or two.
也许能够祛除感染 好吗 Maybe we can clear it up, huh?
5分钟后锻炼
刚刚
5分钟后锻炼
刚刚
我要去健身房了 Oh. I'll be at the gym.
谢了 医生 Thanks, Doc!
你知道吗 这太扯淡了 Hey, you know, this sucks.
我们的协议什么时候才能开始互助互利 When does this deal of ours become mutually beneficial?
我做了你要求的一切 I've done everything you've asked
但我的付出没有回报 with no return on my investment.
你真的想在锻炼之后画我吗 You really wanna draw me after we work out?
是啊 Yeah.
不要 No.
我这么恶心 全身一股汗臭 I'm gross, and sweaty, and smell.
我的头发脏了 "My hair is dirty.
我今天太累了 "I'm too tired.
我的医疗车乱了 "My med cart is messy."
这次答应你 Fine.
那我多出一些汗 只为你 I'll sweat harder then. Just for you.
我会把那些汗也画下来 I'm going to draw that sweat.
那是什么 What's that?
我的待办清单 My to-do list.
待办清单啊 To-do list?
对一个写程序的人来说 挺老掉牙的 That's pretty old-fashioned for someone that builds apps.
嗯 但写程序不能给我 Yeah, well, the app doesn't give me
带来完成的满足感 the satisfaction of doing
像这样 that.
你的待办清单上还有什么 What else is on that to-do list of yours?
我的人生清单还是我的每日清单 My master list or my daily list?
好吧 你当然会有两张清单 Yeah, of course you have two lists.
人生清单 是要做的大事 对吧 The master list. That's the big stuff, right?
我看看 Okay.
在一场重要的竞选活动中做志愿者 Volunteer in an important political campaign.
完成 Done.
学习所有莎士比亚的作品 Study all the works of William Shakespeare.
完成 Done.
与其他人分享我所了解的囊性纤维化 Share everything I know about CF with other people.
放在我的油管主页上 That's my YouTube page.
所以你打算当一个聪明的死人 So, your plan is to die really smart
这样你就可以加入 so that you can join
亡者辩论队之类的吗 the debate team of the dead or something?
环游世界怎么样 What about traveling the world?
西斯廷教堂位于梵蒂冈内
√ 学习所有莎士比亚的作品
√ 给大家分享我知道的 囊性纤维化
跟艾比一起去西斯廷教堂
√ 学会弹钢琴
能流利地说法语
学弹钢琴 Learn to play piano.
完成 Done.
能流利地说法语 Speak fluent French.
我正在努力学 J'y travaille
你可以把视线转向这边吗 Can you look at me for a sec?
想听听我的清单吗 You wanna hear my list?
不想 No.
和鲍勃·罗斯一起上绘画课 Painting class with Bob Ross.
著名美国画家 主持人
他 死了 He's dead.
嗯 算了吧 Yeah, never mind. Uh...
在梵蒂冈做爱 Sex in the Vatican.
我宁愿帮你认识鲍勃·罗斯 I'd rather help you meet Bob Ross.
我也不确定 I don't know.
我想环游世界 I'd like to travel the world.
真正地游览其中的一些地方 Actually get to see some of it
总比在这些医院里待着好 and not the inside of these hospitals.
谢谢你 Thank you.
谢我什么 For what?
因为你总算说了个切实的 For saying something real.
是因为梵蒂冈的事吗 Was it the Vatican thing?
你能画快点吗 Can you hurry up?
好了 我只是觉得你也许会想 Okay. I just thought you might want to know
体验一下这种感觉 准备好了吗 how this feels. You ready?
我还带了一个双人跳伞的跳伴 And I brought a jumping buddy.
别担心 我会紧紧地抱着他 Don't worry. I'll hold him tight.
好了 艾比 准备好跳下飞机了吗 All right, Abby, ready to jump out of a plane?
准备好了 Ready!
生日快乐 斯黛拉 Happy Birthday, Stella.
我爱你 斯黛拉 回头见 I love you, Stella. I'll see you soon.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
我喜欢看到你这样 I like seeing you like this.
什么样 Like what?
充满希望 Hopeful.
好的 All right.
嘿 茱莉 Hey, Julie.
如果这没用怎么办 What if this doesn't work?
如果有用呢 What if it does?
里面能找到我的心和灵魂 小心点拆
哈哈 Ha-ha!
为什么是卡通画 Why cartoons?
它们具有颠覆性 They're subversive.
它们轻松有趣 但可以蕴含强大的能量 They can be light and funny but pack a powerful punch.
我觉得一副好的卡通 I think a well-drawn cartoon
能比言语表达出更多东西 can say a lot more than words ever could.
是吗 Yeah?
那这幅画是要表达什么 What does this say exactly?
比言语表达出的更多东西 A lot more than words ever could.
我觉得画的其实挺好的 I think it's actually pretty good.
我觉得你后面那幅特别好 I think that's really good. Behind you.
那是什么 What is that?
哦 那是肺 才华横溢 Oh, those are lungs. That's brilliant.
是你画的吗 Did you do that?
不 是我姐姐艾比 Uh, no, my older sister, Abby.
哇 她真的挺棒 Wow. She's really good.
我想看看她的画作 你还有其他的吗 I'd love to see more of her stuff. Do you have any?
我们不必 分享我们的故事 好吗 We don't have to, uh, share our stories, okay?
我们一起做治疗就可以了 We can just do our treatments together.
嘿 伙计们 我得做一个鼻啥 Hey, guys! I have to get a nasal poly...
息肉切除术 Polypectomy.
我们需要切除你鼻腔的息肉 We're removing polyps from your nasal passages.
斯黛拉现在很紧张 And Stella's nervous.
但我会在这哄她睡觉 But I'm gonna be there to sing her to sleep.
就像以前一样 Just like always.
♪ 我爱你呀 爱你多又多 ♪ ♪ I love you A bushel and a peck ♪
♪ Doris Day - A Bushel And A Peck ♪
♪ 爱你多又多 ♪ ♪ A bushel and a peck ♪
先别唱整首歌 Don't sing the whole thing yet.
♪ 搂着你的脖子抱一抱 ♪ ♪ And a hug around the neck ♪
你会唱砸的 You're gonna jinx it.
♪ 抱得又大又圆 ♪ ♪ And a barrel and a heap ♪
你会唱砸的 You're gonna jinx it.
♪ 在夜里梦里也想着你 ♪ ♪ And I'm talkin' in my sleep About you ♪
但是说真的 But seriously.
你睡着的时候我会在一旁陪着你 I'm gonna be there when you go to sleep
你醒来的时候我也在这里等着你 and I'm gonna be right here when you wake up.
好吗 Okay?
好呢 Okay.
我爱你 I love you.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
我姐姐艾比 女士们先生们 My sister, Abby, ladies and gentlemen.
顺便一说 她还是单身 She's single, by the way.
-她的电话号码是 -别说了 - Her digits are... - Stooop it!
那是去年了 That was last year.
自那之后艾比没有出现在任何视频中 Abby's not in any of the videos after that.
我找到了艾比的照片墙主页 I found Abby's Instagram.
里面大多是艺术照 还有 I mean, it's mostly art,
她和斯黛拉的合照 但你说得对 her and Stella, but you're right.
她一年没再发过动态了 I mean, she hasn't posted in a year.
芭布没看见你进来 是吗 Barb didn't see you come in, did she?
没有 No.
艾比死了 是吗 Abby's dead, isn't she?
你说话委婉的像碎石机 You're as delicate as a jackhammer.
斯黛拉 我们没有时间委婉 We don't have time for delicacy, Stella.
我们都是将死之人 We're dying.
你能不能别老是提醒我快死了 Can you stop reminding me that I'm dying?
我知道 我懂的 I get it. I get that.
好吗 我就是不能死 Okay? I just can't.
我一辈子都在死亡边缘徘徊 I have been dying my whole life.
每个生日 我们都当做最后一个生日来过 Every birthday, we celebrated it like it was my last one.
-我知道 我也是 -不 你不懂 - I know. Me, too. - You don't know,
因为那时 正如你刚说的 艾比死了 Because then, yeah, as you pointed out, Abby died.
然后我父母的婚姻也结束了 And then my parents' marriage died.
死的本来应该是我 And it was supposed to be me.
大家都准备好了 Everyone was ready for that.
每个人都有数的 Everyone was prepared for that.
我就是 我不能死 I just, I can't die.
我就是 为了我的父母 我不能死 I just... My parents... I can't.
这就是为什么你对治疗那么投入吗 Is this why you're so obsessed with your regimen?
你不害怕死亡 你怀有生者愧疚 You're not afraid of dying. You have survivor's guilt.
威尔 Will?
你是一个有着生者愧疚还生病女孩 You're a sick girl with survivor's guilt.
这不是你能控制的 This is out of your control.
-听着 威尔 -从来都不是你的错 - Look, I, Will - It's never been your fault.
我别无选择 好吗 I just don't have any other choice, okay?
不 你有 这正是我想告诉你的 You do. But that's what I'm trying to tell you.
没有 威尔 我没有 I don't! Will, I don't.
好吧 斯黛拉 对不起 Okay, Stella. Hey, I'm sorry.
我们应该继续冥想的 We're supposed to be meditating.
斯黛拉 拜托 Stella, come on!
你知道他弄不清界限在哪 You knew he had boundary issues.
不管怎样 我觉得他并不是有意伤害你 For what it's worth, I don't think he meant to hurt you.
是的 但还是很烦 Yeah, but it's still annoying.
比如他把 艾比 和 死 Like, he said "Abby" and "dead"
用在一句话里 无关痛痒一样 in the same sentence like it was no big deal.
我本应在那里的 I should've been there.
-我本应在那 -斯黛拉 斯黛拉 - I should've been there. - Stella, Stella
斯黛拉 看着我 Stella, look at me.
你不可能会知道 You can't know.
根本不可能 You just can't.
别再折磨自己了 Stop torturing yourself
天哪 这种病像坐牢一样煎熬 Oh, this disease is a prison.
我想拥抱你 I wanna hug you.
你就假装我正在拥抱你 Just pretend that I'm doing it right now.
我爱你 I love you.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
你想要冰淇淋吗 You wanna get ice cream?
-想 -走吧 - Yes. - Come on
您拨打的用户正在 通话中请稍后再拨
如果感染进入血液循环系统 If the infection gets into the bloodstream...
嘿 Hey.
一切都会好起来的 It's gonna be okay.
你并不确定 You don't know that.
是的 我不确定 这个手术有风险 You're right. I don't. It's risky.
但是脓毒症是更严重的病症 But sepsis is the bigger monster.
嘿 Hey.
你是个斗士 斯黛拉·格兰特 You're a fighter, Stella Grant.
你一直都是 You always have been.
所以 So...
坚持住 好吗 Yeah?
好的 Yeah.
那就安排明天早上手术 Tomorrow morning, then.
我会告知你父母的 I'll let your parents know.
♪ Novo Amor - State Lines ♪
嘿 Hey.
你在 You're here.
我在 I'm here.
我收到你的卡通 原谅你了 I got your cartoon. You're forgiven.
后退一点 Back up.
你错过了我们的治疗 发生什么了 You missed our treatment. What's going on?
我的胃管感染了 Infected G-tube.
哈米德医生担心脓毒症并发 Dr. Hamid's worried about sepsis,
所以她打算明天早上更换它 so she's replacing it in the morning.
我要去普外科了 I'm going into General.
该死 Shit.
你的肺能承受那边的环境吗 Are your lungs up for that?
记得8点的雾化治疗 Do your nebulizer at 8:00,
别忘了你的胸振背心 好吗 and your AffloVest, okay?
♪ 我不确定 你是否给我打来电话 ♪ ♪ Are you sure, did you call ♪
♪ 我们是否谈过心 ♪ ♪ did we ever really talk ♪
♪ 不知道 不明了 不想要 ♪ ♪ I don't know, I don't know, I don't know ♪
♪ 脑海中迷惘不堪 ♪ ♪ I don't know ♪
♪ 我无法回答 ♪ ♪ I don't know ♪
你来这里干什么 What are you doing here?
老实说 我以为这是洗手间 真的 I thought this was the bathroom, honestly.
这是你第一次没有艾比陪伴的手术 It's your first surgery without Abby.
你怎么知道的 How do you know that?
我看过你录的所有影片 I've seen all your movies.
有些人可能会说 Some might say
我是你最忠实的粉丝 I'm your biggest fan.
所以 我真的希望自己这次不要搞砸 So, I really hope that I don't mess this up.
♪ 我爱你 多又多 ♪ ♪ I love you a bushel and a peck ♪
♪ 搂着你的脖子抱一抱 ♪ ♪ A bushel and a peck and a hug around the neck ♪
走开 走开啦 Go away! Go away!
♪ 搂着你的脖子 一桶又一堆 ♪ ♪ A hug around the neck and a barrel and a heap ♪
♪ 一桶又一堆呀 ♪ ♪ A barrel and a heap ♪
♪ 在夜里梦里也想着你 ♪ ♪ And I'm talkin' in my sleep about you ♪
以前奶奶会唱这首歌给我们听 Our grandma used to sing that to us.
我搜了一下才学会的 这首歌太老了 I had to Google it. It's really old.
我知道 I know.
什么乱七八糟的 What the heck's
-一桶又一堆 -一桶又一堆 - a barrel and a heap? - A barrel and a heap?
你不会有事的 You're gonna be okay.
拉勾勾 Promise?
准备好开始了吗 You ready to get this show on the road?
好了 Yeah.
该死 这可不行 Oh, hell, no!
威尔 Will!
她很害怕 She was scared.
我只是想做些好事 I just wanted to do something nice.
拜托 Come on!
对她来说 麻醉比和我在一起 She's in more danger under the anesthesia
危险多了 than she is with me.
特雷弗·冯 Trevor Von.
你让我想起了他 That's who you remind me of.
特雷弗·冯和艾米·普雷斯利 Trevor Von and Amy Presley.
哦 他们 Oh, they were...
他们恋爱了 They were in love.
我放任他们违反规定地恋爱 And I let them break the rules
让他们幸福了一段时间 so they could be happy.
让我猜猜 And let me guess,
他们死了 they died?
是啊 威尔 他们死了 Yes, Will, they did.
就在我眼皮底下 On my watch.
我不会原谅自己再放任这种事的发生 And I'd be damned if I let that happen again.
不会有事的 It's gonna be okay.
你知道该怎么做 You know what to do.
是啊 Mmm-hmm.
十 九 Ten, nine...
八 ...eight,
七 seven...
伯克霍尔德菌感染的治疗
伯克霍尔德菌与囊肿纤维症
新肺移植的患者有极大感染伯克霍尔德菌的风险
囊肿纤维症患者间极易发生交叉感染
嗨 是我 Hi, it's me.
我很想你 给我回电话 好吗 Call me 'cause I miss you, okay?
算了还是不要打了 我刚做完手术 But don't call me, 'cause I just got out of surgery
而且我很累 and I'm really tired.
但听到了还是打给我吧 But call me though when you get this,
因为你超可爱 because you're cute
我想见你 and I wanna see you
你蓬松松的头发 and your fluffy little hair
你的小细腿 and your little skinny legs.
好吗 Okay?
算了 你还是别打给我了 Don't call me, though,
如果听到你性感的声音 because if I hear your sexy voice,
我会睡不着的 I won't be able to sleep, so...
听到就打给我好吗 Call me when you get this, okay?
再见 Bye.
♪ Kate Davis - My Baby Just Cares for Me ♪
♪ 我的宝贝不爱秀场 ♪ ♪ My baby don't care for shows ♪
♪ 我的宝贝不爱新衣 ♪ ♪ My baby don't care for clothes ♪
♪ 我的宝贝只爱我 ♪ ♪ My baby just cares for me ♪
♪ 我的宝贝不爱宝马香车 ♪ ♪ My baby don't care for cars and races ♪
♪ 我的宝贝不爱高档场所 ♪ ♪ My baby don't care for high-tone places ♪
♪ 伊丽莎白·泰勒 他看不入眼 ♪ ♪ Elizabeth Taylor not his style ♪
♪ 就连拉娜·特纳的微笑 ♪ ♪ and even Lana Turner's smile ♪
♪ 他都看不见 ♪ ♪ is somethin' he can't see ♪
♪ 我的宝贝不在意别人的目光 ♪ ♪ My baby don't care who knows ♪
么么哒~ ❤❤❤
十分钟后中庭见
♪ 我的宝贝只爱我 ♪ ♪ My baby just cares for me ♪
威尔不会来了 Will's not coming.
威尔 Will?
你不开门我不会走的 I'm not leaving until you open the door.
不行 I can't.
求你了 打开门我们谈谈 Just, please open the door and we can talk about this.
好吗 我不管芭布说了什么 Okay? I don't care what Barb said.
开开门吧 Just open the door!
斯黛拉 Stella.
不行 I can't.
威尔 求你了 Will, come on.
你走吧 斯黛拉 Go away, Stella.
可能这样更好 Maybe it's better this way.
不 会有办法的 No, I can figure this out.
必须得有办法 I need to figure this out.
我们不是普通的小孩 We're not normal kids.
我们没法这样冒险 We don't get to take chances like this.
拜托 你不会也要给我来这套吧 Oh, come on. You're not gonna give me that, too?
承认现实吧 Admit what's going on here.
威尔是承担风险的那个 Will's a risk-taker
就像艾比一样 just like Abby.
你那是什么意思 What's that supposed to mean?
你觉得我是不敢承担风险吗 You think that I'm the one that's afraid to take risks?
那你怎么样 你的人生怎么样 What about you and your life
你的感情怎么样 and your relationships?
你和蒂姆 你和瑞克 你和迈克 You and Tim, you and Rick, you and Michael.
-别往那说 -我就要说 - Don't go there. - I could keep going.
他们知道你生病 还是爱上了你 They knew you were sick and they loved you.
你才是逃跑的那个 每一次 都是你 You were the one who ran. Every time, you ran.
你不知道就不要乱说 You don't know what you're talking about.
你毁掉了你得到爱的每一次机会 You ruined every chance you've ever had at love,
所以那些建议你还是自己留着吧 so just keep your advice to yourself.
♪ 我想要远远离开我的故乡 ♪ ♪ I wanna go up up and away from this place that I come ♪
♪ 从十七岁那年我一直在等待 ♪ ♪ I've been waiting for this day since I was seventeen years old ♪
♪ 想让别人知道我一个人也能行 ♪ ♪ Just wanna show them I can make it on my own ♪
♪ 只想远远离开 远远离开 ♪ ♪ I wanna go up up and away, up up and away ♪
你终于对了一次
贱人 Bitch.
傻逼 Asshole.
猜猜怎么着 你说对了 You know, you're right.
我确实很怕 I am afraid.
你知道爱我的人会怎么样吗 You know what someone gets for loving me?
爱我就得为我治病花钱 They get to pay for all my care.
然后看着我死去 And then they get to watch me die.
保险免赔额 药费 住院费 手术费 Deductibles, meds, hospital stays, surgeries.
等我到了18岁就没有全额保险了 When I turn 18, there's no more full coverage.
那时我找谁替我交钱 Who should I put that on?
找迈克还是我的家人 Michael or my family?
生病的是我 负责的也只能是我 It's my sickness, it's my problem.
也许我们能说服威尔跟你结婚 Maybe we can get Will to marry you.
他很有钱 He's loaded.
他也不挑剔 连你都喜欢 He's not picky. He likes you.
我很抱歉 I am sorry
你和威尔的事 about you and Will.
洗手步骤
爱干净 勤洗手
斯黛拉 Stella?
怎么了 What?
斯黛拉 Stella?
时刻保持五英尺
威尔 您的订阅频道有了更新
喂 Hello.
今天我想聊的事情 There is something a little bit different
和以往不太一样 I want to talk about today.
伯克霍尔德菌 Burkholderia cepacia.
它的风险 限制 The risks, the restrictions
以及接触的规则 and the rules of engagement.
伯克霍尔德菌是一种很顽固的细菌 B. Cepacia is a hardy bacteria.
对吧 它适应性超强 Okay? It is so adaptive
能把青霉素当饭吃 that it literally feeds on penicillin.
我们的第一道防线是 So, our first line of defense is
卡斯达 一种医用消毒洗手液 Cal Stat, a hospital-grade hand sterilizer.
大量 经常性使用 Apply liberally and often.
下面是经典款 乳胶手套 Next is good old-fashioned latex!
久经考验 真实可靠 Tried-and-true.
在各种活动时使用的防护措施 Used for protection in all types of activities.
伯克霍尔德菌在唾液和痰液中活性最强 B. Cepacia thrives best in saliva or phlegm.
说个冷知识 咳嗽飞沫能传播6英尺远 Fun fact, a cough can travel six feet,
喷嚏飞沫的速度能达到每小时200英里 a sneeze can travel up to 200 miles per hour.
但是"禁止唾液"也就意味着禁止亲亲 But the "no saliva" thing also means no kissing.
永远 Ever.
我们最有效的预防就是距离 So, our best defense is distance.
永远保持六英尺 Six feet at all times.
嗒哒 Ta-da!
这是根台球杆 Here's a pool cue.
大约有五英尺长 It measures approximately five feet.
五英尺 Five feet.
关于这个六英尺的事 我想了很久 I've given a lot of thought to foot number six.
你猜怎样 我都要疯了 And you know what? It made me mad.
得了囊性纤维化 会失去很多东西 When you have cystic fibrosis, so much is taken from you.
活着的每一天 You live every day of your life
都受困于治疗 药物 医院时间安排 according to treatments, and pills, and schedules.
大多数人都不能生孩子 Most of us can't have children.
很多人甚至都活不到 A lot of us don't even live long enough
能生孩子的年龄 to try to have children.
操 解释起来已经很复杂了 Shit, it's complicated to try to explain,
但更复杂的是陷入爱河 but it's even hard to fall in love.
毕竟 囊性纤维化已经从我 So, after all that CF has stolen from me,
从我们身上偷走了太多东西 from us,
我觉得偷回来一点也挺好的 I don't mind stealing a little something back.
一英尺 One foot.
就他妈的一英尺 One fucking foot
一英尺的空间 一英尺的距离 of space, of distance,
一英尺的长度 随你怎么叫 of length, or whatever you wanna call it.
我想要把这一英尺偷回来 I don't mind stealing that back.
因为囊性纤维化 Because CF...
已经不再是小偷了 you're not the thief anymore.
现在我才是小偷 I'm the thief now.
间隔五英尺 Five feet apart.
说定了 Deal?
你来吗 Are you in?
迫不及待 I'm so in.
中庭 九点 Atrium. 9:00.
我怎么都没带好看的衣服 Why didn't I pack anything nice?
怎么可能有人时刻准备在医院里盛装约会 Oh, 'cause you always pack for a hot hospital romance.
这件会透内衣吗 Is this see-through?
我都不敢想 妞 Don't even think about it, ho.
来啦 Hi.
来了 Hi.
我一出生他就消失了 He cut and ran when I was born.
可能有个生病的小孩不在他计划内吧 I guess having a sick kid wasn't part of his plan.
那你妈妈呢 What about your mom?
她又漂亮 又上进 又聪明 She's beautiful and driven and smart.
她生活的重心就是我 只有我 She's just focused on me and me alone.
明天我就满18岁了 So, starting tomorrow, when I'm 18,
我就能决定自己的人生了 I will be making the decisions for myself.
等等 等等 Wait, wait, wait, wait.
你明天过生日 Tomorrow's your birthday?
你之前怎么不告诉我 You could have told me that.
我都没准备礼物 I don't have a present for you.
你答应到我明年生日还陪着我 算做礼物 How about you just promise to stick around for the next one?
来吧 Come on.
我要走了 I'm getting out of here.
我有一个很喜欢的理论 There is this one theory I like
"只有回首出生 才能理解死亡" that says, "To understand death, you have to look at birth."
比如说 So, like,
我们在子宫里的那个阶段 while we're in the womb, we're living that existence
完全对下个阶段无知 not knowing that our next existence
哪怕一英寸那么近 is just an inch away.
也许死亡也是一样 So, maybe it's the same with death.
也许死亡只是生命的下一个阶段 Maybe death is just the next life,
但只有一英寸远 but an inch away.
或许只是长长的一觉 亲爱的 Or maybe it's just a big sleep, baby.
灯一关 Lights out.
一切都结束了 Done and done.
不会的 No.
不可能是那样 There's no way
艾比不会就那样消失的 that Abby just blinked out.
我拒绝相信 I refuse to believe it.
艾比发生了什么 What happened with Abby?
她在加利福尼亚玩悬崖跳水 She was cliff diving in California.
跳错了地方 摔断了脖子 淹死了 She landed wrong, broke her neck and drowned.
都说她死得没痛苦 They said she didn't feel any pain,
但痛不痛苦别人怎么知道 but how would they know if she felt pain?
我本来应该陪她一起去的 但是我病了 I was supposed to be there with her, but I got sick.
就如往常一样 Like I always do.
我一遍又一遍地想象 I just keep imagining it over and over again.
她那时的感觉 What she was feeling.
我不知道这点 Without knowing that,
我就觉得她一直卡在那个死亡的瞬间 she just never stops dying.
斯黛拉 Stella.
就算你在那 你也不会知道她什么感觉的 Even if you were there, you still wouldn't know.
可是我没在那 But I wasn't there.
她死的时候孤零零的 She died alone.
我们不是都会那样死去吗 Isn't that how we're gonna die?
溺死 只是不是被水 Drowning. Just without the water.
而是被我们自己的体液溺死 Our own fluids doing the dirty work.
关于最后一口气 我想象了很多 I think about that last breath a lot.
猛烈着吸气 Gasping for air,
却什么都吸不到 not getting any.
没有空气 No air,
只有一片漆黑 just black.
不过我只有周一才会想这事 But that's only on Mondays.
其他时间我不会想 Otherwise, I don't dwell on it.
就是这个笑容 There's that smile.
天啊 你真美 God, you're beautiful.
还很勇敢 And brave.
如果能碰触到你就好了 I wish I could touch you.
我们刚见面时 I lied
我撒了谎 when we met.
我还是处女 I've never had sex.
我从来没想任何人看我身体 I've never wanted anyone to see me.
我的这些 The scars, uh,
伤疤 插管 没一样跟性感沾边 the tube, nothing about it's sexy.
你的一切都很性感 Everything about you is sexy.
我觉得你很完美 I think you're perfect.
早上好 Good morning.
看到外面那些灯了吗 See those lights out there?
我和艾比叫它们星星 Abby and I would call them stars
还对着它们许愿 and we would make wishes.
她从不告诉我她的愿望是什么 She'd never tell me what her wish was,
但我知道她许愿我能有新的肺 but I knew she wished for new lungs for me.
我希望她梦想成真 I hope she gets her wish.
我也是 Yeah, me too.
早安 芭布 Mornin', Barb.
早安 罗伯特 Goodmorning, Robert.
他们人呢 Where are they?
谁啊 Who?
你在说啥啊 What are you talking about?
完了 芭布发现我们溜了 Oh, shit. Barb knows we're gone.
好吧 Okay.
她会先去新生儿重症监护室找我 所以 Uh, she'll look for me first in the NICU, so...
回见 Bye! Okay.
我们可以保持10尺 请跟我聊聊 我们能有办法
我自由啦 I'm free!
天哪 Oh, my gosh!
生日快乐 Happy Birthday!
抱歉 我忘了 I'm so sorry. I forgot.
没事 没关系 No, it's fine.
你在干嘛 忙吗 出去走走吧 What are you doing? Are you busy? Let's take a walk.
现在不行 I can't right now.
不好意思啊 I'm sorry.
学习呢 Studying.
要不晚点 Maybe later?
我朋友会晚点过来 My friends are actually coming later.
不过没事 That's all right.
我们再想办法 We'll figure something out.
我只是 I was just, uh,
想你 missing you.
待会再聊哈 Talk to you later.
好的 再见 All right. Bye.
杰森 Jason.
不 别 Yeah, no. Don't...
别担心 没事 No. Don't worry about it. It's fine.
说真的 我没有生气 No, seriously, I'm not mad.
不要紧 忙你的好了 It's fine. Just do your thing.
咱明天见面聊 I'll talk to you tomorrow.
我最亲爱的威尔 生日快乐 永远爱你 妈
斯黛拉·格兰特
取消
解谜寻踪开始啦 ٩(๑>◡<๑)۶
始于 初见 之处
玫瑰是红色的 亦或是？
要是 我能 一直 屏住呼吸
第一次约会的 24小时后
是我们的第二次约会
还以为你找不到我呢 Thought you'd never find me.
我知道很晚了 I know it's late,
但我们不得不等到餐厅关门 but we had to wait till the cafeteria closed.
我们 "We"?
惊喜 Surprise!
我们对抛弃你感到很抱歉 伙计 We felt so bad for ditching you, dude.
但你女朋友直接推特给我们 But your girlfriend DM'd us
说服我们给你个惊喜 伙计 and convinced us to surprise you, man.
女朋友 "Girlfriend"?
你真行啊 You're so good.
是的 还行吧 Yeah, I'm good.
我不敢相信你有男朋友了 I can't believe he's real.
我也是啊 I know!
而且他本人更性感 And he's even hotter in person.
说真的 Seriously.
大餐快准备好喽 Hey, the food's almost ready!
生日快乐 And Happy Birthday!
只是想在大师工作时观摩一下 Just wanted to observe the master at work.
那些是玫瑰吗 Are those roses?
它们真漂亮 They're so beautiful.
你是怎么做到的 How do you do that?
我一直在练习 I've been practicing.
因为下个月 迈克和我 'Cause next month, Michael and I
要去见我妈 are gonna go see my mom.
真的吗 Really?
他明天来吃午饭 我会跟他说 He's coming to lunch tomorrow and I'm gonna go for it.
天哪 Oh, my God!
他爱我 He loves me.
我也爱他 And I love him, too.
波 真为你感到高兴 Aw, Poe, I'm so happy!
别这么多愁善感嘛 Don't go all soppy on me.
你知道我不能让一个女孩独自哭泣 You know I can't let a girl cry alone.
幸福的眼泪啦 They're happy tears.
真为你高兴 波 I'm happy for you, Poe.
咱们开吃吧 Let's eat!
波 你从哪儿弄的这多东西 Poe, where did you get all of this?
医院有VIP厨房 Hospitals have VIP kitchens
他们把所有的好东西都放在那里 where they keep all the good stuff.
你知道 给名人和政治家们准备的 You know, for celebrities, politicians.
但今晚 寿星 是为你准备的 But tonight, Birthday Boy, it's for you.
祝你健康 Salud!
我们大概10岁时 We were, like, ten!
是的 我们把床单罩在头上 Yes. And we literally put sheets over our head
然后跑到痴呆病区 and ran into the dementia ward!
对对 就他那样 It was just like that!
一片混乱 It was pandemonium.
这太疯狂了 It was crazy.
那是有史以来最好的万圣节了 It was the best Halloween ever!
我们惹了不少事 We got in so much trouble.
但甚至都不是我们的主意 And it wasn't even our idea.
记得吗 是艾比想出来的 Remember? Abby... Abby came up with that.
艾比很野的 Abby was wild.
她无拘无束 She was free.
她总是说她会活得精彩 She always said she was gonna live big
因为斯黛拉不能 because Stella couldn't.
她做到了 She did.
她活得精彩 She lived big.
比我们任何人都精彩 Bigger than any of us.
她应该会喜欢秘密聚会 She would've loved a clandestine party
像现在这个 like this one!
她会的 She would've.
敬艾比 To Abby.
♪ 祝你生日快乐 ♪ ♪ Happy Birthday to you! ♪
许个愿吧 Make a wish!
我不能吹蜡烛 否则你们就没法吃了 I can't blow the candles out or else you guys can't eat it.
我替你许愿啦 I made a wish for you.
谢谢 Thank you.
准备 一 二 One. Two.
三 Three
生日快乐 威尔 Happy Birthday, Will!
芭布 Barb?
嘿 Hey!
我们以为你今晚不上班呢 We thought you were off tonight.
要给你来块蛋糕吗 You want us to fix you a plate?
到此为止 就这样了 That's it. That's it.
在呼吸培养结果出来之前 You're all confined to your rooms
你们所有人给我在房间里待着 while we get respiratory cultures.
至于你 And you.
明天早上院内转移 You'll be transferred in the morning.
芭布 这不是他的错 Barb! Barb, it wasn't his fault.
你或许愿意用命作赌注 Well, you might be willing to gamble with your lives,
但我不愿 but I'm not!
只是跟我们小时候一样啊 Just like when we were kids.
但你现在不再是孩子了 波 But you're not kids anymore, Poe.
但我们按你教的规矩来的 我们没事的 But we were safe like you taught us to be.
我很抱歉 但确实很开心啊 I'm sorry, but it was fun!
好啦 好啦 快快睡觉啦 All right, I'm gonna let you go to sleep, okay?
晚安 Good night.
危重患者院内转移
患者姓名
威尔·纽曼
处理优先级：高
转移至：隔离病房
备注：对其他人有 高感染风险
来点提神饮料不 A little pick-me-up?
谢谢 Thank you.
他转走了会更安全的 It's just safer if he goes.
你可能是对的 You're probably right.
她会恨我的 She's gonna hate me.
怎么了 波 What's up, Poe?
他可能又坐在呼叫铃上了 He probably sat on the call button again.
我去吧 I got it.
当 当 波 Knock, knock. Poe?
蓝色警报 Code Blue!
注意 所有医务人员 Attention, all medical personnel.
波 波 Poe! Poe!
波 Poe!
没有脉搏 No pulse.
天哪 好吧 Oh, God! Okay.
坚持住 宝贝 Stay with me, baby.
他没有呼吸了 他没呼吸了 He's not breathing. He's not breathing.
加油 你可以的 拜托 Come on, you can do it. Come on.
上气囊 开始胸部按压 Bag him. Start chest compressions!
加油 Come on!
给他注射肾上腺素 Give him an Epi!
加油 宝贝 Come on, baby!
是严重的张力性气胸 It's a massive tension pneumothorax.
指较大的肺气泡破裂或较大较深的肺裂伤或支气管破裂
他的肺在衰竭 His lung is collapsing!
放上电极片 放上电极片 Put the pads on him! Put the pads on him!
坚持住 小家伙 Come on, buddy.
加油啊 亲爱的 Come on, sweetie. Come on, sweetie!
快点 伙计 Come on, buddy!
芭布 怎么了 Barb, what's happening?
谁来把她给弄走 Somebody get her out of here!
关上门 Close that door!
-芭布 怎么了 -该死的 呼吸啊 -Barb, what's happening? - God, damn it. Breath!
哈米德医生 Dr. Hamid?
现在不行 斯黛拉 Not now, Stella.
哈米德医生 Dr. Hamid?
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
我真的很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
不 No!
真的很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
不 No!
哦 天哪 Oh, my God!
老天 他走了 Oh my God. He's gone!
迈克再也见不到他了 再也见不到 Michael's never gonna see him again.
我也再见不到他了 I'm never gonna see him again.
我还从未抱过他 I never hugged him!
他是我最好的朋友 而我却从未抱过他 He's my best friend and I never fucking hugged him!
天哪 Oh, God!
所有人都离我而去 I'm losing everyone.
你不会失去我的 You're not losing me.
你干嘛啊 What are you doing?
出去 Get out!
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
快出去啊 Just get out!
我想去看那些灯 I wanna go see the lights.
应该有 差不多两英里吧 It's gotta be, like, two miles away.
-来吧 我们进去吧 -我要去 - Hey, come on, let's go inside. - I'm going.
和我一起吧 Come with me.
斯黛拉 现在不是叛逆的时候 Stella, now's not the time to be rebellious.
是因为波吗 Is this about Poe?
当然是因为波了 It is about Poe.
还有艾比 还有你和我 It's about Abby, it's about you and me
还有我们永远不能一起做的事情 and all the things that we'll never get to do together.
一直以来 我都在为治疗而活 This whole time, I've been living for my treatments
而不是接受治疗为了更好的生活 instead of doing my treatments so that I can live.
我想要生活 I wanna live.
这就是生活 威尔 It's just life, Will.
在我们知道前就结束了 It'll be over before we know it.
好吧 All right.
我们起码打个车吧 Can we catch a cab at least?
我想散步 享受夜晚 I wanna walk and enjoy the night.
有手套 不要紧的 Glove. We're good.
你怎么总让我运动呢 How are you always getting me to exercise?
从上面看果然更好 Sure looks better from up here.
那是什么 What's that?
看来你得跟我解释一下了 Yeah, you're gonna have to explain that one.
我第一次来医院 Abby got it for me
艾比送给我的 the first time I came to the hospital.
从那以后 我每次都带着它 I've had it with me every time since.
老实说 我松了一口气 That's a relief, honestly,
因为我可没勇气告诉你 'cause I didn't have the heart to tell you
有副乳可没得谈 that a third boob might be a deal breaker.
斯黛拉 Hey, Stella.
好冷 It's cold.
走吧 Come on.
我们去看你的灯 Let's go see your lights.
我们歇会吧 Let's take a breather.
斯黛拉 别这样 Stella? Hey, don't do that.
斯黛拉 Stella.
冻得很结实的 It's frozen solid.
姑娘们 Hey, ladies.
我刚接到堪萨斯城圣卢克的电话 I just got a call from St. Luke's in Kansas City.
车祸 有人员伤亡 Car accident with fatalities.
女性 AB阴性血 5尺2英寸 胸腔大小 One female, AB neg, 5'2", thoracic cage size...
斯黛拉将要有新肺了 Stella's getting lungs.
预计到达时间三小时 给她做术前准备 ETA three hours. Get her prepped.
我的天哪 Oh, my God.
不 不 不 No, no, no, no, no.
不 不 不 不 No, no, no, no, no. No!
没出什么事吧 Everything all right?
是的 Yeah.
没事 我很好 Yeah, I'm good.
我爱你 斯黛拉 I love you, Stella.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
我们不可以 We can't.
我知道 I know.
斯黛拉 Stella.
操 Shit!
快走 快走 Come on, come on!
快走 Come on.
芭布 芭布 芭布 Barb. Barb? Barb.
她不接电话 She's not answering,
现在直接转到语音信箱了 and now it's going straight to voicemail.
斯黛拉不会跑的 她做不出这样的事 Stella would never run off. She wouldn't do that.
你能联系上他吗 Have you been able to reach him?
不能 No.
这是威尔的妈妈 This is Will's mother.
-他们离开多久了 -我才发现的 - How long have they been gone? - I just know.
如果你的儿子导致斯黛拉错过了这对肺 If your son causes Stella to lose these lungs...
我儿子和你女儿病的一样重 My son is just as sick as your daughter is.
斯黛拉永远都不会做这样的事 Stella would never do anything like this.
她什么都没做过 She's never done anything.
斯黛拉已经做了 艾琳 Stella did this, Erin.
不是威尔的错 他对肺的事一无所知 Not Will. He doesn't know anything about the lungs.
肺 Lungs?
是要做肺移植吗 Is there a transplant?
对 是给斯黛拉的 已经在路上了 Yeah, for Stella. They're on the way.
至少告诉我你是个爱猫的人 Well, tell me at least you're a cat person.
你喜欢猫吗 Do you like cats?
我养了一只雪貂 I owned a ferret.
我是个雪貂男孩 I was a ferret kid.
不 你可以是雪貂男孩 Oh, no. You would be a ferret kid.
别接 Don't answer it.
真的 他们现在需要什么 Really. What do they need right now?
是我妈妈 It's my mom.
让我跟她说下我没事 Let me just tell her that I'm okay.
斯黛拉 他们给你找了新肺 Stella, they have new lungs for you.
嘿 他们给你找了新肺 Hey, they have new lungs for you.
我们回医院 快走 Let's go to the hospital. Come on!
我还没看到灯呢 I haven't seen the lights yet.
灯吗 The lights?
你知道这件事吗 我们还在这里干什么 Did you know about this? What are we doing out here?
我们赶紧回医院 快走 Let's go to the hospital. Come on.
就五年 威尔 Five years, Will.
五年 Five years?
对于像我们来说 五年就像一生那么长 Five years is a lifetime for people like us.
不是的 当他们失败 It's not! Because what happens
而我又回到了起点 将会发生什么 when they fail and I'm back to square one?
别傻了 我们去医院吧 好吗 Let's not be stupid. Can we go the hospital, please?
拜托 快走 Come on, let's go.
斯黛拉 Stella!
斯黛拉 Stella.
快走 Come on.
好吗 这里很冷 Please? It's cold.
斯黛拉 Stella!
斯黛拉 Stella.
救命 Help!
撑住 斯黛拉 Come on, Stella.
撑住 Come on!
撑住 斯黛拉 Come on, Stella.
我们有一个十七岁的 We have a 17-year-old...
什么情况 What have we got?
17岁女性 患有囊性纤维化 A 17-year-old female with cystic fibrosis.
我们已经给她找到新肺了 We already have lungs for her.
帮忙摘下面罩 Can someone get the mask off?
我的天哪 亲爱的 Oh, my God. Honey.
没事的 It's okay.
我的儿子 我的儿子也在那里 My son. My son was out there, too.
对不起 请退后 I'm sorry. Step back, please.
你没事 你没事 You're okay. You're okay.
威尔在哪里 Where's Will?
亲爱的 Honey.
病人来了 Coming through!
他还好吗 Is he okay?
给她戴上面罩 越快越好 Get a mask on her as soon as possible, please.
血氧饱和度45% O2 is at 45.
可能是体温过低 Possible hypothermia.
这里还要再拿些毯子 We're gonna need more blankets over here.
呼吸 斯黛拉 Just breathe. Stella?
我在这呢 亲爱的 I've got you, honey.
斯黛拉 Stella?
你需要冷静 You need to calm down.
我们给你找到了新肺 We have your new lungs.
好 斯黛拉 Yes, Stella.
我不想要新肺 I don't want them.
斯黛拉 我们已经等这对肺等了好多年了 Stella, we've been waiting for these lungs for years.
你在说什么 What are you talking about?
如果你不要那对肺 就浪费了 亲爱的 If you don't use the lungs, they're wasted, sweetie.
我爱他 新肺 I love him. The new lungs
没有他就没了任何意义 won't mean anything without him.
躺下 Lay down!
停下 停下 Stop! Stop!
求你了 停下 Please! Stop.
威尔 Will!
求你了 Please.
做移植手术吧 Take the lungs.
为了我 For me.
好 Okay.
快点 带上面罩 Come on, put the mask on.
我准备好了 I'm ready.
好的 好的 走吧 所有人一起 Okay, all right, let's go, everyone.
好了 好了 Okay, okay.
好的 我们走 开始移动 Okay, here we go. We're moving.
我就在这等你 亲爱的 I'll be right here, honey.
我们走 Let's go.
好 我很爱你 Okay, I love you so much.
我爱你 爸爸 I love you, Dad.
好了 我们走 Okay, here we go.
哈米德医生 Dr. Hamid.
我给她做了人工呼吸 I gave her mouth-to-mouth.
对不起 但是我没有别的选择 I'm sorry. I didn't have any other choice.
你救了她的命 威尔 You saved her life, Will.
如果她染上了伯克霍尔德菌 我们会处理的 好吗 If she has B. Cepacia, we'll deal with it, okay?
呼吸培养出结果了 Bacterial cultures came back.
我不知道怎么回事 但她没有感染 I don't know how, but she's clean.
她没有染上 She didn't get it.
但这不意味着她将来不会染上 But that doesn't mean she won't.
威尔怎么样了 What about Will?
治疗有效了吗 Is the treatment working?
没有 No.
没有 治疗无效 No, it's not.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
为所有一切 For all of this.
不 不 不 亲爱的 No, no, no, no, sweetie.
这不是你的错 It's not your fault.
妈妈 Mom. Hey.
妈妈 Hey, Mom.
什么 什么事 怎么了 亲爱的 What? What is it? What is it, honey?
你能帮我个忙吗 Could you help me with something?
你们都加入吗 Are you guys in?
当然 Absolutely.
芭布 Barb?
当然 我加入 Hell, yeah, I'm in.
她上了镇静剂 我们还有几个小时 She's sedated. We have a few more hours.
我们有时间 We have time.
搞定了 It's done.
他们说可以 They said yes.
好的 Okay.
我们开始吧 Let's do this.
威尔 我做好了 Will. I'm done.
谢谢您 Thank you.
她就要醒了 She's waking up.
亲爱的 Hey, honey.
亲爱的 你做得很好 Hey, sweetie, you did great!
真的很好 You really did.
你做得很好 You did great.
你做的太棒了 宝贝 You did wonderful, baby.
你做得很好 You did good.
好的 It's okay.
我们准备了些东西给你 We have something for you.
我美丽霸道的斯黛拉 My beautiful, bossy Stella.
我想你书里写的 是真的 I guess it's true, what that book of yours says.
灵魂没有时间概念 That the soul knows no time.
我的药物临床实验不管用 My drug trial's not working.
我想让你知道这过去的一个月 I want you to know that this past month
会永远留在我心里 will last forever for me.
我唯一的遗憾就是 My only regret is that
你没有看到你想看的灯 you didn't get to see your lights.
我终于让你说不出话来了 I finally got you speechless.
你知道 人们总是说如果你爱某个人 You know, people are always saying if you love something,
就必须要学会放手 you have to learn to let it go.
我以前觉得这话是在放屁 I thought that was such bullshit.
直到我看见你快死了 Till I watched you almost die.
在那一刻 斯黛拉 In that moment, Stella,
对我来说 除了你 nothing mattered to me.
一切都不重要了 Except you.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
我不想走 I don't wanna go.
我只想和你在一起 All I want is to be with you.
但是我不能 I can't.
我要确保你的安全 I need you to be safe.
不被我传染 From me.
我不知道接下来会发生什么 I don't know what comes next,
但我不后悔这一切 but I don't regret any of this.
你能闭上你的眼吗 Could you close your eyes?
我不知道如果你一直看着 I just don't know if I can walk away
我还能不能转身离开 if you're still looking at me.
求你了 Please.
我爱你 I love you
很爱很爱 so much.
他给你留了这个 He left this for you.
威尔的 人生清单 爱上斯黛拉
今生今世 厮守到老
互相触碰 Human touch.
是我们的第一种交流方式 Our first form of communication.
安全 安心 安慰 Safety, security, comfort,
尽在那一指的轻柔爱抚中 all in the gentle caress of a finger.
或是脸颊上的轻轻一吻 Or at the brush of lips on a soft cheek.
斯黛拉 你可不能录下来 不 Hey, Stella. You can't record that. No.
让我们在快乐时彼此相连 It connects us when we're happy...
艾比 不行 Abby, no.
胆怯时鼓舞我们前行 ...bolsters us in times of fear...
你能关上那个吗 Can you turn that off?
热情之时 还有感受爱意之时 ...excites us in times of passion...
不行 斯黛拉 不行 停下 Ah. No. Stella, no. Stop!
让我们兴奋不已 ...and love.
我们对所爱之人抚摸的渴求 We need that touch from the one we love
不亚于对空气的需要 almost as much as we need air to breathe.
但我从未理解触摸的重要性 But I never understood the importance of touch.
他的触摸 His touch.
直到我再也无法感受到 Until I couldn't have it.
所以 如果你在看这个视频 So, if you're watching this
而你 可以触碰到那个他 and you're able, touch him.
或是那个她 Touch her.
人生苦短 莫要虚度年华 Life's too short to waste a second.