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Mommy is... stretchable.
妈妈是…… 有弹性的。
What do you mean by stretchable?
你是什​​么意思 可拉伸的？
Daddy's hard. You can't move him.
爸爸很硬。 你无法移动他。
He gets mad, and that's it.
他生气了，仅此而已。
Mommy gets mad too,
妈妈也会生气，
but she's more like putty.
但她更像是橡皮泥。
Mm.
毫米。
And she gets sad too.
她也会感到难过。
That's when it's the most stretch.
那时就是 拉伸幅度最大。
Putty, um... I wonder how is it that you stretch her?
腻子，嗯……我想知道 你是怎么拉伸她的？
You just--
你只是——
Can I... Can I talk now? Please?
我可以…… 我现在可以说话吗？拜托？
Um...
一...
- Is it okay if Mommy talks? - Yep.
妈妈说话可以吗？ - 是的。
Okay.
好的。
I'm not stretchable. I'm not putty.
我没有弹性。 我不是橡皮泥。
Well, that's her experience of you.
嗯，那就是她。 你的经历。
That isn't true.
那不是真的。
I try very hard to be in control of her and everything,
我努力让自己处于…… 控制她和一切，
but, um, may as well not even be there at all.
但是，嗯，或许干脆就别提了。 根本不要在场。
Well, perception is reality, so--
嗯，感知。 这就是现实，所以——
Also, I don't get sad.
而且，我不会感到悲伤。
You seem sad right now.
你现在看起来很伤心。
You do seem sad right now.
你现在看起来很伤心。
We're here to talk about how to get you better.
我们今天来这里是为了讨论…… 如何让你变得更好。
All we do is talk about me.
我们整天都在谈论我。
I can be sad. I mean, I'm allowed to be sad, right?
我也会难过。我的意思是， 我可以难过，对吧？
Well, of course.
当然。
But, um, you must know that this is all tangled up together
但是，嗯，你必须知道…… 这一切都纠缠在一起了。
and you of all people should know--
而你，偏偏是这些人！ 应该知道——
I know. I know, but, um...
我知道，我知道，但是，嗯……
this... this isn't how things...
这... 事情并非如此……
...are gonna get better. Um...
情况会好转的。嗯……
GIRL Mommy, please don't cry...
女孩 妈妈，请不要哭……
No, no. I--
不，不。我——
- ...because then I'll cry. -Sweetie.
因为那样我会哭的。 亲爱的。
- She... - Sweetie, it's okay. It's okay.
- 她... 宝贝，没事的，没事的。
We want the tube removed. Now.
我们要求立即取出导管。
-No, you can't kill me! - And to do that, we need...
不，你不能杀我！ 而要做到这一点，我们需要……
No, she won't do what she has to do
不，她不会那样做。 她必须这样做
because she knows that she has this safety net.
因为她知道 她有这张安全网。
Things are not stable enough right now to--
事情并非如此 目前足够稳定，可以——
It's clear that we have different goals.
很明显，我们有 不同的目标。
You want her to get better before the tube can be removed.
你希望她好起来 在拔除导管之前。
I think the tube needs to come out,
我认为管子需要 出来，
and then she can get better.
然后她就能好起来了。
We all have the same goal here.
我们都有 目标相同。
But what I'm learning as we're talking all together
但我正在学习 我们正在一起讨论。
is that you and I need to spend some time, just the two of us,
就是你我需要花时间 有段时间，只有我们两个人，
without her here...
她不在了……
...to talk about some serious issues.
……谈谈一些 严重的问题。
I'm gonna need you to
我需要你
restart the tube feedings at night
重新开始管饲 晚上
and I need you to start doing...
我需要你 开始做……
Did you get the kind with no cheese?
你收到那种了吗？ 不加奶酪吗？
I can't explain this to you every time, sweetie.
我无法向你解释这件事。 每次都是这样，亲爱的。
They would just laugh at me and say it's bread, okay?
他们会嘲笑我。 就说是面包，好吗？
I'll take the cheese off when we get home, of course.
我把奶酪拿掉 当然，等我们到家之后。
Is it the kind with the little
是那种带小
green and black things in the sauce?
绿色和黑色的东西 酱汁里？
It's the same kind we always get.
它是同一种。 我们总是得到。
That kind has the things in the sauce.
那种类型具备那些条件。 在酱汁里。
I can't... I can't eat it.
我吃不下……我吃不下。
Like, can you scrape it off--
比如，你能把它刮掉吗？
Do you even want the tube out or is it just me who wants it out?
你到底想不想把管子取出来？ 难道只有我希望它被删除吗？
You have to be...
你必须是……
Jesus.
耶稣。
Oh, poo.
哦，糟糕。
Oh...
哦...
You got your wish. No cheese.
你的愿望实现了。没有奶酪。
- Did you will that to happen? - Yeah.
——这是你有意为之吗？ - 是的。
Are you some kind of witch or something?
你是某种类型的人吗？ 女巫之类的？
Hey, straight to the table. Actually, no.
嘿，直接进入正题。 实际上，并非如此。
Wash hands first, and then straight to the table.
先洗手， 然后直接到餐桌旁。
I don't have to go to the bathroom though.
我不必去 去洗手间。
No one's making you go to the bathroom.
没人强迫你 去洗手间。
I'm just asking you to wash your hands, please,
我只是问问你。 请洗手。
like we always do.
就像我们一直以来做的那样。
Is Daddy coming? Where's Daddy?
爸爸会来吗？ 爸爸在哪儿？
Uh, he said maybe bedtime.
呃，他说 或许该睡觉了。
When does he go again?
他下次什么时候走？
He just got back, so... in a month?
他刚回来。 所以……一个月后？
Mommy?
妈妈？
Yeah.
是的。
I did have to go to the bathroom.
我不得不这么做。 去洗手间。
Okay.
好的。
This might take a while.
这可能需要一段时间。
Okay.
好的。
Mommy?
妈妈？
Yeah?
是的？
The bathroom has water in it.
浴室 里面含有水。
Okay, well, that's good.
好的，那很好。
No, I mean on the floor.
不，我是说在地板上。
Come quickly!
快来！
Are you coming?
你来吗？
Mommy!
妈妈！
Oh, my God. What?
我的天哪，什么事？
Why didn't you tell me as soon as you came in here?
你为什么不告诉我 你一进来就……
I just noticed...
我刚刚注意到……
because I had to go to the bathroom so bad.
因为我不得不走 去洗手间太难受了。
I don't like how it feels on my socks.
我不喜欢它 感觉袜子上有异样。
Where's it coming from? How deep is it?
它来自哪里？ 有多深？
Are we gonna die?
我们会死吗？
Is the house gonna fall on top of us?
房子会 掉到我们身上？
Mommy?
妈妈？
Can you lift me up and carry me out?
你能把我抱起来吗？ 把我抬出去？
Yep, just stay there, okay? Hold on.
是的，就是这样 待在那儿，好吗？坚持住。
Mom, why are you leaving me? Where are you going?
妈妈，你为什么要离开我？ 你要去哪里？
Just please stay on the toilet, okay?
请你待在厕所里，好吗？
No.
不。
Can you please come...
请您过来一下……
Can you come now?
你现在可以过来吗？
Oh, my...
我的天哪……
Oh...
哦...
...my fucking God.
我的天哪。
Mommy!
妈妈！
Mommy, you're not telling me what it is!
妈妈，你不是 告诉我那是什么！
Mommy!
妈妈！
- What's going on? - What?
- 这是怎么回事？ - 什么？
What's happening, Mom?
妈妈，发生什么事了？
Are we gonna die?
我们会死吗？
-Hey. - Hey, yeah.
-嘿。 - 嘿，是的。
We just got home, and you would not believe--
我们刚到家。 你简直不敢相信——
Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
我的天哪！我的天哪！
No, no, no! Do not come here.
不，不，不！不要来这里。
Do not come in here!
不要进来！
Right now, go, go, go! Right now! Right now!
现在，快走，快走，快走！ 现在！现在！
Go, go, go, go!
快，快，快，快！
Go! Oh, my God!
走！我的天哪！
Nothing is familiar or real.
一切都那么陌生。
Ever.
曾经。
Every time I feel this way I get further and further away
每次我有这种感觉的时候
from being in myself, and, like, I can never get back.
从我自身出发，并且，
When you think about time,
当你思考时间的时候，
how do you see it?
你是怎么看的？
How do I see time?
我如何看待时间？
Um...
一...
Time is a series of things to get through.
时间是一系列事物的集合。
Each goal is a cliff.
每个目标都像一座悬崖。
There's nothing at the end of it,
什么也没有
but then it comes, and there's just another cliff.
但随后，它就来了，
I'm so mad at you!
我真生你的气！
Oh, shit.
妈的。
Yo, you know about holotropic breathing?
哟，你知道的 整体呼吸法？
Mm-mm.
毫米-毫米。
Yo, this shit is lit.
哟，这玩意儿太炸了。
Basically, you trick your brain into thinking it's dead,
基本上，你是在欺骗你的大脑。 让它以为它死了，
and you see the fucking universe.
你看 这该死的宇宙。
You know what I'm saying?
你明白我的意思吗？
So you won't feel paranoia and guilt if something's wrong.
所以你不会感到妄想。 如果出了什么问题，就会感到内疚。
I've got a friend who does Reiki and shit like that.
我有个朋友 会做灵气之类的。
Nah, see what I'm saying? This is like hyperventilating.
你明白我的意思吗？ 这就像过度换气一样。
When you die, they say you let off this chemical.
他们说，人死后会怎样。 你释放出这种化学物质。
And when you're dreaming, you let off the same chemical.
当你做梦的时候， 你释放的是同一种化学物质。
It's sort of like that, you know?
差不多就是这样。 你知道？
You make your brain think it's dead,
你塑造你的大脑 我觉得它已经死了。
but being brain-dead is still alive.
但脑死亡 还活着。
-Holographic breathwork? - Holotropic.
全息呼吸法？ 全向的。
Tropic. Holotropic.
热带的。全向的。
- Is that real? - What?
这是真的吗？ - 什么？
- The... the dead brain thing? - Oh, yeah.
——就是……大脑死亡这件事？ - 哦，是的。
I mean, shit. I guess anything could be real.
我的天哪。 我想任何事都有可能是真的。
I mean, anything could be bullshit too.
我的意思是，任何事 也可能是胡说八道。
You know what I'm saying?
你明白我的意思吗？
But you know that feeling like when you're not...
但你知道那种感觉 比如当你不在的时候……
Yeah.
是的。
Oh, you're making fun of me.
哦，你是在嘲笑我吗？
- Miss, I don't even know you. - Right.
小姐，我根本不认识你。 - 正确的。
Okay. Um, yes on these, but no on the wine.
好的。嗯，是的，这些都对。 但葡萄酒方面没有问题。
Why?
为什么？
The law prohibits me from selling you this wine right now.
法律禁止我 现在就卖给你这瓶酒。
But it isn't even 2:00.
但现在还不到两点。
It's 1:58.
现在是1点58分。
Right, but--
没错，但是——
By the time I ring these up, it will be past two.
等我把这些都打完电话， 到时候肯定已经过两点了。
Huh. Um...
嗯……
I'll just get the peanut butter cups.
我这就去拿 花生酱杯。
You can put them on my room.
你可以把它们放在我的房间里。
Will do.
会做。
I can't talk about this anymore.
我无法说话 不再纠结这件事了。
I'm telling you. Please.
我跟你说，求你了。
Hey, hey. Look, if that's what Dr. Spring thinks is best,
嘿，嘿。听着，如果那是
then we have to listen to Dr. Spring.
那么我们就得听。
There is no "we" though.
但这里并没有“我们”。
It's just me. I... I'm...
只有我一个人。我……我……
- It's not fair. I'm telling you. - Whoa!
这不公平，我跟你说。 哇！
Fair? Listen, I'm working, all right?
公平吗？听着，
I'm dealing with a lot of assholes. You have no idea.
我正在处理很多
And I cannot do anything about
我对此无能为力。
what's going on there from here.
那里发生了什么事？
We need to be a team. You have to go there today
我们需要团结一致。
and check in and let them know
办理入住手续并告知他们
- that this whole thing is not-- - I know. I know.
——整件事并非如此—— 我知道，我知道。
The problem with that logic, though,
这种逻辑的问题在于： 尽管，
is that I'm not a housewife.
因为我不是家庭主妇。
- I work too. - Whoa, whoa, whoa.
我也有工作。 等等，等等，等等。
Mommy, this hotel food is gross.
妈妈， 这家酒店的食物很难吃。
-Good morning. - This is disgusting.
-早上好。 这太恶心了。
Wow.
哇。
You guys look just like twins. Anybody ever tell you that?
你们俩看起来就像双胞胎。 有人跟你说过这话吗？
Uh, no. You're the first person
呃，不。 你是第一个人
to notice and/or say that.
注意到并/或说出来。
Everyone says that.
大家都这么说。
- Hey, cutie. Wanna see a trick? -Yeah.
- 嘿，小可爱。想看个魔术吗？ -是的。
Whoa. How'd you do that?
哇！你是怎么做到的？
Mommy?
妈妈？
You should take it. She's never gonna eat it.
你应该接受它。 她肯定不会吃的。
Okay.
好的。
Am I gonna throw up now?
我现在是不是要吐了？
- Yeah? -You hung up on me.
- 是的？ 你挂断了我的电话。
Look, I know you have a lot on your plate,
我知道你有
but she's getting better,
但她正在好转。
and the rest of it is totally temporary.
以及其余部分
The ceiling will get fixed, I promise.
天花板会修好的。
The sky is not falling. None of this is your fault.
天并没有塌下来。
- I love you. - I'm sorry. I love you too.
- 我爱你。 对不起。我也爱你。
What's so bad about a hotel anyway?
有什么不好的？
And while you're there, take advantage of the pool.
当你在那里的时候，
They got a pool, right?
他们家有游泳池，对吧？
You always said you wish you had a pool,
你总是说你希望
so now you have one.
现在你也有了。
Why don't you go? You can do some laps, lounge a little.
你为什么不去？你可以
Get a floatie. Kick back, get a couple of margarita...
拿个游泳圈，放松一下。
Okay.
好的。
Did you know that you can train hamsters to love you?
你知道你可以吗？ 训练仓鼠爱你？
No.
不。
You can train them to love you.
你可以训练他们爱你。
Well, I would love if you would finish your bacon.
如果你愿意的话，我会非常高兴。 把培根吃完。
That way I can tell everybody you got 100% on breakfast.
那样我就可以告诉大家了。 早餐你得了满分。
And once they love you, you can get them to do everything
一旦他们爱上你，你就可以 让他们做所有事
including tricks.
包括一些小伎俩。
Let's start with one bite.
我们先尝一口吧。
♪ Ring, ding Ring-a-ring-a-ling-dang ♪
♪ 铃，叮
♪ Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang-do ♪
♪ 叮叮当当 ♪
♪ Ring, ling Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang... ♪
♪ 铃，铃
♪ Keeps him from lovin' you ♪
♪ 让他无法爱你 ♪
Is the parking guy gonna get mad again?
停车管理员会 又生气了？
Double-park! Double-park! Double-park!
双排停车！双排停车！ 双排停车！
Okay.
好的。
Gotta be fast. You know what happened last time.
得快点。你知道的。 上次发生了什么？
You've missed the last few weeks of family sessions.
你错过了过去几周。 家庭会议。
Yeah.
是的。
I told you what happened.
我把事情经过告诉你们了。
Our entire ceiling fell down, and with all that chaos,
我们的整个天花板都塌了， 伴随着这一切混乱，
and we're living out of the hotel--
我们正在过着这样的生活 酒店的——
So we need to schedule something as soon as possible
所以我们需要安排一些事情。 尽快地
to talk about her goals and the treatment process.
谈谈她的目标 以及治疗过程。
Yeah. Yeah, okay. Yeah.
嗯。嗯，好的。嗯。
Duh.
喜欢。
Yeah.
是的。
- Mm-hm. - Mm-hm.
嗯。 嗯。
Oh, you meant now? Okay. All right.
哦，你是说现在吗？ 好的。没问题。
Um...
一...
Well, uh, let me look at my schedule.
嗯，让我看看 按我的时间安排。
I should probably do that...
我或许应该那样做……
I know that you already know this,
我知道你已经 记住这一点，
but you can't start letting feelings of guilt and control
但你不能开始放手 内疚感和控制感
about this illness and treatment affect you.
关于这种疾病 治疗会对你产生影响。
It's no one's fault.
这不是任何人的错。
That's right. That's what I keep hearing.
这是正确的。 我一直听到这样的说法。
Also, I really need you to start taking care of yourself.
另外，我真的需要你 开始照顾好自己。
Right. Yes.
对。是的。
No. Put my oxygen mask on first.
不。 我先戴上氧气面罩。
Mm-hm, mm-hm.
毫米-嗯，毫米-嗯。
I'm just gonna have to get blunt here.
我只想…… 直说吧。
So she needs to reach her weight goal in the next week.
所以她需要联系她 下周的体重目标。
If she does that, then we can put tube removal
如果她那样做， 然后我们可以进行导管移除
and discharge dates on the books
出院日期 已登记在册
but if she doesn't do that,
但如果她不那样做，
I'm gonna have to reassess the level of care
我得重新评估一下。 护理水平
because obviously something is not working here,
因为很明显，有些事情 这里行不通。
and this is what I need to talk to you about.
这就是…… 我需要和你谈谈这件事。
When can we sit down properly?
我们什么时候才能好好坐下来？
Yeah, fine. Uh, September 7th.
好的，没问题。呃，9月7日。
It's September 15th.
今天是9月15日。
September 20. I mean, September...
9月20日 我的意思是，九月……
September 20.
9月20日
Hey!
嘿！
Hey! I told you not to do that, and the next time
嘿！我不是告诉过你不要那样做吗？ 下次
I will report you to the building.
我会举报你 到大楼。
You have no authority to report me.
你没有权力 举报我。
You won't be allowed in the lot. I'll have you towed!
你不准进入停车场。 我会叫人把你拖走！
Oh, sure! Call them!
当然可以！给他们打电话！
I'm not in there long enough
我待在里面的时间不够长。
for them to even come!
他们居然会来！
Whatever!
任何！
Asshole.
混蛋。
The apartment is a 30-minute walk,
这套公寓是 步行30分钟，
but it might as well be on Mars.
但它看起来就像是在火星上一样。
And I just, I can't...
我就是，我做不到……
Every time I go check, it looks worse,
每次我去查看的时候， 情况更糟了。
and I... I have no control.
而我……我无能为力。
Have you tried discussing a compromise
你试过吗？ 讨论妥协方案
with your landlord?
你和房东之间有什么关系？
Perhaps they could section off the room with the hole,
或许他们可以划分区域 有洞的房间
then you could live freely in the rest of the apartment.
那样你就能自由自在地生活了。 在公寓的其他地方。
Live freely with asbestos
与石棉和平共处
and 100-year-old dust and black mold spores?
以及百年尘埃 还有黑霉孢子？
That's your advice?
这就是你的建议？
It's not advice. It's a question to consider.
这不是建议。 这是一个值得思考的问题。
I should really show you this hole.
我真的应该展示一下 你这个洞。
It's an entire nightmare on my ceiling.
简直是一场噩梦。 在我的天花板上。
When does Charles return?
查尔斯何时返回？
This is week three of eight.
这是为期八周的第三周。
I mean, you should know that. Don't you write things down?
我的意思是，你应该知道这一点。 你难道不把事情写下来吗？
It's your job to remember
你有责任记住这一点。
the boring details of my fucking life.
枯燥的细节 我他妈的人生。
We do have to stop now. We are out of time.
我们必须就此打住。 时间不多了。
I have another patient coming, so...
我还有另一个 病人来了，所以……
Wait, now?
等等，现在？
What about the ten-minute warning?
那么…… 提前十分钟警告？
Yeah, I just wasn't paying attention.
是啊，我当时就是不在。 认真听讲。
You didn't respond to the email that I sent you about my dream.
你没有回复这封邮件。 我之前发给你的那封关于我的梦境的信。
I don't respond to my client's dream emails.
我没有回应 致我客户的梦想邮件。
Okay. So, if you don't bring it up,
好的。所以，如果你 别提这件事了。
then what is the point?
那还有什么意义呢？
Okay. Uh, you got me.
好吧。呃，你赢了。
I had a dream, and I need to talk about it today,
我做了一个梦，我需要 今天就来谈谈这件事吧。
and I didn't get any time
我根本没时间
because you didn't give me a warning.
因为你没有 请给我一个警告。
We can discuss the dream you emailed next session.
我们可以讨论这个梦 您已通过邮件告知下次会议安排。
Well, it's actually a different dream.
其实， 另一个梦。
- Well, I don't really-- - About you.
嗯，我其实不太—— 关于你。
- Okay, quickly. - Okay.
好的，快点。 - 好的。
I was in a hospital day room
我当时在医院的日间病房
or a recreation room or something,
或娱乐室 或者别的什么，
and I knew my daughter was also in the hospital
我认识我的女儿 当时也在医院
but... but far away, another part,
但是……但是很远的地方， 另一部分，
and it didn't look like the hospital
而且看起来不像 医院
she was in last year, though,
她去年就参加了。
when everything happened. It was different. It was weird.
一切发生的时候。 感觉不一样，很奇怪。
And I was waiting for Charles to come get me,
我一直在等查尔斯。 来接我，
so we could pick her up
这样我们就可以去接她了。
but instead, you were there,
但你却在那里。
and you wanted to sit really close to me.
你想坐下来 跟我很亲近。
And I was, like, inching away from you on the bench
我当时就像是慢慢地、一点点地远离。 来自替补席上的你
and you kept inching closer.
你一步步靠近。
And I got my phone out to text Charles
我拿到了我的手机 给查尔斯发短信
'cause I was nervous he'd come in and he'd see
因为我担心他会 进来后他就会看到
and then you tried to grab the phone
然后你试过了 去拿手机
and then you started to tickle me...
然后你就开始了 挠我痒痒……
...to try to get me to drop it,
……试图让我放弃这个想法，
and I was, like...
我当时就想……
I was really enjoying it,
我真的很享受这个过程。
but I was so scared that Charles would come in and he would see.
但我当时非常害怕查尔斯 他会进来，然后看到。
All right.
好的。
Okay?
好的？
All right. You got to tell me.
好吧，你得告诉我。
We'll talk about it next time.
我们下次再谈。
Okay?
好的？
We won't talk about it next time.
我们不会 下次再谈吧。
You know that.
你知道的。
There's no thread. There's no thread at all.
没有主题。 根本没有线索。
Yes? What now?
是的？ 接下来怎么办？
MAN Hi, yes. So sorry.
男人 你好，是的。非常抱歉。
Have to leave. Stop work.
必须离开。停止工作。
Uh, what?
呃，什么？
Mother died. I have to leave. Work is going to take longer.
母亲去世了。我必须离开。
Uh, okay, uh, just--
呃，好吧，呃，只是——
I'll be one second.
我马上就来。
Okay, what is the issue then? Can you tell me?
好的，那问题到底是什么？ 你能告诉我吗？
This has been going on for so long.
这件事已经持续很久了。 这么久了。
Do I need to get a new contractor?
我需要获得 新的承包商？
It spread.
它蔓延开来。
Uh, it's full. It's very full, you understand? Very full.
呃，满了。非常满了。
It spread?
它传播开来了？
Not easy to explain. Not my language.
很难解释。
¡Yo hablo español! Explícame en tu idioma, ¡lo entenderé!
我会说西班牙语！请给我解释一下。
Sorry, but I don't understand those words.
抱歉，但我没有
How long will you be grieving for your mother?
你会悲伤多久？ 给你母亲？
I don't say. I don't know. I can't say.
我不说。我不知道。
Look, I need a date, okay? It needs to be fixed.
听着，我需要约会，好吗？ 需要修复。
Just give me a date. My husband and I will be returning to--
告诉我个日期就行了。我丈夫 我将会返回——
I'll be back, one week.
我一周后回来。
Okay, well, fine. I'm going to be going there
好吧，行。 我要去那里。
and checking on what you have done so far,
并进行检查 你目前为止所做的一切
and I'm going to be taking pictures, and I--
我将会是 拍照，而我——
Vete a la mierda, el cabrón.
下地狱吧，你这混蛋。
I can see you now.
我现在能看到你了。
I'm really happy to hold this silent space for you but...
我很高兴能拥有这个 为你留出一片静谧的空间，但是……
...as usual, I am curious as to
和往常一样，我很好奇……
what you might be thinking about.
你可能是 正在思考。
Riley.
莱利。
That's all I can think about.
我满脑子都是这件事。
Tell me what's going on.
告诉我发生了什么事。
Well, I...
嗯，我……
I keep telling you, it's--
我一直跟你说，这是——
It's like I keep saying to his doctor, he--
就像我一直说的那样 他对医生说——
He doesn't smile. He--
他不笑。他——
He looks at me weirdly,
他用一种奇怪的眼神看着我，
and he's just very uncomfortable all of the time,
他非常 一直感到不舒服，
and... and no one will do anything about it.
而且……而且没人会这么做 关于这件事的任何事。
You know what I would love
你知道我最想要什么吗？
and what I think would be extremely helpful
我认为应该是 非常有帮助
is if you could come to a session without Riley.
如果你能来的话 去参加一个没有Riley的会议。
I think it would be...
我觉得应该是……
- I know you think you can't-- - No, I can't.
我知道你认为自己做不到—— 不，我不能。
But I think if you got a sitter who you trusted, who you could--
但我觉得如果你能找到保姆的话…… 你信任的人，你可以——
Did you hear about that nanny in New York?
你听说过那个保姆的事吗？ 在纽约？
The mom came home from work,
妈妈下班回家了，
and the nanny had stabbed
保姆刺伤了
both of her kids to death in the bathtub.
她的两个孩子都死了 在浴缸里。
That is real. That happened.
这是真的，这件事确实发生过。
A situation like that is very, very, very unusual, okay?
这种情况是 非常非常非常不寻常，明白吗？
Most people have caregivers
大多数人都有照顾者。
- who can trust that... - I can't.
谁能相信这一点呢…… 我不能。
Well, I... I believe you can.
嗯，我……我相信你可以。
I just think you don't want to or you're afraid
我只是觉得你不想…… 或者你害怕
so let's stick to some practical--
所以咱们坚持下去 对某些实际而言——
I need to protect him.
我必须保护他。
From something specific?
源自某个特定事物？
Because something very bad is happening.
因为某些事 情况非常糟糕。
I'm so... Can I just-- One second. I just have to...
我真是……我能……吗？ 稍等一下。我得……
This could be about my daughter. I'm... I'm so sorry.
这可能与我女儿有关。 我……我非常抱歉。
Um...
一...
Yeah. Look, look, I-- I'm not Riley's doctor
是的。听着，听着，我—— 我不是莱利的医生
so I can't speak to what may or may not be going on with him.
所以我无法评论可能发生的事情。 或者可能不会和他继续下去。
We can only talk about your feelings
我们只能说说而已。 关于你的感受
about what you perceive is going on with Riley,
关于你所感知的 Riley那边发生了什么事？
which is why I do believe medication can be--
这就是我为什么相信 药物治疗可能是——
I'm not perceiving it.
我没感觉到。
It is happening.
这正在发生。
And I feel awful about it.
我对此感到非常难过。
Okay, listen.
好的，听着。
When you're having these feelings of deep panic
当你…… 这种深深的恐慌感
at home with Riley,
在家和Riley在一起，
just put him in his crib or carrier or somewhere safe...
把他放在婴儿床里就行了。 托运人或安全的地方……
...and draw a bath.
然后放好洗澡水。
Just breathe until your heart isn't racing anymore,
深呼吸，直到你 心跳不再加速了。
come out and get dressed,
出来穿好衣服，
start the day over again...
新的一天重新开始……
...put on some real clothes.
穿上像样的衣服。
These feelings that you're experiencing
这些感觉 你正在经历
they are... they're very, very, very scary.
他们是…… 它们非常、非常、非常可怕。
Okay? And very dark.
好吗？而且很暗。
And that's why you need to keep moving.
这就是原因。 你需要不断前进。
You need to keep going.
你需要坚持下去。
You need to be busy.
你需要让自己忙起来。
You can't sit inside the fear
你不能一直沉浸在恐惧之中。
and doubt
以及怀疑