爱情生活 第一季 第七集
最近 达比进入了 Recently, Darby had entered
一段和自己的情感关系 an emotional relationship with herself
以及和一个 and a physical one
智能踏板车初创公司的码农恋爱 with a coder from an e-scooter startup.
埃兹拉长得很帅 Ezra had a good face
没有个性 and zero personality,
这正好合她意 which suited her perfectly.
我得休息一下 抱歉 Um, I just need to stop for a second. Sorry.
你还好吗 Are you okay?
大多数人跟我说我床技很好 Most people tell me I'm really good at that.
没错 真的很好 You are. It's very good.
我只是觉得 Um, I just feel like, um,
有点不太对劲 something's just a little off
我想留下一点神秘 and I just wanna, like, leave a little mystery, you know?
所以我 So, um, I'm gonna--
我会联系你的 I'm gonna call you.
达比 很高兴你来电 Darby, I'm so glad you called.
我打扫了一天的房子 I've been cleaning out the house all day.
我决定来一次情绪净化 I've decided to do an emotional purge
我需要知道你想让我 and I need to know what you want me to do
怎么处理你的豆豆娃 about your Beanie Babies.
妈妈 Mom?
一切可好 Is everything okay?
都很好 Yeah, everything's fine.
我想跟你说 Um, I wanted to tell you
我马上就要切除阑尾了 I'm about to have my appendix out.
我要去吗 Should I come out there?
不 不 No. Um, no.
我跟萨拉在一起 I'm with Sara. She's here.
也许吧 Um...maybe.
如果不太麻烦的话 Yeah, if it's not too much.
好 我尽快赶过来 Okay, I'll get there as soon as I can.
你不会有事的 好吗 我爱你 You're gonna be okay, okay? I love you.
谢谢 我爱你 妈妈 Thanks. Um, I love you, Mom.
-拜拜 -好 - Bye. - Okay.
七 克劳迪娅·霍夫曼
跟马格努斯分手后六个月
人人都以为我是个傻瓜 I mean, everyone thought I was an idiot
因为吉姆想要安定下来 because Jim wanted to lock it down.
-我想要把椅子放到那幅画下 -好 - I want this chair to live under those pictures. - Oh, okay.
婚姻不代表任何事 I mean, marriage doesn't mean anything.
我嫁给了两个 I was married to two babies
-伪装成成人的宝宝 -嗯 - masquerading as adults. - Okay.
看看达比和马格努斯 I mean, look at what happened with, uh--
-之间发生了什么 -天 - with Darby and Magnus. - Oh, God.
结果发现他是个让人失望的混蛋 I mean, what a disappointing asshole he turned out to be.
-我得去小便 -过来 - I just need to pee. - Okay, come here.
-我扶你 -妈 天啊 - Let me carry you. - Oh, Mom, oh, my God.
-你在干什么 -我扶你进去 - What are you doing? - I'm gonna carry you in there.
不不 你在 No, no, no. What are you--
你让我更难受了 Ow, you're making it so much worse.
-我的天 -冷静 冷静 - Oh, my God. - Okay, calm down. Calm down.
-你们需要帮忙吗 -不 - Do you guys need help? - No.
只是得去小便 Just gonna go have a little tinkle.
抱歉你得大老远过来帮我 I'm sorry you had to come all the way out here to help me.
我不是必须 是我自己想过来 Oh, I didn't have to, I wanted to.
不管你信不信 两者区别大了 And there's a big difference, believe it or not.
我在心理治疗里的一个目标 One of my goals in therapy right now
就是试图花更多时间陪我爱的人 is to try to be more present with the people I love.
莎娜想要让我明白 Shana is trying to get me to understand
人际关系就是交换 relationships are exchanges, right?
空杯子里可倒不出东西 I mean, you can't pour from an empty cup.
嗯 Right.
抱歉 我好像忘了怎么撒尿了 Sorry, I think I forgot how to pee.
那是因为麻醉剂 Oh, you know what? That's because of the anesthesia.
我做了子宫切除后 也小便困难 Same thing happened to me after my hysterectomy.
别用力 不然你会像我一样撕裂你的缝线 Don't push or you'll rip your stitches out like I did.
我下巴上长了一根很硬的毛 I got this one wiry chin hair
我发誓 隔夜就会长回来 and I swear, it grows back overnight.
亲爱的 我得尿尿 快 Okay, honey, now I have to go. Come on, hurry.
-我得尿尿 我得尿尿 -好 -快点 - I gotta go, I gotta go, I gotta go. - Okay. - Come on.
我能偷点这个吗 Hey, can I steal some of this?
当然 Yeah, of course.
我得去跟一个来自多伦多 I have to go meet this 17-year-old YouTube star
名叫痞子DJ的17岁YouTube红人见面 from Toronto named DJ Fuckboy.
不 No.
音乐的未来很暗淡 The future of music is bleak, dude.
见面完后你要回来吗 Are you gonna come back after that?
我回不来 No, I can't.
我得去地狱厨房参加一个演出 I have to go to this show in Hell's Kitchen.
等等 所以你要留我独自和克劳迪娅相处吗 Wait, so you're gonna leave me alone with Claudia?
她很冷静啊 I mean, she's keeping it pretty even keel.
但只有我俩的时候 我会变成 But I turn into, like, the most obnoxious
最令人讨厌的14岁的我 14-year-old version of myself when we're alone.
拜托留下 做和事老 Please stay and be a buffer.
她爱你 所以对大家都好 She loves, you, so it's like win for everybody.
你应该感激她 You know, you should just be grateful that she, like,
想要来陪你 wants to be here for you.
我都不知道我妈住在哪 I mean, I don't even know where my mom lives.
她害怕给我打电话 She's afraid to call me
因为她觉得税务局会用手机信号 'cause she thinks the IRS is gonna use the cell signal
来追踪她 to track her down.
抱歉 我不发牢骚了 I'm sorry, I'll stop bitching.
没事 No, it's okay.
我不是有意要羞辱你的 我现在心情很怪 I didn't meant to shame you. I'm in a really weird mood.
我不 I don't--
我觉得我真的搞砸了我和吉姆的关系 I think I really fucked things up with Jim.
拜托 No, come on.
你们能和好的 你该联系他 You guys can work it out. You should reach out.
我只是很想他 I just really miss him a lot.
我真的 Yeah, I know.
好了 我得闪了 Ugh, okay, I gotta roll.
但我要在上路前吃点维他命 But I am gonna bum some vitamins for the road.
吃吧 Go for it.
我爱你 达比 I love you, Darby.
我也爱你 I love you too.
你随时可以给我打电话 You know, you can call me anytime.
谢谢 再见 Yeah, thanks. I'll see you.
再见 女王 Bye, queen.
保重 萨拉 我该怎么做 用这个吗 Take care, Sara. What do I do, this?
-嗯 -对吗 - Yeah. - Is that right?
对 真棒 女王 Yes! Yes, queen.
拜拜 Bye.
那个萨拉是个好朋友 That Sara's a good friend.
真希望我能有个萨拉这样的朋友 I wish I had a Sara.
你感觉怎么样 How are you feeling?
-你饿吗 -不 - Are you hungry? - Not really.
要吃花生酱果酱三明治吗 How about a peanut butter and jelly?
亲爱的 别把花生酱放在火炉上面 Honey, don't store your peanut butter over the stove,
因为气温上升 because the heat rises
就会熔化罐子里的塑料 and you can melt the plastic in the jar, okay?
就会把毒素溶解到你的大脑里 And that--that leaches toxins straight into your brain.
你有听到马格努斯的消息吗 Do you ever hear anything about Magnus?
这个 Well...
我听说他在我们分手三个月后 I heard that he was, like, living with this woman
和一个女人同居了 three months after we split.
棒不棒 Right?
他这么快就翻篇肯定让你很伤心吧 That must've hurt to have him move on so fast.
他把你挟持为人质 After he all but held you hostage
夺走了你最美好的年华 and took your best years.
至少和你爸在一起 我有了你 At least with your dad, I got you.
妈 就两年而已 没什么 Mom, it was two years. It's not a big deal.
重要的两年 Two important ones.
我觉得你需要再次回到情场 Well, I just--I think you need to just get back out there
认识新的人 玩一玩 and meet somebody new and have some fun.
我现在很开心啊 I'm having fun.
我在跟一个人交往 叫埃兹拉 I'm actually seeing this guy, Ezra.
来这里坐坐 Okay, come on and sit in here now
看看我最近在弄的一个风水项目 and take a look at this little feng shui project I've been working on.
-我来帮你 -没事 妈 没事 - Let me help you. - Oh, it's okay, Mom. It's okay, it's okay.
-亲爱的 我大老远过来 让我帮你 -好 - Honey, I came all this way. Let me help you. If-- - Great.
你可以靠在我身上 You can lean on me.
-很不错啊 -是吗 - Looks great in here. - Yeah?
你喜欢吗 你觉得那边那个桌子怎么样 Do you like it? What do you think of that little table over there?
-很酷 真的很酷 -是吧 - It's cool. It's really cool. - Right?
看看我们 两个离异人士 Look at us. Just a couple of divorcees.
挺有趣的 It's kind of fun.
让我想起了 It reminds me
那次我们和你的女童子军军队去大熊市 of the time we went to Big Bear with your Girl Scout troop.
记得我们当时玩得多开心吗 Remember what a good time we had, hmm?
我中了毒藤毒的时候 When I got poison ivy?
你没有中毒藤毒 达比 Oh, you did not get poison ivy, Darby.
你起了痱子 You got heat rash.
不 你说我起了痱子 No, you said I had heat rash
因为你不想错过骑马 because you didn't want to miss the horseback riding.
因为那是你唯一想做的活动 Because that was the only activity you wanted to do.
你害怕绳索课 You were scared of the ropes course,
你不想到湖里去 并不是我怪你 you didn't want to go in the lake, not that I blame you,
那水看着很臭 that water did look very funky.
谢谢让我想起了这些事 Well, thanks for reminding me of all that,
因为我本来都完全忘记了 'cause I had managed to block it out of my memory completely.
是吗 我以为你很喜欢 我就很喜欢 You did? I thought you loved it. I loved it.
我感觉 I felt so...
和你增进了感情 你跟我如胶似漆 bonded to you. You were glued to my hip.
妈 Mom.
这话真感人 That's nice.
我都不知道 I didn't know that.
我有跟你说珍妮特外婆 Did I tell you that Grandma Janet
被健身房里一个教练勾搭了吗 got propositioned by a trainer at Equinox?
那是好事啊 Well, I mean, good for Grandma, right?
我也是这么说的 Well, that's what I said.
如果我妈妈仍然能吸引男人 If my mother can still attract male attention,
那我还有什么借口 then what the hell's my excuse?
看看我做了什么 So look what I did.
我的天 妈 你在用Tinder吗[约会应用] Oh, my God, Mom, are you on Tinder?
Tinder有点硬核 Tinder's, like, kinda hardcore.
你不用和你在Tinder上 Well, you don't have to have sex with every person
认识的每个人做爱 达比 you meet on Tinder, Darby.
-你可以只去喝杯咖啡 -我知道 我不 - You can just go and get a cup of coffee. - I know that. I'm not--
我知道约会应用怎么操作 我不用 I know how a dating app works. I'm not doing that.
抱歉 我要去睡一会儿 我有点累 Sorry, I'm gonna take a nap, I think. I'm just tired.
谢谢你重新布置了家具 妈 And thank you for the thing with the furniture, Mom.
要不你躺在沙发上 Okay, why don't you lay down on the couch
我们一起看《美国之声》吧 and we can catch up on "The Voice?"
不 我眼睛都睁不开了 Oh, no, I don't think I can even keep my eyes open.
好吧 那我看书 Okay, all right, well-- well, I'll read, okay?
你靠在我身上 And you just-- you just snuggle up.
快 我们互相取暖 Come on, we'll keep each other warm.
-我不会发出任何声音的 -好 - I won't make a peep. Come on. - Okay.
-好了 -还有毯子 - There we go. - And the blanket.
你有听说过布林·布朗吗 Have you ever heard of Brené Brown?
我在看她的书 它们帮助我 I'm reading her books and they've really helped me
明白了我的离婚 make sense of my divorce.
-我把书留在这儿 -好 - I'm gonna leave them here for you. - Okay.
她研究耻辱和脆弱 She's a shame and vulnerability researcher.
这有多酷啊 How cool is that?
我是吉姆 请留言 Hey, it's Jim. Please leave me a message.
语音信箱已满 The mailbox is full
本次无法再接收信息 and cannot accept any messages at this time.
-再见 -该死 - Good-bye. - God damn it.
不 Oh, no!
我操 Motherfuck!
该死 Shit.
早上好 美女 Good morning, sunshine.
亲爱的 对不起 是我吵醒你了吗 Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. Did I wake you up?
没事 反正我也得起了 It's okay, um, I needed to get up anyway.
我有很多工作要做 I have a lot of work to do.
我可是告诉我办公室 Oh, well, I told my office, I said,
"我在我闺女家的这段时候 别给我打电话" "Don't even think about calling me while I'm here."
我有五年没休过假了 I haven't taken vacation in five years.
-亲爱的 你的暖气开着呢吗 -是 我冻死了 - Honey, is your heat on? - Yeah, I was freezing.
你需要多长点肉 Well, you need more meat on your bones.
好吧 Okay.
好了 拿这条毯子给你裹上 All right, let's wrap you up in this blanket here.
不 妈 我不要留着这条毯子 Oh, no, Mom, I don't keep this blanket out.
这毯子很漂亮 This is a beautiful blanket.
妈 那是马格努斯的 我要扔掉 Mom, this was Magnus's. I'm getting rid of this.
收到 Roger that.
天呐 Oh, goodness.
如果你真想好了 Well, now, if you're sure
不要这条毯子了 that this is something that you're not gonna want,
我打赌亨特肯定想要 I bet Hunter would love to have it.
你最近跟亨特说过话吗 Have you spoken to Hunter recently?
他不回我短信 He doesn't answer my texts.
天啊 还好不光是无视我 Oh, my God. I'm so relieved it's not just me.
我很担心他 I have been so worried about him
自从他从纽约大学辍学之后 since he dropped out of NYU.
现在 Right now,
他正睡在 he's sleeping in a hammock
布什米尔还是哪里的合作社 in some co-op in Bushmills or some place.
布什维克 妈 Bushwick, Mom.
随便了 他正... Whatever. He's just, you know,
浪费着最宝贵的年华 wasting the most important years of his life
跟一帮嗑药的气候变化活动分子笨蛋鬼混 with a bunch of climate change activist stoner bozos.
妈 你可以放松点 你没在上班 Mom, you can relax, you know? You're not on the clock.
亲爱的 你知道我坐不住 Oh, honey, you know that I can't sit still.
这些照片是留着还是扔掉 Now, um, these pictures here, are these keep or toss?
小心点 妈 拜托了 Oh, careful with those, Mom, please?
那些是工作用的 Those are prints for work.
罗拉一会过来把那些裱框 Lola's coming by to take them to the framer.
你要把那些裱起来吗 You're gonna frame these?
有什么问题吗 What's wrong with them?
这就是好多无谓的裸体 不是吗 There's just a lot of gratuitous nudity, wouldn't you say?
那些是挑选过的 Well, those are the selects
准备在罗拉的画廊举办的展览展出的 for the show that I'm curating at Lola's gallery.
-什么展览 -我跟你说过 - Oh, what show? - I told you about it.
我为此准备了两个月了 I've been working on it for, like, two months.
这些作品都是女性认同主义摄影师的作品 All the pieces are by female-identifying photographers.
我以为你在那个 Yeah, I just--I thought things were going so well
贵死人的茶杯店干得挺顺利呢 at that million-dollar teacup place.
是挺顺利 They were.
我就是想要更多的自主权 这是我第一个展览 I wanted more autonomy and this is my first show.
对我来说挺重要的 This is kind of a big deal for me.
如果你开心 那我就为你开心 亲爱的 Oh, well, if you're happy, honey, then I am happy for you.
好的 Okay.
你也可以为我骄傲 因为展出很不错 You can be proud of me, too, 'cause it's good.
我是很骄傲 当你说 No, I am proud. Now, when you say, um,
女性认同的时候 female-identifying,
这也包括女同性恋和变性人吗 does that include lesbians and transsexuals?
跨性别女性 没错 Transgender women, yes.
女同性恋也是女人 And lesbians are also women, so--
好吧 我在想什么 Okay, what am I thinking of?
-我不知道 -你知道 - I don't know. - Yes, you do.
就像你爸的妹妹 雪莉 You know, like your dad's sister, Sherry.
-布奇 -对 现在的布奇[爷们的]- Butch? - Yes, butch.
好了 我要去洗个澡 Okay, I'm gonna take a shower.
罗拉 Uh, Lola,
我觉得你被切尔西市场糊弄了 I think you were duped by the Chelsea Market.
这里面干草比吃的还多 There's more hay in here than food.
干杯 Cheers.
达比嗑了二类毒品呢 Darby here is on Schedule II narcotics,
所以她今天不喝酒了 so she won't be imbibing today.
你还真了解些了不起的药品知识啊 克劳迪娅 That is some deep pharma knowledge you got there, Claudia.
任何养大青少年的称职母亲 Oh, any good mother who's raised teenagers
都对各种毒品如数家珍 knows her xannies from her oxys.
露比才四岁 You know, Ruby's only four
我已经在担心她青春期什么样了 and I'm already dreading her teen years.
达比当时挺乖的 Darby here was pretty good,
不过什么事她都小题大做 but, yeah, everything was the end of the world for her.
她现在还不是很棒 Well, she turned out fabulously.
她对艺术很有品味 I mean, she's got a great eye for art.
确实是 不是吗 She does, doesn't she?
达比一直是我有创造力的那个孩子 Darby was always my creative child.
罗拉 我们还展阿扎德的作品吗 Lola, do we still feel good about Azadeh's stuff?
嗯 Yeah.
我觉得它们很有意思 I think they're very interesting.
之前你说没必要 Earlier you said it was gratuitous.
不 我... No, I--
我在开玩笑 达比 你太敏感了 I was just kidding. Darby, you are so sensitive.
你知道我以前上大学时做过裸模吗 Do you know that I used to do some nude modeling in college?
妈 我没敏感 我只是压力很大 Mom, I'm not sensitive. I just--I'm stressed.
我们一周内就要展览了 而我... We have a show in a week and I just--
现在不能一切都围着你转 just everything can't be about you right now.
我需要集中精力 I just need to focus.
我就留你们忙吧 I'll let you girls do your thing.
我去杂货店一趟 I'm gonna swing by the grocery.
街角有家杂货店 There's a bodega on the corner.
那种地方不卫生的 Those places aren't sanitary.
我要去全食超市 I'm gonna go to Whole Foods.
"咻斯顿街"上有一家 They have one on "Hyooston."
-豪斯顿街还挺远的 妈 -我需要运动一下 - Houston's kind of far, Mom. - Well, I need the exercise.
你需要导航什么的吗 Do you need directions or something?
不用 我坐地铁橙线去 No, I take the Orange Line.
你不是唯一一个知道 You're not the only one
如何在大城市里穿行的人 达比 who knows how to navigate a big city, Darby,
罗拉 认识你很高兴 Lola, it was just wonderful to meet you.
我也很高兴认识你 克劳迪娅 It was great meeting you too, Claudia.
至少拿上我的地铁卡吧 Will you at least take my MetroCard?
抱歉 她真的快把我逼疯了 Sorry, she just makes me fucking crazy.
达比的出生不在计划中 Darby was not a planned pregnancy.
克劳迪娅也一样 Neither was Claudia.
克劳迪娅的母亲16岁时就怀孕了 Claudia's mother had gotten pregnant at 16,
尽管她男朋友曾怂恿她 and despite the fact that her boyfriend had urged her
"把事情处理好" to "just take care of it",
此后不久 他们的女儿克劳迪娅就出生了 their daughter Claudia was born shortly thereafter.
家里几乎被怨气充满了 The home was mostly filled with resentment
等到克劳迪娅十岁的时候 and by the time Claudia was 10 years old,
她母亲搬去了房子后面的 her mother had moved into a private room
一个私人房间 at the back of the house.
小克劳迪娅基本上只能自己照顾自己了 Little Claudia was mostly left to fend for herself.
但是她把对爱深深的渴望 But she carried the longing for love heavy in her body
带进了她特有的母爱中 and into her own particular brand of mothering.
-我需要帮助 -好的 你需要什么帮助 - I need help. - Okay, okay, what do you need help with?
深呼吸 保持冷静 Deep breaths. Just stay calm.
你想去哪里 Where do you want to go?
尼科莱特 生日快乐 Nicolette. Happy goddamn birthday.
恭喜你满30岁了 Congrats on the big 3-0!
-萨拉 -你好呀 - Sara, wow. - Hi.
你好 好久不见了 Oh, wow. Hi. It's...been a while.
是啊 我给你带了个礼物 Yeah. Oh, I brought you a gift.
没有包装 不过反正你都要把包装拆了的 It's not wrapped, but you were just gonna unwrap it anyway,
所以我省了一颗树 so I saved a tree.
挺好 Cool.
你要喝点什么吗还是别的 Can I get you a drink or something?
-来杯啤酒就好 或者龙舌兰酒 -好的 - Yeah, a beer would be great. Or tequila. - Sure, yeah.
有什么地方可以放我的外套吗 Um, is there a place I can put my jacket?
当然 Uh, sure, yeah.
放里面床上就好了 Just, uh, on the bed in there is great.
好的 Okay, cool.
很抱歉 我没有邀请她来 I'm so sorry, I didn't invite her.
我不知道她想干什么 I have no idea what she's doing.
-萨拉 -天啊 詹姆斯 你好 - Sara. - Oh, my God, James. Hi!
你来这里到底想干什么 What the hell are you doing here?
我来给尼科莱特庆生 I'm celebrating Nicolette's birthday.
你是在开玩笑吗 不 你是来砸场子的 Are you kidding? No, you're crashing it.
你说什么 What?
不 她邀请我了 No, she invited me.
请不要 真的不要这样 Please don't. Just don't--don't do that.
老天 好吧 Oh, my God. Fine.
你忘了改你的无纸化邮政密码 You forgot to change your Paperless Post password.
还是锡拉库扎环420 It's still SyracuseHoops420.
所以你现在真的开始跟踪我了是吗 Okay, so you're literally stalking me right now?
我是说 你知道这有多不正常吗 I mean, d-do you have any idea how insane that is?
宝贝 对不起 Baby, I'm sorry.
我只是想联系上你 I was just trying to get in touch with you.
你不接我的电话 You haven't picked up any of my calls
也不回我的信息 or returned any of my texts.
是的 因为我们分手了 Yeah, because we broke up.
我知道 但是 I know, but
我一直在想这个问题 而且 I've been thinking about it and
我不知道 我觉得新泽西可能也不错 I don't know, I think that New Jersey could be cool.
也许我们应该要孩子 Like, maybe we should have kids.
老天 Jesus Christ.
怎么了 What?
你为什么要这样 Why are you doing this?
我是认真的 I'm being serious.
不 萨拉 你不想搬去新泽西 No, Sara, you don't want to move to New Jersey.
就算你真的想搬过去 Even if you did want to move there,
我们早就过了谈这个的时候了 you know, we're so far past that at this point.
我并不这么认为 See, I don't think we are.
你不明白这一点 很抱歉 你真的不明白 You're not getting it. I'm sorry, you're just not.
拜托 宝贝 我很想你 Look, come on, baby. I miss you a lot.
而且我觉得我们能解决问题的 And I think we could fix things.
我并不想解决 I don't want to fix things.
我花了很长时间来思考这个问题 Look, I've had a lot of time to think about this, okay,
它让我很心碎 and it breaks my heart,
但是现在我们已经不是同路人了 but we are just on different paths right now.
比如 我想要承担起责任 Like, I'm looking to embrace responsibility, okay?
而你只想放荡不羁爱自由 对吧 And you want to, like, set it on fire, right?
好像这对你来说没有任何意义 Like, it doesn't mean anything to you.
你不用表现得这么混蛋 吉姆 Okay, well, you don't have to be a dick, Jim.
我们还是可以做朋友的 We can still be fucking friends.
不 我们做不了朋友 No, we can't.
至少现在不行 Not right now.
也许以后 我不 Maybe later, I don't--
我不知道 I don't know.
好吧随便吧 我该走了 Okay, whatever. I should go.
不 萨拉 我很抱歉 No, Sara, I'm sorry.
吉姆 我大学时确实堕过胎 所以去你妈的 And Jim, I did have an abortion in college, so fuck you.
出什么事了 怎么这么久 What happened? What took you so long?
我去了布鲁克林 I went to Brooklyn.
你说什么 You what?
这些花是哪儿来的 Where did those flowers come from?
爸爸送来的 是不是很贴心 Oh, Dad sent them. Wasn't that sweet?
真是个英雄啊 What a hero.
妈妈 你怎么去了布鲁克林 Well, Mom, how did you end up in Brooklyn?
地铁去了反方向 The train went the wrong way.
好吧 Okay...
我恐慌发作 I had a panic attack
我没有带大麻二酚 and I did not travel with my CBD
因为我不知道这里的法律是怎样的 because I didn't know what the laws were here.
你怎么不给我打电话 Well, why didn't you just call me?
你干嘛生我气 Why are you mad at me?
只能我生你气 I get to be mad at you.
要不是你对我这么刻薄 If you hadn't been so ugly to me,
我们本可以一起去的 we could've gone together.
我还在手术恢复期 I'm recovering from surgery.
你迷路不是我的错 It's not my fault that you got lost.
你迷路是因为你不听 You got lost because you don't listen.
你从来不听任何人 You don't listen to anyone ever.
达比 我放下了生活里的一切 Darby, I dropped everything in my life
就为了来陪你 so that I could be here for you
因为我知道当你经历困难时期时 because I know what it's like to be alone and with nobody
孤身一人是什么滋味 when you're going through a terrible time.
如果你想陪我 If you want to be here for me,
你就得真的陪我 you have to be here for me.
你不能过来让我的生活变得更加艰难 You can't come and make my life harder than it already is.
我怎么让你生活更艰难了 How am I making your life harder?
我们各自给对方一点空间吧 好吗 Okay, let's just take some space, okay? Okay?
不不 我懂 我是个糟糕的母亲 No, no, no, I get it. I'm a terrible mother.
达比永远不会看她妈妈留给她的书 Darby would never pick up the books her mother left behind,
但要是她读了 她或许会读到一段话 but if she had, she might have read a passage that said
当带着怜悯之心审视的时候 自恋 that narcissism, when examined with compassion,
是一种特征 源于感觉自己不够特别 is a trait that comes from not feeling special enough
配不上爱 归属感或者使命感 to deserve love, belonging, or a sense of purpose.
该死 Oh, shit.
亨特 Hunter?
亲爱的 你怎么样 Hi, sweetie. How are you?
你能给我指下怎么去中城吗 Would you mind giving me directions to Midtown?
-妈 -我要去希尔顿 - Mom. - I need to get to the Hilton.
-别去酒店 -已经订好了 - Don't go to a hotel. - It's already done.
我用信用卡积分订的 没法退 I booked it with my credit card points and I can't get them back.
妈 昨天的事我很抱歉 Mom, I am very sorry about yesterday.
我在经历很多 I'm going through a lot.
跟马格努斯在一起 然后离婚 You know, being with Magnus and divorcing Magnus--
你住在一个陵墓里 Well, you're living in a mausoleum.
这可帮不到你 And that doesn't help.
房租稳定 而这 It's rent-stabilized, which is--
我很感激你过来帮我 I'm really grateful that you came out here to help me
真的 我只想好好享受我们剩下的在一起的时间 and really, I just want to enjoy the rest of the time that we have
因为知道我们这样相聚的机会不多 'cause I know that we don't get to do this very often.
所以或许今天 So maybe today, you know,
你想在城里做什么 我们就去做 anything you want to do in the whole city, let's just do it.
我知道可以做什么 Oh, I know what we could do.
亨特说他11点到2点之间有空 Hunter said he has a window between 11:00 and 2:00
我很想给他买个床垫 and I really wanted to get him a mattress.
没问题 妈 You got it, Mom.
亲爱的 我们试试透气的 Okay, honey, let's try the breathable topper.
你睡觉总是出很多汗 You know you sleep so sweaty.
我不在乎 妈 I could care less, Mom.
你可以随便给我选 You can just pick something out for me.
舒不舒服 我想知道这个 Okay, well, is it comfortable? That's what I'm asking.
亨特 不是吧 Oh, Hunter! Come on.
你问我舒不舒服 You asked if it was comfortable.
放屁不是回答 你让这变得很困难 A fart is not an answer. You're making this very difficult.
来 我们去试试特硬型的 Come on, let's go try the extra firm, okay?
这样你就不会跟你爸一样患上坐骨神经痛 So you don't get sciatica like your dad,
尽管那主要是由于不良姿势和松弛的肌张力 although that's really due to poor posture and flabby muscle tone.
你该在布什维克买房 You should buy property in Bushwick.
你现在会讨厌 但那里会像威廉斯堡一样火起来 You'd hate it now, but it's gonna pop like Williamsburg.
我没兴趣 I have no interest in living
生活在一个可能开发的区域 in a possibly-developing neighborhood.
我做房东 I'll be the landlord.
你可以用我上大学的钱作为首付 You can use my college money for the down payment.
我才不要在布鲁克林 I am not buying my 20-year-old son
给我20岁的儿子买个派对房 不 a party pad in Brooklyn. No, sir.
我都不知道你能不能把床单装到这床垫上 I don't even know if you can put sheets on this mattress.
-绝好的机会 我就说这么多 -行了 - Major opportunity, Mom. That's all I'm gonna say. - Okay, all right.
如果你看到链接 就发给我 Well, if you see a link, then send it to me.
老兄 你还好吗 Dude, you okay?
达比 怎么了 Darby, what's the matter?
没什么 Um, nothing.
-是因为药吗 -不知道 - Is it the meds? - I don't know.
我就是 I just, um...
从没有人给我买过床垫 Nobody ever bought me a mattress.
什么鬼 What in the world?
你什么时候需要床垫了 When did you need a mattress?
我刚搬到这里的时候 Like, when I first moved here.
我不得不用预约购货法买一个80块的宜家床垫 I had to buy this, like, $80 IKEA mattress on layaway.
然后坐渡轮从红钩区拖回去 And, like, haul it up from Red Hook on a ferry.
你可以用我的床垫 小达 You can have my mattress, Darbs.
谢谢 这 这无关床垫 Thank you, that's not-- it's not about the mattress.
我只是 我也不知道 I just, I don't know. Um--
你为什么不能和我交心 Why can't you just connect with me?
什么 我不明白 我在这儿啊 What? I don't understand. I'm here.
我请了一周假来陪你 达比 I took a week off to be here for you, Darby,
-而且我其实工作上这段时间挺忙的 -好吧 - at a very inopportune time for me, professionally. - Okay.
你在这儿 但是 So, like, you're here, but it's like,
感觉你并不是真的在 你懂吗 it's like you're not really here, you know?
我感觉就像是你的观众 我感觉我可以是任何人 I feel like your audience. I feel like I could be anybody.
-不是这样的 -好吧 - That's not true. - Okay.
但我就是这么感觉的 It's how I feel, though.
我不能有自己的感受吗 Can I just have my fucking feelings?
那我的感受呢 Well, what about my feelings?
我感觉你从来不想要我在你身边 Okay, I feel like you don't ever want me around.
才没有 That's not true.
-看 这有利也有弊 好吧 - Well, you see, it cuts both ways, missy. - Okay, okay.
也许我修了一堵墙 So maybe I have a wall up.
那是因为我感觉我得保护自己不受你伤害 It's 'cause I feel like I need to protect myself from you.
什么意思 What does that even mean?
我不知道 我 I don't know, I just--
我感觉你不是在批评我 I feel like you're either criticizing me
就是在打击我 or overwhelming me.
因为我知道该做什么 Well, because I don't know what to do.
我没法进入你内心 去努力爱你 I can't get in there to even try to love you.
你不该需要努力的 你是我妈 You shouldn't have to try. You're my mom.
没你想的那么容易 It's not as easy as you think.
-总有一天你会明白的 -好 - You're gonna find out one day. - Okay.
我不是在攻击你 I'm not attacking you.
我不想让你觉得你自己是个坏人 I'm not trying to make you feel like a bad person.
这就像是我们去大熊市的那次旅行 You know what? It's like the Big Bear trip, right?
我以为我们度过了特别的一刻 I thought we had this special moment.
但你一点没感受到 And you didn't receive any of that.
老实说 Honestly...
因为我只是在等你 It's 'cause I'm just waiting for you to, like,
背叛我 flip it on me somehow,
或者夺走它 or take it away.
天 Oh, God.
莎娜说这是我的一个模式 Oh, Shana said that that's a pattern of mine.
因为我不信任任何人 陪在我身边 Because I don't trust anyone to just stay with me.
她觉得我害怕 She thinks I'm so afraid
被拒绝 of rejection...
所以我会先拒绝对方 that I reject the other person first.
妈 这让我很难过 Mom, that makes me so sad.
我也难过 I'm sad too.
我很孤独 And I'm so lonely.
我的孩子长大了 离开了我 My children have grown and left me,
我的第二任丈夫跟我离婚 my second husband just divorced me
因为他说我刻薄 because he said that I was mean.
我发誓 达比 就好像当你过了50岁后 I swear, Darby, it's like you cross 50
就没人想要你了 and nobody even wants you.
我想要你 I want you.
我一直想要你 I've always wanted you.
我试图做个好母亲 I tried to be a good mother to you,
但我和我妈妈之间没有那种联系 but I didn't have that kind of connection with my mother.
所以也许我只是不知道该怎么做 So maybe I just didn't know how to do it.
妈 Oh, Mom.
-你觉得我刻薄吗 达比 -不 - Do you think I'm mean, Darby? - No.
不 我不觉得你刻薄 No, I don't think you're mean.
我觉得你很疯狂 I think you're fucking crazy.
很高兴我们现在敞开心扉谈话 Well, I'm glad we're doing this now.
我也是 Me too.
我很为你骄傲 达比 I'm so proud of you, Darby.
我很抱歉你之前不知道 And I'm so sorry that you didn't know that.
你让我惊叹 You just amaze me.
你长成了这个勇敢 You've grown into this brave,
坚韧 独立的女人 resilient, independent woman.
你让我看上去像是我做得很好 You make me look like I did a good job.
我觉得心理治疗起作用了 妈 I think the therapy's, like, working out, Mom.
天 希望如此 因为莎娜一次收费190 God, I hope so, because Shana charges $190 a session.
她不接受医保 She won't take insurance.
我想我找到了 Hey, I think I found one.
是竹子做的 不会导致过敏反应 It's bamboo, hypoallergenic,
Oeko-Tex标准认证[世界上最权威的纺织品生态标签] Oeko-Tex certified.
舒服吗 Comfy?
好 Okay.
我们试试 Let's try.
确实很舒服 It is comfortable.
我也想要一个 Shit, I want one.
很安逸吧 It's pretty cush, right?
想得美 伙计 三千块 Nice try, buddy. It's $3,000.
猜猜谁刚刚匹配成功了 Guess who just got a match?
真的吗 我看看 Really? Let me see.
妈 你用Tinder干什么 Mom, what are you doing on Tinder?
就跟我不知道 Oh, like I don't know
你会在这床上做什么一样 拜托 what you're gonna be doing on this bed, please.
我去继续看了 I'm gonna keep looking.
给我看看 Let me see.
挺帅的 He's cute.
就像个不那么瘆人的杰克·尼科尔森 He's like a less creepy Jack Nicholson.
你该回他信息 Mm. You should write him back.
不 我不知道 达比 Oh, no. I don't know, Darby.
看看他的资料 上面说他游手好闲 Look at his profile. It says he's a Deadhead.
妈 你不能这么挑 Mom, you cannot be that picky
如果你想找到一个好人的话 if you want to find somebody nice.
我不知道该说什么 Well, I don't know what to say.
我能帮忙吗 Can I help?
好 Okay.
我要说我第一任丈夫也游手好闲吗 Should I say, um, my first husband was a Deadhead?
爱是炼金术 Love is alchemy,
朦胧 本身就是股生命力 nebulous, a life force unto itself.
一个女儿体验她母亲的爱的方式 The way a daughter experiences the love of her mother
将永远渲染 will forever color the lens
她给予和接受各种爱的镜头 through which she gives and receives love of all kinds.
从那天起 达比开始 That day was the beginning of Darby
看到克劳迪娅得付出什么 seeing Claudia for what she had to give
而不是她没有付出什么 rather than what she didn't,
在其中解锁了她自己内心的一个关键角落 therein unlocking an essential corner of her own heart.