片名：默默无闻
你好 麦可 Hiya, Michael.
还好吗？ You OK?
哈罗 爸比 Hello, Daddy. Hello.
哈罗 你有乖乖吗？ You been a good boy? Huh?
你好 黛丽 Hiya, Deirdre.
他很安静 非常乖 He's been very quiet.As good as gold really,
可是不想把东西吃完 but didn't want to finish his tea.
怎么不吃黛丽给你的东西呢？ Why didn't you eat what Deirdre gave you, huh?
我在等你 I was waiting for you.
来 坐下 Here. Sit down here.
我弄就好 Mmm?Sure. I'll get that.
希望我把东西都摆对地方 I hope I put everything where you like it.
你可以下次再告诉我 Anyway, you can let me know next time.
社会局要我下周再来 Social Services said they want me to come again next week.
谢了 Cheers.
应该没问题 Er... I'm sure it's grand.
那就这样 拜 麦可 Well, that's me.Bye, Michael.
别把你爸累坏罗 And don't tire your dad.
麦可？ Michael?
拜 Bye.
谢谢你 黛丽 Thank you, Deirdre.
不客气 No problem.
现在可以玩了吗？ Can we play now?
好 先吃葡萄好不好？ Aye.Shall we have some grapes first? Yeah?
好 OK.
五只 Five.
学校有人没洗头 Someone at school is not washing their hair.
五只 Five.
“下来 下来”他父亲哭喊 "'Come down, come down,' his father cried.
“你在我身边会比较安全” "'You'll be much safer by my side.'"
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后来下面的人大声欢呼 "But then the crowd below cheered loud to
看见乌龟差点摸到云 see a turtle touch a cloud.
他们没见过这么勇敢的男孩 "They'd never seen a boy so brave.
他让他爸爸开心不已 "He gave his dad a little wave."
翻页 Page.
当他抵达另一边 父亲充满骄傲 "And when he reached the other side"his father's heart was full of pride.
他叫大家过来看 "'Come look,' he called to everyone.
他说“那只走绳索的乌龟是我儿子” "'That tightrope turtle... that's my son.'"
再说一个故事 Again.
麦可 不早了 睡觉吧 Come on, Michael, it's late. It's bedtime.
现在我要睡了 求主保佑我的灵魂 Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep.
愿主引导我平安度过今夜 May God guard me through the night
再以晨光唤醒我 阿们 and wake me with the morning light.
阿们 Amen. Amen.
晚安 麦可 Good night, Michael.
山姆的妈咪会接你放学 Listen, Sam's mummy will pick you up from school.
你可以带他的小狗去散步 You can take his puppy for a walk.
我要一只狗狗 I want a puppy.
拜托不要玩食物 Please don't play with the food.
明天我帮你买巧克力玉米球 I'll get you some Coco Pops tomorrow.
尽量喝光柳橙汁 And just try and finish the orange juice.
你好 欧文 Hello, Owen.
早 萝丝老师 Good morning, Miss Rose.
上学愉快 注意听萝丝老师的话 Have fun, Michael, and pay attention to Miss Rose.
拜 罗 回头见 Bye, Mummy. Bye now, boys. See you later.
拜 妈咪 Bye. Bye, chicken.
拜 再见 See you later.
我的妈咪呢？ Where's my mummy?
我说过了 麦可 她不得不走 I've told you, Michael, she had to go away.
去很远很远的地方吗？ Far, far away?
对 Yes.
很远很远的地方 Far, far away.
亲亲 Kiss.
嗨 麦可 Hi, Michael.
里头见 See you in there.
我帮奶奶画了一只独角兽 I drew a unicorn for my grandmother.
她一定会喜欢 书有记得放包包吗？ I'm sure she'll love that. Have you put the books in your bag?
有 妈咪 Yes, Mummy.
通勤有时比较累 Yeah, the commute can be difficult sometimes,
但每晚回到家就值得了 but it's worth it though when you come back to this every night.
安详宁静 充满绿意 Peace and quiet, surrounded by greenery.
他喜欢大自然吗？ Does he like nature?
我们热爱户外活动 We're very outdoorsy people.
你应该看得出来 我们喜欢走路 We like to go for long walks, as you can see.
我们在考虑…养条狗 We were thinking about maybe getting a dog?
我知道麦可会喜欢小狗 会为它担起责任 I know Michael would love a puppy, to be responsible for.
太好了 That's great.
希望他跟我们过一样的童年 We sort of hope the boy would enjoy the same childhood as ourselves,
不是整天在家里玩电脑 not just inside on the computer all day.
他能尽情奔跑 不受溺爱 And here he's free to run around, not be mollycoddled,
可以自由爬树 从树上掉下来 free to climb trees and fall out of trees.
我们当然会照顾他 你懂我意思 I mean, we will look after him obviously, but you know what I mean.
我相信他会喜欢爬树 No, I'm... I'm sure he'll love to climb trees.
他是个安静的小男生 He's a... he's a quiet wee boy,
但会听话 一向很乖 but he listens and he's always well behaved.
在学校人缘很好 He's very popular at school.
大家都说他是个好孩子 I'm always being told what a great kid he is.
他很有爱心 会关心别人 He's loving... caring.
他是个快乐的小男生 He... he's a happy wee boy.
我想要… I, er... I want...
他值得有个正常家庭 一对父母 He deserves a normal family, two parents,
一个甜蜜的家 a loving family home
还有我小时候没有的各种机会 and all the opportunities I never had as a child.
你看那个 Oh!
撞到头了 还好吗？ You bang your head? Are you all right?
我还好 I'm all right.
真的吗？ You sure?
我要他做我无法做的事 I want him to be able to do all the things I never could.
甚至没想过的事 Never even thought of.
我们了解 We understand that.
我们把一个房间漆成蓝色 We've painted one of the rooms blue,
他不喜欢的话可以改 but if he didn't like it, we could always change it.
我们能给我们儿子最好的教育 And, of course, we can afford the best education for our son.
我是说你儿子 I mean, your son.
西丽亚是托儿所老师 As you know, Celia's a nursery teacher.
我们能让他进她学校 We could get him into her school.
也许他以后能进我的寄宿学校 And perhaps later on, he could attend my own boarding school.
他们很愿意收校友的小孩 They're very keen on having children of alumni.
是 但他现在的学校很好 Well, yeah, but, er... he's doing well where he is.
那里离这不远 他也有朋友 And, er... you know, it's not far. He's got friends, so...
当然 我们会照你的意思 Oh, of course. We... we'd follow your guidance.
他知道你的情况吗？ And what does he know of your situation?
不知道 他知道越少越好 Nothing. The less he knows the better.
那生母呢？ And the birth mother?
没有生母 There is no birth mother.
看到没？看到小虫了吗？ Can you see? Can you see the bugs?
看到里面的小虫了吗？ Can you see the bugs in there?
那未来呢？ What about in the future,
你希望你儿子知道你什么？记得什么？ what would you like your son to know about you?To remember?
你希望新的家庭… What would you like your... the new family to...?
我是洗窗工人 I'm a window cleaner.
1 2 3 One, two, three,
6 7 12 15 14 six, seven, twelve, fifteen, fourteen.
想想看 Just think, Michael,
那些货车载货到好多地方 all those lorries,taking so many things to so many places.
那些车载人去上班 And all those cars with people going to work,
去很远的地方看朋友 or to see their friends, far away.
麦可 以后你想住在别的地方 One day, Michael, would you like to live somewhere else,
像是不同的城市 不同的家吗？ in a different town, a different home?
我喜欢我们的家 I like home.
我不想要他去想… I don't want him to think about it...
去理解死亡 ...to understand death.
不是现在 还不到时候 Not now, not yet.
他年纪太小了 He's... he's just too young.
他会以为这一切还会再发生 He'll think it'll happen again,
新的家人和身边的人会死 to his new family, all those around him.
他会孤身一人并觉得自己也会死 He'll be left thinking that he will die, too. I mean, you know...
那样的童年太黑暗了 What kind of childhood is that?
约翰 记忆箱不是那样的 John, a memory box is different.
他现在不需要 以后才需要 He won't need one now, but he will need it
他的新父母也需要 and his new parents will too.
你知道吗 约翰 You know, John,
他可能有段时间会每天想你 there might come a time when he thinks about you every day
他需要从实体的东西开始 and he'll need something to start with, physical, real,
去连结 去建立记忆 to connect with and build on.
建立？ Build on?
是手册上写的吗？你刚通过考试吗？ Is that from a manual? Have you just passed the exam?
约翰 别这样 香娜说得对 John, please. Shona's right.
就算不是现在 以后也会 Maybe not now, but later.
等他满18岁 他有权了解亲生父母 And certainly when he's eighteen and he has the right to find out for himself who his birth parents were.
他何必知道自己是被领养的？ Why does he have to know he was adopted?
我们找人当他仅有的家人 We will find him a family that will be his family, his only family.
他根本不必记得他亲生父母有多没用 He won't even have to remember how useless his parents were.
母亲离开他 父亲死掉 His mother leaves him and then his father dies.
他肯定会疯掉 I mean, that... that would definitely fuck him up.
麦可 时间还早 Oh, Michael, it's early.
麦可 我叫你别在书上画画 Michael, I told you not to draw in the books.
图书馆的唐太太会怎么说？ What's Mrs Donnelly at the library gonna say?
好
放在哪里？你自己选 Here, where do we put it? You choose.
很好 我贴给你看 That's good. Let me show you.
压 用力压 Give it a big push.
很好
我赢了 I'm winning!
他们实在很讨厌 Don't you just hate them?
让狗在花园里乱跑 They leave their dogs in the garden, loose,
又希望收到邮件 but they still expect their mail, don't they?
邮件迟到或不见又爱抱怨 And then they complain if something's late, or God forbid, goes missing.
他们和他们讨厌的狗 Them and their bloody dogs.
真可恶 然后它们还过来咬你 A menace.And then, they come at you and they bite you.
好像你是它们的玩具 It's like you're their bit of fun for the day.
小只的最坏了 The small ones are the worst, aren't they? Mmm.
你看 麦可 Look at that, Michael.
隔着裤子咬的 Right through my trousers.
要注意狗狗 麦可 Always watch out for dogs, Michael.
它们随时都会咬人 You never know what they feel like biting next.
麦可喜欢狗 他认识一只乖狗狗 Michael loves dogs.He knows a very nice puppy.
再来块蛋糕吗 约翰？ Er... would you like some more cake, John?
好吃吧？她自己做的 It's great, isn't it? She made it herself.
完全没有防腐剂 None of those old preservatives.
谢谢 真好吃 Thank you, no. It was delicious.
香娜 吃一点？ Er... Shona, would you?
谢谢你 潘 我不能吃 Oh, thank you, Pam, I really couldn't.
麦可 你想再吃一点潘的蛋糕吗？ Michael, would you like a wee bit more of Pam's cake?
那我最好再吃一点 Ah, well...I'd better have a wee bit more myself then,
免得被兔子抢走了 before the rabbit gets to it.
爸 兔子又不吃蛋糕 Dad, rabbits don't eat cake.
麦可知道我在开玩笑 对吧 麦可？ I'm sure Michael knows I'm only joking, don't you, Michael?
你们当寄养家庭三年了吧？ And you've been fostering for three years now, is that right?
对 不容易 Mm hmm. Yeah, but it's been tough, you know?
放弃怀孕的念头很难 It's... hard letting go of the idea of being pregnant.
你要别人感到惊喜 You know, you want people to make a fuss over you,
你希望布置一间婴儿房 you want to get the... the baby room ready, you know?
它在脑中徘徊不去 你会感到痛苦 And it lingers in your mind and you feel this pain
看着别的母亲带着宝宝 watching other mothers with their babies.
每个月都觉得自己是个失败的女人 Every month you feel like you... you've failed as a woman.
不 No.
抱歉 约翰 Sorry, John.
你应该知道 I'm sure you know
人生不如意十之八九 life doesn't always work out the way you mean it to.
也许我注定要照顾别人的孩子 So I thought that maybe I was put on this earth to look after other people's children.
后来小安六岁…七岁时 我们就开始当寄养家庭 And when Anne was... six? Seven.Seven, we started fostering.
你觉得如何 小安？喜欢吗？ How was it for you, Anne? Did you enjoy?
她从一开始就很喜欢 对吧？ Oh, she took to it straight away, didn't you? Didn't you, pet?
适应得很好 Like a duck to water.
有时看到他们离开也很难过 But sometimes it's sad to see them go, you know?
嗯
现在我们不想再道别了 Now we don't want to say goodbye to any more.
我们都犯过错 但终究会找到适合的人 We both made our mistakes, but we found someone special
就会永远在一起了 and we'll be... we'll be together forever, won't we?
他们逛街还会牵手 超尴尬 They're still holding hands when they're together shopping. It's embarrassing.
说得没错 我们几乎形影不离 That might be somewhat true.We do nearly everything together.
我半夜上厕所 她还陪我 我还… If I get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom,she comes with me,keeps me company.So I go for a piss...
爸 Dad!
讲这干嘛？他们会怎么想？ Why would you tell them that? What will they think?
他不尿尿的吗？ What, he doesn't piss?
爸 Dad!
别理他 Don't mind him.
你的孩子会成为这大家庭的一份子 Now... look, your child will be part of a big family.
我们都是踏实的好人 All good people, real people.
最好跟尊重你的人在一起 You wanna stick to your own, people that respect you,
不是瞧不起你的人 懂我意思吗？ not people who talk down to you. You know what I mean, John?
我懂 I know what you mean.
我是邮差 Postman, sure.
没人写信了 You know, it's... Nobody writes letters anymore
相信我们很快就会被淘汰 and I'm sure they're gonna do away with us pretty soon,
被无人机取代 replaced by a flying drone or something.
到时狗要咬什么呢 麦可？ And what will all those dogs bite then, eh, Michael? Eh?
喜欢那只兔子吗 麦可？ Did you like the rabbit, Michael?
你不想养只兔子吗？ Wouldn't you like a rabbit to look after?
我要小狗 I want a puppy.
快好了 Almost done.
谢谢你 麦太太 Thank you, Mrs McDonagh.
你不必这么麻烦的 You really didn't have to go to the trouble.
不麻烦 你需要体力 No trouble. You need your strength.
不然我还能干嘛？ And what else would I be doing with myself?
来 金金
噢！
你的特制三明治 Here's your special,
都是你喜欢的配料 just as you like it.
真感谢 Thank you very much.
金金 Kim.
过来 Here you go.
好乖 Good girl.
约翰 这些人或许有点自大 You know, John, these people, they may be a bit know it all,
但他们是专业人士 but they are professionals.
如果他们说你应该… Er... you know, if they say that you should...
我该怎么跟他说？ And what am I meant to tell him?
说我会上天堂 坐在上帝旁边吗？ That I'm... in heaven, sitting next to God?
造成这件事的那个上帝吗？ The same God who did this?
其实 我母亲相信来世 Well... you know, my mother believed in it, an afterlife.
她不相信尘归尘 土归土那套 But none of your "dust to dust" stuff for her.
她会说我们是空气 不是土 "We are air not earth," she would say.
死后我们一直都在 "And we're always there, after.
我们的灵魂和能量存在空气中 "Our spirit, our energy, is in the air."
以前我常嘲笑她的想法 You know, I used to, er... make fun of her, of her ideas, when I was young.
可是 她说得没错 But you know, she was right.
现在她会以各种方式回来找我 And now she comes back to me in all sorts of ways.
晚上她会坐在我床上 跟我聊天 She sits on my bed at night and we talk.
她非常平静 And she's very peaceful.
她不是用嘴巴说话 I mean, she she doesn't talk with her mouth or anything.
但我们会聊天 But we... but we talk.
约翰 请进 Hi, John. Come on in.
你好 茱蒂 嗨 葛丽丝 Hi, Judy. Hello, Grace.
葛丽丝 跟麦可的爸比打招呼 Grace, say hello to Michael's daddy.
抱歉 请进 Sorry. Come on in.
好乖 Good girl.
抱歉 今天不太顺利 Er... I am sorry. It hasn't been the best of playdates.
麦可 你爸比来了 Michael, your daddy's here.
你在桌子底下做什么 麦可？ What are you doing under the table, Michael?
他今天不想玩 We didn't feel like playing today.
他不太乖 And we weren't very nice.
对葛丽丝讲话有点凶 对吧？ We didn't say nice things to Grace, did we?
麦可？ Michael?
你迟到了 You're late.
对不起 I'm sorry.
可以走了吗？ Can we go now?
你能向葛丽丝和茱蒂道歉吗？ And can you say sorry to Grace and to Judy for not being nice?
对不起 Sorry.
没关系 麦可 It's OK, Michael.
别担心 想必你很辛苦 Don't worry about it. It must be... difficult.
谢谢你 茱蒂 Cheers, Judy.
谢谢你 葛丽丝 And thank you, Grace.
谢谢你 葛丽丝 Thank you, Grace.
不客气 麦可 You are welcome, Michael.
欢迎你随时再来喔 And you come again anytime you want, OK?
走吧 再见 Come on. See you.
学校见 See you at school.
我们要去见更多新朋友吗？ Are we gonna see any more new friends?
今天不会 Not today.
系上安全带 Put your belt on.
爸比 Daddy.
那是什么？ What is it?
你发现什么？ 它不会走 What did you find? It doesn't go.
这是甲虫 麦可 It's a beetle, Michael.
它死了 It's dead.
它不能走路了 It can't walk anymore.
叫它走 Make it go.
没办法 I can't.
它死了 It's dead.
甲虫死后 身体就没用了 When a beetle dies, its body doesn't work anymore.
它不会动 不会吃 也不会玩 It stops moving. And eating. And playing.
为什么？ Why?
因为… Because...
就像所有动物和植物 Because like all the animals and the plants,
所有有生命的东西 all the living things,
出生后过着快乐的日子 it was born and lived a happy life
然后变老 去世 and... then it got old and it died.
死后留下身体 And when it died, it left its body behind,
小小的腿、头、肚子 都空了 its wee legs, its head, its tummy, all empty.
这只甲虫其实已经不在了 But the beetle really isn't there anymore, it's...
只剩下身体 It's just its body.
它很难过吗？ Is it sad?
不 麦可 它不难过 No, Michael, it's not sad, it's...
它… It's...
它就是不在了 it's just not there.
冰淇淋 冰淇淋 Ice cream! Ice cream!
（第一名老爸）
喂 Oi!
我不是付钱请你来睡觉的 I'm not paying you to sleep up there.
那个角落没洗到 You missed that corner.
先生 这扇窗还没开始洗 Sir, I haven't started on this one yet.
不知道别人在推荐你什么 Don't know what there was to recommend.
以后不会找你了 兄弟 First and last time. Won't have you around again, mate.
别担心 我也不是你兄弟 No risk of that. And I'm not your mate.
对 只是不会洗窗的臭屁洗窗工 Right, just an uppity window cleaner who can't clean fucking windows.
嗨 卢 Hi, Lu.
回头见 See you later.
你已经可以自己弄了 Sure, you're old enough to do this yourself.
不会割到手指 And without cutting your fingers.
孩子有时会吵架 Sometimes the children fight,
躲在房间里 hide in their rooms.
然后同一个孩子又会从学校回来 Yeah, but then the same child will skip through the door from school,
还拿到一个数学奖之类的 you know, clutching a prize that they've just won for maths
你就知道自己做对了 and you know you've done something right.
我好为他们骄傲 I'm so proud of them
也十分地感激 and grateful for the privilege
有机会跟这么棒的孩子一起生活 of sharing our lives with such incredible young people.
爸 真的吗 包括汤姆？ Really, Dad, even Tom?
包括汤姆 尤其是汤姆 Yes. Even Thomas. In fact, especially Thomas.
爸说得对 记得他本来的样子吗？ Dad is right. Do you remember what he was like?
妈 可以走了吗？我快迟到了 Mum, can we go now? I'm gonna be late.
佛瑞迪 东西收好放车上 Freddy, can you get your stuff together, please, and put it in the car?
这次千万别忘了靴子 Make sure you don't forget your boots this time.
我马上过去 I'll be there in a minute.
谁把空盒放回冰箱的？ Who put the empty carton back in the fridge?
佛瑞迪 Freddy!
妈 佛瑞迪拿走我的靴子 Mum, Freddy's taken my boots.
妈 我迟到了 Mum, I'm late.
来了 Coming.
我能说什么 约翰？ I mean, what can I tell you, John?
我对他们的感觉没有不同 To me there's no difference in the way I feel about them.
亲生与领养的都一样 The birth children and the adopted ones.
孩子都是我的 我视如己出 My children are me own so I love them as me own.
他会是我们的最后一个 And he'll... he'll be our last one.
如果老天爷愿意 Oh, yeah, but if it's God's wish,
他会是加入我们家的最后一个 then he will be the last one to join our wee family, so to speak.
他会受到疼爱 And he'll be loved...
我们都会爱他 ...by all of us.
对吧 比利？ Right, Billy?
妈 Mum!
我请客 That's on me.
干杯 Cheers.
可以的话明天回来 或周五 Come back and do them tomorrow if you can, or Friday.
明天好了 到时候雨应该会停 Tomorrow. It should've settled by then.
又浪费了一天 我该待在床上的 Another wasted day. I should've stayed in bed.
我希望宝宝能让情况改善 I hoped a baby would've made everything OK,
但他出生后半年 but, er... six months after he was born,
她就买机票回俄国了 she bought a ticket back to Russia and she left.
就那样离开了 连转寄地址都没留 She just left.Didn't even give us a forwarding address.
不管她在哪 损失可大了 Wherever she is, she has no idea of what she's missed out on
现在他是个可爱的小男生 and the lovely wee man he's grown into.
那不是她的错 Well, it wasn't her fault. She...
我在这里不能给她她想要的 Here I just couldn't give her what she wanted.
她太想家了 She missed her country too much.
其实 我也不是她想要的 The truth is, I wasn't what she wanted.
可是… But, er...
当我听到… when I was told about, you know...
我以为也许她能… ...I thought maybe she could, you know...
或许有一天 ...maybe one day...
就像派太太解释的 As Mrs Parkes explained,
真的太迟了 it really is too late, John.
就算我们能找到她 Even if we were able to trace her,
协会也无法评估状况 the council would have no way of assessing the situation
我们不能不替麦可着想 and we couldn't risk Michael's wellbeing.
约翰 John...
一步一步来 我们会找到的 One day at a time, yeah?We'll get there.
早 约翰 Good morning, John.
抱歉让你久等 I'm sorry for keeping you waiting.
你好吗 约翰？ How are you, John?
你说呢？ You tell me.
我们明白你想为儿子争取最大权益 John, we realise you want the best for your son.
我们都想 相信我 We all do. Believe me.
你的状况很特殊 And your circumstances are exceptional.
所以我们得以特殊方式处理 Which is why we're treating this in an exceptional way.
做决定前能考虑的家庭有限 But there's a limit to the number of families we can consider before taking a decision.
这是我们的责任 你懂吗？ This is our responsibility, you understand?
他们都是很好的家庭 And these are all good families...
我懂 但你们不能要我… I know. I do understand. But you can't ask me to...
我以为第一次见到他们就会知道 I...I thought I would, you know, know when I first saw them.
我以为很简单 要或不要 I thought it would be simple. No, yes.
这些不行 他们可以 Not these. That's them.
要是我错了呢？要是… But what if I'm wrong? You know, what if I...
我必须很笃定 I need to be sure.
当然 Of course.
不能在报纸和商店橱窗登广告吗？ Can't we just put an ad in the paper? In a frigging shop window?
广告还得经过核准程序 Because they'd still need to go through the approval process
我们快没时间了 and we're running out of time.
应该没事 可考虑换组轮胎 She should be fine.You might want to think about getting a new set of wheels on her.
但现在跟新的一样了 But she's, er... she's as good as new.
只收你碟盘费用 工钱算我的 That's... just for the discs.Labour's on me.
谢谢 Thank you.
你喜欢汽车吗 麦可？ Do you like cars, Michael?
货车 Lorries.
货车？ Lorries?
我们也修货车 改天来帮我们忙？ We fix lorries, too.Maybe you come around some day and give us a hand, eh?
你想来吗 麦可？ Would you like to, Michael?
帮乔治修货车？ Help George fix some lorries?
再见 乔治 Cheers, George.
祝你好运 Good luck.
快点 晚餐要迟到了 Come on. We're gonna be late for tea.
巧克力… Chocolate, chocolate.
巧克力… Chocolate.Chocolate.
有看到吗？ Can you see it?
巧克力 Chocolate.
巧克力粉在哪里？ Where is the chocolate powder?
巧克力 Chocolate.
在那里 Oh, there it is.
褐色还是红色的？ Brown or red?
红色 Mmm... red.
红色巧克力 Red chocolate.
泡打粉… Baking powder...
泡打粉在哪？ 泡打粉 Where's the baking powder? Baking powder.
泡打粉呢？ 泡打粉 Baking powder? Baking powder.
在这里 Ah, there it is.Er...
麦可 我们问小姐哪种泡打粉最好 Michael, maybe we can ask this lady which is the best baking powder?
要买泡打粉吗？对 You need baking powder? I do.
你妈咪要做蛋糕给你吃吗？ Is your mummy making you a cake?
不是 是我爸比 No, my daddy.
好幸运的小男生 Lucky boy.
那种 There.
这个？对 This one? Perfect.
好 谢谢 Great. Cheers.
拜 Bye.
麦可 放进去？ Michael, you want to put that in?
好棒 Good man.
对 好棒 Yeah. Good man.
葡萄 Grapes.
葡萄给麦可吃 Aye. Grapes for Michael.
放好 In they go.
好 东西都买了吗？ OK.Have we got everything?
伤脑筋 我看一下清单 That's the question. Let me check the list.Er...
麦可 蛋 Michael, eggs.
蛋 Eggs.
蛋 忘了买蛋 Eggs. We forgot the eggs.
蛋在哪里？要去找蛋吗？ Where are the eggs? Shall we go find the eggs?
蛋…蛋… Eggs! Eggs.
蛋…蛋… Eggs!
好 Right!
这是最后一包蜡烛 This is the last packet of candles.
再来是什么颜色？ Which colour next?
红色 Red. Red.
红色 好 Red.Ok
就红色 Red it is.
可以插了 Mmm... we are ready to go.
33根蜡烛 Thirty three candles.
3 3 Three. Three.
快好了 再来哪一根？ Mmm... nearly there. Which candle next?
红色 红色？ Red. Red.
你确定？ 红色 Red? Are you sure?
红色 好意外 就红色吧 Red. Red. OK.What a surprise. Red it is.
好了 Ready.
爸比的蛋糕上有34根蜡烛 Thirty four candles on Daddy's cake.
34根蜡烛代表34岁 Four. Four.Thirty four candles for thirty four years.
好 插好了 漂亮吗？ That's it. We're finished.What do you think? It looks good, huh?
你老了 You're old.
我老了？ I'm old?
我没那么老 I'm not that old.
对 麦可 But yes, Michael,
爸比已经不年轻了 Daddy's not so young anymore.
有一天… And one day...
送我的吗？ Is this for me?
谢谢 Thank you.
真抱歉 我完全忘了你们要来 I am so sorry. I completely forgot yous were coming.
我是不是说过了？ I've said that already, haven't I?
我虽然没有洁癖 I mean, I 'm not the tidiest of people,
但这里通常没这么乱 but the place isn't usually this messy.
我一周洗一次衣服 I do my washing and ironing once a week.
我不喜欢只洗一半的量 I hate doing those half loads, don't you?
当我洗麦可的衣服时 感觉我都只洗一半 Well, with Michael's things, it feels like all I do is half loads.
是吗？自从孩子的爸离开后 Oh, really? You know, since Daddy's gone,
我就让衣服堆着 堆成这样 I... I just kind of let it build up and then I'm left with this.
谢谢 香娜 Thank you, Shona.
我来烧水泡茶 All right, shall I put the kettle on and get us a cup of tea?
太好了 Aye. Grand.
好吗？ Yeah?
谢谢 Thank you.
麦可 想喝茶吗？还是果汁？ Michael, do you want a cup of tea?
他想喝果汁吗？ Would you... like some juice? No? Would he like some juice?
好 OK.
约翰 不晓得你是否知道我的状况 So, John, I don't know how much you know about my situation.
当时我刚满16岁 对方是同事 Well, I'd just turned sixteen and it was with one of the lads I worked with back home.
那是我的第一次 常见的情节 I mean, it was my first time and, you know, there it was.Typical.
我爱他 And I loved him.
16岁的爱情 很蠢 You know, that sixteen year old love for your...
我家人发现时 闹得很夸张 Just a dope.And then when my ones found out, well, Jesus, there was uproar.
我爸吓坏了 他说隔壁镇上有医生 Daddy was horrified.He just... he said that there was a doctor in the next town
我打死不同意 and... like, I said, "No way."
对我来说 And then for me, that...
要签那些表格时 When it just came time to, you know, signing those forms...
我真的好生气 好气身边的人 it just... I think that I was just so angry.I was just so angry with everyone around me cos
我只想留下我儿子 I just really wanted to keep my son.
我真的认为我们做得到 And I really thought that I could do it
当时我真的很想做到 and I really, really wanted to do it, like, even back then.
你相信我吗 约翰？ Do you believe me, John?
我无法选择 And I couldn't choose.
我根本没见到要带走宝宝的父母 I mean, I didn't even meet the parents that were set to take the baby.
几年后 So then all those years later,
医生说我应该无法再怀孕 the doctor said that I probably wouldn't be able to carry a baby again.
领养是最好的选择 没关系 Like, adoption was the obvious choice for me
我想将他们 and that was fine cos I would've just thought that
视如己出 I would love our child just the way I would have loved the child I had to give up.
但我老公想法不同 But my husband, he didn't feel the same.
他觉得无法爱不是亲生的小孩 He just thought that he couldn't love a baby that wasn't his, you know?Like, actually his. So...
我们就离婚了 That was the end of that.
过来 Right, come here, you.
看卡车上能装多少石头 Come here.Let's see how many rocks you can fit into the truck.
所以已经三年了 So it's been, what, three years now since I've been...Two. Two.
我排入系统三年了 It's been three years now since I've been approved and in the system.
有时他们说只找夫妻 无所谓 You know, sometimes they say that they're just looking for couples, which is fine,
看资料时我会先看这一点 but that's the first thing I do when I go on those profiles.
我想看单身能不能领养 I see if it's OK that I'm single.
我不怪他们 I mean, I don't blame them cos...
如果我为自己孩子找新家 I think that if I was looking for a family for my baby, that's what I'd want, you know?
也会找两个人 肤色体型无所谓 Two people, doesn't matter the colour or the shape or any of that craic.
一对相爱的夫妻就好 Just two people that loved each other.
我觉得那很重要 不是吗？ I think that's important, don't you?
对 我想也是 Yeah, yeah. I suppose.
很不容易 It's hard, you know?
对我来说 隧道底的光 I mean, for me, it's like... it's like the light at the end of the tunnel
就是即将进入这屋子的孩子 is a child coming into this house.
就像赢得奖杯 只是更棒 I would be like... it would be like winning the cup.Only it would be way better.
你装了几个？ How many did you get in?Mmm...
我只想有个孩子来爱 I mean, I just... I just want a child to love, you know?
给他我的爱 To give my love to.
他婴儿时期乖不乖？ What was he like as a baby?
他害我整晚不能睡 Er... he kept us, er... well, me really, up all night.
他母亲不能喂奶 长牙时也不好带 His mother couldn't give him milk and teething was difficult.
你在他这年纪又是什么样子？ And what were you like when you were his age?
不知道 I don't know.
听说四岁前是我爸在带 Er... they told me my dad brought me up for my first four years.
他是货车司机 He was a lorry driver.
把婴儿床摆在车上 Kept the cot in the back of the cab.
后来就到了寄养家庭 And then after that, it was foster homes.
我能问你一件事吗？ Can I ask you something?
你喜欢跟你爸做什么？ What do you like to do with your dad?
嗯… Mmm...
近来我们不太做什么活动了 Well, we don't do so much physical stuff these days, do we?
我们会看书 看电视 去公园 So we... we read and watch TV, go to the park.
有时洗窗户 对吧 麦可？ And sometimes we wash windows, don't we, Michael?
你喜欢洗窗户吗？喜欢弄湿吗？ Do you love washing windows? Do you love getting wet?
不喜欢 No.
你什么时候会死？ When are you gonna die?
嗯… Er...Jesus.
我不知道 麦可 Well, I don't know, Michael.
没有人知道 I don't think anyone knows.
希望不会很久 I hope it's not for ages.
我以前常嫉妒别人 You know, I used to be so jealous.
羡慕那些长寿的老人 I was so envious of all those who lived on,all those old people,
当时我老公快死了 他还年轻 and my husband was going to die and he was still young.
我醒着躺在他身边 I'd lie awake at night next to him and...
真的好生气 I just got so angry.
他跟我完全不同 But he wasn't like that at all.
他说他更喜欢我们相处的每一刻 He said he enjoyed even more every minute we spent together,
他身边的事物似乎更特别 更美好 that everything around him seemed to be more special, wonderful.
阳光更灿烂 The sun was brighter...
花朵的颜色更鲜艳 ...the colours of the flowers were richer.
就连草地都更青翠了 Even the grass was greener.
我不太懂他在想什么 I'm not sure I know what he was on about.
也许他那样说只是为了让我好过一些 Maybe he said it just to make me feel better.
我只看到死亡 无所不在 All I see is death, always there. Everywhere.
好像有人总是想伺机而动 Like some bloke hanging around who wants something.
我小时候绝不示弱 Never show weakness is how I grew up.
在那种地方一示弱就完蛋了 You showed weakness in one of those places, you were screwed.
那是我人生的原则 That's how I lived my whole life.
但有时送他上学 But sometimes...
好多妈妈带着小孩 ...when I drop him off at school,there's all those mums there with their kids...
我会莫名流泪 止不住 ...the tears well up.
我只能走开 不让人看见 And there's nothing I can do,just turn around, walk away and hope that nobody sees,
没人会过来帮忙 nobody... nobody comes over and tries to help.
那不是软弱 那是爱 That's not weakness, angel, that's love.
我怎么能这样对他？ Yeah, but how can I do this to him?
我给了他一个家 如今却要夺走它 I've given him a family and now I'm taking it away.
你为他做的这件事很勇敢 You are doing something very brave.
你应该骄傲得要死 You should be dead proud of what you're doing for him.
抱歉 我是说… I'm sorry, I mean...
人的体内都快烂了 竟能浑然不知 It's funny how you can rot inside and not even know it.
就是啊 I know.
你还想他吗？ Do you still miss him?
想 Yes.
不 No.
我每天跟他说话 I talk to him every day.
我们共度了美好的50年 We had fifty wonderful years together.
我们唯一难过的是没有小孩 Our only sadness was that we never had children.
真希望我没这么老 能帮你的忙 I wish I wasn't so old I could do this for you.
去年圣诞节我终于丢掉他的牙刷 I finally threw out his toothbrush last Christmas.
过来 Come here.
我们不必领养小孩 We don't have to adopt.
我相信我和老公能生下可爱的宝宝 I'm... I'm sure my husband and I are perfectly capable
但我们选择不那么做 of bringing a lovely baby into the world,but it's just not our choice.
想到挺着大肚子怀孕 The idea of waddling around happily expectant
然后从医院带宝宝回家 and then bringing a little tiny newborn home from the hospital
关上门 住在一个小茧里 and closing the door and... living in a little cocoon,
跟世界隔离… all away from the world...
不适合我 It's just not really me.
不适合我们吧 崔佛？ It's just not us, is it, Trevor?
不适合 No.
我们都觉得… We we both feel that...
我们喜欢迎接生活的挑战 We like to confront life.
我们喜欢正面对决 We like to face things head on.
这对我们来说会是一个新旅程 And for us this would be... a new journey.
全新的冒险 A whole new adventure.
我们心里有空间 And we have room in our hearts
家里更有充足的空间 and we certainly have plenty of room in our home,
所以为何不去做呢？ so why would we not?
有人需要父母 我们能当父母 And if someone needs parents, then we can be those parents.
很好 That's good.
我替你们高兴 I'm, er... glad for you.
你喜欢他吗 麦可？ Er... do you like him, Michael?
嗯
他叫吉米 His name's Jimmy.
说谢谢崔佛 Say thank you to Trevor.
谢谢 Thank you.
他跟照片不太像 对吧？ He doesn't really look like his photo, does he?
也不像你 他像妈妈吗？ I mean, or you. Does he look like the mother?
他眼睛很像妈妈 Aye, he has his mother's eyes.
什么样的母亲会丢下孩子 I mean, how any mother can leave a child?
离开老公我能理解 I mean, leaving the father I can completely understand,
可是丢下孩子？孩子需要母亲啊 but leaving a child?A child needs a mother.
你要一个妈咪吗 麦可？ Wouldn't you like a mummy, Michael?
这得丢掉 This will have to go.
我们太早就准备好了 We jumped the gun a bit.
罗兰她… Lorraine...
我们希望生宝宝 可是… We were hoping for a baby, but...
请相信我 我们会爱他 But please... please believe me, we will love him,
我们会用爱把他养大 we will, er... we will bring him up with love.
不只为了他 也为了我们 Not just for him, but but for us.
那样会很好 充实的人生 That will be good.A life well spent,
值得骄傲 something to be proud of.
毕竟帮助孩子成长最棒了 I mean, after all, what could be better than helping a child grow up...
让他准备面对人生 ...ready to face life...
就像父母为我们做的 ...like your parents did for you?
当快要离世时知道你有所贡献 And to leave this world knowing that you contributed to something real,
知道你在世上的旅程有目标与意义 that your passage on this earth had a purpose...
抱歉 有时我会说个不停 ...and a meaning.Sorry. You have to excuse me. Sometimes I go on.
这是我的房间 And, er... this... this is my room.
其实是火车的房间 Well, it's the train's room, really.
罗兰不懂我为何常待在这里 Lorraine doesn't understand why I spend so much time in here.
这里总有事可做 But there's always something to do,
有东西要改善 要修理 something to improve, something to fix.
你必须花时间仔细瞧 You just have to take the time to look at it,
就像小孩子那样 carefully, like a child would.
你想麦可会喜欢吗？ Do you think Michael would like it?
他喜欢货车 He likes lorries...
还有火车 ...and trains.
也许你能带他来看 Maybe you could show it to him.
好 Yeah, yeah.
等他大一点 这些容易弄坏 When he's older. It's... it's all a little delicate.
哈罗 爸比 Hello, Daddy.
麦可 OK, huh?
谢谢你们来 Well, thank you so much for coming.
麦可 很高兴认识你 Michael, it was lovely to meet you.
还有你 约翰 很荣幸 And you too, John. Real pleasure.
是 谢谢 Yes. Thank you.
崔佛 Trevor.
麦可 吉米住这里 Michael, Jimmy lives here.
改天你能来找他玩 But maybe you could come and play with him another time?
麦可 跟吉米说再见 Er... Michael, I want you to say goodbye to Jimmy.
谢谢崔佛让你跟他玩 And thank Trevor for letting you play with him, OK?
谢谢你让我跟他玩 拜 Thank you for letting me play with him. Bye.
拜 拜 Bye. Bye.
好 Good.
我们走吧 Come on, let's go.
什么是“领养” 爸比？ What's adopt, Daddy?
领养就是当小孩的爸妈不能照顾他时 Adopt is...when a child cannot be looked after by his mummy and daddy...
他能去跟两个好心的新爸妈住 ...and so he can go and live with two nice new parents...
他们能给他温馨的新家 ...who can give him a new loving family home.
我不想被人领养 I don't want to adopt.
别跌倒了 麦可 Don't fall, Michael.
小心点 Be careful.
约翰 这些事有特定的处理方式 John, these things are done in a certain way.
我们得遵照各种程序 There are all sorts of procedures we're supposed to follow.
它们不适用你的情况 They're not written for a case like yours.
你们去哪找到那些人？ Where did you find those people?
用了什么鬼程序？ What fucking procedures did you use?
对不起 约翰 I'm sorry, John.
这种事在所难免 很多配对不成功 But it does happen.A lot of matches just don't work out.
他们只是想找年纪更小的 I think they were just hoping for someone younger.
我连狗都不会让他们养 兔子也不行 I wouldn't have given them a dog to look after. Not even a fucking rabbit.
这是我一生最重大的决定 This is the biggest decision of my life.
他们不懂吗？你不懂吗？ Don't they understand? Don't you?
不是我要求太多 It's not about me wanting to be right. It's...
我懂 所以我还在帮你 I do understand. That's why I'm here.
我违反了好多规定 I'm breaking loads of rules
肯定连不懂的规定都违反了 I know about and I'm sure a few more that I don't.
被派太太发现 我就得打包走人 If Mrs Parkes finds out,I'll be asking you for a job before I finish my training.
重点根本不在了解他们 It's not even about them, figuring them out.
是麦可 It's Michael.
我总以为自己了解他 I always thought that I knew him.
我了解 我知道他是我儿子 I mean, I do. I do.You know, he's... he's mine. He's my son.
但我真的了解他吗？ But do I know him? Really know him, you know?
为了这件事 够了解吗？ Enough? For this?
天啊 Oh, God. Fuck.
需要喝酒时怎么没酒？ Where's a drink when you need it?
你干嘛带我来这里？ Why did you bring me to this place?
其实…我不知道 You know what? I don't know.
来吃蛋糕吧？ For some cake?
好 下次去酒馆 OK, fine. We'll go to a pub next time.
点两大杯伏特加 把事情搞定 Have two big vodkas. And then we'll sort it all out.
如果你获准的话 Well... if you're allowed.
获准？ Allowed?
绝对害不死我的 It's definitely not gonna kill me.
货车洗得够干净了吗？ Do you think you've cleaned that lorry enough, Michael?
我觉得很干净了 It looks very clean to me.
没有 很脏 No. It's dirty.
来 头往后仰 免得肥皂流进眼睛 OK, come on, lean your head back. I don't wanna get soap in your eyes.
对 That's it.
没了 No more.
跟萝丝老师说没头虱了 We can tell Miss Rose they're all gone.
死光光了 All dead.
不要用我的汤匙 No, don't use my spoon.
跟你说过这样很没礼貌 I told you it's rude.
我还要 More.
再弄给你 别吃我的好吗？ I'll get you more. Just please don't eat mine. OK?
不要 No!
老虎那件很脏了 不能穿 The tiger ones are dirty. You can't wear them.
明天再洗 现在太晚了 We'll wash them tomorrow. Now it's late.
麦可 拜托穿上 Michael, put these on, please.
麦可 Michael!
麦可 穿上新睡衣 Michael, put the new pyjamas on now.
等你想道歉时再出来 And don't come out of here until you're ready to say sorry.
你在货车上放了什么？ What are you putting in that lorry there?
石头 Rocks.
我删掉了所有奥客 Yeah, so I've crossed out all the bad ones.
好客户加星号 Mm hmm. Put a star next to the good ones
问号是会付款 但需要提醒的 and a question mark next to the ones who, you know, do pay but just need a bit of reminding from time to time.
好 Here.
如果还有问题 打我电话 So, if you have any more questions, you got my number.
我应该还会用一阵子 I should be on it for a little wee while. Thanks. That's great.
谢谢 太好了 你要出国吗？ Are you going abroad?
对 Aye.
这是钥匙 Oh, here are the keys.
好好照顾它 它不会让你失望 If you look after her, she shouldn't let you down.
太棒了 会的 我会让你知道状况 Brilliant. I will. I'll let you know how it goes.
抱歉 差点忘了 Oh, sorry, I almost forgot.
给你的 下周一才能兑现 This is for you. But don't cash it until next Monday, OK?
谢谢 Cheers.
祝我好运 Wish me luck!
好好对它 Keep her lit.
（当恐龙死的时候：了解死亡）
就像甲虫…离开它的身体 Like the beetle... left its body,
但如今在森林中飞翔 but is now flying around the forest...
很快有一天 ...one day soon...
爸比也会离开身体 ...your daddy will leave his body...
但永远在你身边 ...but will always be around you
在空中 in the air.
像天上的气球？ Like the balloon in the sky?
对 Yes.
你看不到我 You won't see me,
但可以跟我说话 but you can talk to me...
我会仔细听 and I'll listen.
你不会像现在一样听到我的声音 And you won't hear me like you hear me now...
可是… but...
你心里会听得见 ...you'll hear me inside you.
心里？ Inside?
嗯 Mm hmm.
我会永远陪着你 Cos I will always be with you...
在你身边的空气中 ...in the air around you...
在温暖你的阳光里 ...and in the sunshine that warms you.
还有雨水？ And the rain?
对 Aye...
把你淋湿的雨水 and the rain that gets you wet.
还有葡萄？ And the grapes?
对 Yes.
我也会在那里 I'll be there too.
不在葡萄里 Not in the grape,
在它的味道里 but in the taste of it.Mmm?
（给麦可）
（小狗）
你好 约翰 Hi, John.
麦可 真高兴再见到你 Hi, Michael. It's so lovely to see you again.
（根据真实故事改编）