My name is Hoshino Haru.
I was born with a body that is neither male nor female, in other words, IS.
My parents thought it would be best if I decided my gender for myself,
and raised me as a boy.
But on the day of my high school entrance ceremony,
my body suddenly started becoming more feminine.
And that day, I met Aihara Miwako,
a ordinary girl raised by an ordinary family, who seemed to want for nothing.
But Miwako had a surprising other side to her...
Miwa-chan.
I knew you'd come. I'm so happy!
Ryuuji-san, let's do that today.
That guy, you know? Society... No, the whole world...
says people like him are improper. I know that.
And I know that no matter how long he lives,
he'll never change.
Stop it!
Let's go home.
I got mad.
I...
got mad for no reason.
Haru-chan!
Let go!
There's nothing wrong with getting a tattoo!
I felt sick.
Why would you do that?
- Why would you do that to your beautiful body? - Because I'm improper, too.
My parents want to erase me.
The number you're calling....
[Redial Miwako]
There's no place for me in this world!
I'm a worthless human being.
So why shouldn't I get a tattoo?
- What are you doing?! - What do you mean,
you're worthless?!
You're misrepresenting yourself, Miwa-chan.
That's the kind of lie someone tells when they're trying to escape from themselves.
So, Haru-chan, you don't tell lies, then?
Well, Haru-chan, how about you?
- The truth is, I hate lying. - Huh?
Because of lies, my life has gotten so complicated.
And no one understands me.
No one.
So, Miwa-chan, I'm going to tell you the truth about me.
I'm...
IS.
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- IS? - Intersexual.
My sex is in a gray zone between male and female.
My body has both male and female traits.
But neither of them are complete.
What do you mean?
I had both testicles and ovaries when I was born.
Both...
But when I was a child, I had my testicles removed due to an illness.
If I had to say either one,
my body is closer to being female,
and I'm listed as female on my family register.
But...
In here, I'm...
I think of myself as a guy.
You probably don't understand what I'm saying all of a sudden.
Up until now you thought I was a girl and now I'm telling you I'm not.
You probably think I'm gross. Well, it can't be helped.
- You don't care? - I'm happy.
That you told me something so important.
- Really? - Yeah.
Thank goodness.
This is the first time I've told anyone about my body.
I was nervous.
Well, Haru-chan...
Uh, about that, when you call me "Haru-chan"...
Even if I'm not very brave, I'm a guy, so it makes me uncomfortable.
I'd be more comfortable if you call me "Haru".
- Haru? - Yeah.
Haru.
Someday I want to tell everyone.
But I don't have the courage.
So it's a secret.
I definitely won't tell anyone.
- Okay? - Right.
Hi, this is Miwako. Leave a message.
Welcome home.
It's past curfew. Where were you?
Miwa-chan!
Were you smoking?
I'm worried about you, Miwa-chan.
You go to strange places and meet strange men...
Do you have a problem with it?
If a man touches my body...
Papa left on a business trip.
It's just the two of us for dinner. I'll start the preparations.
You don't want to talk about it.
Which is the same as refusing to acknowledge it.
Miwa-chan.
But there are also people in this world who hate telling lies.
No matter what kind of incredible secret they may have.
Is there something you want to tell me?
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I need my cooking notebook...
Ah! My apron!
- Haru! You'll be late! Your bento! - Oh, thank you!
- Haru. - Yeah?
- How many layers are there under your shirt? - Ah, three or four.
- That many? - Well, I have to...
Haru, by any chance...
Haru! Are you okay?
Ah, yeah, I'm fine. It must be because I stayed up late last night.
Why don't you go back to sleep?
I'm fine, I said! I should hurry and get to school.
- You need your sleep! - I told you I'm fine!
Haru...
- Haru-kun! Good morning. - Good morning.
- Itterasshai! - Ittekimasu.
Hoshino...
- Woah! - Ah.
She has no sex appeal.
Hey, hey! That female high school student really was Haru-chan after all!
You're saying she's opened her eyes?
What do they call it? Gender...
- Gender identity disorder? - Yes, that!
Good morning. Thank goodness! Just in time.
- Really. - Good morning.
Ah... I have to get to my lesson. Sorry.
I have a sale to get to. Sorry.
Oh! Sorry, I left the stove on.
Uhm...
What do you think about starting a girls' soccer club?
Huh?
You like soccer, don't you? That chest trap back then was really something.
I'd like to, but I really can't.
My doctor said I can't do full-contact sports.
Sorry. I didn't know it was that bad.
No, don't worry about it.
Gatonamo*? (*Gatonamo is Yuuto Nagatomo, a soccer player.)
Hoshino... Do you like Gatonamo?
I love him! Even though he's so small, he has a great win-loss ratio.
He never lets the ball go no matter what.
In all honesty, I think he's the best defender in the world.
- Me too! - Huh?
- What? - You're talking like a boy...
Ah! I got all caught up...
Weirdo.
- I hear Gatonamo will be in the next General Cup match. - Yeah.
I'm sure it will be a very interesting match.
- Wanna go? - Huh?
None of my relatives are going, so I have an extra ticket.
Ah... I don't mean anything weird by it.
When I talk with you it's like you're just one of the guys.
- O- one of the guys?! - Ah, no, I didn't mean anything bad...
- No, I'm glad! - Huh?
I'll go! With pleasure!
You really are a weirdo.
- Well, I'm off. - One of the guys...
Nothing could make me happier than those words.
Mama! Mama, open up!
I said open up!
Open the door!
It's for your sake, Miwa-chan.
Our secret... Is very important.
But right now, you've forgotten...
just how important that secret is.
I've locked you up, Miwa-chan,
so that you can keep your promise to me.
It's for your sake.
Hoshino-san.
- Ah... good morning. - I'd like a moment.
- Did I just see you with a second-year boy? - Ah... yes.
- What was it about? - Nothing.
- He asked me to go to a soccer match with him. - As I thought.
- Be careful. - Huh?
He thinks that you're an ordinary girl.
What are you trying to say?
It's not like it was in middle school. If anything happens, there'll be a problem.
If he finds out about your body... There'll be a problem, right?
Right.
You can talk to me any time.
Thank you.
Even though I'm a boy who can't use the girls' locker room...
there's no way I can be a male pupil, either.
Haru...
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The day after I told her I'm IS, I didn't see her at all.
That girl hasn't been around lately.
- You mean Miwa-chan? - Yeah.
That girl is kind of weird.
Even though she's in a different class,
she comes to eat lunch with you every day?
I hear she's repeating a year.
- Really? Repeating? - Really?
She transferred here from another school
- to start over as a freshman here. - Why? Why?
The rumors say she barely went to her old school.
- She's definitely playing for the other team. - Other team?
You're so slow! If you don't get it, Haru-chan,
we can't help you. See, Haru-chan, her feelings towards you are...
Eh? You mean she's a...
L-E-S-B-I-A-N !
No way! She's a lesbian?!
- I don't think that's true... - See, see?!
Haru-chan is, too. When she talks like a boy
- she gets more and more moe. - Moe!
I don't think that's true...
Moe~!
What're you talking about? You daydreaming fangirls.
- Knock it off, Usami Hajime! - You're so rude!
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Miwa-chan?
[Haru! Help! My mom locked me in my room!]
Haru-chan? What is it?
Ah, sorry, gotta go!
Haru-chan?
No way, I thought.
But those words...
My parents want to erase me.
...came back to haunt me.
Seriously?! She's locked up?
Haru!
Haru! You came.
Well, I got that email.
- It was a test. - Huh?
To see if you'd come.
Thank you for coming.
What the...
Thank you.
Don't jerk me around!
I was so worried!
Miwa-chan... You're sick, you know.
Go back to your room.
Okay...
I'm sorry.
That girl has some funny ideas.
She's home sick, so I guess she got the idea to send some weird emails.
- Is she okay? - What do you mean?
Nothing...
Could you please continue to get along with Miwako from now on?
Hey! Ah, sorry.
Woah, nice, nice!
Oh! Wait, wait!
What are you doing?
- Ah! Sorry! Okay. - Hey!
- All right, let's go! - Woah!
- Hey! Ah! - Woah!
Sheesh!
You just called and asked to practice passing all of a sudden.
I can't play real soccer anymore.
But I do want to kick the ball a little.
Did something happen?
- I told someone I'm IS. - Eh?
Just one person. A girl at school.
Really? And what happened?
She said she was happy.
She said I'd told her an important secret.
That's great!
But it's a little weird.
After I told her I'm IS,
she suddenly started skipping school
and when I went to her house,
her mother was acting weird.
I don't think she's told anyone.
But something feels off.
All right, let's practice passing!
When you're feeling upset, the best thing to do is kick a ball.
- Right. - Yeah.
But no matter how much I kick this ball,
there's something that I just can't wipe away.
You really like Haru-chan, don't you?
Even though you've just transferred schools,
you're listening to what I said.
I'll take care of your cell phone.
In exchange, you can have your door unlocked.
You're such a good girl at home.
Now take your medicine.
If you take your medicine,
Miwa-chan, you'll become even more beautiful than you are now.
Good girl.
You have to eat the side dish too, you can't just eat the main course.
I'll eat it later.
Haru, how is school?
- Ah... - Have you gotten used to being a girl?
Yeah, I'm perfect at it now.
I've been talking more like a girl lately.
What do you mean by that?
No way! That's so cute!
Just those two phrases are enough for me to fit in with any conversation.
- He really can do it! - You're so annoying!
Papa's annoying!
Have you made a lot of friends?
I made one male friend.
He's a year older and he plays soccer,
and he's a fan of Gatonamo.
Eh, Gatonamo?! Just like you, then.
- Gatonamo, Gatonamo! - We have some good conversations.
Feels like it's been ages since I've been able to talk to another guy like this.
been able to talk to another guy like this. Oh yeah, and...
we're going to see one of Gatonamo's matches together.
- Wow! I wanna go too! - Just a moment!
You know, when I saw Gatonamo before...
No way! This is a super premium ticket,
- so you can't go. - Hey!
- You're so stingy! - You know, when I saw Gatonamo...
- H-hey, wait... - You can't have any.
- Jeez! - Hey, listen, this one time when I saw Gatonamo...
What do I do?
I already invited her.
I'm home.
- Welcome home. - Sorry I'm so late.
- Dinner will be ready soon. - Oh, thanks.
The basting on this mackerel is great.
Dad, can I ask you for a favor?
That's rare.
There's someone who I really want...
to take to the soccer match with me.
Yes?
Sorry! I knew you'd refuse!
Even though I knew you'd love to go too,
I knew she'd be delighted, so I invited her.
- A girl? - Well...
- Well, I guess I have no choice. - It's okay?
Our living expenses aren't much, so we manage to get by.
- With the help of the occasional bonus. - Thanks!
We'll definitely go together next time!
All that aside, Kenji, you've got a good arm for cooking.
You think?
- Hi, this is Miwako. - Miwa-chan?
Leave a message.
Haru! Do you have enough time?
Eh? Ah... no way!
Haru?! Oh no... Haru, are you okay?!
I'm fine, I'm fine.
You shouldn't push yourself.
This happened before, you know.
- I'm fine. - But you're pale...
I want to go!
Ah... sorry.
But this is my first male friend at school
and it's going to be really fun...
We'll make your favorite, Hayashi rice, for dinner tonight, Haru.
Eh?
But if your body starts to feel badly, come home right away.
Okay!
Cute.
Let's put you in Western clothes.
I bought you this dress that will definitely suit you, Miwa-chan.
See, isn't it cute?
Yeah...
Watching you watch that match was great.
Woah! Ack! Run!
Well, it was a good match.
I didn't think he'd be able to score a goal from a place like that.
It was thanks to Gatonamo's passing skills!
It was really something!
But Gatonamo's absolute best pass...
- Had to be his 2-pointer in the 2008 champion series. - Yeah!
- I've watched the DVD so many times. - You have it on DVD?
- Yeah. - I want to see!
- Can I come over? - Well...
To my house?
Ah... crap.
I'm supposed to be a girl.
I lost my common sense for a moment.
But, well, if it's you it's okay!
It's Saturday, so my dad's home, so it should be okay.
All right!
- I'll call my dad to ask. - Yes!
What's wrong?
I was thinking it would be a good idea to buy Haru a bra.
What is this all of a sudden?!
Haru's body keeps getting more and more feminine.
Yeah, but...
Even if he doesn't say so himself,
he's piling four layers of t-shirts and tank tops under his uniform top.
- Four layers?! - Yeah.
But for him to wear a bra...
- I think he'd hate it. - Yeah.
What do you think the best thing for Haru would be?
Is it really okay for him not to take hormones?
I want to respect Haru's feelings, but...
I don't think this is just my parental ego.
- Yoko... - If Haru is suffering this much,
Maybe it would have been better to plainly decide his sex and give him the operation when he was a child?
It's okay to not know what to do.
Huh?
Parenting isn't something you get to plan in advance.
You handle things as they come along, and you're lost and confused the whole way.
You're right. We're right beside our children in being lost.
All you can do is slowly find the answers as you go along.
Hey, give me that. I'll help.
- Is it okay, Taro-chan? - Ah, well...
Help me. Help, help!
My house is up those stairs that way.
- Eh. - Dad will be there since it's Saturday,
- but it feels kind of of wrong. Is it okay? - Yeah.
Crap, he's bringing a girl over, darn it,
He should've warned me... darn!
What the heck, damn it! Ow, ow, What the heck!
Darn, the cushions...
Ah... Kenji, sorry. I haven't cleaned at all.
I just banged my toe and it hurts...
Kenji?
You agreed not to get in touch. What is it?
Eh?
I understand. Money is no object.
- Yes? - I'm home.
- Welcome home. - Thanks for having me over.
It's nice to meet you. I'm Hoshino Haru.
It's nice to meet you. I'm Ibuki.
- Dad? - Sorry, Kenji. I have to go out.
I was looking forward to meeting your girlfriend after hearing so much about her.
- G-girlfriend?! - Dad, it's not like that.
Eh? It's not?
I'm not even a girl...
I cleaned up the clutter a bit, but try not to move around too quick.
Yes, sir.
- Kenji. - Yeah?
- Don't do anything impolite even after it gets dark. - I know.
- Take it slow. - Okay.
Itterasshai.
C'mon.
Sorry about that. My dad just comes and goes.
But he seems like a good father.
Yeah, well... Oh yeah! The DVD.
Right.
It's in here.
These are all the matches I've seen.
- Woah. - I'll go make some tea.
Okay.
Incredible...
Don't make fun of me like I'm some fanboy.
You're definitely a fanboy.
I said don't make fun of me.
How cute.
Is this you, Ibuki-san?
Give that back!
Sorry...
But that...
Let's watch the DVD.
Let's get this started.
Go! Yeah, go, go!
Go, Gatonamo! Ah, there he is!
Woah, all right! Go go go go!
Woah... Go, Gatonamo! Go! Go!
Go!! Gatonamo!
Gatonamo really is something. He's a god.
- Woah, you have this too. - You're not asking me anything.
About the photo.
Well...
I...
I have my own secrets.
And I really hate when people badger me about them,
so even though I know most people would try to ask you about it,
I'd rather keep things simple and not bug you about it.
Keeping secrets can be tough.
So if you don't want to, Ibuki-san, it's fine not to talk about them.
All right, this one...
Woah, amazing... There's this, too.
Woah! Oh, crap... This one's good too. But...
But I want to watch this one too. Ah, what to do...
This one.
Let go of me!
Hoshino!
Miwa-chan, it's time for your medicine.
Miwa-chan!
What are you doing?!
Why, you...
What would we do if someone saw?
It's okay, it's nothing.
I'm me.
Why are you trying to erase me?
You don't understand, Miwa-chan.
I just want you to be happy.
I know you would make a wonderful bride.
- And you'd have a wonderful family... - I don't want that!
I can't.
It's impossible.
Miwa-chan! Miwa-chan!
- Miwa-chan! - Let me go!
Let me go!
Mama?
- This is my punishment. - Huh?
I'm being punished.
This isn't something I've told you before,
but before I had you, I miscarried a girl.
Because of my own carelessness, I lost her.
- Stop it! - I'm sorry, Miwa-chan.
This is my punishment. It's my fault that you're like this.
Stop it!
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
Hoshino!
Punishment.
She said I'm a punishment.
Hoshino!
I wanted you to treat me like a boy.
Even if other people might think I'm weird,
when you said I was just like one of the guys
talking about soccer, it made me really happy.
I thought we could become friends.
I'm sorry.
I was so happy.
You didn't ask me anything about that photo.
So I was really happy.
So I won't do that again.
I'm happy simply being with you.
It doesn't matter if you're a guy or a girl.
So... I'm sorry.
"It doesn't matter if you're a boy or a girl".
When I heard those words,
it's like my heart jumped into my throat.
Hoshino?
Ah... nothing.
But someday, I would like to tell you.
My secret.
Yeah.
I definitely won't tell anyone.
It was a test. To see if you'd come.
Hoshino?
- I gotta go. - Huh?
Thanks for today.
Hoshino!
Why didn't I realize?
That time...
Thank you.
She was asking me to help her.
But I...
There's no place for me in this world.
didn't realize.
My parents want to erase me.
I'm a worthless human being.
It's Hoshino. Hoshino Haru.
Sorry for coming over so suddenly. I need to see Miwako-san.
I'm so sorry. Miwako is out right now.
- Where is she? - You'll need to come back another time.
Please wait a moment!
- Excuse me. - Wait, Haru-chan.
Haru-chan, wait!
You can't just come up like that...
Miwa-chan, Miwa-chan!
Hey, lady, call an ambulance!
Miwa-chan, Miwa-chan!
Hurry up! Miwa-chan!
Miwa-chan!
I need an ambulance!
Please, please!
Miwa-chan! Miwa-chan!
Miwa-chan.
An ambulance will be here soon.
- Me too. - What?
Me too.
I'm IS too.
Miwa-chan...
- IS. When she said that word, - Miwa-chan, Miwa-chan!
- I finally understood the despair she felt. - Miwa-chan, Miwa-chan!
Miwa-chan, hold on! Miwa-chan!
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