1 00:01:53,440 --> 00:01:54,940 That will make you think. 2 00:03:41,412 --> 00:03:42,703 Stay there! 3 00:04:13,374 --> 00:04:14,374 Thank you. 4 00:04:23,707 --> 00:04:25,261 May I walk with you? 5 00:04:27,209 --> 00:04:28,167 Fine. 6 00:04:36,960 --> 00:04:39,377 - Good morning, ladies and gentlemen. - Good morning, sir! 7 00:04:40,044 --> 00:04:42,419 We have a visitor, this morning. 8 00:04:45,919 --> 00:04:46,961 Your coat... 9 00:04:52,295 --> 00:04:53,545 Have a seat there. 10 00:04:56,379 --> 00:04:59,796 I am afraid there is a slight mishap on the way here... 11 00:05:00,504 --> 00:05:03,598 I think the corrections would still be legible. 12 00:05:04,213 --> 00:05:06,422 Max, would you... do the honors? 13 00:05:07,672 --> 00:05:09,672 More work require there... 14 00:05:10,256 --> 00:05:14,964 No opportunity to honor and respect yourself. 15 00:05:15,798 --> 00:05:20,923 But Marcus Aurelius was worth philosopher and an emperor. 16 00:05:21,090 --> 00:05:24,549 There's no coincidence, that was the way with the Romans. 17 00:05:24,716 --> 00:05:28,008 Thought and action were all one. 18 00:05:28,216 --> 00:05:31,966 I think we were chapter 12, page 42. 19 00:05:45,010 --> 00:05:48,343 Natalie, perhaps you da... begin? 20 00:05:49,177 --> 00:05:53,532 "How can it be that the Gods... 21 00:05:53,636 --> 00:05:57,074 overlooked this alone, 22 00:05:57,136 --> 00:05:59,772 that some lost men... 23 00:05:59,803 --> 00:06:02,512 and those very good men, 24 00:06:02,804 --> 00:06:05,648 who have had the most... " 25 00:06:06,179 --> 00:06:08,554 "into the course with the divine." 26 00:06:10,471 --> 00:06:12,190 Uh, just keep on going. 27 00:06:53,518 --> 00:06:57,904 "If it is so that we live only a small part of the life which is within us," 28 00:06:59,019 --> 00:07:01,352 " what happens to the rest?" 29 00:07:13,020 --> 00:07:14,687 Hello, Mr. Gregorius. 30 00:07:14,979 --> 00:07:18,396 I am afraid your book on Persian grammar has yet to arrive. 31 00:07:18,813 --> 00:07:22,271 Uh no, that's not why I came... Do you know that book? 32 00:07:22,938 --> 00:07:26,189 Indeed, I sold it to someone yesterday. 33 00:07:26,355 --> 00:07:27,480 A woman? 34 00:07:27,647 --> 00:07:31,106 Yes. She came in, asked for the Portuguese section 35 00:07:31,272 --> 00:07:33,689 from this book. Sat there. 36 00:07:33,856 --> 00:07:37,065 Read it for an hour or so then became rather upset. 37 00:07:37,232 --> 00:07:40,815 Paid for the book and left... How did you come by? 38 00:07:41,149 --> 00:07:42,440 I found it. 39 00:07:42,899 --> 00:07:44,534 Beautiful title. 40 00:07:44,691 --> 00:07:47,066 "UM OURIVES DAS PALAVRAS" 41 00:07:47,618 --> 00:07:49,529 "A Goldsmith of Words." 42 00:07:54,234 --> 00:07:55,525 Train tickets. 43 00:07:56,692 --> 00:08:00,276 - Where to? - Lisbon, eventually. 44 00:08:01,901 --> 00:08:04,068 Leaving in 15 minutes. 45 00:08:06,235 --> 00:08:08,569 - Thank you. - She was wearing that coat! 46 00:08:18,987 --> 00:08:20,372 Attention please. 47 00:08:20,570 --> 00:08:24,154 Line 10 on platform 8 is now leaving... 48 00:08:26,446 --> 00:08:28,238 What is all this noise? 49 00:08:30,488 --> 00:08:33,655 - Where is Mr. Gregorius? - He left, Mr. Kagi. 50 00:08:33,822 --> 00:08:34,863 He left? 51 00:08:35,614 --> 00:08:38,322 There was a woman with him here. 52 00:08:39,780 --> 00:08:41,072 Impossible. 53 00:09:19,327 --> 00:09:21,286 "We live here and now." 54 00:09:21,661 --> 00:09:25,328 "Everything before and in other places is past." 55 00:09:25,494 --> 00:09:27,245 "Mostly forgotten." 56 00:09:36,266 --> 00:09:36,995 Hello. 57 00:09:36,996 --> 00:09:39,673 Uh, this is Mr. Kagi. Where are you? 58 00:09:41,788 --> 00:09:44,247 - On a train. - A train? 59 00:09:45,164 --> 00:09:47,747 - Where to? - Lisbon. 60 00:09:48,872 --> 00:09:51,998 Would you take care of my books? I left them on my desk. 61 00:09:59,749 --> 00:10:02,593 "What could, what should be done..." 62 00:10:02,749 --> 00:10:05,374 "with all the time that lies ahead of us," 63 00:10:05,624 --> 00:10:07,625 "open and unshaped," 64 00:10:07,833 --> 00:10:10,292 "feather-light in its freedom..." 65 00:10:10,458 --> 00:10:13,584 "and lead-heavy in its uncertainty?" 66 00:10:14,584 --> 00:10:15,876 "Is it a wish?" 67 00:10:16,959 --> 00:10:19,501 "Dream like and nostalgic," 68 00:10:19,668 --> 00:10:24,002 "to stand once again at that point in life..." 69 00:10:24,877 --> 00:10:28,585 "and be able to take a completely different direction..." 70 00:10:28,960 --> 00:10:31,836 "to the one which has made us who we are?" 71 00:11:19,675 --> 00:11:21,008 Do you have a room? 72 00:11:22,717 --> 00:11:25,217 - Where is your luggage? - I don't have any. 73 00:11:28,176 --> 00:11:30,176 I will trust you and give you a room. 74 00:11:31,218 --> 00:11:32,718 With a view of the sea. 75 00:11:40,844 --> 00:11:42,480 There. The sea. 76 00:11:45,845 --> 00:11:47,887 - Anything else, sir? - Yes 77 00:11:48,970 --> 00:11:51,731 I wanted to find the address of the man who wrote this. 78 00:11:56,929 --> 00:11:58,179 Thank you. 79 00:11:59,638 --> 00:12:02,482 - Anything else? - No, thank you. 80 00:12:40,893 --> 00:12:43,268 Good morning, I am looking for Amadeu de Prado. 81 00:12:44,810 --> 00:12:46,144 One moment. 82 00:13:03,812 --> 00:13:05,813 I believe you are looking for my brother? 83 00:13:06,229 --> 00:13:10,230 - Yes. Is the doctor in? - Are you ill? 84 00:13:10,980 --> 00:13:13,480 No, I'm... I am reading this book. 85 00:13:13,689 --> 00:13:16,147 I very much like to meet him. 86 00:13:16,772 --> 00:13:20,481 What he writes touches me very deeply. 87 00:13:23,773 --> 00:13:25,492 You should come inside. 88 00:13:28,149 --> 00:13:29,732 You may sit. 89 00:13:30,857 --> 00:13:35,243 Some tea? Red Assam is Amadeu's preference. 90 00:13:35,244 --> 00:13:36,368 Thank you. 91 00:13:39,942 --> 00:13:41,411 Tea, Clotilde. 92 00:13:42,734 --> 00:13:44,901 This is Amadeu's favorite room. 93 00:13:45,984 --> 00:13:47,370 It's beautiful room. 94 00:13:49,151 --> 00:13:51,443 He has read everyone of those books. 95 00:13:56,444 --> 00:13:59,069 Does he still practice as a doctor? 96 00:14:00,319 --> 00:14:01,736 Where did you get it? 97 00:14:01,903 --> 00:14:05,028 I came across it in Bern, where I live. 98 00:14:05,611 --> 00:14:07,945 Only a hundred were ever printed. 99 00:14:08,403 --> 00:14:10,362 I have six copies left. 100 00:14:13,987 --> 00:14:17,029 I often wonder where the other 94 went. 101 00:14:20,738 --> 00:14:22,738 Bern is in Switzerland, is it not? 102 00:14:23,082 --> 00:14:24,124 Yes. 103 00:14:25,155 --> 00:14:28,948 And the book has traveled?... That is a good thing. 104 00:14:32,615 --> 00:14:36,490 - Has he written anything else? - Nothing that has been published. 105 00:14:37,699 --> 00:14:40,241 He wanted to be a writer, a philosopher... 106 00:14:41,991 --> 00:14:44,074 Then he decided to become a doctor. 107 00:14:44,449 --> 00:14:47,033 He didn't believe people should be in pain. 108 00:14:50,867 --> 00:14:53,200 - Is that him? - That is our father 109 00:14:55,159 --> 00:14:58,368 - He was a famous judge. - So, I gather from the book. 110 00:14:58,743 --> 00:15:02,034 He and Amadeu had a rather complicated relationship. 111 00:15:02,035 --> 00:15:06,702 "Consider from the standpoint of eternity that rather loses its significance." 112 00:15:07,536 --> 00:15:08,786 Yes. 113 00:15:09,869 --> 00:15:14,088 - He often said that to Amadeu. - Amadeu does not believe in eternity. 114 00:15:15,078 --> 00:15:16,745 Unfortunately not. 115 00:15:18,037 --> 00:15:20,287 I don't mean to pry, but... 116 00:15:21,954 --> 00:15:25,246 may I ask how your father died? 117 00:15:25,621 --> 00:15:27,746 No. No, you may not. 118 00:15:33,330 --> 00:15:34,997 If you want to see Amadeu... 119 00:15:35,789 --> 00:15:38,664 you will find him in Cemetery Prazeres. 120 00:15:46,040 --> 00:15:48,718 "We leave something of ourselves behind..." 121 00:15:48,999 --> 00:15:50,874 "when we leave a place,..." 122 00:15:52,458 --> 00:15:56,083 "we stay there, even though we go away." 123 00:15:57,583 --> 00:15:59,417 "And there are things in us..." 124 00:15:59,958 --> 00:16:03,626 "that we can find again only by going back there." 125 00:16:05,459 --> 00:16:08,751 "We travel to our souls when we go to a place..." 126 00:16:09,335 --> 00:16:11,752 "that we have covered a stretch of our life,..." 127 00:16:12,877 --> 00:16:15,919 "no matter how brief it may have been." 128 00:16:17,961 --> 00:16:22,628 "But by travelling to ourselves, we must confront our own loneliness. 129 00:16:24,253 --> 00:16:26,628 "And isn't it so that everything we do..." 130 00:16:26,795 --> 00:16:29,379 "is done out of fear of loneliness?" 131 00:16:31,546 --> 00:16:33,462 "Isn't that why we renounce..." 132 00:16:33,629 --> 00:16:37,213 "all the things we will regret at the end of our life? 133 00:16:43,672 --> 00:16:47,339 Excuse me. I am looking for Amadeu de Almeida Prado. 134 00:16:49,662 --> 00:16:51,798 - Prado. - Thank you. 135 00:16:59,153 --> 00:17:01,237 (In Portuguese) 136 00:17:01,716 --> 00:17:08,613 "...When dictatorship is a fact, revolution is a duty..." 137 00:17:26,969 --> 00:17:28,907 Merda idiota! (Portuguese) ["Fucking idiot!"] 138 00:17:45,679 --> 00:17:48,972 "Is it ultimately a question of self-image," 139 00:17:49,305 --> 00:17:52,180 "the determining idea one has made for oneself..." 140 00:17:52,347 --> 00:17:55,306 "of what one has to have accomplished and experienced..." 141 00:17:55,514 --> 00:17:58,764 "so that one can approve of the life one has lived?" 142 00:18:00,098 --> 00:18:01,817 "If this is the case," 143 00:18:02,140 --> 00:18:04,473 "the fear of death might be described..." 144 00:18:04,640 --> 00:18:09,141 "as the fear of not being able to become whom one planned to be." 145 00:18:11,141 --> 00:18:13,557 "If the certainty befalls us that it will..." 146 00:18:13,558 --> 00:18:16,350 "never be achieved, this wholeness," 147 00:18:16,517 --> 00:18:20,142 "we suddenly don't know how to live the time..." 148 00:18:20,309 --> 00:18:23,642 "that can no longer be part of the whole life." 149 00:18:34,727 --> 00:18:35,852 Better? 150 00:18:37,894 --> 00:18:39,394 Or worse? 151 00:18:40,561 --> 00:18:41,811 Better. 152 00:18:41,978 --> 00:18:45,645 - You feel as if you wrote the book yourself? - I would like to then. 153 00:18:45,812 --> 00:18:49,812 Talks about everything that preoccupying him for years. 154 00:18:50,437 --> 00:18:52,229 Better? Or worse? 155 00:18:53,438 --> 00:18:54,604 Worse. 156 00:18:55,896 --> 00:18:58,605 Tell me one of these beautiful sentences you read. 157 00:18:58,897 --> 00:19:03,116 "The real director of life is accident --" 158 00:19:03,647 --> 00:19:05,772 "a director full of cruelty," 159 00:19:05,939 --> 00:19:08,867 "compassion and bewitching charm." 160 00:19:09,023 --> 00:19:10,377 By accident, he means fate? 161 00:19:10,440 --> 00:19:14,148 No, I think he means chance, randomness chance. 162 00:19:14,899 --> 00:19:18,066 Let's take a break, rest your eyes for a moment. 163 00:19:19,274 --> 00:19:21,233 You are a man who does not sleep well. 164 00:19:21,399 --> 00:19:24,191 - You can tell? - The eyes reveal everything. 165 00:19:26,400 --> 00:19:28,036 Look at these eyes. 166 00:19:29,150 --> 00:19:31,234 Tell me what they reveal. 167 00:19:31,942 --> 00:19:34,276 Melancholic, but hopeful. 168 00:19:34,443 --> 00:19:36,672 Tire, but persistent. 169 00:19:36,673 --> 00:19:37,818 Contradictory. 170 00:19:38,068 --> 00:19:41,735 Why would his sister pretend that he is still alive? 171 00:19:41,985 --> 00:19:44,444 I have no idea. Shall we resume? 172 00:19:54,070 --> 00:19:56,997 So you met a woman in a red coat who disappeared... 173 00:19:57,154 --> 00:19:59,946 - ... and you just dropped everything? - Then I read the book. 174 00:20:00,987 --> 00:20:03,998 I would love to be able to do that, just drop everything... 175 00:20:04,321 --> 00:20:07,488 - You do that often? - No, I never done anything like that before. 176 00:20:08,072 --> 00:20:09,947 Best? Or worse? 177 00:20:10,197 --> 00:20:11,697 Uh, better. 178 00:20:13,281 --> 00:20:15,281 How does that feel? 179 00:20:16,156 --> 00:20:18,406 You talk about seeing his feeling. 180 00:20:18,573 --> 00:20:20,448 - Well, isn't it? - I suppose it is. 181 00:20:20,948 --> 00:20:23,709 - How clear is it? The image. - Very clear. 182 00:20:25,324 --> 00:20:26,657 And how about this? 183 00:20:30,324 --> 00:20:31,991 Everything is in focus. 184 00:20:39,617 --> 00:20:43,117 Sir, we have this new one here... 185 00:20:45,909 --> 00:20:47,993 "The decisive moment of life," 186 00:20:48,160 --> 00:20:50,702 "when its direction changes forever," 187 00:20:51,327 --> 00:20:54,171 "are not always marked by loud and shrill dramatics." 188 00:20:55,327 --> 00:21:00,328 "In truth, the dramatic moments of a life-determining experience..." 189 00:21:00,495 --> 00:21:03,370 "are often unbelievable low-key." 190 00:21:04,578 --> 00:21:07,725 "When it unfolds its revolutionary effect..." 191 00:21:07,787 --> 00:21:12,371 "and make sure that life that it revealed in a brand-new light." 192 00:21:12,538 --> 00:21:14,830 "It does that silently." 193 00:21:16,163 --> 00:21:21,122 "And in this wonderful silence resides its special nobility." 194 00:21:22,414 --> 00:21:24,831 Now you wonder if the old pair were better. 195 00:21:25,039 --> 00:21:26,789 - Yes. - But they are not, are they? 196 00:21:29,623 --> 00:21:31,790 No, they feel very light. 197 00:21:32,040 --> 00:21:34,249 Getting used to them will take some time. 198 00:21:34,874 --> 00:21:39,124 - You take credit cards? - You can sort all that out with my receptionist. 199 00:21:40,208 --> 00:21:43,135 Before you go... I have an uncle. 200 00:21:43,875 --> 00:21:46,552 He lives in a nursing home across the Tejo (river Tagus). 201 00:21:46,708 --> 00:21:49,667 I called him last night and told him about you and the book. 202 00:21:50,167 --> 00:21:52,209 He knew Amadeu de Prado well. 203 00:21:52,376 --> 00:21:56,335 I told him you want to know about Amadeu and he said he'll talk to you. 204 00:21:56,960 --> 00:21:58,918 He was in the resistance. 205 00:22:00,252 --> 00:22:03,544 I must warn you, my uncle can be difficult. 206 00:22:03,919 --> 00:22:05,388 In what way? 207 00:22:06,294 --> 00:22:09,628 The generation that lived under the dictator Salazar 208 00:22:09,794 --> 00:22:13,128 is still battling to come to terms with what happened. 209 00:22:13,837 --> 00:22:17,379 When the resistance began, the Secret Police were extremely brutal. 210 00:22:17,545 --> 00:22:20,671 To this day, people don't like talking about it, 211 00:22:21,046 --> 00:22:23,973 The block of jail as well as their victims. 212 00:22:32,130 --> 00:22:33,766 Uncle João, how are you? 213 00:22:34,422 --> 00:22:35,891 What you doing here? 214 00:22:36,339 --> 00:22:39,381 This is the man I was telling you about, Raimund Gregorius. 215 00:22:39,548 --> 00:22:41,757 - I brought him. - I said I talk to him, not you. 216 00:22:41,923 --> 00:22:44,215 - But... - You can wait in reception. 217 00:22:44,216 --> 00:22:46,300 We go to the lounge. 218 00:22:53,758 --> 00:22:57,050 So, you are interested in Amadeu de Prado? 219 00:22:57,885 --> 00:22:58,614 Yes. 220 00:22:59,717 --> 00:23:02,301 Mariana tells me you have a book of him? 221 00:23:02,467 --> 00:23:03,593 Would you like to see it? 222 00:23:03,759 --> 00:23:08,385 I can imagine what it is like. A godless priest. 223 00:23:09,760 --> 00:23:11,635 That's a good description. 224 00:23:12,885 --> 00:23:15,813 He was the only visitor there allowed in prison. 225 00:23:17,219 --> 00:23:19,094 Every week he visits, 226 00:23:19,344 --> 00:23:22,762 with books and medicines, and cigarettes... 227 00:23:23,762 --> 00:23:27,429 which of course, they take away the moment he leaves. 228 00:23:28,762 --> 00:23:31,440 Yeah, he had privileges. 229 00:23:32,929 --> 00:23:36,472 - What sort of privileges? - The kind you don't want in life. 230 00:23:38,805 --> 00:23:41,972 - Do you have cigarette? - No, sorry, I don't smoke. 231 00:23:42,139 --> 00:23:43,139 Pity. 232 00:23:47,265 --> 00:23:52,223 Mariana tells me that you and Amadeu were in the resistance. 233 00:23:52,515 --> 00:23:55,849 - And Jorge, his best friend. - Oh yes, he wrote a lot about Jorge. 234 00:23:56,099 --> 00:23:58,307 Oh, they were joined at the heart and the soul. 235 00:23:59,016 --> 00:24:00,349 For a time... 236 00:24:00,724 --> 00:24:05,058 But Amadeu, he was too soft for the resistance. 237 00:24:05,808 --> 00:24:09,350 He only joined because he feel quilt. 238 00:24:11,059 --> 00:24:14,309 Mariana tells me you are from Switzerland? 239 00:24:14,476 --> 00:24:15,893 Yes, Bern. 240 00:24:17,143 --> 00:24:19,768 There was never a revolution in Switzerland, was there? 241 00:24:20,060 --> 00:24:24,602 No. Somehow they always managed to avoid such things. 242 00:24:25,227 --> 00:24:28,071 They wouldn't know what it's like to live without trusting. 243 00:24:28,311 --> 00:24:32,103 No one to trust, no friends, no family. 244 00:24:33,603 --> 00:24:36,531 I met his sister, Adriana. 245 00:24:36,687 --> 00:24:39,896 She... She acts as if he is still alive. 246 00:24:40,688 --> 00:24:42,813 And she wears black as is in mourning. 247 00:24:56,648 --> 00:24:59,659 Looking at only fill my cup halfway? 248 00:25:14,025 --> 00:25:16,900 No one has ever done that for me before. 249 00:25:30,756 --> 00:25:31,696 Yeah, it burns. 250 00:25:34,777 --> 00:25:40,945 A gift from PIDE, the Portuguese Secret Police. [Polícia Internacional e de Defesa do Estado] 251 00:25:41,028 --> 00:25:45,049 Rui Luís Mendes was his name. ["Butcher of Lisbon"] 252 00:25:45,779 --> 00:25:47,571 1973, 253 00:25:48,821 --> 00:25:50,238 in the spring time... 254 00:26:02,531 --> 00:26:03,781 I'm home. 255 00:26:13,574 --> 00:26:14,824 Who are you? 256 00:26:15,907 --> 00:26:17,032 Where's my wife? 257 00:26:17,449 --> 00:26:20,293 She kindly took your children for a walk. 258 00:26:22,741 --> 00:26:26,659 This woman that knows all the names. Where do I find her? 259 00:26:27,450 --> 00:26:29,003 I do not know... 260 00:26:30,784 --> 00:26:33,118 I do not know what you are talking about. 261 00:26:36,493 --> 00:26:39,337 Your wife tells me you are an excellent pianist... 262 00:26:40,577 --> 00:26:44,411 Will you play for me? And my friend? 263 00:26:46,203 --> 00:26:47,453 Please. 264 00:26:59,871 --> 00:27:01,423 Can I see you hands? Please. 265 00:27:27,999 --> 00:27:31,291 - What should I play? - Play as your favorite. 266 00:27:47,002 --> 00:27:49,627 They say she has a photographic memory. 267 00:27:51,085 --> 00:27:52,554 Is that true? 268 00:28:10,838 --> 00:28:14,422 I ask you once more, where is she? 269 00:28:35,591 --> 00:28:37,924 What made it all that more terrible 270 00:28:38,674 --> 00:28:40,591 was that someone said yeah 271 00:28:41,466 --> 00:28:45,467 Amadeu, he saved Mendes' life. 272 00:28:50,301 --> 00:28:54,843 Dinnertime. They-- they serve us early here, like in prison. 273 00:28:55,468 --> 00:28:59,010 Not for the inmates, you understand, but for the staff. 274 00:29:00,927 --> 00:29:04,803 I'm glad he finally been able to tell someone about it. 275 00:29:06,178 --> 00:29:08,345 I just wish it had been me. 276 00:29:09,178 --> 00:29:12,106 It is ofter easier to speak with strangers. 277 00:29:13,345 --> 00:29:15,679 With my family it's a bit different. 278 00:29:15,887 --> 00:29:19,888 Pain is something we pretend happens to other people. 279 00:29:21,221 --> 00:29:23,138 When Uncle João disappeared, 280 00:29:23,305 --> 00:29:26,847 our parent told us he had gone to Brazil to work. 281 00:29:27,222 --> 00:29:29,764 Then after the Revolution, when he was released, 282 00:29:29,931 --> 00:29:33,389 they told us he had an accident with his hands. 283 00:29:35,140 --> 00:29:37,817 - He is very fond of you. - He is? 284 00:29:39,140 --> 00:29:41,724 He said you are the only one from the family who ever visited. 285 00:29:41,890 --> 00:29:44,568 He is always so grumpy, I don't blame the others. 286 00:29:45,516 --> 00:29:48,360 - What else did he say? - He said he wish you are married. 287 00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:51,069 I hate him! 288 00:29:52,892 --> 00:29:55,309 Then when you visited, there'll be children. 289 00:29:56,684 --> 00:29:59,445 He actually said that? And he is fond of me? 290 00:30:05,185 --> 00:30:06,435 Do you have children? 291 00:30:06,852 --> 00:30:09,946 No. I have my students... 292 00:30:10,811 --> 00:30:14,019 but the faces change every year, so I try not to too fond of them. 293 00:30:35,188 --> 00:30:37,272 I think now you are staying another day? 294 00:30:39,189 --> 00:30:40,825 Yes, I might have to. 295 00:30:41,147 --> 00:30:42,533 Beautiful glasses. 296 00:31:35,571 --> 00:31:37,123 Father Bartolomeu? 297 00:31:37,946 --> 00:31:38,467 Yes. 298 00:31:39,488 --> 00:31:44,322 João Eça tells me that you buried Amadeu de Prado. 299 00:31:45,864 --> 00:31:48,510 I would prefer to be remembered in this manner: 300 00:31:48,572 --> 00:31:50,447 who taught Amadeu, 301 00:31:50,906 --> 00:31:52,864 not the one who buried him. 302 00:31:55,365 --> 00:31:58,907 Amadeu was 12 years old when he first came to the school. 303 00:31:59,282 --> 00:32:02,043 He came with no bag, no books... 304 00:32:02,574 --> 00:32:04,449 and read them all, you think. 305 00:32:04,824 --> 00:32:06,783 Everything was in his head. 306 00:32:08,450 --> 00:32:12,408 What does he say about the school, in his book? 307 00:32:20,868 --> 00:32:23,201 "For 1922 days,..." 308 00:32:23,368 --> 00:32:27,160 "I attended the 'Liceu (school)' where my Father sent me,..." 309 00:32:27,369 --> 00:32:29,994 "the strictest school in the whole country." 310 00:32:30,411 --> 00:32:32,932 "By the third day I realized I had to count the days,..." 311 00:32:32,994 --> 00:32:35,203 "so as not to be crushed by it." 312 00:32:37,495 --> 00:32:39,870 He hated it that much? 313 00:32:42,537 --> 00:32:45,579 Were Jorge and Amadeu in the same class? 314 00:32:45,996 --> 00:32:47,715 Uh, no. Not at first. 315 00:32:47,871 --> 00:32:52,330 Amadeu skipped 2 grades. 316 00:32:53,580 --> 00:32:55,580 He was that bright, you see. 317 00:32:55,955 --> 00:32:58,581 And for 2 years, they were in the same class. 318 00:32:58,747 --> 00:32:59,654 Or I should say, 319 00:32:59,664 --> 00:33:02,081 they were in a class of their own. 320 00:33:02,623 --> 00:33:04,290 Amadeu, the aristocrat, 321 00:33:04,873 --> 00:33:06,873 and Jorge, the working class boy. 322 00:33:07,332 --> 00:33:10,624 They had a very noted curiosity in those two. 323 00:33:11,541 --> 00:33:13,051 They would lie to their mothers 324 00:33:13,103 --> 00:33:16,541 that they were going to spend the night at the friend's house. 325 00:33:17,041 --> 00:33:19,125 Instead, they came here. 326 00:33:28,668 --> 00:33:30,220 How did you find them, Jorge? 327 00:33:30,376 --> 00:33:33,387 I was sleeping here and I found the floor was loosen. 328 00:33:36,502 --> 00:33:39,398 - Jean-Paul Sartre (French philosopher)... - Karl Marx (German philosopher)... 329 00:33:39,419 --> 00:33:41,075 Henry Miller (American writer)... 330 00:33:41,586 --> 00:33:43,503 My God, if we found these books... 331 00:33:43,669 --> 00:33:48,419 We would end up in Tarrafal ("Camp of the Slow Death") along with all the other political prisoners. 332 00:33:48,420 --> 00:33:51,045 But your father would never allow that, would he? Amadeu. 333 00:33:51,379 --> 00:33:53,712 He would get Grand Minister Salazar personally intervene 334 00:33:53,879 --> 00:33:55,629 and have the case thrown out of court. 335 00:33:56,754 --> 00:33:58,838 You think it is a joke my father is a judge. 336 00:33:59,213 --> 00:34:01,536 I think it is a joke that the son of a green grocer 337 00:34:01,547 --> 00:34:02,797 has friended with the son of a judge. 338 00:34:03,380 --> 00:34:04,766 That is funny. 339 00:34:06,922 --> 00:34:08,255 You have to admit. 340 00:34:12,130 --> 00:34:16,590 Amadeu would have been unhappy wherever he was. 341 00:34:18,382 --> 00:34:20,715 He never played games with the other boys. 342 00:34:22,216 --> 00:34:24,132 He never let himself go... 343 00:34:25,674 --> 00:34:28,800 except one time. 344 00:34:31,092 --> 00:34:33,768 No body forgot that time. 345 00:34:37,259 --> 00:34:38,895 Make room there boys. Make room. 346 00:34:59,387 --> 00:35:02,231 - My father is here. - Of course he is. What do you expect? 347 00:35:02,387 --> 00:35:03,106 You should read this, Jorge. 348 00:35:03,116 --> 00:35:04,273 You wrote most of them anyway. 349 00:35:04,429 --> 00:35:07,054 They are your words. I only helped to choose them. 350 00:35:08,596 --> 00:35:11,972 - Amadeu, which is our religion? - Loyalty. 351 00:35:12,180 --> 00:35:13,597 What are our values? 352 00:35:14,305 --> 00:35:16,347 Truth, above all else. 353 00:35:16,681 --> 00:35:19,139 Exactly. Just keep your eyes on me and you'll be fine. 354 00:35:22,265 --> 00:35:23,733 As is traditional, 355 00:35:23,848 --> 00:35:27,901 we end our ceremony with a grade 12 graduation speech. 356 00:35:28,224 --> 00:35:30,901 In this year, that honor will be bestow 357 00:35:31,432 --> 00:35:34,683 to Amadeu de Almeida Prado. 358 00:36:03,436 --> 00:36:05,853 I would not like to live in a world without cathedrals. 359 00:36:07,145 --> 00:36:08,562 I need their beauty and grandeur 360 00:36:08,728 --> 00:36:11,104 against the dirty colors of military uniforms. 361 00:36:14,229 --> 00:36:16,438 I love the powerful words of the Bible. 362 00:36:17,938 --> 00:36:20,021 I need the force of its poetry. 363 00:36:21,230 --> 00:36:24,595 I need it against the decay of language 364 00:36:24,689 --> 00:36:27,272 and the dictatorship of worthless slogans. 365 00:36:30,773 --> 00:36:32,981 But there is another world I do not wish to live in. 366 00:36:35,148 --> 00:36:37,940 A world in which independent thinking is disparaged, 367 00:36:38,565 --> 00:36:41,732 and the finest things we can experience denounced as sin. 368 00:36:42,524 --> 00:36:44,274 A world in which our love 369 00:36:44,608 --> 00:36:48,608 is demanded by tyrants, oppressors and assassin. 370 00:36:49,858 --> 00:36:53,109 And most absurdly, people are exhorted from the pulpit 371 00:36:53,525 --> 00:36:57,359 to forgive these creatures and even to love them. 372 00:36:59,109 --> 00:37:02,318 It is for this reason we cannot just put the Bible aside. 373 00:37:02,985 --> 00:37:04,944 We have to throw it away completely. 374 00:37:05,110 --> 00:37:08,704 for it speaks only of vain holier-than-thou. 375 00:37:10,611 --> 00:37:13,861 In his omnipresent, the Lord observes us day and night. 376 00:37:14,653 --> 00:37:16,945 He takes note of our acts and thoughts. 377 00:37:17,487 --> 00:37:20,029 But what is a man without secrets? 378 00:37:20,904 --> 00:37:23,862 Without thoughts and wishes that he, and he alone, knows? 379 00:37:25,404 --> 00:37:27,238 Does the Lord our God not consider 380 00:37:27,405 --> 00:37:29,988 He's stealing our soul with his unbridled curiosity, 381 00:37:30,280 --> 00:37:32,697 a soul that should be immortal? 382 00:37:34,364 --> 00:37:37,156 But who would in all seriousness want to be immortal? 383 00:37:37,906 --> 00:37:40,073 How boring to know that what happens today, 384 00:37:40,281 --> 00:37:42,656 this month, this year, does not matter? 385 00:37:43,490 --> 00:37:44,990 Nothing would count. 386 00:37:46,282 --> 00:37:49,324 No one here knows what it would be like to live eternally. 387 00:37:49,782 --> 00:37:51,866 And it's a blessing we never will. 388 00:37:53,241 --> 00:37:55,075 One thing I can assure you, 389 00:37:55,700 --> 00:37:59,752 it would be hell, this endless paradise of immortality. 390 00:38:00,742 --> 00:38:02,659 It is death and only death, 391 00:38:03,159 --> 00:38:06,409 that gives each moment beauty and horror. 392 00:38:06,993 --> 00:38:09,545 Only through death is time living thing. 393 00:38:10,451 --> 00:38:12,170 Why does the Lord not noticed? 394 00:38:12,743 --> 00:38:15,160 Why does He threaten us with a... endlessness 395 00:38:15,327 --> 00:38:17,869 that can only be unbearably desolate? 396 00:38:23,620 --> 00:38:25,995 I would not want to live in a world without cathedrals. 397 00:38:26,828 --> 00:38:28,547 I need the luster of their windows, 398 00:38:29,704 --> 00:38:33,412 their cool stillness, their imperious silence. 399 00:38:34,663 --> 00:38:38,882 I need the holiness of words, the grandeur of great poetry. 400 00:38:39,622 --> 00:38:42,966 But just as much I need the freedom 401 00:38:43,122 --> 00:38:46,456 to rebel against everything that is cruel in this world. 402 00:38:47,206 --> 00:38:49,541 For the one is nothing without the other. 403 00:38:50,123 --> 00:38:52,123 And no one may force me to choose. 404 00:39:37,545 --> 00:39:38,754 What do you think? 405 00:39:40,629 --> 00:39:44,421 I though you would deliver a speech in Latin. 406 00:39:46,296 --> 00:39:48,880 But then, only a very few, would understood it. 407 00:39:59,548 --> 00:40:01,298 Are you friends with that boy? 408 00:40:02,381 --> 00:40:04,215 We are the best of friends. 409 00:40:10,257 --> 00:40:12,091 All of those faces, and more, 410 00:40:14,091 --> 00:40:16,175 came to his funeral. 411 00:40:16,591 --> 00:40:19,217 He died on the day of the Revolution. 412 00:40:20,259 --> 00:40:23,592 Oh so, they all brought red carnations. 413 00:40:25,176 --> 00:40:28,635 I dared not speak any words about God 414 00:40:28,885 --> 00:40:33,229 after what Amadeu called "His empty promises." 415 00:40:34,219 --> 00:40:36,010 But I did allow myself... 416 00:40:36,927 --> 00:40:39,344 one religious word. 417 00:40:41,761 --> 00:40:43,053 Amen. 418 00:40:58,555 --> 00:41:00,680 I was very proud of him. 419 00:41:02,014 --> 00:41:04,514 And why did you never tell him, papa? 420 00:41:48,728 --> 00:41:54,228 To this day, I never found out what secret bound those two together, 421 00:41:54,812 --> 00:41:57,572 and what that to do with Amadeu. 422 00:42:07,105 --> 00:42:09,647 - My brother is not here. - I know. 423 00:42:11,147 --> 00:42:12,314 Go away. 424 00:42:12,480 --> 00:42:13,262 I know what happened. 425 00:42:13,263 --> 00:42:16,627 He had an aneurysm. [abnormal widening of an artery] [leading to thin vessel wall] 426 00:42:16,773 --> 00:42:18,241 It's in the book. 427 00:42:20,148 --> 00:42:21,554 How do you live with that? 428 00:42:21,555 --> 00:42:25,858 No one had ever telling him blood vessel could burst, 429 00:42:25,878 --> 00:42:27,899 flooding your brain with blood? 430 00:42:29,191 --> 00:42:32,358 I only found out after when I discovered his writings. 431 00:42:34,608 --> 00:42:36,452 He never told anyone. 432 00:42:37,650 --> 00:42:39,286 Not even me. 433 00:42:39,442 --> 00:42:42,901 I am sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. 434 00:42:44,109 --> 00:42:45,443 No, wait. 435 00:42:48,068 --> 00:42:49,943 Let me show you where he worked. 436 00:43:00,194 --> 00:43:02,070 People came day and night, 437 00:43:03,403 --> 00:43:04,820 to see him, 438 00:43:06,112 --> 00:43:07,497 to be healed. 439 00:43:09,571 --> 00:43:12,529 No one should be in pain, he always used to say. 440 00:43:13,696 --> 00:43:15,821 The door was always opened. 441 00:43:19,488 --> 00:43:21,239 I met João Eça. 442 00:43:21,240 --> 00:43:27,573 He mentioned that Amadeu was in the resistance... 443 00:43:27,594 --> 00:43:30,698 Huh. the resistance... 444 00:43:34,032 --> 00:43:37,574 ... and that he saved Mendes' life. 445 00:43:45,367 --> 00:43:48,409 It was late in the evening. 446 00:43:52,076 --> 00:43:54,034 There were terrible shouts 447 00:43:55,534 --> 00:43:57,201 across the square. 448 00:43:58,701 --> 00:43:59,952 Murderer! 449 00:44:10,703 --> 00:44:11,911 The Police! 450 00:44:22,329 --> 00:44:23,715 We need help! 451 00:44:29,914 --> 00:44:31,466 Get the doctor. 452 00:44:33,789 --> 00:44:35,122 In there! 453 00:44:43,207 --> 00:44:45,665 Amadeu, you need to come, now. 454 00:44:56,792 --> 00:44:57,959 Is this...? 455 00:45:06,376 --> 00:45:08,752 Out. Out! 456 00:45:26,670 --> 00:45:27,837 Adriana. 457 00:46:21,052 --> 00:46:23,302 A traitor. Traitor! 458 00:46:24,417 --> 00:46:24,938 Traitor. 459 00:46:27,928 --> 00:46:29,720 - You are a traitor! - I'm a doctor. 460 00:46:32,053 --> 00:46:33,720 You hear me? A doctor! 461 00:46:34,303 --> 00:46:36,512 You are a traitor! 462 00:47:05,099 --> 00:47:08,933 He sat him down in this very chair and washed his face. 463 00:47:10,058 --> 00:47:11,808 His beautiful face. 464 00:47:13,600 --> 00:47:17,309 After that, people stopped coming. Even Jorge. 465 00:47:17,684 --> 00:47:19,267 That pretty hurt him. 466 00:47:21,851 --> 00:47:22,934 You know of Jorge? 467 00:47:23,248 --> 00:47:25,028 I know they were great friends. 468 00:47:27,226 --> 00:47:30,477 - Why is the world so cruel? - I ask myself that... 469 00:47:30,644 --> 00:47:34,144 - It is if it doesn't care. - God doesn't care. 470 00:47:35,936 --> 00:47:37,978 Amadeu was right about that. 471 00:47:41,770 --> 00:47:43,728 I would like to be alone now. 472 00:47:46,145 --> 00:47:48,906 - May I call on you again? - Why? 473 00:47:51,313 --> 00:47:54,240 His life, his world, was... 474 00:47:56,147 --> 00:47:59,605 ... extraordinary. Makes my seem so insignificant. 475 00:48:05,981 --> 00:48:07,856 - You have cigarettes? - Which brand? 476 00:48:08,378 --> 00:48:09,420 Um... 477 00:48:30,046 --> 00:48:31,484 You brought them? 478 00:48:32,068 --> 00:48:33,391 No, wait, wait. 479 00:48:33,495 --> 00:48:36,485 Everyone here is a spy. Worse than the damn fascists. 480 00:48:36,818 --> 00:48:38,204 We go outside. 481 00:48:41,152 --> 00:48:43,444 You didn't telephone me just to get cigarettes. 482 00:48:43,611 --> 00:48:44,767 I called because... 483 00:48:44,986 --> 00:48:47,705 talking to me let me sleep better, last night. 484 00:48:52,778 --> 00:48:56,591 Amadeu, he never smoked. He's the only one who didn't. 485 00:48:57,071 --> 00:48:59,321 Jorge, he smoked like a chimney. 486 00:49:13,239 --> 00:49:16,823 - Jorge, uh-- is he still alive? - I don't know. 487 00:49:18,907 --> 00:49:23,699 I never talk to him after what happened with Estefânia. 488 00:49:24,574 --> 00:49:26,022 No one knew how to. 489 00:49:26,032 --> 00:49:28,074 It was too personal. 490 00:49:29,741 --> 00:49:31,377 Who is Estefânia? 491 00:49:32,575 --> 00:49:34,992 The woman who remember everything. 492 00:49:35,617 --> 00:49:39,117 That's why they picked me up to get to her. 493 00:49:41,909 --> 00:49:44,285 Lieutenant Nicholas Ribeiro. 494 00:49:46,326 --> 00:49:50,077 Benfica. 28 December. 495 00:49:50,827 --> 00:49:55,661 Telephone, 857-2463. 496 00:49:57,411 --> 00:49:59,411 7th Article. 497 00:50:03,370 --> 00:50:05,579 Captain Carlos Peixe. 498 00:50:07,621 --> 00:50:10,496 Sintra, 47 Rua (street)... 499 00:50:10,497 --> 00:50:11,539 Sh-e-e. 500 00:50:27,915 --> 00:50:28,453 Is that Amadeu de Prado? 501 00:50:28,454 --> 00:50:29,809 Jorge... 502 00:50:31,207 --> 00:50:33,968 - Are you in there? - Let him in. 503 00:50:46,209 --> 00:50:47,876 Why have you been avoiding me? 504 00:50:48,334 --> 00:50:50,584 Everyone else I can understand. But you? 505 00:50:51,001 --> 00:50:52,251 I am not avoiding you. 506 00:50:53,001 --> 00:50:55,845 You are lying, Jorge. We do not lie to each other! 507 00:51:09,503 --> 00:51:11,295 I want to join the resistance. 508 00:51:12,253 --> 00:51:13,920 Because of guilt? 509 00:51:15,879 --> 00:51:17,921 As a doctor, I had no choice. 510 00:51:18,087 --> 00:51:21,421 As a doctor, you should have injected poison into his heart. 511 00:51:22,046 --> 00:51:24,119 Not adrenaline [medical stimulant]. 512 00:51:29,672 --> 00:51:30,964 Sit, Amadeu. 513 00:51:41,632 --> 00:51:43,632 Are you going to introduce me to your friends? 514 00:51:44,507 --> 00:51:45,757 This is João 515 00:51:49,341 --> 00:51:51,967 And this, is Estefânia. 516 00:51:54,884 --> 00:51:56,603 I was going to introduce you sooner but... 517 00:51:56,759 --> 00:51:59,259 the resistance keeps us busy. 518 00:52:00,468 --> 00:52:02,020 Is she beautiful? 519 00:52:11,802 --> 00:52:15,053 What if you first assignment was to kill your father? 520 00:52:24,929 --> 00:52:27,179 - Why? - Because he is a judge. 521 00:52:29,054 --> 00:52:31,096 Part of the fascist regime. 522 00:52:43,598 --> 00:52:47,734 Don't be upset, Amadeu. I was just testing you. 523 00:52:50,724 --> 00:52:54,641 You knew it, straight away. E-- even Jorge would see it. 524 00:52:55,724 --> 00:52:59,943 Estefânia, she was completely drawn to him. 525 00:53:03,100 --> 00:53:04,892 And the names and addresses? 526 00:53:05,059 --> 00:53:09,142 Members of the armed forces sympathetic to our cause. 527 00:53:09,309 --> 00:53:11,934 She had them stock piled in her head 528 00:53:12,393 --> 00:53:14,435 more than 200 names, 529 00:53:14,976 --> 00:53:20,269 waiting for the day we call them, rise up against the fascists. 530 00:53:40,980 --> 00:53:43,605 - May I have my key please? - Of course sir. 531 00:54:09,191 --> 00:54:10,827 Is Miss. de Prado at home? 532 00:54:10,983 --> 00:54:13,567 She asked for you to wait, if you come. 533 00:54:25,152 --> 00:54:27,110 Why you bring back the past? 534 00:54:28,485 --> 00:54:31,611 I want to know how it felt to be Amadeu. 535 00:54:33,486 --> 00:54:34,653 Did you know him? 536 00:54:43,779 --> 00:54:45,654 Amadeu, you must eat. 537 00:54:46,612 --> 00:54:49,905 You need to be strong for your final exams. 538 00:55:10,615 --> 00:55:11,657 Stand up. 539 00:55:18,908 --> 00:55:19,991 Sit down. 540 00:55:20,242 --> 00:55:21,575 Mom come help me. 541 00:55:26,284 --> 00:55:28,201 I have to do this otherwise you will die. 542 00:55:29,159 --> 00:55:30,451 Take your hands away. 543 00:55:32,410 --> 00:55:34,160 Adriana, trust me. 544 00:56:05,747 --> 00:56:07,622 Clotilde, call an ambulance! 545 00:56:09,581 --> 00:56:12,081 The ambulance and the doctor came 546 00:56:12,623 --> 00:56:14,706 and Adiana was rushed to hospital. 547 00:56:22,082 --> 00:56:23,999 You can leave us now, Clotilde. 548 00:56:34,917 --> 00:56:36,792 The doctor said I did the right thing. 549 00:56:43,627 --> 00:56:45,262 Why did you say nothing? 550 00:56:47,335 --> 00:56:49,211 Why do you judge me so? 551 00:56:56,336 --> 00:56:58,420 The intervention is called tracheotomy. 552 00:56:59,045 --> 00:57:01,972 If I hadn't done it, you would have carried her out in a coffin. 553 00:57:08,880 --> 00:57:11,171 I too shall have a cup of tea with you. 554 00:57:14,589 --> 00:57:16,057 So now, you know. 555 00:57:17,964 --> 00:57:20,923 From then on I was indebted to him. 556 00:57:22,131 --> 00:57:24,673 Just as Rui Mendes was indebted to him. 557 00:57:27,048 --> 00:57:28,715 The police knew very well the... 558 00:57:28,882 --> 00:57:30,913 clinic was been used as a cover for the resistance. 559 00:57:31,278 --> 00:57:33,091 They never came and searched. 560 00:57:33,549 --> 00:57:36,154 People would drop off envelopes of money, and... 561 00:57:36,300 --> 00:57:38,758 names, addresses, maps. 562 00:57:41,884 --> 00:57:43,759 And then she would come. 563 00:57:46,717 --> 00:57:48,103 Next. 564 00:57:51,010 --> 00:57:53,687 Why have you not call me? I left messages. 565 00:57:55,510 --> 00:57:57,427 I have something for João. 566 00:58:03,594 --> 00:58:06,970 I have to talk to you. I cannot go on with Jorge. 567 00:58:09,303 --> 00:58:10,554 Leave us. 568 00:58:14,096 --> 00:58:15,565 Adriana, leave us. 569 00:58:19,471 --> 00:58:21,597 Then one night, it-- it all ended. 570 00:58:22,763 --> 00:58:23,847 How? 571 00:58:24,264 --> 00:58:25,764 Something had happened... 572 00:58:25,930 --> 00:58:30,316 I do not know what, except that was the last time I ever saw her. 573 00:58:39,807 --> 00:58:42,651 - There are patients waiting for you. - Send them away. 574 00:58:42,807 --> 00:58:44,526 We do not send patients away?! 575 00:58:44,683 --> 00:58:45,320 Do it now. 576 00:58:45,321 --> 00:58:47,610 If someone comes to the door. Do not answer it. 577 00:58:48,433 --> 00:58:50,308 Switch off the lights. We are not here. 578 00:59:30,230 --> 00:59:32,063 João Eça is at the door. 579 00:59:34,022 --> 00:59:35,147 I'll be back. 580 00:59:45,284 --> 00:59:46,221 Amadeu! 581 00:59:46,940 --> 00:59:48,149 Come. Come in. 582 00:59:52,608 --> 00:59:53,941 Where is she? 583 00:59:55,900 --> 00:59:57,233 Estefânia? 584 00:59:57,400 --> 00:59:59,900 I don't know. She went one way, I went another. 585 01:00:01,317 --> 01:00:04,901 Jorge came to me; the problem is Estefânia. 586 01:00:06,234 --> 01:00:07,703 What do you mean? 587 01:00:08,693 --> 01:00:11,704 He wants... he wants to eliminate her. 588 01:00:13,360 --> 01:00:14,485 What? 589 01:00:16,194 --> 01:00:19,444 He said if they get to her, they'll get the names. 590 01:00:20,736 --> 01:00:22,403 It will be the end of it. 591 01:00:23,153 --> 01:00:25,153 Jorge wants to kill Estefânia? 592 01:00:25,903 --> 01:00:29,237 If she or Jorge come here, call me. 593 01:00:30,404 --> 01:00:33,633 - You understand? - I understand. 594 01:00:34,844 --> 01:00:35,365 Okay. 595 01:00:39,863 --> 01:00:41,155 What a mess. 596 01:00:54,782 --> 01:00:56,365 What are you going to do? 597 01:00:59,407 --> 01:01:02,199 Pack a bag and some food; I am taking the car. 598 01:01:02,408 --> 01:01:04,908 - To where? - Away from here. 599 01:01:07,450 --> 01:01:10,377 - With her? - Of course with her. 600 01:01:11,700 --> 01:01:13,951 No, please no, Amadeu! 601 01:01:14,659 --> 01:01:16,618 I beg you, don't do this thing! 602 01:01:17,451 --> 01:01:19,087 Tell them she's here. 603 01:01:19,493 --> 01:01:22,618 Don't go away with her. I beg you! 604 01:01:23,160 --> 01:01:25,244 Please, don't go! 605 01:01:29,577 --> 01:01:31,078 Do as I say. 606 01:01:33,703 --> 01:01:36,037 Don't do this thing, it's wrong! 607 01:01:37,120 --> 01:01:40,537 Something terrible will happen, I know it will! 608 01:01:45,871 --> 01:01:49,788 He stepped over me. I'll never forget that. 609 01:01:51,288 --> 01:01:53,039 He stepped over me... 610 01:01:54,497 --> 01:01:57,341 like I was... nothing. 611 01:02:44,670 --> 01:02:46,420 Could I have a coffee, please? 612 01:02:49,254 --> 01:02:51,254 Mr. Kagi, its me. 613 01:02:51,879 --> 01:02:54,463 I am sorry I missed your call yesterday. 614 01:02:54,713 --> 01:02:56,588 Don't tell me you are still in Lisbon? 615 01:02:57,505 --> 01:02:59,422 - Yes, I am. - Where are you staying? 616 01:02:59,630 --> 01:03:02,391 Hotel Silva. You wouldn't have heard... 617 01:03:02,547 --> 01:03:04,099 Is it raining in Bern? 618 01:03:04,256 --> 01:03:06,506 I can't keep teaching your class, you have to come back. 619 01:03:07,298 --> 01:03:10,173 You don't come back, I am going to have to get replacement for you. 620 01:03:10,340 --> 01:03:11,673 You want me to do this? 621 01:03:12,256 --> 01:03:15,382 - Perhaps... - I need a "yes" or "no", Raimund. 622 01:03:15,840 --> 01:03:17,924 Mr. Kagi, I have to go. I'm sorry. 623 01:04:36,975 --> 01:04:38,892 Why are you following me? 624 01:04:50,477 --> 01:04:52,112 Where does this come from? 625 01:04:52,310 --> 01:04:54,988 His sister, Adriana, came across his notes. 626 01:04:55,602 --> 01:04:59,144 She put them together in a book. I came across that in Bern, Switzerland. 627 01:05:02,853 --> 01:05:05,062 I want to know what happened to Estefânia. 628 01:05:05,228 --> 01:05:07,312 - Why? - Amadeu is dead... 629 01:05:08,312 --> 01:05:10,812 Adriana does not know. You are the only one who does. 630 01:05:11,271 --> 01:05:13,229 Get the hell out of here! 631 01:05:13,771 --> 01:05:15,021 Get out! 632 01:05:20,522 --> 01:05:23,147 Why has my uncle started smoking again? 633 01:05:23,453 --> 01:05:23,974 What? 634 01:05:25,064 --> 01:05:27,023 The doctor from the nursing home called me 635 01:05:27,189 --> 01:05:30,481 and told me a stranger visited him and brought him some cigarettes. 636 01:05:30,731 --> 01:05:33,315 - But he asked me to bring him... - Are you trying to kill him? 637 01:05:34,065 --> 01:05:35,784 He already has emphysema! [a chronic lung disease] 638 01:05:35,836 --> 01:05:38,274 Yeah, but he enjoys smoking. Why deny him that pleasure? 639 01:05:38,441 --> 01:05:39,910 Because it's bad for him. 640 01:05:40,066 --> 01:05:43,941 So is in that nursing home. Reminds him of being in prison. 641 01:05:48,275 --> 01:05:51,286 - How are your new glasses? - I'm getting used to them. 642 01:05:53,067 --> 01:05:54,734 Would you have dinner with me? 643 01:05:59,402 --> 01:06:01,037 I thought you never ask. 644 01:06:02,694 --> 01:06:05,652 If-- if-- if Jesus had been put to death with a guillotine 645 01:06:05,819 --> 01:06:08,611 we all be praying before a big shiny blade. 646 01:06:09,028 --> 01:06:13,080 Or-- or if He've been electrocuted we will be genuflecting in front of a chair. 647 01:06:16,904 --> 01:06:18,570 But can you really do that? 648 01:06:18,737 --> 01:06:22,873 Nobody dislike to be another person without being the other person. 649 01:06:23,029 --> 01:06:26,821 You can "imagine" what it's like to be that other person. 650 01:06:27,530 --> 01:06:31,155 "Imagination is our last sanctuary." That's one of his lines. 651 01:06:31,572 --> 01:06:35,197 There he also said, "Intimacy is our last sanctuary." 652 01:06:36,406 --> 01:06:38,323 You remember the lines verbatim. 653 01:06:38,573 --> 01:06:41,198 Uh that's figure they-- they mean something to me. 654 01:06:41,740 --> 01:06:44,834 Poor Estefânia, she-- she remembered everything, 655 01:06:44,990 --> 01:06:47,241 even trivial things -- numbers, names, 656 01:06:47,407 --> 01:06:49,699 phone numbers, addresses... 657 01:06:50,158 --> 01:06:52,491 To have a memory like that must drive me mad. 658 01:06:54,700 --> 01:06:56,252 Sorry, I am going on. 659 01:06:58,075 --> 01:06:59,950 I haven't talked as much as this for years. 660 01:07:00,013 --> 01:07:02,951 No, no. I'm fascinated... 661 01:07:05,951 --> 01:07:09,327 May I ask you how long you have been on you own? 662 01:07:10,368 --> 01:07:12,004 Five and a half years. 663 01:07:12,410 --> 01:07:14,869 But before that, you spoke to you wife? 664 01:07:15,077 --> 01:07:16,463 Yes... 665 01:07:17,369 --> 01:07:17,630 but it... 666 01:07:18,869 --> 01:07:20,953 usually landed me in trouble. 667 01:07:21,245 --> 01:07:22,578 What kind of trouble? 668 01:07:22,870 --> 01:07:25,370 Well, we threw a party to our colleagues... 669 01:07:26,037 --> 01:07:27,620 well... our friends. 670 01:07:28,412 --> 01:07:32,152 And she found this quote from Pessoa [Fernando Pessoa, a Portuguese poet]: 671 01:07:33,329 --> 01:07:39,664 "Fields are greener in their description than their actual greenness." 672 01:07:40,247 --> 01:07:41,997 And somebody said, "Ow that's a beautiful sentence." 673 01:07:42,060 --> 01:07:45,956 I said, "Yes, but, only a very few people would ever understand it." 674 01:07:47,414 --> 01:07:52,936 And there was-- terrible silence, and then she said, my wife... 675 01:07:53,499 --> 01:07:57,999 She said, "And I suppose you are one of the chosen few?" 676 01:08:01,041 --> 01:08:03,416 So, that was the end of that party. 677 01:08:05,375 --> 01:08:06,844 But you were right. 678 01:08:07,000 --> 01:08:11,584 Yes, but-- it-- was arrogance of me. Stupid marriage. 679 01:08:12,209 --> 01:08:15,303 And is that why she left you, because of your arrogance? 680 01:08:15,459 --> 01:08:19,960 No. I think she left me because she found me... 681 01:08:22,544 --> 01:08:23,794 boring. 682 01:08:29,086 --> 01:08:32,377 We are still in touch. She called the other day, 683 01:08:32,962 --> 01:08:35,212 she wanted me to move my books out of the garage, 684 01:08:35,379 --> 01:08:38,087 because her new boyfriend wanted somewhere to park his car. 685 01:08:41,087 --> 01:08:43,171 Don't know why I am telling you all of these. 686 01:08:50,839 --> 01:08:54,652 - Would you like to dance? - No, I can't. I can't dance. 687 01:08:57,340 --> 01:08:58,465 You see? 688 01:08:59,965 --> 01:09:01,173 Boring. 689 01:09:09,258 --> 01:09:10,466 Thank you. 690 01:09:11,925 --> 01:09:13,310 I enjoyed that. 691 01:09:13,466 --> 01:09:16,841 Raimund, you are not boring. 692 01:09:19,759 --> 01:09:22,051 My uncle would like to see you again. 693 01:09:22,801 --> 01:09:24,718 Would you take him some cigarettes? 694 01:09:46,720 --> 01:09:49,095 - Jorge is still alive. - You went see him? 695 01:09:49,511 --> 01:09:51,429 Still running the same pharmacy. 696 01:09:51,595 --> 01:09:54,013 Smoking cigarette while he serves his customers. 697 01:09:55,055 --> 01:09:57,513 - You brought some? - Yes I did. 698 01:10:00,597 --> 01:10:03,691 Estefânia was in the house when I was there? 699 01:10:03,847 --> 01:10:06,056 She found them together in his study. 700 01:10:07,723 --> 01:10:09,890 No wonder he lied to me... 701 01:10:10,057 --> 01:10:15,703 because you know, he never lied. He could not tolerate dishonesty. 702 01:10:15,766 --> 01:10:18,349 What had happened earlier that night? 703 01:10:18,766 --> 01:10:21,725 Jorge's place become too small, 704 01:10:21,891 --> 01:10:26,934 and so we hired a room in an old warehouse for our meetings. 705 01:10:27,350 --> 01:10:33,309 We pretended it was a literacy class. Estefânia's idea. 706 01:10:35,185 --> 01:10:36,737 We were so naive... 707 01:10:37,101 --> 01:10:39,310 Nuno, Beleza the railways. 708 01:10:39,477 --> 01:10:41,060 The numbers you will call are: 709 01:10:41,227 --> 01:10:46,394 Lisbon, 642-3518, 710 01:10:46,769 --> 01:10:48,436 contact name, Leonardo; 711 01:10:48,728 --> 01:10:54,437 Port, 235-5900, contact name, Julius. 712 01:10:55,229 --> 01:10:59,062 The signal to take over will come from Radio Renaissance now. 713 01:10:59,229 --> 01:11:02,355 It will be the song that was banned. The song by... 714 01:11:09,730 --> 01:11:13,564 - Excuse me. Are you lost? - Is this the literacy class? 715 01:11:14,439 --> 01:11:18,065 Yes, we were just finishing. Please take a seat. 716 01:11:22,149 --> 01:11:28,649 Most letters have more than one pronunciation except the letter "X", 717 01:11:29,316 --> 01:11:32,160 and we'll explain that in more detail next week. 718 01:11:32,608 --> 01:11:34,192 Thank you all. 719 01:11:39,692 --> 01:11:42,484 What is a professor of music doing here? 720 01:11:44,360 --> 01:11:47,152 I met someone who cannot read 721 01:11:47,985 --> 01:11:51,631 I wanted to see for myself what kind of course it was, 722 01:11:51,694 --> 01:11:53,736 before recommending it. 723 01:11:55,611 --> 01:11:57,903 What is this person's name? 724 01:11:58,861 --> 01:12:02,070 Um-- ur-- Caspian. 725 01:12:03,570 --> 01:12:05,362 How original... 726 01:12:06,404 --> 01:12:09,696 Seat down, all of you! Nobody leaves this room! 727 01:12:25,073 --> 01:12:26,490 Out. Out! 728 01:13:02,286 --> 01:13:03,494 Give me your gun. 729 01:13:04,327 --> 01:13:05,494 What for? 730 01:13:05,869 --> 01:13:08,370 We have to do what is right for the resistance. 731 01:13:09,536 --> 01:13:12,578 - What happened to the others? - Estefânia and Amadeu they got away. But... 732 01:13:13,120 --> 01:13:15,620 they gonna find her and then she will talk. 733 01:13:17,079 --> 01:13:20,871 The others they don't know much. But Estefânia, she knows everything. 734 01:13:23,121 --> 01:13:24,997 What are you talking about? 735 01:13:26,288 --> 01:13:28,164 You want to kill Estefânia? 736 01:13:28,165 --> 01:13:30,475 No. No, no. 737 01:13:30,581 --> 01:13:32,998 I don't want to, but I have to. 738 01:13:33,873 --> 01:13:37,206 One life for many lifes. Give it to me. 739 01:13:38,915 --> 01:13:40,498 João, give it to me. 740 01:13:43,207 --> 01:13:46,166 I never find out what really happened. 741 01:13:46,958 --> 01:13:48,249 Did he tell you? 742 01:13:48,416 --> 01:13:52,375 No. When I asked him, he tell me to-- get lost. 743 01:13:55,250 --> 01:13:59,636 I need to know, I can't tell you how many time I wish 744 01:13:59,792 --> 01:14:02,376 I never have given him that gun. 745 01:14:06,502 --> 01:14:10,377 Three days later, Rui Mendes he picked me up. 746 01:14:12,294 --> 01:14:15,836 He broke my hands and my spirit, 747 01:14:16,836 --> 01:14:20,378 but I never give him one single name. 748 01:14:22,003 --> 01:14:26,504 You-- you-- you tell that to Jorge. He knows me. 749 01:14:31,963 --> 01:14:35,297 "Youth, we live as if we were immortal." 750 01:14:36,130 --> 01:14:38,974 "Knowledge of mortality dances around us..." 751 01:14:39,131 --> 01:14:42,839 "like a brittle paper ribbon that barely touches our skin." 752 01:14:44,506 --> 01:14:47,715 "When in life does that change?" 753 01:14:49,423 --> 01:14:51,424 "When does the ribbon tighten..." 754 01:14:52,049 --> 01:14:55,007 "until finally it strangles us?" 755 01:15:04,717 --> 01:15:06,009 Mr. Kagi? 756 01:15:06,509 --> 01:15:08,384 Have you made a decision yet? 757 01:15:11,551 --> 01:15:12,635 No. 758 01:15:13,010 --> 01:15:17,635 A woman came asking for you. She said she met you on a bridge, or something. 759 01:15:18,844 --> 01:15:20,427 A Portuguese woman? 760 01:15:20,844 --> 01:15:23,011 I told him where you were but she left. 761 01:15:23,719 --> 01:15:26,136 If you decide not to come back, I need your keys. 762 01:15:26,803 --> 01:15:29,387 - Would you post them to me? - No, this woman... 763 01:15:30,220 --> 01:15:31,772 Did-- did she leave her name? 764 01:15:32,262 --> 01:15:33,345 No. 765 01:15:34,095 --> 01:15:35,564 Goodbye, Mr. Kagi. 766 01:16:12,017 --> 01:16:14,434 João Eça want to know what happened to Estefânia. 767 01:16:16,100 --> 01:16:17,601 He says you owe him. 768 01:16:17,767 --> 01:16:20,226 I owe no one anything. 769 01:16:25,102 --> 01:16:27,060 You know what they did to his hands? 770 01:16:29,352 --> 01:16:32,977 Those hands that used to play Mozart? He didn't give them one name. 771 01:16:33,644 --> 01:16:36,020 If he had, you wouldn't be standing here. 772 01:16:36,186 --> 01:16:39,520 You think you can blackmail me with guilt? 773 01:16:39,687 --> 01:16:42,145 You don't know who you are dealing with! 774 01:16:45,271 --> 01:16:49,271 Could I haven't killed her? That is the question! 775 01:16:53,397 --> 01:16:57,397 Don't you know we don't talk about-- about the resistance here? 776 01:16:57,605 --> 01:17:01,023 We bury our history and move on! 777 01:17:05,690 --> 01:17:07,190 You want a drink? 778 01:17:13,274 --> 01:17:16,035 You are sitting where Amadeu used to sit, 779 01:17:16,191 --> 01:17:19,118 until this thing with Mendes happened, then we... 780 01:17:22,817 --> 01:17:25,025 We have the list of reasons for loyalty: 781 01:17:25,567 --> 01:17:27,984 guilt towards others, 782 01:17:29,193 --> 01:17:32,443 shared suffering, common struggle, common strength, 783 01:17:32,651 --> 01:17:35,777 weakness, need for closeness, 784 01:17:37,402 --> 01:17:40,079 common hatred, shared humor, and so on. 785 01:17:43,153 --> 01:17:45,830 - What about love? - He didn't believe in it. 786 01:17:45,986 --> 01:17:48,487 Avoided the word as too sentimental. 787 01:17:48,737 --> 01:17:51,299 There are only 3 things that are important to him: 788 01:17:52,029 --> 01:17:54,873 desire, pleasure and security. 789 01:17:56,654 --> 01:17:58,071 Desire... she is Jewish. 790 01:18:01,488 --> 01:18:03,988 I don't trust people who don't drink. 791 01:18:12,739 --> 01:18:14,156 Have a cigarette. 792 01:18:31,533 --> 01:18:32,742 You are okay? 793 01:18:34,425 --> 01:18:34,946 Yeah. 794 01:18:36,242 --> 01:18:39,118 - João still loves to smoke? - He would. 795 01:18:45,660 --> 01:18:49,327 The night after we graduated from Coimbra University, 796 01:18:49,494 --> 01:18:52,619 me as a pharmacist, Amadeu was a doctor. 797 01:19:00,120 --> 01:19:03,246 - What? - Come, I have something to show you. 798 01:19:20,164 --> 01:19:21,414 What do you think? 799 01:19:24,290 --> 01:19:26,332 So? It's a-- it's a pharmacy. 800 01:19:26,498 --> 01:19:28,749 Yes... It's yours. 801 01:19:34,916 --> 01:19:36,083 Come in. 802 01:19:44,667 --> 01:19:47,834 I need a pharmacist I can trust if I am going to be writing up prescriptions. 803 01:19:49,293 --> 01:19:50,460 Here. 804 01:19:57,252 --> 01:20:00,419 I could not believe what he given me. 805 01:20:02,961 --> 01:20:06,878 After that I never thought we could lose our friendship. 806 01:20:09,712 --> 01:20:11,837 I never thought it possible. 807 01:20:14,962 --> 01:20:18,057 One not much to look as, I know I'm an ugly bastard. 808 01:20:18,255 --> 01:20:20,838 So, when she came along... 809 01:20:23,130 --> 01:20:25,005 God, she was beautiful 810 01:20:26,214 --> 01:20:30,266 I thought some of her would somehow rub off on me. 811 01:20:32,298 --> 01:20:34,673 At least that is what I think I thought. 812 01:20:38,924 --> 01:20:42,174 And this is Estefânia. 813 01:20:44,299 --> 01:20:46,258 Was going to introduce you, but... 814 01:20:46,508 --> 01:20:48,675 The resistance keeps us busy. 815 01:20:51,383 --> 01:20:52,884 Isn't she beautiful? 816 01:21:00,510 --> 01:21:03,968 It was the way she took my hand and removed it from her neck. 817 01:21:05,385 --> 01:21:07,844 Her eyes penetrating him... 818 01:21:08,010 --> 01:21:11,261 We'll think about it, Amadeu, and get back to you. 819 01:21:12,616 --> 01:21:13,241 Alright? 820 01:21:19,554 --> 01:21:21,887 Perhaps we can use your clinic as a drop. 821 01:21:28,305 --> 01:21:30,430 Why did you take my hand off your neck? 822 01:21:31,805 --> 01:21:33,274 Did I? 823 01:21:41,806 --> 01:21:43,931 Have you ever been in love? 824 01:21:44,890 --> 01:21:48,099 So that not even food matters. Not even words. 825 01:21:49,807 --> 01:21:53,308 - I am not sure. - You would be sure. Your would know. 826 01:21:55,558 --> 01:21:57,110 You always know. 827 01:21:58,725 --> 01:22:01,309 - You thinking of him. - What? 828 01:22:17,310 --> 01:22:19,186 You wished I was Amadeu. 829 01:22:25,061 --> 01:22:27,020 Does he mention me in the book? 830 01:22:29,437 --> 01:22:30,687 A lot. 831 01:22:31,562 --> 01:22:35,188 And I am surprise she published it. Adriana hated me. 832 01:22:35,354 --> 01:22:39,146 Wanted him for herself, even not even want to share him with her father. 833 01:22:39,688 --> 01:22:41,438 You know what happened to him? 834 01:22:41,439 --> 01:22:42,481 No. 835 01:22:43,064 --> 01:22:44,782 A few months before the revolution, 836 01:22:44,939 --> 01:22:48,856 he went to Amadeu who endorsed for stronger pain killer for his back. 837 01:22:49,981 --> 01:22:52,992 Adriana came every week to the pharmacy for the pills. 838 01:22:53,148 --> 01:22:55,773 But he never took them; he hoarded them. 839 01:22:56,899 --> 01:23:00,649 A week after Amadeu died, he swallowed over one hundred. 840 01:23:01,774 --> 01:23:05,525 The newspapers said he died there after a long illness... 841 01:23:06,566 --> 01:23:09,192 Catholics don't appreciate suicide. 842 01:23:13,901 --> 01:23:15,026 Everyone out! 843 01:23:22,943 --> 01:23:24,360 Estefânia, come with me. 844 01:24:31,702 --> 01:24:34,952 If I had the gun then I might have shot her. 845 01:24:43,286 --> 01:24:44,755 And when you got the gun? 846 01:24:46,287 --> 01:24:48,745 I went strict to Amadeu's clinic. 847 01:24:50,787 --> 01:24:52,662 I knew they would be there. 848 01:24:57,163 --> 01:24:59,247 - Where are they? - They've gone. 849 01:24:59,913 --> 01:25:02,164 - Don't lie to me... - They've gone, Jorge. 850 01:25:45,335 --> 01:25:46,721 Give me the gun. 851 01:26:41,467 --> 01:26:45,468 Estefânia, is she-- is she still alive? 852 01:26:48,885 --> 01:26:52,552 I bumped into her two years ago. 853 01:26:52,885 --> 01:26:56,844 She was here attending some seminar, or... 854 01:26:59,261 --> 01:27:01,386 I asked her how she was. 855 01:27:04,053 --> 01:27:06,262 She told me she was teaching history. 856 01:27:06,887 --> 01:27:08,012 Where? 857 01:27:08,304 --> 01:27:11,262 At the University of Salamanca, Spain. 858 01:27:14,429 --> 01:27:16,430 And, your pharmacy... 859 01:27:18,388 --> 01:27:21,930 Why do you leave the lights on at night? 860 01:27:27,098 --> 01:27:29,306 To remind me of Amadeu. 861 01:28:24,938 --> 01:28:26,896 Mr. da Silva, can I have my bill please? 862 01:28:27,396 --> 01:28:30,814 - Are you going back to Switzerland, sir? - Yes, via Spain. 863 01:28:31,689 --> 01:28:35,158 They say weather right now in Switzerland is terrible 864 01:28:35,210 --> 01:28:37,231 rain, snowing, wind... 865 01:28:37,398 --> 01:28:39,315 I have to go. Could I have my bill please? 866 01:28:39,815 --> 01:28:41,065 Excuse me. 867 01:28:46,315 --> 01:28:47,441 Hello! 868 01:28:50,316 --> 01:28:53,608 I want to thank you for what happened on the bridge. 869 01:28:55,608 --> 01:28:58,859 - I've been reading your book. - I don't want it. 870 01:29:01,359 --> 01:29:03,943 I just want to thank you for what you did. 871 01:29:08,443 --> 01:29:10,110 I got your coat. 872 01:29:14,610 --> 01:29:16,246 You left it behind. 873 01:29:22,361 --> 01:29:23,653 Tell me your name. 874 01:29:28,737 --> 01:29:30,404 Catarina Mendes. 875 01:29:32,779 --> 01:29:33,988 Yes... 876 01:29:35,530 --> 01:29:37,165 that Mendes. 877 01:29:39,905 --> 01:29:42,947 I am the granddaughter of the "Butcher of Lisbon". 878 01:29:45,823 --> 01:29:49,281 I didn't know who we was until I read the book. 879 01:29:51,615 --> 01:29:54,032 You can't blame yourself for what you grandfather did... 880 01:29:54,199 --> 01:29:55,449 You don't understand. 881 01:29:59,699 --> 01:30:01,449 I loved him. 882 01:30:03,116 --> 01:30:05,283 I cried at his funeral... 883 01:30:05,492 --> 01:30:09,575 And I did not understand why so many other people were not crying. 884 01:30:14,993 --> 01:30:16,545 Anyway... 885 01:30:18,118 --> 01:30:22,421 it will take some time, but I learned to live with this. 886 01:30:35,162 --> 01:30:37,662 This would be the same road they took. 887 01:30:38,287 --> 01:30:41,621 But at night, and in great danger. 888 01:30:42,538 --> 01:30:43,923 And in love. 889 01:30:48,788 --> 01:30:51,330 I was moved to see my uncle cry like that. 890 01:30:51,789 --> 01:30:55,331 I don't know what pleases him more. The news that Estefânia is still alive, 891 01:30:55,498 --> 01:30:57,873 or, got the cigarettes we gave him. 892 01:31:03,290 --> 01:31:06,134 So, you are returning to your school and continue teaching? 893 01:31:08,499 --> 01:31:09,916 If they'll have me. 894 01:31:12,833 --> 01:31:14,875 I am sure I'll come back and visit. 895 01:31:37,628 --> 01:31:39,263 Are you sure she'll be in? 896 01:31:40,878 --> 01:31:43,639 She said she'll be here... Are you coming? 897 01:31:44,378 --> 01:31:45,931 I'll wait in the car. 898 01:31:51,796 --> 01:31:54,380 Go Raimund. I'll be fine here. Take your time. 899 01:31:58,463 --> 01:31:59,880 Welcome Raimund. 900 01:32:02,506 --> 01:32:05,350 - I'm Estefânia. - Thank you so much for meeting me. 901 01:32:07,381 --> 01:32:08,798 You have the book? 902 01:32:10,007 --> 01:32:11,340 I do. 903 01:32:18,758 --> 01:32:21,008 He only looks just as I remember him. 904 01:32:21,841 --> 01:32:24,602 So long ago and still so here... 905 01:32:25,758 --> 01:32:28,384 - Would you like some tea? - Thank you! 906 01:32:29,467 --> 01:32:30,936 What about your friend? 907 01:32:31,092 --> 01:32:33,770 Only she is, um, she is happy in the car. 908 01:32:34,259 --> 01:32:40,218 I joined the resistant after my father was arrested in 1971, for sabotage. 909 01:32:42,094 --> 01:32:46,146 They sent him to Tarrafal. You have heard of it? 910 01:32:46,147 --> 01:32:46,876 Yes. 911 01:32:49,595 --> 01:32:53,470 It was also known as the "Campo da Morte Lenta", "The Camp of the Slow Death". 912 01:32:58,054 --> 01:33:00,596 It took them two years to kill him. 913 01:33:01,971 --> 01:33:03,971 And that is how I met Jorge. 914 01:33:05,138 --> 01:33:09,222 I need someone strong. Someone to protect me. 915 01:33:10,847 --> 01:33:12,931 I thought that was love. 916 01:33:16,139 --> 01:33:17,692 But then I met Amadeu... 917 01:33:26,932 --> 01:33:29,391 A new light fell on everything. 918 01:33:30,933 --> 01:33:34,392 My whole life. 919 01:33:36,559 --> 01:33:38,559 I could not sleep any more. 920 01:33:40,309 --> 01:33:43,018 I went to the clinic as often as I could... 921 01:33:44,351 --> 01:33:46,768 despite Adriana's look. 922 01:33:49,227 --> 01:33:53,394 He wanted to take me in his arm but he kept rejecting me. 923 01:33:53,561 --> 01:33:57,863 "Jorge", he would say, "What about Jorge?" I began to hate Jorge. 924 01:33:59,645 --> 01:34:01,978 - Do you mind if I smoke? - No. Please. 925 01:34:03,979 --> 01:34:06,145 Jealousy is a terrible emotion. 926 01:34:43,108 --> 01:34:47,463 I could tell from his shoulders he had seen us. 927 01:34:47,734 --> 01:34:51,203 Awful... awful. 928 01:34:52,984 --> 01:34:56,693 But in a way I was relieved it was done. 929 01:34:59,027 --> 01:35:01,194 Are you sure your friend is alright? 930 01:35:01,360 --> 01:35:03,611 Oh yes. She is fine in the car. 931 01:35:05,194 --> 01:35:06,986 We drove through the night. 932 01:35:08,986 --> 01:35:11,487 Amadeu kept questioning me. 933 01:35:12,153 --> 01:35:14,945 Was he searching for me or for life? 934 01:35:15,862 --> 01:35:19,654 He wanted to know everything my whole life, like, 935 01:35:20,071 --> 01:35:21,946 memories, 936 01:35:22,905 --> 01:35:26,697 thoughts, fantasies, dreams... It was relentless. 937 01:35:27,239 --> 01:35:30,906 It was almost a relief when 5 km from the border 938 01:35:31,072 --> 01:35:33,448 he stopped and hid me in the trunk. 939 01:35:47,949 --> 01:35:49,116 Passport. 940 01:36:09,827 --> 01:36:13,494 - Why are you traveling to Spain? - I am going to visit relatives. 941 01:36:15,536 --> 01:36:17,005 Get out of the car, please. 942 01:36:46,373 --> 01:36:47,456 Keys. 943 01:36:51,832 --> 01:36:54,166 Do you know Major Rui Luís Mendes of PIDE? 944 01:36:54,916 --> 01:36:56,166 What about him? 945 01:36:58,333 --> 01:37:01,427 I want you to call him. I have his home number. 946 01:37:03,083 --> 01:37:05,667 I want you to tell him your are treating me like a criminal. 947 01:37:22,669 --> 01:37:24,388 He wants to talk to you. 948 01:37:32,212 --> 01:37:34,254 This is Dr. Amadeu de Prado. 949 01:37:35,004 --> 01:37:37,004 You are asking too much of me. 950 01:37:37,546 --> 01:37:41,171 You took my life away from me. I want it back now. 951 01:37:44,130 --> 01:37:46,214 Give the phone back to my man. 952 01:37:53,381 --> 01:37:57,517 Ironic that I should ultimately be saved... 953 01:37:57,798 --> 01:37:59,601 by the Butcher of Lisbon. 954 01:38:08,174 --> 01:38:09,425 That night... 955 01:38:11,633 --> 01:38:14,727 we drove to Finisterra and slept in the car. 956 01:38:54,972 --> 01:38:56,524 Don't go away. 957 01:38:58,722 --> 01:39:00,556 We'll take a ship to the Amazon 958 01:39:01,014 --> 01:39:03,639 to a new world only you and I existed. 959 01:39:07,765 --> 01:39:09,098 I write books... 960 01:39:10,265 --> 01:39:14,485 we invent a new language that only you and I understand. 961 01:39:19,016 --> 01:39:21,517 We go up the river as far as it takes us. 962 01:39:24,934 --> 01:39:27,017 Back in time and into the future. 963 01:39:28,351 --> 01:39:30,184 The very beginning of the end. 964 01:39:31,601 --> 01:39:33,351 What would I do? 965 01:39:34,768 --> 01:39:36,810 You'll share it with me. 966 01:39:39,477 --> 01:39:43,863 The same air, the same feelings, same tastes... 967 01:39:48,186 --> 01:39:49,905 Things that you want... 968 01:39:50,978 --> 01:39:53,437 you want them for yourself, not for me. 969 01:39:54,062 --> 01:39:55,854 I want them for both of us. 970 01:39:56,979 --> 01:39:59,688 He was hungry for me, and for life. 971 01:40:02,230 --> 01:40:05,772 But the journey he wanted to take was into his own soul 972 01:40:05,939 --> 01:40:07,230 not into mine. 973 01:40:20,107 --> 01:40:22,191 I cannot do it, Amadeu. 974 01:40:25,733 --> 01:40:27,149 What do you mean? 975 01:40:28,400 --> 01:40:31,410 You want more than I can ever give. 976 01:40:33,692 --> 01:40:35,328 And I'm not ready. 977 01:40:41,276 --> 01:40:42,776 I'm so sorry... 978 01:41:05,446 --> 01:41:07,165 I have friends in Salamanca. 979 01:41:09,155 --> 01:41:11,071 Will you take me to them? 980 01:41:17,114 --> 01:41:19,156 He drove me to Salamanca... 981 01:41:22,156 --> 01:41:23,948 he shook my hand, 982 01:41:25,448 --> 01:41:28,574 he wished me well and left. 983 01:41:34,491 --> 01:41:36,825 The next I heard, he was dead. 984 01:41:40,367 --> 01:41:42,784 I always thought I killed him. 985 01:41:45,159 --> 01:41:48,451 - He had an aneurysm. - An aneurysm? 986 01:41:49,159 --> 01:41:51,951 A blood vessel burst in his brain. 987 01:41:51,952 --> 01:41:52,682 He... 988 01:41:53,201 --> 01:41:54,452 He had it for a long time. 989 01:42:02,786 --> 01:42:05,661 Did you go to his funeral? 990 01:42:21,580 --> 01:42:25,039 You didn't really think I would do it, did you? 991 01:42:27,789 --> 01:42:29,706 It is no longer important. 992 01:42:54,292 --> 01:42:55,813 So what happened to the 993 01:42:56,292 --> 01:43:00,043 names and telephone numbers you had in you head? 994 01:43:01,460 --> 01:43:02,626 Lisbon 995 01:43:03,210 --> 01:43:07,262 331-4518, contact name, Carlos; 996 01:43:08,335 --> 01:43:13,503 Sintra, 245-102, contact name, Nuno... 997 01:43:14,545 --> 01:43:17,920 I wrote them all down and passed them on to someone safe. 998 01:43:19,420 --> 01:43:23,004 A few months later they were used to initiate the revolution. 999 01:43:25,796 --> 01:43:28,723 Your friend must be very tire of waiting. 1000 01:43:34,172 --> 01:43:36,964 - You can keep the book if you like. - Thank you. 1001 01:43:37,714 --> 01:43:41,298 And probably more ready for him now than I was back then. 1002 01:43:42,881 --> 01:43:45,507 - Goodbye, Raymund. - Goodbye, Estefânia. 1003 01:44:05,384 --> 01:44:09,968 "We leave something of ourselves behind when we leave a place," 1004 01:44:11,468 --> 01:44:15,093 "we stay there, even though we go away." 1005 01:44:16,594 --> 01:44:20,011 "And there are things in us that we can find again..." 1006 01:44:21,053 --> 01:44:22,719 "only by going back there." 1007 01:44:24,220 --> 01:44:27,262 "We travel to our souls when we go to a place..." 1008 01:44:27,970 --> 01:44:30,262 "that we have covered a stretch of our life," 1009 01:44:30,512 --> 01:44:33,012 "no matter how brief it may have been." 1010 01:44:41,597 --> 01:44:42,763 This is me. 1011 01:44:46,681 --> 01:44:48,514 Well, we still got... 1012 01:44:50,806 --> 01:44:52,358 5 minutes. 1013 01:44:54,307 --> 01:44:56,025 Thank you for... 1014 01:44:58,765 --> 01:45:01,141 telling me I wasn't boring. 1015 01:45:07,100 --> 01:45:09,100 But when I think of their lives, 1016 01:45:10,934 --> 01:45:13,184 Amadeu, Estefânia, the others, 1017 01:45:13,350 --> 01:45:17,809 their lives full of such vitality, 1018 01:45:18,184 --> 01:45:21,496 - intensity... - So much so it broke them apart in the end. 1019 01:45:21,497 --> 01:45:22,987 But they lived. 1020 01:45:27,394 --> 01:45:28,977 Whereas my life... 1021 01:45:34,145 --> 01:45:36,270 apart from these last few days... 1022 01:45:41,729 --> 01:45:44,354 And now you are going back to it. 1023 01:45:57,189 --> 01:45:59,231 Oh, why don't you just stay? 1024 01:46:01,106 --> 01:46:02,356 What? 1025 01:46:03,857 --> 01:46:06,273 Why don't you just stay?