MY UNCLE TUDOR
a film by Olga Lucovnicova
Mom, tell me about the house.
What can I tell you?
I'm having fun.
Because I'm here in the fresh air in countryside
and that of course, in Spain nature and the sea are amazing
but nature flourishes in Moldova like nowhere else.
So fresh. So green.
In general, it's my childhood and youthood.
It's my nostalgy.
What are you thinking of?
Well. What should I think of?
I want a beautiful and pure life without danger.
But it doesn't work.
A human has two guardians:
one white and one black
and each of them pulls him on his side.
But if the human insists and cares for the white one
then we're on the right track.
- What do you see there? - My childhood memories.
- Really? - Yes.
Show me too.
Hey, show me!
Look, here's Olga's childhood photoalbum.
From the kindergarden.
Look at Olga here.
It's a nice and very beautiful photograph.
Here Olga is with a friend.
With Sasha.
Look.
He's Yana's son?
Yes.
Here Olga is like a doll.
Lora!
I'm busy, Lida.
Let's go to the orchard.
I'm not going.
I'm not going, Lida.
I'm not going.
Alone I won't go.
Don't go.
You need it more.
I've picked enough for a jam.
I don't need it.
Look here.
Show it.
Look who's here.
What a company.
One boy in the neighborhood cries all day.
Cries and cries.
Tell me something too, Olga.
What do you remember about
me little?
How was I as a child?
You were very naughty.
What does "naughty" mean?
You had a "good" temper.
Do you remember how you invited friends at your birthday here?
Then, you got angry and didn't want even to look in their side.
You were so angry.
"Olechka, you can't do that."
"Go away! Go away!"
And your friends left you.
Well, with time, with years everybody becomes smarter.
Oh, my leg.
When I was little, I went to the well with a cow.
Until nowadays I tell myself that I was wrong.
I took sparrow chicks
and sliced them in two to see their beating hearts.
I was stupid.
Now I ask myself, why did I do it?
But do you remember me as a child?
Are you joking?
Of course I do.
How was I?
In what sense "how were you"?
How was I?
But how were you?
Now you've matured a little bit.
Don't you remember anything bad from my childhood?
What?
Don't you remember anything bad from my childhood?
Against you?
Yes.
I think no.
When we stayed together in the house, while others were out for work
on the field.
I've never stayed alone at home.
You had heart aches and stayed home and I stayed with you.
So what?
Did I mock you? Or what?
Yes.
I think yes.
No.
Don't speak nonsense.
Who is Olga?
Olga is in general.
The descendat of whom?
Russo-ukranian-moldovan is our Olga.
Russo-moldovano-ukranian.
That's right.
And all together we are humans.
We were always asking
Olga, what's your nationality?
But which's Olga's nationality?
Which?
- She doesn't have one. - A little bit from here and there.
That one is without meet.
You know, the more blood is better.
Mom, what did you take?
Olga, it's for you without meet.
Olga comes from Ural.
There are forgivable and unforgivable sins.
Yes.
I can't forgive you.
You can't forgive me? Seriously?
Then you'll get even more sins.
And nobody will forgive you.
I think it's an unforgivable sin.
It's not a sin.
It's not a sin at all.
What did I do bad to you?
That I played with you? That I hugged you? This and that?
You were asking me to
What?
To fulfill me with something?
Yes.
No, Olga.
If I would be a bad person
I could do a stupid thing to you, but I didn't.
You did, you undressed me nacked.
Well
You undressed yourself, not me.
What did I do so sinful? I don't understand.
It's already sinful.
It's sinful when you undress and get over her
and fuck her against her will. It's sinful.
A rape, or how these cases are called.
But when you're playing and having fun, what kind of sin is it?
Did you do it to many kids?
Where could I get many kids from?
Me, Laura, Julia
Who else?
I'm just asking, I'm curious.
There were no others.
Your auntie Valea is coming.
What are you doing here?
Discussing.
How did it start? How you reached this point?
By no means. Which point?
How did it happen for the first time?
Do you remember, we were sitting here on the grass.
And we lay down.
Somewhere arround here, you lay down next to me
and I put my hand on your dressed, gropped you
you didn't say anything.
So, I touched you there.
Then you asked me
"What do you understand from touching me there?"
I said that I just have nothing to do.
I remember many things.
My childhood memories.
And I remember how you demand me to
masturbate you.
Then I had no idea what sperm and male organ were.
I didn't even understand what happened that's why I didn't tell my parents about it.
I don't know Olga, I think I behaved nice with you.
You never know what a man has in mind.
But I never raped you, never did any other stupid thing.
I thought a girl should be innocent.
Not spoiled.
If I wanted to, I could do it that night when you stayed with me.
Do you remember that evening?
Of course I do, when I took you from Lucia.
What do you remember?
You were sleeping and I asked if I should come to you and you said yes.
I touched you there again.
I only touched you and ejaculated
because Valea wasn't home for a long time.
You looked at me and smiled.
Then I got up, went to another bed and slept there.
I remember that I was nacked and you put
your male organ between my legs.
There were these cases, but I've never introduce it.
Inside no, thank goodness.
I've never reached this point.
I remember that you, auntie Valea and me slept in the same bed.
You took off my panties and put your male organ betweeen my legs.
Maybe, there were these cases.
I want to understand why?
And what for?
With a small child.
You wasn't so small.
9 years old.
At 9 there is a long life behind.
For me it was so important to see what's happening in your eyes
if there is any regret in there.
- It's the most painful to see the indifference. - Yes, yes.
I've done something not so good. Well, whatever.
To whom it doesn't happen.
Whether you like it or not.