相信我 莱娜 Believe me, Lena.
我能理解你 I can understand you.
真的 我能理解 Really, I can.
你能理解我? You can understand me?
你能就有鬼了 Like hell you can!
妈妈能理解我 Mommy would've been able to understand me.
妈妈她自己也有过一样的处境 Mommy found herself in the same situation ...
现在算上我不止一次 而是几十次了 ... I'm in now with you not once, but dozens of times ...
她假装不知道 She was pretending not to know.
你有过很多女人 但她还是坚持着 You had a stream of women, but she just kept going ...
不只是为了我们这些孩子 最主要是为了你 ... Not just for us children, but above all for you.
她爱你 所以原谅了你 She loved you and so she forgave you.
无论发生什么 她仍想和你在一起 No matter what happened, she still wanted to be with you.
但你是什么人 什么人 But who were you? Who?
我总是这么问自己 It's what I've always asked myself.
你从不付出 对她对我 什么都不付出 You never gave anything ... not to her, not to me, nothing.
你把一切付出在了你的音乐上 音乐 音乐 音乐 You gave everything to your music. Music, music, music!
你的一生中别无所有 只有音乐和傲慢 There was nothing else in your life. Only music and arrogance.
从不关心 从不拥抱 从不亲吻 什么都没有 Never a caress, never a hug, never a kiss, nothing.
你对你的孩子们一无所知 You never knew anything about your children.
从不知道我们是否快乐 是否受苦 什么都不知道 You never knew if we were happy, if we were suffering. Nothing.
一切都是妈妈扛着 Everything was on Mommy's shoulders.
在家 你只会和她说五个字 安静 梅勒尼 At home the only thing you would say to her were the two words: "Quiet, Melanie."
妈妈会和我们解释说 安静 爸爸在创作 And Mom would explain to us: "Quiet, Daddy is composing".
安静 爸爸在休息 他今晚有一个音乐会 "Quiet, Daddy is resting, he has a concert tonight. "
安静 爸爸在和某个重要的人通电话 "Quiet, Daddy is on the phone with someone important. "
安静 爸爸在请斯特拉文斯基今晚来我们家 "Quiet, Daddy has Stravinsky coming to the house later tonight".
你想成为斯特拉文斯基 但你毫无他的一点天才之处 He wanted to be a Stravinsky, but he never had a single drop of his genius.
安静 梅勒尼 "Quiet, Melanie!"
你只知道说这个 Were the only two things you knew how to say.
你对我母亲一无所知 You didn't know the first thing about my mother!
你从不关心她 You never bothered to take care of her.
即便到现在 你都有10年没送花给她了 And even now, you haven't brought her flowers for ten years.
还有那封信 And that letter!
你以为妈妈从没看过?你错了 Do you think Mommy never read it? Well, you're wrong.
她发现了 看过了 我也看过了 She found it and she read it and I've read it too.
你可能都不记得那封信了 但我们记得 But you probably don't even remember that letter. But we do.
我们找到的那封信里 你向另一个男人告白了你的爱意 The letter we found in which you professed your love for another man.
妈妈还不得不忍受那样的耻辱 Mommy had to enjoy that humiliation too.
你写道 这是我在性行为方面的必要实验 "My necessary experimentation in sexual matters" as you put it.
所以你的音乐实验对你来说还不够 So your musical experimentation wasn't enough for you.
你还得在同性恋方面进行实验 No! You had to experiment in homosexuality too!
你毫不在意你对她造成的痛苦 You didn't give a fuck about all the anguish you've caused her.
所以你别再告诉我你能理解 So don't you come telling me that you can understand ...
因为你理解个屁啊 Because you don't understand a fucking thing.
谢谢 Gracias.
别再跟我说我要怎么样 我的手指我想咬就咬 Stop telling me what to do! If I want to bite my nail, I will!
今天早上 我尿了一次 又多又猛 This morning I did this big, powerful piss.
我好开心 我好久没这么开心了 I was so happy! I haven't been so happy in a long time.
不错啊 我为你高兴 Good. I am happy for you.
那只是个玩笑 米克 No, it's only a joke, Mick. I mean it ...
你知道的 并不是那样 You know, it wasn't like that...
别拿这些事开玩笑 弗雷德 前列腺问题不是闹着玩的 You do not joke about these things, Fred. The prostate is serious.
你总信我的玩笑 米克 You are always fall for my jokes, Mick.
60年来我说的每一个字你都信 You've been believing my every word for sixty years.
我是编故事的 弗雷德 I invent stories, Fred.
我得信每一件事 好让我能编出故事 I have to believe in everything in order to make things up.
你还记得那天吗 Do you remember the other day?
那天你告诉我你再也记不得你的父母了 When you told me you don't remember your parents any more?
我不记得了 No, I don't remember.
你肯定记得 Of course you do.
你让我意识到我不再是唯一一个忘了自己父母的人 You made me realize that not only I do not remember my parents any more ...
但也让我意识到 比如说 我的童年 我也全都忘了 ... But my childhood, for example, I do not remember a thing about it.
- 只有一件事我还记得 - 什么 - There is only one thing I still remember. - What?
我学习骑自行车的确切时刻 The precise moment when I learned how to ride a bike.
然后 今天早上 And this morning ...
神奇的是 As if by magic ...
我记起了那一刻之后的事 I remembered the moment right after ...
你摔了下来? When you fell off?
- 你他妈怎么知道 - 这种事在每个人身上都会发生 - How the fuck did you know? - Well, that happens to everybody.
你学会了点就很开心 然后就忘了刹车 You learn something, you're happy and then ... you forget to brake.
- 角色研究得怎么样了 - 非常顺利 - How is the work on the role going? - Pretty well.
- 其实我还揣摩到了一些有趣的细节 - 不错啊 - Actually, I've come up with some interesting details. - Fine.
也许问题出在我和朱力安从没有过孩子 Maybe the problem is that Julian and I never had children.
我不知道你们的问题出在哪 I don't know what the problem is ...
但我不会用谎言让你高兴起来 But I'm not going to try and cheer you up by lying...
或谈论我不理解的东西 Or talk about things I never knew about.
你说得没错 You were right...
我只理解音乐 Music is all I understand.
你知道为什么吗 Did you know why?
因为你不需要言语或经历去理解它 Because you don't need words, only experience to understand it.
这就是音乐 It just is.
你母亲能理解你 Your mother would've understood you.
我理解不了 I can't.
但你母亲不在这里 But your mother is not here.