I remember my first day of high school it was really scary it was a new school
new people and I was really shy. I tried to overcome my shyness so that I could
become popular. My goal was to you know become one of the cool kids, join a
sports team, get invited to parties you know... One day at lunch I tried to find
somewhere to sit, and I sat with the cool kids.
They all stared at me like they like they just glared at me and they thought
it was strange for me to sit at their table cuz like at my school I was sort
of known as like "the Weirdo". I don't know why they thought I was weird.
I tried to join their conversation but they all ignored me. Then the next day one of
the cool kids, she was like one of the most popular
girls in school, her name was Mona. Mona asked me if I wanted to hang out with
her after school and I was confused to why she was talking to me. I said, "yeah."
We became really close afterwards. We would share secrets. We would hang out after school.
Two more people came along and we became like a really close group. The four of us,
we were inseparable. I think we were like the friends that
everybody wanted. Like we would always hang out after school, go to the mall, the
movies parties and it felt really great. It just felt nice to have all the
attention. But I sort of changed. I started to become like a really mean
awful person. I was really mean to people and I thought that maybe it was Mona who
changed me because she was known to be a really mean to people. She would always
talk about people behind their backs. I remember I asked her one day why she
wanted to be my friend and she felt sorry for me
and she wanted to help me try and become cool instead of this weird loser loner.
I didn't know how to react to that. Afterwards I told her that I needed some
time away from like the crew and her especially, because I needed to find
myself because the person that I was being it like it
wasn't me it was this version of Mona. Afterwards I found myself again and
things are better now. I made new friends and I learned from that experience and
learn to find myself again.