Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to the dance floor...
...for their very first couples dance, Liz and Stephen.
My people.
-Are you ready? -l'm ready.
-You look beautiful. -Thank you.
I married a hottie.
-What is that? That's not our song. -No, it is not.
Baby, that's not our song.
-Definitely not. -Everybody's looking at us.
It's okay. I'm gonna go talk to the guy. It's gonna be fine.
-l told you l'd get it. -This is taking care of it?
I owe you a wedding gift. I didn't know what was appropriate.
I wanted to tell you l've been...
...dedicating my Guru Gita to you.
Imagining you happy is what got me through it.
What did it look like...
...when I was happy?
I imagine you and Rijul...
...smiling and looking at each other...
...with love and kindness.
It seemed very real.
Thank you so much, Liz.
That helps me to believe it as well.
Thinking about your own wedding?
Yeah, me too.
The funny thing about weddings, you end up thinking about yourself.
Did you throw yourself a big shindig? Big, white, floppy dress?
Yep. l arranged it all. Nobody forced me into anything.
Yeah. And now you can't forgive yourself.
Honestly, I'm waiting for him to forgive me.
To release me.
Waiting for him to forgive you is a damn waste of time, Groceries.
Forgive yourself.
It's not that easy.
Yeah.
Good night, Richard.
-Follow me. -l'm tired.
Get your butt up here.
It's not a pretty story...
...but it's pretty classic.
Too much alcohol, too many drugs, too much mindless cheating.
Just regret.
Ocean of regret.
I lost everything.
My pride, my job.
My family.
I lost my family.
One day after work, l stopped off at a bar and I got shitfaced.
I was a lot like you, you know.
I was just-- I don't know. I thought too much, I felt too....
I wanted to feel nothing.
I should've called a cab, but I didn't.
I just got in my car and l drove home.
My little boy....
He was 8 years old at the time. He was pl--
He was sitting in the driveway with his little Hot Wheels, waiting for his lost...
...drunk, miserable dad...
...to come home and play with him.
I didn't see him.
I didn't. I just roared into that driveway and l didn't see my little boy.
But he-- No, he....
He got out of the way.
He was used to getting out of the way when l was around.
And l-- You know, I don't--
I don't know. I don't remember a thing.
Next day, l woke up and they were gone.
My wife had been watching what happened out the window.
She just wasn't gonna....
She just wasn't gonna do it anymore.
So....
He's 1 8 now.
He's in school and, oh, God, he's so smart.
God, he's so funny and he's....
He's so sweet.
I missed it all.
I missed...
...my son's growing up. Just missed it.
Okay?
Come here.
Here's the deal.
You're gonna stay here till you forgive yourself.
You hear me?
Everything else will take care of itself.
Is this where you forgave yourself?
I'm trying, Elizabeth.
I am trying.
Hey.
I believe this is the song they were supposed to play at our wedding.
I did love you, Stephen.
I know.
But l still love you.
So love me.
But l miss you.
So miss me.
Send me love and light every time you think of me...
...then drop it.
It won't last forever.
Nothing does.
-Bye-bye. -Goodbye, Mr. Richard.
I'll see you.
Now that you're going, who is gonna kick my ass every day?
Oh, l'd stay till a monsoon swept me away if I could. Bye-bye.
But you've got bills to pay and houses to build.
You just keep doing the work and move on with your life, will you?
The man is getting on a plane and you're still bossing me.
I've got your whole list: move on, use mosquito repellent and....
I don't know. There were some other things. I wrote them down.
Go back to Texas, Richard.
Well, l ain't getting any prettier standing here.
So l'm off.
Hey, Groceries.
Believe in love again.
Liz. Liz, l've just taken my badge off today.
I've done so well. Four weeks of silence. lt was so dull.
But it's like a facelift because your face...
...you know, just relaxes and your throat just drops down. It's a bargain.
We've got so much to catch up on.
Oh, golly. Good for you. You will get so much out of that.
And your throat will look amazing as well.
Excuse me, Elizabeth.
They're asking you to report to the seva office after dinner...
...if you don't mind.
We're taking you off the floor-scrubbing team.
There are about 50 devotees arriving tomorrow from all over the world...
...for a 1 0-day retreat and we'd like you to be the key hostess.
We ask that you don't take part during the meditations.
We need you to watch over the flock, make sure everyone is all right.
We call the person who does this job Little Suzy Cream Cheese.
You need to be social and bubbly and smiling all the time.
Madam...
...l'm your girl.
So just find your suitcase, it should be here somewhere...
...and then head down the path to your room.
So the holy truth of the whole adventure here in India is in one line:
God dwells within you as you.
God's not interested in watching a performance...
...of how a spiritual person looks and behaves.
The quiet girl who glides silently through the place...
...with a gentle, ethereal smile, who is that person?
That's lngrid Bergman in The Bells of St. Mary's, not me.
God dwells within me as me.
Child tormented by demon.
It looks like teething.
Same thing.
Your turn.
Hello, Ketut.
I'm very happy to meet you.
You are a world traveler.
No, I came to see you about a year ago.
-You girl from California? -No, I girl from New York.
Don't remember.
Well, you told me I should come back here to Bali.
You said I could help you with your English...
...and you would teach me the things that you know.
You gave me this.
Okay.
You. You. l remember you.
-Oh, good. -You sad girl from New York.
-Yes. -You Liss. You came back.
-l came back. -You, you, you.
Me, me, me.
So long ago we meet.
Last time, you have too much worry, too much sorrow.
Last time, you look like sad old woman.
Now you pretty.
-Why so different? -Well...
...a lot of things, really.
But l was in Rome for four months, just feeding myself...
...and then I went to live at an ashram in lndia.
Now, we put together.
Exactly. That's why l'm here.
-Ketut good for that. -What'd you give him?
Do you still want me to help you with your English?
English later, Liss.
First, better idea.
How old are these?
From grandfather. Very important spells.
Also mantras, cures.
Thousand years' worth.
All I have, all l know, right here.
You copy for me?
Absolutely. l can go to town and take these--
No. You don't take.
You copy here, better, Liss.
I take a nap now. l very old.
How old are you, Ketut?
One hundred and one...
...or maybe 64.
Don't remember.
This is gonna take me the rest of my life.
He make you pretty, find you husband, you work hard for him.
That's exactly opposite of why l'm here.
Everybody need husband.
Would you mind getting me water?
No.
Fine. Keep making copies. I get water.
So, Liz, the Balinese believe that Bali's the center of the universe.
And here we are in the center of Bali.
You got the one bedroom, got your fish pond.
You got your own meditation temple.
I tell you, since the bombing, tourism's been way down...
...so l can give you this place at a very, very good price right now.
Paradise.
-l'll take it. -People in Bali understand...
...in order to stay happy, must always know where you are...
...every moment.
Right here is perfect balance. Right at meeting of heaven and earth.
Not too much God, not too much selfish.
Otherwise, life too crazy.
You lose balance, you lose power.
In morning, you do meditation from India.
Serious. Very serious.
In day, you enjoy Bali.
Then in afternoon, come see me.
End of day, you do new meditation.
Very simple.
Sit in silence and smile.
I feel balanced already.
Not so easy, Liss.
Smile with face. Smile with mind.
Even smile in liver.
See you later, alligator.
Oh, God.
-Are you all right? -Are you blind?
-Please, let me take you to a doctor. -l'm fine. l just--
It looks bad.
Very bad, Liss.
-What happen? -This idiot ran me off the road.
A man? He rich?
This very hot.
-You need healer. -l have you. You're a medicine man.
-No. You need Wayan. -Yeah.
Jamu. Drink this. Better than antibiotic.
She make you drink this?
-My name's Liz. What's yours? -Tutti.
Nice to meet you, Tutti.
-Are you married? -No.
You sure? Not even once?
Okay, well, there was this one time...
...but l find when l tell people in Bali that I'm divorced, it upsets them.
Me too, divorce.
Divorce make you sad and make you an outcast.
You have no sex for a long time, baby.
I can tell by your knee.
The cartilage very dry. Hormones from sex lubricate joint.
-Okay. -l pray for you.
We sisters.
Armenia!
Armenia from Brazil.
Armenia, this is Liz from New York.
-Hi. -Lovely to meet you, Liz.
Time for a banana root hair treatment?
-Yes, of course. -lt makes the hair long and lustrous.
Like Cher circa 1 975.
Do you have a nice dress?
One.
Put it on tonight, come to the Beach Shack.
I'll introduce you to everyone. The expats, the locals.
You'll dance. You will love it.
Oh, no, l don't think I can dance with my leg like this.
Of course you can. Leg no problem.
You see.
Now you have to come.
Hi. Could I get a tequila on the rocks with a lot of lime, please?
Coming right up.
Can l buy you a drink?
No, thank you, I'm fine.
I-- l almost killed you.
I am sorry for that, really.
-Hello. -Hi.
I'm sorry, really.
Yeah.
I'm sorry I'm laughing, but it's amazing.
I was actually listening to this song in the car when the tape jumped.
And l leaned over to fix it and l ran you off the road.
-Did you tell them to play it? -No, no, no. I make them mixtapes.
Mostly Brazilian music.
But l'm also very much into Phil Collins and Air Supply.
You really shouldn't say things like that out loud.
Liz!
-Hi. -Oh, I see you've already met Felipe.
Oh, of course. Two sad divorces. You have so much in common.
I have the perfect man for you.
Just a little love affair. Everyone has a little love affair in Bali.
Isn't he charming? lan.
Doesn't he look like Sting?
Oh, yeah. I made a very good mixtape of Sting.
You should dance with him.
Got you. Come on, l got you.
That's gonna hurt tomorrow.
All right. You know what?
-That is it. We are going swimming. -No, I don't even have my-- l--
You don't have your-- You don't--
You're so naked.
Yeah, l'm naked.
Armenia says everyone should have a love affair.
This is Bali. Everyone should have a love affair in Bali.
Yeah, but--
Oh, God. No, no, no.
-Love affairs are awesome, dude. -They are. l just--
I dated you 1 5 years ago.
And l dated you six months ago.
So l'm gonna go.
You're not-- You're really-- You're going.
But you're cute.
I think I look good.
Wait a minute.
Oh, sorry. Here.
-Thank you. -Do you need a ride?
That way I won't run you over again.
Hello.
-What time is it? -Five a.m.
Oh, you party hard.
You really do.
Thank you for....
-The ride? -Yeah.
You're very welcome. Need help with the bicycle?
You keep it.
Keep it? But it has a basket.
It also has a bell.
Good afternoon. How are you?
What are you doing here?
Well, l've brought you Wayan's famous hangover cure...
...because you drank a little bit too much last night.
And here it is. Very delicious, as you can see...
...and very tasty.
Do you make it a habit of walking into people's houses?
Do you make it a habit of sleeping with your front door open?
It's a call. Moment.
-Hello, darling. How are you? -Can't get the coffee machine to work.
Okay. l've told you 50 times. It's very easy.
You change the filter, you add the coffee...
...you add water and that's it. How did you get into college?
-How do l make it like you? -Listen, l've been making coffee...
...darling, for 40 years, so you have to be patient with yourself. All right?
Okay. So, what's up with you?
-Nothing. l just can't talk right now. -Holy shit. You're with a girl.
-l have to go. -Who is she? ls she hot?
-Jesus, she's hot. -Dad, if you hang up...
...l'll call back and embarrass you.
Dad, don't--
That's a lot of "darlings," darling.
Yeah. That darling was my son.
I've called all my children "darling" since they were little.
Then there was a moment that between the pets and the children...
...l was confused, so l called everybody "darling."
Okay, you need to rest.
Here is my number and my address.
I'm gonna leave it here on the table, in case you need a tour guide.
A tour guide.
And please, drink that up, because it's gonna help you a big deal.
Because you really look....
-Ravishing? -Astonishing.
-Go away. Please. -Okay. Drink it up.
It's gonna be helpful.
Hey, Mr. Tour Guide.
Can we start with a coffee?
Okay.
What are these?
These are rambutan. They're delicious.
It's like an orange made love to a plum. Would you like some?
When you put it that way, yes, thank you.
Excuse me.
What is that?
No, no, no.
They taste like dirty feet.
-Really? -Dirty feet.
They taste like feet.
Look out. Nice. How many places have you visited?
I have 46 stamps on my passport.
I happen to have 49 stamps on my passport.
-Forty-nine? I knew it. -Yes.
-Knew what? -l knew it.
We are both antevasins, my dear.
What is that?
Antevasin is....
It's an in-between.
It is the one who lives by the border...
...because they renounce to the comfort of family life...
...in order to seek "enlightment."
I like your word.
And l like the way you say "enlightment."
"Enlightment." I try.
You're missing a syllable, but I like it.
It's beautiful, no?
It's Pura Melanting, which means "Temple of Prosperity."
-Beautiful. -Yup.
-So next attraction of the tour? -Yes.
-Food from Bali. -Oh, good. l'm starving.
-Where should we go? -To the best restaurant in town.
-Of course. -My place.
Subtle.
Did you always live in Brazil before you came to Bali?
No, no. Only for 20 years.
Then l met my wife and l moved with her to Australia.
She traveled a lot because of the job.
-And I stayed home with the children. -A good feminist husband.
Yeah. Yeah. Didn't turn out to be what she wanted, l'm afraid.
-What happened? -What happened?
Well, the children were grown.
And l run an import-export jewelry business, so I could live anywhere.
And Bali seemed like the perfect place to recover from a divorce.
And here l am. Here l am.
-And you? -Well, far less tragic.
We were immature and really too young to get married. We grew apart.
Hearts were broken.
Yes.
Then it's the same.
This is just perfect.
So are you.
You know what you are? You're a falsa magra.
-You know what that is? -What?
You are slender and elegant in a distance...
...but up close, you are round and fleshy.
Thank God for Brazilians.
Stop that!
You are a world traveler.
He says that to everyone.
Already make your money.
You don't have young-man ambition.
-He's good. -You have three children.
Two. That's a callous.
And you have divorce.
Very difficult.
You loved her very much.
You haven't healed that wound.
Now you are scared to open your heart.
You are afraid hurt will happen to you again.
Only way to heal...
...is to trust.
This okay. To have broken heart mean you have tried for something.
Is it going to be broken again?
He a good man, Liz. You need a good man.
Thank you.
True. Ketut knows.
I am so sick of people telling me I need a man.
You don't need a man, Liz. You need a champion.
-Some spring break, huh? -Come on. You're moving like turtles.
His enthusiasm is exhausting.
Try being dropped off at school when you're 1 0...
...and having your father kiss you on the mouth.
He still does it.
I'm sure it's all normal in Brazil, but I didn't grow up in Brazil.
Friends would tease the crap out of me.
Why didn't you ask him to stop?
No, I did at first, but then l realized...
...how happy it made the old guy and l just gave in.
You know what? My grandmother hikes faster than you both...
...but she's already dead.
Get him. Go get him.
How about you carry the packs for a while, eh?
Come here. Look at this.
Is it nice?
Baby.
Bringing up the rear.
-So have you slept with her yet? -What was that?
Have you slept with her yet?
Crossing the line.
Dad, it's been 1 0 years. lt's time.
Stay away from all the beautiful girls.
They are dangerous.
-A week is too short. -Yeah.
-A week is too short. -Yup.
Listen, l've made you a mixtape.
And l give you a present. For you.
Thank you.
I'm missing you already.
Bye, Liz.
-Be safe. -Same to you.
So don't I get a kiss?
I don't know.
-l love you, Dad. -l love you too.
So stupid, I know.
He's 1 9 years old and he's such a man.
It's sweet.
You're sweet.
Darling...
...it's time.
-Liz. -What?
Liz. Come here. I have to tell you something.
No. I should really, really be meditating.
Go, go. Do it.
You know, I have not been to see Ketut in two weeks.
-Really? -Yes.
-Okay. Go, go. -Okay.
Oh, gosh. But you are just so much cuter than Ketut.
No, I have to go. I have to go.
Why?
You have bladder infection.
Common after no sex, then too much sexy time.
We haven't even been apart for a minute in two weeks.
You're afraid now, right?
I understand.
You don't want to lose yourself.
Love is scary, dangerous.
Happen to me.
I pray every day, but husband bad for me.
I have to get away from him.
This from where he hit me...
...with motorcycle helmet.
And then my daughter...
...she begged me to leave him.
Is that right, honey?
I said, "I think you should get a divorce, Mommy."
She was 4 years old when she said it.
Don't feel bad about Felipe.
Everybody needs affection, honey.
Make people do funny things.
Everyone gets like that at beginning of relationship.
Want too much happiness, too much pleasure...
...until make yourself sick.
Even to Wayan, this happen at beginning of my love affair.
I lose myself, Liz.
Dear friends and loved ones:
My birthday's coming up soon.
If I were home, l'd be planning a stupid, expensive...
...birthday party and you'd all be buying me gifts and bottles of wine.
A cheaper, more lovely way to celebrate would be to...
...make a donation to help a healer named Wayan Nuriyasih...
...buy a house in Indonesia.
She's a single mother. ln Bali, after a divorce...
...a woman gets nothing, not even her children.
To gain custody of her daughter, Tutti, Wayan had to sell everything...
...even her bath mat, to pay for a lawyer.
For years, they've moved from place to place.
Each time, Wayan loses clientele and Tutti has to change schools.
This little group of people in Bali have become my family.
And we must take care of our families, wherever we find them.
Today l saw Tutti playing with a blue tile she'd found in the road...
...near a hotel construction site. She told me:
Maybe if we have a house someday...
...it can have a pretty blue floor like this.
When I was in Italy, I learned a word--
It's "tutti" with double T.
--which in ltalian means "everybody." So that's the lesson, isn't it?
When you set out in the world to help yourself...
...sometimes you end up helping Tutti.
-Tell me again. -Eighteen thousand American dollars.
I brought you the e-mails to look at.
Oh, my God.
We get a house.
It can be the house for everybody!
I can have a pharmacy! I can have a library!
-All right. Oh, God. -Close them again. Close your eyes.
Careful. You don't wanna break a tooth or anything.
-Don't worry, but close your eyes. -Where are you taking me?
You will see.
-You helped Wayan to get a house... -l know.
...and we're going to celebrate.
-Here, here, here. -All right.
-Turn, turn, turn. -l know we're at the beach.
Here you go.
We're going to take a little boat trip.
Where?
Where? To a little island nearby.
It's my favorite place in the world. I've packed for two.
We can stay there until next Tuesday. And l have the perfect camping spot.
Just you and l and 400 parrots.
Do you like it?
I was going to save it for tonight, but I think this is the right moment.
I have to be in Bali because my business is here...
...and you have to be in New York...
...because that's where your life is, right?
What if we tried to create a life that is divided between the two places?
Why would you wanna do that?
Because I'm in love with you.
-Let's go. Let's go. -Oh, no. I....
-What? -l can't. l'm sorry.
-l just.... -You can't?
-l'm sorry. I can't. -Can't what?
I can't go on a trip right now, okay? I....
I haven't been home in five days. I haven't seen Ketut in weeks.
-lt's just too much. -lt's not much.
To go...
...by ourselves...
...apart from everything else for a couple of days, is that much for you?
Liz, não entendo. What's the problem, Liz?
I mean, l have the same fears, I have the same scars that you have...
...and l show them to you.
But l guess the only difference between you and l is that...
...you are afraid to love again.
My darling, this is it.
You have to look me in the eye and let me know the truth.
Please. Do you love me or do you love me not?
Look me in the eyes and tell me...
...do you love me or don't you love me not? lt's very easy.
I know you feel the same way. Why can't you say it back?
I don't know why.
Why can't l?
Because you're terrified, my love. But listen, it's fine. Me too.
But l still want to get into that boat with you.
-No. Okay, look. Look. -What?
I don't know why you can't understand this.
I found something and l can't give it up.
And trust me, if I did, you wouldn't be so all in love with me.
Okay, the balance thing. You traveled around the world to find your balance.
And the balance that you think you've found is what?
Meditating for 20 minutes and going to see an old medicine man?
Listen, balance, my darling, balance is not letting anybody love you...
-...less than you love yourself. -You know what? You know what?
Do not tell me what lessons l have and haven't learned in the last year...
...and don't tell me how balanced and wise you are...
...and how I can't express myself.
And do not say "darling" to me again because l am just gonna lose it.
Listen to me! l do not need to love you to prove that l love myself.
Run away from me?
You are running away from all the great possibilities of your own life.
I'm getting into that boat.
For you.
A goodbye gift.
Ketut.
Liss...
...you healed me.
You healed me too, Ketut.
If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have come back to Bali...
...and l wouldn't have come back to myself.
You want coffee? Roast pig?
Coffee.
I get you coffee.
You fly back to America soon?
In two hours.
Have you ever been on an airplane, Ketut?
Ketut cannot fly on aeroplane.
Ketut have no teeths.
You are good friend to me.
You are like daughter.
When I die...
...you will come back to Bali? Come to my cremation?
Balinese cremation ceremony is very fun.
-You will like it. -Okay.
You still smile with your liver, like l tell you?
Yes.
You still meditate like your guru in India teach you?
-Yes. -You happy now with God?
-Yes. -You love your new boyfriend?
I ended it.
Don't understand. Why you do that?
I couldn't keep my balance.
Liss, listen to Ketut.
Sometimes to lose balance for love...
...is part of living balanced life.
In the end...
...I've come to believe in something I call "The Physics of the Quest."
A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity.
The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this:
If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting...
...which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments...
...and set out on a truth-seeking journey...
...either externally or internally...
...and if you are truly willing to regard everything...
...that happens to you on that journey as a clue...
...and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher...
...and if you are prepared, most of all...
...to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself...
...then the truth will not be withheld from you.
Felipe?
I can't help but believe it, given my experience.
I decided on my word.
It means:
"Let's cross over."