Scars are fading, but the habits still remind me
And all the normal things feel twisted out of place
Memory keeps the moments I tried so hard to forget
Turns them into stories it repeats inside my head
You said it meant nothing
You said you were foolish
You said it wouldn’t happen again
But something in me cracked when you said it
I hate that I still love you, hate that it still hurts
And I know my heart is already trying to forgive you
I hate that I still love you, hate that it still hurts
I miss the you I fell in love with
Crying like a child just waking from a nightmare
Writing sharp words only to cross them out again
Love never gave us time and all my firsts were you
So why was I only the last thing on your list?
You said it meant nothing
You said you were foolish
You said it wouldn’t happen again
But something in me cracked when you said it
I hate that I still love you, hate that it still hurts
And I know my heart is already trying to forgive you
I hate that I still love you, hate that it still hurts
I miss the you I fell in love with
Can we ever find our way back again
Holding on to the moments that felt sweeter than the hurt
Remembering the good that stayed with us
and believing that maybe we’re not as broken as we thought
I hate that I still love you, hate that it still hurts
And I know my heart is already trying to forgive you
I hate that I still love you, hate that it still hurts
I miss the you I fell in love with