After Life
If you're watching this, then I'm not around anymore.
I couldn't say any of this to your face.
It's too embarrassing.
For you, not for me, obviously.
You're never very good at hearing how lovely you are.
But you are. You are. You're lovely.
My wife died, earlier this year.
And it broke me.
Not a day goes by when I don't...
Think of killing myself.
I just don't see any point in living.
It's like I'm already dead inside, and yet I'm still...
In the worst kind of pain.
When I was with...
Lisa.
The more we talked.
The more we drank.
We didn't want the night to end.
Now I drink...
Cause I want the night to end.
I'm in fucking pain all the time.
And I do shit like this.
Cause it makes me feel better for a split second.
I just want to be out of pain.
Either live without pain or die without pain.
Whichever one comes first.
I choose that.
And don't get drunk all the time.
All right?
Cause it'll only make you feel worse in the long run.
I've had the best life.
And I couldn't have wished for a better bloke.
But the world's gonna carry on without me.
And so are you.
Have fun.
Please be happy.
What?
You deserve to be happy.
Please be happy.
I love how much you love your wife.
And I can't wait... (-Hello, you. -You all right? -Yeah.)
For someone to love me as much as you love your wife. (-What are you doing? -Twitter.)
But...
You can still be happy.
Okay.
I don't think I've ever met anyone quite as... sad as him.
And he did it to himself. It's like...
I don't know, he's... he's trying to...like...
Turn his heart in a stone.
So that he wouldn't actually feel anything.
Cause it was just all...
You've got such a good heart.
Really painful for him.
And yet, he still manages to make me laugh.
The big difference is...
You haven't given up yet.
Have you?
I think that deep down.
That you still think life's worth living.
It's nowhere near over for you.
You're in pain.
But the thing you lost...
Is the same thing that can stop that pain.
You can't change the world.
But you can... you can change yourself.
I'll try harder at that as well.
I'll stick around.
And even though I'm in pain.
It's worth...
Sticking around to maybe...
Make my...
Little corner of the world a slightly better place.
-See you later. -See you later.
zbb
后半生
如果你看到这个片子，意味着我已经不在了
我不好意思当着你的面说这些
太丢人了
显然对你来说很丢人，不是对我
你从来不擅长听我夸你你有多么好
但是你真的，真的很好
我妻子今年年初过世了
我彻底崩溃了
没有哪一天我不去想
想着自杀
我不知道任何活下去的意义
就仿佛我的内心已经死了，但还是
感受着最撕心裂肺的痛
当我和
丽萨在一起的时候
我们谈的越多
我们喝的就越多
我们不希望夜晚结束
现在我喝酒
是因为我希望夜晚结束
我一直深陷痛苦之中
我做这些破事
是因为会让我好过一点，哪怕几秒钟
我只是不想在这么痛苦了
要么活着要么死去，只要没有痛苦
无论是哪一个
我都会选择它
还有不要老是喝醉
好吗？
因为长期下来那只会让你感觉更难受
我度过了美满的一生
我也遇到了最好的伴侣
就算世界没有了我，也依然会继续
所以你要好好活着
享受快乐
请开心点
什么？
你值得如此
请开心起来
我欣赏你对你妻子的深情
我等不及想（-你好啊 -你还好么？-是的）
遇到一位像你爱你妻子那样爱我的人（-你在做什么？-推特）
但是
你还是可以开心起来的
好的
我从来没遇到过像他这样悲伤的人
而且这都是他自己造成的，就像
我不知道，就像是他故意
将他的内心变成石头
这样就不会有任何感受
因为这对他来说
你是如此善良
实在是太痛苦了
但是他还是能让我开心
很大的区别在于
你还没有放弃
对吧？
我觉得在你内心深处
你依然相信是值得活下去的
你的人生离彻底结束还差得远
你很痛苦
但你失去的东西
也正是可以停止痛苦的解药
你无法改变世界
但你可以改变你自己
我会往这个方向更努力的
我会坚持下去
即使我很痛苦
但还是值得
坚持住，也许
可以让我
身处这世界的小角落变得更好
-晚点见 -晚点见