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一个月 半年 一年后 会怎样 What happens in a month, six months, a year?
万一她只想跟你做朋友 怎么办 When she tells you she just wants to be friends?
《迷醉》前情提要
内特 我凭什么帮你 Nate, why would I do a single thing for you?
因为我能让你坐牢 'Cause I'll put you in jail.
你开上车 I need you to get in your car
去东高警局 and drive down to the East Highland police station.
你得去找接警员 You're going to walk up to the receptionist,
告诉她 你想自首 and you're gonna tell her you'd like to confess to a crime.
你认识这个人吗 Do you recognize that man?
他就是嘉年华夜袭击我的人 He's the guy who assaulted me the night of the carnival.
你能先上来吗 Can you please get out of the pool?
这里太无趣了 This whole town is so fucking boring.
我就是个累赘 我好丢人 I'm a burden, and it is what it is and it's embarrassing
抱歉 so I'm sorry.
不准胡闹 克里斯托弗 No funny business, Christopher!
坏了 Fuck.
凯西的父亲很帅 Cassie's dad was really handsome.
帅到能靠脸吃饭 女人纷纷往身上扑 The kind of handsome that made people treat him differently.
她妈之前总抱怨他招蜂引蝶 Her mom used to get really upset at him for flirting.
♪祝你生日快乐♪ ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
可长得帅又不是他的错 Which wasn't fair. It wasn't his fault.
他真的很爱她 He really loved her.
他真的很爱她们母女 He really loved them all.
她爸一直想把她培养成专业滑冰运动员 Her dad always wanted her to become a professional ice skater.
谢谢爸爸 Thank you!
生日快乐 宝贝 Happy birthday, kiddo.
她本也以为自己有戏 And for a while, she thought she might.
她天生是个滑冰的苗子 She was a natural.
但她爸支付不起高昂的滑冰课费用 But her dad couldn't afford lessons,
于是他便不再鼓励她滑冰 so he stopped encouraging her.
青春期后 她和母亲越发亲近 When she hit puberty, her mother and her became best friends.
你真是个天使 You're an angel.
我像个奶娃娃 I feel like a big baby.
凯茜 相信老妈的女性审美 Cassie, woman to woman, hmm?
你完美无瑕 You're perfect.
-我的天呐 瞧瞧你 -怎么了 - Holy moly, look at you. - What?
你将来绝对令男人魂牵梦萦 You're gonna be a real heart breaker.
信我吧 Trust me.
除了她的身材变得前凸后翘之外 And it wasn't just her body that changed.
旁人对她的态度也天翻地覆 But the rest of the world, too.
这是泰德叔叔 You remember Uncle Ted?
天呐 女大十八变啊 Boy, look at you. All grown up.
来 抱一个 Come on, give me a hug.
真是"长大"了啊 You really filled out.
凯茜美妞 抱一个 Sassy Cassie. Come here.
你勾勾手指 男生肯定都乖乖任你差遣 I bet you got all the boys wrapped around your finger.
他们家并非和谐美满 Their family wasn't perfect.
她妈人到中年猛如虎 Her mom had, you know, some issues.
没眼看 My God.
她爸的收入难以为继 And her dad struggled to keep a steady income.
怎么了 What?
-去你的 -那可是我家人... - Fuck you. - This is my family--
他们时有争吵 And they fought.
就像普通家庭的父母一样争吵 In the way all parents kind of fight.
可她九年级开学前夜 争吵升级了 Except for the night before she started ninth grade.
她妈说她爸不可理喻 Her mom told her that her dad was just being irrational.
你爸真是个醋坛子 Your father had some serious jealousy issues.
听我的准没错 Let me tell you.
而且他连一份养家糊口的正经工作都没有 Plus, he couldn't hold a steady job to save his life.
依我看 他就是不想承担身为人父的责任 I just think he didn't want the responsibility of being a father.
重担之下 他就吓跑了 It's too much work.
但凯茜从别人口中听到了不同的版本 But Cassie had heard differently.
我妈说你妈给你爸带了绿帽子 My mom said your mom cheated on your dad.
所以他才会离开 And that's why he left.
怎么会 What?
起初 她很气愤她妈的做派 At first, she was really angry at her mom.
她恨她的虚伪粉饰 黑白颠倒 She resented her for being such a hypocrite.
但后来她意识到 她爸并非完人 But then she realized that her dad wasn't perfect.
我可不想染上疱疹 但是... I don't know if I want to be associated with herpes but, you know...
她妈亦然 And her mom wasn't either,
也许他们的夫妻情分已尽 注定无果 and maybe they just weren't right for each other.
起初 他每周末都会去探望女儿们 He used to visit them on weekends.
再见 爸 Bye, Dad.
-再见 爸 -可是后来 - Bye, Dad. - But, eventually,
他几周才来一次 it became once every couple of weeks.
他说过会来 He said he was coming.
有时甚至一个多月也不见人影 And then sometimes, more than a month would go by.
直到某天晚上... Then one night...
他下班开车回家 he was driving home from work...
他在重症病房躺了23天 and was in the ICU for 23 days.
医生当时诊断他再也无法下地行走了 The doctors were afraid he'd never walk again.
但凯茜认定爸爸很坚强 一定会好起来 But Cassie knew he was strong, and that he'd get better.
医生给他开了芬太尼止痛 He was prescribed fentanyl for pain.
盐酸异丙嗪防止干呕 Promethazine to offset the nausea.
劳拉西泮口服液助眠 Liquid Lorazepam to sleep,
舒马曲坦注射剂治疗偏头痛 and Imitrex injections for migraines.
凯茜常给他发短信 陪他聊天 Cassie would text him and talk to him.
但时间长了 他很少再回复短信 But as more time went by, the less responsive he became.
几个月过去了 And eventually, months went by,
他音信全无 and she didn't hear from him at all.
直到她15岁生日一周后的某晚 Until one night, a week after her 15th birthday,
陌生号码 凯茜 我是爸爸
她凌晨1点收到了一条陌生号码发来的短信 she got a text from a random number at about 1:00 in the morning.
别声张 我在门外
你能打开车库门吗
别惊醒你妈
虽然她见到他很高兴 And even though she was excited to see him
很想冲上去拥抱他 and wanted to hug him,
但她莫名感到恐慌 不敢上前 there was something about the whole thing that scared her.
我想告诉你 我每天都在想你 I want you to know there's never a day goes by I don't think about you.
你给我发短信的号码 The number you texted me from.
我能用那个号码联系你吗 Can I call you?
我用了朋友的手机 That's my friend's phone.
但我保证 有了新号码 就打给你 But I promise I'll reach out to you with my new number, I...
别哭 宝贝女儿 Don't cry, baby.
我很好 别哭呀 I'm okay. I'm fine. Don't...
我好想你 爸 I just miss you, Dad.
我也想你 我爱你 I miss you, okay. I love you.
他说得拿点东西 He said he needed a few things,
还让她保证不会告诉任何人 and made her promise that she wouldn't tell a soul.
凯茜遵守了承诺 Cassie kept her promise,
从未把那晚的事告诉任何人 and never told anyone about that night.
自此以后 她再也没见过父亲 She also never saw her dad again.
她对每任男友都付诸真心 爱得痴傻 She fell in love with every guy she ever dated.
聪明也好 愚蠢也罢 Whether they were smart or stupid
温柔也好 粗鲁也罢 or sweet or cruel, it didn't matter.
她就是不愿独自一人 She didn't like to be alone.
-你干什么 -拍你啊 - What are you doing? - I'm just filming you.
为什么 Why?
她的每任男友都想拍她 And every guy she ever dated asked for the same things.
-我能拍你给我口交吗 -不可以 - Can I film you sucking my dick? - What? No!
-干什么 别拍了 -我门拍性爱视频吧 - What? Stop. - Let's make a sex tape.
-不要 -来嘛 - What? - Come on.
-出去 -我不会告诉任何人 - Get out of here.- I won't tell anyone.
-小事一桩嘛 -性爱视频怎么能随便拍 - It's not that big of a deal. - Yes, it is.
我不想拍 I don't wanna do this.
她几乎每次都会心软答应 And she almost always said yes.
尽管她很不情愿 也会照做 Even though it didn't always make her feel good.
她知道 多数男生跟她分手后 And she knew that most guys, after she broke up with them,
都会散播她的性爱视频和裸照 would always share those photos or videos.
她刚发现时 恐慌心悸 The first time she found out, she had a panic attack,
她甚至想吞扑热息痛自杀 and wanted to swallow a whole bottle of Tylenol.
但最终打消了自杀的念头 But she didn't.
因为大家顶多言语上对她讽刺挖苦 Because, I mean, what's the worst thing anybody could say to her?
无非就是嘲笑她给渣男口交而已 That she gave a blowjob to a guy who didn't deserve it?
而且 她觉得等到毕业求职那会儿 And she figured by the time she was out of college and looking for a job,
绝大多数人都有过裸照的黑历史了 99 percent of the population would have leaked nudes, anyway.
可今年年初 她遇到了麦凯 And then, at the beginning of the year, she met McKay.
并且爱上了他 And fell in love with him.
他也爱上了她 And he fell in love with her.
-我爱你 -虽然有过矛盾争吵 - I love you. - And even though things weren't perfect,
但他依然爱着不完美的她 he loved her for who she was.
虽然她误入歧途 犯下错误 And even though she had made a couple of mistakes,
但并未铸成大错 I mean, they weren't big ones.
亡羊补牢 为时未晚 They weren't the kind of things you couldn't come back from.
迷醉 第一季 第七集
《爱情岛》前情提要 Previously on Love Island...
把握住你和乔希的美好瞬间 Grab the amazing-ness that you have with Josh by the balls.
大家总给我推荐神剧 People are always telling me about great TV shows.
强烈安利我去看 How I just have to watch this show.
但说实话 我对神剧无感 But the truth is, I don't want good TV.
我不喜欢小说 I don't want a novel,
不喜欢慢热的剧情 or some slow burn,
不喜欢为了看而看 or anything that feels like work.
正因如此 真人秀才合我胃口 That's why I love reality TV.
真人秀搞笑有梗 反转连连 能吸引住我 It's funny, it's dramatic, and I can focus on it.
真人秀就是可以无脑观看的娱乐节目 It's pure, effortless entertainment.
爱情触礁了 Romance hits the rocks.
她不肯理我 不给我名分 She doesn't talk to me, she doesn't acknowledge me.
-她就是玩玩 -说实话... - She's playing a game. - Honestly...
我只记得自己躺在床上看剧 I want to lay down one moment
等回过神来 and then look around the next
我已经在两天内狂刷了22小时的《爱情岛》 and realize I have watched 22 straight hours of Love Island over a two-day period...
根本停不下来 and yearn for more.
有人会觉得这很压抑 Some people may find that depressing.
但我不这么想 I don't.
但这确实是判断抑郁程度的好方法 It is, however, a good way to measure depression.
因为当看真人秀感觉像是完成任务时 Because when reality TV begins to feel like work,
就像给《广告狂人》收尾的第七季那样 like, final season of Mad Men work,
那你绝对抑郁了 you know you're depressed.
一天没下床尿尿的那种抑郁 Like, haven't got out of bed to pee in 24 hours depressed.
你觉得我有变化吗 Do I look different to you?
我觉得没问题 You look fine to me.
可我觉得不一样了 'Cause I feel different.
反正看不出来 Okay, well, you don't look it.
我今天不去学校了 I don't think I'm gonna go to school today.
-因为丹尼尔吗 -跟丹尼尔无关 莱克茜 - 'Cause of Daniel? - No, not 'cause of Daniel, Lexi!
丹尼尔早被我忘到九霄云外了 Daniel's the last fucking thing I care about right now.
可你只提过他啊 Okay, well, it's all you ever fucking talk about.
才没有 我是问你 我状态如何 我可没提丹尼尔 That's not true! I asked you how I look. Not about Daniel!
你美若天仙 凯茜 Yeah, well, you look beautiful, Cassie.
你太他妈美丽动人了 You look fucking amazing.
大家不是总对你的外表赞不绝口吗 It's literally all anyone's ever told you your entire life.
你问来问去有意思吗 Like, listen to yourself. It's fucking exhausting.
一想到要站起来 The thought of having to stand up,
移动35英尺 每走一步要调动172块肌肉 exert 172 muscles each step for 35 feet,
就为了坐在冰凉的陶瓷坐便器上 just so I can sit on cold porcelain
日复一日地排出体内毒素 and piss out toxins over and over again for the rest of my life
我就觉得人生是一个漫长且磨人的玩笑 makes the whole concept of living feel like one long, sadistic joke.
但抑郁最磨人的一点是 But the absolute worst part of depression
你明知自己抑郁了 is that even though you know you're depressed,
却依然无可救药地越陷越深 you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse.
但沮丧抑郁的不止我一人 But I wasn't the only one feeling down.
茱尔丝 你怎么了 Jules? What's wrong?
-我病了 -好吧 有需要就喊我 - I'm sick. - Okay. Let me know if you need anything.
万圣节之后 After Halloween,
茱尔丝整周都没去上学 Jules didn't go to school for a full week.
即使我给她发了五十多条短信 她也没回 And even though I sent her about 50 texts, she didn't respond.
万圣节快乐 Happy Halloween.
我敢肯定是出什么事了 I could tell something bad had happened.
而此事肯定和内特有关 And that it had something to do with Nate.
东高警察局 10月31日 周六 上午8点41分
泰勒·克拉克森因伤人被捕 Tyler Clarkson was booked for assault.
但这根本说不通 But this shit wasn't adding up.
于是我慢慢拼凑线索 理清真相 And I was putting together the pieces of the puzzle.
霍华德 我们走 Howard, let's roll.
不查出真相 我誓不罢手 I wasn't gonna stop until I got the truth.
当今社会 诬陷可以造成长久性严重伤害 False accusations in today's world can cause serious long-term damage
能毁掉一个人的事业 清誉 心理健康 to one's career, reputation, and emotional well-being.
我们都应由衷地向内特·雅各布斯表达歉意 We all owe Nate Jacobs a heartfelt apology,
东高热烈欢迎他归校 and are excited and thrilled to have him back at East Highland.
为什么茱尔丝会替内特作伪证 Why would Jules lie to help Nate?
不知道 I don't know.
-你问过她这件事吗 -没有 - Well, have you asked her about it? - No.
-你还没问过她吗 -没有 - You haven't asked her? - No.
继续看吧 大混蛋 Keep looking, you mook.
我就是"摩根·弗里曼"斗士本尊 I'm Morgan fuckin' Freeman
第三场才刚开始 好戏还在后头 and this is the beginning of the third act.
按常理 你不该先问一下她吗 Well, doesn't that seem like the first logical step?
老实说 霍华德 整件事都没法用常理解释 Honestly, Howard, this whole thing is beyond logic.
除非... Unless...
茱尔丝爱上内特了 Jules is in love with Nate.
-茱尔丝怎么会爱上内特 -你听我说 - Why would Jules be in love with Nate? - You should listen to me.
-班纳特 烟味太呛人了 -听我说完 - Bennett, the cigarettes are killing me. - Hear me out.
听着 听着 Listen. Listen.
嘉年华那晚 Listen, the night of the carnival,
她说她要网恋奔现去面基 she said she wanted to go meet up with this guy she met online, okay?
对方是魁梧帅气 家人保守 He's some fuckin' jock, he's from a conservative family,
他们一直通过网络联系 and they were talking and texting.
一直发短信 持续了几周 They've been texting for weeks.
我说发短信 And when I say texting,
不是指那种普通短信 I don't just mean regular fuckin' texting.
而是色情短信 They were sexting.
-裸照吗 -对 顺便说句 屌不错 屋子整洁 - Like nudes? - Yeah. Side note, very nice dick. Very clean room.
她从没见过对方的脸 She never fucking saw his face.
这么说茱尔丝网恋被骗了 Yeah, so Jules is catfished.
听我说 嘉年华那晚 Now hear me out. So the night of the carnival,
她跟他约好在湖边见面 she made plans with this guy to meet up with him at the lake, okay?
老娘回家了 I fucking go home.
结果后来 她跑到我家敲窗来找我了 Next thing I know... she's fucking knocking at my window.
她当时情绪很不好 She's all emotional,
眼中噙着泪水 she's got fucking tears in her eyes.
我问她 茱尔丝 出什么事了 I say, Jules, what the fuck happened?
她看着我说 She looks at me. She goes...
"他本人跟照片不一样" "He didn't look like his pictures."
这就是标准的网恋被骗啊 Yeah, that's like, the definition of catfishing.
不 你知道他叫什么吗 No, but do you know what his name was?
-内特·雅各布斯 -泰勒 - Nate Jacobs? - Tyler.
泰勒·克拉克森吗 Like, Tyler Clarkson?
你说对了 You're goddamned right.
麦迪17岁 泰勒22岁 他们上床了 Maddy is 17, Tyler's 22, and they fornicated.
-强奸未成年 -你和我看到了 大家都看到了 - Statutory. - Yeah. You saw it, I saw it. We all fucking saw it.
-内特也看到了 -什么罪名比强奸未成年更轻 - Including Nate. - And what is a lighter offense than statutory?
伤人罪 Assault.
对了 Bingo!
小茹 你把咖啡倒进滤水器了吗 Rue, are you pouring coffee in the water filter?
-正是 -而不是倒水吗 - Yes, I am. - Instead of water?
-没错 -你别再这么做了 - Yes, I am. - Well, please, don't do that.
时候不早了 你不该喝咖啡 And it's late. You shouldn't be drinking caffeine.
妈 别絮叨了 我要写作业 Mom, please. I have homework.
真没想到我有一天能听到你说这种话 Well, there's a sentence I never thought I'd hear.
咖啡好了 叫我一声 Will you let me know when this is ready?
喂 Hello?
霍华德 我是班纳特 Howard, it's Bennett.
现在是凌晨2点45分 你不睡觉吗 It's 2:45 in the morning. Don't you ever sleep?
听着 内特向茱尔丝找茬儿的初衷是什么 Listen, why would Nate single out Jules in the first place?
他显然是看上她了 It's obvious he was sexually attracted to her.
因为茱尔丝是异性恋 And because Jules is predominantly het, okay,
他展现好身材 向她求爱 he wooed her with his fucking creepy jock magic shit.
她善解人意 又宽容大度 She's super fuckin' sensitive, she's very forgiving,
她还是全世界最美好的人 and she's basically the most wonderful fucking person on the planet...
她爱上他了 she fell for him.
所以她才作伪证了 That's why she fucking testified.
我就是个天才 老娘太有才了 I'm a genius. I'm a fucking genius.
妈 我他妈就是个天才 Hey, Mom! I'm a fucking genius.
我都不累 不可思议 I'm not even tired. It's crazy.
我他妈都不觉得困 I'm not even fucking tired.
我感觉好极了 I feel amazing.
我就实话实说了 班纳特 I'll be honest with you, Bennett.
你是当局者迷啊 You're too close to this case.
-谁打来的电话 -小茹 - Who was that? - Rue.
-她好像处在狂燥期 -她没事吧 - Think she's in, like, a manic state. - Is she okay?
好像有事 I don't think so.
躁郁症患者能发现自己患病了吗
匿名3203 不能
妈蛋 Fuck.
我不知道你要说什么 但这感觉... I don't know what you're gonna say, but this feels like...
很狗血啊 really dramatic.
感觉很瘆人 Yeah, this is spooky.
不瘆人 BB It is not spooky, BB.
我就是想咨询你们两件事 I just, I need your advice on, like, two things.
你们得保证不能说出去 And I need you guys to promise me not to say a single fucking word.
丹尼尔家万圣节派对那晚 So, the night of Daniel's Halloween party,
发生了一些事 something happened.
我一般不会这么早射 I don't usually come that fast.
真是太爽了 That was amazing.
真有意思 我一直以为你会给我破处 It's funny. I always thought I was gonna lose my virginity to you.
-你是处女吗 -不是 我是说小时候 - You're a virgin? - No, I mean, when we were younger.
-我们交往那会儿 -我们交往过吗 - When we dated. - We dated?
是啊 六年级 Yeah, in sixth grade.
你和我交往过吗 You and me?
交往了五个月吧 Yeah, for like five months.
我完全想不起来了 I literally have no recollection of that.
慢着 我没听错吧 Wait. Am I hearing this correctly?
你想告诉麦凯 You want to tell McKay
你在嘉年华和万圣节派对上 都跟丹尼尔亲热了吗 that you made out with Daniel at the carnival and on Halloween?
对 但我不用说是丹尼尔 Yeah, but, I don't--I don't have to say it's Daniel.
小婊砸 你这想法也太没脑回路了 Bitch, that's the craziest idea I've ever heard. Right?
没错 For sure.
但我想跟他坦白 Yeah, but I want to be honest with him.
-你不能告诉麦凯 -但我又没真做 不算"偷腥" - You cannot tell McKay. - But it's not like I cheated-cheated.
接吻更过分 因为投入感情了 Kissing is worse. It's so much more intimate.
如果有人提起 你就全盘否认 And if anybody brings it up, you deny, deny, deny.
好吧 但是... Okay, but, I just--
我不想我们之间存在这种秘密 I don't want there to be something this bad between us forever.
你就别担心这事了 凯茜 I wouldn't worry about it, Cassie.
你们俩又不会永远在一起 It's not like you guys are gonna be together forever.
凯特 你哪根筋搭错线了 Kat, what the fuck is your problem?
你这个闺蜜很不称职 You're being a bad friend now.
你之前对我就不管不顾 You were a bad friend to me,
你现在这个人设超级不讨喜 and this whole new personality is seriously unlikable.
牛掰了 World Star!
就因为我不再老实听你絮叨 Why, because I won't sit and listen to you
你家那个心理变态的家暴男友 bitch and moan about your psychotic, abusive boyfriend
你都跟他分了千百次了 who you've literally broken up with a thousand times?
我当时处在人生低谷 所以没错 It was literally the lowest point in my life, so, yeah.
这让我很生气 还有你很毒舌 That and the fact that you're just fuckin' mean.
麦迪 我们从相识起 你就以自我为中心 Maddy, ever since I've met you, all you talk about is yourself.
话题永远围着你的衣服 男友转 Your clothes, your boyfriends,
还有那些你认为重要的无脑八卦 whatever superficial shit you think is so fucking important.
抱歉 姐没兴趣再做跟班了 Sorry I'm no longer interested.
我不知道其他人怎么想 反正我想念以前的凯特 I don't know about everyone else, but I miss the old Kat.
以前的她幽默风趣 而不是一个贱货 You know, the one who had a sense of humor and wasn't a fuckin' cunt?
真狠 Damn.
另一件事是什么 What was the other thing?
什么另一件事 What other thing?
你说想咨询两件事 You said you needed advice on two things.
我不记得了 I don't remember.
你会怎么做 What would you do?
说不好 I don't know.
我从来遇到过 I've never really been in a situation
两个男人都喜欢我的情况 where two guys have been interested in me.
因为你太放不开了 That's 'cause you're shy.
也许是吧 但我也没遇到过 I guess so, but I've also never been in a situation
我同时喜欢两个男生的情况 where I've been interested in two guys.
那也是因为你太放不开了 That's also 'cause you're shy.
也许吧 Maybe.
但如果你处在我的位置 你会怎么做 But if you were in my situation, what would you do?
老实说 我什么都不会说 Honestly, I don't think I would say anything.
如果什么都不说 你感觉内心有愧呢 What if not saying something makes you feel really bad?
比说出来还糟吗 Worse than saying it?
对 Yeah.
那你就只能说了 Well, then, I don't think you have any other option.
你感觉怎么样了 How are you feeling?
我好像感冒了 I think I have the flu or something.
你有什么需要吗 You want me to get you something?
-喝的 吃... -不用 - Something to drink, or something-- - No, I'm good.
你确定你感冒了吗 小茹 You sure you got the flu, Rue?
吉雅 现在别来烦我 Gia, right now I just need you to leave me the fuck alone, all right?
前情提要... Previously...
内特 人活一世 都会犯错 Look, Nate, we all make mistakes in life.
伤害所爱之人 We hurt the ones we love.
辜负至亲好友 We let down our friends, our family.
有时出于无知 Sometimes we do it out of ignorance.
有时出于自私 Sometimes it's selfishness.
我非完人 I am not perfect.
你知道这点 You know that.
但我这一生都在努力做个好人 But I've spent my life trying to do better.
你不是 You have not.
但我希望你能做个好人 But it is my wish for you.
我不知道你怎么脱身了 I don't know how you got out of this situation.
我知道你该受罚 但你确实脱罪了 I know you didn't deserve to, but you did.
我欣赏你不择手段 And I admire whatever it took.
我就是希望你别因此走上歪路 I just hope it didn't teach you the wrong lesson.
这话听起来有些变态 Okay, this is gonna sound sick,
我现在痛不欲生 because I'm actually in a lot of pain right now,
因为来自膀胱的压力 承受不了床单的重量 due to the sheer weight and strain on my bladder,
这让我想念嗑鸦片剂了 but, man, does this make me miss opiates.
因为人的膀胱从小就受过训练 Because your bladder is trained from a very early age
不能想尿就尿 not to pee whenever it wants to,
需要经过大脑同意才能尿 it needs permission from your brain.
而当人嗑嗨时 And when you're really high,
大脑就不怎么思考了 your brain gets a little... lazy.
疏于下达指令了 Too lazy to say something.
呼吸 Come on. Breathe.
尿吧 Come on, please.
所以才有这么多瘾君子死在马桶上吧 It's probably why so many drug addicts die on toilets.
朱迪
兰尼
猫王
说实话 我上次走出房间 The truth is, the last time I left this room,
经历可并不美好 I didn't have the best experience.
睡了一整天啊 Sleeping all day?
小日子过得真滋润 It's quite the life.
这是瑞克 我妈的新男友 Meet Rick. My mom's new boyfriend.
若是让瑞克形容一下自己 If you were to ask Rick to describe himself,
他会这样描述... he'd say he was...
"骨子里的浪漫主义者 "A romantic at heart.
"我热爱冒险和旅游 "I'm adventurous. I love to travel.
"我热爱户外运动 "I love the outdoors...
热爱高雅艺术 良心电影 美酒 永远年轻" great art, great movies, great wine. Forever young."
抱歉 没忍住 Sorry, I'm sorry.
-我想你爸 -我也是 - I miss your dad. - Me, too.
于是瑞克闪亮登场 So, enter Rick.
小茹啊 So...
听你妈说 你新交了一个"闺蜜" Your mom tells me that you have a new, "best friend."
为什么这种语气 What is that supposed to mean?
你懂的 That, you know.
你新交了一个闺蜜啊 You got a new best friend.
我就直说了 瑞克 You know what, Rick?
你赶紧去死吧 Why don't you go fuck yourself?
怎么能这样跟人说话 How dare you speak to someone like that?
跟谁啊 瑞克吗 Who? Rick.
-别耍心眼 -我冒犯到你了吗 - Don't be a smart-ass. - Did I offend you?
赶紧道歉 Apologize right now.
现在回想起来 我当时确实有点混 In retrospect, I was a little cunt-y.
但瑞克确实是个烦人精 而我正在气头上 But Rick does suck, and I was angry.
原因有很多 For a lot of reasons.
瑞克 很抱歉 我不该让你去死 Rick, I sincerely apologize for telling you to go fuck yourself.
我的本意是 你配不上我妈 What I really meant to say is that my mom can do better
我不喜欢你坐在我爸曾经的位置上 and I hate seeing you sit in the chair my dad sat at.
茱尔丝 在吗
茱尔丝 抱歉我消失了一整周
茱尔丝 我感冒了
我也是
没事 我就是有点担心你
茱尔丝 抱歉
茱尔丝 我这周末打算去探望老朋友
要是我患了躁郁症 If I am bipolar...
我宁愿狂躁 也不想抑郁 I sure as shit prefer mania over depression.
小菲 你看过90年代的惊悚片吧 Yo, Fez. So you know how in every '90s thriller, right,
摩根·弗里曼都会在其中扮演一个神神叨叨的黑人警察 Morgan Freeman plays, like, the same semi-psychic black cop.
-没错 -不是我对黑人有偏见 - Yeah. - So, I know that's kind of racist,
但关键是 在每部电影中 but the point is, in every movie,
他总能冷静地将蛛丝马迹串联起来 查明真相破案 he's always calmly putting the fucking pieces of the case together,
周围人都会被他吓到 while everybody else around him is fucking freaking out,
跟不上他的思路 问他"你胡说啥呢 摩根 saying, "You don't know what the fuck you're talking about, Morgan.
"你这个工作狂 不顾家啊 "You're--You're a fucking bad husband.
趁早退休吧" You should fucking retire."
但摩根不为所动 一心扑在案子上 But no. Morgan is fucking hyper-focused.
因为他能领悟到小细节背后的深意 Because he can see beyond the little details.
他在探究幕后的真实用意 He's looking for the big fuckin' picture.
因为万事万物都有千丝万缕的联系 小菲 Because all of this shit? It's connected, Fez.
真意太过深奥 超出我们的理解范围 And it is way bigger than any of us can even fucking see.
关键是 我摩根附体了 The point is, that's me.
我体内的神探之血解封了 Right now, that is fucking me.
我已经看透了真相 I can see everything so fucking clearly.
我知道事情的经过和起因 I know what happened, I know why it happened,
我也知道该怎么做 and I know what the fuck I'm gonna do about it.
厉害 Word.
那可不 Word.
-她听不到吧 -她连眼睛都睁不开 - She can't hear me, right? - She can't see you, either.
那就好 这可是最高机密 Okay, good, 'cause this is, like, some real top-secret shit.
信我 小茹 她不会乱嚼舌根 Trust me, Rue, she not gonna gossip.
好 Okay.
-你那把枪还在吗 -哪把枪 - Do you still have that gun? - What gun?
藏在沙发坐垫里的那把枪 The one from the couch.
我有好几把枪呢 I mean, I got a couple guns.
你怎么会有这么多枪 Why do you have so many guns?
我祖母留下的枪 My grandma.
好吧 That's cool.
你问我的枪干什么 What you worried about my guns for?
我在想... Okay, well, I was thinking...
也许你可以拿枪吓唬一下内特·雅各布斯 that maybe you could use one to scare Nate Jacobs.
你认真的吗 Are you serious?
反正我没开玩笑 I mean, I'm not not serious.
小茹 这是你今天说过最糊涂的话 Rue, that must be the dumbest shit you've said all fucking day.
不用拿枪指着他啊 就... You don't have to fucking point it at him. You could just--
你亮出来吓唬一下他就行 You could, like-- You could flash it.
你真是失心疯了 小茹 You really have lost your fuckin' mind, Rue.
靠 确实是个馊主意 Fuck, it's a bad fucking idea, okay?
我就是头脑风暴一下啦 I just was fucking spit balling, here.
他惹了我和茱尔丝 I mean, he fucked with me, he fucked with Jules.
我就是想报复回去 And I want fucking revenge. Okay?
抱歉 Sorry.
该死 "老鼠"来了 Fuck. Mouse is here.
-一脸凶相那个... -你待在这儿别出声 - The guy with the-- - All right, so, stay in here. Be quiet- -
小菲 我真待不住... Fez, I can't--I can't stay in here. Like, I'm really...
-你可以 -我受不了尴尬的沉默啊 - Yes, the fuck you can. Shh! - I'm not good with awkward silences.
别出声 我现在很认真 Be quiet. Listen, I'm really serious right now.
你这个小疯子就乖乖坐在这儿 You just need to sit your manic ass down,
安静五分钟就行 小茹 and be quiet for five fuckin' minutes, Rue.
我没跟你开玩笑 I'm not fuckin' playin' with you.
坐下 别出声 Sit down and shut the fuck up.
好吧 Okay.
太奇怪了 So fuckin' weird.
小茹 Yo, Rue.
小茹 Rue.
小茹 我好孤单喔 Rue, I'm so lonely.
我也是 还有我呢 Me, too. Don't forget about me.
床上的老太婆根本意识不到我们的存在 That old lady? She doesn't even know we exist.
小茹 Rue!
吃掉我们 Eat us all.
-吃 -掉 - Eat... - Us...
我们 All!
-吃掉 -我们 - Eat... us... - All!
吃掉我们 吃掉我们 Eat us all! Eat us all!
你得多买点啊 Yo, I'm gonna need you to start moving some weight.
我就是想闷声发财 Yo, I'm just trying to keep it low-key over here, man.
老子还得赚大钱呢 And I'm trying to make fuckin' money.
就算我想买 Even if I wanted all this shit, bruh,
我也没钱啊 I don't got the money for all this, man.
算你小子走运 我赊账给你 That's why you in luck. I'm gonna front it to you.
10%的利息 一个月还清 Ten percent on the vig, and I'll collect in a month.
我可不想碰高利贷 I'm not tryin' to do all that shit, man.
我可不是在跟你商量 I ain't asking, bruh.
你必须加大进货量 Step yo shit up.
一二三四五六七 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven.
一... One...
抑郁的另一症状就是 The other thing about depression is
让人丧失时间概念 it kind of collapses time.
小茹 你在听吗 Rue, are you listening?
突然之间 全部记忆混杂交织 Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together
无穷无尽 令人窒息 to create one endless and suffocating loop.
抑郁后 人会试图回想愉悦的瞬间 So you find yourself trying to remember the things that made you happy.
-再近一点吗 -好 - Do you want to get closer? - Yeah.
但大脑会一点点蚕食欣快的回忆 But slowly, your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy.
最终 And eventually,
脑中仅剩人生中沉闷压抑的记忆 all you can think about is how life has always been this way.
人就会日渐消沉 And will only continue to be this way.
《爱情岛》前情提要 Previously, on Love Island...
把握住你和乔希的美好瞬间 Grab the amazing-ness that you have with Josh by the balls.
不知道茱尔丝玩得开不开心 I wonder if Jules is having fun.
请勿靠近车轨 Stay clear of the tracks...
我好想你 I missed you!
郊区生活如何啊 So how are the suburbs treating you?
他们太保守了 They're claustrophobic.
你过得怎么样 Yeah, how do you like it? How you doing?
怎么说呢 这一年过得很诡异 I don't know. It's been a weird, weird-ass year.
怎么诡异了 Weird in what way?
处处透着诡异的气息 Weird in every way.
我去 那你交到朋友了吧 Shit. You make some good friends, at least?
-交到一个 -是吗 - Yeah, I got one. - Yeah?
但也说不清道不明 But it's, like, complicated.
单纯的朋友 还是友达以上 Well, are you friends, or are you a little bit more,
-恋人未满啊 -都有吧 - like a special kind of friend? - Both, I guess?
对 Yeah.
你爱上他了吗 Okay. What, are you in love with him or something?
是个女孩 Her, not him.
-反转啊 不错 -对 - A little plot twist. Okay! - Yeah.
-我的情况特殊呀 -我的锅 - No room for hetero-normativity in here. - My bad.
说说呗 So... what?
-我也说不清楚 -这样啊 - I don't know. I don't know what it is. - Yeah.
我们俩最近不太和谐 It's not, like, great right now.
我状态不好 I'm not exactly, like, in the best place.
为什么 怎么了 Why? What's going on?
我就是为了逃避才来这里 I came here so I wouldn't have to think about it.
懂了 Understood.
♪混沌 迷茫♪ ♪ What the fuck, what the fuck ♪
♪晨光照耀脸庞♪ ♪ Feel the morning on my face ♪
♪尝尽迷醉之药♪ ♪ Ain't a pill that I didn't take ♪
♪一日迷醉 仿若一生♪ ♪ Just a lifetime, it's been a long day ♪
♪飘然中沉睡...♪ ♪ 'Cause I'm asleep when... ♪
♪伪装♪ ♪ Camouflage ♪
♪人设别倒♪ ♪ Don't forget your hashtag ♪
-这里吗 -不是 楼上 - This one? - No, I'm one more up.
♪形同死尸♪ ♪ You're a dead man ♪
♪奋力追逐 无人理会♪ ♪ You gonna run them They don't ever run you ♪
安娜 Yo, Anna.
安娜 给你介绍一个朋友 Anna, someone I want you to meet.
你好 我叫茱尔丝 Hi. I'm Jules.
我知道 I know.
-你喜欢吗 -你们自己做的吗 - Like it? - Did y'all make these?
-出自朋友之手 -你们不打算出去玩吗 - Our friend did. - I mean, are you guys gonna go out?
安娜总想给我化妆 Anna's always trying to put makeup on me.
太尴尬了 So awkward.
♪晨光照耀脸庞♪ ♪ Feel the morning on my face ♪
我当时走出百货商场 I remember walking out of Sears
-背包里装着我的第一双高跟鞋 -有意思 - with my first pair of heels in my backpack. - Cute.
我当时心脏狂跳 And my heart was fucking racing.
等回到家 我径直走进了我的房间 And I got home, and went straight to my room,
锁上门 试穿高跟鞋... locked the door, put 'em on...
我当时感觉... And, I just... felt like...
我像是在采草药 I was collecting...herbs,
又像是在制作药水 令自己飘升 or making potions in order to up my manna, you know?
试穿过高跟鞋之后 Like, it started with that,
我渐渐开始穿女装 化妆 and then it was clothes, and then it was...makeup,
最后决定注射雌性激素 and eventually hormones.
我就是在不断升级 I just kind of kept leveling up.
那你现在升到哪一级了 So, what level are you at now?
我不知道 I don't know.
但我肯定没满级 还有提升空间 But I definitely haven't reached my full power.
你和男人约会吧 But you date guys, right?
"约会"这词不太准确 Date isn't really the right word.
真正含义是 她很风骚 What she means to say is that she's a slut.
-去你的 -不是在骂你 - Fuck you! - What, it's not an insult!
-怎么说呢 -但你通常勾搭的都是男人 - I mean... - But you normally hook up with guys.
对 但是... Yeah, but...
我和男人们的关系很别扭 my relationship to men is weird.
-怎么讲 -我觉得... - Like, how? - In my head, it's like--
如果我能征服男人 If I can conquer men,
我就是个彻底的女人了[征服女性化]then I can conquer femininity.
为什么要利用男人来证明你的女性化呢 Why do you need a guy to make you feel more feminine?
你先想想 一会儿再问 We'll circle back to that one.
-那你成功了吗 -什么 - So have you? - Have I what?
成为彻底的女人[征服女性化]Conquered femininity?
说不好 I don't know.
其实我也不是想征服女性化 But, it's not like I even want to conquer it.
而是想要将其踩在脚下 It's like I want to fuckin' obliterate it.
然后迈入下一级 And then move on to the next level.
不断提升 And the next, and the next.
升级 升级 Level up. Level up!
虽然我不知道终极目标是什么 但... Yeah. I don't really know what the means, or looks like, but...
-我想要试试看 -酷儿无极限 - I want it. - Queerness is infinite.
看着我 Okay, look at me.
很好 很美 Yeah. You look adorable.
别乱动 Stop.
我怀孕了 I'm pregnant.
什么 What?
你确定怀孕了吗 Are you for real that you're 100 percent pregnant?
确定 Yeah.
我... I...
抱歉 我疏忽了 I'm sorry,
你没事吧 are you all right?
没事 我就是有点紧张 Yeah, I'm--I'm just a little bit nervous.
紧张什么 Nervous about what?
紧张你的反应 About what you're gonna say.
你不会想把孩子生下来吧 You're not really thinking about having this kid, are you?
我真的很爱你 麦凯 I really love you, McKay.
我也爱你 Yeah, I love you, too,
但我现在琐事缠身 but I'm doing a lot of shit right now.
我还没毕业呢 I'm in the middle of school right now.
生养孩子是件大事 凯茜 It's a big fuckin' responsibility, Cassie.
万一我的人生注定如此呢 What if this is what I'm supposed to do with my life?
日了狗了 What the fuck?
我父母肯定会杀了我 My parents are gonna kill me.
我教练肯定不饶我 My coach is gonna kill me.
我爸妈会剥了我的皮 My parents are gonna fucking kill me.
该死 Fuck.
凯茜 其实你自己也不想生吧 Cass, I don't even think you wanna have this baby, okay?
现实生活不是童话故事 It's not a--It's not a fuckin' fairy tale. Like--
也许你现在觉得很美好 但生娃可不是闹着玩 It may seem all cute and cuddly to you, but this is real shit.
我都没做好当爸的准备 I'm not even ready to be a dad.
这样说可能很自私 但是... I don't know if that's selfish to say or whatever, but--
养育孩子让我腿软 children are fuckin' scary.
既然你想谈 You wanted to talk about it,
那我们就开诚布公地谈谈 so here we are, we're talking about it.
我不支持生这个孩子 But I say we don't do it.
我没说要生下来 I'm not saying I'm gonna have a baby.
我就是想憧憬一下 I just wanted to dream about it for a minute.
你将来一定会成为最伟大的母亲 You'll make the best mother on the planet one day.
这点我敢肯定 I say that without a doubt.
你好 Hello?
你黑屏了 我等下再联系你吗 For some reason your screen is black. Should I call you back?
不用 我喜欢保持神秘 No, I prefer to keep it that way.
好吧 Okay.
-你可真会讨价还价 -我总得养活自己吧 - You drive a hard bargain. - Yeah, well, a girl's gotta eat.
半小时300美金 300 for thirty minutes.
-你该多要点 -是吗 - You should have asked for more. - Really?
我想看你全身 站起来 Let me see your whole body. Stand up.
很好 Yes.
往后退 Keep going.
很好 Yes.
棒极了 Fantastic.
你紧张吗 Are you nervous?
我一般不跟人裸聊 I-I-I...I mean, I don't usually, undress.
我一定很特别吧 But I am special. Right?
对 Yes.
说出来 Then say it.
你很特别 You're special.
脱吧 So, get undressed.
你真美 You're beautiful.
帮我买罐芒果饮料吧 Can you get me a mango La Croix?
-还要樱桃味的卷烟 -还有吗 - And those cherry rolling papers? - Anything else?
-小菲 -你好啊 - What up, Fez? - What's up, man?
我想要两根卷烟 Yo, can I get, two of the rolling papers, too, bruh?
兄弟 Yo, man.
我不知道你和小茹 茱尔丝是怎么回事 I don't know what's been going on with you, Rue, and Jules and shit.
但你得知道 我很关心她 But you should know, I really do care about her.
你不是她的毒贩吗 Aren't you, like, her drug dealer?
不是了 Nah, man.
你们恋爱了 What, are you in a relationship?
不是 我们亲如兄妹 Nah, bruh, that's like, my family.
柏拉图式恋爱啊 So it's platonic.
听着 Look, man,
我就是想说 别惹她和她朋友 all I'm saying is, leave her and her friends alone.
你这是在威胁我吗 Is that a threat?
不是 礼貌告知 Nah, I'm just telling you.
不然怎样 Or what?
忤逆的后果很严重 We're not gonna be having this conversation.
菲兹克 我就不绕弯了 Fezco, let's get this straight.
你几乎相当于是个智障 You're, like, half a retard.
你20岁时就辍学了 You dropped out of school at 20,
现在就是个混混 and now... you're a gangster.
还想装成古巴大毒枭啊 想咋样啊 What are you, like, fucking Tony Montana? What's the plan? Hmm?
住豪宅 操老虎 花天酒地吗 You gonna be living in a mansion, fuckin' pet tigers and shit?
去死吧你 Go fuck yourself.
听着 Listen, bruh.
我把话撂在这儿 你再敢招惹小茹和她朋友 All I'm sayin', you keep fuckin' with Rue and her friends,
我就弄死你 and I'mma kill you.
一共5.75美元 "花花公子" It's gonna be $5.75, playboy.
成人的膀胱能容纳两杯尿液 An adult bladder can hold two cups of urine.
但如果刻意憋尿 But if you're telling your bladder to hold off because, say,
因为人生抑郁到了极点 you're in the worst depression of your fucking life,
那膀胱最终就会胀满 your bladder will eventually fill.
一旦膀胱容纳的尿液超过极限... And what begins to happen is...
肾脏排出到膀胱的毒素 all of the toxins that your kidneys have pushed into your bladder
就会从膀胱回流到肾脏中 begin to travel back into your kidneys.
该死 Fuck.
我知道你怎么想 小茹 太荒唐了 I know what you're thinking. Rue, this is insane.
活人还能让尿憋死吗 去趟洗手间不就好了 Don't get a kidney infection. Walk to the bathroom.
信我 我他妈也想啊 Trust me, I'm thinking the same fuckin' thing.
来点大麻吗 Like a little pot?
-看到你 我想起了她 -谁 - You remind me of her. - Who?
我的好闺蜜 My best friend.
她是个什么样的人 So what's she like?
讲真 她总把自己搞得很狼狈 Honestly? Kind of a mess.
我很狼狈吗 So I'm a mess?
-对啊 -我怎么狼狈了 - Yeah. - How am I a mess?
暂时说不上来 I don't know yet.
我好像嗑高了 I think I'm really high.
-我该联系她吗 -不要 - Should I text her? - No.
做人不能太贪心 You only get one more.
该死 Fuck.
茱尔丝 Jules.
你怎么来了 What are you doing here?
-你给我发短信了 -是吗 - You texted me. - I did?
你不希望我来吗 Did you not want me to come?
你一个人吗 You here alone?
别走 别走 别走 No, no, no, no, no.
我很怕你 内特 I'm scared of you, Nate.
我为做的所有错事道歉 I'm sorry. For everything.
抱歉伤害了你 I'm sorry for hurting you.
你... You...
你是我见过最美的人 you were the most beautiful person that I've ever known.
我是泰勒 I'm Tyler.
你爱的人是我 I'm the person that you fell in love with.
我要杀了你 I wanna kill you.
我归你了 任你差遣 I'm yours. I'm all yours.
你是个胆小鬼 You're a pussy.
你真贱 You're a bitch.
我好想让全世界都知道你的真面目 And I wish the whole fucking world could know.
此事不会有好下场 I know this isn't gonna end well.
你好 Hello?
我想报案 Yeah, I'd like to report a crime.
妈 Mom.
帮帮我吧 I think I need your help.
过来 Come here.
抱抱 没事了 妈妈爱你 Come here. It's okay. It's okay. I love you so much.
妈妈爱你 你这个大美妞 I love you so much. You're so beautiful.
该死 Fuck!
东高警局 East Highland PD!
-开门 -快点 - Open the door! - Come on, bro.
动作快点 Hurry the fuck up out there!
-我们知道屋里有人 开门 -该死 - We know you're in there. Open up! - Fuck!
该死 Goddamn it!
-该死 -搞什么啊 - Fuck, bro. - What the fuck, man?
快点 老弟 赶紧冲走 Come on, bruh. Hurry up, for real, man.
开门 立刻开门 Unlock the door! Open up, now!
该死 Goddamn it!
小茹 怎么了 Rue, what's wrong?
宝贝女儿 妈妈来了 Okay, baby. Come on.
起来 来吧 Come on. Come on.
曾经有个心理医生说 我压抑的状态会起起落落 I had a therapist once who said that these states will wax and wane.
我妈因此松了一口气 Which gave my mother relief,
因为就算我犯病了 because it meant that in the bad times,
总也会好起来 there would be good times.
但她也因此焦灼难安 But it also gave her anxiety
因为就算我一时没事 because it meant that in the good times,
总也有抑郁发作的一天 there would be bad times.
我一直很不解 It always confused me,
因为我不懂"起落"的意思 because I didn't really know what it meant.
没事了 宝贝 It's okay, baby.
没事了 It's okay.
但听起来比我自己的形容更让人安心 But it did sound a lot calmer than the way I would describe it.
我得继续服药 I think I need to go back on medication.
好了 感觉如何 还好吧 There you go. How you feel? Okay?
我知道你现在很低落 宝贝 I know you're feeling low right now, baby.
但你没有故态复萌 说明你的症状有所缓解 But the fact that you didn't turn back means you're gettin' better.
没错 It does.
一定是这样 It does.
当然了 我之后才领悟到 Granted, I didn't realize until later
"起起落落"的真正含义 what waxing and waning implied.
抑郁无法根除 会反复发作 That these feelings were fixed and constant
我的余生都将与抑郁作伴 and would never end for the rest of my life.
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要是当时有人提醒我... What if I heard a voice...
在我耳边低语... Some narrator who said...
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我任性离开 才会发生这种事 But all this happened because I left.
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