1 00:01:55,440 --> 00:01:56,940 That will make you think. 2 00:03:43,412 --> 00:03:44,703 Stay there! 3 00:04:15,374 --> 00:04:16,374 Thank you. 4 00:04:25,707 --> 00:04:27,261 May I walk with you? 5 00:04:29,209 --> 00:04:30,167 Fine. 6 00:04:38,960 --> 00:04:41,377 - Good morning, ladies and gentlemen. - Good morning, sir! 7 00:04:42,044 --> 00:04:44,419 We have a visitor, this morning. 8 00:04:47,919 --> 00:04:48,961 Your coat... 9 00:04:54,295 --> 00:04:55,545 Have a seat there. 10 00:04:58,379 --> 00:05:01,796 I am afraid there is a slight mishap on the way here... 11 00:05:02,504 --> 00:05:05,598 I think the corrections would still be legible. 12 00:05:06,213 --> 00:05:08,422 Max, would you... do the honors? 13 00:05:09,672 --> 00:05:11,672 More work require there... 14 00:05:12,256 --> 00:05:16,964 No opportunity to honor and respect yourself. 15 00:05:17,798 --> 00:05:22,923 But Marcus Aurelius was worth philosopher and an emperor. 16 00:05:23,090 --> 00:05:26,549 There's no coincidence, that was the way with the Romans. 17 00:05:26,716 --> 00:05:30,008 Thought and action were all one. 18 00:05:30,216 --> 00:05:33,966 I think we were chapter 12, page 42. 19 00:05:47,010 --> 00:05:50,343 Natalie, perhaps you da... begin? 20 00:05:51,177 --> 00:05:55,532 "How can it be that the Gods... 21 00:05:55,636 --> 00:05:59,074 overlooked this alone, 22 00:05:59,136 --> 00:06:01,772 that some lost men... 23 00:06:01,803 --> 00:06:04,512 and those very good men, 24 00:06:04,804 --> 00:06:07,648 who have had the most... " 25 00:06:08,179 --> 00:06:10,554 "into the course with the divine." 26 00:06:12,471 --> 00:06:14,190 Uh, just keep on going. 27 00:06:55,518 --> 00:06:59,904 "If it is so that we live only a small part of the life which is within us," 28 00:07:01,019 --> 00:07:03,352 " what happens to the rest?" 29 00:07:15,020 --> 00:07:16,687 Hello, Mr. Gregorius. 30 00:07:16,979 --> 00:07:20,396 I am afraid your book on Persian grammar has yet to arrive. 31 00:07:20,813 --> 00:07:24,271 Uh no, that's not why I came... Do you know that book? 32 00:07:24,938 --> 00:07:28,189 Indeed, I sold it to someone yesterday. 33 00:07:28,355 --> 00:07:29,480 A woman? 34 00:07:29,647 --> 00:07:33,106 Yes. She came in, asked for the Portuguese section 35 00:07:33,272 --> 00:07:35,689 from this book. Sat there. 36 00:07:35,856 --> 00:07:39,065 Read it for an hour or so then became rather upset. 37 00:07:39,232 --> 00:07:42,815 Paid for the book and left... How did you come by? 38 00:07:43,149 --> 00:07:44,440 I found it. 39 00:07:44,899 --> 00:07:46,534 Beautiful title. 40 00:07:46,691 --> 00:07:49,066 "UM OURIVES DAS PALAVRAS" 41 00:07:49,618 --> 00:07:51,529 "A Goldsmith of Words." 42 00:07:56,234 --> 00:07:57,525 Train tickets. 43 00:07:58,692 --> 00:08:02,276 - Where to? - Lisbon, eventually. 44 00:08:03,901 --> 00:08:06,068 Leaving in 15 minutes. 45 00:08:08,235 --> 00:08:10,569 - Thank you. - She was wearing that coat! 46 00:08:20,987 --> 00:08:22,372 Attention please. 47 00:08:22,570 --> 00:08:26,154 Line 10 on platform 8 is now leaving... 48 00:08:28,446 --> 00:08:30,238 What is all this noise? 49 00:08:32,488 --> 00:08:35,655 - Where is Mr. Gregorius? - He left, Mr. Kagi. 50 00:08:35,822 --> 00:08:36,863 He left? 51 00:08:37,614 --> 00:08:40,322 There was a woman with him here. 52 00:08:41,780 --> 00:08:43,072 Impossible. 53 00:09:21,327 --> 00:09:23,286 "We live here and now." 54 00:09:23,661 --> 00:09:27,328 "Everything before and in other places is past." 55 00:09:27,494 --> 00:09:29,245 "Mostly forgotten." 56 00:09:38,266 --> 00:09:38,995 Hello. 57 00:09:38,996 --> 00:09:41,673 Uh, this is Mr. Kagi. Where are you? 58 00:09:43,788 --> 00:09:46,247 - On a train. - A train? 59 00:09:47,164 --> 00:09:49,747 - Where to? - Lisbon. 60 00:09:50,872 --> 00:09:53,998 Would you take care of my books? I left them on my desk. 61 00:10:01,749 --> 00:10:04,593 "What could, what should be done..." 62 00:10:04,749 --> 00:10:07,374 "with all the time that lies ahead of us," 63 00:10:07,624 --> 00:10:09,625 "open and unshaped," 64 00:10:09,833 --> 00:10:12,292 "feather-light in its freedom..." 65 00:10:12,458 --> 00:10:15,584 "and lead-heavy in its uncertainty?" 66 00:10:16,584 --> 00:10:17,876 "Is it a wish?" 67 00:10:18,959 --> 00:10:21,501 "Dream like and nostalgic," 68 00:10:21,668 --> 00:10:26,002 "to stand once again at that point in life..." 69 00:10:26,877 --> 00:10:30,585 "and be able to take a completely different direction..." 70 00:10:30,960 --> 00:10:33,836 "to the one which has made us who we are?" 71 00:11:21,675 --> 00:11:23,008 Do you have a room? 72 00:11:24,717 --> 00:11:27,217 - Where is your luggage? - I don't have any. 73 00:11:30,176 --> 00:11:32,176 I will trust you and give you a room. 74 00:11:33,218 --> 00:11:34,718 With a view of the sea. 75 00:11:42,844 --> 00:11:44,480 There. The sea. 76 00:11:47,845 --> 00:11:49,887 - Anything else, sir? - Yes 77 00:11:50,970 --> 00:11:53,731 I wanted to find the address of the man who wrote this. 78 00:11:58,929 --> 00:12:00,179 Thank you. 79 00:12:01,638 --> 00:12:04,482 - Anything else? - No, thank you. 80 00:12:42,893 --> 00:12:45,268 Good morning, I am looking for Amadeu de Prado. 81 00:12:46,810 --> 00:12:48,144 One moment. 82 00:13:05,812 --> 00:13:07,813 I believe you are looking for my brother? 83 00:13:08,229 --> 00:13:12,230 - Yes. Is the doctor in? - Are you ill? 84 00:13:12,980 --> 00:13:15,480 No, I'm... I am reading this book. 85 00:13:15,689 --> 00:13:18,147 I very much like to meet him. 86 00:13:18,772 --> 00:13:22,481 What he writes touches me very deeply. 87 00:13:25,773 --> 00:13:27,492 You should come inside. 88 00:13:30,149 --> 00:13:31,732 You may sit. 89 00:13:32,857 --> 00:13:37,243 Some tea? Red Assam is Amadeu's preference. 90 00:13:37,244 --> 00:13:38,368 Thank you. 91 00:13:41,942 --> 00:13:43,411 Tea, Clotilde. 92 00:13:44,734 --> 00:13:46,901 This is Amadeu's favorite room. 93 00:13:47,984 --> 00:13:49,370 It's beautiful room. 94 00:13:51,151 --> 00:13:53,443 He has read everyone of those books. 95 00:13:58,444 --> 00:14:01,069 Does he still practice as a doctor? 96 00:14:02,319 --> 00:14:03,736 Where did you get it? 97 00:14:03,903 --> 00:14:07,028 I came across it in Bern, where I live. 98 00:14:07,611 --> 00:14:09,945 Only a hundred were ever printed. 99 00:14:10,403 --> 00:14:12,362 I have six copies left. 100 00:14:15,987 --> 00:14:19,029 I often wonder where the other 94 went. 101 00:14:22,738 --> 00:14:24,738 Bern is in Switzerland, is it not? 102 00:14:25,082 --> 00:14:26,124 Yes. 103 00:14:27,155 --> 00:14:30,948 And the book has traveled?... That is a good thing. 104 00:14:34,615 --> 00:14:38,490 - Has he written anything else? - Nothing that has been published. 105 00:14:39,699 --> 00:14:42,241 He wanted to be a writer, a philosopher... 106 00:14:43,991 --> 00:14:46,074 Then he decided to become a doctor. 107 00:14:46,449 --> 00:14:49,033 He didn't believe people should be in pain. 108 00:14:52,867 --> 00:14:55,200 - Is that him? - That is our father 109 00:14:57,159 --> 00:15:00,368 - He was a famous judge. - So, I gather from the book. 110 00:15:00,743 --> 00:15:04,034 He and Amadeu had a rather complicated relationship. 111 00:15:04,035 --> 00:15:08,702 "Consider from the standpoint of eternity that rather loses its significance." 112 00:15:09,536 --> 00:15:10,786 Yes. 113 00:15:11,869 --> 00:15:16,088 - He often said that to Amadeu. - Amadeu does not believe in eternity. 114 00:15:17,078 --> 00:15:18,745 Unfortunately not. 115 00:15:20,037 --> 00:15:22,287 I don't mean to pry, but... 116 00:15:23,954 --> 00:15:27,246 may I ask how your father died? 117 00:15:27,621 --> 00:15:29,746 No. No, you may not. 118 00:15:35,330 --> 00:15:36,997 If you want to see Amadeu... 119 00:15:37,789 --> 00:15:40,664 you will find him in Cemetery Prazeres. 120 00:15:48,040 --> 00:15:50,718 "We leave something of ourselves behind..." 121 00:15:50,999 --> 00:15:52,874 "when we leave a place,..." 122 00:15:54,458 --> 00:15:58,083 "we stay there, even though we go away." 123 00:15:59,583 --> 00:16:01,417 "And there are things in us..." 124 00:16:01,958 --> 00:16:05,626 "that we can find again only by going back there." 125 00:16:07,459 --> 00:16:10,751 "We travel to our souls when we go to a place..." 126 00:16:11,335 --> 00:16:13,752 "that we have covered a stretch of our life,..." 127 00:16:14,877 --> 00:16:17,919 "no matter how brief it may have been." 128 00:16:19,961 --> 00:16:24,628 "But by travelling to ourselves, we must confront our own loneliness. 129 00:16:26,253 --> 00:16:28,628 "And isn't it so that everything we do..." 130 00:16:28,795 --> 00:16:31,379 "is done out of fear of loneliness?" 131 00:16:33,546 --> 00:16:35,462 "Isn't that why we renounce..." 132 00:16:35,629 --> 00:16:39,213 "all the things we will regret at the end of our life? 133 00:16:45,672 --> 00:16:49,339 Excuse me. I am looking for Amadeu de Almeida Prado. 134 00:16:51,662 --> 00:16:53,798 - Prado. - Thank you. 135 00:17:01,153 --> 00:17:03,237 (In Portuguese) 136 00:17:03,716 --> 00:17:10,613 "...When dictatorship is a fact, revolution is a duty..." 137 00:17:28,969 --> 00:17:30,907 Merda idiota! (Portuguese) ["Fucking idiot!"] 138 00:17:47,679 --> 00:17:50,972 "Is it ultimately a question of self-image," 139 00:17:51,305 --> 00:17:54,180 "the determining idea one has made for oneself..." 140 00:17:54,347 --> 00:17:57,306 "of what one has to have accomplished and experienced..." 141 00:17:57,514 --> 00:18:00,764 "so that one can approve of the life one has lived?" 142 00:18:02,098 --> 00:18:03,817 "If this is the case," 143 00:18:04,140 --> 00:18:06,473 "the fear of death might be described..." 144 00:18:06,640 --> 00:18:11,141 "as the fear of not being able to become whom one planned to be." 145 00:18:13,141 --> 00:18:15,557 "If the certainty befalls us that it will..." 146 00:18:15,558 --> 00:18:18,350 "never be achieved, this wholeness," 147 00:18:18,517 --> 00:18:22,142 "we suddenly don't know how to live the time..." 148 00:18:22,309 --> 00:18:25,642 "that can no longer be part of the whole life." 149 00:18:36,727 --> 00:18:37,852 Better? 150 00:18:39,894 --> 00:18:41,394 Or worse? 151 00:18:42,561 --> 00:18:43,811 Better. 152 00:18:43,978 --> 00:18:47,645 - You feel as if you wrote the book yourself? - I would like to then. 153 00:18:47,812 --> 00:18:51,812 Talks about everything that preoccupying him for years. 154 00:18:52,437 --> 00:18:54,229 Better? Or worse? 155 00:18:55,438 --> 00:18:56,604 Worse. 156 00:18:57,896 --> 00:19:00,605 Tell me one of these beautiful sentences you read. 157 00:19:00,897 --> 00:19:05,116 "The real director of life is accident --" 158 00:19:05,647 --> 00:19:07,772 "a director full of cruelty," 159 00:19:07,939 --> 00:19:10,867 "compassion and bewitching charm." 160 00:19:11,023 --> 00:19:12,377 By accident, he means fate? 161 00:19:12,440 --> 00:19:16,148 No, I think he means chance, randomness chance. 162 00:19:16,899 --> 00:19:20,066 Let's take a break, rest your eyes for a moment. 163 00:19:21,274 --> 00:19:23,233 You are a man who does not sleep well. 164 00:19:23,399 --> 00:19:26,191 - You can tell? - The eyes reveal everything. 165 00:19:28,400 --> 00:19:30,036 Look at these eyes. 166 00:19:31,150 --> 00:19:33,234 Tell me what they reveal. 167 00:19:33,942 --> 00:19:36,276 Melancholic, but hopeful. 168 00:19:36,443 --> 00:19:38,672 Tire, but persistent. 169 00:19:38,673 --> 00:19:39,818 Contradictory. 170 00:19:40,068 --> 00:19:43,735 Why would his sister pretend that he is still alive? 171 00:19:43,985 --> 00:19:46,444 I have no idea. Shall we resume? 172 00:19:56,070 --> 00:19:58,997 So you met a woman in a red coat who disappeared... 173 00:19:59,154 --> 00:20:01,946 - ... and you just dropped everything? - Then I read the book. 174 00:20:02,987 --> 00:20:05,998 I would love to be able to do that, just drop everything... 175 00:20:06,321 --> 00:20:09,488 - You do that often? - No, I never done anything like that before. 176 00:20:10,072 --> 00:20:11,947 Best? Or worse? 177 00:20:12,197 --> 00:20:13,697 Uh, better. 178 00:20:15,281 --> 00:20:17,281 How does that feel? 179 00:20:18,156 --> 00:20:20,406 You talk about seeing his feeling. 180 00:20:20,573 --> 00:20:22,448 - Well, isn't it? - I suppose it is. 181 00:20:22,948 --> 00:20:25,709 - How clear is it? The image. - Very clear. 182 00:20:27,324 --> 00:20:28,657 And how about this? 183 00:20:32,324 --> 00:20:33,991 Everything is in focus. 184 00:20:41,617 --> 00:20:45,117 Sir, we have this new one here... 185 00:20:47,909 --> 00:20:49,993 "The decisive moment of life," 186 00:20:50,160 --> 00:20:52,702 "when its direction changes forever," 187 00:20:53,327 --> 00:20:56,171 "are not always marked by loud and shrill dramatics." 188 00:20:57,327 --> 00:21:02,328 "In truth, the dramatic moments of a life-determining experience..." 189 00:21:02,495 --> 00:21:05,370 "are often unbelievable low-key." 190 00:21:06,578 --> 00:21:09,725 "When it unfolds its revolutionary effect..." 191 00:21:09,787 --> 00:21:14,371 "and make sure that life that it revealed in a brand-new light." 192 00:21:14,538 --> 00:21:16,830 "It does that silently." 193 00:21:18,163 --> 00:21:23,122 "And in this wonderful silence resides its special nobility." 194 00:21:24,414 --> 00:21:26,831 Now you wonder if the old pair were better. 195 00:21:27,039 --> 00:21:28,789 - Yes. - But they are not, are they? 196 00:21:31,623 --> 00:21:33,790 No, they feel very light. 197 00:21:34,040 --> 00:21:36,249 Getting used to them will take some time. 198 00:21:36,874 --> 00:21:41,124 - You take credit cards? - You can sort all that out with my receptionist. 199 00:21:42,208 --> 00:21:45,135 Before you go... I have an uncle. 200 00:21:45,875 --> 00:21:48,552 He lives in a nursing home across the Tejo (river Tagus). 201 00:21:48,708 --> 00:21:51,667 I called him last night and told him about you and the book. 202 00:21:52,167 --> 00:21:54,209 He knew Amadeu de Prado well. 203 00:21:54,376 --> 00:21:58,335 I told him you want to know about Amadeu and he said he'll talk to you. 204 00:21:58,960 --> 00:22:00,918 He was in the resistance. 205 00:22:02,252 --> 00:22:05,544 I must warn you, my uncle can be difficult. 206 00:22:05,919 --> 00:22:07,388 In what way? 207 00:22:08,294 --> 00:22:11,628 The generation that lived under the dictator Salazar 208 00:22:11,794 --> 00:22:15,128 is still battling to come to terms with what happened. 209 00:22:15,837 --> 00:22:19,379 When the resistance began, the Secret Police were extremely brutal. 210 00:22:19,545 --> 00:22:22,671 To this day, people don't like talking about it, 211 00:22:23,046 --> 00:22:25,973 The block of jail as well as their victims. 212 00:22:34,130 --> 00:22:35,766 Uncle João, how are you? 213 00:22:36,422 --> 00:22:37,891 What you doing here? 214 00:22:38,339 --> 00:22:41,381 This is the man I was telling you about, Raimund Gregorius. 215 00:22:41,548 --> 00:22:43,757 - I brought him. - I said I talk to him, not you. 216 00:22:43,923 --> 00:22:46,215 - But... - You can wait in reception. 217 00:22:46,216 --> 00:22:48,300 We go to the lounge. 218 00:22:55,758 --> 00:22:59,050 So, you are interested in Amadeu de Prado? 219 00:22:59,885 --> 00:23:00,614 Yes. 220 00:23:01,717 --> 00:23:04,301 Mariana tells me you have a book of him? 221 00:23:04,467 --> 00:23:05,593 Would you like to see it? 222 00:23:05,759 --> 00:23:10,385 I can imagine what it is like. A godless priest. 223 00:23:11,760 --> 00:23:13,635 That's a good description. 224 00:23:14,885 --> 00:23:17,813 He was the only visitor there allowed in prison. 225 00:23:19,219 --> 00:23:21,094 Every week he visits, 226 00:23:21,344 --> 00:23:24,762 with books and medicines, and cigarettes... 227 00:23:25,762 --> 00:23:29,429 which of course, they take away the moment he leaves. 228 00:23:30,762 --> 00:23:33,440 Yeah, he had privileges. 229 00:23:34,929 --> 00:23:38,472 - What sort of privileges? - The kind you don't want in life. 230 00:23:40,805 --> 00:23:43,972 - Do you have cigarette? - No, sorry, I don't smoke. 231 00:23:44,139 --> 00:23:45,139 Pity. 232 00:23:49,265 --> 00:23:54,223 Mariana tells me that you and Amadeu were in the resistance. 233 00:23:54,515 --> 00:23:57,849 - And Jorge, his best friend. - Oh yes, he wrote a lot about Jorge. 234 00:23:58,099 --> 00:24:00,307 Oh, they were joined at the heart and the soul. 235 00:24:01,016 --> 00:24:02,349 For a time... 236 00:24:02,724 --> 00:24:07,058 But Amadeu, he was too soft for the resistance. 237 00:24:07,808 --> 00:24:11,350 He only joined because he feel quilt. 238 00:24:13,059 --> 00:24:16,309 Mariana tells me you are from Switzerland? 239 00:24:16,476 --> 00:24:17,893 Yes, Bern. 240 00:24:19,143 --> 00:24:21,768 There was never a revolution in Switzerland, was there? 241 00:24:22,060 --> 00:24:26,602 No. Somehow they always managed to avoid such things. 242 00:24:27,227 --> 00:24:30,071 They wouldn't know what it's like to live without trusting. 243 00:24:30,311 --> 00:24:34,103 No one to trust, no friends, no family. 244 00:24:35,603 --> 00:24:38,531 I met his sister, Adriana. 245 00:24:38,687 --> 00:24:41,896 She... She acts as if he is still alive. 246 00:24:42,688 --> 00:24:44,813 And she wears black as is in mourning. 247 00:24:58,648 --> 00:25:01,659 Looking at only fill my cup halfway? 248 00:25:16,025 --> 00:25:18,900 No one has ever done that for me before. 249 00:25:32,756 --> 00:25:33,696 Yeah, it burns. 250 00:25:36,777 --> 00:25:42,945 A gift from PIDE, the Portuguese Secret Police. [Polícia Internacional e de Defesa do Estado] 251 00:25:43,028 --> 00:25:47,049 Rui Luís Mendes was his name. ["Butcher of Lisbon"] 252 00:25:47,779 --> 00:25:49,571 1973, 253 00:25:50,821 --> 00:25:52,238 in the spring time... 254 00:26:04,531 --> 00:26:05,781 I'm home. 255 00:26:15,574 --> 00:26:16,824 Who are you? 256 00:26:17,907 --> 00:26:19,032 Where's my wife? 257 00:26:19,449 --> 00:26:22,293 She kindly took your children for a walk. 258 00:26:24,741 --> 00:26:28,659 This woman that knows all the names. Where do I find her? 259 00:26:29,450 --> 00:26:31,003 I do not know... 260 00:26:32,784 --> 00:26:35,118 I do not know what you are talking about. 261 00:26:38,493 --> 00:26:41,337 Your wife tells me you are an excellent pianist... 262 00:26:42,577 --> 00:26:46,411 Will you play for me? And my friend? 263 00:26:48,203 --> 00:26:49,453 Please. 264 00:27:01,871 --> 00:27:03,423 Can I see you hands? Please. 265 00:27:29,999 --> 00:27:33,291 - What should I play? - Play as your favorite. 266 00:27:49,002 --> 00:27:51,627 They say she has a photographic memory. 267 00:27:53,085 --> 00:27:54,554 Is that true? 268 00:28:12,838 --> 00:28:16,422 I ask you once more, where is she? 269 00:28:37,591 --> 00:28:39,924 What made it all that more terrible 270 00:28:40,674 --> 00:28:42,591 was that someone said yeah 271 00:28:43,466 --> 00:28:47,467 Amadeu, he saved Mendes' life. 272 00:28:52,301 --> 00:28:56,843 Dinnertime. They-- they serve us early here, like in prison. 273 00:28:57,468 --> 00:29:01,010 Not for the inmates, you understand, but for the staff. 274 00:29:02,927 --> 00:29:06,803 I'm glad he finally been able to tell someone about it. 275 00:29:08,178 --> 00:29:10,345 I just wish it had been me. 276 00:29:11,178 --> 00:29:14,106 It is ofter easier to speak with strangers. 277 00:29:15,345 --> 00:29:17,679 With my family it's a bit different. 278 00:29:17,887 --> 00:29:21,888 Pain is something we pretend happens to other people. 279 00:29:23,221 --> 00:29:25,138 When Uncle João disappeared, 280 00:29:25,305 --> 00:29:28,847 our parent told us he had gone to Brazil to work. 281 00:29:29,222 --> 00:29:31,764 Then after the Revolution, when he was released, 282 00:29:31,931 --> 00:29:35,389 they told us he had an accident with his hands. 283 00:29:37,140 --> 00:29:39,817 - He is very fond of you. - He is? 284 00:29:41,140 --> 00:29:43,724 He said you are the only one from the family who ever visited. 285 00:29:43,890 --> 00:29:46,568 He is always so grumpy, I don't blame the others. 286 00:29:47,516 --> 00:29:50,360 - What else did he say? - He said he wish you are married. 287 00:29:51,600 --> 00:29:53,069 I hate him! 288 00:29:54,892 --> 00:29:57,309 Then when you visited, there'll be children. 289 00:29:58,684 --> 00:30:01,445 He actually said that? And he is fond of me? 290 00:30:07,185 --> 00:30:08,435 Do you have children? 291 00:30:08,852 --> 00:30:11,946 No. I have my students... 292 00:30:12,811 --> 00:30:16,019 but the faces change every year, so I try not to too fond of them. 293 00:30:37,188 --> 00:30:39,272 I think now you are staying another day? 294 00:30:41,189 --> 00:30:42,825 Yes, I might have to. 295 00:30:43,147 --> 00:30:44,533 Beautiful glasses. 296 00:31:37,571 --> 00:31:39,123 Father Bartolomeu? 297 00:31:39,946 --> 00:31:40,467 Yes. 298 00:31:41,488 --> 00:31:46,322 João Eça tells me that you buried Amadeu de Prado. 299 00:31:47,864 --> 00:31:50,510 I would prefer to be remembered in this manner: 300 00:31:50,572 --> 00:31:52,447 who taught Amadeu, 301 00:31:52,906 --> 00:31:54,864 not the one who buried him. 302 00:31:57,365 --> 00:32:00,907 Amadeu was 12 years old when he first came to the school. 303 00:32:01,282 --> 00:32:04,043 He came with no bag, no books... 304 00:32:04,574 --> 00:32:06,449 and read them all, you think. 305 00:32:06,824 --> 00:32:08,783 Everything was in his head. 306 00:32:10,450 --> 00:32:14,408 What does he say about the school, in his book? 307 00:32:22,868 --> 00:32:25,201 "For 1922 days,..." 308 00:32:25,368 --> 00:32:29,160 "I attended the 'Liceu (school)' where my Father sent me,..." 309 00:32:29,369 --> 00:32:31,994 "the strictest school in the whole country." 310 00:32:32,411 --> 00:32:34,932 "By the third day I realized I had to count the days,..." 311 00:32:34,994 --> 00:32:37,203 "so as not to be crushed by it." 312 00:32:39,495 --> 00:32:41,870 He hated it that much? 313 00:32:44,537 --> 00:32:47,579 Were Jorge and Amadeu in the same class? 314 00:32:47,996 --> 00:32:49,715 Uh, no. Not at first. 315 00:32:49,871 --> 00:32:54,330 Amadeu skipped 2 grades. 316 00:32:55,580 --> 00:32:57,580 He was that bright, you see. 317 00:32:57,955 --> 00:33:00,581 And for 2 years, they were in the same class. 318 00:33:00,747 --> 00:33:01,654 Or I should say, 319 00:33:01,664 --> 00:33:04,081 they were in a class of their own. 320 00:33:04,623 --> 00:33:06,290 Amadeu, the aristocrat, 321 00:33:06,873 --> 00:33:08,873 and Jorge, the working class boy. 322 00:33:09,332 --> 00:33:12,624 They had a very noted curiosity in those two. 323 00:33:13,541 --> 00:33:15,051 They would lie to their mothers 324 00:33:15,103 --> 00:33:18,541 that they were going to spend the night at the friend's house. 325 00:33:19,041 --> 00:33:21,125 Instead, they came here. 326 00:33:30,668 --> 00:33:32,220 How did you find them, Jorge? 327 00:33:32,376 --> 00:33:35,387 I was sleeping here and I found the floor was loosen. 328 00:33:38,502 --> 00:33:41,398 - Jean-Paul Sartre (French philosopher)... - Karl Marx (German philosopher)... 329 00:33:41,419 --> 00:33:43,075 Henry Miller (American writer)... 330 00:33:43,586 --> 00:33:45,503 My God, if we found these books... 331 00:33:45,669 --> 00:33:50,419 We would end up in Tarrafal ("Camp of the Slow Death") along with all the other political prisoners. 332 00:33:50,420 --> 00:33:53,045 But your father would never allow that, would he? Amadeu. 333 00:33:53,379 --> 00:33:55,712 He would get Grand Minister Salazar personally intervene 334 00:33:55,879 --> 00:33:57,629 and have the case thrown out of court. 335 00:33:58,754 --> 00:34:00,838 You think it is a joke my father is a judge. 336 00:34:01,213 --> 00:34:03,536 I think it is a joke that the son of a green grocer 337 00:34:03,547 --> 00:34:04,797 has friended with the son of a judge. 338 00:34:05,380 --> 00:34:06,766 That is funny. 339 00:34:08,922 --> 00:34:10,255 You have to admit. 340 00:34:14,130 --> 00:34:18,590 Amadeu would have been unhappy wherever he was. 341 00:34:20,382 --> 00:34:22,715 He never played games with the other boys. 342 00:34:24,216 --> 00:34:26,132 He never let himself go... 343 00:34:27,674 --> 00:34:30,800 except one time. 344 00:34:33,092 --> 00:34:35,768 No body forgot that time. 345 00:34:39,259 --> 00:34:40,895 Make room there boys. Make room. 346 00:35:01,387 --> 00:35:04,231 - My father is here. - Of course he is. What do you expect? 347 00:35:04,387 --> 00:35:05,106 You should read this, Jorge. 348 00:35:05,116 --> 00:35:06,273 You wrote most of them anyway. 349 00:35:06,429 --> 00:35:09,054 They are your words. I only helped to choose them. 350 00:35:10,596 --> 00:35:13,972 - Amadeu, which is our religion? - Loyalty. 351 00:35:14,180 --> 00:35:15,597 What are our values? 352 00:35:16,305 --> 00:35:18,347 Truth, above all else. 353 00:35:18,681 --> 00:35:21,139 Exactly. Just keep your eyes on me and you'll be fine. 354 00:35:24,265 --> 00:35:25,733 As is traditional, 355 00:35:25,848 --> 00:35:29,901 we end our ceremony with a grade 12 graduation speech. 356 00:35:30,224 --> 00:35:32,901 In this year, that honor will be bestow 357 00:35:33,432 --> 00:35:36,683 to Amadeu de Almeida Prado. 358 00:36:05,436 --> 00:36:07,853 I would not like to live in a world without cathedrals. 359 00:36:09,145 --> 00:36:10,562 I need their beauty and grandeur 360 00:36:10,728 --> 00:36:13,104 against the dirty colors of military uniforms. 361 00:36:16,229 --> 00:36:18,438 I love the powerful words of the Bible. 362 00:36:19,938 --> 00:36:22,021 I need the force of its poetry. 363 00:36:23,230 --> 00:36:26,595 I need it against the decay of language 364 00:36:26,689 --> 00:36:29,272 and the dictatorship of worthless slogans. 365 00:36:32,773 --> 00:36:34,981 But there is another world I do not wish to live in. 366 00:36:37,148 --> 00:36:39,940 A world in which independent thinking is disparaged, 367 00:36:40,565 --> 00:36:43,732 and the finest things we can experience denounced as sin. 368 00:36:44,524 --> 00:36:46,274 A world in which our love 369 00:36:46,608 --> 00:36:50,608 is demanded by tyrants, oppressors and assassin. 370 00:36:51,858 --> 00:36:55,109 And most absurdly, people are exhorted from the pulpit 371 00:36:55,525 --> 00:36:59,359 to forgive these creatures and even to love them. 372 00:37:01,109 --> 00:37:04,318 It is for this reason we cannot just put the Bible aside. 373 00:37:04,985 --> 00:37:06,944 We have to throw it away completely. 374 00:37:07,110 --> 00:37:10,704 for it speaks only of vain holier-than-thou. 375 00:37:12,611 --> 00:37:15,861 In his omnipresent, the Lord observes us day and night. 376 00:37:16,653 --> 00:37:18,945 He takes note of our acts and thoughts. 377 00:37:19,487 --> 00:37:22,029 But what is a man without secrets? 378 00:37:22,904 --> 00:37:25,862 Without thoughts and wishes that he, and he alone, knows? 379 00:37:27,404 --> 00:37:29,238 Does the Lord our God not consider 380 00:37:29,405 --> 00:37:31,988 He's stealing our soul with his unbridled curiosity, 381 00:37:32,280 --> 00:37:34,697 a soul that should be immortal? 382 00:37:36,364 --> 00:37:39,156 But who would in all seriousness want to be immortal? 383 00:37:39,906 --> 00:37:42,073 How boring to know that what happens today, 384 00:37:42,281 --> 00:37:44,656 this month, this year, does not matter? 385 00:37:45,490 --> 00:37:46,990 Nothing would count. 386 00:37:48,282 --> 00:37:51,324 No one here knows what it would be like to live eternally. 387 00:37:51,782 --> 00:37:53,866 And it's a blessing we never will. 388 00:37:55,241 --> 00:37:57,075 One thing I can assure you, 389 00:37:57,700 --> 00:38:01,752 it would be hell, this endless paradise of immortality. 390 00:38:02,742 --> 00:38:04,659 It is death and only death, 391 00:38:05,159 --> 00:38:08,409 that gives each moment beauty and horror. 392 00:38:08,993 --> 00:38:11,545 Only through death is time living thing. 393 00:38:12,451 --> 00:38:14,170 Why does the Lord not noticed? 394 00:38:14,743 --> 00:38:17,160 Why does He threaten us with a... endlessness 395 00:38:17,327 --> 00:38:19,869 that can only be unbearably desolate? 396 00:38:25,620 --> 00:38:27,995 I would not want to live in a world without cathedrals. 397 00:38:28,828 --> 00:38:30,547 I need the luster of their windows, 398 00:38:31,704 --> 00:38:35,412 their cool stillness, their imperious silence. 399 00:38:36,663 --> 00:38:40,882 I need the holiness of words, the grandeur of great poetry. 400 00:38:41,622 --> 00:38:44,966 But just as much I need the freedom 401 00:38:45,122 --> 00:38:48,456 to rebel against everything that is cruel in this world. 402 00:38:49,206 --> 00:38:51,541 For the one is nothing without the other. 403 00:38:52,123 --> 00:38:54,123 And no one may force me to choose. 404 00:39:39,545 --> 00:39:40,754 What do you think? 405 00:39:42,629 --> 00:39:46,421 I though you would deliver a speech in Latin. 406 00:39:48,296 --> 00:39:50,880 But then, only a very few, would understood it. 407 00:40:01,548 --> 00:40:03,298 Are you friends with that boy? 408 00:40:04,381 --> 00:40:06,215 We are the best of friends. 409 00:40:12,257 --> 00:40:14,091 All of those faces, and more, 410 00:40:16,091 --> 00:40:18,175 came to his funeral. 411 00:40:18,591 --> 00:40:21,217 He died on the day of the Revolution. 412 00:40:22,259 --> 00:40:25,592 Oh so, they all brought red carnations. 413 00:40:27,176 --> 00:40:30,635 I dared not speak any words about God 414 00:40:30,885 --> 00:40:35,229 after what Amadeu called "His empty promises." 415 00:40:36,219 --> 00:40:38,010 But I did allow myself... 416 00:40:38,927 --> 00:40:41,344 one religious word. 417 00:40:43,761 --> 00:40:45,053 Amen. 418 00:41:00,555 --> 00:41:02,680 I was very proud of him. 419 00:41:04,014 --> 00:41:06,514 And why did you never tell him, papa? 420 00:41:50,728 --> 00:41:56,228 To this day, I never found out what secret bound those two together, 421 00:41:56,812 --> 00:41:59,572 and what that to do with Amadeu. 422 00:42:09,105 --> 00:42:11,647 - My brother is not here. - I know. 423 00:42:13,147 --> 00:42:14,314 Go away. 424 00:42:14,480 --> 00:42:15,262 I know what happened. 425 00:42:15,263 --> 00:42:18,627 He had an aneurysm. [abnormal widening of an artery] [leading to thin vessel wall] 426 00:42:18,773 --> 00:42:20,241 It's in the book. 427 00:42:22,148 --> 00:42:23,554 How do you live with that? 428 00:42:23,555 --> 00:42:27,858 No one had ever telling him blood vessel could burst, 429 00:42:27,878 --> 00:42:29,899 flooding your brain with blood? 430 00:42:31,191 --> 00:42:34,358 I only found out after when I discovered his writings. 431 00:42:36,608 --> 00:42:38,452 He never told anyone. 432 00:42:39,650 --> 00:42:41,286 Not even me. 433 00:42:41,442 --> 00:42:44,901 I am sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. 434 00:42:46,109 --> 00:42:47,443 No, wait. 435 00:42:50,068 --> 00:42:51,943 Let me show you where he worked. 436 00:43:02,194 --> 00:43:04,070 People came day and night, 437 00:43:05,403 --> 00:43:06,820 to see him, 438 00:43:08,112 --> 00:43:09,497 to be healed. 439 00:43:11,571 --> 00:43:14,529 No one should be in pain, he always used to say. 440 00:43:15,696 --> 00:43:17,821 The door was always opened. 441 00:43:21,488 --> 00:43:23,239 I met João Eça. 442 00:43:23,240 --> 00:43:29,573 He mentioned that Amadeu was in the resistance... 443 00:43:29,594 --> 00:43:32,698 Huh. the resistance... 444 00:43:36,032 --> 00:43:39,574 ... and that he saved Mendes' life. 445 00:43:47,367 --> 00:43:50,409 It was late in the evening. 446 00:43:54,076 --> 00:43:56,034 There were terrible shouts 447 00:43:57,534 --> 00:43:59,201 across the square. 448 00:44:00,701 --> 00:44:01,952 Murderer! 449 00:44:12,703 --> 00:44:13,911 The Police! 450 00:44:24,329 --> 00:44:25,715 We need help! 451 00:44:31,914 --> 00:44:33,466 Get the doctor. 452 00:44:35,789 --> 00:44:37,122 In there! 453 00:44:45,207 --> 00:44:47,665 Amadeu, you need to come, now. 454 00:44:58,792 --> 00:44:59,959 Is this...? 455 00:45:08,376 --> 00:45:10,752 Out. Out! 456 00:45:28,670 --> 00:45:29,837 Adriana. 457 00:46:23,052 --> 00:46:25,302 A traitor. Traitor! 458 00:46:26,417 --> 00:46:26,938 Traitor. 459 00:46:29,928 --> 00:46:31,720 - You are a traitor! - I'm a doctor. 460 00:46:34,053 --> 00:46:35,720 You hear me? A doctor! 461 00:46:36,303 --> 00:46:38,512 You are a traitor! 462 00:47:07,099 --> 00:47:10,933 He sat him down in this very chair and washed his face. 463 00:47:12,058 --> 00:47:13,808 His beautiful face. 464 00:47:15,600 --> 00:47:19,309 After that, people stopped coming. Even Jorge. 465 00:47:19,684 --> 00:47:21,267 That pretty hurt him. 466 00:47:23,851 --> 00:47:24,934 You know of Jorge? 467 00:47:25,248 --> 00:47:27,028 I know they were great friends. 468 00:47:29,226 --> 00:47:32,477 - Why is the world so cruel? - I ask myself that... 469 00:47:32,644 --> 00:47:36,144 - It is if it doesn't care. - God doesn't care. 470 00:47:37,936 --> 00:47:39,978 Amadeu was right about that. 471 00:47:43,770 --> 00:47:45,728 I would like to be alone now. 472 00:47:48,145 --> 00:47:50,906 - May I call on you again? - Why? 473 00:47:53,313 --> 00:47:56,240 His life, his world, was... 474 00:47:58,147 --> 00:48:01,605 ... extraordinary. Makes my seem so insignificant. 475 00:48:07,981 --> 00:48:09,856 - You have cigarettes? - Which brand? 476 00:48:10,378 --> 00:48:11,420 Um... 477 00:48:32,046 --> 00:48:33,484 You brought them? 478 00:48:34,068 --> 00:48:35,391 No, wait, wait. 479 00:48:35,495 --> 00:48:38,485 Everyone here is a spy. Worse than the damn fascists. 480 00:48:38,818 --> 00:48:40,204 We go outside. 481 00:48:43,152 --> 00:48:45,444 You didn't telephone me just to get cigarettes. 482 00:48:45,611 --> 00:48:46,767 I called because... 483 00:48:46,986 --> 00:48:49,705 talking to me let me sleep better, last night. 484 00:48:54,778 --> 00:48:58,591 Amadeu, he never smoked. He's the only one who didn't. 485 00:48:59,071 --> 00:49:01,321 Jorge, he smoked like a chimney. 486 00:49:15,239 --> 00:49:18,823 - Jorge, uh-- is he still alive? - I don't know. 487 00:49:20,907 --> 00:49:25,699 I never talk to him after what happened with Estefânia. 488 00:49:26,574 --> 00:49:28,022 No one knew how to. 489 00:49:28,032 --> 00:49:30,074 It was too personal. 490 00:49:31,741 --> 00:49:33,377 Who is Estefânia? 491 00:49:34,575 --> 00:49:36,992 The woman who remember everything. 492 00:49:37,617 --> 00:49:41,117 That's why they picked me up to get to her. 493 00:49:43,909 --> 00:49:46,285 Lieutenant Nicholas Ribeiro. 494 00:49:48,326 --> 00:49:52,077 Benfica. 28 December. 495 00:49:52,827 --> 00:49:57,661 Telephone, 857-2463. 496 00:49:59,411 --> 00:50:01,411 7th Article. 497 00:50:05,370 --> 00:50:07,579 Captain Carlos Peixe. 498 00:50:09,621 --> 00:50:12,496 Sintra, 47 Rua (street)... 499 00:50:12,497 --> 00:50:13,539 Sh-e-e. 500 00:50:29,915 --> 00:50:30,453 Is that Amadeu de Prado? 501 00:50:30,454 --> 00:50:31,809 Jorge... 502 00:50:33,207 --> 00:50:35,968 - Are you in there? - Let him in. 503 00:50:48,209 --> 00:50:49,876 Why have you been avoiding me? 504 00:50:50,334 --> 00:50:52,584 Everyone else I can understand. But you? 505 00:50:53,001 --> 00:50:54,251 I am not avoiding you. 506 00:50:55,001 --> 00:50:57,845 You are lying, Jorge. We do not lie to each other! 507 00:51:11,503 --> 00:51:13,295 I want to join the resistance. 508 00:51:14,253 --> 00:51:15,920 Because of guilt? 509 00:51:17,879 --> 00:51:19,921 As a doctor, I had no choice. 510 00:51:20,087 --> 00:51:23,421 As a doctor, you should have injected poison into his heart. 511 00:51:24,046 --> 00:51:26,119 Not adrenaline [medical stimulant]. 512 00:51:31,672 --> 00:51:32,964 Sit, Amadeu. 513 00:51:43,632 --> 00:51:45,632 Are you going to introduce me to your friends? 514 00:51:46,507 --> 00:51:47,757 This is João 515 00:51:51,341 --> 00:51:53,967 And this, is Estefânia. 516 00:51:56,884 --> 00:51:58,603 I was going to introduce you sooner but... 517 00:51:58,759 --> 00:52:01,259 the resistance keeps us busy. 518 00:52:02,468 --> 00:52:04,020 Is she beautiful? 519 00:52:13,802 --> 00:52:17,053 What if you first assignment was to kill your father? 520 00:52:26,929 --> 00:52:29,179 - Why? - Because he is a judge. 521 00:52:31,054 --> 00:52:33,096 Part of the fascist regime. 522 00:52:45,598 --> 00:52:49,734 Don't be upset, Amadeu. I was just testing you. 523 00:52:52,724 --> 00:52:56,641 You knew it, straight away. E-- even Jorge would see it. 524 00:52:57,724 --> 00:53:01,943 Estefânia, she was completely drawn to him. 525 00:53:05,100 --> 00:53:06,892 And the names and addresses? 526 00:53:07,059 --> 00:53:11,142 Members of the armed forces sympathetic to our cause. 527 00:53:11,309 --> 00:53:13,934 She had them stock piled in her head 528 00:53:14,393 --> 00:53:16,435 more than 200 names, 529 00:53:16,976 --> 00:53:22,269 waiting for the day we call them, rise up against the fascists. 530 00:53:42,980 --> 00:53:45,605 - May I have my key please? - Of course sir. 531 00:54:11,191 --> 00:54:12,827 Is Miss. de Prado at home? 532 00:54:12,983 --> 00:54:15,567 She asked for you to wait, if you come. 533 00:54:27,152 --> 00:54:29,110 Why you bring back the past? 534 00:54:30,485 --> 00:54:33,611 I want to know how it felt to be Amadeu. 535 00:54:35,486 --> 00:54:36,653 Did you know him? 536 00:54:45,779 --> 00:54:47,654 Amadeu, you must eat. 537 00:54:48,612 --> 00:54:51,905 You need to be strong for your final exams. 538 00:55:12,615 --> 00:55:13,657 Stand up. 539 00:55:20,908 --> 00:55:21,991 Sit down. 540 00:55:22,242 --> 00:55:23,575 Mom come help me. 541 00:55:28,284 --> 00:55:30,201 I have to do this otherwise you will die. 542 00:55:31,159 --> 00:55:32,451 Take your hands away. 543 00:55:34,410 --> 00:55:36,160 Adriana, trust me. 544 00:56:07,747 --> 00:56:09,622 Clotilde, call an ambulance! 545 00:56:11,581 --> 00:56:14,081 The ambulance and the doctor came 546 00:56:14,623 --> 00:56:16,706 and Adiana was rushed to hospital. 547 00:56:24,082 --> 00:56:25,999 You can leave us now, Clotilde. 548 00:56:36,917 --> 00:56:38,792 The doctor said I did the right thing. 549 00:56:45,627 --> 00:56:47,262 Why did you say nothing? 550 00:56:49,335 --> 00:56:51,211 Why do you judge me so? 551 00:56:58,336 --> 00:57:00,420 The intervention is called tracheotomy. 552 00:57:01,045 --> 00:57:03,972 If I hadn't done it, you would have carried her out in a coffin. 553 00:57:10,880 --> 00:57:13,171 I too shall have a cup of tea with you. 554 00:57:16,589 --> 00:57:18,057 So now, you know. 555 00:57:19,964 --> 00:57:22,923 From then on I was indebted to him. 556 00:57:24,131 --> 00:57:26,673 Just as Rui Mendes was indebted to him. 557 00:57:29,048 --> 00:57:30,715 The police knew very well the... 558 00:57:30,882 --> 00:57:32,913 clinic was been used as a cover for the resistance. 559 00:57:33,278 --> 00:57:35,091 They never came and searched. 560 00:57:35,549 --> 00:57:38,154 People would drop off envelopes of money, and... 561 00:57:38,300 --> 00:57:40,758 names, addresses, maps. 562 00:57:43,884 --> 00:57:45,759 And then she would come. 563 00:57:48,717 --> 00:57:50,103 Next. 564 00:57:53,010 --> 00:57:55,687 Why have you not call me? I left messages. 565 00:57:57,510 --> 00:57:59,427 I have something for João. 566 00:58:05,594 --> 00:58:08,970 I have to talk to you. I cannot go on with Jorge. 567 00:58:11,303 --> 00:58:12,554 Leave us. 568 00:58:16,096 --> 00:58:17,565 Adriana, leave us. 569 00:58:21,471 --> 00:58:23,597 Then one night, it-- it all ended. 570 00:58:24,763 --> 00:58:25,847 How? 571 00:58:26,264 --> 00:58:27,764 Something had happened... 572 00:58:27,930 --> 00:58:32,316 I do not know what, except that was the last time I ever saw her. 573 00:58:41,807 --> 00:58:44,651 - There are patients waiting for you. - Send them away. 574 00:58:44,807 --> 00:58:46,526 We do not send patients away?! 575 00:58:46,683 --> 00:58:47,320 Do it now. 576 00:58:47,321 --> 00:58:49,610 If someone comes to the door. Do not answer it. 577 00:58:50,433 --> 00:58:52,308 Switch off the lights. We are not here. 578 00:59:32,230 --> 00:59:34,063 João Eça is at the door. 579 00:59:36,022 --> 00:59:37,147 I'll be back. 580 00:59:47,284 --> 00:59:48,221 Amadeu! 581 00:59:48,940 --> 00:59:50,149 Come. Come in. 582 00:59:54,608 --> 00:59:55,941 Where is she? 583 00:59:57,900 --> 00:59:59,233 Estefânia? 584 00:59:59,400 --> 01:00:01,900 I don't know. She went one way, I went another. 585 01:00:03,317 --> 01:00:06,901 Jorge came to me; the problem is Estefânia. 586 01:00:08,234 --> 01:00:09,703 What do you mean? 587 01:00:10,693 --> 01:00:13,704 He wants... he wants to eliminate her. 588 01:00:15,360 --> 01:00:16,485 What? 589 01:00:18,194 --> 01:00:21,444 He said if they get to her, they'll get the names. 590 01:00:22,736 --> 01:00:24,403 It will be the end of it. 591 01:00:25,153 --> 01:00:27,153 Jorge wants to kill Estefânia? 592 01:00:27,903 --> 01:00:31,237 If she or Jorge come here, call me. 593 01:00:32,404 --> 01:00:35,633 - You understand? - I understand. 594 01:00:36,844 --> 01:00:37,365 Okay. 595 01:00:41,863 --> 01:00:43,155 What a mess. 596 01:00:56,782 --> 01:00:58,365 What are you going to do? 597 01:01:01,407 --> 01:01:04,199 Pack a bag and some food; I am taking the car. 598 01:01:04,408 --> 01:01:06,908 - To where? - Away from here. 599 01:01:09,450 --> 01:01:12,377 - With her? - Of course with her. 600 01:01:13,700 --> 01:01:15,951 No, please no, Amadeu! 601 01:01:16,659 --> 01:01:18,618 I beg you, don't do this thing! 602 01:01:19,451 --> 01:01:21,087 Tell them she's here. 603 01:01:21,493 --> 01:01:24,618 Don't go away with her. I beg you! 604 01:01:25,160 --> 01:01:27,244 Please, don't go! 605 01:01:31,577 --> 01:01:33,078 Do as I say. 606 01:01:35,703 --> 01:01:38,037 Don't do this thing, it's wrong! 607 01:01:39,120 --> 01:01:42,537 Something terrible will happen, I know it will! 608 01:01:47,871 --> 01:01:51,788 He stepped over me. I'll never forget that. 609 01:01:53,288 --> 01:01:55,039 He stepped over me... 610 01:01:56,497 --> 01:01:59,341 like I was... nothing. 611 01:02:46,670 --> 01:02:48,420 Could I have a coffee, please? 612 01:02:51,254 --> 01:02:53,254 Mr. Kagi, its me. 613 01:02:53,879 --> 01:02:56,463 I am sorry I missed your call yesterday. 614 01:02:56,713 --> 01:02:58,588 Don't tell me you are still in Lisbon? 615 01:02:59,505 --> 01:03:01,422 - Yes, I am. - Where are you staying? 616 01:03:01,630 --> 01:03:04,391 Hotel Silva. You wouldn't have heard... 617 01:03:04,547 --> 01:03:06,099 Is it raining in Bern? 618 01:03:06,256 --> 01:03:08,506 I can't keep teaching your class, you have to come back. 619 01:03:09,298 --> 01:03:12,173 You don't come back, I am going to have to get replacement for you. 620 01:03:12,340 --> 01:03:13,673 You want me to do this? 621 01:03:14,256 --> 01:03:17,382 - Perhaps... - I need a "yes" or "no", Raimund. 622 01:03:17,840 --> 01:03:19,924 Mr. Kagi, I have to go. I'm sorry. 623 01:04:38,975 --> 01:04:40,892 Why are you following me? 624 01:04:52,477 --> 01:04:54,112 Where does this come from? 625 01:04:54,310 --> 01:04:56,988 His sister, Adriana, came across his notes. 626 01:04:57,602 --> 01:05:01,144 She put them together in a book. I came across that in Bern, Switzerland. 627 01:05:04,853 --> 01:05:07,062 I want to know what happened to Estefânia. 628 01:05:07,228 --> 01:05:09,312 - Why? - Amadeu is dead... 629 01:05:10,312 --> 01:05:12,812 Adriana does not know. You are the only one who does. 630 01:05:13,271 --> 01:05:15,229 Get the hell out of here! 631 01:05:15,771 --> 01:05:17,021 Get out! 632 01:05:22,522 --> 01:05:25,147 Why has my uncle started smoking again? 633 01:05:25,453 --> 01:05:25,974 What? 634 01:05:27,064 --> 01:05:29,023 The doctor from the nursing home called me 635 01:05:29,189 --> 01:05:32,481 and told me a stranger visited him and brought him some cigarettes. 636 01:05:32,731 --> 01:05:35,315 - But he asked me to bring him... - Are you trying to kill him? 637 01:05:36,065 --> 01:05:37,784 He already has emphysema! [a chronic lung disease] 638 01:05:37,836 --> 01:05:40,274 Yeah, but he enjoys smoking. Why deny him that pleasure? 639 01:05:40,441 --> 01:05:41,910 Because it's bad for him. 640 01:05:42,066 --> 01:05:45,941 So is in that nursing home. Reminds him of being in prison. 641 01:05:50,275 --> 01:05:53,286 - How are your new glasses? - I'm getting used to them. 642 01:05:55,067 --> 01:05:56,734 Would you have dinner with me? 643 01:06:01,402 --> 01:06:03,037 I thought you never ask. 644 01:06:04,694 --> 01:06:07,652 If-- if-- if Jesus had been put to death with a guillotine 645 01:06:07,819 --> 01:06:10,611 we all be praying before a big shiny blade. 646 01:06:11,028 --> 01:06:15,080 Or-- or if He've been electrocuted we will be genuflecting in front of a chair. 647 01:06:18,904 --> 01:06:20,570 But can you really do that? 648 01:06:20,737 --> 01:06:24,873 Nobody dislike to be another person without being the other person. 649 01:06:25,029 --> 01:06:28,821 You can "imagine" what it's like to be that other person. 650 01:06:29,530 --> 01:06:33,155 "Imagination is our last sanctuary." That's one of his lines. 651 01:06:33,572 --> 01:06:37,197 There he also said, "Intimacy is our last sanctuary." 652 01:06:38,406 --> 01:06:40,323 You remember the lines verbatim. 653 01:06:40,573 --> 01:06:43,198 Uh that's figure they-- they mean something to me. 654 01:06:43,740 --> 01:06:46,834 Poor Estefânia, she-- she remembered everything, 655 01:06:46,990 --> 01:06:49,241 even trivial things -- numbers, names, 656 01:06:49,407 --> 01:06:51,699 phone numbers, addresses... 657 01:06:52,158 --> 01:06:54,491 To have a memory like that must drive me mad. 658 01:06:56,700 --> 01:06:58,252 Sorry, I am going on. 659 01:07:00,075 --> 01:07:01,950 I haven't talked as much as this for years. 660 01:07:02,013 --> 01:07:04,951 No, no. I'm fascinated... 661 01:07:07,951 --> 01:07:11,327 May I ask you how long you have been on you own? 662 01:07:12,368 --> 01:07:14,004 Five and a half years. 663 01:07:14,410 --> 01:07:16,869 But before that, you spoke to you wife? 664 01:07:17,077 --> 01:07:18,463 Yes... 665 01:07:19,369 --> 01:07:19,630 but it... 666 01:07:20,869 --> 01:07:22,953 usually landed me in trouble. 667 01:07:23,245 --> 01:07:24,578 What kind of trouble? 668 01:07:24,870 --> 01:07:27,370 Well, we threw a party to our colleagues... 669 01:07:28,037 --> 01:07:29,620 well... our friends. 670 01:07:30,412 --> 01:07:34,152 And she found this quote from Pessoa [Fernando Pessoa, a Portuguese poet]: 671 01:07:35,329 --> 01:07:41,664 "Fields are greener in their description than their actual greenness." 672 01:07:42,247 --> 01:07:43,997 And somebody said, "Ow that's a beautiful sentence." 673 01:07:44,060 --> 01:07:47,956 I said, "Yes, but, only a very few people would ever understand it." 674 01:07:49,414 --> 01:07:54,936 And there was-- terrible silence, and then she said, my wife... 675 01:07:55,499 --> 01:07:59,999 She said, "And I suppose you are one of the chosen few?" 676 01:08:03,041 --> 01:08:05,416 So, that was the end of that party. 677 01:08:07,375 --> 01:08:08,844 But you were right. 678 01:08:09,000 --> 01:08:13,584 Yes, but-- it-- was arrogance of me. Stupid marriage. 679 01:08:14,209 --> 01:08:17,303 And is that why she left you, because of your arrogance? 680 01:08:17,459 --> 01:08:21,960 No. I think she left me because she found me... 681 01:08:24,544 --> 01:08:25,794 boring. 682 01:08:31,086 --> 01:08:34,377 We are still in touch. She called the other day, 683 01:08:34,962 --> 01:08:37,212 she wanted me to move my books out of the garage, 684 01:08:37,379 --> 01:08:40,087 because her new boyfriend wanted somewhere to park his car. 685 01:08:43,087 --> 01:08:45,171 Don't know why I am telling you all of these. 686 01:08:52,839 --> 01:08:56,652 - Would you like to dance? - No, I can't. I can't dance. 687 01:08:59,340 --> 01:09:00,465 You see? 688 01:09:01,965 --> 01:09:03,173 Boring. 689 01:09:11,258 --> 01:09:12,466 Thank you. 690 01:09:13,925 --> 01:09:15,310 I enjoyed that. 691 01:09:15,466 --> 01:09:18,841 Raimund, you are not boring. 692 01:09:21,759 --> 01:09:24,051 My uncle would like to see you again. 693 01:09:24,801 --> 01:09:26,718 Would you take him some cigarettes? 694 01:09:48,720 --> 01:09:51,095 - Jorge is still alive. - You went see him? 695 01:09:51,511 --> 01:09:53,429 Still running the same pharmacy. 696 01:09:53,595 --> 01:09:56,013 Smoking cigarette while he serves his customers. 697 01:09:57,055 --> 01:09:59,513 - You brought some? - Yes I did. 698 01:10:02,597 --> 01:10:05,691 Estefânia was in the house when I was there? 699 01:10:05,847 --> 01:10:08,056 She found them together in his study. 700 01:10:09,723 --> 01:10:11,890 No wonder he lied to me... 701 01:10:12,057 --> 01:10:17,703 because you know, he never lied. He could not tolerate dishonesty. 702 01:10:17,766 --> 01:10:20,349 What had happened earlier that night? 703 01:10:20,766 --> 01:10:23,725 Jorge's place become too small, 704 01:10:23,891 --> 01:10:28,934 and so we hired a room in an old warehouse for our meetings. 705 01:10:29,350 --> 01:10:35,309 We pretended it was a literacy class. Estefânia's idea. 706 01:10:37,185 --> 01:10:38,737 We were so naive... 707 01:10:39,101 --> 01:10:41,310 Nuno, Beleza the railways. 708 01:10:41,477 --> 01:10:43,060 The numbers you will call are: 709 01:10:43,227 --> 01:10:48,394 Lisbon, 642-3518, 710 01:10:48,769 --> 01:10:50,436 contact name, Leonardo; 711 01:10:50,728 --> 01:10:56,437 Port, 235-5900, contact name, Julius. 712 01:10:57,229 --> 01:11:01,062 The signal to take over will come from Radio Renaissance now. 713 01:11:01,229 --> 01:11:04,355 It will be the song that was banned. The song by... 714 01:11:11,730 --> 01:11:15,564 - Excuse me. Are you lost? - Is this the literacy class? 715 01:11:16,439 --> 01:11:20,065 Yes, we were just finishing. Please take a seat. 716 01:11:24,149 --> 01:11:30,649 Most letters have more than one pronunciation except the letter "X", 717 01:11:31,316 --> 01:11:34,160 and we'll explain that in more detail next week. 718 01:11:34,608 --> 01:11:36,192 Thank you all. 719 01:11:41,692 --> 01:11:44,484 What is a professor of music doing here? 720 01:11:46,360 --> 01:11:49,152 I met someone who cannot read 721 01:11:49,985 --> 01:11:53,631 I wanted to see for myself what kind of course it was, 722 01:11:53,694 --> 01:11:55,736 before recommending it. 723 01:11:57,611 --> 01:11:59,903 What is this person's name? 724 01:12:00,861 --> 01:12:04,070 Um-- ur-- Caspian. 725 01:12:05,570 --> 01:12:07,362 How original... 726 01:12:08,404 --> 01:12:11,696 Seat down, all of you! Nobody leaves this room! 727 01:12:27,073 --> 01:12:28,490 Out. Out! 728 01:13:04,286 --> 01:13:05,494 Give me your gun. 729 01:13:06,327 --> 01:13:07,494 What for? 730 01:13:07,869 --> 01:13:10,370 We have to do what is right for the resistance. 731 01:13:11,536 --> 01:13:14,578 - What happened to the others? - Estefânia and Amadeu they got away. But... 732 01:13:15,120 --> 01:13:17,620 they gonna find her and then she will talk. 733 01:13:19,079 --> 01:13:22,871 The others they don't know much. But Estefânia, she knows everything. 734 01:13:25,121 --> 01:13:26,997 What are you talking about? 735 01:13:28,288 --> 01:13:30,164 You want to kill Estefânia? 736 01:13:30,165 --> 01:13:32,475 No. No, no. 737 01:13:32,581 --> 01:13:34,998 I don't want to, but I have to. 738 01:13:35,873 --> 01:13:39,206 One life for many lifes. Give it to me. 739 01:13:40,915 --> 01:13:42,498 João, give it to me. 740 01:13:45,207 --> 01:13:48,166 I never find out what really happened. 741 01:13:48,958 --> 01:13:50,249 Did he tell you? 742 01:13:50,416 --> 01:13:54,375 No. When I asked him, he tell me to-- get lost. 743 01:13:57,250 --> 01:14:01,636 I need to know, I can't tell you how many time I wish 744 01:14:01,792 --> 01:14:04,376 I never have given him that gun. 745 01:14:08,502 --> 01:14:12,377 Three days later, Rui Mendes he picked me up. 746 01:14:14,294 --> 01:14:17,836 He broke my hands and my spirit, 747 01:14:18,836 --> 01:14:22,378 but I never give him one single name. 748 01:14:24,003 --> 01:14:28,504 You-- you-- you tell that to Jorge. He knows me. 749 01:14:33,963 --> 01:14:37,297 "Youth, we live as if we were immortal." 750 01:14:38,130 --> 01:14:40,974 "Knowledge of mortality dances around us..." 751 01:14:41,131 --> 01:14:44,839 "like a brittle paper ribbon that barely touches our skin." 752 01:14:46,506 --> 01:14:49,715 "When in life does that change?" 753 01:14:51,423 --> 01:14:53,424 "When does the ribbon tighten..." 754 01:14:54,049 --> 01:14:57,007 "until finally it strangles us?" 755 01:15:06,717 --> 01:15:08,009 Mr. Kagi? 756 01:15:08,509 --> 01:15:10,384 Have you made a decision yet? 757 01:15:13,551 --> 01:15:14,635 No. 758 01:15:15,010 --> 01:15:19,635 A woman came asking for you. She said she met you on a bridge, or something. 759 01:15:20,844 --> 01:15:22,427 A Portuguese woman? 760 01:15:22,844 --> 01:15:25,011 I told him where you were but she left. 761 01:15:25,719 --> 01:15:28,136 If you decide not to come back, I need your keys. 762 01:15:28,803 --> 01:15:31,387 - Would you post them to me? - No, this woman... 763 01:15:32,220 --> 01:15:33,772 Did-- did she leave her name? 764 01:15:34,262 --> 01:15:35,345 No. 765 01:15:36,095 --> 01:15:37,564 Goodbye, Mr. Kagi. 766 01:16:14,017 --> 01:16:16,434 João Eça want to know what happened to Estefânia. 767 01:16:18,100 --> 01:16:19,601 He says you owe him. 768 01:16:19,767 --> 01:16:22,226 I owe no one anything. 769 01:16:27,102 --> 01:16:29,060 You know what they did to his hands? 770 01:16:31,352 --> 01:16:34,977 Those hands that used to play Mozart? He didn't give them one name. 771 01:16:35,644 --> 01:16:38,020 If he had, you wouldn't be standing here. 772 01:16:38,186 --> 01:16:41,520 You think you can blackmail me with guilt? 773 01:16:41,687 --> 01:16:44,145 You don't know who you are dealing with! 774 01:16:47,271 --> 01:16:51,271 Could I haven't killed her? That is the question! 775 01:16:55,397 --> 01:16:59,397 Don't you know we don't talk about-- about the resistance here? 776 01:16:59,605 --> 01:17:03,023 We bury our history and move on! 777 01:17:07,690 --> 01:17:09,190 You want a drink? 778 01:17:15,274 --> 01:17:18,035 You are sitting where Amadeu used to sit, 779 01:17:18,191 --> 01:17:21,118 until this thing with Mendes happened, then we... 780 01:17:24,817 --> 01:17:27,025 We have the list of reasons for loyalty: 781 01:17:27,567 --> 01:17:29,984 guilt towards others, 782 01:17:31,193 --> 01:17:34,443 shared suffering, common struggle, common strength, 783 01:17:34,651 --> 01:17:37,777 weakness, need for closeness, 784 01:17:39,402 --> 01:17:42,079 common hatred, shared humor, and so on. 785 01:17:45,153 --> 01:17:47,830 - What about love? - He didn't believe in it. 786 01:17:47,986 --> 01:17:50,487 Avoided the word as too sentimental. 787 01:17:50,737 --> 01:17:53,299 There are only 3 things that are important to him: 788 01:17:54,029 --> 01:17:56,873 desire, pleasure and security. 789 01:17:58,654 --> 01:18:00,071 Desire... she is Jewish. 790 01:18:03,488 --> 01:18:05,988 I don't trust people who don't drink. 791 01:18:14,739 --> 01:18:16,156 Have a cigarette. 792 01:18:33,533 --> 01:18:34,742 You are okay? 793 01:18:36,425 --> 01:18:36,946 Yeah. 794 01:18:38,242 --> 01:18:41,118 - João still loves to smoke? - He would. 795 01:18:47,660 --> 01:18:51,327 The night after we graduated from Coimbra University, 796 01:18:51,494 --> 01:18:54,619 me as a pharmacist, Amadeu was a doctor. 797 01:19:02,120 --> 01:19:05,246 - What? - Come, I have something to show you. 798 01:19:22,164 --> 01:19:23,414 What do you think? 799 01:19:26,290 --> 01:19:28,332 So? It's a-- it's a pharmacy. 800 01:19:28,498 --> 01:19:30,749 Yes... It's yours. 801 01:19:36,916 --> 01:19:38,083 Come in. 802 01:19:46,667 --> 01:19:49,834 I need a pharmacist I can trust if I am going to be writing up prescriptions. 803 01:19:51,293 --> 01:19:52,460 Here. 804 01:19:59,252 --> 01:20:02,419 I could not believe what he given me. 805 01:20:04,961 --> 01:20:08,878 After that I never thought we could lose our friendship. 806 01:20:11,712 --> 01:20:13,837 I never thought it possible. 807 01:20:16,962 --> 01:20:20,057 One not much to look as, I know I'm an ugly bastard. 808 01:20:20,255 --> 01:20:22,838 So, when she came along... 809 01:20:25,130 --> 01:20:27,005 God, she was beautiful 810 01:20:28,214 --> 01:20:32,266 I thought some of her would somehow rub off on me. 811 01:20:34,298 --> 01:20:36,673 At least that is what I think I thought. 812 01:20:40,924 --> 01:20:44,174 And this is Estefânia. 813 01:20:46,299 --> 01:20:48,258 Was going to introduce you, but... 814 01:20:48,508 --> 01:20:50,675 The resistance keeps us busy. 815 01:20:53,383 --> 01:20:54,884 Isn't she beautiful? 816 01:21:02,510 --> 01:21:05,968 It was the way she took my hand and removed it from her neck. 817 01:21:07,385 --> 01:21:09,844 Her eyes penetrating him... 818 01:21:10,010 --> 01:21:13,261 We'll think about it, Amadeu, and get back to you. 819 01:21:14,616 --> 01:21:15,241 Alright? 820 01:21:21,554 --> 01:21:23,887 Perhaps we can use your clinic as a drop. 821 01:21:30,305 --> 01:21:32,430 Why did you take my hand off your neck? 822 01:21:33,805 --> 01:21:35,274 Did I? 823 01:21:43,806 --> 01:21:45,931 Have you ever been in love? 824 01:21:46,890 --> 01:21:50,099 So that not even food matters. Not even words. 825 01:21:51,807 --> 01:21:55,308 - I am not sure. - You would be sure. Your would know. 826 01:21:57,558 --> 01:21:59,110 You always know. 827 01:22:00,725 --> 01:22:03,309 - You thinking of him. - What? 828 01:22:19,310 --> 01:22:21,186 You wished I was Amadeu. 829 01:22:27,061 --> 01:22:29,020 Does he mention me in the book? 830 01:22:31,437 --> 01:22:32,687 A lot. 831 01:22:33,562 --> 01:22:37,188 And I am surprise she published it. Adriana hated me. 832 01:22:37,354 --> 01:22:41,146 Wanted him for herself, even not even want to share him with her father. 833 01:22:41,688 --> 01:22:43,438 You know what happened to him? 834 01:22:43,439 --> 01:22:44,481 No. 835 01:22:45,064 --> 01:22:46,782 A few months before the revolution, 836 01:22:46,939 --> 01:22:50,856 he went to Amadeu who endorsed for stronger pain killer for his back. 837 01:22:51,981 --> 01:22:54,992 Adriana came every week to the pharmacy for the pills. 838 01:22:55,148 --> 01:22:57,773 But he never took them; he hoarded them. 839 01:22:58,899 --> 01:23:02,649 A week after Amadeu died, he swallowed over one hundred. 840 01:23:03,774 --> 01:23:07,525 The newspapers said he died there after a long illness... 841 01:23:08,566 --> 01:23:11,192 Catholics don't appreciate suicide. 842 01:23:15,901 --> 01:23:17,026 Everyone out! 843 01:23:24,943 --> 01:23:26,360 Estefânia, come with me. 844 01:24:33,702 --> 01:24:36,952 If I had the gun then I might have shot her. 845 01:24:45,286 --> 01:24:46,755 And when you got the gun? 846 01:24:48,287 --> 01:24:50,745 I went strict to Amadeu's clinic. 847 01:24:52,787 --> 01:24:54,662 I knew they would be there. 848 01:24:59,163 --> 01:25:01,247 - Where are they? - They've gone. 849 01:25:01,913 --> 01:25:04,164 - Don't lie to me... - They've gone, Jorge. 850 01:25:47,335 --> 01:25:48,721 Give me the gun. 851 01:26:43,467 --> 01:26:47,468 Estefânia, is she-- is she still alive? 852 01:26:50,885 --> 01:26:54,552 I bumped into her two years ago. 853 01:26:54,885 --> 01:26:58,844 She was here attending some seminar, or... 854 01:27:01,261 --> 01:27:03,386 I asked her how she was. 855 01:27:06,053 --> 01:27:08,262 She told me she was teaching history. 856 01:27:08,887 --> 01:27:10,012 Where? 857 01:27:10,304 --> 01:27:13,262 At the University of Salamanca, Spain. 858 01:27:16,429 --> 01:27:18,430 And, your pharmacy... 859 01:27:20,388 --> 01:27:23,930 Why do you leave the lights on at night? 860 01:27:29,098 --> 01:27:31,306 To remind me of Amadeu. 861 01:28:26,938 --> 01:28:28,896 Mr. da Silva, can I have my bill please? 862 01:28:29,396 --> 01:28:32,814 - Are you going back to Switzerland, sir? - Yes, via Spain. 863 01:28:33,689 --> 01:28:37,158 They say weather right now in Switzerland is terrible 864 01:28:37,210 --> 01:28:39,231 rain, snowing, wind... 865 01:28:39,398 --> 01:28:41,315 I have to go. Could I have my bill please? 866 01:28:41,815 --> 01:28:43,065 Excuse me. 867 01:28:48,315 --> 01:28:49,441 Hello! 868 01:28:52,316 --> 01:28:55,608 I want to thank you for what happened on the bridge. 869 01:28:57,608 --> 01:29:00,859 - I've been reading your book. - I don't want it. 870 01:29:03,359 --> 01:29:05,943 I just want to thank you for what you did. 871 01:29:10,443 --> 01:29:12,110 I got your coat. 872 01:29:16,610 --> 01:29:18,246 You left it behind. 873 01:29:24,361 --> 01:29:25,653 Tell me your name. 874 01:29:30,737 --> 01:29:32,404 Catarina Mendes. 875 01:29:34,779 --> 01:29:35,988 Yes... 876 01:29:37,530 --> 01:29:39,165 that Mendes. 877 01:29:41,905 --> 01:29:44,947 I am the granddaughter of the "Butcher of Lisbon". 878 01:29:47,823 --> 01:29:51,281 I didn't know who we was until I read the book. 879 01:29:53,615 --> 01:29:56,032 You can't blame yourself for what you grandfather did... 880 01:29:56,199 --> 01:29:57,449 You don't understand. 881 01:30:01,699 --> 01:30:03,449 I loved him. 882 01:30:05,116 --> 01:30:07,283 I cried at his funeral... 883 01:30:07,492 --> 01:30:11,575 And I did not understand why so many other people were not crying. 884 01:30:16,993 --> 01:30:18,545 Anyway... 885 01:30:20,118 --> 01:30:24,421 it will take some time, but I learned to live with this. 886 01:30:37,162 --> 01:30:39,662 This would be the same road they took. 887 01:30:40,287 --> 01:30:43,621 But at night, and in great danger. 888 01:30:44,538 --> 01:30:45,923 And in love. 889 01:30:50,788 --> 01:30:53,330 I was moved to see my uncle cry like that. 890 01:30:53,789 --> 01:30:57,331 I don't know what pleases him more. The news that Estefânia is still alive, 891 01:30:57,498 --> 01:30:59,873 or, got the cigarettes we gave him. 892 01:31:05,290 --> 01:31:08,134 So, you are returning to your school and continue teaching? 893 01:31:10,499 --> 01:31:11,916 If they'll have me. 894 01:31:14,833 --> 01:31:16,875 I am sure I'll come back and visit. 895 01:31:39,628 --> 01:31:41,263 Are you sure she'll be in? 896 01:31:42,878 --> 01:31:45,639 She said she'll be here... Are you coming? 897 01:31:46,378 --> 01:31:47,931 I'll wait in the car. 898 01:31:53,796 --> 01:31:56,380 Go Raimund. I'll be fine here. Take your time. 899 01:32:00,463 --> 01:32:01,880 Welcome Raimund. 900 01:32:04,506 --> 01:32:07,350 - I'm Estefânia. - Thank you so much for meeting me. 901 01:32:09,381 --> 01:32:10,798 You have the book? 902 01:32:12,007 --> 01:32:13,340 I do. 903 01:32:20,758 --> 01:32:23,008 He only looks just as I remember him. 904 01:32:23,841 --> 01:32:26,602 So long ago and still so here... 905 01:32:27,758 --> 01:32:30,384 - Would you like some tea? - Thank you! 906 01:32:31,467 --> 01:32:32,936 What about your friend? 907 01:32:33,092 --> 01:32:35,770 Only she is, um, she is happy in the car. 908 01:32:36,259 --> 01:32:42,218 I joined the resistant after my father was arrested in 1971, for sabotage. 909 01:32:44,094 --> 01:32:48,146 They sent him to Tarrafal. You have heard of it? 910 01:32:48,147 --> 01:32:48,876 Yes. 911 01:32:51,595 --> 01:32:55,470 It was also known as the "Campo da Morte Lenta", "The Camp of the Slow Death". 912 01:33:00,054 --> 01:33:02,596 It took them two years to kill him. 913 01:33:03,971 --> 01:33:05,971 And that is how I met Jorge. 914 01:33:07,138 --> 01:33:11,222 I need someone strong. Someone to protect me. 915 01:33:12,847 --> 01:33:14,931 I thought that was love. 916 01:33:18,139 --> 01:33:19,692 But then I met Amadeu... 917 01:33:28,932 --> 01:33:31,391 A new light fell on everything. 918 01:33:32,933 --> 01:33:36,392 My whole life. 919 01:33:38,559 --> 01:33:40,559 I could not sleep any more. 920 01:33:42,309 --> 01:33:45,018 I went to the clinic as often as I could... 921 01:33:46,351 --> 01:33:48,768 despite Adriana's look. 922 01:33:51,227 --> 01:33:55,394 He wanted to take me in his arm but he kept rejecting me. 923 01:33:55,561 --> 01:33:59,863 "Jorge", he would say, "What about Jorge?" I began to hate Jorge. 924 01:34:01,645 --> 01:34:03,978 - Do you mind if I smoke? - No. Please. 925 01:34:05,979 --> 01:34:08,145 Jealousy is a terrible emotion. 926 01:34:45,108 --> 01:34:49,463 I could tell from his shoulders he had seen us. 927 01:34:49,734 --> 01:34:53,203 Awful... awful. 928 01:34:54,984 --> 01:34:58,693 But in a way I was relieved it was done. 929 01:35:01,027 --> 01:35:03,194 Are you sure your friend is alright? 930 01:35:03,360 --> 01:35:05,611 Oh yes. She is fine in the car. 931 01:35:07,194 --> 01:35:08,986 We drove through the night. 932 01:35:10,986 --> 01:35:13,487 Amadeu kept questioning me. 933 01:35:14,153 --> 01:35:16,945 Was he searching for me or for life? 934 01:35:17,862 --> 01:35:21,654 He wanted to know everything my whole life, like, 935 01:35:22,071 --> 01:35:23,946 memories, 936 01:35:24,905 --> 01:35:28,697 thoughts, fantasies, dreams... It was relentless. 937 01:35:29,239 --> 01:35:32,906 It was almost a relief when 5 km from the border 938 01:35:33,072 --> 01:35:35,448 he stopped and hid me in the trunk. 939 01:35:49,949 --> 01:35:51,116 Passport. 940 01:36:11,827 --> 01:36:15,494 - Why are you traveling to Spain? - I am going to visit relatives. 941 01:36:17,536 --> 01:36:19,005 Get out of the car, please. 942 01:36:48,373 --> 01:36:49,456 Keys. 943 01:36:53,832 --> 01:36:56,166 Do you know Major Rui Luís Mendes of PIDE? 944 01:36:56,916 --> 01:36:58,166 What about him? 945 01:37:00,333 --> 01:37:03,427 I want you to call him. I have his home number. 946 01:37:05,083 --> 01:37:07,667 I want you to tell him your are treating me like a criminal. 947 01:37:24,669 --> 01:37:26,388 He wants to talk to you. 948 01:37:34,212 --> 01:37:36,254 This is Dr. Amadeu de Prado. 949 01:37:37,004 --> 01:37:39,004 You are asking too much of me. 950 01:37:39,546 --> 01:37:43,171 You took my life away from me. I want it back now. 951 01:37:46,130 --> 01:37:48,214 Give the phone back to my man. 952 01:37:55,381 --> 01:37:59,517 Ironic that I should ultimately be saved... 953 01:37:59,798 --> 01:38:01,601 by the Butcher of Lisbon. 954 01:38:10,174 --> 01:38:11,425 That night... 955 01:38:13,633 --> 01:38:16,727 we drove to Finisterra and slept in the car. 956 01:38:56,972 --> 01:38:58,524 Don't go away. 957 01:39:00,722 --> 01:39:02,556 We'll take a ship to the Amazon 958 01:39:03,014 --> 01:39:05,639 to a new world only you and I existed. 959 01:39:09,765 --> 01:39:11,098 I write books... 960 01:39:12,265 --> 01:39:16,485 we invent a new language that only you and I understand. 961 01:39:21,016 --> 01:39:23,517 We go up the river as far as it takes us. 962 01:39:26,934 --> 01:39:29,017 Back in time and into the future. 963 01:39:30,351 --> 01:39:32,184 The very beginning of the end. 964 01:39:33,601 --> 01:39:35,351 What would I do? 965 01:39:36,768 --> 01:39:38,810 You'll share it with me. 966 01:39:41,477 --> 01:39:45,863 The same air, the same feelings, same tastes... 967 01:39:50,186 --> 01:39:51,905 Things that you want... 968 01:39:52,978 --> 01:39:55,437 you want them for yourself, not for me. 969 01:39:56,062 --> 01:39:57,854 I want them for both of us. 970 01:39:58,979 --> 01:40:01,688 He was hungry for me, and for life. 971 01:40:04,230 --> 01:40:07,772 But the journey he wanted to take was into his own soul 972 01:40:07,939 --> 01:40:09,230 not into mine. 973 01:40:22,107 --> 01:40:24,191 I cannot do it, Amadeu. 974 01:40:27,733 --> 01:40:29,149 What do you mean? 975 01:40:30,400 --> 01:40:33,410 You want more than I can ever give. 976 01:40:35,692 --> 01:40:37,328 And I'm not ready. 977 01:40:43,276 --> 01:40:44,776 I'm so sorry... 978 01:41:07,446 --> 01:41:09,165 I have friends in Salamanca. 979 01:41:11,155 --> 01:41:13,071 Will you take me to them? 980 01:41:19,114 --> 01:41:21,156 He drove me to Salamanca... 981 01:41:24,156 --> 01:41:25,948 he shook my hand, 982 01:41:27,448 --> 01:41:30,574 he wished me well and left. 983 01:41:36,491 --> 01:41:38,825 The next I heard, he was dead. 984 01:41:42,367 --> 01:41:44,784 I always thought I killed him. 985 01:41:47,159 --> 01:41:50,451 - He had an aneurysm. - An aneurysm? 986 01:41:51,159 --> 01:41:53,951 A blood vessel burst in his brain. 987 01:41:53,952 --> 01:41:54,682 He... 988 01:41:55,201 --> 01:41:56,452 He had it for a long time. 989 01:42:04,786 --> 01:42:07,661 Did you go to his funeral? 990 01:42:23,580 --> 01:42:27,039 You didn't really think I would do it, did you? 991 01:42:29,789 --> 01:42:31,706 It is no longer important. 992 01:42:56,292 --> 01:42:57,813 So what happened to the 993 01:42:58,292 --> 01:43:02,043 names and telephone numbers you had in you head? 994 01:43:03,460 --> 01:43:04,626 Lisbon 995 01:43:05,210 --> 01:43:09,262 331-4518, contact name, Carlos; 996 01:43:10,335 --> 01:43:15,503 Sintra, 245-102, contact name, Nuno... 997 01:43:16,545 --> 01:43:19,920 I wrote them all down and passed them on to someone safe. 998 01:43:21,420 --> 01:43:25,004 A few months later they were used to initiate the revolution. 999 01:43:27,796 --> 01:43:30,723 Your friend must be very tire of waiting. 1000 01:43:36,172 --> 01:43:38,964 - You can keep the book if you like. - Thank you. 1001 01:43:39,714 --> 01:43:43,298 And probably more ready for him now than I was back then. 1002 01:43:44,881 --> 01:43:47,507 - Goodbye, Raymund. - Goodbye, Estefânia. 1003 01:44:07,384 --> 01:44:11,968 "We leave something of ourselves behind when we leave a place," 1004 01:44:13,468 --> 01:44:17,093 "we stay there, even though we go away." 1005 01:44:18,594 --> 01:44:22,011 "And there are things in us that we can find again..." 1006 01:44:23,053 --> 01:44:24,719 "only by going back there." 1007 01:44:26,220 --> 01:44:29,262 "We travel to our souls when we go to a place..." 1008 01:44:29,970 --> 01:44:32,262 "that we have covered a stretch of our life," 1009 01:44:32,512 --> 01:44:35,012 "no matter how brief it may have been." 1010 01:44:43,597 --> 01:44:44,763 This is me. 1011 01:44:48,681 --> 01:44:50,514 Well, we still got... 1012 01:44:52,806 --> 01:44:54,358 5 minutes. 1013 01:44:56,307 --> 01:44:58,025 Thank you for... 1014 01:45:00,765 --> 01:45:03,141 telling me I wasn't boring. 1015 01:45:09,100 --> 01:45:11,100 But when I think of their lives, 1016 01:45:12,934 --> 01:45:15,184 Amadeu, Estefânia, the others, 1017 01:45:15,350 --> 01:45:19,809 their lives full of such vitality, 1018 01:45:20,184 --> 01:45:23,496 - intensity... - So much so it broke them apart in the end. 1019 01:45:23,497 --> 01:45:24,987 But they lived. 1020 01:45:29,394 --> 01:45:30,977 Whereas my life... 1021 01:45:36,145 --> 01:45:38,270 apart from these last few days... 1022 01:45:43,729 --> 01:45:46,354 And now you are going back to it. 1023 01:45:59,189 --> 01:46:01,231 Oh, why don't you just stay? 1024 01:46:03,106 --> 01:46:04,356 What? 1025 01:46:05,857 --> 01:46:08,273 Why don't you just stay?