《找尋自我》前情提要 Previously on "Finding Carter"...
親愛的 你看起來可不好啊 Baby, you do not look at all well.
一切都在我控制之下 I've got it under control.
你知道結局會是如此 You knew eventually it would come to this.
必須說出真相 The truth has to come out.
這是麥迪遜 This is Madison.
她是我之前的...朋友 She's my friend from back there.
記得你和洛莉一起的時候嗎 Remember back with Lori?
你可以去任何你想去的地方 You could come and go whenever you wanted.
沒人能對你指手畫腳 Nobody was telling you what to do.
-你不懷念那樣嗎 -想 - Don't you miss that? - Yeah.
看來我是盡量不去想吧 I guess I just try not to think about it.
可她卻無時無刻不在想你啊 Well, she thinks about you all the time.
-你怎么知道 -我一直和她有聯絡 - How do you know that? - I've been talking to her.
我不想分開 I don't want to be apart.
我們之間很愉快 We had a really great thing going.
我們現在該和好 We should have it again.
你愛她 你倆是天生一對 You love her. You two are so good together.
我在想一些事 I've been thinking about something.
想你為什么感覺沒變好 About why you're not feeling any better.
我覺得是因為洛莉 I think it's about Lori.
因為她是我們的生母 About her being our biological mother.
我沒法生育 I couldn't get pregnant.
我們開始尋找卵子捐贈者 And we decided to look for an egg donor.
他們選擇了我 They chose me.
洛莉告訴我們了真相 Lori told us the truth,
然后一切都開始分崩離析 and then things just started to fall apart.
比如麥克斯 爸爸和媽媽 Like with Max and Mom and Dad.
我討厭她是我的媽媽 I hate that she's my mother.
求求你 別對我們關上心門 Please don't shut us out.
沒事了 It's okay.
是洛莉的事 It's about Lori.
她想要自殺 She tried to kill herself.
早上好 Morning.
-早上好 -要咖啡嗎 - Good morning. - Coffee?
謝謝 Thank you.
卡特下樓了嗎 Carter come down yet?
沒有 No.
她沒睡 She didn't sleep.
她的燈一晚都開著 Her light was on all night.
每次我以為我們終于擺脫了洛莉時 Every time I think we're finally done with Lori,
她總有辦法鉆回我們的生活 she manages to find a way to worm her way back into our lives.
是的 Yes, she does.
但我很擔心卡特 But I'm worried about Carter
還有她昨晚為什么不想說 and why she didn't want to talk last night.
她可能很震驚 She's probably in shock.
不行 對不起 No, I can't, I'm sorry.
不 我已經決定了 No, look, I've made up my mind.
好 拜拜 Okay. Bye.
是誰啊 Who was that?
洛莉的醫生 Lori's doctor.
他想要我去跟他見面 He wants me to come and meet him.
-為什么 -因為這種事發生后 - Why? - Because they always try
他們總是想跟家人談談 and talk to the family after something like this happens.
她其實不算你的家人 Well, she's not really our family.
我知道 泰勒 Yeah, I know, Taylor.
他說的不是這個 That's not what he was saying.
那他說了什么 Well, then what was he saying?
我覺得很簡單 卡特 I think it's pretty simple, Carter.
她瘋了 一直都是 She's insane. She always has been.
好吧 Okay, yeah, well.
我覺得不只是這樣 I think there's a little more to it than that.
你不會去吧 You're not going, are you?
不 我約了麥克斯 No, I made plans with Max.
一切都不正常時 跟他聊天總是好的 He was always good to talk to when nothing made sense.
是啊 他最好了 Yeah. Yeah, he's the best.
回頭見 All right. I'll see you later.
卡特 Hey, Carter.
媽媽外婆和我今晚要去鄉村俱樂部 Mom and Grandma and I are doing that charity thing
參加慈善晚宴 at the country club tonight.
你會去嗎 Will you be there?
嗯 Oh, um... yeah.
那里見 See you there.
瞧瞧誰來了 Look who's here.
怎么了 你的表情像是有人死了 What's the matter? You look like someone died.
還沒死 Not quite.
那是什么意思 What does that mean?
洛莉企圖自殺 Lori tried to kill herself.
-什么 -他們及時找到了她 - What? - They found her in time.
我不明白 I don't understand.
她之前沒事 我還以為她好轉了 She was fine, I thought she was doing better.
-你跟她聊過了嗎 -沒有 我也不打算 - Have you talked to her? - No, and I'm not going to.
-為什么 -因為我不要 - Why not? - Because I'm not getting
又卷入她的鬧劇 sucked into her drama again.
她就想這樣 That is exactly what she wants.
她顯然是生病了 She's obviously sick.
說真的 如果她得了癌癥 你會拋棄她嗎 Seriously, if she had cancer, would you abandon her?
這不一樣 你知道的 That is not the same thing, and you know it.
這根本不能相提并論 You can't even compare those two.
顯然這是精神疾病 It's obviously mental illness.
你們表現得好像她可以控制一樣 You guys act like she has control over this.
我知道她做過糟糕的事情 Look, I know she's done awful things,
我明白 但是... I get that, but...
她可能死掉 I mean, she could have died,
而你表現得像是根本不在乎 and you're acting like you wouldn't have even cared.
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找尋自我 第二季 第九集
這不是個好主意 It's not a good idea.
-什么 -你去見洛莉 - What? - You going up there to see Lori.
麥迪遜不知道這么多年來 Madison doesn't know what it's like
被欺騙是什么感覺 to be lied to for all those years.
不止是因為麥迪遜說的話 It's not just about what Madison said.
卡特 我知道洛莉對你的意義 Carter, I know how much Lori meant to you.
你不欠她什么 You don't owe her anything.
她不是你的責任 She's not your responsibility.
醫生只是想問我一些問題 好嗎 Look, the doctor just wants to ask me some questions, okay?
也許我可以告訴他有所幫助的事情 Maybe I could tell him something that would help her.
我懂 I get that.
你會帶我去嗎 Would you take me?
如果你真想去的話 If that's what you want.
我真想去 Yeah, that's what I want.
我家里怎么搞的跟要辦選美比賽一樣 Why does it look like a beauty pageant blew up in my house?
募捐啊 今天下午鄉村俱樂部 Um, fundraiser? Charity fundraiser at the country club
有慈善募捐 還記得嗎 this afternoon, you remember?
我真給忘了 I completely forgot.
最近我有點忙 Well, it's been a little nuts around here.
泰勒說那個瘋子又興風作浪了 Taylor told me that crazy has reared her head yet again?
那個女人到底在想什么 I mean, what was that woman thinking?
你能想象做出那種事嗎 Can you imagine doing something like that?
-幸好不能 -你們絕不會相信的 - Thankfully, no. - You guys are never gonna believe this.
-什么 -麥克斯剛給我打電話了 - What? - Max just called me.
他和卡特正在去 He and Carter are on their way
精神病院的路上 想去跟洛莉的醫生談談 to the mental hospital to talk to Lori's doctor.
不會吧 今早我跟卡特談過 What? No, I talked to Carter this morning.
她根本沒想過要去 She wasn't even thinking about doing that.
她這不去了嗎 Well, now she is.
語音信箱 Voicemail.
卡特 是我 Carter, it's me.
聽到留言后給我打電話好嗎 Please, when you get this, will you call me?
我很擔心 I'm worried.
-你爸爸呢 -去辦公室了 - Where's your dad? - He went to the office.
親愛的 很抱歉 我今天 Honey, I am so sorry, but I don't think that
-不能參加募捐了 -什么 - I can do this today. - What?
-我可是協會會長 -我明白 - I'm chair of the committee. - I understand that,
但我覺得我們該去找卡特 but I think that we need to go up there and be with Carter.
-很抱歉 -不 - I'm sorry. - No.
不 洛莉無權這樣 No, Lori doesn't get to do this.
不能她每次做什么瘋狂的事 She doesn't get to stop our lives
我們的生活就被她打亂 every time she does something crazy.
她說的對 否則我們就中她的計了 She's right-- otherwise, we're just playing right into her hands.
但我們關心的不是洛莉 But this isn't about Lori.
而是卡特 This is about Carter.
卡特沒喊你一起去啊 Carter didn't ask you to come.
甚至都沒告訴你她要去 She didn't even tell you she was going.
媽 對不起 我... Mom, I'm sorry, I just...
我許下了承諾 我不會 I made a commitment, and I'm not gonna
因為那個瘋女人讓大家失望 disappoint people because of something this crazy woman did.
說得對 You're right.
說得很對 You're absolutely right.
對不起 I'm sorry.
你今天很美 You look beautiful.
謝謝 Thanks.
卡特 Carter.
卡特 Carter...
沒事 媽媽在 It's okay, Mommy's here.
那是什么 What are those?
她的信 Her letters.
她差不多一周給我寫兩次信 She's been writing me, like, twice a week.
信上都寫些什么 What do they say?
不知道 我沒看過 I don't know, I never open them.
我不知道 大衛 或許你該去找她 I don't know, David. Maybe you should go after her.
麗茲 我覺得這樣處理不行 Liz, I don't think that's the way to handle it.
我們都了解卡特 如果她沒有 We both know Carter, and if she didn't
找我們一起去 肯定是因為 ask one of us to go, it's because she...
她想自己處理 wants to handle it on her own.
我就是不懂那個醫生以為 I just don't get what that doctor thinks
她能告訴他什么 that she can tell him.
我跟他談過 他覺得卡特去會有好處 I spoke to him, and he thinks it will help.
他關心的是洛莉 又不是卡特 Well, his priority is Lori, not Carter.
不是 他好像誰都關心 No. He seemed concerned for everyone.
如果他關心卡特 If he was concerned about Carter,
就不會讓她過去了 he would never have asked her to go up there.
我去過那種地方 大衛 I've been to those places, David.
-太可怕了 -有麥克斯陪她 - They're horrible. - She's with Max.
不會有事的 She'll be all right.
洛莉不配擁有她 Lori doesn't deserve her.
麗茲 我知道你擔心 但她會回來的 Liz, I know you're afraid, but she's coming back.
她是我們的女兒 She's ours.
你我兩個人的 Yours and mine.
如果我哪怕給她回一次信 If I'd have written back even once,
她或許就不會自殺了 she might not have done this.
卡特 她本來就有精神問題 No, Carter, she's in an institution.
洛莉自殺不是你的責任 You can't hold yourself responsible for Lori hurting herself.
但我該給她回信的 Yeah, but I should have answered her.
你跟她之間發生了那么大的事 Well, you went through a huge ordeal with her.
應該給你時間好好消化的 And you're allowed time to figure that out.
是 但我根本沒花時間去消化 Yeah. Except I didn't take any time to figure it out.
而是直接塞進抽屜里 想不了了之 I shoved it all the way in a drawer to cope with later.
你跟她一起生活了十三年 13 years you've lived with her,
期間卻一直被蒙在鼓里 and you had no idea what was really going on.
自殺是她自己的選擇 Hurting herself was her choice.
跟你沒任何關系 Nothing you did made her do it.
卡特 Carter.
卡特 Carter...
卡特 寶貝 醒醒 Carter, baby. Wake up.
媽咪 怎么了 Mommy, what's wrong?
我剛才做了個噩夢 I just had a really bad dream.
夢到我們倆在一大群人當中 I dreamed that we were in a huge crowd of people,
我很擔心把你弄丟 and I was afraid I lost you.
不會的 我在這里呢 No. I'm right here.
對 你在 Yeah. Yes, you are.
好端端的在我面前 You're right here. Good as gold.
抱歉把你叫醒 Oh, I'm sorry I woke you up.
沒事 媽咪 抱歉你做噩夢了 It's okay, Mommy. I'm sorry you had a bad dream.
大廳對面有位女士 It's just that there's this lady across the hall,
就是那天給你糖吃的那位 you know, the one that gave you candy the other day?
我覺得她不對勁 There's something about her.
她看我們的樣子讓我... The way she watches us just makes me...
讓我有點害怕 makes me a little scared.
我覺得我們是時候離開這里了 So I think it's time to leave this place.
又要搬家嗎 We're gonna move again?
是呀 我們... Yeah. Yeah, we're gonna--
我們要離開這個只有一家星巴克的小鎮 We're gonna blow this one-Starbucks town.
這樣吧 在我告訴你我們要去哪之前 And you know what? Before I tell you where we're headed,
我們先玩個小游戲 we're gonna play a little game.
-什么游戲 -這個游戲中 - What game? - We're gonna play a game
我們要只花二十分鐘 in which we only have 20 minutes
收拾好所有要帶的東西 to pack everything we're gonna take with us.
-馬上嗎 -記住規則 - Right now? - And know this.
裝不進這個手提箱的東西 Anything that can't fit in the suitcase
都得通通丟掉 has to stay behind for good.
快點 準備 開始 Come on, set, go!
快 快 Go, go, go!
你沒事吧 Are you okay?
我只是希望這時候去參加選美不算太糟 I just wish the timing of this pageant wasn't so bad.
我覺得我媽媽真的氣瘋了 I think Mom's really freaking out.
那你覺得怎么樣 Yeah, how are you doing, hmm?
我沒事啊 Oh, I'm fine.
除了洛莉的精神問題之外 I have more important things to worry about
我還有更重要的事要操心呢 than Lori's mental problems.
這是在開玩笑吧 This is a joke, right?
媽媽 那也太... Mom, that is so...
如果你想說的是"淫蕩" 我表示同意 If the word you're looking for is "Slutty," I agree.
我不要穿這個 I'm not wearing this.
開玩笑吧 你看上去美極了 Oh, you're kidding. You look fantastic.
請一定...讓我去開門 By all means, let me get it.
-進來吧 -謝謝 - Come on in. - Thank you.
問問他覺得怎么樣 Ask him what he thinks.
怎么了 What's up?
我家邊上最近新開了 There's this great new Thai restaurant
一家不錯的泰國餐館 that just opened up in my neighborhood,
所以我想著我們過會能一起去吃晚餐 so I was thinking we could have dinner later.
我想對你說點事 There's something I want to talk to you about.
凱爾 對不起 今天晚上不行 Oh, Kyle, I'm sorry, but this isn't a good night.
我有很多事 卡特也... I have a lot going on, and Carter...
說來話長 well, it's a long story,
而且我現在有點忙 and I'm a little bit wrapped up at the moment.
麗茲 你來嗎 Liz, are you coming?
不管我多想去做點其它事 No matter how much I'd rather be doing anything else.
沒關系 You know what? It's okay.
咱們可以下次去吃 We could just do it another time.
來把衣服換了吧 Alterations now, please?
那咱們以后再說 So, we'll talk soon?
行 沒問題 Yes. Definitely.
還有... And, yeah,
我想看到你穿著這裙子光芒四射的樣子 someday I would love to see that dress in all of its glory.
沒有回你嗎 No answer?
感覺糟透了 我只想去道歉 I feel bad, I just want to apologize.
你會的 You will.
卡特不是那種記仇的人 Carter's not the type to hold a grudge.
我就是討厭聽到他們說洛莉壞話 I just hated hearing them badmouth Lori.
我也不知道 小麥 I don't know, Mad.
兩起綁架案 加上自殺 Double kidnapping, suicide?
我有點覺得她活該變成這樣 I'm kind of thinking it's well-deserved.
-我也不知道了 -什么意思 - I don't know anymore. - What do you mean?
她派我過來的 She sent me here.
洛莉 我是說 Lori-- I mean,
她要我來見卡特 she asked me to come to see Carter,
所以我才會突然出現 and that's why I showed up out of nowhere.
我以為你來是因為父母把你趕出來了 I thought you came because your parents kicked you out.
沒錯 They did.
我告訴洛莉的時候 是她... And when I told Lori, she's the one who...
叫我過來的 她說... told me to come, she said that...
卡特和我能一起找到住處 Carter and I could find a place together,
我覺得她只是想讓我 and I think she was just trying to get me
引誘卡特離開威爾遜一家 to lure Carter away from the Wilsons.
那真是太狠了 That is diabolical.
然后她問我 Then she asked if I could
能不能讓卡特原諒她 convince Carter to forgive her.
我只是覺得可能被她利用了 I just feel like I might have been used.
我覺得說不定該把這件事告訴卡特 I think that's maybe something that Carter should know.
我知道 我會告訴她的 I know, I'm gonna tell her.
我沒想到洛莉會做到這種程度 I didn't think that Lori would go this far.
我真的以為是在幫她 I honestly thought that I was helping her.
我有個主意 Well, I have an idea.
今晚我爸媽的鄉村俱樂部有場晚宴 There's an event tonight at my parents' country club.
然后呢 Yeah?
泰勒好像是什么 And Taylor's on a committee
慈善時裝秀委員會的一員 for some charity fashion show or something,
卡特也會去 and Carter's gonna be there.
我們也該去 We should go.
這是要干什么 What's that for?
這個會吸走 This is gonna suck
胳膊上讓你 all that mean little bee poison
疼痛無比的小蜜蜂毒液 that hurts so much right out of your arm.
怎么會呢 How?
我也不知道怎么會 I don't know how it works.
反正就是有效果 It just does.
瞧 現在感覺不是好多了嗎 See? Doesn't that feel better already?
好點了 但要是還有別的蜜蜂呢 A little, but what if there's another bee?
我就會把它們趕走 Well, that's where I come in.
不管有多少蜜蜂 I will always take care of you
我都會保護你的 我保證 no matter how many bees there are, I promise.
我也是 Me too.
你也是什么 You too what?
我也會一直保護你的 媽媽 I'll always take care of you, Mommy.
你沒事吧 You okay?
沒事 Yeah.
我老是想起以前的事 I keep remembering things.
我覺得她一直都有問題 麥克斯 I think she was sick all along, Max.
她這一輩子 Like, her whole life.
我們要告訴醫生 這很重要 It's important to tell the doctor that.
可能會有幫助 It might help.
卡特嗎 Carter?
我是福克斯醫生 I'm Dr. Fox.
我覺得我想見見她 I think I'd like to see her.
能告訴她我來了嗎 Could you let her know I'm here?
你確定想這樣嗎 Are you sure this is what you want?
我必須見她 麥克斯 I have to, Max.
別再讓她影響你了 Don't let her mess with you anymore.
不會的 我保證 No, I won't, I promise.
見到她之后呢 Do you know what you want out of this?
不知道 No.
可麥克斯 是她把我養大的 But Max, that woman raised me.
她是我人生很大的一部分 She's such a huge part of who I am.
如果她真的自殺 Look. If she had actually killed herself
而我再也見不到她 and I had never seen her again,
我只知道我后半輩子都會在想 I just know I would spend the rest of my life wondering
當初為什么不至少試著幫她 why on Earth I didn't at least try and help her.
你能明白嗎 Please, can you understand that?
我明白 Yeah, I can.
真的 And I do.
你不清楚她現在的情況 You don't know what condition she's in,
所以自己一定要當心 好嗎 so you gotta look out for yourself, okay?
好的 Okay, look.
不如我們先和醫生聊幾句 Let's just talk to the doctor.
如果他認為我不該去 我就不去 我保證 If he doesn't think I should go in, then I won't, I promise.
好 Okay.
好盛大啊 This is a big deal.
太夸張了嗎 Too much?
不不 很好 No, no, it's great.
我們該去發型和化妝師那排個隊 We should get on the list for hair and make-up.
我喜歡做事有條不紊 You know, I do not want a rush job.
我得再打一次電話給卡特 還有大衛 Well, I have to call Carter again and David,
而且有杯酒喝就更好了 and a drink would not be the worst idea.
這里肯定有香檳 I'm sure there's some champagne around here somewhere.
香檳可不夠 Yeah, that's not gonna cut it.
親愛的 我去去就回 Honey? I'll be right back.
-好的 -好的 - Okay, great. - Great, okay.
她才來了三秒鐘 She was here for three seconds.
不錯啊 Nice digs.
歡迎來到西橡樹俱樂部 Welcome to West Oak.
富人和事逼的游樂場 Playground to the rich and judgmental.
你倆真是讓人耳目一新 You two are a refreshing sight.
我不知道你們今天在這工作 Oh, I didn't know you were working today.
你們好像雙胞胎 太可愛了 You guys look like twins, that's cute.
你這話說得真是言不由衷啊 You say that like you don't really mean it.
錯 其實我很喜歡穿制服的男生 Wrong. I actually love men in uniform.
就算是滌綸制服嗎 Even a polyester one?
我叫麥迪遜 和她一起來的 I'm Madison. I'm with her.
-他叫達蒙 -你們看到卡特了嗎 - This is Damon. - Have you guys seen Carter?
沒看到 不過她應該會來的 No, no. She'll probably show up, though.
這募捐是泰勒辦的 Taylor put this whole thing together.
好 那來點炸魷魚和兩杯含羞草雞尾酒吧 All right. How about, uh, calamari and two Mimosas?
炸魷魚沒問題 I got you on the calamari,
但新來的經理把酒鎖得非常嚴 but the new manager has the alcohol on high security lockdown.
-什么 -顯然 - What? - Apparently...
下班后有人一直 someone's been pilfering
從吧臺里順手牽羊 the liquor from behind the bar after hours.
那就是我 Yeah, that'd be me.
好樣的 Damn.
達蒙真是深藏不露啊 Damon shows some hidden depth, okay.
那我們就來點炸魷魚和兩杯果汁吧 We'll have a calamari and two mixers, then.
年輕人 年輕人 Young man? Young man.
我們還在等菜單呢 We're waiting on our menus.
-救救我 -救救我們吧 - Save me. - Save us.
佩服吧 So, are you impressed?
現在周圍都是老奶奶和熊孩子 We're surrounded by grandmas and screaming children.
沒錯 Oh, yeah.
看來鄉村俱樂部里聊我爸媽八卦 Looks like the country club gossip about my parents
聊得正歡呢 is in full swing.
什么 在哪 What? Where?
-不重要了 -當然重要 - Doesn't matter. - Yeah, it does.
你們有事嗎 Can we help you?
我也覺得沒有 Yeah, I thought so.
謝謝你 Thank you for that.
很遺憾你爸媽讓你遭人閑話 I'm sorry your parents left you in the line of fire.
謝謝 我已經習慣了 Thanks, but I'm used to it.
我明白那種突如其來的孤兒感受 Yeah, I get the whole unexpected orphan gig.
當我爸媽發現我是拉拉時 他們明確表示 When my parents found out I was gay and made it clear
不會支持我 that they didn't support me,
沒人理我 I had no one.
除了洛莉 Well, I mean, except Lori.
她對你很好吧 She was nice to you, huh?
是的 所以很難 Yeah, that's why it's hard.
現在我不知道該想什么 I don't know what to think now.
老實說 我碰到的大人都讓我失望 To be honest, I've never met an adult who hasn't let me down.
個個皆是 Not one.
也許所以命運讓我們倆相遇吧 Maybe that's why fate brought us together.
為了舒緩這些打擊 To soften the blow.
我好奇卡特在哪 I wonder where Carter is.
她說了很多你的事 She talks about you a great deal.
我想能見到你 對她會有幫助的 I think it would be helpful for her to see you.
-她怎么樣了 -我們一直密切關注她 - How's she doing? - We're keeping a close eye on her.
她的情況穩定 情緒平靜 She's stable. Resting.
把她送來精神病院不就是為了 I thought the whole point of putting her in a mental facility
讓她好轉嗎 怎么會這樣呢 was to help her get better-- how does this happen?
我們讓她接受了一種新的藥物療法 We put her on a new regimen of meds,
當藥物發揮效用時 and as those drugs do their work,
會慢慢地平衡她大腦里的化學物質 smoothing out the chemical imbalance in her brain,
她開始明白自己生活的新現實 she's come to understand a new reality of her life.
有時會讓她難以應對 That sometimes can be overwhelming.
我要提醒你 I want to warn you.
她的脖子上有些瘀傷 There's some bruising on her neck,
我們給她注射了輕度鎮定劑 and she's on a mild sedative,
所以看起來可能有些憂郁 so she may seem a bit cloudy.
好 Okay.
我在這等你 I'll be right here.
你不該來的 You shouldn't have come.
我想來 Well, I wanted to.
你能看著我嗎 Would you please look at me?
我說真的 I mean it.
我不想你來 I don't want you here.
可能你不想我來 Well, you might not want me here,
但我想來 but I wanted to be here.
你從沒給我回過信 You never answered any of my letters.
為什么現在出現 Why show up now?
因為我擔心你 Because I am worried about you.
你為什么要傷害自己 Why did you try and hurt yourself?
我早該這么做了 I should have done it a long time ago.
別這么說 Don't say that.
為什么 現在他們對我進行藥物治療 Why? Now they've got me on meds.
一切都開始變得清晰 It's all becoming very clear.
事實上 這么久以來我第一次 In fact, for the first time in a very, very long time,
看清了所有事情 I am seeing everything...
就像剛從噩夢中醒來 like I just woke up from a bad dream.
好吧 這或許是好事 Okay. Well, maybe that's a good thing.
好事嗎 我環顧四周 Good thing? I look around,
看到的全是對那么多人造成的傷害 and all I see is the hurt I have caused to so many people.
最重要的是 對你的傷害 Most importantly, you.
人都會犯錯 Everybody makes mistakes.
這不意味著你不值得再活下去 That doesn't mean your life isn't worth living.
你說得好像我只是不小心 You make it sound like I accidentally
忘了關洗澡水一樣 left the bathtub running.
我知道我做了什么 I know what I did,
我現在只想你離開 and now all I want is for you to go
繼續過好自己的生活 and move on with your life
然后盡力忘記我因為自私 and try to forget that I stole 13 years of it
而偷走了你十三年的光陰 from you for my own selfish reasons.
大衛 幫幫忙 Listen, David, do me a favor,
你要是接到她電話了就告訴我好嗎 and will you let me know if you hear from her?
好 拜 Okay, bye.
-要續杯嗎 威爾遜夫人 -加布 - Need a refill, Mrs. Wilson? - Oh, hey, Gabe.
不用了 Uh, no.
有這杯酒 再加上一肚子火 This one and a good pout,
我已經飽了 and I should be fine.
我爸說以前我媽要我吃蔬菜的時候 My dad tells me that I was an Olympic level pouter
我的火氣能沖上天 when my mom would try to get me to eat my veggies.
有用嗎 And did that work?
估計沒用 My guess is no,
但我真記不得了 but I don't really remember.
是不是很想你媽媽 Think about your mom a lot?
是 很想 Yeah. I do.
我喜歡時不時提起她 I like to talk about her sometimes.
是啊 Yeah.
所以你等下要和我爸出去嗎 So you're going out with my dad later?
不 我得回家見卡特 No, I have to be home and see Carter.
他有說自己為什么想出去嗎 Oh, did he tell you why he wanted to go out?
沒有 為什么 No. Why?
他打算把房子賣了 He's selling our house.
我覺得他想試探一下你 I think he wants to put out a few feelers, you know,
看你會不會想和他一起找地方住 see if you'd think about getting a place with him.
那你怎么想的 Um, how do you feel about that, then?
把你們房子賣掉 Selling your house?
我無所謂 I don't mind it.
我媽去世很久了 My mom's been gone a long time.
關鍵是我覺得他主要是為了你 Problem is that I think he's mostly doing it for you.
希望你準備好了考慮進一步計劃 I think that he wants you to be ready for something more serious.
在我看來 From where I'm standing,
你可能準備好了 也可能沒有 maybe you are, and maybe you aren't.
情況非常復雜 Things are very complicated.
是啊 生活哪里不復雜呢 Yeah, well, most everything in life is,
但如果兩個人想在一起 but the people who want to be together
他們會排除萬難的 tend to make it work,
所以我覺得 so I'm just saying,
所謂的復雜情況 maybe the whole complicated thing is...
或許只是借口 just an excuse.
你們好啊 我不知道你們要來 Hey. I didn't know you guys were coming.
我們決定來捧場 We decided to support the cause.
而且 這也是我的逃犯父母 Plus, it's one of the few places
為數不多的還有信用的地方 my outlaw parents still have credit.
不錯 Nice 'do.
要參加選美走秀嗎 Joining the pageant circuit?
有意思 你們有卡特的消息嗎 Funny. Have you guys heard from Carter?
沒有 你呢 我還以為她會來 Uh, no. Have you? I thought she was coming.
她本來是要來的 Well, she was supposed to be here.
結果卻去了精神病院 Yeah, but instead, she went to the mental hospital.
她去了 去見洛莉嗎 She did? To see Lori?
不 是去和醫生談 No. To talk to the doctor.
無所謂了 Whatever.
我得去找我媽 I have to find my mom.
她快崩潰了 She's next to get shellacked.
卡斯特羅小姐 今天過得好嗎 Miss Castro. How are you today?
挺好的 你怎么樣 查德 I am wonderful. How are you, Chad?
很抱歉我要告訴你一個不好的消息 Actually, I'm afraid I have some unfortunate news.
你下午來這后我查了一下 I take it from your presence here this afternoon,
你不知道你父母的會員證 you weren't aware that your parents'
已被暫時吊銷了吧 membership has been suspended.
什么 怎么回事 What? Why?
你在開玩笑吧 You're kidding, right?
不好意思 你哪位 I'm sorry, who are you?
她是我外孫女 That's my granddaughter.
查德 有什么問題嗎 What seems to be the problem, Chad?
馬歇爾夫人 我在跟這幾位姑娘 Mrs. Marshall, I was just discussing
討論會員資格的問題 membership guidelines with these young ladies.
她父母沒有支付費用 Her parents haven't paid the piper.
對 我聽說了 Oh, right, I heard about that.
沒關系 我們本來就不該來 這就走 That's fine, we shouldn't've come, we'll just leave.
-別走 -我受令 - No, no. - I was instructed
要求她們離開 to ask them to move along.
那就讓她們去我那桌 Well, they will, to my table.
她們是我的客人了 They'll be my guests.
姑娘們 你們在這好好玩 Um, you girls make yourself comfortable over there
有問題找我 and let me know if you have any more problems,
當然我不希望再有問題 是不是 查德 which I really don't anticipate them having, do you, Chad?
當然 Of course not.
阿嬤 Gammy.
我... Look, I...
無法想象你一個人在這里有多孤單 I can't imagine how alone you must feel in here.
很抱歉沒來看你 沒給你回信 I'm so sorry I didn't visit or write you back.
我該回的 I should've.
我很高興你沒回 I'm glad you didn't.
我需要在沒有你的時間里 I needed time away from you
來認清事實 to be able to see the truth.
好吧 洛莉 Okay-- Lori?
沒錯 Yes.
這一系列錯誤我們每個人都脫不了干系 Mistakes have been made by everybody involved,
但并不代表你的整個人生是個錯誤 but your whole life hasn't been a mistake.
我的整個童年都是與你度過的 We had a life together, my whole childhood.
那不是錯誤 That wasn't a mistake.
不 是錯誤 Yes, it was.
因為我沒有權利那么做 Because I had no right to it.
我不是你媽媽 I was not your mom.
不 你是 Yes, you were.
你那時候就是我媽媽 Back then, you were my mom.
知道嗎 你有些地方做得很好 And you know what? You did some things right.
你對我那么好 那么愛我 You are so kind and so loving.
確實 現在一切都不同了 And yes, everything is really different now.
但以前的事我都記得 But I still remember all that stuff.
你該走了 卡特 You need to leave, Carter.
不 我不走 No, I'm not gonna leave.
我要一個人靜一靜 你走 I need to be alone, go away.
-別說這種話好嗎 -讓我靜靜 - Would you please stop saying that? - Leave me alone--
-求你了 -卡特 - I am begging you. - Carter,
我想洛莉需要休息 I think Lori needs to rest.
我愛你 I love you.
你更愛我 And you love me more.
告訴我你更愛我 Tell me you love me more.
卡特 走吧 Carter, please.
你聽到了嗎 Did you hear that?
她剛剛說她愛我 She said she loved me.
說我是她媽媽 She said I was her mom.
醫生也聽見了 The doctor heard her say it.
我就知道她會來 I knew she would come.
我就知道她愛我 I knew she loved me.
我只想問她一些事 Look, I just need to ask her something.
你總讓我跟她溝通 這很重要 You always let me talk to her, and it's important.
我不明白她為什么不回我電話 I don't understand why she's not calling me back.
我跟你說過了 麥迪遜 I told you, Madison,
她正在72小時觀察中 she's on a 72-hour watch.
不過她讓我告訴你 她一切都好 But she told me to tell you she's all right.
會聯系你的 She'll be in touch.
好吧 Okay.
對了 我很醫生談過了 Oh, so I spoke to the doctor,
卡特見過洛莉了 現在正趕回來 and Carter saw Lori, she's on her way back.
太好了 Good.
多謝你告訴我 Thank you for telling me.
她們見面了嗎 Wait, she saw her?
我以為她只是去和醫生談談 I thought that she was just going to talk to the doctor.
真不敢相信 她應該由我們陪著一起去 This is unbelievable. She should have been here with us.
寶貝 這不是她的錯 Honey, it's not her fault.
不 我沒責怪她 No, I'm not blaming her.
都怪那個女人 It's that woman.
每次我們想要 Every time we try and have
回歸正常生活 some kind of normal life,
她就會把卡特拉走 and she has to pull Carter away.
我討厭她 I hate her.
我真希望... I wish that...
希望什么 What?
我希望她自殺能成功 I wish she'd done a better job.
我才不在乎跟她有沒有血緣關系 I don't care if I do have her blood.
我希望她死 I wish she was dead.
真的 I do.
走秀要開始了 Okay, the show's about ready to start.
準備好了嗎 Are we ready?
不 媽媽 我們還沒準備好 No, Mom, actually, we're not.
不 我們準備好了 No, we are.
她休想把這個也搞砸 She's not gonna mess this up, too.
媽媽 Mom?
我們好了 We're ready.
真帥 Whoa, nice.
是你自己打的嗎 Did you tie that yourself?
直接別上去的 Yeah, it's a clip-on.
我怎么不知道你還對時裝秀感興趣 Didn't know fashion shows were your thing.
伊麗莎白貌似對這個很為難 Yeah, well, Elizabeth seemed pretty bummed about doing it
所以我來給她點精神支持 so I figured she could use some moral support.
她貌似已經有支持了 Looks like she already has some.
我肯定他是為了泰勒來的 I'm sure he's here for Taylor.
話別說這么滿 她請你來的嗎 Don't be so sure. Did she ask you to come?
小子 我教你一招吧 Let me give you a little advice, son.
別等著女人告訴你她想要什么 Don't wait for a woman to tell you what she wants.
要猜她們的心思 Anticipate their needs.
這點你一定得信我 Trust me on this one.
好了 酒保小哥 來瓶啤酒吧 Now, bartender, how about a beer?
沒問題 You got it.
來兩瓶吧 Actually, make it two.
晚上好 西橡樹俱樂部 Good evening, West Oak.
我要去找個桌子 I'm gonna go find a table.
我們很高興 We are so pleased.
-來一瓶吧哥們 -謝謝 - Here you go, man. - Oh, thanks.
坐吧 Uh, pull up a chair.
下面請欣賞 三代風華 So I present to you, Generations.
第6屆"三代風華"時裝秀
我們聊聊吧 Can we talk?
沒事的 It's okay.
別這樣 卡特 會沒事的 Come on, Carter, it's gonna be okay.
好啦 You're okay.
來 Come here.
過來 抱抱 Come here, come here.
沒事了 It's okay.
沒事了 Come on.
你還好嗎 Are you okay?
不好 你呢 Not really, are you?
不好 No.
我怎么能讓這種事發生 How the hell could I have let this happen?
你也不想的 You didn't let it happen.
就這么發生了 It just happened.
天啊 我真恨自己 God, I hate myself.
別這么說 Don't go there.
怎么說 麥克斯 How, Max?
我怎么能不這么說 How can I not go there?
這不是明智決定 It was a bad move.
但這不是你自己干的 But you're not alone in this.
還有我 I was there, too.
你愛泰勒 麥克斯 You love Taylor, Max.
我知道你愛 I know you do.
不管她現在愿不愿意承認 And whether or not she's willing to admit it right now,
我都知道她也愛你 I know she loves you, too.
最糟的就是這里 And that's the worst part.
我明知道她也愛你 卻又只想到了自己 I know she loves you, too, and I put myself first, again.
你在經歷的這些事真的不容易 You were going through something that was really difficult.
不 麥克斯 行了 別幫我找借口 No, Max. Stop. Don't make excuses for me.
這是我的決定 This was my decision.
我果然還是和我爸媽一個德行 I guess the apple really doesn't fall far from the tree.
聽著 小泰 你出去之前 Um, listen, Tay, before you go out there,
我想跟你聊聊你之前說的那些話 I wanted to talk to you about what you said earlier.
我真的搞不懂 Listen, I can't make any sense
卡特和洛莉之間到底怎么回事 of what's happening with Carter and Lori.
我只知道 All I know is that,
不論好壞 卡特都和她有感情 for better or worse, Carter has an attachment to her,
如果我想做卡特的好媽媽 and if I'm gonna be a good mother to Carter,
比洛莉好得多的媽媽 better than Lori could ever be,
我就得學會接受 I have to learn to accept it.
我們就得學會接受 We have to learn to accept it.
不管我們有多想那女人消失 No matter how much we want that woman to disappear,
她都不可能的 she's not going to.
她是卡特生活的一部分 She's part of Carter's life.
在她的心里 She's in her heart.
我們沒辦法阻止 And there's nothing we can do to stop it.
我不知道該怎么幫她 I don't know how to help her.
不知道她要什么 I don't know what she needs.
親愛的 Oh, baby.
我也不知道該怎么幫她 I don't know how to help her, either.
大明星 Hey, superstar.
有時間見見粉絲嗎 You got a minute for a fan?
我以為會給你驚喜的 驚喜嗎 I thought I'd surprise you, so surprise.
你真貼心 That's sweet.
我在想我們今晚可以 So I was thinking maybe we could high-tail it
溜回我家去 知道嗎 back to my place tonight, you know,
除非你還有什么超贊的續攤派對要去 unless you got some sort of A-list after-party to go to.
我還是有些事想跟你說 I'd still like to talk to you about something.
凱爾 Kyle.
我很想去 但是不行 I'd love to, but I can't.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
天啊 真難以置信 My god, that was unbelievable...
天啊 你看到艾弗莉太太了嗎 Oh, my God, did you see Mrs. Everly?
我還以為她要在 I thought she was gonna have a stroke
舞臺上中風了 right there on the runway.
你干嘛還要去那里 What is with you still hanging out there, anyway?
不知道 我爸媽總去 I don't know, it was my parents' place,
我以前還小 and I was a kid there.
是啊 那些東西很難放棄 Yeah, it's hard to let go of that stuff.
就算我爸媽對我那么爛 I mean, as lousy as they've been to me,
我有時還是會想他們 I do miss my parents sometimes.
真遺憾卡特沒來 I'm sorry Carter didn't show.
是啊 但愿她沒事 Yeah, I hope she's okay.
明早一醒我就打她電話 I'll call her first thing tomorrow morning.
不過你得承認 今天挺有趣的 You have to admit, today was fun, though.
史上最精彩的貴婦午餐會 Best "ladies who lunch" date ever.
我還有點希望這不是玩笑 I kind of wish it wasn't a joke.
真的 For real.
我是說 我... Well, I mean, I just..
這是每個女生都想去的約會 It's the kind of date that every girl wants to go on.
有時髦衣服 有鬧劇 還有查德 We had fashion, drama, Chad.
如果這真是一場約會 Well, if it was a real date,
我們最后可能還會接吻 we would probably kiss in the end.
卡特 Carter.
我們要談談這事 We should talk about this.
我們能就忘了它嗎 Can we please just forget about it?
你還沒睡 You're still up.
是的 我在等你 Yeah, I waited for you.
真的嗎 Really?
這是干什么 What was that for?
為了今天 That was for today.
我該更支持你的 I should have supported you more.
不該光攻擊洛莉 Not just attacked Lori.
小泰 沒事的 Oh, Tay, it's fine.
我知道 I get it.
你不喜歡她 You're not exactly a fan.
那無所謂 Doesn't really matter.
有所謂的是你需要我 What matters is that you needed me,
而我不在 and I wasn't there.
泰勒 沒事的 Taylor, it's fine.
說實話 我... Honestly, I...
直到到了那里 才知道自己是 I didn't even know how I was gonna feel myself
什么感覺 until I got there.
真的沒事 It's really okay.
不 It's not.
這是女生守則 It's girl code.
是姐妹間的守則 It's that sister code.
而我沒遵守 And I broke it.
你知道我愛你的 對嗎 You know I love you, right?
我也是 Feeling's kind of mutual.
你要喝杯茶嗎 Do you want some tea?
不了 謝謝 我很累 No, thanks. I'm wiped.
-還是上樓睡覺去吧 -好 - Think I'm just go upstairs and go to bed. - Okay.
如果你想聊聊 If you ever need to talk,
你知道我在這的 you know I'm here.
謝謝 Thanks.
晚安 Good night.