我们能选择如何叙说一个悲伤故事 I believe we have a choice in this world about how to tell sad stories.
你可以用糖衣将之包裹 On the one hand, you can sugarcoat it.
就像电影和言情小说的手法 The way they do in movies and romance novels...
美丽的人物有着美丽的遭遇 where beautiful people learn beautiful lessons...
不会碰上无可挽回的糟糕事 where nothing is too messed up that can't be fixed...
最后来个大和解加一首好歌 with an apology and a Peter Gabriel song.
但我比较喜欢这个女孩的故事 I like that version as much as the next girl does, believe me.
那些都不是事实 It's just not the truth.
这才是事实 This is the truth.
抱歉 Sorry.
生命中的美好缺憾
在我十七岁的晚冬… Late in the winter of my seventeenth year...
我妈认定我罹患忧郁症 my mother decided that I was depressed.
她吃很少，几乎足不出户 She just eats like a bird, she barely leaves the house.
我没有忧郁症，妈 I am not depressed, Mom.
她一再读同一本书 She's reading the same book over and over.
她挺忧郁的 She's depressed.
我并不忧郁 I'm not depressed.
忧郁症总被视为癌症的副作用 The booklets and the websites always list depression as a side effect of cancer.
忧郁症并不是癌症的副作用 Depression's not a side effect of cancer.
而是迈向死亡的副作用 It's a side effect of dying.
这就是我的现况 Which is what was happening to me.
庄严的痛苦
痛苦要求被感觉到
我帮你开乐复得 I may switch you to Zoloft.
或是立普能 Or Lexapro.
一天得服用两次 And twice a day instead of once.
只要两次？ - Why stop there? - Hmm?
不如多来一点吧 Really, just keep them coming.
我就像癌症病童里的磕药狂 I'm like the Keith Richards of cancer kids.
你去过我建议的支持团体吗？ Have you been going to that support group I suggested?
去过，不适合我 Yeah, it's not my thing.
支持团体能联系你和那些人… Support groups can be a great way for you to connect with people who are...
哪些…什么人？ Who are... What?
…相同旅程的人 on the same journey.
旅程？是吗？ "Journey"? Really?
试试看 Give it a chance.
或许你会有所启发 Who knows, you might even find it enlightening.
来吧 All right.
准备好没？ Are you guys ready?
我们今天齐聚一堂 We are gathered here today
在名副其实的耶稣之心 literally in the heart of Jesus.
神与我们同在 We're here with J.C.
谁想分享自己的故事？ Who wants to share their story with the group?
我是安洁，我有急性骨髓性白血病 I'm Angel. I have acute myeloid leukemia.
席德，急性淋巴性白血病 Sid. Acute lymphoblastic leukemia.
我是PJ，我得了神经母细胞瘤 Hi, I'm PJ. Um, I have neuroblastoma.
我是派崔克，睾丸癌 I'm Patrick. Testicular.
我来说说派崔克的睾丸罹癌故事 I'll spare you the gory details of Patrick's ball cancer.
医生在他的蛋蛋发现病灶后… Basically, they found it in his nuts...
切除大部分，他差点丧命，却没死 they cut most of it out, and he almost died, but he didn't die.
现在的他，离过婚，没有朋友 So now, here he is, divorced, friendless...
暂住在父母家的沙发上 living on his parents' couch...
在耶稣之心分享他的辉煌抗癌过程 exploiting his cancer-tastic past in the heart of Jesus.
名副其实的耶稣之心 Literally.
让我们知道也许够幸运的话 To show us that one day, if we're lucky...
我们能像他一样 we could be just like him.
下一位？ Who's next?
海瑟？ Hazel?
我是海瑟 I'm Hazel.
原本罹患甲状腺癌… Uh, thyroid, originally...
后来癌细胞转移到肺部 but now with quite the impressive satellite colony in my lungs.
那你觉得如何？ And how are you doing?
你是说除了癌症末期吗？ Uh, you mean besides the terminal cancer?
大概还不错吧 All right, I guess.
我们会支持你，海瑟 We're here for you, Hazel.
不如再唱一曲吧 Why don't I play another song?
耶稣是朋友，陪我们到最后 Christ is our friend And he'll be there till the end
耶稣 Christ
宝贝女儿 Hey, sweet pea.
那么…聚会很棒吗？ So... was it awesome?
“对，妈，聚会超棒！” "Yeah, Mom, it was awesome!"
这就是我的生活 And that was my life.
真人秀节目 Reality shows.
看医生 Doctor's appointments.
八种处方药，一日服三次 Eight prescription drugs, three times a day.
不过最最糟糕的是… But worst, worst, worst of all...
支持团体 Support group.
-你们不能逼我 -当然可以 - You cannot make me. - Of course we can.
我们是你父母 We're your parents.
我们讨论过了，你得去 Come on, we've been through this. You need to go.
你要交朋友，当个青少年 You need to make friends, and be a teenager.
要我当青少年，不需要去支持团体 Mom, if you want me to be a teenager, you don't send me to support group.
只要给我假证件，让我去夜店… You gotta get me a fake ID so that I can go to clubs...
喝酒吃大麻 and drink gimlets and take pot.
大麻不是用“吃”的 Uh, you don't "take" pot.
我有假证件就会知道这种事 Well, that is the kind of thing I would know with a fake ID.
请你乖乖上车好吗？ Can you just get in the car, please?
所以我来了 And so I went.
不是我想来，或觉得对我有帮助 Not because I wanted to, or because I thought it would help me...
而是因为这些日子以来的同样理由 but for the same reason I did anything these days.
为了让爸妈高兴 To make my parents happy.
我不懂为何我不能自己开车来 I really don't understand why I can't just drive myself.
你又不能做什么，只能在车上等我 It's not like you’re gonna do anything. You're just gonna sit here and wait again.
当然不是这样 Of course I'm not.
我也有自己的事要忙 No, I've got stuff to do. I'm gonna do errands.
是喔 Yeah.
我爱你 I love you.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
开心点 Have fun.
唯一比患癌症更惨的… The only thing worse than biting it from cancer...
就是有个罹癌的小孩 is having a kid bite it from cancer.
嘿！ Hey!
要交朋友 Make some friends.
抱歉 Oh, sorry.
-我走楼梯 -行 - I'll take the stairs. - No problem.
谢谢 Thank you.
抱歉 Sorry.
我的错 My bad.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
谁想第一位分享？ So, who would like to start?
谁要担任发言先锋？ Does anyone want to start? Who wants to kick it off?
来吧 Go ahead.
我是贝丝，我有梭形细胞肉瘤 I'm Beth. I have spindle cell sarcoma.
这周过得还可以 It's been an okay week.
以撒，我知道你正面临很大的挑战 Isaac, I know that you're facing some challenges right now.
想跟大家分享吗？或是你朋友？ Do you want to share with the group? Or maybe your friend, here?
我来吧 No, I'll share.
大家好 Hey, guys. Uh...
我是以撒 Hi, I'm Isaac.
我有视网膜母细胞瘤 I have retinoblastoma.
小时候动手术割除一眼… We had surgery on one eye when I was younger...
这颗是玻璃眼珠 so this is a glass eye.
我将再度入院动刀… And then I'm going in to the hospital to have another surgery...
拿掉另一颗眼珠 to take out the other eye.
所以手术后我就全盲了 So, after that surgery, I’m just gonna be totally blind.
但我很幸运，因为我有很正的女友… But I'm lucky, because I have this beautiful, smoking hot girlfriend...
三生有幸能认识她，莫妮卡 who's way out of my league. Monica.
还有奥古斯都沃特这样的好友帮忙 And I have great friends like Augustus Waters to help me out.
就是这样，谢谢 So, that's what's up. Thanks.
我们会支持你，以撒 We're here for you, Isaac.
谢谢 Thank you.
换你了，古斯 Your turn, Gus.
好的 Yeah, sure.
我叫奥古斯都沃特 Um, I'm Augustus Waters.
十八岁… I'm 18 years old
一年半前得了骨肉瘤 and I had a touch of osteosarcoma about a year-and-a-half ago.
所以失去了这只脚 So, I've lost this baby as a result.
现在算是半机器人，挺酷的 And, uh, now I'm part cyborg, which is awesome.
但我来这里是应以撒的要求 But, really, I'm just here at Isaac's request.
那你觉得如何，古斯？ And how are you feeling, Gus?
我觉得很棒 I'm grand, yeah.
像坐在只会往上飙升的云霄飞车 I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend.
想和大家分享你的恐惧吗？ Maybe you'd like to share your fears with the group?
我的恐惧？ My fears?
怕被遗忘 Oblivion.
被遗忘？ Oblivion?
对 Yeah.
我想过个不平凡的人生 You see, I intend to live an extraordinary life.
想要被记住 To be remembered.
我就怕以后被人遗忘 So, I'd say if I have any fears, it would be to not do that.
谁想针对这点发表意见？ Would anyone else in the group like to speak to that?
海瑟？ Hazel?
真意外 Unexpected.
我认为时候到了我们都会死 I just want to say that there's gonna come a time when all of us are dead.
总有一天人类会灭绝 There was a time before humans and there's gonna be a time after.
可能是明天，或是百万年后 It could be tomorrow, it could be a million years from now.
到时候，世上没人能留下来… And when it does, there will be no one left...
缅怀埃及艳后，拳王阿里或莫札特… to remember Cleopatra or Muhammad Ali or Mozart...
更别说是我们 let alone any of us.
遗忘是必然的 Oblivion's inevitable.
若这点使你忧虑，我建议你别理它 And if that scares you, then I suggest you ignore it.
因为其他人也都一样 God knows it's what everyone else does.
这建议挺不错的 Well, that's some good advice.
我很高兴能听见大家… And I like all this because it’s really nice to hear everybody...
-永远 -永远 - Always. - Always.
“名副其实” "Literally."
我以为我们在教堂地下室… I thought we were in a church basement...
但我们名副其实在耶稣的心中 but apparently we were literally in the heart of Jesus.
是啊 Oh, yeah.
你叫什么名字？ What's your name?
海瑟 Hazel.
你的全名 No, what's your full name?
海瑟葛蕾丝兰卡斯特 Hazel Grace Lancaster.
怎么？ What?
我又没说话 I didn't say anything.
为什么这样看我？ Why are you looking at me like that?
因为你很漂亮 Because you're beautiful.
天啊 Oh, my God.
我喜欢看漂亮的人 I enjoy looking at beautiful people.
我不久前下定决心 See, I decided a while back...
别否定自己生命中的单纯喜悦 not to deny myself the simpler pleasures of existence.
尤其你又指出，我们很快都会死去 Particularly, as you so astutely pointed out, we're all gonna die pretty soon.
很不错，但我才不漂亮 Okay, well, that's great. But I am not beautiful.
-古斯 -嗨，丽莎 Hey, Gus. Hi, Lisa.
-我喜欢你先说 -我喜欢你先说 -I like it when you say it first. -I like it when you say it first.
好 Okay.
总是 Always.
到底在“总是”什么？ What is with the "always"?
他们常说的话 "Always" is, like, their thing.
“总是”相爱之类的 They'll "always" love each other, and whatnot.
他们今年传了千万封“永远”简讯 They probably texted "always" to each other 14 million times this year.
他应该弄痛她的胸部了 He's got to be hurting her boob.
我们去看电影吧 Let's go watch a movie.
什么？ - What? - Hmm?
过几天我有空，我们可以… I'm free later this week, we could...
不，我是说现在 No, I mean now.
你也许是个杀人狂 You could be an axe murderer.
不无可能 There's always that possibility.
海瑟葛蕾丝，冒险一试吧 Come on, Hazel Grace. Take a risk.
我不… I don't...
真的吗？ Really?
真恶心 That is disgusting.
怎样？ What?
你以为这样很酷？ What, do you think that that’s cool or something?
你毁了一切 You just ruined this whole thing.
-毁了一切？ -对，一切！ - The whole thing? - Yes, this whole thing!
不是吧 Oh, man.
你本来表现都很棒 Ugh. And you were doing really well, too.
结果还是有悲剧性缺陷 God! There's always a hamartia, isn't there?
你已经罹患该死的癌症… And yours is even though you had freaking cancer...
居然还付钱给某家企业… you're willing to give money to a corporation...
好让自己得到更多癌症？ for the chance to acquire even more cancer?
我告诉你，不能呼吸的感觉有多糟！ Let me just tell you that not being able to breathe sucks!
糟透了 It totally sucks.
“悲剧性缺陷”? "Hamartia"?
就是致命的错误 It's a fatal flaw.
致命的… Ah, a fatal...
海瑟葛蕾丝，点烟才会造成伤害 Hazel Grace, they don't actually hurt you unless you light them.
我从不点燃香烟 I've never lit one.
这是一种隐喻 It's a metaphor, see?
把致命的东西叼在口中 You put the thing that does the killing right between your teeth...
却不给它伤害你的力量 but you never give it the power to kill you.
一种隐喻 A metaphor.
要不要回去看模特儿真人秀？ Hey, sweetheart. Is it Top Model time?
不了 No. Uh...
我和奥古斯都有其他计划 I've made plans with Augustus Waters.
天啊 Oh, my God.
我考了几次驾照都没过 Yeah, I failed my test a couple times.
不意外 You don't say.
我考第四次时，状况跟现在一样 Actually, the fourth time I took the test, it was going about how this is going.
考完后… And when it was over...
教练看着我，她说… the instructor looks over at me, and she says...
“你的驾驶技术不讨喜，但还算安全” "Your driving, while unpleasant, is not technically unsafe."
癌症津贴 Cancer perk.
肯定是癌症津贴 Total cancer perk.
说说你的事 So, tell me about you.
我十三岁确定罹癌 Um, I was 13 when they found it.
算得上是最糟的情况 Pretty much worst-case scenario.
第四期甲状腺癌 Thyroid, stage four.
医生无能为力 Not much they could do.
不过他们当然也不会停手 Which didn't stop them, of course.
动手术 Surgery.
放射线治疗 Radiation.
化疗 Chemo.
更多放射线治疗 More radiation.
这些治疗一度发挥作用 All of which worked for a while.
不过，接着就失效了 But, then stopped working.
有一天，我的肺部开始积水 And then one day, my lungs started filling up with water.
护理师！ Nurse!
请护理师快来！ We need a nurse right now!
我无法呼吸，没人能控制这局面 I couldn't breathe. No one could get it under control.
你可以放弃，亲爱的 You can let go, sweetie.
不要怕 Don't be afraid.
本该到此结束的 That should have been the end.
天啊 Oh, my God.
但奇事发生了，抗生素发挥作用 But then something strange happened. The antibiotics kicked in.
医生排掉肺积水，我恢复一些体力 They drained the fluid from my lungs. I got some strength back.
接着，我接受了一项药物实验 Next thing I know, I found myself in an experimental trial.
癌症共和国著名的无效实验之一 You know, the ones that are famous in the Republic of Cancervania for not working.
药名叫法兰西佛 It's called Phalanxifor.
此疗法对70％的人无效… It didn't work in over 70% of the patients...
但对我却有效 but for some reason it’s been working for me.
大家都说这是奇迹 So, they called it “The Miracle."
当然我的肺依旧很虚弱… Of course, my lungs still suck at being lungs...
但理论上，它们还能持续虚弱个… but, theoretically, they could continue to suck like this...
不知道，大概一阵子吧 for, I don't know, a while maybe.
那你复学了吗？ So, are you back in school?
我有同等学历证书，在念社区大学 I got my GED, so I’m taking classes at MCC.
女大学生！ Whoa! A college girl!
难怪你有着学究气质 Well, that explains the aura of sophistication.
小心… Oh! Careful!
糟糕 Oops.
欢迎莅临寒舍 Welcome to my humble abode.
我爸妈说这是“励志格言” Uh, my folks call them “encouragements."
想要彩虹，得先忍受雨水
很高兴有你在
别多问 Don't ask.
两位好！ Hi, guys!
-嗨！ -奥古斯都 - Hey! - Augustus, hi.
新朋友？ New friend?
对，她是海瑟葛蕾丝 Yeah. This is Hazel Grace.
嗨，叫海瑟就好 Hey. Oh, it's just "Hazel."
你好，“海瑟就好”? How's it going, "Just Hazel"?
海瑟，你好 Hi, Hazel, how are you?
我们要下楼了，拜 Yeah, we're going downstairs. Bye.
-幸会 -幸会 - Nice to meet you guys. - Nice to meet you, too.
到罗 This is it.
奥古斯都的世界 Augusto World.
我的房间 This is my room.
哇 Wow.
你得过的奖还真惊人 It's an impressive collection.
我以前打篮球 Yeah, I used to play.
我能坐下吗？ Do you mind if I sit down?
行，别客气 Yeah. Make yourself at home.
我家就是你家 Mi casa es tu casa.
抱歉，那些楼梯… Sorry, the, um, stairs...
…还有持续站着… and the standing...
我了解 Yeah, I understand.
你还好吗？ Seriously, are you okay?
没事 Yeah, yeah.
好，你的故事呢？ All right. What's your story?
我说过了 I already told you.
我在十三岁时确诊… I was diagnosed when I was 13...
不是癌症故事，你的真实故事 No, no, no. Not your cancer story, your real story.
兴趣，嗜好，喜欢什么，或怪癖 Your interests, your hobbies, your passions, your weird fetishes.
“怪癖”? "Weird fetishes"?
第一个冒出你脑中的念头 Think of something. The first thing that pops in your head.
你喜爱的东西 Something you love.
《庄严的痛苦》 An Imperial Affliction.
那是什么？ Okay. What's that?
一本小说 It's a novel.
我最爱的小说 It's my favorite novel.
书里有僵尸吗？ Wait, does it have zombies in it?
僵尸？没有！ Zombies? No!
帝国风暴兵？ Stormtroopers?
它不是那种书 No, it's not that kind of a book.
那它在讲什么？ Okay, what's it about?
癌症 Uh, cancer.
关于癌症的书？ It's about cancer?
不是那样，相信我，这本书很棒 But not like that. Trust me, it's amazing.
作者叫做彼得万豪顿 The author, his name is Peter Van Houten.
是我一生碰过的人当中… He's the only person I've ever come across in my life...
唯一了解何谓迈向死亡… who, A, understands what it’s like to be dying...
但又还没死透的感觉 but, B, hasn't actually died.
好的 Okay.
我要读这本标题无聊的怪书… I will read this horrible book with this very boring title...
尽管书里没有僵尸和帝国风暴兵 that does not include zombies or Stormtroopers.
而做为交换… And in exchange...
…你要读这本书 you will read this.
这本杰作改编自我最爱的电玩 This haunting, yet brilliant novelization of my favorite video game.
“镇暴计划” "Counterinsurgence."
别笑，这本书很棒 Yeah, don't laugh. It's awesome.
描写荣誉、牺牲、勇敢和英雄气概 It's about honor, and sacrifice, and bravery, and heroism.
讲述拥抱宿命，在世上留下印记 It's about embracing your destiny, and leaving a mark on the world.
谢谢 Well, thank you.
你的手好冷 Wait, your hands are so cold.
还没有冷到缺氧 Well, they're not so much cold as just under-oxygenated.
海瑟葛蕾丝？ - Hazel Grace? - Hmm?
我真爱你跟我讨论医学 I love it when you talk medical to me.
不寻常 That's different.
是他给你的吗？ Did he give it to you?
你是指疱疹吗？ By "it," do you mean herpes?
哇 Wow.
没错 Yes, I did.
那是为人母亲的梦想 It's a mother's dream.
使用提醒
别担心 Hey, don't worry.
天啊，妈，我才不担心 Oh, my God, Mom. I'm not worried.
没什么大不了 It's not a big deal.
对 Yeah.
我们只是朋友，我没有等他打给我 We just hung out, it's not like I'm waiting for him to call me.
-那个是…？ -对 -Is that what...? -Yeah.
我还以为是辣椒 Because I thought those were peppers.
今天，是中国的国际枸杞日 Today, in China, International Goji Berry Day.
很棒吧？ Isn't that great?
我喜欢这颜色 I like the color.
我的书缺了最后十页对吧
好吃吧？ - They're good, right? - Mmm-hmm.
中国人在枸杞日吃很多枸杞吗？ So, do they eat a lot of goji berries on Goji Berry Day?
我还没看到书的结局对吧！
为了切合枸杞的主题… I did something with the dessert...
我也加了一些在甜点里 just to try to keep the goji berry theme going.
那是很棒的抗氧化食物 Because they’re an amazing antioxidant.
一本书不能在句子中间结束！
这太过分了！啊啊啊！
我喜欢 Well, I like it.
每年都该来一次 We should do it every year.
-每年 -每年都该来一次 - Every year. - We should do it every year.
是啊 I know.
我真的觉得很好吃 I really do like these.
女儿，你要先离席吗？ Honey, would you like to be excused?
什么？ What?
海瑟葛蕾丝 Hazel Grace.
欢迎接受《庄严的痛苦》的折磨 Welcome to the sweet torture of reading An Imperial Affliction.
但我正破坏一切规则 But now I'm breaking all the rules!
你还好吗？ Are you okay?
我正破坏一切规则 And now I'm breaking all the rules
我？我很好 Uh... Me? Yeah, I am excellent.
不过以撒在我旁边… I am, however, with Isaac, and...
和海瑟说话会让你好些还是更糟？ Isaac, does Support Group Hazel make this better or worse?
-我虚掷所有时光 -以撒，听我说 I've been wasting all my time Isaac! Focus on me.
虚掷所有时光 Been wasting all my time
你能多快赶过来？ How fast can you get here?
好，门没锁 Great. Well, the door's open.
我得挂了，拜 I gotta run. Bye.
喂？ Hello?
海瑟 Hazel.
以撒，支持团体的海瑟来了 Isaac, Hazel Grace from the Support Group is here.
-嗨 -嗨 - Hi. - Hi.
我得提醒你… Uh... A gentle reminder...
以撒正处于精神病发作的状态 Isaac's in the midst of a psychotic episode right now.
你看起来很不错 You look really nice, by the way.
我喜欢你穿这颜色 I like this color on you.
谢谢 Thank you.
以撒 Isaac.
以撒，海瑟来了 Isaac, Hazel's here.
嗨，以撒 Hey, Isaac.
嗨，海瑟 Hey, Hazel.
你还好吗？ How you doing?
还可以 I'm doing okay.
以撒和莫妮卡不再交往了 It seems Isaac and Monica are no longer a going concern.
以撒，我很遗憾，你想聊聊吗？ Oh, Isaac, I'm so sorry. Do you want to talk about it?
不，我只想哭还有打电玩 No, I just want to cry and play video games.
不过，跟他说话也无害… However, you know, it doesn’t hurt to talk to him...
看能否给他女性观点的良言 if you have any sage words of feminine advice.
我觉得他的反应很正常 I actually think that his response is fairly appropriate.
痛苦要求被感觉到 "Pain demands to be felt."
你引用那本书的句子 You're quoting my book.
她说她想在手术前分手 She said she wanted to break up with me before the surgery...
因为她无法处理这种状况 because she couldn't handle it.
我要瞎了，而她无法处理 I'm about to lose my eyesight, and she can't handle it.
我一再对她说“永远” I kept saying "always" to her. Like, "Always."
她老是打断我，也不回我同样的话… And she kept talking over me and not saying it back, and...
好像我已经走了，你懂吗？ It was like I was gone already, you know?
有时候… You know, sometimes...
人们许诺时并不真懂自己许的诺言 people don't understand the promises that they're making when they make them.
我知道，但… I know, but...
我觉得好失败，我还戴着她的项链 I feel like such a loser. I still have her necklace on.
拿掉 Take it off.
老兄，快拿掉 Dude, take that off.
对 Yeah.
没事的，老兄，没事 Here we go, man. Here we go.
我想踢点东西 I just want to kick something.
别踢那个 Don't hit that, don't hit that.
-打这个 -抱歉 - Hit this. - Sorry.
我这几天都想打给你 I've been wanting to call you for a few days now...
但我想先整理出连贯的心得 but I've been waiting until I could form a coherent thought about An Imperial Affliction.
等等 One second.
以撒 Isaac.
枕头不会破 Pillows don't break.
换个能打破的东西 You need to break something.
试试这个 Try this.
-奖杯？ -对 - The trophy? - Yeah.
确定？ Are you sure?
我一直想让爸爸知道我多恨篮球 I've been looking for a way to tell my father I kind of hate basketball.
尽管砸吧！ Go to town!
永远！ Always!
《庄严的痛苦》 An Imperial Affliction.
真高兴你喜欢这本书 Yes. I'm so glad that you liked it.
我喜欢，但它的结局 Yes, I did. But the ending.
我知道，挺突兀的 I know. It is rather abrupt.
“突兀”？你说笑吗？那叫邪恶！ "Rather abrupt"? Are you kidding? It's evil!
我能理解她死了… I mean, I understand that she dies...
但有个不成文的契约关于作者和… but there's an unwritten contract between author and...
- 古斯？ - 啊？ - Gus? - Yeah?
-行吗？ -好 Between author and reader.
关于作者和读者 Between author and reader.
让书在句子中戛然而止… And I feel like ending your book in the middle of a sentence...
就违背了这契约，你说呢？ violates that contract, don’t you think?
我明白你的意思 I know what you mean...
但老实说，我觉得这很真实 but, to be completely honest, I think it's just so truthful.
人会死在生命中途 You just die in the middle of life.
或死在句子中途 You die in the middle of a sentence.
我不知道… And, I don't know...
我也想知道安娜死后大家怎么了 But I really would like to know what happens to everyone after Anna dies.
像安娜的妈妈 Like Anna's mother.
对，和荷兰郁金香男 Yes, and the Dutch Tulip Man.
还有仓鼠薛西弗斯 And Sisyphus the Hamster.
对！ Yes!
你试着联络过彼得万豪顿吗？ Have you tried contacting this Peter Van Houten fellow?
我写了很多封信给他，从无回信 I've written him so many letters, but he's never responded.
显然，他搬到阿姆斯特丹，成为隐士… Apparently, he moved to Amsterdam and became a recluse, and...
真不幸 Shame.
对 Yeah.
以撒… Isaac...
好多了吗？ You feeling better, buddy?
这就是痛苦 That's the thing about pain.
痛苦要求被感觉到 It demands to be felt.
我会帮你整理 I'll help you clean this up.
海瑟葛蕾丝 Hazel Grace.
奥古斯都沃特 Augustus Waters.
我无法不想那本该死的书 I cannot stop thinking about this goddamn book.
别客气 You're welcome.
但我们总要个结局，不是吗？ However, we do need closure, don’t you think?
我在信里就是这么拜托彼得万豪顿 That is exactly what I was asking Van Houten for in my letters.
但他从不回信 But he never responded.
没错 Um, nope.
“亲爱的沃特先生… "Dear Mr. Waters...
我以此信感谢你的电子邮件 "I am writing to thank you for your electronic correspondence.
“我感谢任何人愿意花宝贵时间… "I am grateful to anyone who sets aside the time...
“阅读我的作品” "to read my book."
奥古斯都？ Augustus?
是的？ Yes?
你做什么？ What are you doing?
我可能找到了… I may have found...
彼得万豪顿的助理，发电邮给她 Van Houten's assistant, emailed her.
奥古斯都！ Augustus!
她再转寄给彼得万豪顿 She may have forwarded that email on to Van Houten.
要继续吗？ Shall I continue?
天啊，好，快！ Oh, my God. Yeah, go, go, go!
“我要特别感谢你，先生” "I am particularly indebted to you, sir."
海瑟葛蕾丝，他称呼我“先生” Hazel Grace, he just called me "sir."
奥古斯都，继续念！ Augustus, keep reading, keep reading!
“对《庄严的痛苦》之友善评论… "Both for your kind words about An Imperial Affliction...
“还有花时间… "and for taking the time...
“告诉我这本书，在此引用你的话… "to tell me that the book, and here I quote you directly...
“对你和你朋友海瑟有很重要的意义” "'meant a great deal to you and your friend Hazel Grace.
不是吧！不是吧！ You did not! You did not!
不是吧！ You did not, you did not!
当然是 "To answer your question, no, I have not written anything else, nor will I.
“回答你的问题，我不再写任何作品 "To answer your question, no, I have not written anything else, nor will I.
“我不认为继续与读者分享我的想法… "I do not feel like continuing to share my thoughts with readers...
“对双方有好处 "would benefit either them or me.
“不过还是谢谢你… "However, thank you...
“宝贵的来信 "for your generous email.
“彼得万豪顿敬上” "Yours most sincerely, Peter Van Houten."
想不到吧 So, yeah, that just happened.
天啊 Oh, my God.
我试着告诉你我很厉害 I've been trying to tell you, I'm kind of awesome.
你觉得我该… Do you think that I...
去看收件夹 Check your inbox.
老天 Oh, my God.
天啊，奥古斯都 Oh, my God, Augustus.
我好兴奋 I'm freaking out. I'm freaking out.
万豪顿先生钧鉴，我是海瑟葛蕾丝 Dear Mr. Peter Van Houten, my name is Hazel Grace Lancaster.
我朋友奥古斯都沃特 My friend Augustus Waters...
在我建议下读了你的书… who read your book at my recommendation...
从这个信箱收到你的回信 just received an email from you at this address.
希望你不介意他和我分享信件内容 I hope you will not mind that he shared that email with me.
不知你是否能回答我一些… I was wondering if you wouldn't mind answering a few questions I have...
关于书结尾的疑问 about what happens after the end of the book.
具体如下 Specifically the following.
安娜妈妈是否与荷兰郁金香男结婚？ Does Anna's mom marry the Dutch Tulip Man?
荷兰郁金香男是否有所图谋… And is the Dutch Tulip Man up to something...
或者他彻底被误解了？ or is he just completely misunderstood?
最后，希望你能提提仓鼠薛西弗斯 Lastly, I was hoping you could shed some light on Sisyphus the Hamster.
这些问题纠缠我多年… These questions have haunted me for years...
我不知自己还有多少时间寻找答案 and I don't know how long I have left to get answers to them.
我明白这些不是重要文学议题… I know that these are not important literary questions...
“而你书中充满了重要文学议题… "and that your book is full of important literary questions...
“但我还是想知道答案 "but I would just really like to know.
“当然，如果你决定写其他作品… "And, of course, if you ever do decide to write anything else...
“我很乐意拜读 "I would love to read it.
“老实说，我甚至愿意读你写的购物清单 "Frankly, I'd read your grocery lists.
“海瑟葛蕾丝兰卡斯特敬上” "Yours, with great admiration, Hazel Grace Lancaster."
还不赖 Not bad.
真的？ You think?
对，不过有点做作… Yeah, I mean, it's a bit pretentious...
彼得万豪顿大概会回些华丽词藻，所以… but then again, Van Houten uses words like "tendentious" and "Bacchanalia," so...
我猜他会喜欢的 I think he'll like it.
快半夜一点了？ Is it really 1:00 AM?
是吗？ Is it?
大概吧 Yeah, I guess it is.
我该睡了 I should probably go to sleep.
行 Okay.
也许“行”就是我们的“总是” Perhaps "okay” will be our "always."
行 Okay.
天啊 Oh, my God.
“亲爱的兰卡斯特小姐… "Dear Ms. Lancaster...
“我无法回答你的问题 至少不能通过书面方式… "I cannot answer your questions, at least not in writing...
“因为这么做就会构成一部续集… "because to do so would constitute a sequel...
“你可能会出版或在网路上分享 "which you might publish or otherwise share on the internet.
“不是我信不过，但我怎能信任你？ "Not that I don't trust you, but how could I trust you?
“我几乎不认识你 "I barely know you.
“若你到阿姆斯特丹，方便时可来访” "Should ever you find yourself in Amsterdam, "do pay a visit at your leisure."
什么？ What?
“谨此，彼得万豪顿” "Yours most sincerely, Peter Van Houten."
天啊！ Oh, my God!
这是怎么搞的？ Hazel?
海瑟？ Hazel?
-妈！ -海瑟，怎么了？ - Mom! - Hazel, what's wrong?
妈，你看这个 Mom, look at this.
快来，快来 Come here. Come here, come here.
你看 Look.
- 什么？ - 对 - What? - Yeah.
彼得万豪顿！ Peter Van Houten!
你看他怎么写！ Look what he said!
“若你到阿姆斯特丹”! "Should ever you find yourself in Amsterdam"!
我必须去！ I have to go!
不可思议 That's incredible.
他邀请我们去阿姆斯特丹！ He invited us to Amsterdam.
哇！ Wow!
我们能去吗？ Can we go?
你觉得我们真的能去吗？ I mean, do you think we could actually go?
毕竟那是阿姆斯特丹！ I mean, Amsterdam!
我想要帮你达成一切愿望 I want you to have everything you want in the world.
可是我们钱不够，你知道吧？ But we don't have the money, you know?
还得把所有器材搬到那里 Just getting all the equipment over there.
怎么办得到？ How do we do that?
也是啦，抱歉 Yeah, duh. I'm sorry.
我真的很抱歉 Hey, you, I am so sorry.
没关系 It's okay.
你怎么不向精灵基金会许愿？ Why don't you just ask the Genies? Use your wish.
我在奇迹发生前就用掉愿望 I already used it. Pre-Miracle.
你许了什么愿？ What'd you use it on?
别说是迪士尼 Not Disney.
海瑟葛蕾丝，你没去迪士尼乐园吧 Hazel Grace, you did not go to Disney World.
-你把临死愿望… -我那时才13岁 - You did not use your last dying wish... - I was 13.
…用在去迪士尼乐园 to go to Disney World.
- 还有艾波卡特中心 - 老天 And Epcot Center. Oh, my God.
那趟旅行其实很愉快！ It was actually a really fun trip!
- 我没听过更惨的事 - 我遇见高飞狗！ That's the saddest thing I've ever heard. I met Goofy!
- 我觉得好丢脸 - 为什么丢脸？ Now I'm just embarrassed. Why are you embarrassed?
我居然爱上许了蠢愿望的女孩 I can't believe I have a crush on a girl with such cliché wishes.
太可怕了 Terrible.
上车吗？ You coming?
做磁振造影最重要的事… The most important thing in any MRI...
就是保持完全躺平 is to lie completely still.
但在那天，这点几乎办不到 But that day, it was almost impossible.
古斯，你好吗？ Hey, Gus! How are you?
嗨，兰卡斯特小姐太太 Hi, Mrs. Lancaster.
那是里克施密茨的球衣？ Hey. Rik Smits jersey?
-没错 -我真爱那家伙 - Yeah, it is indeed. - I loved that guy.
我是奥古斯都沃特 I'm Augustus Waters.
幸会，我叫麦可 Nice to meet you. I'm Michael.
-幸会 -兰卡斯特太太 - It's good to see you. - Hi, Mrs. Lancaster.
-幸会 -幸会 Good to see you.
嗨，海瑟葛蕾丝 Hi, Hazel Grace.
嗨 Hi.
愿意跟我去野餐吗？ How would you like to go on a picnic with me?
我很乐意和你野餐 Um, I would love to go on a picnic with you.
走吧？ Shall we?
不，先让我… No. Let me...
我刚从医院出来，先让我换衣服 I smell like hospital, so I should just change.
所以… So, uh...
你也是癌症存活者罗？ you're a survivor yourself, huh?
是 Yeah.
我切这条腿是有理由的 I didn't cut this fellow off for the hell of it.
不过这也是个有效的减重方式 Although it does make an excellent weight-loss strategy.
腿其实很重的 Legs are very heavy.
你目前健康状况如何？ How's your health now?
很棒，十四个月无癌症迹象 It's great. NEC for 14 months.
-真的？ -对 - Really? - Yeah.
-太棒了 -对 - That's fantastic. - Yeah.
我很幸运 I'm very lucky.
听我说，古斯 Hey, listen, Gus.
你得了解，海瑟仍旧罹癌 You have to understand, Hazel’s still pretty sick.
而且她余生都会如此 And she will be the rest of her life.
她想继续跟你交往 And she's gonna want to keep up with you.
她就是那种女孩 可是她的肺… She's that kind of girl. But the truth is, her lungs...
好了没？古斯 Ready, Gus?
好了 Yeah.
那么，晚点见罗 All right. See you soon.
好的 All right.
天气真好 Such a beautiful day.
是啊 Yeah.
你都带被你迷倒的对象来这吗？ Is this where you take all of your romantic conquests?
每次带到这就结束了 Every last one of them.
所以我才至今维持处子之身吧 That's probably why I’m still a virgin.
你才不是处子之身 You are not still a virgin.
你说真的？ Are you really?
给你看点东西 Let me show you something.
看见这圆圈吗？ See this circle?
这圈代表处子之身的人 That is a circle of virgins.
而这圈… And this...
代表独腿的十八岁男生 is 18-year-old dudes with one leg.
所以罗 - Oh... - So, yeah.
奇特的骨头，裘普范梨斯豪特创作 Funky Bones by Joep Van Lieshout.
听来像荷兰人 He sounds quite Dutch.
没错 And he is.
和里克施密茨一样 Much like Rik Smits.
还有郁金香 And tulips.
吃三文治吗？ Sandwich?
我猜猜 Let me guess.
荷兰奶酪和蕃茄 Dutch cheese and tomato.
抱歉，蕃茄产自墨西哥 Sorry, the tomatoes are Mexican.
好大的胆子！ How dare you!
很酷对吧？ How cool is this?
利用骨头构成游乐场 They're using a skeleton as a playground.
你想想吧 Think about that.
你还真喜欢象征 You do love your symbols.
关于这点，你大概在想… Speaking of which, you’re probably wondering...
为何要坐在这吃难吃的奶酪三文治 why you're sitting here eating a bad cheese sandwich...
和里克施密茨球衣男喝橙汁 and drinking orange juice with a guy in a Rik Smits jersey.
我的确想过这些问题 It actually has crossed my mind.
海瑟葛蕾丝，你就像之前许多小孩… Well, Hazel Grace, like so many before you...
我是怀着诚挚的情感这么说的… and listen, I say this with the utmost of affection...
蠢笨地用掉自己的愿望 you used your wish moronically.
我们谈过了，我当时才13岁 Okay, we've been through this. I was 13.
安静，我正在发表伟大演说 Hush! I am in the midst of a grand soliloquy, here.
你当时年幼，易受影响… You were young, impressionable...
当死神盯着你的脸… the Grim Reaper staring you right in the face...
使你急着许下你并不想要的愿望 and it led you to rush into making a wish you didn't really want.
但没读过《庄严的痛苦》的小海瑟 But, how could little Hazel Grace, having never read An Imperial Affliction...
怎知她真正的愿望是去阿姆斯特丹 know that her one true wish was to visit Mr. Peter Van Houten...
拜访彼得万豪顿 in his Amsterdam exile.
但我没有保留愿望… But I didn't save it, so...
幸好我保留了我的 It's a good thing I saved mine.
你是说… So, you're saying...
我不是要把我的愿望送你，海瑟 I'm not gonna give you my wish or anything, Hazel.
如果你是这么想的话 If that's what you're thinking.
不过… However...
我也很想见彼得万豪顿先生… I, too, have an interest in meeting this Mr. Peter Van Houten...
我认为邀请把书给我读的女孩 一起拜访他… and I don't really think it would make much sense...
这样才有意义… to meet him without the girl who introduced me to the book in the first place...
对吧？ now, would it?
所以我和精灵谈过，他们完全同意 So I talked to the Genies, and they're all for it.
一个月后启程 We leave in a month.
不是吧 No.
天啊 Oh, my God.
天啊！ Oh, my God!
奥古斯都！ Augustus!
谢谢！ Thank you!
显然，他们… 我不知道他们是否经常这么做 Apparently, they... I don't know if they do this that often,
但是他们也愿意带上我，而且… but they're willing to bring me, too, and...
那太棒了 That's incredible.
海瑟，太美好了 Hazel, that's so beautiful.
是啊 I know.
还有点疯狂 And a little insane.
哦，非常疯狂 这…这…这太疯狂了！ Oh, it's super insane. It's... It's... It's... It's crazy!
-嗯… -是阿姆斯特丹！ - Well... - It's Amsterdam!
他刚刚认识你… He just met you...
-我知道！ -他就把他的愿望送给你 - I know! - ...and he's giving you his wish.
我们分享这个愿望，我们… 我是说，他…他…是的，我们分享它 Well, we're sharing the wish. We're... I mean, he... He... Yeah. We're sharing it.
真好 That's sweet.
除非… Unless...
什么？ What?
他是你男朋友吗？是… Is he your boyfriend? Is that...
别说了！别…他不是我的… Stop it! Do not... He is not my...
妈妈，说重点 我们在说阿姆斯特丹 Mom, focus, we’re talking about Amsterdam.
-我非常喜欢她，我… -停 - I like him so much. I... - Stop.
集中注意，拜托！我能去吗？ Pay attention. Please! Can I go?
是的，作为你妈妈，我喜欢这个主意 Right, as your mom, I love this idea.
而且… 我觉得我们应该问问玛莉亚医生 And I... I think we should talk to Dr. Maria.
好的 Okay.
我不知道 I don't know.
但你刚说那个 正子断层扫瞄结果很让人鼓舞 But you said that the PET scan was encouraging.
正子断层扫瞄是让人鼓舞 但我们不知道这种状态能持续多久 Well, the PET scan is encouraging, but we don't know how long it will stay that way.
好吧，我不是去寻求政治避难 就几天，一次旅游而已！ Okay, I'm not seeking political asylum. It's a few days. It's a vacation!
-是的 -但如果你病了怎么办？ - It's true. - What if you get sick?
还在外国？ In a foreign country?
阿姆斯特丹也有癌症医生 They have doctors in Amsterdam. And cancer.
并非所有癌症都是一样的 你的病历很特殊，海瑟 Well, not all cancers are alike, and yours is particularly unusual, Hazel.
除非有熟悉你病情的人陪着你 The only way I could ever authorize a trip like this
否则我不能同意这次旅行 would be if someone familiar with your case...
如果我妈妈也去呢？ What if my mom came?
等等，什么？ Wait, what?
如果你去呢？ What if you came?
我…我肯定会同意的 他们经费充足 I'm... I'm sure the Genies would hook it up. They're loaded.
那也许行得通 That just might work.
然后就发生这件事 And then this happened.
嗨 Hey.
嗨 Hi.
-嗨 -没事的 - Hey. - You're okay.
我怎么了？ So, what happened?
老样子 The usual.
肺积水导致缺氧 Fluid in the lungs preventing oxygenation.
医生放了管子进去 They put a tube in.
昨晚排出一公升半的液体 They drained a liter and a half last night.
好消息是… The good news is...
肿瘤没有成长 no tumor growth.
体内也没有新肿瘤 No new tumors in your body.
我们松了一口气 We're so relieved.
这只是点小麻烦，海瑟 This is just a thing, Hazel.
我们可以承受的 It's a thing we can live with.
兰卡斯特先生 Mr. Lancaster.
她还好吗？ How's she doing?
好多了 Better.
谢谢，好很多了 Yeah, thank you. Much, much better.
他们不让我进去，我不是家属 Uh, they won't let me in. It's family only.
对，抱歉 Yeah, sorry.
我了解 Yeah, I get it.
能告诉她我来过吗？ Could you just tell her I was here?
当然，没问题 Yeah, of course. Of course I will.
好的 - Okay.
古斯，不如你先回家 Gus, listen, why don't you go home?
休息一下 Get some rest.
好的 Okay.
通常，肿瘤都会开始抵制疗法… Normally, the tumors start resisting the treatment...
但是你没这种现象… and that hasn't happened here...
还没有 Yet.
另一方面… On the other hand...
药物会使积水恶化 the drug may be worsening the edema.
事实是… The truth is...
很少人像海瑟长期服用法兰西佛 very few people have been on Phalanxifor as long as Hazel has.
我们并不知道长期效用 We really don't know the long-term effects.
我们要试着防止皮内细胞生长… What we're trying to do is prevent endothelial growth...
不然排水时，会引发疾病，腐烂… which, when overexpressed, can contribute to disease, decay...
血管抑制… vascular inhibition...
和肿瘤扩散，我们尽力想将之消除 and the spread of the tumors we're working so hard to eradicate.
严重皮内细胞生长患者的生存率… The survival rate of patients with severe endothelial growth...
随着病情发展呈指数式下降 decreases exponentially the more the condition advances.
你可以放弃，亲爱的 You can let go, sweetie.
不要怕 Don't be afraid.
天啊 Oh, my God.
我再也不是个母亲了 I'm not gonna be a mom anymore.
我有疑问 I have a question.
请说，海瑟 Yes, Hazel?
我还能去阿姆斯特丹吗？ Can I still go to Amsterdam?
此时此举不大明智 That would not be wise at this juncture.
为什么？ Why not?
能设法实现这趟旅行吗？ Is there any way we can make that trip happen?
这会增加风险 It would increase some risks.
去大卖场也有风险 But so does going to the mall.
是，不过搭飞机？ Yes, but an airplane?
飞机上也有氧气 But they have oxygen on airplanes.
你是第四期患者 You're stage four.
这机会我可能再也碰不到 This is an opportunity that I may never get again.
真的 Ever.
如果药物有效，我不懂为何不能… If the medication is working, I don’t understand why I can't...
-或许某种情形… -不行 Perhaps there's a scenario... No.
我没有其他表达方式，海瑟 I don't know any other way to say this, Hazel.
你的病情太重 You're just too sick.
很抱歉 I'm sorry.
行吗？
喂？ Hello?
在，等等 Yeah, just a sec.
是古斯，又打来了 Hi. Gus... again.
抱歉，她睡着了 Sorry, she's asleep.
好的 Yeah. Uh, okay.
再见 All right. Bye-bye.
我知道你想什么 I know what you're thinking.
这样对他不公平 It's not fair to him.
没错 It's not.
他不需要承受这种痛苦 He doesn't need this in his life.
没人需要 Nobody does.
带来的麻烦远大于价值 A lot more trouble than it's worth.
你说得对 No, you're right.
你妈和我才说过同样的话 Your mom and I were just saying the same thing.
我们可能该把你扔在大街上 I mean, it could be time we tossed you out on the street.
或是丢在孤儿院，把问题留给他们 Drop you off in an orphanage somewhere, make you their problem.
我说真的 I'm serious.
我们不是多愁善感的人 We're not sentimental people.
喂？
怎么这么安静…
海瑟葛蕾丝 Hazel Grace.
嗨，奥古斯都 Hi, Augustus.
你还好吗？ Are you okay?
不好 No.
怎么了？ What's the matter?
告诉我 Talk to me.
我说不出来 I don't know.
一切都不好 Everything.
我想去阿姆斯特丹，古斯 I want to go to Amsterdam, Gus.
也想听万豪顿谈论书的后续 And I want Van Houten to tell us what happens after his book.
我不想要这条生命 I also don't really want this particular life.
就连天空都让我难过 I mean, it's really just the sky. The sky is making me sad.
还有这架小时我爸帮我搭的… And there's this pathetic old swing set...
可悲的旧秋千… that my dad built for me when I was a kid and...
大概什么都不对吧 It's just everything, I guess.
我要看那架引人落泪的秋千 Well, I demand to see this swing set of tears.
我懂你的意思了 I do see your point.
这架秋千真的很悲哀 This is one sad swing set.
海瑟葛蕾丝，希望你了解… Hazel Grace, I hope you realize...
试图疏远我无法减少我对你的爱慕 that you trying to keep your distance from me in no way lessens my affection for you.
你想避开我的所有努力都会失败 All your efforts to keep me from you are gonna fail.
听着 Look. Uh...
我喜欢你 I like you.
我喜欢跟你在一起做任何事… And I like hanging out with you and everything...
但我无法更进一步 but I can't let this go on any further.
为什么？ Why not?
因为我不想伤害你 Because I don't want to hurt you.
我不介意 I wouldn't mind.
-你不明白 -我明白 - No, you don't understand. - I do understand.
-你不明白 -我知道你的意思 You don't understand. I know what you're trying to say.
海瑟，我说我不介意 Hazel, I'm saying I wouldn't mind.
能为你心碎是我莫大的荣幸 It'd be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.
古斯，我是一枚手榴弹 Gus, I'm a grenade.
总有一天我会爆炸… One day I'm gonna explode...
到时会波及我身边的一切… and I'm gonna obliterate everything in my wake and...
我觉得这是我的责任… I don't know, I feel like it’s my responsibility...
要将伤害降到最低 to minimize the casualties.
一枚手榴弹 A grenade?
所以我才没有养仓鼠 I mean, that's why I don’t have a hamster.
我们得处理一下 这个让人伤心的秋千 Well, we gotta do something about this frickin' swing set.
好的 Okay.
“秋千寻新家” "Swing set needs home."
“绝望寂寞的秋千 "Desperately lonely swing set
“寻找爱心之家” "needs loving home."
“寂寞、恋童的秋千 "Lonely, vaguely pedophilia swing set
“寻找小孩屁股” "seeks the butts of children."
-不好，不好 -不好？不好？ No. No. No? No?
我喜欢这个 I like it.
就是这个原因 That's why.
以防你好奇 就是因为这样我才喜欢你，海瑟葛蕾丝 In case you're wondering, that’s why I like you, Hazel Grace.
你一直在做你自己 你都不知道你有多么的特别 You're just so busy being you, you have no idea how utterly unprecedented you are.
你不能说这样的话 You can't say stuff like that.
怎么？我跟朋友说话一直这样 What? That's how I speak to all my friends.
我知道，我知道，朋友 I know, I know. Friends.
-朋友 -朋友 Friends.
朋友！ Friends!
你不能那么做！ You can't do that!
谢谢你的谅解…
…只是朋友
行…
老天！！别跟我调情！
“亲爱的海瑟，我收到精灵组织的信… "Dear Hazel, received word via the Genies that you will...
“你与奥古斯都和令堂将于四号来访” "you'll be visiting us with Augustus Waters "and your mother on the fourth."
彼得万豪顿专任助理，莉德薇
妈？ Mom?
是的？ Yeah?
妈！ Mom!
-怎么了？ -抱歉 - What's wrong? - Sorry.
没事，我只是在洗澡 No, I was just taking a bath.
你寄信给精灵组织取消旅行了吗？ Did you email the Genies to tell them that the trip was off?
我收到万豪顿助理的信… Because Van Houten’s assistant just emailed me...
她以为我们还是要过去 and she said that she thinks we're still coming.
怎么？ What?
我应该等你爸回来再告诉你 I was supposed to tell you with your dad.
妈 Mom.
我们要去阿姆斯特丹 We're going to Amsterdam.
你说…我们要去阿姆斯特丹？ You're se... We're going to Amsterdam?
我们要去阿姆斯特丹 We're going to Amsterdam.
都准备好了，我们要去 We figured the whole thing out. We're going.
玛莉亚医生，大家都知道 Doctor Maria, everybody knows.
-但只有三天，不是六天 -天啊 - But only for three days, not six. - Oh, my God.
一切就绪，还有个肿瘤学家在那 But everything. An oncologist is set there.
真是太棒了 Everything. We're just so good.
我爱你 I love you.
我好爱你 I love you so much.
我爱你 I love you.
-坐下来 -我们要去阿姆斯特丹 - Here, sit down. - We're going to Amsterdam.
我们要去阿姆斯特丹 We're going to Amsterdam.
-去阿姆斯特丹 -你可以过来聊 - We're going to Amsterdam. - You can come talk to me.
你还要打通电话 You've got a phone call to make.
打给他！ Call him!
肺，你得给我撑一个星期 Okay, lungs, you keep your shit together for one week.
懂吗？再一周 You got it? One more week.
嗨，古斯，希望你准备好护照了！
一切看沃特！
-等等，食物 -你忘了什么？ Oh. Oh, wait the food. What did you forget?
带了我的护照吗？ Do you have my passport?
在我这儿 Yeah, I've got it.
就像我对精灵说的… It's like I said to the Genies...
“若不是奢华之旅，就干脆不去了” "I travel in style, or I don't travel at all."
妈，我们要去阿姆斯特丹！ Mom, we're going to Amsterdam!
现在就要去阿姆斯特丹 We are going to Amsterdam, right now.
嗨，兰卡斯特一家人 Hello, Lancasters.
古斯，幸会 Gus. Hey. Nice to see you.
让我来，先生 I'll take that, sir.
古斯，你真别出心裁！ Gus, you're so inventive!
好不好？海瑟葛蕾丝 Okay, Hazel Grace?
行！ Okay!
-你鼻子上是什么？ -杰基！ What's in your nose? Jackie!
-我非常抱歉 -不，没关系 I'm really sorry about that. No, it's totally fine.
它叫“插管” 它帮助我呼吸 It's called a "cannula." And it helps me breathe.
看见这里的这个小朋友了吗？ See this little friend right here?
他从管子里输出氧气 He feeds oxygen through your tube.
它也会帮我呼吸吗？ Will it help me breath, too?
也许，你想试试吗？ Maybe. Do you want to try it?
好的 Okay.
过来 Come here.
好了 There ya go.
有点痒！ It tickles!
哇，是啊，真不错 Wow, yeah, that's something.
我觉得我呼吸得更好了 I think I'm breathing better.
我很高兴送给你 但我需要它 I would love to give it to you, but I kind of could use the help.
-谢谢你让我试试 -不客气 - Thanks for letting me try it. - You're welcome.
好了，杰基，我们走 All right, Jackie, let's go.
-谢谢，保重 -再见 - Thank you. Take care. - Bye.
1721次航班现在开始在46号登机口登记 Flight 1721 is now prepared to begin boarding at gate 46...
-我想是我们的飞机 -是我们的 - I think that's us. - That's us.
-我们要去阿姆斯特丹了！ -哦，天啊 We are going to Amsterdam! Oh, my God.
快，帮我 Come on, help me.
-什么，湿了吗？ -湿手 - What, are they wet? - Wet hands.
-我很抱歉 -恶心！别碰这！住手！ - I'm sorry about that. - Gross! Get outta here! Stop it!
你从没搭过飞机？ Have you never been on a plane before?
没错 No.
太刺激了 It's exciting.
先生？ - Sir? - Uh-huh?
这架飞机上不准抽烟 There's no smoking on this plane.
任何飞机都不行 Or any plane.
我没有抽烟 I don't smoke.
对，这是一种隐喻 Yeah, it's just a metaphor.
把致命的东西叼在口中… He puts the killing thing in his mouth...
却不给它伤害的力量 but he doesn't actually give it the power to kill him.
今天的班机也禁止这种隐喻 Well, that metaphor, it’s prohibited on today's flight.
空服人员，请准备起飞 Flight attendants, prepare for takeoff, please.
谢谢 Thanks.
还好吗？ Okay?
古斯，这就像坐你开的车 Gus, this is what it's like to drive in a car with you.
天啊，我们在飞 Oh, my God, we're flying.
我们在飞！ We're flying!
你看地面！ Look at the ground!
你看 Look.
人类史上从未有过这种景象 Nothing has ever looked like this in all of human history!
看那些车，就像… Look at the cars. They're like...
你们俩太可爱了 You two are so adorable.
我们只是朋友 We're just friends.
她是，我不是 Well, she is, I'm not.
老天！ Oh, my!
离她远一点，你这贱货！ Get away from her, you bitch!
你看这里，海瑟 Look at this, Hazel.
棒呆了 This is so crazy.
哇 What?
看这些镶嵌玻璃，真美 Look at the stained glass. It's amazing.
我去登记住房 Oh, I'm gonna check us in.
要让你盛装打扮… We better get you dressed...
你们俩今晚在奥兰治餐厅订了位 because you have reservations for two tonight, - for dinner at Oranjee. - Oh.
上头写着“请享用，万豪顿先生” And it says, "Enjoy. Mr. Peter Van Houten."
我查了一下，感觉很棒 So, I looked it up and it sounds amazing.
旅游书说那是高级又浪漫的餐厅 The guide book says it’s fancy and very romantic.
是啊，高级… Right. Fancy...
天啊 Oh, God.
好的，那… But, okay, what...
…你要穿什么？ will you wear?
那是给我的吗？ Is that for me?
天啊，好漂亮 Oh, my God. It's so beautiful.
说说罢了 I'm just saying.
说说罢了？ You're just saying?
你是说你很乐意… What, you're saying that you're totally fine...
让你的17岁女儿在著名的… with your teenage daughter running free with an older boy...
罪恶与放荡之城和男生瞎混？ in a city that's famous for its vice and debauchery is totally fine with you?
我差不多就是这意思 Yeah, that's pretty much exactly what I'm saying.
古斯！ Gus!
你真帅！ Oh, you look so handsome!
-谢谢，女士 -哇 - Thank you, ma'am. - Wow.
海瑟，古斯来了… Hazel, Gus is here...
他打扮得超帅！ looking incredible!
我听说这家餐厅不同凡响 I hear this restaurant is unbelievable.
哇 Wow.
什么？ What?
你好美 You look gorgeous.
谢谢 Thanks.
就是这里 This is it.
奥兰治餐厅，到了 Oranjee. Yeah, this is it.
对 Oh, yeah.
你们的位置，沃特先生和太太 Your table, Mr. and Mrs. Waters.
谢谢 Thank you.
谢谢，古斯 Thanks, Gus.
不用客气 You are very welcome.
香槟是本店奉送的，请用 The champagne is our gift. Enjoy.
谢谢 Thank you.
两位好 Good evening.
好不好？ Okay?
行 Okay.
太好喝了 That is amazing.
你知道唐培里侬发明香槟后说啥？ Do you know what Dom Perignon said after he invented champagne?
他说：“快来，我正在品尝星星” "Come quickly," he said. "I'm tasting the stars."
欢迎光临奥兰治 Welcome to Oranjee.
你们想要菜单，或主厨推荐料理？ Would you like a menu, or will you have the chef's choice?
主厨推荐料理似乎很棒 Chef's choice sounds wonderful.
先生… - Mmm. - And, sir, um...
我们还想再来点这个 something tells me we're gonna need a little bit more of this.
今晚星星都装满瓶了，年轻朋友 We have bottled all the stars for you this evening, my young friends.
那是我们的餐吧 - Ooh! - I think that's ours.
女士的紫红萝卜炖饭 Dragon carrot risotto for the lady.
谢谢 Thank you.
这是给先生的 And for the gentleman.
谢谢 Thank you.
请慢用 Enjoy.
我希望紫红萝卜炖饭能变成人… I want this dragon carrot risotto to become a person...
我就能带它去赌城结婚 so that I can take it to Vegas and marry it.
我喜欢你的西装 I like your suit.
谢谢，这是我第一次穿它 Thank you. It's the first time I've ever worn it.
那不是你穿去参加丧礼的吧？ That's not the suit you wear to funerals?
不是 No.
那件西装没有这件好 That one is not nearly this nice.
当我一开始生病… When I first got sick...
医生说我有85％的治愈率 they told me I had an 85 percent chance of being cancer-free.
机率不小 Great odds.
但也代表一年折磨，失去一条腿… But that meant a year of torture, the loss of my leg...
还是有15％的机会失败 and, still, a 15 percent chance it might fail.
在手术前… Just before the surgery...
我问爸妈能否买套很高级的西装 I asked my parents if I could buy a really nice suit.
所以这是你的寿衣 So, it's your death suit.
没错 That's what it is.
我也有一件，十五岁生日买的 I have one of those. I got it for my fifteenth birthday.
一件洋装 A dress.
但我不会想穿那件去约会 I don't necessarily think I’d wear it on a date, though.
我们是在约会罗？ So, we're on a date?
小心点 Hey, you watch it.
我们是沃特先生和太太 We are Mr. and Mrs. Waters.
那是因为她不懂英文 Oh. That's just because she can't speak English.
我们应该从善如流，对吧？ We should be, though, if they ask. You know?
-记得你说过赌城的事？ -记得 Remember what you said about Vegas? Yeah.
我能参加那场婚礼吗？ Do you think I could join in on that deal?
神呢？ God?
也许 Maybe.
那天使呢？ How about angels?
不信 Mmm, no.
来世？ - Afterlife? - Mmm...
不信 No.
也许吧，我不知道 Well, maybe. I don't know.
或许我不该说得这么武断… I guess I wouldn't go as far as to say "no"...
但如果有证据就更好了 but I would like some evidence.
那你呢？ What about you?
我完全相信 Absolutely.
真的？ Really?
我不是说像在天堂整天骑独角兽… I mean, not like a heaven where you ride on a unicorn all day...
住在云朵建造的华厦这类的… and live in a mansion made of clouds...
但我确实相信有某种来世 but yes, I definitely believe in something.
要不然… I mean, otherwise...
有什么意义？ what's the point?
也许根本就没有意义 Maybe there is no point.
这我可不接受 I won't accept that.
我爱你 I am in love with you.
你听见了 You heard me.
奥古斯都… Augustus...
我爱你 I am in love with you.
我知道爱如同对空虚呐喊… And I know that love is just a shout into the void...
…而且必然被遗忘 and that oblivion is inevitable.
我们的命运已注定… And that we're all doomed...
有一天… and that one day...
所有辛苦都会化为灰烬… all of our labors will be returned to dust.
我也知道太阳会吞没唯一的地球 And I know that the sun will swallow the only Earth we will ever have.
但我还是爱你 And I am in love with you.
抱歉 Sorry.
还要星星吗？ More stars?
不了，谢谢 No, thank you.
我们该结帐了 I think we'll just have the check.
不用 No, sir.
万豪顿先生已经付清了 Your meal has been paid by Mr. Van Houten.
什么？ What?
我不明白那件衣服 I don't really get that shirt.
彼得万豪顿会懂的 But Van Houten will get it.
《庄严的痛苦》提了50次马格里特 There are, like, fifty Magritte references in An Imperial Affliction.
“这不是烟斗” "This is not a pipe."
但那明明是烟斗 But it is a pipe.
它不是 But it's not.
这只是烟斗的图案 It is a drawing of a pipe.
懂吗？ See?
图案并非那东西本身 A drawing of a thing is not the thing itself.
衣服上的图案也不是那东西本身 Nor is a T-shirt of a drawing of a thing, the thing itself.
嘿 Hey, you.
你何时变这么成熟？ When did you get so grown up?
谁准备好寻求解答了？ Who's ready for some answers?
我！ Me!
到了 This is it.
我兴奋得快不能呼吸 I'm so excited, I can barely breathe.
你平常不也是这样？ As opposed to normal?
你走开啦 Get out of here.
莉德薇？ Lidewij?
-嗨！ -我是奥古斯都 - Hi! - Hi, I'm Augustus.
-我是莉德薇 -我是海瑟 - Lidewij. - Hazel.
请进 Please, come in.
谢谢 Thank you.
彼得！他们到了！ Peter! They're here!
“他们”是什么意思？ Who the hell is "they," Lidewij?
是奥古斯都和海瑟… They are Augustus and Hazel...
和你通过信的年轻书迷 the young fans with whom you’ve been corresponding.
是美国人？ The Americans?
你邀请他们过来 You invited them.
请进 Please, come in.
你明知我为何离开美国，莉德薇 You know why I left America, Lidewij.
就是不想再见到美国人 To never have to encounter Americans.
你就是美国人 You're American.
无可挽回的事实 Incurably so.
叫他们走 Get rid of them.
我不会这么做，彼得 I will not do this, Peter.
请你行行好 Please, be nice.
请进 Come in, please.
抱歉，我整理一下 Sorry, let me clear this for you.
谢谢 Thank you.
哪位是奥古斯都沃特？ Which of you is Augustus Waters?
我是 I am.
这位是海瑟 And that's Hazel.
万豪顿先生，很感谢你的回信 Mr. Van Houten, thank you so much for writing back to us.
显然这是个错误判断 Clearly an error in judgment. 万豪顿先生，很感谢你的回信 Mr. Van Houten, thank you so much for writing back to us.
显然这是个错误判断 Clearly an error in judgment.
这是我首次回信，结果看我的下场 Yours are the first missives to which I've replied, and look where it got me.
喝威士忌吗？ Scotch?
不用，谢谢 No, thank you.
准备我的就好，莉德薇 Just me, then, Lidewij.
麻烦再一杯威士忌苏打 Another scotch and soda, please.
要不要先来早餐，彼得？ Perhaps some breakfast first, Peter?
她认为我有酗酒问题 She thinks I have a drinking problem.
我也认为地球是圆的 I also think the Earth is round.
你们喜欢我的书 So, you like my book.
-我们爱你的书 -对 - We love your book. - Yeah.
我们很爱 We love it.
奥古斯都他… Augustus...
许愿来见你，我们才能来这里对谈 He made his wish meeting you so that we could talk.
别感到压力 No pressure.
对 Yeah.
你故意穿得像安娜吗？ Did you dress like her on purpose?
差不多 Kind of.
我们要感谢你昨晚请我们吃晚餐 And, incidentally, sir, we both really wanted to thank you for dinner last night.
还有香槟 And for the champagne.
很棒 It was amazing.
太神奇了 It was magical.
我们昨晚请他们吃晚餐？ We bought them dinner last night?
这是我们的荣幸 It was our pleasure.
你们大老远过来 You've come a long way.
我能为你们做什么？ What can I do for you?
我们有几个问题… We have some questions...
当然是关于你书中的结局 obviously, about what happens at the end of your book.
特别是安娜走后其他人的下场 Uh, specifically to those who Anna leaves behind.
例如她妈，荷兰郁金香男… Like her mom, the Dutch Tulip Man...
你们对瑞典嘻哈音乐有多熟？ How familiar are you with Swedish hip-hop?
很有限 I would say, limited.
莉德薇，立刻播放一首 Uh, Lidewij, play Bomfalleralla immediately.
好的 Okay.
我们不会说瑞典语 We don't speak Swedish, sir.
谁会说瑞典语？ Who the hell speaks Swedish?
重点不是那声音在说什么鬼话 The important thing is not what nonsense the voices are saying...
而是那声音的感觉 but what the voices are feeling.
你在开我们玩笑吗？ Are you messing with us?
还是说这是某种表演？ Like, is this some sort of performance?
古斯，坐下 Gus, sit down.
好吧，在书末，安娜的… All right, so at the end of the book, Anna's...
想像你们和乌龟赛跑 Let's imagine you’re racing a tortoise.
乌龟在前方十码处起跑 The tortoise has a ten-yard head start.
当你们前进十码时… In the time it takes you to run ten yards...
乌龟也许前进一码，这般永无休止 the tortoise has moved maybe one yard, and so on, forever.
你们比乌龟还快，却永远追不上它 You're faster than the tortoise, but you can never catch him, you see?
只能缩短领先的距离 You can only decrease his lead.
不过现实中你们可以超越乌龟… Now, certainly, you can run past the tortoise...
如果不考虑其中牵扯的机制 as long as you don't contemplate the mechanics involved.
但解答却是太过复杂… But the question of "how?" turns out to be so complicated...
以致无人能解，直到… that no one really solved it...
康托尔证明有些无限大于其他无限 until Cantor's proof that some infinities are bigger than other infinities.
这应该能回答你的问题 I assume that answers your question.
海瑟，抱歉，我不知道怎么会这样 Hazel, I'm sorry. I have no idea what's going on.
你在信中似乎比较聪明，沃特先生 Yet you seemed so intelligent in print, Mr. Waters.
难道癌症侵袭你的脑部？ Has the cancer found its way into your brain?
彼得 Peter.
让我们专心讨论安娜好吗？ Can we, for one second, just focus on Anna?
拜托你 Please?
我能了解故事结束在句子中… I understand that the story ends in the middle of a sentence...
因为她死了，或病重到无法继续写… because she dies, or that she becomes too sick to continue...
我没有兴趣谈论那本书 I am not interested in talking about that book.
但她的家人和朋友还是有未来 But that doesn't mean that her family and friends don't have a future, right?
对吧？ Right?
我说我没有兴趣 I said I'm not interested.
你答应过的！ But you promised!
什么事都没有！他们只是虚构人物！ Nothing happens! They're fiction!
小说结束时他们就停止存在 They cease to exist the moment the novel ends.
不能这样！ But they can't!
我明白文学意义之类的，但… I get it in a literary sense or whatever, but...
我做不来，莉德薇 I can't do this, Lidewij.
-你一定想过… -我不会纵容你 It's impossible not to imagine what... I will not indulge your childish whims.
我拒绝给予你所习惯的怜悯 I refuse to pity you in the manner in which you are accustomed.
-我不要你的怜悯！ -你当然要！ - I do not want your pity! - Of course you do!
像其他病童，你们的生存仰赖于此 Like all sick kids, your existence depends on it.
-你注定要停留在… -彼得！ - You are fated to live out your days... - Peter!
…你被诊断出来的那个年纪 as the child you were when diagnosed.
相信小说结束生命还能延续的小孩 A child who believes there is a life after a novel ends.
而我们成人，同情这点 And we as adults, we pity this.
所以替你支付医疗费和氧气装置 So, we pay for your treatments, your oxygen machines.
彼得，够了 Peter, that's enough.
你只是进化过程中忽视个别生命… You are a side-effect to an evolutionary process...
而产生的副作用 that cares little for individual lives.
是个突变的失败例子 You are a failed experiment in mutation.
听好，王八蛋… Listen, douchepants...
关于疾病方面的问题… there is nothing that you're gonna tell me about my disease...
我比你还清楚 that I don't already know.
我只为了一件事而来 I came here for one thing and one thing only.
就是要你说出那本该死的书的后续！ That is for you to tell me what happens at the end of this goddamn book!
我不能告诉你 I can't tell you.
-狗屁！ -办不到 - Bullshit! - I can't.
那就编出来！ Then make something up!
你们走吧 I want you to leave.
你有没有停下来想过… Have you ever stopped to ask yourself...
你为何在意这些蠢问题？ why you care so much about your silly questions?
你去死吧 Oh, go fuck yourself.
嘿，没关系 Hey, it's okay.
没关系 It's okay.
我帮你写续集 I'll write you a sequel.
好吗？我帮你写续集 All right? I'll write you a sequel.
一定比那酒鬼写的垃圾更好 It'll be better than any piece of shit that drunk guy could write.
剧情里有鲜血、勇气和牺牲 It'll have blood, and guts, and sacrifice.
你一定喜欢 You'll love it.
抱歉把你的愿望用在那混蛋身上 So sorry that I spent your wish on that asshole.
不是用在他身上，是用在我们身上 No, you did not spend it on him. You spent it on us.
海瑟、奥古斯都！ Hazel and Augustus!
真抱歉 I'm very sorry.
环境因素让他变得残酷 Circumstance has made him cruel.
我以为和你们见面能帮助他… I thought meeting you would help him...
让他明白他的书能影响现实中的人 that he could see that his work has shaped real lives.
但…真的很抱歉 But... I'm very sorry.
要逛逛吗？去过安妮法兰克之家？ Perhaps we can do some sightseeing? Have you been to the Anne Frank house?
我不要跟那家伙去任何地方 I'm not going anywhere with that man.
不 No.
我没有邀请他 He is not invited.
抱歉这里没有电梯 I'm afraid there's no elevator.
-没关系 -楼梯很多 Oh. That's all right. There are many stairs.
-而且很陡 -我行的 - Steep stairs. - I can do it.
-海瑟，我们不必… -我行的 - Hazel, we don't have to... - I can do it.
走吧 Let's go.
法兰克一家来自德国法兰克福 Frank's family came from Frankfurt, in Germany.
安妮法兰克的日记会举世闻名 Anne Frank's diary would become world famous.
这是个艰难的时期 It's difficult in times like these.
奇妙的是我并未抛弃所有理想 It's a wonder I haven’t abandoned all my ideals.
那些理想看似荒唐又不切实际 They seem so absurd and impractical...
然而我紧握不放，因为我仍相信… yet I cling to them because I still believe...
不管怎样，人性还是善良的 in spite of everything, that people are truly good at heart.
我绝不可能将我的人生建立在… It's utterly impossible for me to build my life...
可以吗？ Shall we?
-好 -好 - Yeah. - Yeah.
海瑟，我帮你提吧 Hazel, I'll carry it if you want.
我自己来 I got it.
哇 Wow.
这就是法兰克一家躲藏的书架 So this is the actual bookcase that hid the Frank family.
让我来 I got it.
谢谢 Thank you.
我们太年轻无法处理这些问题… We're much too young to deal with these problems...
但问题却不断来到我们面前 but they keep thrusting themselves on us...
直到最后，逼迫我们想出解决之道 until, finally, we're forced to think up a solution.
你还好吗，海瑟？ You okay, Hazel?
还好 Yeah.
别担心，慢慢来 Don't worry, take your time.
抱歉 Sorry.
行吗？ Yeah?
行 Yeah.
我渴望骑脚踏车 跳舞，吹口哨，看世界…
感受年轻与自由 1943年12月24日
然而，当我仰望天空… And yet, when I look up at the sky...
我总觉得一切都将变好 I somehow feel that everything will change for the better.
而这场暴行，也将结束 That this cruelty, too, will end.
还好吧？ You Okay?
还行 Yeah.
海瑟，我觉得够了 Hazel, I think that's enough.
你不必…懂吗？ You don't need... You know?
我可以的 I got this.
一切都是理所当然的 All is as it should be.
神希望见到人们开心 God wishes to see people happy.
只要有希望的地方… Where there is hope...
海瑟 Hazel.
就有生命 there is life.
做得好 Well done.
对 Yeah.
-还好吗 -还好 You okay? Yeah.
我们到了，你看 This is it, look.
行吗？ All right?
行，天啊 Oh, yeah. Oh, my God.
谢谢 Thanks.
法兰克家族的唯一幸存者是奥托 The only member of the Frank family to survive was Otto.
安妮的爸爸 Anne's father.
在这样的时刻… At such moments...
安妮法兰克
我无法想到痛苦 I can't think about the misery...
反而想到仍然存在的美好 but about the beauty that still remains.
试着收复自己的幸福 Try to recapture the happiness within yourself.
想想你周围的一切美好事物 Think of all the beauty in everything around you...
保持愉快 and be happy.
好极了 Bravo.
我如同入睡一般陷入情网 I fell in love with him the way you fall asleep.
慢慢地，然后立即身陷其中 Slowly, and then all at once.
在膝盖的尖端有一点… it just sort of ends right above where the knee would be...
逐渐减弱 and tapers off.
什么？ What?
我的腿 My leg.
先让你有个心理准备 You know, just so you're prepared.
古斯… Gus...
别想这么多 get over yourself.
等等 Wait.
不行，卡住了 I can't, it's stuck.
我好爱你，奥古斯都沃特 I love you so much, Augustus Waters.
我也爱你，海瑟葛蕾丝 I love you too, Hazel Grace.
非常爱你 So, so much.
奥古斯都，我不能呼吸 Augustus, I can't breathe.
没事的 It's okay.
海瑟 Hazel.
你真美 You're so beautiful.
够了 Stop.
不，你真的很美 No, you're so beautiful.
我好幸运 I'm so lucky.
最亲爱的奥古斯都… 处子之身
十八岁的独腿男孩…
海瑟葛蕾丝敬上
天啊 Oh, my God.
我不敢相信你居然叫他王八蛋 I can't believe you called him "douchepants."
-就是啊 -真的吗？ - I know! - You did?
你怎么会这样说？ How did you come up with that?
不知道，自然脱口而出 I don't know, it just came out.
我当时太生气了 I was so angry.
他简直是禽兽 What a monster.
妈，太糟了 Mom, it was awful.
然后呢？ Then what happened?
我们去了安妮法兰克之家 We went to Anne Frank House.
是吗？ Oh, you did?
-很棒 -有那么棒吗？ - It was really awesome. - Was that incredible?
超棒 It was so awesome.
再来呢？ And after that?
我们就四处走走 We just walked around.
挺不错的 That sounds lovely.
我们还有几个小时，对吧？ we probably still have a few hours, right?
要去梵高美术馆吗？ Should we go to the Van Gogh Museum?
都行 Whatever you want.
没办法什么都做，不过… Probably don't have time to do everything, but...
反正你可以再来的 You're just gonna have to come back, is all.
请你不要胡说了，好吗？ Could you just not be ridiculous right now, please?
海瑟，我没有胡说 Hazel, I'm not being ridiculous.
我只是保持乐观 I'm being positive.
兰卡斯特太太 Mrs. Lancaster?
是的 Yeah?
我能和海瑟独处一下吗？ Do you think Hazel and I can just have a little time alone?
没问题 Sure, Gus.
我去房间… Um, I am gonna run to the room...
需要我的时候随时都能找我 and be ready whenever you guys want to do something.
想去走一走吗？ Want to go for a walk?
怎么了？ What is it?
在你进医院之前… Just before you went into the hospital, there was this...
我感觉臀部有些疼痛 I felt an ache in my hip.
所以我做了正子断层扫瞄 So, I had a PET scan...
结果像闪闪发光的耶诞树 and it lit up like a Christmas tree.
我的胸腔还有肝脏… The lining of my chest and my liver...
到处都是 Everywhere.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
我早该告诉你 I should've told you.
真不公平 It's so unfair.
显然世界不是实现愿望的工厂 Apparently, the world is not a wish-granting factory.
听我说 Hey, listen.
海瑟葛蕾丝，别担心我 Don't you worry about me, Hazel Grace, okay?
我会设法留在人世，长时间纠缠你 I'm gonna find a way to hang around here and annoy you for a long time.
你会痛吗？ Are you in pain?
不会 No.
我没事 I'm okay.
你还好？ You're okay?
行 Okay.
我不认为你能忘掉这件事 I don't suppose you can just forget about this?
假装我不是快死的人 You know, just treat me like I'm not dying.
我不觉得你快死了，奥古斯都 I don't think you’re dying, Augustus.
你只是罹患轻微的癌症 You've just got a touch of cancer.
这么做会不会很可笑… Would it be absolutely ludicrous...
如果我们亲热的话？ if we just made out?
现在？ Right now?
也许吧 Probably.
我美丽的家人 （及古斯）
化疗
你的眼睛怎么样，以撒？ So how are your eyes, Isaac?
很棒 They're good.
唯一的问题是它们不在我脸上 They're not in my head, is the only problem.
除此之外… Besides that...
我整个身体都是癌细胞组成的 Well, um, it appears my entire body’s made out of cancer now.
抱歉我占了上风 So, sorry to one-up you, dude.
你写了他的悼词吗？ Did you, uh... write his eulogy yet?
-老兄 -什么？ - Dude. - What?
怎么？ What?
我还没告诉她，以撒 I haven't told her yet, Isaac.
你们在说什么？ What are you talking about?
抱歉 Sorry.
奥古斯都？ Augustus?
我需要有人在丧礼为我致词 I need speakers at my funeral.
我希望是你和以撒，但最好是你… So, I was hoping that you and Isaac, but mostly you...
拜托帮我准备一下讲词 would be, um, kind enough to whip something up.
我很乐意 I would love to do that.
谢谢 Thank you.
你们真可爱 You guys are cute.
让我想吐 Makes me sick.
你们真恶心 You guys are gross.
莫妮卡联系你了吗？ Have you heard from Monica?
一次也没有 Nope, not a thing.
她甚至没传简讯确认你的状况？ She hasn't even texted you to make sure you're okay?
完全没有 Not once.
我讨厌她 I hate that girl.
但外头还有许多女孩 But there are tons of other girls.
你们不用担心我 You guys don't have to worry about me.
在支持团体，有个新来的女孩… In support group, there’s this new girl...
她有波涛汹涌的… and she has these humongous...
你怎么知道？ How do you even know that?
我是瞎了，但没那么瞎 I'm blind, but I'm not that blind.
海瑟葛蕾丝？ - Hazel Grace? - Hmm.
你有没有五块钱？ Do you happen to have five dollars?
现在怎么做？ Okay, so, now what?
两位 Hey, guys?
我闻到蛋味，那是蛋吗？ I smell eggs. That eggs?
到了吗？ Is it there?
到了 - It's there. - Mmm-hmm.
我好紧张 I'm nervous.
紧张吗？ Nervous?
莫妮卡在吗？ Is Monica in there?
谁管莫妮卡在不在 It doesn't matter where Monica is.
这不是为了莫妮卡，而是为了你 This is not about Monica. This is about you.
给我蛋好吗？ Okay. Can I have an egg?
海瑟葛蕾丝 Hazel Grace...
把蛋给我 egg me.
蛋来了 Egged.
以撒 Isaac.
要开始罗 All right, here we go.
-你行的 -砸吧 - You got this. - All right. Come on.
我什么都没听到 I didn't hear anything.
没关系，偏左边一点 It's all right. A little more to your left.
是我丢到左边，还是该瞄准左边？ Wait, throw to my left, or should I aim a little left?
瞄准左边 Aim left.
-好的 -再左边点 - Okay. - Left-er.
古斯，我们是不是该等到天黑 Gus, I think we should wait until dark.
对以撒来说都是黑夜的 It's all dark to Isaac.
老兄，我没聋，只是瞎了 Dude, I'm not deaf. I'm just blind.
所以我听得见你的取笑 So I can hear when you make fun of my disability.
-抱歉 -我不喜欢 - I'm sorry. - And I don't love it.
-往哪丢？ -用力丢就是了 - Where do I throw? - Just throw hard.
没错 Yes.
-好啊！ -耶！ - Yes! - Yeah!
什么？ What? What?
我丢中了！ I hit it! I hit it!
我知道该往哪扔了 Now I know exactly where to line it up.
真令人振奋！ That was so exhilarating!
别停下来 Keep it going. Keep going.
继续丢 Keep throwing, keep throwing.
再给我 Give me more, give me more, give me more!
停下来 Oh, stop, stop, stop!
以撒 - Isaac. - Oh.
你好，你是莫妮卡的妈妈？ Hello. Are you Monica's mother?
是的 I am.
你好，女士 Hello, ma'am.
你女儿做了不义之事 Your daughter, she's done a great injustice.
所以我们来报复 So we've come here seeking revenge.
虽然我们看起来不怎么样 You see, we may not look like much...
但我们三人有五条腿，四只眼睛… but between the three of us, we have five legs, four eyes...
和2.5副可运作的肺脏 and two-and-a-half working pairs of lungs.
而且还有两打的蛋 But we also have two dozen eggs...
如果我是你，我会回到屋里 so if I were you, I would go back inside.
-老兄，这样真的有用吗？ -是的 - Dude, it actually worked? - Yep.
那是我听过最蠢的话… 真的管用？ That was the stupidest speech I’ve ever... That actually worked?
拿着，等等 There you go. Hold on.
太爽了 This feels so good!
奥古斯都
奥古斯都？ Augustus?
海瑟葛蕾丝 Hazel Grace.
嗨 Hi.
天啊，嗨，我爱你 Oh, my God. Hi, hi. I love you.
我在加油站 I'm at the gas station.
你在哪里？ You're what?
我遇到麻烦 Something is wrong.
你必须… You gotta...
你能过来帮我吗？ Can you come? Can you come and help me?
古斯！ Gus!
古斯 Gus.
怎么了？ Babe, what's going on?
你看 Look.
古斯，这是感染 Gus, it's infected.
深呼吸 Take a deep breath.
古斯，我得打电话求救 Gus, I have to call somebody.
不要，请别打九一一 No, no. Please don’t call 9-1-1. Please.
别打给我爸妈或九… Don't call my parents or 9...
否则我不会原谅你 I will never forgive you if you call them.
古斯，你在这做什么？ Gus, what are you doing here?
你在这里做什么？ What are you doing here?
我想要买香烟 I wanted to buy cigarettes.
原本那包不知道哪去了 I don't know what happened to my pack.
可能弄丢了，或是被拿走了… I might have lost it or something, or they took it, but I just...
但我只想自己做点小事 I wanted to do something for myself, you know?
我想自己做 I wanted to do it myself.
-我得打九一一 -不 - I have to call 9-1-1. - No!
我一定要打 I have to.
不 No!
九一一吗？请派救护车 Hi, 9-1-1? Um, we need an ambulance.
我好恨我自己！ I hate myself!
我叫海瑟葛蕾丝兰卡斯特 My name is Hazel Grace Lancaster.
请快点 Please hurry.
我们在加油站的银色吉普车上 We're in a silver Jeep at the gas station.
真希望我能说古斯始终维持幽默感 I wish I could say that Augustus Waters kept his sense of humor until the end.
每一刻他的勇气都没有动摇 That not for a single moment did his courage waver.
但事实并非如此 But that is not what happened.
疼死我了 It hurts so much.
我真蠢 I'm so stupid.
宝贝，没事，没事 Baby, it's okay. It's okay.
海瑟？ Hazel?
你能给我讲个故事吗？ Will you tell me a story?
故事？ A story?
或者一首诗？ Or, like, a poem?
我不知道…我…我知道一首诗 I do know... I... I know a poem.
能读给我吗？ Will you tell me it?
威廉卡洛斯威廉斯的《红色手推车》 The Red Wheelbarrow by William Carlos Williams.
“那么多地依靠 一辆红色的手推车 "So much depends upon a red wheelbarrow
“雨水使它晶莹明亮 "Glazed with rain water
“旁边有几只白色的小鸡” "beside the white chickens."
就这些？没了？ That's it? Is that all?
不，不，当然不是，当然不是 No, no, no, of course not. Of course not.
“那么多地依靠…蓝色的天空 "So much depends upon... A blue sky
“被树枝分隔开 "Cut open by the branches of trees
“那么多地依靠… 那根透明的胃管 "And so much depends upon the... The transparent G-tube
“从青紫色嘴唇男孩的 肚子里伸出来 "erupting from the belly of the blue-lipped boy
“那么多地依靠 "So much depends
“这个世界的旁观者” "on this observer of the universe"
他的情况如何？ How's he doing?
他昨晚很难熬，海瑟 He's had a tough night, Hazel.
血压很低 His blood pressure's low.
他的心脏… His heart...
那么化疗呢？ What about the chemo?
医生要停止化疗了 They are gonna stop the chemo.
我能见他吗？ Can I see him?
我们会告诉他你在这 We'll tell him you were here.
-好 -好 - Yeah. - Okay.
好 Yeah.
你不介意的话我再待一下 I'm just gonna hang out for a while, if you don't mind.
没问题 Yeah, of course.
慢慢来 Take your time.
来吧，儿子 Here we go, bud.
-行吗？ -好了 - Good? - All right, sweetie.
走吧 Okay.
嗨 Hi.
你在想什么？ What are you thinking about?
被遗忘 Oblivion.
我知道这样很孩子气，不过… I know it's kid's stuff or whatever, but...
我总以为我会成为英雄 I always thought I would be a hero.
我以为我能留下伟大的故事 I always thought I'd have a grand story to tell.
像是可以刊登在报纸上之类的… You know, something they would publish in all the papers, and...
我以为自己很特别 I mean, I was supposed to be special.
你是很特别，奥古斯都 You are special, Augustus.
我懂，可是… Yeah, I know. But...
你知道我的意思 you know what I mean.
我懂你的意思，只是我不同意 I do know what you mean, I just don't agree with you.
老是执着于想要被人记住？ You know this obsession you have with being remembered?
别生气 Don't get mad.
我很生气 I am mad.
因为我觉得你特别，这还不够？ I'm mad because I think you’re special. And is that not enough?
你认为唯一有意义的人生… You think that the only way to lead a meaningful life...
是被大家记得，被所有人喜爱 is for everyone to remember you, for everyone to love you.
但这就是你的人生，好吧？ Guess what, Gus. This is your life, okay?
这就是你的全部 This is all you get.
你有我，有你的家人，和这世界 You get me, and you get your family, and you get this world, and that's it.
若还不够，抱歉，但这些绝非虚幻 And if that's not enough for you, then I'm sorry, but it's not nothing.
因为我爱你 Because I love you.
我也会记得你 And I'm gonna remember you.
抱歉，你说得对 I'm sorry. You're right.
希望你能因此感到开心 I just wish you would be happy with that.
嘿 Hey.
我的人生很棒，海瑟葛蕾丝 It's a good life, Hazel Grace.
又还没有结束 It's not over yet, you know.
奥古斯都 Oh, Augustus.
癌症惯例中没那么蠢的一项… One of the less bullshitty conventions of the cancer genre...
是“最后的好日子”… is the convention known as the "Last Good Day"...
消耗过程似乎突然趋于平稳 when it seems like the inexorable decline has suddenly plateaued...
痛苦有片刻变得可以忍受 when the pain is, just for a minute, bearable.
问题是病患无从得知… The problem, of course, is that there’s no way of knowing...
这是不是真正最后的好日子 that your last good day is your last good day.
只觉得这是一般的日子 At the time, it's just another decent day.
嗨，奥古斯都 Hello, Augustus.
晚安，海瑟葛蕾丝 Good evening, Hazel Grace.
问你个问题 A quick question for you.
写好我请你准备的悼词了吗？ Did you ever write that eulogy I asked you to prepare?
奥古斯都
写好了 I may have.
你能马上来一趟… Do you think you could find your way down...
名副其实的耶稣之心吗？ to the literal Heart of Jesus in the next few minutes?
可以吧，怎么了吗？ Maybe. Is everything okay?
我爱你，海瑟葛蕾丝 I love you, Hazel Grace.
给我车钥匙好吗？ - Can I have the keys? - Oh.
你要去哪？要吃晚餐了 - Where you going? We're gonna eat something.
我得出门 I have to go.
海瑟，你饿了吧，你连午餐都没吃 Hazel, you have to be hungry. You didn't even eat lunch.
我不饿 I'm just not hungry.
海瑟，你必须吃东西 Hazel, you cannot not eat.
我吃不下 I'm aggressively un-hungry.
我知道古斯病了，但你要照顾自己 Hazel, I know Gus is sick, but you got to take care of yourself.
这跟古斯无关 This has nothing to do with Gus.
你得保持健康 Well, then you’ve got to stay healthy.
拜托，吃点东西吧 Come on, just eat something, honey.
“保持健康”? "Stay healthy"?
我根本就不健康，我快死了 Okay, I'm not healthy, and I'm gonna die.
懂吗？我快死了，留你在这… Do you realize that? I'm dying, and you're gonna be here...
到时没有其他人能让你照顾 and you're not gonna have anyone to look after, or hover around...
你也不再是个母亲，我很抱歉 and you're not gonna be a mother anymore, and I'm sorry...
但我也无能为力 but there's nothing I can do about that.
请问我能出门吗？ So, can I please go?
你怎么会这么说？ Why would you say that to me?
因为你自己说过 Because you said that.
你在说什么？ What are you talking about?
在加护病房 In the ICU.
海瑟… Hazel...
那不是事实，我错了 That's not the truth. I was wrong.
好吗？ All right?
假使你死了… Even if you died...
“当”我死了 "When."
即使当你死了… Even when you die...
我也还是你妈 I'll always be your mother.
这是我一生最重要的事 It's the greatest thing I'll ever be.
我最怕这样，妈 That is my biggest fear, Mom.
当我走了… When I am gone...
你就无法过自己的人生 you're not gonna have a life anymore.
只是枯坐和盯着墙壁… You're just gonna sit and you’re gonna stare at walls...
想着自我了结… or you're gonna off yourselves or...
海瑟，我们不会那样 Hazel, honey, we’re not gonna do that.
失去你… Losing you...
肯定如同地狱之苦 That is gonna hurt like hell.
但大家都知道痛苦是可以承受的 But you of all people know it’s possible to live with pain.
过得去的 You just do it.
我在进修社工课程 I'm taking classes in social work.
你说什么？ Wait, you're what?
如果我能用自身经验… You know, if I can take what we've been through...
帮助其他人，或是家庭咨询服务 and help other people, maybe counsel families...
妈，你怎能不告诉我？ Mom, how could you not tell me this?
我们不希望你觉得被抛弃了 We didn't want you to feel abandoned.
觉得被抛弃？ Feel abandoned?
你们，这… You guys, this is...
这是最棒的消息 This is the best news.
你去吧 You go.
好吗？ Okay?
宝贝女儿 Baby.
直走，对 Straight ahead, yeah.
左边一点点 To your left, a little bit.
- 有阶梯吧 - 对，伸手 That's a step, right? Yeah, put your hand out.
右边有座讲台 There's a podium to your right.
非常好 Yeah, perfect.
太棒了 Beautiful.
嗨 Hi.
你迟到了 You're late.
你好吗？你真迷人，海瑟葛蕾丝 How you doing? You look ravishing, Hazel Grace.
我知道 I know, right?
怎么了，两位？ What's going on, guys?
告诉她，古斯 Tell her, Gus.
我想参加自己的丧礼 I wanted to attend my own funeral.
我希望能以鬼魂的身份参加 I mean, I'm hopeful that I'll be able to attend as a ghost, but...
但是我怕我办不到 However, just in case it doesn't work out...
所以就安排一场生前丧礼 I decided to plan this pre-funeral.
好了没？ Ready?
奥古斯都沃特是个臭屁的浑球 Augustus Waters was a cocky son of a bitch.
但我们原谅他 But we forgave him.
不是因为他长得帅 Not because of his superhuman good looks...
或是他应该活更久却只活了十九岁 or because he only got 19 years when he should've gotten way more.
十八岁，兄弟 18 years, buddy.
你不懂吗？ Dude, come on. Really?
我假设你能活更久，爱插嘴的混蛋 I'm assuming you have a little more time, you interrupting bastard.
打断我的悼词，你应该是死亡状态 Interrupt me in the middle of my eulogy. You're supposed to be dead.
不过当未来的科学家… But when the scientists from the future...
带着机械眼睛来到我家 come to my house with robot eyes...
要我试戴看看 and they tell me to try them on...
我会叫那些科学家滚开，因为… I'm gonna tell those scientists to piss off, because...
因为我不想看见少了古斯的世界 because Gus, I don't even want to see a world without you.
我不想 I don't.
不想看见少了奥古斯都沃特的世界 I don't want to see a world without Augustus Waters.
表达完意见后，我还是会戴机械眼 Then, having made my point, I’ll probably put the robot eyes on...
毕竟那是机械眼睛啊 because, you know, they’re robot eyes.
听起来很棒 Sounds awesome.
我不知道… And I don't know... Um...
这还真难 This is just so hard.
祝你一路平安 Godspeed.
是 Yeah.
海瑟，来扶我好吗？ Hazel, can I get a hand here?
右边一点 To the right, a little bit.
好，转身，坐下，行了 Yeah, and turn around. Sit down. There you go.
换你了，海瑟葛蕾丝 It's down to you, Hazel Grace.
大家好 Hello.
我叫海瑟葛蕾丝兰卡斯特 My name is Hazel Grace Lancaster...
奥古斯都沃特是我的不幸恋人 and Augustus Waters was the star-crossed love of my life.
我们的爱情故事很壮烈 Ours was an epic love story...
我大概只说不到一句… and I probably won't be able to get more than a sentence out...
就会被泪水淹没 without disappearing into a puddle of tears.
如同所有真正的爱情故事… Like all real love stories...
这段故事会随我们逝去 ours will die with us.
本应如此 As it should.
我原本希望他能为我演说悼词 You know, I'd kind of hoped that he would be the one eulogizing me.
因为我没有其他人… Because there's really no one else...
对，没有 Yeah, no. Um...
我无法说出我们的爱情故事 I'm not gonna talk about our love story, because I can't.
所以我要来谈谈数学 So, instead, I'm gonna talk about math.
我不是数学家，但我知道一件事 I am not a mathematician, but I do know this.
在0与1之间有无限多数字 There are infinite numbers between zero and one.
有0.1，0.12，0.112… There's point-one, point-one-two, and point-one-one-two, and...
和其他无限多数字 and an infinite collection of others.
当然有更多无限数字存在于0与2… Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between zero and two...
或0与一百万之间 or between zero and a million.
有些无限比其他无限更大 Some infinities are simply bigger than other infinities.
我们曾喜欢的作家告诉我们的 A writer that we used to like taught us that.
我想要更多岁月数字 You know, I want more numbers...
想比我能得到的更多 than I'm likely to get.
天啊… And, God...
我希望奥古斯都能拥有更多的时间 do I want more days for Augustus Waters than what he got.
但是，古斯… But, Gus...
我的挚爱… my love...
我说不出我多么感谢… I cannot tell you how thankful I am...
我们共有的小小无限 for our little infinity.
等等 Hold on.
你在有限的日子里… You gave me a forever...
给了我永恒 within the numbered days.
对于这点… And for that, I am...
我感激不尽 I am eternally grateful.
我好爱你 I love you so much.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
奥古斯都沃特八天后死于加护病房 Augustus Waters died eight days later in the ICU.
他体内的癌症… When the cancer, which was made of him...
让他体内的心脏停止跳动 stopped his heart, which was also made of him.
我无法忍受 It was unbearable.
这一切 The whole thing.
每一秒都比前一秒更糟 Every second, worse than the last.
急诊室的医护员会先请你… One of the first things they ask you in the ER...
用一到十表示自己的疼痛程度 is to rate your pain on a scale from one to ten.
这问题我被问过上百次 I've been asked this question hundreds of times...
我记得一次… and I remember once...
我无法呼吸，胸膛有如火烧 when I couldn't catch my breath and it felt like my chest was on fire...
护理师问我疼痛程度 the nurse asked me to rate the pain.
我无法说话，比出九根手指 Though I couldn't speak, I held up nine fingers.
稍后，我觉得好点 Later, when I started feeling better...
护理师进来，说我很勇敢 the nurse came in and she called me a fighter.
她说“我怎么会知道呢？” "You know how I know?" she said.
“因为你把十比作九” "You called a ten a nine."
但那不是事实 But that wasn't the truth.
我不是因为勇敢才只说九 I didn't call it a nine because I was brave.
那是因为我想保留我的十 The reason I called it a nine was because I was saving my ten.
现在就是了 And this was it.
强烈又可怕的十级疼痛 This was the great and terrible ten.
我不畏邪恶，因你与我同在 "I will fear no evil, for you are with me...
你的杖与竿，都安慰我 "Your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
你在我敌人面前为我摆设筵席 "You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
你以油膏滋润我头，使我福杯满溢 "You anoint my head with oil. My cup overflows.
我终身必有恩惠慈爱相随 "Surely, goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life...
我将住在主的殿中 "and I will dwell in the house of the Lord...
直到永远 "forever."
奥古斯都沃特奋战了多年 Augustus Waters fought hard for many years.
他的表现很勇敢，而他的力量… His battle was a courageous one, and his strength...
一堆废话，是吧，孩子？ What a load of shit, huh, kid?
…能够鼓舞我们所有人 was a source of inspiration for each and every one of us.
让我们祈祷 Let us pray.
感谢主，给予奥古斯都沃特此生… We thank You, Lord, for the life of Augustus Waters...
我们得假装祈祷 We need to fake-pray now.
给予他力量和勇气 ...for his strength and his courage.
愿主今天与我们同在 Lord, we ask that You be with us today, that You be close...
抚慰他的朋友和家人 that You comfort his friends and family.
感谢主的降临 Thank You for Your presence, Lord.
奉耶稣之名祷告 All this we pray in Jesus' name.
阿们 Amen.
我们请古斯一位特别的朋友说些话 Now, we are going to hear from Gus' special friend...
海瑟兰卡斯特 Hazel Lancaster.
不是很重要，但我是他女友 Not that it really matters, but I was his girlfriend.
古斯家有一句美丽的格言 There's a beautiful quote in Gus' home that reads...
想要彩虹，得先忍受雨水 "If you want the rainbow, you have to deal with the rain."
即使在他最后的日子 Even in his last few days...
我自己都不信 I didn't believe a word.
他总能保持笑容 He was always able to crack a smile.
但没关系 But that's okay.
我知道这么做是对的 I knew this was the right thing to do.
反正我决定，丧礼不是为了死者 Funerals, I'd decided, are not for the dead.
而是为了生者所举行 They're for the living.
需要陪你吗？ Hey, want some company?
不用，我没事 No, I'm okay.
我就自己开一小段距离 I'm just gonna drive for a bit by myself.
爱你 Love you.
你说得很好 You spoke beautifully.
待会见，小心开车 I'll see you soon. Drive safe.
好的 Okay.
能上车吗？ May I?
所有细胞都是从细胞而来 Omnis cellula e cellula.
你男友在最后几天和我通了不少信 Your boy Waters and I corresponded quite a bit in his last days.
所以你开始看书迷来信了？ Oh. So, you read your fan mail now?
我不会称他为书迷 I wouldn't exactly call him a fan.
他厌恶我 He detested me.
但他坚持要我出席他的丧礼… But he was quite insistent I attend his funeral...
告诉你安娜和她母亲的后续… and tell you what became of Anna and her mother...
所以我就来了 so here I am.
答案是，所有细胞都是从细胞而来 And that's your answer, "Omnis cellula e cellula."
生命来自生命 "Life comes from life."
我现在没有心情 I'm really not in the mood.
你不想听我解释？ You don't want an explanation?
不想 No, I don't.
谢谢，希望你过得很好 Thank you, though. Have a great life.
你让我想起她 You remind me of her.
我让很多人想起很多人 I remind a lot of people of a lot of people.
我女儿当时八岁 My daughter was eight.
勇敢地长期承受痛苦 And she suffered beautifully for so long.
她像安娜一样罹患白血病？ She had leukemia like Anna?
就像安娜 Just like Anna.
对此我很遗憾 I'm very sorry for your loss.
我也是，抱歉破坏你们的旅行 And I'm sorry for yours. And sorry for ruining your trip.
你没有破坏我们的旅行 You didn't ruin our trip.
我们的旅行很棒 We had an amazing trip.
你熟悉电车难题吗？ Are you familiar with the Trolley Problem?
这是道德方面的思想实验… There's a thought experiment in the field of ethics...
称之为电车难题 known as the Trolley Problem.
菲利帕福特是英国哲学家 Philippa Foot was an English philosopher...
天啊 Oh, my God.
海瑟，我想解释给你听 Hazel, I'm trying to explain something to you.
-我想为你解答 -你才不是 I'm trying to give you what you wanted. No, you're not!
你是个酒鬼，以及失败者… You are a drunk, and you're a failure...
我要你立刻下车 and I need you to get out of my car right now...
让我回家，一个人伤心 so that I can go home, and be by myself and grieve!
你会想读这个的 You'll want to read this.
我什么都不想读 你下车好吗？ I don't want to read anything. Can you just get out of my car?
-请你下车 -好 Please get out of my car! Fine.
我能进来吗？ Can I come in?
我非常遗憾 I'm so, so sorry.
是 Yeah.
这是一种荣幸，不是吗？ It was a privilege, though, wasn't it?
能够爱他？ To love him?
让你体会我们对你的感觉 Gives you an idea how we feel about you.
海瑟？ Hazel?
有个朋友想见你 There's a friend here to see you.
你知道那会不会很痛？ Do you know if it hurt or whatever?
他当时应该挣扎了好久想呼吸 Apparently he was struggling for breath for a long time...
最后失去知觉 and then eventually he just went unconscious.
不算是什么好事 It wasn't great or anything.
死亡糟透了 Dying sucks.
古斯很爱你，你知道吗？ Gus really loved you, you know?
我知道 I know.
他从不会对此住嘴 He wouldn't shut up about it.
是啊 Yeah.
真烦，他提了很多你的事 It was annoying. He talked about you so much.
我不觉得烦 I didn't find it that annoying.
我知道你不会 I know. I know you didn't.
你收到作家朋友的信吗？ Did you get that letter from your author friend?
他不是我朋友 Ew. He's not my friend.
你怎么知道这个？ How do you know about that?
我在墓地跟他聊了几句 Well, I was talking to him at the cemetery...
他说他来这里是要把信交给你 and he said he came all this way to give that letter to you.
我没有兴趣了 Yeah, well, I'm over it.
我再也不想看那个混球写的文字 I have no interest in reading another word of that asshole's again.
不是他写的，是古斯写的 No, he didn't write it. Gus wrote it.
什么？ What?
古斯写了东西寄给万豪顿 Apparently Gus wrote something down and then sent it to Van Houten.
天啊 Oh, my God.
万豪顿先生，我是好人却是烂作者 Mr. Van Houten, I'm a good person, but a shitty writer.
你是烂人，却是好作者 You're a shitty person, but a good writer.
我们应该能当个好搭档 I think we'd make a good team.
我并不是求你帮助 I don't want to ask you for any favors...
但若你有空，就我观察，你很闲 but if you have the time, and from what I saw, you have plenty...
请替我修改这个 please fix this for me.
这是海瑟的悼词 It's a eulogy for Hazel.
她要我写，我尽力了 She asked me to write one, and I'm trying.
我能用点小小天赋 I just... I could use a little flair.
事实是，我们都希望被记住 See, the thing is, we all want to be remembered.
但海瑟不同 But Hazel's different.
海瑟知道事实 Hazel knows the truth.
她不想要众多爱慕者，她只要一位 She didn't want a million admirers. She just wanted one.
她得到了 And she got it.
也许她爱得不广，但她爱得很深 Maybe she wasn't loved widely, but she was loved deeply.
这不是比我们大多人得到的更多？ And isn't that more than most of us get?
当海瑟住院，我知道我快死了… When Hazel was sick, I knew I was dying...
但我当时不想说 but I didn't want to say so.
她在加护病房，我溜进去十分钟… She was in the ICU, and I snuck in for 10 minutes...
我被抓到前，一直看着她 and I sat with her, before I got caught.
她闭着双眼，肤色苍白 Her eyes were closed. Her skin, pale.
但她的手依然没变 But her hands were still her hands.
仍然温暖，指甲是深蓝黑色… Still warm, and her nails were painted this dark blue-black color...
我只是握着她的手 and I just held them.
我强迫自己想像没有我们的世界… And I willed myself to imagine a world without us...
那是多么没有价值的世界 and what a worthless world that would be.
她好美 She's so beautiful.
看着她不会令人厌倦 You don't get tired of looking at her.
我不会担心她比我聪明… You never worry if she’s smarter than you...
因为她就是如此 because you know she is.
她很风趣却不刻薄 She's funny without ever being mean.
我爱她 I love her.
天啊，我爱她 God, I love her.
我何其有幸能爱她，万豪顿 I'm so lucky to love her, Van Houten.
你无从选择在世上是否受到伤害… You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...
但你能选择让谁伤害你 but you do have a say in who hurts you.
我喜欢我的选择 And I like my choices.
希望她也喜欢她的选择 I hope she likes hers.
OK，海瑟葛蕾丝？ Okay, Hazel Grace?
行 Okay.