片名：默默無聞
你好 麥可 Hiya, Michael.
還好嗎？ You OK?
哈羅 爸比 Hello, Daddy. Hello.
哈羅 你有乖乖嗎？ You been a good boy? Huh?
你好 黛麗 Hiya, Deirdre.
他很安靜 非常乖 He's been very quiet.As good as gold really,
可是不想把東西吃完 but didn't want to finish his tea.
怎麼不吃黛麗給你的東西呢？ Why didn't you eat what Deirdre gave you, huh?
我在等你 I was waiting for you.
來 坐下 Here. Sit down here.
我弄就好 Mmm?Sure. I'll get that.
希望我把東西都擺對地方 I hope I put everything where you like it.
你可以下次再告訴我 Anyway, you can let me know next time.
社會局要我下周再來 Social Services said they want me to come again next week.
謝了 Cheers.
應該沒問題 Er... I'm sure it's grand.
那就這樣 拜 麥可 Well, that's me.Bye, Michael.
別把你爸累壞羅 And don't tire your dad.
麥可？ Michael?
拜 Bye.
謝謝你 黛麗 Thank you, Deirdre.
不客氣 No problem.
現在可以玩了嗎？ Can we play now?
好 先吃葡萄好不好？ Aye.Shall we have some grapes first? Yeah?
好 OK.
五只 Five.
學校有人沒洗頭 Someone at school is not washing their hair.
五只 Five.
“下來 下來”他父親哭喊 "'Come down, come down,' his father cried.
“你在我身邊會比較安全” "'You'll be much safer by my side.'"
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後來下麵的人大聲歡呼 "But then the crowd below cheered loud to
看見烏龜差點摸到雲 see a turtle touch a cloud.
他們沒見過這麼勇敢的男孩 "They'd never seen a boy so brave.
他讓他爸爸開心不已 "He gave his dad a little wave."
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當他抵達另一邊 父親充滿驕傲 "And when he reached the other side"his father's heart was full of pride.
他叫大家過來看 "'Come look,' he called to everyone.
他說“那只走繩索的烏龜是我兒子” "'That tightrope turtle... that's my son.'"
再說一個故事 Again.
麥可 不早了 睡覺吧 Come on, Michael, it's late. It's bedtime.
現在我要睡了 求主保佑我的靈魂 Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep.
願主引導我平安度過今夜 May God guard me through the night
再以晨光喚醒我 阿們 and wake me with the morning light.
阿們 Amen. Amen.
晚安 麥可 Good night, Michael.
山姆的媽咪會接你放學 Listen, Sam's mummy will pick you up from school.
你可以帶他的小狗去散步 You can take his puppy for a walk.
我要一只狗狗 I want a puppy.
拜託不要玩食物 Please don't play with the food.
明天我幫你買巧克力玉米球 I'll get you some Coco Pops tomorrow.
儘量喝光柳橙汁 And just try and finish the orange juice.
你好 歐文 Hello, Owen.
早 蘿絲老師 Good morning, Miss Rose.
上學愉快 注意聽蘿絲老師的話 Have fun, Michael, and pay attention to Miss Rose.
拜 羅 回頭見 Bye, Mummy. Bye now, boys. See you later.
拜 媽咪 Bye. Bye, chicken.
拜 再見 See you later.
我的媽咪呢？ Where's my mummy?
我說過了 麥可 她不得不走 I've told you, Michael, she had to go away.
去很遠很遠的地方嗎？ Far, far away?
對 Yes.
很遠很遠的地方 Far, far away.
親親 Kiss.
嗨 麥可 Hi, Michael.
裏頭見 See you in there.
我幫奶奶畫了一只獨角獸 I drew a unicorn for my grandmother.
她一定會喜歡 書有記得放包包嗎？ I'm sure she'll love that. Have you put the books in your bag?
有 媽咪 Yes, Mummy.
通勤有時比較累 Yeah, the commute can be difficult sometimes,
但每晚回到家就值得了 but it's worth it though when you come back to this every night.
安詳寧靜 充滿綠意 Peace and quiet, surrounded by greenery.
他喜歡大自然嗎？ Does he like nature?
我們熱愛戶外活動 We're very outdoorsy people.
你應該看得出來 我們喜歡走路 We like to go for long walks, as you can see.
我們在考慮…養條狗 We were thinking about maybe getting a dog?
我知道麥可會喜歡小狗 會為它擔起責任 I know Michael would love a puppy, to be responsible for.
太好了 That's great.
希望他跟我們過一樣的童年 We sort of hope the boy would enjoy the same childhood as ourselves,
不是整天在家裏玩電腦 not just inside on the computer all day.
他能盡情奔跑 不受溺愛 And here he's free to run around, not be mollycoddled,
可以自由爬樹 從樹上掉下來 free to climb trees and fall out of trees.
我們當然會照顧他 你懂我意思 I mean, we will look after him obviously, but you know what I mean.
我相信他會喜歡爬樹 No, I'm... I'm sure he'll love to climb trees.
他是個安靜的小男生 He's a... he's a quiet wee boy,
但會聽話 一向很乖 but he listens and he's always well behaved.
在學校人緣很好 He's very popular at school.
大家都說他是個好孩子 I'm always being told what a great kid he is.
他很有愛心 會關心別人 He's loving... caring.
他是個快樂的小男生 He... he's a happy wee boy.
我想要… I, er... I want...
他值得有個正常家庭 一對父母 He deserves a normal family, two parents,
一個甜蜜的家 a loving family home
還有我小時候沒有的各種機會 and all the opportunities I never had as a child.
你看那個 Oh!
撞到頭了 還好嗎？ You bang your head? Are you all right?
我還好 I'm all right.
真的嗎？ You sure?
我要他做我無法做的事 I want him to be able to do all the things I never could.
甚至沒想過的事 Never even thought of.
我們瞭解 We understand that.
我們把一個房間漆成藍色 We've painted one of the rooms blue,
他不喜歡的話可以改 but if he didn't like it, we could always change it.
我們能給我們兒子最好的教育 And, of course, we can afford the best education for our son.
我是說你兒子 I mean, your son.
西麗亞是托兒所老師 As you know, Celia's a nursery teacher.
我們能讓他進她學校 We could get him into her school.
也許他以後能進我的寄宿學校 And perhaps later on, he could attend my own boarding school.
他們很願意收校友的小孩 They're very keen on having children of alumni.
是 但他現在的學校很好 Well, yeah, but, er... he's doing well where he is.
那裏離這不遠 他也有朋友 And, er... you know, it's not far. He's got friends, so...
當然 我們會照你的意思 Oh, of course. We... we'd follow your guidance.
他知道你的情況嗎？ And what does he know of your situation?
不知道 他知道越少越好 Nothing. The less he knows the better.
那生母呢？ And the birth mother?
沒有生母 There is no birth mother.
看到沒？看到小蟲了嗎？ Can you see? Can you see the bugs?
看到裏面的小蟲了嗎？ Can you see the bugs in there?
那未來呢？ What about in the future,
你希望你兒子知道你什麼？記得什麼？ what would you like your son to know about you?To remember?
你希望新的家庭… What would you like your... the new family to...?
我是洗窗工人 I'm a window cleaner.
1 2 3 One, two, three,
6 7 12 15 14 six, seven, twelve, fifteen, fourteen.
想想看 Just think, Michael,
那些貨車載貨到好多地方 all those lorries,taking so many things to so many places.
那些車載人去上班 And all those cars with people going to work,
去很遠的地方看朋友 or to see their friends, far away.
麥可 以後你想住在別的地方 One day, Michael, would you like to live somewhere else,
像是不同的城市 不同的家嗎？ in a different town, a different home?
我喜歡我們的家 I like home.
我不想要他去想… I don't want him to think about it...
去理解死亡 ...to understand death.
不是現在 還不到時候 Not now, not yet.
他年紀太小了 He's... he's just too young.
他會以為這一切還會再發生 He'll think it'll happen again,
新的家人和身邊的人會死 to his new family, all those around him.
他會孤身一人並覺得自己也會死 He'll be left thinking that he will die, too. I mean, you know...
那樣的童年太黑暗了 What kind of childhood is that?
約翰 記憶箱不是那樣的 John, a memory box is different.
他現在不需要 以後才需要 He won't need one now, but he will need it
他的新父母也需要 and his new parents will too.
你知道嗎 約翰 You know, John,
他可能有段時間會每天想你 there might come a time when he thinks about you every day
他需要從實體的東西開始 and he'll need something to start with, physical, real,
去連結 去建立記憶 to connect with and build on.
建立？ Build on?
是手冊上寫的嗎？你剛通過考試嗎？ Is that from a manual? Have you just passed the exam?
約翰 別這樣 香娜說得對 John, please. Shona's right.
就算不是現在 以後也會 Maybe not now, but later.
等他滿18歲 他有權瞭解親生父母 And certainly when he's eighteen and he has the right to find out for himself who his birth parents were.
他何必知道自己是被領養的？ Why does he have to know he was adopted?
我們找人當他僅有的家人 We will find him a family that will be his family, his only family.
他根本不必記得他親生父母有多沒用 He won't even have to remember how useless his parents were.
母親離開他 父親死掉 His mother leaves him and then his father dies.
他肯定會瘋掉 I mean, that... that would definitely fuck him up.
麥可 時間還早 Oh, Michael, it's early.
麥可 我叫你別在書上畫畫 Michael, I told you not to draw in the books.
圖書館的唐太太會怎麼說？ What's Mrs Donnelly at the library gonna say?
好
放在哪里？你自己選 Here, where do we put it? You choose.
很好 我貼給你看 That's good. Let me show you.
壓 用力壓 Give it a big push.
很好
我贏了 I'm winning!
他們實在很討厭 Don't you just hate them?
讓狗在花園裏亂跑 They leave their dogs in the garden, loose,
又希望收到郵件 but they still expect their mail, don't they?
郵件遲到或不見又愛抱怨 And then they complain if something's late, or God forbid, goes missing.
他們和他們討厭的狗 Them and their bloody dogs.
真可惡 然後它們還過來咬你 A menace.And then, they come at you and they bite you.
好像你是它們的玩具 It's like you're their bit of fun for the day.
小只的最壞了 The small ones are the worst, aren't they? Mmm.
你看 麥可 Look at that, Michael.
隔著褲子咬的 Right through my trousers.
要注意狗狗 麥可 Always watch out for dogs, Michael.
它們隨時都會咬人 You never know what they feel like biting next.
麥可喜歡狗 他認識一只乖狗狗 Michael loves dogs.He knows a very nice puppy.
再來塊蛋糕嗎 約翰？ Er... would you like some more cake, John?
好吃吧？她自己做的 It's great, isn't it? She made it herself.
完全沒有防腐劑 None of those old preservatives.
謝謝 真好吃 Thank you, no. It was delicious.
香娜 吃一點？ Er... Shona, would you?
謝謝你 潘 我不能吃 Oh, thank you, Pam, I really couldn't.
麥可 你想再吃一點潘的蛋糕嗎？ Michael, would you like a wee bit more of Pam's cake?
那我最好再吃一點 Ah, well...I'd better have a wee bit more myself then,
免得被兔子搶走了 before the rabbit gets to it.
爸 兔子又不吃蛋糕 Dad, rabbits don't eat cake.
麥可知道我在開玩笑 對吧 麥可？ I'm sure Michael knows I'm only joking, don't you, Michael?
你們當寄養家庭三年了吧？ And you've been fostering for three years now, is that right?
對 不容易 Mm hmm. Yeah, but it's been tough, you know?
放棄懷孕的念頭很難 It's... hard letting go of the idea of being pregnant.
你要別人感到驚喜 You know, you want people to make a fuss over you,
你希望佈置一間嬰兒房 you want to get the... the baby room ready, you know?
它在腦中徘徊不去 你會感到痛苦 And it lingers in your mind and you feel this pain
看著別的母親帶著寶寶 watching other mothers with their babies.
每個月都覺得自己是個失敗的女人 Every month you feel like you... you've failed as a woman.
不 No.
抱歉 約翰 Sorry, John.
你應該知道 I'm sure you know
人生不如意十之八九 life doesn't always work out the way you mean it to.
也許我註定要照顧別人的孩子 So I thought that maybe I was put on this earth to look after other people's children.
後來小安六歲…七歲時 我們就開始當寄養家庭 And when Anne was... six? Seven.Seven, we started fostering.
你覺得如何 小安？喜歡嗎？ How was it for you, Anne? Did you enjoy?
她從一開始就很喜歡 對吧？ Oh, she took to it straight away, didn't you? Didn't you, pet?
適應得很好 Like a duck to water.
有時看到他們離開也很難過 But sometimes it's sad to see them go, you know?
嗯
現在我們不想再道別了 Now we don't want to say goodbye to any more.
我們都犯過錯 但終究會找到適合的人 We both made our mistakes, but we found someone special
就會永遠在一起了 and we'll be... we'll be together forever, won't we?
他們逛街還會牽手 超尷尬 They're still holding hands when they're together shopping. It's embarrassing.
說得沒錯 我們幾乎形影不離 That might be somewhat true.We do nearly everything together.
我半夜上廁所 她還陪我 我還… If I get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom,she comes with me,keeps me company.So I go for a piss...
爸 Dad!
講這幹嘛？他們會怎麼想？ Why would you tell them that? What will they think?
他不尿尿的嗎？ What, he doesn't piss?
爸 Dad!
別理他 Don't mind him.
你的孩子會成為這大家庭的一份子 Now... look, your child will be part of a big family.
我們都是踏實的好人 All good people, real people.
最好跟尊重你的人在一起 You wanna stick to your own, people that respect you,
不是瞧不起你的人 懂我意思嗎？ not people who talk down to you. You know what I mean, John?
我懂 I know what you mean.
我是郵差 Postman, sure.
沒人寫信了 You know, it's... Nobody writes letters anymore
相信我們很快就會被淘汰 and I'm sure they're gonna do away with us pretty soon,
被無人機取代 replaced by a flying drone or something.
到時狗要咬什麼呢 麥可？ And what will all those dogs bite then, eh, Michael? Eh?
喜歡那只兔子嗎 麥可？ Did you like the rabbit, Michael?
你不想養只兔子嗎？ Wouldn't you like a rabbit to look after?
我要小狗 I want a puppy.
快好了 Almost done.
謝謝你 麥太太 Thank you, Mrs McDonagh.
你不必這麼麻煩的 You really didn't have to go to the trouble.
不麻煩 你需要體力 No trouble. You need your strength.
不然我還能幹嘛？ And what else would I be doing with myself?
來 金金
噢！
你的特製三明治 Here's your special,
都是你喜歡的配料 just as you like it.
真感謝 Thank you very much.
金金 Kim.
過來 Here you go.
好乖 Good girl.
約翰 這些人或許有點自大 You know, John, these people, they may be a bit know it all,
但他們是專業人士 but they are professionals.
如果他們說你應該… Er... you know, if they say that you should...
我該怎麼跟他說？ And what am I meant to tell him?
說我會上天堂 坐在上帝旁邊嗎？ That I'm... in heaven, sitting next to God?
造成這件事的那個上帝嗎？ The same God who did this?
其實 我母親相信來世 Well... you know, my mother believed in it, an afterlife.
她不相信塵歸塵 土歸土那套 But none of your "dust to dust" stuff for her.
她會說我們是空氣 不是土 "We are air not earth," she would say.
死後我們一直都在 "And we're always there, after.
我們的靈魂和能量存在空氣中 "Our spirit, our energy, is in the air."
以前我常嘲笑她的想法 You know, I used to, er... make fun of her, of her ideas, when I was young.
可是 她說得沒錯 But you know, she was right.
現在她會以各種方式回來找我 And now she comes back to me in all sorts of ways.
晚上她會坐在我床上 跟我聊天 She sits on my bed at night and we talk.
她非常平靜 And she's very peaceful.
她不是用嘴巴說話 I mean, she she doesn't talk with her mouth or anything.
但我們會聊天 But we... but we talk.
約翰 請進 Hi, John. Come on in.
你好 茱蒂 嗨 葛麗絲 Hi, Judy. Hello, Grace.
葛麗絲 跟麥可的爸比打招呼 Grace, say hello to Michael's daddy.
抱歉 請進 Sorry. Come on in.
好乖 Good girl.
抱歉 今天不太順利 Er... I am sorry. It hasn't been the best of playdates.
麥可 你爸比來了 Michael, your daddy's here.
你在桌子底下做什麼 麥可？ What are you doing under the table, Michael?
他今天不想玩 We didn't feel like playing today.
他不太乖 And we weren't very nice.
對葛麗絲講話有點凶 對吧？ We didn't say nice things to Grace, did we?
麥可？ Michael?
你遲到了 You're late.
對不起 I'm sorry.
可以走了嗎？ Can we go now?
你能向葛麗絲和茱蒂道歉嗎？ And can you say sorry to Grace and to Judy for not being nice?
對不起 Sorry.
沒關係 麥可 It's OK, Michael.
別擔心 想必你很辛苦 Don't worry about it. It must be... difficult.
謝謝你 茱蒂 Cheers, Judy.
謝謝你 葛麗絲 And thank you, Grace.
謝謝你 葛麗絲 Thank you, Grace.
不客氣 麥可 You are welcome, Michael.
歡迎你隨時再來喔 And you come again anytime you want, OK?
走吧 再見 Come on. See you.
學校見 See you at school.
我們要去見更多新朋友嗎？ Are we gonna see any more new friends?
今天不會 Not today.
系上安全帶 Put your belt on.
爸比 Daddy.
那是什麼？ What is it?
你發現什麼？ 它不會走 What did you find? It doesn't go.
這是甲蟲 麥可 It's a beetle, Michael.
它死了 It's dead.
它不能走路了 It can't walk anymore.
叫它走 Make it go.
沒辦法 I can't.
它死了 It's dead.
甲蟲死後 身體就沒用了 When a beetle dies, its body doesn't work anymore.
它不會動 不會吃 也不會玩 It stops moving. And eating. And playing.
為什麼？ Why?
因為… Because...
就像所有動物和植物 Because like all the animals and the plants,
所有有生命的東西 all the living things,
出生後過著快樂的日子 it was born and lived a happy life
然後變老 去世 and... then it got old and it died.
死後留下身體 And when it died, it left its body behind,
小小的腿、頭、肚子 都空了 its wee legs, its head, its tummy, all empty.
這只甲蟲其實已經不在了 But the beetle really isn't there anymore, it's...
只剩下身體 It's just its body.
它很難過嗎？ Is it sad?
不 麥可 它不難過 No, Michael, it's not sad, it's...
它… It's...
它就是不在了 it's just not there.
霜淇淋 霜淇淋 Ice cream! Ice cream!
（第一名老爸）
喂 Oi!
我不是付錢請你來睡覺的 I'm not paying you to sleep up there.
那個角落沒洗到 You missed that corner.
先生 這扇窗還沒開始洗 Sir, I haven't started on this one yet.
不知道別人在推薦你什麼 Don't know what there was to recommend.
以後不會找你了 兄弟 First and last time. Won't have you around again, mate.
別擔心 我也不是你兄弟 No risk of that. And I'm not your mate.
對 只是不會洗窗的臭屁洗窗工 Right, just an uppity window cleaner who can't clean fucking windows.
嗨 盧 Hi, Lu.
回頭見 See you later.
你已經可以自己弄了 Sure, you're old enough to do this yourself.
不會割到手指 And without cutting your fingers.
孩子有時會吵架 Sometimes the children fight,
躲在房間裏 hide in their rooms.
然後同一個孩子又會從學校回來 Yeah, but then the same child will skip through the door from school,
還拿到一個數學獎之類的 you know, clutching a prize that they've just won for maths
你就知道自己做對了 and you know you've done something right.
我好為他們驕傲 I'm so proud of them
也十分地感激 and grateful for the privilege
有機會跟這麼棒的孩子一起生活 of sharing our lives with such incredible young people.
爸 真的嗎 包括湯姆？ Really, Dad, even Tom?
包括湯姆 尤其是湯姆 Yes. Even Thomas. In fact, especially Thomas.
爸說得對 記得他本來的樣子嗎？ Dad is right. Do you remember what he was like?
媽 可以走了嗎？我快遲到了 Mum, can we go now? I'm gonna be late.
佛瑞迪 東西收好放車上 Freddy, can you get your stuff together, please, and put it in the car?
這次千萬別忘了靴子 Make sure you don't forget your boots this time.
我馬上過去 I'll be there in a minute.
誰把空盒放回冰箱的？ Who put the empty carton back in the fridge?
佛瑞迪 Freddy!
媽 佛瑞迪拿走我的靴子 Mum, Freddy's taken my boots.
媽 我遲到了 Mum, I'm late.
來了 Coming.
我能說什麼 約翰？ I mean, what can I tell you, John?
我對他們的感覺沒有不同 To me there's no difference in the way I feel about them.
親生與領養的都一樣 The birth children and the adopted ones.
孩子都是我的 我視如己出 My children are me own so I love them as me own.
他會是我們的最後一個 And he'll... he'll be our last one.
如果老天爺願意 Oh, yeah, but if it's God's wish,
他會是加入我們家的最後一個 then he will be the last one to join our wee family, so to speak.
他會受到疼愛 And he'll be loved...
我們都會愛他 ...by all of us.
對吧 比利？ Right, Billy?
媽 Mum!
我請客 That's on me.
乾杯 Cheers.
可以的話明天回來 或週五 Come back and do them tomorrow if you can, or Friday.
明天好了 到時候雨應該會停 Tomorrow. It should've settled by then.
又浪費了一天 我該待在床上的 Another wasted day. I should've stayed in bed.
我希望寶寶能讓情況改善 I hoped a baby would've made everything OK,
但他出生後半年 but, er... six months after he was born,
她就買機票回俄國了 she bought a ticket back to Russia and she left.
就那樣離開了 連轉寄地址都沒留 She just left.Didn't even give us a forwarding address.
不管她在哪 損失可大了 Wherever she is, she has no idea of what she's missed out on
現在他是個可愛的小男生 and the lovely wee man he's grown into.
那不是她的錯 Well, it wasn't her fault. She...
我在這裏不能給她她想要的 Here I just couldn't give her what she wanted.
她太想家了 She missed her country too much.
其實 我也不是她想要的 The truth is, I wasn't what she wanted.
可是… But, er...
當我聽到… when I was told about, you know...
我以為也許她能… ...I thought maybe she could, you know...
或許有一天 ...maybe one day...
就像派太太解釋的 As Mrs Parkes explained,
真的太遲了 it really is too late, John.
就算我們能找到她 Even if we were able to trace her,
協會也無法評估狀況 the council would have no way of assessing the situation
我們不能不替麥可著想 and we couldn't risk Michael's wellbeing.
約翰 John...
一步一步來 我們會找到的 One day at a time, yeah?We'll get there.
早 約翰 Good morning, John.
抱歉讓你久等 I'm sorry for keeping you waiting.
你好嗎 約翰？ How are you, John?
你說呢？ You tell me.
我們明白你想為兒子爭取最大權益 John, we realise you want the best for your son.
我們都想 相信我 We all do. Believe me.
你的狀況很特殊 And your circumstances are exceptional.
所以我們得以特殊方式處理 Which is why we're treating this in an exceptional way.
做決定前能考慮的家庭有限 But there's a limit to the number of families we can consider before taking a decision.
這是我們的責任 你懂嗎？ This is our responsibility, you understand?
他們都是很好的家庭 And these are all good families...
我懂 但你們不能要我… I know. I do understand. But you can't ask me to...
我以為第一次見到他們就會知道 I...I thought I would, you know, know when I first saw them.
我以為很簡單 要或不要 I thought it would be simple. No, yes.
這些不行 他們可以 Not these. That's them.
要是我錯了呢？要是… But what if I'm wrong? You know, what if I...
我必須很篤定 I need to be sure.
當然 Of course.
不能在報紙和商店櫥窗登廣告嗎？ Can't we just put an ad in the paper? In a frigging shop window?
廣告還得經過核准程式 Because they'd still need to go through the approval process
我們快沒時間了 and we're running out of time.
應該沒事 可考慮換組輪胎 She should be fine.You might want to think about getting a new set of wheels on her.
但現在跟新的一樣了 But she's, er... she's as good as new.
只收你碟盤費用 工錢算我的 That's... just for the discs.Labour's on me.
謝謝 Thank you.
你喜歡汽車嗎 麥可？ Do you like cars, Michael?
貨車 Lorries.
貨車？ Lorries?
我們也修貨車 改天來幫我們忙？ We fix lorries, too.Maybe you come around some day and give us a hand, eh?
你想來嗎 麥可？ Would you like to, Michael?
幫喬治修貨車？ Help George fix some lorries?
再見 喬治 Cheers, George.
祝你好運 Good luck.
快點 晚餐要遲到了 Come on. We're gonna be late for tea.
巧克力… Chocolate, chocolate.
巧克力… Chocolate.Chocolate.
有看到嗎？ Can you see it?
巧克力 Chocolate.
巧克力粉在哪里？ Where is the chocolate powder?
巧克力 Chocolate.
在那裏 Oh, there it is.
褐色還是紅色的？ Brown or red?
紅色 Mmm... red.
紅色巧克力 Red chocolate.
泡打粉… Baking powder...
泡打粉在哪？ 泡打粉 Where's the baking powder? Baking powder.
泡打粉呢？ 泡打粉 Baking powder? Baking powder.
在這裏 Ah, there it is.Er...
麥可 我們問小姐哪種泡打粉最好 Michael, maybe we can ask this lady which is the best baking powder?
要買泡打粉嗎？對 You need baking powder? I do.
你媽咪要做蛋糕給你吃嗎？ Is your mummy making you a cake?
不是 是我爸比 No, my daddy.
好幸運的小男生 Lucky boy.
那種 There.
這個？對 This one? Perfect.
好 謝謝 Great. Cheers.
拜 Bye.
麥可 放進去？ Michael, you want to put that in?
好棒 Good man.
對 好棒 Yeah. Good man.
葡萄 Grapes.
葡萄給麥可吃 Aye. Grapes for Michael.
放好 In they go.
好 東西都買了嗎？ OK.Have we got everything?
傷腦筋 我看一下清單 That's the question. Let me check the list.Er...
麥可 蛋 Michael, eggs.
蛋 Eggs.
蛋 忘了買蛋 Eggs. We forgot the eggs.
蛋在哪里？要去找蛋嗎？ Where are the eggs? Shall we go find the eggs?
蛋…蛋… Eggs! Eggs.
蛋…蛋… Eggs!
好 Right!
這是最後一包蠟燭 This is the last packet of candles.
再來是什麼顏色？ Which colour next?
紅色 Red. Red.
紅色 好 Red.Ok
就紅色 Red it is.
可以插了 Mmm... we are ready to go.
33根蠟燭 Thirty three candles.
3 3 Three. Three.
快好了 再來哪一根？ Mmm... nearly there. Which candle next?
紅色 紅色？ Red. Red.
你確定？ 紅色 Red? Are you sure?
紅色 好意外 就紅色吧 Red. Red. OK.What a surprise. Red it is.
好了 Ready.
爸比的蛋糕上有34根蠟燭 Thirty four candles on Daddy's cake.
34根蠟燭代表34歲 Four. Four.Thirty four candles for thirty four years.
好 插好了 漂亮嗎？ That's it. We're finished.What do you think? It looks good, huh?
你老了 You're old.
我老了？ I'm old?
我沒那麼老 I'm not that old.
對 麥可 But yes, Michael,
爸比已經不年輕了 Daddy's not so young anymore.
有一天… And one day...
送我的嗎？ Is this for me?
謝謝 Thank you.
真抱歉 我完全忘了你們要來 I am so sorry. I completely forgot yous were coming.
我是不是說過了？ I've said that already, haven't I?
我雖然沒有潔癖 I mean, I 'm not the tidiest of people,
但這裏通常沒這麼亂 but the place isn't usually this messy.
我一周洗一次衣服 I do my washing and ironing once a week.
我不喜歡只洗一半的量 I hate doing those half loads, don't you?
當我洗麥可的衣服時 感覺我都只洗一半 Well, with Michael's things, it feels like all I do is half loads.
是嗎？自從孩子的爸離開後 Oh, really? You know, since Daddy's gone,
我就讓衣服堆著 堆成這樣 I... I just kind of let it build up and then I'm left with this.
謝謝 香娜 Thank you, Shona.
我來燒水泡茶 All right, shall I put the kettle on and get us a cup of tea?
太好了 Aye. Grand.
好嗎？ Yeah?
謝謝 Thank you.
麥可 想喝茶嗎？還是果汁？ Michael, do you want a cup of tea?
他想喝果汁嗎？ Would you... like some juice? No? Would he like some juice?
好 OK.
約翰 不曉得你是否知道我的狀況 So, John, I don't know how much you know about my situation.
當時我剛滿16歲 對方是同事 Well, I'd just turned sixteen and it was with one of the lads I worked with back home.
那是我的第一次 常見的情節 I mean, it was my first time and, you know, there it was.Typical.
我愛他 And I loved him.
16歲的愛情 很蠢 You know, that sixteen year old love for your...
我家人發現時 鬧得很誇張 Just a dope.And then when my ones found out, well, Jesus, there was uproar.
我爸嚇壞了 他說隔壁鎮上有醫生 Daddy was horrified.He just... he said that there was a doctor in the next town
我打死不同意 and... like, I said, "No way."
對我來說 And then for me, that...
要簽那些表格時 When it just came time to, you know, signing those forms...
我真的好生氣 好氣身邊的人 it just... I think that I was just so angry.I was just so angry with everyone around me cos
我只想留下我兒子 I just really wanted to keep my son.
我真的認為我們做得到 And I really thought that I could do it
當時我真的很想做到 and I really, really wanted to do it, like, even back then.
你相信我嗎 約翰？ Do you believe me, John?
我無法選擇 And I couldn't choose.
我根本沒見到要帶走寶寶的父母 I mean, I didn't even meet the parents that were set to take the baby.
幾年後 So then all those years later,
醫生說我應該無法再懷孕 the doctor said that I probably wouldn't be able to carry a baby again.
領養是最好的選擇 沒關係 Like, adoption was the obvious choice for me
我想將他們 and that was fine cos I would've just thought that
視如己出 I would love our child just the way I would have loved the child I had to give up.
但我老公想法不同 But my husband, he didn't feel the same.
他覺得無法愛不是親生的小孩 He just thought that he couldn't love a baby that wasn't his, you know?Like, actually his. So...
我們就離婚了 That was the end of that.
過來 Right, come here, you.
看卡車上能裝多少石頭 Come here.Let's see how many rocks you can fit into the truck.
所以已經三年了 So it's been, what, three years now since I've been...Two. Two.
我排入系統三年了 It's been three years now since I've been approved and in the system.
有時他們說只找夫妻 無所謂 You know, sometimes they say that they're just looking for couples, which is fine,
看資料時我會先看這一點 but that's the first thing I do when I go on those profiles.
我想看單身能不能領養 I see if it's OK that I'm single.
我不怪他們 I mean, I don't blame them cos...
如果我為自己孩子找新家 I think that if I was looking for a family for my baby, that's what I'd want, you know?
也會找兩個人 膚色體型無所謂 Two people, doesn't matter the colour or the shape or any of that craic.
一對相愛的夫妻就好 Just two people that loved each other.
我覺得那很重要 不是嗎？ I think that's important, don't you?
對 我想也是 Yeah, yeah. I suppose.
很不容易 It's hard, you know?
對我來說 隧道底的光 I mean, for me, it's like... it's like the light at the end of the tunnel
就是即將進入這屋子的孩子 is a child coming into this house.
就像贏得獎盃 只是更棒 I would be like... it would be like winning the cup.Only it would be way better.
你裝了幾個？ How many did you get in?Mmm...
我只想有個孩子來愛 I mean, I just... I just want a child to love, you know?
給他我的愛 To give my love to.
他嬰兒時期乖不乖？ What was he like as a baby?
他害我整晚不能睡 Er... he kept us, er... well, me really, up all night.
他母親不能餵奶 長牙時也不好帶 His mother couldn't give him milk and teething was difficult.
你在他這年紀又是什麼樣子？ And what were you like when you were his age?
不知道 I don't know.
聽說四歲前是我爸在帶 Er... they told me my dad brought me up for my first four years.
他是貨車司機 He was a lorry driver.
把嬰兒床擺在車上 Kept the cot in the back of the cab.
後來就到了寄養家庭 And then after that, it was foster homes.
我能問你一件事嗎？ Can I ask you something?
你喜歡跟你爸做什麼？ What do you like to do with your dad?
嗯… Mmm...
近來我們不太做什麼活動了 Well, we don't do so much physical stuff these days, do we?
我們會看書 看電視 去公園 So we... we read and watch TV, go to the park.
有時洗窗戶 對吧 麥可？ And sometimes we wash windows, don't we, Michael?
你喜歡洗窗戶嗎？喜歡弄濕嗎？ Do you love washing windows? Do you love getting wet?
不喜歡 No.
你什麼時候會死？ When are you gonna die?
嗯… Er...Jesus.
我不知道 麥可 Well, I don't know, Michael.
沒有人知道 I don't think anyone knows.
希望不會很久 I hope it's not for ages.
我以前常嫉妒別人 You know, I used to be so jealous.
羡慕那些長壽的老人 I was so envious of all those who lived on,all those old people,
當時我老公快死了 他還年輕 and my husband was going to die and he was still young.
我醒著躺在他身邊 I'd lie awake at night next to him and...
真的好生氣 I just got so angry.
他跟我完全不同 But he wasn't like that at all.
他說他更喜歡我們相處的每一刻 He said he enjoyed even more every minute we spent together,
他身邊的事物似乎更特別 更美好 that everything around him seemed to be more special, wonderful.
陽光更燦爛 The sun was brighter...
花朵的顏色更鮮豔 ...the colours of the flowers were richer.
就連草地都更青翠了 Even the grass was greener.
我不太懂他在想什麼 I'm not sure I know what he was on about.
也許他那樣說只是為了讓我好過一些 Maybe he said it just to make me feel better.
我只看到死亡 無所不在 All I see is death, always there. Everywhere.
好像有人總是想伺機而動 Like some bloke hanging around who wants something.
我小時候絕不示弱 Never show weakness is how I grew up.
在那種地方一示弱就完蛋了 You showed weakness in one of those places, you were screwed.
那是我人生的原則 That's how I lived my whole life.
但有時送他上學 But sometimes...
好多媽媽帶著小孩 ...when I drop him off at school,there's all those mums there with their kids...
我會莫名流淚 止不住 ...the tears well up.
我只能走開 不讓人看見 And there's nothing I can do,just turn around, walk away and hope that nobody sees,
沒人會過來幫忙 nobody... nobody comes over and tries to help.
那不是軟弱 那是愛 That's not weakness, angel, that's love.
我怎麼能這樣對他？ Yeah, but how can I do this to him?
我給了他一個家 如今卻要奪走它 I've given him a family and now I'm taking it away.
你為他做的這件事很勇敢 You are doing something very brave.
你應該驕傲得要死 You should be dead proud of what you're doing for him.
抱歉 我是說… I'm sorry, I mean...
人的體內都快爛了 竟能渾然不知 It's funny how you can rot inside and not even know it.
就是啊 I know.
你還想他嗎？ Do you still miss him?
想 Yes.
不 No.
我每天跟他說話 I talk to him every day.
我們共度了美好的50年 We had fifty wonderful years together.
我們唯一難過的是沒有小孩 Our only sadness was that we never had children.
真希望我沒這麼老 能幫你的忙 I wish I wasn't so old I could do this for you.
去年耶誕節我終於丟掉他的牙刷 I finally threw out his toothbrush last Christmas.
過來 Come here.
我們不必領養小孩 We don't have to adopt.
我相信我和老公能生下可愛的寶寶 I'm... I'm sure my husband and I are perfectly capable
但我們選擇不那麼做 of bringing a lovely baby into the world,but it's just not our choice.
想到挺著大肚子懷孕 The idea of waddling around happily expectant
然後從醫院帶寶寶回家 and then bringing a little tiny newborn home from the hospital
關上門 住在一個小繭裏 and closing the door and... living in a little cocoon,
跟世界隔離… all away from the world...
不適合我 It's just not really me.
不適合我們吧 崔佛？ It's just not us, is it, Trevor?
不適合 No.
我們都覺得… We we both feel that...
我們喜歡迎接生活的挑戰 We like to confront life.
我們喜歡正面對決 We like to face things head on.
這對我們來說會是一個新旅程 And for us this would be... a new journey.
全新的冒險 A whole new adventure.
我們心裏有空間 And we have room in our hearts
家裏更有充足的空間 and we certainly have plenty of room in our home,
所以為何不去做呢？ so why would we not?
有人需要父母 我們能當父母 And if someone needs parents, then we can be those parents.
很好 That's good.
我替你們高興 I'm, er... glad for you.
你喜歡他嗎 麥可？ Er... do you like him, Michael?
嗯
他叫吉米 His name's Jimmy.
說謝謝崔佛 Say thank you to Trevor.
謝謝 Thank you.
他跟照片不太像 對吧？ He doesn't really look like his photo, does he?
也不像你 他像媽媽嗎？ I mean, or you. Does he look like the mother?
他眼睛很像媽媽 Aye, he has his mother's eyes.
什麼樣的母親會丟下孩子 I mean, how any mother can leave a child?
離開老公我能理解 I mean, leaving the father I can completely understand,
可是丟下孩子？孩子需要母親啊 but leaving a child?A child needs a mother.
你要一個媽咪嗎 麥可？ Wouldn't you like a mummy, Michael?
這得丟掉 This will have to go.
我們太早就準備好了 We jumped the gun a bit.
羅蘭她… Lorraine...
我們希望生寶寶 可是… We were hoping for a baby, but...
請相信我 我們會愛他 But please... please believe me, we will love him,
我們會用愛把他養大 we will, er... we will bring him up with love.
不只為了他 也為了我們 Not just for him, but but for us.
那樣會很好 充實的人生 That will be good.A life well spent,
值得驕傲 something to be proud of.
畢竟幫助孩子成長最棒了 I mean, after all, what could be better than helping a child grow up...
讓他準備面對人生 ...ready to face life...
就像父母為我們做的 ...like your parents did for you?
當快要離世時知道你有所貢獻 And to leave this world knowing that you contributed to something real,
知道你在世上的旅程有目標與意義 that your passage on this earth had a purpose...
抱歉 有時我會說個不停 ...and a meaning.Sorry. You have to excuse me. Sometimes I go on.
這是我的房間 And, er... this... this is my room.
其實是火車的房間 Well, it's the train's room, really.
羅蘭不懂我為何常待在這裏 Lorraine doesn't understand why I spend so much time in here.
這裏總有事可做 But there's always something to do,
有東西要改善 要修理 something to improve, something to fix.
你必須花時間仔細瞧 You just have to take the time to look at it,
就像小孩子那樣 carefully, like a child would.
你想麥可會喜歡嗎？ Do you think Michael would like it?
他喜歡貨車 He likes lorries...
還有火車 ...and trains.
也許你能帶他來看 Maybe you could show it to him.
好 Yeah, yeah.
等他大一點 這些容易弄壞 When he's older. It's... it's all a little delicate.
哈羅 爸比 Hello, Daddy.
麥可 OK, huh?
謝謝你們來 Well, thank you so much for coming.
麥可 很高興認識你 Michael, it was lovely to meet you.
還有你 約翰 很榮幸 And you too, John. Real pleasure.
是 謝謝 Yes. Thank you.
崔佛 Trevor.
麥可 吉米住這裏 Michael, Jimmy lives here.
改天你能來找他玩 But maybe you could come and play with him another time?
麥可 跟吉米說再見 Er... Michael, I want you to say goodbye to Jimmy.
謝謝崔佛讓你跟他玩 And thank Trevor for letting you play with him, OK?
謝謝你讓我跟他玩 拜 Thank you for letting me play with him. Bye.
拜 拜 Bye. Bye.
好 Good.
我們走吧 Come on, let's go.
什麼是“領養” 爸比？ What's adopt, Daddy?
領養就是當小孩的爸媽不能照顧他時 Adopt is...when a child cannot be looked after by his mummy and daddy...
他能去跟兩個好心的新爸媽住 ...and so he can go and live with two nice new parents...
他們能給他溫馨的新家 ...who can give him a new loving family home.
我不想被人領養 I don't want to adopt.
別跌倒了 麥可 Don't fall, Michael.
小心點 Be careful.
約翰 這些事有特定的處理方式 John, these things are done in a certain way.
我們得遵照各種程式 There are all sorts of procedures we're supposed to follow.
它們不適用你的情況 They're not written for a case like yours.
你們去哪找到那些人？ Where did you find those people?
用了什麼鬼程式？ What fucking procedures did you use?
對不起 約翰 I'm sorry, John.
這種事在所難免 很多配對不成功 But it does happen.A lot of matches just don't work out.
他們只是想找年紀更小的 I think they were just hoping for someone younger.
我連狗都不會讓他們養 兔子也不行 I wouldn't have given them a dog to look after. Not even a fucking rabbit.
這是我一生最重大的決定 This is the biggest decision of my life.
他們不懂嗎？你不懂嗎？ Don't they understand? Don't you?
不是我要求太多 It's not about me wanting to be right. It's...
我懂 所以我還在幫你 I do understand. That's why I'm here.
我違反了好多規定 I'm breaking loads of rules
肯定連不懂的規定都違反了 I know about and I'm sure a few more that I don't.
被派太太發現 我就得打包走人 If Mrs Parkes finds out,I'll be asking you for a job before I finish my training.
重點根本不在瞭解他們 It's not even about them, figuring them out.
是麥可 It's Michael.
我總以為自己瞭解他 I always thought that I knew him.
我瞭解 我知道他是我兒子 I mean, I do. I do.You know, he's... he's mine. He's my son.
但我真的瞭解他嗎？ But do I know him? Really know him, you know?
為了這件事 夠瞭解嗎？ Enough? For this?
天啊 Oh, God. Fuck.
需要喝酒時怎麼沒酒？ Where's a drink when you need it?
你幹嘛帶我來這裏？ Why did you bring me to this place?
其實…我不知道 You know what? I don't know.
來吃蛋糕吧？ For some cake?
好 下次去酒館 OK, fine. We'll go to a pub next time.
點兩大杯伏特加 把事情搞定 Have two big vodkas. And then we'll sort it all out.
如果你獲准的話 Well... if you're allowed.
獲准？ Allowed?
絕對害不死我的 It's definitely not gonna kill me.
貨車洗得夠乾淨了嗎？ Do you think you've cleaned that lorry enough, Michael?
我覺得很乾淨了 It looks very clean to me.
沒有 很髒 No. It's dirty.
來 頭往後仰 免得肥皂流進眼睛 OK, come on, lean your head back. I don't wanna get soap in your eyes.
對 That's it.
沒了 No more.
跟蘿絲老師說沒頭蝨了 We can tell Miss Rose they're all gone.
死光光了 All dead.
不要用我的湯匙 No, don't use my spoon.
跟你說過這樣很沒禮貌 I told you it's rude.
我還要 More.
再弄給你 別吃我的好嗎？ I'll get you more. Just please don't eat mine. OK?
不要 No!
老虎那件很髒了 不能穿 The tiger ones are dirty. You can't wear them.
明天再洗 現在太晚了 We'll wash them tomorrow. Now it's late.
麥可 拜託穿上 Michael, put these on, please.
麥可 Michael!
麥可 穿上新睡衣 Michael, put the new pyjamas on now.
等你想道歉時再出來 And don't come out of here until you're ready to say sorry.
你在貨車上放了什麼？ What are you putting in that lorry there?
石頭 Rocks.
我刪掉了所有奧客 Yeah, so I've crossed out all the bad ones.
好客戶加星號 Mm hmm. Put a star next to the good ones
問號是會付款 但需要提醒的 and a question mark next to the ones who, you know, do pay but just need a bit of reminding from time to time.
好 Here.
如果還有問題 打我電話 So, if you have any more questions, you got my number.
我應該還會用一陣子 I should be on it for a little wee while. Thanks. That's great.
謝謝 太好了 你要出國嗎？ Are you going abroad?
對 Aye.
這是鑰匙 Oh, here are the keys.
好好照顧它 它不會讓你失望 If you look after her, she shouldn't let you down.
太棒了 會的 我會讓你知道狀況 Brilliant. I will. I'll let you know how it goes.
抱歉 差點忘了 Oh, sorry, I almost forgot.
給你的 下週一才能兌現 This is for you. But don't cash it until next Monday, OK?
謝謝 Cheers.
祝我好運 Wish me luck!
好好對它 Keep her lit.
（當恐龍死的時候：瞭解死亡）
就像甲蟲…離開它的身體 Like the beetle... left its body,
但如今在森林中飛翔 but is now flying around the forest...
很快有一天 ...one day soon...
爸比也會離開身體 ...your daddy will leave his body...
但永遠在你身邊 ...but will always be around you
在空中 in the air.
像天上的氣球？ Like the balloon in the sky?
對 Yes.
你看不到我 You won't see me,
但可以跟我說話 but you can talk to me...
我會仔細聽 and I'll listen.
你不會像現在一樣聽到我的聲音 And you won't hear me like you hear me now...
可是… but...
你心裏會聽得見 ...you'll hear me inside you.
心裏？ Inside?
嗯 Mm hmm.
我會永遠陪著你 Cos I will always be with you...
在你身邊的空氣中 ...in the air around you...
在溫暖你的陽光裏 ...and in the sunshine that warms you.
還有雨水？ And the rain?
對 Aye...
把你淋濕的雨水 and the rain that gets you wet.
還有葡萄？ And the grapes?
對 Yes.
我也會在那裏 I'll be there too.
不在葡萄裏 Not in the grape,
在它的味道裏 but in the taste of it.Mmm?
（給麥可）
（小狗）
你好 約翰 Hi, John.
麥可 真高興再見到你 Hi, Michael. It's so lovely to see you again.
（根據真實故事改編）