this morning I would like to read to you
in this poem by Laura riding there are
as many questions as answers what is to
start it is to have feet to start with
what is to end it has have nothing to
start again with and not to wish what is
to perceive it is to know too late for
touching what is to anger it is to turn
a word into a dumb word what is to speak
it is to be safe but brave even as in
danger what is to bear a name it is to
be what is to whisper it is to be near
speech and to fear what is to cry it is
to be far more speech interfere most
human beings the broader academic
million and the other parts of his
nature completely disregarded and so
there is an imbalance and throughout his
life he may be first obstetrician but it
might be immature utterly unaware of all
the inward operations inward walking and
so there is a battle going on between
the outer and inner all the time
now what we're all trying to do here is
to have excellent seen in technological
not academically but also inwardly at
the same time in teaching to find a way
of living in which every form of
resistance every form of antagonism to
human beings violence Nova is understood
and completely gotten over because I
think as one observes you must have seek
to in the world this division between we
and there and you and me with my beliefs
and your beliefs and my nationality or
my god your God has really created such
havoc and well it is possible to live
without any form religion without any
any image of concept we are you but
next day you come down with leg
stretcher
good fit on here
one more on x-ray and you bend on the
legs
stay
draw up the minutes more when you exam
good now you place hands for the twist
first one yes yes you stretch spine up
on each head first now you place head
and out y'all
yes stayin hey exhale the head of this
mall good come back the other way
not here and this one's not not below
here yes pain head head now inhale and
you twist
eglee little bit more
good comeback in ham stay there I guess
you raise an inference I'm Sonic they're
behind you on the ground for the count
goes yes they won that the hands are bit
too close yes like this that's good
so an inhale you raise the body you push
the cows the toes down and then head
back
yes again it's more
good darling the closed legs I happen to
have go to schools in India universities
there and I've broken the University in
California and other places I should
think that they're fed up and bored to
tears with all this happening around
them war politics science and the early
livelihood I've talked to great many
voices voice will and money at all
I should have any profession you feed us
it's your job
we don't work I think it they persist no
question is a different kind of life and
experience so they take to drugs because
that promises some kind of holy
experience or they take to the sex
becomes extraordinarily important
because that becomes God over they have
no other God which they can be happy
with and sex becomes almighty but and
also I think the consistent thing would
be freedom but they don't know what it
means
deeply fundamentally but they want to be
free to dress as their life not on their
money or take drugs dropouts you know
just do what they want I think they call
that freedom which is really disorder
ultimately but you want a human close
call relationship don't you or do you
say that's not even necessary
it will be it may be a relationship
friend or man girl you know love sex
alone that don't want all that to be
little be honest about it
don't pretend because this and then
there's no fun we say one thing and
really in your heart you feel something
entirely different then you might just
stop talking okay life itself and life
itself
you must have relationship yes but what
kind of freely companions which go out
for a walk with to be go to a cinema go
to you want romantic remain relationship
is that what you want do forget the what
other people want what do you want that
romantic relationship and that's you
your role you want to live it most
people want security but inwardly there
is such confusion such what's the point
of it all as if you'd know what am what
is told me this going to prison is
earning money getting married as you saw
this most of them say well shrug it man
why should I have children what is the
point of it all so they did but yet
behind all this I you must have observed
I'm quite sure on see that there is a
feeling of desperate loneliness you want
a relationship with everybody
with all the people you come into
contact with in which there is no
resistance no sense of separateness
where you have a feeling of great
friendship affection not necessarily sex
you may or may not if I thought you want
and would you walk sorry huh how would
you set about it if that's what you want
because you have to build it it just
doesn't happen so what will you or will
you be gay you understand the question
not to have any resistance towards
anybody and you'd be honest to yourself
no I'm just asking how you would set
about to create this kind of
relationship around you in which you
find yourself happy in which you find
yourself living a life that you really
think is good in themselves them from
any stability not you just be the
stability of a belief stability in my
parents in in a social structure and all
that but all that's gone today this
confusion is in in the uncertainty of
ever finding something that is really
both why
you are capable of being hurt right Wow
somebody says to you you are not so nice
looking eyes so you feel that you're not
as clever as that person you don't mind
then what do you mind
are you very rich before does she mind
which hurts you I I know I've been hurt
but why go into it may I help you don't
you compare yourself with another huh
you know what it means comparison
measuring yourself against somebody else
why do you measure yours why do you
compare yourself with somebody else
maybe because you want to be you think
that person is good and you want to be
like like you
which means for you prefer that image to
your image of yourself
so can you stop comparing
knowing when comparison takes place
which is measurement taking place
between you and another in that
comparison there is always the
possibility of being hurt that's one of
the cause of a real deep hurt I am not
like you I want to be like you but I'm
not and if she comes and tells me you're
not like huh I get hurt when you don't
do that what happens you will you wither
up you'll be free to find out free to
find out more
really concentrate on what you're doing
for the thing itself instead of doing it
so it'll be building something else and
you ever tried what happens you're kind
of you don't have a thing to judge
anything by a standard it's kind of just
there and it's that's all you know so
you don't have any kind of judgment
about it whether it's good who taught me
would that mean that you're living in a
vacuum in emptiness then what does it
mean probe into it what does it mean to
live without any kind of comparison
you know comparison implies imitation
competition aggression
and avoidance of what actually is VLT
experience in our eternal relationship
but what is really yes but you live that
way can you live that way or are you
just theorizing about it no I am trying
yeah to live completely without any kind
of competitive aggressive compare
competitive activity going on inside you
hmm can you do that
and isn't that freedom
huh
very complex because our well is about
nature because uh I don't know what it
is but it still seems to me there is a
tendency if there's a lot of people
going to one direction if it ends you're
being pulled in it is good we like to be
safe
you think thinking we want to belong to
the herd we don't want to be different
because but being different might get
more hurt you follow lose our job and so
on therefore you should unfollow
so if you see the fallacy of following
which is and you can only see the
fallacy of for it when yours when you
are learning about it
therefore the intelligence comes and you
can't go with it anymore there is it
isn't a child it's the temptation I
don't know you just can't do it
might be and sometimes I sense you're
going to suffer from hell me no but
don't speculate about it you see you are
speculation then leads you to
uncertainty hmm and uncertainties gonna
say be careful you'll get hurt and back
you go back to the old hood so can you
live intelligently in freedom and never
be hurt again
I come and tell you to do something
don't be late
or this or that as hard I become the
authority here supposing I do what is
your responsibility to that authority of
mine if I have one
that's right to understand how it
related to the o-rings then if it is
sort of producing the destructive and
anyway you're in stairs we're discussing
the other day cooperation without
authority right not around an idea
around a belief around a person who
represents that belief and becomes the
authority the person dominant how would
you please leave how would you respond
to a structure in which there is
Authority
you have understood learn you have
become intelligent would say sighs I
have no image I've no I don't compare
anymore
I live and you have to live with me with
others who are full of authoritarian
attitude towards life but how would you
what will you do
you know ascertain what means no more
who feel who have a sense of power
position prestige because you won't have
an image of yourself you say here to
tell me what to do then how will you
what is your relationship with that
well you do you do it but you see that
it is and your prejudices and and and
opinions about you and everything else
don't interfere with with what it is
well you know then you have no no image
of yourself to get hurt too
so but you have to live in this
community what will you do
yeah okay so someone comes and tells me
don't be late my reaction won't be why
did he have to tell me but my reaction
will be by being late I should stop
being late
so what so what so what is happening in
there between day between you and the so
called you're learning hmm therefore
what does that mean yes sir you only be
in a role that you want to live when an
audience listens to you your words seem
to intensify their energy what if if
they receive
first of all sir if anybody did
knighthood is who thinks very clearly
who sees things very clear not things
who sees very clearly and live is what
he sees clearly not just words and
speculations theological all scientific
speculation but actual reality is
dealing with it does not only give to
the speaker a tremendous energy because
he there is no conflict he see he says
when he says I'm a liar I'm a liar
there is no pretension about it's only
when there is a pretension when he's
trying to be not Allah then the trouble
me but to see the fact as it is and to
go beyond it gives one a tremendous
energy and perhaps that's what one
transmits verbally and non-verbally
probably more non-verbally there's also
in that is implied that one cares one
has you know some affection lover all
that comes out that may be what one
feels I'm
can you live that way Sara from now on
you may have four people you know met
occasionally lapse into the old ugly
business but you can you maintain can
you go on living that way never because
you have understood the danger of
comparison is finished and can you that
we learn what freedom is we said the
other day freedom isn't doing what you
want
according you like or dislike according
to your temperament we went into all
that the other day now I have been
brought up in a certain way and I object
sitting or touching a person who is not
of my particular car flowers or this or
that have you got prejudices of that
kind
no no go into it
don't say I strong it but have you got
prejudice which remember what we mean
being conditioned as a Christian
Buddhist or a Hindu Communist this or
that and react according to that
conditioning respond according to that
condition is what we said is prejudice
have you but such prejudices what do you
do about them if you have you will get
hurt see see you will get hurt why going
to look at I may be wrong look into it
because that divides people doesn't it
huh therefore every form of division
must produce country the black and the
white the Chinese the Mao is the
Stalinist
in the Trotskyites over the Catholic in
the Protestant the Jew you follow all
these division inevitably breeds
antagonism and comes war and all the
rest so mmm you see
so do you know your conditioning and
your prejudice and can can you see where
it's all I think because it's one of our
conditioning is that will gradually get
rid of our condition will take time if
you don't see well it's a danger Oh what
happens when you become aware of your
condition
go on don't push push it's your job not
mine
now not the good said I am quite problem
3 so look what we have discussed just
now we said comparison before what it
does whether you can live in a world
without an image about yourself then we
talked about Authority then we said
freedom what is implied little bit of it
and intelligence
so intelligence is to be sensitive both
physically and in every way
are you doing this is this the kind of
world you want to live in which you have
building which you have trying to build
in yourself is that they can't grow you
want
otherwise you'll enter that world would
you now say is terrible but as you grow
older it's all I have got used to it
would you live alone
come down to my question sorry I know
that so that insect on my head will you
create this here the prop good because
you're going to live in a community of
people want more or less the same thing
one may interpret it one way or another
but the general relationship is
cooperation that was tremendous
intelligent sensitivity not saying well
you're right I'm wrong your authority I
am NOT you've all that the city stopped
can you make this to the next six months
otherwise you won't get hurt if you
can't do it here you can do it out there
because it's your home people care for
you they want you to live
what are you saying what Rockwood is
really trying to do can you answer can
you
German no remember what he said this
afternoon about what kind of a world do
you want to live in do you want to live
in a world when everybody's cooperating
everybody's living together that's what
you want isn't it
why do you work in it I don't know to me
I think more of a spontaneous thing
living for moving to those it's also
like when you're lying in bed at night
and you're just thinking
let me start thinking about your
thoughts and there's no one there to
start challenging you I mean yep during
the day that seems well not simple it
truly isn't simple but it would mean
lower then to just go into your own
thoughts and just wash them to travel
and it just get all like I just get all
concerned there must be a third day of
the road legal authority the policeman
but this dependency on earth for one's
comfort province
I want escape from one's own fears and
boredom loneliness all that creates
Authority and then word begins to
conform and in that conformity there is
the battle of ma I'm trying to follow a
particular pattern which you don't like
or which you like in which you suppress
yourself all that we have been through
you see so I think most of the people
that have heard what we have been
talking about know they dangerous of all
whether they can do it or not that's up
for them but it's been thoroughly
pointed out over and over and over again
then otherwise you'll build up a church
your personal cult and all that rubbish
when you coming down has a limit or not
when description or the explanation is
never the described or the explained the
world is never the thing if that is very
clear I mean really clear in the sense
one never identifies through the world
the object but sees that the word is not
the thing like the door the word door is
not the door if that is very clear then
world maybe though there may be
dangerous on see see the danger of
hidden avoid
you see one must be sensitive both
physically and inwardly intelligence
cannot operate unless one is really
highly sensitive now either you induce
that sensitivity through various forms
of fast
you