《情事》前情提要 Previously on The Affair
- 我认识你吗? - 我想你今早 - Do I know you? - I think you decked me
用你的冲浪板打了我一下 with your board this morning
让我来补偿一下你 Yo, let me make it up to you
我刚看着你吸毒,混蛋 I just watched you freebasing, asshole
那就报警啊 Why don't you give the police a call, huh?
很乐意告诉他们 Love to tell them
我第一次是从谁那儿买的毒品 who sold me my first eight-ball
洛克哈特先生 Mr. Lockhart
科尔,她把自己女儿丢在我们家门口 Cole, she abandoned her daughter on our doorstep
- 她仍然是琼妮的母亲 - 她不配 - She is still Joanie's mother - She doesn't deserve to be
你想让我怎样做呢? Well, what do you want me to do?
给她想要的吧 Let's give her what she wants
这样我们就不用为她的事操心了 so we can stop thinking about her
我不喜欢艾莉森 I'm not a fan of Alison
她的女儿应该回到她身边 She should have her daughter back
我们做得对 We did the right thing
该死 Oh, shit
警官好 Hi, Officer
我痛恨那个该死的警察 I hate that a fucking cop
叫我靠边停车,我只能寄希望于 can pull me over, and my only hope
你认识他 is that you know him
而他喜欢你,这样就不会为难我 and he likes you so he won't fuck with me
或许我们能再试试给你弄张绿卡 Maybe we can try again to get you a green card
怎么申请? How?
我没有亲生的孩子 I have no children of my own
也不能证明自己处境困难 I can't demonstrate hardship
猜猜我今天上午去哪了 Guess where I was this morning
- 我不知道,艾莉 - 我去了伍德朗 - I got no idea, Ali - I was at Woodlawn
像我这样拥有这种经验的人 Someone like me, with my experience
可以做一个职业人士 I could turn this into a career
作为职业? A career?
我只是想过好现在的生活 I'm just trying to move on with my life
我可没看出来你在过"新生活" I would hardly call what you're doing "Moving on"
- 怎么这么说? - 你已经 - Why not? - You have practically
将他的死,变成了你的身份 made his death your entire identity
我和你说的那个会 That conference I was telling you about
在蒙托克开 it's happening in Montauk
这是拨款协调人办公室吗? Is, uh...is this the grant coordinator's office?
- 你好,我是艾莉森 - 本 - Hi. I'm Alison - Ben
你这个项目还要多久? How long do you have left with your program?
五个月两周零三天 Five months, two weeks and three days
可谁会记着呢? But who's counting?
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你在暗示什么吗? What are you implying?
什么也没有,科尔 I'm not implying anything, Cole
我就问问 I'm asking
艾莉森有抑郁史,所以... Look, Alison has a history of depression, so...
你觉得她最近怎么样? how has she seemed to you lately?
她感觉怎样? How has she been feeling?
她感觉怎样? How's she been feeling?
她一直很开心 She's been happy
她一直很好,这些年来 She's been fine...for years now
她不会对琼妮那样做 And she wouldn't do something like that to Joanie
放松点,科尔 Just relax, Cole
杰弗里斯只是想帮忙 Jeffries is trying to help
等等,那是索罗维吗? Wait. Is that Solloway?
你好,侦探 Hi, Detective
我们感谢你做的一切 We appreciate all you're doing
不,我们没有 No, we don't
他把重点搞错了 He's not concentrated on the right things
她最近约会的对象怎么样? What about the guy she's been seeing?
本杰明·克鲁兹 Uh, Benjamin Cruz
他有不在场证明吗? Does he have an alibi
关于什么的不在场证明? An alibi for what?
这不是谋杀调查,科尔 Look, this isn't a crime investigation, Cole
艾莉森失踪了,所以我们关注点在她 Alison is missing, so we're focusing on her
如果你想起什么就打给我 Just give me a call if you remember something
她在意的事情 Things she was concerned about
任何失常行为,甚至是... Any irrational behavior. Maybe even...
我的上帝 Oh, Jesus Christ!
我告诉你了,她一直很好 I told you she's been fine!
安东 Anton
我们在这停一下 Let's pull off up here
去吃点什么 Let's get something to eat
好的 Sure
该死 Oh, fuck
你要接吗? You want to get that?
我帮你点餐 I'll grab you something
谢谢 Thank you
嘿,路易莎,怎么了? Hey, Luisa. How are you?
第一话
艾莉森
国务卿吗? Secretary of state?
为什么不当总统呢? Why not the president?
总统活儿太多了 Too much work
我们要挂了 Well, we have to go now
我要给某人刷牙 I have to brush someone's teeth
- 我能自己刷 - 是啊 - I can do it myself - Yeah
拜拜,诺亚,下次见 Bye, Noah. See you later
拜,琼妮,谢谢你和我聊天 Bye, Joanie. Thanks for talking to me
好了,全部都要刷,背面也是 Okay, brush 'em all, even the back ones
我会检查 I'm gonna check
我会的 I will
我也许应该自己找点事做 Uh, I should probably get going myself
是的 Yeah
你看起来很好 You look good
谢谢你 Thank you
你好吗? Are you good?
我想是的 Yeah, I think so
你呢? You?
我很好 Yeah, I'm fine
海伦极力阻止我 Helen's kind of making it a herculean task
去见孩子们,但是... to see the kids, but...
你搬过去不就是为了见他们吗? Well, isn't that why you're out there?
当然,但你知道海伦的 Sure is, but you know Helen
我们为啥要对如此复杂的事情过于简单化? Why make things simple when they can be painful and difficult?
你做得对 Yeah, well, you're doing the right thing
孩子们会知道你所做的努力 Your kids will know that you fought to see them
总有一天,这会对他们意义重大 And it will mean something to them one day
希望如此 Hope so
相信我,我爸就什么也没做,我知道 Believe me, my dad didn't, so I know
我寄了东西给你 Hey, I sent you something
老天,是什么? Oh, God, what?
没什么,只是张礼物卡 Nothing. It's just a gift card
哪种礼物卡? What kind of gift card?
它可以买加利福尼亚的机票 To buy a plane ticket to California
给你和琼妮的 for you and Joanie
万一你们得离开 in case you ever need to get away
我想再见她,艾莉森,当面见 I'd like to see her again, Alison, in person
因为在她两岁前的时候 'Cause, you know, I did raise that child
我的确是把她当自己女儿养的 as my own daughter for the first two years of her life
我知道 I know
因为我以为她就是我女儿 Because, you know, I thought she was my daughter
是 Yes
以备不时之需吧 Just keep it for a rainy day
好 Okay
我会的 I will
谢谢 Thank you
祝你好运 Good luck out there
你也是 You, too
好了 Okay
给,祝你参会愉快 Here you go. Enjoy
你好 Hi
你好,我有什么能帮到你的? Hi. May I help you?
贝利,艾莉森 Um, Bailey, Alison
我看看,有的 Let's see. Yes
给 Uh-huh, there you go
- 给 - 谢谢 - There you are - Ah. Thank you
祝您参会愉快 Enjoy the conference
谢谢 Thanks
闭上眼 Close your eyes
深呼吸 Take a breath
你看到了什么? What do you notice?
洗碗槽... The kitchen sink is...
满满全都是脏盘子 full of dirty dishes
好,很好 Okay. Good
继续 Go with that
闭上眼睛 Close your eyes
深呼吸 Take a breath
你看到了什么? What do you notice?
我妈站在门口 My mother is standing in the doorway
她... She's...
拿着一封信 holding a letter
好,不错 Okay, good
我们继续 Let's go with that
如果病人不知所措,另一个选择是... Another option if the patient is stuck is to, um...
按住他们的手,像这样按住手掌 to press on their hands, on the palms like this
好 Okay
深呼吸 Take a breath
闭上眼睛 Close your eyes
你看到了什么? What do you notice?
她在哭 She's crying
她在道歉 She's apologizing
她说她一直知道 She's saying that she knew all along
很好 That's good
好,非常感谢你,特里亚 Okay. Thank you so much, Tria
我们到此为止,好吗? We're gonna stop here, okay?
当我们开始这阶段的治疗的时候,你说... When we started this session, you said that your, um
你感到痛苦和不适 distress and discomfort
因为得保守你姐妹的秘密 having to keep your sister's secret down
这么多年 for all those years...
是在大概九岁还是十岁的时候 said it was about a nine or a ten
是吗? Is that correct?
- 据我所知,是的 - 好 - When I thought of it, yes - Right
你说你不让自己 You said you-you didn't let yourself
太常想这件是,是吗? think about it often, right?
因为对你来说很痛苦? Because of how painful it was for you?
你能帮我个忙,再想一下那个场景吗? Would you do me a favor and imagine that scene again now?
现在呢? And?
你现在的不适感是什么级别? What's the level of your current discomfort?
也许,两级 Maybe a...A two
感觉很久远 It feels further away
像是发生在别人身上的事 Like it's happening to someone else
好 Okay
眼动脱敏与再加工 So, the idea behind
背后的意义 eye movement desensitization and reprocessing...EMDR...
是重组我们的记忆 is to, um, reorganize our memories
这样他们就觉得更加中立,不那么紧张 such that they feel more neutral and less, uh...less charged
你说 Yeah?
为什么会有效果? Why does it work?
说实话,没人知道确切的原因 Nobody knows for sure, to be honest
但我们假设 But we hypothesize that its effectiveness
效果与在眼迅速跳动的时候 has something to do with imitating
模仿大脑的活动有关 what happens in the brain during REM
基本上,我们相信心理治疗 Basically, we believe that mental healing
很像身体治疗 is a lot like physical healing
我们的身体想自我修复 Our body wants to repair itself
但是如果一个外来物或是反复损伤 But if a foreign object or-or a...a repeated injury
刺激到伤口,伤口是不会愈合的 irritates a physical wound, it's not going to heal
我们的心理创伤的愈合 Our mind heals from psychological trauma
差不多也是如此 in very much the same way
如果系统被 If the system is blocked
令人烦恼的记忆阻塞了 by a disturbing memory
情感上的伤口就会恶化 the emotional wound is going to fester
造成很大痛苦 and it causes an intense amount of suffering
所以眼动脱敏和再加工做的基本上 So, what EMDR does, basically
就是分散阻碍 it's-it's, um...it diffuses that block
它 It, uh
中和了效力 neutralizes its potency
这样我们就能治愈我们的心灵 so that we can basically heal our own minds
后面的这位? Yep, you in the back?
你能具体讲讲 Can you, uh, talk specifically
你和老兵 about your experiences
做这类工作的经历吗? doing this kind of work with veterans?
很棒的问题 Excellent question
仅仅在去年,就有三个独立的临床试验 You know, in three separate clinical trials last year alone
最近表明在12个疗程的眼动脱敏和再加工后 it was recently reported that after 12 EMDR sessions
百分之77.7的参战退伍老兵 77.7% of combat veterans
不再有创伤后精神压力症 no longer met the criteria for PTSD
好了,我们休息一下 All right, we're about to take a break
找一个伙伴,分散开 Uh, find a partner. Spread around
我想让你们自己体验一下这个方法 I want you to experience this technique for yourselves
一个小时,然后回来 Take an hour and, uh, come back here
讨论你的发现 to discuss your discoveries
谢谢大家 Thank you, guys
很有趣,是吗? It's pretty interesting stuff, huh?
你吓到我了 You scared me
抱歉,我没那么吓人吧 Oh, I'm sorry. I'm not that terrifying
你原谅我了吗? Do you forgive me?
你在这做什么? What are you doing here?
当然是跟踪你 Stalking you, of course
开玩笑的 I'm kidding
退伍军人健康管理局让我来调查一下这个疗法 Um, the VHA, they sent me here to investigate this therapy
我们觉得可能能帮到我们的人 We think it could be helpful for our guys
你想试试吗? You want to try it out?
我们一组? Partner up?
好啊 Um, yeah
好吧 Okay
行,好的 Cool. Okay
抱歉 Oh, sorry
好吧 Okay
- 好了 - 好吧 - All right, um... - Okay
我们来看看 Let's see
上面说,我们可以从这里开始... It says, uh, we can start with...
口述下彼此的过去 taking an oral history of each other
听起来有点下流,不是吗? That sounds a little dirty, doesn't it?
然后就是 Then, uh
开始 we move on to the
提问和催眠阶段 question and finger metronome thing
你是不是... Are you, uh...
你紧张吗? 你看起来很紧张 Are you nervous? You seem nervous
- 不,我...没有 - 我很紧张 - No, no, I'm...No - I'm nervous
好吧 Okay
我有点紧张 I'm a little nervous
从没这样做过,所以... Never done anything like this before, so...
我也是 Yeah. Me, neither
不过很高兴第一次是和你一起 Glad my first time will be with you, though
那... So...
你的创伤是什么? what are your traumas?
我爸离开了我妈 Well, my dad left my mom
不过是在我出生前了,所以... but that was before I was born, so...
好吧 Okay
你说你离过两次婚? You said you were twice divorced?
有没有给你留下什么创伤? Any trauma there?
怎么了? What?
好吧 Okay, all right
那段经历给你留下了什么? Well, what does that leave us with?
留下了什么恐惧症吗? Um, any phobias?
我不喜欢大海 Well, um...I don't love the ocean
经典 Classic
好吧,水 Okay. Water
就从这里开始吧 Um, let's start with that
准备好了吗? You ready?
闭上眼 Close your eyes
想着大海 Think of the ocean
好吧 Okay
稍等 Hold, please
你真傻 You're a natural
是,稍等 Yeah. Hold on
在这里 Ah, here we go
上面说我们可以 It, uh...it says here we can start
从你对创伤最早的记忆开始 with your earliest memory of the trauma
你最可怕的或是最近的记忆 your worst memory or the most recent one
海里发生了什么令你不快的事吗? So, did something traumatic happen in the ocean?
有 Uh, yeah
你在回忆那件事吗? Are you thinking about it?
好的 Okay
只是确认下我没做错 Just making sure I'm doing it right
好吧 Um, okay
再看着我的手 So, let's follow my hand again
闭上眼 Close your eyes
深呼吸 Take a breath
你看到了什么? What do you notice?
我在海滩上 I'm on the beach
那是一天中的什么时候? What time of day is it?
晚上 Evening
你一个人吗? Are you alone?
不是 No
我和几个朋友在一起 I'm with some friends
我们在烧烤 We're having a barbecue
我儿子在海浪中玩耍 My son is playing in the surf
你儿子? Your son?
好的 Okay
好 Good
继续 Let's go with that
闭上眼 Close your eyes
深呼吸 Take a breath
你看到了什么? What do you notice?
天色已晚 It's getting late
太阳就要下山了,我很冷 The sun is going down, and I'm cold
好的 Okay
继续 Let's go with that
闭上眼 Close your eyes
你看到了什么? What do you notice?
我不知道 I-I don't know
什么也没有,就是... Nothing. Just...
- 什么也没有? - 是的 - Nothing? - Yeah
海滩,沙子,我们的朋友 The beach, the sand, our friends
都差不多 It's more of the same
好吧 Okay
我们可以试试这个技巧 We can try this technique
闭上眼 Close your eyes
现在,你看到了什么? Now, what do you notice?
我丈夫没有看着孩子 My husband isn't paying attention
他在和一个女人调情 He's flirting with a woman
我只想离开 I just want to leave
我喊我儿子 I call out to my son
我跟他说该上岸了 I tell him it's time to come out
科尔说他在看着孩子们,他们没事 Cole says he's watching the children and they're fine
好的 Okay
继续 Go with that
我在房子里 I'm inside my house
我去拿条毯子 I've gone to get a blanket
我听见窗外一阵骚动 I hear a commotion from my window
有人在大喊 Shouting
我朝窗外看去,看见一群人 I look out, and I see a group of people
在把什么从海中拉出 pulling something from the water
看上去是个孩子 It looks like a child
好的,很好 Okay. Good
很好,继续 Good. Let's go with that
闭上眼 Close your eyes
那... So...
你从窗外看去 you're looking out the window
我还看见了些什么 I'm seeing something else now
- 你看到了什么? - 我在水里 - What do you see? - I'm in the water
你在水里? You're-you're in the water?
我不能呼吸了 I can't breathe
我在水里要窒息了 I'm choking on the water
我的肺着了火 My lungs are on fire
然后有些手,有些... And then these hands, these...
谁的手? Whose hands?
一双强壮有力的大手 Two big, strong hands are...
将我从水中托起,还有 pulling me from the water, and...
空气很温暖 The air is warm
很好 Okay, good
接着说 Go with that
我做不到 I can't. I'm...
很抱歉,我做不到 I'm sorry. I can't
艾莉森 Alison
你还好吗? Are you all right?
是的 Yeah
有什么需要的吗? You need anything?
想一个人静静吗? Want me to leave you alone?
不是的 No
你知道我们应该做什么吗? You know what we should do?
我们应该参加全国 We should meet up all over the country
各个不同的创伤后应激障碍的讨论会 at different PTSD conferences
什么? What?
游戏疗法中心有个大会 Yeah, there's a, uh, CPT conference
在密尔沃基,还有两周 happening in Milwaukee in two weeks
想去吗? You want to go?
你说真的? Seriously?
我还挺喜欢这玩意儿 I kind of like this idea
这好比一场又傻气又荒诞的浪漫喜剧 It's like a really fucked-up, quirky romantic comedy
颇具伍迪·艾伦之风 Very Woody Allen
好吧 Yeah. Okay
仔细考虑考虑 Well, think about it
回头我把具体细节发给你 I'll text you the information
但我肯定绝对是两周之后 Pretty sure it's two weeks from now
不,我想我做不到 Oh, no, I...I don't think I can
周末我女儿要来,所以 I have my daughter that weekend, so...
当然,还是那个重要 Well, yeah, that's more important
是啊 Yeah
想租条船吗? Want to rent a boat?
现在吗? What, now?
就是现在 Yeah, right now
下午我们出去放松放松 We'll go out for the afternoon
没有比这更好让你克服对海洋的恐惧了吧? What better way to get you over this fear of the ocean, right?
显然我搞砸了你的眼动脱敏与再加工疗法 And since I clearly fucked up your EMDR
我得换种方法 I gotta find another way
浸没式疗法或许可以 I'm thinking, uh, immersion therapy
科尔·洛克哈特
未读短信
艾莉森,租到船了 Alison, we got a boat
现在开不开心? You having fun yet?
你说什么? What?
你开不开心? Are you having fun yet?
我听不清 I can't hear you
不要紧啦 Never mind
就在这儿吧 Here we go
饿不饿? 他们给我们打包了午餐 You hungry? They packed us lunch
- 真的吗? - 是的,就在 - Really? - Yeah, it's, uh
驾驶座后面的冷藏箱里 right behind the captain's seat in the cooler
我得把这个收起来 I'll put this away
不要紧的 No, don't worry about it
讲真,我没关系的 Honestly, I'm fine
你倒是真可以喝喝酒 You should drink it
我打赌你喝醉了一定很可爱 I bet you're a cute drunk
不容易吧? Was it hard?
保持清醒? Getting sober?
是啊,太他妈糟心了 Yeah. Yeah, it fucking sucked
有那么一会儿,我觉得还是死了痛快 For a while, I thought I'd rather be dead
但是我讨厌自己喝了酒的样子 But the person I am when I drink is someone I hate, and
要是清醒着 person I am when I'm sober, well, that's...
我倒是还能忍受自己 that's someone I can live with
你呢? What about you?
有什么我应该了解的依赖性物质吗? Any chemical dependencies I should know about?
神了,我真没有 No. Miraculously
不过我过去倒是总自残 I did used to cut myself, though
你的意思是 You mean...
割着玩的? For fun?
算是吧 Yeah, kind of
为了让自己好受一点 To feel better
太可怕了 That's awful
没错 Yeah, it was
也有一次尝试过自杀 Tried to kill myself once, too
真是不知道为什么我要告诉你这些 I really don't know why I'm telling you this
我想 I...
也许你觉得我能理解你 Maybe because you think I'd understand
所以 So...
你有一儿一女 you have a son and daughter
我还是喝点酒吧 I think I will have some of that wine
请便 Please
谢谢 Yeah, thank you
来,我开吧 Yeah, I got it
- 好吧 - 应该的 - All right - Yeah
我确实有过一个儿子 I did have a son
溺水死了 But he drowned
你说什么? Wh-What?
所以 So...
你记忆里的那天 that memory that day at the, uh...
沙滩上,有你的丈夫和毯子 at the beach with your husband and the blanket
那天是你儿子...? was that the day your son...?
是的 Yeah
天哪,我很抱歉,艾莉森 Oh, my God, I'm sorry, Alison
那双手呢? What about the hands?
你说他们把他托出水面 You said they pulled him out of the water
然后他躺在沙滩上,还能呼吸 and he was on the beach. He could breathe
不,不是的 No, no, uh...
那不是他 that wasn't him
那是我 No, that was me
那是个我经常做起的梦 That was a, uh, dream I used to have
那就是为什么这么奇怪 That's why it's so weird
它又一次出现在眼动脱敏与再加工疗法里 that it came up again in the EMDR
只是 It just, uh...
不管怎样,加百列那天去世了 No, anyway, um, Gabriel died that day
他只有四岁 He was four
没人能救他 Nobody saved him
总之 Anyway, you know
我花了很久才能说出来这件事 it's taken me a very long time to say this
而没想着去死了 without wanting to die
我的儿子溺水死了 My son drowned
他溺水死了 He drowned
那么 And...
你每天都背着这么沉重的包袱? that's what you walk around carrying every day?
关于你儿子的包袱? Your own son?
是的 Yeah
你看上去那么不受影响,那么正常 You seem so together, so functional
大多数日子,我是的 I am, most days
花了有一阵子 It's taken me a while
你这是什么表情? What's that face?
你让我震惊 You amaze me
你知道那个梦真正奇怪在哪吗? You know what's really weird about that dream?
我溺水的时候,有人来救我? When I'm drowning and someone rescues me?
小的时候我一直做这个梦 I used to have it all the time as a child
我记得我五六岁的时候 I remember being five or six and...
害怕睡觉 being afraid to go to sleep
最后,我没有再做了,但是 Eventually, I stopped having it, but...
当加百列去世 when Gabriel died
全部又回来了 it all came rushing back
然后 And the...
是同一片海滩 It's the same beach
我能看到远方的灯塔 I can see the lighthouse in the distance
我能看到我身后沙丘那边的家 I can see my house behind me, past the dunes
自那以后,我就一直在想那是不是 And ever since, I've wondered if it was a, um...
不祥的预感 Premonition
不祥的预感 A premonition
完全不是梦 Not a dream at all
所以你觉得 So you think you saw
你在那事发生前就看到了你儿子的遭遇 what happened to your son before it happened
如果我说是,你会觉得我疯了吗? If I say yes, will you think I'm crazy?
不会 No
我觉得了解事情的途径有很多,艾莉森 I think there's all sorts of ways of knowing things, Alison
如果 What if...
如果是某个事物或某个人 What if something or somebody
试图让我保持警觉呢? was trying to tell me to watch out?
让我做好准备? Like, be ready?
而当那一刻来临的时候,我却错过了? And when the time came, I missed it?
我以前从没跟人说过这个 I haven't told anyone this before
没跟科尔,也没跟诺亚说过 Not Cole. Not Noah
过来 Come here
为什么? Why?
我就是想靠近你一点 I just want you to be closer
你知道,很多人都会做关于溺水的噩梦 You know, a lot of people have nightmares about drowning
或许这只是 Maybe it's just a...
想要被拯救的儿时幻想 childhood fantasy about being saved
可我为什么会梦到他死去的那片沙滩? But why would I dream of the same beach where he died?
或许你最初并没有梦到 Well, maybe you didn't originally
或许你是在他死后才加上的 Maybe you added that part later
或许你在试图找到责备自己的方式 Maybe because you're looking for a way to blame yourself
你做心理医生的话会很出色的 You'd make a good shrink
我为什么跟你一起坐在船上? What am I doing on a boat with you?
这是你提出来的 It was your idea
我们要回去了吗? Should we head back?
好 Okay
好 All right
等等 Wait, wait
这简直是灾难 Well, this is a complete disaster
嗯 Right
你没事吧? You all right?
我没事 I'm fine
天,我以为你中风了 Geez. I thought you had a fucking stroke
我只是想远离你 I was just trying to get away from you
还好意思说你怕大海呢 So much for your fear of the ocean
你疯了,你知道的,对吗? You're insane. You know that, right?
嗯,不是第一次有人这么说我了 Yeah, yeah. I've heard that before
本 Hey, Ben?
艾莉森 Hey, Alison?
我玩得很开心,没和你做爱 I'm having a very nice time not having sex with you
别习惯了 Well, don't get too used to it
第二话
科尔
你他妈在干什么? What the fuck are you doing, man?
起来,我们要去个地方 Come on. We're going someplace
什么? What?
你和我? You and me?
对 That's right
没门儿 Dude. No way
什么味道? What's that smell, man?
打火机油 Lighter fluid
我不会和你去任何地方 Yo, I'm not going anywhere with you
死变态 Fucking psychopath
你必须跟我去 I think you are
不然要怎样? Or else what, man?
放火把我烧了吗? You're gonna just light me on fire?
也许 I might
距离那次事故 So it's now been
已经过去了六年三个月零两天 six years, three months and two days since the accident
我和我的孩子重新建立起了关系 and, I've rebuilt a bit of a relationship with my kids
我前妻还是不和我说话 My ex-wife still doesn't speak to me
但我不怪她 but I can't say I blame her
前几天我在杂货店里看到她了 I saw her the other day at the grocery store
她假装没看到我 and she pretended not to see me
但每天进步一点点 But one day at a time
我活着的每天都感谢上帝 I thank God every day that I'm still alive
感谢赐予我 and that I get to have another sunrise to try
改过自新的机会 to do it better
谢谢 Thanks
我被绑架了 I'm being fucking kidnapped
禁止说话 No talking
我叫本,我酗酒 My name is Ben, and I'm an addict
- 你好,本 - 你好,本 - Hey, Ben - Hey, Ben
我很感激我找到了这个互诫会 I'm so grateful I found this meeting
我,我不是本地人 I'm, uh...I'm not from around here
我今早醒来 I, uh...I woke up this morning
想要吸点可卡因 just itching for some blow, and...
我就知道我需要帮助了 I knew I needed help
我已经戒了七个月了 I've been, uh...I've been clean for about seven months now
这是我做过的最艰难的事 and it's been the hardest thing I've ever done
我在阿富汗服役过两次 And I did two tours in Afghanistan
老实说 You know, to be honest
在这个项目里最让我痛苦的 the thing I struggle with the most in the program
不是戒酒而是禁欲 is not the drinking, but the abstinence
我想念女人 I miss women
但我知道,这对我来说是滑坡谬误 But I know, for me, it's a...it's a slippery slope
女生让我想喝酒 Girls make me want to drink
喝酒让我想吸毒 and, uh, drinking makes me want to use
当我从阿富汗回来 You know, when I got back from the sandbox
我,我完全麻木了 I was...I was completely numb
对妻子硬不起来 Couldn't get it up for my wife
所以为了能操她我开始喝酒 so I started drinking in order to be able to fuck her
接着喝酒又导致吸毒 And then that led to using
然后我们的婚姻开始分崩离析 then our marriage started to fall apart
以前让我快乐的事 Things that, uh, used to make me happy
我再也感受不到了 I couldn't feel those things anymore
除了愤怒什么都感受不到 Couldn't feel anything except angry
像地狱一般 It was hell
我喜欢这人 I like this guy
你应该让他做你的担保人 You should ask him to be your sponsor
禁止说话 No talking
我没有感受到任何创伤后应激障碍 I haven't had any PTSD attacks
我一直感觉还行 and I've been feeling okay
不好不坏 You know, not good, not bad
就还行 Just...just okay
然后我遇到了一个女孩 And then I met this girl, and...
她就是我一生苦苦寻求的意中人 She's like the woman I've been looking for my whole life
我昨天跟她在船上待了一天 But I spent the day with her on a boat yesterday
我当时特别想喝酒 I wanted to drink so fucking bad
但我没喝 I didn't
因此我今天早上来了这里 That's why I'm here this morning
每天来感谢上帝一次 One day at a time, by the grace of God
谢谢你们的倾听 So, thanks for letting me share
我很感激 I appreciate it
这是个好地方,谢谢你 It's a great place, so thank you
- 不用谢 - 再见 - You're welcome - Bye
兄弟 Hey, man
我叫科尔 I'm Cole
你好 Hi
这是布拉姆 That's Bram
我喜欢你刚刚分享的故事 I like what you said up there
他是新来的,在找一个担保人 And he's new to the program. He's looking for a sponsor
他是新来的吗? He's new to the program, huh?
对,第一天参加 Yeah. Day one
你觉得他会坚持参加吗? You think he's gonna stick with it?
当然,他有百分之百的决心 Sure. He's 100% committed
我也想帮他,兄弟,但我不是当地人 Yeah, I'd like to, man, but, uh, I'm not from out here
我现在要回去希克斯维尔 Headed back to Hicksville now
我的妻子在周末很难照顾两个小孩 My wife, she goes crazy with both kids
我已经回晚了 on the weekends, and I'm already late
那你刚刚说到的女孩怎么办? What about the girl you were talking about?
你懂的,兄弟 You know how these things are, man, right?
这很复杂 It's complicated
很高兴见到你,科尔 Good to meet you, Cole
祝你好运 Good luck
也祝你好运,孩子 You, too, kid
宝贝 Hey, babe
你去哪里了? Where have you been?
在试着做一个好心人 Was trying to be a Good Samaritan
成功了吗? Did it work?
没有 No
你在忙什么? What's with all the paperwork?
在准备法学院入学考试吗? Studying for your LSATs?
我为什么会准备法学院入学考试呢? Why would I be studying for the LSATs?
开玩笑 I'm kidding
那些是什么? What's with all that stuff?
这是我的移民申请表 They're my immigration forms
真的吗? Really?
是的 Yeah
我在考虑申请国籍 I'm thinking about applying for my citizenship after all
不入虎穴,焉得虎子,对吗? Nothing ventured, nothing gained, right?
对,但我们不是应该先商量一下吗? Right, but isn't that something we should talk about first?
要商量什么? What is there to talk about?
风险 Well, the risk
什么风险? What risk?
他们可能会把你驱逐出境 That they would deport you
对 Yes
因此我需要你为我签个名 And that's why I need you to sign something for me
那是什么? What's that?
这是困境豁免申请 That's the hardship waiver
让我成为一个合法公民的唯一办法是 My only chance to become a citizen
证实我若被驱逐出境 is by demonstrating that my deportation
将会对某人造成困境 would create hardship for someone
所以你想让我签名证实 So you want me to sign
我将会陷入困境吗? 当然可以 that it would create hardship for me? Sure
不,不是你,是对琼妮造成困境 No, not for you. Joanie
我不明白 I'm confused
艾莉森有过精神疾病史 Look, Alison has a history of mental illness
这有记录 It's been well documented
我们只需要提交她的住院记录 All we need to do is send in records of her hospitalization
来证明她不是个合格的母亲 to prove that she's not a fit mother
等等,我已经拟好了一封信 But wait, I have drafted this letter
这是代表琼妮的声明 It's a statement on Joanie's behalf
我不明白 I don't understand
我需要你去问问艾莉森是否愿意让我 I need you to ask Alison if she will let me
做琼妮的法定监护人 be Joanie's legal guardian
路易莎,我们去年刚把这事儿给搞定 Luisa, we just went through this last year
我知道 I know
我们把抚养权还给她了 We gave her custody back
是你想这么做,那是你的想法 You wanted to do that. That was your idea
我知道,那是...那是个错误 Yeah, I know. It was a...it was a mistake
对谁来说是个错误? A mistake for who?
对我来说是个错误 Well, for me
在她经历了那么多之后 So you want me to ask Alison
你想要我去让艾莉森 to declare herself an unfit mother
声明她自己是个不合格的母亲吗? after everything that she's been through?
对,但只是书面声明 Yeah, but it would just be on paper
不需要改变什么 Nothing would have to change
我们仍然会共同拥有琼妮的抚养权 We would still share custody of Joanie
但这样我就可以提交这些申请表了 but I could submit these forms
表上会写我是她的母亲,她唯一的母亲 Say I was her mother, her only mother
他们不会去查吗? And you don't think they're going to check?
不会,你觉得移民与海关执法局特工会 No. Do you think an ICE agent is coming to Montauk
来蒙托克调查是谁去幼儿园接琼妮吗? to check who picks Joanie up from fucking kindergarten?
他们才不会在乎,科尔 They don't give a shit, Cole
他们在乎的是书面工作 What they care, it's...it's what's on the paper
- 我不能请求艾莉森这么做 - 为什么? - I can't ask Alison to do this - Why?
因为这会让她心碎 Because it would break her heart
那我就不能留在这里了 Then I-I can't stay
别那么夸张 Oh, stop being so dramatic
你当然能留下 Of course you can stay
一切都很好 Everything is fine here
我们过得很好 We have a great life
不,你过得很好 No, you have a great life
你是在把这演变成 You are turning this into a competition
你和她之间的竞争,没错 between you and her. You are
想想你在干什么 Think about what you're doing
想想你在让我干什么 Think about what you're asking me to do
抱歉 I'm sorry
我不能再这样继续下去 I-I can't go on like this
这对我来说不是生活 This is not a life for me
这对你也许管用 It might work for you
但这整段关系,包括我们的婚姻 but this whole relationship, our marriage
都是基于你的条件,科尔 it's been on your terms, Cole
我们生活在你的城镇 We live in your town
探望你的家人,我在你的餐厅工作 We see your family. I work in your restaurant
我会卖掉那间餐厅 I'll sell the restaurant
如果能让你开心,我会卖掉餐厅 If that'll make you happy, I will sell the restaurant
要是我被驱逐出境怎么办? What if I get deported?
你会跟我一起走吗? Would you come with me
回厄瓜多尔吗? back to Ecuador?
把琼妮留在这儿吗? 当然不行 And leave Joanie here? Of course not
我不想再做你的保姆了,科尔 I'm tired of feeling like your domestic help, Cole
别这么说,你是我老婆 Stop that. You are my wife
是啊,我住在这房子里 Yeah, I live in this house
我给你做饭 I cook your meals
我给你洗衣服,照顾你女儿 I wash your clothes. I care for your daughter
可我没有属于自己的东西 But I have nothing of my own
我 Me
你有我 You have me
真的吗? Really?
我不知道 I don't know
你要去接琼妮 You're gonna pick Joanie up
对吗? 在艾莉森家 right, at Alison's?
是的 Yes
也许你可以和她谈谈 Well, maybe you can talk to her
看看她是怎么想的 see what she thinks
妈 Ma
妈妈 Mom!
这不是我任性的儿子嘛 Well, look who it is...my wayward son
我孙女怎么样了? How's my granddaughter?
她很好 She's good
她喜欢你给她的那个东西 She liked that thing you got her
什么东西? What thing?
拉来拉去会响的那个东西 The stretchy thing that makes a noise
手风琴吗? The accordion?
是的 Yeah
出什么事了? What's wrong?
你什么意思? What do you mean?
你只有在遇到问题的时候才会那样吃东西 You only eat like that when something's wrong
哪样吃东西? Eat like what?
就像有人要把吃的东西抢走似的 Like someone's going to take it away from you
恕我直言,妈妈,我可有三个兄弟呢 All due respect, Mom, I was raised with three brothers
确实经常有人把吃的抢走 Somebody usually was going to take it away from me
生意好吗? How's business?
什么? 挺好的 What? It's fine
谢丽呢? And Sheri?
她很好 She's doing well
大家知道这地方 Do people laugh when they figure out
叫谢丽与雪莉的鱼场时会笑吗? that this place is called Sheri and Cherry's Fish Farm?
不会,你是第一个开那种玩笑的人 No, you're the first person to make that joke
总之吧,生意蒸蒸日上 Anyway, business is thriving
谢丽很欣赏我的操作经验 Sheri appreciates my operational experience
我也很开心能帮到一位老朋友 and I'm very happy to be helping an old friend
你们经营得非常好 It's very impressive
对不起我没能早一点过来看看 Sorry I haven't come out here sooner to see it
才几年而已 It's only been for a few years
我知道你一直都很忙 I know you've been very busy
我刚才道过歉了,妈妈 I just said I'm sorry, Mom
你想干什么,科尔? What do you want, Cole?
你只有遇到问题的时候才会过来 You only ever come around when there's something wrong
这次是什么事? so what is it this time?
我想问你几个问题 I wanted to ask you some questions
哪方面的? What about?
关于你和爸爸的 About you and Dad
好的 Okay
我和你爸爸怎么了? What about me and Dad?
你们在一起快乐吗? Were you happy together?
快乐 Yes
至始至终都很快乐吗? The whole time?
你父亲临终前郁郁寡欢,科尔 Well, your father was a very unhappy man at the end of his life, Cole
我知道,这么说你们就不是一直都快乐? Right, I know, so then how could you have been happy?
我爱他,所以我能接受他的一切 I loved him, so I took all of him
你怎么知道的? How did you know?
就是知道 You just do
路易莎觉得我不爱她 Luisa doesn't think that I love her
好吧,你爱她吗? Okay. Well, do you love her?
我当然爱她 Of course I love her
那么她为什么不知道呢? Well, then why doesn't she know that?
我怎么知道 I don't know
她是个女人,她很古怪 She's a woman. She's crazy
她想让我去找艾莉森 She wants me to ask Alison
叫她放弃做琼妮母亲的权利 to renounce her rights to being Joanie's parent
因为琼妮的主要看护者这个身份 with the idea that it's gonna help her get her citizenship
能帮助他拿到公民身份 if she's Joanie's primary caregiver
你会去找艾莉森吗? Are you going to ask Alison to do that?
为什么不去? Why not?
那好吧 Okay, then.Well
你已经有答案了 there's your answer
好吧 All right
聊得很愉快 Good talk
来一次长途徒步旅行吧,科尔 Why don't you take yourself on a walkabout, Cole?
去干嘛? Take myself on a what?
多年前我劝你爸爸去了一次 I sent your father on one years ago
对他十分有益 Did him a world of good
你劝他去干嘛? You sent him on a what?
- 长途徒步旅行 - 不明白那是啥,妈妈 - A walkabout - I don't know what that is, Mom
就是澳大利亚人会做的事情 You know, the thing they do in Australia
你想让我去澳大利亚? You want me to go to Australia?
你不必大老远跑去澳大利亚 You don't have to go to Australia
你爸爸去了加州 Your father went to California
什么? 什么时候去的? What? When?
你出生之前 Before you were born
去了多久? For how long?
大概六个月 About six months
为什么? Why?
我让他去的 I asked him to
他那时似乎很迷惘 He seemed confused
我帮不了他,所以... I couldn't help him, so...
我让他出去走走,把问题想明白 I sent him off to figure it out
爸爸一走就是六个月? Dad just disappeared for six months?
他干了什么? What did he do?
具体的我也不知道 I don't know exactly
我没问 I didn't ask
我们约定好不问的 That was part of our deal
他走了 He left
六个月以后,他回来了 Six months later, he came back
带着一个冲浪板 with a surfboard
他好像瘦了点 He seemed a little lighter
你不知道他去了哪吗? And you don't know where he went?
我知道他去了加州 Well, I know he went to California
大海中央有一块巨石的小镇 to a town with a giant rock in the middle of the sea
他给我寄过一张明信片 I have a postcard from him
我会给你找出来 I'll find it for you
爸爸 Hi, Daddy
过来,小鬼 Come here, kiddo
看你这一身,打扮的真漂亮 Look at you. You look great
多谢夸奖 Thank you
你穿着高跟鞋吗? Are you wearing heels?
没错 It looks like it
你要出门吗? You're going somewhere?
我和人有约 I have a date
琼妮的东西都在这儿 Here's Joanie's stuff
我,打包了泳衣,因为路易莎提到 I, uh, packed a swimsuit because Luisa mentioned
你家里的她已经穿不上了 she's grown out of the one at your house
而且我们今早做了些饼干 And we made some cookies this morning
所以我用盒子给你们装了些 so I put them in a container for you guys
你不用这么费心 Oh, you didn't have to do that
没事,小事一桩 No, it's my pleasure
回见,小可爱 Bye, lovebug
要整个周末看不到你了 Not gonna see you all weekend
- 再见,妈妈 - 再见,宝贝儿 - Bye, Mama - Bye, baby
好了,我们走吧 All right. Off we go
我下周会把龙虾卷餐厅转让的 I'm gonna stop by next week with the paperwork
书面文件带过来,你看行吗? for the sale of the Lobster Roll, okay?
好的,没问题 Okay. Sounds good
不,等等,我想问下... Oh, no, no, uh, wait. I want to ask, um...
后面两周的周末能对调下时间吗? can you switch weekends in two weeks?
当然可以,怎么了? Yeah. Sure. Why?
有个创伤后应激障碍的会议 I have this PTSD conference
我想去密尔沃基一趟 I want to go to in Milwaukee
我想趁早报个名 and I want to sign up before it gets too late
好了 Done
好极了,谢谢 Perfect. Thank you
好了,我们走吧 All right, off we go
玩的开心 Have fun
我们见过面吧? Don't I know you?
科尔 Cole?
这是我的朋友,本 This is my friend Ben
很高兴见到你,科尔 Nice to meet you, Cole
走吧 爸爸 Come on, Daddy
好了 All righty
坐好了吗? 很好 Good? All right
我去去就来,小家伙 Be right back, kiddo
听我解释 Listen
不是你想的那样 It's not what you think
我...我很抱歉 I just...I'm sorry
我刚刚不想在你女儿面前吵起来 I didn't want to make a scene in front of your daughter
- 她知道你已婚了吗? - 不知道 - Does she know you're married? - No
- 不出所料 - 听我说,我会告诉她的 - Of course not - Look, I'm gonna tell her
鬼才信你,要不我来告诉她怎么样? Sure you are. Why don't I tell her myself?
我的情况一言难尽 My situation's complicated, all right?
我的婚姻走到了尽头 My marriage is over
好几年前就不复存在了 It's been over for years
我是为了孩子才没有离婚 I tried to stick it out for the kids
科尔 Cole?
还有什么事吗? Is everything okay?
有 Yeah
琼妮忘带了她的护目镜 Joanie forgot her goggles
抱歉,等一下 Sorry. One second
谢谢 Thank you
听着,她是我这十年来 Look, she's the first person
遇见的第一个让我厮守终身想法的人 I met in ten years that made me want to live
我会对她坦诚相待的 I'm gonna tell her the truth
给我点时间 Just give me a moment
我会找个合适的时机来告诉她 Let me do it in the right way at the right time
你们两个在聊些什么? What are you guys talking about?
原来我们两个确实见过面 It turns out we do know each other
是吗? You do?
没错,我们在嗜酒者互诫会上见过 Yeah. We met in an AA meeting
对 Yeah
本觉得互诫会很管用 Ben's a big believer in the program
让他脱胎换骨 It saved his life
可是你去那里干什么? Hey, but why were you there?
我在帮助一个朋友 I was just helping out a friend
好吧 Okay
祝你们周末愉快 You guys have a good weekend
走吧 Come on
小雪莉 我想念你,太平洋 既丑又吓人 我仍然有点迷失 不久再写信给你 爱你的加百列
你在干什么? What are you doing?
打包行李 Packing
你要去哪儿? Where are you going?
我还没想好 I'm not sure
路易莎,住手 Luisa, stop
求你了 Please
你问艾莉森了吗? Did you ask Alison?
这种情况我们之前遇到过很多次了 We have been over this so many times
任何称职的移民法官 Any immigration judge worth their salt
都会说你在法律上是 is going to argue that you are legally
- 这个家庭得以运转的辅助者 - 辅助者? - auxiliary to the functioning of this family - Auxiliary?
我的重点是"合法" I said "Legally."
你能去哪儿? Where are you gonna go?
我不知道,去我妈家 I don't know. To my mother's
路易莎,等等,等等 Luisa, stop. Stop
- 求你了,我们可以解决的 - 不 - Please, we can figure this out - No
我爱你 I love you
这么多年,我一直等着你会选我的那天 And for years, I have been waiting for you to choose me
让你想明白和她相比... For you to figure out that I am...
我更坚强,和蔼 stronger and kinder
并且比她更称职 and more capable than she'll ever be
我才是你该珍惜的对象 And that I am the one worth fighting for
可是你没有,你也不会这样 But you don't, and you won't
我走怎么样? What if I left?
什么? What?
如果我离开... What if I went on a...
去徒步旅行? on a walkabout?
那是什么? What's that?
我知道我让你失望了 I know I'm disappointing you
我知道,我伤害到了你,你... And I know I'm hurting you, and you...
值得被珍惜 deserve better
所以,不如我离开? So, what if I left?
你愿意给我点时间 Would you be willing to give me the time
让我出去走走 to just go away...
我愿意 Yes
真的吗? Really?
没错,我愿意 Yes, I would
我不想这样结束 I don't want this to end
我只想知道你是否在乎我 I just need to know that I matter
莫罗湾