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一个月 半年 一年后会发生什么 What happens in a month, six months, a year?
她要是说只想和你做朋友 When she tells you she just wants to be friends?
内特 我凭什么要为你做事 Nate, why would I do a single thing for you?
因为我可以把你送进监狱 'Cause I'll put you in jail.
我要你坐进车里 I need you to get in your car and drive down
开去东部高地警察局 to the East Island police station.
你走去前台 You're going to walk up to the receptionist,
告诉她 你要自首 and you're gonna tell her you'd like to confess to a crime.
你能认出这个男人吗 Do you recognize that man?
他是那晚在嘉年华打我的人 He's the guy who assaulted me the night of the carnival.
你能从泳池里出来吗 Can you please get out of the pool?
整个镇都这么无聊 This whole town is so fucking boring.
我是个累赘 太丢人了 I'm a burden, and it is what it is and it's embarrassing
对不起 so I'm sorry.
别乱搞 克里斯多夫 No funny business, Christopher!
操 Fuck.
凯西的爸爸很帅 Cassie's dad was really handsome.
帅到能得到特殊待遇的那种 The kind of handsome that made people treat him differently.
她妈妈很讨厌他和别人打情骂俏 Her mom used to get really upset at him for flirting.
但这不太公平 这不是他的错 Which wasn't fair. It wasn't his fault.
他是真的爱她 He really loved her.
也很爱她们俩 He really loved them all.
她父亲总希望她能成为一名专业花滑运动员 Her dad always wanted her to become a professional ice skater.
-谢谢 -生日快乐 宝贝 - Wow. Thank you! - Aw, happy birthday, kiddo.
有段时间 她觉得能成功 她有这个天赋 And for a while, she thought she might. She was a natural.
但她爸付不起花滑课的钱 他也就不再鼓励她了 But her dad couldn't afford lessons, so he stopped encouraging her.
到了青春期 她和妈妈成为了最好的朋友 When she hit puberty, her mother and her became best friends.
你真是个天使 You're an angel.
我像个大宝宝似的 I feel like a big baby.
凯西 女人之间没有谎言 Cassie, woman to woman, hmm?
你太完美了 You're perfect.
-我的天哪 看看 -什么 - Holy moly, look at you. - What?
你会让男孩心碎神伤的 相信我 You're gonna be a real heart breaker. Trust me.
不止是她的身材改变了 还有周围的世界 And it wasn't just her body that changed. But the rest of the world, too.
-记不记得泰德叔叔 -看看 长这么大了 - You remember Uncle Ted? - Oh, boy, look at you. All grown up.
快来抱抱 都这么丰满了 Come on, give me a hug. You really filled out.
小凯西 过来 Sassy Cassie. Come here.
所有的男生一定心甘情愿任你摆布 I bet you got all the boys wrapped around your finger. Boop.
她们的家庭并不完美 Their family wasn't perfect.
她妈妈有点儿 问题 Her mom had, you know, some issues.
我的天哪 Oh, my God.
她父亲艰难维持着生计 And her dad struggled to keep a steady income.
-操你妈 -那可都是我的家人... - Fuck you. - This is my family...
他们会争吵打架 And they fought.
就像其他家庭一样 In the way all parents kind of fight.
除了她上初三的前一天晚上 Except for the night before she started ninth grade.
她妈妈说她爸爸只是在无理取闹 Her mom told her that her dad was just being irrational.
我告诉你们 你们爸爸嫉妒心真的非常强 Your father had some serious jealousy issues. Let me tell you.
而且他还没有稳定的工作 Plus, he couldn't hold a steady job to save his life.
我觉得他就不想承担一个做父亲的责任 I just think he didn't want the responsibility of being a father.
这对他来说太难了 It's too much work.
但是凯西听到的却是另一个版本 But Cassie had heard differently.
我妈说你妈出轨了 My mom said your mom cheated on your dad.
-所以你爸才走的 -什么 - And that's why he left. - What?
起初 她很生她妈妈的气 At first, she was really angry at her mom.
她讨厌她那副伪君子嘴脸 She resented her for being such a hypocrite.
之后她意识到爸爸也有错 But then she realized that her dad wasn't perfect.
难说我想不想得疱疹 你知道... I don't know if I want to be associated with herpes but, you know...
她妈妈也一样 也许他俩只是不适合 And her mom wasn't either, and maybe they just weren't right for each other.
一开始 她父亲周末会去看她们 He used to visit them on weekends.
拜拜 老爸 Bye, Dad.
但后面 他几周才会来一次 But, eventually, it became once every couple of weeks.
他说过他会来的 He said he was coming.
之后 几个月才来一次 And then sometimes, more than a month would go by.
某天晚上... 他下班回家时... Then one night... he was driving home from work...
之后他在重症监护室呆了23天 and was in the ICU for 23 days.
医生担心他再也不能行走 The doctors were afraid he'd never walk again.
但凯西知道她父亲很坚强 他会好起来的 But Cassie knew he was strong, and that he'd get better.
医生给他开了芬太尼用来止痛 He was prescribed fentanyl for the pain.
异丙嗪来缓解呕吐的症状 Promethazine to offset the nausea.
有助睡眠的口服液劳拉西泮 和缓解偏头痛的舒马曲坦针剂 Liquid Lorazepam to sleep, and Imitrex injections for migraines.
凯西会给他发短信 和他聊天 Cassie would text him and talk to him.
但慢慢地 他的回复越来越少 But as more time went by, the less responsive he became.
最终 她好几个月都没有她爸的消息 And eventually, months went by, and she didn't hear from him at all.
直到她十五岁生日后一周的某天晚上 Until one night, a week after her 15th birthday,
未知号码: 凯西 是爸爸
她凌晨一点收到了一条陌生短信 she got a text from a random number at about 1:00 in the morning.
别告诉任何人 我就在门外
你能帮我开下车库吗
别把你妈妈吵醒了
即使她很想见他 很想拥抱他 And even though she was excited to see him and wanted to hug him,
但她看到的景象让她感到害怕 there was something about the whole thing that scared her.
我要告诉你 过去的日子里我一直在想你 I want you to know there's never a day goes by I don't think about you.
我可以用那个短信手机号打电话给你吗 The number you texted me from. Can I call you?
那是我朋友的手机 That's my friend's phone.
但我一定会用新号码联系你的 我... But I promise I'll reach out to you with my new number, I...
别哭 宝贝 Don't cry, baby.
我很好 一切都好 别... I'm okay. I'm fine. Don't...
我就是很想你 爸爸 I just miss you, Dad.
我也想你 我爱你 I miss you, okay. I love you.
他说他要拿点儿东西 He said he needed a few things,
并让她发誓她不会告诉任何人 and made her promise that she wouldn't tell a soul.
凯西信守诺言 没有告诉任何人 Cassie kept her promise, and never told anyone about that night.
从那以后 她也再也没见过她爸爸 She also never saw her dad again.
她会爱上和她约会过的每一个人 She fell in love with every guy she ever dated.
不管他们聪明与否 贴心与否 这些都不重要 Whether they were smart or stupid or sweet or cruel, it didn't matter.
她就是不喜欢孤身一人 She didn't like to be alone.
你在干嘛 What are you doing?
-我在拍你 -为什么 - I'm just filming you. - Why?
每个和她好过的男生都想做同一件事 And every guy she ever dated asked for the same things.
-我可以拍你口我的样子吗 -什么 不行 - Can I film you sucking my dick? - What? No!
-干嘛 -咱们拍段性爱录像吧 - What? - Let's make a sex tape.
不要 Stop.
-干什么 快出去 -来嘛 我不会告诉别人的 - What? Get out of here. - Come on. I won't tell anyone.
-这也不是什么大事儿 -这是 我不想你录影 - It's not that big of a deal. - Yes, it is. I don't wanna do this.
她通常都会同意 And she almost always said yes.
就算她并不喜欢这样 Even though it didn't always make her feel good.
她也知道 几乎所有男生 在他们分手之后 And she knew that most guys, after she broke up with them,
都会在网上发布这些照片和视频 would always share those photos or videos.
第一次发现时 她恐慌症发作了 The first time she found out, she had a panic attack,
她甚至想要吞下一整瓶泰诺 and wanted to swallow a whole bottle of Tylenol.
但她没有 因为 But she didn't. Because, I mean,
最坏的结果能是什么 what's the worst thing anybody could say to her?
说她不该给一个渣男口吗 That she gave a blowjob to a guy who didn't deserve it?
她也知道 等到大学毕业开始求职时 And she figured by the time she was out of college and looking for a job,
99%的人裸照都外泄过 99 percent of the population would have leaked nudes, anyway.
之后 这学年开始时 她遇到了麦凯 And then, at the beginning of the year, she met McKay.
她爱上了他 And fell in love with him.
他也爱上了她 And he fell in love with her.
就算一切没那么完美 至少他爱着她本来的面目 And even though things weren't perfect, he loved her for who she was.
就算她做过几件错事 And even though she had made a couple of mistakes,
也都不是什么严重的错误 I mean, they weren't big ones.
不是那种没有挽回余地的事 They weren't the kind of things you couldn't come back from.
亢奋 第一季 第７集
爱之岛 前情提要... Previously on Love Island...
在舞会前 抓住你和乔什之间的美好 Grab the amazing-ness that you have with Josh by the balls.
身边的人总是给我安利好看的电视剧 People are always telling me about great TV shows.
让我一定要看 说实话 我不要好看的电视剧 How I just have to watch this show. But the truth is, I don't want good TV.
不要小说 或者慢慢酝酿感情的作品 这都让人很有负担 I don't want a novel, or some slow burn, or anything that feels like work.
这就是我爱真人秀的原因 That's why I love reality TV.
很好笑 够戏剧化 能吸引我的注意 It's funny, it's dramatic, and I can focus on it.
是一种很纯粹 不费心力的快乐 It's pure, effortless entertainment.
当浪漫遇到阻碍 Romance hits the rocks.
她不和我说话 她也不理我 She doesn't talk to me, she doesn't acknowledge me.
我一直躺在那里看 下一次起身时 I want to lay down one moment and then look around the next
我发现我在两天内看了整整22小时的爱之岛 and realize I have watched 22 straight hours of Love Island
还不想停下来 over a two-day period and yearn for more.
有的人觉得这样很压抑 但我不觉得 Some people may find that depressing. I don't.
这反而是种测量抑郁程度的方法 It is, however, a good way to measure depression.
因为当真人秀也变成负担 Because when reality TV begins to feel like work,
就像 "广告狂人"最终季 你就知道你抑郁了 like, final season of Mad Men Work, you know you're depressed.
是二十四小时没起床尿尿的那种压抑 Like, haven't got out of bed to pee in 24 hours depressed.
-我看起来是不是不对劲 -你看起来很好 - Do I look different to you? - You look fine to me.
-我感觉不对劲 -那你就别看 - 'Cause I feel different. - Okay, well, you don't look it.
我今天不去学校了 I don't think I'm gonna go to school today.
-因为丹尼尔吗 -不 不是因为他 莱克茜 - 'Cause of Daniel? - No, not 'cause of Daniel, Lexi!
我他妈才不在乎丹尼尔 Daniel's the last fucking thing I care about right now.
好 你他妈之前一直念叨他 Okay, well, it's all you ever fucking talk about.
不是 我问你我看起来如何 没问丹尼尔 That's not true! I asked you how I look. Not about Daniel!
你很漂亮 凯西 太他妈的惊艳了 Yeah, well, you look beautiful, Cassie. You look fucking amazing.
你这辈子不是天天都在听这些话吗 It's literally all anyone's ever told you your entire life.
听你说话 太他妈累了 Like, listen to yourself. It's fucking exhausting.
想到得站起来 The thought of having to stand up,
每步动172块肌肉走10.5米 exert 172 muscles each step for 35 feet,
就为了坐在冰冷的马桶上 just so I can sit on cold porcelain and piss out toxins
在余生不停地尿出毒素 over and over again for the rest of my life
我感觉整个生活像漫长而残忍的笑话 makes the whole concept of living feel like one long, sadistic joke.
但抑郁最糟的部分 But the absolute worst part of depression
是即使你知道很压抑 is that even though you know you're depressed,
你还是无力阻止它变得更糟 you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse.
但消沉的人不只有我 But I wasn't the only one feeling down.
-朱尔斯 怎么了 -我不舒服 - Jules? What's wrong? - I'm sick.
好 需要什么就告诉我 Okay. Let me know if you need anything.
万圣节后 朱尔斯一整周都没去学校 After Halloween, Jules didn't go to school for a full week.
我给她发了五十条短信 她一条都没回 And even though I sent her about 50 texts, she didn't respond.
万圣节快乐 Happy Halloween.
我知道肯定发生了不好的事 I could tell something bad had happened.
而且和内特有关 And that it had something to do with Nate.
东部高地警察局 星期六 10月31日 上午8:41
泰勒·克拉克森因侵犯人身安全被记录在案 Tyler Clarkson was booked for assault.
但这不合情理 But this shit wasn't adding up.
我要解开谜团 And I was putting together the pieces of the puzzle.
霍华德 我们走吧 Howard, let's roll.
不找到真相我誓不罢休 I wasn't gonna stop until I got the truth.
当今世界 诬告会给一个人的职业 名誉 情绪健康 False accusations in today's world can cause serious long-term damage
造成长期伤害 to one's career, reputation, and emotional well-being.
我们都欠内特·雅各布斯一个真诚的道歉 We all owe Nate Jacobs a heartfelt apology,
很高兴他重新回到东部高地中学 and are excited and thrilled to have him back at East Highland.
-为什么朱尔斯要撒谎帮内特 -我不知道 - Why would Jules lie to help Nate? - I don't know.
-你有问过她吗 -没有 - Well, have you asked her about it? - No.
-你没问过她吗 -没有 - You haven't asked her? - No.
还看 你个蠢货 Keep looking, you mook.
我是他妈的摩根·费里曼 现在第三幕开场 I'm Morgan fuckin' Freeman and this is the beginning of the third act.
问她不是最合理的第一步吗 Well, doesn't that seem like the first logical step?
老实说 霍华德 这事不合逻辑 Honestly, Howard, this whole thing is beyond logic.
除非... Unless...
-朱尔斯爱上了内特 -为什么她会爱上内特 - Jules is in love with Nate. - Why would Jules be in love with Nate?
-你该听我说 -班内特 烟味快让我窒息了 - You should listen to me. - Bennett, the cigarettes are killing me.
嘉年华的那晚 她说她想 Listen. Listen. Listen, the night of the carnival, she said she wanted
和网上认识的那家伙见面 好吗 to go meet up with this guy she met online, okay?
他是什么操蛋运动员 来自一个保守家庭 He's some fuckin' jock, he's from a conservative family,
他们那时在短信聊天 发了几周短信 and they were talking and texting. They've been texting for weeks.
我说的发短信可不是一般的短信 And when I say texting, I don't just mean regular fuckin' texting.
他们在发色情短信 They were sexting.
-裸照吗 -对 - Like nudes? - Yeah.
注意 是大鸡巴和干净房间的照片 Side note, very nice dick. Very clean room.
-她压根没看到他的脸 -对 所以朱尔斯被骗了 - She never fucking saw his face. - Yeah, so Jules is catfished.
听我说完 所以嘉年华的那晚 Now hear me out. So the night of the carnival, she made plans with this guy
她计划和那家伙在湖边见面 to meet up with him at the lake, okay?
我回家了 接下来我记得她在敲我家窗户 I fucking go home. Next thing I know, she's fucking knocking at my window.
她情绪激动 眼里还有眼泪 She's all emotional, she's got fucking tears in her eyes.
我问 朱尔斯 他妈的发生什么了 I say, Jules, what the fuck happened?
她看着我 说... "他和照片里不一样" She looks at me. She goes... "He didn't look like his pictures."
没错 那就是网骗 Yeah, that's like, the definition of catfishing.
不 但你知道他叫什么吗 No, but do you know what his name was?
-内特·雅各布斯吗 -泰勒 - Nate Jacobs? - Tyler.
泰勒·克拉克森吗 Like, Tyler Clarkson?
太他妈的对了 You're goddamned right.
玛迪十七岁 泰勒二十二岁 Maddy is 17, Tyler's 22,
-如果他们上床 -就违法了 - and they fornicated. - Statutory.
对 你看见了 我看见了 我们都他妈看见了 Yeah. You saw it, I saw it. We all fucking saw it.
内特也看见了 Including Nate.
比触犯法律轻点的罪是什么 And what is a lighter offense than statutory?
-侵犯人身安全 -对了 - Assault. - Bingo!
鲁 你往饮水机里倒咖啡了吗 Rue, are you pouring coffee in the water filter?
-对 -不是该倒水的吗 - Yes, I am. - Instead of water?
-对 -请不要那么做 - Yes, I am. - Well, please, don't do that.
很晚了 你不能再喝咖啡 And it's late. You shouldn't be drinking caffeine.
妈 拜托 我要赶作业 Mom, please. I have homework.
我没想到你会这么说 Well, there's a sentence I never thought I'd hear.
这个好了告诉我 Will you let me know when this is ready?
-喂 -霍华德 是班内特 - Hello? - Howard, it's Bennett.
现在是凌晨两点四十五分 你不睡吗 It's 2:45 in the morning. Don't you ever sleep?
听着 为什么内特一开始选择朱尔斯 Listen, why would Nate single out Jules in the first place?
很明显 朱尔斯被他吸引住了 It's obvious he was sexually attracted to her.
因为很明显朱尔斯是个异性恋 And because Jules is predominantly het, okay,
他用健硕身材向朱尔斯求欢 he wooed her with his, uh, fucking creepy jock magic shit.
她超敏感 很容易原谅人 She's super fuckin' sensitive, she's very forgiving,
可以说她是世上最善良的人 and she's basically the most wonderful fucking person on the planet...
她爱上他了 那就是为何她要作证 she fell for him. That's why she fucking testified.
我是天才 我他妈是个天才 I'm a genius. I'm a fucking genius.
妈 我他妈的是个天才 Hey, Mom! I'm a fucking genius.
我都不累 太疯狂 我他妈都不累 I'm not even tired. It's crazy. I'm not even fucking tired.
我感觉好极了 I feel amazing.
老实说 班内特 你陷得太深了 I'll be honest with you, Bennett. You're too close to this case.
-谁 -鲁 - Who was that? - Rue.
-我感觉她现在 很狂躁 -她还好吗 - Think she's in, like, a manic state. - Is she okay?
我看不太好 I don't think so.
躁郁症人群能发现自己有躁郁症吗
匿名3203: 不能
操 Fuck.
我不知道你要说什么 但真的感觉... 很刺激 I don't know what you're gonna say, but this feels like... really dramatic.
-没错 很吓人 -不吓人 比比 - Yeah, this is spooky. - It is not spooky, BB.
有两件事 我要你们给我建议 I just, I need your advice on, like, two things.
你们保证一个字都不能说出去 And I need you guys to promise me not to say a single fucking word.
丹尼尔办万圣节派对的那晚 发生了些事 So, the night of Daniel's Halloween party, something happened.
通常我不会射这么快 I don't usually come that fast.
太棒了 That was amazing.
有意思 我一直以为我会把第一次给你 It's funny. I always thought I was gonna lose my virginity to you.
-你是处女吗 -不 我是说更小的时候 - You're a virgin? - No, I mean, when we were younger.
-我们在一起那会儿 -我们在一起过吗 - When we dated. - We dated?
六年级的时候 Yeah, in sixth grade.
我和你吗 You and me?
对 好像有五个月 Yeah, for like five months.
我真的想不起来 I literally have no recollection of that.
等一下 我没听错吧 Wait. Am I hearing this correctly?
你想告诉麦凯你和丹尼尔 You want to tell McKay that you made out with Daniel
在嘉年华和万圣节亲热过吗 at the carnival and on Halloween?
对 不过我不... 不用说是丹尼尔 Yeah, but, I don't... I don't have to say it's Daniel.
姐妹 这是我听过最疯狂的想法 Bitch, that's the craziest idea I've ever heard. Right?
-没错 -但我想和他坦白 - For sure. - Yeah, but I want to be honest with him.
-你不能告诉麦凯 -但我没有劈腿 - You cannot tell McKay. - But it's not like I cheated-cheated.
接吻更糟 更亲密 Kissing is worse. It's so much more intimate.
如果有人说起 你要否认 否认 否认 And if anybody brings it up, you deny, deny, deny.
好吧 但我不想我俩之间永远有个疙瘩 Okay, but, I just don't want there to be something this bad between us forever.
担心这个有用 你们又不会永远在一起 I wouldn't worry about it. It's not like you guys are gonna be together forever.
凯特 你他妈有病吧 Kat, what the fuck is your problem?
你对朋友很糟糕 对我也是 You're being a bad friend now. You were a bad friend to me,
你变了之后真的很讨人嫌 and this whole new personality is seriously unlikable.
-要干架了 -怎么 就因为我不想坐下 - World Star! - Why, because I won't sit and listen
听你抱怨你那精神错乱 有虐待倾向的男友吗 to you bitch and moan about your psychotic, abusive boyfriend
你们都分过一千次手了 who you've literally broken up with a thousand times?
那是我人生的最低谷 所以是的 It was literally the lowest point in my life, so, yeah.
事实上你就是很刻薄 That and the fact that you're just fuckin' mean.
玛迪 从我认识你开始 你都在聊自己的事 Maddy, ever since I've met you, all you talk about is yourself.
你的衣服 男友 所有你重视的 Your clothes, your boyfriends, whatever superficial shit
肤浅表面的事物 但抱歉我不再感兴趣了 you think is so fucking important. Sorry I'm no longer interested.
我不知道别人怎么想 但我怀念以前那个凯特 I don't know about everyone else, but I miss the old Kat.
她幽默风趣 而不是一个荡妇 You know, the one who had a sense of humor and wasn't a fuckin' cunt?
要命 Damn.
-另外那件事是什么 -什么另外的事 - What was the other thing? - What other thing?
你说你想问两件事 You said you needed advice on two things.
我不记得了 I don't remember.
你会怎么做 What would you do?
我也不知道 我从没有 Um, I don't know. I've never really been in a situation
被两个男的同时喜欢 where two guys have been interested in me.
那是因为你很腼腆 That's 'cause you're shy.
我想也是 但我也真的没试过 I guess so, but I've also never been in a situation
同时喜欢两个男的 where I've been interested in two guys.
这也是因为你太腼腆 That's also 'cause you're shy.
应该吧 Maybe.
如果你跟我处境一样 你会怎么办 But if you were in my situation, what would you do?
说实话 我认为我不会说 Honestly, I don't think I would say anything.
要是不说会让你难受呢 What if not saying something makes you feel really bad?
-比说了还难受吗 -对 - Worse than saying it? - Yeah.
我不认为你还有别的选择 Well, then, I don't think you have any other option.
-你感觉怎如何 -我可能得了流感什么的 - How are you feeling? - I think I have the flu or something.
要我帮你拿些什么吗 You want me to get you something?
-拿些喝的什么的 -不用了 没事 - Like something to drink, or something... Uh, no, I'm good.
你确定是流感吗 鲁 You sure you got the flu, Rue?
吉娅 让我一个人待会儿 行吗 Gia, right now I just need you to leave me the fuck alone, all right?
前情提要... Previously...
内特 我们这辈子都犯过错 Look, Nate, we all make mistakes in life.
我们伤害挚爱 让朋友家人失望 We hurt the ones we love. We let down our friends, our family.
有时这么做是出于无知 有时出于自私 Sometimes we do it out of ignorance. Sometimes it's selfishness.
我也不完美 你知道的 I am not perfect. You know that.
但我这辈子都试着变好 你却没有 But I've spent my life trying to do better. You have not.
但我希望你能改 But it is my wish for you.
我不知道你是怎么脱身的 I don't know how you got out of this situation.
我知道你罪有应得 但你还是逃脱了 I know you didn't deserve to, but you did.
我佩服你的手段 And I admire whatever it took.
我只是希望这没让你学坏 I just hope it didn't teach you the wrong lesson.
好吧 这听起来会有点变态 Okay, this is gonna sound sick,
因为我现在浑身不舒服 because I'm actually in a lot of pain right now,
都怪我膀胱超负荷了 due to the sheer weight and strain on my bladder,
可这让我想死鸦片剂了 but, man, does this make me miss opiates.
因为你的膀胱从小训练有素 Because your bladder is trained from a very early age
不会想尿就尿 需要得到大脑的允许 not to pee whenever it wants to, it needs permission from your brain.
当你兴奋爽嗨了 你的脑子就会... 偷点懒 And when you're really high, your brain gets a little... lazy.
懒到不想传递信息 Too lazy to say something.
求你了 呼吸 求你了 Come on. Breathe. Come on, please.
这大概就是好多瘾君子死在厕所的原因 It's probably why so many drug addicts die on toilets.
朱蒂
兰尼
埃尔维斯
事实是 上一次我离开房间时 The truth is, the last time I left this room,
体验并不愉快 I didn't have the best experience.
睡了一整天吗 这才是生活 Sleeping all day? It's quite the life.
见见瑞克 我妈的新男友 Meet Rick. My mom's new boyfriend.
要是你让瑞克自我介绍 他会说他是... If you were to ask Rick to describe himself, he'd say he was...
"天生浪漫 热爱冒险 热衷旅行 "A romantic at heart. I'm adventurous. I love to travel.
我喜欢户外活动... I love the outdoors...
高雅的艺术 深沉的电影 醇香的好酒 永远年轻" great art, great movies, great wine. Forever young."
抱歉 抱歉 Sorry, I'm sorry.
-我想你爸了 -我也是 - I miss your dad. - Me, too.
于是 瑞克来了 So, enter Rick.
配对成功
那么... So...
你妈妈说你有了个新的 "好朋友" Your mom tells me that you have a new, uh, "best friend."
啥意思 What is that supposed to mean?
就 你懂的 That, you know.
你有了个新的好朋友 You got a new best friend.
你知道吗 瑞克 You know what, Rick?
去你妈的 Why don't you go fuck yourself?
你怎么敢这样和别人说话 How dare you speak to someone like that?
-谁 瑞克 -别耍嘴皮子 - Who? Rick. - Don't be a smart-ass.
-我冒犯你了吗 -现在就道歉 - Did I offend you? - Apologize right now.
回想起来 当时我确实有点贱 In retrospect, I was a little cunt-y.
但瑞克太垃圾 我又生气了 原因有很多 But Rick does suck, and I was angry. For a lot of reasons.
瑞克 我诚心为说"去你妈的"向你道歉 Rick, I sincerely apologize for telling you to go fuck yourself.
我是想说 我妈能找到更好的 What I really meant to say is that my mom can do better
还有 我讨厌你坐在我爸的椅子上 and I hate seeing you sit in the chair my dad sat at.
朱尔斯: 嗨
朱尔斯: 抱歉我消失了一整周
朱尔斯: 我得了流感
我也是
没关系 我只是担心你
朱尔斯: 抱歉
朱尔斯: 这周末我可能要去看望以前学校的老朋友
如果我有躁郁症... If I am bipolar...
我肯定喜欢狂躁期多于抑郁期 I sure as shit prefer mania over depression.
费兹 你知道九十年代的惊悚片吧 Yo, Fez. So you know how in every '90s thriller, right,
比如摩根·弗里曼演的 那个能通灵的黑人警察 Morgan Freeman plays, like, the same semi-psychic black cop.
我知道这带点种族歧视 可重点是每部电影 So, I know that's kind of racist, but the point is, in every movie,
他都能冷静地把案件的线索拼起来 he's always calmly putting the fucking pieces of the case together,
他身边的每个人都吓傻了 while everybody else around him is fucking freaking out,
都说 "这鬼话你自己都不懂吧 摩根" saying, "You don't know what the fuck you're talking about, Morgan."
"你是个... 不称职的父亲 你该退休了" "You're... You're a fucking bad husband. You should fucking retire."
但无所谓 摩根总是非常专注 But no. Morgan is fucking hyper-focused.
因为他不只能看到小细节 Because he can see beyond the little details.
他能纵观全局 He's looking for the big fuckin' picture.
这些屁事都是有联系的 费兹 Because all of this shit? It's connected, Fez.
这个局比我们能看到的都要大 And it is way bigger than any of us can even fucking see.
重点是 现在我就是摩根 The point is, that's me. Right now, that is fucking me.
我能把事情看得很清楚 I can see everything so fucking clearly.
我知道发生了什么 我知道为什么 I know what happened, I know why it happened,
我知道该如何应对 and I know what the fuck I'm gonna do about it.
-真假 -真的 - Word. - Word.
-她听不见我说话吧 -她看都看不见你 - She can't hear me, right? - She can't see you, either.
很好 这可是最高机密 Okay, good, 'cause this is, like, some real top-secret shit.
信我 鲁 她不八卦 Trust me, Rue, she not gonna gossip.
好 Okay.
-你那把枪还在吗 -什么枪 - Do you still have that gun? - What gun?
-沙发里那把 -我有好几把枪 - The one from the couch. - I mean, I got a couple guns.
-为什么你有这么多枪 -我奶奶 - Why do you have so many guns? - My grandma.
-很棒 -你怎么关心起我的枪来了 - That's cool. - What you worried about my guns for?
好吧 我在想... Okay, well, I was thinking...
或许你能用把枪去吓吓内特·雅各布斯 that maybe you could use one to scare Nate Jacobs.
-你认真的吗 -我很认真啊 - Are you serious? - I mean, I'm not not serious.
鲁 这是你今天说过的最蠢的话 Rue, that must be the dumbest shit you've said all fucking day.
你不用拿枪指着他 你可以就... You don't have to fucking point it at him. You could just...
你可以就... 亮一下 You could, like... You could flash it.
你一定是得了失心疯 鲁 You really have lost your fuckin' mind, Rue.
行 这是一个烂主意 我就是这胡言乱语 Fuck, it's a bad fucking idea, oka、y? I just was fucking spit balling, here.
他找我麻烦 还去惹朱尔斯 I mean, he fucked with me, he fucked with Jules.
我想给他点教训 抱歉 And I want fucking revenge. Okay? Sorry.
操 茅斯来了 Fuck. Mouse is here.
-那个有... -呆在这儿 别说话... - The guy with the... - All right, so, stay in here. Be quiet...
费兹 我... 不能呆在这儿 我真的... Fez, I can't... I can't stay in here. Like, I'm really...
-你当然可以 闭嘴 -我尴尬癌都要犯了 - Yes, the fuck you can. Shh! - I'm not good with awkward silences.
安静点 我说真的 Be quiet. Listen, I'm really serious right now.
你只需要乖乖坐着 You just need to sit your manic ass down,
五分钟别说话 鲁 and be quiet for five fuckin' minutes, Rue.
我他妈没跟你开玩笑 老实坐着别出声 I'm not fuckin' playin' with you. Sit down and shut the fuck up.
好吧 这他妈太诡异了 Okay. This is so fuckin' weird.
鲁 Yo, Rue.
-鲁 -鲁 我好寂寞 - Rue. - Rue. Rue, I'm so lonely.
我也是 别忘了我 Me, too. Don't forget about me.
那个老太太 她压根不知道我们在这儿 That old lady? She doesn't even know we exist.
-鲁 -鲁 - Rue! - Rue!
-吃光我们 -吃... 光... 我们 - Eat us all. - Eat... Us... All!
我要你帮我清点存货 Yo, I'm gonna need you to start moving some weight.
我想低调点 兄弟 Yo, I'm just trying to keep it low-key over here, man.
我他妈可要赚钱 And I'm trying to make fuckin' money.
哪怕我想要 我也没有那么多钱 Even if wanted all this shit, bruh, I don't got the money for all this, man.
所以你走运了 我把它预批给你 That's why you in luck. I'm gonna front it to you.
利息收10% 一个月之内给我 Ten percent on the vig, and I'll collect in a month.
我可不想惹这麻烦 兄弟 I'm not tryin' to do all that shit, man.
我可没问你意见 拿着 I ain't asking, bruh. Step yo shit up.
一 二 三 四 五 六 七 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven.
一... One...
抑郁症还会混淆时间线 The other thing about depression is it kind of collapses time.
鲁 你在听吗 Rue, are you listening?
突然间发现所有日子都混杂在一起 Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together
成了个永无止尽又令人窒息的循环 to create one endless and suffocating loop.
你发现自己在努力记起能让自己开心的事 So you find yourself trying to remember the things that made you happy.
-要再近一点吗 -嗯 - Do you want to get closer? - Yeah.
但慢慢的 大脑开始抹去每一段开心的回忆 But slowly, your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy.
最终 你只想知道为何人生总是如此 And eventually, all you can think about is how life has always been this way.
也只会继续如此 And will only continue to be this way.
爱之岛 前情提要... Previously, on Love Island...
抓住你和乔什之间的美好 Grab the amazing-ness that you have with Josh by the balls.
我在想朱尔斯开不开心 I wonder if Jules is having fun.
请远离轨道... Stay clear of the tracks...
我好想你 Oh, I missed you!
-郊区人对你如何 -他们都是幽闭恐惧症患者 - So how are the suburbs treating you? - They're claustrophobic.
你觉得怎么样 最近好吗 Yeah, how do you like it? How you doing?
我也不知道 这一年挺奇怪的 I don't know. It's been a weird, weird-ass year.
-怎么个奇怪法 -方方面面都是 - Weird in what way? - Weird in every way.
起码能交到几个朋友吧 Shit. You make some good friends, at least?
-是啊 有一个 -谁 - Yeah, I got one. - Yeah?
但有点复杂 But it's, like, complicated.
是朋友 还是友情之上 Well, are you friends, or are you a little bit more,
-那种朋友 -我猜 都是 - like a special kind of friend? - Both, I guess? Yeah.
所以你爱上那个男孩了吗 Okay. What, are you in love with him or something?
-是女生 不是男的 -剧情有点反转 - Her, not him. Yeah. - Ooh, a little plot twist. Okay!
-别跟我谈什么异性恋体制规范 -我的错 - No room for hetero-normativity in here. - My bad.
所以... 怎么样 So... what?
-我也不知道那算什么 -是吗 - I don't know. I don't know what it is. - Yeah.
现在的情况不是很好 It's not, like, great right now.
我感觉 不太舒服 I'm not exactly, like, in the best place.
怎么了 发生了什么 Why? What's going on?
我过来就是为了摆脱那些事 I came here so I wouldn't have to think about it.
了解 Understood.
-这层吗 -不 再上一层 - This one? - No, I'm one more up.
安娜 Yo, Anna.
安娜 给你介绍个朋友 Anna, someone I want you to meet.
你好 我是朱尔斯 Hi. I'm Jules.
我知道 I know.
-喜欢吗 -这是你们做的吗 - You like it? - Did y'all make these?
我们朋友做的 你们要出去吗 Our friend did. I mean, are you guys gonna go out?
安娜总想给我化妆 真尴尬 Uh, Anna's always trying to put makeup on me. So awkward.
我记得第一次包里背着高跟鞋走出希尔斯 I remember walking out of Sears with my first pair of heels in my backpack.
-真可爱 -我心都要跳出来了 - Cute. - And my heart was fucking racing.
我回到家 直接进卧室 And I got home, and went straight to my room,
锁上门 穿上它... locked the door, put 'em on...
我... 感觉... And, I just... felt like...
我在采集草药 I was collecting herbs,
或者说制作药水来增强灵力值 or making potions in order to up my manna, you know?
一切都从那双鞋开始 然后是衣服 Like, it started with that, and then it was clothes,
接着是妆容 最终是性激素 and then it was makeup, and eventually hormones.
就像一点一点升级 Um, I just kind of kept leveling up.
那你现在是什么级别 So, what level are you at now?
我也不知道 I don't know.
但肯定还没到极限 But I definitely haven't reached my full power.
-但你也和男人约会吧 -约会这个词不准确 - But you date guys, right? - Date isn't really the right word.
她是说 她就是个小婊子 What she means to say is that she's a slut.
-操你妈 -怎么了 又不是贬义词 - Fuck you! - What, it's not an insult!
-我是说... -但你一般会和男人约吧 - I mean... - But you normally hook up with guys.
没错 但... 和男人的关系很怪 Yeah, but... my relationship to men is weird.
-怎么了 -在我脑中 就像... - Like, how? - In my head, it's like...
如果我能驾驭男人 就能驾驭自己的女性角色 If I can conquer men, then I can conquer femininity.
为什么需要男人让你感觉自己更女性化呢 Why do you need a guy to make you feel more feminine?
我们总会回到这点 We'll circle back to that one.
-你成功了吗 -成功什么 - So have you? - Have I what?
驾驭自己的女性角色 Conquered femininity?
我也不知道 I don't know.
可 我好像根本不想驾驭它 But, it's not like I even want to conquer it.
而是 我想要彻底抹去它 It's like I want to fuckin' obliterate it.
然后更上一层楼 And then move on to the next level.
再一层 再一层 And the next, and the next.
一层又一层 Level up. Level up!
我也不知道是什么意思 什么样子 但... Yeah. I don't really know what the means, or looks like, but...
-我想要那样 -酷儿力量无限 - I want it. - Queerness is infinite.
好了 看着我 Okay, look at me.
你看起来可爱死了 Yeah. You look adorable.
别说了 Stop.
我怀孕了 I'm pregnant.
什么 What?
你百分百确定吗 Are you for real that you're 100 percent pregnant?
是的 Yeah.
我... I...
抱歉... I'm sorry, uh...
你还好吗 Are you all right?
我没事... 只是有点紧张 Yeah, I'm...'m just a little bit nervous.
紧张什么 Nervous about what?
我不知道你要说什么 About what you're gonna say.
你不会想留下这个孩子吧 You're not really thinking about having this kid, are you?
我真的很爱你 麦凯 I really love you, McKay.
我也爱你 但我现在还有很多事要做 Yeah, I love you, too, but I'm doing a lot of shit right now.
我现在还在上学 I'm in the middle of school right now.
这他妈是多大的责任 凯西 It's a big fuckin' responsibility, Cassie.
如果这就是我人生必须经历的呢 What if this is what I'm supposed to do with my life?
什么鬼 What the fuck?
我父母会杀了我 我教练也会杀了我 My parents are gonna kill me. My coach is gonna kill me.
我爸妈会宰了我的 靠 My parents are gonna fucking kill me. Fuck.
凯西 我觉得你压根就不想要这个孩子 Cass, I don't even think you wanna have this baby, okay?
这不是... 傻逼童话故事 也许... It's not a... It's not a fuckin' fairy tale. Like...
你可能感觉幸福温馨什么的 但这可是现实生活 It may seem all cute and cuddly to you, but this is real shit.
我压根没有做爹的准备 I'm not even ready to be a dad.
这话可能很自私还是什么的 但是... I don't know if that's selfish to say or whatever, but...
小孩太他妈可怕了 children are fuckin' scary.
你想聊聊 我们现在就说清楚 You wanted to talk about it, so here we are, we're talking about it.
但我觉得不能要 But I say we don't do it.
我没说我要生下来 I'm not saying I'm gonna have a baby.
我只是想小小地幻想一下 I just wanted to dream about it for a minute.
总有一天 你会是世界上最棒的母亲 You'll make the best mother on the planet one day.
毫无疑问 I say that without a doubt.
为什么你摄像头是黑的 我要回拨过去吗 For some reason your screen is black. Should I call you back?
-不用 就这样 -好吧 - No, I prefer to keep it that way. - Oh. Okay.
-你很会讲价啊 -总得混口饭吃 - You drive a hard bargain. - Yeah, well, a girl's gotta eat.
30分钟300块钱 300 for thirty minutes.
-你应该收费再高点的 -真的吗 - You should have asked for more. - Really?
让我看看你全身 站起来 Let me see your whole body. Stand up.
很好 再远一点 Yes. Keep going.
就这样 Yes.
美呆了 Fantastic.
你很紧张吗 Are you nervous?
我 我... 我就是 我通常... 不脱衣服的 I-I-I... I mean, I don't usually, um... undress.
但我很特别 对吗 But I am special. Right?
是的 Yes.
那就说出来 Then say it.
你很特别 You're special.
脱吧 So, get undressed.
你可真漂亮 You're beautiful.
能给我带个芒果味乐活气泡水吗 Can you get me a mango La Croix?
-还有那种樱桃卷烟纸 -还要啥 - And those cherry rolling papers? - Anything else?
-好着呢吧 费兹 -好着呢 兄弟 - What up, Fez? - What's up, man?
再给我来两卷那个卷烟纸 Yo, can I get, uh, two of the rolling papers, too, bruh?
兄弟 Yo, man.
我不知道你 鲁还有朱尔斯之间什么情况 I don't know what's been going on with you, Rue, and Jules and shit.
但你得知道 我很在意她 But you should know, I really do care about her.
-你不是她的药贩子吗 -不是啊 兄弟 - Aren't you, like, her drug dealer? - Nah, man.
那 你们俩在一起吗 What, are you in a relationship?
-没 她就像是我的家人 -所以是柏拉图式的 - Nah, bruh, that's like, my family. - So it's platonic.
我是说 离她和她朋友远一点 Look, man, all I'm saying is, leave her and her friends alone.
这算是威胁吗 Is that a threat?
-不是 我就是告诉你 -不然呢 - Nah, I'm just telling you. - Or what?
不然就不会有这段对话了 We're not gonna be having this conversation.
费兹克 来把话说清楚 你差不多算半个弱智 Fezco, let's get this straight. You're, like, half a retard.
20岁才辍学 而现在... 你就是个混混 You dropped out of school at 20, and now... you're a gangster.
你他妈托尼·蒙塔纳[疤面煞星]吗 想干什么 What are you, like, fucking Tony Montana? What's the plan?
还要住个豪宅 养养老虎什么的吗 You gonna be living in a mansion, fuckin' pet tigers and shit?
去死吧你 Go fuck yourself.
听着 Listen, bruh.
我是说 你要是继续找鲁和她朋友的麻烦 我就杀了你 All I'm sayin', you keep fuckin' with Rue and her friends, and I'mma kill you.
一共5元75分 花花公子 It's gonna be $5.75, playboy.
成年人膀胱可以容纳两量杯尿液 An adult bladder can hold two cups of urine.
但如果你让膀胱再顶顶 But if you're telling your bladder to hold off
因为你正处于人生最痛苦的低潮期 because, say, you're in the worst depression of your fucking life,
你的膀胱会被填满 your bladder will eventually fill.
然后接下来... And what begins to happen is...
所有肾脏输送进膀胱的毒素 all of the toxins that your kidneys have pushed into your bladder
都会回流到肾脏中 begin to travel back into your kidneys.
操 Fuck.
我知道你在想什么 鲁 这太扯了 I know what you're thinking. Rue, this is insane.
别肾脏感染了 快去厕所 Don't get a kidney infection. Walk to the bathroom.
相信我 我也是这么想的 Trust me, I'm thinking the same fuckin' thing.
来点大麻吗 Like a little pot?
-你让我想起了她 -谁 - You remind me of her. - Who?
-我最好的朋友 -她人什么样 - My best friend. - So what's she like?
-说实话 有点一团糟 -所以我一团糟嘛 - Honestly? Kind of a mess. - So I'm a mess?
-是的 -我怎么就一团糟了 - Yeah. - How am I a mess?
暂时不知道 I don't know yet.
我太嗨了 I think I'm really high.
-我该给她发短信吗 -不要 - Should I text her? - No.
只能再亲一次 You only get one more.
-朱尔斯 -你来这干嘛 - Jules. - What are you doing here?
-你给我发了短信 -我有吗 - You texted me. - I did?
你不想我来吗 Did you not want me to come?
你一个人吗 You here alone?
不 不 不 不 不 No, no, no, no, no.
-我害怕你 内特 -对于一切 我很抱歉 - I'm scared of you, Nate. - I'm sorry. For everything.
很抱歉伤害了你 I'm sorry for hurting you.
你... 你是我见过最美的女生 You... you were the most beautiful person that I've ever known.
我是泰勒 I'm Tyler.
我就是那个你爱上的人 I'm the person that you fell in love with.
-我想杀了你 -我是你的人 完全属于你 - I wanna kill you. - I'm yours. I'm all yours.
你个娘炮 你个婊子 You're a pussy. You're a bitch.
而我希望全世界都知道 And I wish the whole fucking world could know.
我知道这不会有好结果的 I know this isn't gonna end well.
喂 Hello?
我要报案 Yeah, I'd like to report a crime.
妈 Mom.
我需要你的帮助 I think I need your help.
过来 Come here.
过来 没事的 没事的 我很爱你 Come here. It's okay. It's okay. I love you so much.
我很爱你的 你这么漂亮 I love you so much. You're so beautiful.
-操 -东部高地警察 开门 - Fuck! - East Highland PD! Open the door!
快点 兄弟 你麻利点 Come on, bro. Hurry the fuck up out there!
-我们知道你在里面 快开门 -操 - We know you're in there. Open up! - Fuck!
狗日的 Goddamn it!
-我靠 -什么鬼啊 兄弟 - Fuck, bro. - What the fuck, man?
快 认真的 赶快 Come on, bruh. Hurry up, for real, man.
快开门 开门 Unlock the door! Open up, now!
我靠 Goddamn it!
鲁 怎么了 Rue, what's wrong?
好了 宝贝 没事的 Okay, baby. Come on.
起来 快起来 Come on. Come on.
心理医生曾说我的心理状况变幻莫测 I had a therapist once who said that these states will wax and wane.
这让我妈松了口气 Which gave my mother relief,
因为这意味着低沉时 会有快乐时光 because it meant that in the bad times, there would be good times.
但也让她很紧张 But it also gave her anxiety
因为这意味着高兴时 也会突然低沉 because it meant that in the good times, there would be bad times.
这总让我很困惑 因为我不懂是什么意思 It always confused me, because I didn't really know what it meant.
没事了 宝贝 没事了 It's okay, baby. It's okay.
但确实比我所形容的那样更好接受 But it did sound a lot calmer than the way I would describe it.
我觉得我得重新吃药了 I think I need to go back on medication.
好了 你感觉如何 There you go. How you feel? Okay?
我知道你现在很低落 宝贝 I know you're feeling low right now, baby.
但你没有逃避就说明了你在好转 But the fact that you didn't turn back means you're gettin' better.
真的 It does.
说实话 我直到后来才意识到变幻莫测是指什么 Granted, I didn't realize until later what waxing and waning implied.
这些情绪会一直存在 That these feelings were fixed and constant
伴随我的一生 and would never end for the rest of my life.
朱尔斯: 你不知道我有多想你