你好 Alexander 我是Stuart Hello,Alexander. It's Stuart.
你好 Stuart Hello,Stuart.
我喝了很多 但是不禁想起从前 You know,admitting I've had lots to drink and that, but I can't help reflect?/i>
我是Alexander 开车的小伙子 I'm Alexander,the bloke in the glasses driving,
而不是磁带里口齿不清的家伙 他是Stuart not the mumbly one on the tape. That's Stuart.
我是2000年认识Stuart的 决定为他写传记 I got to know Stuart in 2000 and decided to write his biography.
我朋友都说太疯狂了 这个男人名不见经传 All my friends said it was mad. I mean,after all this man was unknown,
并非名人 但是书还不错 he wasn't famous,not a celebrity, but the book turned out okay.
真希望Stuart能看到 Just wish Stuart could have been here to see it.
以下都是真实事迹
这是第一本流浪汉传记吧 I think it was the first ever biography of a homeless man.
从他出生到现在 From birth to the present day.
斯图尔特倒带人生
2000年 我为了挣零花钱 So,back in 2000 I was earning a bit of extra pocket money
在叫冬天的安慰的收容所 作资金筹集人 working as a fundraiser at Wintercomfort,
那是剑桥一个繁忙的小庇护所 常常挤满了无家可归的人 which is a busy little day shelter in Cambridge, normally full of homeless people.
爆满 直到一天早上 警察突击检查 Full,that is,until the morning that the police decided to raid the place.
他们都被捕了 They've been arrested.
都被捕了吗 All of them?
好主意 What a good idea.
不 不 只有我的头儿 Ruth Uh,no,no. It was,um,just my boss,Ruth,
还有助理John and um,her deputy,John.
有一些被救济的人 一直偷偷进行毒品交易 Some of the clients have been secretly dealing drugs on the premises
慈善机构的掌管人是Ruth和John 所以他们要负责 but because Ruth and John ran the charity, they were held responsible.
他们有录像 证据确凿 They've got evidence,on film.
太不公平了 我大发雷霆 was furious at the injustice of it.
那真的是我第一次 And,uh,then really,for the first time in my life
对流浪汉感兴趣 I actually began to take a real and practical interest in the homeless.
滚开 猪头 Fuck off,pisshead!
这是Alexander Masters I'd like to introduce to you Alexander Masters,
流浪汉的好朋友 也是本次活动的主席 a dedicated friend of the homeless himself, chairman of the campaign.
我们坚信 他们永远不会被定罪 Oh,we were convinced they'd never be convicted.
如果监狱都无法阻止毒品交易 Ruth和John怎么能做到 I mean,if prisons can't control drugs then how could Ruth and John be expected to?
大家知道 我么今晚是为Ruth Wyner和John Brock而来 As everyone knows,we're here this evening about Ruth Wyner and John?T
但法官Howarth分别判他们 -五年和4年徒刑 -the judge,Justice Howarth,sent them down?/i> 梖-or five years,and four years.
-真是丢脸 -谢谢 - Shame. - hank you.
-分明就是法西斯分子 -谢谢 - Fascist. - Thank you.
但是情势危急 我们该怎么办 But this is the crunch, what are we going to do about it?
这次活动怎么能把Ruth和John救出来 How is this campaign going to get Ruth and John out?
-请说 -我们应该给他们送书 - Yes? - We could send them books.
作家班扬(曾入狱)的书适合狱中阅读 Bunyan,he's good for prisons.
不是吧 要送的话 还是作家热内的玫瑰奇蹟比较好 Hardly. Miracle of the Rose,by Genet, if you must.
抱歉 不会有用的 Excuse me,this isn't gonna work.
给他们送书 盒子装不下 Sending them books,eh? It won't fit in the box.
-什么 -犯人的置物盒 - Sorry? - The inmate's belongings.
每个人都有 Everyone's got one.
-那是谁 -不知道 我看他们都一样 - Who is that? - No idea. They all look the same to me.
我之前住的地方 还可以有地毯 盒子装不下 梱ou're also allowed a piece of carpet what won't fit in your box,
还可以有虎皮鹦鹉或金丝雀 and a budgie or,or a canary,
显然盒子都放不下笼子 and obviously the cage is not going to fit in the box.
但是 Ruth和John因此会受尽苦楚 But,it is Ruth and John what will suffer.
监狱看守会把书都扔掉 因为盒子装不下 All of them books,the screws will just chuck them out because they won't fit in your box.
我不是开玩笑 但如果你们要抗议 就要了解盒子 I'm not being funny,but you should really know about boxes if you're gonna have a campaign.
我叫Psycho 可以叫我Stuart Me name's Psycho,but you can call me Stuart,if you like.
-地址是什么 -月桂街 2号 - Um,what's your address? - Umm... 2 Laurel Lane.
他们帮我找医生 给我衣服 各种服务 有时还给我两份布丁作午餐 Yeah,they help me: doctors,a couple clothes, outreach,sometimes lunch with two puddings.
都是他们做的 还有员工 Yeah,they put it all on,those two. And the staff.
不是开玩笑 但我真的很感激 I'm not being funny,yeah,but I am really grateful.
那天我还享受了头部按摩 -很好 - The other day I got a really [indiscernible]. - Oh,great.
-我能帮忙吗 -可以 - Can I help? - Yeah,uh,yeah.
那是我与Stuart Shorter第一次见面 That's how I first met Stuart Shorter.
在大街上嚷嚷的酒鬼 瘾君子 反社会份子 还特别健谈 i>Street brawler,alcoholic,a heroin addict, sociopathic street raconteur with a fondness
总是喜欢带着"小银条" 我们看来那就是一把刀 for what he called "little strips of silver". Knives,to you and me.
-非常感谢你帮我搬 -不用客气 - Thank you very much for agreeing to store these. - Oh,no problem.
小心脚下 亲爱的 好了 这边走 Mind the step. Oh,dear. Here you go,mate.
欢迎来到寒舍 Welcome to my humble abode.
月桂街2号 就是月桂树 是吧 2 Laurel Lane. Well,they are laurels,aren't they?
今早吃晚餐的时候 我才听说见面 I only heard about the meeting this morning when I was picking up my breakfast.
你的地址 - Your address? - Mm-hm.
第一个可不是好事 谁都会找你 天 天 A bad idea,number one,mate. You could get any old riff-raff showing up. Oh,dear,dear.
什么事 Yes?
这是一些带地址的信封 I've addressed some envelopes.
-什么 -没事吧 - Which,uh... - They alright?
很糟糕 Horrible.
我有个抗议的好点子 就是上电视什么的 I've had a blinding idea for the campaign. Yeah,get us on television and all.
不算绑架的话 都不暴力 Not even violent,if we leave out the kidnapping.
-你要进来吗 -要 - Do you want to come in? - Oh,yes please.
外面下雨了 It's a bit wet out there.
真不错 Ooh,that's nice.
-要多少糖 -尽量多放 哥们 - How many sugars? - As many as you got,mate.
好烫 H梙ot.
全是书 All them books.
你都看了吗 Have you read all of them?
没 No.
看了一半吗 Half?
也没有 Not exactly.
狩猎的黄蜂 The Hunting Wasp.
这本书讲的都是夏天的东西 A whole book about them little summer things.
这个说的是什么 This one. What is this one about?
淡紫色的那个 The colour mauve.
该死 怎么弄 How do you fucking get away with this?
现在 我的好点子 Now,this blinding idea.
你有车吗 Have you got a car?
没 No.
你更喜欢沃尔沃还是大众汽汽车 What do you like better: Volvo or VW?
几周后 我想写书了并且做了一点小调查 started doing a little research.
那个男孩很不容易 应该给他写本书 That boy has suffered. He deserves a book.
Stuart的奶奶
你应该写一本关于我的书 You should write a book about me.
一直是个好孩子 Always such a caring boy.
Stuart的母亲 Judith
逍遥自在 Happy-go-lucky little thing.
大家都祝福他 Legs all over the show,bless him.
3个月后 我们实施了Stuart的好点子 Three months after that we carried out Stuart's blinding idea
在内政部门前过夜抗议 which was a sleep-over protest in front of the home office
来让内政大臣Jack Straw 释放Ruth和John to persuade the then Home Secretary, Jack Straw,to release Ruth and John.
比他第一个点子 绑架人家 好多了 Which was better than his first idea, which was to kidnap him.
不知道为什么 Stuart是司机 Stuart took care of our transport. Somehow.
去伦敦的路上 我给他读了书的开头几页 And on the way to London I read him the first few pages of my book idea.
母亲赞叹 "Stuart Clive Shorter是个逍遥自在 最贴心的小男孩" "Stuart Clive Shorter was a happy-go-lucky little boy, 'the most considerate of my children',marvels his mother."
废话 无聊 Bollocks! Boring!
你为什么要写这些东西 Why do you want to write this fucking book anyway?
为了赚很多钱 To make lots and lots and lots of money.
真的吗 你以为能赚钱吗 Seriously? You think you can make money out of it?
可能会 Could,maybe.
这么无聊也行 Something as boring as that?
别那么粗鲁 你开始那么无聊 反正不是我的错 Don't be so rude. Anyway,it's not my fault that you started out so dull.
你要让它扣人心弦 You got make it more exciting.
倒叙吧 就像谋杀案和畅销书一样 Do it backwards. Like a murder mystery. Like a best-seller.
就像汤姆 克兰西写得一样(美国作家) You know,like what Tom Clancy writes.
我怎么会这样 Yeah! How'd I get to be like this?
什么谋杀了曾经的小男孩 What murdered the little boy I was?
9数到5一样 倒着来 Make them nine-to-five sit up.
把10双袜子塞进洗衣机 最后只剩7双 I mean,you put ten socks in the washing machine and only seven come out.
其他的去哪儿了 Where do they go?
-Stuart -我再跟你说 - Stuart? - I'll tell you another thing and all?
-Stuart -把洗衣机拆掉 也没有 ou take the machine apart and it ain't in it neither.
-Stuart -什么 - ? - What?
-这是什么 -什么 - What's this? - What? - This.
这个
Alexander 那是虱子 That,Alexander,is a lice.
小弟弟周围很容易 The main place you get those is around your bollocks.
长虱子 That lice,that'll grow.
疥疮更小 会钻在皮肤下生存 Scabies are smaller and they go under the skin and live there,literally nibbling.
从剑桥到伦敦50英里 用了5个半小时 for our convoy to do the 50 miles from Cambridge to London.
Stuart的速度从没超过30英里 Stuart would never drive above 30 miles an hour.
白金汉宫 Hey,Buckingham Palace.
沃尔瑟姆斯托 市政厅
一派胡言 What a load of bollocks! Huh!
谁需要女王啊 Who needs a queen?
-不 不 不 不是这样 -什么 - Oh,no,no,no,no. No,not like that. - What?
用这个 好吗 下面 这样 Use this,right? Underneath,yeah? Here you are.
这样更保暖 You lose more heat that way than you do that way.
Ruth和John需要这些 后脑勺上的眼睛 Ruth and John need these: eyes on the back of their heads!
才能结束极权国家统治 End [indiscernible] police state now!
在慈善机构工作的人被无故关押 People are being wrongfully imprisoned for working in a charity
他们什么也没做错 只是想帮助无家可归的人 and doing nothing but trying to help the homeless.
审判不公 慈善工作者入狱 该死 Charity workers in prison because of a miscarriage of?oh,fuck off.
审判不公 慈善工作者入狱 Charity workers in prison because of a miscarriage of justice.
好 大家听好了 Okay,listen up,everyone!
注意了 大家请安静 安静 Okay,everyone! Listen up! Everyone,please. Quiet,please!
大家这边走 谢谢 Everyone,we need you to move this way, thank you.
等等 等等 为什么 我们是和平抗议 Wait a minute,hold on,hold on. Why? This is a peaceful protest.
凭什么啊 Yeah! Fucking why?
你们不能违反内政部 越过这片区域 You can't cross these brass flags if the Home Office doesn't want you to.
简直就是法西斯 That's social fucking fascism,that is!
我们必须把栅栏放到后面 确保你们不会越过 And then we must put a fence in behind you to ensure you're not trespassing
-两边也要放 为了保护你们 -什么 and ones on either side to protect you. - What?
先生 为了防止踩踏事件 前面也要放栅栏 From the public,sir. They might step on you. And a fence in front just in case
免得你们晚上滚到马路上 被撞到 during the night you roll onto the road and get run over.
明白了 你的意思是把我们关在笼子里 Oh,I see. So you mean to cage us in completely.
我没说笼子 先生 那是你说的 I didn't say cage,sir,no. That was your word.
囚犯真的有工资吗
有啊
你是说像其他人一样吗 You mean a lot like normal people?
那可真是一笔财富 Yeah,make a fucking fortune.
每周 出来都成了百万富翁 Millionaires coming out of the nick every week.
大款监狱
你去过很多监狱吗 You've been in a lot of prisons then?
是吗 该死 Have I? Fucking hell.
有多少 How many?
一开始 我还年少的时候 那儿有个拘留所 Well,start off,when I was a nipper there was Send Detention Centre,
回家又被送回去了 Baint now House,back to Send again,
艾斯托 诺威奇 Eriestoke,Norwich,
然后我长大了 可以入狱了 then I grew up and went to big boy prison.
白色沼泽 就是真正的监狱 Whitemoor. Aw,now that's what I call a real prison.
那儿什么都有 哥们 You got everything there,mate:
恐怖分子 精神患者 安全威胁 杀人狂 疯子 terrorists,psychopaths,security threats, murderers,manslaughters,crazies...
你是哪一种 Which lot do you belong to?
疯子 Crazies,really. Mm,yeah.
诺威奇 然后又是白色沼泽 Norwich,Whitemoor again.
地下格伦登 Grendon Underground.
31个 Thirty-one.
应该没少算 I don't think I've missed any.
就是漏了 我还去过3次莱斯特 Oh yes,I have actually! I've been to Leicester three times as well.
卫兰德是最后一个 Wayland was me last one.
晚安 好好睡一觉 Good night. Sleep well.
谢谢 你也是 Thank you. Same to you.
既然你时间很多 Oi,you. Since you got so much fucking time on your hands,yeah,
那就回答这个问题 知道每年多少人 answer this one: do you know how many people
在狱中被狱卒杀害了吗 谋杀 get killed by screws in prison every year? Murders.
抱歉 警官 我们怎么知道 Oh,sorry,Gov. Excuse us,how was we supposed to know that bending him in half
弯他的身体的时候 姿势不对 会有害健康 the wrong fucking way was bad for his health?
那些人就是坏人 烂人 It was only people like me what is really rotten,isn't it? Really bad.
根本无药可救 你毫无头绪 是吧 Beyond hope. You haven't got the faintest fucking clue,have you? Huh?
-他只说晚安 -你可以滚蛋了 你们都很讨厌 - Yeah,all he said was "Good night". - You can fuck off and all you fucking geeky?
-闭嘴 Stuart -你这个中产阶级混蛋 Alexander - Oh,shut up yourself,Stuart. - You fucking wanking middle class cunt fuck,Alexander.
想知道我为什么这样了吗 我回答你 You want to know how I became what I am? I'm giving you fucking answers!
你为什么不写没有答案的书 Why don't you write a book with no fucking answers,eh?
继续 该死 找到答案 Go on,you fuck off. You find your fucking answers.
Stuart的妹妹
愤怒分为1到10级 我大概是四级 Stuart就是11级 On a scale of anger,one to ten, I'm probably on four and Stuart's on eleven.
Stuart的爷爷
你永远不知道... You never can tell...
家族的浮沉 再次没落 how families have been down and they've been up then they've been down again.
你就像Stuart一样 You just like Stuart,you know?
吸毒 蹲监狱 还是乞丐 Drugs,prison,being a beggar.
继续 继续 Go on,go on.
不
哥们 Yeah,mate.
-混蛋 -早 - Bastards! - Morning.
喜欢小便的味道吗 Like the taste of piss,eh?
你这个混蛋 You bastards.
闻起来不错 Someone smells nice.
经过3个月准备以后 After three months of preparation.
不知是哪个蠢货出的点子 要在周末进行抗议 I mean,who's bloody stupid idea was it that we camp out over the weekend anyway,
Straw先生根本不在 the one time Mr. Straw's not going to be there?
-肯定是你 -该死 - I bet it was yours. - Oh,fuck off.
-我喜欢这首歌 -是首好歌 - Oh,I like this song. - This is a good song.
那个周末的确发生了一件大事 Still,one blimey thing did come out of that weekend:
Stuart觉得他的生活应该倒过来写 Stuart's idea that his life should be written backwards.
我意识到已经很致命了 It was cutting me throat what done it.
啤酒杯插在了我脖子上 就是没有了 Put a beer glass into me neck. Just lost it.
有时 你不相信死有多难 Sometimes you wouldn't believe how hard it is to fucking die.
你想自杀 却得到了廉租公房 So,you got a council for that, because you tried to kill yourself?
还是为得到房子耍花招 是吧 Works a trick for the old housing points,doesn't it?
一口气到最前面了 Whoosh! Straight to the top of the list.
没都走 It's not all gone though.
什么没都走 What's not all gone?
憎恨 The hatred.
我有很多敌人 在这里 I got so many enemies. Up here,mate.
我就怕有人受伤 Somebody's going to get hurt though, that's what scares me.
怎么时候发生 When's this thing going to happen?
我称为黑色迷雾 I call it me "black mists".
下周 下月还是10秒后 Next week? Next month? Next ten seconds?
好精致 That is lovely bit of workmanship.
很珍贵 很珍贵 That's value. That's value.
天 在这儿 Oh my God. This for the series.
给我儿子的 For my son.
你有儿子吗 You've got a son!?
对啊 和他妈妈在格拉斯哥 Yeah. In Glasgow with his mum.
14岁了 Fourteen years of age to mind.
总是喜欢去高尔夫球场 Always out on the golf course,the little 'un.
还不错 哥们 但没月桂街2号好 Not bad there,mate. Not better than Laurel Lane.
红酒总是闻起来不好 Wine always smells like sick.
喝啤酒 Here,have a beer.
想吃点什么吗 Fancy something to eat?
你为什么想当作家 So why do you want to be a writer,then?
真不知道 就像家族遗传病 Oh,I don't know,really. Bit like a disease,all my family's got it.
所以我也不例外 是吧 Didn't want to be left out,did I?
我知道你的意思 哥们 Nah. I know what you mean,mate.
我爸爸是贼 Me dad is a thief,
妈妈是酒吧女侍 and,um,me mum's a barmaid.
你日记里用橘黄色标出的部分是什么 What's the colour orange highlighter in your diary for?
家事 Family stuff.
黄色呢 Yellow?
社交 Social.
你写我的这本书 Now,uh,this book that you're writing about me,
只会写你的名字吗 is it just to make your name?
还有你的 And yours.
我也有工作的点子 I've,uh,had an idea for a job,too.
没时间浪费的外国商人 For the foreign businessman what doesn't have time to waste,
需要什么 what does he need?
货车里的办公室 An office... in a van.
不是常规思维 是吧 It's lateral thinking,isn't it?
在斯坦斯特德下飞机 直接去货车后面 Gets off the plane at Stansted, straight into the back of me van.
什么都有了 That will have everything:
好看的小妞儿 会速记 good-looking bird what can do shorthand,
发传真 上网 车上什么都有 非常棒 fax,internet,wires all over the fucking gaff. It's brilliant.
红酱还是棕的 Red sauce or brown?
给我 红的 Oh,yes please. I mean,uh,red.
那是什么 楼上的家伙
说要帮我做张可以叠起来靠着墙的床 像詹姆斯 邦德的那样(间谍) is gonna make me a bed what folds up against the wall,like what James Bond has.
用弹簧锁锁在地板上 不然就会弹起来 springs and latches on the floor otherwise it's boing,boing,whoosh!
弹起来 Boing,boing,whoosh?
小妞儿可不愿意 You know what I mean,bird's not going to be too happy if she gets her face
脸碰到墙上 squeezed up against the plaster,is she?
嘿 Hey.
抱歉 Sorry.
很好 什么都能用 Good stuff,that. You can use it with anything.
看到床那边了吗 上周是块大污渍 See that right by the bed? This should be a huge stain where I overdosed there last week.
我嗑药太多 吐了 清理以后 很干净 And all the spilled cans and vomit. That cleaned it up really,really well,actually.
但清理之前 要放一周 But you want to,um,you want to leave it,uh, for about... about a week before you vacuum.
给你 哥们 Here you are,mate.
小心点 烫 Careful,yeah? It's a bit hot.
我没问过你为什么入狱 I never asked you why you were in prison.
上次吗 很蠢 The last time? Stupid things.
我哥们 Smithy泡泡糖冠军 Me mate,Smithy,well bubblegum chap,
不是开玩笑 他进了1983版 I'm not being funny,he's in the Guinness Book of Records.
吉尼斯世界记录 1983 edition,as it goes.
我们就像兄弟一样 对抗世界 Like brothers fighting the world.
赢得尊重 信任以及荣誉 Respect,trust,and honour.
快走快走 Go,go,go,go,go!
对 Right.
-该死 你带薄荷醇了吗 -薄荷醇 该死 - Oh,fuck. Did you get menthols? - Menthols? Fuck off.
-她会杀了我 她要薄荷醇 -把伏特加给她 - She'll fucking kill me. She asked for menthols. - Well,give her the vodka.
她只想要薄荷醇 不要伏特加 She don't want vodka,she wants menthols!
商店
快走快走 Go,go,go,go,go!
我不信 没有薄荷醇 Aw,I don't believe it! These aren't fucking menthols either!
就是包装是绿的 我拿了10盒绿香烟 They're just in a green packet. I've got ten packets of green cigarettes.
快 Hurry up.
25英镑60吗 25 quid,60!?
女人以为能指使你做任何事 Women! They think they can boss you about in everything,don't they?
有一天 Smithy得到消息 And one day,Smit hy got a tip-off.
-2000英镑 -就在柜下面 - 20,000 quid? - Just keeps it under the counter.
20英里内没有巡警 Not a cop shop in 20 miles.
该死 真不负责 Fucking?That's fucking irresponsible.
没有所有 No pride of ownership.
快 快 快 Go,go,go,go,go!
对 Right.
很搞笑 我们被抓走 Let's just say it was funny because as soon as we was sent down,
Smithy夫人就跟给我们提供消息的人 一起住了 Smithy's missus moved in with the fella what told us about the job.
5年 Five years.
吹泡泡糖世界冠军被判刑
判的不轻 你们有武器吗 Pretty steep sentence. Were you armed?
没有 No.
只有一个起货钩 Only with a crowbar.
Alexander 留下喝茶吗 Hey,Alexander? You wanna stay for tea?
我的最爱 "囚犯咖喱" Me favourite,"convict curry".
在监狱的时候 我们经常做 We used to make it in jail.
蘑菇 Ooh,mushrooms!
-第一次呢 -第一次什么 - What about the first time,then? - First time what?
第一次作为成人 被判刑 Well,that you were sentenced as an adult.
哥们 我说不出口 I can't?I can't really talk about that,mate.
抢劫空空的邮局啊 But,I mean,robbing an empty post office is? 320 00:32:00,301 --> 00:32:08,200 Burgle. Rob people,burgle post offices.
应该是偷窃 抢劫是对人用的 偷窃邮局
第一次被关不好受吧 Yeah,but what I mean is it's hardly a Schedule 1 offence,is it?
当然不是 Of course not.
很严肃 是吧 Well,that's serious,isn't it?
并不轻松 It wasn't kiddie fiddling.
我没说轻松啊 I didn't say that it was.
不是的 It wasn't.
周四说 好吗 We'll talk about it Thursday,yeah?
周四下午 Thursday afternoon.
换个时间吧 Another time,right?
用吐司 把热腾腾的酱汁吸起来 Then you mop with the bread. Mop up your juices.
砸破窗户 反向 So,smareak the steering wheel lock
转动方向盘 破坏锁头 by turning the wheel in opposing directions.
如果街上人太多 不能用砖砸 Yeah. And if the street is too public to use a brick...
那就用一根细铁丝 从窗户的缝隙伸进去 勾住车锁 Slide stick. Remove the metal band from a pallet of bricks,reduce to eighteen inches,
接着开靠近门边的 remove a notch from one side, insert into door panel.
我在邮局了 踩着碎玻璃 Ba-kow! I'm in the post office! Boot in the rubble!
抢劫邮局没意义 No,there's no point in ram-raiding a post office.
-为什么不 -你没听我说 - Why not? - Can't you not pay attention?
抢劫邮局没意义 根本没钱 是吧 There's no point in ram-raiding a fucking post office. There's never no money in the till,is there?
都没有 Gone are them days.
我忘了带钱 I forgot money.
我有 Here.
不 不 我去打车 路上去银行 No,no,no,no. I'll get a taxi, I'll stop at a bank on the way.
不 拿着吧 真的 是我的啤酒钱 No,honestly,take it. It's me beer money.
算是帮我 You'll be doing me a favour.
也算是帮社会 You'll be doing society a favour.
买个车吧 And buy a fucking car.
弄个驾照 Get yourself a fucking license.
我几乎忘了 Oh,I almost forgot.
给你 给你买了这个 Here. Bought you this.
你的黑色迷雾 Your black mists.
下次你可以说话试试 Thought you could talk into it next time you're in one.
你没事吧 You'll be okay?
需要帮助 就打电话 Call if you need any help.
凌晨2点 4点 任何时候都可以 2am,4am,anytime.
你可以带个相机吗 Yeah,so you can bring a fucking camera?
没事 Alexander You're alright,Alexander.
以前常说Stuart 我希望有时把你 Often used to say to Stuart,"I wish I could just pick you up sometimes,
使劲晃晃 把坏东西从头里晃出来 turn you upside down and shake all the bad things out of your head,
然后让你再次步入正轨 then put you back up the right way again."
他变了 The change in him.
我们不理解 We just couldn't understand it.
当然 谢谢你们今天来 And of course I would like to thank you all for coming here today
听我说抗议和请愿 to hear me talk about the campaign and the petition.
Stuart和我 那年春天 在伯明翰 Stuart and I gave nine or ten talks together about the campaign that spring
伦敦 牛津以及还有剑桥附近的乡村 一起发表了九场或十场演说 in Burmingham,London,Oxford,and of course villages around Cambridge.
这是Clive Shorter.先生 Mr Stuart Clive Shorter.
我先说 然后Stuart就接着 I'd speak first,and then Stuart would get up and knock the audience off its
给观众讲述他的人生 seats with the story of his life.
典型的自杀 无法承受憎恨荒芜 A typical suicide attempt,just an unbearable sense of hatred,waste? I am the nightmare you frighten your children with",he said.
他说 我是吓孩子的梦魇
是两个慈善工作者从街上拉走的那种人 "The sort of person these two charity workers were trying to help to get off your streets."
我们应该给Ruth与John发奖牌 而不是送进监狱 "We should have awarded Ruth and John medals instead of sending them to prison."
我转过身 清空了右口袋的所有东西 梥o I just twisted around and I emptied everything that remained into my right buttock.
Stuart为活动做了两件事情 Stuart did two things for the campaign,really.
他寄了请愿信 He folded letters
展示了自己的灵魂 and he exposed his soul.
好了吗 That alright?
-没错 我们写 -这是你的名字 - Exactly. So,if we write? - Oh,this is your name.
解决难题 也就解决你了吗 If we solve the puzzle,do we solve you?
他就是...很有趣 He's just... He's just very,very interesting,you know?
他讲述了我完全不了解的世界 He tells me about a world I knew nothing about
所以我喜欢他 and... I... I just like him.
绝对很特别 他知道自己成为反社会者的具体日期 It's absolutely extraordinary. He knows the exact day that he changed into a sociopath.
是下午4点到5点 具体哪天 Between 4pm and 5pm. The exact day!
将吉基尔博士转变成怪物海德的药剂的一样 不可思议(出自小说化身博士) It's like knowing what was in Dr Jekyll's potion that turned him into Mr Hyde.
Stuart的黑色迷雾 那晚闹事了 This thing,Stuart's black mist, came that night.
显然 是刀战引起的 Apparently it started by a knife fight.
一天后 他母亲给我打电话 我才知道 The first I heard about it was a call a day later from his mother.
至少没有血迹 At least there's no blood.
一般都有血 Usually there is blood.
也许清洁工清理了 Perhaps the cleaners have been 'round.
把血洗掉了 Just for the blood.
抗议帮了他很多 Campaign's helped him a lot,you know.
让他正直了 Kept him straight.
这是他长大后 第一次这么开心 Ain't been this happy since he was a little boy.
只给Alexander "Alexander only."
你好 Alexander 我是Stuart 我喝了很多 Hello,Alexander. It's Stuart. You know,admitting I've had lots to drink and that,but
但是禁不住回想 I can't help reflect about?/i>
Stuart被带到剑桥地方法院受审 Stuart had been bailed to appear at Cambridge Magistrate's Court.
为了支持他 我陪他去了 I went with him for moral support.
他们似乎不怎么难过 They don't look too upset to be here.
到了刑事法院 才会真正严重 Well,wait till they get to Crown Court, that's when it gets serious.
愿上帝保佑你 Godspeed the day.
打扰了 你快倒了 Excuse me,you're about to fall off? 407 00:40:33,001 --> 00:40:33,900 Fuck off.
该死
哥们 就是对疯子说的 Good lad,just say that to the nasty man with the wig and
一切都会好的 everything will be fine.
有时 忘掉罪行要很长时间 Sometimes it takes so long you forget what your fucking crime was.
听着 是我家孩子 Here,listen to this. It's the little 'un.
如果我不认识你该死 我不想跟你说话 If I don't know you,fuck off! I'm not in and I don't wanna talk to you!
不是吧 I didn't think it was like that.
以前 我举得也许他应该去商学院 I was thinking maybe he should go to business school.
但我现在不知道 But now I don't know.
他不对 He ain't right.
我已经对他的不礼貌 无言以对了 I've had to have words with him about the importance of politeness.
他14岁 He's fourteen.
真的让我大吃一惊 It really shocked me,to be honest.
Shorter先生 Mr Shorter?
警方说 现场能闻到烟油 According to police statements they could smell smoking oil when they arrived on the scene.
炸薯片的油 Chip fat.
地方法官决定 无法处理Stuart的复杂案件 dn't handle the complexities of Stuart's case
所以交给了刑事法庭 so they referred it to the Crown Court.
真丢脸 40个警察阻止 你还是被保释了 Disgrace. Forty policemen and you still get bailed?
为什么你讨厌这个体制 Beats me why you hate the system.
我妈妈也不理解 Well,my mum says she doesn't understand it neither.
律师说的蓄意杀人是什么意思 What did the barrister mean when he was talking about "attempted manslaughter"?
可能是我想用面包刀 把邻居的头切下来 I reckon I tried to cut my neighbour's head off with a bread knife.
你没有吧 是吧 You didn't. Did you?
我做了 Yeah.
如果他没动 就会死 And if he hadn't have moved, I'd have got him too.
你把给你做折叠床的邻居 So you called your neighbour who made your boing-boing-whoosh bed
叫基佬 所以他发火了吗 a poofter and then that's why he lost it?
没 他以为我叫他基佬 No,he thought that I called him a poofter.
-但你没叫吗 -没 - And you did nothing of the sort? - No.
你做了什么 Then what did you do?
我就问他朋友 他是不是基佬 I just asked his friend if he was a poofter.
不是开玩笑 Alexander! It's not a joke,Alexander!
-什么 -尊重我的人生 - Well,I mean? - When my bell's up,I'm looking at life!
钥匙丢在哪儿了 I've lost my keys somewhere.
你没把给你做折叠床的邻居叫基佬 So you didn't call your neighbour who made your boing-boing-whoosh bed a poofter.
但是什么 他哥们说你叫了... But what?What did his mate say when you called...
你问他是不是基佬的时候 他哥们怎么说 What did his mate say when you asked him if he was a poofter?
说他早泄 Just... said he suffered from premature ejaculation.
我觉得很有趣 Which I thought was quite interesting at the time
因为我也是 because I suffer from the same complaint myself.
下周 我要去看诺福克的朋友 Um,I'm going to see some friends in Norfolk next week.
跟我一起去吧 Come along.
不行 No,can't.
你听到法官的话了 审判结束前 我不能离开剑桥 You heard the Magistrate,I'm not allowed out of Cambridge until me trial.
诺福克
还有一件洗衣机的事 And another thing about washing machines,right,
电视上这家伙 this fella on the TV,
他把三个放进了洗衣机 he put three of them washing machine inner bits together.
都没有什么实物 Not even a concrete one. Nothing.
他说那是雕塑 And he said it was a sculpture.
竟然有人买了 And somebody bought it!
不是开玩笑 好吗 I'm not being funny,yeah?
显然商机很不错 But there is a viable business opportunity there.
租个仓库 Rent a barn.
全都摆好 Lay out all the bits.
洗衣机够了 And when you've had enough of washing machines,
还可以卖电冰箱 do fridges.
Alexander 这就是让我窝火的事情 You know,that's what really annoys me,Alexander.
我总是有赚钱的好点子 I'm always getting these great ideas, you know,about how to make money.
人们总是说不行 People are always telling me that they're wrong,you know?
从没鼓励过我 I never get no encouragement.
一点没鼓励过 No encouragement at all.
你握着方向盘 Can you hold the wheel?
要吗 You want some?
要 谢谢 Uh,yes. Thank you.
留点给我 Save me some.
我会的 I will.
我可能要感冒了 I think I've got a bit of a cold coming.
听这个 Here,listen to this!
很抱歉 现在没空 I apologise for not being currently available.
请留言 告诉我你是谁 Be so kind as to leave your name and message.
你为什么不找个普通工作 So,why don't you just get an ordinary job?
-朝九晚五的吗 -对 - 9 to 5? - That's the one.
起早贪黑 Getting up in the morning, coming home late at night.
没错 On the nose.
全职工作 Full time.
你干过吗 What,have you ever had one of those?
没有 - Nope. - Ohh.
我给哥哥的朋友作为服务员 I've done a bit of valeting work for a friend of me brother's.
然后呢 And?
我一头把那小子撞晕了 I head-butted the bloke.
你就是想教训教训他 Your version of putting your head down and getting on with it,I suppose.
他想跟调戏我妹妹 He tried to fiddle with me sister.
后来 知道吗 我不知道 And then later on,you know,ah s? I don't know.
现在你不知道什么 And now you don't know what?
没什么 后来 Nothing. Just later on
我哥哥Gavvy自杀了 my brother Gavvy killed himself.
你什么都不用说 Stuart Well,you know don't have to say anything,Stuart.
换个时间再说 Talk about it another time.
好 谢谢 Yeah. Thanks.
警方找到Gavvy的时候 说他受尽了苦楚 When the police found Gavvy they said he'd really suffered.
他死前服下的药 复试了肾和肝 The tablets he'd taken had eaten his kidneys and his liver away before he died.
他死得很痛苦 And he had been in absolute agony dying.
我很高兴 And I'm glad.
我哥哥受尽苦楚 我很高兴 I'm glad my brother suffered.
-电锯雕刻蘑菇 -该死 - Chainsaw carved mushrooms? - Fucking hell.
怎么了 为什么要这么受罪 What did they do to deserve that?
哥们 这个赚得不错 Fucking nice little number you got going here,mate.
很多都来买是吧 You get many knob heads falling for it?
对 很多 Yeah,plenty.
我是James 见到你很高兴 I'm James. Good to see you.
Alexander跟我说起你了 Alexander's told me all about you.
你是Reuben 对吧 Reuben,yes?
-我是Dido -你的家很温馨 - I'm Dido. - Ah,you have a lovely house.
-你好 亲爱的 -你好 你好 - Hello,darling. - Hi,hi,hi.
-见到你很高兴 -这是给你的 - Good to see you. - This is for you.
谢谢 真好 Ooh,thank you. Lovely,mmm.
Alexander说我是个酒鬼 是吧 Now,Alexander told you that I'm an alcoholic,hasn't he?
我还是个罪犯 盗贼 但我不会惹麻烦 I'm also a Schedule 1 offender and a thief,but I won't cause no trouble.
能带我参观一下吗 May I have a tour of the estate,please?
-那是梨树吗 -当然 - Is that a pear tree? - Yeah.
可以做果酒 You can make cider out of that.
还有苹果 是吧 And them apples,eh?
著名的演员 比如劳伦斯 奥利弗 来这里打过网球 Famous actors used to come here and play tennis,like Lawrence Olivier and? 524 00:49:52,350 --> 00:49:54,850
劳伦斯 奥利弗 真的吗 在这儿吗 Lawrence Olivier? Really? Right there?
21亲爱的 21-Love!
你可以把这些树都砍了 盖个小赛车场 You ought to knock all of them trees down and build a go-kart course.
好好收拾一下 这里会很棒 If you fix this place up it would be really lovely here.
正山小种红茶 好棒 Ooh,lapsang souchong. Very nice.
味道很好 Ooh,it's very tasty. Yeah.
非常棒 Fucking amazing here.
很棒 Yeah,A-fucking-One.
I don't get it,Alexander.
How come you're so interested in homeless people?
I'm not. I was only working at Wintercomfort because the money was good.
Nine quid an hour. And the hours,shift work.
How long are these onions meant to cook?
Till they feel satisfied.
And then it meant I could write in the morning.
Yeah,but why?
Look,Stuart,if I was interested in you as a homeless person,
I'd have been sacked for unprofessional conduct ages ago.
- So? - So I like you as a friend,is that so bad?
Fenugreek?
It's a bit weird if you ask me.
Couldn't agree more.
梥even,eight. There's always somebody what won't want two.
Yeah,but why?
Because you're funny,intelligent,good company.
What do you want,a fucking love letter? Now shut up and drink your freaking beer.
Marvellous.
- What was it again? - "Convict Curry".
Hey Stuart,it's Thursday! You gotta tell!
No,not now.
Come on. A promise is a promise.
Come on,you've talked to us about everything else.
Give it a rest,Alexander.
- You don't wanna know. - Stuart's first prison sentence.
He'll only talk about it on a Thursday
because he gets his dole money Wednesday afternoons,which means that
if talking about it upsets him,he's still got enough heroin left to calm him down.
Is that right?
It was nothing.
I was? 569 00:54:11,000 --> 00:54:13,000 I was in the pub one night.
It was the little 'un's birthday.
I was,I was in the pub celebrating.
It was over ten years ago.
This bloke says...
It was just nastiness.
Come on.
Alexander,please.
Look,Thursday's the day.
And I think then I realised that I had made a proper mess of it all,really.
I'm fucking leaving.
You fucking are now!
Did you fuck around with me!? Yeah!?
I'm a bit ashamed of that to be honest.
Go on,fuck off! Fuck off,[indiscernible]. Oh,for fuck's sake.
Go on,fuck off!
Fucking hell!
It's alright.
Fuck off!
So we sat around for a bit
and decided we'd come out together.
We're coming out now. We're together.
I'm sorry.
Go! Get him!
Connie,just shoot the fucker!
He just lost it. It's not Stuart.
Move! Move!
Lovely stay,Alexander. Thank you very much.
I really enjoyed it.
I was really surprised,Alexander, to be honest.
I thought that middle class people had something wrong with them,you know?
But they're just ordinary,aren't they? I was a bit shocked,to tell the truth.
Over the next few months Stuart's trial for the attempted manslaughter
of his not poofter,boing-boing-whoosh bed making neighbour was postponed once,
twice,
a third time,
and then a fourth.
He needed some cash so I gave him 250 quid for his car
and I'm still waiting for the paperwork.
Meanwhile,the campaign went from strength to strength.
Newsletters,petitions,protests, even benefit gigs.
And then it was Stuart's bright idea to go and see our local MP.
Oh shit.
I'm sorry,I'm just a bit nervous is all.
Mr Shorter is not from Anne's constituency? 620 00:59:15,705 --> 00:59:19,990 I'm from Anne's constituency. I wish to take Stuart as my guest.
Alexander...
For that you'll have to make a new appointment.
Oh,rubbish! She's got nothing else to do,has she?
The council is not gonna have no emergency winter shelter for the homeless.
And I'm frightened? 626 00:59:39,250 --> 00:59:43,000 In winter it's smack what keeps you fucking? 627 00:59:48,600 --> 00:59:50,000 I'm sorry.
梜eeps you warm.
But this year there's going to be one more death a month,again.
Why?
Puppies.
I'm not sure I follow you.
On the streets.
Pup梡uppies.
'Cause the homeless love their dogs,right?
But the hostels only allow two to three places for pets.
So,if there has been two new litters,
then loads more people are gonna have dogs,aren't they?
And therefore will be forced to sleep out.
And hence... therefore... furthermore, more deaths.
You see,on the street it's the little things that kill people.
That Justice Howarth must hate the campaign's guts. Humiliation!
Seven months after they were sent down Ruth and John?/i>
梙ave been released on bail after a high profile campaign by MPs
and other homeless charities,they won the right to appeal against prison sentences
four and five years.
This was our first sight of Ruth Wyner and John Brock on the steps of the
Royal Courts of Justice this morning.
After seven months in jail,the so-called "Cambridge Two" have been released on
unconditional bail and are now free to challenge their original convictions.
I can't see if the light's on.
Stuart,it's Alexander. Stop whatever illegal thing it is
that you're doing and get down here!
It's me muscular dystrophy.
Humeroscapu... or something. Muscular dystrophy.
It's a real gobstopper,I never learnt the name.
What you don't know can't hurt you.
I only came in to see the nurse because I wanted a cuddle and it spits too soon.
Stuart!
I thought maybe it's because of me muscular dystrophy.
You know,'cause your dick's a muscle,isn't it?
It started on me ticker.
They tried twice to put a pacemaker in me tit,
but the veins just crumble 'cause of the amount of critic I've injected.
Gotta laugh,haven't you?
I can't believe he hadn't told you.
He tells everyone. About everything.
- Well,now,that's not true. - Mum,yes.
That's his way of coping,isn't it?
Twenty years. Non-stop.
Ever since he first went on the streets.
Twenty years?
But I thought it was Gavvy's,um, his brother's suicide that made him homeless.
Don't be stupid.
Stuart had been on and off the streets since he was twelve.
Then,all of a sudden,this little horror.
Twelve years old,that's when it started.
Gavvy had to run to fetch mum.
Come,it's Stuart!
Put me into care! You hear me!?
Do it now otherwise I'll kill you!
Put me into care now! I'll do the lot of you! Put me into care!
I said,put me into care!
In you get. Watch your head.
He was taken into care that night.
We didn't see him for three weeks.
Another one for you,Mr Laverack.
You're getting popular,he asked to come.
Poor boy. Poor boy.
Out of the frying pan into the fire.
Well,we weren't the frying pan.
You know what I mean.
We just couldn't understand it.
People said she ought to disown him.
How can you wash your hands of your own child?
He's my flesh and blood,I'd say.
He's my son.
I just wish I could do more.
Working on the book after the end of the campaign,writing,rewriting,
I realised then that I could never hope to justify or explain Stuart.
And whatever had murdered his innocence had long ago ceased
to be simple enough to sort out with words.
All I could hope to do was to staple him to the page.
- Hello? - It's in me tit.
I'm at Papworth Heart Hospital. Come visit.
Yeah,on your way,can you pop in to see me gran and grandpa?
They've got a present for me.
I told them it smells like sick but they don't listen.
We haven't seen Stuart in years.
Lots of years.
Well,things haven't been very easy for him recently.
His mother says it's the buses.
They're not convenient.
Stuart?
- No. - Rory,his son.
- Stuart. - No.
Rex,his dad.
A bad man,his real dad.
Gypsies.
Stuart?
Gavvy,Stuey's brother.
One day when Rex was beating our Judith real bad,
Gavvy hit him over the head with a broom.
He was only five.
Rex moved out after that.
I know why Stuart changed.
Gavvy came 'round special to tell me.
Promised I'd never tell.
Three days later he committed suicide.
To celebrate his getting better.
Couldn't decide red or white.
Tell him to come and see us. We've waited long enough.
Can't wait forever.
Oh,you fucking star.
I almost died.
How are Ruth and John?
Not good.
He can't work.
Wife says he cries in his sleep.
And Ruth?
Got cancer.
Bastards.
Now do you see what I mean about the system?
The system. It's the system that's going to keep her alive.
It's the system that's just given you a ?,000 pacemaker for nothing.
- Hello? - Excuse me guys,do either of you know where the toilet is?
Uh,yeah,sure. I saw a sign that said down there on the left.
Thanks,mate.
Fucking hell.
I need a cigarette.
Yeah,the whole town's like it.
All cripples.
I spent six years in a school like this.
Day I end up like that,eh,
death day.
Care was like this?
No. Spagie school.
They sent me because of my muscular dystrophy.
Said I wasn't allowed to go to proper school.
Well,it was the '70s.
Funny thing,that. There was nothing wrong with me at that stage.
I was just a bit uncoordinated, but you'd hardly notice.
But they said since I was going to die a spag,
I might as well get used to the idea.
Before I was too spagie to understand,I suppose.
Now all together.
Douchebag! Douchebag! Douchebag!
Gimpy! Oi,gimpy,come here!
Where's your brother now?
'Help me! Hold me! Love me!'
We're coming to kill you.
Did they kick the shit out of you?
Every day,mate.
Give 'em something to do after school.
Then Gavvy would console me.
Please,not Howarth. Please,not?/i>
Only one month out of Papworth, Stuart's day in court for
attempting to cut off his neighbour's head finally arrived.
We were dreading it would be Ruth and John's old judge.
Oh fuck!
All rise for Justice Howarth.
At this point Stuart really was looking at being imprisoned for life.
Court is now in session.
This case concerns Stuart Clive Shorter.
Affray,disorderly conduct,resisting arrest,
an incident at the accused's flat.
No. No,he just said the whole thing was nonsense.
All that adding charges,taking them away,attempted murder,not? 778 01:12:34,000 --> 01:12:36,150 I don't know,I mean,what can I say?
The lucky bastard got off on a series of technicalities.
You know what Judge Howarth thinks about? 781 01:12:43,005 --> 01:12:46,600 Oh shit. Stuart,I'm so sorry. Are you alright?
I'm so sorry.
He's free! He's absolutely fucking free.
Oh,you're disgusting.
Wakey,wakey.
Sun has got his hat on,mate. Sun has got his hat on,mate.
Rise and shine!
Now,I've got to try on a suit for me sister's wedding.
Can you give me a lift?
Have you listened to the tape?
I was nine,Alexander,when it started. Nine.
It was three years of abuse.
My own brother.
And then his mate joined in.
That night,I ju?I couldn't, I couldn't take it no more,you know?
They had done everything.
There was nothing more they could do.
- You got any more of these? - Yeah,backseat,I think.
I think the reason mum still pampers him like she does
is because she feels guilty about what Gavvy did.
But he did the same to me.
I'm the same as Stu.
One minute,nice as pie; next minute,I'm a rattlesnake.
How'd I get to be like this? What murdered the little boy I was?
When the police found Gavvy, they said he'd really suffered.
Legs all over the show.
That boy has suffered.
Happy-go-lucky little thing.
Mr Laverack.
- Poor boy. Poor boy. - Out of the frying pan into the fire.
- Put me into care now! - Douchebag! Douchebag!
- Douchebag! Douchebag! Douchebag! - We're coming to kill you.
The tablets he'd taken had eaten his kidneys and his liver away before he died.
Always such a caring boy. Happy-go-lucky little thing.
And I'm glad.
I'm glad Gavvy suffered.
That's Gavvy.
That's Gavvy and me.
So he's what murdered the boy you were.
- What made you change. - Ah,wasn't that.
What was it then?
So many people have had the same sort of childhood and experiences
as what I have and they learn to accept and cope and live a very,
in brackets,"normal and competitive life".
I'm quite philosophical about that.
If you had to change one thing about your life,what would it be?
Well,how much is one thing?
It's very easy to blame,isn't it?
Me muscular dystrophy?
Nonces?
Gavvy?
Honestly,it'd be easier to change me.
One thing only.
The day I discovered violence.
Me step-father
said if I didn't go out there and stick up for myself,
he'd belt us once.
Fucking fantastic.
Weakling became strong.
The day that I found violence
I felt fifty times more strong.
After you've been bullied and pushed about,called spastic,
you learn that violence,and fear of violence, and madness,it scares people.
I used to deliberately get myself in a rage.
And after six months,I found I couldn't stop them.
I wasn't making the madness up no more.
You know what,Alexander?
I don't know myself or [indiscernible].
Madness.
Sometimes I think I'm the child of the devil.
I let the devil in.
Now I can't get him out.
I tried...
burning him out,and cutting him out,and...
he don't take no notice.
Why should he?
He don't wanna be homeless.
You know,there's still one question left.
- What's that,mate? - Guess.
We're writing the book backwards,
so what's the last bit of information we need?
What's your date of birth?
Oh,right,yeah.
I am Stuart Clive Shorter.
I was born on the 19th of the 9th,1968.
So,you're...
- You're 33. - I am 33. I'm getting older,as they say.
And I have led a very controversial and unpleasant life.
Oh,yeah.
Eh? Best man or what,eh?
It is gonna be grand.
P桺桺桺eterborough,Cambridge?/i>
梠n 96 and 95.7 FM. And 1026 AM. BBC Radio Cambridgeshire.
The top story this hour?/i>
梟ear the French entrance to the channel tunnel.
Police have now formally indentified the man who died after being hit
by a train near Cambridge early this morning.
He was Stuart Shorter,a 33-year-old from Waterbeach.
The coroner has been informed and an inquest will take place at a date to be fixed.
Judith? It's Alexander.
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Was it suicide?
I don't know. He didn't leave a note.
But then,suicides often don't.
All I do know is that he stepped in front of the 11:15 Cambridge to Kings Lynn.
桰 have overcome the world,says the Lord.
Since the Earthly life of Stuart has come to an end,
we commit his body to be buried.
Earth to earth,ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
In sure and certain hope of the resurrection to eternal life.
- To our Lord Jesus Christ,Amen. - Amen.
Hello,Alexander. It's Stuart.
Hello,Stuart.
You know,admitting I've had lots to drink and that, but I can't help reflect about my brother
and my brother's friend.
And they didn't believe me.
And they didn't care.
The abuse.
Being asked to do things that I wouldn't have thought possible that anyone
could ask of an 11-year-old.
I'm just head-butting,and head-butting, and head-butting,and head-butting.
The more that you speak,the more they disbelieve.
And nobody was listening to anything I had to say.
When I've got my drink inside me
I sit here having mad conversations with myself.
Talking about mutilating myself,
killing myself,
tracking down those who are responsible.
I want to just lay down and die.
I feel so dirty,and fucking horrible
and hating and attacking anyone I get close to.
I just wish once there could be an escape from this madness.
The book was finally published in April 2005.