DIARY OF AN OBSESSION
How is it going? - Heartburn.
Water and sugar!
Like a pure dove, your Luigia.
Like a pure dove...
Mom!
Mom, look what Benito is doing!
Don't touch your sister.
Don't wash your feet!
Don't wash your hair in the sink.
Use the shared bathroom.
16.
Erect, caused by water or more vir.ty?
You wait here.
Can I go get a tea?
This is not a caf¨¦. I'm looking for a client.
Heavy, eh?
He should be here.
Benito. The director of the pension.
He's looking for a job...
because he studied philosophy, but it's not easy to find a job
and for now he's working as a salesperson.
I have the sub-franchise
for some excellent products.
The blue one is for everyday cleaning. A delicate colour.
like the Virgin Mary's robe.
The red one is the devil, for difficult stains.
Please don't blow smoke on my face.
Sorry sir, a bad habit. I shouldn't even smoke.
Benito, have some manners.
Anyway, let's try it.
I have some tough loos. - I am up to everything.
Start wherever you like.
Urinals, toilets.
Hard work doesn't scare me.
I'll start from the toughest: the urinals.
Tell your cleaners a drop is enough.
for the devil to do his work.
Dream.
Met a girl outside a deconsecrated church. Was she my sister?
I sell these products.
The green one is for toilets. The red one for sinks.
But it's just psychology, they are the same.
I wanted to teach philosophy, but I didn't make it.
Aren't you cold, so naked?
I am never cold, I'm hot.
I am a goddess.
This is my temple.
I am always cold and ill.
Lucky you.
May I touch?
Touch me.
Wonderful! What a chest.
Second bad day.
Wasting time with the priest (no money)
Ah, don Giuseppe...
Bastard!
Sell them for ¡ê1500, they costs me ¡ê1000 each!
Can I discount the last ones, to sell them all?
I am the boss here, ok?
I am off. - And the permit?
Can I read your hand?
Are you an artist?
How do you know? - From your eyes.
Intercourse with Elle at the EUR.
Wonderful exhilaration.
Erection before touching and cum with her.
How nice!
Love
I'll tell you a poem I learnt at school
You inspired me.
It says
After the rain comes the clear in the sky the rainbow appears
It's like a festooned bridge and the sun shines through its ridges
It's nice to look up
at its red and blue flags.
- Nice! Who wrote it? - Gianni Rodari.
Benito, do you know why I'm with you?
Because you are a gentleman.
And you walk like one. I saw you today.
A bit over the top, but thanks.
Love...
Look what a wonderful place.
It's a night flower ever turning.
I desire you again.
Poor me.
What a life.
Beniamino! Come help me!
Why didn't you pick me up at the bus? - I was late.
I fell asleep. - Sounds like you are the boss
and I am the slave, not the opposite.
Give me a dozen.
While my slave unloads, do you mind if I have a beer?
Marisa!
What would you like? Beer?
Hot chocolate?
Now you can really tell. - Apparently they are two.
How is it to make love to a pregnant woman?
Do you want to try?
I'll give you a special price.
No more than ¡ê10.000!
It's the first time.
You should be happy, then. - I am.
It's hard, you need a special skill.
I can't reach.
A woman teased me on the bus. Attractive. Discharge.
Gone to the registry office for a recommendation
it was useless because the Social Security...
Miss, where are you from? - Thailand.
Thailand? Visiting eastern places is my dream.
Mine too. ¨C How do you mean?
I was born here.
We could go together. - I wish!
Having the money...
Can you please stop staring at my daughter.
Who's staring? I was lost in my thoughts
Look at me!
I am mature, but attractive. I am her mother, after all.
Sure, you are spitting images.
if you want, I'll give you my cell phone number.
Write it down, if you fancy calling me.
You have a cell phone?
I wish I had one. It must cost a fortune.
Are you rich?
Spent ¡ê74,000.
Instead of ¡ê246,000, found only ¡ê190,000
Stolen in my room? - Do I add water to the detergent?
If Chiominto knew...
Mind your fucking business.
And if you tell Chiominto, I'll kill you.
I got lost...
in terrible suspicions.
caused by Luigia's simple mind.
She didn't get off at the stop
but followed her mood,
which was actually my fault...
Can you speak up?
Work, you peeping tom.
Easter Eve. So sad.
To perk me up, I've eaten a ton of candies.
Wet, isn't it?
And chilly.
Candy?
Going to the movies or waiting for somebody?
don't know about you...
But I feel very lonely.
Shall we join our loneliness?
You are curvy.
But that dress suits you.
Happy Easter!
Unsure between visiting the ruins or the park.
Or stay here, I feel weak.
Then I went to see the whores at the station.
What an agony for my inner peace.
"Who doesn't pay, doesn't sleep"
Funny, the ballerina.
I bought the colomba and I don't know where to sleep. - Get out!
Help!
¡ê25,000 for a colomba.
What an Easter. Bastards!
Easter, the landlady forgives me.
8 o'clock. Promised to pay the rent. We'll see
Ah, thanks.
You are so kind.
Easter, eaten at the Salvation Army.
Almost fasting on Easter Monday. Just 100gr of chocolate.
In the evening...
two pizzas and a glass of wine.
Smoked only 15 cigarettes Sunday to Monday.
Colomba... almost gone.
Happy Easter.
You are so posh! A trip to the countryside by bus.
I am broke. What can I do?
If I ask you money, you call me a pimp.
Let's go to the countryside, then.
Who cares? Bus, train or taxi.
We are young and go make love in the countryside
We could go to your sister to be more comfortable.
She's got 4 kids.
She can't come up with an excuse every time.
This Sunday there isn't even
a single movie for under 18.
They only show blue movies, now?
They are all pigs, like that man over there!
And you let everybody touch you! - But I didn't even feel it.
Sure, with hands like that!
TEMP. large thermometer: 36.7 Fun with Luigia.
Fair erection at Pietralata.
The ballerina must be enjoying it. - Do you like me, madam?
She's a bitch.
You are gorgeous. - You too.
- Warm me up. - I've got thoughts.
Don't ask, I haven't got a cent.
Do your duty, I came for that.
Why are you crying now?
Who's crying?
I...
borrowed ¡ê300.000 from a shark.
If I don't give it back... they break my hands.
Like in the American movies.
I'm scared.
You are right.
Not your business.
Nice necklace, didn't see it before.
Leave the necklace alone!
What would I do without you?
I manage to make her give me the necklace
It's my SALVATION until I sell the hoover.
Poor white dove.
You found your hawk.
Eaten in Ostia with the money form Luigia's necklace.
Fry, fish, broccoli and ice cream.
And Luigia? - She cannot come.
Why? - Stomach ache.
- I know what it is. - She has her period.
How many times a month does she have her period?
Tell her I can't wait anymore.
You don't understand women. - I do
I do.
Why does she do it? Love?
Convenience? For a more artistic friendship.
To give in to her urges? Mystery.
Enrico, look, yellow and red like Rome's team.
How grumpy! Anytime we make love you are like that.
I'm not coming with you anymore!
After 2 hours of waiting I see Luigia coming out of the hotel.
For the second time I resist the impulse
of going to Luigia. A more beautiful, more honest one,
is in my destiny.
Visit to the doctor who tells me I need a psychiatrist.
SLAVE TO LUIGIA'S LOVE. Eaten too many zucchini.
The doctor suggested a psychiatrist.
I'm the best psychiatrist!
You have such nice hair, Miss. - Can't you see how embarrassing it is?
What's embarrassing? - Can't you see the bus is empty?
So? - If it was crowded...
it would've been better, no?
You pretend it's full.
It's so crowded, they're pushing me.
How... they are pushing me.
Monday.
Nice seventh day. Thought.
Third day, good.
Circulation, good. Heart, good
Two hours at the window.
The sunshine was flooding me. Excelent for my heath.
Shame on you!
Stop touching yourself and come to the lesson.
Went to lunch and after a nap
I went looking for Luigia.
It was just 3pm
and I waited, with a ridiculous anxiety,
for more than 2 and half hours
Palpitations.
Smoke in my lungs.
Anxiety...
and sweat.
What a nice surprise!
If the mountain won't come to Mohammed, Mohammed must go to the mountain.
What are you saying? - I read your diary.
and thinking that all these poems have been written by a liar.
Listen who's talking.
I was at the 225 stop until now.
Whenever did I take the 225!?
We agreed 2.30 at the bus stop. You didn't show up.
Give me the necklace, I came for that.
Or it will end up like the suitcase with the cashmeres.
What a long life line you got.
4 kids too. - With you, of course (!)
Why not? 4 kids...
A fireplace, me smoking a pipe...
Give me the necklace. I told my family and they don't take it lightly.
Please Benito, not now! Give me the necklace!
I like it when you are angry.
I dream of Luigia on a road I am crossing on a bike.
I break only after passing her.
Is it love or perdition?
Dream came true in the night.
Been...
with Luigia...
at Villa Borghese.
And pretened...
we were doing...
what in a big city...
in front of everybody...
we cannot do.
Police.
Where does Benito Balducci sleep?
What crime?
Who are you? - I'm Luigia's cousin.
Will you cough up the necklace or not?
What necklace?
I pawned it
Give me the receipt, then.
I don't have it.
I had to give it to Chiaminto to get some money.
Is it a stain on your tie?
Do you like this game?
We'll play it every day until you cough up the necklace.
I am sick of this dog's life.
What do you mean you don't need me anymore?
The franchise is mine, I've a 3 years contract.
What fucking contract?
I need a bigger organization, a mega galactic one.
Not a sleazy guy like you. I have the Prince now.
Listen Prince, how many blacks can you find me tomorrow?
200 Ethiopian princes, 300 Eritrean nobles.
Even more, if you need.
And you, how many princes can you find me?
I've got the law on my side. - What fucking law!
What are you doing now? Crying like a baby?
Your phony tears don't move me.
I don't want to steal the job from somebody.
Prick!
Piece of shit!
Fuck!
Miraculous sunset.
Out of my window I can see an African landscape.
I am your pure dove.
She loves me!
Even though I have my reservations.
Put something on!
Luigia's filthy p...
is repulsive.
Are you leaving? Pity, you were good at pirouetting.
No more ballet for me!
I can work just to pay your lodge.
I'm going to the hospital.
After that, I'll look for a place in the suburbs.
The air there is better for me.
Fear! Fear!
Socialised with the neighbours.
They cook good spaghetti here.
Night, slept a few hours.
Woke up at 5, but relaxed.
Wind, twice during the night.
Heartburn in the morning.
The old man's agony carries on.
Later on they told me he's 42.
Monday, 9 May Third day of hospital.
Luigia came with a rose. She didn't bring any money.
but her affection is still great.
You visit me to eat my soup?
It's midday.
Lunch.
Soup, chicken and salad...
which I didn't eat because my friend Beniamino ate it.
Nothing special.
How sad! Nobody came to visit me.
Not even my mother. - Am I not anybody?
Stop eating my food! I need energy, I'm ill.
Thought... bad.
Because I smoked for the stress
caused by the nurse who told me
that the fistula is caused by tuberculosis.
She doesn't know if I need surgery.
Why are you telling me this shit? I'm eating.
Come in.
Let's play.
Fourth day, thought:
Sudden but wavering, leaving or staying?
Just the thought of not having to wait another month
for the unemployment benefits made me decide to get out.
In the afternoon, at the latest.
Can I have some tea, sister?
I'm neither your sister nor your cousin. My name is Marina.
Marina? Nice name!
Miss...
I work for the TV. I'm here for a reportage
on sex in the hospitals.
Are interested in sex? - Yes, very much.
For example...
What kind of orgasm do you prefer: Clitoral or vaginal?
Hot question.
And with your beautiful mouth...
sensual...
What kind of kisses do you give? - Try and see.
May I?
Just scientific interest.
Miss, you are gorgeous.
It isn't the reporter speaking, but the man.
Brunette fickle servant, a whore in bed
DESPERATE DESIRE TO GET OUT OF THE HOSPITAL
Heart: palpitations, anxiety and sweat.
A woman teased me on the bus. Attractive. DISCHARGE.
Sunday, 15 May. Rome. Nice weather.
First night new hotel. Almost posh.
Temperature 36.5 8 o'clock...
and 36.8, 4pm. Small thermometer.
Who is it?
Your mom! - Mom
How are you? - Good
I brought you lots of things. Ham, eggs...
My diary, mom! - Do you have a diary?
All children of older parents are clever.
I want to cry...
Why did you come in this slum?
Why?
Do you know how much a room costs in the city?
You come with a piece of chicken and some olive oil. But no money
I do what I can - And you hog dad's pension.
Lucky I'm easy going, I make do...
Didn't hold from smoking straight out of hospital
and from being tempted by w...
parenthesis ...hore
Bad thoughts because I am not happy in love.
After all that thinking about it, I had a discharge.
How you doing? - I just puked.
But I'm better now. Do you want to go?
If you just puked, it's a bit disgusting.
Maybe later, I'll looking at the others
Ciao Benito.
Did you sell out to the Moroccan?
Money is money. Do you want a watch?
Get off, I don't even have a license.
What? But I found you that place.
What charity. It's worse than the inquisition.
This man betrayed the trust of the Church
With this bounced cheque, he stole God's money.
Don Giuseppe, I regret it. My mother was dying.
Show your face, thief. He stole God's money.
Drifted on a bus, I don't know who I am.
or what I want. Heartburn just when I ate a banana.
Eyes not too black despite the hunger.
Do you like here? - Yeah but it's in the open.
They are all looking.
They are doing it too. There's no risk.
But you always get me naked in these situations. Why not you?
What do you want?
May I?
It's my favourite bench.
I read a lot, when I am not working.
You remind me somebody.
Rossella O'Hara, the one from ¡°Gone with the Wind¡±.
You are nuts!
I haven't seen Luigia for 2 days.
Is she ill, does she still work here?
Please, you can't bother me just because...
She is my employee, understand...
Also, don't bring me your products anymore.
They are all watered down, useless.
Thank you. - Welcome.
Upset.
When I spotted Luigia coming out.
There you are.
Are we going to the theatre?
Sure - And I have to dance naked?
All naked?
Can't wait!
Slow death of my mind, my nerves, my heart.
Waste of energies and money for cigarettes.
Dream. My father gunman in Africa.
My mother tells me off because I drank from my sister's bottle.
With a cigarette? - Gosh!
You have gorgeous hair.
Thanks.
If you saw me before...
I lost all my hair.
When I was young I got typhus from fleas.
Terrible.
But now it's gourgeous. - Don't touch my hair!
But it's gourgeous. - I told you not to touch it!
But yours is an abnormal reaction.
Rainy. Eaten.
Meatballs.
Lasagne. Cod.
And artichokes.
I decided to do...
the logical thing...
that is, asking for a loan to my company
instead of go bury myself in a hospital.
Can you give me this picture, please?
Are you crazy? She is my girlfriend.
And this one? - It's still her.
If you want it, a day of work for a picture of her naked.
I'll think about it.
Are you famous? I saw you on TV.
I wish!
They all mistake me for Dellera.
I'm breathless.
Poor guy, aren't you feeling well?
Forget him.
I swear, you are better than Dellera.
And today I am not at my best.
I am really upset. A slut nicked my job.
She did the director, I would have never done him!
A pretty girl like you!
Look, how I can move.
Look how I walk.
Congratulations.
I'm grateful to your mom!
Am I not better than Dellera?
No contest.
Are you really sick?
I don't know where to look.
Did you bring the detergents?
I brought a floor scrubber too. It's new, American.
Later, I have to audition a new pussy.
He's the director. - I know him.
Ladies and gents, White Dove!
I have fallen so low.
Carlo?
What do I do? - I'll teach you.
Start with moving your ass.
Isn't that your girlfriend?
She's not.
I saw the pictures, I dream of her. - You are sick for sure.
Can you give me the photos tonight? - She is not, I deny it!
God, I am so ashamed!
God, what a pussy!
All Luigia's men
THE REALITY IS HORRIBLE
Shredded nerves because of L. working naked at the Volturno.
Who allowed you to read my diary?
Shut up.
Thoougt. Bad.
Apart from smoking too much, I went to Luigia
who hurt me by going to bed with all those I guessed
before I even knew. Nice eh?
Stop it. - I was a coward to reproach her
with two slaps. It didn't matter anymore
that I chose her with her shortcomings and sexuality
until I would decide it was time to dump her
after she even mended my trousers.
But when I do this, you like me!
When you see me this way, you love me!
You don't write that bullshit!
You control me with sex.
What's a thought's reflected reality? Luigia, what do you ¡°really¡± do?
I don't mean to chat you up, but...
May I sit down for a beer? - Sure
What's that?
Just a photo.
Let's see.
An American actress?
No, it's me trying to be gorgeous.
Now I always carry it with me. Sometime I look at it.
I took a lot of photos of myself, but I never looked like Bogart.
You must be beautiful inside.
Do you want to talk? We can have a long chat.
All night, too.
I feel like talking too...
Because I'm too tense to sleep.
Altercation with the barman in the evening.
To bed at midnight...
Woke up at 1 for shocks to the heart.
What are you doing here? - I'm the night guard.
You didn't tell me. - You didn't ask.
Heartburn? - No, I'm pissed off.
Because of her?
Mind your business!
I always dream of her. - You can't.
The fact that the majority of female students in a US survey
admits having reciprocal genital petting
conveys that the modern female differs form the passive model.
A Midwest university professor lives with his wife on a hill
overlooking a lake beach. He can monitor
young couples in their love making
including coitus.
He told me ¡°It's incredible.
The boys lay down naked and relaxed
and let the girls touch them all over.¡±
We might all be unbalanced, but that one could wash at least.
There's a horrible stench. - He's my fianc¨¦'
Congratulation. - If he doesn't change, I'll dump him.
How do you dare? Only my girlfriend can tell me to wash.
I am an aristocrat. - Sure!
The animals recognise each other from the stink.
He's right. Man must stink. That's why we don't...
recognise each other anymore
If I meet him, I recognise him.
Nice, what is it?
Verbena and honey.
I am like a bee.
I want to fly with you. - But I am the queen bee.
Who touches me, dies.
- I'm Benito. - Angela Riccardi.
When they commit him, call me.
What are you doing here?
Nothing. We didn't have an appointment. - Who is he?
My cousin.
How many cousins do you have?
Someday I'll do you in! I won't even go to jail.
Because it's honour killing. - Your business.
Shaken nerves because of Luigia
who wouldn't be such a loss.
Forced to pay back all the money to Luigia...
Is it a stain? - You broke my nose already.
Now you send her 200, 800 left.
How much was that necklace? - A lot.
May I sit?
Remember me? I am the ¡°Happy Easter¡± one
Don't throw the ice cream at me, though.
I care about this shirt, my mum gave me.
Gentle...
Sorry about the slap. It was for love.
- Love... ¨C I love you. - You hurt me.
Your fault, you and your suspicions.
And you? - I am a saint.
- I have an appointment. - What? - Work!
Where are you going?
Here I am. I promised.
Slut!
Saturday, 28 August. Rome.
Nice weather.
thought...
Not quick enough dispelling a dirty image of kinky Luigia.
Like my defect of clinging to memories as if they were treasures.
Nerves...
Broken positive sequence because of a contact with a girl.
Therefore discharge. Bus.
Heir....
Bad result.
Nice weather. Must go make money, instead going to Cinecitta with Luigia.
Is she inviting me to make somebody jealous?
Balestrini?
Balestrini, I'm Luigia.
Balestrini!
- Who's Balestrini? - He's the extras' manager.
Do you mind naked scenes? You are the body double for Kim Basinger.
If it's in my interest. - Indeed. Kim Basinger!
Come on. - This is my boyfriend
Wait here. - You are fit!
You have to study me? - Front and profile.
Kim Basinger has smaller breasts. You are not suited.
Leave me alone, Untie me, you are hurting me!
That's the cinema for you
Mind your business.
Who asked you?
You wanted to be in the movies, idiot!
Go away!
Did you see what was happening?
Or do you like it?
I was choking - Always the same
You are always weird. Always a liar. Who lies is a thief, too.
Why do I care for a lair?
I'm sick of you, these fights, all the insults.
My work! I am a gentleman, but I'll break your neck, you know?!
Go away, pig!
Giovanna? I need some photocopies.
Let's see.
It's my village's festival. Nice, isn't it?
But these are the pages you stole from my magazines.
You think this of me?
Not only you don't pay for my magazines
you rip the pages too.
And what do I get?
I'll tell you what you get.
Bloody Chiominto!
Did you call for me?
Come, Benito. I need to talk to you.
Don't you have anything to say?
They told me you spoke to the wholesalers.
Watch out, I'm a cobra!
If I bite you, you are dead! - My apologies
I am really sorry.
You wanted to take the franchise from me and I tried to start my own business.
I'm sick of forgiving you. I'm neither you father nor your son!
You are much more for me.
And that says it all.
Ok, come in. I'm shooting an ad.
She is a friend of mine. A great actress. Her name is Tomato.
- My pleasure, Benito. - Do the soundtrack, Benito.
- Mambo, samba. Anything.
I am going to sing: ¡±I wish it was love¡±
I wish it was love
real love
what I feel
and makes me think of you
I wish I could tell you
I am crazy in love
because this is all
you want from me
The only thing I never had
is this big love you give me
Who makes this pretty girl cry?
Plese, please, please...
Let me work in peace!
You must stop working in the movies
They are all pigs, here.
There are lots of decent people here.
You are naive!
They just want to feel you up!
But when I asked Balestrini to give you work, you liked it?
That's different...
And if you like it, you are a whore!
I can't stand you anymore!
I picked up some chicory.
Nice eh? For your mum.
I need to talk to you.
We are eating, sit with us.
Sit down, ball buster.
Chiaminto is so funny.
What's the problem? I'm your boss.
If you want to eat, you must obey me. - But I introduced you in the movies.
I am too good...
I remembered you lent me ¡ê50.000
When?
You did, you did.
Anything for me, here?
- Only for Benito. - Let me touch.
Only for Benito, she said.
Sorry Benito, but I am a bit of a slut.
What should I choose, her goodness of her depravity?
In Cinecitta, with Luigia and Chiominto, the last porn act
I drank all the bitter cup. THOUGHT. Slow and sad.
I'm sad.
Me too.
I'm more.
Listen, Luigia.
The kisses, the river...
All romantic.
But if you want a real relationship with me
There are some rules.
You must tell me what happened.
I must know if you want to be with me, how long...
Everything. - Why do you want to know?
I can't promise you anything.
I told you a million times
I want to enjoy life, and give myself to the art.
You want to enjoy life?
And you can't afford me. - You are a whore!
I'll kill us both!
Though. Ugly one.
Not fast enough getting rid of toughts of Luigia.
She didn't show up.
Then she'll tell me
she got off at the wrong stop.
Nonsense.
Unless she mixed up the time.
Did she get off at Ponte Casilino or earlier?
Traffic.
Nervous for lack of food and negative facts.
Yesterday, in a bar, I met a friend called Osvaldo
When young, he was a cocky boy
With fiery eyes, he pulled my pigtails
but under my skirt, his hands were like arrows
That was long ago
But Osvaldo is still the same
The eyes still fiery...
The hands still arrows...
But, alas, I don't have pigtails anymore.
Did you like it?
Osvaldo too, now? A new one everyday!
Come on, kill me!
I'll cut you up, pimp!
Shut up, this is not a brothel.
Whore!
What are you doing? - I was looking for a storybook.
It's a gift for a 13 years old girl.
You can't come in.
Benito, what are you doing?
Don't move.
They could see you.
Rabbit and roast potatoes.
Fell asleep under the rain.
Worrying.
Incredible discharge. Very weak.
Temptations, cold, short breath.
Father, Benito is a wretch, a thief.
I knew it since he was a little boy.
But we can still help him.
He wants to make up with Luigia...
No, father. I am a martyr.
He took all my money, even my necklace.
Come back, you wretch.
I dreamt of the sea, calm and flat
with people swimming in it
and that I would finally learn to swim.
And then I want to be tough with Luigia
She deserves it. I am not consistent enough
I should avoid her for my own good.
Smoked 5 cigarettes all together in the evening.
Dreams: Luigia disappearance
and my mother presence.
called mum.
Tried to masturbate. Inconceivable.
- Are in your pyjama? - I was sleeping.
Don't sleep, you have to sell.
Woke up early, 5 or earlier
walked to the bus stop
waiting for Luigia in vain.
Work: no. Because of that cursed woman.
who breaks my healthy routine. Nerves.
Slight loneliness in the morning.
That's it.
Tempted by temptation.
Have you got a magazine of wild dogs?
A dogs' magazine, but I don't know how wild.
Up there, near kitchens and fireplaces.
How are you? - Bad, actually.
I dream of a dog every night.
Someday white, someday black.
Must be a Japanese breed. Fierce.
There's no traffic now, if you like you can kiss me.
You'll feel better.
No, thanks. You are kind.
But today I'm exhausted.
Nightmare dog third time.
Dream.
A white dressed girl.
She was with me. Then I leave her for a moment.
And when I turn around, she's taking the bus.
My dream came true. At the Social Security office.
An office. An usher.
A girl with knick-knacks on her blouse
whom I was teasing.
This is my kingdom.
Do you like it?
May I, a kiss?
You are very clever, madam. My products are the best.
I got two. One for the loo. One for the sink.
Two for one. And you help an artist like me.
Luigia, why the stone? - Look at yourself.
Why don't you come back?
We can talk it out...
I pity you!
How could I waste my best years with you?
Loving you...
Are you a man?
Marc Anthony, Caesar. They were real men.
Go away! Or I'll hit you.
You can lynch me, if you want.
Nerves, because of the visions, distorted and contrasted
caused by malnutrition.
Half asleep, I saw an hypnagogic image.
It's a... scientific term.
And I made out the shape of a foetus in a womb.
And over the baby's head, loomed a shadow.
Perhaps of a phallus.
Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.
How do you know? You are a fortune teller.
Now... I just do kisses and petting.
I don't want to go further, because of the baby.
I am so worried about the baby.
What big boobs you got! - It's the pregnancy.
I have a magic fluid, you know?
that will protect your baby form the sexual assaults of your clients.
My grandfather had it too. He saved me.
Do you want to make love?
I trust you.
I am horny now.
For you it's free.
Dream.
Me, looking at a mating scene
and wondering if it was better to get aroused
or just look on, for my own good.
I want to tell you something.
Don't laugh, though. If I leave my boyfriend...
Would you stick with me? I am serious.
My whole life depends on it.
Actually, I already have a girlfriend. Sorry.
Leave my girlfriend alone.
Or I'll slash you.
What?
Do him in!
Say something. Do you let him go around with a knife?
I'm a samurai!
Take it easy!
It's just a prank, jerk.
A prank?
I come here to relax!
The city, is it a monster?
Or is it me thinking of Luigia? - You devil.
Look what you make me do. I'll kill myself because of you.
Damn you!
Depressed by my useless rambling.
Weak because of two cigarettes.
To walk a lot...
or to eat a lot?
Temptations.
No opportunities. But it wasn't a big sacrifice.
Passed out on the Tiber. But not for long.
Help!
RESTRICTED AREA
Penis almost disappeared.
SPASMODIC ANXIETY FOR HOSPITAL.
I dedicated it to you!
I'll hate you, if I can
otherwise, in spite of myself, I'll love you.
What's that? A treasure?
Diary.
Monday, 7 March
Rome.
Windy.
Nice weather.
Thinking not so fast and spent last change on cigarettes.
and t...
Tarts. - Traffic.
Bothered me a little.
But yesterday, for tiredness and hunger, I had a short fuse.
Wednesday, 9 March.
Rome. Nice weather.
Slept 7 hours.
Thought. Bad.
Smoked and chased a w.
on bus no. 8