第一集，感受渐增的惊奇
外面有些故事需要被讲述 There are stories out there that need to be told.
外面有些鸟事真的就是… There's shit out there that's just...
错的 you know, wrong.
这位是你的教授
人们需要知道 People need to know about it.
这就是职责所在 That's the job.
它并不复杂 It's not a complicated job,
只是会把你的人生搞得一团乱 other than how it'll mess with your life.
丹尼尔莫洛伊，调查记者
以前的新闻是一群 News used to be a bunch of guys
看起来像我一样的人 挤在一张桌子旁开头版会议 who look like me huddled around a desk at a Page One meeting
二获普利策奖，《旧金山纪事报》《洛杉矶时报》，《卫报》 deciding what the news was.
决定头版登什么新闻 deciding what the news was.
但这该死的东西让一切改变了 This little fucker changed all of that.
他的首次线上课程
我被三家报社开除，又被其中两家雇回 I've been fired from three papers, hired back at two of them.
第三家被奈特里德报业并吞了 Third got gobbled up by Knight Ridder.
先说清楚，什么能做，什么不能做 我该死的兼容并蓄 So, to be clear here, I'm a goddamn reservoir of do's and don'ts.
你们的新闻来源是你们的向导 Your sources are your Sherpas.
你们的编辑是你们的神父 Your editor is your priest.
诚实不是战略 Honesty is not a tactic.
调查研究，寻找新闻来源及文件
查核资讯，为访问进行准备 新闻业的未来
这样你还想做这份工作吗？ You still want this job?
那是你的钱 It's your money.
我是丹尼尔莫洛伊 I'm Daniel Molloy.
这是我的…有俄罗斯 在背后撑腰的分离主义者 This is my-- The Russian backed separatists
自2014年起就开始进行游击战 have been waging guerrilla warfare since 2014.
他可以让自己的幻想成真吗？ Can he make his fantasy a reality?
获加在弧顶 Walker at the top of the key.
面对来自琼斯的挡拆 Pick and roll from Jones.
获加突破并以有难度的左手上篮 Walker drives and finishes.
完成得分 With a tough left hand.
这是获加连续七次… That's seven straight for Walker...
嘿，医生，对 Yeah. Hey, doc. Yeah.
谢谢你回电给我，我… Thanks for getting back to me. I, uh...
对，没错 Yes, that's right.
我…我这周稍晚有安排预约 I have... I have an appointment scheduled for later in the week,
但我…我想搞清楚的是 but the... the thing I'm trying to figure out is,
这个卑躬屈膝的行业是什么状况？ what's the deal with this subvariant business?
是比较有传染力吗？ I mean, is that more contagious?
还是…嗯哼 Is it... Uh-huh.
对，因为不需要再更… Yeah, 'cause, I mean, there's no reason to get more...
好 Okay.
所以你觉得…对，我就是那样想的 So you think... Yeah. I mean, that's what I'm thinking.
为什么要没事找事？ Why get any closer to the bug than I... than I need to?
嗯哼 Uh-huh.
路易德普安特杜拉克
我再打给你 I gotta call you back.
嗯，第一个问题 Um, first question.
你不是生下来就是吸血鬼吧？ You weren't always a vampire, were you?
对 No.
我变成吸血鬼的时候33岁 I was a 33-year-old man when I became a vampire.
怎么会这样？ How did it come about?
这个问题可以简单回答 There's a simple answer to that.
但我不想简单回答 I don't believe I wanna give simple answers.
我想讲述真正的故… I think I want to tell the real stor...
“亲爱的莫洛伊先生 "Dear Mr. Molloy.
希望收到这封信时你安好顺遂 I hope this letter finds you safe and thriving,
如果在这阴暗时刻有此可能的话” if such a thing were a possibility in this bleak hour."
“自从上次见面后，我就一直 颇有兴味地追踪着你的职涯发展 "I've been following your career with some interest since our last meeting.
请容我恭祝你所有的成功 Please allow me to congratulate you on all your successes,
那些职涯上和个人的成功救赎 those professional and those personally redemptive.
时间的过去及随之而来的弱点 The passage of time and the frailties
让我有所洞察 that accompany it have provided me perspective.
我想你亦然 And I suspect the same might be for you, as well.
我希望健康 I'm hoping health
和傲慢不会让你对接下来的提议却步 and pride won't deter you from the following proposal.
一周内 In a week's time,
在我所选择的环境下 in a setting of my choosing,
我们重启那个因年少无知 而未能完成的计划 we revisit the project boyish youth prevented us from finishing.
49年后，在距我们于旧金山 共享的那间房的 49 years and thousands of miles removed from the room
数千里外之处 we shared in San Francisco,
为满足你新闻从业人员的乐趣，我给你 I offer, for your journalistic pleasures,
我的全神贯注和我的人生故事 my full attention and my life story.
诚挚地 All affinities,
路易德普安特杜拉克” Louis de Pointe du Lac."
我跟我的编辑说我要跟… I told my editor I was meeting with the,
呃，世界上最危险的男人见面 uh, most dangerous man in the world.
我给他两个选项 Gave him two choices.
结果他回我“贝索斯、普京” He came back with "Bezos. Putin."
他以为我在普拉斯科维亚夫科 He thinks I'm in Praskoveyevka.
你变老了，丹尼尔 You've grown old, Daniel.
对啊 Yeah, well,
岁月不饶凡人 mortality beats a heavy drum.
我本来不确定你记不记得我 I wasn't sure you'd remembered me.
你书里对我们上次会面只字未提 Your book makes no mention of our prior meeting.
回忆录的重点是药物、羞辱 跟自怜自艾之类的 Gritty memoir, drugs, humiliation, self-pity kind of thing.
写吸血鬼会被读者说是鬼扯 Mention vampires in one of those, readers tend to call bullshit.
你最近有一些健康疑虑 You've had some health concerns of late.
地球上谁没有病 Whole planet's having a moment, I'd say.
你有柏金逊症，丹尼尔 You have Parkinson's disease, Daniel.
对 Yeah.
而你是在机场有自己的机棚 And you've got your own hangar at the airport,
享有皇家迈丹大桥使用特权 privileges on the Royal Meydan Bridge,
在网络上零存在感 and zero presence online.
我惹怒你了吗？ Have I hit a nerve?
我知道阿联酋非常注重隐私 I know the Emirates are big on privacy,
所以那可能对你来说很重要 and that's probably important to you,
但我不得不问 but I gotta ask,
这样半个世纪都不会老 what does it cost, this haven't-aged-in- half-a-century,
被超杀风景环绕的低调 背后的代价是什么？ killer-views-in- all-directions anonymity?
代价蛮大的 Quite a lot.
只有我的家人跟医生知道我病了 Only my family and my doctor know I'm sick.
我不想被单方面刺探 I don't dig the one-way hack.
好吗？ Yeah?
还有一个问题 And here's another question.
太阳就在外面那里 That's the sun out there.
你的棺材在哪里？ Where's your coffin?
你就站在里面 You're standing in it.
我对请进家门的人要非常谨慎 I have to be very careful whom I let in.
对，上次不欢而散 Yeah, well, things didn't end well the last time,
所以如果我有点紧张，请体谅一下 so forgive me if I'm a little nervous.
这个！在我跟你说了全部之后 This, after all I've told you,
你就是这样报答我的吗，男孩？ is what you ask for, boy?!
对，你不了解人类生活 Yeah, well, you don't know what human life is like.
你忘记了，老兄 I mean, you've forgotten, man.
你连自己故事的意义 I mean, you don't even understand
都不了解！ the meaning of your own story!
不！嘿，停！ No! Hey, stop!
你当时很没礼貌 You were disrespectful.
我情绪很高昂 I was high.
你当时不配听我的故事 You were not worthy of my story then.
可能你的故事没那么值得被讲述 Maybe your story wasn't worth telling.
录音带在你手上，去请个誊写员 You've got the tapes. Hire a transcriber.
我不写吹捧文了 I don't do puff portraiture anymore.
但你还是在疫情下 And yet, you got on a plane,
带着自体免疫性疾病坐上了飞机 with an auto-immune disease, in the middle of a pandemic.
好吧 Alright.
那是我的声音，但我不记得了 That's my voice, but I don't remember it.
我问题都问错了 I ask all the wrong questions.
对 Yes.
你的故事里有矛盾，我却从未深究 There's contradictions in your story I never follow up on.
对 Yes.
我问的几个好问题 The few good ones I do manage to get out,
都被你压掉了，那不是访问 you steamroll over them. It's not an interview.
那是… It's a...
那是一个说给白痴听的怪梦 It's a fever dream told to an idiot.
对 Yes.
那你呢？ And you?
为什么想再来一次？什么东西改变了？ Why again? What's changed?
整个世界、情势 The world, circumstances.
我，我改变了 Me, I've changed.
我也觉得录音内容有所不足 And I, too, find the tapes lacking.
所以… So...
从头来过 a do-over.
真相跟和解 Truth and reconciliation.
我问问题 I ask the questions.
你回答，任何无法查证的 You answer the questions. Anything that can't be verified,
我会寄给我的研究员 I send to my researcher.
不能有第三方 No third parties.
内容我写 I write it.
你可以在送印前先看过 You get to see it before it goes to print.
但我可以做最后编修 I get the final edit.
这跟你签署的同意书内容不符 That is not the agreement you signed.
还有一件事 And one more thing.
我一对一的时候表现最好 I do my best work one-on-one.
你可以去处理一下 莫洛伊先生的房间吗？ Would you see to Mr. Molloy's room?
请主厨帮他准备一顿餐 Have Chef prepare a meal for him.
我想等我们的男孩休息好再开始比较好 I think it best we start when our boy's had a rest.
我不是你该死的男孩 I am not your fucking boy.
我是一个毛病一堆的老头 I'm an old man with all the triggers that come with it.
而且我准备好了 And I'm ready.
所以我们开始吧 So let's do this.
我是丹尼尔莫洛伊 I'm Daniel Molloy.
现在是早上10点08分 2022年6月14日 It is 10:08 in the morning on June 14, 2022.
我在艾尔什瑞夫塔顶层公寓里 I'm in the penthouse apartment of the Al Sharaf Towers
对面坐着… across from Mister...
路易德普安特杜拉克 Louis de Pointe du Lac.
好… So...
杜拉克先生… Mr. du Lac...
你死了多久？ how long have you been dead?
当时是1910年 The year was 1910,
我父亲过世后的第五年秋天 the fall of the fifth year of my father's passing
也是我担任 德普安特杜拉克家族遗嘱执行人的 and the fall of the fifth year as the executor in charge
第五年秋天 of the de Pointe du Lac family trust.
-最年长的儿子 -是最受宠的儿子 The eldest son. The favored son.
也因此接手掌管大规模的信托 And a sizable trust to oversee as a consequence.
资本来自蔗糖园的累积 看起来像我曾祖父一样的 Capital accrued from plantations of sugar and the blood of men
有色人种 who looked like my great grandfather
没有一个有他的名望 but did not have his standing.
后来好几十年的吉姆克劳法 But then decades of Jim Crow
跟新世纪的电气化 and the electrified light of a new century
摧毁了自由有色人种的概念 had vanquished any idea of a free man of color.
在纽奥良唯一能让像我这样肤色的绅士 So it followed the only place in New Orleans a gentleman
从事正当行业的地方 of my complexion could do a righteous business
只剩一个叫做史多瑞维尔的社区 was a neighborhood called Storyville.
那是旧红灯区 That was the old red-light district.
对吧？ Yeah?
20个饮酒作乐、欲求不满 吃喝嫖赌的街区 20 blocks of drinking, gambling, and gluttonous whoring.
好 Okay,
那身为家族资产高贵执行人的你 so as the honorable executor of the family's estate,
从事的究竟是什么行业 you were in what business exactly,
杜拉克先生？ Mr. du Lac?
你可以说我经营 You could say I managed
并操作多元事业的投资组合 and operated a diversified portfolio of enterprises.
你是皮条客 You were a pimp.
我贩售的商品是欲望 The product was desire,
它有多种形式，因为背后有各种驱动力 and it came in as many forms as there were ways to move it.
自由街上的20多间妓院 Of the two dozen sporting houses on Liberty Street,
有八间是我的 I owned eight of them.
跟贝森街上的相比较为秀气 Modest in proportion to the venues on Basin Street.
规模和优雅上的不足 What they lacked in size and elegance,
用效率和名声补足了 they more than made up for in efficiency and reputation.
杜拉克先生 Mr. du Lac.
芬恩 Finn.
你想要中饱私囊吗？ You hiding any bills in them fat fucking rolls of yours?
不可否认地，我当时较为强悍 I was, admittedly, a rougher thing then.
杜拉克先生！ Mr. du Lac!
如果你想生存，就不得不如此 You had to be if you wanted to survive.
在自由街上你不能看起来软弱无力 You couldn't look weak on Liberty Street.
该死，桃丽丝 Damn, Doris,
你这样冲出来腿会被撞断 you gon' lose your good leg runnin' out like that.
杜拉克先生，我们遇到了大麻烦 Mr. du Lac, sir, we got bad trouble.
我道歉 I apologize.
我只是要给你看我的爱而已 I was only tryna show you my love.
去你的 Fuck you.
怎么了？ What happened?
那婊子打我！ The cunny hit me!
现在我变婊子啦？ Oh, I'm a cunny now?
一分钟前我还是他的爱 A minute ago, I was his love.
奥尔德曼芬威克？ Alderman Fenwick?
嗯？ Hmm?
你打奥尔德曼家的人？ You hit an alderman?
该死，布蕾克丝 God damn it, Bricks.
他插进我的屁眼里 He stuck it in my shitbox.
我没有 I did no such thing.
我有给他机会拿出来，但他还是一直插 Gave him a chance to pull out, and he kept on fucking,
所以我就喷了一些 晚餐吃的鲶鱼教训他一下 so I gave him a little squirt of my catfish dinner for going there.
不信你去看他那根 Don't believe me, check his dick.
你是在跟谁说话？ Who the fuck you talkin' to?
我才不会看他那根 I ain't checkin' no man's dick.
哦，该死 Oh. Oh, goddamn.
如果你问一下，我可能还会答应 Hell, I mighta even said yes if you would just ask.
但我管你是谁 But I don't care who you is,
你没问就插进屁眼 you put a dick in an asshole without asking,
是亵渎耶稣 that's against Jesus.
去你的 Fuck you.
你们是在笑什么？ What y'all laughin' at?
去请詹森医生过来 Someone go and fetch Doc Johnson.
你去拿一些干净的水跟一条毛巾过来 And you, get some clean water and a towel.
手拿开，黑鬼！ Get your hands off me, nigger!
再说一次，你会让我后悔帮你 You gon' make me regret my support, you repeat yourself,
芬威克先生 Mr. Fenwick.
我是路易德普安特杜拉克 Louis de Pointe du Lac, sir.
哦，普安特杜拉克 Oh, Pointe du Lac.
哦，原谅我 Oh, forgive me.
我…这…太多酒了 I... It was... There's so much wine.
没事 Don't worry none.
这件事我们知道就好了 We'll keep this here 'tween us.
有人去请医生来了 Someone got the good doc on the way.
哦，威廉丝小姐 Oh, Miss Williams.
她真是个美景 Isn't she a vision?
我不会清理他那根 I ain't cleanin' his dick.
哦，天啊 Oh, Jesus,
这里有状况，芬恩 Mary. Got a situation here, Finn.
对，你122外面也有状况 Yeah, well, you got another one outside 122.
有人在闹事，生意都被影响了 Man acting the maggot, driving away business.
我不就是请你来处理这种事的吗？ Ain't that what I pay you for?
对方是公民神父 It's a citizen priest.
你不懂吗，姐妹？ Do you not realize, sister,
你的身体是主耶稣的一部分 your body is part of Christ the Lord?
这个月第二次了 Second time this month.
如果你将那个身体 When you take that body
-拿去享受卖淫 -杜拉克先生，如果他是你弟弟 -and enjoin in harlotry -And I could give two moons
-你就是在亵渎主 -我可以再忍两天 -you are defiling the Lord. -if he's your brother, Mr. du Lac.
我要在庞恰特雷恩敲碎他的头！ I'm gonna knock his skull in the Pontchartrain!
…你否认了和耶稣的共同胜利 ...you deny your victory with Christ.
祂将再次降临，审判活人与死人 He shall come again to judge the living and the dead.
到时已经离开的人将再复活 And who has come and gone then will rise again
肉体将投入永恒之火中 with their bodies into everlasting fire.
回家 Go on home.
叫老妈不要等门 Tell Mama not to wait up.
你衬衫上有血渍 There's blood on your shirt.
今晚发生了什么邪恶之事？ What wickedness is it tonight?
你这样不是在帮我，保罗 You're not helping me here, Paul.
我是啊 Oh, but I am.
主叫我过来这里，路易 The Lord told me to come, Louis.
很多声音，在我的脑袋里 In my head, like a family of birds,
像是一家子的鸟，但同时有一个声音… many voices, but also one voice...
再说一次试试看 Saying it a second time.
拜托听我说 Listen to me, please.
我今晚过得很糟，好吗？ I'm having a fucking night, okay?
我不能再让你… I can't have it with you foo--
快回家 Get on home,
否则我就像杀猪一样让你见血 else I'll bleed ya like a kochon, bruh.
我想拿剑抵着我弟弟吗？ Did I want to pull a knife on my brother?
我不想 No.
但如我先前提到的 But as I alluded to before,
在自由街上你不能看起来软弱无力 you couldn't look weak on Liberty.
你永远不知道谁在虎视眈眈着 You never knew who was watching.
他拿剑抵着我，妈 He pulled his knife on me, Mamaw.
因为你在破坏母亲的生意 You were disrupting mother's business interests.
你有听到吗，母亲？ D'you hear that, Mother?
他把你变成老鸨了 He's made you a madam.
哦，保罗 Oh, Paul.
他在从被诅咒的灵魂中获利 Profiting from the damnation of souls.
我们不要小题大作 Let's not fuss on the particulars.
那年与家人共进早餐有一个固定的模式 Mornings with my family followed a pattern that year.
我母亲专心在准备我妹妹的婚事上 My mother consumed herself with preparations for my sister's wedding,
保罗则在餐桌上 while Paul confused the dining table
用无人认同的传教内容搅和 with a pulpit none of us would recognize.
我们应该在这个家压垮我们之前 We should tithe that o'er to St. Augustine's 'fore
向圣奥思定会缴教区税 this house falls in on us.
这只是暂时的 This is just a temporary situation
路易会替我们找到一个更体面的事业 until Louis can find us a more respectable business.
如果爸还在，我们现在还会在制糖业 Daddy was here, we'd still be in sugar cane.
如果爸还在 Daddy was alive,
你现在还被关在积逊的那间医院里 you'd still be locked up in that hospital in Jackson.
路易，不要提那个 Louis, let's not have that talk.
一个月后是我的婚礼 A month from my wedding day,
我梦想什么呢？ and what do I dream about?
梦想在我先生怀里跳舞吗？ Dancing in my husband's arms?
孩子在院子里跑来跑去吗？不是 Children running in the yard? No.
我在想一顿安静的早餐是怎么样的 I dream of what a quiet breakfast might look like.
你男人李维是浸礼会的，这对圣母不敬 Your man Levi's a Baptist, no respect for the Holy Mother.
保罗！ Paul!
他会让你女儿“跳扫帚” He's gon' make your daughter jump a broom.
我就坐在这里耶 I'm sitting right here.
下去一点的梅菲尔姐妹家中有很多扫帚 Plenty of brooms down the street at the Mayfair sisters' home.
他在说我是女巫，妈 He's calling me a witch, Mamaw.
保罗德普安特杜拉克，话收回去 Paul de Pointe du Lac, you walk that back.
你弟弟听起来是个讨厌鬼 Your brother sounds like a pain in the ass.
脆弱、固执、执着 Fragile, stubborn, indulged.
我在父亲临终前承诺会照顾他 I'd promised our father on his death bed to look after him.
当保罗心智正常时 But when Paul's mind was right,
就不是个负担 he was no burden.
其实，我爱他胜过地球上其他人 Point of fact, I loved him more than anyone on earth.
我们每天漫步到圣奥思定会 And our daily stroll to St. Augustine
那是美好一天开启的量尺 was the measure of a good day started.
早安，保罗 Good morning, Paul.
你的早上可能很安好吧 Good for you maybe.
早安，路易 Morning, Louis.
椅子很亮哦 Pew's got a good shine.
如果你不介意 我会把鞋子送到你这里来 If it wasn't beneath you, I'd send shoes your way.
没什么好介意的，孩子 Nothing is beneath me, son.
我准备好了，神父 I'm ready, Father.
我想感谢你们家上周日的捐献 I wanted to thank the family for last Sunday's donation.
那是保母费 Baby-sitting money.
教堂能让他冷静一点 Church calms him down some.
嗯，我们都会在这里陪他 Well, we're always here for him.
那笔钱被好好地用在装修上 And the money goes a good way towards the renovation.
我要马蒂亚斯神父，谢谢 I want Father Matthias. Thank you.
你没什么要告解的 这是在浪费好人的时间 You ain't got nothing to confess to anyhow. Wasting a good man's time.
我马上过去，保罗 Be right there, Paul.
我最近都没看到你来告解，路易 I haven't seen you in confession of late, Louis.
如果你需要，随时可以过来，孩子 You know, you can always come here if you're in need, son.
我的事业跟我被教导的信仰相互冲突 My business and my raised religion were at odds,
而我…我内在蠢蠢欲动 and the, uh... latencies within me,
我编了一个谎欺骗自己 借此对抗那股感觉 well, I beat those back with a lie I told myself about myself...
我跟自己说我是精力旺盛的南方之子 that I was a red-blooded son of the South,
在赦罪前寻求欢愉 seeking ass before absolution.
那你是靠什么不让这错觉破灭的？ And you maintained this delusion how exactly?
靠一个替对手工作的女子 A particular woman who worked for the competition.
就好像我们摇摇欲坠的小屋能比拟 As if rickety shacks were a competition
汤安达臣的“公平竞争酒馆” for Tom Anderson's Fairplay Saloon.
哦，路易杜拉克 Ah, Louis du Lac.
夜晚开始了 The night begins.
卡路尔小姐，莉莉小姐今晚有上班吗？ Miss Carroll, Miss Lily working tonight?
莉莉小姐在露台 Miss Lily's on the terrace.
那是一个富丽堂皇的宫殿 It was a palace of opulence and splendor.
杜拉克先生，来杯萨兹拉克酒吗？ A Sazerac, Mr. du Lac?
好的，卡路尔小姐 That'll do fine, Miss Carroll.
几乎只服务白人顾客 And catered to an almost exclusively Caucasian clientele,
有助于我区分本地人 which helped me separate the locals from those
跟那些来自南方其他州的人 visiting from other southern states.
我看今晚进账不少哦 Shakin' the money tree tonight I see,
-安达臣先生 -多到我都看不到地上的尘土了 Mr. Anderson, sir. Can't see the dirt for the dollars fallin'.
如果你有空的话，周五有私人牌会 Private game on Friday if your datebook is free, Louis.
可以哦，安达臣先生，可以哦 Can do, Mr. Anderson. Can do.
我听不太懂你说什么 I don't know much what you're saying.
但真的很好听 But it sure sounds nice.
“只有不可能之人能做不可能之事” "Only the impossible can do the impossible."
莉莉小姐 Miss Lily.
晚安，先生 Bonsoir, monsieur.
你会说法文吗？ Do you speak French?
我们纽奥良这里会说各种各样的话 We speak all sorts of tongues in New Orleans.
这里一位难求，你是怎么进来的？ It's a hard table to get. How'd you manage it?
你才是怎么透过大门进来的？ How'd you manage to get yourself through the front door?
你说什么？ Excuse me?
我这是赞美的意思 I mean that as a compliment,
你这种人种的人能在这里享有特权 a man of your race to have privileges here.
路易在这条街上有自己的小帝国 Louis has a small empire of his own down the street.
因此让他享有特权 It gives him privileges.
有什么好笑的吗？ Somethin' funny about that?
你叫路易 Your name is Louis.
当然了 Of course it's Louis.
我没听到你叫什么，老兄 I didn't get your name, fella.
抱歉，我私下玩得太开心了 I'm sorry. I'm having too much fun in private.
我知道你是谁 I know who you are, sir.
你让我在法属区买下了一栋宅邸 You're the man who made me buy a townhouse in the quarter.
我欠你欠大了 I owe you everything.
请一起坐 Please, join us.
我知道有时候像我这种种族的人 I know sometimes men of my race,
在你们眼里看起来都一样 we all look alike to you people.
但我没卖你房子 But I didn't sell you no townhouse.
路易，坐一下吧 Louis, have a seat.
让我解释一下 Let me explain.
我是…新… New to the... the New World,
新来的 I am.
这身打扮就说得通了 That explains the clothes.
我其实是一位19世纪的男子 A 19th-century man at heart,
对，搭船横渡大西洋 yes, making his, uh, trans-Atlantic journey by ship,
小心翼翼地计划安顿于上游处 planning very carefully on settling myself upriver.
您的萨兹拉克酒 The Sazerac, sir.
记在我账上，谢谢 Put that on my account, thank you.
然后再多给我们两杯 And two more for us.
也再给乐手一轮 And another round for the musicians,
看他们想喝什么 whatever they want.
他们常常被忽略 They are always forgotten.
好的，先生 Yes, sir.
哦，我说到哪了？ Oh, where was I?
坐船 On a boat.
对，我在新月海岸上 So, I'm out on the Crescent coast,
漂过你们的村庄 floating past your village,
我听到音乐演奏声 when I hear music playing,
还有男男女女在岸边跳舞的剪影 and the shadows of men and women dancing by the water's edge.
我上岸，朝着音乐走去 I disembarked for the music,
然后还有食物 but then there was the food.
你今年最喜欢的是什么 What's been your favorite this year,
莱昂柯特先生？ Mr. Lioncourt?
最喜欢的？ A favorite?
-嗯 -嗯 -Mm. -Mm.
她在逼我做选择 She puts a pistol to my head.
我难以置信 I couldn't believe it.
他直盯着我 Staring me down as his hands
手一边游移在莉莉小姐的裙缘 went wandering the seams of Miss Lily's dress.
我想用我手杖的末端将他的喉咙划开 I wanted to take the end of my cane and slit his throat with it.
那你怎么没有？ Why didn't you?
我动不了 I couldn't move.
我的身体因软弱动弹不得 My body was seized with weakness.
他的眼神将我的肺缠住 His gaze tied a string around my lungs,
我发现自己动弹不得 and I found myself immobilized.
这里的女人，有各种肤色… And the women, all shades of skin...
白色、黑色 white, Black,
黄褐色 cinnamon.
我得说，我掏空了银行保险库到处体验 I've emptied a bank vault sampling, I must say.
一直到几晚之后… But it was not until a few nights later...
我看到一个男人 从他的手杖中拉出一把剑 When I watched a man pull a knife out of his walking stick...
并将刀锋抵住他弟弟的胸骨 And pressed the blade to his brother's breast bone.
我这才告诉自己… ...that I said to myself...
“黎斯特，打开行李箱，你到家了” "Lestat, unpack your trunks. You're home."
他刚刚说什么？ What did he say just now?
说了比他该说的还多了点 A little more than he should of.
我本来打算在圣路易展开新生活 I had planned to make a new life for myself in St. Louis.
那本来是我的天命 That was to be my destiny.
现在我知道我是对的 And now I know I was right.
只是那个“圣”不是城市 Only it turns out the saint is not a city,
而是一位性格宜人的俊俏男子 but a handsome man with a most agreeable disposition.
你是他的天命耶，路易 You're his destiny, Louis.
命中注定要成为挚友 Destined to be very good friends.
东方房接下来几个小时可以使用 The Orient room is available for the next few hours,
莉莉小姐 Miss Lily.
两位绅士在交换辣香肠的食谱 The gentlemen are swappin' andouille sausage recipes,
卡路尔小姐 Miss Carroll.
嗯 Hmm.
东方房是你的了，先生 The Orient room is yours, monsieur.
请给我这位朋友任何他想要的东西 Please get my friend here anything he wants.
很高兴认识你 Wonderful to meet you.
希望能再遇见你，路易 I do hope I run into you again, Louis.
气势全消和景仰的心情不相上下 Emasculation and admiration in equal measure.
我想杀了那个男人 I wanted to murder the man,
也想成为那个男人 and I wanted to be the man.
我是去那里找莉莉的 I had come there for Lily.
但离开时想的都是他 But I left thinking of only him.
出来 Come now.
是哪个邪恶的… Who the devil...
我们警局里的朋友跟我说 镇上爆发一种热病 Our friends in the police tell me there's an outbreak of fever in town.
大部分不幸染病的都住在码头附近 It's unfortunates living near the wharf, mostly.
如果你发现自己身在迪凯特河边 If you find yourself riverside of Decatur,
那你只能怪自己了 you have only yourself to blame, I say.
同意 Agreed.
不过，他们说很诡异 Still, very peculiar, they say.
每个都一样…身体上都有小伤口 Each one the same... small wounds to the body,
检查之后，发现全无血液 and upon examination, entirely devoid of blood.
他们说有一种新老鼠游上岸 It is their theory some new kind of rat has come ashore.
有六只脚 Of the six-foot variety.
我们法国都说那是官僚 We call those bureaucrats in France.
男士们，你们都认识路易杜拉克 Gentlemen, well, you all know Louis du Lac.
路易，我跟你介绍 这位是黎斯特德莱昂柯特先生 Louis, let me introduce you to Mr. Lestat de Lioncourt.
我们见过了，安达臣先生 We met already, Mr. Anderson, sir.
在花店前，对不对？ In front of a florist, wasn't it?
我们都想买最后一束百合 We both wanted the last bouquet of lilies.
你不问奥尔德曼他的头还好吗，路易？ Aren't you gonna ask the alderman how his head is, Louis?
我为什么要问，安达臣先生？ Now, why would I do that, Mr. Anderson, sir?
你看，芬威克先生，我就说吧 You see, Mr. Fenwick, just as I told you,
最谨慎的黑人 a most discreet Negro.
要是他的医生也一样就好了 Would that his doctor had the same standards.
男士们，开牌吧 Gentlemen, show your cards.
哦！ Hoo!
莱昂柯特先生 你的手真是让人难以理解 Mr. Lioncourt, your hand is incomprehensible.
哦，对 Oh, yes.
我很不会玩牌 I'm terrible at cards.
我没有说过吗？ Did I not mention that to everyone?
可以再换一点筹码给我吗？ Would you mind, uh, getting me some more of these money chips?
路易，你知道这位奥尔德曼芬威克 Louis, did you know that Alderman Fenwick here
最近买下维利耶街上 recently purchased both the title
霍顿公寓的所有权跟房契吗？ and deed to the Horton rooming house on Villere Street?
对，安达臣先生认为可以开不错的妓院 Yeah, Mr. Anderson believes it could make a fine sportin' house.
我建议奥尔德曼在投钱之前 I recommended the alderman find a managing partner
先找一位经营伙伴 before he commits his money.
我想的人选就是你，路易 I recommended he think of you, Louis.
你人真好，安达臣先生 Very kind of you, Mr. Anderson, sir.
你觉得那个地点怎么样？ What do you think of the location?
比不上贝森街 It ain't Basin Street.
但在正面挂上几颗爱迪生灯泡 But throw enough Edison bulbs on the facade,
酒水利润赚好 get a good margin on the alcohol,
不啰嗦的老鸨来管女孩们 no-nonsense madam to keep the girls clean,
我想应该可以赚得不错，芬威克先生 I reckon a man could make a decent sum. Yes, sir, Mr. Fenwick, sir.
我想抽一成你应该愿意加入 I said you'd do it for 10 percent.
无意冒犯，安达臣先生 A-all respects, Mr. Anderson,
但你是说包办一切抽一成吗？ but you proposing 10 percent for all the work?
那抽一成五？ 15%?
现在有资方跟劳方了 Now, there's capital investment, and there's labor.
各有一席之位 Both has its seat at the table.
是吧，黎斯特先生？ Wouldn't you say, Mr. Lestat?
嗯，我只能就我的经验分享 Well, I can only speak of my experience,
我确定这和我的国家作法不同 which is, I'm sure, different in my country.
举例来说，各位男士 Par exemple, you fine gentlemen
都听过乐蓬马歇百货公司成功的故事 have heard of the success story that is Le Bon Marche,
它提供的购物体验无以伦比 shopping experience like no other.
阿里斯蒂德布西科投入了新的洞察力… Aristide Boucicaut invests in a new vision...
这些男人瞧不起你 These men look down on you.
我得说 I have to say,
看到像你这样的男人在自己的国家 I find it appalling how men like yourself
被这样对待很让人震惊 are treated in this country of yours.
无可否认 It is undeniable.
我的财富累积得坦坦荡荡 而且背后牺牲极大 I came to my wealth honestly and at great sacrifice,
我得说 I might add.
不过，没有牺牲到很多人 However, it was not the sacrifice of many.
我没有合作伙伴… I had no partners in my various...
一成 10 percent.
-财务风险… -一成五 -The financial risks... -15 percent.
你不知道自己的价值吗？ Do you not know your value?
你是为了更大的目的才蒙受羞辱吗？ Do you suffer these indignities for some larger purpose?
还有，你觉得两对会让你赢吗？ And do you think two pair will win the hour?
我相信这座城市有大好机会 I believe there is great opportunity in this city,
但要把握机会 but to seize it,
我需要狼群保护 I'll need protection from the wolves.
以上是我的浅见，请别见笑 And that's all to say, forgive me,
德普安特杜拉克先生，或许是我的偏见 Mr. de Pointe du Lac, for my bias,
但没有资金，商机在哪里？ but where is the business if there is no capital?
商机不存在 It does not exist.
对吧？ No?
好了，各位，开牌吧 Alright, boys. Show 'em.
哦，葫芦 Ooh. Full boat,
杜拉克先生 Mr. du Lac.
你输了，汤 Got you beat, Tom.
他不跟我说他怎么做到的 He wouldn't tell me how he did it,
怎么让世界静止的 his trick to make the world stop.
“我会说的，路易，有点耐心，路易 下礼拜再问我吧，路易” "In time, Louis. Patience, Louis. Ask me next week, Louis."
你们开始一起出去？ You started hanging out?
他爱上我的城市 He was in love with my city
想极尽所能地了解一切 and wanted to know everything he could about it.
所以你就当一位吸血鬼绅士的向导吗？ So you played docent to the gentleman vampire?
他当时还没显露出他的吸血鬼本性 He had not revealed his vampire nature yet.
我猜你们只在晚上见面 I'm assuming you only met at night.
那里是纽奥良耶 It's New Orleans.
白天是用来把前一晚玩乐的伤害睡掉的 Days are for sleeping off the previous evening's damage.
很适合掩护吸血鬼身份 Perfect cover for a vampire.
你又跳太快了，莫洛伊先生 Racing ahead again, Mr. Molloy.
让故事带引你 Let the tale seduce you.
就像我被带引一样 Just as I was seduced.
金钱从法国电汇过来 Money would arrive, wired from France,
通常在日落时分关店的商家 and the shopkeepers, who would usually close at sunset,
都非常乐于服务他 were very happy to accommodate him.
他搜刮进口商行来替他的宅邸增添家具 He ransacked the import houses to furnish his town house,
为图书室扫空书店最古老的书籍 ravaged the booksellers of their oldest volumes for a library,
并在鼓励之下 and, with encouragement,
将穿着打扮更新为当季流行款式 updated his wardrobe to the fashion trends of the season.
那年是寒冬，而黎斯特是我的煤火 It was a cold winter that year, and Lestat was my coal fire.
我发现自己第一次 And I found myself for the very first time,
向保罗以外的人 to anyone other than Paul,
吐露自己内心的挣扎 confiding my struggles to another man.
我正在被猎杀 I was being hunted.
但我却浑然不知 And I was completely unaware it was happening.
我要换房间 I'm switchin' rooms.
我不要听到你跟你老公发出声音 I don't need to hear you and your good man making noise.
那你也要在家才听得到 You'd have to be home to hear that.
我晚上会回来 I come home nights.
是有些晚上 You come home some nights.
我听说你跟某个白人在外寻欢作乐 Out cattin' with some white man, I hear.
他不是白人，是法国人 He ain't white, he French.
哦 Oh.
那是一种新白人吗？法国白人？ That's a new kind of white, is it? French white?
他不一样 He different.
请他过来吃晚餐 Invite him over for dinner.
母亲喜欢欧洲人 Mother loves European.
我要跟李维说你在钓更大条的鱼 I'm gon' tell Levi you fishin' for a richer man.
不，不要拒绝你妹妹 Don't. Don't deny your sister.
我想认识这位法国白人 I wanna meet this French white.
我只是想给你主的话 I'm just trying to give you the word of the Lord.
懂吗…是的…不 Understa-- Yes. Yes. No.
那绝非我的… That is never my...
保罗昨晚爬上我的床 Paul crawled up on my bed last night.
哭了快一个小时 Wept for good near an hour.
他无法接受你要结婚了 He ain't takin' to you gettin' married.
李维跟我说格雷特纳有个地方 Levi told me of a place over in Gretna,
收像保罗这样的人 takes in men like Paul.
不是什么疯人院… It's not some crazy person's house like...
上次的结果如何？ How'd that work last time, huh?
他出来后状况比之前更糟 He come out worse than before.
格雷特纳，不可能 Gretna. It ain't happenin'.
祂为了你死于十字架上 He died on the cross for you.
-对，就是你 -我担心 Yes...you. I worry.
我很担心… I worry so much...
担心你自己就好 Worry about your own life.
担心怎么当好新娘就好 Worry about being a bride.
担心你要带什么衣服去伦敦 Worry about what you gon' wear in London,
巴黎、佛罗伦斯 in Paris, Florence.
你们从纽约出去的时候是坐下等舱 Now, y'all gon' be in steerage outta New York,
但等到了欧洲，就会是头等舱了 but once you get to Europe, it's first class on boats,
-船、火车、酒店房间都是 -你都在弄这些哦？ -trains, and hotel rooms. -What did you go and do?
你可以在甲板享受音乐 在喷水池旁享受食物 You should put the band by the deck and the food by the fountain.
妈！ Mamaw!
我要环游世界了！ I'm goin' 'round the world!
真是感激不尽，杜拉克妈妈 I can't thank you enough, Mama du Lac.
我没去过阿拉巴马州东部 现在居然要去看金字塔了 I never been east of Alabama, and now I'm going to see the pyramids.
哦，我认为每个年轻家庭 都值得来一点小冒险 Oh, I think every young family deserves a little adventure.
是吧，莱昂柯特先生？ Wouldn't you say, Monsieur Lioncourt?
是的，女士，我母亲 Oui, Madame. My mother,
她让我拥有年轻男子的所有优势 she gave me every advantage in life as a young man.
我的第一头英国獒犬 第一把燧发来福枪 My first Mastiff, first flintlock rifle,
以及让我能去巴黎的方法 the means to make my way to Paris.
你的假期是路易买的，李维 It was Louis that purchased your holiday, Levi.
管钱的是路易 It's Louis who controls the money.
别在意，李维 Pay no mind, Levi.
而且是谁给你权利 And I don't know who gave you the right
把我们的妈妈叫成你妈的 to call our mother your mother.
她还不是你妈 也永远不会跟你有血缘关系 She's not your mother yet and will never be your scientific mother.
保罗 Paul.
我喜欢这道马赛鱼汤 I do love this bouillabaisse.
什么？ Wha?
我们这里叫做秋葵浓汤 Down here, we call it gumbo.
我们前几天晚上有吃秋葵浓汤 对不对，路易？ We had a gumbo the other night, didn't we, Louis?
看完歌剧之后 Uh, right after the opera.
哦，路易居然去看歌剧 Oh, we've got Louis to an opera.
《约兰塔》 "Iolanta."
在讲一个盲眼公主 'Bout some blind princess,
不知道自己是公主的故事 didn't know she was a princess.
肚子突然叫了起来，所以中途离席 Stomach got grumbling, left halfway through.
你跟我哥哥的关系到底是什么 And what exactly is the nature of your relationship with my brother,
莱昂柯特先生？ Monsieur Lioncourt?
你哥哥跟我 Your brother and I
在讨论一些投资机会 have been discussing a few investment opportunities.
是小鸟们叫我问你的 The birds asked me to ask you.
我不是有意无礼 I wasn't being rude.
弗内先生 Monsieur Freniere,
你可以告诉我你是怎么 would you tell me how you came to propose
向这位可爱的年轻小姐求婚的吗？ to this delightsome young woman?
哦，故事很好听 Oh, that's a good yarn.
你与基督同在吗，莱昂柯特先生？ Are you one with Christ, Mr. Lioncourt?
你要不要闭上你该死的嘴？ How 'bout you shut your damn mouth?
路易 Louis.
没关系，路易、女士 That's alright, Louis, Madame,
是小鸟在说话 the birds speak for him.
我是在一座修道院认识基督的 I came to know Christ in a monastery.
我本来想当神父 I wanted to be a priest.
跟你一样，保罗 Just like you, Paul.
在那里的僧侣的指导和教导下 And under the guidance and discipline of the monks who lived there,
我开始记下新旧约 I came to memorize both the testaments,
亚西西的著作 the writings of Assisi,
阿奎那、伊拉斯谟 Aquinas, Erasmus,
所有圣人和学者的著作 all the saints and scholars.
我父亲，一位粗鄙的男人 My father, a vulgar man,
不太喜欢这种教育 did not think much of this education,
于是他和我的兄弟密谋将我拉出来 and so he and my brothers conspired to pull me out,
他们把我关起来，在被殴打、挨饿 lock me away, where, between beatings, starvations,
以及基督未能介入这些殴打 and the failure of Christ to intercede the beatings
挨饿的过程中 and starvations,
我逐渐遗忘了新旧约的一切 I slowly forgot all about the testaments,
亚西西、阿奎那、伊拉斯谟，全都忘了 Assisi, Aquinas, Erasmus, all of it.
闭嘴 Stop.
我现在就回答你那无聊的问题 And so to answer your boring question,
基督和我之间隔着一片汪洋大海 there is an ocean between Christ and myself.
闭嘴！ Stop!
希望这回答能让栖息于 你那心智牢笼里的小鸟们满意 I hope that satisfies the birds perching in your mind's cage!
不要在这里搞那一套！ Don't do that shit here!
不要用在我家人上 Not with my family.
懂吗？ You understand?
我有时候深受我父亲脾气的诅咒 I am cursed with my father's temper at times,
是我无礼 and the rudeness is all mine.
没关系 That's alright.
是湿度的问题 It's the humidity.
有时候会这样 It does that sometimes.
要不要喝点冰酒？ Why don't we have some ice wine?
李维可以跟我们说 他是怎么赢得我小宝贝芳心的 And Levi here can tell us all again how he won my joychild's heart.
我担心你家人可能之后都会对我有芥蒂 I fear your family has taken a permanent offense at me.
保罗没有在吃饭的时候，就是在找架吵 When Paul ain't pickin' at his plate, he pickin' a fight.
如果我会你的伎俩，我也会做一样的事 If I had your tricks, I'd have done the same.
你一定很羡慕他 You must envy him.
他以为上帝透过他脑中的小鸟跟他说话 The boy thinks God speaks to him through birds in his head.
这要羡慕什么？ How you figure envy?
羡慕他思绪的自由 The liberty he has with his thoughts.
不管那思绪有多畸形 However misshapen they may be,
你弟弟并不羞于分享 your brother has no shame in sharing them.
你是说我羞于自己吗？ You sayin' I got shame?
你说的提早离开歌剧院的谎言 The lie you told about leaving the opera house early.
谢幕的时候你都快哭了 You were near weeping when the curtain fell.
为什么要对家人隐瞒？ Why hide that from your family?
不需要大家都知道我在做什么 Don't everybody need to know what I do.
不诚实会生生不息 Dishonesty breeds dishonesty.
她们会妄加评断 They sit in judgment.
只有保罗会当着我的面说出来 Paul is the only one to say it to my face,
但我知道我妈跟嘉丽丝其实也这样想 but I know my ma and Grace think it, too.
我爸过世的时候让我们家的制糖事业 My daddy ran our sugar business into a swamp.
付诸流水 When he passed,
四个月… we was four months...
如果我什么都不做 再四个月我们就会破产 four months from going bankrupt if I didn't do something.
你不必为自己辩护，路易 You don't need to defend yourself to me, Louis.
我知道你经历了什么 I know what you go through
为了让家人舒适得一无所知 to keep your family ignorant in their comfort.
我做的工作不容易 It ain't easy, the work I do.
我周围都是破碎的灵魂 Nothing but broken souls around me,
只有贪婪完好无缺 and the ones that ain't broke are greedy.
我精疲力尽 Bone-tired.
喝吧，善良的人 Drink up, my good man.
地球是个野蛮花园 The Earth's a savage garden.
你下船是明智的决定 You did good gettin' off that boat when you did.
圣路易跟洗碗水一样黯淡无光 St. Louis is dull as dishwater.
对，我在这里蛮自在的 Yes, I feel quite at home here.
要不要喝杯夜酒？ Shall we have a nightcap?
嗯… Um...
我今晚这样就够了 Probably had enough for tonight.
我要回去一下自由街 Gotta make my rounds back on Liberty.
我坚持，路易 You must, Louis.
我买了一个礼物给你 I bought you a gift.
礼物？ A gift?
一朵花 A flower.
你那个音乐盒好美 That's a nice music box you got there.
那是我少数带过来的东西之一 It's one of the few things I brought with me from the continent.
那首是什么歌？ What's that lil' song playin'?
你喜欢吗？ Do you like it?
是我替一位以前认识的 年轻小提琴家谱的 I composed it for a young violinist I once knew,
一位有无尽的美与多愁善感的男孩 a boy of infinite beauty and sensitivity.
那个是要拿来擦在嘴巴上的 I believe that is for the lips,
-莉莉小姐 -我不喜欢我的，看起来很淡 Miss Lily. I don't like the way mine look plain.
而且杜拉克先生不介意 And Mr. du Lac don't mind when I do it.
嗯哼 Mm-hmm.
一对不适合的佳人 A pair of misfit beauties.
我了解你们为何跑向彼此 I can see why you both run to the other.
卡路尔小姐知道你在这里吗，莉莉？ Miss Carroll know you're here, Lily?
我向你保证 I can assure you,
今晚“公平竞争”有被好好地补偿了 the Fairplay has been handsomely compensated for the evening.
他派两驾马车来接我 Sent a two-horse carriage to pick me up.
我觉得自己是法属区的女王 Felt like the queen of the quarter.
我跟莱昂柯特先生说 I told Mr. Lioncourt,
你跟我通常只会聊天 you and me usually just talk.
为什么呢，路易？ And why is that, Louis?
什么男人会白白浪费这美腰？ What kind of a man wastes this waist with words?
俊美的男人 A beautiful man.
不需要紧张 There's nothing to be nervous about.
窗帘已经拉上，仆人都回家了 The curtains are closed, the servants sent home.
连星球跟繁星都被蒙眼了 Even the planets and stars are blindfolded.
所以你喜欢这种的？ That's your thing, then?
你喜欢看？ You like to watch?
我已经看了你一阵子了，路易 I've been watching you for some time now, Louis.
从河边看到湖边 From river to lake,
再从湖边回到河边 lake back to river,
寻找着我的同伴之心 looking for my companion heart.
你是怎么做到的？ How you do that?
做什么？ Do what?
像那样进到我的脑袋里 Get in my head like that.
真是个漂亮的脑袋 Such a pretty head.
没关系，亲爱的 That's fine, love.
好好睡，莉莉小姐 Sleep well, Miss Lily.
重点是 It bears repeating,
我当时不认为自己是同性恋者 I did not consider myself a homosexual man at the time.
我有过经验，罪恶感、羞耻感 I mean, I had had experiences. Guilt, shame,
在伏特加海载浮载沉的那种经验 floating-on-a-sea-of-vodka type encounters.
很明显我拥抱了自己的性向 Obviously, I've come to embrace my sexuality.
你当然知道 Course, you know that.
我们是在同志酒吧认识的 对吧，丹尼尔？ We met at a gay bar, didn't we, Daniel?
那里是得分的好去处 我只是做我该做的而已 It was a good place to score. I did what I had to.
你结过婚吗？ You've been married?
两次 Twice.
我们不是来聊我的 But we're not here for me, are we?
你服用药物的时候 When you were using drugs,
莫洛伊先生 Mr. Molloy,
你记得最好的一次吗？ do you remember the best you ever had?
1978年，在柏克莱 Berkeley, 1978.
卡莉和佩德罗卖的墨西哥黑焦油海洛因 Some Mexican black tar that Carly and Pedro were slinging.
所以，想像那再次在你的血液中流动 So imagine that flowing inside your veins again.
再大大加乘 Now multiply it by miles,
流到土星环再回来 to the rings of Saturn and back.
他做了他所谓的“小酌” 就是小喝一口 He had taken what he called "un petit coup"... the little drink.
不足以让我丧命，但足以让他保持健康 Not enough to kill me, but just enough to keep him fit.
我们需要极力克制才行，那个小酌 It takes an enormous amount of restraint for us, the little drink.
对一个人类来说 For a human,
第一次体验很…让人不安 experiencing it for the first time, it was... unsettling.
不是指身体上的影响 当然那影响很明显 And not for the physical toll on my body, which was significant,
但我是指在我内心苏醒的亲密感 but for the feelings of intimacy it awoke within me.
我从不让自己觉得与某人感情紧密 I had never allowed myself to feel emotionally close to anyone,
更不用说是跟男人了 much less a man.
我人生里没有空间容纳这种感觉 I had no room for feelings like these in my life.
在纽奥良你想当什么就当什么 You could be a lot of things in New Orleans,
但绝不能当一个公开出柜的黑人男性 but an openly gay Negro man was not one of 'em.
我誓言绝不重回此地 I vowed never to return again.
我把那晚尘封起来 I shut that night out of my mind
并让我的注意力回到以前的生活中 and turned my attentions back to life as it was before.
-一、二、三，跳！-二、三，跳！ -One, two, three, jump! -Two, three, jump!
不要动 Now, hold still now.
我们今天缅怀我父亲 We are missing my father today.
他本来应该跟我一起跳开场舞 He's supposed to dance with me to start the night off.
我现在在忍住不哭 I'm trying not to cry now.
我认为荣耀爸爸最好的方式 And I thought the best way to honor Daddy
就是让我的兄长们接手做这件事 would be to make my brothers do the work.
可能有一半的人不知道这件事 Half of y'all don't know this,
但这两个坏男孩 以前会在礼拜天跳舞赚钱 but these no-good boys used to shuffle for pennies on Sunday.
他们说自己是“ABCDEFG队” Called themselves "The ABCDEFGs".
你记得吗，马蒂亚斯神父？ Remember that, Father Matthias?
当然… Oh, yes.
意思是… ABCDE...
“圣坛男孩每天来为神献舞” "Alter Boys Come Dancing Every day For God."
没错！ That's right!
我记得他们帽子里收到的钱 I remember their collection hat
不一定每次都会放到奉献盘里 didn't always make it to the collection plate.
没错 That's right.
保罗、路易？ Paul, Louis?
来啦 Oh, come on, now.
拜托啦！ Please! Come on, please!
为了我，我的大喜之日 It's for me on my wedding day.
好耶！ Alright!
鞋子好紧 Shoes are tight.
鞋子没问题 Oh, the shoes is fine.
是脚太胖了 It's the feet that's fat.
你们要什么节奏，老板？ Hey, what kinda rhythm you want, boss?
大声到没人听得到舞步的声音就好了 Just play it loud so they can't hear our feet.
好 Alright.
你记得什么？ What you remember?
来啦 Hey, come on.
嘿！ Hey!
跳吧！ Go ahead now!
很会嘛！ You still got it!
好耶！ Alright!
好！ Okay!
他们还是很会！ They still got it!
好耶！ Yes!
好耶！ Okay!
耶，路易！ Yay, Louis!
我不记得了 I can't remember.
好 Okay.
不会吧 You ain't gon' do it.
你不会要跳吧 You ain't gon' do it.
这就对了！ That's right!
天啊 Good gracious.
我们会错过的 We gonna miss it.
闭嘴，我要专注 Quit talkin'. I have to concentrate.
是那三块格子蛋糕害你爬不快的 It's them three pieces of checkered cake holding you back.
是五块格子蛋糕、鲳鲹鱼排、三条血肠 Five pieces of checkered cake, the Pompano fillet, three boudins,
鸡杂饭、牛肉、豆角跟五、六杯酒害的 dirty rice, beef, green beans, five, six wines.
再吃的话 Eat anything else,
你背心的扣子就会像大炮一样爆开 the buttons on your vest gon' pop off like cannon balls,
摧毁整个社区 take down the neighborhood.
9517 9,517.
这是我们待在这个家的天数 That's how many days we've been in his house.
这是你自己算出来的吗？ You do that math all by yourself?
你记得我长得比你高的那天吗？ You remember the day I got taller than you?
你每次都要讲这个 Always bringin' that up.
你跟娜塔栎一样闭嘴不语 Shot up like a Nuttall oak.
老爸说我以后看你会居高临下 Daddy said I was gon' look down on you for the rest of days.
对啦… Yeah, yeah.
才半英吋而已 Half an inch.
那个月很棒 That was a good month, that month.
接下来应该要换你结婚 I think you should get married next.
是吗？ Do you now?
而且你应该娶海泽尔 And you should marry Hazel.
海泽尔？ Hazel?
那是谁？ Who that?
跟你太亲密跳舞的那个 The one you were dancing too close with.
跳得那么靠近应该要结婚 You dance that close, you ought to be married.
我没听清楚她的名字 I didn't catch her name.
她叫海泽尔 Well, it's Hazel.
你还在跟那个黎斯特一起做生意吗？ You still doing business with that man Lestat?
没有，没成功 Nah. Didn't work out.
这样很好 That's good.
因为他是恶魔 'Cause he the Devil.
你觉得每个人都是恶魔 You think everyone's the Devil.
他是来拿取灵魂的 He's here to take souls.
他跟我说的 He told me so.
他嘴巴没张开跟我说的 He spoke to me without moving his lips.
他就只是耍耍小伎俩而已 He got tricks is all.
弥天大罪必须告解，路易 Mortal sins must be confessed, Louis.
我不会再见他了，保罗 Ain't never gon' see him again, Paul.
你觉得李维够爱她吗？ You think Levi loves her enough?
嘉丽丝需要很多的爱 You know, Grace needs a lot of love.
够 I do.
你觉得他有把内心的一切都交给她吗？ Do you think he's givin' her everything he's got inside him?
嗯哼 Mm-hmm.
母亲替嘉丽丝办了一场很好的派对 Mother made a good party for Grace.
嗯哼，对 Mm-hmm, yeah.
对，大家会讲好几年 Yeah, they gon' talk about this one for years.
对 Yeah.
我爱你，路易 I love you, Louis.
我也爱你，小弟 And I love you, too, baby brother.
我吃太多格子蛋糕了 I ate too much checkered cake.
保罗 Paul.
保罗！ Paul!
我的天啊！ Oh, my Lord!
保罗！ Paul!
那是我最后看到的日出 That was the last sunrise I ever saw.
可能是黑暗之礼给的最好的东西 Perhaps the kindest thing the dark gift has given me.
我不怀念阳光 I don't miss the sun,
伴随着它的回忆 the reminders it carries.
我一而再、再而三地目睹死亡 I have seen death over and over and over and over again.
好无聊 It's boring.
这句是很棒的简介 That'll make a great blurb.
医生给你的诊断 The diagnosis you received,
转动了你的钟，丹尼尔 Daniel, it winds your clock.
这个病毒翻转了世界 This virus has turned the world sideways.
我懂啦 I get it.
我会死 I'm gonna die.
他们会死 They're gonna die.
但吸血鬼不会 But not the vampire.
吸血鬼感到无趣 The vampire is bored.
人类被摧毁了 The human was destroyed.
被彻底摧毁了 Utterly destroyed.
我去了殡仪馆 I was at the funeral home.
一切该怎样就怎样 Everything is going as it should.
那里的人很好 Good men there.
他们答应我… Promised me that...
你一定跟他说了什么，路易 You musta said something to him, Louis.
你一定跟他说了什么 才让他对自己做那种事 You musta said something to him to make him do that to himself.
保罗滑落屋顶，弗萝伦斯 Paul slipped and fell, Florence.
我想你应该不想追究 I don't think this is something you want to pursue.
他是个脆弱的孩子 He was a fragile boy.
一直都是 He always was.
而你 And you,
你每次都要争赢，对不对，路易？ you always had to have the last word, didn't you, Louis?
你每次都要挫他的锐气 You always had to take him down a peg.
妈 Mamaw.
你对他说了什么？ What did you say to him?
你们为什么会在上面？ Why was you even up there?
去看日出，妈 Watchin' the sun come up, Mama.
自杀的人不能通过那个门 You don't get past the gates iffen you kill yourself.
你不知道吗？ Don't you know that?
保罗下到了另外一边 Paul gone down the other way.
因为你，保罗在地狱 Paul's in Hell because of you.
史多瑞维尔脱帽致哀 Storyville lowered their hats,
表示哀悼，因为这是当地习俗 gave their propers, because it was custom.
但从那些排在人行道上的人看过去 But if you look past those lined up on the sidewalk,
你会看到酒吧没有停下来服务客人 you'd see the bars hadn't stopped serving,
娼妓没有停止卖淫 the whores hadn't stopped whoring.
保罗的生命对他们来说值什么？ What was Paul's life worth to them?
我的生命值什么？ What was my life worth?
自由街上的大人物 The big man of Liberty Street,
跟在他绸缎内里的失败后面走 trailing the satin-lined evidence of his failure.
是目光锐利的猎食者好下手的猎物 Easy prey for the discerning predator.
请节哀 My condolences.
走开 Not here.
好优雅的棺木 An elegant coffin.
可以告诉我你在哪里买的… Would you tell me where you purchased...
走开 Move on.
我每晚都在我的阳台上等 I wait on my balcony every night.
你在躲我 You've been avoiding me.
我很忙 I have been occupied.
莉莉小姐只是可怜的替代品 Miss Lily proved herself a poor substitute.
我不喜欢被人躲着 And I don't take kindly to being avoided.
这是我弟弟的丧礼！ It's my brother's funeral!
相信我，我跟你说 Believe me when I tell you,
你弟弟渴望如此 your brother longed for that flagstone.
你说什么？ What'd you say to me?!
我来处理，老板 I got it, boss.
继续走 Keep walking.
黎斯特的突击让我六神无主 Lestat's ambush had disoriented me.
就连布道内容 The sermon that was given,
我也听不见 I could not hear.
当集会结束时 And when the gathering cut loose the body,
我无法加入前来参加丧礼的人 I could not join the transformation of those in attendance.
他不让我 He would not let me.
来找我 Come to me.
不 No.
要陪你走回去吗，妈？ Walk you home, Mama?
不用了，谢谢 No, thank you.
李维，可以麻烦你吗？ Levi, do you mind?
当然，杜拉克妈妈 Of course, Mama Du Lac.
她没什么意思 She didn't mean nothin' by it.
-现在有了 -她只是需要发泄一下而已 -Oh, but she did now. -She just needs to put it somewhere.
别往心里去 Don't let it inside.
等等守灵见？ See you back at the wake?
来找我 Come to me.
我没有参加守灵 I did not go to the wake.
我不想面对我母亲的责怪… I did not want to face my mother's blame...
我母亲的怜悯… ..my sister's pity.
我想要独自哀悼 I wanted to grieve alone.
但他不允许 But he would not allow it.
来找我，路易 Come to me, Louis.
来找我 Come to me.
嗨，帅哥 Hello, handsome.
一杯萨兹拉克酒 Sazerac.
听到你弟弟过世，我心都碎了 My heart broke when I heard of your brother's passing.
莉莉小姐 Miss Lily.
天啊 Oh, my dear.
不管她忙着服务谁 I don't care if she busy with someone.
我都会付多一点 I'll pay more.
因为我喜欢莉莉小姐 'Cause I like Miss Lily,
我需要莉莉小姐 and I need Miss Lily.
莉莉小姐死了 Miss Lily died,
杜拉克先生 Mr. du Lac.
两周前死了 Two weeks ago.
警察在船坞下找到她 Police found her under the docks.
说她受到最近盛行的热病传染 Said she contracted the fevers that's been going around.
她体内的血都干了 Blood went and dried up inside her.
来找我 Viens a moi.
神父！ Father!
马蒂亚斯神父！ Father Matthias!
救我！ Help me!
拜托救救我 Help me, please.
他在我的脑袋里，神父 He's in my head, Father.
恶魔就在纽奥良 The Devil is in New Orleans.
冷静点，孩子 Calm down, son.
稳住你的呼吸 Catch your breath.
保佑我，神父 Bless me, Father,
我犯罪了 f-for I have sinned.
滔天大罪 Grievously sinned.
划十字，孩子 Sign of the cross, son.
我是酒鬼，主 I'm a drunk, Lord.
我是骗子 I'm a liar.
我是窃贼，主 I am a thief, Lord.
我自他人的痛苦中获利 I profit off the miseries of other men,
随心所欲地 and I do it easy.
药物、酒精、女人 Drugs, liquor, women.
我…我引诱她们进来 再一把擒住她们所拥有的，主 I-I-I-I lure them in and grab what they got, Lord.
我收留无家可归的女孩 I take daughters with no homes
再让她们上街 and I-I put 'em out on the street,
主啊，我欺骗自己 Lord, and I lie to myself,
告诉自己我供吃供住 还让她们口袋有钱 saying I-I'm giving them a roof and food and dollar bills in they pocket,
但当我照着镜子，我知道自己是谁… but I look in the mirror, I know what I am...
大人物住大房子 the big man in the big house,
往耳朵里塞棉花 让自己可以对她们的叫声充耳不闻 stuffing cotton in my ears so I can't hear their cries.
主啊，我还将我家人搅和了进来 And Lord, I dragged my family into this mess with me.
我让我父亲蒙羞 I shame my father.
我…我让我弟弟失望 I f-- I failed my brother.
不，孩子 No, son.
我失去了我母亲和妹妹 I lost my mother and sister,
却没有像个男人一样修补一切，主 and rather than fix it like a man should, Lord,
我像个懦夫一样逃开了 I run like a coward.
我逃向酒瓶 I run to the bottle.
逃向不义之财 I run to the grift.
逃向邪恶之床 I run to bad beds.
我…我跟一个男人同床 I-I laid down with a man.
我跟恶魔同床 I laid down with the Devil.
他的根在我体内 And he has roots in me,
他所有细长的根都在我体内 all his spindly roots in me,
除了他的声音和话语 我什么都无法思考 and I can't think nothin' anymore but his voice and his words!
拜托，救救我！ Please, help me!
我软弱无能！ I am weak!
我想死！ I wanna die!
哦！ Oh!
不！ No!
路易，你觉得你在那俗气的箱子里 透过这只蠢猪 Do you think God heard you, Louis, in that tawdry box,
这个…这个江湖术士 上帝会听到你的告解吗？ through this pig vessel, this... this charlatan?
你没看到他有多不配吗？ Do you not see how unworthy he is?
你怎么可以这样羞辱自己？ How can you humiliate yourself like this?!
你杀了莉莉 You killed Lily.
扼杀她过的那美好的生活吗？ Cut short that magnificent life she was living.
还真是个悲剧 What a tragedy.
外面根本就没有热病 Ain't no fever out there.
是你 That's you.
你把死亡带来小镇 You bringin' the death to town.
我把死亡带给该死的人 I give death to those deserving.
我不是恶魔 I'm not the Devil.
这点你错了 You were wrong about that.
但我可以给你死亡 But I can give you death.
这个原始小镇把你吃干抹净 This primitive country has picked you clean.
永远地束缚着你 It has shackled you in permanent exile.
你踏进的每间房 Every room you enter,
被迫扣上的每顶帽子…苛刻的房东 every hat you are forced to wear... the stern landlord,
毕恭毕敬的商人、忠心的儿子… the deferential businessman, the loyal son...
你扮演的这些角色 all these roles you conform to
没有一个是你的真实本性 and none of them your true nature.
你因伤痛哽咽难言时 一定感到非常愤怒 What rage you must feel as you choke on your sorrow.
当我的目光第一次落在你身上时 The first time I laid eyes on you,
你那美丽的脸庞 your beautiful face,
我看见了那伤疼 I saw that sorrow.
我不知道为何那伤痛会形于色 不知道为何它如此庞大 I did not know how it got there or why it was so voluminous.
我可以带走那伤疼，路易 I can take away that sorrow, Louis.
我可以给你你向你那软弱 I can give you that death you begged your feeble,
视而不见、堕落 不存在的神所祈求的死亡 blind, degenerate, nonexistent god for.
我还可以… But I can do it...
愉悦地给你 joyfully.
我可以把这羞耻的生活换掉 I can swap this life of shame,
换成一份黑暗之礼 跟你想都不敢想的力量 swap it out for a dark gift and a power you can't begin to imagine.
只要你开口要求就可以了 You just have to ask me for it.
只要你点点你那美丽的头… You just have to nod your beautiful head...
答应就可以了 and say yes.
我爱你，路易 I love you, Louis.
你被爱着 You are loved.
我把我的爱送给你 I send my love to you,
你也送回给我 and you send it back round to me.
这个循环 And this circle,
这个我们几乎没有看过的家… this home we barely had a glimpse of...
我知道你也跟我一样深感惊吓 know it frightens me as much as it does you.
很难解释他的话语 是如何卸下了我的心防 It is difficult to explain how his words disarmed me,
他的论点是多么地简洁有力、无法反驳 how efficiently succinct and impenetrable his argument was.
我的所有想法 All my conceptions,
就连我的罪恶感和想死的渴望 都好像完全不重要 even my guilt and my wish to die seemed utterly unimportant,
我完全忘了自己 and I completely forgot myself
跟我四周野蛮的景象 and the barbaric scene that surrounded me.
我有生以来第一次被看见了 For the first time in my life, I was seen.
成为我的伴侣，路易 Be my companion, Louis.
成为所有你美好的样貌 Be all the beautiful things you are,
而不需要感到抱歉 and be them without apology.
永世永生 For all eternity.
他将我吸干 He drained me
到死亡的界线 to the very threshold of death.
那血液 The blood,
一开始像暗哑的吼叫 it came as a dull roar at first.
接着变重击声 And then a pounding,
敲鼓般的重击声 like the pounding of a drum,
越来越大声 growing louder and louder,
仿佛有巨大生物穿过一个阴暗的 as if some enormous creature were coming through a dark
外星森林而来 and alien forest.
一个巨大的鼓声 A huge drum.
接着出现另一个鼓声 And then, there came a pounding of another drum,
仿佛有一个庞然大物紧跟在后 as if another giant were coming behind him,
各自击鼓 each giant intent on his own drum,
无视彼此的节奏 giving no notice to the rhythm of the other.
在我的唇部、手指跟肉体内震动 Throbbing in my lips, fingers, and flesh of my temple.
最重要的是 Above all,
在我的血管里震动 in my veins.
一阵鼓声，接着再一阵鼓声 Drum, and then the other drum.
我张开我的眼睛 I opened my eyes.
就在此时，我意识到 And it was then that I realized
那鼓声是我的心跳 the drum was my heart,
另一个则是他的 and the other drum had been his.
我看着坐得离我不远的他 I saw him sitting a length away from me.
容光焕发 Radiant.
我们坐了一阵子 And we sat there for some time.
感受渐增的惊奇 In throes of increasing wonder.
故事结束 The end.
故事开始 The beginning.