[庄严的音乐演奏] [solemn music playing]
[人们轻声哭泣] [people crying softly]
♬像日出一样神圣 ♪ Holy as the sunrise ♪
♪ Clear as the water ♪
♬我♬ ♪ Me ♪
♪ I'm stronger ♪
♪ Stronger ♪
♬更强♬ ♪ Stronger ♪
♬嗯，嗯♬ ♪ Mmm, mmm ♪
♬你让我爱上了每一个人 ♪ You make me love everybody
♬但是我♬ ♪ But me ♪
>但是我，但是我♬ ♪ But me, but me ♪
[贾马尔]鲁比，贾马尔。 [Jamal] Ruby, Jamal.
我还没收到你的回复，我五分钟前说过， I still haven't heard back from you, and as I mentioned five minutes ago,
我给你五分钟让你告诉我 I was giving you five minutes to let me know
如果你想和我一起去招待会。 if you want to come with me to the reception.
时间到了。如果你要来，你得告诉我一声。 So, time's up. You need to let me know if you're coming.
如果你不来，告诉我一声。 And if you're not coming, let me know.
如果你不打算告诉我，也请告诉我。 And also let me know if you're not going to let me know.
你准备好了吗?-我和贾思敏一起去。 -You ready? -I'm going with Jasmine.
否。 No.
不，我开车送你去接你。我需要监视你。 No, I'm going to drive you and pick you up. I need eyes on you.
爸爸，你有点疯了，而且这样子不好。 Dad, you're being a little crazy and it's not a good look.
同意了。德韦恩，布伦特伍德不会有事的。 Agreed. Dwayne, nothing's going to happen to and from Brentwood.
你不知道会发生什么。 You don't know what could happen.
这里正在发生变化。 Shit's changing here.
-别让他这么害怕。-不。恐惧使他警觉起来。 -Stop making him so afraid. -No. Fear makes him alert.
-他需要警惕。我在站岗。 -He needs to be on guard. -I am on guard.
我真的有个逃跑计划 I literally have an escape plan
为任何自然的，神的，或人为的全球性灾难。 for any natural, divine, or human-induced global disaster.
-听着，我不是在开玩笑。-我也不是。 -Look, I'm not playing around. -Neither am I.
我说的是气象，水文，地球物理，真菌 I'm talking meteorological, hydrological, geophysical, fungal--
听我说。 Listen to me.
自从我住在弗里德里治以来， As long as I've lived in Freeridge,
一直都是关于我们认识的恶魔。 it's always been about the devils that we knew.
现在是关于我们不知道的恶魔。 And now it's about the devils that we don't know.
现在什么事都有可能发生。任何事，任何时候。 Anything could happen now. Anything, at any moment.
你太夸张了。看到了吗?你就是从这里学来的。 You're being hyperbolic. See? This is where you get it from.
大家都会没事的。 Everyone's going to be fine.
这只是众所周知的道路上的一个颠簸。 This is just a bump in the proverbial road.
有时候事情需要急转直下 Sometimes things need to take a turn for the worse
在他们变得更好之前。 before they get better.
别说得好像有人要往他头上套麻袋似的 Stop talking like someone's gonna put a sack on his head
然后把他扔进货车后座。 and throw him in the back of a van.
(笑) [laughs]
-是啊，那是不可能的。——(弗兰)。 -Yeah, that would never happen. -[Fran] Exactly.
所以，亲爱的，去吧。到了就给我们发短信。 So, honey, go. Just text us once you get there.
-[叹气]你为什么要这么做？-什么? -[sighs] Why you gotta do that? -Do what?
在他面前抢我的便宜。 Undercut me right in front of him.
我们应该是一个团队，但那不是团队合作。 We're supposed to be a team, and that was not teamwork.
对不起，宝贝。 I'm sorry, baby.
我知道你压力很大，但我们得面对现实。 I know you're stressed, but we gotta be real.
没人会来抓我们的怪孩子。 No one's rolling up on our weird kid.
然后把宽的一端拉到窄的一端上。 Then you pull the wide end up over the narrow end.
嗯… Uh...
哪条路是向上的？ Which way's up over?
你得从宽的那一头穿过窄的那一头。 You gotta cross the wide end under the narrow one.
你就不能帮我系一下吗？我告诉蒙斯我一小时前就到。 Can't you just tie it for me? I told Monse I'd be there an hour ago.
领带不仅仅是为了出席活动。 Ties aren't just for events.
也许有一天你有了工作，你就得戴上它。 Maybe someday you'll have a job and you'll have to wear one.
那我就雇你来帮我。 Then I'll hire you to do it for me.
我的职业领带很贵。 My professional tying is expensive.
如果我打领带，我就能请得起你。 Well, if I'm wearing a tie, I can afford you.
你是个好孩子。 You're a good kid.
我为你感到骄傲。 I'm proud of you.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
我有个糟糕的爸爸。 I had a shitty dad.
从没想过我会是个好医生。 Never thought I'd be a good one.
你知道那句老话…… You know the old saying...
你不能选择你的父母。 You don't get to choose your parents.
嗯，事实是…… Well, truth is...
你也不能选择你的孩子。 you don't really get to choose your kids either.
如果我能…… If I could...
我会选择你，< I b> mijo。</ I b> I'd choose you, mijo.
是的。 Yeah.
你是我第一个仰慕的人。 You're the first person I've ever looked up to.
我吗? Me?
我没有什么值得尊敬的。 I'm nothing to look up to.
否。 No.
我什么都不知道。 I know nothing.
只要我活着，我就什么都不是。 As long as I've been alive, I've been nothing.
你，你不是什么都不是。 You, you aren't nothing.
你是个从不需要任何东西的孩子，更不用说任何人了， You're a kid who's never needed anything, let alone anyone,
成为某种东西。 to be something.
一个值得尊敬的人。 Someone to look up to.
(温柔的笑) [chuckles softly]
(清了清喉咙) [clears throat]
嗯，我也为你感到骄傲…… Well, I'm proud of you too...
爸爸。 Dad.
-最好还是走吧。-是的。[笑] -Better get going. -Yeah. [chuckles]
(清了清喉咙) [clears throat]
待会儿见。 I'll see you later.
是的。 Yeah.
-好的。——(手机嗡嗡声) -Okay. -[phone buzzing]
哟。-你有Ruby的消息吗？ -Yo. -Have you heard from Ruby?
<我> -不。你吗? -不。 -No. You? -No.
我觉得轮胎事故真的很严重。他的情况很糟。 I think the tire incident was really triggering. He's in a bad way.
如果你没有收到他的信，你怎么知道他是谁？ How do you know if you haven't heard from him?
我从他的窗户往外看。 I looked through his window.
他躺在床上，穿着三天前的同一件内衣， He's in bed, in the same underwear from three days ago,
地板上还是没有袜子。 and still no socks on the floor.
可怜的家伙。他被困住了。 Poor guy. He's all bottled up.
是的。<我> (叹息) Yeah.[sighs]
-那你什么时候走？<我> -现在。 -So when are you leaving? -Now.
我们在我家还是你家见面？-我已经在这里了。 -We meeting at my place or yours? -I'm already here.
-我没看见你。-我在布伦特伍德。 -I don't see you. -I'm in Brentwood.
我必须早点到这里 来支持我的女孩， I had to get here early to support my girl,
我需要一点自己的时间 and I needed a little "me" time
对调查进行适当的重新评估 to do a proper reassessment of the investigation
我们的下一步应该是什么，因为这是领导者应该做的。 and what our next step should be, 'cause that's what leaders do.
这么多天，你偏偏今天穿这个？ You're pulling this on today, of all days?
需要某一类人 才能成为领导者， It takes a certain kind of person to be a leader,
而且并不总是美好的。-你有我可以使用的Lyft账户吗？ -and it ain't always pretty. -Do you have a Lyft account I can use?
我没钱了，我爸爸还切断了我的应急基金。 I don't have any money and my dad cut off my emergency fund.
是的。 Pobrecito, 抱歉，这只是另一个例子 Ay. Pobrecito, sorry, but that's just another example
为什么你应该跟随，而不是领导。 of why you were meant to follow, not lead.
领导者总是有一个备用计划， a plan b Leaders always have a back-up plan, a Plan B.
-“计划你们的胜利之路，贱人们。”——(电话嘟嘟) -A "plan your way to victory, bitches." -[phone beeping]
(呼出大幅) [exhales sharply]
(呼出) [exhales]
[贾马尔]谢谢你守护我的身体和我们的家。 [Jamal] Thank you for your service guarding my body and our home.
我知道这要求很过分，我也不想问 I know it's a lot to ask and I hate to ask--
那时不。-我需要帮忙。 -Then don't. -I need a favor.
我知道你相信我们能找到小里基。 I know you have faith in our skills to find Lil' Ricky.
我不喜欢。你做的事情。这是…… -I don't. -You do. It's...
它在你的肢体语言中。 It's in your body language.
总之，蒙斯在服丧，鲁比被触发， Anyway, with Monse in mourning and Ruby triggered,
我们的集体大脑并没有满负荷运转， our collective brain isn't operating at full capacity,
恐怕我们做不到 and I fear we aren't going to make
老板武断地在几周内设定的最后期限。 the arbitrary deadline in a few weeks set by your boss.
强调“武断”。 Emphasis on "arbitrary."
——吗?-[贾马尔]我这么说是出于尊重。 -And? -[Jamal] I say that with respect.
我绝不是在暗示 In no way am I insinuating
库奇洛斯在做决定时考虑不周 that Cuchillos is thoughtless in her decision-making--
你想要什么？-我们需要延期。 -What do you want? -We need an extension.
我不知道该怎么开口。 And I don't know how to ask for one.
所以我想我可以请你问问她。 So I thought I could ask you to ask her.
我是说，我不想让你费心，但是… I mean, I don't want to ask you to go out of your way, but...
-你呢?-我能做什么？ -Can you? -Can I what?
别挡路了…… Go out of your way...
-去问她。——吗? -to ask her. -That all?
哦! Oh!
你愿意接受更多的要求。[笑]我们一起去布伦特伍德怎么样？ You're open to more asks. [chuckles] How about a ride to Brentwood?
你好吗，宝贝？ How you doing, baby?
我们能走了吗？ Can we go?
-我知道这很不舒服，但是-我们不应该在这里 -I know it's uncomfortable, but-- -We shouldn't be here.
我们是她离开的人，她还骗了我们。没人希望我们在这里。 We're the people she left, and lied about. No one wants us here.
你的弟弟和妹妹呢？ What about your brother and sister?
他们希望你留在这里。别人怎么想并不重要。 They want you here. Doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
她是你的母亲。那些孩子是你的家人。 She was your mother. Those kids are your family.
有人不想让你在这里吗？螺丝。 Someone else doesn't want you here? Screw 'em.
现在吃。你上次吃东西是什么时候？ Now eat. When was the last time you had something to eat?
当我饿的时候。 When I was hungry.
我不喜欢你盘子里的任何东西。 I don't like anything on your plate.
他们的呢？ What about theirs?
试试乳蛋饼。很好。 Try the quiche. It's good.
吃一口，我就走开。 Take a bite and I'll walk away.
-抱歉我迟到了。-没关系。 -Sorry I'm late. -It doesn't matter.
[贾马尔]我还是很抱歉。 [Jamal] I'm still sorry.
我很抱歉让你经历这些… And I'm sorry that you're going through this and...
我说了那么多不需要你的话 that I said all that rough stuff about not needing you and--
它很好。我们都说了粗话。 It's fine. We both said rough stuff.
我也很抱歉。 I'm sorry too.
你没事吧?有什么我能做的吗？ You okay? Anything I can do?
否。你不必留下来。 No. You don't have to stay.
你们都不知道。 None of you do.
这只是充满尴尬不适的生活中的另一个练习。 This is just another exercise in a life filled with awkward discomfort.
我们不会走的。 We're not leaving.
这是不可转让。 It's non-negotiable.
-谢谢。你太客气了。 -Thank you. -You are so welcome.
每个人都很好，分享盘子。 Everybody is so nice and sharing plates.
我的意思是，死亡确实能让社区发挥出最好的一面。 I mean, death really does bring the best out of the community.
-他认为你是帮手。——(笑) -He thinks you're the help. -[laughs]
混球。 Douchebag.
你知道谁不会被误认为是帮手吗？一个领导者。 You know who doesn't get mistaken for the help? A leader.
<我>谢谢。 Gracias.
我在这里。 I'm here.
说话。 Talk.
我哥哥和他的朋友们需要更多的时间。 My brother and his friends need more time.
因为一个妈妈死了？这就是你带我来这里的原因吗？ Because a mom died? Is this why you brought me out here?
我没让你做信使，所以别做。 I didn't ask you to be a messenger, so don't be.
他们不需要更多的时间。 They don't need more time.
但是我们有。 But we do.
19街。 With 19th Street.
他们被激怒了，越界了。 They're getting riled up and crossing lines.
我们得在他们做出无法挽回的事之前让他们冷静下来。 We need to calm them down before they do something that can't be undone.
-我们得把杰斐逊交给他们-“我们” -We gotta give them Jefferson-- -"We"?
-我只是觉得如果我们-你的工作不是思考 -I just think that if we-- -Your job isn't to think.
-我叫你怎么做你就怎么做。-就是，当你告诉我事情的时候。 -It's to do what I tell you to. -That is, when you tell me things.
这是什么意思？ What is that supposed to mean?
我完全不知道你绑架了我弟弟和他的朋友 I didn't know shit about you snatching up my brother and his friends
在我送了先知美元和现金之后 after I delivered the Prophet$, and clean cash.
我是对的，就像我对19街的看法一样。 I was right about that, just like I'm right about 19th Street.
他们无所畏惧。他们没有代码。 They're fearless. They have no code.
他们不在乎自己会不会死 They don't care if they die,
也就是说他们不在乎无辜的人是否在乎。 which means they don't care if innocent people do either.
他们是小男孩。 They're little boys.
牢骚满腹，蛋蛋还没掉的小贱人。 Whiny little bitches whose balls haven't dropped.
<我> -Traviesos。 -Traviesos 我们无法控制。 -Traviesos. -Traviesos we can't control.
我们需要与他们合作。 We need to work with them.
中和。- - - - - - [Chuchillos笑) -Neutralize them. -[Chuchillos chuckles]
-如果我能给他们杰弗森-杰弗森不是你能给的 -If I could just give them Jefferson-- -Jefferson isn't yours to give.
那块领土是我交易的一部分 That territory was part of the deal I made
把你和你弟弟活着救出来。 to get you and your little brother out of that trap house alive.
就让19团做他们该做的吧。 Just let 19th do what they do.
-他们最终会自相残杀。-你不明白。 -They'll wind up killing each other. -You don't understand.
你离开街头太久了。 You've been off the streets too long.
-他们对生意不好。-这次谈话对生意不利。 -They're bad for business. -This conversation is bad for business.
这是在浪费我的时间。-那我的一条街呢？ -It's wasting my time. -What about one of my streets?
-第一还是第二？——<我> 街道吗? -First or Second? -Your streets?
你知道你的是什么吗？ You know what's yours, papacito?
<我>。 Nada.
你一无所有。 You own nothing.
你连自己都不拥有。 You don't even own yourself.
我拥有你，幽灵。 I own you, Spooky.
永远不要忘记这一点。 Never forget that.
好吧? Okay?
——(女孩)废话。-这足以让婴儿J感到疼痛。 -[girl] Bullshit. -It was enough so that Baby J was sore.
-[喘着气]-真的很疼 -[gasps] -Really sore,
他以前从来没有痛过，如果你明白我的意思。 and he's never been sore before, if you know what I mean.
否。 No.
-但你的皮肤看起来特别柔软。<我>,嗯。 -But your skin does look extra soft. -Mmm.
这是当你的身体完全挤出牛奶时发生的事情。 It's what happens when your body gets totally milked out.
这与脱水相反。皮肤变得柔软。 It's the opposite of dehydration. The skin gets supple.
-很高兴知道。-你知道还有什么好知道的吗？ -Good to know. -You know what else is good to know?
我想我准备再试一次寿司了。 I think I'm ready to give sushi another try.
-[喘息声][笑] -[gasps] -[laughing]
看看是谁来了。 Well, would you look what the cat dragged in.
给我一分钟，我马上回来我们可以谈谈我的事。 Give me a minute and I'll be right back and we can talk more about me.
-[喘着气]-为什么这么急，贾马尔？ -[gasps] -Why all the urgency, Jamal?
没有紧迫性。 There is no urgency.
嗯哼。我以前见过那张脸。你说对了。你在查什么？ Mm-hmm. I've seen that face before. You're onto something. What are you onto?
——奶酪。我饿了。——啊!我认为这是胡扯。 -More cheese. I'm hungry. -Ah! I call bullshit.
又软又湿的狗屁。 Soft, watery bullshit.
-你有乳糖不耐症。——在。 -You're lactose intolerant. -Fine.
这是真的。我肠子虚弱。 It's true. I have weak bowels.
-嗯。但如果你看不见 -Mmm. -But if you can't see it,
我不会告诉你的。 I'm not going to tell you.
-Hmm-mm。你在耍我。药水。 -Hmm-mm. You're gaming me. -Maybe.
也许不是。 Maybe not.
（笑）不，因为我有领导者的直觉， [laughs] Nah, 'cause I got leader's intuition,
而你却一脸紧张。 and you got nothing but a tense face.
然后我就走了。 Then I'll be on my way.
-我有我的。——[假笑] -And I'll be on mine. -[both fake laugh]
哈!领导的直觉，我的混蛋！ Ha! Leader's intuition, my ass!
(呼出) [exhales]
就像你看到的？-呃，我只是…嗯… -Like what you see? -Uh, I was just... um...
-你好。-你好。 -Hi. -Hi.
-好久没见了。-嗯。 -It's been a while. -Mm-hmm.
-你好吗？——。太棒了。 -How are you? -Great. Awesome.
-嗯。在这种情况下，我很难过。 -Mm-hmm. -And sad, given the circumstances.
你好吗？你身上的颜色真漂亮。 How are you? You got some nice color on you.
-你刚旅行回来吗？不。 -Did you just return from a trip? -Nope.
-换电话号码？-退后。 -Change your number? -Step off.
-你最好小心点，孩子。-我只是随便聊聊。 -And you'd better watch yourself, kid. -I was just making small talk.
很好。你为什么不回我和蒙斯短信？ Fine. Why didn't you text me or Monse back?
因为我无话可说。 Because I have nothing to say.
我不知道你一直在问的那个“库奇·奇洛”是谁。 I don't know who this "Coochie Chillow" person is you keep asking about.
旱冰世界都是很久以前的事了。 And all this RollerWorld shit was a long time ago.
我没有什么新补充的。 I have nothing new to add.
听。 Listen.
现在不是追忆往事的时候，也不是追忆往事的地方，听到了吗？ This is not the time, nor place, to be dredging up the past, you hear me?
现在… Now...
照顾你的朋友。 tend to your friend.
嗯哼。 Mm-hmm.
她知道些什么。 She knows something.
芝士蛋糕，奶油泡芙，巧克力蛋糕，饼干。 Cheesecake, cream puff things, chocolate cake, cookies.
-再来点奶油泡芙，还有-别说了 -More cream puff things, and a-- -Stop.
除了你，我什么都不需要。 I don't need anything but you.
就在这里。 Just be here.
陪在我身边，好吗？ Be by my side, okay?
-我很好。-我们都很好 -I'm fine. -[Ruby] We're all fine,
直到我们死去。 until we die.
-鲁比，别这样，伙计。-拜托什么？ -Ruby, come on, man. -Come on what?
-你做到了。-我还能做什么？ -You made it. -What else was I supposed to do?
呆在家里吗?等库奇洛斯杀了我？ Stay home? Wait for Cuchillos to kill me?
不，我可以在这里等。 Nah, I can wait here instead.
至少还有三明治和奶油泡芙之类的。 At least there's sandwiches and cream puff things.
-内心的声音，嘘。——(Ruby)。 -Inside voices, boo. -[Ruby] Exactly.
我们都应该倾听内心的声音。 We should all be listening to that inner voice.
那个声音告诉我们，我们不够好， That voice telling us that we're not good enough,
我们永远出不了弗里里奇了 we're never gonna make it out of Freeridge,
即使我们能出去，也很可能会自杀。 and even if we do get out, we'll probably end up offing ourselves.
就像孟斯的妈妈。——(人杂音) -Like Monse's mom. -[people murmur]
我不知道我们还在等什么。 Now, I don't know what we're waiting for.
也许我们应该现在就做 Maybe we should do it now,
当我们躺在棺材里的时候，对吧？ while we still look good in our caskets, right?
-你要冷静。-我很冷。 -You gotta chill. -I am chill.
你也许是用平静的声音说的，但你在那里的所作所为并不冷静。 You may have said that in a calm voice, but what you did back there was not chill.
你到底怎么了？ What's going on with you?
我只是受够了绕着不说实话的屁话转了。 I'm just done dancing around the bullshit of not telling the truth.
事实是，有时候我在想我们是不是死了会更好。 And the truth is, sometimes I wonder if we might be better off dead.
是的。足够了。我知道你差点丢了命， Ay. Enough. I know you almost lost your life,
而是鼓励别人放弃 but encouraging other people to lose theirs
在你朋友的妈妈去世后… after your friend's mom just died...
都是扯淡。 is some bullshit.
听着，你完全有理由感到激动， Look, you have every reason to feel triggered,
但你这样做会影响到其他人。 but what you're doing is triggering other people.
每个人都有自己的烦恼。好吧?你得停下来。 Everybody's going through their own shit. Okay? You gotta stop.
你在破坏气氛…… You are bringing down the mood...
在葬礼上。 at a funeral.
那我该怎么办呢？我是说，这就是我的感受。 Then what should I do instead? I mean, this is how I feel.
把你的态度收起来，拉出酷的氛围。 Tuck that 'tude back back in and pull out the cool vibe.
我该怎么做呢？ How am I supposed to do that?
我不知道。搞清楚，不然就回家。 Yo, I don't know. Figure it out or go home.
你为什么要这么做？ Why would you do that?
找回我的感觉。 To get my vibe back.
粗野的,Ruby。 Uncool, Ruby.
[西班牙语]去她的婊子！ [in Spanish] Screw that bitch!
如果你不能帮我们实现， If you can't make it happen for us,
我们要自己实现它 we're gonna make it happen ourselves,
即使我们要穿过桑托斯山也在所不惜。 even if we have to go through the Santos to do it.
一个星期。 One week.
如果你和我们对着干，你就只能干这么久。 That's how long you'll last if you go against us.
你看到我们对先知做了什么。 You saw what we did to the Prophet$.
知道什么比战争更好吗？ Know what's better than war?
钱。 Money.
我知道你给了亚美尼亚人多少钱。 I know how much you're paying the Armenians.
他们在剥削你。 They're ripping you off.
如果你想… If you want...
我可以帮你接通我们的线路，给你弄到低档的货。 I could hook you up with our connect, get you product for the low.
那好吧。 All right then.
告诉我更多。 Tell me more.
(叹息) [sighs]
[英语]最近怎么样？ [in English] How's it going?
我不知道。 I don't know.
我要么。 Me either.
很抱歉你走后我没有联系你。 I'm sorry I didn't reach out to you after you left.
我不知道该说什么，但我应该说点什么。 I didn't know what to say, but I should have said something.
这事困扰了我好几个月，我 It's been weighing on me for months and I--
我们很好。 We're good.
总是。 Always were.
我和茱莉亚的关系是我自己的事。 My relationship with Julia was its own thing.
我绞尽脑汁想弄清楚这是怎么发生的， I've been racking my brain trying to figure out how this happened,
让无意义的事情变得有意义。 make sense of the senseless.
这就是我这辈子一直在做的事。 That's what I've been doing my whole life.
想弄明白她为什么要这么做。 Trying to make sense of why she did what she did.
她也离开了我们。 She left us too.
几次。 A few times.
我不知道。 I didn't know that.
她总是回来。 She always came back.
她不想像对你那样对海登和库珀。 She didn't want to do to Hayden and Cooper what she did to you.
啊… Ah...
我很抱歉。我没有…… I'm sorry. I didn't...
-我说错了。——没问题。 -That came out all wrong. -It's okay.
我会没事的。 I'll be okay.
不，不，不，不行。我不… No, no, no, it's not okay. I don't...
想让你感觉比现在更糟。 want to make you feel any worse than you already do.
不，你不是。 No, you're not.
(叹息) [sighs]
我能问你件事吗？ Can I ask you something?
确定。 Sure.
你离开的那晚 The night you left,
你对她说了什么？ what did you say to her?
为什么? Why?
她一直无法释怀。 She never got over it.
-[奥斯卡]终于收拾你的烂摊子了？-我离开。引起了足够多的戏剧性。 -[Oscar] Finally cleaning up your mess? -I'm leaving. Caused enough drama here.
德维恩不需要再惹麻烦了你们也不需要。 Dwayne doesn't need any more problems and neither do you guys.
我们没有。 We don't.
恺撒怎么看？ How'd Cesar take it?
等我到了贝克斯菲就告诉他。 Gonna tell him when I get to Bakersfield.
那边有个人在帮我。他也可以帮助你。 There's a guy there who's helping me out. He can help you too.
我不需要帮助。 I don't need help.
-我得到了我需要的一切。——桑托斯吗? -I got everything I need. -The Santos?
他们比你更强大。 They're more than you've ever been.
我希望他们不会出卖你。 I hope they don't sell you out.
总有一天兜帽男不再爱你， There's gonna be a day when the hood don't love you no more,
当你的力量被夺走 when your power's taken,
因为这不是一种生活 'cause this isn't a life,
你也不用待在这里。 and you don't have to stay here.
你可以做出其他选择，成为你想成为的人。 You can make other choices, be something you want to be.
谢谢你,爸爸。你是对的。 Thanks, Papa. You're right.
我可以当总统。 I could be president.
或者宇航员。 Or an astronaut.
或者是电影明星。 Or a movie star.
我可以成为任何我想成为的人，因为我有一个很好的榜样！ I can be anything I want to be because I had such a good role model!
我也有一个糟糕的爸爸，mijo, I had a shitty dad too, mijo,
但你得放下你的愤怒。 but you got to let go of that rage.
放手？ Let it go?
这是我唯一的动力。 It's the only thing that keeps me going.
我就是这样活下来的。 It's how I survived out here.
没有你。 Without you.
回头见。 I'll see you around.
[门开又关] [door opens and closes]
那我该告诉凯撒你要走了吗？ So I'm supposed to tell Cesar you're leaving?
你就这么把责任推给我？ You're just putting that on me?
嘿，狗屎！ Hey, piece of shit!
我生命中发生的所有坏事都是因为你。 Everything bad that's ever happened in my life is because of you.
你会像击垮我一样击垮他。 You're going to crush him the same way you crushed me.
你为什么不给我写信？ Why didn't you ever write to me?
或电话吗? Or call?
你有想过我吗？ Did you ever even think of me?
如果你死了就好办多了。 It would have been a lot easier if you'd just died.
（声音中断）你知道，没有父亲的成长最糟糕的部分 [voice breaking] You know, the worst part about growing up without a father
是要做一个兄弟的父亲而不是一个儿子。 is having to be a father to a brother without ever being a son.
(水瓶) [sniffling]
(普通员工) [grunts]
收拾你的东西，别再回来了。 Pick up your shit and don't come back.
♬你说你不想要一个男人 但一个男人想要你和战斗♬ ♪ You say you don't want a man But a man want you and fight ♪
♬我是一个开放的人 和未出生的野性的儿子♬ ♪ I am an open man And the unborn son of the wild ♪
♬你不要误解了♬ ♪ Don't you misunderstand ♪
【哼唱】 [humming]
让我来帮你。 Let me help you with that.
你知道的…你说的话我想了很多 You know... I've been thinking a lot about what you said
——关于把事情埋藏起来。-我没那么说。 -about keeping things buried. -I didn't say that.
-你知道什么不需要被埋葬吗？——(叹息) -You know what doesn't need to be buried? -[sighs]
亡灵。 The undead.
我不是说僵尸。 I don't mean zombies.
我是说那些没死的人。 I mean people who aren't dead.
你知道还有什么不该被埋吗？ You know what else shouldn't be buried?
秘密。-你不会放弃的，对吧？ -Secrets. -Oh, you don't quit, do you?
玫瑰，我的女王。 Rosé, my queen.
-真正的舞姿设计师。-嗯…… -The true architect of the dance line. -Well...
帮我帮你帮我们。 Help me help you help us.
我想我给不了你所需要的帮助。 I don't think I can give you the kind of help you need.
我知道小里奇还活着。 I know Lil' Ricky's alive.
我挖开了他的坟墓。他不在那儿。 I dug up his grave. He wasn't there.
我们找到了一个侏儒， We found a gnomie,
现在有个可怕的女人想让我们找到他如果我们找不到他… and now some scary lady wants us to find him and if we don't find him...
我不想去想如果我们找不到他会发生什么。 I don't want to think about what happens if we don't find him.
我可没说他死了。 Well, I never said he was dead.
这么说你知道的比你说的还多？ So you do know more than you're letting on?
我当然知道。你以为我是怎么走到这一步的？ 'Course I do. How do you think I got this far?
-他在哪儿？-我不知道。 -Where is he? -I don't know.
我只能告诉你，里尔·里奇在没人帮我的时候帮了我。 All I can tell you is Lil' Ricky did me a solid when no one else would.
让我进了录音室，离开了弗里里奇。 Got me into the studio and got me out of Freeridge.
他看到了我的潜能。 He saw me for what I could be.
这就是他的工作。 That's what he does.
他看到人们的才能和潜力，并帮助他们实现自己的命运。 He sees people's talent and potential and helps them reach their destiny.
这个人是个圣人。 The man was a saint.
——“是”?——!我…我不知道。 -"Was"? -Is! I... I don't know.
我不知道他在哪里，就算我知道， And I don't know where he is, and even if I did,
我不会告诉你的。 I wouldn't tell you.
把特百惠给我。 Give me my Tupperware.
所以是布莱恩给你的？不，她留给我的。 -[Monty] So Brian gave it to you? -No, she left it for me.
[蒙提]什么事？ [Monty] What is it?
这是她的新书。 It's her new book.
关于我… About me...
她和发生的事。 her and what happened.
我不想读这个。 I don't want to read this.
不是现在。 Not now.
你觉得她写的是我吗？ [Monty] Do you think she wrote about me?
我很难和解 I'm having a hard time reconciling
如果我们在一起的时光是真实的。 if any of the time we shared together was real.
这是真的吗？这对她有影响吗？ Was it real? Did it even matter to her?
我有那么坏吗？我做了什么？ Was I so bad? What did I do?
我想…… I thought taking...
更好的工作，在路上，会给我们更好的生活。 the better job, being on the road, would give us a better life.
我没想到这会让她离开。 I didn't think it would make her leave.
也许都是我的错。也许她一个人太久了。 Maybe it was all my fault. Maybe she was alone too much.
这并没有让她离开。 That didn't make her leave.
她注定要离开。 She was destined to leave.
不是你，也不是我。 It wasn't you, or me.
是她。 It was her.
对不起，爸爸。 I'm sorry, Dad.
我很抱歉让你再次经历这一切。 I'm sorry that you're going through this again.
这么多年来…… All those years...
等着她回来找你。 waiting for her to come back for you.
（声音中断）我一直以为她也会回来找我。 [voice breaking] I always thought she'd come back for me too.
(哭泣) [sobs]
他不会不辞而别的。 He wouldn't leave without saying goodbye.
他做到了。 He did.
(叹息) [sighs]
你做了什么？ What did you do?
-我什么都没做。确实不错。你什么都没做。 -I didn't do shit. -Exactly. You didn't do shit.
你本可以帮他找份新工作什么的。 You could have helped him find a new job or something.
但你选择不去-我没有那种能力。 -But you chose not to. -I don't have that kind of power.
哦,胡说! Oh, bullshit!
-我打赌这让你很开心。- ? -I bet this makes you so happy. -Happy?
我是你哥哥。 I'm your brother.
在你生命中的大部分时间里，我都是你的父亲。 For most of your life I've been your dad.
如果你要生某人的气， If you're going to be mad at someone,
生他的气。 be mad at him.
是他起身离开的。 He's the one that up and left.
再一次。 Again.
塞萨尔。国际消费电子展上, Cesar. Ces--
(普通员工) [grunts]
(塞萨尔喘气) [Cesar panting]
蒙斯是对的。 Monse was right.
你被诅咒了。 You are cursed.
发生在我身上的一切坏事都是因为你。 Everything bad that has happened to me is because of you.
我必须离开。 I had to get out.
一切都开始让我感到幽闭恐怖…… Everything was just starting to feel claustrophobic...
就像我不能呼吸一样。 like I can't breathe.
这是失去的痛苦。 It's the pain of loss.
你无法摆脱糟糕的感觉。 You can't shake feeling shitty.
但这很正常。 But it's normal.
感觉很糟糕 And feeling bad
是正常的。 is normal.
但这就是问题所在。 But that's the thing.
我不觉得难受。 I don't feel bad.
或者悲伤或者糟糕。 Or sad or shitty.
我松了一口气。 I feel relieved.
我很高兴她走了。 I'm glad she's gone.
她不能再让我失望了。 She can't disappoint me anymore.
现在我无法怀疑她是否爱过我。 Now I can't wonder whether or not she loved me.
或者如果她读了我的信。 Or if she read my letter.
或者她是否会给我回信。 Or if she'll write me back.
或者给我留个我连听都没听的语音信箱。 Or leave me a voicemail that I didn't even listen to.
我删了她最后留的一条，我根本不在乎。 I deleted the last one she left and I don't even care.
我不在乎我不知道她对我说的最后一句话。 I don't care that I don't know the last thing that she said to me.
没关系。 That's okay.
没关系。 It's okay.
是吗? Is it?
可以吗？ Is it okay?
因为我担心发生在我身上的那些破事 'Cause I'm worried that all the shit that keeps happening to me...
我们…… to us...
我担心它开始无法穿透， I'm worried that it's starting not to penetrate,
或者不让我有任何感觉。 or not make me feel anything.
如果我对痛苦和失去完全不敏感呢？ What if I'm totally desensitized to pain and loss?
如果我变成了那些对生活麻木的人怎么办？ What if I become one of those people that are numb to life?
我不想成为那样的人，露比。 I don't want to be that person, Ruby.
我知道那种感觉。 I know that feeling.
我也有同感。 I feel that too.
但这些感觉都会过去。 But these feelings pass.
你怎么知道的？ How do you know?
因为… Because...
如果你没有感觉，你就在质疑 you questioning if you're not feeling
说明你还有感觉。 means you're still feeling something.
(喘息) [gasps]
(叹息) [sighs]
你从我的窗户往外偷看干什么？ What are you doing peeping through my window?
就像你从没偷看过我的一样？ Like you never peeped through mine?
门。 Door.
有什么事吗？ So what's up?
对不起，我吻了你。 I'm sorry I kissed you.
我不是故意让你不舒服的。 I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.
-好的。-只是… -Okay. -It's just that...
最近…… lately...
唯一让我觉得舒服的事… the only thing that makes me comfortable...
是你自己。 is you.
完全正确。 Exactly.
-这意味着它们不是真实的感觉。-但我觉得它们很真实。 -That means they're not real feelings. -But they feel real to me.
因为你担心未知，而我代表已知。 'Cause you're worried about the unknown, and I represent the known.
为什么这是件坏事呢？ So why is that a bad thing?
因为你只告诉我你的感受 Because you only tell me about your feelings
当你全身心投入的时候。 when you are all up in them.
你很害怕，很脆弱，而我代表着安全和拐杖。 You're scared and vulnerable, and I represent security and a crutch.
但拐杖是你需要的东西，而不是你想要的东西， But a crutch is something that you need, not something that you want,
我想和一个愿意一直和我在一起的人在一起， and I want to be with somebody who wants to be with me at all times,
不仅仅是在他们感到害怕的时候。 not just when they're feeling afraid.
我是你一生的挚爱 I'm a whole life's love, boo,
不只是某人八分之一人生危机的一部分。 not just part of someone's one-eighth life crisis.
但是… But...
-这些感觉，可能是真的。-[茉莉]可能吧。 -These feelings, they might be real. -[Jasmine] Might be.
如果你不知道…他们不是。 If you don't know... they're not.
晚安，各位。 Good night.
♬这东西值得保存吗？♪我> < / ♪ Is this something worth saving? ♪
>我似乎无法衡量它 ♪ I just can't seem to gauge it ♪
♬我的—— ♪ There's so much on my-- ♪
>要下来了 ♪ Gonna get down ♪
♬我想感受你…♪我> < / ♪ I'd like to feel you... ♪
他看到了 人们的才能和潜力 [Rosé] He sees people's talent and potential
，并帮助他们达到他们的命运。 and helps them reach their destiny.
♬我要和你在一起♬ ♪ I've got to get with you ♪
>我们都陷入了心情中 ♪ We're all caught up in the mood ♪
♪ It's when the beat is on the street ♪
- -[音乐停止] -♪ Don't you know-- ♪ -[music stops]
>坐在教室里，我的肚子开始- ♪ Sitting in class and my tummy starts-- ♪
<我>♪……总的 必须去买它，这样你就可以吃♬ ♪ ...At large Gotta go buy it so you can eat ♪
♪ Gotta have nourishment-- ♪
♬杰克要灵活，杰克要快 杰克跳过——♬ ♪ Jack be nimble, Jack be quick Jack jump over the-- ♪
♬杰克和吉尔上山了 因为——♬ ♪ So Jack and Jill went up the hill Because-- ♪
(倒带尖叫) [rewind screech]
♬杰克跳过烛台——♬ ♪ Jack jump over the candlestick-- ♪
<我>♪……羊肉 但她不能吃它♬ ♪ ...Lamb But she couldn't eat it ♪
♬这是她的宠物，是的——♬ ♪ It was her pet, yeah-- ♪
-(倒带尖叫)<我>♪裂纹,裂纹,嗯——♪ -[rewind screech] -♪ Crack, crack, uh-huh-- ♪
[播放悬疑音乐] [suspenseful music playing]
我找到他了。 I found him.
我找到小里基了。 I found Lil' Ricky.
♬我要发光，我要发光♬ ♪ I'mma shine, I'mma shine ♪
如果你在夜间处理它 ♪ If you deal it in the nighttime ♪
♬我要发光，我要发光♬ ♪ I'mma shine, I'mma shine ♪
>从来没有见过像我一样的人 ♪ Never seen another like mine ♪
♬像钻石戒指一样闪亮♬ ♪ Shining like a diamond ring ♪
♬这些婊子都在我身上 ♪ I got these bitches all on me ♪
♬是啊♬ ♪ Yeah ♪
♬我感觉自己像个岛 在开阔的大海里 ♪ I'm feeling like an island In the open sea ♪
♬Trippin' 我周围都是水 ♪ Trippin' Got this water all around me ♪
我可以看到云来了♬ ♪ I can see the clouds coming in ♪
>他们试图再次阻挡我的光芒 ♪ They tryin' to block my shine again ♪
♬我像风一样吹走它们 ♪ I blow 'em off like the wind ♪
♬我要发光，我要发光♬ ♪ I'mma shine, I'mma shine ♪
如果你在夜间处理它 ♪ If you deal it in the nighttime ♪
♬我要发光，我要发光♬ ♪ I'mma shine, I'mma shine ♪
>从来没有见过像我一样的人 ♪ Never seen another like mine ♪
♬我要发光，我要发光♬ ♪ I'mma shine, I'mma shine ♪
♬我让所有恨我的人都瞎了眼♬ ♪ I make all my haters go blind ♪
♬我要发光，我要发光♬ ♪ I'mma shine, I'mma shine ♪
>从来没有见过像我一样的人 ♪ Never seen another like mine ♪