To be continued? 还没结束
Is Finn at home?He's gone to Leeds, Rae. -Finn在家吗 -他离开去Leeds了 Rae
Fag? You're sitting there with your thumb up your arse -同志 -当别人侮辱取笑我的时候
while they take the piss out of me. -你就只是袖手旁观
I kind of owe you 16 birthday presents. 我欠你16个生日礼物
So Izzy told him about the kiss? No.She just broke up with him. -Izzy告诉他亲亲的事情了 -没有 她跟他分手了
You shut your mouth please. 请你闭上你的嘴
You're supposed to be my best mate and you don't give a shit! 你是我最好的朋友 可你却不管不顾
I'm not your mum! Stay away from me. -我不是你妈妈 -离我远点
How long has she been gone?Two days. -她出走几天了 -两天了
'Dear Diary. people have in their heads a vision 亲爱的日记 人们会在脑海里想象
'of what the first time would be like. 第一次做的时候会是什么样的
'And mine nearly came true. 我的第一次马上就要实现了
'It nearly came true twice. 就要第二次实现了
'But I've said it before. 但是我曾经说过
'It's not like it is in the movies. 它并不像是在电影里那样美好
'Movies aren't real.They're just stories.' 电影并不真实 电影都只是故事
Mia? Mia
Mia! Mia
Morning. Hiya. -早上好 -嗨
Liam, wake up,you lazy little shit. Jesus. -Liam 起床了你个小懒蛋 -天呢
Don't Jesus me. Listen, Remember to ring the sparky. OK. -别跟我喊天哪 听着记得给sparky打电话 -好的
For your Nana.Whatever. Lazy bugger. -为了你的女神 -随便 -懒虫
Can I use your bathroom before I leave? Yeah, go for it. -我走之前能在你这洗个澡吗 -可以去洗吧
Did you sleep with your clothes on?Yes. Me too. -你是穿着衣服睡觉的吗 -是 -我也是
It's pretty cool we're as fucked up as each other. 我们彼此一样乱搞真是太酷了
Did you enjoy last night? 你昨晚还尽兴吗
I know it was your, er, first time. 我知道这是你的 初夜
Totally loved it. Perfect. 非常喜欢 完美
'Do you ever wish you could look back 你有没有曾希望能回顾以前
'and see the exact moment your life started to fall to pieces? 看到你生命从哪一刻开始碎成一片片的
'The beginning of the end. 结局的开始
'Oh, you have to be kidding!' 噢 你一定是在逗我
What do you think you're doing? 你觉得你在干什么
I've got one place on Earth that I can go and chill out. 我已经在地球上找到了另一个安身之处
One place that is not filled with your staff or Karim's stuff 那个地方没有被你的东西或Karim的东西塞满
or the baby's stuff.And you've taken that away from me. 还有宝宝的东西 你已经逼我离开了
I am not sharing my room with your baby. 我不要跟你的宝宝分享我的房间
We are redecorating so I had to move your stuff. Yeah, I can see that. -我们在重新粉刷房间所以我不得不把你的东西挪走 -嗯 我能看出来
I found this. 我找到了这个
So? It's from your dad. -怎样 -这是你爸爸的
Isn't it? 是吗
You gave me his address,what did you expect? 你给我了他的地址 你觉得会发生什么
I just don't know what you could possibly want from him, 我只是不知道你想从他那儿得到什么
what he could bring to your life.He's interested in me. -他能给你的生活带来什么 -他对我感兴趣
He buys me amazing presents. 他给我买很多礼物
But best of all, he doesn't talk about babies all the time. 但是最好的是 他不会一直把宝宝挂在嘴边
Do you know what? I wish that... 你知道吗 我希望
Don't say it. Don't you dare say it. 别说出来 你敢说出来
Why did you have to get pregnant? 你为什么要怀孕
You've already messed up one kid's life. Why do it to another? 你已经搞砸了一个孩子的生活 为什么还要搞乱另一个
Just tell me one thing. 告诉我一件事
Do you care at all about this baby? 你有一点关心这个宝宝吗
No. 没有
What? 干什么
What, are you going to slap me again? 你想要再扇我一巴掌吗
'All I'd wanted for months 几个月来我想要的就是
'was to fit into college, to have a normal life. 适应大学生活 有一个正常的生活
'I was no longer just a big girl in first year. 我不再只是大一那个胖女孩
'I was the girl who had the panic attack on stage. 我是一个在舞台上会恐慌的女孩
'I was the crazy girl.' 我是个疯狂的女孩
So? I thought you was mental when you set the alarm off. 当你触发警报的时候我以为你精神不正常
Freaking out on stage takes it to a different level. 吓坏在舞台上的时候到了一个不用的水平
Everyone thinks you're a psycho,you know? 每个人都认为你是精神病 你知道吗
You are not the only one everyone's talking about, though, 尽管你不是人们谈论的唯一一个人
Where is that slag you call a best mate? 你最好的朋友 那个渣渣在哪呢
You can say whatever you want about me, 你怎么说我都可以
but do you ever say anything about Chloe. Ever. 但是你不能说Chloe 不许说
You better get off her. Little bitch. Are we clear? Rachel! -你最好放开她 -小贱人 -我说清楚了没 -Rachel
Do you want to tell me what's going on? I give you a warning. 你能告诉我发生什么了吗 我给你个警告
I give you a final warning. There is no final final morning, Rae. 我给你最后一次警告 没有下次了 Rae
Well, you don't have to kick me out. 你没必要把我赶走
I can't do it. I'm leaving. 我适应不了 我要走了
I'm not going to let you do that. 我没有让你走
Why? You just said you were going to kick me out. 为什么 你刚刚说你要赶我走
Rae, you are one of the cleverest students in this entire college. Rae 你是整个学校里最聪明的学生之一
Don't throw that all away because of a bunch of bullies and knobheads. 别因为一伙小混混就放弃所有
We'll fix it. 我们会管理的
Haven't you heard? I'm crazy. 你还没听说吗 我是个疯子
And no-one can fix that. 没人能把我治好
Thanks for all the chances you've given me. 非常感谢你给我的所有机会
And I'm so sorry if I let you down. 如果我让你失望了 我真的很抱歉
'That's the thing about Rae Earl,she will let you down. 这就是Rae Earl的故事 她会让你失望的
'Everything she comes into contact with will fall apart. 跟她有关系的每件事都会土崩瓦解
'Touched by the darkness of her disease. 被她疾病的黑暗面所打败
Her bright future. Her gang of friends. Her family. 她美好的未来 她的一帮朋友 她的家庭
'Even her best friend. 甚至她最好的朋友
'Maybe I keep finding myself on my own because no-one wants me around. 也许我应该自己发掘自我 因为大家嫌弃我
'Maybe it's because they know I'm mental.' 也许是因为他们知道我精神不正常
All right, everyone? 大家好吗
I just wanted to start by saying that Danny is about to go home. 首先我想告诉大家Danny就要回家了
Thanks, everyone. 谢谢大家
I thought I'd be a bit more excited about today. 我以为我今天会更加激动一些
I-I can't remember what it's like,as such, outside. 我已经不记得外面是什么样的了
I'm just a bit afraid of fitting in. 我有点害怕去适应外面的生活
Of people thinking that I'm weird. 适应人们觉得我是个怪人
I can be myself in here and that's fine. 我自己在这可以很好生活
Because there's people who like the weird bits of me. 因为这里人们都像我一样有点古怪
And there's people who can hold me together when... 并且这些人们都会陪伴我一起
..when everything else falls apart. 当事情面临崩溃的时候
What's the matter with you? You're normally the first one out the door. 你怎么了 你通常都是第一个离开的
I've decided to come back into hospital. 我决定要回来医院
Please let me come back. You can't just decide to come back to hospital. -请让我回来 -你不能想回来就回来
Danny is leaving.So there's a room free. Danny走了 所以有我的地儿
That's not how it works, it's not a hotel, it's a hospital. But I'm sick. -不是能不能行得通的问题 这不是宾馆 这是医院 -但是我病了
But not by the standards of this hospital, you're not. 但你不符合住进这家医院的标准
The people who come and stay here 人们住在这里
are either a danger to themselves or to others. 因为他们会伤害自己或伤害别人
You're neither of those things. 这两点你不都不是
You've stopped hurting yourself. 你已经不会再伤害自己了
You haven't hurt yourself for months. 你已经几个月没有伤害自己了
What's happened? No, I don't want to talk about it with you. -发生什么了 -不 我不想跟你说这些
Therapy, it doesn't work. 治疗 不管用
I've been coming to you for six months and nothing's changed. 我已经参加六个月治疗了 却什么都没有改变
In my professional opinion,I think you're wrong. 在我从专业的角度来看 我认为你错了
If nothing had changed,you'd still be hurting yourself. 如果什么都没有改变 你还会持续伤害自己的
People who are broken, they don't want you to be professional. 脆弱的人不希望你是专业的
They just want you to be real. 他们只希望你是真实的
'Dear Diary. Is this how it works? 亲爱的日记 是不是这样就管用了
'Aren't you allowed back into hospital 他们不会同意你回到医院
'unless you do something extreme? 除非你做些极端的事情
'Do you have to show you're broken on the inside 是不是必须通过伤害自己的身体
'by breaking yourself on the outside?' 才能证明内心受到了伤害
'How's it going? I wanted to write you a letter to say hi. 最近还好吗 我想给你写信问个好
'And also to say sorry about leaving like I did. I miss you already. 也想为我的不辞而别说声抱歉 我已经开始想你了
'You are world-class. I mean that. 你是最棒的 我是说真的
'Our group of friends was nothing until you sprayed Rae all over it. 我们的朋友圈本来什么都不是 直到你的加入
'Look after them all. You're the one they always look to. 照顾好他们 他们都一直在关注着你
'You're the glue. 你就是黏合剂
'So no pressure. Laters. Finn. 所以别有压力 再联系 Finn
Ps 'Don't let Chop do his running elephant joke any more. 还有 别再让Chop讲那个奔跑的大象的笑话了
'It's not as funny as he thinks it is.' 那并不是像他认为的那样有趣
'What was the point in ringing Finn? He was gone now. 打给Finn有什么意义 他已经不离开了
'What would I even say? What if he was right, though? 甚至我该说些什么呢 即使他说的都对又该怎么样
'What if I was the glue? 如果我是黏合剂又能怎样
'What if, because I'm the one that broke at all, 即使是又能怎么样 因为是我把事情搞砸
'I'm the one that can fix it? 我就能把它修好吗
'The problem is that when everything is in a million little pieces, 问题是当所有事都碎成无数片的时候
'it's hard to know what to try and fix first. 很难知道从哪里开始尝试修复
'I guess I had to begin with the hardest thing of all.' 我猜我得从最难办的事情开始
Hi, Mr Gemell. 嗨Gemell先生
Is it all right if I speak to Chloe?I need to apologise to her. 我想跟Chloe谈谈可以吗 我需要跟他道歉
Chloe's not here,she's still missing. She's not back? -Chloe不在 她还在失踪 -她还没回来
We don't know what to do. 我们不知道该做什么
We've talked to the police. 我们已经报警了
She's never been missing for this long, 她从没消失过这么久
so they've finally taken seriously. 所以他们终于认真对待了
They're going to want to talk to you and your friends at some point. 他们想找你和你的朋友们谈谈了
We've talked to this Ian person.Yeah. -我们已经找过这个叫Ian的人了 -嗯
But he said he doesn't know where she is. Nobody knows where she is. 但他说不知道Chloe在哪 没人知道她在哪
This is Chloe's diary.I don't know if it will help. 这是Chloe的日记 不知道是不是能帮上忙
I took it the other day.Why did you take it? -在几天前我把它带走了 -你为什么拿走它
I don't know. 我不知道
I wanted to find out why she'd been behaving the way she had. 我想知道为什么她会变成那样
I wasn't thinking. 我没想那么多
I'm too wrapped up in my own stuff. 我也陷进在自己的麻烦事情里
I haven't been a very good friend to her. 我没能成为她一个很好的朋友
Neither have I. 我也没有
'There was no way that Ian didn't know where Chloe was. Ian不知道Chloe在哪 这不可能
'No way! 不可能
'There was also no way I was going to his house on my own. 而我也不可能独自去他家
'I needed backup. 我需要后援
'I needed to take one of the other fixes off my list first. 我需要先把清单上的另一件事搞定
'But the problem was,Archie was mad at Chop 但问题是 Archie在生Chop的气
for not standing up for him in front of Simmy and Macca. 因为没有在Simmy和Macca面前为他挺身而出
Izzy was mad at Archie for telling Chop she'd kissed Peter. Izzy在生Archie的气 因为他告诉Chop她亲了Peter
And Chop was mad at Izzy because she dumped him Chop生Izzy的气因为她甩了他
and now they all refused to be in the same room together. 而现在他们都拒绝聚在一起了
It's the perfect storm. 暴风雨就要来了
Well, the perfect shit storm. 好吧 完美的暴风雨
Hi, muggins. 嗨 小傻瓜
-Is it true? -What? -是真的么 -什么
-That you've left college? -Yes. -你要离开学校 -是的
You can't, I won't let you. 你不能走 我不允许
I've put up with too much whingeing from you to let it happen. 为了防止这件事发生 我已经为你忍受很多怨气了
-Listen, that's not why I asked you here. -Well, why did you? -听着 这不是我叫你来的原因 -好吧 那是为什么
Rae! Rae
-Look, just listen to me for a second, please. -What's going on? 听着 就听我说几句 拜托 -发生什么了
-What's he doing here? -Er... -What's he doing here? -他怎么在这 -额... -他怎么在这
What's she doing here? 她怎么在这
Oh, bollocks! 哦 完蛋了
It would be easier gluing dog shit to the wind. 把狗屎黏在风中都比这容易
Well, at least I got them in one place. Maybe it wasn't a lost cause. 好吧 至少我把他们聚到一起了 或许这不是徒劳的
And if I can fix the gang,maybe I can fix everything else. 而且如果我能修复大家的关系 我就能把一切都弥补回来
-This is your fault, Iz. -What is? -Clo going missing. -这是你的错 Iz -什么是我的错 -Clo失踪
-How is it my fault? -Don't take a genius to work it out, does it? -这怎么是我的错了 -这不难懂 不是吗
You cheating on me,that made things awkward. 你背叛了我 这让事情变得尴尬起来
If you hadn't have done that, me and you would still be together, 如果你没做那事 我和你就还在一起
the gang would still be together 朋友们也都在一起
and we would have seen that Chloe was in the shit. 我们就还看得到Chloe
But I didn't even want to kiss him! 但我甚至都不想亲他
I didn't fancy him.It was a mistake. 我不喜欢他 那是个错误
Well, why did you kiss him then? 那你为什么亲了他呢
See. You still can't tell me. 看吧 你还是不能告诉我
Yeah, but it isn't my fault. 是 但这不是我的错
If Archie hadn't told you about me and Peter... 如果Archie没有告诉你我和Peter...
Whoa, whoa, whoa! 哇哇哇
I didn't make you kiss the guy,did I? 我可没有让你去亲那个家伙 不是吗
If it's anyone's fault it's Chop's. 如果是谁有错的话 是Chop的错
-What? -Because I tell you for free whose fault it isn't. Uncle Archie's. -什么 -因为我来免费告诉你谁没有错 Archie叔没错
-Archie, I told you to stop calling yourself that. -How can it be mine? -Archie 我跟你说了不要那样称呼自己 -怎么可能是我的错
-You're all making it seem like me,the one who's done... -Guys, guys! -你一直都搞得好像是我的错一样 做错事的人是... -伙计们 伙计们
Stop it. Please, just stop 别这样 拜托 别吵了
It's everyone's fault. 每个人都有错
-Mainly Izzy's. -I beg your pardon? -主要是Izzy -你再说一遍
You know what, Chop,I'll tell you why I kissed Peter. 你知道么 Chop 我来告诉你为什么我亲了Peter
Because I was upset and disappointed with you for what you did to Archie. 因为我为你对Archie的所作所为感到很失望
You let them boys kick him off the football team and call him 你让那些男生把他踢出足球队
-horrible names and be mean to him. -Yeah? What those boys done. -还用难听的词语称呼他 对他很刻薄 -是吗 是那些男生做的
-I didn't do it. -Yeah, you didn't DO anything. -我没有那样做 -是的 你确实什么都没做
Bad shit happens when good people do nothing. 好人袖手旁观 烂事就发生了
-This is some fresh bullshit.Let me out of the car. -What? -这真是些屁话 让我下车 -什么
Let me out the car! 让我下车
Stop it! Guys, stop it! 别吵了 同志们 别吵了
Maybe I couldn't fix the gang. 或许我不能修复朋友们的关系了
Maybe they were broken forever. 或许他们永远决裂了
But so long as there was a shot at helping Chloe, I had to take it. 但只要还有机会帮Chloe 我就要去做
Even if it was on my own. 哪怕只能靠我一个人
-What do you want? -Is Chloe here? -你想干嘛 -Chloe在这吗
No. 不在
-Can I use your toilet? -No, you can't. -我能借用下厕所么 -不 你不能
Don't be a dickhead,I know where it is. 别像个白痴 我知道厕所在哪
I was always surprised why Chloe was friends with you. 我以前总是很诧异为什么Chloe和你做朋友
-She's beautiful, you're minging. -OK... -她长得漂亮 你这么糟 -行了
I just want to see my best mate,please. 我只是想见我最好的朋友 拜托了
We only let you hang out with us 我们让你和我们一起出来玩
because Chloe told us you were funny and clever. 只是因为Chloe告诉我们你风趣聪明
That's what they always say about fat girls, isn't it? 人们经常是这么形容胖女生的 不是吗
Got great personality. You haven't. 胖子有好个性 你没有
Chloe? Chloe
Have you ever stopped to think why Chloe hasn't been in touch? 你有没有停下来想过为什么Chloe不和你联系
Because she doesn't want you around her. No-one wants you around... 因为她不想让你在她身边 没人想让你在身边
No-one wants you around... 没人想让你在身边
No-one wants you around. 没人想让你在身边
Go on, then. Fuck off. 继续啊 怎么 滚吧
Ian was right. Ian是对的
No one wants me around here because I don't fix things, 没人想让我在身边 因为我只能破坏
I only break them.But I know a place where they do. 我不能治愈 但是我知道一个他们想让我在的地方
Where people understand me.Like Tix understood me. 那里的人们懂我 就像Tix懂我
And I know how to make them take me back. 而且我知道怎么让他们把我带回去
Just a little cut. 只需要一点小割伤
Not like last time. 不用像上次
Just a few little cuts. 只要轻轻割几下
Mum? 妈
Mum! 妈妈
Mum? Oh, no! 妈？ 哦不！
Rae, it's the baby. Rae 要生了
-I need you to help me, darling. -No. -我需要你帮我 亲爱的 -不
-No, mum, I'm not strong enough,I can't. -You can, darling. -不 妈妈 我不够坚强 我做不到 -你可以的 亲爱的
Everything is going to be fine. 一切都会好起来的
I promise. 我保证
-Now go and get me some towels. -OK, OK. -现在去给我拿些毛巾 -好的好的
Good girl. Ring me an ambulance. 好孩子 给我叫救护车
OK, please. 好吗 拜托了
OK, OK! 好 好的
Doctor, I've got the notes you needed before... 医生 我拿到你之前要的记录了...
I'm sorry, you can't come any further. 抱歉 你不能再进来了
They haven't said anything. 还没什么消息
You go for sleep, yes? 你去睡觉 好吗
I ring. If they say, I ring. Cool. 我打电话 如果他们说什么了 我打电话 可否
'Look after them all. 照顾他们所有人
'You're the one they always look to,you're the glue, so no pressure. 你就是那个他们总是仰仗的人 你是复原剂 所以别有压力
'Laters, Finn.' 再会 Finn
There are times when I can't stop speaking, when a million words 有时候我不停地讲话
leave my mouth in a matter of seconds, 无数词语秒速脱口而出
a million words that mean nothing. 无数个毫无意义的词汇
Hello? 你好
But when I want to find some words that mean everything, 但当我试着说些有意义的话时
I just can't speak. 我就哑口无言了
Like "I miss you," like "I love you," 像“我想你”“我爱你”
like, "My world is falling apart and I need you by my side." 像“我的世界崩塌了而我需要你在我身边”
Hello? 你好
'Good morning, Rae. It's Kester.I just wanted to ring 早上好 Rae 我是Kester 我打电话过来
'to say I would love you to come in today for a session.' 是想让你今天过来参加治疗
Yeah. 好的
You must be tired. 你一定很累
Yeah. Well, I didn't want to go to sleep in case the hospital rang. 恩 以防医院打电话来 我不想去睡觉
I wanted to apologise for losing my temper with Liam the other day 我想为那天我对Liam发脾气而道歉
and for not setting a good example,boundaries-wise. 还有没有为界限理论树立一个好榜样
I shouldn't have come round to your house. 我不应该去你的房子的
I was angry because I was embarrassed about it. 我当时很生气 因为它让我感到很丢脸
Yeah, well, I shouldn't have lost my temper. 好吧 我不应该发脾气的
I only did it because I care about you, about all of you. 我那么做是因为我关心你 关心你的一切
I guess from now on we'll just establish the boundaries as we go. 我猜从现在开始我们就按照我们的方式来划分界限吧
I'm a horrible person, Kester. 我是个可怕的人 Kester
Why would you say that? 你为什么要这么说
My mum asked me if I cared about the new baby. 我妈妈问我是否在乎这个新来的宝宝
And I said no. 我说不在乎
And the frightening thing is... 而可怕的是
is that I meant it. 我当时真的这么认为
I don't care. 我不在乎
Everywhere I go I seem to break things. 我到哪都会把事情搞砸
And the more I try to fix them, the more I make it worse. 我越是想弥补 越是把情况弄得更糟
It's not just my mum,it's my friends, it's Chloe. 不只是和我妈妈 还有我的朋友们 还有Chloe
Because you can't fix other people until you've fixed yourself. 你挽救了自己 才能去挽救别人
But I can't be fixed.Because I'm crazy. 但我已经无可救药了 因为我是个疯子
You're not crazy. 你不是疯子
If you want to be a nicer person to other people, 如果你想成为一个对别人来说更好的人
that's where it starts. 要从这里开始
I've tried being nice to myself. 我尝试过对自己好
Have you? 你尝试过吗
Because you've just been telling me what a horrible person you are. 你一直都在告诉我你是个多么糟糕的人
You're just using whatever's happening with Chloe 你不过是在利用和你妈妈或Chloe之间
or your mum as another reason to hate yourself. 发生的事情作为另一个讨厌你自己的理由
Every session, you say that I need to love myself, 每次治疗你都说我必须要爱自己
I need to start liking myself more. For months now. 我要学会开始更爱自己 几个月了
You're like a broken record. 你就像个坏掉的录音带
But you never tell me how to start or when to start or where to start. 但你从没有告诉我怎么开始 什么时候开始 从哪开始
All right, we'll start now then. 好 那我们从现在开始吧
Not tonight, not tomorrow, not after this cup of tea, 不是今晚 不是明天 不是喝完这杯茶后
we'll start right now. 我们现在就开始
Close your eyes. 闭上你的眼睛
Now I want you to tell me what you don't like about yourself 现在我想让你告诉我你不喜欢自己的哪一点
but be honest with me.Don't be clever, 诚实地说 不要耍聪明
don't be angry. Be honest. 不要闹情绪 坦诚些
I'm fat. 我很肥
And I'm ugly. 我长得不好看
And I ruin things. 还有我总是把事情搞砸
Try and find some sense of how long you've felt that way. 试着回忆一下 你是从什么时候开始有这种认知
I don't know. Since I was about nine or ten. 不记得了 大概九岁十岁的时候
So this is an opinion you formed a long time ago about yourself. 这是这么长时间以来你对自己的看法
Open your eyes. 睁开眼睛
I want you to imagine a ten-year-old version of yourself 你想象一下十岁的自己
sitting right there on this coach. 坐在这张沙发上
Now this is the little girl who first believed that she was fat 这个小女孩第一次意识到自己又肥又丑
and ugly and an embarrassment. 还总是做蠢事
I want you to imagine her sitting there right now. 我要你想象她就坐在那
-Now tell that little girl she's fat. -I'm not going to do that. -告诉这个小女孩她很肥 -我不要
-Tell that little girl she's ugly. -I don't want to. -告诉这个小女孩她很丑 -不要
Tell that little girl she's an embarrassment and worthless 告诉那个小女孩她总是做蠢事 什么都做不好
and useless. 一无是处
Because that's what you do every single day 这件事你每天都做
when you say that to yourself. 你每天都这样告诉自己
When you convince yourself that you're an embarrassment 你说服自己 你是个一无是处的蠢货
and a burden. Well, don't you think she's ugly? 一个社会负担 你觉得她丑吗
-No. -No? Or fat? -No. -不 -不 她很肥 -不
No? Or an embarrassment? Or horrible or worthless? 不 那她总是做蠢事 一无是处
Just stop it! No! 别说了 不是的
Right? No. 好么 不是的
What do you want to say to that little girl? 你想对那个小女孩说什么
If she said to you that's how she felt about herself, 如果她告诉你她对自己的看法
what would you tell her? 你会怎么回答
That she's fine. 我会说她很好
That she's perfect. 她很完美
Then that's what you need to tell yourself. 这就是你要对自己说的
Every time you feel that panic, that anxiety... 每一次你感觉恐慌不安时
..you need to soothe yourself like you would soothe the little girl. 你就要像安抚她那样安抚自己
Yeah? 好吗
Yeah. 嗯
You need to tell yourself that everything's going to be OK. 你对自己说一切都会好的
If you commit to that, 如果你答应这样做
then I promise you you'll be able to face anything. 我保证你可以面对一切
And it starts right now. 从这一刻开始
Everything starts right now. 所有的一切都从现在开始
Do you ever wish you could look back 你是否也曾经期待过人生可以回放
and see the exact moment your life started to come together? 你可以清楚地看到从哪一刻开始你的人生回到正轨
The end of the beginning, 开端的终结
the moment you knew everything was about to change? 你意识到一切都将慢慢改变
-Is there any news? -She's out of danger. -有什么新情况吗 -她脱离危险了
Has she said anything? 她说什么了吗
-No, I mean your sister. -My sister? -没有 我说的是你妹妹 -我妹妹
Yeah. She's in intensive care. 嗯 她在重症监护室
Is she going to be OK? 她还好吗
We just need to wait and see what happens in the next few hours. 得看看接下来几个小时的情况
-What about my mum? -It's too early to say. -那我妈呢 -很难说
We're doing everything we can for her. 我们会尽力的
Thanks. 谢谢
That's all right. 别担心
I'm a sister. 我当姐姐了
I'm actually someone's big sister. 我真的当姐姐了
Nice. I think you'll make a pretty good big sister. 很好啊 我觉得你会是个称职的姐姐
Yeah? 真的
Yeah. 真的
You don't think I'll be annoying? 你不觉的我会很烦人
I didn't say that. 我可没这么说
Right. 好吧
If you need a lift here after college, then I can take you. 如果放学后要过来这边 我可以送你
I've got a lot of free time on my hands. 反正我时间多得是
I've decided that being a scaffolder in Leeds 在利兹市做架子工
wasn't exactly the dream I thought it'd be. 完全不是我想要的
Thanks, but... 谢了 但
It's all right. I'm not going to college any more. 我没去上学了
Why would you leave? 为什么不去
Everyone there knows that I'm crazy. You guys know me. You understand me. 所有人都知道我疯了 你们清楚我的为人 你们懂我
Not everyone's like that, Finn. 但不代表所有人都这样 Finn
Yet, but everyone's crazy. 但每个人都很疯狂
Everyone has to struggle and fight, they just haven't realised it yet. 每个人都在挣扎中奋斗 只是他们还没意识到
At least you have. 至少你意识到了
Once upon a time, in a disabled toilet far, far away... 很久很久以前 在一个很远很远的残障厕所里
..you asked me why I liked you. Remember? 你问过我喜欢你什么 记得吗
Yeah, I remember. 嗯 记得
It's because you're strong. 是因为你很强大
You just haven't realised it yet. 只是你还没意识到
Rachel, you can see your sister now, if you like. Rachel 现在你可以探望你妹妹了
I'm your big sister. 我是你姐姐
I'm going to look after you and love you and make sure you're all right. 我会疼你爱你护你周全
You're perfect. 你很完美
You are perfect. 这样完美
You can be strong. You can be strong. 你可以变得强大 你可以变得很强大
You CAN be strong. 你一定会变得很强大
What do you want? 你来干嘛
I want you to tell me where Chloe is. 我想你告诉我Chloe在哪
Why should I? 为什么告诉你
Because I want to know she's OK. 因为我想知道她是否一切安好
Why don't you just go away and stop bothering people? 你少烦人一下会死吗
Who's that? 谁来了
Visitor for you, mate. 找你的 伙计
What the fuck are you doing here? 你来这干嘛
She says she's looking for Chloe but I think she's come for you, lad. 她说她找Chloe 但我觉得她是来找你的 兄弟
Yeah, Chloe told me why you won't sleep with me. Chloe告诉我为什么你不跟我做
She said that you've got a problem with taking your clothes off and that. It doesn't surprise me. 她说你对脱衣服有障碍 我一点都吃惊
If I looked like you, I'd probably feel exactly the same. 如果我像你一样 我肯定也不愿脱
Weird, Chloe can't keep her clothes on but you can't take them off. 这奇怪 Chloe都穿不上衣服 你却不敢脱【【
It'd have been a pity fuck as well, you know? 我就是因为同情她才跟她搞
Like any fuck she'll ever have. Right? 谁不是呢
I was pissed. 我很不爽
'If I looked like you, I'd probably feel exactly the same.' 如果我像你一样 我肯定也不愿脱
You're perfect. You are perfect. 你很完美 你很完美
Everything is going to be OK. 一切都会好的
Listen, Rae... 听着 Rae
It's time you do one. 快走吧
No. 不
I'm looking for Chloe. Are you going to move or what? 我是来找Chloe的 给我让让【【
Chloe? Chloe
Oh, Chloe. Thank God. 噢 Chloe 谢谢老天
-What are you doing here, Rae? -I've come to take you home. -你来这干嘛 Rae -我来带你回家
-Everyone's really worried about you. -I'm fine. -大家都很担心你 -我没事
No-one's hurt me. 没有人伤害我
You shouldn't be going out with Ian, Clo. He's not a nice person. 你不应该跟Ian约会 Clo 他不是好人
Going out? 约会
We're not going out. We're fucking, 我们没有约会 我们在做爱
having fun, getting wasted. 沉浸在性爱与酒精中
And we can do that and still sleep with whoever we want 我们喜欢跟谁做就跟谁做
because we're adults. 因为我们已经成人了
I fooled around with Ben the other night, so what? 我那晚跟Ben乱搞了 那又怎样
You wouldn't get it because you're not a part of it. 你无法体会 因为你没有体验过
And I know what you're thinking. 我知道你在想什么
You think they're taking advantage of me. 你在想他们占了我便宜
But they aren't. 但其实没有
They like me. 他们喜欢我
You know, and I'm the one taking advantage. 我才是占便宜的那个
I'm the one with the power, me. 我才是主宰 是我
So what is it that you think they like about you, then, Clo? 你觉得他们喜欢你什么 Clo
-I didn't say like, I said want. -You said like. -我没有说喜欢 是说的是想要 -你说的是喜欢
Well, what's the difference? 有什么区别
Do you have any idea how good it feels when someone, 你知道能让别人对你
someone literally can't keep their hands off you 欲罢不能的感觉有多爽吗
and they grab you like they're crazy? 他们像疯子一样抓你
You think I'm a bad person, I can see that. 你觉得我是个坏女人 我知道的
No, I don't think that. 没有 我没有这么想
No, you think I'm a stupid slag! 你觉得我是个臭婊子
Well, so what?! 那又怎样
It's my body and I can do what I want with it. 身体是我的 我想怎样就怎样
-Do you understand that? -I do understand. -你懂吗 -我懂
Clo, I do, I do understand. I do. Clo 我懂 真的 我懂
Chloe, please let me get you out of here. Chloe 我带你走吧
-I'm scared. -I know. But it'll be all right. -我害怕 -我知道 但一切都会好的
OK, everything will be all right. I promise. 一切都会好的 我保证
-Here you go. -It's your favourite mug. -给 -这是你最喜欢的杯子
Is your mum going to be all right? 你妈没事吧
I don't know. 我不知道
-Can I get you anything else? -No. -还需要别的什么吗 -不用
Rae... I'm scared about telling my parents everything. Rae 我害怕跟我爸妈坦白一切
-I'm scared about Ian coming to find me. -Hey, don't be. -我害怕Ian会来找我 -嘿 别这样
OK, we'll sort it out. 这事会解决的
We'll sort everything out. 所有的一切都会解决的
Chloe... Chloe
I found your diary in your room. 我在你房间找到了你的日记
I read it. 我看了
I let you down. 我让你失望了
I'm so sorry that I let you down. 我很抱歉
So, you know about Finn? 这么说你也知道Finn的事
Yeah. 嗯
I didn't fall in love with him on purpose. 我不是故意喜欢上他的
I know... 我知道
I'm not meant for a Finn. 我不是在说Finn
-I'm meant for a Ian. -Oh,Chloe, of course you're not. -我说的是Ian -噢 Chloe 我当然知道你没有
You need to start being kinder to yourself. 你要开始对自己好一点
You need to... you need to soothe yourself. 你需要 你需要平静自我
Say, "OK, Rae." 说 好的 Rea
OK, Rae. 好的 Rea
"OK, Rae!" 好的 Rea
OK, Rae! 好的 Rea
God! 天
Oh, what's everyone in college saying? 噢 学校里的人怎么说
They are saying that you're a slut. 他们说你是荡妇
-Nice. And I'm mental... -oh. -好样的 而我是神经病 -噢
Do you know, I don't even care what they think of me. 你知道吗 我根本不在乎他们怎么看我
I just care what you think of me. 我只是在乎你怎么看我
Well, I think... that you're my best mate... 呃 我觉得 你是我最好的朋友
..and I think you're amazing! 还有我觉得你很棒
Stop it. 够了
Oh, baby! Oh, baby, you know it's OK, it's OK. 哦 宝贝 噢 宝贝 一切都没事了 没事了
Are you all right? 你还好吗
Mmmm, yeah, I'm stable... apparently. 嗯 还好 我稳定了 暂时来说
First time in my life anyone's ever said that about me. 人生中第一次有人这么对我说
Hey, I'm sorry we fell out. 嘿 很抱歉弄成这样
When I was lying there on the bathroom floor, I remember 当我躺在浴室地板上 我记得
thinking how bad it would be if... 我想着情况会有多糟 如果
Well, you know, if... the last thing we did was have an argument 你知道的 如果 那最后一件事就是我们大吵一架
and that was how you remembered us. 然后那就是我们最后的回忆
No, don't be stupid. 不 别说傻话
I was just angry about you seeing your dad. 我只是对你看你爸爸感到生气
I was selfish, it's just because I don't think he's a nice person. 我以前自私 是因为我觉得他不是一个好人
You should have the opportunity to form your own opinions. 你应该有机会去建立自己的观点
Mum, how did you know it was him 妈妈 你怎么知道是他
that gave me that record player? 给我那个唱片机
Oh, I don't know. 噢 我不知道
Mum? 妈
It's the same record player he gave me, 只是他也给了我同一款唱片机
for our anniversary, 20 years ago. 在我们纪念日的时候 20年前
I didn't want to tell you. 我不想告诉你
Why would he do that? 他为什么这么做
I honestly don't know. 我真的不知道
Maybe he just forgot. 或者他只是忘了
Anyway, I've got a favour to ask you. 不管怎样 我有件事要求你
I've not seen the baby yet. 我还没看过宝宝
Will you describe her to me. 你能给我说说她吗
Mum, she's so cute... her fingers and toes are like little Rice Krispies. 妈妈 她超级可爱 她的手指和脚趾像小Rice Krispies
She's the most beautiful baby in the whole world 她是全世界最可爱的宝宝
and she yawns like a little lion cub... 她打哈欠的时候像小狮子
There's a part in all of us that's scared and not sure. 我们所有人心里都有一部分是恐惧还有未知
And when you get the ability to see that in yourself, 当你可以正视内心的自我
you start to see that everyone is fighting, every day and just 你就可以看见每个人每天都在挣扎 还有就像
like Finn said, so,instead of saying, Finn说的 好吧 与其说
You're fat and you're ugly... 你很胖还很丑
I'm going to say, You are the person who helped your mum out, 我要说 你是帮助了你妈妈脱离困境
Who saved your best mate who lives with an illness but keeps on going. 还救了你最好的朋友 她一直深陷病况但是仍然坚持前行
Me... I did all that all that. 我 我做了这一切一切
That's not to say me 这不是说我
and Chloe weren't scared of going back to college, we were terrified. 和Chloe不怕回到学校 我们还是害怕
But we had to do it for each other. 但是我必须为了彼此这么做
Jesus! 苍天
Because there's nothing we couldn't face when we're together. 因为没有什么事是两个人一起不能面对的
I thought you were off getting your brains shagged out by every 我还以为你被全Stamford的男人操到
man in Stamford. 脑子都掉了
Don't Rae. 别 Rae
Oh... 哦
See you later Vicky. 待会见 Vicky
Listen, there something I've got to go and do, are you all right? 听着 我有件事要去做 你一个人可以吗
Yes, I'll be fine. Are you going? Yes... go! 嗯 我没事了 你要去 对 去吧
So, you've come out of hiding. 啊 你不再躲躲藏藏
So, how about tonight, then? 啊 今晚怎么样
Listen, Liam, I think we should just be friends. 听着 Liam 我觉得我们还是做朋友吧
I just don't think that we're good for each other. 我觉得我们两个不适合
Why? 为什么
I don't want to be fucked up any more. 我不想再搞砸这一切
I don't think that there's anything wrong with being fucked up. 我不认为这一切搞砸了
Yeah, you say that... so, you don't think that people can change? 虽然你这么说 是你觉得人事不会变的
But I know that they can. 但是我知道他们会
Liam could stay the same and that's OK but I was changing now Liam可以呆在原处 这样可以 但是我现在就要改变
and that meant not turning up on my dad's doorstep. 那不是说要出现在我爸的门口
It meant, finally, writing him a letter that said, 意思是 我会写信给他说
It was nice to meet you and see you around. 很高兴见到你还有再见
Because the truth was that I already had a dad. 因为事实上我已经有爸爸了
Hang on, Mum, why are we going into your room? 等一下 妈妈 为什么我们要去你的房间
Well, that's the thing,it's not our any more. 这就是 这不是我们的房间了
It's your room. 是你的房间
What? 啥
No! Oh, my God! 不会吧 天啊
Do you like it? 喜欢吗
Yeah! Wait, where are you going to sleep? 当然 等等 你们要睡哪
Oh, we'll go in with the baby and 哦 我们要去陪小宝宝
when mini Boushtat needs her own space, 当小Boushtat需要她自己的空间时
we'll sort something out. Anyway,you'll be at uni then, won't you? 我们再想办法 现在你自由自在啦 对吗
Eh, eh, won't you? 呃 嗯 对吗
Yeah! Yeah! 是 是啊
Hang on... how did you two afford all this? 等等 你们俩怎么付得起这些
Well, why do you think Karim took a second job? 你以为Karim干嘛要做两份工
He's been working nights to make this whole house look nice, 他为了让这个价看起来很赞一直工作到很晚
haven't you Mr Lollypop. 对吗 棒棒糖先生
Stop! Cross. 够了 够了哦
Really? 真的吗
I like, it's not bad. 我喜欢 真的不赖
No. 不
Mum, thank you. Karim, thank you. 妈妈 谢谢 Karim 谢谢
Oh, baby. I don't know what to say. 噢 宝贝 我不知道该说啥
You didn't have to do all this for me. 你不必为了我做这一切
It's my job number three, job number three, 这是我的第三项工作 第三项
taking care of my three ladies. 照顾好我们三个女人
Yes? 好吗
I say wrong? Love, you said perfect! 我说错了吗 亲爱的 你说的太好了
Anyway, little Boushtat gets to come home next week, 好吧 小Boushtat下个礼拜就要回家了
so, say goodbye to sleep. 你就没得好好睡觉了
You all right with that? 你可以搞定吗
Mum, you joking? 妈妈 你开玩笑嘛
I can't wait! 我等不及了
Everything was slowly coming back together. 一切都在慢慢恢复正常
There was just one thing left to be fixed. 还有一件事要修补
So, what time's Finn getting here? 那Finn什么时候到
How should I know? 我怎么知道
Archie, I'm so sorry that I was mad at you. Archie 我很抱歉对你发火
Look, I know that you were angry at Chop and that's why you told him. 听着 我知道你对Chop很生气 所以你才这么说
I'm sorry too. 我也很抱歉
Awww! 噢
Oh, for... 噢
You all right, dudes? 你好吗 兄弟
How's it hanging... Archie,still a bummer? 那个怎么了 Archie还是孤零零一个吗
Just go away! 滚开吧
What, that was a legitimate question. 怎么了 这可是合法的问题
Are you still a bummer? 你还是孤零零一个
Stop! Everyone, stop what they're doing! 闭嘴 所有人都闭嘴
Why don't you tell the full pub what you've just asked Archie? 你怎么不告诉整个酒吧你刚刚问了Archie什么
What you on about, Chop, man? 你想怎么样 Chop 啊
-I'm being serious, pal! Tell the whole pub! -Piss off! -我是认真的 伙计 告诉全世界啊 -滚开
This motherfucker here is a top fella and I sat there 这个混蛋坐在这里是一级好人 而我坐在那里
and watched you two mugs take the piss out of him. 看着你两个人渣在这里惹他
-I'm sorry, lad. -Jesus, are you two going out or something? -我很抱歉 朋友们 -天啊 你们俩要约会了吗
If I see you in this pub again, 我要是再见到你在这里
I'll fucking debrief you! 我一定好好伺候你
Off you pop, lads. 还不滚 伙计
Bye! Bye! 掰掰
Chop, you didn't have to... Chop 你没必要
I love you, lad. 我爱你 朋友
I mean that. 我真心的
There he is. 来了来了
Hiya, Rae, all right? 嗨 Rae 好吗
Are you all right, Danny? 你还好吗 Danny
Yeah, thanks for inviting me. 嗯 谢谢你邀请我
I'm so excited and nervous. 我很兴奋也很紧张
I only wore one hat cos I don't want everybody to think 我只戴了一顶帽子免得大家觉得
I'm too mad or anything. 我太疯狂或者别的
And that was that, everything was back together again... well, 就是这样 一切都恢复正常了 至少
almost everything. 差不多所有事
Taking a bite out of a piece of bread was one thing 大口地吃面包是一件事
but getting naked was another. 裸露又是另一件事
And if I couldn't do it, 如果我做不到
then it wasn't fair to Finn to get involved with him again. 那对Finn来说再次跟他在一起是不公平的
Or to be around him. 或者不放手也是
How's it going? 怎么样了
Ups and downs, you know. 很混乱 你懂得
I just wondered if we could talk. 我就想问问我们能聊聊吗
You know, about you and me. -No, no,I don't think that's a good idea. 你知道 就你跟我 -不 不 我不认为这是好主意
I don't think talking's a good idea. 我觉得聊聊不是好主意
Dear Diary, that's the thing with diaries, they're like movies, 亲爱的日记 这就是日记的事 他们就像电影
they're just stories,filled with the things I saw 他们就像故事 都是我看到的
and the things I felt. 还有我感觉到的
But when I look around, 但是我看来看去
I see that everyone's the protagonist of their own story. 我看到所有人都是自己故事的主角
And the thing about stories is that not all of them have a happy ending. 关键是所有故事不是都能大团圆结局的
But some do. 有些是
This is much better than talking. 这比聊聊要好很很多很多啊
Yeah, well, when I say,To be continued, 是啊 当我说敬请期待
I mean, To be continued! 我意思是敬请期待